I worked in education through my mid 20's until recently. Around 40, I was burned out. Being single with no kids made me feel like I missed the boat. The past few years have been tough, with depression, anxiety and sleep issues. I wanted to quit for years... Finally quit in June. I've been unemployed for 5 months and my health has never been better. I'm relearning how to live on my terms, instead of what society tells me to do. I relate to your story and thank you for being an awesome guy.
Ernie if you really love kids, volunteer or Big Brother type stuff. Not everyone has to be a parent. I've met folks hwo met the love of their life in their 50's
Ernie, I did the sam etching only I was a social worker working in an increasingly constricted environment. I walked away at 56. I’m 59 now, never once regretted quitting! I’m not even renewing my license to practice in March as I’ll never work for the man again. Lol enjoy your travels
Very well done!!! Give yourself a huge pat on the back!! I remember being in my mid teens going through it!!! I'm now 62 yes and the happiest I've ever been!! I meditate twice daily and cycle 150 miles per week!!! Keep the good work up!! Always work on yourself too!! Don't watch/listen to MSM!!! ❤️🇬🇧
I am 25 and currently severely depressed. Every single day is genuinely a struggle to get through. I cry multiple times a day now. I feel so useless and afraid that I might stay like this forever. I don’t think I’ve ever been more miserable in my entire life and I just don’t know what to do. I feel so stuck. I feel so hopeless. I feel so weak for not being able to pull myself together. I feel dread as soon as I wake up. I don’t really know what I am living for.
Try to find something that makes you happy. This year & right now I'm going through tough days but I know somehow I have to make it though. I just wished I around people who overcame it & give me advice
Im also just like you, and I finally broke down and asked Jesus into my heart and my life, I was done being egotistical and self serving. Now I think in terms of how I could be useful to others, and in doing so found my problems were really tiny to alot of the struggles I saw all around me one I opened myself up to helping others. Jesus will have a long hard look at you and then start to direct you to do things, you will know The Lord and you will have peace. And a purpose, but you have to sincerely repent and tun from your ways to his....
I'm praying for you. I feel the same way and am seriously struggling. I'm praying for us both 🙏🙏🙏 and for everyone who suffers with this crippling illness.
Im 27, and I’ve been struggling with depression for quite a few years now, struggling relationship with narcissistic parents, some schmuck broke my heart, turned out to be an alcoholic… it was a baaad downward spiral. I know this is late, this video is a year old, but I wanted to say thank you. So much. You’ve changed my life with your videos.
Tim, I'm a 65 y/o white guy from Cleveland. As a young man I was a steelworker. I spent alot of time with the brothers. You're one of the coolest guys around. You've got your shit together. God bless you!
I was just thinking the same thing! So so so so important. When you're in the throes of something, it is almost impossible to see it like an outsider, so this is very inspirational.
Yes. Be safe paying attention to your homeostasis. My first view of your Platform.... NOW you understand why I thought you were a Robot. lol You're so Facinating Tim!!!!
Ironically my mother went for walks her whole life into her 70s and you're right. Something as simple as walking can really adds up in terms of health and happiness.
People who deviate from the norm tend to get depressed easier. I sometimes think about what it would be like to be a person who didn't have any downfalls, had a smooth life and had a spouse, 2.5 kids, a house, and a career. I'm sure they have their own struggles, but that's not me at all and I started to question my place in the world. when you feel that different, and it's not your fault, life seems very unfair. now, i'm pretty happy, and i stopped giving a fuck what people think, and i realized that getting older can have some advantages if you use what you've learned and apply it. for me, the condition i have is completely genetic (everyone on my dad's side has it), so most people wouldn't understand what i've had to go through. for a while i felt inferior. now, i feel really strong, cause im like wow, the stuff that i survived, most people wouldn't be able to. i also realized im really talented.
Real talk man. I'm not going to lie, I have also thought about suicide on numerous occasions. What makes me not go that route are my mother's two suicide attempts. Having to call the paramedics and being uncertain about the final outcome is something I don't wish to anyone. Fortunately my mother is still alive. I don't want to cause her any suffering by offing myself. Things tend to get better once you stop caring so much about society. As long as you don't harm anyone, do your thing. That's my take.
I have bi polar/ PTSD/ BPD/ OCD, social anxiety I too sometimes don’t want to live. I now have good and bad days. Most of them are bad, Like you I’m working on living life on my own terms and staying focus on my wellness. Thank you for talking about mental illness, it’s real.
I hope that you are getting professional support i.e. a psychiatrist that you truly trust. One who thoroughly understands you. Support is very important. Wishing you the best.
I too am struggling with depression & anxiety and feeling totally alienated from everyone at work, like I just do not fit in. By Friday, I feel like a basket case. I pray for everyone else out there who is struggling.
I went through a mid life crisis at 35 … Thought long and hard about suicide … My wife pulled me through though. Working every Monday through Friday was depressing as depressing can get man … Work for years to get one week vacation and then when you go on vacation you still get calls and emails … No thanks. All thanks to you brother … We finally found the inspiration to live life and that’s what we are doing. Thanks so much man … I can never thank you enough for all of your videos man.
Fuck that man if you’re on vacationyou’re on vacation simple as that. Better to switch your phone off, as for your depression it’s a bitch to get through and I’m glad you’ve found the light. Cheers
Can I talk to you? I’m 39 right now and going through a severe mid-life crisis because in a few more months I will be 40. I’m still single, never married, and no kids.
Working out (lifting ,swimming,running etc) ,good friends / family and get busy with some thing you enjoy,that helped to go through some real dark times.
I'm depressed since I was a kid and being hiding it since then in order to live a "normal" life, too scared to face my inner demons. Now I'm 35 and I'm having no choice, I can't hide it anymore. I feel like I've been in a black hole screaming for help my entire life, but only now I realize I am the one to have on my back. I quit 2 jobs in a row, cry everyday, but maybe I'll finally have the courage to change my life and follow my dreams. Thank you so much, your words are a blessing and give me much more hope for the future. ❤
As soon as I saw the background I knew you were in Arizona. Living in Arizona for most of my life, I have done a lot of hiking in similar areas. Anyone hiking in Arizona should make sure they carry more water than they think. We get a lot of emergency rescues because of the heat. I think a lot of people who have figured out to let go of material things and focus on the things that matter, often have a dark period of life, not necessarily suicidal feelings. When you think of your own mortality or loose a lot in life, it kind of clears out all the nonsense in life.
Yeah the heat is no joke, I live in AZ as well. Always bring a lot of water when hiking, I see it every summer on the news, people get stranded on a mountain. Stay safe.
WOW! What a testimony. You are still here because God is using you to be an inspiration to others. Here it is Thanksgiving Day, I'm alone, yet inspired by a past video of yours. All your videos inspire me to live MY best life regardless of whether others agree or not with my choices. Thanks for brightening my Thanksgiving.
Tim, I’m glad you survived your very serious suicide attempt. If there’s anybody out there struggling, don’t do it and go to the nearest Emergency room for help. You don’t have to suffer anymore. Help is available
Thank you! It helps people so much to know others have suffered with depression. Same with me- 19 years old, came from nowhere. It haunted me through my early 20’s but I got through it. Travel helped me, having the freedom to move around and discover the beauty in nature really helped.
Tim, I for one am so glad u came out of that blackness. I know what depression is like. I stay on the meds now as maintenance medication after having had two major depressive episodes in my life that were long in duration. The world is blessed to have you in this world and you already know how much I value your thoughts on so many subjects. Sending you a virtual hug.
@@5thdimension625 for me they have helped. So I figure it it ain’t broke don’t fix it. I’ve tried to come off them in the past and never felt right. I’m glad they have helped u too
This is a sensitive topic but thanks Tim for it. I went through a depression when I was 23 years and just finishing my university. I didn't understand the reasons then but I do now. Being in Africa I didn't have the previledge of meeting psychiatrists or even get anti depressants because those resources are very scarce here so I had no option but to fight through it my self. The good news is that I did come out of it and also worked on the conditions that led to the depression and am the happiest man alive today. I will live you with a quote from one of my best philosophers Friedrick Nietzsche, he says 'to live is to suffer but to survive is to find meaning in the suffering'.
