I’ve struggled with edema and ascites myself due to organ failure. It’s been almost two years since I left hospice and no longer suffer from these ailments. I know how painful it can be, but the body is amazing and wants to recover! Sending you all the love and light your way. I hope this finds you well!
Thank you so much for uploading this update, it is generous of you and is appreciated. I (we) worry about you. When you first came on to youtube you were doing well, you were getting stronger, that proves that you can do it, it is possible!! I hope you find the mental strength you need, never give up xxx
Ange, praying so unbelievably hard for you. I wish I could make those prayers help. Sending big massive hugs, stay strong and know that people love you.
Ι was worried about you. Keep up the fight. You are vulnerable rn and it's completely alright. Bit by bit, you can push through this, I am certain. Thank you for your honesty. Perhaps consult with a mental health practitioner about the panic attacks?
I understand that the eating disorder is safe, that's one reason why I'm 41 and don't want to recover. You have a lot going on try and take it easy my love and prayers to you and your daughter ❤❤
Hi Abby it is so good to hear from you! I am praying for your healing. God loves you so much if you do not know Jesus please ask him into your heart. He wants to know you . so deeply.
Sending u so much love and positive energy. Have u ever been in this physical space before ? U are such a talented precious person would u consider going to hospital to become medically more stable .only saying this from a place of love .
Hi Ange, yes I have been worried about you too. Dam Ed 😡. Have you been in hospital at all since your last post ? After all the many years of anorexia my body is showing the effects of malnutrition including 24/ 7 pain from Osteoporosis and broken bones that won't heal and specialists who refuse to help because of the risks of my bones totally crumbling away 😪 Also tightness and pains in my chest from years of stress on my heart. I am thinking about you Ange and I totally sympathise with you and your health situation. If you would like to chat privately or message privately please let me know, I am more than happy to listen- anytime. After all we have both endured over so many years I am sure we understand each other's plight as only we can. Take care Ange, and feel free to make contact whenever you may wish to. Honestly Di 💗
Just curious babe, don't take this the wrong way. But I was wondering how your doctor has not made you inpatient? I was put on a treatment order tor an inpatient admission (and I was in a lot of a better position than you). I feel like your doctors have a duty of care. I can see how much you are suffering and sometimes you need that push to get better.
I also had this question. I am thinking that would be the only thing that would benefit her at this point. The anorexia might be at the root of many of her other issues. I wonder if doctors suggest but her disorder is causing her to not want treatment. Angie-if you are reading this, I also struggle with anorexia (in a good place now, just below actual BMI and have been for years so you can do it!) and would have feared going inpatient, if this is a reason you aren’t there right now. Please, please, please get yourself admitted inpatient and let others help you. You look like you are about to die. Do you want to die? How do you think your daughter will feel? I know these are hard questions to hear but you have some choices to make while you still can. Sometimes, your body gets to a point where it is hard to come back from and medicines cannot help. Please try really hard to go inpatient where you will have time to work on yourself. Sending love and support to you and Missy Dandelion.
The doctor at the time knew I was managing at home and he did not want to regulate me because that has happened to me twice before and neither time did it help me. It made me a lot worse. Of course doctor would have wanted to help me but not as an inpatient. I can live but not embrace full recovery as many wish. I do not think this is possible for me at this point it has been nearly 30 years. I love my daughter more than anything but that doesn't mean I can recover. I will do the best I can to make sure she isn't affected in the same way. She is absolutely so different from me and I'm grateful for that.
I’m glad to see you again. I know you’ve been under medical supervision in the past, and I can’t help but feel you need it now. We all have a point beyond which it’s really hard to get ourselves even vaguely back on track. I don’t want you to reach that point. It is still possible to live a decent life, and now is the time to go with it. Please don’t s slide further. I’m well aware of the psychological barriers, but now must be the time xxx
I likely do need it, but I will never seek it again. Last year I pulled myself out of a similar state on my own and if I choose, I can do so again I think, but there are many risks of course. I do have a regular check in with the GP.
@@ababy6074 as we get older, it can become far more difficult to pull ourselves out of a mindset and pattern of behaviour. Mentally and physically we are that bit weaker than last time. Whether it be alcohol, anorexia, drug addiction or anything else, our bodies and minds are inevitably weaker. As I mentioned, we can reach a point beyond which changing our behaviour and therefore our state of health is no longer in our power. It’s too late to repair the damage, as the damage is worse than the last time we tried. I care about you. We all do. Some of us know from our own experience or the experience of others that our bodies and minds can’t keep battling against abuse indefinitely. I don’t know what you will choose to do, but choices can only be made by those who still have options. Thinking of you x
Ps just to repeat, we want you to have a life with all the things that involves. No one’s life is ok all the time, but there are sunsets to see, birds to hear, breezes to feel and people to be loved by. You deserve these things xxxx
I am curious about your daughter’s reaction and how she handles you being so unwell? You had been home schooling your daughter, right? Are you still able to do that?
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I’ve struggled with edema and ascites myself due to organ failure. It’s been almost two years since I left hospice and no longer suffer from these ailments. I know how painful it can be, but the body is amazing and wants to recover! Sending you all the love and light your way. I hope this finds you well!
Thank you so much for uploading this update, it is generous of you and is appreciated. I (we) worry about you.
When you first came on to youtube you were doing well, you were getting stronger, that proves that you can do it, it is possible!!
