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Things which make carbs into bodyfat: 1) polyunsaturated and monounsaturated fats, 2) flax seed, 3) undereating, diets 4) high fat diet in long term, 5) soy, 6) very high protein diet, 7) low carb diet, 8) stress, 9) most herbs in higher quantities permanently used. 10) low potassium (lack of fruits, vegetables), 11) plastics (packaging and so on), 12) estrogen. I want to add that when carbs get converted to fat, people get also a light form of dementia. Proteins get converted into carbs and then into fat under above mentioned circumstances. Alcohol and other addictions rise from inability to use carbs or lack of carbs (alcohol has a lot of calories, every time you smoke, glucose gets released into blood etc). If the carbs do not get converted into fats or into energy, then you get diabetes and high blood sugar. If you dont eat at least 1 pound/0,5 kg carbs a day, your body might be eating in one month 2,2 pounds/ about 1 kg of your own flesh (proteins) and would turn those proteins into carb (Minesota starvation experiment). The body takes proteins from your heart, liver, skin, joints, muscles etc. and turns them into carb. Naturally those organs will get sick. Sources for every point above: point 1) youtube channel Fire in a bottle @fireinabottle3410, dr. Ray Peat, point 2) channel Strongsistas with Wendy Sellens, point 3) Minnesota starvation experiment, point 4) Georgi Dinkov, point 5) as point 2 and dr. Ray Peat, point 6) @healthcausesregeneration, channel Strongsistas, Georgi dinkov, Minessota starvation experiment, 7) as point 3, 4, point 8) Georgi Dinkov, Ray Peat, 9) channel Strongsistas with Wendy Sellens, 10) Ray Peat, asian diet, 11) and 12) as points 2, 4, Ray peat.
Je me souviens qu'il y a quelques années, après la mort de ma femme, je me suis retrouvé seul avec trois enfants. J'ai souffert d'une grave dépression et de troubles mentaux. Je suis devenu accro à l'alcool. Jusqu'à ce qu'un ami me recommande un traitement aux champignons psilocybines. Le traitement à la psilocybine a changé ma vie pour le mieux. Je peux dire avec fierté que je suis totalement clean depuis 6 ans et que je continue à compter. Je me tourne toujours vers la nature pour trouver une solution aux problèmes difficiles, les champignons sont phénoménaux.
I love hearing great life changing stories like this. I want to become a mycologist because honestly mushrooms are the best form of medicine (most especially the psychedelic ones) There are so many people today used magic mushrooms to ween off of SSRI medication- its amazing! Years back i wrote an entire essay about psychedelics. they saved you from death buddy, lets be honest here.
Hey mates! Can you help with the source? I suffer severe anxiety, panic and depression and I usually take prescription medicine, but they don't always help. Where can I find those psilocybin mushrooms? I'm really interested in treating my mental health without Rxs. I live in Australia don't know much about these. I'm so glad they helped you. I can't wait to get them too. Really need a reliable source 🙏
I am an alcoholic myself, I am 71 years old and most of my family and friends have died from it. In 1988 I got on the freeway by getting on the off ramp. I got into a head on crash at four in the morning. After all this I knew I was not put on earth to kill others with my disease so I decided to go to a rehab center. They rung me out and sent me to AA. I did that for quite awhile and got 14 years of no smoking or drinking. Since then it has been on and off. Finally I needed a sixth back surgery and the doctor would not operate until I got some sobriety. I checked into another rehab four three days, stayed sober for a week and then was operated on and set free. I have been sober for almost a year now and know that alcoholism will kill me, so luckily I have no intention of having another drink ever. Actually I am having way more fun than I ever had drinking. I am happy you shared your struggles and how your life has totally changed for the better. I am here to support you in your life's journey. I am responsible to help anyone who needs help, even if it's to give them a drink when they truly need one.
Hang in there friend. Today’s the only day you got to be sober right? Just taking it one day at a time seems to be my saving grace to sobriety 21 years now I also am 71.❤
I was a full blown alcoholic/addict which led to disasters….rolled a truck, got a DUI, lost jobs, multiple rehabs (some that were absolutely inhumane so I left). I also had a husband who wanted me to quit and would pour out my booze whenever he found it leaving me absolutely panicked at how I was going to get more. He hid the car keys and wouldn’t let me drive. When I did get out I hid the booze in my crotch inside my panties. My husband didnt understand addiction at all and didn’t drink. That led me to buying hand sanitizer and vanilla extract from Amazon to sustain my habit. Both were disgusting, and I ended up in detox and rehab again after another “incident” of some sort. This time it took. I don’t particularly like rehab. It’s pretty boring, but I came to the realization that I could never touch alcohol again. The thought of drinking hand sanitizer made me nauseous and embarrassed so I didn’t pick up again. Since then I’ve tried cannabis and felt the old addict vibe again. I’m now coming off a 3 week edible binge and won’t touch it again. I hate being an addict but it initially took me to good and mellow places….so, I’m clean from alcohol for 2 years. I’d love to say I love sobriety but I really don’t but it’s the only thing keeping me alive although I’m not sure that’s so great either sometimes, but I’m still here. It’s a battle everyday.
You achieved a huge thing...if you did this, you can do whatever you want in life!! Everything is easier than overcoming such an addiction! Don't forget that the worst day sober is better than the best day in addiction. Keep it up ❤
Nice to see someone say they dont like sobriety, but understand the importance. Because if everyone says being sober is this incredible experience and romanticizes it; people not experience that, may be disheartened and go back. It gets better over the years. But life can be tough, the emotions in difficult times are more intense. Not being dulled by addiction. All this being said, sobriety even if boring and sad at times, beats addiction 10/1 any day.
I find that if you're any sort of artist/creative, there's also a certain romanticism we attach to substance abuse. Just another long line of excuses we give to let ourselves know that we haven't got a problem. Like you said, "The Rock 'n' Roll lifestyle," or however you want to see it. I actually just arrived home from Thailand this morning after planning a 2-week street photography trip for months. I got some work done, but the trip definitely brought some demons out. I needed to see this today. Thanks, Ryan.
Well done lad coming through the end of this bad tunnel hats 🎩 off to you unfortunately Pattaya etc will suck the life out of you when it comes to drinking especially been a bar owner
Thank you for your honesty. I wondered if you had gotten sober from your Lost Everything post. I too am clean & sober, 24 years last January. Best thing I've ever done. Good on ya bud! Sobriety Rocks.
Thank You for you're honesty, you brought back some very strong feeling for me.. 39 years sober and clean September 23rd..! Life continues to get better, and through the roughest times since its made me a better man.. I'm always amazed at what life has brought me since..!
Wowza. That was an impressive walk you took us on. You said the old you died and, I have to say, you *look* so different to me. And, man, what a hottie Damo is. So pleased y'all have evolved together and found *grace* together, my brother.
Thanks for the share, brother! Yes, the old pals and parties fall away, they aren't on the same frequency anymore, it seems. I think you can touch people, when grace is ready, you're light shines. Do you have a specific sponsor or mentor on this leg of your journey?
Thank you Fred - really appreciate it and glad you got something from the share. My mentors are mostly dead, you know the ones 😊, but these days just listening to the inner guide. Hope you are well brother 🙏🙏
I never comment but I had to say this- a really generous and moving story. Thank you for sharing Ryan. Your words and kindness help me and warm my heart. Thank you
Thanks Ryan….long time viewer of both your channels……this hit a old raw nerve with me I too lost everything in my life kids wife and was an alcoholic……my life moved on long time ago I’m 52 and look forward to get back to Thailand soon I feel at peace in that country which first visited 30 years ago….life is a journey I’m happier than I’ve been in very long time…..peace too you ✌️
God bless you mate - thank you for this video. It rings true to me, and denial, or self-justification for a substance abuse, in any form, is addiction. It's a sickness and it's a lifelong problem. We all need to face our self imposed addictive habits. Until you do that, there will never be an escape, only excuses and ultimately, self destruction. Some people need to get to that point before they finally bow out and realise the issue is themselves, not those around them. Much love and thanks brother.