I have basically lived with severe depression and anxiety since my teen years. It's like a never ending roller coaster of highs and lows. I just have always felt like the black sheep in life and it makes me feel so alone. It's gotten progesively worse since I have been in my 20s because that's the timeframe that most people are figuring out their life. This usually involves graduating college, getting a good job and marrying a significant other and settling down. I have achieved none of this and I'm 27 years old and get so frustrated that I haven't figured out my life yet. I see all my peers moving on with their lives and start comparing myself to them and feel so useless. I've struggled with suicidal ideation and a few times it got really bad and I was seconds away from acting on those feelings. I question why do I even exist? Why am I here? I have nothing and feel like an empty shell. I have no drive and passion like most people and I just work different jobs so I can pay the bills that I have. I just feel so alone sometimes like nobody can understand me and my problems.This life on earth just feels like a prison to me and I just want to be free. I'm also just so fed up with our society is and how so many people are just suffering while others are doing nothing to help those in need. The greed of the wealthy higher ups really gets to me. If I ever had that kind of money I'd be helping so many people. I wouldn't just spend it all on myself. The only reason I'm still here is because of my family who I live with and my close 2-3 friends. It just sucks so much because I really don't want to be here anymore but I also don't want to hurt them by offing myself. I just feel so lost and trapped in a dark hole that I can't seem to escape. I just feel like I am so broken and I feel like I'm a shame to everyone around me. I just pray to God please take me. I want to leave this earth so desperately.
Hello, your depressed because of what you feed your billions of cells. You should eat raw fruit..your depression will go and never return...follow ppl of you tube..raw food ppl.. if theirs no change, then theirs no change..
It's a good idea about having a session with a psychologist. It's the secular version of having a chat with the vicar and that's one thing that's missing in society. I'm an Atheist and I can see the benefits people had in being in a congregation.
Tim thanks for telling your story. I suffer from severe depression. I so glad I have subscribe to your channel. You are genuine and relatable. I just want to thank you so much for sharing because it's hard sometimes talking about mental health of fear of being judge.
I know how to overcome 1.never be too tied to anything 2.always explore and enjoy trying new things 3.never let petty people piss you off 4. If you feel you have no purpose remember that life is short and we sometimes aren't alway meant to have a purpose sometimes we're just meant to live 5 leave that shitty job I know you want to 6 don't be afraid to lose 7 not everything has to be answered sometimes thing remain unknown ... 8 if you feel you don't know where your going change direction 9 you can make the day better yourself even if someone pissed you off 10 live each day not as your last but live each second as if it were your last 11 do what you want 12 don't let people dictate your life 13 it's ok to feel depressed at times and feel like life is over we aren't perfect and we're only human life is about ups and downs .. 14 remember that all the times you tried so hard to get to where you are and how proud you should be 15 love and let live and yes that applies to you to 16 never think your alone 17 if you do feel alone remember many of us feel the same way 18 a new beginning always has a end weather it be bad or good 19 keep on going don't give up Have a great day and hope those can help someone
Tim, this was how I feel. I made the mistake of getting on medication in my 20’s. Severe depression and anxiety. Major depression was hitting me and I’m a very logical person as well but my behaviors started to become worse. I turned to alcohol. I’m now going on 50 and I wish I never would of started medication. Prozac and Zoloft made me a nutcase. Im on a very low dose of antidepressant and it makes me tired and complacent. When I try to get off I go into a dark hole so I go back on it. Your videos are very uplifting and inspiring. Im glad I found your channel. Im going on 50 and I’m a minimalist now, I’m a lot wiser. Depression is horrible and you describe it well. Takes a hell of a lot of perseverance to push through when your mind is telling you the opposite. This is a great video. I think you are the male version of myself. You are very blessed and I’m following you on my path to peace. Everyone deserves happiness and peace of mind … God bless us all ❤️
my PTSD has completely destroyed my life. Seen a lot of death. Lost friends. This world is just brutal, and people do their best to sugar coat it. Being in society, I see people living in their boxes and enjoying it. People are content just being slaves if it means surviving. In all parts of the world this is truth. People will do anything to survive, just to suffer. I question why I continue, and honestly, I live for those who did not want to die but did. I live so I can observe the world, and myself. That’s it.
Thank you Timothy for your story and for helping other people with depression like myself. I was a doctor for 22 years but suffered from major depression and had to retire early. I still have bouts of depression and like you say time does work and practicing health behaviours. Thank you,.
Causes of depression that most people aren't aware of: mold(watch the documentary - Moldy), having low free testosterone (this can be caused by many things including SSRIs by increasing aromatase). I know because I experienced both. I hope this helps someone out who has depression but can't find the cause.
Omg I have been wondering if part of my issue is mold. I can't see it in my rental, but I often smell a moldy, mildew smell. I have been suffering from headaches, which I never used to get, or rarely.
@@oliviachipperfield6029I have nearly a constant daily ache in the front of my forehead that no doctor has been able to figure out or understand. I had an MRI and nothing was found. All they can do is chalk it up to either depression or mild tension/migraine-type headaches. Pills seem to help 50%, but then cause some other problem like add to the fatigue that’s already there.
I started watching your videos like 2 days ago. Quiet quitting, I don't dream of labour, kill your bills, and now this, are topics I relate to yet I'm from the opposite side of the planet in Africa. Keep up the 'real talk'. You never know just who's life you may impact 🌹
This year is the year of truth and forced change. Hang on everyone. Im severely depressed to be able to function but fuck it. The war aint over till I'm happy and content with being alive. Depression is a very insidous logical mental illness.
Been suffering from anxiety/depression for over 30 years. It’s peaks and valleys. The last time I tried to die I meant it and it’s such a horrible dark hole. Still fighting, but I think of all that I would have missed and what it would have done to my children if I had been successful. My daughter came over unexpectedly and it saved me. Thank you for sharing. I wish there wasn’t such a stigma on mental health. Every night I pray for anyone who is going through this and hope we all make it. It’s so sad to read everyone’s comments. We’re all worth being here. It’s just very painful. Thank you again for sharing.
Tim, for a long time I wondered why I was depressed even tho I have a great life. I would ask that question everyday to myself. With no answers in sight!! I didn’t want to be depressed and I changed my entire life to help guide me into the right direction. I broke up with a mentally damaged girl that was causing me a bunch of distress, sold my property and house, paid off all my debt, became as close to as minimalist as I could, bought an RV to travel, work three months a year, and lost weight but I was still depressed after all that!! I have been single and working on myself for over a year and feel much better now but still on the road to complete happiness. I just want to say Tim that your channel, as weird as it sounds, makes me proud to be introverted. Most introvert people don’t talk about this stuff so it was always lonely. The videos you have seem like you read my mind or that we have so many of the same thoughts!! Thank you for what you do 🤙
I can relate. I love Buddhist Dukkha. We don't have to suffer. It is a choice. I too wanted to die but I wouldn't do suicide. So I quit living feeling no joy and hated my life. I hit bottom and went to coda and 12 step meetings. I finally reached out for help. I have new friends with coda. I am struggling leaving my 26 yrs career even though it makes me sick. I even had a buddhist monk said I need to quit. I am glad you are free Tim. So I know I need to mediate on leaving my nursing job. FUD gets me fear, uncertainty and doubt lol. I haven't worked for 6 months as a travel nurse. 26 years of nursing. My husband is working. He has his own business.
So sorry you experienced depression to that degree. We never know what people are thinking sometimes until it’s too late. I am so happy that you decided to stay with the living. You are an inspiration to the world.