I hope you find the mental strength you need, never give up xxx
Ange, praying so unbelievably hard for you.
I wish I could make those prayers help.
Sending big massive hugs, stay strong and know that people love you.
Ι was worried about you. Keep up the fight. You are vulnerable rn and it's completely alright. Bit by bit, you can push through this, I am certain. Thank you for your honesty. Perhaps consult with a mental health practitioner about the panic attacks?
I understand that the eating disorder is safe, that's one reason why I'm 41 and don't want to recover.
You have a lot going on try and take it easy my love and prayers to you and your daughter ❤❤
Thank you so much Jessie
You have no idea what that means to me right now. All the ove in the world to you xxoo
I completely resonate with so many things you said. Sending you health and love.
I am praying constantly...you know how much I love you.
I hope I can see you in 3 weeks...🙏💔
Hi Abby it is so good to hear from you! I am praying for your healing. God loves you so much if you do not know Jesus please ask him into your heart. He wants to know you . so deeply.
Prayers and sending love from Texas ❤❤❤🙏
Thank you for making the effort to post this, despite the physical and mental energy it took. Lots of strength from Europe!
Sending u so much love and positive energy. Have u ever been in this physical space before ? U are such a talented precious person would u consider going to hospital to become medically more stable .only saying this from a place of love .
ive been thinking so much of you
Hi Ange, yes I have been worried about you too. Dam Ed 😡. Have you been in hospital at all since your last post ? After all the many years of anorexia my body is showing the effects of malnutrition including 24/ 7 pain from Osteoporosis and broken bones that won't heal and specialists who refuse to help because of the risks of my bones totally crumbling away 😪
Also tightness and pains in my chest from years of stress on my heart. I am thinking about you Ange and I totally sympathise with you and your health situation.
If you would like to chat privately or message privately please let me know, I am more than happy to listen- anytime. After all we have both endured over so many years I am sure we understand each other's plight as only we can.
Take care Ange, and feel free to make contact whenever you may wish to. Honestly Di 💗
I am sorry to know that you have suffered for so long, and are still suffering. I so wish I could help somehow!!
Thank you Di...sending tons of love your way 💕💕💕
@@ababy6074 Thinking of you 💗
Sending hugs and best wishes 🤗 ❤
Just curious babe, don't take this the wrong way. But I was wondering how your doctor has not made you inpatient? I was put on a treatment order tor an inpatient admission (and I was in a lot of a better position than you). I feel like your doctors have a duty of care. I can see how much you are suffering and sometimes you need that push to get better.
I also had this question. I am thinking that would be the only thing that would benefit her at this point. The anorexia might be at the root of many of her other issues. I wonder if doctors suggest but her disorder is causing her to not want treatment. Angie-if you are reading this, I also struggle with anorexia (in a good place now, just below actual BMI and have been for years so you can do it!) and would have feared going inpatient, if this is a reason you aren’t there right now. Please, please, please get yourself admitted inpatient and let others help you. You look like you are about to die. Do you want to die? How do you think your daughter will feel? I know these are hard questions to hear but you have some choices to make while you still can. Sometimes, your body gets to a point where it is hard to come back from and medicines cannot help. Please try really hard to go inpatient where you will have time to work on yourself. Sending love and support to you and Missy Dandelion.
The doctor at the time knew I was managing at home and he did not want to regulate me because that has happened to me twice before and neither time did it help me. It made me a lot worse. Of course doctor would have wanted to help me but not as an inpatient. I can live but not embrace full recovery as many wish. I do not think this is possible for me at this point it has been nearly 30 years. I love my daughter more than anything but that doesn't mean I can recover. I will do the best I can to make sure she isn't affected in the same way. She is absolutely so different from me and I'm grateful for that.
I’m glad to see you again. I know you’ve been under medical supervision in the past, and I can’t help but feel you need it now. We all have a point beyond which it’s really hard to get ourselves even vaguely back on track. I don’t want you to reach that point. It is still possible to live a decent life, and now is the time to go with it. Please don’t s slide further. I’m well aware of the psychological barriers, but now must be the time xxx
I likely do need it, but I will never seek it again. Last year I pulled myself out of a similar state on my own and if I choose, I can do so again I think, but there are many risks of course. I do have a regular check in with the GP.
@@ababy6074 as we get older, it can become far more difficult to pull ourselves out of a mindset and pattern of behaviour. Mentally and physically we are that bit weaker than last time. Whether it be alcohol, anorexia, drug addiction or anything else, our bodies and minds are inevitably weaker. As I mentioned, we can reach a point beyond which changing our behaviour and therefore our state of health is no longer in our power. It’s too late to repair the damage, as the damage is worse than the last time we tried. I care about you. We all do. Some of us know from our own experience or the experience of others that our bodies and minds can’t keep battling against abuse indefinitely. I don’t know what you will choose to do, but choices can only be made by those who still have options.
Thinking of you x
Ps just to repeat, we want you to have a life with all the things that involves. No one’s life is ok all the time, but there are sunsets to see, birds to hear, breezes to feel and people to be loved by. You deserve these things xxxx
Pps Hi on Saturday. Thinking of you. Rooting for you. X
I am curious about your daughter’s reaction and how she handles you being so unwell? You had been home schooling your daughter, right? Are you still able to do that?
Yes I am still home schooling and it does take up a lot of time but it is what I want for her more than anything.