It’s 11/16/2024 and I just found you! I write coping tips for the bipolar support groups I’m in and this video fits the topic I’m working on. Good job of making a tough topic personal. I think you’ll really help the people I’m making the Note for 💜
Mixed states is why it took me until age 44 to be properly diagnosed as bipolar 1 after being hospitalized for mania with psychotic features 6 months ago. Even as an MD with an undergraduate degree from Yale in behavioral psychology, I could never adequately describe the hodgepodge of moods and thoughts, impulsivity/distractibility/ ocd/anxiety/somatic (flu-like/migraine) symptoms that can be characterized as the tired but wired “mixed mood state”. Mania has never felt “euphoric” to me, and depression rarely felt “sad” or even suicidal, just numb. Like an overwhelmingly heavy wet blanket smothering your will to be productive and get anything done, but for me it was never that I lost my will to live. So, in fact mixed manic-depressive states are far more “dysphoric”. Great content. I’m a new subscriber. Thanks for sharing, and I hope you’re living well Angel.
I've been in denial about my BD for years. Mostly because I was never explained anything about the mixed states. I had to educate myself on this. Thank you for sharing your story. My experience with mixed states is absolutely awful. I feel like I'm literally falling apart and my mind is melting(super high anxiety, paranoia, racing thoughts and slow speech). I too, try my hardest not to shop or impulse buy stuff I don't need.
Your comment about the million dollars is so on point. I experience a lot of mixed episodes and I don’t have a coping skill in particular. It varies. I will excessively cook and bake (calling it meal prep) I will cook everything in my house. My fridge so full. But once it’s all done. I don’t want to eat any of it. And end up throwing most of it away a week later. Or I go the opposite and don’t cook for myself. And live off of fast food and take out that I don’t even like or normally eat. So not really positive coping. But. It’s what I do.
Thank you so much for making this video! A lot of people with bipolar 2 mixed tend to feel like they're alone in this and your video really helps! And you explained it so well!
I was recently diagnosed with Bipolar mixed episodes rapid cycling. I have psych motor agitation with my mixed episodes. I too feel like I want to peel my skin off during a mixed episode! The worst feeling ever. I will also pace the house, rubbing my hands, shaking my legs..sometimes hitting my legs or head trying to release that feeling from me. Then crying and feeling like this will never end. Up n down up n down within minutes or hours. Lamictal has helped a lot!
Thanks so much for watching and for your comment❤. I too take Lamictal as part of my med cocktail and it is helpful. I'm so glad you found my channel and I hope you know you are not alone in this journey ❤.
Thank you so much for this! We need more voices helping to not only decrease the stigma but sharing experiences that help others who suffer feel less alone. I appreciated this as I’m currently in a mixed episode and being able to say “omg it’s not just me!”does wonders for helping me to feel a lot less out of it.
It might help you to know many celebrities &. singers have/ had it. People,please take it seriously. I only share” my illness w safe” people. Now I expose more,but even I,born at the boomer” generation” life has taught me the most. Not how many hospital admissions. How many inspirational quotes & inspirational people . Such as Fleetwood Macs Stevie Nicks ….HUGE INSPIRATION TO GET OFF SUBSTANCES . STYLE inspiration, Learned though I’m no judge if she’s got BP she’s taught me it’s still cool to not date over 50 if so be it (keep setting high standards for yourself Also apart of bipolar,you know when your oversexed ok.KEEP YOUR MORALES HIGHER I know. It’s difficult diff levels for other females ./ Or I’m just speaking of my own personal, also typical w rapid cycling bipolar@2. There should be NO stigma Hospitals ADD TO THAT As does THE MEDIA you I’m starting to do this in the New Year) A mood journal. My psych thinks if I , & he sees patterns It’s going to be helpful. Hopefully that helps anyone Here reading on the hunt.
I'm currently in the process of getting diagnosed with bipolar, and I think I have had two mixed episodes each of them did not end well. When I tried to explain this to the psychiatrist she said "that doesn't make sense" which made me doubt the fact there was anything wrong, but listening to this has made me relate. I'm now seeing a new psychiatrist so hopefully things go better with him, and I don't feel like I'm making everything up in my head.