I’ve been sober for 3.5 years but this last year has been very tough. Every morning feels like a bit of a nightmare. Constantly feel overwhelmed by life and somewhat ‘trapped’
I can't agree enough on everybody having access to a therapist. Like you say, gives you someone to talk to who comes at things from a neutral perspective other than wanting you to be well (if they're any good!), and stops you taking it out on people around you. I once had a 'friend' who said she didn't need a therapist because she had me and her boyfriend...except we were bloody miserable listening to it all and dealing with the aggression, which was sometimes about us personally.
I used to be severely depressed and anxious in high school and almost all the way throughout my college years (7-8 years) due to home issues and the way I perceived myself and the world. Many times I wished I was dead but was too scared of the prospect of suicide. I discovered coping mechanisms that weren’t so healthy but kept me going. I tried getting help at my university counseling service and it made me feel awful and as if nothing was wrong, so I stopped looking for help in that way (when I probably should’ve looked elsewhere, they scored me on 98/100 for anxiety and 80/100 for depression yet were so dismissive). I eventually had a spiritual hallucinogenic experience followed by a study abroad semester that turned on a switch in my brain as if the color and wonder of the world had suddenly flooded back in. All I can say to those who still suffer is that you should look everywhere you can and dig into why you feel the way you do, seek help, find new things to enjoy, try to reach out or find friends who are understanding, question your beliefs and remove what doesn’t serve you to live and try to find new ones that make you want to stay here. Like he said, exhaust every avenue. If you read this and you are struggling know you aren’t alone and I’m sincerely wishing you the very best in your life. Soon I will be studying to become a licensed counselor and I hope to give myself as an ear for as many as I can. I know if I could find the light, so can many others.
I have Severe Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD). I have been in the psych ward several times. And the second to last time I was in there a woman said to me "Mark you have to stop having these temper tantrums!" And I thought for a minute or two and I was like "Am I really acting like that?" I still have convulsions and I have to take Klonopin though. But I have more control over myself.
You're a brave man for sharing your darkest moments. Keep making the best of life and enjoy the beauty it offers. I appreciate and admire your dedication to this channel. Stay well. Life is a journey and never give up.
Mr Ward , I’m sure the message you shared today will help someone with their struggle. You’re very generous to share your travels and the words of wisdom you impart to your followers. Sincerely Gerald
Timothy Ward, your words have given me hope. I will turn 73 in a week. The deep well of darkness for me lessened many decades ago. Today, i try to remember how far I've come since then. But now i have health and mobility issues and have been letting that discourage me. Listening to you today was a godsend. Thank you for the motivation.❤😊
My story: I was raised in a house that got increasingly messier as time went by. In other words, my parents are hoarders. I felt like it really slowed my life down. I tried to get help, talking to college counselors just to help my mental breakdowns in school. On top of that, i have ADHD. Thankfully I was able to graduate and get a job. Now im out of that house at 26. It feels like I was isolated from society(not entirely), or just had to be not my ideal self for many many years. Now that I am not in survival mode, It feels like I have to start from scratch and figure out my life, when I feel like some of my peers are way more confident, have their direction in life. Having a physically active life comes easy for me, but getting money and actually figuring out what I'm good at and want to do is a new challenge. I trust that it will come in time, and you telling me I don't need to have it all figured out is comforting.
Tim, these videos where you're open, honest, and authentic are just so incredibly valuable. It's a good reminder we're all in this together and we're not alone. Thank you so much for sharing, and I'm glad you're doing well!
Thank you for sharing Brother. I am glad you are still here with us. I am glad that I am still here with y'all. I suffer from post military stuff...some days are better than others....thats why Im always doing stuff like you comment about me on your podcast...I have to stay on the move. The minute I slow up depression kicks in. Much love Bro. 195 days alcohol free!!! #AlcoholSucks! #SHIBArmy! 🔥🚀 PS...My Baby Sister took her life last year around this time so a Brotha has been down but we keep fighting!!! 🔥
What uP! Missed the live yesterday but I'm back for this! Yes, I tried once and I am glad it didn't work. Life is hard and depressing and sometimes meaningless but those bad times, those bad thoughts do pass.
Hi Tim!! I used to live in Arizona. The desert is beautiful !!! We are all glad you are here!! You were meant to be here. You are an inspiration and you give hope to many. Thank You.
Thank you Tim for this video on depression. I am now 70 but I went thru a terrible depression in my 40’s where my brain would not stop thinking suicidal thoughts. I was fighting 24 hours a day. I was exhausted. Fortunately, I friend took me to the dr. I was low on iron. Got that straightened out. I could breathe better but the thoughts stayed. Next I was diagnosed with clinical depression. I was put on two anti-depressants. The dr said it would take about 2 weeks for it to build up in my system. If it didn’t work, we could try another combination. I waited, I hung on. At the end of 2 weeks I was only having 2 or 3 suicidal thoughts a day. Now that I could deal with. Eventually, all the horrible thoughts went away. Twice since then I’ve decided I was well and these pills are no longer needed. Twice I’ve come off them and 2 weeks later all I could think about was ways to kill myself. So I actually have clinical depression and am grateful for the medication that saved my life. My dr told me if he said I had diabetes and needed insulin, I would have done what he told me. Very true. But I fought him on this because it is a “mental “ issue. I did not want to be one of those people with a mental illness. He said clinical depression is just an illness that you need medication for. Just like you need insulin if you had diabetes. So I’m with you in wanting to help others know there are ways out of depression. Lots of different ways. It does not feel like it. But you can get well. Find the correct help for you. Ann from Vancouver, BC. Canada
I am 20 and I just can’t see a future where I’m happy. I have many things I want… but none of them lead to happiness, just minor relief from inconveniences (money, food, home, etc) not sure what to do. Im glad to hear time may be the answer
It's good to hear you talk about this subject, Tim. I have suffered from depression since childhood trauma. It is pretty much low level now. I spent 2 years on Prozac and to be honest that helped. Now I do my best to enjoy life and I would say I am happier in life than most people who gripe and complain about the little things that matter nought. Meditation and Stoicism helps. It does look amazing where you are hiking 😊
Suffered from depression for most of my life. Chemical imbalance combined with a not so good upbringing. But through therapy and drugs and having to face down the darkness, I am finding my way. It's not just time: it's sheer hard fucking work. Sometimes, the darkness comes and just knocks you on your ass. Other times, it just isn't there. You can get better and more consistent and then eventually, you find yourself being less and less depressed.
@@gregorymendoza9455 Hope the cold is short-lived. Sending a virtual hug and hope you are feeling okay in terms of mental health. I know it can be a struggle. Just take it easy 😊🌅
I have suffered from depression, officially, for eight years. I had lost my job of 15 years then, and I felt absolutely lost. I fell into a depression, and I came to realize that I had suffered from it for even longer than I thought. The job loss was really a trigger that really brought it out into the open. There have been peaks and valley since then, but right now things are bad. I live for two sons, ages 12 and 17. I think one thing that has always kept me from making any suicide attempts is that I'm a very non-outgoing, and indecisive person. I wring my hands over the smallest of decisions, so making the "ultimate decision" is next to impossible for me. Also, like you, I absolutely love hiking and mountain climbing. I actually want to go out to Colorado next summer and hike at least 5 to 10 of the 14ers.
You should eat raw foods. Like fruit..if you do that, their will be no depression what so ever.. follow raw fruit ppl off you tube..I'm telling ya it's truly amazing...
I am grateful you are here, Tim. Thank you for the time and work you put into your channel/videos. I have learned from you. I wish you peace, health, and happiness.
Realistic people are often seen as “depressed.” We realize the outcome of life is death. No divine, no purpose, no reason. We unfortunately are here because we are here. No viable evidence says otherwise. We need to give our own lives these things. I live for my son and keep these beliefs from him. Acceptance of reality is a curse at best. I have spent a decade feeling this way and searching for proof otherwise. I’ve found nothing I can’t explain.
absolutely. i have a sister who's delusional, and she never feels depressed. The feeling that you're just getting older and have to work for the rest of your life to survive, is pretty depressing. I used to wonder how celebrities and rich people got depressed, but now i totally understand. the "grass is greener" syndrome and comparing yourself to others can be a killer.
