I’m 25 and have been drinking at least half a liter a day for the last 6 years straight. I’m 7 days sober today. Thank you for sharing your story. I wish you the best.
I just reached a year … bourbon as well & anything bottle & bond & if it didn’t cost 80/ 100 bucks a bottle I wasn’t having it.. what a fucking struggle life was with this shit, relationships crumbled my hobbies where just talked about wile sitting on a bar stool,turned into a 280 pound, size 40 load ..texting a 🥃 bourbon glass at 1030 am to my ol’lady as I’m still hammered from the night before of what we’re doing tonight…The reality finally sunk in one year after i had a sonogram of my fatty liver,(never slowing down)that If I continue down this road not to mention my kids telling me I’m going to “DIE” daily wasn’t enough I don’t know what is..After all that shit I wrote why wouldn’t you want to quit.you matter to someone that loves you more then yourself !! I never comet on any of this but wanted someone to hear my story too.. ❤
Im in that boat right now but not for the first time I've had clean time before but right now sir you just told my story and gave me a great positive to move forward with sobriety again
Yeah I was a fairy successful maintenance drinker but heavy for 40 years then I went heavier, couldn't deal with hangovers any more so started morning drinking and that was the end. Within two years I was in my first of 4 detox stays. Wheeled in. Couldn't hold a pen to write or take meds. Now sober 3 full years plus 2 years where I had two short but devastating relapses. Its a tricky substance alcohol is. Things feel stable now. Not stressing over being sober or wanting a drink. Just feeling like me again. I tell you these stories and videos are as helpful as aa to me. Worlds of beautiful recovery stories. Amazing. Congratulations to you.
Thank you for your honesty and story. I’ve been a heavy drinker for 50 years. Two months ago I got sick and tired of being hungover every day. I quit, 65 years old. I don’t ever want to be that way again. It’s horrible. Thanks again.
Congratulations! I'm so glad you found sobriety! I lost my father last year to alcoholism, he was 60 years old. You overcame an obstacle that kills a lot of people, and I'm incredibly happy to read about your success in getting sober.
I lost my Dad to Alcoholic cirrhosis of the liver. His death certificate doesn't say "cirrhosis of the liver", it says "alcoholic cirrhosis of the liver". He was more than that but that is what is on his death certificate. He also worked hard and got up early. He would get up at 5am every morning whether he was working or not. When he was working, he would handle his shit and come home. He would make dinner and begin drinking. He would crush 9-12 beers before bed. He would go to bed early and get up early and repeat. He grew out of beer and switched to Vodka. He would crush a fifth an evening, often with lemonade and ice. He was well respected and made decent money. We all just thought he was stressed because of his work, we all knew he was a savage when it came to drinking and we all just figured that is how he coped with the grind. After he retired, he had nothing to keep him from drinking all day. He still got up early around 5am. He would be productive for a couple hours and then start drinking. We all thought he would slow down after he retired, the reality is that he had nothing to stop him from drinking all day since he didn't have to work. He died with a lot of regrets, he told me it wasn't worth it. He worked his entire life, only to enjoy his retirement for six years. I miss him everyday, he had a lot of bullshit he tried to drink past. I did ten years and three tours of combat in the Army and we used to say "some shit you just gotta drink past". There is no "drinking past shit". We are better off without it.
@@kathrynminnick8986 Thank you for your support. Please take care of yourself, you owe it to the people who love you even when you don't feel like you deserve it. I wish my Dad understood that.
@@Synky At least he figured it out. My Dad was also in his 60s. Take care of him. Make memories, go on trips, do "dude" shit with him. Have him form a relationship with his grand kids.
Funny, I started Jan 28 2023 but from street dope. Still sober. Although I do drink. But I don't drink like I snorted. Anyway I hope you're still sober too.
That’s amazing, congratulations on your many years of sobriety. I’m 36 and I also got sober at 32. In the past 4 years I’ve bought a house, got married, and became a father. Life is good.
You pretty much just told my story. Except I put a pint glass full of vodka on my nightstand to drink throughout the night as I’d get DT’s every few hours. I put a straw in it because my shakes were too bad to pick up a glass. I too was F&B and when I got to work I drank a few rocks glasses full of straight vodka. I’d also take my to go cup into the walk in and fill it up with the cheap box cooking wine. I did this all day just to feel normal. I also drank jager out of a coffee mug and blow on it like it was hot coffee at red lights so people would think I was drinking coffee. This was normal behavior to me. I also filled water bottles with rumple and guzzle it like it was water. I threw up constantly. I’d pull over and throw up in parking lots. But it was never food as I couldn’t eat food. I couldn’t swallow it. It was liquor and foam. I had a hernia from dry heaving for years. This is just the tip of the iceberg. In August I’ll be 14 years sober. If not for sobriety I’d for sure be dead.
Jesus man. I drink good bourbon and I know I drink a little too much. I thought about laying off it and I do sometimes. I drink it because I like the taste. I'll get a little buzz but not to where I get hammered.
@jarlwhiterun7478 Delirium tremens (DTs) is the most severe form of alcohol withdrawal. This condition can sometimes be life-threatening. DTs is possible when someone with alcohol use disorder, especially moderate or severe alcohol use disorder, suddenly stops drinking entirely.
Wow... your doing the right thing ! Take what you are and run with it. Be an example to those that need to hear it and help guide them to a future they might not otherwise have !
Work in healthcare. Cared for a patient with cirrhosis and alcohol addiction. The day of his discharge he looked at me with despair. “When I leave here, I’m going to drink. I’m going to drink even though I don’t want to. It’s like a job.” I never forgot him
Way to go! I drank like you. I celebrate 6 years sober on Sunday and I am so grateful to be out of the prison that my life had become with my drinking.
I to worked in the restaurant industry for 12 years. Im 38 years old. I drank bad for 10 years. The loss of my parents in 2013 25 days apart. I got even worse strait vodka. I wound up in jails, rehab, hospitals, going through terrible withdrawls. 2021 i was diagnosed with liver cirocchiss. July 19 2021 i got sober till this day. July 19 will be 4 years sober. Liver test in May this year showed my liver is repaired its self. It can be done. I treated my self with raw garlic, tumeric, ginger other natural foods. God bless you all.
@@11235but Hello i drank almost daily for maybe 4-5 years. Last few years strait vodka i was not eating well either. In july 2020 i got the liver cirohssis diagnosis. I am going on 4 years sober july 19. The liver can repair itself. Slow it down or stop completely. Especially hard liqour it will slowly destroy you.
Good to hear don't relapse just because your liver got healed. It's way worse if you go back. I'm trying to quit too because my drug of choice is the "pase" thats not good
I have a friend in her early 50s who was a functioning alcoholic for years... until finally it happened. She had her liver transplant 2 years ago. She came through it and is now happy and healthy again. And sober. 'It'll never happen to me.' Until it does. This is a powerful message. Keep putting it out there.
My man, came across your story as I’m sitting here in the dialysis center hooked up to a dialysis machine like I am every other day. I’m 28yrs old and need a new kidney because I drank nonstop from the minute I woke up, to when I’d pass out, every day. Lost everything and still struggling as it’s all still fairly new to me BUT all we can do is take it one day at a time. We’re still living and breathing and going strong. Hang in there brother 🙏🏼 good luck to you
Hey. As someone who’s suffered from alcoholism myself- Jesus is the only way, my friend. It’s by the grace of God we all are here everyday. It means He is not done with you. So don’t give up. Read the Bible start in the new testament then work your way backwards. He still does miracles today. He is a God of second chances. You’re worth it. Praying for full healing in Jesus name!
Everyone says Jesus is our savior for a reason. It's the truth. The ultimate healer. Appreciate life and love him to your core! May God bless you to see the truth in a world that is constantly working against God's word! You have to become selfless and entirely grateful. You got this and no matter how unpure you feel, God is waiting for you to come to him. He will cleanse you of your past.
Pardon me if this is insensitive, but do you mind me asking how much you would drink a day? I’m a 26 year old alcoholic trying to quit and I want to know if it’s too late to recover for me
@anindustryplant7449 I believe it is never too late for anyone to stop drinking you are only young doesn't matter how much you drink you can stop I am not an alcoholic but feel for you Good Luck 😊
4 years sober in September! I can’t imagine where I’d be if I kept drinking and as a professional musician, alcohol is around me all the time. It’s the best feeling having that control and knowing that I am better for myself and my music being sober.
With ya brother, I'm in my 50s and just this year came to the realization how much damage alcohol caused when it came to my music....playing, feeling, singing, everything!!! So glorious to have a clear head now!!!
I was a functional alcoholic in the restaurant industry for years. Hearing your story has so many similarities to myself and many in the industry. It takes a lot of courage to put yourself out there on the internet and sharing your worst moments, so I congratulate you brother for your courage and for you ability to change. Proud of you and pray god blesses you and those who hear this message and learn from it to quit. I quit drinking and life couldn’t be better. No more stomach aches and I dont miss work or the gym because of hangovers it’s great
Man the diarrhea is something that’s not talked about enough. Razor shredded ass every day. I just completed 11 days sober and I already feel so much better in every way.
Yes I lived off of Imodium ad and had whiskey smelled mud out of my but more days than not lol you are right! I rarely drink now days and my stomach issues are basically gone
Female, 47 years old, New York I watched a few videos about how alcohol metabolized by the body. The reason I sought out that information is that I have a hangover after just a couple of drinks over dinner, and I want to not engage with social drinking. Alcoholism could never happen to me because my system rejects alcohol due to its inability to metabolze it. So when your video popped up, I just listened out of curiosity as I prepare dinner. I decided to take time and express my respect for what you’ve been able to overcome. And more respect for your willingness to tell the world about what you’ve been through. It’s a Hero’s journey, and you are there supporting others on that same path. Best of health and happiness to you, young man. 💚🙏
I just turned 40 and I think the way I metabolize alcohol has changed just in the last year. I used to drink too much but now I'm similar to what you describe; immediate severe hangover from very little alcohol. The side effect has been sobriety so I almost feel like it's a hall pass. My body made the decision for my dumb brain.
I kept saying this! I would tell everyone how much I hated it and I didn’t want to do it but it had gotten to the point where I would have to or I would be sick with DTs. I never want to feel like that ever again.
You start out loving it but eventually you just get to the point where you absolutely fucking hate it. At least that's how a lot of people are including myself.
Damn, I’m lookin in a mirror and listening to a story scarily like mine. Down to damn near every detail. Glad I found this channel. On day 7 for the 10,000th time. Godspeed man. Subscribed. And thank you for sharing.
Your descriptions are so realistic that it’s bringing every detail back that I never want to think about again. I need that reminder still, even after 7 years. I never want to forget how bad it was.
Something you just mentioned struck me hard. I used to hate hearing that ice hit my mom's glass around 4:30/5 every morning. 🤬🥺 I wish you the very best, Sweetie. 😊
Cook/Chef for almost 40 yrs. People dont realize how stressful restaurant work is. Especially if youre the man in charge. Kudos to you for telling your story.
I can p ly imagine. Ive always thought wow alot of things have to go right in order for all these meals to be coming out in a timely manner. Looks very stressful
It can be a pretty toxic environment. The only break you get is to have a 5 min smoke out back. There is access to alcohol even after hours. Someone knows a dealer.. I did 7 years in that industry starting in high school and finally said "no thanks!" when I was 22
It seems to be a pattern in the restaurant industry-one that should be recognised. Pressure and immediately available booze lead to higher levels of drinking than normal.
