How to make your magic work? (Magic Theory)
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- This is a starter to my new series of videos about demonolatry practice. I discuss how to make your ritual a success through magical cleansing, preparation of the right magical tools, and mental conditioning. Also perhaps most importantly I speak about the limitations of magic. Even if you are successful and in touch with the spirit, what should you ask for? This question was relevant to Faust and still remains important to every practician of black arts.
#Demonology #Goetia #Demons #Lucifer #Occultism
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When you ask for something, you have to be prepared to receive it. Nothing comes through magick without self-development and spiritual practice. Love this video.
Wow. I was taking notes. Took me over an hour and half to finish the video. I think Im in the magic studies university now. Thanks a lot Clavus.
You are a quality spiritual teacher. Thank you sir. Love how understandable you are and the simple good advice you give resonates with other quality teachers.
This is the Best video so far, you explained very well,l am glad l am not mistaking and that l am on the right path, looking forward to more videos like this 🤫
I think I needed this video. I had a bad dream last night and I had a moment of sadness and lack faith but then I realized I need to have faith in Shango and his love for justice. I need to trust in him to take care of me in the long term.
Wow what can I say, I am lost for words. Such an honest view about demonology. Simply the best open overview and personal experience. I am very much of the same view, but I could never talk openly. And yes all those things are very correctly described, I have experienced them myself. So my background is not connected with anyone in the family to have been involved with demons and when I started it was purely out of the curiosity and when connection was established I was totally in love with everything in demonology. Oh! how nice is to know that you can say openly and explain how you did it exactly. I did myself and felt so good and so right, I love everything you are talking about. You are a star 🌟 🤩 ⭐️, and you are so handsome too. Whish you and your channel the best!
Your altar is beautiful. These wonderful spirits appear to me during invocation sometimes in my minds eye as a vision.
Omg I love everything you have to say about ritual. I'm from the 'other side' magically but love this channel. 🌟🦋💙
Very interesting, well-expressed and instructive, as always.
Excellent video, very helpful for a novice like myself, i find myself being educated with every one I watch, and also taking many notes haha, keep them coming, very very informative many thanks, take care.
Thank you very much. I am glad you liked it. More content will be coming soon so please stay tuned 😊
I went over this tutorial again after 9 months word by word and took notes again. The number 1 tutorial on how to do this, still on TH-cam. Great Regards thanks 🙏
Thanks for this video 🤘I enjoyed all of it, the length was perfect! :)
Never pressed so fast on a video 🤘 always happy to see your content
Much love from Denmark
Just now brought my first copy of Grimoriem Verum thanks to your past recommendations in another video but I enjoyed this video a healthy reminder to stay clean from bad habits etc before a working. Appreciate your insights here!
Always a pleasure 🙂I am glad it was useful to you!
New to the channel , I really like your non traditional approach, I find that when rituals become too elaborate it's easy to miss something and can throw you off. Please post more videos, the information is incredible.
Always happy to see another upload from you. I am really enjoying them. They are very interesting and informative, and I love your honesty (e.g. in the Jinn video). I'm still working on my astral temple, but it is a struggle as my mind is always shooting off in a 1000 directions at once - but I will get there! 🖤
I did a little dabbling (super inexperienced) ritual once for money. I was in a desperate place in March 2020 as I lost very well paid job. Only the next day I bought stocks (and I don't even know why I did it, these things had never crossed my mind to do before, let alone buy). Within only a few months I made more than I ever did in a full year's pay at my full time job as Legal Sec / PA in the City of London. Of course I lost it all again rather quickly, but that's just a negative part of my makeup that I need to do much work on.
Same here. Mind all over the place.
Cheers
@@SJ-007 Jason Miller has said that the real problem is keeping hold of the money.
Very good video as always. I saw the movie A Dark Song a few times and I plan to watch it a few times more... It really is a good movie.
Solid wisdom. I appreciate your directness.
Wow, Clavus! I just discovered your channel, and I must say, you're such an inspiration!
I can't stop watching your videos. They're very interesting and informative. Thank you for posting them!
Thank you very much. I plan to do additional videos/ stream soon 🙂
@MagisterClavus I wonder if you could advise me in a matter that's very personal and I'd rather not post it here. Where could I send you a private message, if at all possible?