@Kenneth: Have you seen Tim's vid on how viewing "a purposeless life" as amazing? It may help lighten that heavy weight a bit: th-cam.com/video/ZiAe-7iy_sY/w-d-xo.html
Thank you for your honesty. To fight my depression I've done morning walks, working to increase exercise. Over the counter mineral supplement of lithium orotate. It's not for everybody, it just has helped me some. I try to make a list of what may be dragging me down and how to deal with it. And some of my more desperate moments I've out of the following prayer I learned that is very powerful." Jesus make it right within my spirit". Keep doing and helping others thru these videos.
Wow, the trauma your parents must've suffered. I'm so glad you realized that suicide hurts your loves ones as well. Look at all we would have missed if you would have succeeded!! You're a wise guy!!
Depression is a terrible drain caused by the soul feeling trapped or having no outlet to joy. When what used to give you joy no longer does so, fight it by trying to find new pathways to joy.
this is why you're still alive... so you can tell your story and you don't know how much this is helping others. im so happu you overcame ik it wasn't easy but you prospered God bless you🖤
Tim, thank you for your insight that seeing and being and hiking in different places in nature brings you such joy. I live in the Pacific Northwest. A few years ago I got to walk on trails in the Big 5 in Utah. The 5 National Parks. I was amazed. Felt I was on another planet. In awe. And VERY VERY HAPPY. Can see I need to find another interesting and different place in nature to explore. I went to the Big 5 on my own. First time traveling alone. I loved it. I stopped where ever and when ever I wanted. Had a big cooler in the back seat with food I like and a case of water. I ate and drank what I wanted and when I wanted. Nothing like coming off a trail to make myself a bowl of fresh strawberries and yogurt with a nice cold water. Heavenly. No one else to think about. I raised 4 kids on my own. They are grown and now I can think “what do I want?” Ann from Vancouver, BC
First want to say THANK YOU for being strong in sharing your story! Sadly there is still FAR too much stigma on people dealing with mental illness and more need to speak out. I have been dealing with depression and anxiety for over 20 years. (I hear ya on regular medications...I had sleepiness where I would sleep 14-16 hours a day, intrusive thoughts, ect.) I'm treating it naturally, going to counseling, and my other therapy is walking in nature and playing hand drums (like African drums). I'm on disability and sadly when I say that many have written me off to a life to just exist and stay out of the hospital. NOT ME! I want a full life and saving up for the nomad life, I want to share my story (maybe do a TED talk), on my journey to crumble down the stigma walls of fear. After what we all have been through this past year and half, people need to know it's OK what they are going through and that they are not alone.
Good post Tim! I can relate to this.. Being 34 and the only single one of my friends had me questioning myself. I have some rough days but I do just try to live in the moment because if I don't I start to feel overwhelmed
My childhood was hell, still haunts me, probably always will to a degree. I ain't going to go into all that but I've been in some tight spots in my adult life; homeless, robbing scummers to afford to eat etc. I had what I suppose was a break down and lost my shit, all depressed and that. But, but, I never tried to kill myself, life was unbearable but I never wanted to die, that was until this year.. All that rough stuff is years ago now. I sorted myself out, got a home and work full time and all that. But the depression and desolation still ruled me. I turned 40 and thought, 'fuck, I'm wasting my life' so started taking amitriptyline and fuck me, it's like really clean speed! I'm able to get up without dreading the day, full of beans and just loving every opportunity. I never wanted to stay on that shit so having got a taste of freedom I tapered myself of it, slowly, especially going from one tab to none. A week or so later I really was ready to end it all, not out of pain or distress, nothing like that at all. For the first time in my life it seemed there really was just nothing-to-live-for. I was completely calm, so peaceful and so serene it was almost beautiful.. Absolutely terrified me to be honest.
Tim very inspirational video. I pray that the person who needs to hear this catches this message and continues to fight and hold on, a change will come. I'm proof too!
You are such an inspiration!! Thank you for being so open!! I’ve been in that deep darkness as well and can relate,,, apparently we still have sharing with others to do cause Thank God we are still here! Keep being your true self because you shine bright!!
I’m so glad you’re here brother. You not alone in this. I’ve been there myself. Your channel is awesome and I have really been enjoying your content. Thanks for being forthcoming with all this. You probably will help a lot of people you will never even know about.
I understand your struggle. I recently left a job and decided to do a job that includes travel assignments. I'm in the medic field and I got burned out after the pandemic. I'm still in the medical field but I'm getting to see other parts of the country and meeting wonderful people. I eventually want to leave this job and do something that makes me happy. I've watched your videos and you are an inspiration. It takes a lot of courage to admit all this, Tim. You're a great guy.
I worked in education through my mid 20's until recently. Around 40, I was burned out. Being single with no kids made me feel like I missed the boat. The past few years have been tough, with depression, anxiety and sleep issues. I wanted to quit for years...
Finally quit in June. I've been unemployed for 5 months and my health has never been better. I'm relearning how to live on my terms, instead of what society tells me to do. I relate to your story and thank you for being an awesome guy.
I feel your pain! Go live your best life!!!
Ernie if you really love kids, volunteer or Big Brother type stuff. Not everyone has to be a parent. I've met folks hwo met the love of their life in their 50's
Ernie, I did the sam etching only I was a social worker working in an increasingly constricted environment. I walked away at 56. I’m 59 now, never once regretted quitting! I’m not even renewing my license to practice in March as I’ll never work for the man again. Lol enjoy your travels
Very well done!!! Give yourself a huge pat on the back!! I remember being in my mid teens going through it!!! I'm now 62 yes and the happiest I've ever been!! I meditate twice daily and cycle 150 miles per week!!! Keep the good work up!! Always work on yourself too!! Don't watch/listen to MSM!!! ❤️🇬🇧
Im 41 and have the same issue, however i do believe it is still possible to start a family for us men in our 40s. Dont give up hope bro
Diagnosed at 22. Now 59. Still going through it.
How have you been dealing with it ?
this is the best non-BS video about depression I've seen. Thanks, Tim, for keepin' it real.
I am 25 and currently severely depressed. Every single day is genuinely a struggle to get through. I cry multiple times a day now. I feel so useless and afraid that I might stay like this forever. I don’t think I’ve ever been more miserable in my entire life and I just don’t know what to do.
I feel so stuck. I feel so hopeless. I feel so weak for not being able to pull myself together. I feel dread as soon as I wake up. I don’t really know what I am living for.
Try to find something that makes you happy. This year & right now I'm going through tough days but I know somehow I have to make it though. I just wished I around people who overcame it & give me advice
Im also just like you, and I finally broke down and asked Jesus into my heart and my life, I was done being egotistical and self serving. Now I think in terms of how I could be useful to others, and in doing so found my problems were really tiny to alot of the struggles I saw all around me one I opened myself up to helping others. Jesus will have a long hard look at you and then start to direct you to do things, you will know The Lord and you will have peace. And a purpose, but you have to sincerely repent and tun from your ways to his....
I'm praying for you. I feel the same way and am seriously struggling. I'm praying for us both 🙏🙏🙏 and for everyone who suffers with this crippling illness.
I hope you are feeling better now :)
Stay away from propaganda, aka "news" and *most* social media apps. Have 1 or 2 good, quality friends to lean on.
Im 27, and I’ve been struggling with depression for quite a few years now, struggling relationship with narcissistic parents, some schmuck broke my heart, turned out to be an alcoholic… it was a baaad downward spiral. I know this is late, this video is a year old, but I wanted to say thank you. So much. You’ve changed my life with your videos.
