I felt what you said about the starting over thing, but your resilience is amazing. I hope that I can become more independent as well. You’re right about the sleep and routine, it’s wild how the “basics” seem to make such a difference. I hear that with anyone that has found success. Sounds like you created a lot of stability for yourself and you have a good perspective about getting up again even if this attempt doesn’t go as planned. Whatever you choose to do, I wish you the best.
Youre going through so much right now, both bipolar and non-bipolar. It's clear that you love your family dearly and it's admirable. The upcoming separation from your family must be a bit nerve wracking, especially because of what happened last time when you went to university. You're juggling a lot but you're willingly going into a field where you're helping others, it shows you have a big heart. You can make it through this! Nick will be there on the other side to help stabilize you through the transition
Sorry you deal with this. I'm 44, and been dealing with this for decades both off and on meds. Unfortunately, I still can't keep track. So, I literally put on the calendar how I am every day--up, down, energy, tired, fatigue, not sleeping, etc. just a summary like 1-3 words and how many hours I slept for real, not waking up 5 times. I then can track my sleeping, napping, etc. There's not much I can do to stop the switching. Meds stop the full-blown mania, but I too get hypomaic episodes, and the paranoia is just the worst. I too get down, and chart that too. My own life is very difficult, and I have sick parents, sick mother-in-law, and I still need to run my life---bills, kids, etc.----then that too really pushes me over what I'm able to deal with. My head sometimes feels like it's going to explode. So, I cut things out when over excited/fatigued, like reduced social interactions, dim the lights, reduce noise, etc. to reduce the stress. But, isolating isn't necessarily the answer. It has to be balanced. And, like I said previously, when I'm down I up myself primarily through music. # I think that you are very resilient and have quite a bit of insight. I try not to give advice. That's why I typically just state what I go through and how I deal with it. Then you can take that for what it is and maybe bounce your thoughts about it back to off me.
It sounds like you're doing pretty well for yourself if you can handle all those life things - even if it gets overwhelming at times. You also know what you need to do to manage the necessary tasks. Sometimes it feels like the bipolar is taking over our lives by setting limits we wish we didn't have.
As someone with bipolar, I WISH I was as self-aware as you when I have a manic episode coming up. By the time I notice I'm not sleeping, I'm already too far gone into manic thinking and being psychotic. (My longest period being stable was 4 years though). You are so tough! I understand how asian family obligations can weigh on our shoulders. Wishing you the best! Keep us posted!!
I felt what you said about the starting over thing, but your resilience is amazing. I hope that I can become more independent as well. You’re right about the sleep and routine, it’s wild how the “basics” seem to make such a difference. I hear that with anyone that has found success. Sounds like you created a lot of stability for yourself and you have a good perspective about getting up again even if this attempt doesn’t go as planned. Whatever you choose to do, I wish you the best.
The basic human needs are everything! When my sleep gets off, it's just over for me. I hope you are doing alright
Youre going through so much right now, both bipolar and non-bipolar. It's clear that you love your family dearly and it's admirable. The upcoming separation from your family must be a bit nerve wracking, especially because of what happened last time when you went to university. You're juggling a lot but you're willingly going into a field where you're helping others, it shows you have a big heart. You can make it through this! Nick will be there on the other side to help stabilize you through the transition
Thanks for you kind words
I agree.
Sorry you deal with this. I'm 44, and been dealing with this for decades both off and on meds. Unfortunately, I still can't keep track. So, I literally put on the calendar how I am every day--up, down, energy, tired, fatigue, not sleeping, etc. just a summary like 1-3 words and how many hours I slept for real, not waking up 5 times. I then can track my sleeping, napping, etc. There's not much I can do to stop the switching. Meds stop the full-blown mania, but I too get hypomaic episodes, and the paranoia is just the worst. I too get down, and chart that too. My own life is very difficult, and I have sick parents, sick mother-in-law, and I still need to run my life---bills, kids, etc.----then that too really pushes me over what I'm able to deal with. My head sometimes feels like it's going to explode. So, I cut things out when over excited/fatigued, like reduced social interactions, dim the lights, reduce noise, etc. to reduce the stress. But, isolating isn't necessarily the answer. It has to be balanced. And, like I said previously, when I'm down I up myself primarily through music.
# I think that you are very resilient and have quite a bit of insight. I try not to give advice. That's why I typically just state what I go through and how I deal with it. Then you can take that for what it is and maybe bounce your thoughts about it back to off me.
It sounds like you're doing pretty well for yourself if you can handle all those life things - even if it gets overwhelming at times. You also know what you need to do to manage the necessary tasks. Sometimes it feels like the bipolar is taking over our lives by setting limits we wish we didn't have.
As someone with bipolar, I WISH I was as self-aware as you when I have a manic episode coming up. By the time I notice I'm not sleeping, I'm already too far gone into manic thinking and being psychotic. (My longest period being stable was 4 years though). You are so tough! I understand how asian family obligations can weigh on our shoulders. Wishing you the best!
Keep us posted!!