I'm just shy of a month sober from fourth attempt at detox and sobriety. Round the clock drinker. Only thing I have to add to your routine is my body would start to go into withdrawal if there was a two hour gap between drinks. So, at my worst would drink myelf to sleep, catch two to three hours best case of horrid restless sleep, wake up vomit at 3:00 AM, pound a half dozen standard drinks to get back to sleep (usually a valium to cap it off) smoke a bunch of cigarettes, pass out, wake at 5:00 AM vomit mostly bile (as I'd only ever have food in the evening if at all) three sets or until there was nothing but dry wretching going on. Make myself an Irish coffee and my partner a normal espresso. She'd hit the road for work at 6:30 and I'd get loaded all day until she got home. Sling some green, at the pub or from home and busk/gig the local pubs and clubs. Rinse and repeat. I could feel every organ labouring. Was pissing out of evey orifice. Anxiety went through the roof everytime I wasn't baseline lubed up. My LFT was 2700! (Normal functioning liver is ideally around 60-70). In the last three years I've been to professional detox 3 tines and this most recent time from home. I lasted 3 months dry first time round, then close to five, then close to six the time before this. This time I've been clean a month come Sunday. I feel you man. I've kicked heroine, speed, benzos etc. Booze is the hardest of the lot all told. The most positive thing about suffering through kicking habitual drinking is how quickly you see the results, the reward for the pain, in health both mental and physical and the strain it takes off those who love you and have had to watch the snail paced suicide (and that being just those facets you can't hide from them). It's mind boggling when you consider how much a part of regular life it is. Imagine if society treated smack in the same way, with the same legality, accessibility, and acceptance as alcohol! It's unthinkable. But booze is far from a soft drug. It's a liquid nerve toxin made from microbial waste products and it's cheap and readily available on every other corner and you can barely watch TV or surf the net without it popping up in your field of vision multiple tines on the daily. It's a slog, no joke. Best of luck sticking to whatever gets you over it people xMx
@jaywatson9493 round the clock for about 10 years daily... Unfortunately I've relapsed in the last month and have a date for detox, yet again. Swings and roundabouts.
Be very proud of yourself for making this video. I can't imagine how much courage it takes to be this honest in a video. I don't drink at all. I am 54 and have been a sober man all of my life. But, the reason I watched your video, is because I lost my younger brother (42) in 2016 in part to alcoholism. When you mentioned throwing up every morning, I almost started to shed a tear. Because, my brother and I lived together at the time of his passing. And I could hear him throwing up in bathroom in every morning. I miss my brother tremendously. I dream about him now and again. I wish he was here today, to make a video just like yours, triumphant in conquering his alcohol addiction. But he's no longer on this planet. I for you and your family all the best.
Sorry about your loss. ❤ I hope you don’t mind but could I ask you once at that point of throwing up in the morning is that basically when they are close to the end? Or what does the throwing up daily mean for them at that point please? Ty
@@melaniec3819 I doubt it means the end. Because my brother did this for years. It was part of his morning, unfortunately. My brother's end came when, one morning in particular, he did not feel well. He went to Emergency room. They misdiagnosed him, giving some medicine to drink over the weekend. When in actuality, my brother had either a stomach or intestinal ulcer that was leaking into his body and blood creating sepsis. He went to Emergency on Friday morning. Spent weekend at home in his room drinking stomach medicine. By sunday afternoon, he was going into a coma or something, hardly mobile. Sepsis was overloading his organs. An ambulance took him out of house. He was in hospital with a tube in his throat for exsctly 7 days, when he passed away on the next Sunday. It was horrible to witness it all. And so helpless. It is why I implore every alcoholic reading this, fight the good fight! You all must and can beat the alcohol demon(s) for your sake first and foremost, but also... for your loved ones who will miss you terrubly should alcohol take your life.
@@bobo-boho Hi Thank you for answering and I’m so sorry that must have been very hard for you too. The reason I asked is because my ex he throws up every morning obviously he has always tried hiding it but I noticed a lot of things like his weight drastic loss, hadn’t eaten all day long and at a restaurant for my children party everyone was eating he just sat there. He gets agitated out of nowhere nobody even did anything. So that’s why I asked about the throwing up as it’s been years of him doing it… Thank you..
I could remember few years back after my wife died, I was left alone with 3 kids. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Got addicted to alcohol and cigarettes. Not until a friend recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment changed my life for better. I can proudly say i'm totally clean for 6 years and still counting. Always look to nature for solution to tough problems, Shrooms are phenomenal.
I love hearing great life changing stories like this. I want to become a mycologist because honestly mushrooms are the best form of medicine (most especially the psychedelic ones) There are so many people today used magic mushrooms to ween off of SSRI medication- its amazing! Years back i wrote an entire essay about psychedelics. they saved you from death buddy, lets be honest here.
Thanks for sharing your story. That's rough I sympathize. Save your health save your mind. Life is better without heroin, cocaine, alcohol and cigarettes. And you have more money in your pocket. God bless everyone who has rejected the devils intentions to be addicted to alcohol and cigarettes etc which can cause so much damage to health. I will pray for you all.
I too love hearing about others that have made it back.I got addicted cause of a car accident in 2007 that I am still in pain from,that doctors say is only arthritis then they took my pain meds and put me suboxone since Sept 2nd 2021. Even if I take it or not I still have that pain, so afraid I'm gonna git sucked back in to the pills cause I can't even work but can't get disability either so idk what folks like me do but prayer is all I have done and still the pain so idk anymore 😢 sorry for rambling. Just searched on chrome and sent him a message. I would really love to go with this treatment as well
I appreciate you sharing this. This sounds so much like my cousin's daily life before he passed from cirrhosis. He would start his day with a drink because he got the shakes if he didn't, and it made him nervous to drive because he'd swerve a lot if he drove sober. By that point, he had 2 DUIs and was afraid to get another. It made him equally nervous to drive after his morning drink, but he felt trapped. He also needed to have a drink to sleep, but it was never restful sleep. He went through the same rough mornings as you; intense heartburn, vomiting, the constant diarrhea. For the longest time, we had no idea how much he was suffering. I wish he could have gotten better. Your videos bring me a kind of comfort I didn't expect. It's good to know that there are people who can recover.
Today is July 9th. I woke up sick as a dog today like every day but something was different. Now I know it was to watch this video and get better. Thank you so much
I'm 41 and finally was able to quit after a seriously rough 20+ years of hard drinking. I am now 7 years sober. I tried for years to quit and nearly died numerous times in the process. Quitting... Trust me it was hard, but I did it and so can you all. None of you are alone and Y'all are way tougher than you think. Ya'll are some of the toughest people on this earth, believe it or not right now. This demon seeks out the toughest people to attack and destroy. Don't let it! Stay strong brothers and sisters! You can beat it! There is a light at the end of this dark path. Keep pushing and you will start to see it. Thank you for this video.
Grew up in an alcoholic home. Lost my sister to alcohol and a SIL. My father died a week ago today. All my siblings and mother are alcoholics. I've always been the outsider, black sheep in my family. Not a drop in 40 years. We all have free will and make our own choices. Im happy with mine. Best wishes, everyone.
Wow well done!!!! Exactly what i try telling my 21yr old daughter. Her father drank and slowly killed himself. Died at 51. Cant believe she didnt learn from it.
LD, this literally made me cry. I felt so sorry for you and me too, for what we lived through every day just to drink. Pitiful. But now we are free from that bondage,thank God.
I'm a everyday beer drinker. I've lost so much weight because I chose the buzzed feeling yet knowing my stomach says feed me .I am praying to change this with God's help for sobriety!
I came to in Aug 95 by praying honestly that I was willing to go thru anything to get sober.. all I drank was beer I wound up at midnight in front of a liquor store waiting for a 12 pack to keep up my buzz On the radio I heard Jerry Garcia had passed in a detox center and I heard a voice say, if Jerry Garcia who has millions of fans can die in a lonely place like that.. what will become of you? That was 6 mos after I’d prayed. Lost my desire Have not wanted to drink since then Pray, it works !’
Advice from personal experience; you better start eating something while drinking, and don't drink on an empty stomach. Those stomach ulcers ain't fun, and more importantly; you will have to lay off the drink for about a month for those to heal enough for you not to vomit up blood actively. You don't need that.
Thank you for sharing your story. I’m 27 years old and a little over 2 years sober. I was drinking every day for years, fluctuating how extreme it was, but many periods averaging more than a fifth of liquor a day. Head injuries, seizures, throwing up every morning, the whole deal. Life is so much better now. Unbelievably grateful for AA and all the wonderful people in it. If you’re watching this and you have a similar story, I pray that you can seek help. Sobriety is so much better, and more fun (!), than I ever could've imagined.
Awesome. I recently did 115 days a decided to let myself drink again because I needed a break from being so damn sober and still lonely. I was hoping going that long without drinking would have made me happier. Not that simple.
Well done you I’m so proud of your progress!! It’s so poignant because I lost my brother my only sibling to alcoholism He died a few years ago too young I’m the last one off my original family My daddy died from prostrate cancer my mummy to dementia and recently my brother….. I tried everything to help by talking to him……Pleading with him to stop drinking Pleading so I wouldn’t need to bury him as well like my Mummy and Daddy I ended up burying him too It selfish !! You are being selfish to your family I got the dreaded phone call 2 am that my big brother had died !! The finality of hearing that message still gives me the chills Death is so final Nothing more could be done I just kept crying hugging my husband to me saying he’s dead he dead he’s dead My brother is dead I don’t have a sibling anymore I’m the last of my original family of 4 I hope someone reading my story will understand the heart break of losing a brother so young If I can help one person from a terrible death then my brothers life won’t me in Vain or make them think about how bad drinking huge amounts of vodka does it does I remember the first time he was admitted into hospital A nurse chatting to me She said how much do you know about your brother condition and I said I know he’s an alcoholic he will get better now since he’s been hospitalised She said I’m sorry I need to speak to you about this ! How much do you understand Your brother said I have permission to tell you this She said even if your brothers stopped drinking today and never touches alcohol again He’s going to die !! I remember squealing No ! No! No! That’s a lie isn’t it Your not being truthful to me And she shook her head and said Your brother organs are all failing ! He was on a knife edge many times ! He had tear in his oesophagus 3 times and needed surgery all of those times They would dry him out in the hospital and he would buy alcohol on the way home !! but he eventually he did die for real ! His wife was going to put him in a nursing home but he died suddenly and I have never been able to come to terms with it forever and ever I hope and pray you get help before it’s too late
So many similarities. It really is mind-blowing now when you think of what lengths we'd go to, how much we'd play mind games with ourselves and others to just stay drunk and not feeling. I'm sober with You, 3yrs for me, and I'm struggling to stay alive. Your story will help so many. Once again, thank you for your vulnerability and sharing from the ❤
Congratulations on 3 years my friend! I'm so sorry that you can relate to my story. It really is crazy what we will do for a buzz. Thank you! God bless❤❤❤
94 days clean today and I'm so so grateful to be here. I found this story really touching because I could totally relate to the insanity that my life had become. Planning my entire day around drinking to avoid feeling awful/withdrawal symptoms. There is so much joy to be had and life to live in sobriety, so anyone can do it!! Just surround yourself with a good recovery community and work at it every single day. You can do it!!
rinse and repeat. I just was explaining this to my stepdad last night who is a recovering alcoholic trying to describe what I’m going through right now. I’m praying for us all❤
It's definitely not an easy process! I know myself as I had a few ups and downs throughout my journey, however, I'm now 3,023 days sober and living a fulfilling life! From my own experiences of the ups and downs and isolation, I'm launching a community/program on 4th July for anyone struggling with addictions to come along to. So if you're ever having a bad day or wanting to share your story, you're more than welcome to come along! It's possible to overcome!