I found my wand made of bamboo at a gas station 😂 my quartz crystal fits perfectly in the top part of it! It felt like I was meant to pick it up and what an odd thing to find on the ground at a gas station…a wand length stick of bamboo. I am making my new mushroom foraging knife my athame
From Chapter Two of the Jane English & Gia-Fu Feng translation of Tao Te Ching, by Lao Tsu:
"Creating, yet not possessing,
Working, yet not taking credit.
Work is done, then forgotten.
Therefore it lasts forever."
Best teacher on TH-cam. I love your content
Bro you have created a big smile on me ✌️😁
Skvele video len tak dalej velmi informativne a dobre vysvetlene
Dakujem pekne 😊
Wise words! I am interested in magick not for material things. I am looking for comfort, to know if I'm here for a reason or I'm just an accident of evolution.
Thank you so much, Magister. Recently discovered your channel and it is extremely helpful, you are doing an amazing job, really appreciate that! 😊
Very nice. Thank you my friend! ❤
You have helped me so much and I appreciate your knowledge and work
Not sure where you are from yet, because I just discovered your channel recently. I'm guessing it is a Slavic country because I lived in Ukraine for 2 years and I am familiar with the accents and demeanor of Slavic people now. I really like them. It is a blend of seriousness and humility that I haven't seen anywhere else. I also have to say, Ukraine is an extremely magickal place, especially Lviv. It is where I became a witch while writing my novel about witches. Thank you for making these videos, I'm looking forward to watching them.
Thank you very much for your message. You are correct I am Slavic 🙂I am originally not so far from Ukraine 🙂I was born in Slovakia and currently live in Czech Republic.
Lviv is such beautiful city, I was there once…I would like to visit it one day again.
I wish you all the best, enjoy the videos 😊
Azazel has taught me take care of my health take vitamin lay off the soda sweets drink pure juices,also fear is what the oppressors want this path feeds off that fear because we understand that which they don't. Most of the time they don't appear physically they mainly appear in the subconscious or during everyday life for those trying make contact trust in yourself.
Like you said in the first half; I like to teach that you must speak it as it were already done. I like to teach that one must not have any doubt, it will infect the execution.
The meaning of ABRACADABRA.
Magister, we took your recommendation and watched “The Dark Song” - we loved it! Please feel free to recommend others! Thanks 😊 and as always a great video 🎉
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Hello from Siberia :D
thank you for the video
Thank you for watching 😊
I do have a question if you are able to answer. I have been visited over the years by an entity that only shows as a single eye. I don't haven't built up a good way of contacting or communicating them other than they will make movements like no or look in a direction of something. I've been trying to find a way to identify them. The closest I got to an identification was I was show a symbol that looked sorta of like an m shape with a handle.
I've asked around a little bit, and the only person that had an idea of what this might be said it might be something more primordial since it only manifests as an eye. Do you have any recommendations on building up a communication system with them, or any idea who or what they might be so that I can try to find things they like? I've been waking up in the night at times with words or phrases that I seem to be given to me to look in to. I'm assuming it is coming from them.
They come when they want and I don't see them for a long time. I would like to build a better relationship with them since they seem to have an interest in me, so any advice would be helpful. I've started working on building my astral senses and hopefully that helps. They only seem appear in the darkness right before I sleep or when I've just woken up, or maybe that is the only times I can perceive them.
Old Greek legends
Very well Done!
U are so entertaining and slightly charming when u talk....i can listen to u for an hour
Very good.
Can you please speak about meditation and maybe about how to lower ur inner voice so you can tell if it's the spirit or yourself you can hear if you are trying to do divination evocation/invocation 🤘
Best regards and i love your take on offerings well said in this time with the satanic panic
Much love from Denmark
There are many different ways to meditate. Explore methods that sit more comfortable with you. I can't sit still in silence bc of add. I learned a trick when I was a kid to put on some music and concentrate on one instrument or one part of a melody. I'm also more able to clear my mind by dancing, singing, reading tarot, petting my cat. So if you have some hobbies that you enjoy, explore meditating while doing your hobbies. Meditation is just focus, getting in the zone. Once you're in the zone, you can just let your mind clear or let it flow. Hone in on your powers when you're in the zone. It takes practice and time bc first you have to be able to get in that zone, then you have to be able to recognize when you're there. That takes time. A lot of people get there regularly, but don't realize it. Once you can recognize when you're there, you can focus on different things like Astral travel, communicating with spirits or deities, perform magick, make things happen.
