How I Overcame Years of Severe Depression & Reclaimed My Joy
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- Depression is real. And it can throw your life into a horribly dark place. In this video I discuss my fight with depression in my late teens and early twenties. And I share what changed in my life to finally overcome being depressed.
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I worked in education through my mid 20's until recently. Around 40, I was burned out. Being single with no kids made me feel like I missed the boat. The past few years have been tough, with depression, anxiety and sleep issues. I wanted to quit for years...
Finally quit in June. I've been unemployed for 5 months and my health has never been better. I'm relearning how to live on my terms, instead of what society tells me to do. I relate to your story and thank you for being an awesome guy.
I feel your pain! Go live your best life!!!
Ernie if you really love kids, volunteer or Big Brother type stuff. Not everyone has to be a parent. I've met folks hwo met the love of their life in their 50's
Ernie, I did the sam etching only I was a social worker working in an increasingly constricted environment. I walked away at 56. I’m 59 now, never once regretted quitting! I’m not even renewing my license to practice in March as I’ll never work for the man again. Lol enjoy your travels
Very well done!!! Give yourself a huge pat on the back!! I remember being in my mid teens going through it!!! I'm now 62 yes and the happiest I've ever been!! I meditate twice daily and cycle 150 miles per week!!! Keep the good work up!! Always work on yourself too!! Don't watch/listen to MSM!!! ❤️🇬🇧
Im 41 and have the same issue, however i do believe it is still possible to start a family for us men in our 40s. Dont give up hope bro
Im super depressed at 28. I wish I was never born. I have no purpose but sticking around one day at a time. Thank you for documenting your journey, its a pleasure to watch and soothes me.
Hang in there kiddo and dont you give up . Take time out to explore your self. Get to know what brings you peace, laughter , and bliss and then do those things every day. Music is a must, breathing exercises, cleaning up the diet, stretching, writing down your thoughts daily( this help to clear the clutter in the mind, organizes your thoughts and calms anxiety), take a walk and release your thoughts into the air, play games, watch comedy shows and most importantly dont let this life and world hold you down, add a little "Fuck all this shit" to your diet as well and you'll be just fine
I had horrible depression since I can remember but hid it from everyone, even my twin sister. She went thru a bout or 2 of depression but is generally much stronger in mind. We figured out one reason we got depressed was birth control so we stopped taking it. Another thing we had to do is go gluten free for a few months. It was so hard but made us both feel a lot better. I suspect my depression comes from a spinal tap they gave me when I was first born. They didnt do one on my sister. We are both much more mindful of what we put in our bodies now.
Travel the world and see how the other half lives , then you will realize you have no reason to get depressed.Challenge yourself.
I`m 30 And feel the exact same thing. I work a lot just to suppress the feeling of hopelessness. Doesn`t work to well. Conversation with someone who genuinely cares usually helps. There are good days ahead. Hold on.
When I see comments like this, I sometimes wonder if people truly feel this way or if they just want attention (it happens). IF you really do feel this way, please seek help. I’ve had 2 friends commit suicide & they were the ones who never said a word about how they were feeling.
People who deviate from the norm tend to get depressed easier. I sometimes think about what it would be like to be a person who didn't have any downfalls, had a smooth life and had a spouse, 2.5 kids, a house, and a career. I'm sure they have their own struggles, but that's not me at all and I started to question my place in the world. when you feel that different, and it's not your fault, life seems very unfair. now, i'm pretty happy, and i stopped giving a fuck what people think, and i realized that getting older can have some advantages if you use what you've learned and apply it. for me, the condition i have is completely genetic (everyone on my dad's side has it), so most people wouldn't understand what i've had to go through. for a while i felt inferior. now, i feel really strong, cause im like wow, the stuff that i survived, most people wouldn't be able to. i also realized im really talented.
Lets get this to 10 million views. This is the most necessary video on TH-cam.
I was just thinking the same thing! So so so so important. When you're in the throes of something, it is almost impossible to see it like an outsider, so this is very inspirational.
