If you ever need someone to speak too please reply to my comment and we can exchange FB or emails etc and I'm always here if you need to talk my friend You're doing good ... Not turning to drugs or alcohol is by far the very best thing you can do for urself and sadly way too many ppl lose themselves after losing someone they love because they turn to the wrong outlets to face whatever they're grieving... Everyday even if you don't notice it you're getting a little bit stronger and while you're heart will never be the same you WILL learn how to live with this new way of life if you make the choice too... You got this 🎉
@Stranger_in_the_Alps. Your pain in palpable. My heart goes out to you. Depression is SO DIFFICULT. While you are walking in darkness please know there is light ahead. It may feel like there will never be a light. It took a long time for me to find that light but, I did FIND IT. You will find it. Please hold tight. Allow yourself the bad days. Search for the good days. You are in my prayers. Please know that you are not alone. There are so many out here who truly care about you. Please don’t ever forget that.
Stay strong we're all in this battle together jus different levels fighting different demons! ALWAYS LOOK UP N REMEMBER U ARE LOVED N NEEDED HERE, no matter what our situation may be right now... theres always brighter days ahead✨️🥰🥹🙏🏼"A beautiful smile, hides the most pain!" -Robin Williams 😇
In the 90’s I was suffering with depression and I finally decided if I couldn’t make myself happy , I would start doing everything in my power to make others happy. After a while a miracle seemed to happen , the more I tried to care for and help others the better I felt . I also took comfort in knowing that Jesus knew my pain as He hung on the cross. Today I’m doing very well.
Does Jesus save the Sentinelese? They have never met another human but once. Do aliens believe in God? The same reason Jesus didn't exist 2 million years ago for the first humans. Get your head out of your butt. This is all we have. Make the most of it. Also in your Bible, God forgives all sins. So be good and have fun.
Been fighting for 6 years and still going. I’ve lost 5 people to suicide and I cannot tell you how hard this has been. I needed to hear this tonight. Thank you.
@your.local-loser (Sorry for the paragraph) I admire your perseverance and strength. We can’t forget those we have lost. I hope you find peace and healing and I am rooting for you!
I promise you God wants to heal you. Even more than that, He wants to give a whole new life. He chases after you everyday. You’re His precious one, but He can’t do anything if you don’t let Him.
this song seemed to come out of nowhere for my recommendations so I’m taking it as a sign that I needed to hear it. I feel this through my whole soul. This is a felt beauty.
I suffer with mental illness and still am.My mom passed away 3years ago and my sons mother passed away 2years ago as of yesterday and when my mom passed i lost my son and just about ended it but I kept fighting and I got my son back home and we lost my apartment and moved with aunt cuz step dad passed last Easter so I was taking care of her and she passed two months ago and now me and my son are currently homeless and I thought about quitting but I promise my mom I would never leave my son. Your song touched me brother you have talent 😢
When I was so desperate and no one to talk to...I started to talk to God every time I noticed any negative thoughts or feelings. I stand on faith only. I have been diagnosed stage 4 bone cancer and in the fight of my life. I gave all worries to our Savior and I feel so inpowered by the Holy Spirit! Reach out to God!
Jesus said by your faith you are healed. You have to believe it 100%. I read a story where a guy went to hospital after taking about thirty anti-depressants. In the hospital they fixed him up brought his vitals down and he was informed that he had taken placebo pills.
God is our refuge every moment of the day. Please let us know how you are. I pray for you, so sad you have no one to talk to, sad sad...lift your eyes to Go. I pray for strength, inner strength, physical strength as I lay you before the feet of Jesus ❤❤
I haven't cried fr for ages. The last time I cry cried was when I was watching Rengokus death in demon slayer, and even then, I couldn't fully cry, or shed all the tears that I needed to both overr that and many other things.
The sun just turned black for me on August 22nd, I was diagnosed with lung cancer which has spread to my brain, im scared to death waiting for doctors to start my treatments, yes, my sun is black right now!!! God will see me through this though!! Thank you, lovely song!! ✌️
Ur comment bought tears to my eyes 🥺🥺 I'm so sorry to hear that, I do see u have faith in God nd i pray healing over u in Jesus name, the only devine healing can come from Jesus, he sees u!! I pray that God will give u the strength nd guidance u need to get through these terrible times, but keep the faith bc HE LOVES U!! ❤️ God bless u 🙏🏼
My Son suffered from bad depression for years. But I kept praying and showing love. Now at 40yrs. Old he’s happy and fixing to have his first baby. Thank you, Jesus for lifting my Son up and healing him. ❤
@@m19y29 Jesus gave us all free will. Just because something bad happens doesnt mean it's his fault. Doesn't mean "Oh well if God was so loving then this, this and this wouldn't have happened." God isn't the reason he had depression, but he is the reason he doesn't. John 3:16 King James Version "For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life." Get saved today ❤
@m19y29 what a disrespectful way to approach somebody. I hope you find peace. Jesus may or may not be involved. Who are you to tell her that or her son?
Suffered with drug addiction for all my young adult life been glean for 4 years god its good for all the drug user's out there my love and keep trying ❤
I;m 67 and suffered from depression all my life. As a child, everyone was sleeping except me. I'd walk around the house by myself and it was so lonely. I cried a lot so my mom sent me to the and he gave me valium. I was about 13 or 14. Went through a lot in my life. It wasn't till I was about 31 that a dr. listened to me and gave me meds that made my life "normal". I suffer through black days still but I know it will end. Thanks for the beautiful song and for making me cry. Much love always. And to all who suffer, you are NOT alone. Depression is an illness. Please see your doctor.
I recently lost my mother and father in a murder/ suicide and the depression is indescribable. I feel your pain. Writing my music helps me cope as well. But I'm quite confident that it will never completely go away.
I’m so sorry for your loss. I see you. I am sorry for that painful tragedy. No one should have to go through that. I think you are right. Sometimes the pain doesn’t go away. But when the pain won’t go away sometimes we can redirect that pain to accomplish something good and positive. I love you. I hope you’re doing well.
I was diagnosed at the age of 7 I've been living with it for 30 years the one thing I've learned is no matter what anyone says there is some one out there that loves you, and no offence to anyone I'm not talking about religion.
My brother, well done. You've made me cry for the first time in five years, and the last time I did it was over my father's casket. I'm 16 and struggling with PTSD and depression, but this song's reached because I think I've found love, and that's given me hope. Thank you.
A few months ago, I was going down a conspiracy theory rabbit hole on TikTok. I’m usually a very optimistic person but, this nearly ended me. I was so anxiety ridden and so depressed, that I thought about ending it all. It was truly one of the most scary times in my life. I couldn’t even get up out of bed, without thinking that we were all being manipulated. I got out of it by returning to my childhood memories. Listening to music, watching Harry Potter. It got me out of the darkness and back into the light.
Stay strong Bro, we're still here so that must mean something. Doesn't matter if tommorow ain't better. As long as we're here, in present, living. And we'll live again, tomorrow, the next day, the next week, and many more. We'll live.
Im 16 too and 2 years ago I constantly wanted to die. But for some reason I decided to watch anime for the first time in years. It was violet evergarden that i watched, that day was the first time i had a good cry in years and i started to recover after that, i started sleeping better, I can actually socialize in school and eventually this willing to die disappeared. Now I'm trying my best to help others recover from their BIG SAD.
I've lost my parents two husbands and now I'm on my own. And the dark just creeps in and I cry and I remember all the memories. But if it wasn't for God who I hold on too tightly and talk to him all the time he keeps me protected with angels. It's that pretty easy but my faith is strong and I know that God has a plan for me. And the lessons I'm learning from life issues. Please keep your faith🙏🏻🙏🏻
@@silkroad1201 sometimes laughing at your own jokes or crying at your own songs isn't necessarily cringe. That just means that you value what you created and you think it's genuinely good, and there is nothing wrong with that.
It feels like he’s acting to illustrate to you how “sad and emotional” this song is, because it isn’t particularly. Especially based on the title of the video. He’s selling something. I dunno put a bad taste in my mouth.
Years ago I tried to take my life. I had just given birth to my 3rd daughter and my husband was off with yet another of his gfs. It was a black time. So in the midst of slicing my arm my baby started to cry, something she'd never done. That did it ! God spoke. Life hasn't always been kind after that point, but I made a promise that day that no matter what, I wouldn't waste the life I was given. So I try. There are people with more sorrow, look to the light and be thankful. I'm sure this won't help anyone but I felt the need to share. Thank you for a reminder and a heartfelt song. Bless you and hugs'n love 🤗🥰
Still fighting the black, writing poetry and song helps, my partner chose to die, leave his 13 yr old and me who loved him dearly, clearly our love wasn't enough❤
@@SuzanneBirkett-i5b awww, so sorry about your loss Suzanne. I truly understand how it feels losing a loved one, my wife passed while having our daughter, wasn't easy for me though but I'm grateful to God for today 🙏. My deep and sincere condolences, how have you been? 🌺😢
I am a man with little time left. God is where I find my refuge. My sun turned black a long time ago when at 17 my addiction started. First I lost my family, then my business, lost my home, and then lost the respect and love of family and friends. Drifted around in my addiction for years 30 years to be exact. At the end I was physically, mentally, and spiritually broke. Went to AA I was directed there to God. Then about 3 years ago I went on a trip to Michigan from NC I listened to the Bible going and coming I got thirsty for more, so I have been reading the true word every since. I had a moment of suicidal tendencies and called mental health and checked myself in. I returned home and something started to grow on the inside. I kept reading and I got better. My relationship with God and faith is what is healing me. Love God, believe and have faith, just the size of a mustard seed and your thinking will change.
That’s amazing! So glad to hear that you are doing better and I hope you know how valuable you are, and care about (and treat) yourself as you should now: with love - from someone who somehow overcame self-hatred by the power of the living spirit of Jesus Christ in me (and thru his unconditional love and forgiveness/grace 💕)
When I am depressed I have a quiet time with God and tell him what is bothering me. Most of the time I hear his voice "telling me to be strong and u got this."
I lost my dad to suicide 3 weeks ago. It was his 2nd attempt, his 1st attempt was last year. He OD’d and survived, but was never really the same and it broke my heart. 3 weeks ago I found him hanging from a tree in our backyard, his youngest son (I’m 20)… He tried so hard for so many years, therapies, medications, you name it, we tried so hard as a family unit to support him but ultimately he couldn’t fight the battle anymore. I sacrificed most of my adolescence to be at home because I wanted to be with my family. My dad was my best friend, as a result of trying to help him with his mental illness we developed a very unique and open father son relationship. He just felt like he was a burden to us and holding me back, but I was more than happy to sacrifice anything to rather stay in with him and do something at home with him, if anything at all. I preferred that. Not gonna get too sappy with this, but I just really fucking miss my dad and just want one more bear hug, even though I’m 20 lol. I just want to look up at him again and call him Daddy one more time. Love you dad, I don’t think the grief will ever get better with time, it just changes form slightly, but it’s still ever so painful as the day I found you. I miss you so much, I can only hope and pray that you’re at peace now. 🖤🖤🖤
So sorry to hear your pain Jonathan, I understand from personal experience of being at the place of desperation to commit suicide, I think I know partly where your dad's thoughts and feelings were at as he was going through the battle of should I or should I not leave this world. Please You must not put any blame on yourself for this ..... its not any of your fault why this happened. I have learned from my recovery of suicidal tendency that I was not able to focus on what my family members would go through experiencing my taking my own life, especially the person who would find me. The mental illness and depression takes away your ability to be rational, logical or think straight, it just sucks you into a place of lostness and all hope has gone. Sorry if I seem to be going on and on but I am trying to say to you, do not be hard on yourself and blame any of this on yourself as your grief process unfolds in your life. God bless you and I pray that you will be comforted by the people around you who love you very much 🙏
Im thinking of you,i pray for you,im also a Dad,a grandfather a husband and was also almost there,may God bless you,keep you strong and just remember all the good what he have done,keep your head up and Never give up,love you my son although i dont know you,God blessings for you and the family
Lazarus, George, thank you for sharing your experience and reaffirming that God is the only way we can get through insurmountable challenges that we as fleshly Men can’t beat alone, but only through the spirit of God and his Son. I know that it wasn’t my fault, nor my families. But to see the person you love so much suffering is an indescribable pain. Even through his darkest moments, he still had Faith. And that is the only thing that really matters. I can understand why he did what he did, I’ve been diagnosed with major depression at 18. Although I’ve never had suicidal tendencies, I do understand to an extent the suffering that’s involved. Depression is rough on my Dad’s side of the family, he lost 2 family members to suicide as well. This silent killer is devastating in my family, but I will remain Faithful and thankful for what I have, and I WILL break the cycle even if it’s the last thing I do. Thank you for reminding me I’m not alone and other people have been through stuff like this, it’s easy to get sucked into a black hole and feel completely alone. God bless both of you. George, ek sien Oom is ook Afrikaans. Ek ook, wat is die kanse dat ek in een van my mense vas loop op die internet? Dankie vir Oom se woorde. 🙏🏼
Thank you for your service to our country. Hang in there for the next chapters in your life. I have Bipolar, PTSD, anxiety disorder and agoraphobia. I'm disabled too. I'm only 52, but my body feels 85. Thank you for sharing your story.