That explanation of mixed episode is so accurate. I didn't even realise that's what I'm going through. I get a mixed episode for a day or two before moving into my full on depressive period. Those two days are hell. I try to sedate myself through drinking or sedative antihistamines to just try sleep the days away. Thanks for an informative video!
Hi I know this might be a little late, but I have been diagnosed with bipolar 1 recently and my most extreme episodes have been mixed. It is the worst feeling I have ever experienced. It feels like that feeling right before you throw up but just the discomfort not the nausea for like 2 days straight and then it simmers to really bad anxiety where I cant put my attention anywhere except my symptoms for about another 2 weeks. I hate it because it ramps up really fast, but then takes forever to go down. Its like my brain is set on fire or that I’m about to have a seizure or I’m going to lose control of myself if it doesn’t go down quickly. I can understand why many people act erratically during these times because its like someone put hot coles in your shoes and then tells you to go out and function normally in society. This is just my experience though.
I know exactly what you mean. I live in these states 1/2 my life,being a rapid cycling bipolar -2) even with your cold, can I say. Your voice sounds very soothing to my ears ……just saying. I am also on tons of meds, detest the side effects too…..
Thank you Angel, for the heart. I’ve a feeling, I have [ please don’t laugh) I have psychic abilities as well. From a grad teacher. ) your a giving big hearted lady. I never do a full reading” on a stranger just a few vibes if you will,I pick up …… you like myself are a survivor it’s rough in the trenches . But never give in, never give up!,,
I just discovered your channel after being diagnosed with bipolar this past month. I was misdiagnosed a couple years ago with borderline personality disorder when it should have been bipolar. Your videos are helping me see that I am not alone in this hard time for me ❤️
I had not been taking enough of the mood stabilizers (Lamictal, Trileptal) when Spring sprung around 🤯 but it definity helped me recover because Effexor was NOT ready for the seasonal change, and I swear to you, it started RIGHT at the equinox
Ha!!! 😂 @ Effexor was NOT ready. I take venlafaxine as well and I feel you, the mixed state is… uncomfortable- you’re wired but tired. I just started lamotrigine yesterday so fingers crossed that Lamictal keeps things even without flattening me out like onlazepine (an antipsychotic) did.
Angel, thank you for making these videos. I get a lot from more personal experiences of other bipolar people in their own words. I'm actually thinking about starting my own little TH-cam channel myself but I'm hesitant. A few years ago, I finally figured out my mixed states on my own and had to describe them to my pdoc. They are excruciating and the most difficult to figure out. Also can be the most dangerous if I don't catch myself early. I'm on the mood stabilizer oxcarbazepine and my pdoc allows me to adjust my dosage as my moods shift because it does so well for me. When I know I'm especially hypomanic or in a serious mixed state I can increase my meds to keep me stable. It works very well for me. Also have to watch my caffeine a bit and my attitude in general. Lots of folks are aware of depression and hypomanic/mania but mixed states need to be discussed a lot more. Thanks again for your efforts. Very helpful for me and I'm sure many others.
This is super helpful!!! I'm just learning how to recognize my symptoms and trying to figure out when Im symptomatic. I think I've been in a Depression for a while and lately I've slipped into mixed. I dont know how to cope with any of it.... it takes over me.
The first time ever that I’ve heard someone explain mix episodes so accurate. I cried.... Having mixed episodes AND fibromyalgia.... what a combination. 😞 Having the desire to do a lot, but my body says no. Then I get depressed. That’s one of my great triggers. Then I get a mixed episode. This happens «all the time». Coping skills.... trying to not spending too much money (difficult), sleep or not sleep all the day.... it doesn’t help that much. 😕 I don’t want to see anyone (I live alone), in the same time I wish someone would be there to give me a hug and hold me really hard. So I don’t fall and would do something drastic. My english is not very good. Hope you understand. Keep up with the good work. Love your videos.
New here. Love your videos. Omg we are like sisters I have the same things. I never heard anyone else that knows what I’m going through you can tell them but if they’ve never experienced it they can’t know. I’m so happy that someone really gets me. Thx so much for sharing you have no idea how much you helped me. No one has ever understood the way I feel.