Thanks, you give me hope. My real hardcore addiction with alcohol started during the pandemic the most I can do is a few days off before going back, I’m getting flushes and itch face, red face it’s like I’m poisoning myself. The war in Ukraine hasn’t helped, I’m hopeful once my wife gets back from Ukraine I can really start to change and kick my habit. It’s always in my mind. I hide my bottles, I did take a massive trip DMT and had a crazy break through and poured my bottles down the sink but after 7 days that feeling left and I was back drinking. I work on a farm and on the 50 minute drive hone I’m always telling myself just go home but I always stop at the bottle shop near home even though I’m begging myself to just keep driving. I need help. I have always had a addictive streak, I grew up in a dope growing community and was smoking pot everyday when I was 12, I would smoke a joint before getting on the school bus, we lived in a isolated community it would take over 1hr to get to school. There was violence in my childhood and even though I feel it doesn’t affect me anymore, I’m 49, it probably really does.
Thanks Ryan, for telling your story. I think it will help people to work on their own problems. For me it encourages me to look at my life and try to handle my problems. I like the way you make these videos, no judgement, just an open and honest style. This is rare on social media. Keep on the good work!!!
Thanks for your honesty Ryan, very insightful. We are called to change but can be dragged back by our old egoic selves. I came across this poem recently by Edwin Muir, called the Way, it may resonate. Friend, I have lost the way. The way leads on. Is there another way? The way is one. I must retrace the track. It’s lost and gone. Back, I must travel back! None goes there, none. Then I’ll make here my place, (The road leads on), Stand still and set my face, (The road leaps on), Stay here, for ever stay. None stays here, none. I cannot find the way. The way leads on. Oh places I have passed! That journey’s done. And what will come at last? The road leads on. All the best, Kevin
Was in the same position as you for 10+ years, high doses of psychedlics pulled me in out of sobriety, in the last 3 years microdosing mushrooms has given me the opportunity and finally unhinge from a terrible addiction. Psychedlics truly do hold the potential to solve people from spiraling into the abyss. Cheers!
Watching this I am 5 days sober from drinking pretty heavily for the past few years. I am 26 now and I am having some pretty bad headaches every day but I would rather have these than knowing I’m drinking myself to death and hurting the ones around me. Your story helped me a lot to realize there’s a lot of other people going through things and I just hope I can stay strong because I know that I want what’s right. Ty and god bless you and you’re family
Stay the course but make sure your withdrawal is safe - in a few weeks you enter the pink cloud where you will begin to feel very very good - look into the different plant medicines associated with quitting and staying quit (John’s Hopkins). Listening to Ram Dass and reading about others stories of finally beating it helps. 🙏
I have a lot of empathy. 8 rehab stays, few gran mal seizures and a coma and I still picked back up the bottle. Actively worked the 12 steps with sponsors to no avail. It was me. Me realizing that no matter how hard I tried I was not in control. I never wanted to admit defeat. I held myself out of sobriety out of fear of continued failure, and if I am completely honest towards the end I was actively attempting to die by alcoholism. I have been sober for 7 years by simply admitting defeat, and truly believing I couldn’t just have one. It was such a terrible experience but I never want to take it back, and I still insist to my family that I am STILL an alcoholic, and forever will be. I always tell them, when I say I am better, I AM NOT. I think the scariest part was how quickly I went from not an alcoholic to holy shit I am screwed. I felt like it was so quick. Thank you for sharing your story.
Congratulations man. I’ve been there too, absolutely vicious cycle. Coming up on 3 years dry myself, still miss it occasionally but I lost all control of my life. Never going back to that living hell
It's far from mild. My best friend survived and recovered from a 20 year plus iv heroin addiction. About a year after he'd got off heroin he started to drink. He died 8 yrs later from alcoholism/ multiple organ failure. I watched him go to rock bottoms on booze that he never went close to as an active heroin user. Alcohol to my friend was like water to a man lost in the desert and dying of thirst.
Thank you for sharing your story. My first husband was an alcoholic but an extremely abusive, violent man. Eventually I was hospitalized which gave me the wake-up call I needed to get myself and my children away from him.
Surly going to help many… people who’s struggling with those addictions thanks for sharing ur stories my friend , I drop everything’s 25+yrs ago so proud of myself ! One think I learn from control urself don’t let ur mind control you !
Bravo Ryan, bravo. It takes courage to be brave enough to share the darkest parts of our lives with people, especially strangers. This is the signal, the symbol of your authenticity. To be so vulnerable is a clear reflection of your strength and the strength of your spiritual self. I was fortunate that my parents never really were drinkers. I seen my father a bit drunk once in my life and never really enjoyed the lack of balance that alcohol created for me personally. I never liked the way it made me feel. Yes, I have been drunk many times in my youth and yes I also experimented with many drugs in my youth but in those days I believed that balance and moderation was the key to success and happiness. Now I realize that balance is just one part of my formula for authenticity. A very important part but just one part nonetheless. I loved listening to your story not because of the rubber neck moments bordering on disaster but because of your ability to connect and be vulnerable on such a personal level. I love that part. I am so glad that you are one of those that experienced an epiphany, a life changing awakening. You have so much to offer, so much to share and so much to contribute to humanity in your own caring and artistic way. Your eyes tell a story that cannot be told but reflect those same signals and symbols I mentioned. Your story was not about me but I can assure you that many of us see a part of us in your story. As humans we all share one thing in common, all of us...fear. We all look for an escape of one form or another to try and protect us from our fears. Facing them requires stepping out into the light and recognizing that we are afraid and the trying to realize why. We cannot address or fix something we cannot see. I am very proud of you and yet we have never met. Thank you for sharing, I miss that part of life. Excellent vlog dude. You still have that look of youthful wonderment in your eyes, hermit or not. I totally get get it and appreciate you. Carry on bravely and continue to light the way for those who cannot see. It took me a long time to realize my purpose in life, obviously you are a quick learner. Nuf said.
So sorry to hear about your friend’s wife. I too am a musician. I was a Los Angeles studio musician for many years, played with George Duke, Clark Terry and Benny Golson back in the day. As of late I was the touring bassist for the Motown group The Miracles. I retired to Hua Hin and now have two bands here I play with. Alcoholism and drug addiction is a huge problem in our industry and I too have lost a few friends to it and have seen my own brother suffer from it for decades. So glad to see you were able to kick it and straighten your life out. Thank you for sharing your story.
What a wonderful story of redemption. Sadly, there are many who are lost in addiction, who never find their way out of it, and succumb to their addiction, either wasting their lives away or never reaching their life's potential. I grew up in such a family, and my father's addiction to alcohol totally destroyed our family. My father who was a boss in a coal mine who would lace his Skoal Chewing tobacco with Leilani Hawaiian Rum to go into the mines for his shift; you couldn't smoke inside a coalmine, and when he came home late at night, it would be Whiskey & Coke on ice. 3/4 of the class filled with Whiskey, and 1/4 with Coke. He'd sit at our kitchen table drinking until he was shit-faced and then either wake us all up to fight over some mispercieved slight, or we'd all pray that he'd go to bed to sleep it off without a terrible fight wherre he'd threaten us or tear the house up in anger. It was never ending, and we'd live in fear for the weekends, where he'd start drinking right after breakfast, and not stop until Monday when he went back to work. To say we had happy childhoods growing up would be a lie, but that's the way many coalmining towns were where I lived. My father died of Cirrosis of the liver. As for me, since alcoholism runs in my family, I rarely if ever have a drink, and if I do, it's only one and done. My life's motto I developed is this: "You are where you are in life, based on the decisions you've made to it.......If you don't like the outcome of those decisions, only YOU can change your life's pathway; no one can do it for you."