You are not alone. We feel we are even in a crowd. I have tried, only to wake up week or two later in ccicu. That made me feel worse. Feeling failure once again by not being able to kill myself right. I hear 3rd time's a charm 😢
So very sorry. I definitely feel your pain. I too struggle everyday from the loss of my only child. She was 9 years old and she died in an auto accident. 1 year before her death, I lost my mother. Then again, 2 years after my daughter died, I lost my dad. It’s definitely not an easy journey, but GOD!!!
Damn Antonio, i too am a father. Its impossible for me to understand what u are feeling. But i know what its like to love like that. U have my empathy. I wish i could hug you bro.
The sun turned black the day my husband of 44years died and went to heaven. It was so unexpected, so quick. He passed on 09/05/2023 so I have lived 1 full year+ without him. I stayed busy with w housework, sorting his shop and snow removal during the winter and then yard work in the summer. Going into the 2nd year will be another transition for me because I will be busy doing things some repitious, some new. So just staying busy, praying, talking to God and grief therapy. I was blessed with one of his friends staying by my side, supporting me. This friend has become a special friend to me and I don't know how I would have managed without him. Thank you Jesus.
Hi Deb my other half left for heaven in May 2022. Am stiil grieving. Took up singing n play the guitar n getting better. Wish you all the best. Time is the greatest healer
I’m fighting depression, and I’m still alive because I want to make my little brother proud, so that one day I will see him again…one day I will see him in heaven.
The ONLY thing that saved my life was Jesus . Years of addiction, domestic violence, and depression and I finally got the courage to walk into a church I passed by every time I left my home. I felt so awkward and scared but the minute the door opened I was embraced and i met Jesus my savior he saved me and took away all my guilt I carried for so long. I am so grateful I have been renewed and had the opportunity to start over with a completely clean slate. My friends.. if u haven't yet I urge u to.. u will never be the same.
When I feel depressed i turn on as many lights as I can. Open doors if nice out. I clean the house. Sometime with my old 70s music playing. And I read Proverbs and Psalms. I thank God for all he has done for me. To know God is beside me is all I need. Ive been on that dark road. Drugs and Alcohol are not your friends.
Thank you for that comment for all of us to relate to. I’m thinking it’s time to leave the toxicity behind and connect with God to hopefully save my life from a long term self harm I’ve been purposely enduring. Be well, and may anyone suffering find peace and strength.
@LukeW91 You can do it. And the feeling of being sober minded will feel better than alcohol or drugs. I started at a very young age. But once sober a glass of water felt good to my body. It had only known alcohol for 40 years.
@lisamccormick450 Sometimes the answer is no. But how often do you pray? Every day giving thanks for what you have or just complain about what God has not done for you?
I'm in that boat with you. My youngest son and my granddaughter keep me hanging on. But I hardly get to see them. I've been my mom's caregiver since 2020. I watched my grandpa wither away and I don't want that for my son. But this separation has been very hard on him. It has on me as well. I still think it's better for him to be around a normal family atmosphere for the moment because I'm really not doing as good with all of it as I'd like to be. Taking it a day at a time. Everything in me screams to have them both with me everyday. I miss them like a drowning person missing the air.
My sun turned black when my son came down with a chronic illness that no one has been able to accurately diagnose. His basic caretaker for all these years, although we’re starting to see some progress. I’m praying for a miracle. Also, during all this time, I was in a very unhappy place in my life . Besides my son being sick, I was in a very unhappy marriage. It was oppressive, antagonistic, verbally abusive, yelling, silent treatments etc . When you’re depressed exercise helps your endorphins get going and it can help fight depression . Try to do a hobby that’s fun that you enjoy and that you’re good at. Try to be around people who are happy and that love you all these things help and then pray every day to God to help you. And may God bless you and that your son never turn black again. Thanks for sharing your story and your song. We are never alone. We each have our own crosses to bear and if we’re lucky, we have each other for support.
This song touches my soul! 💙 We all feel sadness and depression at times, but works for me to get out of is music! 🙏💜 and remembering how much my children love me! ❤️ I live for them! ❤
I am currently 17 and this song took me back to the time when I wasn’t able to see any light at the end of the tunnel. I was 11 when I lost my mom to cancer. It was a very hard phase for me and it still is when during the nights i start reminiscing my memories with her. But somehow at that point I picked myself up and decided to make my mom proud. After a few years passed by, in 2022 I lost one of my best friends, which triggered everything that I was holding inside. It was a very very dark place for me because of all this and also because I was in my high school and I had a lot of pressure of studies. I was never good at them, so it was hard for me to cope up with things and live up to the expectations of my family. At the same time my father decided to get married again, and I was totally not okay with it, so that built a whole lot of stress in my mind too, because it was hard for me to look at someone else in my mom’s place. I used to have suicidal thoughts everyday, extreme anxiety, and I tried one or two times to end myself and give up but every time what kept me going was the belief that my mom was watching from up there and that I had promised her that I will make her proud. Till date I am fighting with all those thoughts but I can proudly say that I am much better and that I didn’t give up. So all I can say to the people who are going through all of this is that there are many people out there who look upto you and who actually care about you, even when it doesn’t seem like it trust me there are. And you should start believing that if our good days don’t last long, our hardships won’t either. One day all of this darkness will come to an end and you will look back and proudly say to yourself that you did it, you didn’t give up. So take one step at a time, believe in yourself and just know that many people are out there to help you, you just have to ask for it, even if it’s hard, just try once, trust me it makes everything a lot easier. And for all the people who have been fighting all of it for a few years or months, i am proud of you. You are doing amazingly well, and you are very strong. Just don’t loose hope, the light will find it’s way to you. YOU ALL CAN DO IT!! ❤❤
Hey dear I can feel you ... I lost my mom before 8 years, and currently I’m 22 years old. In my channel you can find what I have written for my mom titled “purity “
A really Nice example for people who thinks that,You did it well,i'm sure that you're Mom it's proud of You 100%,things like this makes me feel more motivated for keep trying,thanks You very much for share you're history
God bless you and keep you. May the lord bring you peace. I’m deeply sorry for your loss. I’ve always believed my super power was being the biggest empath I’ve ever known I cry when others cry and can feel anyone’s pain. Keep going. You will see him again. This life isn’t the end it’s just a step.
Look up Shaman Oaks and find his near death experience playlist. The interviews are special coming from the souls who've crossed over and come back. Listening to them has given me peace and trust in where we go.
❤ I have always been depressed and sometimes it is almost too much. But God. I have faith, kids, & grandkids that keep me here. When i can, I paint or garden, anything creative. When i can't, i stay in a curled up ball and silently weep. God bless you all.
My sun was black from 2017 to 2020. I'm an alcoholic and I've been sober since December 3, 2020. It was a horrible life I was living. Depression is all consuming. Thank you for giving us an outlet. You are definitely a blessing. Thank you!
Alcoholism is so very painful for the addict and more so to the loved one. Semi colon tattoos are mental health awareness. Suicide. Depression. Anxiety
Prayers for everyone struggling. I have been struggling with PTSD, depression, anxiety and other dark thoughts since I was 15 years old. I am still hanging in here on earth at 59 years old only by God's grace. Thank you for sharing your song. There is always help out there if you just reach out for it. God bless
I'm 59 too! I've struggled with various problems too. Until I finally " let go" When I realized that most of my problems were of my own making. And also being victimized by abuse, but that just means to let go of the toxic people in your life. Hope all is we with you..
@@kimberlylynjamison8762 Hope you're doing ok! You made it this far right? I'll just say don't dwell on the past too much. Though it's hard to forget. Count your blessings, look forward to tomorrow. The blessing that life is. I look at it like. Of course I want to see tomorrow whatever test God has in mind for me, be it good or bad! The mystery of that, is what I live for. Not for other people at all. If you ever need to chat, I'm here! God bless!
I'm 34 a Marine Veteran and this hit me so deep I actually had me first good cry in a long time. I'm gonna fight everyday but I will never lose. Because I don't have a choice. My family needs me here.
Praying for you and hoping you can find something that helps to relieve your pain...if you like animals, please look into getting one of those special dogs who are rescued and trained to help with PTSD. You will save the dog and I think the dog can save you.
I've been struggling with depression and anxiety for years thanks to medication and family and friends support I'm still here. People need to reach out for help. God bless Robin Williams and everyone else whose password away from depression. Peace and love ❤❤
I wrote a note, loaded the gun...got into bed, took a shot of scotch and was more than ready...when i realized it would be my mama bringing my 5yr old daughter home in the morning and THEY would be the ones to find me. I just couldn't imagine them having to deal with that. I got help, got clean (15yrs sober now) i still struggle with depression and im sure i always will, but i no longer feel hopeless. Now, Im actually a mental health/addiction counselor...Not all things can be taught by reading a book...its easier to talk to someone who's lived it. Prayers to all of you that are struggling EDIT: I originally wrote this post over 2yrs ago..i was in a good place then...I continue to get likes and i feel obligated to share that I relapsed. I am Diabetic and had a cpl amputations, lost my job (waiting for Disability) Im borderline agoraphobic and addicted to benzos...Im 50 and scared, struggling...please pray for me
Isha kriya is the one life changing thing I do now, a gf of mine committed suicide While I was at her house two years ago and all I could think was why did she take me with her… I think part of our problem is being and living an American life we get so out of sync of how truly wonderful life is Supposed to be and so many things we don’t see & never told or even acknowledged of the thousands of wonderful things that we do do, we are criticized & judged & thrown aside in this culture rather than being protected, nurtured, & cultivated, u r loved & I hope u feel it🤗🤗🤗
At 15 years old I lost both my parents and brother in a car accident that I somehow lived through. We were on our way to say our goodbyes to my grandma who died 12 hours after the wreck. That was in 1996 and I still struggle with my depression and probably always will
I am so sorry that you had to experience that kind pain at such a young age, not many people experience grief from losing multiple very close family members all at once. I lost my father when I was 15, he was not only a great Dad- but sometimes he was like my mom also. I can't imagine how hard that must of been for u, your a very strong person & remember that your times of pain & struggle is what makes u who u are...
A few years ago I lost my home my husband my job and a couple of weeks after that my eighteen year old son died in a car accident. I never felt that kind of pain in my life and it took me awhile but somehow I made it here to share this with you and anyone who might need to read it. You would be surprised how much strength you really have . I've found some much needed grief counseling and time really made a whole world of difference.
There are no words for what you've been through, but I hope you see that number of likes and see that at least that many people have thought of you with love.