@@jesalopez660 thank you Lopez 🖤 I'm gonna try just like letting go and sit with it
@@IsNoGood4uM1kkel Hvad Faen Mand? =)
I used a lot of different guided meditations when I first started to learn how to quiet my mind.
You’ll find guided meditations for more or less anything on youtube, including demons, angels, various Gods, and connecting with your guides or higherself. I still use the meditations from ‘Satanaia’ and ‘Satan and sons’ to connect with the spirits before I go into ritual, But there’s a lot of other alternatives out there.
I’d recommend a daily meditation routine, it can be a little hard to remember (or find the motivation) in the beginning, but if you set your alarm for the same time every day it will not take a long time before it’s a part of your daily routine and you’ll recognize all the benefits of it. It doesn't need to be more than ~10-15 minutes a day and then progress from there.
@@ArcticXun-936 wow where did the danish come from dude 🙈
Much appreciated comment
@@IsNoGood4uM1kkel Bare Hyggelig :) 🖤🔥 fra Norge
_[Edit Btw. If you check my playlists you'll find guided meditations that have helped me a lot. The title of those playlists all start with “.: ” for instance: “ .: guided meditations …” :]_
Very good video well said
I love dragons blood
Greetings, thank you for providing this rich content, would you consider a good choice for someone to get into magick through the framework of Golden Dawn and ceremonial magic? I've started with their system and just want to learn about the craft, the formulae of the rituals and after that transition to the left hand path, if possible, could you post a video about your own journey and how you started, thanks!
Thank you. Now I'm prepared to start preparations :). What I want to mention is that specific kind of music (mainly classical, without lyrics) puts me in a state when I'm more concentrated and open to the world around me, I can feel like I am seeing more colors and more light and more shadows. It may sound strange, but it really isn't. After listening I feel very safe and clean, and my mind feels very calm. So can music also help in preparation and cleansing process, or am I thinking wrong?
Hi Hiroe, absolutely. Music (and sound) are important parts of the invocation ritual. You are doing it in a right way 😊🔥
This is so helpful 🖤👍
I don't know you, but I love you.
thank you Magister Clavus. Your work is really helpful to many Neophytes. May I request a video topic? What are the uses and how to do LBRP,LIRP ,SBRH, SIRH when working with demons and low magick?
Thank you for the interesting suggestion 😊 . I believe these specific rites are well documented by the Golden Dawn but probably I will mention them in future video about the occult orders.
@@MagisterClavus thanks Magister Clavus
Thank you for the video, I’ve been meaning to watch it for ages. On a separate note, do ppl think antidepressants can stop invocations and connections with spirits? Thanks
These videos are very informative! I have a question about my specific self and a concern about my life that may or may not get in the way of possibly practicing any of this, though. Is there any way or platform I may ask this? I see your patrion. I'm not asking for instruction (at least at the moment) but more of a yes or no question, with areas of grey. It's just something I don't talk about in public, and if possible, I would love to ask you. Thank you!
Hello Edward, thank for your kind words I am happy you like the content😊
If you would like to discuss details about the topics of magic outside of Patreon , I provide individual consultations. Usually they take around 90 minutes per session. If you are interested please check the link below :
magisterclavus.bigcartel.com/product/online-consultation
I would be happy to speak about anything you might find important. The sessions are done via Zoom and I can provide you the link with invitation if you decide for it.
For general questions i have my Q&A live stream each Saturday and also during Wednesday with my colleague “in the Art” Anima Noira.
Hope to speak to you soon😊
@Magister Clavus Thank you so much for your reply! This field is so large, so much information. I did see your Patreon but was unaware of the stream tomorrow. I will most definitely check that out.
This is something that has interested me for years, but it's so hard sometimes to wade through the false information and incorrect methods to even begin practicing.
Again, thank you. I will check out your stream. Have a good weekend!
Hello sir! I saw that you recently answered some comments so i thought id try my luck and ask a question. Ever since i was young ive had a fascination with all things occultism and demonology. I remember that as a teen, I felt an attraction to Baël. I remember i used to draw sigils and his name on my arms all the time. Now that im older and reading the ars goetia, I'd really like to actually experience a ritual or a connection with an entity and I was thinking of trying to summon him to ask for guidance. I'm not looking to ask for something specific, but more for guidance and wisdom. Do you think it is a good idea or should I try another entity first ? If not id be open to suggestion
I would like to ask about the fact that some demons are diurnal and nocturnal, and they have specific days of rulership as well as associations with the west, east, north, etc. Should all these things be taken into consideration when invoking a demon? For example, King Paimon is diurnal and is the lord of the west-should I invoke him during the daytime facing the west?
