I’m a pharmacist. Paroxetine has one of the worst discontinuation syndromes we are aware of. It’s notorious. I think this could be part of the issue. Buspirone is good for anxiety but not so much for depression. Honey, nothing is hopeless. You just need the right provider. Please hang on while they figure it out.
I have had to quit taking paroxatine before and I quit cold turkey and I was so sick for literal months. I'm taking it again and I am not looking forward to when I have to stop again.
I started taking Buspar over a year ago for my anxiety and it has been amazing. About 4 months ago I slowly stopped taking it and I had no symptoms at all. I was also on lexapro for depression
We all came here and watched this because we love you and we know you’re human and we know you have emotions, it’s okay to not be okay, we’re here to listen honey. We got you.
No matter what it is I'm always here for clay! Ups, downs, ins & outs. I was wondering why I hadn't seen your tic tocs in a while. So glad you are even speaking up on what you're going through it reminds us the people we idolize have real life situations as they deal with as well!
Tinnitus is no joke. Ignore anyone who tries to undermine how serious it is. You're very strong and I KNOW you will overcome this. Thank you for reaching out to find answers! You are loved.
We just want the real Clay. We don’t expect you to be an emotionless robot who never feels down or overwhelmed. Big big hugs. Hang in there. I’ve been there too. ❤❤
When I signed up for “Claybaby” I signed up for it all. The funny, the sad, the boring the “whatever”. We’re here for you. I hope you get relief. Everyone deserves to be happy, healthy and thriving. Whatever that looks like. I wish I could snap my fingers and give you a life without tinnitus.
I almost never comment on TH-cam videos. I came straight here after you mentioned making this. I'm so sorry you're going through this. Do Not let them tell you you have to deal with this. Keep trying to get help, You are your biggest advocate. You are not as alone as you feel. There are so many people here JUST because they care about you. You're one of my favorite creators by far. You are so real bad funny bad have such good energy. Never feel bad for talking about this stuff.
This is such a sweet comment. 🥹 I just had to respond to tell you that my youngest daughter’s name is Rozelle and I have never encountered another person with that name. Neat-o! 🥰🥰
Yes talk about it clay. As much as you want. We are here to support you and hear your stories. I hope you find relief very soon, can’t imagine ringing in my ears 24/7. You are definitely not weak. You keep on being a soldier !! Big hugs
Clay is always here to make us feel better so now it’s our turn. Love you clay and so many other people love and support you. Your videos brighten up my day along with thousands of others babe.
I don't have the ear ringing but I have chronic anxiety, I convince myself something else is wrong with me constantly and feel like I'm LOSING my absolute mind. I get dizzy, stuff looks weird, panic attacks, etc. You are not alone. I'm still going through all this as well. It's hard to leave the apartment at this point but I feel better that I'm not alone
As an entertainer/comedian, one of the biggest burdens is always presenting yourself as this high energy, positive person. Always feeling like you have to be “on.” You want to make everyone you’re surrounded with happy when you’re battling your own demons. Take care of yourself first, babe. You’re so incredibly talented and have so much love. ❤
Never ever, think that the vibe you pick up isn’t right. That’s your gut telling you exactly how they felt. Unfortunately with towns out in the country with smaller communities, are not used to people with different backgrounds like California and other bigger cities. I would always get a second opinion, even tho there is only one psychiatrist, I would see if there is anyone else you can see. I know you posted this about a week and half ago but I’m bearly seeing this. I’m sending you so much love and hope you are able to get the right help with no Judgment. And please don’t ever apologize for being a human being. We all go thru something, we all take something to help us and you are a beautiful soul! I truly appreciate you and everything you do. You are loved, you are beautiful! Love you so much and thank you for sharing. 🙏🏼✨🤍
Clay baby, I’m so proud of you for reaching out for help. That is a HUGE step. Thank you for trusting us with this information. You are not alone. It’s not just “ringing ears” it’s so much more than that. We love you so much. Please take care of yourself. Don’t worry about us, we will hold it down while you take time for yourself. We love you no matter what you post about. I feel like I’m watching my best friend struggle. You’ve got this. This is not a punishment although you may think. We love you!! Keep your head up love.
I’m a high functioning MH mess. I’m hyper aware of when my body and brain aren’t ok and it’s crippling. “I can’t do this anymore” is a terrifying place to be and you’re not alone. Keep advocating for yourself and make whoever listen, really listen, to how you feel. Medication was something I didn’t want and fought against forever but it was because of not wanting to admit I needed help. Finding the right medications and dose was a major turning point for me. I feel more like myself than I have in a long time. I hope you find what helps you feel better ❤️❤️
Any issues or pain with your ears or teeth Is the WORST. Like literally I wouldn't wish it on my WORST ENEMY. I am so freaking sorry you're going through this. I pray you find a solution Clay. Seriously. Also starting/coming off of medication makes you feel so insanely crazy sometimes. It's awful!! We all love you & I hope you find a solution.
I've had chronic tinnitus for 10 years. I have been to so many doctors and had so many tests done and they just tell me to deal with it for the most part. One test came back a little funny so I'm going to a neurologist soon. But I am absolutely losing my mind. The anxiety is terrible. My biggest thought is that I'm 33 years old and I'll be living with this for the rest of my life. So I came here to tell you, you're not alone. I always say why me, too. Don't let anyone tell you, it's just ringing. NO! It's frickin debilitating. But try to advocate for yourself with doctors. Go to an ENT, go to a neurologist, MRI scans (if u can afford it and have insurance...I understand Allll that too). Cognitive behavioral therapy is supposed to help..I've never tried it but it's one of my next steps. I think the anxiety and depression will get better if the tinnitus is dealt with. Don't give up. I hope you can fine some relief from everything. But I totally understand what you're going through. Also, talking to people that have the same problem helps a lot. There are forums online and sometimes if I read about other people going through it, it makes me feel not so alone. Please, reach out to me if you ever want to talk.
My heart hurts for you too. I have dealt with trigeminal neuralgia which had literally had me on the edge too. The pain is so intense you would do almost anything to make it atop.
What test did you have that came back abnormal? My dad started having the ringing in his ears after a car accident and he’s trying to figure out how to deal with it
Clay, I deal with Tinnitus as well. No one knows just how hard it is to handle daily life with it, not even wanting to get up out of bed. It's debilitating. Know that it's not your fault for one. And secondly I really hope that you can soon find moments of relief, and relax when you do have those moments. Keep fighting on 💜
I really just wanted to say: showing emotions is a human thing. No one is happy All the time. There’s nothing wrong with sharing how you feel in the moment. Your words could impact someone else. Please don’t give up! Much peace and love! ❤️✌🏻
The first step to healing is admitting “I’m not OK” and that was so so so hard for me to do, so I love you so much credit for this. You will plow through this!! I’m no Dr. So I’ll leave those questions to the pros, but I’m a fan and I support you!
I enjoy watching you! Listen I struggle with anxiety and depression I was in a really really bad place 5 years ago, I actually wrote my suicide letters to my sisters my parents and my kids and I read them to this day because it changed my life. I put myself in their shoes and read it as if I were gone and it literally made me so sad for that girl that could write that. It put a lot in perspective. Maybe do that. I’m so glad you showed us your soul. I don’t have this Illness but I am so very sorry. We love you clay bay
I have tinnitus too. Mine only comes on a few times a month & it sends me into the worst panic attacks. I think to myself how could anyone deal with this on a daily basis. I see you & you are so strong to come on here & talk about it. Everyone acts like content creators can’t be sad or do anything different from their regular content. I’m a small creator & I feel that pressure. You have 6mill & that pressure must be so much. You were one of the 1st people I followed on TikTok & I just adore you. I understand. You will get through this & I know you will use this struggle to help others who are dealing with similar things. Sending lots of love.
You are insanely loved as your videos help me so much with all the betrayal I’ve been facing and depression….you are an answer to prayer you cheer me up so much
Do not feel pressured to make us laugh! You don't owe us anything love. You are a real human being with real feelings and sometimes those need to be addressed. Us that really love having you will understand and try to be here for you the best we can while we all deal with our own problems. I hope you can find some relief for your ears. I couldn't imagine. 🥺 Sending lots of healing vibes babe!