I'm having a mixed episode. It feels like the first time I really feel it so much - like even in my eyes. My vision feels so hyperfocused. I've been home alone for 3 months with the Covid distancing and such fear of getting sick but I think lack of everything is ending up being a bipolar issue and potential crisis as time goes on and this feels like it will never end. I keep thinking it's only 3 months out of the next 12 or 18 and this is not going to end well. I just got a new credit card so I'm giving it to a friend to hold. I feel horrid. Tired, exhausted but can't stop moving in bed. Not sleeping or eating much and not hungry but totally exhausted. I end up doing a lot of hand wringing which just ends up painful after a while but can't stop. Thank God I'm not needing to pace like when I've been manic or at the top of hypomanic before. I'm really glad I'm not "I can't get out of bed" depressed but the longer I don't feel safe outside and I stay home alone, the more dangerous this feels like it could get. Not like in a kill myself way - just in a I'm home alone, nobody is keeping an eye on me and who knows you know? If I get really psychotic will I or anyone know? It's a scary time but everyone is having a hard time so it's kind of like I just need to shut up about it. Even our therapists are living thru what we are. It's a hard time to have a mental illness get out of control. For me, going inpt is not an option. It's the worst place for me in the world. And it's no longer treatment. It's just coloring and laying in bed. I'm better off home alone. Anyway, thanks. Sorry this is long. Having a tough night. Thanks for coming up in search. It's helped me tonight. 👍
I'm so sorry you're going through this, and I'm happy to know that my video helped in some way. It is such a difficult time. You are not alone❤. This quarantine is a hard thing and I have had to just go one day at a time. Puzzles help, they calm me and help divert my mind. Staying in close contact with my psychiatrist and my counselor and key. Thank you so much for watching. My thoughts and prayers are with you ❤.
Thank you for the video. I also shop when I have mixed episodes. I was diagnosed with bp 2 last year at 42 years old. This is my first big episode since my dx and it has been a rapid cycling mixed episode for three weeks now. Thank you for sharing your inner thoughts, made me feel much better about those intense inner ups snd downs.
Thank you for watching ❤. My episodes are still intense but my support system is wonderful. I have Bipolar II as well and it's hard but we are in this together.
Wow, I have a mixed episode right now and I sooo wish I had a coping strategy. I do the shopping thing too.. not good at all. I'm seeing my psychiatrist in a couple of days and ask her what to do about this shitty state I'm in. I wish you all the luck and hope that you are getting in a better headspace soon 👍
Thank you for your honesty, I am just researching and trying to find out if I have bipolar. It's not easy as many symptoms are unclear to me. Even to differentiate how I feel is sometimes so hard. But I really see myself in the coping mechanisms you show. For me it show in being forgetful, structure less, meeting to many different people, shopping to much and not connecting deeply with my kids and husband. It's so frustrating as it repeats and repeats. Mania, mixed episode, mania, mixed episode and then depression. That he cycle that kept repeating since some months. I want to go to a day care clinic, but he waiting time takes 4 months. I guess until then I just have to try and inform myself best and try to just cope with how it is. Videos like yours help me trimendously.
@Surija Kasteleiner Bipolar is difficult to diagnose for sure. Mine was missed for over 20 yrs. I hope you get answers soon, 4 months is such a long time to wait to see a psychiatrist. Here is a link to a video I've found to be helpful. Best wishes to you ❤️. th-cam.com/video/3lox1FC4zPM/w-d-xo.html
I was diagnosed with Bipolar a few days ago. I have had suicidal thoughts thinking how to end my life. I was feeling I want to cry everyday even when I'm at work my eyes filled suddenly with tears. This feeling lasts for maybe 2 to 3 weeks. Then yesterday, I was more hyped talking a lot with my wife .. discussing several plans like what I want to buy, where to travel on December, etc.. but at the same day I was still having the feeling of hopelessness and every time I look at the future, it just seemed like nothing. And I'm still avoiding any contact with people except my wife and my kids. I also realized that I really get upset with any noise as you said. I have not started the medication as I'm worried that it makes me worse. The good thing I have my wife's support.
Medication can be scary but it can be very helpful too. Having Bipolar is the same as having any other medical condition and therefore, medication is key. I'm so glad you have your wife❤. Stay strong and just know that the depressed or mixed mood will pass. You are not alone.