Ditto! Tim has an amazing WAY to HELP others Help themselves! Indivisible in the Individual! Peace and GOOD Will to ALL. 🕊🕊🕊
I’m a 55 year old french guy from Montréal, Québec, Canada. You are a true inspiration for me. Thank you so much Tim! 💪🏻
It takes courage to admit things like this. I appreciate you tim, this video will help someone and that’s a big deal
Tim, I'm a 65 y/o white guy from Cleveland. As a young man I was a steelworker. I spent alot of time with the brothers. You're one of the coolest guys around. You've got your shit together. God bless you!
Thanks!
@Charles Beaty Painted Hills Trails Park Tucson I think (10:19)
Walking is the best cure.
Real talk man. I'm not going to lie, I have also thought about suicide on numerous occasions. What makes me not go that route are my mother's two suicide attempts. Having to call the paramedics and being uncertain about the final outcome is something I don't wish to anyone. Fortunately my mother is still alive. I don't want to cause her any suffering by offing myself. Things tend to get better once you stop caring so much about society. As long as you don't harm anyone, do your thing. That's my take.
That was really hard Tim , I am glad you are here, keep going.
such an inspiring story and time heals everything
Im 27, and I’ve been struggling with depression for quite a few years now, struggling relationship with narcissistic parents, some schmuck broke my heart, turned out to be an alcoholic… it was a baaad downward spiral. I know this is late, this video is a year old, but I wanted to say thank you. So much. You’ve changed my life with your videos.
I have bi polar/ PTSD/ BPD/ OCD, social anxiety I too sometimes don’t want to live. I now have good and bad days. Most of them are bad, Like you I’m working on living life on my own terms and staying focus on my wellness. Thank you for talking about mental illness, it’s real.
Fight it D! Hopefully, one day we will hear your story about how you overcame this.
I hope that you are getting professional support i.e. a psychiatrist that you truly trust. One who thoroughly understands you. Support is very important. Wishing you the best.
You’re not bipolar, you’re a amazing human being.
I too am struggling with depression & anxiety and feeling totally alienated from everyone at work, like I just do not fit in. By Friday, I feel like a basket case. I pray for everyone else out there who is struggling.
I know it's 3 months ago but hang in there D. Thanks for sharing; this video and your comment helped me so much.
Headed to Grand Canyon in 2 weeks for a house keeping seasonal job. A little nervous but excited.
Congrats!
Congrats!!! Hope u love it!
Enjoy! Be safe there. 40 men never return every year. They’re overconfident and never bring enough water and often die of exposure
Yes. Be safe paying attention to your homeostasis. My first view of your Platform.... NOW you understand why I thought you were a Robot. lol You're so Facinating Tim!!!!
Thank you and I will make sure that my homeostasis is in balance. With plenty of fluids and electrolytes that should do the trick thank you.
this is the best non-BS video about depression I've seen. Thanks, Tim, for keepin' it real.
And Tim, you have saved a lot of lives with this video.
Yes
Thank you! It helps people so much to know others have suffered with depression. Same with me- 19 years old, came from nowhere. It haunted me through my early 20’s but I got through it. Travel helped me, having the freedom to move around and discover the beauty in nature really helped.
WOW! What a testimony. You are still here because God is using you to be an inspiration to others. Here it is Thanksgiving Day, I'm alone, yet inspired by a past video of yours. All your videos inspire me to live MY best life regardless of whether others agree or not with my choices. Thanks for brightening my Thanksgiving.
My pleasure Juanita!
I am 25 and currently severely depressed. Every single day is genuinely a struggle to get through. I cry multiple times a day now. I feel so useless and afraid that I might stay like this forever. I don’t think I’ve ever been more miserable in my entire life and I just don’t know what to do.
I feel so stuck. I feel so hopeless. I feel so weak for not being able to pull myself together. I feel dread as soon as I wake up. I don’t really know what I am living for.
Try to find something that makes you happy. This year & right now I'm going through tough days but I know somehow I have to make it though. I just wished I around people who overcame it & give me advice
Im also just like you, and I finally broke down and asked Jesus into my heart and my life, I was done being egotistical and self serving. Now I think in terms of how I could be useful to others, and in doing so found my problems were really tiny to alot of the struggles I saw all around me one I opened myself up to helping others. Jesus will have a long hard look at you and then start to direct you to do things, you will know The Lord and you will have peace. And a purpose, but you have to sincerely repent and tun from your ways to his....
