I completely feel you here. As someone who didn't even start my undergrad career until I had been out of High School for 5 years, I was in such a rush to begin my life after I graduated university in May of 2020. Even that Spring semester, I had been really excited to take part in two independent studies and also give a presentation--once Covid settled in in the U.S., what I hoped to get from those things entirely changed. Everything went virtual. I had even achieved semi-finalist for that year's CLS program, only for it to be cancelled (and then later made virtual, which I was then able to take part in, but again, it wasn't at all what I had previously been working so hard towards. It wasn't the experience that I had been excited for). Then with my own KGS application, Covid made that a huge chore and I didn't get that either. Not to mention, borders started shutting down and the idea of getting any kind of work doing anything related to my degree hit a wall. There was nowhere to go, no doors to open, not even a window to slide through. I had been waiting my whole life to graduate university so that I could travel, meet new people, immerse myself in a new culture and add something to the academic discourse. Now I'm struggling to earn any money with a twitch channel and now I'm offering freelance editing on fiverr. Definitely didn't see myself in this position when I decided to be an Asian Studies major. This is not at all where I wanted to be. All this is to say you aren't alone in feeling hurt, in feeling cheated, by our current reality. You had dreams and aspirations and it feels like they've been snatched from you. And it sucks to know you don't really have control over it. None of us do. And it can only get better when everyone works together to minimize this thing so that we can move forward. I think the hardest thing in moments like these is accepting that things will not happen for us in the order we want them to. Or even in the way we want them to. You really are in a state of mourning for something you had been so excited for. I do think you'll find a way to flourish as a result of this experience though. I think you can take this hardship and find a way to add to the conversation. It might not be what you wanted to do, but I do think you will now have a unique perspective dealing with a global emergency in a place that is not your home country. You're sharp as a tac and better at adjusting to new situations than you know.
This is a wonderful comment ♡ thank you so much. I am so sorry that CLS didn't go as you wanted - I applied for CLS three times myself (and only got it once but then I couldn't accept it lol) and I know how involved of a process that is. I was really scared everyone would think I am a spoiled brat but it seems a lot of us are in the same boat ToT Sending love from Korea, I'm sure you'll make it here someday.
Sara, i'm so sad for you that things didn't get the way you expected, and it's ok to cry about it. i cried with you too.. 😥 but i want you to remember how brave, super smart, embetion, beautiful inside and outside you are.‼ and i'm not just saying that. i watch your videos since you open this channel and i adore you for years for how crazy brave and smart you are.‼ company is definitely important and make us happy for the most part. i believe there foreigners in korea who also feel alone and wish the had friends.. than mabey try to find them they need you as much as you need them.🤩 and about your study, even if it won't work out at the end, you still have many option to work at the future cuz you got so many skills like languages, singing, good social skills and much more.. I really hope things get better and you will smile again 😁 love you and adore you a lot ❤
Hi Sarah, I've watched you grow up before my eyes through your vlogs. It hurts me to see you so sad. You're an incredible, smart, sophisticated young woman. The world's your oyster, and right now, everything looks and seems dark and gloomy. But, wait, things will change for the better. Slowly but surely WILL get better. The numbers of positive Covid and death cases are going down. Here, in the U.S, small businesses are reopening. Salons are reopened, outdoor dinner is opening again. Even schools will open soon. So keep the faith, my friend. This too shall pass. ❤️ ❤️❤️❤️
We are all experiencing a level of grief and it’s ok to acknowledge the losses and changed plans. This is what they call crisis of life in grief counseling, where something unexpected happens that changes a bunch about what you thought your life or season of life would be like. It’s ok to feel that sadness and anger and frustration, it’s normal.
you have accomplished something! maybe not a lot of recognition from professors and friends but you have gained something! These lonely seasons will make you stronger and you will be grateful for the new seasons that will come to your life! I empathize with you and hope things get better! I'm gonna say a prayer for ya just because! Stay encouraged! I know what its like to be alone and to have expectations turn into disappointments. You're definitely gonna use what you learned from all this! I can testify bc of my experience! sending love and warmth your way! God bless!