Thank you for talking about this. I've had tinnitus since I was 16 and I'm 36 now. I haven't heard silence in 20 years. At night I used to just scream into my pillow because I couldn't deal with it anymore I'd scratch at my face and just scream and cry because it was constant and knowing it was for forever was awful. I got it from my dad's wife hitting me over and over again on my head one day so I've dealt with so much anger from that because I would be normal if it wasn't for her abusing me and if my dad would have protected me like a father is supposed to I wouldn't have this constant ringing in my head. I get it. You're not alone and thank you so fucking much for talking about this. I wish more people would talk about it.
I am Bipolar and have severe anxiety and it can be really rough sometimes but you are not alone and you’re not crazy your just going through it. I am on meds and they really help, but it’s all about finding what meds work for you. You got this babe! Much love Claybaby ❤
Omg claybaby! I had no idea is this was a real thing. I get it everyday but it comes and goes. I couldn’t imagine dealing with it everyday, constantly. Please try and keep your head up. You have so much fans and love, I hope someone sees that can really help you. Please don’t give up on yourself. Keep searching!
The courage, resilience, and wisdom that has gotten you through each panic attack and struggling moment is in you. It was you who has gotten yourself this far. One day at a time. One minute at a time. Rely on us and others when you need. We are here to help you along the way. ❤
You’ll be okay. Thank you for being authentic. I’m praying you get the best doctor to help you and advocate for you. Know that you are amazing and very loved.
Please don’t ever push it down and ignore your feelings! Always talk about it!! Ignoring it sent me into a mental breakdown and put my life on hold for two years. Seek help no matter how many doctors you have to go to! I’m from Arkansas sadly and they are very judgmental to anybody who is different from their “normal”. We love you for who you are and true fans understand you need time and need to talk about it!! Sending good vibes 💜💜
You do not sound stupid. We are here for you and we love you! We understand that you’re a person with real feelings. We didnt just sign up for claybaby, we signed up for you! ❤️❤️
clay, baby, you have been heard. and you have no idea how much less alone this made me feel, and how much this video has made me understand i need to start talking to someone again.
I also have tinnitus and I know what you’re going through. Meditation helps me immensely with all the sounds in my head and the anxiety it causes. I wish you health, happiness and success in the future! ❤
Hey Clay, big fan of yours. I want you to know you are not alone in this battle. I had the hardest time finding a good psychiatrist for a while, but now I see an incredible one. Depression is a bitch and I've struggled with it too for a long time. Please don't give up on finding a good psychiatrist! Praying for you, you amazing soul!
I wish I could give you a hug. I’m so sorry you’re going through this. We’re here for you. Your TikTok’s & sense of humor have got me through a severe depression. I wish I could return the favor❤ stay strong
Speaking for myself, I haven’t followed you for very long but after watching this I instantly feel a closer connection to you. I couldn’t imagine what you’re dealing with but I want you to know you’re loved, and needed and appreciated! deeply! I hope you find a way to dig yourself out of this funk, and I hope you get better doctors soon, one’s that can actually help you! overall I hope your situation gets better. Stay strong! Not for your fans, but for yourself! You are so brave for posting this and so brave for waking up today! Much loveee ❤
1. You need to hang out with me & my bestie at work yall remind me of each other and we are in Little Rock 2. Im not a doctor but i run a nursing home & my best advice is to take the meds as prescribed for at least 6-8 weeks to get a baseline unless you cant. 3. Im showing all the med professionals i work with your video to try and find you something to help you 4. You will get through this- i am so sorry you have to go through this bc it sucks- ive only seen a few of your tik toks and you are the joy of so many lives that you want to feel now. I know its cliche but you got this. I do know not taking as prescribed to get it working in your system is only gonna lead to more meds that arent necessarily what you need. Prayers & comfort to you!!!
Jude here - i know this is an old video, but if you ever need a friend who doesn't require you to be 100 all the time, you can always reach out. I'm legally disabled and get all this stuff...it's my whole life. Anyway...i'm always here to be a listening ear!
My mother recently got diagnosed with hemiplegic migraines and they get set off by everything. I know shes been struggling like crazy with it and i can’t imagine what this does to you. We are here for you.
The most genuine person on tiktok/entertainer I’ve seen you have so much love and support take your time and heal to feel like yourself again you owe us nothing we all love you exactly how you are and for who you are we are here for you!!
You dont know us, but to all of us you're our BFF. We are here for the ups , the downs, the laughs and the cries. None of us are ok all the time. We love ALL of YOU💙💚💜
I understand your pain. Don’t apologize for showing your feelings and being real. You’re so kind and special. I was in a very dark place back in 2015 and literally I drove myself to the hospital and admitted myself in the psych ward. I stayed for 3 days and when I came out I knew I didn’t need to be in there. Thank you showing your love and warmth.
3:54 NEVER STOP TALKING ABOUT IT!!! Continue to share your story because PEOPLE ARE LISTENING!! And someone out there is relating to this and your story and your experiences are valid and someone is feeling your desperation. Everyone here supports you and you should be heard about whatever you are facing and dealing with.
It's not a stupid video. Your feelings are completely valid. We all love you. You take the time you need, to figure out how to get your mindset back to a positive place. Things may not be great for you right now, but you're trying your best, and that counts for a lot. The world is a better place with you in it. ❤
Thank you for sharing this with us!! Ugh You sharing this helps other people too! My heart goes out to you ❤ I have severe mental health issues as well as physical problems. These are real problems that deserve real validation! I hear you Clay! I’m here if you need a friend!!!
It’s not stupid! I can’t imagine living with that 24/7! I randomly developed panic disorder and derealization in 2019 and I could often hear my heartbeat in my ears. It drove me crazy and had me sooo anxious! I ended up feeling better with some meds, but it was a life changing experience & since I lost someone I loved at the work of their own hands in august I too have been facing crippling depression again. So, just know you’re not alone and you don’t always have to put on a brave face for us! We support you in your highs AND your lows! & this too shall pass!! Hang in there!! ❤❤
I'm balling right now bc the minute you said tinnitus I know exactly what you are going through. The multiple ear buds and speakers has been a must in my life for about 2 years now. It effects everything in my life and I can't even remember the last time I had peace. I totally get it and I'm sorry you're going through this. Especially with the meds. I'm so afraid of taking what's been prescribed bc I'm a hypochondriac. Ughh I know it's hard but from what it sounds like to me, you're taking all the necessary steps to get better, and that's half the battle!!!!!!! I hope you find some relief once you talk w the Dr!!!! This will pass, you will get through it. You are strong, resilient, and loved by so many
I love you, even when you’re not feeling well! I’ve been dealing with a facial tic that causes me a lot of anxiety and depression as well. You’re not alone!!!! I’m sorry you’re not feeling well and that you’re having stress with your doctors. We love you very much and it will get better!!!!!!!
Take care of yourself first. Don’t worry about making others happy. I experienced the same thing with intracranial hypertension. I literally could hear my own heartbeat in my ears constantly and I felt like it would never end but it eventually did
I LOVE the rare tender honest moments you have. I think you should do more! The one who seems happiest is usually the one holding the most pain!! We are all learning and healing everyday. Sometimes the best therapy is just letting it all out. You would be surprised how many people can relate so closely!!
I don’t know how to help because I haven’t been through this myself, I hope this stops happening to you, and that you find something to help you with this, your so brave!! You got this man We are always in your corner
As a native Arkansan, Arkansas doctors are not the best. You have to search hard to find the good ones. Even though my husband is from hot springs, and I'm there when I can be, I've only ever gone to the ER and not a normal or specialty dr there. I would suggest, if possible, to look for a dr in Little Rock or Fort Smith or Fayetteville, the bigger cities. I also have ear ringing a lot, so I understand some of how you feel. I don't have it 24/7, I even have it as I'm writing this, mine usually signals a incoming headache. I really hope you can find a solution and someone who will actually listen and help
First of all Clay, there is nothing to be sorry for. I want you to know that you have people online who love and care about you and that want to see you get better. Thank you so much for having there courage to share this with us, I know it probably doesn't feel like it but talking about and sharing what you are going through is very brave and not something everyone is capable of. Thank you also for trusting us enough to share this very personal part of your life and journey. I'll be praying for you and ask God to put the right people in your path to help if not completely heal you. God be with you and bless you Clay.