I'm praying for you. I feel the same way and am seriously struggling. I'm praying for us both 🙏🙏🙏 and for everyone who suffers with this crippling illness.
I hope you are feeling better now :)
Stay away from propaganda, aka "news" and *most* social media apps. Have 1 or 2 good, quality friends to lean on.
You're a brave soul, thanks for sharing your story.
As soon as I saw the background I knew you were in Arizona. Living in Arizona for most of my life, I have done a lot of hiking in similar areas. Anyone hiking in Arizona should make sure they carry more water than they think. We get a lot of emergency rescues because of the heat.
I think a lot of people who have figured out to let go of material things and focus on the things that matter, often have a dark period of life, not necessarily suicidal feelings. When you think of your own mortality or loose a lot in life, it kind of clears out all the nonsense in life.
Yes re: water! That young couple, baby and dog all found dead. They had run out of water... and had heat exhaustion...really sad.
@@YogaBlissDance It's terrible when people learn about the dangers of sun heat the hard way.
Yeah the heat is no joke, I live in AZ as well. Always bring a lot of water when hiking, I see it every summer on the news, people get stranded on a mountain. Stay safe.
I went through a mid life crisis at 35 … Thought long and hard about suicide … My wife pulled me through though.
Working every Monday through Friday was depressing as depressing can get man … Work for years to get one week vacation and then when you go on vacation you still get calls and emails … No thanks.
All thanks to you brother … We finally found the inspiration to live life and that’s what we are doing.
Thanks so much man … I can never thank you enough for all of your videos man.
Fuck that man if you’re on vacationyou’re on vacation simple as that. Better to switch your phone off, as for your depression it’s a bitch to get through and I’m glad you’ve found the light. Cheers
Tim thanks for telling your story. I suffer from severe depression. I so glad I have subscribe to your channel. You are genuine and relatable. I just want to thank you so much for sharing because it's hard sometimes talking about mental health of fear of being judge.
Wow, the trauma your parents must've suffered. I'm so glad you realized that suicide hurts your loves ones as well. Look at all we would have missed if you would have succeeded!! You're a wise guy!!
Tim, I’m glad you survived your very serious suicide attempt. If there’s anybody out there struggling, don’t do it and go to the nearest Emergency room for help. You don’t have to suffer anymore. Help is available
ER is not going to help get better.
how can the emergency room make the dark go away?
Working out (lifting ,swimming,running etc) ,good friends / family and get busy with some thing you enjoy,that helped to go through some real dark times.
It's a good idea about having a session with a psychologist. It's the secular version of having a chat with the vicar and that's one thing that's missing in society. I'm an Atheist and I can see the benefits people had in being in a congregation.
Think how glad tens of thousands of people are that you are here with us on the planet!
This is a sensitive topic but thanks Tim for it. I went through a depression when I was 23 years and just finishing my university. I didn't understand the reasons then but I do now. Being in Africa I didn't have the previledge of meeting psychiatrists or even get anti depressants because those resources are very scarce here so I had no option but to fight through it my self. The good news is that I did come out of it and also worked on the conditions that led to the depression and am the happiest man alive today. I will live you with a quote from one of my best philosophers Friedrick Nietzsche, he says 'to live is to suffer but to survive is to find meaning in the suffering'.
Thank you for sharing Brother. I am glad you are still here with us. I am glad that I am still here with y'all. I suffer from post military stuff...some days are better than others....thats why Im always doing stuff like you comment about me on your podcast...I have to stay on the move. The minute I slow up depression kicks in. Much love Bro. 195 days alcohol free!!! #AlcoholSucks! #SHIBArmy! 🔥🚀
PS...My Baby Sister took her life last year around this time so a Brotha has been down but we keep fighting!!! 🔥
Diagnosed at 22. Now 59. Still going through it.
How have you been dealing with it ?