Wow what a story! I've never heard an anecdotal story of sobriety where a dose of LSD stopped their alcoholism. That's fantastic, good for you man. I'm currently 613 days sober and absolutely thriving. Life is pure peace. I feel like a buddhist, finding such joy in the tiny little things in life.
I applaud your honesty & congratulate your continued sobriety. You & Damo obviously share a great love & relationship for her to remain with you through the bad times. I believe addiction most often develops as a means of coping with trauma in our lives. Nothing in the old life of an addict can replace the sense of peace in your head & in your heart that sobriety brings ❤
Thank you, Ryan, for reaching out to Ricky in his time of grief. I only just started following him last night when he came up on my search for visiting the area of Thailand he's in. I watched the most recent today and immediately wanted to reach out to you in hopes that you could talk to him. This vlog of yours is to me beautiful for two reasons, one... you know of Ricky, and i know you'll be there for him and two, your beautiful honesty in your journey with Alcohol. I've had my demons, too, and i know what you went through. Im sure you were fun to hang with when you were drinking, but I personally would enjoy Ryan and Mo of today. Bless to you and your beautiful family 🙏
I've overcome (personally) a number of battles, and have experienced other's losing their lives to them. I realize how easily one can slip into any of a number of addictive paradigms. I appreciate your channel and honesty, even having had an incredibly different life on the other side of the planet (NYC). Best always, and hope to visit Thailand sooner than later. -ant
Great video. Thanks to much for sharing. 59 years old, heavy drinker probably 30 years then that last 2 or 3 got bad. Never any good days, never any fun, No joy, Mostly anger. 6 days of sobriety so far.
"Nothing flashy today" lol. Just an insight into your soul! Thanks so much Ryan for your honesty and such description about your old addiction behaviour. Admire your ability to convey the experience so clearly.
Hi Ryan be proud of yourself you have done amazing friends are usually just around for a season but they usually always disappear when you need but now you have a beautiful family who will cherish you for the rest of your life and Damo is amazing you certainly made the right choice in your life thank you for sharing your story
Thanks for the sharing Ryan.I to have had to over come alcohol addiction and Iost a lot in my life but it’s good to say I have got it all back and more today with more than 18 year and more of sober days.I love to hear stories of sobriety.Thank you so much I also have a Thai wife but we live in Australia.keep up the good work cheers buddy.Steve !!!
Thank you for your honesty. As someone who owns a pub in Thailand, this hit close to home. I dream of a more peacefully life in the mountains one day soon.
I love you and Damo and your babies so much I was completely crushed and dumbfounded with Ricky losing his wife so suddenly with two babies😢😢😢. Also to be honest one of the things that kept me coming back to your channel along with everything else was a fact that you were sober being sober over 30 years I can completely understand the before and after and the misery loves company aspect.
Can’t believe how much everything has grown….massive growth of the beautiful greenery….and so it is that you too have grown into something new something stronger….
Interesting how similar we all are. Well presented, helpful and honest. I done the same thing in the Philippines 🇵🇭 thankfully like you, I survived it. Keep up the great work and really humbled to see how you've found your peace.
Wow, that's a raw and unfiltered look at a difficult journey. While I'm not an expert, your story reminds everyone that hitting rock bottom isn't the end; it's the start of a climb. Thanks for sharing such a personal experience. #StrengthInStruggles
Ryan, wow ! That was very raw and insightful. Thanks for sharing. This is a story that every family can relate to. I’m glad that you have beat addiction and now live a more fulfilling lifestyle. Stay Safe, and Stay Blessed !
Great one mate, some experiences are so great they change your life. Some never have them early enough. For me it was the loss of my greatest friend. Dreams gone for ever. The shock is such a jolt, then gradually you start living again, but differently. All the best 29:57
Ryan... I stumbled upon this video while perusing the TH-cam Recommendations. As a sober alcoholic I was drawn in by your title and as I wanted to see where the video led. I remember you in Hua Hin and I recognized several fellow Hua Hin and former Hua Hin musicians in the photos. I moved to Hua Hin in June 2015 as I was nearing the absolute bottom of a horrific 15 year relapse after I had over 22 years of sobriety. I got sober again on 4 August 2015 and began my recovery again. In my case, playing guitar and singing with the Hua Hin musicians at Thaiwaii Bar in Pak Nam Pran helped me tremendously as I had not played my guitar not drunk for 15 years. You may not remember but I bought some gear from Saxophone Lounge from you and I was at your apartment to pick it up about 4 or 5 days before you left for Phuket. We stayed in touch briefly. I wished you well. It delights me that you have taken your life back from the King Alcohol and have developed such a strong sense of self. Congratulations mate. I'm sober 8 years now and living in Khao Tao and having a wonderful life...beyond my wildest dreams. Not really playing much these days as I have taken up writing about the music scene on the Royal Coast for an online publication, Heaven is Hua Hin. Cheers mate. Maybe we'll catch up again someday. 🙏♥️
Truly wonderful blog ❤️. I’m 6 months sober & a new person now. You are happier because you are not carrying the burden of guilt. I used to hate myself on the inside, even though like you, I was the life & soul of the party. You found your way out of the maze. I’m not totally out yet, but I’m getting stronger daily. Thank you. God bless you & your magical family ❤️ Regards Tony
I’m alcoholic on the lower level - I am 62 learnt to modify ( if you fall of wagon ) I can do six beers but can’t drink spirits usually I give up for three or four years a time- at your age I was as bad - the bottom line is don’t drink - meditation helps you win -you’ve come a long way Ps you can still hear in your breathing you heavily smoked
As always interesting and thought provoking I'm sure this video will help many people takes a lot of courage to be that honest and open about your previous life. Congratulations on beating the alcohol addiction. It's great to see you in a better happier place with the wonderful Damo and your boys and extended family
Thanks Ryan for sharing in such an honest way. Congratulations on been sober fight your inner demons. Keep building on the beautiful life, family and home you now have. 🙏👨👩👧👧❤️🏡🙏
Wow mate, that was a real in depth look at your past dead ego😮 I have been addicted to cigarettes, alcohol and mj since I was 13, lm now 53. When I was 25 l was addicted to heroin for over a year, then my wife became pregnant so we moved states and went cold turkey, that was hard. I also became an alcoholic from the age of 40 until 48. I developed a list of physical problems including an enlarged liver, and l decided that l wanted to stick around to help my kids make it through lifes struggles, so l once again went cold turkey. My only addiction now is smoking and I believe it's the hardest to quit, as l have tried many many times before. But as you said mushrooms, lsd, dmt etc can have a great lasting effect if you can reach ego death. Im going to pick some shrooms tomorrow and give it a crack. My pancreas will thank me for it and I will hopefully be around to see my grandchildren. Thanks for the motivation Ryan 👍❤
@@aussiebob7923 you should do some research on psychedelics and addictions mate. Our governments have been suppressing the information for decades because they would rather we all be addicted to morphine and other big pharma toxins. It also helps with ptsd, just ask a veteran who has used it.
Once a drunk discovers that morning drink, alcoholism begins. I suffered with IV heroin addiction, meth addiction, & benzo addiction, but it was alcoholism, especially as a woman, that truly kicked my ass. Clean & sober since July 16th 2016, & LIVING PROOF THAT WE CAN & DO RECOVER FROM THE HOPELESS SLOW SUICIDE! Shout out to my fellow junkies & drunks that now choose to stay clean/sober a day at a time. Weve lost TOO MANY & counting. Let's show those who still suffer how we do it. I appreciate your honesty & personal depiction of alcoholism & redemption, especially since it may help others choose life as well. I love you all✌️❤️🙏🤘
A truly amazing insight! You speak so well and from the heart and I really enjoy your videos. Not many people are so self-aware as your good self and they search for answers for the rest of their life. It is so inspiring to see someone firstly still living after what you went through! but also having the skill and it is a skill to talk about it in such a succinct way. I am so happy you have the life you do now. It really is a dream life and you are extremely lucky (and I am sure you know it!) to have such an incredible person by your side. You look so healthy. Congrats mate!