Dear heavens! Thank you for scaring the crap out of me. I have been prone to excessive alcohol use, and hearing your story just made me feel like never drinking again! Thank you for sharing your story
I have 6 months sober after 18 years of drinking. Deep in AA and working the steps praying to God every day that I stay sober. Such a deadly disease. Love your honesty!! Good luck ❤
I admire you for being so honest and transparent LD! You are the realest TH-camr I have ever watched and I pray you have many, many healthy years ahead!! God Bless!
I'm still an active alcoholic of 37 years and even though I only drink beer listen to this young man because it doesn't matter what your choices are, the results are the same! Im 53 yrs old now and trust me, when this man talks about the anxiety and paranoia, its certainly out there if you choose it!
hey LD! like you, i much prefer my days these days, as you do yours, when comparing drinking days to sober days. just keeping the memories of those yesterdays keeps me motivated for today, and with optimism, for tomorrow. peace.
Hey David!!!! Hope you are doing well brother! Going to be doing a live again this week, hope you can come with that wrench! You are so right.... this life, is not even comparable to the later!!!! Thank you brother! God bless😊😊😊❤❤❤
I drank beer every day from the age of 20 years old to the age of 57. A functioning alcoholic I'd say. Worked hard in a hot factory for 35 years. Most of my co-workers followed suit. Work hard, play hard. When the 8 hour day was done, it was a run to the beer store every night after work. You see, I would buy a quart of beer every night for the ride home, (12 miles), then I had plenty of beer when I got there. I consumed 6-12 beers every night from 11:30pm to 2-3 am, plus the quart. I woke up at 7am every morning. Work at home got done. Bills got paid, and I never drank before work, or, during work, ever. I retired. Ran into some irregular heartbeat issues, started a heart medication and quit drinking. I just quit. I still have 20 beers in my beer fridge. I'm not sure why because I'll never drink again. I've never told anybody this and I'm not sure why I just did. The video showed up in my feed and I watched it. I guess I'm just so stubborn and the hate I would have for myself if I drank again, keeps me on the path I need to be on. I wish all of you well with whatever cross you have to bear. Thanks for the video. It is part of your journey.
The sweating it out everyday helped you. You didn’t actually have a problem I’d say, not like some I’ve heard of. When you work hard and sweat all day it’s not as hard on your liver as those who don’t ever sweat.
I drank a handle every day for 12 years (vodka). I’m 39 and my sober date was 4/20/20. Your story resonates especially for me. I’m sorry you felt like you were the only one for so long. No one experiencing such addiction should feel so alone. Stay up my man, you ever find yourself needing help, remember there are many of us out there who don’t mind shedding a little light.
Man great video. shows the reality of alcohol addiction . These videos really do help people I know because they help me keep on the right path . Thank you so much for doing these
I was this before I read two books: Alan Carr’s Easy Way to Quit Drinking and Naked Mind. These books reprogrammed my brain. I quit cold turkey and had my 5 year soberverssary on March 29, 2024. ❤
You look so healthy and clean in the sunlight with the gorgeous trees behind you, telling us how it was for you and showing us who you are now... Kudos! you are a warrior and an inspiration. I salute you ❤ God Bless
I'm an occasional drinker. Mostly on weekends but lately I've noticed it has started creeping into the week days. I'm not an alcoholic however I can see how it could slowly creep up on anyone. Thanks for sharing
I’ve cut back drinking a lot. Only drink occasionally. If you’re occupied with other things it helps. I drank because I was bored and lonely. Now I’m okay with being lonely lol
LD, I have been watching You Tube for quite a few years and today I subscibed to my first Channel, and it was yours. The reason for this was because of your video on the 24th July about hiding liquor and how at the end of your video you showed your heartfelt love, care and affection for your channel's community. This really touched me. Thank you LD for your courage and honesty and how through your lifes journey you are wanting to improve lives across the world. I salute you, and your wife for sticking by you and being part of your recovery and your amazing channel that I am sure is saving and improving lives. God bless you both.
It took a liver transplant to get me to stop at 42, now 44. Still dont feel worthy of that. Life is different but listen to this mans advice. If you want help, only you can get help. Being sober is amazing, the now social isolation however, isnt.
I know the world makes God out to be for kooks but he is the answer. He will show you that youre worthy and lead you to a community to help with loneliness. Love him out of gratefulness and let him guide you with everything you have!
Man... That all sounds so EXHAUSTING. I lived a similar life during the worst point of my addiction. What a nightmare. I don't think I managed that quantity, but a lot even still.. and I cannot imagine ever going back. It's crazy the things we did and put up with because of our addictions. I am so glad that any of us here who lived like this and were able to move on did... And I pray every day that those who are still stuck there find the strength to move on. Sending so much love to everyone here, struggling or not! Wonderful topic, friend. You really described what an exhausting, living hell career drinking can become. ❤❤❤❤
@@CraigFox-lt6lt thanks, Craig!! I hope you're having a great week 💞 Yes, absolutely...again, while I'm so sorry for the health issues that our friend is going through now, I'm so glad that he's living such a better life now. Craig, you should be so proud of yourself for the life you're living now and you should as well, LD!! ❤️❤️❤️
@Reggaechild hey!! Of course I remember you! I was wondering how you were doing! I'm always around on both this channel and Slayer's!!! Glad to see you again, friend. How are you?
@@amandaflaherty7528 Awesome! I’m doing alright just trying my best! I’m glad to see you again too! I’m on both channels a lot too! I had been also wondering about you glad to hear from you!
This entire video has been the last three or four years of my life. Progressing into an absolute whirlwind of addiction. You never think anyone’s living quite the same life that you are until they say it out loud and then you realize how not alone you are. This was so meaningful and impactful. I sure appreciate you sharing. Thank you.
That’s amazing because I drank a lot but as long as I believed I had or was having fun that it was okay but when I found out how isolated and depressed I really was I started realizing I drank myself into a a situation that was not normal for anyone and luckily I was smart enough to get help !!!! I hope anyone reading this makes the decision to Stop Drinking and be happy about that because it may turn out to be the best and smartest and bravest decision ever …
Thank you so much man!!! You are so right! It's the best decision that one can make for themselves. The endless cycle is not worth it. Hope all is well my friend! God bless😊😊😊😊
There were quite a few things you mentioned that I can totally relate to. Especially being drunk or hungover at work and just feeling miserable. So many times I wanted to call in sick and stay home, but usually I would drag myself to work, or wherever I needed to be. I felt so bad, I'd be literally counting the seconds until it was time for me to go home. Such a horrible way to live and I'm so glad I don't have to live that way anymore. Your story just goes to show that no matter who you are or what you've done, you are not alone. Lots of people out there have had the same experiences as you, myself included. For me, watching your videos really is like looking in the mirror at times; been there, done that! Alcoholism, or any other addiction for that matter, is absolutely exhausting and NOBODY should have to live like that! But you're right, above all else you have to want to get sober for you, not just for others! Thanks for sharing this story, LD! 🙏❤
Hey David! Man.... im sorry that you can relate so much. I know exactly what you mean about counting the seconds to go home!!! Only to get off and do it again! Smh.... im so glad that we both are done with that nonsense! God bless❤❤❤❤
David, I have been there and done that too! It’s a horrible thing we all put ourselves through. I’m on Day 23 but there’s absolutely no turning back. I’m very happy that you made it out of Hell too! I’m so thankful for LD & his Honesty! I believe 100% that he is going to overcome any health problems. ❤
@@davidlafond8327 David, I thought getting opiates were bad news but alcohol is just as bad or worse! You are right. We are all going to get through this Together!
I quit drinking regularly at 53. Had to do it every Saturday. Had to...decided I was done wondering what I had said or done and feeling like I was hit over the head with a $h*#bag every Sunday morning for 20 years. No more excuses. If you are adjusting your life around alcohol and making excuses to use alcohol, those are warning signs to stop. Because if it takes over, it ruins your health and your life. Thanks again LD, keep inspiring.
I appreciate your willingness to share the ugly details of your addiction story, all of the little moments of shame and pain that you share are really important to hear about. Especially hearing about how you drove while so afraid of crashing. Addiction leads people into these impossible to imagine situations, and only in retrospect do we see how lost we were. Letting others hear the depths of your experience is helpful and motivating
I have no idea why I enjoy your videos so much as I'm not an alcoholic. I enjoy a couple beers every few days, but that's the extent of it. Maybe one heavy night every 3-4 months. However, I do have a gambling addiction, and I've struggled with it for nearly 15 yrs since my early 20s. So even though we have completely different stories, we share the burden of our addiction. My physical health may not have suffered, but every other ramification i can empathise with - the deceit, lies, anxiety, shame, self-loathing, anger. It's inspires me greatly that even amidst the most intense adversity, you're pulling through, looking great and doing good things to raise awareness amongst the wider addict community. Much love from the UK.
Hey Mark! Thank you so much for this! I am so glad that you are here! Addiction is Addiction, however you slice it. We lie, cheat, and steal to get where we want to be. Thank you for watching! God bless😊😊😊❤❤
I know how the anxiety is when you’re hungover the next day. Sometimes I thought I would lose my mind or I was going to die of a heart attack or stoke. Almost all alcoholism can be traced back to depression or anxiety caused by underlying trauma.
@@check4v Agreed. I also cannot stand the term alcoholic, I prefer alcohol addict or alcohol addiction, it's a kinder term for people who are already beating the shit out of themselves. "Alcoholic" is similar to "junkie" to my ears and it's not a kind label. I'm a former alcohol addict and I find that easier to use, it's not as shaming.
I’m a chef as well. Alcoholism is rampant in the cooking industry. My brother cooks as well and he’s still in really bad shape… hoping he changes soon. Love the videos and would love to see that old video of when you were chef.
Yes I waited tables years ago and we would literally drink all night until the morning; I was only 19 at the time ; I realize that's when my drinking began It's so true about drinking making anxiety so much worse/amplified, and then having to chase it down again with more alcohol. LD this is so vivid for me to hear; I Thank You
As in nursing too.. after the 3-11 shift we’d go to grab one or even after working night shift.. I can’t help but wonder if addiction runs in the service industry..
Hey there! It really is rampant in the industry. Everyone drinks or does drugs or both for the most part. Late night parties after work, going to the bar, "wine tasting...." . You know all about it. Especially when the wine rep comes in and you need to find some wine for a wine dinner..... I would get drunk tasting. I hope that your brother stops too my friend. Thank you for being here! God bless😊😊😊😊
I worked with 15 chefs over 7 years , as a waitress and substance abuse was rife among all of us. Chefs work very hard, it was hot, sweaty work, split shifts and it was tough on them.
After hearing your story and reading the comments below it really highlights the fact that there are probably thousands of people driving drunk on a daily basis or even drinking while driving . And the worst is coworkers, friends, spouses etc. know what’s happening yet do not intervene. Thanks for sharing.
LD! Raw story ! It sounds like such a difficult struggle and time. The best part if this is the fact you survived and are spreading awareness and help. Hugs n blessings to you LD. Thank God 🙏🏼💚
I never thought I’d have a problem with alcohol but, it has gotten worse over the years. Last night I had two glasses of wine and 5 beers after I finish work around 10pm. And that has been the norm for about 6 months now. I did take a break for a whole month, then my birthday came around one drinks leads to another, then one day turned into drinking everyday for months. I do believe that this is the early stages of alcoholism and if I don’t stop it will get worse. But luckily, one of my other addiction is going to the gym, so no matter how many drinks I have the night before, I would always drag myself to the gym. I had my last drink last night and I will cut of this addiction right here. Because I know my health will deteriorate, and I know me feeling numb 24/7 isn’t good for relationships and this has affected me in the pass with ex gf. I never knew what it was but now I know, it wasn’t that the relationship never worked. But it was me not feeling anything. If you’re struggling right now you can stop. No many how far you are. ❤
I started Friday night and drank til Sunday night. Weekends for 5 years, straight. That doesn't mean I never drank during the week, I started after 5 when I got home and made myself stop at 11pm. I had to. I was petrified to be homeless and that was my drive to finally get to dexox and then rehab. Best thing I ever did. Thank you for sharing your words of wisdom, strength and courage. Proud of you!!
