My Turn - Episode #1 *Pure O OCD*
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 14 ต.ค. 2024
- Throughout my career I’ve listened to thousands of other people’s stories and their struggles throughout life and yet I was afraid to share mine with them. Very few people know my story and what I struggle with in my life. As I got older I chose to keep my life private and I liked it that way. I’ve had some personal losses in 2021 so far and I would like to grow from that, so I figured maybe it’s time I share my story with the public. So here it is, now it’s my turn.
Disclaimer I am not a health professional or a licensed therapist or have any training in those fields. These videos are intended to share with the public my experiences of OCD and what I have learned about the condition since my diagnosis from a licensed therapist.
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I love you man. I see the pain you've been through.
Thank you Austin!!
Thank you so much for sharing your experience! I've also been diagnosed with PURE O... it's been a ride... I relate to everything you've said. I hope that we can live better.
Thank you! Yes, one day it will all get better. With the right amount of love and tenderness, we'll be okay!
13:52: "And in moments like that is when my thoughts are the loudest. There's not cure for OCD, there's barely any relief. I have to live with this every day" That phrase sounded me like glove to me. and helps me and motivates me too many. God bless you, illuminates you and gives you the absolute happiness, between this big storm and undesireable torture. Good luck!!
Thank you sebastian! Same to you as well!
Kenny thank you I wish you the same equally
I can’t tell you the 100’s of times I was in fear while in social situations. I’m basically afraid of my OCD, and a little from the situation. It’s interesting when you say you want to feel the OCD rather than cover it w meds. I do agree because I’m a meditator and all my teachers say feel the anxiety rather than repressing it. After awhile you’re body will heal itself. But, I’m not convinced that OCD falls into this…I wonder if the chemistry doesn’t allow for the anxiety to release as they state. I’m on a mild dose of meds “just in case” because I’m a jazz musician (different name here) and it’s already a tough life so I feel I need the small boost if it’s actually doing something or not. My guess is it’s about 10-20% help! The next thing I’m going to try is psilocybin w therapy. I’ve done everything else accept DBS. Nothing worked so far…Neurofeedback, TMS, Heavy supplements, CBD oil, ERP, CBT and Ketamine are what I’ve done besides meds. My pure O is religious in nature and at times is agonizing. But I hear and feel you, everyday it’s a new day of battles, mostly stimulated by situations. I find the most peace actually is when I’m alone all day. Much love and blessings to you and thank you for sharing!
Thank you for sharing this with me! I'm curious how this new treatment will work for you! From the time I made this video to today, I've taken no meds and my OCD is manageable! Of course, there's times when it pops up every now and then, and I'll have to use the tools I've learned throughout the years to put those thoughts to sleep. But overall, the long-term rumination and anxiety, I've discovered, can be tamed! With therapy, determination, and support, you can manage this disease! :)
@@kbtatau Thanks! So you’re saying your treatment is just the basics of will power and therapy? Mines manageable at times but yea, always looking to make it more:/) 🙏
@@renakmans3521 yes! :) just therapy and will power. No medication or ERP!
Hey bro i know exactly your pain and what you've went through since i've been fighting PURE O since 19..HARM-OCD was my first theme and it lasted 3.5 years..i dont know why we had this bad luck..was it genetics? was it Karma? i really dont know..i just know that we are fighters and that i consider everyone that has been through this my brother since they know my pain..keep strong brother i love you god bless you ! (You forgot HOCD as a subtype)
It's definitely genetics, brother. You and I can manage it but it takes a lot of work. We can do this! Thank you, bud!!
I hear you I'm with you because I'm also an individual who suffer some pure o OCD and I thank you for Having the courage enough to speak your story because it could help me speak mine and I really want to speak mine story
Thank you so much! I hope you're able to share your story with others like how I have. Fast forward to today since I recorded that video, I'm so happy I shared this with the public. I feel my OCD has calmed down a lot. People are aware of my situation now and spread kindness and encouragement. So I encourage you to one day share your story! It helps.
@@kbtatau I will soon but in the meantime I could how can it be more happy for you and actually was you and myself and everybody like us the very best because that's what we deserve
@@destinylavonne2305 yes we do! You can do this! Hang in there!