That insight into your life touched me with your story. You talked about your other self as being dead, and that you’re not the same person as before. I think that you’ve simply evolved and grown into the man you are now, and that’s clear to me a straight up guy, a good guy. Experience shapes you and as a result you become stronger for it. Demo sounds like a real light in your life and a real find. I wish you many more years of happiness together and be the father you can and will be brother.
I was getting very close, like a $10 bottle n a couple $2 shots daily. Maybe a little more on weekends but still way to much. Minimal i could do was 2 $2:50 shots a day, minimal. This went on 9 months, im 43. Never been a huge drinker. So a month n a half ago i got "acute pancreatitis". The pain is so out of control i had to go to hospital. u will never drink again. Been out Of hospital a week n a half n been n 2 liqour stores for lotto, -0- craving. It sucks thats what it took but never again. Even the pain im still in hurts enough to never drink again. Dr's say its worse than pregnancy cramps. No clue if true obviously. but It took unbearable pain for me to stop unfortunitly.
I think what hit me hardest about this video was your comment at the end that we sometimes have to grieve the loss of our earlier lives, which may have been more exciting if not a bit more dangerous and certainly more superficial. In a sick way, getting rid of booze helps, because quitting booze successfully requires a complete reimagination of who you are and what your life should be. For you, the shift also seemed to be moving from a fast-paced city to the countryside. But you were wise enough to know that this change would also have to come with a change of your heart.
thanks for sharing that ryan, i had and still have problems which i wont go into too much, i have lost so many friends due to my addictions and depression, i understand everything you have said, keep staying sober, you have a great family and lifestyle now, damo is a rock, your kids will be a great example of both of you, the way you are bringing them up.
Just found you on TH-cam I have 15 years going to rent a motorcycle in January in Bangkok and then takeoff for three weeks two beautiful boys in college thinking of making life-changing decisions for me. Thank you for sharing.
A 1st time visitor to your channel and absolutely blown away by your very moving, honest story. The way you so clearly articulated the death of the old self was and the rejection you experienced was incredible. I do believe the substances you reference can create a higher state of consciousness and can release people from the prison of the artificial/ego self. Look forward to watching more of your videos. Thank you for sharing
I'm more of a functioning alcoholic. I like wine, but I do rum and chasing it with distilled water sometimes. I'm on my way to quitting completely, because it doesn't work for me like it used to. Almost every day for 2-3 years starting in the late afternoon early night, so I usually sleep decently, and I eat healthy and take a number of supplements, and walk and sweat a lot to minimize the negative withdrawal effects. I used to smoke a decent amount of weed in my early 20s, but it just makes me paranoid now. I only drink alone now, but I never get violent or anything like that. More of a chill down type of drinker, but I'm really just over it. Thanks for your stories and insight, brother. Peace and love.
That is exactly what I said to myself for the first twenty years...then something bad happens and your way of handling it is to drink more. Bottom line is simple... if you are a daily drinker you are an alcholic.... it only goes downhill from there. ALCHOL IS POISON. ... that's why they put it in things like lysol - TO KILL GERMS
Since I was a child, I was called to be a Warrior Monk, Sohei (Jap. dictionary). I learned numerous Combat Forms and also developed my mindset for Total and Absolute Victory. At least that's what I thought. At my age of 24 when I lost my father, I became a complete drunk. The Gypsy King Tyson Fury would've said: "You a Bum". I perpetuated this endless downward spiral of torture and weakness till I was 28, and then I quit. I'm 37 now and I do not drink alchohol. I admit that I would try a cocktail or two on Songkran, if you or any other nice friendly folk, let's say, offer it to me and I would never buy it myself at all, but that's that, and believe me, the urge, that nasty crazy feeling is gone, and I really do feel freedom. What made me quit? A simple proverb from The Maasai Warriors of Kenya in The Yoruba dialect: A SHEEP DOESN'T RUN WITH A LION. A SNAKE DOESN'T SWING WITH A MONKEY. Salutations, Respect, Peace, Blessings, and Power, Shaman! You are something else man, I'm tellin' ya!
I just found your channel yesterday and have been watching quite a few of your videos. You are a cool guy and a lot of what you say resonates with me. I've had similar struggles and found much benefit from plant medicine while in Canada. I'm 36 and spend my winters in Asia, a good amount of that time in Thailand. I'd love to grab a coffee with you someday if I find myself in your general area. Keep it up and keep living the good life you've built for you and your family.
Never seen this channel before but this popped up. Didn’t even mean to watch it all. I was a fully functional addict for 30 years weed booze pills … a heart issue meant a huge overhaul of my life. And now I’m sober. I was never a problem it never hurt people around me never got to the point anyone would want to intervene. But I spent almost everyday since 16 doing something to not be normal. That last section about not being as fun anymore really resonated, I loved to party and I loved the the free flowing feeling of being high on something, no fucks given, the cushion and confidence of being elegantly wasted the opportunity for adventure or fun or even trouble. I do mourn the death of that me, and in the same instance the old me always wanted to be the new me, he just didn’t have the strength or ability to change. It took a fundamental shake up and some trauma but here I am. I’m not as fun as I was, but I am learning to be me without the crutches and I’m enjoying the challenge and loving life. 🙏🏽
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Just subscribed
Appreciate your honesty.
Do more vids like this,because a lot of people go to Thailand with addiction and mental health problems.
Things which make carbs into bodyfat:
1) polyunsaturated and monounsaturated fats,
2) flax seed,
3) undereating, diets
4) high fat diet in long term,
5) soy,
6) very high protein diet,
7) low carb diet,
8) stress,
9) most herbs in higher quantities permanently used.
10) low potassium (lack of fruits, vegetables),
11) plastics (packaging and so on),
12) estrogen.
I want to add that when carbs get converted to fat,
people get also a light form of dementia.
Proteins get converted into carbs and then into fat under above mentioned circumstances. Alcohol and other addictions rise from inability to use carbs or lack of carbs (alcohol has a lot of calories, every time you smoke, glucose gets released into blood etc). If the carbs do not get converted into fats or into energy, then you get diabetes and high blood sugar.
If you dont eat at least 1 pound/0,5 kg carbs a day, your body might be eating in one month 2,2 pounds/ about 1 kg of your own flesh (proteins) and would turn those proteins into carb (Minesota starvation experiment). The body takes proteins from your heart, liver, skin, joints, muscles etc. and turns them into carb. Naturally those organs will get sick.
Sources for every point above:
point 1) youtube channel Fire in a bottle @fireinabottle3410, dr. Ray Peat, point 2) channel Strongsistas with Wendy Sellens, point 3) Minnesota starvation experiment, point 4) Georgi Dinkov, point 5) as point 2 and dr. Ray Peat, point 6) @healthcausesregeneration, channel Strongsistas, Georgi dinkov, Minessota starvation experiment, 7) as point 3, 4, point 8) Georgi Dinkov, Ray Peat, 9) channel Strongsistas with Wendy Sellens, 10) Ray Peat, asian diet, 11) and 12) as points 2, 4, Ray peat.
Je me souviens qu'il y a quelques années, après la mort de ma femme, je me suis retrouvé seul avec trois enfants. J'ai souffert d'une grave dépression et de troubles mentaux. Je suis devenu accro à l'alcool. Jusqu'à ce qu'un ami me recommande un traitement aux champignons psilocybines. Le traitement à la psilocybine a changé ma vie pour le mieux. Je peux dire avec fierté que je suis totalement clean depuis 6 ans et que je continue à compter. Je me tourne toujours vers la nature pour trouver une solution aux problèmes difficiles, les champignons sont phénoménaux.
I love hearing great life changing stories like this. I want to become a mycologist because honestly mushrooms are the best form of medicine (most especially the psychedelic ones) There are so many people today used magic mushrooms to ween off of SSRI medication- its amazing! Years back i wrote an entire essay about psychedelics. they saved you from death buddy, lets be honest here.