Bless you! Well, I lost my religion a long time ago but if I had some kind of power I would reverse all this and take all your pain & confusion away! I wish I could hug you and just listen to your story. I don't get life and seen too much. Now all I can do is try to help and consul people. Hang in there please. I'm trying to also.....
Yeah, I had depression and anxiety. On medication now and really helped. I was working 12 hrs. 7 days a week with a baby with colic. At work I started crying and didn’t know why. My mom took me to psychiatrist and in the hospital and all that helped me so much. I told both our 2 girls never to work like that and with a baby. My husband and family were there to help me. 🙏💖💕
It takes a very very special person to be called 3 days in a row from a suicidal friend. A depresssd person who would be too shamed and embarrassed to call anybody but the suicide hotline , you must be an amazing amazing friend. God bless you. For a depressed person to not be ashamed to call you 3 days in a row they must know you can be trusted at every single cost and you are indeed a special human. I don’t know anyone like you. I wish I did. You don’t know how valued and special you are. I hope you read this.
Jesus loves you and wants to save you. He died on the cross to free us from sin and hell. He loves you and wants to change your life. If you feel like receiving him as your Savior in your heart, just say from your heart and confess with your mouth: Lord Jesus, I accept you as my only and sufficient savior, write my name in the book of life and cell with your blood and forgive my sins, change my life, amen. Big hug family ❤. Jesus loves you
4 years ago my wife left with the kids, and my mother was diagnosed with stage 4 cancer ….but she wouldn’t go to the hospital…so we rented a home together and I tried to take care of her. It got worse and I was having to pick her up and carry her back and forth to the bathroom…I would sleep next to her because she was scared to be alone..…the cancer had spread to her lower spine with a lot of pain…I could feel her spine compromised as I carried her….but she still wouldn’t go to the hospital…I was getting desperate…we were able to get her some chemo pills but she had to go into quarantine for 14 days in order to get them…this was during Covid…so I took her to this treatment center and explained to her what had to happen…I wanted her to fight and live….she was upset with me….i could only talk to her through the window during quarantine….but she didn’t know where my voice was coming from…on the second day, she wouldn’t answer me through the window…she was confused….I had to leave to get some papers from home….and I told her I would be right back in 30 min….but she died right after I left…and yes, the sun turned black…..family is everything….love them while you can
My son passed when he was 2yrs old. He would be 10 thus year. I fell into the darkest place ever almost ruined my marriage lost my kids. Would push my friends away. I started to take ot one day at at time looking at all of the positive things around me and not letting the negative ones control me and my thoughts. I always try to keep moving forward for the good instead of falling in the bad. God only gives his hardest battles to his strongest warriors. Never quit. Failure is part of success but you never truly fail unless you give up. I now work in mental health hope I can change a life.
I know full well what you are going through. It’s been just at 2 yrs since I lost my lil girl. 2 yrs ago today was the last day I had a chance to hold her n tell her I love her. Tuesday marks 2 yrs since she has been gone. I still haven’t been able to get over it
I didn't think I'd ever escape but i always knew there was a light at the end of the tunnel, just didn't know I could make it there and I definitely didn't expect that light to be Jesus, You've probably heard it many times, but he has saved me from what seemed t be impossible to escape. Depression, anxiety, alcohol addiction, bulimia, suicide attempts, overdose from all of it God was there and at my lowest he pulled me out of darkness. Call on him and believe he answers those who diligently seek him. Praise the Lord 💖💖💖❤🙏
I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder in 1995. In 1997, my uncle promised we would beat depression together as he believed depression was part of the devil. 4 days later he was found in his apartment from suicide. To this day, I still remember his last words to me and hold on to my end of our promise. 25 years and still hard some days.
Don't give up. I lost my mother to this as a young boy. Whoever you've lost. Would never wish for you to dwell on and live your live based on their death or suffering. Help who you can and do your best.👏
Last year I was diagnosed with stage 4 colon cancer and my other half left because of the illness. I was hurt and angry that someone I loved could just walk away when I needed them most. I'm much better now and stronger and I'm beating the cancer. Thanks for this song
Relatable senbding condolences. Dealing with relapsed lymphoma with secondary testicular. After telling the woman i wanted to only fight for to love she decided To ghost. Meeting her truly was the only time i felt the courage strength and happiness for a possible future, today i sit empty , again. Idk what to even do anymore. I pray for your recovery
@@thisdeaddog and @Ty Taylor I have no words. That's horrible what you've both been through. I'm so sorry. This World can be so dark and nasty. I'm so happy you are beating it the cancer Ty and I am 🙏🏻 praying for recovery for both of you!!!!! Keep on fighting. Best wishes!!!
Just remember these words It’s not you who wants to die It’s the illness trying to kill you These words are the reason I am still alive to write and share this. You are not alone x
Thank you. Thank you for this astonishingly simple yet life changing statement. It seems like it should’ve been so obvious all these many years now that I’ve read your words…w all my heart and soul, thank you, thank you, THANK YOU!!!!!! Keep fighting to LIVE!!!!!
Okay brother I Ben there too many times to count but I came to realize it's only darker from the inside out but at the same time we learn from those darkest moments we over come an you will to and who ever else reads this just know there is a light 🕯️
😢every dark night and black sun must turn bright . So learn to dance in the dark be strong because there’s always a glimmer of light. Stay strong and hold on x beautiful lyrics
Pain never fades when you love with all of your might. But you can turn all of your pain into a beautiful memory and do something in their name. Life is what you make of it. Love to live and live to love
The pain stays the same. You learn how to live with it over time. Somedays it hits you as hard as the day it happened. Other days a smile crosses your face over a thought from long ago
I am 16 and fighting mental illness, this song is so powerful and I feel like I needed to hear it. Thank you, my friend. I really appreciate all you do for people out there and I'm sorry to hear your story.
I know these words may not be of any help to you but I'd strongly advise you to talk about it. Learn to be at peace with yourself. You're still young and you've got a life ahead of you that only you can live. Take care and you'll be fine as long as you have faith in God and most importantly as far as depression goes faith in yourself. You can do this.
Kid is depressed for silly reasons 🤣 go outside kid.. and see their are many people who is suffering and ur problems are nothing infront of them including mine..
I lost my only son, my youngest child almost 5 years ago from alcohol. He was 39. My dam hasn’t broken for the crying. I choose to remember him growing up and all the happiness and happy times I was given with him. Is my heart broken? Yes, totally shattered, am I depressed, no. God has given me incredible strength to endure it.
I raised a 46 year old special needs son. Who was my everything kept me busy made me feel useful and showed me love every day. I tried to make sure he was happy as much as I could because his dad left when he found out about the needs. About four years ago he passed away, and I felt like I died too. because then I was left alone and felt like I had no more purpose. Namely friend I had passed away also about three weeks after, so I also had no one to talk to my son loved church in music. Before he died, I made sure he was baptized which everyone said it was necessary. And when I have learned, I’m trying to get back to living is that God is my inspiration and my purpose was to lean on him and know that he has a reason for me. And I still have to remind myself of that every day. These days I go down my phone list to call people which most of the time they’re busy or no answer lol. So I sit back and just talk to God and pray for his peace and show me my purpose and help me to be useful. Hope there’s no typos in here cause I’m not going to rewrite it, but thanks.
Your beautiful son was going to heaven with or without baptism❤. Don't worry about man made traditions. May God's loving arm's be with you always. What a dedicated and loving Mom and person you are❤
@@debraann3515 I feel you. I am so sorry for the loss of a Child. You wrote something that hit me like when I lost my little Brother and my best friend,my mother 2 yrs later. Tried to kill myself and maybe I can't stop the down pour, I will will walk with you in the rain, my friend. Keep fighting. The Sun will shine again. God Bless you. P.S. I love alone ,no family to speak of and I also talk to God all day.❣️
I lost my husband in 1986 I was 29 he was 30. We had a son he was 2 years old at the time his father died and I was pregnant with our second child a girl, Ruby. I threw myself into work, bought a sports bar and worked like an animal for the next 15 years I never really went through the grieving process I kept pushing it back. So about 20 years later I had a nervous breakdown. I just wanted to drive my car into a brick wall and nobody would let me. So you know it can manifest itself at different times in different ways. Emotional trauma can become depression or not. For me it was erasing the pain. In order to do that I needed to stop feeling. So I took anything I could till I couldn't feel anymore. I almost couldn't feel myself into a pine box. Today it's a much different story. I got myself the help I so desperately needed. I'll be 68 in a month, remarried 5 years ago, and I allow myself to feel everything. I can process feelings now. And I'm a better person for it
I haven't heard it yet, but I know I'll cry. I lost my son at 34 overdosed. So I'm getting my tears ready. He was in Puerto Rico and I was in Colorado. My heart has never been so broken. In memory of my son, Joshua 06/03/2019 😥💔
My husband passed away March 28th 2020, and I'll never be the same. That next June would have been our 30th anniversary. Although the loss of my husband was awful, losing a child has to be worse. I have two sons, and I don't know how I would ever cope if I lost either one. My oldest son married a woman who somehow pushed me completely out of their lives, three grandsons and all. It's been almost 20 years since we spoke but he's alive. I can watch him online because he's a professor. So I have an idea where he lives. I cried a river of tears at that loss, so Shirley, you must have cried an ocean of tears and probably still do. I'm so sorry for your loss. I believe your son is in a better place, and you'll see him again someday. His Spirit is watching over you. I believe that with all of my heart because my husband gives me signs he's still with me. I feel touches, and I live alone. Just gentle poking so I know he's with me all the time. May God bless you with peace, love and strength.
Your comment stopped me immediately. I am just so sorry that you lost your dear husband. I've been with mine for 18 years, and he's my favorite person on this planet. We also don't have any extended family members, so we're all each other has, aside from our kids (ages 10, 19, & 20). I can't even imagine a life without him in it. I wish I could hug your neck. And I wish you the very best going forward. I know he's still with you, patiently waiting until you're beside him again ❤
@RobinFowler-3r, I feel your pain…I too am a widow who lost the love of my life and the father of my 3 wonderful children. After 19 yrs. I’m still fighting depression. Sending you love and prayers! May God bless us all! ❤️🙏🌎🌍🌏
1:44 been there myself one evening I'd end up with a mouthful of tramadol and codine over 60 pills in half of them in my mouth and a bottle of squash. Parked up behind the church where my grandmother is burried, a police officer pulled up alongside my car, sees me and all the pills spread out on the dashboard, Amazing grace blasting over the radio by brother called me worried about our mum and the fact she was suicidal after loosing her husband our dad. At the time we'd lost our garage MOT business to a massive fire Fighting a loosing battle with the insurance company . My brother at the time unaware he had made me jump spitting out the pills from my mouth
I've struggled with depression most of my life, I'm 29 now and I was ready to give up. Then I learned about the thief on the cross and found Matthew 11:28 "come to me all who are burdened and I will give you rest" and I gave my life to Jesus and my sun hasn't been black since.
Yea brother thanks for the song. Too many times in my years when I drank I felt that pain and emptiness to the core of my being. Thankfully God gave me a way out that I never thought possible. I’ve been sober 18 years now. Life’s not perfect but I never feel that complete emptiness now
My brother committed suicide 4 months ago, we both come from an abusive family, i could talk about it, heal. He couldn't. I've been on my knees but feel his presence somehow. The feeling of hope is coming, life is so fragile, both fantastic and cruel. Thank you for this song ❤️.