Watching frm the philippines💞
Sound advice🤘
Hi again Clavus. Do you normally burn the sigil before saying the enn or when you finish repeating the enn? When is the preferred time to burn the sigil in the ritual? Thanks for helping us.
Hello hsan. I don’t burn sigil always. Only with blood offerings. Many times I just focus on the sigil to invoke without burning it.
If you want to do offering and to burn the sigil do it at the end of the ritual - after you connect with the spirit. If you can’t feel connection burn it at the end of the ritual anyway. It releases the offering to the astral realm .
@@MagisterClavus Sure. 🙏
When I asked for a a suggestion I heard a small voice say Asmodeas was the one I should talk to first tho I'm not sure much about this subject ? Is this a good start is to ask for a name?
Usually the first impressions are right. Be careful on your journey. Do the things that you are comfortable with . Magic is constant exploration and sometimes the waters are deep. But we have to sail anyway 😊
Fascinating 👻 yea It feels like its right now I'm doing more research 🖤
I'm sorta into the psychological aspects of working with demons. where can I find more information on its effects on the psychology ?
Could you please make videos about important occultists like blavatsky, crowley, etc. and even famous occultist scientists like da vinci?
I will think about that , thank you for suggestions 😊
@@MagisterClavus 🙏😊
Why 'demons' and not 'angels'?
Could you please tell about travelling in time? How can we see our past lives?
Meditation, past life regression, tarot, dreams, guided meditation,, and there are people with the gift to see past lives you can work with. Look in to akashic records.
How to make a perfect intent? Like what guidelines would you use? You said you want to realize your full potential. What sort of wording would one use to get effective results?
This is quite complex question to be answered in just a few words. I recommend you my Patreon study sessions if you are interested. We handle such topics in more detail there.
@@MagisterClavus Hmm, its alright then. Thanks.
so if you’re someone who doesn’t have much private space in their home would you say to hold off on a practice until you do?
Yes brother how are you
I love your accent!
Thank you 😃
Am new in magic I need a guide
What about someone who has struggled to be healthy and struggled to remove unhealthy behaviors from their life and struggled to do so? Can spirits help with this or can you not approach them in this state?
Hello brother I just want to ask you how connected to problem
Any suggestions for people who are married and trying to keep this part of their life as a secret to avoid questions and things like that
About protection, someone told me that it's a way to show respect to the demon. Like a way to say "I know how powerful you are my friend, so I'm making sure to protect my body so that I can sustain your mighty presence."
What do you think of this approach?
Protection circle is used for your protection but sometimes also focus. Circle as such represents the inner sanctum of your ritual. So you are not disturbed by anything.
Please kindly check my video School with Magister Clavus where I speak about three pillars of magical ritual. I think it is #3 . I speak a lot about circles there🙂
Honestly whats the use of a wand for me? Like i always use my selfmade athame i branded my personal "logo" on it, heard that the athame might frighten some lesser enteties what do you think about it? The wand was very complicated to make, but i still dont use it somehow, i made from the branch of hazelnut, with some materials on it and also bone and feather.
I keep missing your live chats. Pft
They are going to return soon 😊
Could you please name some of the day demons? Thank you.
there is no difference at the end. They all can be invoked during specific times.. also during a day.
Hi there do u evoke by just meditating on the sigil ? Is it true some other entity pretend to be as the demon we call and doesn’t leave sometimes? If yes how do we protect ourselves from the different entities ?
Hey there, a man named 'Spektor Baal' here on TH-cam talked about this and I also believe 'Cipher grove' here on TH-cam talked about it.. I believe, you can try saying 'Hekas, Hekas, este bebeloi' before you evoke spirits that can pretend to do this, clearing your room with incense and smoke can also help.
@@JesseDrift Thank u appreciate it 🙏
❤😊😊
Wow thank u 💓
How did you higher self operation go?
I was looking for a tattoo idea, took a year, finally I settled on Asmodeus recently for a sigil tattoo.....so I asked for a sign that I was on the right path.....I asked my wife to print out the sigil so I could show it to the tattoo artist, and she was skeptical of the whole idea.....which to me, means I was on to something.....then I asked for a sign to reaffirm it, and later that night while flipping channels I came across "Constantine" with Keanu Reeves......sigils, demons, and magic all the way baby ! SO that was my sign, and boy did it come quick and forcefully....