You’re allowed to be upset and disappointed because of the way things turned out~ I planned to apply to KGS this cycle to go this fall, ya know assuming I were to be chosen. COVID made me delay my plans a year since I knew I didn’t want to do my masters online from a little dorm room in Korea but in a classroom where I’m able to make friends and, like you said, network~ But you didn’t have that choice~ This isn’t what you signed up for and it really sucks to not have been able to have any control over the situation :( You can always consider applying to KGS as a PHD applicant and have an opportunity to try this all out again~ I know it can’t make up for the time you feel you’ve wasted, but it could offer you some of those opportunities you wanted~ I can’t speak for Korea specifically, but I know it’s predicted that the US should have herd immunity in July or August. If Korea is similar, maybe your last semester could be in-person~ If you do your PHD there, I’m sure it would be in-person by that point! For most of the world, COVID is going to have stolen 2 years from us and we just have to let it go~ 💔
It’s sad to hear this. This past year has been really tough. Last year all my plans I had for the future fell through... Still I’m glad you get to finish your education, it will be helpful later on. I don’t think it’s the end.
It’s heartbreaking to watch you so sad. I mean, I get it because I’m doing my PhD in Seoul and well... COVID. But girl if you want to meet and hike with my doggo and I we’ll be happy!
Wow. I'm so sorry. This year has sucked. I can say that for me, nothing has gone the way I wanted it to either. I hope things improve soon, for all of us.
Merry Christmas, Sarah! Hope you're enjoying this special day and staying warm! And, have a Happy New Year! May 2023 be your best year yet!!! @@sarahsseoulsearch That's wonderful news!!! They're probably going to think a lot more about you than you ever did of them! LOL! I feel very sorry for them. I've never been outside the USA, but get to meet a lot of international students in high school and college. Two of my dearest friends were born in other countries. It may get awkward at times, but do try to stay in touch with your Korean friends!
Nice to see you again SarahI am very happy to see you again. I was very curious where you were. If you need to pour your heart out I will be happy to talk with you.
Why not pray to God instead of crying, things that are out of your control are in the hands of God, and instead of looking at your problems cry out to Jesus.
I am sorry but your situation a little bit funny because you go to the China where you have been a american spy, lonely american spy :-) then you came to the Korea and suddenly Covid 19 came in our world )) and again you lonely person who not working not doing important stuff.. It is destiny :-) P.S. My English is bad ) May be you do another things.. for example watching for ants.. ants very smart animals ) or painting or diving )))
I completely feel you here. As someone who didn't even start my undergrad career until I had been out of High School for 5 years, I was in such a rush to begin my life after I graduated university in May of 2020. Even that Spring semester, I had been really excited to take part in two independent studies and also give a presentation--once Covid settled in in the U.S., what I hoped to get from those things entirely changed. Everything went virtual. I had even achieved semi-finalist for that year's CLS program, only for it to be cancelled (and then later made virtual, which I was then able to take part in, but again, it wasn't at all what I had previously been working so hard towards. It wasn't the experience that I had been excited for).
Then with my own KGS application, Covid made that a huge chore and I didn't get that either. Not to mention, borders started shutting down and the idea of getting any kind of work doing anything related to my degree hit a wall. There was nowhere to go, no doors to open, not even a window to slide through. I had been waiting my whole life to graduate university so that I could travel, meet new people, immerse myself in a new culture and add something to the academic discourse. Now I'm struggling to earn any money with a twitch channel and now I'm offering freelance editing on fiverr. Definitely didn't see myself in this position when I decided to be an Asian Studies major. This is not at all where I wanted to be.
All this is to say you aren't alone in feeling hurt, in feeling cheated, by our current reality. You had dreams and aspirations and it feels like they've been snatched from you. And it sucks to know you don't really have control over it. None of us do. And it can only get better when everyone works together to minimize this thing so that we can move forward.
I think the hardest thing in moments like these is accepting that things will not happen for us in the order we want them to. Or even in the way we want them to. You really are in a state of mourning for something you had been so excited for.
I do think you'll find a way to flourish as a result of this experience though. I think you can take this hardship and find a way to add to the conversation. It might not be what you wanted to do, but I do think you will now have a unique perspective dealing with a global emergency in a place that is not your home country. You're sharp as a tac and better at adjusting to new situations than you know.