My prayers are with you 🕊️ My sister put a .32 in her mouth when she was 21 and my Mom tried to take her life so many times,about the 3rd attempt we were in ICU and she was conscious but incubated, and I went off yelling at her why? Why? do you want to leave me so badly? Don’t you love me? If I have to be on this earth and suffer you have to suffer with me ! I think you’re being selfish ,only thinking about yourself and your feelings, what about the feelings of the people that love you? The people that will be hurt alone and heartbroken because of your actions. Then I asked her if it hurt (she sliced her wrists took pills and was in a ice cold bathtub for 2 days) technically she was DOA but the hospital tried a new tx to rewarm a hypothermic body, they said possibility of brain damage from bodies methane gases, remarkably she had no brain damage . She nodded her head yes that the suicide attempt hurt. I said Good! Are you going to try to do it again? She shook her head no. lol She never tried to kill her self again and she died a few years later from a massive brain hemorrhagic stroke. Cemeteries aren’t for the dead, they’re for the living . I pray for your healing and recovery 🙏🙏🙏✝️
I'm 61 and lived with depression all of my life. The worst time for me was when I was 40. I had the end of my life all planned out. My daughter came over that night for a visit and spent the night talking to me, so my time passed. What has helped me get out of the darkness first, was music, and medicine, and there was a forum I hung out in called wing of madness. As I started to get a little past the deepest despair, I was glad I didn't kill myself. I was able to finally notice the blue sky, the flowers and their vivid colors. Just little things I would have missed. I really have to end this saying that music was my huge crutch. I'm still on meds 21 years later, and though I would prefer not to have to be on them, I found out the hard way that I can't do without them. For anyone that is in the pit of despair, it really does get better, find your crutch, your outlet, and stand strong.
@Lineproof yeah, I'll never be able to get off them, I tried and it was a horrible failure. Others can be on awhile and get off them, and others recover from depression without any meds. I wish I was that person! 😊
I feed people. I give them resources if they don't have them. Sometimes coats. Homeless people. I like cooking Big at Thanksgiving and going to different parks and feeding people. I gather toys and stuff thru the year for kids around me I know won't get much if anything. Food baskets for families and the elderly. Thats what we did. Now, I try to continue what we started. I will always try to give out love and a sandwich. Along with prayers for a better life and understanding of You Lord.
JESUS CHRIST is the only reason I am still here. God bless each and everyone who are on this channel and are hurting and suffering for what ever the reason. I Love you all
around 15 years afo the sun went black. I don't even feel anymore, I'm on meds for depression. I cared for my hubby 24/7, for 5 years, very very hard work, I buried him on the 5th sep 24. I have no tears, no feelings, no joy... I'm done, I have nothings left, I'm 8 years sober. had to strip my house to accomadate hospitail beds etc. Its 5.41 am in scotland. I'm so tired just existing. Well done with everything you've done xxx God bless xxx
This hits too close to home. It's been 2 years since I had the gun in my hand. My sun is still black from time to time, but I'm still fighting ! Thank you for sharing your story
My sun turned black when my son's lifeless body found. Arrested my eldest son for his murder. I went to inpatient care because I was not safe to be alone. I use music, I talk it out, and I have a great support system.
Bless you 🙏❤️ xo #RIPMYBOY 🕊️ Casey Durham 🕊️ xoxo Love you so much miss you like nothing of this world 🌎 💔 xoxo 1985 _ 2022 .... God how I miss you man .. love always and until we see each other again { Moms } xoxo #Wareagle #Lookgoodfeelgood 🙏
That's terrible, the old story of Cain & Abel. So sorry for your loss & family tragedy. My mother was devastated when my younger brother Kevin died, even more devastated when her 5 yr old granddaughter was killed in a car accident. RIP Kevin & Rozlin "Rose" 🌹💔😥
The saddest part of my life. I lost my mom at 14 and my dad at 15. Glad the sun came back out for me. I would imagine saying goodbye to a child so much harder. My heart goes out to those parents.
As I read these comments, I learn a lot about myself. I am so thankful. When I feel at my worst, I am sent blessings. God has been my refuge. Knowing I am not alone is consoling. Hoping to someday tell my story so that I may help someone. 🙌🏾
Literally being in nature is one of the very best remedies for when the sun turns black. Being next to your fur baby or another animal if you don't have one helps you feel not so alone. Sending loving and healing vibes to all..... Hold on. Hold on hard. Someday it will all be okay.
True. Lost now my two fur babies. My 8 months old died from a vet mistake. My first one, 2 years old now, life also took it away from me. He still lives with my ex. After 5 years I was cheated and he decided to switch me for his new virtual girlfriend. I had to move out, lost the house I thought was ours, the friends, the city. Everything had to change in just a couple of weeks. It hurts so much. I just wish I could have my fur babies again to help me through it... losing everything you cared is just horrible, i thought therapy could help, but at the end it all comes on how you deal with your pain. And it is so much...
@cRyS112 I'm so sorry. You will find new love and companions. Trust in life's beautiful endless possibilities. Remeber every action changes you and your life.
I lost my mum today, I can't relax and I found your song. I've played it over and over. I suffer with depression and anxiety. Your song is beautiful. Thank you for helping me get through tonight.
🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗❤️ here's a million hugs for you so I feel loss keep your head up stay strong and always keep the good memories with you He's watching over you 100% cuz I know my dad's watching over me he visits me in my dream sometimes and I'll tell you they're not dreams cuz I can feel him it'll be okay My prayers go out to you and your family be safe much love
Thank you for this song. My mom who was my best friend took her life Jan 4, 2011. I was the one that found her cold and deceased. I hate to admit there are few moments I remember from that night. The sun turned black for me that day but here I am almost 13 years later doing great. I’ve had my dark moments but kept fighting. Today I’m married with a family and happy for the most part. Hugs and love to all those who are in the dark moments. Hugs and love to everyone!! You are wanted and loved!
My Sun Turned Black Soooo many times in my 70 plus years.. With my brother taking his life at 32 years of age..I was 22..that there was a struggle for me..years of depression..I was pregnant at the time and also lost my baby at 7 months..a son..That put a double whammy on me..and in 2017..my best friend took her life..Still to this day.. I'm angry..sooo angry because she left me and so many behind. Dark days have seemed common in my life..But with each turmoil I face I believe with Jesus helping me I've been able to get up and try to continue my life..Until I'm called home Bless everyone
Sorry to hear of your very sad loss. My youngest brother took his life age 27. Life is never the same, but we carry them in our hearts and they can bring us deep strength at times to support others ❤
I have struggled with depression and anxiety disorder for multiple years. Now at almost 66 I find helpful to do self talk in my mirror. It can be about anything, the subjects. For me much of it was begging and pleading and analyzing my former drug use. Telling myself that I AM A GOOD PERSON AND I DESERVE BETTER. I also wrote a list of all good, positive healthy things
That I can do with me or with friends. I found that to be helpful. As much as it can hurt or feel impossible, PLEASE reach out to ppl or your pet even. Let them know exactly how you feel, thoughts of how it could be better. When you're stronger, reach out to someone who used to be where you are. Hugs are free, so reach out and share .
I have had depression for years and clear back when I was in school. Kids can be cruel back then and even now. I find what helps me is my dog poppi, walking and gospel music. Just remember God is always with you.
I realised that last night. I feel like I am sooooo alone and so scared that I have to carry on another day/week/month/year with this feeling. I feel homesick for a place that's was never home and heartbroken over a love I have never had and its hurting.
My sun turned black when I lost my son October 2022 to fentanyl poisoning and depression. Turned even blacker when I found out my brother sold it to him. I am now active in the fentanyl war that makes my son brighter. Great song hugs and prayers to you
Dear Father God, I Pray for all the lonely and those in their darkest hour. I Pray that you lift them up Lord Jesus, you were at your darkest hour on the Cross. Your Grace and mercy is sufficient, Amen
My son called me from the hospital, 100s of miles away. He had a seizure at work and passed out. They found a tumor on his brain. I cried daily for months. I lost my dad to cancer, 5 days after my 21st birthday. Now I felt I was reliving it, but this is worse, this is my son, and there's nothing I can do! I did everything I could think of to stay busy, I started painting, doing artwork with rocks, crystals, sticks, and shells. My granddaughters keep me going, one step one breath, one prayer 💜
@primeiroultimo1726 I appreciate it but it's to deep I feel like I just lost everyone in my life especially my son Camo my parents gave me up at age 12 to the State of Oregon.
Whenever I get depressed/Sad/or even just feel like a nobody I pray to God, he is my light when it comes to those negative feelings and thoughts in my mind.
this, as some random 14 year old kid, made me realize how little i know and how much i have yet to feel and learn at a time where i really needed it. Thanks dude, beautiful song and I hope everything's okay for you in life.
im 14 too. i feel like its the age where we really start to grow up and be accepted as a teenager. like yeah we are legally teenagers at 13 but 14 is just when we start to mature. i hope no one has to relate to this song but i know some people will and thats okay (sorry if this comment makes no sense)
As some random 14 year old, i hate my life. It's painful and I don't want to deal with school anymore. Last year was the best year of my entire life so far and this year is already looking down. Keep your life on a good track, cause when you're in a deep state you can never recover.
@@cockstealer bro i promise you no matter what has happened things will be better of all the things i could promise thats the one i'd emphasize the most. with time and life's trials people learn everything they know about life and i promise you one day if you never give up you'll learn and see for yourself based from those lessons things do get better you just gotta keep going and keep fighting for a view from the top
My sun has been black most of my life. With no one to turn to, I turned to music. Thats how I found you tonight. With the time I have left, I'm looking for brighter days 🌞
@@Kimberly-ps5sq Yeah I agree, I try keep my chin up and fight each day, I'm 38 and still fighting. It is a mental illness I don't think it does pass? its something we have to except and may have to live with forever.
@@Kimberly-ps5sq i don't think you can completely get rid of it because it is the way your mind tells you something is wrong much like how your body feels pain. I've gone through the big one s like heart break and insecurities I'm 1000 stronger after I figured it all out. Depression will always be apart of our lives but only pay it the attention it deserves "oh I feel bad I'm going to do something about" and no more👍
When the sun turns black for me, i look to my kids. My four sons are the reasons i wake up every day. Their smiles and just them being around me gives me the strength to push forward.
Same here brother, I have four sons too, but unfortunately for me it’s only pictures I can turn to. But knowing they are out there is what keeps me here as I know one day we will all be together 🙏 but until that day the sun is always black 💔
In 2023 I got two strokes n doctors discovered 2 blood clots on my right side of my Brian,, that led to a 9 hour emergency open brain surgery n glory to God I survived n it took a year for me to recover , the healing never stops m today I'm suffering from depression aswell as a mental illness n that's all my long term side effects.. bt u knw wt pulls me thrgh? Prayer, faith , will power n endurance,, it's ok to not be ok, cry if u must, mope around if u must bt remember one thing ,,,, our God won't give u so many obstacles if he knew u cant handle it,,, u had some of the difficult tests, bt ur fairth kept u above all
Lucky to have survived ...my wife was 6 months pregnant when she had a sudden stroke she was put in a coma the baby was taken 2 days into it and survived ....2.5 lbs baby boy ....she lived for another 6 days before test came back saying she had blood clots surrounding her heart ...her valve was stuck open allowing these clots to flow In .....I got 1 night out of 6 were they would reduse the meds to check for brain activity ....I got 15 -20 min with her witch felt like 3 hrs .....I got to talk to her and she would squeeze my hand to answer my questions or validate she was getting what I was saying ....in they 20 min I was sitting on the bed with her and had both her hands in mine and it happened.....she knew she had the baby.....I promised her to do my part as a father and husband.....told her I was sorry she had to leave us and I would make sure her kids grew up with her relevant in thier lives .....her arms went limp and the machines went crazy .....I was kicked out of the room ......was told 4 hrs later she was all done ....there was no brain activity that she had several aneurysms throughout her brain .....I'm grateful I got those last min with her but if I knew that the min her arms went limp on me my life would change the way it has I don't know what I'm trying to say ....my mind is scattered ....I have alot of pain I'm trying to heal from ...my son is now 6 years old my oldest is 7 and I have a 4 year old autistic child with a girl I've been with for 5 years that I fell absolutely in love with ....truly thought she was my twin flame ....I for gone thru what I went thru loosing my business woth 18 employees and my 3 story house into a camper with my kids all for my kids I hooked up with this angel that brought me so much peace and love and freedom to work and support my family .....she decided to rip my heart out .....telling Me I did it all right it was her ......she cheated than when i found out she ghosted me and our son .....I check in on her but she is avoiding us in shame ... ..I hate to admit but it was easier to loose my wife ...knowing I could never fix it .....she's still alive and living her best life and I'm stuck again ...gave up my job lost everything. To take her place raising our son .....I'm all messed up ....dark times ......just be grateful you survived .....God obviesly has a plan for you .....