Tim, this was how I feel. I made the mistake of getting on medication in my 20’s. Severe depression and anxiety. Major depression was hitting me and I’m a very logical person as well but my behaviors started to become worse. I turned to alcohol. I’m now going on 50 and I wish I never would of started medication. Prozac and Zoloft made me a nutcase. Im on a very low dose of antidepressant and it makes me tired and complacent. When I try to get off I go into a dark hole so I go back on it. Your videos are very uplifting and inspiring. Im glad I found your channel. Im going on 50 and I’m a minimalist now, I’m a lot wiser. Depression is horrible and you describe it well. Takes a hell of a lot of perseverance to push through when your mind is telling you the opposite. This is a great video. I think you are the male version of myself. You are very blessed and I’m following you on my path to peace. Everyone deserves happiness and peace of mind … God bless us all ❤️
That's totally horrible. I'm on Zoloft with 175 mg dosage. And I think I'm such a numb person ever exist.
I'm so glad you made it through the depression and are here to share with us your love for life. Bless
You're a brave man for sharing your darkest moments. Keep making the best of life and enjoy the beauty it offers. I appreciate and admire your dedication to this channel. Stay well. Life is a journey and never give up.
Tim, you are amazing… I really appreciate you sharing your past and knowledge
Causes of depression that most people aren't aware of: mold(watch the documentary - Moldy), having low free testosterone (this can be caused by many things including SSRIs by increasing aromatase). I know because I experienced both. I hope this helps someone out who has depression but can't find the cause.
How u cure the mold.problem?
Omg I have been wondering if part of my issue is mold. I can't see it in my rental, but I often smell a moldy, mildew smell. I have been suffering from headaches, which I never used to get, or rarely.
Tim, I for one am so glad u came out of that blackness. I know what depression is like. I stay on the meds now as maintenance medication after having had two major depressive episodes in my life that were long in duration. The world is blessed to have you in this world and you already know how much I value your thoughts on so many subjects. Sending you a virtual hug.
Aww, what a nice comment. I too am on antidepressant and I, not gonna have another episode of serious darkness anymore
@@5thdimension625 for me they have helped. So I figure it it ain’t broke don’t fix it. I’ve tried to come off them in the past and never felt right. I’m glad they have helped u too
Thank you Terri 🧡
Tim, you're a brave dude for making this video. I relate to it alot as well, thanks for sharing.
It's good to hear you talk about this subject, Tim. I have suffered from depression since childhood trauma. It is pretty much low level now. I spent 2 years on Prozac and to be honest that helped. Now I do my best to enjoy life and I would say I am happier in life than most people who gripe and complain about the little things that matter nought. Meditation and Stoicism helps.
It does look amazing where you are hiking 😊
Perfect timing for this video. Thank you, Tim. Much appreciated!
I have Severe Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD). I have been in the psych ward several times. And the second to last time I was in there a woman said to me "Mark you have to stop having these temper tantrums!" And I thought for a minute or two and I was like "Am I really acting like that?" I still have convulsions and I have to take Klonopin though. But I have more control over myself.
what happened to you bro?
Mr Ward , I’m sure the message you shared today will help someone with their struggle. You’re very generous to share your travels and the words of wisdom you impart to your followers. Sincerely Gerald
What uP! Missed the live yesterday but I'm back for this! Yes, I tried once and I am glad it didn't work. Life is hard and depressing and sometimes meaningless but those bad times, those bad thoughts do pass.
I can tell you why everyone is depressed, it's the matrix, that's why. This video was so needed for so many. Thank you.❤️
I’ve been there it is not a good place. And it was a fight to get out of it. I did a lot of praying Aloooot of praying. The thoughts were heavy.