This is a wonderful comment ♡ thank you so much. I am so sorry that CLS didn't go as you wanted - I applied for CLS three times myself (and only got it once but then I couldn't accept it lol) and I know how involved of a process that is. I was really scared everyone would think I am a spoiled brat but it seems a lot of us are in the same boat ToT Sending love from Korea, I'm sure you'll make it here someday.
Sara, i'm so sad for you that things didn't get the way you expected, and it's ok to cry about it. i cried with you too.. 😥
but i want you to remember how brave, super smart, embetion, beautiful inside and outside you are.‼
and i'm not just saying that. i watch your videos since you open this channel and i adore you for years for how crazy brave and smart you are.‼
company is definitely important and make us happy for the most part. i believe there foreigners in korea who also feel alone and wish the had friends.. than mabey try to find them they need you as much as you need them.🤩
and about your study, even if it won't work out at the end, you still have many option to work at the future cuz you got so many skills like languages, singing, good social skills and much more..
I really hope things get better and you will smile again 😁 love you and adore you a lot ❤
Thank you for being so real.
Hi Sarah, I've watched you grow up before my eyes through your vlogs. It hurts me to see you so sad. You're an incredible, smart, sophisticated young woman. The world's your oyster, and right now, everything looks and seems dark and gloomy. But, wait, things will change for the better. Slowly but surely WILL get better. The numbers of positive Covid and death cases are going down. Here, in the U.S, small businesses are reopening. Salons are reopened, outdoor dinner is opening again. Even schools will open soon.
So keep the faith, my friend. This too shall pass. ❤️ ❤️❤️❤️
Thank you for your lovely comment ♡♡
We are all experiencing a level of grief and it’s ok to acknowledge the losses and changed plans. This is what they call crisis of life in grief counseling, where something unexpected happens that changes a bunch about what you thought your life or season of life would be like. It’s ok to feel that sadness and anger and frustration, it’s normal.
you have accomplished something! maybe not a lot of recognition from professors and friends but you have gained something! These lonely seasons will make you stronger and you will be grateful for the new seasons that will come to your life! I empathize with you and hope things get better! I'm gonna say a prayer for ya just because! Stay encouraged! I know what its like to be alone and to have expectations turn into disappointments. You're definitely gonna use what you learned from all this! I can testify bc of my experience! sending love and warmth your way! God bless!
Thank you ♡♡♡♡♡
@@sarahsseoulsearch anytime! 🤗☺️
I’m so sorry Sarah. This whole thing just sucks. I’m happy I got to see you last year before COVID exploded. Please take care of yourself. 🤗
바쁘셨구나....여러가지로 건강조심하시고 종종 봤으면 합니다
You’re allowed to be upset and disappointed because of the way things turned out~ I planned to apply to KGS this cycle to go this fall, ya know assuming I were to be chosen. COVID made me delay my plans a year since I knew I didn’t want to do my masters online from a little dorm room in Korea but in a classroom where I’m able to make friends and, like you said, network~ But you didn’t have that choice~ This isn’t what you signed up for and it really sucks to not have been able to have any control over the situation :(
You can always consider applying to KGS as a PHD applicant and have an opportunity to try this all out again~ I know it can’t make up for the time you feel you’ve wasted, but it could offer you some of those opportunities you wanted~ I can’t speak for Korea specifically, but I know it’s predicted that the US should have herd immunity in July or August. If Korea is similar, maybe your last semester could be in-person~ If you do your PHD there, I’m sure it would be in-person by that point!
For most of the world, COVID is going to have stolen 2 years from us and we just have to let it go~ 💔
Thanks so much for this thoughtful reply
올만에 보니 반가워요!