I don’t really know what is wrong with me, I have watched lots of TH-cam videos on depression and bipolar disorder but I’m still very confused, I’m sure of depression but I’m not sure about having bipolar disorder but I feel very excited, too excited for no reason and even to my own surprise while sometimes I feel very agitated and try so much to control myself then cause I will definitely get so mad at a friend,loose control and say hurtful things that I will later regret I feel very dark sometimes and picture myself in my head committing suicide or hurting myself in one way or the other, it’s so frustrating living like this, I’m 19 and my childhood experience wasn’t a good one, I can’t remember when I started feeling like but I can remember feeling this way for 7 years now and it keeps hurting me since then without knowing what was wrong with me, i just came across the definition of the term depression this year and i realized I’m suffering from it cause I have all the symptoms, but I’m not sure of bipolar even though I have most of the symptoms, I really feel so lost, dark and hopeless sometimes for no reason but no one understands me They keep telling me i chose to be sad and I can be happy if I want, how can I when I feel comfortable with the sadness sometimes when I feel normal i find myself missing the feeling of being sad and down I really don’t know if I’m still going to be ok cause I hate this feeling and at the same time I love it and that’s the frustrating part of it all🥺🥺🥺🥺😭😭😭
It would be beneficial for you to visit with a physician or a mental health professional, they are really the ones who are trained to help you. It does get better ❤️. Best wishes to you.
Healthier coping mechanisms after years of diagnosis are,bubble baths aesthetically pleasing herbal,no not cbt) Dance ,writing spending time w my 14 yr old cat. Yes me to I shop never online but I do not allow myself a credit card at all, nor cell phones) Hey I love my jewelry too. But there’s a safer way to buy it Try to buy it on layaway no interest plan though! I’ve quit drink [ incl illicit drugs ] yeats) Suggest to avoid those as well.
@millstreetteut7835 Yes. Sleep is very difficult when I'm feeling any degree of mania. My anxiety keeps me on edge, and sleep eludes me when in a mixed state.
Also, I really like how you use "to cope" as far as the reckless hypomania, because if we could've behaved better, we would. I stay out of trouble now and am 2 1/2 years sober. You just CANNOT grow or cope safely until you reign that substance abuse in and take your medicine.
How often you can have that mixed episodes, it seems my partner has it like 5 days in a week then fine for two days and again. He is untreated, only for Adhd which I dont believe he has ( he should have new assessement soon - after 15years) now on stimulants Elvanse which I think triggered his mixed episodes, too. But your feelings sounds very similar like what he is going through unfortunally he has little kids and its impossible to co-parent with him in such a bad conditions :-(
Mine come and go in a similar way but it sounds like your partner has episodes a lot more often than I do. However, with Bipolar you can't compare one person with the next. Bipolar is a very difficult disease to manage and should be done with help from professionals ie; psychiatrists, psychologists or counseling services. Best wishes and thank you for watching ❤.
It’s 11/16/2024 and I just found you! I write coping tips for the bipolar support groups I’m in and this video fits the topic I’m working on. Good job of making a tough topic personal. I think you’ll really help the people I’m making the Note for 💜
Mixed states is why it took me until age 44 to be properly diagnosed as bipolar 1 after being hospitalized for mania with psychotic features 6 months ago.
Even as an MD with an undergraduate degree from Yale in behavioral psychology, I could never adequately describe the hodgepodge of moods and thoughts, impulsivity/distractibility/ ocd/anxiety/somatic (flu-like/migraine) symptoms that can be characterized as the tired but wired “mixed mood state”.
Mania has never felt “euphoric” to me, and depression rarely felt “sad” or even suicidal, just numb. Like an overwhelmingly heavy wet blanket smothering your will to be productive and get anything done, but for me it was never that I lost my will to live.
So, in fact mixed manic-depressive states are far more “dysphoric”.
Great content. I’m a new subscriber. Thanks for sharing, and I hope you’re living well Angel.
Thank you so much for watching and for your wonderful feedback. Best of wishes yo you!
Thank you sm I always see videos on bipolar 1&2 but never mixed with mania and depression
FINALLY! Someone gets it. Omg. Hearing this made me feel better. Thank you so much.