Do it before it is too late. My brother died at 36 due to Liver failure. All because of alcohol. 6 weeks in intensive care. 2 weeks in a coma. 2 heart attacks. They couldnt stabilise his Liver so was given morphine as a way to be able to comfortably leave this reality. Sadest thing was, he was ill for weeks beforehand and didnt tell anyone about it (he lived 600 miles from me so not easy to drop in to see him). By the time he was taken to hospital, it was too late. He had been ouking so much his voice box was permanently damaged, so he couldnt even speak in hospital. To anyone on the same path as my brother - Realise that your actions have consequences beyond just yourself. There are people that will be affected by your actions. His death will be the most painful experience of my life. That pain will be with me fir the rest of my existence. I no longer have a sibling, the dreams of getting older and playing backgammon together on a porch are gone.
My brother died on 6/28/24. We didn't know it, but he was in the end stage of cirrhosis and chronic pancreatitis. We had seen his on Mother's Day and knew he was shockingly I'll. He was thin, sedate, didn't eat, totally not himself. His color was yellowish grey. I knew something was terribly wrong. It was a very quick visit as we met at our Mom's in Colorado, him from Northern Wyoming, and us from Phoenix. Three weeks later, we got a call that he was in the ICU in liver failure in WY. Husband and I flew up the next day and stayed with him about a week. His condition was horrifying. He had hepatic encephalopathy, further weight loss, bruises over his arms... We had to leave back to our jobs, and he had improved to get admitted to a regular care floor. I called almost every day to talk. He was discharged on 6/20/24, and drove 5 hours to southeast Wyoming to a rehab facility to gain strength and then into alcohol rehab. He passed away there on 6/28/24. He was only 48. He was a wonderful soul. Always seemed happy, we so intelligent and unique. I wish I could have known what triggered him to drink...I want to say I would have tried to stop him, but I know the reality. I am gutted. I'm so traumatically sad learning about the suffering he went through alone. I had no idea how sick he was. I don't know if I will ever get over it.
Your honesty is very much appreciated and says so much about you, stay strong, you may look back in pain but be proud of how your doing now , proud of you sir
I am praying for your continued recovery, miracles will happen! It's so obvious how much you love your family, how much they love you, and how you have worked to support them, it can be very stressful and overwhelming to support a family. You also have the support of your Mom, which says so much. So much to live for, you deserve decades more🙏. New subscriber here, thank you for sharing your story, it means so much more than you know, hugs to you and your family🤗
Dear Brother…I literally have no words to describe your honesty and openness with this video. Although I was never a morning drinker, I completely understand some of the things you referenced…on the toilet for at least 30 minutes (that still happens often unfortunately…sorry for the TMI…lol), being afraid to drive to work (out here in Metropolitan Phoenix AZ we don’t have any back roads, so I had to navigate the freeway…uggg)…the sitting on the back porch drinking and smoking after work until I couldn’t drink or smoke anymore…the excitement and also DREAD of having a day off and having to deal with the “return to work day”…I called off MANY of those days…it was a nightmare!!! Those days are over, as I am practicing the Sinclair Method to control my drinking. I don’t know how I survived it, and I NEVER want to be there again! God Bless You Brother…YOU are an inspiration to MANY! ❤️✌️❤️
I would always come home after work, have a shower, and shit out yesterday’s hangover, and drink on the toilet for a few hours. So sad 😅. Even had my speaker and phone plugged in with a bucket bong next to me. A tragic ritual.
Good luck to you. I drank my pancreas away - in 2016, I had a life-changing pancreatic attack. Numerous surgeries and 9 months later, I could walk again. Devastating. Havnt drank since and am doing very well.
This video brings back memories and makes me feel so grateful for almost 3 years free of alcohol. That was the one thing that really caused too loose control. Alcoholism is a brutal cycle to be stuck in. If you’re going through it, do whatever it takes to get sober. It’s possible, don’t loose hope. If you’re going through withdrawals, go to the hospital and seek help from the ER.
Watching this is like listening to my own life for the past 4 years.. almost everything you were talking about I was doing as well.. eventually I ended up drinking myself into alcohol induced psychosis and ended up having some close friends of mine take me to a detox facility.. I’m now two weeks sober and I feel so much better. I’ve been to the doctor twice since I left that place and my liver enzymes are pretty bad but not to the point where they can’t be fixed, but I’m 26 years old and have already done that much damage to my body. So please listen to this man!! If any of y’all are going through this and think you can’t get sober you’re wrong! It’s a rough road to go down but I promise you will feel so much better. Dying from alcoholism is not any kind of way to go out. ❤
I'm proud of you, thank you for sharing your story. I smoked for over forty years then I had the lung cancer wake up call. I quit over three years ago. I also drank for way too long. Not everyone understands but addiction is a very powerful thing. I wish only the best for you and everyone else on here that took the journey to sobriety. Life is wonderfull now.
You have been through So much ! This Illness is so cruel ! How many illnesses do people have to hide from their family friends work colleagues in fear of their ‘judgement’ ! Whilst suffering such physical symptoms besides the shame ! fear ! Often pushing you’re body and mind to the max to ‘make it up to those who you feel not worthy’ huge load to carry !! Such a strain on you’re poor body ! You’re a walking miracle ! And all those who are suffering the effects of this illness sending Love 💗 and Respect to you my Friend ✨
@@liverdisease-qb6rkYes It Is Horrible!!! Thank you so much for this video! I’m really going through something right now and I really needed to hear this right this minute. 23 Days Sober and Strong about it!💯♥️👍
I’m 25 and have been drinking at least half a liter a day for the last 6 years straight. I’m 7 days sober today. Thank you for sharing your story. I wish you the best.
Amazing! Keep going!
You're not depriving yourself of something, you're opening up you're life to much more than you had.
That'll kill you. Eventually. And no fun in the process.
So sorry for your suffering.
Try to focus on joy of the future overpowering the bottle.
You never NEED to drink again. Congrats my friend, you can do this!
How do you feel?
I drank a bottle of Bourbon and some beers, or an equivalent, daily for about 40 years. August 6 will be my one-year anniversary sober.
Good for you! Keep going!!!! 👏👏
I'm so proud of you!
👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻
Good job!! Keep up the good work my friend🙂
I just reached a year … bourbon as well & anything bottle & bond & if it didn’t cost 80/ 100 bucks a bottle I wasn’t having it.. what a fucking struggle life was with this shit, relationships crumbled my hobbies where just talked about wile sitting on a bar stool,turned into a 280 pound, size 40 load ..texting a 🥃 bourbon glass at 1030 am to my ol’lady as I’m still hammered from the night before of what we’re doing tonight…The reality finally sunk in one year after i had a sonogram of my fatty liver,(never slowing down)that If I continue down this road not to mention my kids telling me I’m going to “DIE” daily wasn’t enough I don’t know what is..After all that shit I wrote why wouldn’t you want to quit.you matter to someone that loves you more then yourself !! I never comet on any of this but wanted someone to hear my story too.. ❤
I drank whiskey straight shots all day and if I woke up at night. I'm coming up on one year sober in October 2024. Thank God for never leaving me.
Keep it up you're an inspiration and worthy of happiness!
God bless you
Keep going strong ! You got this!
Maybe you ought to start banging on doors on Sunday would bring your prayer book😅😅
Congratulations on your sobriety!!!
No clickbait on this channel, just brutal honesty.
Yep 👍🏻
Thank you so much for saying that my friend! God bless❤❤❤
Facts!💯
TRUTH ❤Thank you
Im in that boat right now but not for the first time I've had clean time before but right now sir you just told my story and gave me a great positive to move forward with sobriety again
24 hour a day drinker here, thankfully got all the help I needed and continue now to be sober for more than 1,000 days.
@@ianpullman203 Amazing, keep on going!
How did you do it
Yeah I was a fairy successful maintenance drinker but heavy for 40 years then I went heavier, couldn't deal with hangovers any more so started morning drinking and that was the end. Within two years I was in my first of 4 detox stays. Wheeled in. Couldn't hold a pen to write or take meds. Now sober 3 full years plus 2 years where I had two short but devastating relapses. Its a tricky substance alcohol is. Things feel stable now. Not stressing over being sober or wanting a drink. Just feeling like me again. I tell you these stories and videos are as helpful as aa to me. Worlds of beautiful recovery stories. Amazing. Congratulations to you.
Thank you for your honesty and story. I’ve been a heavy drinker for 50 years. Two months ago I got sick and tired of being hungover every day. I quit, 65 years old. I don’t ever want to be that way again. It’s horrible. Thanks again.
I bet your liver is fu$%ed..
God bless you
Congratulations on your sobriety!!!
Congratulations! That's wonderful!
Congratulations! I'm so glad you found sobriety! I lost my father last year to alcoholism, he was 60 years old. You overcame an obstacle that kills a lot of people, and I'm incredibly happy to read about your success in getting sober.
I lost my Dad to Alcoholic cirrhosis of the liver. His death certificate doesn't say "cirrhosis of the liver", it says "alcoholic cirrhosis of the liver". He was more than that but that is what is on his death certificate. He also worked hard and got up early. He would get up at 5am every morning whether he was working or not. When he was working, he would handle his shit and come home. He would make dinner and begin drinking. He would crush 9-12 beers before bed. He would go to bed early and get up early and repeat. He grew out of beer and switched to Vodka. He would crush a fifth an evening, often with lemonade and ice. He was well respected and made decent money. We all just thought he was stressed because of his work, we all knew he was a savage when it came to drinking and we all just figured that is how he coped with the grind. After he retired, he had nothing to keep him from drinking all day. He still got up early around 5am. He would be productive for a couple hours and then start drinking. We all thought he would slow down after he retired, the reality is that he had nothing to stop him from drinking all day since he didn't have to work. He died with a lot of regrets, he told me it wasn't worth it. He worked his entire life, only to enjoy his retirement for six years. I miss him everyday, he had a lot of bullshit he tried to drink past. I did ten years and three tours of combat in the Army and we used to say "some shit you just gotta drink past". There is no "drinking past shit". We are better off without it.
Sorry for your loss. Your comment is powerful.
@@kathrynminnick8986 Thank you for your support. Please take care of yourself, you owe it to the people who love you even when you don't feel like you deserve it. I wish my Dad understood that.
Sounds so much like my dad as well, except he quit in his 60s cold turkey and is still with me today thankfully. Sorry for your loss.
@@Synky At least he figured it out. My Dad was also in his 60s. Take care of him. Make memories, go on trips, do "dude" shit with him. Have him form a relationship with his grand kids.
@@Synky Share my sentiment with him by telling him my story and let him know that I am grateful for his recovery.
Started my sober journey january 29th 2023. Best thing ive ever done.
congratulations phil:)
Nice!
It can be done 12 yrs sober. A few falls but I got sick and tired of it just so sick of it and that was it . Good luck
Funny, I started Jan 28 2023 but from street dope.
Still sober. Although I do drink. But I don't drink like I snorted.
Anyway I hope you're still sober too.