Last year I lost my boyfriend of 20 years. His family took everything and put me my dog & 3 cats out. We are struggling but we are still together. My sun is still black. My fur babies are what's getting me through this & GOD keeps helping us survive together. ❤️
Ur not alone I'm currently homeless with my little brother and our three cats Our mom throw us out after she got Married to her new husband, Always remember God is with you at all times
that's terrible! praying for you. what type of monsters would do that??? and to top it all off, they kick your children out as well. don't worry, God is a God of recompense - they'll get exactly what they deserve.
I want to meet, hug and spend time with everyone who listens to this song and feels bad right now. I wish this were possible and we could heal together :')💛
The feeling is unimaginable, difficult to describe, and you just want it all to stop forever. But you hold on to hope. And this song speaks volumes.... don't give up. ❤
If you have never personally dealt with depression, you have no idea how devastating it can be. I have been dealing with depression since 2001, I have been taking several types of anti-depressants over the past 22 yrs & I still have suicidal thoughts almost every single day. The sad part of our society is that most people don't recognize depression as a sickness, but see it as a weakness ☹️
Depression is a disease that can sometimes lead to death. 😮 If someone has never experienced chronic pain, grief, domestic violence, or depression, they really have no business commenting about it--bc they just sound silly, and it annoys the person that IS going through it. From the outside looking in --each of those problems seem fairly easy to deal with; but, as you know, when one is going through it themselves, there are many factors that an outsider fails to consider. 😮
I also have depression is doing pull my self out other information cry every DAY MY HUSBAND IS ALWAYS DRUNK HE HIT ME FOR THE FIRST TIME AFTER 42 YEARS I CALLED THE POLICE I'M SO SAD I DIDN'T HAVE HIM ARRESTED GOD BLESS SANDY
You are right. If I say losing my spouse of 20 years, almost ended my life by my own hands..I was selfish. Because of that I’m here. Not by choice just didn’t want my legacy being a p’ssy. Day by day I’m going
You too sis, and you too reader! You are all worth. It may feel like the opposite sometimes but you really gotta hammer it down because its true; YOU ARE WORTH!
Jesus Christ helps me through my sadness and hurt always! I just lost my late wife just over 17 months ago and it still hurts!! But I know I am not alone and God helps me through my hardest times and through GOD and Jesus Christ I find my happiness and joy!!
I lost my wife of 55 years to Covid-19 which nearly took me. This put me in a very dark place as I was grieving for Ann and fighting Covid-19. I wanted to do something to ease the pain. So I started a diary, putting down my darkest thoughts and my pain. After about five months my entries became lighter and easier. Then I realized my mind was heading in the same direction. I had been taking my dark thoughts and grief out of my head and putting them onto paper which meant I could read my thoughts which I found so helpful. I know I will never know happiness again but was able to face. the world once again.
I'm 67 and starting to write things down when I was about 13, It helped but the disease didn't go away. I'm so sorry about your wife. I had a husband that I loved so much, and a little boy to raise by myself because he left us. He played games, coming in and out of our lives and it hurt so much. He's been gone for many years, passed away a few years ago and I still love him, always will. Writing does help. Much love my friend.
I lost my son 3 years ago, it's been so hard to climb out of my depression. What keeps me going is the love of the lord. I know some day I will see my son again. Blessings
I just lost mine 3 months ago. It created a hole in my soul. he was 24+ it happened in his sleep. never woke up again. My family are filled with doctors and nurses but there was nothing they could do He left silently without any good byes but again I wouldn't have been able to take it anyways. I hope his soul is with the Lord. Amen
I lost my husband in February 2024 and have been depressed! But God has come into my heart and lifted me up!!!! That song is so beautiful! Made me cry!
Sandra, I’m so sorry for your loss darlin, I can’t imagine what you’re going through, but I know Jesus loves you & He’s right there with you. Jesus is the only one that can give you true peace. I pray He wraps His arms around you & comforts you. I’m bedridden, on Hospice Care & I know I won’t be here much longer, but as long as Jesus is in me, beside me & waiting for me; makes it all worth it. My husband & I met in Elementary school & found each other again a few years later & been married ever since. He’s not handling this very well, but I told him that I would wait for him when he comes to join me. This life is just a blink! Please take care of yourself & reach out to Jesus; He will never fail you. With Love & Prayers, Sister Patricia/Apostolic 💓✝️🙏🙌🕊
My best friend committed suicide last year. He was only 29. He had moved 12 hrs away so we weren't in touch as much. He had suffered with depression for many years. I miss him dearly. I wish he had someone close by who could of been there for him. He was such an amazing artist. He played guitar and could sketch and paint so beautifully. I look forward to seeing him in paradise one day.
My mother passed away when I was 12. It was such an emotional roller coaster for anyone especially as a preteen. When she was in the ICU fighting for her life in a coma due to diabetes complications, all of my aunts and uncles on my father’s side were present and I decided to kneel down on her bedside on the cold hospital floor and sing a song she always sang to me when I was young. It was Amazing Grace. When I got to the second verse of the song, she woke up out of the coma right then and there and sang the song with me as best as she could. Unfortunately a few days later she went to her home in Heaven but I was still left alone it felt like. I began to search for love in all the wrong places, took advantage of girls my age and developed an addiction to pornography (which I still fight to this day). I am now 31 and happily married with a beautiful 5 year old girl and I think of that story of singing to my mother and her waking up as a reminder that I can find peace in the midst of very difficult times because of God’s Amazing Grace. Love you all and please reach out to others if you are struggling, and reach out to those who are struggling.
You should be very proud of yourself mate, the fact you're still up and fighting and with a little one of your own shows you what type of man you are. Very well done
@@ljsart8405I’m sorry I made you cry 😢 I just wanted to hopefully encourage others that have experienced similar traumas. I chose, by the grace of God, to turn my past hurts into future positives.
When I was very lonely, the only peace I felt came from the times that I spent listening to worship music lying on the floor lost in the presence of the Lord. When I run to Him, He is always faithful to wrap his Spirit around my heart. He brings peace and hope every time!
Mann my sentiments exactly. People who think that we are crazy just don’t understand the overwhelming peace and contentment he bestows upon us in those moments of rejoicing. My prayer is that everyone embraces the Lord God Jesus Christ so that they too can experience this same level of peace and love!!!
Idk where the emptiness comes from. On the outside, It seems perfect...on the inside...desolate!! I just keep putting one foot in front of the other and keep going😥
You look like my favorite grandson. I love you on sight. You have an amazing personality that draws others to you. God is real. I’ve experienced Him. Believe, read, pray. He is there. He is love. He heals, protects, provides and you will be with Him forever. 🙂
The saddest part of life is when the person who gave you the best memories become a memory...
I litterally lost her she was everything to me I still wake up and remember all the good memories and how happy I was back then
I lost my grandmother and a guy hung out with all the time my best friend I grew up with him
Then he tells you that the biggest mistake of his life was letting you go.
Facts!
@@johnnygann2095 no
“When a man cries it isn’t because he’s weak. Its because he’s been strong for to long”
Fucking facts ❤
is there something wrong with me if i haven’t cried this hole video and i am boy and 12…?
True my friend.... But there's no hope for me
Thank you...
@@seaneschendal6349 you are just happy to be 12.... go on and you will see.... made a good job up to now👍👍👍👍
If someone notices this, I’m still alive and fighting depression
The world is a better place with you in it!
God bless you sir take one day at a time
If you ever need someone to speak too please reply to my comment and we can exchange FB or emails etc and I'm always here if you need to talk my friend
You're doing good ...
Not turning to drugs or alcohol is by far the very best thing you can do for urself and sadly way too many ppl lose themselves after losing someone they love because they turn to the wrong outlets to face whatever they're grieving... Everyday even if you don't notice it you're getting a little bit stronger and while you're heart will never be the same you WILL learn how to live with this new way of life if you make the choice too...
You got this 🎉
@Stranger_in_the_Alps. Your pain in palpable. My heart goes out to you. Depression is SO DIFFICULT. While you are walking in darkness please know there is light ahead. It may feel like there will never be a light. It took a long time for me to find that light but, I did FIND IT. You will find it. Please hold tight. Allow yourself the bad days. Search for the good days. You are in my prayers. Please know that you are not alone. There are so many out here who truly care about you. Please don’t ever forget that.
Stay strong we're all in this battle together jus different levels fighting different demons! ALWAYS LOOK UP N REMEMBER U ARE LOVED N NEEDED HERE, no matter what our situation may be right now... theres always brighter days ahead✨️🥰🥹🙏🏼"A beautiful smile, hides the most pain!" -Robin Williams 😇
In the 90’s I was suffering with depression and I finally decided if I couldn’t make myself happy , I would start doing everything in my power to make others happy. After a while a miracle seemed to happen , the more I tried to care for and help others the better I felt . I also took comfort in knowing that Jesus knew my pain as He hung on the cross. Today I’m doing very well.
Agree we had much sorrow but in trying to help others when they were depressed and doing so we felt encouraged and upbuilted! 😍🥰😍😍😍😍😍🥰😍🥰😍🥰😍💘💯
I can relate 😢.. God bless 🙌
Bless you bless you
I knew jesus was gonna be involved as soon as you started❤
Does Jesus save the Sentinelese? They have never met another human but once. Do aliens believe in God?
The same reason Jesus didn't exist 2 million years ago for the first humans. Get your head out of your butt. This is all we have. Make the most of it.
Also in your Bible, God forgives all sins. So be good and have fun.
Been fighting for 6 years and still going. I’ve lost 5 people to suicide and I cannot tell you how hard this has been. I needed to hear this tonight. Thank you.
@your.local-loser (Sorry for the paragraph) I admire your perseverance and strength. We can’t forget those we have lost. I hope you find peace and healing and I am rooting for you!
God is with you no matter what
I promise you God wants to heal you. Even more than that, He wants to give a whole new life. He chases after you everyday. You’re His precious one, but He can’t do anything if you don’t let Him.
@your.local_loser please please change your name.... Change it to I am WORTHY. Blessings and hugs to you my friend.
Too buddy how are you feeling.. don't isolate your self Okey.. talk to your family members or friend. Stay strong king
this song seemed to come out of nowhere for my recommendations so I’m taking it as a sign that I needed to hear it. I feel this through my whole soul. This is a felt beauty.
Imagine taking the algorithm as kind of a destiny that choses what you „need“ to hear. I honestly think thats sad bro. No offense whatsoever
Same here it just got recommended to me rn
x2 Idk. no words guys...
I agree!! I had the same!!
Same here🤍🙏🏼
Almost jumped off a cliff by the beach, I fell to my knees and started praying instead. 🙏 God is good
Man, god is good you need to pray everyday and mean it, it helps sooo much. I pray for your peace
Hey brother if no one said they love you, I do I'm dealing with homeless and my sons mother passed away yesterday as 2yrs ago so please fight
I suffer with mental illness and still am.My mom passed away 3years ago and my sons mother passed away 2years ago as of yesterday and when my mom passed i lost my son and just about ended it but I kept fighting and I got my son back home and we lost my apartment and moved with aunt cuz step dad passed last Easter so I was taking care of her and she passed two months ago and now me and my son are currently homeless and I thought about quitting but I promise my mom I would never leave my son. Your song touched me brother you have talent 😢
Life is real hard and almost not worth it
Hi Joshua Curtis just know I'm praying for you.gina@@JoshuaCurtis-ww8vw
When I was so desperate and no one to talk to...I started to talk to God every time I noticed any negative thoughts or feelings. I stand on faith only. I have been diagnosed stage 4 bone cancer and in the fight of my life. I gave all worries to our Savior and I feel so inpowered by the Holy Spirit! Reach out to God!