I know how to overcome 1.never be too tied to anything 2.always explore and enjoy trying new things 3.never let petty people piss you off 4. If you feel you have no purpose remember that life is short and we sometimes aren't alway meant to have a purpose sometimes we're just meant to live 5 leave that shitty job I know you want to 6 don't be afraid to lose 7 not everything has to be answered sometimes thing remain unknown ... 8 if you feel you don't know where your going change direction 9 you can make the day better yourself even if someone pissed you off 10 live each day not as your last but live each second as if it were your last 11 do what you want 12 don't let people dictate your life 13 it's ok to feel depressed at times and feel like life is over we aren't perfect and we're only human life is about ups and downs .. 14 remember that all the times you tried so hard to get to where you are and how proud you should be 15 love and let live and yes that applies to you to 16 never think your alone 17 if you do feel alone remember many of us feel the same way 18 a new beginning always has a end weather it be bad or good 19 keep on going don't give up
Have a great day and hope those can help someone
Good post Tim! I can relate to this.. Being 34 and the only single one of my friends had me questioning myself. I have some rough days but I do just try to live in the moment because if I don't I start to feel overwhelmed
Realistic people are often seen as “depressed.” We realize the outcome of life is death. No divine, no purpose, no reason. We unfortunately are here because we are here. No viable evidence says otherwise. We need to give our own lives these things. I live for my son and keep these beliefs from him. Acceptance of reality is a curse at best. I have spent a decade feeling this way and searching for proof otherwise. I’ve found nothing I can’t explain.
absolutely. i have a sister who's delusional, and she never feels depressed.
The feeling that you're just getting older and have to work for the rest of your life to survive, is pretty depressing. I used to wonder how celebrities and rich people got depressed, but now i totally understand. the "grass is greener" syndrome and comparing yourself to others can be a killer.
I feel the exact same way
@@baldeagle4710 Any view altering mental illness seems to be more a gift than a curse. Perception truly is reality.
@@nicolete493 It’s a heavy weight to carry.
@Kenneth: Have you seen Tim's vid on how viewing "a purposeless life" as amazing? It may help lighten that heavy weight a bit: th-cam.com/video/ZiAe-7iy_sY/w-d-xo.html
Tim, for a long time I wondered why I was depressed even tho I have a great life. I would ask that question everyday to myself. With no answers in sight!! I didn’t want to be depressed and I changed my entire life to help guide me into the right direction. I broke up with a mentally damaged girl that was causing me a bunch of distress, sold my property and house, paid off all my debt, became as close to as minimalist as I could, bought an RV to travel, work three months a year, and lost weight but I was still depressed after all that!! I have been single and working on myself for over a year and feel much better now but still on the road to complete happiness. I just want to say Tim that your channel, as weird as it sounds, makes me proud to be introverted. Most introvert people don’t talk about this stuff so it was always lonely. The videos you have seem like you read my mind or that we have so many of the same thoughts!! Thank you for what you do 🤙
Hi Tim!! I used to live in Arizona. The desert is beautiful !!! We are all glad you are here!! You were meant to be here. You are an inspiration and you give hope to many. Thank You.
Keep up this channel, don't ever stop
You are such an inspiration!! Thank you for being so open!! I’ve been in that deep darkness as well and can relate,,, apparently we still have sharing with others to do cause Thank God we are still here! Keep being your true self because you shine bright!!
Tim, these videos where you're open, honest, and authentic are just so incredibly valuable. It's a good reminder we're all in this together and we're not alone. Thank you so much for sharing, and I'm glad you're doing well!
You're speaking so truthfully & this is your purpose!
I started watching your videos like 2 days ago. Quiet quitting, I don't dream of labour, kill your bills, and now this, are topics I relate to yet I'm from the opposite side of the planet in Africa. Keep up the 'real talk'. You never know just who's life you may impact 🌹
I am glad you are still here!
It is great you are happy and living the life you want!
Thank you for sharing your story.
Thank you for your openness in discussing this. I can relate.
Depression is a terrible drain caused by the soul feeling trapped or having no outlet to joy.
When what used to give you joy no longer does so, fight it by trying to find new pathways to joy.
Thank for the video Tim. The cactus background was awesome!! Depression never lasts forever and will eventually go away!
Been suffering from anxiety/depression for over 30 years. It’s peaks and valleys. The last time I tried to die I meant it and it’s such a horrible dark hole. Still fighting, but I think of all that I would have missed and what it would have done to my children if I had been successful. My daughter came over unexpectedly and it saved me. Thank you for sharing. I wish there wasn’t such a stigma on mental health. Every night I pray for anyone who is going through this and hope we all make it. It’s so sad to read everyone’s comments. We’re all worth being here. It’s just very painful. Thank you again for sharing.