This brought back a lot of memories for me. i got sober at 32 and I'm 65 so it is doable.
That’s amazing, congratulations on your many years of sobriety.
I’m 36 and I also got sober at 32. In the past 4 years I’ve bought a house, got married, and became a father. Life is good.
@@binkyboy8 Congratulations! That's incredible to hear!
That is amazing! You must be so proud! I'm 3,023 days sober and living a fulfilling life after addiction!
A genuine inspiration, I needed to see this, thank you for commenting.
@@binkyboy8 ❤❤❤
You pretty much just told my story. Except I put a pint glass full of vodka on my nightstand to drink throughout the night as I’d get DT’s every few hours. I put a straw in it because my shakes were too bad to pick up a glass. I too was F&B and when I got to work I drank a few rocks glasses full of straight vodka. I’d also take my to go cup into the walk in and fill it up with the cheap box cooking wine. I did this all day just to feel normal. I also drank jager out of a coffee mug and blow on it like it was hot coffee at red lights so people would think I was drinking coffee. This was normal behavior to me. I also filled water bottles with rumple and guzzle it like it was water. I threw up constantly. I’d pull over and throw up in parking lots. But it was never food as I couldn’t eat food. I couldn’t swallow it. It was liquor and foam. I had a hernia from dry heaving for years. This is just the tip of the iceberg.
In August I’ll be 14 years sober. If not for sobriety I’d for sure be dead.
Jesus man. I drink good bourbon and I know I drink a little too much. I thought about laying off it and I do sometimes. I drink it because I like the taste. I'll get a little buzz but not to where I get hammered.
What are dt's?
@jarlwhiterun7478 Delirium tremens (DTs) is the most severe form of alcohol withdrawal. This condition can sometimes be life-threatening. DTs is possible when someone with alcohol use disorder, especially moderate or severe alcohol use disorder, suddenly stops drinking entirely.
Wow thank you for sharing
Wow... your doing the right thing ! Take what you are and run with it. Be an example to those that need to hear it and help guide them to a future they might not otherwise have !
Work in healthcare. Cared for a patient with cirrhosis and alcohol addiction. The day of his discharge he looked at me with despair. “When I leave here, I’m going to drink. I’m going to drink even though I don’t want to. It’s like a job.” I never forgot him
So sad. Thanks for sharing that.
He didnt run from his mistakes
I respect it
@@kathrynminnick8986 but how many sober men never own up to their mistakes I can respect him
Question. Do you feel better now physically? With cirrhosis?
Amazing honestly. Wish you a recovery and love to you
Way to go! I drank like you. I celebrate 6 years sober on Sunday and I am so grateful to be out of the prison that my life had become with my drinking.
Congratulations on your sobriety!!!
I to worked in the restaurant industry for 12 years. Im 38 years old. I drank bad for 10 years. The loss of my parents in 2013 25 days apart. I got even worse strait vodka. I wound up in jails, rehab, hospitals, going through terrible withdrawls. 2021 i was diagnosed with liver cirocchiss. July 19 2021 i got sober till this day. July 19 will be 4 years sober. Liver test in May this year showed my liver is repaired its self. It can be done.
I treated my self with raw garlic, tumeric, ginger other natural foods. God bless you all.
Amen brother
Hell ya! Good job bro.
@@11235but Hello i drank almost daily for maybe 4-5 years. Last few years strait vodka i was not eating well either. In july 2020 i got the liver cirohssis diagnosis. I am going on 4 years sober july 19. The liver can repair itself. Slow it down or stop completely. Especially hard liqour it will slowly destroy you.
Good to hear don't relapse just because your liver got healed. It's way worse if you go back. I'm trying to quit too because my drug of choice is the "pase" thats not good
So you had fatty liver? I didn’t think cerrosis is correctable
You my friend have walked in the sunlight of the spirit ! 16 yrs sober here ! would not trade it for the world :)
I have a friend in her early 50s who was a functioning alcoholic for years... until finally it happened. She had her liver transplant 2 years ago. She came through it and is now happy and healthy again. And sober. 'It'll never happen to me.' Until it does. This is a powerful message. Keep putting it out there.
It's been 30 yrs for me. You are such a warm and open person. And you're helping a lot of people
My man, came across your story as I’m sitting here in the dialysis center hooked up to a dialysis machine like I am every other day. I’m 28yrs old and need a new kidney because I drank nonstop from the minute I woke up, to when I’d pass out, every day. Lost everything and still struggling as it’s all still fairly new to me BUT all we can do is take it one day at a time. We’re still living and breathing and going strong. Hang in there brother 🙏🏼 good luck to you
Good Luck to you please that you recover keep your chin up Best Wishes from Scotland
Hey. As someone who’s suffered from alcoholism myself- Jesus is the only way, my friend. It’s by the grace of God we all are here everyday. It means He is not done with you. So don’t give up. Read the Bible start in the new testament then work your way backwards. He still does miracles today. He is a God of second chances. You’re worth it. Praying for full healing in Jesus name!
Everyone says Jesus is our savior for a reason. It's the truth. The ultimate healer. Appreciate life and love him to your core! May God bless you to see the truth in a world that is constantly working against God's word! You have to become selfless and entirely grateful. You got this and no matter how unpure you feel, God is waiting for you to come to him. He will cleanse you of your past.
Pardon me if this is insensitive, but do you mind me asking how much you would drink a day? I’m a 26 year old alcoholic trying to quit and I want to know if it’s too late to recover for me
@anindustryplant7449 I believe it is never too late for anyone to stop drinking you are only young doesn't matter how much you drink you can stop I am not an alcoholic but feel for you Good Luck 😊
How you kept a job is a testament to how you were really wasting your true ability. You are capable of anything. Thanks for sharing
4 years sober in September! I can’t imagine where I’d be if I kept drinking and as a professional musician, alcohol is around me all the time. It’s the best feeling having that control and knowing that I am better for myself and my music being sober.
Congratulations. Well done.
Fantastic video thank you for posting . 7.5 years sober today.
With ya brother, I'm in my 50s and just this year came to the realization how much damage alcohol caused when it came to my music....playing, feeling, singing, everything!!! So glorious to have a clear head now!!!
@@notnow7973 thanks so much!
@@notnow7973 thanks a bunch!
I was a functional alcoholic in the restaurant industry for years. Hearing your story has so many similarities to myself and many in the industry. It takes a lot of courage to put yourself out there on the internet and sharing your worst moments, so I congratulate you brother for your courage and for you ability to change. Proud of you and pray god blesses you and those who hear this message and learn from it to quit. I quit drinking and life couldn’t be better. No more stomach aches and I dont miss work or the gym because of hangovers it’s great
Congratulations. Huge accomplishment.
Man the diarrhea is something that’s not talked about enough. Razor shredded ass every day. I just completed 11 days sober and I already feel so much better in every way.
Congratulations on your sobriety!! Keep it up!!!
Like a damn sprinkler going off
And the fucking stomach pain! Farting all day that smells like disgusting rotten eggs
Yes I lived off of Imodium ad and had whiskey smelled mud out of my but more days than not lol you are right! I rarely drink now days and my stomach issues are basically gone
Yeh, i get that and I only drink a few bottles of wine a week or half a crate of beer.
Female, 47 years old, New York
I watched a few videos about how alcohol metabolized by the body. The reason I sought out that information is that I have a hangover after just a couple of drinks over dinner, and I want to not engage with social drinking. Alcoholism could never happen to me because my system rejects alcohol due to its inability to metabolze it. So when your video popped up, I just listened out of curiosity as I prepare dinner.
I decided to take time and express my respect for what you’ve been able to overcome. And more respect for your willingness to tell the world about what you’ve been through. It’s a Hero’s journey, and you are there supporting others on that same path.
Best of health and happiness to you, young man.
💚🙏
Me too I get hungover instantly
Me too, I get hang overs easily. Both my sister and brother are alcoholic.
@@colleenalcantar9061lost my brother to alcoholism.
Some girls don't metabolize alcohol the same way.
I just turned 40 and I think the way I metabolize alcohol has changed just in the last year. I used to drink too much but now I'm similar to what you describe; immediate severe hangover from very little alcohol. The side effect has been sobriety so I almost feel like it's a hall pass. My body made the decision for my dumb brain.
Isn't it crazy how so many of us full-blown alcoholics don't even seem to enjoy it
It is. I HATE it. It's a damn chore.
I kept saying this! I would tell everyone how much I hated it and I didn’t want to do it but it had gotten to the point where I would have to or I would be sick with DTs. I never want to feel like that ever again.
I do
You start out loving it but eventually you just get to the point where you absolutely fucking hate it. At least that's how a lot of people are including myself.
Life has a way of not letting you keep hitting the pleasure button.
I had my last drink on 12/16/2014. I liked hearing your story.
I was thinking about having a drink today after being sober for a while you just changed my mind thank you for sharing
Damn, I’m lookin in a mirror and listening to a story scarily like mine. Down to damn near every detail. Glad I found this channel. On day 7 for the 10,000th time. Godspeed man. Subscribed. And thank you for sharing.
Wishing you successs!
@@RonsMom40-pu1en2gj4p I greatly appreciate that!
You got this! 🙏🙏🙏
You got this 🙏🏼
1st time or 10,000th... Congratulations on your sobriety!! You've got this and you should be so proud of yourself!! 🎉🎊❤❤❤ Keep going, friend!!
Anyone who needs to see this,
It is time to quit alcohol. You got this!
Yup 👍🏽 If you’re thinking about quitting alcohol. This is your sign 🤞🏽
@@juelzd7172 I have been drinking for a year now.... it started with 1....2...3...and now I'm at 4 a day of 8% tallboys it happens so fast
Wish me luck. 🙏🏼
I cant
@@LynneMadison0731 why?
Your descriptions are so realistic that it’s bringing every detail back that I never want to think about again. I need that reminder still, even after 7 years. I never want to forget how bad it was.
quitter
Thank you Kerry! I know how touvh it is to go back..... i dont like talking about it. But, i need the reminder myself. God bless❤❤❤
Something you just mentioned struck me hard. I used to hate hearing that ice hit my mom's glass around 4:30/5 every morning. 🤬🥺 I wish you the very best, Sweetie. 😊
Cook/Chef for almost 40 yrs. People dont realize how stressful restaurant work is. Especially if youre the man in charge. Kudos to you for telling your story.
I can p ly imagine. Ive always thought wow alot of things have to go right in order for all these meals to be coming out in a timely manner. Looks very stressful
Yes. My addiction began when I became a waitress .
It can be a pretty toxic environment. The only break you get is to have a 5 min smoke out back. There is access to alcohol even after hours. Someone knows a dealer..
I did 7 years in that industry starting in high school and finally said "no thanks!" when I was 22
There is a film about this in UK called “boiling point” it is an excellent film might be on TH-cam or Netflix or prime well worth a watch
It seems to be a pattern in the restaurant industry-one that should be recognised. Pressure and immediately available booze lead to higher levels of drinking than normal.
I like how you tell it like it is. No sugar-coating!