Jesus said by your faith you are healed. You have to believe it 100%. I read a story where a guy went to hospital after taking about thirty anti-depressants. In the hospital they fixed him up brought his vitals down and he was informed that he had taken placebo pills.
God is our refuge every moment of the day. Please let us know how you are. I pray for you, so sad you have no one to talk to, sad sad...lift your eyes to Go. I pray for strength, inner strength, physical strength as I lay you before the feet of Jesus ❤❤
May you continue to be filled with God's healing and grace. You got this!🩷
yes, Our Lord will never leave us or forsake us
Fenbendazole and ivermectin together 🙏 hope it helps you.
" The most hard pain is when you feel to cry but you got no tears to drop anymore "
Yes!! That's the worst
Where I'm at
Itig
I haven't cried fr for ages. The last time I cry cried was when I was watching Rengokus death in demon slayer, and even then, I couldn't fully cry, or shed all the tears that I needed to both overr that and many other things.
That's how I feel right now.
The sun just turned black for me on August 22nd, I was diagnosed with lung cancer which has spread to my brain, im scared to death waiting for doctors to start my treatments, yes, my sun is black right now!!! God will see me through this though!! Thank you, lovely song!! ✌️
Praying for you Janet. I've seen some amazing result trials from ivermectin and fenbendazol. Make each day count. ❤
I just prayed for you💕💜🌺🙏🏼
Ur comment bought tears to my eyes 🥺🥺 I'm so sorry to hear that,
I do see u have faith in God nd i pray healing over u in Jesus name, the only devine healing can come from Jesus, he sees u!! I pray that God will give u the strength nd guidance u need to get through these terrible times, but keep the faith bc HE LOVES U!! ❤️ God bless u 🙏🏼
Praying for you❤
I want to hug you.
My Son suffered from bad depression for years. But I kept praying and showing love. Now at 40yrs. Old he’s happy and fixing to have his first baby. Thank you, Jesus for lifting my Son up and healing him. ❤
Amen
Your comment made me so happy. And I really hope you are enjoying that grand baby
@@m19y29 Jesus gave us all free will. Just because something bad happens doesnt mean it's his fault. Doesn't mean "Oh well if God was so loving then this, this and this wouldn't have happened." God isn't the reason he had depression, but he is the reason he doesn't. John 3:16 King James Version "For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life." Get saved today ❤
@m19y29 what a disrespectful way to approach somebody. I hope you find peace. Jesus may or may not be involved. Who are you to tell her that or her son?
Suffered with drug addiction for all my young adult life been glean for 4 years god its good for all the drug user's out there my love and keep trying ❤
I;m 67 and suffered from depression all my life. As a child, everyone was sleeping except me. I'd walk around the house by myself and it was so lonely. I cried a lot so my mom sent me to the and he gave me valium. I was about 13 or 14. Went through a lot in my life. It wasn't till I was about 31 that a dr. listened to me and gave me meds that made my life "normal". I suffer through black days still but I know it will end. Thanks for the beautiful song and for making me cry. Much love always. And to all who suffer, you are NOT alone. Depression is an illness. Please see your doctor.
I recently lost my mother and father in a murder/ suicide and the depression is indescribable. I feel your pain. Writing my music helps me cope as well. But I'm quite confident that it will never completely go away.
I’m so sorry for your loss. I see you. I am sorry for that painful tragedy. No one should have to go through that. I think you are right. Sometimes the pain doesn’t go away. But when the pain won’t go away sometimes we can redirect that pain to accomplish something good and positive. I love you. I hope you’re doing well.
i’m so sorry. i wish i could hug you right now. wherever you are, im sending you love.❤️
I am sorry for your loss. Sending you healing and love
I was diagnosed at the age of 7 I've been living with it for 30 years the one thing I've learned is no matter what anyone says there is some one out there that loves you, and no offence to anyone I'm not talking about religion.
I can't hear anything.
My brother, well done. You've made me cry for the first time in five years, and the last time I did it was over my father's casket. I'm 16 and struggling with PTSD and depression, but this song's reached because I think I've found love, and that's given me hope. Thank you.
A few months ago, I was going down a conspiracy theory rabbit hole on TikTok. I’m usually a very optimistic person but, this nearly ended me. I was so anxiety ridden and so depressed, that I thought about ending it all. It was truly one of the most scary times in my life. I couldn’t even get up out of bed, without thinking that we were all being manipulated. I got out of it by returning to my childhood memories. Listening to music, watching Harry Potter. It got me out of the darkness and back into the light.
Wow I'm here with you in the same boat brother you got it I know it gets hard life is more difficult than it should be I understand stay strong✊🏼🩵
hey man, i’m 15 and i was cured of ptsd last year. there’s a light at the end of the tunnel ❤️
Stay strong Bro, we're still here so that must mean something. Doesn't matter if tommorow ain't better. As long as we're here, in present, living. And we'll live again, tomorrow, the next day, the next week, and many more. We'll live.
Im 16 too and 2 years ago I constantly wanted to die. But for some reason I decided to watch anime for the first time in years. It was violet evergarden that i watched, that day was the first time i had a good cry in years and i started to recover after that, i started sleeping better, I can actually socialize in school and eventually this willing to die disappeared. Now I'm trying my best to help others recover from their BIG SAD.
I'm an old man now. I can tell you that it ALWAYS gets better, and it's worth hanging around for. Courage Willow.
So true! It always gets better. Thanks for sharing!
Seems to just get worse, even at 63
Anxiety and Depression is no fun even at 60 yrs old
Thank you man
@@RKar2009I’m sorry man
I've lost my parents two husbands and now I'm on my own. And the dark just creeps in and I cry and I remember all the memories. But if it wasn't for God who I hold on too tightly and talk to him all the time he keeps me protected with angels. It's that pretty easy but my faith is strong and I know that God has a plan for me. And the lessons I'm learning from life issues. Please keep your faith🙏🏻🙏🏻
You know you've made a good song when you make yourself cry from how beautiful /sad it is
Yea.
Yeah, kinda cringe though. It's like laughing at your own jokes
@@silkroad1201 meh,
@@silkroad1201 sometimes laughing at your own jokes or crying at your own songs isn't necessarily cringe. That just means that you value what you created and you think it's genuinely good, and there is nothing wrong with that.
It feels like he’s acting to illustrate to you how “sad and emotional” this song is, because it isn’t particularly. Especially based on the title of the video. He’s selling something. I dunno put a bad taste in my mouth.
Years ago I tried to take my life. I had just given birth to my 3rd daughter and my husband was off with yet another of his gfs. It was a black time. So in the midst of slicing my arm my baby started to cry, something she'd never done. That did it ! God spoke. Life hasn't always been kind after that point, but I made a promise that day that no matter what, I wouldn't waste the life I was given. So I try. There are people with more sorrow, look to the light and be thankful. I'm sure this won't help anyone but I felt the need to share. Thank you for a reminder and a heartfelt song. Bless you and hugs'n love 🤗🥰
It takes a lot of strength to carry all of that pain. I'm proud of you. Big hugs from Minnesota.
Still fighting the black, writing poetry and song helps, my partner chose to die, leave his 13 yr old and me who loved him dearly, clearly our love wasn't enough❤
@@SuzanneBirkett-i5b awww, so sorry about your loss Suzanne. I truly understand how it feels losing a loved one, my wife passed while having our daughter, wasn't easy for me though but I'm grateful to God for today 🙏. My deep and sincere condolences, how have you been? 🌺😢
@@georgemelvin880sorry for hear that, maybe i will die in this year, i’m sad all the time
@@땡땡이-p1v don’t bro it ain’t worth it
Trust me keep going I’m suffering too but I don’t stop
I am a man with little time left. God is where I find my refuge. My sun turned black a long time ago when at 17 my addiction started. First I lost my family, then my business, lost my home, and then lost the respect and love of family and friends.
Drifted around in my addiction for years 30 years to be exact. At the end I was physically, mentally, and spiritually broke. Went to AA I was directed there to God. Then about 3 years ago I went on a trip to Michigan from NC I listened to the Bible going and coming I got thirsty for more, so I have been reading the true word every since. I had a moment of suicidal tendencies and called mental health and checked myself in. I returned home and something started to grow on the inside. I kept reading and I got better. My relationship with God and faith is what is healing me.
Love God, believe and have faith, just the size of a mustard seed and your thinking will change.
Amen brother. Love seeing others share how they came to find Christ and the love and forgiveness found in Him!
There is nothing curable for depression more than the relationship with god!
You are very strong sir
Keep it up, man!
That’s amazing! So glad to hear that you are doing better and I hope you know how valuable you are, and care about (and treat) yourself as you should now: with love
- from someone who somehow overcame self-hatred by the power of the living spirit of Jesus Christ in me (and thru his unconditional love and forgiveness/grace 💕)
When I am depressed I have a quiet time with God and tell him what is bothering me. Most of the time I hear his voice "telling me to be strong and u got this."
I lost my dad to suicide 3 weeks ago. It was his 2nd attempt, his 1st attempt was last year. He OD’d and survived, but was never really the same and it broke my heart. 3 weeks ago I found him hanging from a tree in our backyard, his youngest son (I’m 20)… He tried so hard for so many years, therapies, medications, you name it, we tried so hard as a family unit to support him but ultimately he couldn’t fight the battle anymore. I sacrificed most of my adolescence to be at home because I wanted to be with my family. My dad was my best friend, as a result of trying to help him with his mental illness we developed a very unique and open father son relationship. He just felt like he was a burden to us and holding me back, but I was more than happy to sacrifice anything to rather stay in with him and do something at home with him, if anything at all. I preferred that. Not gonna get too sappy with this, but I just really fucking miss my dad and just want one more bear hug, even though I’m 20 lol. I just want to look up at him again and call him Daddy one more time.
Love you dad, I don’t think the grief will ever get better with time, it just changes form slightly, but it’s still ever so painful as the day I found you. I miss you so much, I can only hope and pray that you’re at peace now. 🖤🖤🖤
So sorry to hear your pain Jonathan, I understand from personal experience of being at the place of desperation to commit suicide, I think I know partly where your dad's thoughts and feelings were at as he was going through the battle of should I or should I not leave this world. Please You must not put any blame on yourself for this ..... its not any of your fault why this happened. I have learned from my recovery of suicidal tendency that I was not able to focus on what my family members would go through experiencing my taking my own life, especially the person who would find me. The mental illness and depression takes away your ability to be rational, logical or think straight, it just sucks you into a place of lostness and all hope has gone. Sorry if I seem to be going on and on but I am trying to say to you, do not be hard on yourself and blame any of this on yourself as your grief process unfolds in your life. God bless you and I pray that you will be comforted by the people around you who love you very much 🙏
I’m sorry 😢
Im thinking of you,i pray for you,im also a Dad,a grandfather a husband and was also almost there,may God bless you,keep you strong and just remember all the good what he have done,keep your head up and Never give up,love you my son although i dont know you,God blessings for you and the family
Lazarus, George, thank you for sharing your experience and reaffirming that God is the only way we can get through insurmountable challenges that we as fleshly Men can’t beat alone, but only through the spirit of God and his Son. I know that it wasn’t my fault, nor my families. But to see the person you love so much suffering is an indescribable pain. Even through his darkest moments, he still had Faith. And that is the only thing that really matters. I can understand why he did what he did, I’ve been diagnosed with major depression at 18. Although I’ve never had suicidal tendencies, I do understand to an extent the suffering that’s involved.
Depression is rough on my Dad’s side of the family, he lost 2 family members to suicide as well. This silent killer is devastating in my family, but I will remain Faithful and thankful for what I have, and I WILL break the cycle even if it’s the last thing I do.