건강 조심하세요
힘들고 지칠 땐 내면의 아이를 돌아보세요. 항상 어른스러울 필요는 없어요. :)
🥺🥺🥺
맥사라님 힘내고 너무 슬퍼하지 말아요 ㅠㅠㅠㅠ사라님이 어린나이에 고향을 떠나 한국유학생활 그 후 중국 다시 한국....정말 사라의 도전에 박수를 보내고 싶어요👍👍👍👍👍사라님 응원해요 절대 낙심하지말아요....꼭 좋은날이 올거에요🥳🥳🥳
감사합니다 ㅠㅜ
2021년 부터는 맥사라님의 희망하는 모든일이 다 잘될겁니다 뒤에서 응원합니다!! 울지마세요!! 누구나 다 힘든시기는 있는법이랍니다 그 과정을 견디고 이겨내는 사람이 승자입니다!
요즘 유튜브에서 안 보여서 궁금했지요.
아 맥사라님 정말좋아했었고 동영상 안올라와서 궁금했어요! 맥사라님도 정말 힘든시기를 보내고 있었네요 잘 될거에요 힘내시고!! 화이팅!! 맥사라님 잘되기를 기도할게요!!
times are tough, please be easy on yourself
Hope things start to get better soon - as a fellow student with everything online it is terrible - we've just got to keep looking forward :)
Thanks a lot ToT
It’s sad to hear this. This past year has been really tough. Last year all my plans I had for the future fell through... Still I’m glad you get to finish your education, it will be helpful later on. I don’t think it’s the end.
Thanks ToT I think things will get better once I can work. I really benefit from structure that has been impossible to get through online classes lol
It’s heartbreaking to watch you so sad. I mean, I get it because I’m doing my PhD in Seoul and well... COVID. But girl if you want to meet and hike with my doggo and I we’ll be happy!
That would be amazing!
Wow. I'm so sorry. This year has sucked. I can say that for me, nothing has gone the way I wanted it to either. I hope things improve soon, for all of us.
Thanks for always supporting me ToT Let's hope this year is better
멋지네요 대단합니다
It's so sad that you didn't have any friends in your program back then. I hope that changed for the better!
I graduated without making many friends but now I have a lot of friends elsewhere so its all good! I am MUCH happier after finishing my masters degree
Merry Christmas, Sarah! Hope you're enjoying this special day and staying warm! And, have a Happy New Year! May 2023 be your best year yet!!!
@@sarahsseoulsearch That's wonderful news!!! They're probably going to think a lot more about you than you ever did of them! LOL! I feel very sorry for them. I've never been outside the USA, but get to meet a lot of international students in high school and college. Two of my dearest friends were born in other countries. It may get awkward at times, but do try to stay in touch with your Korean friends!
Nice to see you again SarahI am very happy to see you again.
I was very curious where you were.
If you need to pour your heart out I will be happy to talk with you.
I was just on campus at SNU haha ^^
Cheer up. You know life is not easy.
맥사라님~오랜만이에요~
VERITAS LUX MEA
嗨，别担心太多。在这么复杂的全球的情况下，咋们年轻人的工作和学习的经历无比差的。你在南朝鲜上学硕士的话，是一个良好的选择，能让你更多的人才特别是提高语言知识，了解南朝鲜人的观点还有在同学们的眼中你一定有面子因为你和他们奋斗一样的苦。更要说现在不少人找不了工作，对会找到工作的人工资和职位不安定。你选择挺好。虽然现在吃苦但到底要成功！
谢谢 ！！你还在中国吗？
@@sarahsseoulsearch 没事的。我3年以前搬家住在越南。有的时候我想念中国的日常的生活经历。
Hello? Long time no see. Have you been well and healthy?
좋지 않은일이 있는거 같은데 뭔 말인지 영어를 몰라서 암튼 모든게 잘 되길 빕니다 누가 간단하게 해석좀 부탁해요
Graduate student here, also having done all my graduate EE courses online. What do you study?
I watched this
You need a man, don't tell me you can't get one
Why not pray to God instead of crying, things that are out of your control are in the hands of God, and instead of looking at your problems cry out to Jesus.
I am sorry but your situation a little bit funny because you go to the China where you have been a american spy, lonely american spy :-) then you came to the Korea and suddenly Covid 19 came in our world )) and again you lonely person who not working not doing important stuff.. It is destiny :-)
P.S.
My English is bad )
May be you do another things.. for example watching for ants.. ants very smart animals ) or painting or diving )))