First want to say THANK YOU for being strong in sharing your story! Sadly there is still FAR too much stigma on people dealing with mental illness and more need to speak out. I have been dealing with depression and anxiety for over 20 years. (I hear ya on regular medications...I had sleepiness where I would sleep 14-16 hours a day, intrusive thoughts, ect.) I'm treating it naturally, going to counseling, and my other therapy is walking in nature and playing hand drums (like African drums). I'm on disability and sadly when I say that many have written me off to a life to just exist and stay out of the hospital. NOT ME! I want a full life and saving up for the nomad life, I want to share my story (maybe do a TED talk), on my journey to crumble down the stigma walls of fear. After what we all have been through this past year and half, people need to know it's OK what they are going through and that they are not alone.
Hi Tim, this was a great video. Thank you for sharing. Your message could make a difference to someone today. And I think that’s wonderful.
Such incredible honesty and insight, I really focus on what I love to do. Hiking and biking through some of the finest scenery in the west of Ireland is incredible. I love reading and cannot wait to start traveling in 2022.
Tim very inspirational video. I pray that the person who needs to hear this catches this message and continues to fight and hold on, a change will come. I'm proof too!
I can't agree enough on everybody having access to a therapist. Like you say, gives you someone to talk to who comes at things from a neutral perspective other than wanting you to be well (if they're any good!), and stops you taking it out on people around you. I once had a 'friend' who said she didn't need a therapist because she had me and her boyfriend...except we were bloody miserable listening to it all and dealing with the aggression, which was sometimes about us personally.
I must say Mr.Timothy Livestream 👑 This is very great Informative Video ever and the Scenery in AZ absolutely beautiful. The World/ Society makes up for some of our thoughts due to Programming.I'm so glad you're who you are today. People need to see your successfully beautiful Life & Journey💕💕💕💕💕By the way you look Great!!!
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Honest introspection and accepting yourself and all that comes with it. Love the AZ cactuses 🌵
Thanks, Tim. I commend you for your encouragement and your vulnerability.
What helped me is a therapist & magic mushrooms
So sorry you experienced depression to that degree. We never know what people are thinking sometimes until it’s too late. I am so happy that you decided to stay with the living. You are an inspiration to the world.
I commend you so much for talking about this. This is so common yet a taboo topic. I honestly believe the unconscious rat race drives us to suicide and or depression for most ppl. We’re human & not supposed to be to only be happy. My shrink made me want to jump off a cliff 😂 but that was the moment I figured if I’m going to sticky around this terrible planet then it’s up to me to figure out what happy means for me
I like everything you post. Think I've walked a similar path. Im coming out of it now and am delighted to find some validation through this channel. Excited to see where it flows and goes...but this reminds me to continue fighting it. Glad you made it out of the hole.
I can relate. I love Buddhist Dukkha. We don't have to suffer. It is a choice. I too wanted to die but I wouldn't do suicide. So I quit living feeling no joy and hated my life. I hit bottom and went to coda and 12 step meetings. I finally reached out for help. I have new friends with coda. I am struggling leaving my 26 yrs career even though it makes me sick. I even had a buddhist monk said I need to quit. I am glad you are free Tim. So I know I need to mediate on leaving my nursing job. FUD gets me fear, uncertainty and doubt lol. I haven't worked for 6 months as a travel nurse. 26 years of nursing. My husband is working. He has his own business.
Thanks for sharing that heartfelt story, Tim.