Tim, I'm a 65 y/o white guy from Cleveland. As a young man I was a steelworker. I spent alot of time with the brothers. You're one of the coolest guys around. You've got your shit together. God bless you!
Thanks!
@Charles Beaty Painted Hills Trails Park Tucson I think (10:19)
Lets get this to 10 million views. This is the most necessary video on TH-cam.
I was just thinking the same thing! So so so so important. When you're in the throes of something, it is almost impossible to see it like an outsider, so this is very inspirational.
Ditto! Tim has an amazing WAY to HELP others Help themselves! Indivisible in the Individual! Peace and GOOD Will to ALL. 🕊🕊🕊
Headed to Grand Canyon in 2 weeks for a house keeping seasonal job. A little nervous but excited.
Congrats!
Congrats!!! Hope u love it!
Enjoy! Be safe there. 40 men never return every year. They’re overconfident and never bring enough water and often die of exposure
Yes. Be safe paying attention to your homeostasis. My first view of your Platform.... NOW you understand why I thought you were a Robot. lol You're so Facinating Tim!!!!
Thank you and I will make sure that my homeostasis is in balance. With plenty of fluids and electrolytes that should do the trick thank you.
Walking is the best cure.
Ironically my mother went for walks her whole life into her 70s and you're right. Something as simple as walking can really adds up in terms of health and happiness.
People who deviate from the norm tend to get depressed easier. I sometimes think about what it would be like to be a person who didn't have any downfalls, had a smooth life and had a spouse, 2.5 kids, a house, and a career. I'm sure they have their own struggles, but that's not me at all and I started to question my place in the world. when you feel that different, and it's not your fault, life seems very unfair. now, i'm pretty happy, and i stopped giving a fuck what people think, and i realized that getting older can have some advantages if you use what you've learned and apply it. for me, the condition i have is completely genetic (everyone on my dad's side has it), so most people wouldn't understand what i've had to go through. for a while i felt inferior. now, i feel really strong, cause im like wow, the stuff that i survived, most people wouldn't be able to. i also realized im really talented.
Real talk man. I'm not going to lie, I have also thought about suicide on numerous occasions. What makes me not go that route are my mother's two suicide attempts. Having to call the paramedics and being uncertain about the final outcome is something I don't wish to anyone. Fortunately my mother is still alive. I don't want to cause her any suffering by offing myself. Things tend to get better once you stop caring so much about society. As long as you don't harm anyone, do your thing. That's my take.
I have bi polar/ PTSD/ BPD/ OCD, social anxiety I too sometimes don’t want to live. I now have good and bad days. Most of them are bad, Like you I’m working on living life on my own terms and staying focus on my wellness. Thank you for talking about mental illness, it’s real.
Fight it D! Hopefully, one day we will hear your story about how you overcame this.
I hope that you are getting professional support i.e. a psychiatrist that you truly trust. One who thoroughly understands you. Support is very important. Wishing you the best.
You’re not bipolar, you’re a amazing human being.
I too am struggling with depression & anxiety and feeling totally alienated from everyone at work, like I just do not fit in. By Friday, I feel like a basket case. I pray for everyone else out there who is struggling.
I know it's 3 months ago but hang in there D. Thanks for sharing; this video and your comment helped me so much.
Thank God you are here! You are such a beautiful person.
I am so filled with anxiety I am scared. I am just filled with fear.
God bless Vanessa, tomorrow is a fresh day and there’s always hope for the future 🙏
I’m a 55 year old french guy from Montréal, Québec, Canada. You are a true inspiration for me. Thank you so much Tim! 💪🏻
I went through a mid life crisis at 35 … Thought long and hard about suicide … My wife pulled me through though.
Working every Monday through Friday was depressing as depressing can get man … Work for years to get one week vacation and then when you go on vacation you still get calls and emails … No thanks.
All thanks to you brother … We finally found the inspiration to live life and that’s what we are doing.
Thanks so much man … I can never thank you enough for all of your videos man.
Fuck that man if you’re on vacationyou’re on vacation simple as that. Better to switch your phone off, as for your depression it’s a bitch to get through and I’m glad you’ve found the light. Cheers
Can I talk to you? I’m 39 right now and going through a severe mid-life crisis because in a few more months I will be 40. I’m still single, never married, and no kids.
Working out (lifting ,swimming,running etc) ,good friends / family and get busy with some thing you enjoy,that helped to go through some real dark times.
Man I appreciate the honesty coming from everyone in this comment section. Suffering in silence is a real thing, and cannot be ignored.
And Tim, you have saved a lot of lives with this video.
Yes
Think how glad tens of thousands of people are that you are here with us on the planet!
That was really hard Tim , I am glad you are here, keep going.
such an inspiring story and time heals everything
I'm depressed since I was a kid and being hiding it since then in order to live a "normal" life, too scared to face my inner demons.
Now I'm 35 and I'm having no choice, I can't hide it anymore. I feel like I've been in a black hole screaming for help my entire life, but only now I realize I am the one to have on my back.
I quit 2 jobs in a row, cry everyday, but maybe I'll finally have the courage to change my life and follow my dreams.
Thank you so much, your words are a blessing and give me much more hope for the future.
❤
It takes courage to admit things like this. I appreciate you tim, this video will help someone and that’s a big deal
As soon as I saw the background I knew you were in Arizona. Living in Arizona for most of my life, I have done a lot of hiking in similar areas. Anyone hiking in Arizona should make sure they carry more water than they think. We get a lot of emergency rescues because of the heat.
I think a lot of people who have figured out to let go of material things and focus on the things that matter, often have a dark period of life, not necessarily suicidal feelings. When you think of your own mortality or loose a lot in life, it kind of clears out all the nonsense in life.
Yes re: water! That young couple, baby and dog all found dead. They had run out of water... and had heat exhaustion...really sad.
@@YogaBlissDance It's terrible when people learn about the dangers of sun heat the hard way.
Yeah the heat is no joke, I live in AZ as well. Always bring a lot of water when hiking, I see it every summer on the news, people get stranded on a mountain. Stay safe.
WOW! What a testimony. You are still here because God is using you to be an inspiration to others. Here it is Thanksgiving Day, I'm alone, yet inspired by a past video of yours. All your videos inspire me to live MY best life regardless of whether others agree or not with my choices. Thanks for brightening my Thanksgiving.
My pleasure Juanita!
Tim, I’m glad you survived your very serious suicide attempt. If there’s anybody out there struggling, don’t do it and go to the nearest Emergency room for help. You don’t have to suffer anymore. Help is available
ER is not going to help get better.
how can the emergency room make the dark go away?
Thank you! It helps people so much to know others have suffered with depression. Same with me- 19 years old, came from nowhere. It haunted me through my early 20’s but I got through it. Travel helped me, having the freedom to move around and discover the beauty in nature really helped.
You're a brave soul, thanks for sharing your story.
I can tell you why everyone is depressed, it's the matrix, that's why. This video was so needed for so many. Thank you.❤️
I’ve been there it is not a good place. And it was a fight to get out of it. I did a lot of praying Aloooot of praying. The thoughts were heavy.
Tim, I for one am so glad u came out of that blackness. I know what depression is like. I stay on the meds now as maintenance medication after having had two major depressive episodes in my life that were long in duration. The world is blessed to have you in this world and you already know how much I value your thoughts on so many subjects. Sending you a virtual hug.
Aww, what a nice comment. I too am on antidepressant and I, not gonna have another episode of serious darkness anymore
@@5thdimension625 for me they have helped. So I figure it it ain’t broke don’t fix it. I’ve tried to come off them in the past and never felt right. I’m glad they have helped u too
Thank you Terri 🧡
I’m having the hardest time of my life . Your videos help
Thank you for not ending your life when you were depressed. The world today is better because of you.