Honestly I am going through the same thing 🥺 I’ve taken Paroxetine, Buspirone, Fluoxetine…like nothing helps my BPD or anxiety. Clay honey, we are all human. We understand you have things going on, stay strong baby. I have severe scoliosis & ask myself everyday why tf am I here dealing with this BS. I wish I could hug you & tell you that one day things will get better. XOXO!
Clay, you are so brave. You are NOT NOT NOT alone. ❤ I completely understand the desperation bc mine lasted a while and I felt that I just couldn’t get anyone to understand my situation! My therapist got me through it, along with Zoloft. Thank God For those two things, really. I was in therapy for a long time and if you can find the right person it will help. Keep talking about it, keep posting about it. Whatever helps you get relief emotionally. Don’t give up. Keep fighting. Gods got you in his wings. ❤
Laughing is only a bonus Clay, we follow/subscribe because of YOU.. you don't have to always be funny. That's not what it's about. Hope you get to feeling better soon 💜
Awee I recently came across this kids TikToks and I love his videos but this video just made me love him so much more that he was being real and showing his real self.. I really hope he’s better (I kno he still has the issues with his ears) mentally and an emotionally.. he’s such the sweetest kid
Hey Clay..so my friend showed me your TikTok and I had to start following you bc you made me laugh and lately I've needed that. From the outside looking in it looks like it's taken a toll on you taking half of your meds and that's totally normal.. remember you're human. A beautiful human who helps heal so many people a day with laughter and that's some of the best soup for the soul there is! Any struggles that you have I know they suck ass going through them but stay the strong person I see you are bc the reward is so worth it and soon these struggles won't seem hard at all bc you'll be an even stronger bad ass I PROMISE! Be blessed Clay and don't ever forget you're not alone and you're loved! You got this!! 🤗
I’m currently tapering off of my anxiety medication. I have severe crippling anxiety and am going through all of these same side effects. I know it’s awful. But I appreciate the transparency and I’m here for you. You’re not alone.
Here to continue seeing you smile! Thank you for sharing and we all are here because we definitely fell in love with your humor and the genuine goodness you share…. But we all go thru things and we are here for this too ! Rooting for you from Abilene Texas! ❤
I’m so sorry that you are going through such a difficult time but I’m glad that you are opening up about your experience and seeking support. I’m a psychologist and discontinuing/changing medications can be really really hard. People often feel bad for several weeks to a couple months as their bodies adjust. Please hang in and know that you will hopefully begin to feel better soon. Additionally, there are many people who struggle with tinnitus and hopefully you can connect with others who can give you support and guidance on how to manage it. You are an amazing person and you will get through this difficult period. Sending you so much love ❤
Thank you for having the strength to share. I haven’t been on that certain medication, but I have withdrawn from my anti-depressants before and it is terrifying. I was a fentanyl addict so I’ve dealt with physical withdrawal and underestimated the power of mental withdrawal. 😢 thank you again, I hope you find the peace that you need.
I love you so much! I might not have the same thing as you but I do have bipolar disorder and my depression and mania episodes gets so bad sometimes it’s like I can’t do anything 😢 I completely understand where you are coming from and we love you! Everyone in this world deals with trauma and terrible shit we are all people at the end of the day and we are not perfect and some of us struggle more than others just so you know we are here for you, I am here for you and this was not a stupid video I appreciate you sharing this part of yourself with us, especially how amazingly funny you are makes me feel like I’m not the only one that feels insane and out of there mind❤ thank you 😢❤
We love u for u …the funny ,the sad , the stressed and the just u !! I don’t know anyone who can be happy all the time and u don’t owe us anything and your real supporters will be there for u for the ride!! Just be patient with yourself and take care of your mental Heath and vent and talk about it whenever u need too, sending lots of love 💕
As someone who suffers from chronic anxiety and has been taking medication for 12+ years.. The new medication can take up to 6 weeks to actually “help”. Also, this process is a journey, you may not find a medication away. You are already taking the right steps in seeing a therapist. I hope you consider moving if possible.. even a different city that’s bigger? Your environment can be a huge factor too. ❤️
I signed up for clay baby because of your SPIRIT.. most of us aren't fair weather followers, we really love you and we're all here out of love and concern. I wish I HAD positivity to you but I'm drawing from an empty well myself so if nothing else, I'll be miserable with you hunny
Your not crazy, your not alone, be kind to yourself, be patient with yourself. You have so many supporters that will be here for you. I get you I hear you. You did the right thing speaking up ❤
More people need to share this stuff because we all struggle. It’s not good to bottle it up and shut people out. Thank you for sharing and please don’t be sorry. 💜
Clay I am sorry you are going through all this. I love you and hope you can get this fixed. I have severe anxiety and ptsd and have been where you are. Its not easy but know you are not alone ❤ thank you for being so honest and transparent. You are one of my favorite creators on TT and I appreciate you being real with your fans. I wish I could fix it all for you. The best the world has to offer you is out there waiting on the right time for u to grab it. Take a deep breath, cry when you need to, talk it out with people. Try a telehealth provider for your mental health. There are good ones who care and will help you get back to where u need to be. 💜💜 love you!
It’s completely okay to not be okay. I actually am interested in these type videos and hearing how you feel because I go through major major depression issues also and I understand. I’ve tried medications for years and years and I feel like I am stuck and nothing is gonna ever work or get better. Always here if you need to vent!!!! Medications don’t always help. A lot of people are having depression issues right now I think, and it’s okay to admit you have them. It shouldn’t be as secret as people make it. Keep going and don’t give up! I know how much it sucks to have almost no feelings and not know how to keep going.
You have to slowly titrate down off off any benzo/anti-depressant. 10% titrate every 3-4 weeks. You are not crazy…there are several of fb groups about this. Your tinnitus is probably from activated nervous system due to what you are going through + coming off of Paxil. You are not alone and it’s not your fault. It’s coming from the medication. Nobody talks about the impact of coming off these meds or changing them. Much love to you. ❤
I have so much respect for you. I love your funny and I love how real you are. I just went through some major mental stuff myself where I felt like I was losing it and had horrible thoughts. I didn't have the ringing in my ears but I can imagine how maddening that must be. I am believing there is hope right around the corner for you and the right help will be sent your way.
You have been my light for so long! I have never not laughed at one of your videos. I know it’s all jokes but you are always so supportive and kind and funny and I want to send the same energy back to you! We love you
Prayers for your healing 🙏 Clay, you are always a ray of sunshine. I hope you find the right person, doctor, that will help you through this. Shame on that man for letting you get away! Please take care of you and know that tomorrow may be the best day of your existence! Much love to you.
Paxil DESTOYED my self image. I gain a little more than 50lbs, my anxiety and depression got so much worse and when I finally convinced my doctor to change my medicine, the withdrawal was awful. I was sick for over a month with nausea, vomiting, dizziness, headaches, paranoia, list litterally goes on and on. I am so sorry you've gone through this. I greatly appreciate you speaking on this because it's reinsurance that I am not alone, and neither are you❤️ and it's okay not to be okay, you will get there. You've got this love! I know it's a lot easier said than done, but stay strong. 💕
You are one of the funniest creators I’ve seen on Tic Tok. Your videos have gotten me thru some dark days! I can totally relate to the antidepressant withdrawal. It’s awful! What your going thru is important, and I know you will be helping people by talking about it. I hope your able to take a break from things and get to feeling better! ❤
Hello Clay Baby ♥️I’m a healthcare worker and nursing student. I’m also a mom, a wife, a friend, a sister, and so on. The most important thing is I am a human and I need to care for myself to be able to function and help others. My husband and I are veterans and both have tinnitus. I totally understand what you’re going through. I want you to know I’m so proud of you and it’s more than okay to not be okay all the time. Please keep your head up. You are strong. You are resilient. You are loved. You are worthy. You deserve the best and nothing less. Sending positive vibes and prayers your way✨
Your emotions are valid Clay! The video is not stupid and it’s always okay to tell people how you’re feeling/doing. There’s absolutely nothing wrong with that! I hope you start feeling better soon, because I know depression and anxiety sucks! I suffer with that stuff too but I don’t take any meds for it, mainly because I can’t afford it.