Thank you for reminding me I’m not alone and other people have been through stuff like this, it’s easy to get sucked into a black hole and feel completely alone. God bless both of you. George, ek sien Oom is ook Afrikaans. Ek ook, wat is die kanse dat ek in een van my mense vas loop op die internet? Dankie vir Oom se woorde. 🙏🏼
That really blows ,the medical establishment is more concerned with making cash, it's those not so connected that can really make a change
I’m a war veteran and I have been fighting this for the last 29 years to present. Thank you for this song and you bring awareness to this. 😢
Thank you for service
Thank you for your service!
Thank you for your service to our country.
Hang in there for the next chapters in your life.
I have Bipolar, PTSD, anxiety disorder and agoraphobia.
I'm disabled too.
I'm only 52, but my body feels 85.
Thank you for sharing your story.
Thank you for your service and courage and strength to continue to work on your struggles
You are not alone. We feel we are even in a crowd. I have tried, only to wake up week or two later in ccicu. That made me feel worse. Feeling failure once again by not being able to kill myself right. I hear 3rd time's a charm 😢
The sun turned black for me and my wife when we lost our 6 year old daughter to cancer and it is still very much so. Great song man.
😔 Sending you both love and prayers.
Heartfelt Condolences to you, your wife, & family. 🌷
God Bless you and your family
So very sorry. I definitely feel your pain. I too struggle everyday from the loss of my only child. She was 9 years old and she died in an auto accident. 1 year before her death, I lost my mother. Then again, 2 years after my daughter died, I lost my dad. It’s definitely not an easy journey, but GOD!!!
Damn Antonio, i too am a father. Its impossible for me to understand what u are feeling. But i know what its like to love like that. U have my empathy. I wish i could hug you bro.
The sun turned black the day my husband of 44years died and went to heaven. It was so unexpected, so quick. He passed on 09/05/2023 so I have lived 1 full year+ without him. I stayed busy with w housework, sorting his shop and snow removal during the winter and then yard work in the summer. Going into the 2nd year will be another transition for me because I will be busy doing things some repitious, some new. So just staying busy, praying, talking to God and grief therapy. I was blessed with one of his friends staying by my side, supporting me. This friend has become a special friend to me and I don't know how I would have managed without him. Thank you Jesus.
Sorry to hear that. hang in there God is close to those who are brokenhearted. blessed are those who mourn for they will be comforted😇
Hi Deb my other half left for heaven in May 2022. Am stiil grieving. Took up singing n play the guitar n getting better. Wish you all the best. Time is the greatest healer
I just lost my husband in December. we were married for 47 years. I'm so heartbroken
I’m fighting depression, and I’m still alive because I want to make my little brother proud, so that one day I will see him again…one day I will see him in heaven.
Stay the course. You are loved.❤❤❤
You’re worth the world! ❤
@@davidshirahjr-ug2gr thanks
The ONLY thing that saved my life was Jesus . Years of addiction, domestic violence, and depression and I finally got the courage to walk into a church I passed by every time I left my home. I felt so awkward and scared but the minute the door opened I was embraced and i met Jesus my savior he saved me and took away all my guilt I carried for so long. I am so grateful I have been renewed and had the opportunity to start over with a completely clean slate. My friends.. if u haven't yet I urge u to.. u will never be the same.
Let their love guide you❤️
When I feel depressed i turn on as many lights as I can. Open doors if nice out. I clean the house. Sometime with my old 70s music playing.
And I read Proverbs and Psalms. I thank God for all he has done for me. To know God is beside me is all I need. Ive been on that dark road. Drugs and Alcohol are not your friends.
Thanks ❤❤❤❤❤
Thank you for that comment for all of us to relate to. I’m thinking it’s time to leave the toxicity behind and connect with God to hopefully save my life from a long term self harm I’ve been purposely enduring. Be well, and may anyone suffering find peace and strength.
@LukeW91 You can do it. And the feeling of being sober minded will feel better than alcohol or drugs. I started at a very young age. But once sober a glass of water felt good to my body. It had only known alcohol for 40 years.
I'm glad you feel god at your side because he never listens to me or Answers my prayers
@lisamccormick450 Sometimes the answer is no. But how often do you pray? Every day giving thanks for what you have or just complain about what God has not done for you?
It's been black & hopeless for too long. I'm only here for my very young granddaughter, I'm her hero and I can't bare to hurt her
Somewhere, some far distance - someone is glad you’re trying. ❤ you are a hero ….for a continuing to be.
She's needs u as much as u need her. Trust in the signs he is giving u. Listen .
I'm in that boat with you. My youngest son and my granddaughter keep me hanging on. But I hardly get to see them. I've been my mom's caregiver since 2020. I watched my grandpa wither away and I don't want that for my son. But this separation has been very hard on him. It has on me as well. I still think it's better for him to be around a normal family atmosphere for the moment because I'm really not doing as good with all of it as I'd like to be. Taking it a day at a time. Everything in me screams to have them both with me everyday. I miss them like a drowning person missing the air.
My sun turned black when my son came down with a chronic illness that no one has been able to accurately diagnose. His basic caretaker for all these years, although we’re starting to see some progress. I’m praying for a miracle.
Also, during all this time, I was in a very unhappy place in my life . Besides my son being sick, I was in a very unhappy marriage. It was oppressive, antagonistic, verbally abusive, yelling, silent treatments etc .
When you’re depressed exercise helps your endorphins get going and it can help fight depression . Try to do a hobby that’s fun that you enjoy and that you’re good at. Try to be around people who are happy and that love you all these things help and then pray every day to God to help you. And may God bless you and that your son never turn black again. Thanks for sharing your story and your song. We are never alone. We each have our own crosses to bear and if we’re lucky, we have each other for support.
She’s worth it. Don’t fail her.
This song touches my soul! 💙 We all feel sadness and depression at times, but works for me to get out of is music! 🙏💜 and remembering how much my children love me! ❤️ I live for them! ❤
I am currently 17 and this song took me back to the time when I wasn’t able to see any light at the end of the tunnel. I was 11 when I lost my mom to cancer. It was a very hard phase for me and it still is when during the nights i start reminiscing my memories with her. But somehow at that point I picked myself up and decided to make my mom proud. After a few years passed by, in 2022 I lost one of my best friends, which triggered everything that I was holding inside. It was a very very dark place for me because of all this and also because I was in my high school and I had a lot of pressure of studies. I was never good at them, so it was hard for me to cope up with things and live up to the expectations of my family. At the same time my father decided to get married again, and I was totally not okay with it, so that built a whole lot of stress in my mind too, because it was hard for me to look at someone else in my mom’s place. I used to have suicidal thoughts everyday, extreme anxiety, and I tried one or two times to end myself and give up but every time what kept me going was the belief that my mom was watching from up there and that I had promised her that I will make her proud. Till date I am fighting with all those thoughts but I can proudly say that I am much better and that I didn’t give up. So all I can say to the people who are going through all of this is that there are many people out there who look upto you and who actually care about you, even when it doesn’t seem like it trust me there are. And you should start believing that if our good days don’t last long, our hardships won’t either. One day all of this darkness will come to an end and you will look back and proudly say to yourself that you did it, you didn’t give up. So take one step at a time, believe in yourself and just know that many people are out there to help you, you just have to ask for it, even if it’s hard, just try once, trust me it makes everything a lot easier.
And for all the people who have been fighting all of it for a few years or months, i am proud of you. You are doing amazingly well, and you are very strong. Just don’t loose hope, the light will find it’s way to you. YOU ALL CAN DO IT!! ❤❤
Hey dear I can feel you ... I lost my mom before 8 years, and currently I’m 22 years old. In my channel you can find what I have written for my mom titled “purity “
God bless you! Have dealt with same. You are strong and amazing! ❤️🙏
Stay strong dude❤️👍
A really Nice example for people who thinks that,You did it well,i'm sure that you're Mom it's proud of You 100%,things like this makes me feel more motivated for keep trying,thanks You very much for share you're history
Hi I saw this and decided to reach out to see if you are still ok
I'm a 15 year old who has never had depression but this video and these comments are sad and inspiring, I'm proud of everyone who has made it this far
Lucky for u, i'm also 15 (boy) and have been depressed since 3rd grade
Juice youneed Jesus,❤❤❤❤❤
Juice please ask him into your heart, love you.❤❤❤❤
I asked Jesus into my life
Life was so BLACK.
We lost our 32 yr old grandson last week the Lord’s peace is all that’s getting us through.
So very sorry for your loss
I’ve found my dark place . Looking for the sun again😮
God bless you and keep you. May the lord bring you peace. I’m deeply sorry for your loss. I’ve always believed my super power was being the biggest empath I’ve ever known I cry when others cry and can feel anyone’s pain. Keep going. You will see him again. This life isn’t the end it’s just a step.
I’m sorry for your loss, god bless my friend and have a safe life
Look up Shaman Oaks and find his near death experience playlist. The interviews are special coming from the souls who've crossed over and come back. Listening to them has given me peace and trust in where we go.
❤ I have always been depressed and sometimes it is almost too much. But God. I have faith, kids, & grandkids that keep me here. When i can, I paint or garden, anything creative. When i can't, i stay in a curled up ball and silently weep. God bless you all.
My sun was black from 2017 to 2020. I'm an alcoholic and I've been sober since December 3, 2020. It was a horrible life I was living. Depression is all consuming. Thank you for giving us an outlet. You are definitely a blessing. Thank you!
Stay strong on your journey. ❤
Congratulations on the stop drinking It's ur first bid step
Congrats on your sobriety !! Hang in there ONE MINUTE at a TIME, someone will always be there… reach out anytime you need
Stay strong and that is not easy reach out if needing help..
Alcoholism is so very painful for the addict and more so to the loved one.
Semi colon tattoos are mental health awareness. Suicide. Depression. Anxiety
Prayers for everyone struggling. I have been struggling with PTSD, depression, anxiety and other dark thoughts since I was 15 years old. I am still hanging in here on earth at 59 years old only by God's grace.
Thank you for sharing your song. There is always help out there if you just reach out for it. God bless
Every day new day how you doing now
I'm 59 too! I've struggled with various problems too. Until I finally " let go" When I realized that most of my problems were of my own making. And also being victimized by abuse, but that just means to let go of the toxic people in your life. Hope all is we with you..
My sun was black from 12 to 59. I'm 62 now. My mother stayed on her knees for many yrs.
59 here also. Mine started around 12.
@@kimberlylynjamison8762 Hope you're doing ok! You made it this far right? I'll just say don't dwell on the past too much. Though it's hard to forget. Count your blessings, look forward to tomorrow. The blessing that life is. I look at it like. Of course I want to see tomorrow whatever test God has in mind for me, be it good or bad! The mystery of that, is what I live for. Not for other people at all. If you ever need to chat, I'm here! God bless!
I'm 34 a Marine Veteran and this hit me so deep I actually had me first good cry in a long time. I'm gonna fight everyday but I will never lose. Because I don't have a choice. My family needs me here.
Stay strong, man, we're all in this together. Send good wishes to you and your family.
Keep going 💪 give yourself more love 🙏🔥
Praying for you and hoping you can find something that helps to relieve your pain...if you like animals, please look into getting one of those special dogs who are rescued and trained to help with PTSD. You will save the dog and I think the dog can save you.
Love you bro, keep going. Thank you for all you’ve done for this country.
You're not alone brother. Semper Fi!
I've been struggling with depression and anxiety for years thanks to medication and family and friends support I'm still here. People need to reach out for help. God bless Robin Williams and everyone else whose password away from depression. Peace and love ❤❤
I wrote a note, loaded the gun...got into bed, took a shot of scotch and was more than ready...when i realized it would be my mama bringing my 5yr old daughter home in the morning and THEY would be the ones to find me. I just couldn't imagine them having to deal with that. I got help, got clean (15yrs sober now) i still struggle with depression and im sure i always will, but i no longer feel hopeless. Now, Im actually a mental health/addiction counselor...Not all things can be taught by reading a book...its easier to talk to someone who's lived it. Prayers to all of you that are struggling
EDIT: I originally wrote this post over 2yrs ago..i was in a good place then...I continue to get likes and i feel obligated to share that I relapsed. I am Diabetic and had a cpl amputations, lost my job (waiting for Disability) Im borderline agoraphobic and addicted to benzos...Im 50 and scared, struggling...please pray for me
That’s because u are a wonderfully thoughtful person, Ty for NOT taking the shot, uR perfect today , must know this, namaste
@@janelleschmidt2250 thank you for such a nice comment. Namaste 🙏
Thats amazing! Congratulations!