Thank you ronsmom!!!!❤❤❤❤❤❤ God bless 😊😊😊
Same
I'm just shy of a month sober from fourth attempt at detox and sobriety. Round the clock drinker. Only thing I have to add to your routine is my body would start to go into withdrawal if there was a two hour gap between drinks. So, at my worst would drink myelf to sleep, catch two to three hours best case of horrid restless sleep, wake up vomit at 3:00 AM, pound a half dozen standard drinks to get back to sleep (usually a valium to cap it off) smoke a bunch of cigarettes, pass out, wake at 5:00 AM vomit mostly bile (as I'd only ever have food in the evening if at all) three sets or until there was nothing but dry wretching going on. Make myself an Irish coffee and my partner a normal espresso. She'd hit the road for work at 6:30 and I'd get loaded all day until she got home. Sling some green, at the pub or from home and busk/gig the local pubs and clubs. Rinse and repeat. I could feel every organ labouring. Was pissing out of evey orifice. Anxiety went through the roof everytime I wasn't baseline lubed up. My LFT was 2700! (Normal functioning liver is ideally around 60-70). In the last three years I've been to professional detox 3 tines and this most recent time from home. I lasted 3 months dry first time round, then close to five, then close to six the time before this. This time I've been clean a month come Sunday. I feel you man. I've kicked heroine, speed, benzos etc. Booze is the hardest of the lot all told. The most positive thing about suffering through kicking habitual drinking is how quickly you see the results, the reward for the pain, in health both mental and physical and the strain it takes off those who love you and have had to watch the snail paced suicide (and that being just those facets you can't hide from them). It's mind boggling when you consider how much a part of regular life it is. Imagine if society treated smack in the same way, with the same legality, accessibility, and acceptance as alcohol! It's unthinkable. But booze is far from a soft drug. It's a liquid nerve toxin made from microbial waste products and it's cheap and readily available on every other corner and you can barely watch TV or surf the net without it popping up in your field of vision multiple tines on the daily. It's a slog, no joke. Best of luck sticking to whatever gets you over it people xMx
Thank you for sharing.🎉 No shame. One minute or hour at a time. Whatever it takes. I'm so damn proud of you!!❤
Thanks for sharing brother
Never give up. Never
How many years and was it daily?
@jaywatson9493 round the clock for about 10 years daily... Unfortunately I've relapsed in the last month and have a date for detox, yet again. Swings and roundabouts.
Be very proud of yourself for making this video.
I can't imagine how much courage it takes to be this honest in a video.
I don't drink at all. I am 54 and have been a sober man all of my life.
But, the reason I watched your video, is because I lost my younger brother (42) in 2016 in part to alcoholism.
When you mentioned throwing up every morning, I almost started to shed a tear. Because, my brother and I lived together at the time of his passing. And I could hear him throwing up in bathroom in every morning.
I miss my brother tremendously.
I dream about him now and again.
I wish he was here today, to make a video just like yours, triumphant in conquering his alcohol addiction. But he's no longer on this planet.
I for you and your family all the best.
Sorry about your loss. ❤
I hope you don’t mind but could I ask you once at that point of throwing up in the morning is that basically when they are close to the end? Or what does the throwing up daily mean for them at that point please? Ty
@@melaniec3819
I doubt it means the end.
Because my brother did this for years. It was part of his morning, unfortunately.
My brother's end came when, one morning in particular, he did not feel well.
He went to Emergency room.
They misdiagnosed him, giving some medicine to drink over the weekend.
When in actuality, my brother had either a stomach or intestinal ulcer that was leaking into his body and blood creating sepsis.
He went to Emergency on Friday morning.
Spent weekend at home in his room drinking stomach medicine.
By sunday afternoon, he was going into a coma or something, hardly mobile.
Sepsis was overloading his organs.
An ambulance took him out of house.
He was in hospital with a tube in his throat for exsctly 7 days, when he passed away on the next Sunday.
It was horrible to witness it all. And so helpless.
It is why I implore every alcoholic reading this, fight the good fight!
You all must and can beat the alcohol demon(s) for your sake first and foremost, but also...
for your loved ones who will miss you terrubly should alcohol take your life.
@@bobo-boho Hi Thank you for answering and I’m so sorry that must have been very hard for you too.
The reason I asked is because my ex he throws up every morning obviously he has always tried hiding it but I noticed a lot of things like his weight drastic loss, hadn’t eaten all day long and at a restaurant for my children party everyone was eating he just sat there. He gets agitated out of nowhere nobody even did anything.
So that’s why I asked about the throwing up as it’s been years of him doing it…
Thank you..
@@melaniec3819
Ok you are welcome.
I wish all the best to you & especially your ex.
@@bobo-boho appreciate your support thank you.
I could remember few years back after my wife died, I was left alone with 3 kids. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Got addicted to alcohol and cigarettes. Not until a friend recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment changed my life for better. I can proudly say i'm totally clean for 6 years and still counting. Always look to nature for solution to tough problems, Shrooms are phenomenal.
I love hearing great life changing stories like this. I want to become a mycologist because honestly mushrooms are the best form of medicine (most especially the psychedelic ones) There are so many people today used magic mushrooms to ween off of SSRI medication- its amazing! Years back i wrote an entire essay about psychedelics. they saved you from death buddy, lets be honest here.
Thanks for sharing your story. That's rough I sympathize. Save your health save your mind. Life is better without heroin, cocaine, alcohol and cigarettes. And you have more money in your pocket. God bless everyone who has rejected the devils intentions to be addicted to alcohol and cigarettes etc which can cause so much damage to health. I will pray for you all.
Yes he's Pedroshrooms. I know few friends who no longer suffer ptsd and anxiety with the help of shrooms. Never had to take shrooms after then.
I too love hearing about others that have made it back.I got addicted cause of a car accident in 2007 that I am still in pain from,that doctors say is only arthritis then they took my pain meds and put me suboxone since Sept 2nd 2021. Even if I take it or not I still have that pain, so afraid I'm gonna git sucked back in to the pills cause I can't even work but can't get disability either so idk what folks like me do but prayer is all I have done and still the pain so idk anymore 😢 sorry for rambling. Just searched on chrome and sent him a message. I would really love to go with this treatment as well
Thanks for sharing this great information, this would help my daughter
I appreciate you sharing this. This sounds so much like my cousin's daily life before he passed from cirrhosis. He would start his day with a drink because he got the shakes if he didn't, and it made him nervous to drive because he'd swerve a lot if he drove sober. By that point, he had 2 DUIs and was afraid to get another. It made him equally nervous to drive after his morning drink, but he felt trapped. He also needed to have a drink to sleep, but it was never restful sleep. He went through the same rough mornings as you; intense heartburn, vomiting, the constant diarrhea. For the longest time, we had no idea how much he was suffering. I wish he could have gotten better. Your videos bring me a kind of comfort I didn't expect. It's good to know that there are people who can recover.
Today is July 9th. I woke up sick as a dog today like every day but something was different. Now I know it was to watch this video and get better. Thank you so much
Good luck friend.
If you fall get back up.
Just do it.
Did you do it?🤞🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻
That was my quitting day! 😊
I'm 41 and finally was able to quit after a seriously rough 20+ years of hard drinking. I am now 7 years sober. I tried for years to quit and nearly died numerous times in the process. Quitting... Trust me it was hard, but I did it and so can you all. None of you are alone and Y'all are way tougher than you think. Ya'll are some of the toughest people on this earth, believe it or not right now. This demon seeks out the toughest people to attack and destroy. Don't let it! Stay strong brothers and sisters! You can beat it! There is a light at the end of this dark path. Keep pushing and you will start to see it. Thank you for this video.
This is a great message for sobriety. Very encouraging and positive.
Thank you. I'm wanting to quit.
I've just screenshot your post. Something is resonating.
We can do this 💪 ❤
How’s your liver? Is it recovering?
Grew up in an alcoholic home. Lost my sister to alcohol and a SIL. My father died a week ago today. All my siblings and mother are alcoholics. I've always been the outsider, black sheep in my family. Not a drop in 40 years. We all have free will and make our own choices. Im happy with mine.
Best wishes, everyone.
Wow well done!!!! Exactly what i try telling my 21yr old daughter. Her father drank and slowly killed himself. Died at 51. Cant believe she didnt learn from it.
LD, this literally made me cry. I felt so sorry for you and me too, for what we lived through every day just to drink. Pitiful. But now we are free from that bondage,thank God.
Do you normally feel sorry for yourself
Im sorry it made you cry. But, you are so right!!! Its so much better to be free! Thank you! God bless❤❤❤❤
I hit five years three months of sobriety last week. Just keep going bro 💪🏼
I'm a everyday beer drinker. I've lost so much weight because I chose the buzzed feeling yet knowing my stomach says feed me .I am praying to change
this with God's help for sobriety!
Me too
I came to in Aug 95 by praying honestly that I was willing to go thru anything to get sober.. all I drank was beer
I wound up at midnight in front of a liquor store waiting for a 12 pack to keep up my buzz
On the radio I heard Jerry Garcia had passed in a detox center and I heard a voice say, if Jerry Garcia who has millions of fans can die in a lonely place like that.. what will become of you?
That was 6 mos after I’d prayed. Lost my desire
Have not wanted to drink since then
Pray, it works !’
Same boat here.
You can do it!
Advice from personal experience; you better start eating something while drinking, and don't drink on an empty stomach. Those stomach ulcers ain't fun, and more importantly; you will have to lay off the drink for about a month for those to heal enough for you not to vomit up blood actively. You don't need that.
Thank you for sharing your story. I’m 27 years old and a little over 2 years sober. I was drinking every day for years, fluctuating how extreme it was, but many periods averaging more than a fifth of liquor a day. Head injuries, seizures, throwing up every morning, the whole deal.
Life is so much better now. Unbelievably grateful for AA and all the wonderful people in it.
If you’re watching this and you have a similar story, I pray that you can seek help. Sobriety is so much better, and more fun (!), than I ever could've imagined.
Been sober since November 2022, coming up on 2 years. Got a triathlon on Saturday 🏊♂️🚴♂️🏃, life is good now 😊
318 days sober today
Well done 😊
@@chester45356 thank you 😊
Awesome. I recently did 115 days a decided to let myself drink again because I needed a break from being so damn sober and still lonely. I was hoping going that long without drinking would have made me happier. Not that simple.
Good job
Well done you I’m so proud of your progress!! It’s so poignant because I lost my brother my only sibling to alcoholism He died a few years ago too young I’m the last one off my original family My daddy died from prostrate cancer my mummy to dementia and recently my brother….. I tried everything to help by talking to him……Pleading with him to stop drinking Pleading so I wouldn’t need to bury him as well like my Mummy and Daddy I ended up burying him too
It selfish !! You are being selfish to your family I got the dreaded phone call 2 am that my big brother had died !! The finality of hearing that message still gives me the chills Death is so final Nothing more could be done I just kept crying hugging my husband to me saying he’s dead he dead he’s dead My brother is dead I don’t have a sibling anymore I’m the last of my original family of 4
I hope someone reading my story will understand the heart break of losing a brother so young If I can help one person from a terrible death then my brothers life won’t me in Vain or make them think about how bad drinking huge amounts of vodka does it does I remember the first time he was admitted into hospital
A nurse chatting to me She said how much do you know about your brother condition and I said I know he’s an alcoholic he will get better now since he’s been hospitalised She said I’m sorry I need to speak to you about this ! How much do you understand Your brother said I have permission to tell you this She said even if your brothers stopped drinking today and never touches alcohol again He’s going to die !! I remember squealing No ! No! No! That’s a lie isn’t it Your not being truthful to me And she shook her head and said Your brother organs are all failing !