Hey mates! Can you help with the source? I suffer severe anxiety, panic and depression and I usually take prescription medicine, but they don't always help. Where can I find those psilocybin mushrooms? I'm really interested in treating my mental health without Rxs. I live in Australia don't know much about these. I'm so glad they helped you. I can't wait to get them too. Really need a reliable source 🙏
Yes sure of Pedroshrooms
No doubts shrooms are 100% blessings from nature. Indeed nature's little miracles
Can I reach this dude through Google?
I am an alcoholic myself, I am 71 years old and most of my family and friends have died from it. In 1988 I got on the freeway by getting on the off ramp. I got into a head on crash at four in the morning. After all this I knew I was not put on earth to kill others with my disease so I decided to go to a rehab center. They rung me out and sent me to AA.
I did that for quite awhile and got 14 years of no smoking or drinking.
Since then it has been on and off. Finally I needed a sixth back surgery and the doctor would not operate until I got some sobriety. I checked into another rehab four three days, stayed sober for a week and then was operated on and set free.
I have been sober for almost a year now and know that alcoholism will kill me, so luckily I have no intention of having another drink ever.
Actually I am having way more fun than I ever had drinking.
I am happy you shared your struggles and how your life has totally changed for the better. I am here to support you in your life's journey. I am responsible to help anyone who needs help, even if it's to give them a drink when they truly need one.
Thank you for sharing your story and congratulations on this year 🙏🙏🙏
Hang in there friend. Today’s the only day you got to be sober right? Just taking it one day at a time seems to be my saving grace to sobriety 21 years now I also am 71.❤
@@craigestory6230 hang in there bro, it's the only way to go!
What happened to the guy in the other car?
@stap1er he was OK, I gave him a hug and told him I was sorry.
For what it's worth.
Still sober!
Hits all too close to home. Kicking the bottle is probably the best thing i have ever done.
I dont like sober life at all..
coward
I was a full blown alcoholic/addict which led to disasters….rolled a truck, got a DUI, lost jobs, multiple rehabs (some that were absolutely inhumane so I left). I also had a husband who wanted me to quit and would pour out my booze whenever he found it leaving me absolutely panicked at how I was going to get more. He hid the car keys and wouldn’t let me drive. When I did get out I hid the booze in my crotch inside my panties. My husband didnt understand addiction at all and didn’t drink. That led me to buying hand sanitizer and vanilla extract from Amazon to sustain my habit. Both were disgusting, and I ended up in detox and rehab again after another “incident” of some sort. This time it took. I don’t particularly like rehab. It’s pretty boring, but I came to the realization that I could never touch alcohol again. The thought of drinking hand sanitizer made me nauseous and embarrassed so I didn’t pick up again. Since then I’ve tried cannabis and felt the old addict vibe again. I’m now coming off a 3 week edible binge and won’t touch it again. I hate being an addict but it initially took me to good and mellow places….so, I’m clean from alcohol for 2 years. I’d love to say I love sobriety but I really don’t but it’s the only thing keeping me alive although I’m not sure that’s so great either sometimes, but I’m still here. It’s a battle everyday.
You achieved a huge thing...if you did this, you can do whatever you want in life!! Everything is easier than overcoming such an addiction! Don't forget that the worst day sober is better than the best day in addiction.
Keep it up ❤
Nice to see someone say they dont like sobriety, but understand the importance. Because if everyone says being sober is this incredible experience and romanticizes it; people not experience that, may be disheartened and go back. It gets better over the years. But life can be tough, the emotions in difficult times are more intense. Not being dulled by addiction. All this being said, sobriety even if boring and sad at times, beats addiction 10/1 any day.
I've been California clean for 16 years. I hear you
@@organicthug5220. I’m too feel that way. I don’t feel amazing due to sobriety. But I know I have to be sober
9 years not a drop. I'm not ashamed to say I enjoy a joint most everyday after work.
I wish my husband could have gotten to the place of peace that you did. Unfortunately, he has not made it there.
Thank you so much for the kind words at the start of your video Ryan. Appreciate it mate 🙏
Hope you are keeping well brother 🙏🙏
I find that if you're any sort of artist/creative, there's also a certain romanticism we attach to substance abuse. Just another long line of excuses we give to let ourselves know that we haven't got a problem. Like you said, "The Rock 'n' Roll lifestyle," or however you want to see it.
I actually just arrived home from Thailand this morning after planning a 2-week street photography trip for months. I got some work done, but the trip definitely brought some demons out.
I needed to see this today. Thanks, Ryan.
My fave Thai vlogger by far, love the honesty from this man,being truthful,and honest is how we learn from one, and other,keep up the great work.
Thank you 🙏
Well done lad coming through the end of this bad tunnel hats 🎩 off to you unfortunately Pattaya etc will suck the life out of you when it comes to drinking especially been a bar owner
White dudes are the best Thai vloggers by far
Ryan your videos really have hit a new level. Your honesty and authenticity coupled with your now highly developed production skills are a real joy.
Thank you for your honesty. I wondered if you had gotten sober from your Lost Everything post. I too am clean & sober, 24 years last January. Best thing I've ever done. Good on ya bud! Sobriety Rocks.
Thank You for you're honesty, you brought back some very strong feeling for me.. 39 years sober and clean September 23rd..! Life continues to get better, and through the roughest times since its made me a better man.. I'm always amazed at what life has brought me since..!
Very honest and detailed account of your tribulations. Glad you found your way out.
That's nice you mentioned Ricky, its been the most distressing news I've heard, those poor babies, poor everyone, I can't imagine.
Wowza. That was an impressive walk you took us on. You said the old you died and, I have to say, you *look* so different to me. And, man, what a hottie Damo is. So pleased y'all have evolved together and found *grace* together, my brother.
Thanks for the share, brother! Yes, the old pals and parties fall away, they aren't on the same frequency anymore, it seems.
I think you can touch people, when grace is ready, you're light shines.
Do you have a specific sponsor or mentor on this leg of your journey?
Thank you Fred - really appreciate it and glad you got something from the share. My mentors are mostly dead, you know the ones 😊, but these days just listening to the inner guide. Hope you are well brother 🙏🙏
I never comment but I had to say this- a really generous and moving story. Thank you for sharing Ryan. Your words and kindness help me and warm my heart. Thank you
Came to Thailand and hit the drink heavy again but have been 6 months sober now. Feel on top of the world! Good message my man
Thanks for the yarn mate, im battling thru the trenches now,
Thanks Ryan….long time viewer of both your channels……this hit a old raw nerve with me I too lost everything in my life kids wife and was an alcoholic……my life moved on long time ago I’m 52 and look forward to get back to Thailand soon I feel at peace in that country which first visited 30 years ago….life is a journey I’m happier than I’ve been in very long time…..peace too you ✌️
God bless you mate - thank you for this video. It rings true to me, and denial, or self-justification for a substance abuse, in any form, is addiction. It's a sickness and it's a lifelong problem. We all need to face our self imposed addictive habits. Until you do that, there will never be an escape, only excuses and ultimately, self destruction. Some people need to get to that point before they finally bow out and realise the issue is themselves, not those around them. Much love and thanks brother.
Thanks, you give me hope. My real hardcore addiction with alcohol started during the pandemic the most I can do is a few days off before going back, I’m getting flushes and itch face, red face it’s like I’m poisoning myself.
The war in Ukraine hasn’t helped, I’m hopeful once my wife gets back from Ukraine I can really start to change and kick my habit.
It’s always in my mind. I hide my bottles, I did take a massive trip DMT and had a crazy break through and poured my bottles down the sink but after 7 days that feeling left and I was back drinking.
I work on a farm and on the 50 minute drive hone I’m always telling myself just go home but I always stop at the bottle shop near home even though I’m begging myself to just keep driving.
I need help.
I have always had a addictive streak, I grew up in a dope growing community and was smoking pot everyday when I was 12, I would smoke a joint before getting on the school bus, we lived in a isolated community it would take over 1hr to get to school.