I've been in denial about my BD for years. Mostly because I was never explained anything about the mixed states. I had to educate myself on this. Thank you for sharing your story. My experience with mixed states is absolutely awful. I feel like I'm literally falling apart and my mind is melting(super high anxiety, paranoia, racing thoughts and slow speech). I too, try my hardest not to shop or impulse buy stuff I don't need.
Your comment about the million dollars is so on point. I experience a lot of mixed episodes and I don’t have a coping skill in particular. It varies. I will excessively cook and bake (calling it meal prep) I will cook everything in my house. My fridge so full. But once it’s all done. I don’t want to eat any of it. And end up throwing most of it away a week later. Or I go the opposite and don’t cook for myself. And live off of fast food and take out that I don’t even like or normally eat. So not really positive coping. But. It’s what I do.
Thank you so much for making this video! A lot of people with bipolar 2 mixed tend to feel like they're alone in this and your video really helps! And you explained it so well!
Thanks so much for watching 😊!
I was recently diagnosed with Bipolar mixed episodes rapid cycling. I have psych motor agitation with my mixed episodes. I too feel like I want to peel my skin off during a mixed episode! The worst feeling ever.
I will also pace the house, rubbing my hands, shaking my legs..sometimes hitting my legs or head trying to release that feeling from me. Then crying and feeling like this will never end. Up n down up n down within minutes or hours. Lamictal has helped a lot!
Thanks so much for watching and for your comment❤. I too take Lamictal as part of my med cocktail and it is helpful. I'm so glad you found my channel and I hope you know you are not alone in this journey ❤.
Thank you so much for this! We need more voices helping to not only decrease the stigma but sharing experiences that help others who suffer feel less alone. I appreciated this as I’m currently in a mixed episode and being able to say “omg it’s not just me!”does wonders for helping me to feel a lot less out of it.
Stay strong ❤. Thanks so much for watching.
It might help you to know many celebrities &. singers have/ had it. People,please take it seriously.
I only share” my illness w safe” people.
Now I expose more,but even I,born at the boomer” generation” life has taught me the most.
Not how many hospital admissions.
How many inspirational quotes & inspirational people .
Such as Fleetwood Macs Stevie Nicks ….HUGE INSPIRATION TO GET OFF SUBSTANCES .
STYLE inspiration,
Learned though I’m no judge if she’s got BP she’s taught me it’s still cool to not date over 50 if so be it (keep setting high standards for yourself
Also apart of bipolar,you know when your oversexed ok.KEEP YOUR MORALES HIGHER
I know. It’s difficult diff levels for other females ./
Or I’m just speaking of my own personal, also typical w rapid cycling bipolar@2.
There should be NO stigma
Hospitals ADD TO THAT
As does THE MEDIA
you I’m starting to do this in the New Year)
A mood journal.
My psych thinks if I , & he sees patterns
It’s going to be helpful.
Hopefully that helps anyone
Here reading on the hunt.
I'm currently in the process of getting diagnosed with bipolar, and I think I have had two mixed episodes each of them did not end well. When I tried to explain this to the psychiatrist she said "that doesn't make sense" which made me doubt the fact there was anything wrong, but listening to this has made me relate. I'm now seeing a new psychiatrist so hopefully things go better with him, and I don't feel like I'm making everything up in my head.
Me too!
That explanation of mixed episode is so accurate. I didn't even realise that's what I'm going through. I get a mixed episode for a day or two before moving into my full on depressive period. Those two days are hell. I try to sedate myself through drinking or sedative antihistamines to just try sleep the days away. Thanks for an informative video!
Hi I know this might be a little late, but I have been diagnosed with bipolar 1 recently and my most extreme episodes have been mixed. It is the worst feeling I have ever experienced. It feels like that feeling right before you throw up but just the discomfort not the nausea for like 2 days straight and then it simmers to really bad anxiety where I cant put my attention anywhere except my symptoms for about another 2 weeks. I hate it because it ramps up really fast, but then takes forever to go down. Its like my brain is set on fire or that I’m about to have a seizure or I’m going to lose control of myself if it doesn’t go down quickly. I can understand why many people act erratically during these times because its like someone put hot coles in your shoes and then tells you to go out and function normally in society. This is just my experience though.