I used to be severely depressed and anxious in high school and almost all the way throughout my college years (7-8 years) due to home issues and the way I perceived myself and the world. Many times I wished I was dead but was too scared of the prospect of suicide. I discovered coping mechanisms that weren’t so healthy but kept me going. I tried getting help at my university counseling service and it made me feel awful and as if nothing was wrong, so I stopped looking for help in that way (when I probably should’ve looked elsewhere, they scored me on 98/100 for anxiety and 80/100 for depression yet were so dismissive). I eventually had a spiritual hallucinogenic experience followed by a study abroad semester that turned on a switch in my brain as if the color and wonder of the world had suddenly flooded back in. All I can say to those who still suffer is that you should look everywhere you can and dig into why you feel the way you do, seek help, find new things to enjoy, try to reach out or find friends who are understanding, question your beliefs and remove what doesn’t serve you to live and try to find new ones that make you want to stay here. Like he said, exhaust every avenue. If you read this and you are struggling know you aren’t alone and I’m sincerely wishing you the very best in your life. Soon I will be studying to become a licensed counselor and I hope to give myself as an ear for as many as I can. I know if I could find the light, so can many others.
Great human being 👏👏
I have basically lived with severe depression and anxiety since my teen years. It's like a never ending roller coaster of highs and lows. I just have always felt like the black sheep in life and it makes me feel so alone. It's gotten progesively worse since I have been in my 20s because that's the timeframe that most people are figuring out their life. This usually involves graduating college, getting a good job and marrying a significant other and settling down. I have achieved none of this and I'm 27 years old and get so frustrated that I haven't figured out my life yet. I see all my peers moving on with their lives and start comparing myself to them and feel so useless. I've struggled with suicidal ideation and a few times it got really bad and I was seconds away from acting on those feelings. I question why do I even exist? Why am I here? I have nothing and feel like an empty shell. I have no drive and passion like most people and I just work different jobs so I can pay the bills that I have. I just feel so alone sometimes like nobody can understand me and my problems.This life on earth just feels like a prison to me and I just want to be free. I'm also just so fed up with our society is and how so many people are just suffering while others are doing nothing to help those in need. The greed of the wealthy higher ups really gets to me. If I ever had that kind of money I'd be helping so many people. I wouldn't just spend it all on myself. The only reason I'm still here is because of my family who I live with and my close 2-3 friends. It just sucks so much because I really don't want to be here anymore but I also don't want to hurt them by offing myself. I just feel so lost and trapped in a dark hole that I can't seem to escape. I just feel like I am so broken and I feel like I'm a shame to everyone around me. I just pray to God please take me. I want to leave this earth so desperately.
Hello, your depressed because of what you feed your billions of cells. You should eat raw fruit..your depression will go and never return...follow ppl of you tube..raw food ppl.. if theirs no change, then theirs no change..
I get depressed and hide and feel awkward even goin outside and when I do I get all weird towards the people in my life. Me and all the people close to me said it was my drinking, I got sober a few months ago and still felt the same way just thinking every one hates me. Maybe it's just the shame of past behavior, I'm a minimalist that lives in a 14 foot camper on the river and I walk to work by choice, still gunna stay sober just feel awkward and down love ya tim I will keep binging your vids instead of drinking pints of vodka lol
The system is designed to make us semi depressed. But not depressed enough so that we off ourselves because then we wouldn't be able to work
Thank you for being brave and sharing your story, i'm so glad your dad came home early! So many people are learning so much for you including myself. I stopped planning suicide once I had a child cause it's not fair on him. I still have depression but things in life flow up and down and I'm now hopeful for more better times cause I'm here for a reason.. even if it's just to be a good mum to my son who might do more important things then me lol enjoying the small things in life.
Now that's the spirit!
Exactly, what would your son do with you? You’re so needed. Blessings from Texas!
Oh thanks for the supportive comments
Thank you for sharing ❤, it helps to hear other peoples stories
Thank you Tim for the great video, I love how open you are not holding anything back!!
Thanks tim i listen to this every morning when i wake up to help me get through the day.
Looks like AZ to me 😃🏜 Blue sky and sunshine... exactly what I sought out for my mental health, and it definitely helped. Best decision I made!
I hope nothing but the best for you
my PTSD has completely destroyed my life. Seen a lot of death. Lost friends. This world is just brutal, and people do their best to sugar coat it. Being in society, I see people living in their boxes and enjoying it. People are content just being slaves if it means surviving. In all parts of the world this is truth.