Would it be ok to invite a demon just to hang out? And just after a while decide if you are going to ask something from them. Would it be ok then to hang out with multiple demons? Not at once, individually.
I don’t recommend that. Demons should not be asked or invoked lightly. I recommend you to do self reflection what is you require from them first. They are not friends and calling them just to meet them will probably fail. Or even worse if it is done carelessly. stay safe 🙂
Noted, ty.
Well, what i learned in magic is that herbs are good and a useful tool, what about cannabis? I wouldnt use any drugs for rituals but the effect of cannabis as is very complementing to getting into trance etc. But i also think it would be way to *overwhelming* to invoke some demon or so, also because the astralbody doesnt feel centered at all, when your using cannabis, its almost like when meditating, this feeling of floating off or floating apart.
I'm talking with Mammon (in the background, as I dedicated this month to Him) all about money, and He asked me "So, you want money? What are you going to buy with it? Etc." I am cynical about the money-making process, and since He is the Arch-Jester of my court, He is going to help me find the middle ground with all the variables of acquiring wealth that works for me in a lighthearted way. In spite of His sarcastic, clownish attitude with most things, He remains serious about matters of money.
Come to think of it, I kind of want the money for a particular lifestyle that lends itself to yet greater demonic presence and an aesthetic to match. That house or apartment must be in the image of Hell itself.
Blood is something I did a select few times, but one day I tried doing it and poking my thumb with the lancelet just made my fucking skin crawl, so now I'm using my [cough cough] seed. Azazel always demands blood though.
Muito gato, simpático e inteligente
Have you worked with Rune Blood Magick? The Runes work well with me very fast and effective.
Hi Joe, runes are indeed very powerful tool either for divination or rituals. It is not my main area of practice. Maybe you can read:
TROLLRÚN: A Discourse on Trolldom and Runes in the Northern Tradition
Some say it is not good book with some errors but for me as a generalist in this area it was sufficient.
The mind is greatest alter/ temple.
Did you try to invoke angels?
Yes..the technique is similar. The preparation is much more rigorous. Please Check my Abramelin ritual video. I speak about that there more.🙂
In Alister Crowley Thelma naming the angels to bound the spirit is degrading and takes power of the working and ends up not being strong enough.
29:31 Do you also burn the sigil along with your wish or would that be disrespectful?
It can be burned
Sir Clavus My question is Will the entities only be present during rituals or will they contact us in our everyday life. Ex: I'm about to make a big decision Will the entity come and tell me hey that is not a good idea?
Once we work and connect to these realms ..they are always around us. But whether they will “speak” to you is not sure. There mightbe feelings, dreams , visions and premonitions.
They will probably not speak to you like humans do 🙂Take care and stay safe!🙂
@@MagisterClavus thank you for the response eagerly waithing for your next video
Can't believe you mentioned the movie Dark Song. I loved it. Yes, it is exactly about the things you mentioned.
Do they teach you about themselves?
hello are you on other social media?
What oil is that? Abramelin oil?
Is it necessary to be initiated before attempting any of this on your own?
Not at all. This is how the magic training starts. And it is mostly a solitary path.
I am trying to commute with Lilith from prison. Only candle I got was smuggled by a priest. No knife here, could try a shiv
If you don't understand the importance of the action you don't deserve the answer... just my opinion shared with the old ones- you don't cast perils before swine. its not meant for those who seek it i believe it find and pursues you.3:25 in
Where did Magister Clavus go?
What do you mean? He’s right there
how is it that freaky druggo like Aleister Crowley was able to contact entities? I admit I have a problem with some substance and I'm looking for inner strength for getting clean, would it be wasting time at this point in my case?
i read somewhere that burning sigils of spirit is offending to them is that true??
Hi Marek, I wouldn't say so.
This comes mostly from the procedure in the Lesser Key of Solomon when the sigil was burned as a way to "torment" the demon to appear.
In Demonolatry, we do not torment the demon but understand the flame as a gate or a connection to the spirit. We sometimes burn the sigil with the blood as a way to petition the spirit during the ritual. It is even possible to do divination from such flame.
@@MagisterClavus Have you ever wrote petitions over demon sigils or on the back of paper they are drawn on to communicate your wishes to the demons?
