Daaaamn, so many things alike with myself, from your "younger years" to now. Everything from art, science, "people", psychology and the "impact" on people etc.
Oh My God! My memory card was just having issues yesterday! It took me awhile to figure out how to clear up space. >=( Wow, I don't really stop to think about it, but you are quite the inspiration to me. I'm glad I was fortunate enough to meet you, you are a blessing to this world, and I'm sure you will live a wonderful life. I look forward to watching you grow into the goddess you'll surely become, and when it happens, I'll smile and tell my friends, "We had sushi once." Lol, you have so much drive, that you even film inside your car! xP
You will be more artistic again soon. You are 'just' having to sort things out at the moment to be more in alignment with your path. Being present in the moment helps to be more artistic as well as the act of doing art connects you to the present now. I see you have this aspiration strong enough still, and you have this wonderful emotional side which is an important key to create good art. I am sure you will make it and find a lot of relief in expressing yourself free and creative. ;)
Sounds like you've developed a lot already. :) I feel like I've only really started growing these the past few years. A lot of small changes I made a little while ago are finally having some compound effects. Question--do you know much about your Big 5 scores? I'm curious if you feel that your basic temperament has changed along with the day-to-day realities of your life.
Em, can I ask your advice (maybe it'd be a good video topic too) ? Generally I'm really kind to people in public. But lately I've been so retaliatory when someone is mean or rude to me. I've gotten to a point where nobody scares me, and when I react to someone's meanness, it freaks me out how fucking mean I can be. I always feel like an asshole afterwards. But if I don't respond that way, and am passive instead, what the other person says continues to upset me for longer than I'd like. How would you recommend that a person deal with those situations? It seems like I keep running into rude people in public, and I just honestly don't know how to deal with it. Maybe it would be a good topic for a video. Take it easy.
Hm. Well, I guess I could say that I'm definitiely not as hellbent on self-destruction as I was when I was your age. It wasn't that I didn't like myself but rather i found the world to be that painful of a place to be in. Anyway, I do like myself ALOT more now. LOL Still have work to do :) And I've found a tolerance for this world that I can live with. (Get your birth time from your mom, you might want it someday in the future, shrug) As old as I am now I still don't know what I want to do...lol I decided once that I would just do whatever I wanted in that moment knowing that my interests would change eventually. Live eclectically, if that's a word? I think of it as accumulating a vast and rich "wellroundedness". People used to ask, "If you could go back what would you change"? And I think, not a thing. We're the sum of our experiences. And I'm fairly content with who I am right now. My mom had the same attachment to her grandfather that you have. It's ok to still miss him. I'm sure he feels it even now watching over you. I lost mine 25 or more years ago. He still shows up once in while. I can smell the pipe tobacco. lol...Thank you for sharing that, very interesting. You kinda of remind me of Helena Bonham Carter when she was younger. You could easily be a model. Anyone ever say that before? Have a great day!
Daaaamn, so many things alike with myself, from your "younger years" to now. Everything from art, science, "people", psychology and the "impact" on people etc.
So much love to you, thinking of your grand father.. Such love and trust and comfort is beautiful to be part of and share
Thank you!
Sorry for the rapid switch towards the end- the first clip stopped before I able to finish what I was saying
I love your bravery for admitting you were bullied! Great Job!
Thank you!
I literally wished that I could reach into the screen and give you a great big hug at the moment you started crying.
Aww thank you! One day we will be able to discuss things in person!
pucokie I'm looking forward to that day :)
Oh My God! My memory card was just having issues yesterday! It took me awhile to figure out how to clear up space. >=(
Wow, I don't really stop to think about it, but you are quite the inspiration to me. I'm glad I was fortunate enough to meet you, you are a blessing to this world, and I'm sure you will live a wonderful life. I look forward to watching you grow into the goddess you'll surely become, and when it happens, I'll smile and tell my friends, "We had sushi once."
Lol, you have so much drive, that you even film inside your car! xP
Oh my gosh Nolan what a totally hilarious pun lol. Also, I still can't believe that was your first time having sushi!!!!!!!
You will be more artistic again soon. You are 'just' having to sort things out at the moment to be more in alignment with your path. Being present in the moment helps to be more artistic as well as the act of doing art connects you to the present now. I see you have this aspiration strong enough still, and you have this wonderful emotional side which is an important key to create good art. I am sure you will make it and find a lot of relief in expressing yourself free and creative. ;)
Thank you and I have tapped back into my creative side!!!
Sounds like you've developed a lot already. :) I feel like I've only really started growing these the past few years. A lot of small changes I made a little while ago are finally having some compound effects.
Question--do you know much about your Big 5 scores? I'm curious if you feel that your basic temperament has changed along with the day-to-day realities of your life.
I actually have video on my Big 5 results!
Awesome, I'll check it out in a bit. :)
Em, can I ask your advice (maybe it'd be a good video topic too) ? Generally I'm really kind to people in public. But lately I've been so retaliatory when someone is mean or rude to me. I've gotten to a point where nobody scares me, and when I react to someone's meanness, it freaks me out how fucking mean I can be. I always feel like an asshole afterwards. But if I don't respond that way, and am passive instead, what the other person says continues to upset me for longer than I'd like. How would you recommend that a person deal with those situations? It seems like I keep running into rude people in public, and I just honestly don't know how to deal with it. Maybe it would be a good topic for a video. Take it easy.
Answered!
Hm. Well, I guess I could say that I'm definitiely not as hellbent on self-destruction as I was when I was your age. It wasn't that I didn't like myself but rather i found the world to be that painful of a place to be in. Anyway, I do like myself ALOT more now. LOL Still have work to do :) And I've found a tolerance for this world that I can live with. (Get your birth time from your mom, you might want it someday in the future, shrug) As old as I am now I still don't know what I want to do...lol I decided once that I would just do whatever I wanted in that moment knowing that my interests would change eventually. Live eclectically, if that's a word? I think of it as accumulating a vast and rich "wellroundedness". People used to ask, "If you could go back what would you change"? And I think, not a thing. We're the sum of our experiences. And I'm fairly content with who I am right now. My mom had the same attachment to her grandfather that you have. It's ok to still miss him. I'm sure he feels it even now watching over you. I lost mine 25 or more years ago. He still shows up once in while. I can smell the pipe tobacco. lol...Thank you for sharing that, very interesting. You kinda of remind me of Helena Bonham Carter when she was younger. You could easily be a model. Anyone ever say that before? Have a great day!
Aww thank you, and yes I know the time I born!
Hey pretty 😜
lol
Sorry you were crying there. :(
its okay!