People will do anything to survive, just to suffer. I question why I continue, and honestly, I live for those who did not want to die but did. I live so I can observe the world, and myself. That’s it.
I really like your channel. Just found it and subscribed. Your sharing of yourself helps others in similar situations.
Thank you for not ending your life when you were depressed. The world today is better because of you.
This was a great video Tim. Its exactly what I needed right now. I am not suicidal, but I dont really want to live either. Traveling makes me happy, and I try and go on a trip as much as I can so I have something to look forward to, but I feel like I need to get out of the place I live. Did you move? Did that help?
P.S. is this video at Saguaro NP? Where in southern AZ is it?
From a psychological perspective , age 18- early 20's are major trigger ages for mental illness. If you have a genetic predisposition, this is likely the time that it will pop up. Same with me. No reason, I had a boyfriend, grades were good, accepted in multiple colleges, friends, everything and I was suicidal as well. Now knowing that in my family 18 is the age where many of my cousins and relatives have had their first nervous breakdowns, psychotic breaks, and depressive episodes, it makes more sense. Wish I had known before 18 to prepare myself.
Thanks for share , great help for all of us.
Thank you Tim for this video on depression. I am now 70 but I went thru a terrible depression in my 40’s where my brain would not stop thinking suicidal thoughts. I was fighting 24 hours a day. I was exhausted. Fortunately, I friend took me to the dr.
I was low on iron. Got that straightened out. I could breathe better but the thoughts stayed. Next I was diagnosed with clinical depression. I was put on two anti-depressants. The dr said it would take about 2 weeks for it to build up in my system. If it didn’t work, we could try another combination.
I waited, I hung on. At the end of 2 weeks I was only having 2 or 3 suicidal thoughts a day. Now that I could deal with. Eventually, all the horrible thoughts went away.
Twice since then I’ve decided I was well and these pills are no longer needed. Twice I’ve come off them and 2 weeks later all I could think about was ways to kill myself.
So I actually have clinical depression and am grateful for the medication that saved my life.
My dr told me if he said I had diabetes and needed insulin, I would have done what he told me. Very true. But I fought him on this because it is a “mental “ issue. I did not want to be one of those people with a mental illness. He said clinical depression is just an illness that you need medication for. Just like you need insulin if you had diabetes.
So I’m with you in wanting to help others know there are ways out of depression. Lots of different ways. It does not feel like it. But you can get well. Find the correct help for you.
Ann from Vancouver, BC. Canada
I’m so glad you’re here brother. You not alone in this. I’ve been there myself. Your channel is awesome and I have really been enjoying your content. Thanks for being forthcoming with all this. You probably will help a lot of people you will never even know about.
Thanks for making this video, Timothy. Just hearing someone speak who genuinely knows what it's like helps.
Thank you for your honesty. To fight my depression I've done morning walks, working to increase exercise. Over the counter mineral supplement of lithium orotate. It's not for everybody, it just has helped me some. I try to make a list of what may be dragging me down and how to deal with it. And some of my more desperate moments I've out of the following prayer I learned that is very powerful." Jesus make it right within my spirit".
Keep doing and helping others thru these videos.
Bless your heart and bless your parents.
I say that all the time to clients to anyone...EVERYONE should have a therapist. A trained caring person who is non-judgemental to help us sort our mental and emotional pain....
If I had it my way I would have land im the woods with a log cabins and farm and live off the land and travel. But society and the higu cost of land and materials makes it very difficult. I would be my own boss but they want us being a slave to the system and work under someone else
Depression is literally psychological torture. It is brutal. Some days I might feel like that. I think winter kinda makes me feel that way.
The image is super clear..camera or wifi? Looks really good.
Thanks for sharing your experience I'm not depressed however life handed me a huge platter. Yum I say and think still chowing down on it. My shifting thought that always makes me swallow this food is at least I'm eating. Another day I will take it. Hope this helps someone we aren't the same but our experience helps others. Thanks Tim
They need to make it legal and make a business out of it. You should be able to go to a place and opt out of life. Painlessly, quickly, for a small fee. I have alot of money, but you cant buy an ending.
I really appreciate you Tim. Thank you man.