There was violence in my childhood and even though I feel it doesn’t affect me anymore, I’m 49, it probably really does.
Thanks Ryan, for telling your story. I think it will help people to work on their own problems. For me it encourages me to look at my life and try to handle my problems.
I like the way you make these videos, no judgement, just an open and honest style. This is rare on social media. Keep on the good work!!!
Thanks for your honesty Ryan, very insightful. We are called to change but can be dragged back by our old egoic selves. I came across this poem recently by Edwin Muir, called the Way, it may resonate.
Friend, I have lost the way.
The way leads on.
Is there another way?
The way is one.
I must retrace the track.
It’s lost and gone.
Back, I must travel back!
None goes there, none.
Then I’ll make here my place,
(The road leads on),
Stand still and set my face,
(The road leaps on),
Stay here, for ever stay.
None stays here, none.
I cannot find the way.
The way leads on.
Oh places I have passed!
That journey’s done.
And what will come at last?
The road leads on.
All the best, Kevin
Was in the same position as you for 10+ years, high doses of psychedlics pulled me in out of sobriety, in the last 3 years microdosing mushrooms has given me the opportunity and finally unhinge from a terrible addiction. Psychedlics truly do hold the potential to solve people from spiraling into the abyss.
Cheers!
I'm so glad you're free. So many have died from alcoholism. It's a horribly cruel death. 😢
Thank you Toni 🙏
Dying from alcoholism is not the worst, destroying and damaging the life of your children is even more cruel
Watching this I am 5 days sober from drinking pretty heavily for the past few years. I am 26 now and I am having some pretty bad headaches every day but I would rather have these than knowing I’m drinking myself to death and hurting the ones around me. Your story helped me a lot to realize there’s a lot of other people going through things and I just hope I can stay strong because I know that I want what’s right. Ty and god bless you and you’re family
Stay the course but make sure your withdrawal is safe - in a few weeks you enter the pink cloud where you will begin to feel very very good - look into the different plant medicines associated with quitting and staying quit (John’s Hopkins). Listening to Ram Dass and reading about others stories of finally beating it helps. 🙏
@@thenakedguru thank you man I will 🙏🫡
I have a lot of empathy. 8 rehab stays, few gran mal seizures and a coma and I still picked back up the bottle. Actively worked the 12 steps with sponsors to no avail. It was me. Me realizing that no matter how hard I tried I was not in control. I never wanted to admit defeat. I held myself out of sobriety out of fear of continued failure, and if I am completely honest towards the end I was actively attempting to die by alcoholism. I have been sober for 7 years by simply admitting defeat, and truly believing I couldn’t just have one. It was such a terrible experience but I never want to take it back, and I still insist to my family that I am STILL an alcoholic, and forever will be. I always tell them, when I say I am better, I AM NOT. I think the scariest part was how quickly I went from not an alcoholic to holy shit I am screwed. I felt like it was so quick. Thank you for sharing your story.
If you honestly and thoroughly worked the 12 steps, how did you not admit defeat or realize you were not in control?
Congratulations man. I’ve been there too, absolutely vicious cycle. Coming up on 3 years dry myself, still miss it occasionally but I lost all control of my life. Never going back to that living hell
Ryan, Life is messy. I wish you the best in life. Booze is a mild form of poison. Stay safe and be well.😊
I wouldnt say a mild poison. Its pure poison
Why do you think it is called “intoxication”?
It's far from mild. My best friend survived and recovered from a 20 year plus iv heroin addiction. About a year after he'd got off heroin he started to drink. He died 8 yrs later from alcoholism/ multiple organ failure. I watched him go to rock bottoms on booze that he never went close to as an active heroin user. Alcohol to my friend was like water to a man lost in the desert and dying of thirst.
I'm giving up at the moment, this video helped greatly, thank you.
Thank you for sharing your story. My first husband was an alcoholic but an extremely abusive, violent man. Eventually I was hospitalized which gave me the wake-up call I needed to get myself and my children away from him.
Surly going to help many… people who’s struggling with those addictions thanks for sharing ur stories my friend , I drop everything’s 25+yrs ago so proud of myself ! One think I learn from control urself don’t let ur mind control you !
Bravo Ryan, bravo. It takes courage to be brave enough to share the darkest parts of our lives with people, especially strangers. This is the signal, the symbol of your authenticity. To be so vulnerable is a clear reflection of your strength and the strength of your spiritual self. I was fortunate that my parents never really were drinkers. I seen my father a bit drunk once in my life and never really enjoyed the lack of balance that alcohol created for me personally. I never liked the way it made me feel. Yes, I have been drunk many times in my youth and yes I also experimented with many drugs in my youth but in those days I believed that balance and moderation was the key to success and happiness. Now I realize that balance is just one part of my formula for authenticity. A very important part but just one part nonetheless. I loved listening to your story not because of the rubber neck moments bordering on disaster but because of your ability to connect and be vulnerable on such a personal level. I love that part. I am so glad that you are one of those that experienced an epiphany, a life changing awakening. You have so much to offer, so much to share and so much to contribute to humanity in your own caring and artistic way. Your eyes tell a story that cannot be told but reflect those same signals and symbols I mentioned. Your story was not about me but I can assure you that many of us see a part of us in your story. As humans we all share one thing in common, all of us...fear. We all look for an escape of one form or another to try and protect us from our fears. Facing them requires stepping out into the light and recognizing that we are afraid and the trying to realize why. We cannot address or fix something we cannot see. I am very proud of you and yet we have never met. Thank you for sharing, I miss that part of life. Excellent vlog dude. You still have that look of youthful wonderment in your eyes, hermit or not. I totally get get it and appreciate you. Carry on bravely and continue to light the way for those who cannot see. It took me a long time to realize my purpose in life, obviously you are a quick learner. Nuf said.
So sorry to hear about your friend’s wife. I too am a musician. I was a Los Angeles studio musician for many years, played with George Duke, Clark Terry and Benny Golson back in the day. As of late I was the touring bassist for the Motown group The Miracles. I retired to Hua Hin and now have two bands here I play with. Alcoholism and drug addiction is a huge problem in our industry and I too have lost a few friends to it and have seen my own brother suffer from it for decades. So glad to see you were able to kick it and straighten your life out. Thank you for sharing your story.
Great story … Thanks for sharing… very enlightening…
What a wonderful story of redemption. Sadly, there are many who are lost in addiction, who never find their way out of it, and succumb to their addiction, either wasting their lives away or never reaching their life's potential. I grew up in such a family, and my father's addiction to alcohol totally destroyed our family. My father who was a boss in a coal mine who would lace his Skoal Chewing tobacco with Leilani Hawaiian Rum to go into the mines for his shift; you couldn't smoke inside a coalmine, and when he came home late at night, it would be Whiskey & Coke on ice. 3/4 of the class filled with Whiskey, and 1/4 with Coke. He'd sit at our kitchen table drinking until he was shit-faced and then either wake us all up to fight over some mispercieved slight, or we'd all pray that he'd go to bed to sleep it off without a terrible fight wherre he'd threaten us or tear the house up in anger. It was never ending, and we'd live in fear for the weekends, where he'd start drinking right after breakfast, and not stop until Monday when he went back to work. To say we had happy childhoods growing up would be a lie, but that's the way many coalmining towns were where I lived. My father died of Cirrosis of the liver. As for me, since alcoholism runs in my family, I rarely if ever have a drink, and if I do, it's only one and done. My life's motto I developed is this: "You are where you are in life, based on the decisions you've made to it.......If you don't like the outcome of those decisions, only YOU can change your life's pathway; no one can do it for you."
Wow what a story! I've never heard an anecdotal story of sobriety where a dose of LSD stopped their alcoholism. That's fantastic, good for you man. I'm currently 613 days sober and absolutely thriving. Life is pure peace. I feel like a buddhist, finding such joy in the tiny little things in life.
