I'm in a Mixed State Now?! | Schizoaffective Episode Update
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 3 ก.พ. 2023
- Mixed states are the third and final stage of all of my schizoaffective episodes, and they're also the worst part, because experiencing mania and depression at the same time gets exhausting really, really fast.
WAYS I'M STAYING SAFE:
1. Taking all my meds every night and going to therapy
2. Reaching out to my mentor and support system
3. Resting as much as I can
4. Doing things that make me happy, relaxed, etc (like video games and TH-cam :) )
5. Giving myself grace and patience.
I will be okay, and if you're struggling, you will be too. Let's ride the wave together 💕
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Disclaimer: I am not a qualified mental health professional. This channel exists for educational purposes, and I do my best to provide accurate and up-to-date information. In order to create content, I combine scientific resources (peer reviewed studies and easy-to-understand articles) and my own personal experiences/advice. I seek to make complicated topics easy to understand, but I am no substitute for a doctor, therapist, or other qualified mental health professional.
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You are truly appreciated. My wife has been in a two month episode and it has been overwhelming and draining. I think she’s finally starting to come out if it. Your videos helped give me hope and not feel alone.
So glad to hear this, and I hope she’s okay now!
Commenting to hopefully make your day a little less stressful.
Replying because my days are wonderfully less stressful. Thank you :)
I'm bipolar and heck yeah mixed states are the worst... remember that we love You very very much! Take care Kit! ❤
Hate them hate them hate them. Thank you so much!
Ditto!!and the hardest for me to work out
God three years no mental
Health days off ?!
Your doing better then the average
Nah I’m just insane…. Ly stupid sometimes. I know better now! Yay for mental health days
This video has moved me to tears. It is so relatable. I am not sick but my son is. And your words of how much you have tried, really, really tried, but did not succeed tremendously hit home. My son has tried so hard, so hard to get a little bit better: different medicines, regular exercise, diets, etc. and he is still in a bad place, slipping gradually into delusions that become even more powerful. He thinks a part of him is immensely evil. This is his OCD part, but he thinks it is truly a part of who is is.
But there is hope because he is finally into the care of a team of psychiatrists.
Well, your video's help me a lot, thank you.
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Glad i could help. It’s the goal. Hang in there and stay strong! 💪
I/we adore you. Sometimes the truth is, "I can do it all. Not today. Today I give myself pass."
Well said, Roy!
Be patient with yourself, Self-growth is tender; it’s holy ground. -Stephen Covey ♥♥♥♥
Oh i love this
This week I had an episode and now I’m waiting for my depression to kick in. Thank you for sharing your experience it really helps me. ❤
The wait for the depression is the worst! I always forget how bad it is, and then it happens, and it all floods back. I know I’m replying late (lol thanks depression) but I hope you’re making it through okay!
I posted a mental health vlog yesterday and after I posted it I had an anxiety attack... I get anxiety every time I post a video or even write a song because I think about how I'm sharing something personal... Its good for me in the end but never seems to go away... Anyway sorry you got unwell again hope your day goes well :)
The anxiety is real, but getting the experiences out there is worth it. Hang in there!
From my multiple clinic experiences having bi-polar and being alcoholic and meeting awesome people like me, I wonder if I will just irritate her letting her know she potentially (I'm almost am sure) , she has schizoaffective disorder. But I am not sure I should intervene. You are not isolating youself with you videos. I have my story, and it's beautiful to hear yours.
Thank you for being so real
Girl you've got this! I am so called normal and I need mental health days. They might be different but we all need time to collect ourselves and push through the bad and ugly. Thank you for helping me understand more to help the kids that come in my home with disorders. I share your videos because you are amazing. Love to your home from all of us in mine.
Mental health days should be a thing included along side vacation and sick time (when it’s available) Sometimes I get so caught up in what I’m feeling that I forget that even so called normal people ALSO have ups and downs and good and bad days. I’m glad I can provide insight to help you with the kids. Thank you for this
It’s important to remember to be kind to yourself when having an episode! I have schizoaffective as well and I understand your difficulties too and I‘ve been dealing with it for 27 years. It’s important to be mindful and alert when you see an experience coming on and have a preplanned strategy. It could be a quote, a series of quotes or even a mantra that keeps you grounded not allowing your symptoms to define you! I don’t know if this helps but I do wish you better days disarming that part of yourself so you can be better for yourself and others!
This is a lovely comment with good advice, thank you!
I'm an F31.6 patient, I'll never be an F32 pilot - nothing wrong with that. I just wish I didn't quit virtually everything in my life, but lately I feel more disciplined and diligent and to put it simply, better, and it kind of coincides with me discovering your youtube channel, so from the bottom of my heart I want to shout THANK YOU for being such a great inspiration and I hope your stress subsides soon. Best wishes again :)
Awww thank you you’re so kind!!! Thank you for supporting me!
Thank you so much for sharing your experience. I can see many similarities to your mixed state and my BPD episodes. It’s almost as if I’m experiencing a “disorganized affect” during these moments.