When burning sigils with your blood on it. Do you ever put the ashes in certain places like if the spirits an earth spirit burying it in the ground or putting it in a river if it’s a water spirit etc?
Éliphas Lévi states in his Book Doctrine and Ritual of Higher Magic. That summoning demons is not healthy. His summoning of Apollonius of Tyana almost half paralyzed him.
Yes I have read his books. Eliphas Levi was christian dogmatic who was never able to utilize his wast talent for magic because of religious dogma and his own christian beliefs that were prevalent in his age. Alesteir Crowley was proclaiming to be is a ‘reincarnation’ of Levi. And later came with “adjusted” views on magic. I personally have no view on this.
However the invocation of Apollonius and paralysis of Levi’s hand during the operation happened mostly by mishandling the ritual sword he was using in the circle.
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Finally someone that coincide with most of my practice that I did since II was a teenager up to know stiill do, I celebrate that I was doing correctly my believes Now I know that my demons guide my well since know
Hi
For what will it profit a man if he gains the whole world, and loses his own soul?
Y'all need Jesus; your lives will be far better than dealing with devils out of pride and greed.
you're absolutely path3tic
Way you call LUCIFER? Way not call your GUIDES,,or,,Angels!? Way DEMON..
I am not selfish omg. I need money because I need to pay hospital bills, I have so many diseases and issues for my health. And I need money to buy a new house and I hate my crazy neighbors. I need money for feeding cats and dogs, I have a hard time helping my fosters and all street animals that are starving and dying. I need to spay neuter everyone and help them stop breeding. I need to take my mom's grave and transfer it to a near place coz it was burried far away from my dad due to my relatives not accepting my mom anymore because they hate her. I need money to help my sister with bills and to pay her debts. I need to help some poor relative to go to college and get out of the country. I need money to have a better life for myself and for cats and dogs and some people that needs help too. I also need money coz it is actually easy to help if I have more. It is hard if I don't have anything so how can I help if I don't have money? Like if I get invited for birthday and I can't come because I don't like to spend on clothes and gifts, I mean specially if they are rich I will have to give expensive gift and I have to buy nice clothes to attend, so I just avoid everyone coz i can't attend coz it means money. Like I can't give to my batchmates daughter because I am also poor, she took me as god mother but i told her i can't coz first of all my grandma during that time hates her coz she is bad influence, second I don't like to because I can't give anything to the child. SO I told her ask rich people to be her god mother on baptismal so that you can get money. But she said she lost all her friends when she got broke as well, and I am the only one nice and kind. But I told her I am poor as well so it will not benefit her child. I did not attend but she still took a proxy and still put my name on it. I struggle to buy things that I need because my budget is small. I have to sacrifize my needs too because I feed many stray animals. Like now it is september, I have to go back to the lab because they are monitoring my 7 breast lumps. But I did not message my sister to remind her, she said i need to remind her about it coz she pays for it. BUt i feel like it is waste of money to keep going for check ups and so many test. So I don't like to remind her and I don't like to go back, it is too much burden for her to pay my bills. PLus she also have too much debts upto her senior years. I also want to remove this stupid mole on my neck, it is itchy and it grew quickly and it has a crack on a side which is suspicious. ANd this left mole on my neck means I will have a hardtime getting a husband. I also like to probably maybe still be able to remove some scars and nastyness. And I need money for my teeth coz it has so many problems too. I need theraphy for spondylosis of my neck, and I need check for my gastritis, and my kidney stone. I need money for my eyes it is getting so blurry already. I am also feeling so dizzy all the time and I don't know if it is eyes or blood related. I need money to check my lower back disc it is always painful and it is broken. I also need money for the gyne coz i keep getting cervical lumps whatever. There is too many medical issues coz I am getting old, plus the fact that I was born defective and abnormal. ANd I can have a better living condition with nice house not this ugly cheap super tiny house with molds and broken and badly made sink and bathroom. i even broom my bathroom floor for 8years because the flooring is badly made so the water don't go to the sewer and it needs to be broomed to go there. I been doing that for several years. That is why I have broom in the bathroom. And my sink is yucky, the sink is super cheap and it is getting moisture like when a glass of cold water is getting moist. The water is all over and it keeps getting black mold all over the entire cabinet. The house also develops black mold all over and I can't keep up with cleaning it is coming back and I am getting old and weak to keep cleaning. SOme