Also my memory is completely shot like I’m in a dream or my entire life beforehand never existed
I know exactly what you mean. I live in these states 1/2 my life,being a rapid cycling bipolar -2) even with your cold, can I say.
Your voice sounds very soothing to my ears ……just saying. I am also on tons of meds, detest the side effects too…..
Thank you Angel, for the heart. I’ve a feeling, I have [ please don’t laugh) I have psychic abilities as well. From a grad teacher. ) your a giving big hearted lady. I never do a full reading” on a stranger just a few vibes if you will,I pick up …… you like myself are a survivor it’s rough in the trenches .
But never give in, never give up!,,
I just discovered your channel after being diagnosed with bipolar this past month. I was misdiagnosed a couple years ago with borderline personality disorder when it should have been bipolar. Your videos are helping me see that I am not alone in this hard time for me ❤️
I'm so glad to hear that my videos are helping. Best wishes to you and thank you for watching ❤.
And it most definitely could be both, glad you’re on the right path to healing.
I had not been taking enough of the mood stabilizers (Lamictal, Trileptal) when Spring sprung around 🤯 but it definity helped me recover because Effexor was NOT ready for the seasonal change, and I swear to you, it started RIGHT at the equinox
Ha!!! 😂 @ Effexor was NOT ready. I take venlafaxine as well and I feel you, the mixed state is… uncomfortable- you’re wired but tired.
I just started lamotrigine yesterday so fingers crossed that Lamictal keeps things even without flattening me out like onlazepine (an antipsychotic) did.
I had not thought that maybe my pain was associated with my depression. This is an interesting insight.
Angel, thank you for making these videos. I get a lot from more personal experiences of other bipolar people in their own words. I'm actually thinking about starting my own little TH-cam channel myself but I'm hesitant.
A few years ago, I finally figured out my mixed states on my own and had to describe them to my pdoc. They are excruciating and the most difficult to figure out. Also can be the most dangerous if I don't catch myself early. I'm on the mood stabilizer oxcarbazepine and my pdoc allows me to adjust my dosage as my moods shift because it does so well for me. When I know I'm especially hypomanic or in a serious mixed state I can increase my meds to keep me stable. It works very well for me. Also have to watch my caffeine a bit and my attitude in general.
Lots of folks are aware of depression and hypomanic/mania but mixed states need to be discussed a lot more. Thanks again for your efforts. Very helpful for me and I'm sure many others.
This is super helpful!!! I'm just learning how to recognize my symptoms and trying to figure out when Im symptomatic. I think I've been in a Depression for a while and lately I've slipped into mixed. I dont know how to cope with any of it.... it takes over me.
It's sometimes tricky to tell if you're in a mixed episode. They are for sure uncomfortable.
Brainwaves binaural beats work for me!! Get some comfy headphones
The first time ever that I’ve heard someone explain mix episodes so accurate. I cried.... Having mixed episodes AND fibromyalgia.... what a combination. 😞 Having the desire to do a lot, but my body says no. Then I get depressed. That’s one of my great triggers. Then I get a mixed episode. This happens «all the time». Coping skills.... trying to not spending too much money (difficult), sleep or not sleep all the day.... it doesn’t help that much. 😕 I don’t want to see anyone (I live alone), in the same time I wish someone would be there to give me a hug and hold me really hard. So I don’t fall and would do something drastic. My english is not very good. Hope you understand. Keep up with the good work. Love your videos.
Thank you so much for watching❤
I completely understand! Very helpful. Extremely painful and difficult.
Excellent!
This was bang on for me. Validating. Warm tight long hugs to you. 🤗
Thank you for this video. ❤
I can relate, thank you
Thank you for explaining this so fully.
Thanks for watching and welcome to my channel ❤.
I deal with this most days and rarely ever fall into a normal state. Maybe once every 5 years. It's a lonely existence.
I feel you. You are not alone in this world❤️ I hope you have a good day
New here. Love your videos. Omg we are like sisters I have the same things. I never heard anyone else that knows what I’m going through you can tell them but if they’ve never experienced it they can’t know. I’m so happy that someone really gets me. Thx so much for sharing you have no idea how much you helped me. No one has ever understood the way I feel.