I have tinnitus, too. It IS crippling and it impacts relationships. But you can get through it. When you find the right medicine combination, things WILL get better. Hang in there…you are loved. ❤
This actually helped me. You have no idea. I’ve been on some medication for the past 4 weeks, small dosage it’s my first time, just for my anxiety. It’s helped with anxiety but worsened my depression. I’ve started drinking and feeling the urge to just get drunk to just not feel it anymore. This video has made me feel less crazy, like im not alone so thank you for sharing. We love you and appreciate the light you give
When you said out of body experience I could totally relate. I suffer from depersonalization which makes me feel like I’m not here and nothing is real. I doubt reality. It’s an awful feeling. I always said I’m going crazy. My mom said crazy people don’t realize they’re going crazy! So you’re fine and you’re going to be ok! Sending much love and prayers to you. This too shall pass. xo
It’s ok to not be ok. We love and support you, no matter what. I’m so sorry that you are dealing with all of this. I wish I could give you a hug. Thank you for being so honest with yourself and us. ♥️
Hi Clay. This is heartbreaking to hear you have been going through this the whole time you were making US happy and laugh and smile. The whole time you were silently struggling. I’m so glad that you found the courage to make this video and tell us what’s going on. Even though a lot of us have never met you in person. We love you and we want to see you get healthy and feel better. I know you’re busy but please take all the time you need to heal. Let us know how we can continue to support you. I work in health insurance and I’m an expert on coverages and networks- please let me know if I can help with that!!! Love you!!!
Hi Faith! Just a fellow Clay Baby fan here! All though ur comment is meant for Clay, I wanted to tell u how much I actually appreciated it! People that have never really dealt w/Anxiety and/or Depression don't realize how helpful, comforting & empowering it can be to be "given permission" to be themselves & share their truth. Now, I do want to be clear. I DO NOT think that Clay or any human being that is struggling with their mental health, needs permission to share their truth. But, someone in that situation can be afraid to be so vulnerable and feel bad. Take this video for instance. I guess I just wanted u to know it was a really nice comment that u left for Clay. (Read til the end plz, cuz I also have an insurance question for ya! 😊) Clay Baby, I agree with so many of these comments. We all have such love for u, even though we've never met you. You always make us laugh & sometimes even laugh til we cry.😂🤣 In our everyday lives, our tears aren't always happy tears so, why would we expect u to be any different? After reading these comments from your loyal fans, I pray that u never again feel like u have to apologize for being human. One comment says it perfectly. "If we can't handle Sad Clay Baby, then we don't deserve the Happy Clay Baby!" I've never experienced Tinnitus, but a friend of mine did. She searched for a sound that was close to what she constantly hears. She had me put in my ear buds and listen to it. After about 3 min. I was already starting to fidgit. 5 min., I put my hands on my ears and started rocking back & forth. I don't think I lasted another 2 min. and I was done. I can only imagine how I'd be without the option I had to make it STOP! 😖😞 I'm so sorry that you're having to deal with that as well as depression. I gotta say, I'm proud of u as well for having the courage to share this with us. Not only do I believe that this can turn into a source of therapy for you & others who are struggling with depression, but it could actually be a resource for everyone as well. There have been so many people that have commented with well wishes, love & support. There's also comments offering resources and advice, like Miss Faith here. I'm not sure what ur insurance situation is, but I know you've mentioned that money is tight. I know each state offers Medicaid and I'm sure how one qualifies differs from state to state. Here's where my question for Faith comes in. Faith, do you have any knowledge on Medicaid and more specifically, is there a way to research what the Maximum Income amount you're allowed to make and still qualify for Medicaid in the state of Arkansas? Again, Clay, not sure if u have insurance. If not, hopefully this could be an option for you on the financial end of things. I'm sorry this is such a LONG comment. I tend to be wordy sometimes and have been known to ramble.😁😋 Seriously though, I wish you the best and I'll be praying for you. Please take care of YOU! That is most important! Us TikTok peeps will understand. I want you to feel good and be happy again. I know we all want u to be able to feel excited about ur song release and we want to celebrate with u! Know ur not alone. I Love u Clay Baby! ❤ Mmmwwwaaahhhh! 😘
That feeling of feeling like something is wrong or your crazy is a feeling I know all to well, and I wouldn’t wish it upon my worst enemy. I hope you can figure out a way to find yourself again but you’re not alone and never will be man keep your head up!
Audiologist here with training in tinnitus. Wish I was closer, but I am in the Atlanta area. My 14 year old son watches you and will send me random videos of you that are quite entertaining, but I was saddened to see you so upset and then to come onto youtube and see that you are suffering from tinnitus. A couple of things that I can recommend from a distance is to do everything in your power to get yourself in a better place mentally. If you are not happy where you live, not sleeping well, you just ended a relationship, you are anxious or depressed then your tinnitus will seem worse. Unfortunately it is like a viscous cycle. The anxiety/depression gets worse, the tinnitus gets louder which in turn makes the anxiety/tinnitus worse. Do whatever you can in your life to make yourself happier even if that includes discussing some other medications with your doctors or maybe finding a new doctor...but you have to give it time and you have to stay on a certain medication for awhile to know if it will help. Do yoga and relaxation techniques such as deep breathing. If at all possible, get yourself in a physical location where you feel like you fit in better and are happier. As you have figured out, never leave yourself in silence, but try to play sounds that are enjoyable in your environment ALL OF THE TIME (not sure if you really like the cricket sound....and if it has been 18-24 months, your brain has likely acclimated to it) and when you try to go to sleep at night. The "Resound Relief" app is a good one to try. I wouldn't use earbuds for this or any other sound. A bluetooth speaker would be better to get the sound in your environment and out of your head. A sound that is non-repetitive is best. Also, make sure that you are taking a multiple vitamin and getting plenty of hydration. Have you had your hearing tested and do you have hearing loss? This could be another contributing factor if so. If you do have hearing loss, treating it might be needed as well. Finally, I have had success with a device called Neosensory. You can get it here and it does have a 30 day money-back guarantee. neosensory.com/tinnitus-solution/?gclid=CjwKCAjw-rOaBhA9EiwAUkLV4uK-RyrynWH6e37eYhAdFCOAPagkOeVYnLpsYgum7EePleqMKtHOkhoChAoQAvD_BwE. If you do it, do the other things that I mentioned as well. Feel free to email me at Dr.Nikki@TheHearingClinics.com if you have any additional questions. Hope that helps!!!
I’m a pharmacist. Paroxetine has one of the worst discontinuation syndromes we are aware of. It’s notorious. I think this could be part of the issue. Buspirone is good for anxiety but not so much for depression. Honey, nothing is hopeless. You just need the right provider. Please hang on while they figure it out.
What is discontinuation syndrome?
@@triciafarrell2294 Symptoms that happen when you stop taking a medication
Also known as Paxil. Worst thing I’ve ever taken in my life…the side effects were so bad. Never experienced anything like that in my life
I have had to quit taking paroxatine before and I quit cold turkey and I was so sick for literal months. I'm taking it again and I am not looking forward to when I have to stop again.
I started taking Buspar over a year ago for my anxiety and it has been amazing. About 4 months ago I slowly stopped taking it and I had no symptoms at all.
I was also on lexapro for depression
We all came here and watched this because we love you and we know you’re human and we know you have emotions, it’s okay to not be okay, we’re here to listen honey. We got you.