I have pure O as well.. and I thought you might find this interesting since you tattoo (this is how I found your videos because OCD and tattoos is not a very common search which is surprising). I found your video because my long dormant pure O (15 years dormant) came back 2 days before my tattoo appointment this week. I always have loved tattoos and finally decided to get a shoulder piece, and the day before my mind started to question my feelings. Do I even like tattoos? Do I even like my artists work? etc etc.... I started checking her instagram like 100 times a day to prove to myself I liked her work, but the second I would close her account, the anxiety came back and I would have to look at it again.... and again... and again.... I started obsessing over other artists to compare... and could NOT stop checking my feelings. Even if I thought "Yeah I like her work".... the second I would close instagram, I would have to check to make sure I STILL liked her work. The anxiety felt exactly the same as my past themes.. I was so scared, sick, light headed, panicked....and everything else pure O brings. I ended up calling and cancelling. I felt like if I got the tattoo... I would obsess about it. Have to look at it over and over to check my feelings, look at photos of it to check my feelings, I would never know with 100% certainty that I liked it or not. I would constantly compare it to other tattoos to check my feelings. IT felt like relationship OCD but with a tattoo. It wasn't worth the mental torture....I lost a $100.00 down payment, but I didn't even care. I have never heard of anyone struggling with pure O and tattoos... and I didn't even expect it. My pure O always attacks my "feelings"....and so it makes sense that it would attack my feelings about my tattoo.
Thank you for sharing this with me. It's the permanent commitment that's scary. I've tattooed myself multiple times and each time I stare at them over and over again so I can find the flaws to fix. I don't want other artists to tattoo me cause I would obsess over their work being on me forever. I would nit pick at it every second of the day. So I hear you! I tell my clients: Tattoos aren't meant to be perfect. They're to commemorate your past and to learn to enjoy the moment. I hope one day you'll be able to enjoy getting tattooed again!
@@kbtatau I never have been tattooed in he first place, this would have been my first one… but I think going through this made me realize they weren’t for me. I will just have to admire them from afar. 😂 your tattoos are damn near perfect though… just followed you.
@@carahamelie nothing wrong with that either! Thank you!
I have been suffering from pure O all my life,but speciallly since 2020 I also thought I commited a crime and was seeking reassurance constantly. I had several panic attacks that ended Up in emergencies. At one point even the doorbell sound caused me irrational fear and panic. Two years on the verge,without sleeping, having the same obsessive thoughts, I went to a psychiatrist that put me on anafranil ( clomipramine), 5 months later I am pretty stable, no more obsessions, and cutting the compulsions step by step but yes, OCD is pure hell. How are you doing after a year?
I'm sorry to hear what you went through :( yea I was so very close to turning myself into the police station. Now that's been a year later for me, I've learned to manage it pretty well. I'm still seeing my current therapist and I tried ERP but it wasn't working for me. It felt too clinical to me and I preferred to speak with a therapist that can educate me on my actions rather than do clinical work with my thoughts. Thank you for asking! I'm glad the medication is an improvement in your situation!
Thanks for sharing your story bro.It help me a lot.I also have same OCD subtype which is harm OCD from long time approx 12 years.My obsession make me feel that i have commited crime than i check all the fact related to incident and i make sure that i have not comitted crime.Again after few minute my thought trigger me what if it is true,again i recall my old memory and ensure that these thought are not true.This ocd cycle run in my mind whole time.During exam also these thought are going on with higher frequency and i need to stop writing and solve these thought first other wise i feel anxius and uncomfortable.From my childhood my study is effecting because of this.Particular false memory stay in my mind upto 2 years after that my ocd create a new false memory than older one look normal,but new false memory cycle will start.
I have seen your 1st episode which is looking very helpfull to me,i will see all your episode soon.
Thanks a lot and keep sharing,your story is helpfull for many false memory ocd(harm ocd) sufferer.(English is not my native language so I may have grammatical mistake.)
Thank you so much for your kind words. It took me a long time to learn to accept if I've committed a crime or not. To this day I still don't know. But with the right therapist (one who has training in OCD), I was able to break free from that cycle. Thank you for sharing your story with me. You can do this!
08:08 "These thoughts from none way mean true facts for them" This other phrase motivates me and helps me to still on. Thanks
04:38
: "Instead, he told me that I suffer from Obsessive Compulsive Disorder "OCD" "
I'm glad I could help! Thank you for watching and just know that you can do this!!
@@kbtatau Of course yes, let's go with all energy 💪🏻
@@kbtatau why do you say that Every second of day you suffer from intrusive an undesirable thoughts??