This is a sensitive topic but thanks Tim for it. I went through a depression when I was 23 years and just finishing my university. I didn't understand the reasons then but I do now. Being in Africa I didn't have the previledge of meeting psychiatrists or even get anti depressants because those resources are very scarce here so I had no option but to fight through it my self. The good news is that I did come out of it and also worked on the conditions that led to the depression and am the happiest man alive today. I will live you with a quote from one of my best philosophers Friedrick Nietzsche, he says 'to live is to suffer but to survive is to find meaning in the suffering'.
I have basically lived with severe depression and anxiety since my teen years. It's like a never ending roller coaster of highs and lows. I just have always felt like the black sheep in life and it makes me feel so alone. It's gotten progesively worse since I have been in my 20s because that's the timeframe that most people are figuring out their life. This usually involves graduating college, getting a good job and marrying a significant other and settling down. I have achieved none of this and I'm 27 years old and get so frustrated that I haven't figured out my life yet. I see all my peers moving on with their lives and start comparing myself to them and feel so useless. I've struggled with suicidal ideation and a few times it got really bad and I was seconds away from acting on those feelings. I question why do I even exist? Why am I here? I have nothing and feel like an empty shell. I have no drive and passion like most people and I just work different jobs so I can pay the bills that I have. I just feel so alone sometimes like nobody can understand me and my problems.This life on earth just feels like a prison to me and I just want to be free. I'm also just so fed up with our society is and how so many people are just suffering while others are doing nothing to help those in need. The greed of the wealthy higher ups really gets to me. If I ever had that kind of money I'd be helping so many people. I wouldn't just spend it all on myself. The only reason I'm still here is because of my family who I live with and my close 2-3 friends. It just sucks so much because I really don't want to be here anymore but I also don't want to hurt them by offing myself. I just feel so lost and trapped in a dark hole that I can't seem to escape. I just feel like I am so broken and I feel like I'm a shame to everyone around me. I just pray to God please take me. I want to leave this earth so desperately.
Hello, your depressed because of what you feed your billions of cells. You should eat raw fruit..your depression will go and never return...follow ppl of you tube..raw food ppl.. if theirs no change, then theirs no change..
It's a good idea about having a session with a psychologist. It's the secular version of having a chat with the vicar and that's one thing that's missing in society. I'm an Atheist and I can see the benefits people had in being in a congregation.
Tim thanks for telling your story. I suffer from severe depression. I so glad I have subscribe to your channel. You are genuine and relatable. I just want to thank you so much for sharing because it's hard sometimes talking about mental health of fear of being judge.
I know how to overcome 1.never be too tied to anything 2.always explore and enjoy trying new things 3.never let petty people piss you off 4. If you feel you have no purpose remember that life is short and we sometimes aren't alway meant to have a purpose sometimes we're just meant to live 5 leave that shitty job I know you want to 6 don't be afraid to lose 7 not everything has to be answered sometimes thing remain unknown ... 8 if you feel you don't know where your going change direction 9 you can make the day better yourself even if someone pissed you off 10 live each day not as your last but live each second as if it were your last 11 do what you want 12 don't let people dictate your life 13 it's ok to feel depressed at times and feel like life is over we aren't perfect and we're only human life is about ups and downs .. 14 remember that all the times you tried so hard to get to where you are and how proud you should be 15 love and let live and yes that applies to you to 16 never think your alone 17 if you do feel alone remember many of us feel the same way 18 a new beginning always has a end weather it be bad or good 19 keep on going don't give up
Have a great day and hope those can help someone
Tim, this was how I feel. I made the mistake of getting on medication in my 20’s. Severe depression and anxiety. Major depression was hitting me and I’m a very logical person as well but my behaviors started to become worse. I turned to alcohol. I’m now going on 50 and I wish I never would of started medication. Prozac and Zoloft made me a nutcase. Im on a very low dose of antidepressant and it makes me tired and complacent. When I try to get off I go into a dark hole so I go back on it. Your videos are very uplifting and inspiring. Im glad I found your channel. Im going on 50 and I’m a minimalist now, I’m a lot wiser. Depression is horrible and you describe it well. Takes a hell of a lot of perseverance to push through when your mind is telling you the opposite. This is a great video. I think you are the male version of myself. You are very blessed and I’m following you on my path to peace. Everyone deserves happiness and peace of mind … God bless us all ❤️
That's totally horrible. I'm on Zoloft with 175 mg dosage. And I think I'm such a numb person ever exist.
my PTSD has completely destroyed my life. Seen a lot of death. Lost friends. This world is just brutal, and people do their best to sugar coat it. Being in society, I see people living in their boxes and enjoying it. People are content just being slaves if it means surviving. In all parts of the world this is truth.
People will do anything to survive, just to suffer. I question why I continue, and honestly, I live for those who did not want to die but did. I live so I can observe the world, and myself. That’s it.
I’m so glad you’re still here. You have been a source of inspiration and hope to me. ✌🏽💚
Thank you Timothy for your story and for helping other people with depression like myself. I was a doctor for 22 years but suffered from major depression and had to retire early. I still have bouts of depression and like you say time does work and practicing health behaviours. Thank you,.
Causes of depression that most people aren't aware of: mold(watch the documentary - Moldy), having low free testosterone (this can be caused by many things including SSRIs by increasing aromatase). I know because I experienced both. I hope this helps someone out who has depression but can't find the cause.
How u cure the mold.problem?
Omg I have been wondering if part of my issue is mold. I can't see it in my rental, but I often smell a moldy, mildew smell. I have been suffering from headaches, which I never used to get, or rarely.
@@oliviachipperfield6029I have nearly a constant daily ache in the front of my forehead that no doctor has been able to figure out or understand. I had an MRI and nothing was found. All they can do is chalk it up to either depression or mild tension/migraine-type headaches. Pills seem to help 50%, but then cause some other problem like add to the fatigue that’s already there.
You're speaking so truthfully & this is your purpose!
I started watching your videos like 2 days ago. Quiet quitting, I don't dream of labour, kill your bills, and now this, are topics I relate to yet I'm from the opposite side of the planet in Africa. Keep up the 'real talk'. You never know just who's life you may impact 🌹
This year is the year of truth and forced change. Hang on everyone. Im severely depressed to be able to function but fuck it. The war aint over till I'm happy and content with being alive. Depression is a very insidous logical mental illness.
Been suffering from anxiety/depression for over 30 years. It’s peaks and valleys. The last time I tried to die I meant it and it’s such a horrible dark hole. Still fighting, but I think of all that I would have missed and what it would have done to my children if I had been successful. My daughter came over unexpectedly and it saved me. Thank you for sharing. I wish there wasn’t such a stigma on mental health. Every night I pray for anyone who is going through this and hope we all make it. It’s so sad to read everyone’s comments. We’re all worth being here. It’s just very painful. Thank you again for sharing.
I'm so glad you made it through the depression and are here to share with us your love for life. Bless
Tim, for a long time I wondered why I was depressed even tho I have a great life. I would ask that question everyday to myself. With no answers in sight!! I didn’t want to be depressed and I changed my entire life to help guide me into the right direction. I broke up with a mentally damaged girl that was causing me a bunch of distress, sold my property and house, paid off all my debt, became as close to as minimalist as I could, bought an RV to travel, work three months a year, and lost weight but I was still depressed after all that!! I have been single and working on myself for over a year and feel much better now but still on the road to complete happiness. I just want to say Tim that your channel, as weird as it sounds, makes me proud to be introverted. Most introvert people don’t talk about this stuff so it was always lonely. The videos you have seem like you read my mind or that we have so many of the same thoughts!! Thank you for what you do 🤙
I can relate. I love Buddhist Dukkha. We don't have to suffer. It is a choice. I too wanted to die but I wouldn't do suicide. So I quit living feeling no joy and hated my life. I hit bottom and went to coda and 12 step meetings. I finally reached out for help. I have new friends with coda. I am struggling leaving my 26 yrs career even though it makes me sick. I even had a buddhist monk said I need to quit. I am glad you are free Tim. So I know I need to mediate on leaving my nursing job. FUD gets me fear, uncertainty and doubt lol. I haven't worked for 6 months as a travel nurse. 26 years of nursing. My husband is working. He has his own business.