If we can’t handle the sad clay we don’t deserve the happy clay, baby. We love all of you and want to be here for you❤
Amen on that
100% we love you as you are the good and the bad! Don’t be afraid to reach out to your people
No matter what it is I'm always here for clay! Ups, downs, ins & outs. I was wondering why I hadn't seen your tic tocs in a while. So glad you are even speaking up on what you're going through it reminds us the people we idolize have real life situations as they deal with as well!
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THIS! ❤️
Tinnitus is no joke. Ignore anyone who tries to undermine how serious it is. You're very strong and I KNOW you will overcome this. Thank you for reaching out to find answers! You are loved.
We just want the real Clay. We don’t expect you to be an emotionless robot who never feels down or overwhelmed. Big big hugs. Hang in there. I’ve been there too. ❤❤
When I signed up for “Claybaby” I signed up for it all. The funny, the sad, the boring the “whatever”. We’re here for you.
I hope you get relief. Everyone deserves to be happy, healthy and thriving. Whatever that looks like. I wish I could snap my fingers and give you a life without tinnitus.
it’s okay to not be okay. you’re not alone, clay. this video isn’t stupid. thanks for letting us in. we will take all parts of you, we’re friends
I almost never comment on TH-cam videos. I came straight here after you mentioned making this. I'm so sorry you're going through this. Do Not let them tell you you have to deal with this. Keep trying to get help, You are your biggest advocate. You are not as alone as you feel. There are so many people here JUST because they care about you. You're one of my favorite creators by far. You are so real bad funny bad have such good energy. Never feel bad for talking about this stuff.
This is such a sweet comment. 🥹 I just had to respond to tell you that my youngest daughter’s name is Rozelle and I have never encountered another person with that name. Neat-o! 🥰🥰
You asking for help is such an amazing step to take. From a depression warrior, I wish you so much love and healing.
Yes talk about it clay. As much as you want. We are here to support you and hear your stories. I hope you find relief very soon, can’t imagine ringing in my ears 24/7. You are definitely not weak. You keep on being a soldier !! Big hugs
Clay is always here to make us feel better so now it’s our turn. Love you clay and so many other people love and support you. Your videos brighten up my day along with thousands of others babe.
I don't have the ear ringing but I have chronic anxiety, I convince myself something else is wrong with me constantly and feel like I'm LOSING my absolute mind. I get dizzy, stuff looks weird, panic attacks, etc. You are not alone. I'm still going through all this as well. It's hard to leave the apartment at this point but I feel better that I'm not alone
As an entertainer/comedian, one of the biggest burdens is always presenting yourself as this high energy, positive person. Always feeling like you have to be “on.” You want to make everyone you’re surrounded with happy when you’re battling your own demons. Take care of yourself first, babe. You’re so incredibly talented and have so much love. ❤
Never ever, think that the vibe you pick up isn’t right. That’s your gut telling you exactly how they felt. Unfortunately with towns out in the country with smaller communities, are not used to people with different backgrounds like California and other bigger cities. I would always get a second opinion, even tho there is only one psychiatrist, I would see if there is anyone else you can see. I know you posted this about a week and half ago but I’m bearly seeing this. I’m sending you so much love and hope you are able to get the right help with no Judgment. And please don’t ever apologize for being a human being. We all go thru something, we all take something to help us and you are a beautiful soul! I truly appreciate you and everything you do. You are loved, you are beautiful! Love you so much and thank you for sharing. 🙏🏼✨🤍
Clay baby, I’m so proud of you for reaching out for help. That is a HUGE step. Thank you for trusting us with this information. You are not alone. It’s not just “ringing ears” it’s so much more than that. We love you so much. Please take care of yourself. Don’t worry about us, we will hold it down while you take time for yourself. We love you no matter what you post about. I feel like I’m watching my best friend struggle. You’ve got this. This is not a punishment although you may think. We love you!! Keep your head up love.
I’m a high functioning MH mess. I’m hyper aware of when my body and brain aren’t ok and it’s crippling. “I can’t do this anymore” is a terrifying place to be and you’re not alone. Keep advocating for yourself and make whoever listen, really listen, to how you feel. Medication was something I didn’t want and fought against forever but it was because of not wanting to admit I needed help. Finding the right medications and dose was a major turning point for me. I feel more like myself than I have in a long time. I hope you find what helps you feel better ❤️❤️
Any issues or pain with your ears or teeth Is the WORST. Like literally I wouldn't wish it on my WORST ENEMY. I am so freaking sorry you're going through this. I pray you find a solution Clay. Seriously. Also starting/coming off of medication makes you feel so insanely crazy sometimes. It's awful!! We all love you & I hope you find a solution.
And THANK YOU for being honest and raw. You’re helping so many people just by showing that they aren’t alone in these emotions
I've had chronic tinnitus for 10 years. I have been to so many doctors and had so many tests done and they just tell me to deal with it for the most part. One test came back a little funny so I'm going to a neurologist soon. But I am absolutely losing my mind. The anxiety is terrible. My biggest thought is that I'm 33 years old and I'll be living with this for the rest of my life.
So I came here to tell you, you're not alone. I always say why me, too. Don't let anyone tell you, it's just ringing. NO! It's frickin debilitating. But try to advocate for yourself with doctors. Go to an ENT, go to a neurologist, MRI scans (if u can afford it and have insurance...I understand Allll that too). Cognitive behavioral therapy is supposed to help..I've never tried it but it's one of my next steps. I think the anxiety and depression will get better if the tinnitus is dealt with.
Don't give up. I hope you can fine some relief from everything. But I totally understand what you're going through. Also, talking to people that have the same problem helps a lot. There are forums online and sometimes if I read about other people going through it, it makes me feel not so alone. Please, reach out to me if you ever want to talk.
My heart hurts for you too. I have dealt with trigeminal neuralgia which had literally had me on the edge too. The pain is so intense you would do almost anything to make it atop.
@@rosiebarker6285 ugh I'm so sorry. I have occipital neuralgia. It's terrible. Not like trigeminal I've heard though. 😕
What test did you have that came back abnormal? My dad started having the ringing in his ears after a car accident and he’s trying to figure out how to deal with it
Oh my gosh the ear ringing is insane I don't blame you for feeling this way
Clay, I deal with Tinnitus as well. No one knows just how hard it is to handle daily life with it, not even wanting to get up out of bed. It's debilitating. Know that it's not your fault for one. And secondly I really hope that you can soon find moments of relief, and relax when you do have those moments. Keep fighting on 💜
I really just wanted to say: showing emotions is a human thing. No one is happy All the time. There’s nothing wrong with sharing how you feel in the moment. Your words could impact someone else. Please don’t give up! Much peace and love! ❤️✌🏻
The first step to healing is admitting “I’m not OK” and that was so so so hard for me to do, so I love you so much credit for this. You will plow through this!! I’m no Dr. So I’ll leave those questions to the pros, but I’m a fan and I support you!
I enjoy watching you! Listen I struggle with anxiety and depression I was in a really really bad place 5 years ago, I actually wrote my suicide letters to my sisters my parents and my kids and I read them to this day because it changed my life. I put myself in their shoes and read it as if I were gone and it literally made me so sad for that girl that could write that. It put a lot in perspective. Maybe do that. I’m so glad you showed us your soul. I don’t have this Illness but I am so very sorry. We love you clay bay
fully understood this, thank you for staying. please stay clay ❤
I have tinnitus too. Mine only comes on a few times a month & it sends me into the worst panic attacks. I think to myself how could anyone deal with this on a daily basis. I see you & you are so strong to come on here & talk about it. Everyone acts like content creators can’t be sad or do anything different from their regular content. I’m a small creator & I feel that pressure. You have 6mill & that pressure must be so much. You were one of the 1st people I followed on TikTok & I just adore you. I understand. You will get through this & I know you will use this struggle to help others who are dealing with similar things. Sending lots of love.
You are insanely loved as your videos help me so much with all the betrayal I’ve been facing and depression….you are an answer to prayer you cheer me up so much
Do not feel pressured to make us laugh! You don't owe us anything love. You are a real human being with real feelings and sometimes those need to be addressed. Us that really love having you will understand and try to be here for you the best we can while we all deal with our own problems. I hope you can find some relief for your ears. I couldn't imagine. 🥺 Sending lots of healing vibes babe!