Watching your unedited emotional honesty these last two weeks has been the kind of thing i dont have words to express my appreciation for. Ive shared your channel prior to this funk thats after you to give them a sort of analog to help understand some of my experiences in a way i havent thought to explain. I think im inspired to start sharing my experiences too, cause everyone and their experiences are different even in the same diagnosis, and its made such a positive impact on me and my loved ones to have yours available that maybe another perspective in the mix might help the cause of awareness. Thank you, Kit 🧡
The more the merrier when it comes to sharing experiences, and I’m thrilled to have inspired you. I had no idea that filming both sides of SZA could be useful in the way you’ve described, and I’m glad I can be a resource for you to explain it, and maybe I’ll use these last few videos as a way for me to explain it to the people in my life too. I was so nervous to post about what was really going on, but I also wanted to yeah, show the dark. This comment makes me smile, and reminds me why I made this channel. And if/when you do start sharing, do let me know so I can check it out!!! (IG and Twitter are the best ways to reach me :) )
I've heard you mention mixed states before in some of your other videos, but this one gave me a whole new level of insight into what it's like to experience one. And it sounds extremely intense. Watching this got me even more emotional than your depression video did (like when you said "I'm not gonna cry" I actually did start crying a little)
I'm so sorry that you had to deal with another round of thinking you were being really productive, only to go into depression & realize in hindsight that it was mania the whole time. And then having to deal with a mixed state after all that... Mania & depression each sound intense enough on their own, so it's hard to wrap my mind around how much it must suck to experience both at the same time. Your metaphor of the old wooden emotional roller coaster really helped me understand how awful it is (b/c those things are rickety & terrifying!).
What struck me the most about this video was when you said you've been at your job for 3 years but only JUST NOW took your first mental health day (& even that was after trying to go in!). I totally understand how hard it must have been to go home, & why it would make you feel like you can never just be normal/cause a lot of frustration. But I also see it as a huge achievement that you were able to push through & go to work anyway during every other episode you've had during those 3 years before this one. Something I've been thinking about lately is the idea of "giving up too soon" vs. "knowing when to say when," & this definitely sounded like a case where you knew when to say when & made the right call. (I don't know how helpful that kind of framing is, but I thought I'd mention it just in case)
Thank you so much for taking the time to make this video even though you were going through something so difficult. It's really eye-opening, & (just like your last video) it gives people an important look at what schizoaffective disorder is actually like. BIG HUGS
BIG (っ^‿^)っ(╹◡╹) BACK GC! I didn’t mean to make you cry! But that just means I did what I came here to do, make people feel a little bit of something when I talk about deep stuff. Kinda crazy how deep I go now in videos, but I’m really glad i do, because like you said, all sides of the disorder are a thing, and I do like showing all sides.
Honestly, if I can catch mania when it happens, I want to be able to make a video about that! But as you know, its incredibly difficult to figure that one out…
Thanks so much again for this GC, and I appreciate your comments always
Your just so brilliant beautiful and well spoken !
My daughter has a severe diagnosis she is 17
Watching you gives me hope
YAY FOR HOPE! There is always some kind of hope, and I’m glad to be at least one source of it. Mental illness hitting in the teens is the worst because when I was that age and going through my stuff, I was still trying to figure out who I was, what life meant to me, and how to well… live. Adding SZA on top of it was horrible, so my heart goes out to your daughter. I know she might not feel it, but humans are remarkably resilient and she is strong enough. And you are too. Hang in there
@@SchizoKitzo thank you
I’m so grateful for your thoughtful response
I‘ve had situations like the one you are describing before myself, so my heart goes out for you! I had to stop working because my actions were making my job difficult, but it’s important to remember that we aren’t a bunch of chemicals that we are being manipulated by! When these situations arise try to be kind to yourself and get perspective! It’s just a moment, and I know it might not feel that way, but remember and it appears you know that you have your fans! You aren’t alone!
THIS IS THE BEST THANK YOU!
Thank you for your sharing. Take care. 😍
Hang in there. I just got diagnosed and you help me through all of this madness! Sincerely Thank you!
So glad to hear this, that’s why I make these videos! You hang in there too, it gets better
good video! hang in there kitz😊
THANK YOU!!!!!
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It's hard to explain, but I get it. Mania and depression often go hand in hand. My love gets mixed states often.
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Hey, hope you're getting out of the pit here. I didn't watch this video when it came out. That sounded too painful. I'm sorry about that. I'm in a slump as well. I feel like I hold you in adulation, but honestly, though we're not all the same, we all suffer from a illness. An illness which under our current economic organization, will exclude you from life if you let it. I recommend later, when you can be contemplative, a book called "This Blinding Absence of Light". Trust.
I will absolutely read that. Looked it up and it seems to offer a unique perspective, and I value perspective when it comes to well, anything! And yes, we all suffer from this crap even if it affects us in different ways. Thanks for this
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Right now I'm in what you call a mixed state not high or low just what I guess would be normal.its scary because I've been on meds for 35 years.now I'm only on nightly Seroquel because in Jan 2022 I had a big time psychotic break with about 5 months of memory loss no memory of my hospital stay where I started ECT.Its mid February 2023 I get ECT once a month now.I was taken off 4 meds and it's really weird because I guess this is what normal feels like.Hang in there every one .love you all
Getting to what I perceived as “normal” for the first time was jarring. I’m glad you have treatment that works and I hope the ECT continues to help! It’s super effective!
Love you
I have had mixed mood episodes, impossible to explain. Meds an AA really got me sorted. I met a girl I felt attracted to (not just physical) , and went to visit her. All she spoke about was demons and all her stories where religious. Mental illness is real. Mixed Mood episode was the first time I got medical intervention. Question, I can't see a future with this person. I wish I could inform her but know it doesn't work that way. You are super cool.