So sorry you experienced depression to that degree. We never know what people are thinking sometimes until it’s too late. I am so happy that you decided to stay with the living. You are an inspiration to the world.
I’ve been sober for 3.5 years but this last year has been very tough. Every morning feels like a bit of a nightmare. Constantly feel overwhelmed by life and somewhat ‘trapped’
I can't agree enough on everybody having access to a therapist. Like you say, gives you someone to talk to who comes at things from a neutral perspective other than wanting you to be well (if they're any good!), and stops you taking it out on people around you. I once had a 'friend' who said she didn't need a therapist because she had me and her boyfriend...except we were bloody miserable listening to it all and dealing with the aggression, which was sometimes about us personally.
I hope nothing but the best for you
I used to be severely depressed and anxious in high school and almost all the way throughout my college years (7-8 years) due to home issues and the way I perceived myself and the world. Many times I wished I was dead but was too scared of the prospect of suicide. I discovered coping mechanisms that weren’t so healthy but kept me going. I tried getting help at my university counseling service and it made me feel awful and as if nothing was wrong, so I stopped looking for help in that way (when I probably should’ve looked elsewhere, they scored me on 98/100 for anxiety and 80/100 for depression yet were so dismissive). I eventually had a spiritual hallucinogenic experience followed by a study abroad semester that turned on a switch in my brain as if the color and wonder of the world had suddenly flooded back in. All I can say to those who still suffer is that you should look everywhere you can and dig into why you feel the way you do, seek help, find new things to enjoy, try to reach out or find friends who are understanding, question your beliefs and remove what doesn’t serve you to live and try to find new ones that make you want to stay here. Like he said, exhaust every avenue. If you read this and you are struggling know you aren’t alone and I’m sincerely wishing you the very best in your life. Soon I will be studying to become a licensed counselor and I hope to give myself as an ear for as many as I can. I know if I could find the light, so can many others.
Great human being 👏👏
I have Severe Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD). I have been in the psych ward several times. And the second to last time I was in there a woman said to me "Mark you have to stop having these temper tantrums!" And I thought for a minute or two and I was like "Am I really acting like that?" I still have convulsions and I have to take Klonopin though. But I have more control over myself.
what happened to you bro?
You're a brave man for sharing your darkest moments. Keep making the best of life and enjoy the beauty it offers. I appreciate and admire your dedication to this channel. Stay well. Life is a journey and never give up.
Mr Ward , I’m sure the message you shared today will help someone with their struggle. You’re very generous to share your travels and the words of wisdom you impart to your followers. Sincerely Gerald
Timothy Ward, your words have given me hope. I will turn 73 in a week. The deep well of darkness for me lessened many decades ago. Today, i try to remember how far I've come since then. But now i have health and mobility issues and have been letting that discourage me. Listening to you today was a godsend. Thank you for the motivation.❤😊
I’m glad my video could be encouraging to you. Stay strong, keep fighting, and never lose hope!
My story: I was raised in a house that got increasingly messier as time went by. In other words, my parents are hoarders. I felt like it really slowed my life down. I tried to get help, talking to college counselors just to help my mental breakdowns in school. On top of that, i have ADHD. Thankfully I was able to graduate and get a job. Now im out of that house at 26. It feels like I was isolated from society(not entirely), or just had to be not my ideal self for many many years. Now that I am not in survival mode, It feels like I have to start from scratch and figure out my life, when I feel like some of my peers are way more confident, have their direction in life. Having a physically active life comes easy for me, but getting money and actually figuring out what I'm good at and want to do is a new challenge. I trust that it will come in time, and you telling me I don't need to have it all figured out is comforting.
Tim, these videos where you're open, honest, and authentic are just so incredibly valuable. It's a good reminder we're all in this together and we're not alone. Thank you so much for sharing, and I'm glad you're doing well!
Thank you for sharing Brother. I am glad you are still here with us. I am glad that I am still here with y'all. I suffer from post military stuff...some days are better than others....thats why Im always doing stuff like you comment about me on your podcast...I have to stay on the move. The minute I slow up depression kicks in. Much love Bro. 195 days alcohol free!!! #AlcoholSucks! #SHIBArmy! 🔥🚀
PS...My Baby Sister took her life last year around this time so a Brotha has been down but we keep fighting!!! 🔥
What uP! Missed the live yesterday but I'm back for this! Yes, I tried once and I am glad it didn't work. Life is hard and depressing and sometimes meaningless but those bad times, those bad thoughts do pass.
Hi Tim!! I used to live in Arizona. The desert is beautiful !!! We are all glad you are here!! You were meant to be here. You are an inspiration and you give hope to many. Thank You.
Thank you Tim for this video on depression. I am now 70 but I went thru a terrible depression in my 40’s where my brain would not stop thinking suicidal thoughts. I was fighting 24 hours a day. I was exhausted. Fortunately, I friend took me to the dr.
I was low on iron. Got that straightened out. I could breathe better but the thoughts stayed. Next I was diagnosed with clinical depression. I was put on two anti-depressants. The dr said it would take about 2 weeks for it to build up in my system. If it didn’t work, we could try another combination.
I waited, I hung on. At the end of 2 weeks I was only having 2 or 3 suicidal thoughts a day. Now that I could deal with. Eventually, all the horrible thoughts went away.
Twice since then I’ve decided I was well and these pills are no longer needed. Twice I’ve come off them and 2 weeks later all I could think about was ways to kill myself.
So I actually have clinical depression and am grateful for the medication that saved my life.
My dr told me if he said I had diabetes and needed insulin, I would have done what he told me. Very true. But I fought him on this because it is a “mental “ issue. I did not want to be one of those people with a mental illness. He said clinical depression is just an illness that you need medication for. Just like you need insulin if you had diabetes.
So I’m with you in wanting to help others know there are ways out of depression. Lots of different ways. It does not feel like it. But you can get well. Find the correct help for you.
Ann from Vancouver, BC. Canada
Tim, you are amazing… I really appreciate you sharing your past and knowledge
I hear people say they are glad they are not alone in their depression. I feel bad that anyone has to deal with the pain!
Keep up this channel, don't ever stop
I am 20 and I just can’t see a future where I’m happy. I have many things I want… but none of them lead to happiness, just minor relief from inconveniences (money, food, home, etc) not sure what to do. Im glad to hear time may be the answer
It's good to hear you talk about this subject, Tim. I have suffered from depression since childhood trauma. It is pretty much low level now. I spent 2 years on Prozac and to be honest that helped. Now I do my best to enjoy life and I would say I am happier in life than most people who gripe and complain about the little things that matter nought. Meditation and Stoicism helps.
It does look amazing where you are hiking 😊
Suffered from depression for most of my life. Chemical imbalance combined with a not so good upbringing. But through therapy and drugs and having to face down the darkness, I am finding my way. It's not just time: it's sheer hard fucking work. Sometimes, the darkness comes and just knocks you on your ass. Other times, it just isn't there. You can get better and more consistent and then eventually, you find yourself being less and less depressed.
I've been down the last few days and fell into the darkness, glad I came across this video today, it's a struggle but I keep trying,
I’m 16 , never felt joy since I turned 14 because of depression . You’re videos are inspiring, thank you for this I needed it…
Raw food life style,,eat fruit. Follow ppl of you tube..
Bless your heart and bless your parents.
I am speaking to one now. I am very depressed due to my mother's death last year. Sometimes I wondered why I am here.
Hello Greg. I am here for you if you need to talk 🙂 I know depression very well indeed and I hope you are alright xxx
@@wookiewoo5474 Thank you so much.