Thank you for talking about this. I've had tinnitus since I was 16 and I'm 36 now. I haven't heard silence in 20 years. At night I used to just scream into my pillow because I couldn't deal with it anymore I'd scratch at my face and just scream and cry because it was constant and knowing it was for forever was awful. I got it from my dad's wife hitting me over and over again on my head one day so I've dealt with so much anger from that because I would be normal if it wasn't for her abusing me and if my dad would have protected me like a father is supposed to I wouldn't have this constant ringing in my head. I get it. You're not alone and thank you so fucking much for talking about this. I wish more people would talk about it.
I lost my partner from my debilitating depression, that was hard enough without everything else you’re going thru. We love you.
I am Bipolar and have severe anxiety and it can be really rough sometimes but you are not alone and you’re not crazy your just going through it. I am on meds and they really help, but it’s all about finding what meds work for you. You got this babe! Much love Claybaby ❤
Omg claybaby! I had no idea is this was a real thing. I get it everyday but it comes and goes. I couldn’t imagine dealing with it everyday, constantly. Please try and keep your head up. You have so much fans and love, I hope someone sees that can really help you. Please don’t give up on yourself. Keep searching!
It's OK to not be ok ❤ sending love and light to you and know that you are not alone 🙇♀️
The courage, resilience, and wisdom that has gotten you through each panic attack and struggling moment is in you. It was you who has gotten yourself this far. One day at a time. One minute at a time. Rely on us and others when you need. We are here to help you along the way. ❤
You’ll be okay. Thank you for being authentic. I’m praying you get the best doctor to help you and advocate for you. Know that you are amazing and very loved.
Please don’t ever push it down and ignore your feelings! Always talk about it!! Ignoring it sent me into a mental breakdown and put my life on hold for two years. Seek help no matter how many doctors you have to go to! I’m from Arkansas sadly and they are very judgmental to anybody who is different from their “normal”. We love you for who you are and true fans understand you need time and need to talk about it!! Sending good vibes 💜💜
Those thoughts are terrifying. And feel so isolating. Don’t be scared to reach out for help where ever. Your are a gem 💎❤️
You do not sound stupid. We are here for you and we love you! We understand that you’re a person with real feelings. We didnt just sign up for claybaby, we signed up for you! ❤️❤️
clay, baby, you have been heard. and you have no idea how much less alone this made me feel, and how much this video has made me understand i need to start talking to someone again.
You’re allowed to be vulnerable, we love you soooo much. We’re here for all of it 💕
I also have tinnitus and I know what you’re going through. Meditation helps me immensely with all the sounds in my head and the anxiety it causes. I wish you health, happiness and success in the future! ❤
Hey Clay, big fan of yours. I want you to know you are not alone in this battle. I had the hardest time finding a good psychiatrist for a while, but now I see an incredible one. Depression is a bitch and I've struggled with it too for a long time. Please don't give up on finding a good psychiatrist! Praying for you, you amazing soul!
I wish I could give you a hug. I’m so sorry you’re going through this. We’re here for you. Your TikTok’s & sense of humor have got me through a severe depression. I wish I could return the favor❤ stay strong
Speaking for myself, I haven’t followed you for very long but after watching this I instantly feel a closer connection to you. I couldn’t imagine what you’re dealing with but I want you to know you’re loved, and needed and appreciated! deeply! I hope you find a way to dig yourself out of this funk, and I hope you get better doctors soon, one’s that can actually help you! overall I hope your situation gets better. Stay strong! Not for your fans, but for yourself! You are so brave for posting this and so brave for waking up today! Much loveee ❤
1. You need to hang out with me & my bestie at work yall remind me of each other and we are in Little Rock
2. Im not a doctor but i run a nursing home & my best advice is to take the meds as prescribed for at least 6-8 weeks to get a baseline unless you cant.
3. Im showing all the med professionals i work with your video to try and find you something to help you
4. You will get through this- i am so sorry you have to go through this bc it sucks- ive only seen a few of your tik toks and you are the joy of so many lives that you want to feel now. I know its cliche but you got this.
I do know not taking as prescribed to get it working in your system is only gonna lead to more meds that arent necessarily what you need. Prayers & comfort to you!!!
Jude here - i know this is an old video, but if you ever need a friend who doesn't require you to be 100 all the time, you can always reach out. I'm legally disabled and get all this stuff...it's my whole life. Anyway...i'm always here to be a listening ear!
My mother recently got diagnosed with hemiplegic migraines and they get set off by everything. I know shes been struggling like crazy with it and i can’t imagine what this does to you. We are here for you.
The most genuine person on tiktok/entertainer I’ve seen you have so much love and support take your time and heal to feel like yourself again you owe us nothing we all love you exactly how you are and for who you are we are here for you!!
You dont know us, but to all of us you're our BFF. We are here for the ups , the downs, the laughs and the cries. None of us are ok all the time. We love ALL of YOU💙💚💜
I’m sorry I believe in you ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜
I understand your pain. Don’t apologize for showing your feelings and being real. You’re so kind and special. I was in a very dark place back in 2015 and literally I drove myself to the hospital and admitted myself in the psych ward. I stayed for 3 days and when I came out I knew I didn’t need to be in there. Thank you showing your love and warmth.
3:54 NEVER STOP TALKING ABOUT IT!!! Continue to share your story because PEOPLE ARE LISTENING!! And someone out there is relating to this and your story and your experiences are valid and someone is feeling your desperation. Everyone here supports you and you should be heard about whatever you are facing and dealing with.
It's not a stupid video. Your feelings are completely valid. We all love you. You take the time you need, to figure out how to get your mindset back to a positive place. Things may not be great for you right now, but you're trying your best, and that counts for a lot. The world is a better place with you in it. ❤
Thank you for sharing this with us!! Ugh You sharing this helps other people too! My heart goes out to you ❤ I have severe mental health issues as well as physical problems. These are real problems that deserve real validation! I hear you Clay! I’m here if you need a friend!!!
It’s not stupid! I can’t imagine living with that 24/7! I randomly developed panic disorder and derealization in 2019 and I could often hear my heartbeat in my ears. It drove me crazy and had me sooo anxious! I ended up feeling better with some meds, but it was a life changing experience & since I lost someone I loved at the work of their own hands in august I too have been facing crippling depression again. So, just know you’re not alone and you don’t always have to put on a brave face for us! We support you in your highs AND your lows! & this too shall pass!! Hang in there!! ❤❤
I'm balling right now bc the minute you said tinnitus I know exactly what you are going through. The multiple ear buds and speakers has been a must in my life for about 2 years now. It effects everything in my life and I can't even remember the last time I had peace. I totally get it and I'm sorry you're going through this. Especially with the meds. I'm so afraid of taking what's been prescribed bc I'm a hypochondriac. Ughh I know it's hard but from what it sounds like to me, you're taking all the necessary steps to get better, and that's half the battle!!!!!!! I hope you find some relief once you talk w the Dr!!!! This will pass, you will get through it. You are strong, resilient, and loved by so many
Take time for yourself Clay🥺 We love you and we are here for you
I love you, even when you’re not feeling well! I’ve been dealing with a facial tic that causes me a lot of anxiety and depression as well. You’re not alone!!!! I’m sorry you’re not feeling well and that you’re having stress with your doctors. We love you very much and it will get better!!!!!!!
Take care of yourself first. Don’t worry about making others happy. I experienced the same thing with intracranial hypertension. I literally could hear my own heartbeat in my ears constantly and I felt like it would never end but it eventually did
I LOVE the rare tender honest moments you have. I think you should do more! The one who seems happiest is usually the one holding the most pain!! We are all learning and healing everyday. Sometimes the best therapy is just letting it all out. You would be surprised how many people can relate so closely!!
So sorry you're going through all of this. Please know that we love the sad version of you as much as we love the funny version. We are here for you.
I don’t know how to help because I haven’t been through this myself, I hope this stops happening to you, and that you find something to help you with this, your so brave!! You got this man We are always in your corner
(I don’t know why there is a line through the last part, ignore that!))))