He was on a knife edge many times ! He had tear in his oesophagus 3 times and needed surgery all of those times They would dry him out in the hospital and he would buy alcohol on the way home !! but he eventually he did die for real ! His wife was going to put him in a nursing home but he died suddenly and I have never been able to come to terms with it forever and ever I hope and pray you get help before it’s too late
So many similarities. It really is mind-blowing now when you think of what lengths we'd go to, how much we'd play mind games with ourselves and others to just stay drunk and not feeling. I'm sober with You, 3yrs for me, and I'm struggling to stay alive. Your story will help so many. Once again, thank you for your vulnerability and sharing from the ❤
That's amazing!! Congratulations on 3 years!!! 🎉🎊🎉🎊❤️
@amandaflaherty7528 Thank You So Much 🥰
Congratulations on 3 years my friend! I'm so sorry that you can relate to my story. It really is crazy what we will do for a buzz. Thank you! God bless❤❤❤
94 days clean today and I'm so so grateful to be here. I found this story really touching because I could totally relate to the insanity that my life had become. Planning my entire day around drinking to avoid feeling awful/withdrawal symptoms. There is so much joy to be had and life to live in sobriety, so anyone can do it!! Just surround yourself with a good recovery community and work at it every single day. You can do it!!
Amazing! You're doing it.❤ One day or hour or minute at a time. I'm so proud and excited for you!! 🎉
rinse and repeat. I just was explaining this to my stepdad last night who is a recovering alcoholic trying to describe what I’m going through right now. I’m praying for us all❤
It's definitely not an easy process! I know myself as I had a few ups and downs throughout my journey, however, I'm now 3,023 days sober and living a fulfilling life!
From my own experiences of the ups and downs and isolation, I'm launching a community/program on 4th July for anyone struggling with addictions to come along to. So if you're ever having a bad day or wanting to share your story, you're more than welcome to come along!
It's possible to overcome!
@@SOBERMethodManagerthank you for your reply. I’m 8 days sober today, using naltrexone and psilocybin. feeling strong, no cravings 🩷
Dear heavens! Thank you for scaring the crap out of me. I have been prone to excessive alcohol use, and hearing your story just made me feel like never drinking again! Thank you for sharing your story
You my friend are a very brave man to share your story.
I am sure you have helped a lot of people.
Thank you, and God bless you.
Stay free.
I have 6 months sober after 18 years of drinking. Deep in AA and working the steps praying to God every day that I stay sober. Such a deadly disease. Love your honesty!! Good luck ❤
Thank you for your honesty. So glad that you have stopped. Every day your body and mind are healing. All the best to you and your family❤
I admire you for being so honest and transparent LD! You are the realest TH-camr I have ever watched and I pray you have many, many healthy years ahead!! God Bless!
Thank you so much man!!! I really appreciate you saying that my friend! God bless😊😊😊
I'm still an active alcoholic of 37 years and even though I only drink beer listen to this young man because it doesn't matter what your choices are, the results are the same! Im 53 yrs old now and trust me, when this man talks about the anxiety and paranoia, its certainly out there if you choose it!
Powerful! Best video to date, raw, honest and heartfelt. Godspeed, LD
Thank you Melanie!!!! God bless😊😊❤❤❤
You got this brother,,,,, thanks for sharing. Makes more difference than you think.
hey LD! like you, i much prefer my days these days, as you do yours, when comparing drinking days to sober days. just keeping the memories of those yesterdays keeps me motivated for today, and with optimism, for tomorrow. peace.
Hey David!!!! Hope you are doing well brother! Going to be doing a live again this week, hope you can come with that wrench! You are so right.... this life, is not even comparable to the later!!!! Thank you brother! God bless😊😊😊❤❤❤
I drank beer every day from the age of 20 years old to the age of 57. A functioning alcoholic I'd say. Worked hard in a hot factory for 35 years. Most of my co-workers followed suit. Work hard, play hard. When the 8 hour day was done, it was a run to the beer store every night after work. You see, I would buy a quart of beer every night for the ride home, (12 miles), then I had plenty of beer when I got there. I consumed 6-12 beers every night from 11:30pm to 2-3 am, plus the quart. I woke up at 7am every morning. Work at home got done. Bills got paid, and I never drank before work, or, during work, ever. I retired. Ran into some irregular heartbeat issues, started a heart medication and quit drinking. I just quit. I still have 20 beers in my beer fridge. I'm not sure why because I'll never drink again. I've never told anybody this and I'm not sure why I just did. The video showed up in my feed and I watched it. I guess I'm just so stubborn and the hate I would have for myself if I drank again, keeps me on the path I need to be on. I wish all of you well with whatever cross you have to bear. Thanks for the video. It is part of your journey.
Wishing you good health and continued sobriety!!! 🙏
Thx for sharing
The sweating it out everyday helped you. You didn’t actually have a problem I’d say, not like some I’ve heard of. When you work hard and sweat all day it’s not as hard on your liver as those who don’t ever sweat.
What irregular heart rythem did u have
Holy cow, I almost got nauseous just listening to your routine
So glad you are not drinking anymore. Alcohol is poison!
Sorry about that. I am too!!! Thank you! God bless😊😊😊
I am stressing out too.
@liverdisease-qhb6rk
I understand fully the obsession it's addicting AF stay strong brother
I drank a handle every day for 12 years (vodka). I’m 39 and my sober date was 4/20/20. Your story resonates especially for me. I’m sorry you felt like you were the only one for so long. No one experiencing such addiction should feel so alone. Stay up my man, you ever find yourself needing help, remember there are many of us out there who don’t mind shedding a little light.
Man great video. shows the reality of alcohol addiction . These videos really do help people I know because they help me keep on the right path . Thank you so much for doing these
Thank you my friend! I am so glad that they are helping people! God bless😊😊😊
I was this before I read two books: Alan Carr’s Easy Way to Quit Drinking and Naked Mind. These books reprogrammed my brain. I quit cold turkey and had my 5 year soberverssary on March 29, 2024. ❤
my bday! much love to you
Allen Carr rules! RIP
Alan Carr what a writer - he was able to make someone excited to start to defeat their monsters
I absolute love Dr. Alan Carr’s books. They have helped me immensely!!!
You look so healthy and clean in the sunlight with the gorgeous trees behind you, telling us how it was for you and showing us who you are now... Kudos! you are a warrior and an inspiration. I salute you ❤ God Bless
I'm an occasional drinker. Mostly on weekends but lately I've noticed it has started creeping into the week days. I'm not an alcoholic however I can see how it could slowly creep up on anyone. Thanks for sharing
Here too. A 5% beer become 5%x2 became 9% become 13% became 13% and a shot... Okay. That's getting my attention.
This is where it STARTS 💯
You’re making excuses for the amount of drinking you’re doing. You may be more of an alcoholic than you think you are.
I’ve cut back drinking a lot. Only drink occasionally. If you’re occupied with other things it helps. I drank because I was bored and lonely. Now I’m okay with being lonely lol
LD, I have been watching You Tube for quite a few years and today I subscibed to my first Channel, and it was yours. The reason for this was because of your video on the 24th July about hiding liquor and how at the end of your video you showed your heartfelt love, care and affection for your channel's community. This really touched me. Thank you LD for your courage and honesty and how through your lifes journey you are wanting to improve lives across the world. I salute you, and your wife for sticking by you and being part of your recovery and your amazing channel that I am sure is saving and improving lives. God bless you both.
It took a liver transplant to get me to stop at 42, now 44. Still dont feel worthy of that. Life is different but listen to this mans advice. If you want help, only you can get help. Being sober is amazing, the now social isolation however, isnt.
I know the world makes God out to be for kooks but he is the answer. He will show you that youre worthy and lead you to a community to help with loneliness. Love him out of gratefulness and let him guide you with everything you have!
How long did you drink, and how much, before your liver gave up? I worry about this all the time.
@@skillzorz101praying for you!
Man... That all sounds so EXHAUSTING. I lived a similar life during the worst point of my addiction. What a nightmare. I don't think I managed that quantity, but a lot even still.. and I cannot imagine ever going back. It's crazy the things we did and put up with because of our addictions. I am so glad that any of us here who lived like this and were able to move on did... And I pray every day that those who are still stuck there find the strength to move on. Sending so much love to everyone here, struggling or not! Wonderful topic, friend. You really described what an exhausting, living hell career drinking can become. ❤❤❤❤
Back to you Amanda....Wasn't LDs story just heart RENDING???
@@CraigFox-lt6lt thanks, Craig!! I hope you're having a great week 💞 Yes, absolutely...again, while I'm so sorry for the health issues that our friend is going through now, I'm so glad that he's living such a better life now. Craig, you should be so proud of yourself for the life you're living now and you should as well, LD!! ❤️❤️❤️
Good to see your comments I hope you’re doing well!! Idk if you remember me from Slayer’s channel but it’s good to see a fellow friend!
@Reggaechild hey!! Of course I remember you! I was wondering how you were doing! I'm always around on both this channel and Slayer's!!! Glad to see you again, friend. How are you?
@@amandaflaherty7528 Awesome! I’m doing alright just trying my best! I’m glad to see you again too! I’m on both channels a lot too! I had been also wondering about you glad to hear from you!
This entire video has been the last three or four years of my life. Progressing into an absolute whirlwind of addiction. You never think anyone’s living quite the same life that you are until they say it out loud and then you realize how not alone you are. This was so meaningful and impactful. I sure appreciate you sharing. Thank you.
That’s amazing because I drank a lot but as long as I believed I had or was having fun that it was okay but when I found out how isolated and depressed I really was I started realizing I drank myself into a a situation that was not normal for anyone and luckily I was smart enough to get help !!!! I hope anyone reading this makes the decision to Stop Drinking and be happy about that because it may turn out to be the best and smartest and bravest decision ever …
Thank you so much man!!! You are so right! It's the best decision that one can make for themselves. The endless cycle is not worth it. Hope all is well my friend! God bless😊😊😊😊
There were quite a few things you mentioned that I can totally relate to. Especially being drunk or hungover at work and just feeling miserable. So many times I wanted to call in sick and stay home, but usually I would drag myself to work, or wherever I needed to be. I felt so bad, I'd be literally counting the seconds until it was time for me to go home. Such a horrible way to live and I'm so glad I don't have to live that way anymore. Your story just goes to show that no matter who you are or what you've done, you are not alone. Lots of people out there have had the same experiences as you, myself included. For me, watching your videos really is like looking in the mirror at times; been there, done that! Alcoholism, or any other addiction for that matter, is absolutely exhausting and NOBODY should have to live like that! But you're right, above all else you have to want to get sober for you, not just for others! Thanks for sharing this story, LD! 🙏❤
Hey David! Man.... im sorry that you can relate so much. I know exactly what you mean about counting the seconds to go home!!! Only to get off and do it again! Smh.... im so glad that we both are done with that nonsense! God bless❤❤❤❤
David, I have been there and done that too! It’s a horrible thing we all put ourselves through. I’m on Day 23 but there’s absolutely no turning back. I’m very happy that you made it out of Hell too! I’m so thankful for LD & his Honesty! I believe 100% that he is going to overcome any health problems. ❤
@@CMoore8539 Thank you Cindy! I am thankful as well! LD will overcome his struggles, and so will we! We are all in this together! ❤️🤗
@@davidlafond8327 David, I thought getting opiates were bad news but alcohol is just as bad or worse! You are right. We are all going to get through this Together!
I quit drinking regularly at 53. Had to do it every Saturday. Had to...decided I was done wondering what I had said or done and feeling like I was hit over the head with a $h*#bag every Sunday morning for 20 years. No more excuses.
If you are adjusting your life around alcohol and making excuses to use alcohol, those are warning signs to stop. Because if it takes over, it ruins your health and your life.
Thanks again LD, keep inspiring.
If it was for only 20 years you were lucky, by 53 lots of people are on 30 plus years of that
Thank you so much for this my friend! Glad to hear that you got away from it too! Thank you for being here! God bless❤❤❤❤
Hey ld, I know you have been sober for a long time, but I just wanted to say good job! Your story is so inspiring. You are inspiring.