@@gregorymendoza9455 Hope today finds you okay 😊
@@wookiewoo5474 I am recovering from a cold. But I am doing okay.
@@gregorymendoza9455 Hope the cold is short-lived. Sending a virtual hug and hope you are feeling okay in terms of mental health. I know it can be a struggle. Just take it easy 😊🌅
I have suffered from depression, officially, for eight years. I had lost my job of 15 years then, and I felt absolutely lost. I fell into a depression, and I came to realize that I had suffered from it for even longer than I thought. The job loss was really a trigger that really brought it out into the open.
There have been peaks and valley since then, but right now things are bad. I live for two sons, ages 12 and 17. I think one thing that has always kept me from making any suicide attempts is that I'm a very non-outgoing, and indecisive person. I wring my hands over the smallest of decisions, so making the "ultimate decision" is next to impossible for me.
Also, like you, I absolutely love hiking and mountain climbing. I actually want to go out to Colorado next summer and hike at least 5 to 10 of the 14ers.
You need to change what you feed your body.. eat raw fruit.
No more depression.. Listen to the audio book" Chapter 1. " "Esceen gospel of peace"
You should eat raw foods. Like fruit..if you do that, their will be no depression what so ever.. follow raw fruit ppl off you tube..I'm telling ya it's truly amazing...
"There's no light at the end oc the tunnel. Heck, there's no tunnel!"
That is very accurate.
Tim i’m 22 and have been watching you for about 3 years now and man this video is bringing tears to my eyes, You change LIVES. You changed MINE.
Depression is literally psychological torture. It is brutal. Some days I might feel like that. I think winter kinda makes me feel that way.
I am grateful you are here, Tim. Thank you for the time and work you put into your channel/videos. I have learned from you. I wish you peace, health, and happiness.
Thank you! Blessings to you as well, my friend!
Realistic people are often seen as “depressed.” We realize the outcome of life is death. No divine, no purpose, no reason. We unfortunately are here because we are here. No viable evidence says otherwise. We need to give our own lives these things. I live for my son and keep these beliefs from him. Acceptance of reality is a curse at best. I have spent a decade feeling this way and searching for proof otherwise. I’ve found nothing I can’t explain.
absolutely. i have a sister who's delusional, and she never feels depressed.
The feeling that you're just getting older and have to work for the rest of your life to survive, is pretty depressing. I used to wonder how celebrities and rich people got depressed, but now i totally understand. the "grass is greener" syndrome and comparing yourself to others can be a killer.
I feel the exact same way
@@baldeagle4710 Any view altering mental illness seems to be more a gift than a curse. Perception truly is reality.
@@nicolete493 It’s a heavy weight to carry.
@Kenneth: Have you seen Tim's vid on how viewing "a purposeless life" as amazing? It may help lighten that heavy weight a bit: th-cam.com/video/ZiAe-7iy_sY/w-d-xo.html
Thank you for your honesty. To fight my depression I've done morning walks, working to increase exercise. Over the counter mineral supplement of lithium orotate. It's not for everybody, it just has helped me some. I try to make a list of what may be dragging me down and how to deal with it. And some of my more desperate moments I've out of the following prayer I learned that is very powerful." Jesus make it right within my spirit".
Keep doing and helping others thru these videos.
Wow, the trauma your parents must've suffered. I'm so glad you realized that suicide hurts your loves ones as well. Look at all we would have missed if you would have succeeded!! You're a wise guy!!
I am glad you are still here!
It is great you are happy and living the life you want!
Thank you for sharing your story.
Thanks!
Tim, you're a brave dude for making this video. I relate to it alot as well, thanks for sharing.
Thank for the video Tim. The cactus background was awesome!! Depression never lasts forever and will eventually go away!
Depression is a terrible drain caused by the soul feeling trapped or having no outlet to joy.
When what used to give you joy no longer does so, fight it by trying to find new pathways to joy.
this is why you're still alive... so you can tell your story and you don't know how much this is helping others. im so happu you overcame ik it wasn't easy but you prospered God bless you🖤
Thanks tim i listen to this every morning when i wake up to help me get through the day.
Tim, thank you for your insight that seeing and being and hiking in different places in nature brings you such joy.
I live in the Pacific Northwest. A few years ago I got to walk on trails in the Big 5 in Utah. The 5 National Parks. I was amazed. Felt I was on another planet. In awe.
And VERY VERY HAPPY.
Can see I need to find another interesting and different place in nature to explore.
I went to the Big 5 on my own. First time traveling alone. I loved it. I stopped where ever and when ever I wanted. Had a big cooler in the back seat with food I like and a case of water. I ate and drank what I wanted and when I wanted. Nothing like coming off a trail to make myself a bowl of fresh strawberries and yogurt with a nice cold water. Heavenly.
No one else to think about. I raised 4 kids on my own. They are grown and now I can think “what do I want?”
Ann from Vancouver, BC
Thanks, Tim. I commend you for your encouragement and your vulnerability.
First want to say THANK YOU for being strong in sharing your story! Sadly there is still FAR too much stigma on people dealing with mental illness and more need to speak out. I have been dealing with depression and anxiety for over 20 years. (I hear ya on regular medications...I had sleepiness where I would sleep 14-16 hours a day, intrusive thoughts, ect.) I'm treating it naturally, going to counseling, and my other therapy is walking in nature and playing hand drums (like African drums). I'm on disability and sadly when I say that many have written me off to a life to just exist and stay out of the hospital. NOT ME! I want a full life and saving up for the nomad life, I want to share my story (maybe do a TED talk), on my journey to crumble down the stigma walls of fear. After what we all have been through this past year and half, people need to know it's OK what they are going through and that they are not alone.
Glad & strange Yt recommended me this video when im going through a tough time
Good post Tim! I can relate to this.. Being 34 and the only single one of my friends had me questioning myself. I have some rough days but I do just try to live in the moment because if I don't I start to feel overwhelmed
Thank you for making this video. I suffer from severe depression, and it’s a constant struggle. I battle it every day!
My childhood was hell, still haunts me, probably always will to a degree. I ain't going to go into all that but I've been in some tight spots in my adult life; homeless, robbing scummers to afford to eat etc. I had what I suppose was a break down and lost my shit, all depressed and that. But, but, I never tried to kill myself, life was unbearable but I never wanted to die, that was until this year..
All that rough stuff is years ago now. I sorted myself out, got a home and work full time and all that. But the depression and desolation still ruled me. I turned 40 and thought, 'fuck, I'm wasting my life' so started taking amitriptyline and fuck me, it's like really clean speed! I'm able to get up without dreading the day, full of beans and just loving every opportunity. I never wanted to stay on that shit so having got a taste of freedom I tapered myself of it, slowly, especially going from one tab to none. A week or so later I really was ready to end it all, not out of pain or distress, nothing like that at all. For the first time in my life it seemed there really was just nothing-to-live-for. I was completely calm, so peaceful and so serene it was almost beautiful..
Absolutely terrified me to be honest.
Tim very inspirational video. I pray that the person who needs to hear this catches this message and continues to fight and hold on, a change will come. I'm proof too!
You are such an inspiration!! Thank you for being so open!! I’ve been in that deep darkness as well and can relate,,, apparently we still have sharing with others to do cause Thank God we are still here! Keep being your true self because you shine bright!!
I know what you mean about giving it time. Sometimes depression can just fade out over time. But take care because it can return
I’m so glad you’re here brother. You not alone in this. I’ve been there myself. Your channel is awesome and I have really been enjoying your content. Thanks for being forthcoming with all this. You probably will help a lot of people you will never even know about.
I understand your struggle. I recently left a job and decided to do a job that includes travel assignments. I'm in the medic field and I got burned out after the pandemic. I'm still in the medical field but I'm getting to see other parts of the country and meeting wonderful people. I eventually want to leave this job and do something that makes me happy. I've watched your videos and you are an inspiration. It takes a lot of courage to admit all this, Tim. You're a great guy.