Thank you so much for watching! I'm so happy to know that you're enjoying my videos.
Just found your channel and I’m super grateful !
I'm having a mixed episode. It feels like the first time I really feel it so much - like even in my eyes. My vision feels so hyperfocused. I've been home alone for 3 months with the Covid distancing and such fear of getting sick but I think lack of everything is ending up being a bipolar issue and potential crisis as time goes on and this feels like it will never end. I keep thinking it's only 3 months out of the next 12 or 18 and this is not going to end well. I just got a new credit card so I'm giving it to a friend to hold. I feel horrid. Tired, exhausted but can't stop moving in bed. Not sleeping or eating much and not hungry but totally exhausted. I end up doing a lot of hand wringing which just ends up painful after a while but can't stop. Thank God I'm not needing to pace like when I've been manic or at the top of hypomanic before. I'm really glad I'm not "I can't get out of bed" depressed but the longer I don't feel safe outside and I stay home alone, the more dangerous this feels like it could get. Not like in a kill myself way - just in a I'm home alone, nobody is keeping an eye on me and who knows you know? If I get really psychotic will I or anyone know? It's a scary time but everyone is having a hard time so it's kind of like I just need to shut up about it. Even our therapists are living thru what we are. It's a hard time to have a mental illness get out of control. For me, going inpt is not an option. It's the worst place for me in the world. And it's no longer treatment. It's just coloring and laying in bed. I'm better off home alone. Anyway, thanks. Sorry this is long. Having a tough night. Thanks for coming up in search. It's helped me tonight. 👍
I'm so sorry you're going through this, and I'm happy to know that my video helped in some way. It is such a difficult time. You are not alone❤. This quarantine is a hard thing and I have had to just go one day at a time. Puzzles help, they calm me and help divert my mind. Staying in close contact with my psychiatrist and my counselor and key. Thank you so much for watching. My thoughts and prayers are with you ❤.
Thanks You so much. I wish I could speak with you as to not feel alone in this.. the vídeo really help. Thanks
You describe it so well
Thank you for the video. I also shop when I have mixed episodes. I was diagnosed with bp 2 last year at 42 years old. This is my first big episode since my dx and it has been a rapid cycling mixed episode for three weeks now. Thank you for sharing your inner thoughts, made me feel much better about those intense inner ups snd downs.
Thank you for watching ❤. My episodes are still intense but my support system is wonderful. I have Bipolar II as well and it's hard but we are in this together.
Wow, I have a mixed episode right now and I sooo wish I had a coping strategy. I do the shopping thing too.. not good at all. I'm seeing my psychiatrist in a couple of days and ask her what to do about this shitty state I'm in. I wish you all the luck and hope that you are getting in a better headspace soon 👍
Thank you so much for sharing!
Thank you for your honesty, I am just researching and trying to find out if I have bipolar. It's not easy as many symptoms are unclear to me. Even to differentiate how I feel is sometimes so hard. But I really see myself in the coping mechanisms you show. For me it show in being forgetful, structure less, meeting to many different people, shopping to much and not connecting deeply with my kids and husband. It's so frustrating as it repeats and repeats. Mania, mixed episode, mania, mixed episode and then depression. That he cycle that kept repeating since some months. I want to go to a day care clinic, but he waiting time takes 4 months. I guess until then I just have to try and inform myself best and try to just cope with how it is. Videos like yours help me trimendously.
@Surija Kasteleiner Bipolar is difficult to diagnose for sure. Mine was missed for over 20 yrs. I hope you get answers soon, 4 months is such a long time to wait to see a psychiatrist. Here is a link to a video I've found to be helpful. Best wishes to you ❤️.
th-cam.com/video/3lox1FC4zPM/w-d-xo.html
@@AngelHawks thank you for your response
I was diagnosed with Bipolar a few days ago. I have had suicidal thoughts thinking how to end my life. I was feeling I want to cry everyday even when I'm at work my eyes filled suddenly with tears. This feeling lasts for maybe 2 to 3 weeks. Then yesterday, I was more hyped talking a lot with my wife .. discussing several plans like what I want to buy, where to travel on December, etc.. but at the same day I was still having the feeling of hopelessness and every time I look at the future, it just seemed like nothing. And I'm still avoiding any contact with people except my wife and my kids. I also realized that I really get upset with any noise as you said. I have not started the medication as I'm worried that it makes me worse. The good thing I have my wife's support.