Congratulations on your sobriety and keep going - it gets easier once past a certain threshold 🙏🙏🙏🙏
Wow, be proud my friend. Inspiring. What a partnership, what a family you have. Enjoy Ryan. You are a very bright light. 😉. Thanks.
I applaud your honesty & congratulate your continued sobriety. You & Damo obviously share a great love & relationship for her to remain with you through the bad times. I believe addiction most often develops as a means of coping with trauma in our lives. Nothing in the old life of an addict can replace the sense of peace in your head & in your heart that sobriety brings ❤
Thank you 🙏
Thank you, Ryan, for reaching out to Ricky in his time of grief. I only just started following him last night when he came up on my search for visiting the area of Thailand he's in. I watched the most recent today and immediately wanted to reach out to you in hopes that you could talk to him. This vlog of yours is to me beautiful for two reasons, one... you know of Ricky, and i know you'll be there for him and two, your beautiful honesty in your journey with Alcohol. I've had my demons, too, and i know what you went through. Im sure you were fun to hang with when you were drinking, but I personally would enjoy Ryan and Mo of today. Bless to you and your beautiful family 🙏
I've overcome (personally) a number of battles, and have experienced other's losing their lives to them. I realize how easily one can slip into any of a number of addictive paradigms. I appreciate your channel and honesty, even having had an incredibly different life on the other side of the planet (NYC). Best always, and hope to visit Thailand sooner than later. -ant
Great video. Thanks to much for sharing. 59 years old, heavy drinker probably 30 years then that last 2 or 3 got bad. Never any good days, never any fun, No joy, Mostly anger. 6 days of sobriety so far.
Hung on every word Ryan. You laid it all out there. Hope it helps people. Your honesty is so refreshing
Thanks for that Ryan (and Damo ) , your story will help someone for sure.
"Nothing flashy today" lol. Just an insight into your soul!
Thanks so much Ryan for your honesty and such description about your old addiction behaviour. Admire your ability to convey the experience so clearly.
Hi Ryan be proud of yourself you have done amazing friends are usually just around for a season but they usually always disappear when you need but now you have a beautiful family who will cherish you for the rest of your life and Damo is amazing you certainly made the right choice in your life thank you for sharing your story
Thanks for the sharing Ryan.I to have had to over come alcohol addiction and Iost a lot in my life but it’s good to say I have got it all back and more today with more than 18 year and more of sober days.I love to hear stories of sobriety.Thank you so much I also have a Thai wife but we live in Australia.keep up the good work cheers buddy.Steve !!!
That's a beautiful story. Congratulations on your transformation. 👏
Thank you for your honesty. As someone who owns a pub in Thailand, this hit close to home. I dream of a more peacefully life in the mountains one day soon.
This video makes me want to go to Thailand. So beautiful, wow!! Love how you filmed while casually walking around and showing us the scenery.
I love you and Damo and your babies so much I was completely crushed and dumbfounded with Ricky losing his wife so suddenly with two babies😢😢😢. Also to be honest one of the things that kept me coming back to your channel along with everything else was a fact that you were sober being sober over 30 years I can completely understand the before and after and the misery loves company aspect.
Can’t believe how much everything has grown….massive growth of the beautiful greenery….and so it is that you too have grown into something new something stronger….
Thanks for shearing you your story with us Ryan. Been battling with it all my life. Your an inspiration
I also went down the alcohol road, lucky to come out the other side.
Honesty will never paint you in a bad light.
Interesting how similar we all are. Well presented, helpful and honest. I done the same thing in the Philippines 🇵🇭 thankfully like you, I survived it. Keep up the great work and really humbled to see how you've found your peace.
Glad you got out of it young enough to rebuild your life!
Thank you for your honesty and interesting talk too....
Greetings from South Africa 🇿🇦
Thank you Mary 🙏
I've been a follower atleast 2 years. What always brought me to your vlogs was your honesty. Much respect to you from a fellow expat.
Wow, that's a raw and unfiltered look at a difficult journey. While I'm not an expert, your story reminds everyone that hitting rock bottom isn't the end; it's the start of a climb. Thanks for sharing such a personal experience. #StrengthInStruggles
You are blessed because you survived. The experience should show you who and what matters. Take care
Thank you for today's video. Very honest and open. Wishing you and your family health, happiness and success..
Ryan, wow ! That was very raw and insightful. Thanks for sharing. This is a story that every family can relate to.
I’m glad that you have beat addiction and now live a more fulfilling lifestyle.
Stay Safe, and Stay Blessed !
Thank you Douglas - same to you and yours 🙏
Great one mate, some experiences are so great they change your life. Some never have them early enough. For me it was the loss of my greatest friend. Dreams gone for ever. The shock is such a jolt, then gradually you start living again, but differently. All the best 29:57
Ryan... I stumbled upon this video while perusing the TH-cam Recommendations. As a sober alcoholic I was drawn in by your title and as I wanted to see where the video led. I remember you in Hua Hin and I recognized several fellow Hua Hin and former Hua Hin musicians in the photos. I moved to Hua Hin in June 2015 as I was nearing the absolute bottom of a horrific 15 year relapse after I had over 22 years of sobriety. I got sober again on 4 August 2015 and began my recovery again. In my case, playing guitar and singing with the Hua Hin musicians at Thaiwaii Bar in Pak Nam Pran helped me tremendously as I had not played my guitar not drunk for 15 years. You may not remember but I bought some gear from Saxophone Lounge from you and I was at your apartment to pick it up about 4 or 5 days before you left for Phuket. We stayed in touch briefly. I wished you well. It delights me that you have taken your life back from the King Alcohol and have developed such a strong sense of self. Congratulations mate. I'm sober 8 years now and living in Khao Tao and having a wonderful life...beyond my wildest dreams. Not really playing much these days as I have taken up writing about the music scene on the Royal Coast for an online publication, Heaven is Hua Hin. Cheers mate. Maybe we'll catch up again someday. 🙏♥️
Thanks for opening up
Will share with a friend who is addicted
Hope it helps 🙏
Truly wonderful blog ❤️.
I’m 6 months sober & a new person now. You are happier because you are not carrying the burden of guilt. I used to hate myself on the inside, even though like you, I was the life & soul of the party.
You found your way out of the maze. I’m not totally out yet, but I’m getting stronger daily.
Thank you.
God bless you & your magical family ❤️
Regards Tony
Congratulations Tony 🙏😊🇹🇭
Wow, great story of your trials and tribulations with alcohol. Thanks from Seattle.
Thanks Guru , I've really enjoyed watching your brilliant videos and will enjoy watching many more.
Take care everyone.
This has been good for me to hear brother. Making me examine my own lifestyle choices and why I do it. Thanks for the honesty.
👏👏👏👏👏👏 👏 A well told life story from a self changed man. We all have a life and a story. Thank you for sharing.
I’m alcoholic on the lower level - I am 62 learnt to modify ( if you fall of wagon ) I can do six beers but can’t drink spirits usually I give up for three or four years a time- at your age I was as bad - the bottom line is don’t drink - meditation helps you win -you’ve come a long way
Ps you can still hear in your breathing you heavily smoked
I exercise and don't smoke and still become breathless speaking at times, depends on my nerves
Thank you, Ryan, that was such a brilliant vlog.... Thank you for sharing, you are such an amazing inspirational person. Have a great day.
As always interesting and thought provoking I'm sure this video will help many people takes a lot of courage to be that honest and open about your previous life. Congratulations on beating the alcohol addiction. It's great to see you in a better happier place with the wonderful Damo and your boys and extended family
Thanks for sharing Ryan. So very many of us have similar stories. It’s great to be free!!!
Amen Brenda 🙏😊
Thanks Ryan for sharing in such an honest way.
Congratulations on been sober fight your inner demons. Keep building on the beautiful life, family and home you now have. 🙏👨👩👧👧❤️🏡🙏
Big respect for being open and honest
Thank you for sharing your story. I see simulor lines with my husband in his younger years. You and Damo are perfect.
Well done for turning your life around. Inspirational. Life has many chapters and I like you!