Hey Adam! Thank you so much for saying that! God bless😊😊❤❤
8 Months bro and no desire to drink. Your videos definitely helped. Thanks man
I appreciate your willingness to share the ugly details of your addiction story, all of the little moments of shame and pain that you share are really important to hear about. Especially hearing about how you drove while so afraid of crashing. Addiction leads people into these impossible to imagine situations, and only in retrospect do we see how lost we were. Letting others hear the depths of your experience is helpful and motivating
I have no idea why I enjoy your videos so much as I'm not an alcoholic. I enjoy a couple beers every few days, but that's the extent of it. Maybe one heavy night every 3-4 months. However, I do have a gambling addiction, and I've struggled with it for nearly 15 yrs since my early 20s. So even though we have completely different stories, we share the burden of our addiction. My physical health may not have suffered, but every other ramification i can empathise with - the deceit, lies, anxiety, shame, self-loathing, anger. It's inspires me greatly that even amidst the most intense adversity, you're pulling through, looking great and doing good things to raise awareness amongst the wider addict community. Much love from the UK.
Same,but my sister was diagnosed with cirrhosis back in January. I found this channel and I have learned a lot.
Hey Mark! Thank you so much for this! I am so glad that you are here! Addiction is Addiction, however you slice it. We lie, cheat, and steal to get where we want to be. Thank you for watching! God bless😊😊😊❤❤
I know how the anxiety is when you’re hungover the next day. Sometimes I thought I would lose my mind or I was going to die of a heart attack or stoke. Almost all alcoholism can be traced back to depression or anxiety caused by underlying trauma.
I wish that last sentence was understood by people who are judgey about alcoholics. It would make society much better.
@@check4v It’s true. You are correct!!
Same. I been there. I need to quit completely. Wish me luck 🙏🏼
@@check4v Agreed. I also cannot stand the term alcoholic, I prefer alcohol addict or alcohol addiction, it's a kinder term for people who are already beating the shit out of themselves. "Alcoholic" is similar to "junkie" to my ears and it's not a kind label. I'm a former alcohol addict and I find that easier to use, it's not as shaming.
YES
I’m 10 years sober I still struggle with it 🙏🏻❤️
Congratulations. Hold on.
One Day At A Time
I was the wife of a drinker before he passed. I sooo feel for the family. Hurts my heart 💔
I know this probably isn't easy to share it all, but thank you for doing it.
God bless you brother ❤
I’m a chef as well. Alcoholism is rampant in the cooking industry. My brother cooks as well and he’s still in really bad shape… hoping he changes soon. Love the videos and would love to see that old video of when you were chef.
Yes I waited tables years ago and we would literally drink all night until the morning; I was only 19 at the time ; I realize that's when my drinking began It's so true about drinking making anxiety so much worse/amplified, and then having to chase it down again with more alcohol. LD this is so vivid for me to hear; I Thank You
As in nursing too.. after the 3-11 shift we’d go to grab one or even after working night shift..
I can’t help but wonder if addiction runs in the service industry..
Hey there! It really is rampant in the industry. Everyone drinks or does drugs or both for the most part. Late night parties after work, going to the bar, "wine tasting...." . You know all about it. Especially when the wine rep comes in and you need to find some wine for a wine dinner..... I would get drunk tasting. I hope that your brother stops too my friend. Thank you for being here! God bless😊😊😊😊
It’s rampant in society. It’s not a cook specific situation 😂
I worked with 15 chefs over 7 years , as a waitress and substance abuse was rife among all of us. Chefs work very hard, it was hot, sweaty work, split shifts and it was tough on them.
After hearing your story and reading the comments below it really highlights the fact that there are probably thousands of people driving drunk on a daily basis or even drinking while driving . And the worst is coworkers, friends, spouses etc. know what’s happening yet do not intervene. Thanks for sharing.
LD! Raw story ! It sounds like such a difficult struggle and time. The best part if this is the fact you survived and are spreading awareness and help. Hugs n blessings to you LD. Thank God 🙏🏼💚
Thank you so much mona! I am so glad that I got away from that poison too!! Not a good way to live. Hope you are doing well! God bless❤❤❤
I never thought I’d have a problem with alcohol but, it has gotten worse over the years. Last night I had two glasses of wine and 5 beers after I finish work around 10pm. And that has been the norm for about 6 months now. I did take a break for a whole month, then my birthday came around one drinks leads to another, then one day turned into drinking everyday for months. I do believe that this is the early stages of alcoholism and if I don’t stop it will get worse. But luckily, one of my other addiction is going to the gym, so no matter how many drinks I have the night before, I would always drag myself to the gym. I had my last drink last night and I will cut of this addiction right here. Because I know my health will deteriorate, and I know me feeling numb 24/7 isn’t good for relationships and this has affected me in the pass with ex gf. I never knew what it was but now I know, it wasn’t that the relationship never worked. But it was me not feeling anything. If you’re struggling right now you can stop. No many how far you are. ❤
I started Friday night and drank til Sunday night. Weekends for 5 years, straight. That doesn't mean I never drank during the week, I started after 5 when I got home and made myself stop at 11pm. I had to. I was petrified to be homeless and that was my drive to finally get to dexox and then rehab. Best thing I ever did. Thank you for sharing your words of wisdom, strength and courage. Proud of you!!
Wish me luck 🙏🏼 trying to quit.
Thank you for being so honest and encouraging…you are amazing…much love
Do it before it is too late.
My brother died at 36 due to Liver failure. All because of alcohol.
6 weeks in intensive care. 2 weeks in a coma. 2 heart attacks. They couldnt stabilise his Liver so was given morphine as a way to be able to comfortably leave this reality.
Sadest thing was, he was ill for weeks beforehand and didnt tell anyone about it (he lived 600 miles from me so not easy to drop in to see him).
By the time he was taken to hospital, it was too late. He had been ouking so much his voice box was permanently damaged, so he couldnt even speak in hospital.
To anyone on the same path as my brother - Realise that your actions have consequences beyond just yourself. There are people that will be affected by your actions.
His death will be the most painful experience of my life. That pain will be with me fir the rest of my existence. I no longer have a sibling, the dreams of getting older and playing backgammon together on a porch are gone.
How much did your brother drink? And, for how long?
Condolences
My brother died on 6/28/24. We didn't know it, but he was in the end stage of cirrhosis and chronic pancreatitis. We had seen his on Mother's Day and knew he was shockingly I'll. He was thin, sedate, didn't eat, totally not himself. His color was yellowish grey. I knew something was terribly wrong. It was a very quick visit as we met at our Mom's in Colorado, him from Northern Wyoming, and us from Phoenix. Three weeks later, we got a call that he was in the ICU in liver failure in WY. Husband and I flew up the next day and stayed with him about a week. His condition was horrifying. He had hepatic encephalopathy, further weight loss, bruises over his arms...
We had to leave back to our jobs, and he had improved to get admitted to a regular care floor. I called almost every day to talk. He was discharged on 6/20/24, and drove 5 hours to southeast Wyoming to a rehab facility to gain strength and then into alcohol rehab. He passed away there on 6/28/24. He was only 48. He was a wonderful soul. Always seemed happy, we so intelligent and unique. I wish I could have known what triggered him to drink...I want to say I would have tried to stop him, but I know the reality. I am gutted. I'm so traumatically sad learning about the suffering he went through alone. I had no idea how sick he was. I don't know if I will ever get over it.
@@Derek032789I’m curious too, I’m worried it might be too late for me
Your honesty is very much appreciated and says so much about you, stay strong, you may look back in pain but be proud of how your doing now , proud of you sir
Brutal honesty. Thank you for making this video. Wishing you the very best going forward.
I am praying for your continued recovery, miracles will happen! It's so obvious how much you love your family, how much they love you, and how you have worked to support them, it can be very stressful and overwhelming to support a family. You also have the support of your Mom, which says so much. So much to live for, you deserve decades more🙏. New subscriber here, thank you for sharing your story, it means so much more than you know, hugs to you and your family🤗
Thanks!
Dear Brother…I literally have no words to describe your honesty and openness with this video. Although I was never a morning drinker, I completely understand some of the things you referenced…on the toilet for at least 30 minutes (that still happens often unfortunately…sorry for the TMI…lol), being afraid to drive to work (out here in Metropolitan Phoenix AZ we don’t have any back roads, so I had to navigate the freeway…uggg)…the sitting on the back porch drinking and smoking after work until I couldn’t drink or smoke anymore…the excitement and also DREAD of having a day off and having to deal with the “return to work day”…I called off MANY of those days…it was a nightmare!!! Those days are over, as I am practicing the Sinclair Method to control my drinking. I don’t know how I survived it, and I NEVER want to be there again! God Bless You Brother…YOU are an inspiration to MANY!
❤️✌️❤️
"Drinking On The Toilet" could be the name of my autobiography. Love your honesty as always.
I would always come home after work, have a shower, and shit out yesterday’s hangover, and drink on the toilet for a few hours. So sad 😅. Even had my speaker and phone plugged in with a bucket bong next to me. A tragic ritual.
@@flangecorp9789😂 you had a whole toilet setup going on there, might as well start calling it the man cave.
@@lillexus5589 haha! Many a self reflective look in the mirror, thinking “wtf are you doing mate?” 😂
Good luck to you. I drank my pancreas away - in 2016, I had a life-changing pancreatic attack. Numerous surgeries and 9 months later, I could walk again. Devastating. Havnt drank since and am doing very well.
Same here! I'm so glad you made it thru. Pancreatitis got me...the worst pain of my entire life. Just unreal.
I am humbled by your honesty. I hope you’re OK now.
This video brings back memories and makes me feel so grateful for almost 3 years free of alcohol. That was the one thing that really caused too loose control. Alcoholism is a brutal cycle to be stuck in. If you’re going through it, do whatever it takes to get sober. It’s possible, don’t loose hope. If you’re going through withdrawals, go to the hospital and seek help from the ER.
Watching this is like listening to my own life for the past 4 years.. almost everything you were talking about I was doing as well.. eventually I ended up drinking myself into alcohol induced psychosis and ended up having some close friends of mine take me to a detox facility.. I’m now two weeks sober and I feel so much better. I’ve been to the doctor twice since I left that place and my liver enzymes are pretty bad but not to the point where they can’t be fixed, but I’m 26 years old and have already done that much damage to my body. So please listen to this man!! If any of y’all are going through this and think you can’t get sober you’re wrong! It’s a rough road to go down but I promise you will feel so much better. Dying from alcoholism is not any kind of way to go out. ❤
I'm proud of you, thank you for sharing your story. I smoked for over forty years then I had the lung cancer wake up call. I quit over three years ago. I
also drank for way too long. Not everyone understands but addiction is a very powerful thing. I wish only the best for you and everyone else on here that took the journey to sobriety. Life is wonderfull now.
You have been through So much ! This Illness is so cruel ! How many illnesses do people have to hide from their family friends work colleagues in fear of their ‘judgement’ ! Whilst suffering such physical symptoms besides the shame ! fear ! Often pushing you’re body and mind to the max to ‘make it up to those who you feel not worthy’ huge load to carry !! Such a strain on you’re poor body ! You’re a walking miracle ! And all those who are suffering the effects of this illness sending Love 💗 and Respect to you my Friend ✨
Thank you so much pearl!!! It's really horrible! God bless❤❤❤
@@liverdisease-qb6rkYes It Is Horrible!!! Thank you so much for this video! I’m really going through something right now and I really needed to hear this right this minute. 23 Days Sober and Strong about it!💯♥️👍
@CMoore8539 you are so welcome and that's so awesome cindy!!!! You are doing great!!!!
Very powerful - thank you for being so honest. Wishing you all the best