Medication can be scary but it can be very helpful too. Having Bipolar is the same as having any other medical condition and therefore, medication is key. I'm so glad you have your wife❤. Stay strong and just know that the depressed or mixed mood will pass. You are not alone.
I don’t really know what is wrong with me, I have watched lots of TH-cam videos on depression and bipolar disorder but I’m still very confused, I’m sure of depression but I’m not sure about having bipolar disorder but I feel very excited, too excited for no reason and even to my own surprise while sometimes I feel very agitated and try so much to control myself then cause I will definitely get so mad at a friend,loose control and say hurtful things that I will later regret
I feel very dark sometimes and picture myself in my head committing suicide or hurting myself in one way or the other, it’s so frustrating living like this, I’m 19 and my childhood experience wasn’t a good one, I can’t remember when I started feeling like but I can remember feeling this way for 7 years
now and it keeps hurting me since then without knowing what was wrong with me, i just came across the definition of the term depression this year and i realized I’m suffering from it cause I have all the symptoms, but I’m not sure of bipolar even though I have most of the symptoms, I really feel so lost, dark and hopeless sometimes for no reason but no one understands me
They keep telling me i chose to be sad and I can be happy if I want, how can I when I feel comfortable with the sadness sometimes when I feel normal i find myself missing the feeling of being sad and down
I really don’t know if I’m still going to be ok cause I hate this feeling and at the same time I love it and that’s the frustrating part of it all🥺🥺🥺🥺😭😭😭
It would be beneficial for you to visit with a physician or a mental health professional, they are really the ones who are trained to help you. It does get better ❤️. Best wishes to you.
Healthier coping mechanisms after years of diagnosis are,bubble baths aesthetically pleasing herbal,no not cbt)
Dance ,writing spending time w my 14 yr old cat.
Yes me to I shop never online but I do not allow myself a credit card at all, nor cell phones)
Hey I love my jewelry too.
But there’s a safer way to buy it
Try to buy it on layaway no interest plan though!
I’ve quit drink [ incl illicit drugs ] yeats)
Suggest to avoid those as well.
Before I go, 30k in debt, without my dad, idk what'd I'd do, I doubt I could get credit again but I did not file for bankruptcy as per my dad's advice
Hi, do you also have insomnia when in a mixed state? Thank you
@millstreetteut7835 Yes. Sleep is very difficult when I'm feeling any degree of mania. My anxiety keeps me on edge, and sleep eludes me when in a mixed state.
May i ask which meds helped you?
Abilify has been a miracle med for me, but I always say, "Follow the advice of your prescriber." Best wishes ❤️.
Thank you!
I have this.
I am so sorry you have to cope with this.
Also, I really like how you use "to cope" as far as the reckless hypomania, because if we could've behaved better, we would. I stay out of trouble now and am 2 1/2 years sober. You just CANNOT grow or cope safely until you reign that substance abuse in and take your medicine.
How often you can have that mixed episodes, it seems my partner has it like 5 days in a week then fine for two days and again. He is untreated, only for Adhd which I dont believe he has ( he should have new assessement soon - after 15years) now on stimulants Elvanse which I think triggered his mixed episodes, too. But your feelings sounds very similar like what he is going through unfortunally he has little kids and its impossible to co-parent with him in such a bad conditions :-(
Mine come and go in a similar way but it sounds like your partner has episodes a lot more often than I do. However, with Bipolar you can't compare one person with the next. Bipolar is a very difficult disease to manage and should be done with help from professionals ie; psychiatrists, psychologists or counseling services. Best wishes and thank you for watching ❤.
You're correct just as Uncomfortable as a Cheap Poorly Fitted suit. Only! Find a better Tailor I guess. I just figured this out. Great!
SO know what you're talking about. It has been horrible.
2 weeks? You're lucky.
Thank you❤️🩹 I’m trying so hard to try and understand this in my partner.