Wow mate, that was a real in depth look at your past dead ego😮
I have been addicted to cigarettes, alcohol and mj since I was 13, lm now 53. When I was 25 l was addicted to heroin for over a year, then my wife became pregnant so we moved states and went cold turkey, that was hard.
I also became an alcoholic from the age of 40 until 48. I developed a list of physical problems including an enlarged liver, and l decided that l wanted to stick around to help my kids make it through lifes struggles, so l once again went cold turkey.
My only addiction now is smoking and I believe it's the hardest to quit, as l have tried many many times before. But as you said mushrooms, lsd, dmt etc can have a great lasting effect if you can reach ego death. Im going to pick some shrooms tomorrow and give it a crack. My pancreas will thank me for it and I will hopefully be around to see my grandchildren. Thanks for the motivation Ryan 👍❤
Dude Don't Go And Pick Shrooms FFS, Just because some else uses them. Abstinence is the Answer
@@aussiebob7923 you should do some research on psychedelics and addictions mate. Our governments have been suppressing the information for decades because they would rather we all be addicted to morphine and other big pharma toxins. It also helps with ptsd, just ask a veteran who has used it.
Once a drunk discovers that morning drink, alcoholism begins. I suffered with IV heroin addiction, meth addiction, & benzo addiction, but it was alcoholism, especially as a woman, that truly kicked my ass. Clean & sober since July 16th 2016, & LIVING PROOF THAT WE CAN & DO RECOVER FROM THE HOPELESS SLOW SUICIDE! Shout out to my fellow junkies & drunks that now choose to stay clean/sober a day at a time. Weve lost TOO MANY & counting. Let's show those who still suffer how we do it. I appreciate your honesty & personal depiction of alcoholism & redemption, especially since it may help others choose life as well. I love you all✌️❤️🙏🤘
Clean since 8/18 / heroin / New Orleans.
A truly amazing insight! You speak so well and from the heart and I really enjoy your videos. Not many people are so self-aware as your good self and they search for answers for the rest of their life. It is so inspiring to see someone firstly still living after what you went through! but also having the skill and it is a skill to talk about it in such a succinct way. I am so happy you have the life you do now. It really is a dream life and you are extremely lucky (and I am sure you know it!) to have such an incredible person by your side. You look so healthy. Congrats mate!
Kudos to you for sharing such a personal and touching story!
That insight into your life touched me with your story. You talked about your other self as being dead, and that you’re not the same person as before. I think that you’ve simply evolved and grown into the man you are now, and that’s clear to me a straight up guy, a good guy. Experience shapes you and as a result you become stronger for it. Demo sounds like a real light in your life and a real find. I wish you many more years of happiness together and be the father you can and will be brother.
Thanks!
Thank you Tim 🙏🙏
I was getting very close, like a $10 bottle n a couple $2 shots daily. Maybe a little more on weekends but still way to much. Minimal i could do was 2 $2:50 shots a day, minimal. This went on 9 months, im 43. Never been a huge drinker. So a month n a half ago i got "acute pancreatitis". The pain is so out of control i had to go to hospital. u will never drink again. Been out Of hospital a week n a half n been n 2 liqour stores for lotto, -0- craving. It sucks thats what it took but never again. Even the pain im still in hurts enough to never drink again. Dr's say its worse than pregnancy cramps. No clue if true obviously. but It took unbearable pain for me to stop unfortunitly.
I think what hit me hardest about this video was your comment at the end that we sometimes have to grieve the loss of our earlier lives, which may have been more exciting if not a bit more dangerous and certainly more superficial. In a sick way, getting rid of booze helps, because quitting booze successfully requires a complete reimagination of who you are and what your life should be. For you, the shift also seemed to be moving from a fast-paced city to the countryside. But you were wise enough to know that this change would also have to come with a change of your heart.
thanks for sharing that ryan, i had and still have problems which i wont go into too much, i have lost so many friends due to my addictions and depression, i understand everything you have said, keep staying sober, you have a great family and lifestyle now, damo is a rock, your kids will be a great example of both of you, the way you are bringing them up.
Just found you on TH-cam I have 15 years going to rent a motorcycle in January in Bangkok and then takeoff for three weeks two beautiful boys in college thinking of making life-changing decisions for me. Thank you for sharing.
Quitting alcohol can be dangerous and even deadly (as can quitting benzos) dont be afraid to go through a detox center.
A 1st time visitor to your channel and absolutely blown away by your very moving, honest story. The way you so clearly articulated the death of the old self was and the rejection you experienced was incredible. I do believe the substances you reference can create a higher state of consciousness and can release people from the prison of the artificial/ego self. Look forward to watching more of your videos. Thank you for sharing
I follow his channel as well and was very sorry to hear of his loss 😢😢
I'm more of a functioning alcoholic. I like wine, but I do rum and chasing it with distilled water sometimes. I'm on my way to quitting completely, because it doesn't work for me like it used to. Almost every day for 2-3 years starting in the late afternoon early night, so I usually sleep decently, and I eat healthy and take a number of supplements, and walk and sweat a lot to minimize the negative withdrawal effects. I used to smoke a decent amount of weed in my early 20s, but it just makes me paranoid now. I only drink alone now, but I never get violent or anything like that. More of a chill down type of drinker, but I'm really just over it. Thanks for your stories and insight, brother. Peace and love.
That is exactly what I said to myself for the first twenty years...then something bad happens and your way of handling it is to drink more. Bottom line is simple... if you are a daily drinker you are an alcholic.... it only goes downhill from there. ALCHOL IS POISON. ... that's why they put it in things like lysol - TO KILL GERMS
Since I was a child, I was called to be a Warrior Monk, Sohei (Jap. dictionary). I learned numerous Combat Forms and also developed my mindset for Total and Absolute Victory.
At least that's what I thought.
At my age of 24 when I lost my father, I became a complete drunk. The Gypsy King Tyson Fury would've said: "You a Bum".
I perpetuated this endless downward spiral of torture and weakness till I was 28, and then I quit.
I'm 37 now and I do not drink alchohol. I admit that I would try a cocktail or two on Songkran, if you or any other nice friendly folk, let's say, offer it to me and I would never buy it myself at all, but that's that, and believe me, the urge, that nasty crazy feeling is gone, and I really do feel freedom.
What made me quit?
A simple proverb from The Maasai Warriors of Kenya in The Yoruba dialect:
A SHEEP DOESN'T RUN WITH A LION. A SNAKE DOESN'T SWING WITH A MONKEY.
Salutations, Respect, Peace, Blessings, and Power, Shaman! You are something else man, I'm tellin' ya!
This was one of your best videos Ryan. Take care
Thank you 🙏
I just found your channel yesterday and have been watching quite a few of your videos. You are a cool guy and a lot of what you say resonates with me. I've had similar struggles and found much benefit from plant medicine while in Canada. I'm 36 and spend my winters in Asia, a good amount of that time in Thailand. I'd love to grab a coffee with you someday if I find myself in your general area. Keep it up and keep living the good life you've built for you and your family.
Never seen this channel before but this popped up. Didn’t even mean to watch it all. I was a fully functional addict for 30 years weed booze pills … a heart issue meant a huge overhaul of my life. And now I’m sober. I was never a problem it never hurt people around me never got to the point anyone would want to intervene. But I spent almost everyday since 16 doing something to not be normal. That last section about not being as fun anymore really resonated, I loved to party and I loved the the free flowing feeling of being high on something, no fucks given, the cushion and confidence of being elegantly wasted the opportunity for adventure or fun or even trouble. I do mourn the death of that me, and in the same instance the old me always wanted to be the new me, he just didn’t have the strength or ability to change. It took a fundamental shake up and some trauma but here I am. I’m not as fun as I was, but I am learning to be me without the crutches and I’m enjoying the challenge and loving life. 🙏🏽
Thanks
You are a hero. I'm motivated. I
Your best vlog ever ! 🙏🏼