As a native Arkansan, Arkansas doctors are not the best. You have to search hard to find the good ones. Even though my husband is from hot springs, and I'm there when I can be, I've only ever gone to the ER and not a normal or specialty dr there. I would suggest, if possible, to look for a dr in Little Rock or Fort Smith or Fayetteville, the bigger cities. I also have ear ringing a lot, so I understand some of how you feel. I don't have it 24/7, I even have it as I'm writing this, mine usually signals a incoming headache. I really hope you can find a solution and someone who will actually listen and help
First of all Clay, there is nothing to be sorry for. I want you to know that you have people online who love and care about you and that want to see you get better. Thank you so much for having there courage to share this with us, I know it probably doesn't feel like it but talking about and sharing what you are going through is very brave and not something everyone is capable of. Thank you also for trusting us enough to share this very personal part of your life and journey. I'll be praying for you and ask God to put the right people in your path to help if not completely heal you. God be with you and bless you Clay.
I’m so proud of you for talking about this. ❤
Honestly I am going through the same thing 🥺 I’ve taken Paroxetine, Buspirone, Fluoxetine…like nothing helps my BPD or anxiety. Clay honey, we are all human. We understand you have things going on, stay strong baby. I have severe scoliosis & ask myself everyday why tf am I here dealing with this BS. I wish I could hug you & tell you that one day things will get better. XOXO!
Clay, you are so brave. You are NOT NOT NOT alone. ❤ I completely understand the desperation bc mine lasted a while and I felt that I just couldn’t get anyone to understand my situation! My therapist got me through it, along with Zoloft. Thank God For those two things, really. I was in therapy for a long time and if you can find the right person it will help. Keep talking about it, keep posting about it. Whatever helps you get relief emotionally. Don’t give up. Keep fighting. Gods got you in his wings. ❤
Laughing is only a bonus Clay, we follow/subscribe because of YOU.. you don't have to always be funny. That's not what it's about. Hope you get to feeling better soon 💜
Awee I recently came across this kids TikToks and I love his videos but this video just made me love him so much more that he was being real and showing his real self.. I really hope he’s better (I kno he still has the issues with his ears) mentally and an emotionally.. he’s such the sweetest kid
We love you. You are not alone. You don't have to pretend. Be who you are. We'll love you through it. 💜
Hey Clay..so my friend showed me your TikTok and I had to start following you bc you made me laugh and lately I've needed that. From the outside looking in it looks like it's taken a toll on you taking half of your meds and that's totally normal.. remember you're human. A beautiful human who helps heal so many people a day with laughter and that's some of the best soup for the soul there is! Any struggles that you have I know they suck ass going through them but stay the strong person I see you are bc the reward is so worth it and soon these struggles won't seem hard at all bc you'll be an even stronger bad ass I PROMISE! Be blessed Clay and don't ever forget you're not alone and you're loved! You got this!! 🤗
I’m currently tapering off of my anxiety medication. I have severe crippling anxiety and am going through all of these same side effects. I know it’s awful. But I appreciate the transparency and I’m here for you. You’re not alone.
Here to continue seeing you smile! Thank you for sharing and we all are here because we definitely fell in love with your humor and the genuine goodness you share…. But we all go thru things and we are here for this too ! Rooting for you from Abilene Texas! ❤
I’m so sorry that you are going through such a difficult time but I’m glad that you are opening up about your experience and seeking support. I’m a psychologist and discontinuing/changing medications can be really really hard. People often feel bad for several weeks to a couple months as their bodies adjust. Please hang in and know that you will hopefully begin to feel better soon. Additionally, there are many people who struggle with tinnitus and hopefully you can connect with others who can give you support and guidance on how to manage it. You are an amazing person and you will get through this difficult period. Sending you so much love ❤
Thank you for having the strength to share. I haven’t been on that certain medication, but I have withdrawn from my anti-depressants before and it is terrifying. I was a fentanyl addict so I’ve dealt with physical withdrawal and underestimated the power of mental withdrawal. 😢 thank you again, I hope you find the peace that you need.
I love you so much! I might not have the same thing as you but I do have bipolar disorder and my depression and mania episodes gets so bad sometimes it’s like I can’t do anything 😢 I completely understand where you are coming from and we love you! Everyone in this world deals with trauma and terrible shit we are all people at the end of the day and we are not perfect and some of us struggle more than others just so you know we are here for you, I am here for you and this was not a stupid video I appreciate you sharing this part of yourself with us, especially how amazingly funny you are makes me feel like I’m not the only one that feels insane and out of there mind❤ thank you 😢❤
I’m also experiencing anxiety and depression so I feels good to hear your story and I’m with you
Your health is more important than making us laugh. Please be well and take care ❤
We love u for u …the funny ,the sad , the stressed and the just u !! I don’t know anyone who can be happy all the time and u don’t owe us anything and your real supporters will be there for u for the ride!! Just be patient with yourself and take care of your mental Heath and vent and talk about it whenever u need too, sending lots of love 💕
As someone who suffers from chronic anxiety and has been taking medication for 12+ years.. The new medication can take up to 6 weeks to actually “help”. Also, this process is a journey, you may not find a medication away. You are already taking the right steps in seeing a therapist. I hope you consider moving if possible.. even a different city that’s bigger? Your environment can be a huge factor too. ❤️
I signed up for clay baby because of your SPIRIT.. most of us aren't fair weather followers, we really love you and we're all here out of love and concern. I wish I HAD positivity to you but I'm drawing from an empty well myself so if nothing else, I'll be miserable with you hunny
Your not crazy, your not alone, be kind to yourself, be patient with yourself. You have so many supporters that will be here for you. I get you I hear you. You did the right thing speaking up ❤
More people need to share this stuff because we all struggle. It’s not good to bottle it up and shut people out. Thank you for sharing and please don’t be sorry. 💜
Clay I am sorry you are going through all this. I love you and hope you can get this fixed. I have severe anxiety and ptsd and have been where you are. Its not easy but know you are not alone ❤ thank you for being so honest and transparent. You are one of my favorite creators on TT and I appreciate you being real with your fans. I wish I could fix it all for you. The best the world has to offer you is out there waiting on the right time for u to grab it. Take a deep breath, cry when you need to, talk it out with people. Try a telehealth provider for your mental health. There are good ones who care and will help you get back to where u need to be. 💜💜 love you!
It’s completely okay to not be okay. I actually am interested in these type videos and hearing how you feel because I go through major major depression issues also and I understand. I’ve tried medications for years and years and I feel like I am stuck and nothing is gonna ever work or get better. Always here if you need to vent!!!! Medications don’t always help. A lot of people are having depression issues right now I think, and it’s okay to admit you have them. It shouldn’t be as secret as people make it. Keep going and don’t give up! I know how much it sucks to have almost no feelings and not know how to keep going.
You have to slowly titrate down off off any benzo/anti-depressant. 10% titrate every 3-4 weeks. You are not crazy…there are several of fb groups about this. Your tinnitus is probably from activated nervous system due to what you are going through + coming off of Paxil. You are not alone and it’s not your fault. It’s coming from the medication. Nobody talks about the impact of coming off these meds or changing them. Much love to you. ❤
I have so much respect for you. I love your funny and I love how real you are. I just went through some major mental stuff myself where I felt like I was losing it and had horrible thoughts. I didn't have the ringing in my ears but I can imagine how maddening that must be. I am believing there is hope right around the corner for you and the right help will be sent your way.
You have been my light for so long! I have never not laughed at one of your videos. I know it’s all jokes but you are always so supportive and kind and funny and I want to send the same energy back to you! We love you
Prayers for your healing 🙏 Clay, you are always a ray of sunshine. I hope you find the right person, doctor, that will help you through this. Shame on that man for letting you get away! Please take care of you and know that tomorrow may be the best day of your existence! Much love to you.