grouts of bathroom is broken and there are sometimes red thin worms coming out of the holes. My toilet water tank is broken and crack up under so I can't use it for storing water it will keep draining away. My entire yard has black molds and it keeps coming back even if I brush it specially rainy season. It also has mushroom and some weird moss. Even my door keeps getting black molds i keep cleaning and it keeps coming back. ANd cleaning solution is very expensive. It's not like I am lazy or filthy or what, but having a very good hygiene also requires money. I only use bleech coz other products are expensive. I don't have a kitchen btw so it is hard to cook. The house is unfinish and I am the only one who can't afford complete construction and my neighbors are mean ass ego bloated pricks and bitches that gossips that I am a squatter because of my living condition. My enemy on my left side, they screamed squatter and whoa and nasty whatever when they attack me they insulted me many many times, and it disturbed the entire village coz it was ungodly hours when they yelled and attack me at my backyard. Everyone are sleeping and they all woken up with the terrible noise. I hate my neighbors so i have to get out of here they are psycho pathic ego bloated war pricks. One neighbor says why are they yelling at you ? it's disturbing can't they atleast talk to you nicely they are not nice. I said well they are crazy demons so they always yell. She would even attack me at the window lols. I was cleaning my yard brooming leaves, she got so angry and kept screaming at me again, she said I don't wash my yard it stinks. but nobody is smelling anything when they come here, it's just them. One neighbor says what is smelly i can't smell anything? Then the crazy bitch after yelling at me I avoided her and went in my room upstairs, so she went upstairs too and went to her windows, and she yelled over and at the windows because it is side by side to my window, i mean we are all congested and just near each other, our windows are fronting each other. SHe is acting like a pychopath all the time. Her husband also keeps attacking and complaining. My pipe broke, I was billed 7k omg i didn't know it broke under the ground and inside the wall of bathroom coz the contractor of developer is cheap. So I called a cheap plumber coz i can't afford the expensive plumber of the village. The hardware recommend somebody. I have two choicest, crack up my walls and replace the pipes, or just cut the main line and put up another line that is not burried, second choice is cheaper. SO i had no choice but to take the ugly option, all pipes are out and it disturbe me when i am cleaning the tiles, I can't scrub at the back of the pipes. When my pipe was getting fix, the spychopath was super angry again and called security and reported that i am making noise and dirt is flying on them on a sunday. Which is forbiden according to them. But I cannot hire weekdays coz they work on floodways for gov and sunday is only available and they are the cheapest. He also attack workers when i was making fence, I mean I was cooking and i heard yelling, he attack my workers too. He said his car and his plants are getting dirt. But he refuse to cover it. So I stop and sent them home. THen he later made roof and killed their plants anyway he is a moron. and he even connected his roof on my fence without permission. and when he had workers they accidentally cut my water pipes 2x. did not even ask for apology and he and his wife acts like god. If I was the one who did it to their pipes they will surely attack me like psychopath. They even left garbages infront of my gate and took many days to get removed. If I do that to them they will attack me. They always want to be high almighty demons. They complain about my laptop sound, my dogs and cats, they said i am throwing my dog poop on their roof which is insane. Those are cat poops of strays not dogs. They have leaves on the roof and stray cats thinks it is pooping litter sand. So when I try to broom it off omg, she screamed and had a demonic possesion again. They hit animals and he shoots airgun. They broke the mouth of a cat when it went to their place. The mouth crack up, he hit many times all over the body and face. It is cat of neighbor not mine. One cat also have broken jaw it dissapeared. All people have cats and dogs they loiter. I am nice to all animals even if it isn't mine. They used to have siamese but they ditch the two when they got tired of them and they don't like paying food of cat. He poker faces neighbors coz they hate them too but they are men and if they sing and have party they don't complain about them. If neighbor burns garbage and leaves they can't complain because there are men. But, if it is me they keep attacking and reporting me. The securities are getting tired of them too, coz they are difficult people and can't shut up. Infact some security knows that he also complained about stolen gas. He said somebody is stealing his motorbike gas. He suspects it is security coz they have motorcycles. That is recorded in the admin ofc lols. He also complains about barbecue smoke if i am cooking. Or the sewer outside that i don't even use. They said it stinks. They are always on windows looking in here always spying, always nosy, always whispering to each other.
posession is the best way to connect in my case. I get the best results by meditatation in nature