You’re incredible, Clay! So sorry you’re going through this ❤
Paxil DESTOYED my self image. I gain a little more than 50lbs, my anxiety and depression got so much worse and when I finally convinced my doctor to change my medicine, the withdrawal was awful. I was sick for over a month with nausea, vomiting, dizziness, headaches, paranoia, list litterally goes on and on. I am so sorry you've gone through this. I greatly appreciate you speaking on this because it's reinsurance that I am not alone, and neither are you❤️ and it's okay not to be okay, you will get there. You've got this love! I know it's a lot easier said than done, but stay strong. 💕
You are one of the funniest creators I’ve seen on Tic Tok. Your videos have gotten me thru some dark days! I can totally relate to the antidepressant withdrawal. It’s awful! What your going thru is important, and I know you will be helping people by talking about it. I hope your able to take a break from things and get to feeling better! ❤
Hello Clay Baby ♥️I’m a healthcare worker and nursing student. I’m also a mom, a wife, a friend, a sister, and so on. The most important thing is I am a human and I need to care for myself to be able to function and help others. My husband and I are veterans and both have tinnitus. I totally understand what you’re going through. I want you to know I’m so proud of you and it’s more than okay to not be okay all the time. Please keep your head up. You are strong. You are resilient. You are loved. You are worthy. You deserve the best and nothing less. Sending positive vibes and prayers your way✨
Praying for you Clay ❤ You will get through this! We suffer but we conquer 🙏🏽 Your story isn’t over yet!
Your emotions are valid Clay! The video is not stupid and it’s always okay to tell people how you’re feeling/doing. There’s absolutely nothing wrong with that! I hope you start feeling better soon, because I know depression and anxiety sucks! I suffer with that stuff too but I don’t take any meds for it, mainly because I can’t afford it.
I have tinnitus, too. It IS crippling and it impacts relationships. But you can get through it. When you find the right medicine combination, things WILL get better. Hang in there…you are loved. ❤
This actually helped me. You have no idea. I’ve been on some medication for the past 4 weeks, small dosage it’s my first time, just for my anxiety. It’s helped with anxiety but worsened my depression. I’ve started drinking and feeling the urge to just get drunk to just not feel it anymore. This video has made me feel less crazy, like im not alone so thank you for sharing. We love you and appreciate the light you give
When you said out of body experience I could totally relate. I suffer from depersonalization which makes me feel like I’m not here and nothing is real. I doubt reality. It’s an awful feeling. I always said I’m going crazy. My mom said crazy people don’t realize they’re going crazy! So you’re fine and you’re going to be ok! Sending much love and prayers to you. This too shall pass. xo
It’s ok to not be ok. We love and support you, no matter what. I’m so sorry that you are dealing with all of this. I wish I could give you a hug. Thank you for being so honest with yourself and us. ♥️
Hi Clay. This is heartbreaking to hear you have been going through this the whole time you were making US happy and laugh and smile. The whole time you were silently struggling. I’m so glad that you found the courage to make this video and tell us what’s going on. Even though a lot of us have never met you in person. We love you and we want to see you get healthy and feel better. I know you’re busy but please take all the time you need to heal. Let us know how we can continue to support you. I work in health insurance and I’m an expert on coverages and networks- please let me know if I can help with that!!! Love you!!!
Hi Faith! Just a fellow Clay Baby fan here! All though ur comment is meant for Clay, I wanted to tell u how much I actually appreciated it! People that have never really dealt w/Anxiety and/or Depression don't realize how helpful, comforting & empowering it can be to be "given permission" to be themselves & share their truth. Now, I do want to be clear. I DO NOT think that Clay or any human being that is struggling with their mental health, needs permission to share their truth. But, someone in that situation can be afraid to be so vulnerable and feel bad. Take this video for instance. I guess I just wanted u to know it was a really nice comment that u left for Clay.
(Read til the end plz, cuz I also have an insurance question for ya! 😊)
Clay Baby, I agree with so many of these comments. We all have such love for u, even though we've never met you. You always make us laugh & sometimes even laugh til we cry.😂🤣 In our everyday lives, our tears aren't always happy tears so, why would we expect u to be any different? After reading these comments from your loyal fans, I pray that u never again feel like u have to apologize for being human. One comment says it perfectly. "If we can't handle Sad Clay Baby, then we don't deserve the Happy Clay Baby!" I've never experienced Tinnitus, but a friend of mine did. She searched for a sound that was close to what she constantly hears. She had me put in my ear buds and listen to it. After about 3 min. I was already starting to fidgit. 5 min., I put my hands on my ears and started rocking back & forth. I don't think I lasted another 2 min. and I was done. I can only imagine how I'd be without the option I had to make it STOP! 😖😞 I'm so sorry that you're having to deal with that as well as depression. I gotta say, I'm proud of u as well for having the courage to share this with us. Not only do I believe that this can turn into a source of therapy for you & others who are struggling with depression, but it could actually be a resource for everyone as well. There have been so many people that have commented with well wishes, love & support. There's also comments offering resources and advice, like Miss Faith here.
I'm not sure what ur insurance situation is, but I know you've mentioned that money is tight. I know each state offers Medicaid and I'm sure how one qualifies differs from state to state. Here's where my question for Faith comes in. Faith, do you have any knowledge on Medicaid and more specifically, is there a way to research what the Maximum Income amount you're allowed to make and still qualify for Medicaid in the state of Arkansas? Again, Clay, not sure if u have insurance. If not, hopefully this could be an option for you on the financial end of things.
I'm sorry this is such a LONG comment. I tend to be wordy sometimes and have been known to ramble.😁😋 Seriously though, I wish you the best and I'll be praying for you. Please take care of YOU! That is most important! Us TikTok peeps will understand. I want you to feel good and be happy again. I know we all want u to be able to feel excited about ur song release and we want to celebrate with u! Know ur not alone. I Love u Clay Baby! ❤ Mmmwwwaaahhhh! 😘
That feeling of feeling like something is wrong or your crazy is a feeling I know all to well, and I wouldn’t wish it upon my worst enemy. I hope you can figure out a way to find yourself again but you’re not alone and never will be man keep your head up!
Audiologist here with training in tinnitus. Wish I was closer, but I am in the Atlanta area. My 14 year old son watches you and will send me random videos of you that are quite entertaining, but I was saddened to see you so upset and then to come onto youtube and see that you are suffering from tinnitus. A couple of things that I can recommend from a distance is to do everything in your power to get yourself in a better place mentally. If you are not happy where you live, not sleeping well, you just ended a relationship, you are anxious or depressed then your tinnitus will seem worse. Unfortunately it is like a viscous cycle. The anxiety/depression gets worse, the tinnitus gets louder which in turn makes the anxiety/tinnitus worse. Do whatever you can in your life to make yourself happier even if that includes discussing some other medications with your doctors or maybe finding a new doctor...but you have to give it time and you have to stay on a certain medication for awhile to know if it will help. Do yoga and relaxation techniques such as deep breathing. If at all possible, get yourself in a physical location where you feel like you fit in better and are happier. As you have figured out, never leave yourself in silence, but try to play sounds that are enjoyable in your environment ALL OF THE TIME (not sure if you really like the cricket sound....and if it has been 18-24 months, your brain has likely acclimated to it) and when you try to go to sleep at night. The "Resound Relief" app is a good one to try. I wouldn't use earbuds for this or any other sound. A bluetooth speaker would be better to get the sound in your environment and out of your head. A sound that is non-repetitive is best. Also, make sure that you are taking a multiple vitamin and getting plenty of hydration. Have you had your hearing tested and do you have hearing loss? This could be another contributing factor if so. If you do have hearing loss, treating it might be needed as well. Finally, I have had success with a device called Neosensory. You can get it here and it does have a 30 day money-back guarantee. neosensory.com/tinnitus-solution/?gclid=CjwKCAjw-rOaBhA9EiwAUkLV4uK-RyrynWH6e37eYhAdFCOAPagkOeVYnLpsYgum7EePleqMKtHOkhoChAoQAvD_BwE. If you do it, do the other things that I mentioned as well. Feel free to email me at Dr.Nikki@TheHearingClinics.com if you have any additional questions. Hope that helps!!!