Isha kriya is the one life changing thing I do now, a gf of mine committed suicide While I was at her house two years ago and all I could think was why did she take me with her… I think part of our problem is being and living an American life we get so out of sync of how truly wonderful life is Supposed to be and so many things we don’t see & never told or even acknowledged of the thousands of wonderful things that we do do, we are criticized & judged & thrown aside in this culture rather than being protected, nurtured, & cultivated, u r loved & I hope u feel it🤗🤗🤗
Congratulations 👏..
At 15 years old I lost both my parents and brother in a car accident that I somehow lived through. We were on our way to say our goodbyes to my grandma who died 12 hours after the wreck. That was in 1996 and I still struggle with my depression and probably always will
Gezuz .. that’s brutal
I am so sorry that you had to experience that kind pain at such a young age, not many people experience grief from losing multiple very close family members all at once. I lost my father when I was 15, he was not only a great Dad- but sometimes he was like my mom also. I can't imagine how hard that must of been for u, your a very strong person & remember that your times of pain & struggle is what makes u who u are...
I couldn’t imagine the pain you’ve been through so young. I am very sorry for your loss
I’m so sorry you had to go through that so young . Your so strong ! ❤️❤️❤️
"The Lord is near to the brokenhearted, he saves those who are crushed in spirit." | 《Psalm 35:18》♡
A few years ago I lost my home my husband my job and a couple of weeks after that my eighteen year old son died in a car accident. I never felt that kind of pain in my life and it took me awhile but somehow I made it here to share this with you and anyone who might need to read it. You would be surprised how much strength you really have . I've found some much needed grief counseling and time really made a whole world of difference.
I’m realy sorry to hear that that sounds horrible
I’m soo happy you made it and you are really strong thanks for sharing your story ❤
I hope you are well. Take care
There are no words for what you've been through, but I hope you see that number of likes and see that at least that many people have thought of you with love.
Bless you! Well, I lost my religion a long time ago but if I had some kind of power I would reverse all this and take all your pain & confusion away! I wish I could hug you and just listen to your story. I don't get life and seen too much. Now all I can do is try to help and consul people. Hang in there please. I'm trying to also.....
Yeah, I had depression and anxiety. On medication now and really helped. I was working 12 hrs. 7 days a week with a baby with colic. At work I started crying and didn’t know why. My mom took me to psychiatrist and in the hospital and all that helped me so much. I told both our 2 girls never to work like that and with a baby. My husband and family were there to help me. 🙏💖💕
It takes a very very special person to be called 3 days in a row from a suicidal friend. A depresssd person who would be too shamed and embarrassed to call anybody but the suicide hotline , you must be an amazing amazing friend. God bless you. For a depressed person to not be ashamed to call you 3 days in a row they must know you can be trusted at every single cost and you are indeed a special human. I don’t know anyone like you. I wish I did. You don’t know how valued and special you are. I hope you read this.
Thank you for your kind words Breanna❤️
Jesus loves you and wants to save you. He died on the cross to free us from sin and hell. He loves you and wants to change your life. If you feel like receiving him as your Savior in your heart, just say from your heart and confess with your mouth: Lord Jesus, I accept you as my only and sufficient savior, write my name in the book of life and cell with your blood and forgive my sins, change my life, amen. Big hug family ❤. Jesus loves you
JESUS LOVES YOU ❤!
😢😢😢 thank you for the message 😢😢
If you ever feel like dying just remember there is a whole body working for you to survive ❤
It's a beautiful machine the body return of the Mack is lit Tonight Mark Morrison
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2pac speaks to us directly upfront no bs,is what it is ain't what it ain't healing powers he's a genius .
4 years ago my wife left with the kids, and my mother was diagnosed with stage 4 cancer ….but she wouldn’t go to the hospital…so we rented a home together and I tried to take care of her. It got worse and I was having to pick her up and carry her back and forth to the bathroom…I would sleep next to her because she was scared to be alone..…the cancer had spread to her lower spine with a lot of pain…I could feel her spine compromised as I carried her….but she still wouldn’t go to the hospital…I was getting desperate…we were able to get her some chemo pills but she had to go into quarantine for 14 days in order to get them…this was during Covid…so I took her to this treatment center and explained to her what had to happen…I wanted her to fight and live….she was upset with me….i could only talk to her through the window during quarantine….but she didn’t know where my voice was coming from…on the second day, she wouldn’t answer me through the window…she was confused….I had to leave to get some papers from home….and I told her I would be right back in 30 min….but she died right after I left…and yes, the sun turned black…..family is everything….love them while you can
I don’t think that’s as significant as you think… sadly
My son passed when he was 2yrs old. He would be 10 thus year. I fell into the darkest place ever almost ruined my marriage lost my kids. Would push my friends away. I started to take ot one day at at time looking at all of the positive things around me and not letting the negative ones control me and my thoughts. I always try to keep moving forward for the good instead of falling in the bad. God only gives his hardest battles to his strongest warriors. Never quit. Failure is part of success but you never truly fail unless you give up. I now work in mental health hope I can change a life.
The hockey left you and yours May God bless you and yours and show you the way of understanding
I know full well what you are going through. It’s been just at 2 yrs since I lost my lil girl. 2 yrs ago today was the last day I had a chance to hold her n tell her I love her. Tuesday marks 2 yrs since she has been gone. I still haven’t been able to get over it
I can’t imagine the pain you’re feeling. God bless you
You already have my friend! Thank you
You likely never will, but as the years pass by, it becomes less heavy@dannywilliams7350
I didn't think I'd ever escape but i always knew there was a light at the end of the tunnel, just didn't know I could make it there and I definitely didn't expect that light to be Jesus, You've probably heard it many times, but he has saved me from what seemed t be impossible to escape. Depression, anxiety, alcohol addiction, bulimia, suicide attempts, overdose from all of it God was there and at my lowest he pulled me out of darkness. Call on him and believe he answers those who diligently seek him. Praise the Lord 💖💖💖❤🙏
I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder in 1995. In 1997, my uncle promised we would beat depression together as he believed depression was part of the devil. 4 days later he was found in his apartment from suicide. To this day, I still remember his last words to me and hold on to my end of our promise. 25 years and still hard some days.
dont ever give up do it for him man
Don't give up I believe in you! Stay strong, stable and HAPPY!
I’m sooooo sorry about your uncle. Suicide is so devastating.
Don't give up. I lost my mother to this as a young boy. Whoever you've lost. Would never wish for you to dwell on and live your live based on their death or suffering. Help who you can and do your best.👏
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Last year I was diagnosed with stage 4 colon cancer and my other half left because of the illness. I was hurt and angry that someone I loved could just walk away when I needed them most. I'm much better now and stronger and I'm beating the cancer. Thanks for this song
Relatable senbding condolences. Dealing with relapsed lymphoma with secondary testicular. After telling the woman i wanted to only fight for to love she decided To ghost. Meeting her truly was the only time i felt the courage strength and happiness for a possible future, today i sit empty , again. Idk what to even do anymore. I pray for your recovery
@@thisdeaddog and @Ty Taylor I have no words. That's horrible what you've both been through. I'm so sorry. This World can be so dark and nasty. I'm so happy you are beating it the cancer Ty and I am 🙏🏻 praying for recovery for both of you!!!!! Keep on fighting. Best wishes!!!
Keep fighting! ❤
Bless you Brother!
You're not alone brother. Let music and love be the bridge for your spirit to fly.
Just remember these words
It’s not you who wants to die
It’s the illness trying to kill you
These words are the reason I am still alive to write and share this.
You are not alone x
Thank you. Thank you for this astonishingly simple yet life changing statement. It seems like it should’ve been so obvious all these many years now that I’ve read your words…w all my heart and soul, thank you, thank you, THANK YOU!!!!!! Keep fighting to LIVE!!!!!
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@@namelia4439❣️❣️
God it hurts I don't want to continue it's not the song it's the pain
Okay brother I Ben there too many times to count but I came to realize it's only darker from the inside out but at the same time we learn from those darkest moments we over come an you will to and who ever else reads this just know there is a light 🕯️
😢every dark night and black sun must turn bright . So learn to dance in the dark be strong because there’s always a glimmer of light. Stay strong and hold on x beautiful lyrics
It takes a pure loving heart to help someone from darkness while you're suffering yourself.. you'll be blessed.. God is using you
Hi Alicia where are you from.?
🙏 Amen
I had 2 best friends. One took his life at 23 on the day of the other's funeral. People tell me the pain will fade. 20 years later I'm still waiting.
God touch you NoOne!
Pain never fades when you love with all of your might. But you can turn all of your pain into a beautiful memory and do something in their name. Life is what you make of it. Love to live and live to love
The pain stays the same. You learn how to live with it over time. Somedays it hits you as hard as the day it happened. Other days a smile crosses your face over a thought from long ago
In a way you are lucky,you have two angels watching over you,makin sure you have a spot up there in the sky....it all makes sence one day.
Shit I feel the pain lost close fiends 3 days after my first friend died
I am 16 and fighting mental illness, this song is so powerful and I feel like I needed to hear it. Thank you, my friend. I really appreciate all you do for people out there and I'm sorry to hear your story.
I know these words may not be of any help to you but I'd strongly advise you to talk about it. Learn to be at peace with yourself. You're still young and you've got a life ahead of you that only you can live. Take care and you'll be fine as long as you have faith in God and most importantly as far as depression goes faith in yourself. You can do this.
Hey im 16 and battling stuff too. We’re in this together bro.
Breathe air
Kid is depressed for silly reasons 🤣 go outside kid.. and see their are many people who is suffering and ur problems are nothing infront of them including mine..
@@crazybanguru1096u sound very lonely and insecure. Hope god does good with u
I lost my only son, my youngest child almost 5 years ago from alcohol. He was 39. My dam hasn’t broken for the crying. I choose to remember him growing up and all the happiness and happy times I was given with him. Is my heart broken? Yes, totally shattered, am I depressed, no. God has given me incredible strength to endure it.
I'm very sorry to hear that. Jesus loves you and he will never leave you❤❤
I'm so sorry for your loss. *hugs*
I raised a 46 year old special needs son. Who was my everything kept me busy made me feel useful and showed me love every day. I tried to make sure he was happy as much as I could because his dad left when he found out about the needs. About four years ago he passed away, and I felt like I died too. because then I was left alone and felt like I had no more purpose. Namely friend I had passed away also about three weeks after, so I also had no one to talk to my son loved church in music. Before he died, I made sure he was baptized which everyone said it was necessary. And when I have learned, I’m trying to get back to living is that God is my inspiration and my purpose was to lean on him and know that he has a reason for me. And I still have to remind myself of that every day. These days I go down my phone list to call people which most of the time they’re busy or no answer lol. So I sit back and just talk to God and pray for his peace and show me my purpose and help me to be useful. Hope there’s no typos in here cause I’m not going to rewrite it, but thanks.
Let the typos be, what you expressed is beautiful ❤
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Your beautiful son was going to heaven with or without baptism❤. Don't worry about man made traditions. May God's loving arm's be with you always. What a dedicated and loving Mom and person you are❤
@@debraann3515 I feel you. I am so sorry for the loss of a Child. You wrote something that hit me like when I lost my little Brother and my best friend,my mother 2 yrs later. Tried to kill myself and maybe I can't stop the down pour, I will will walk with you in the rain, my friend. Keep fighting. The Sun will shine again. God Bless you. P.S. I love alone ,no family to speak of and I also talk to God all day.❣️
I lost my husband in 1986 I was 29 he was 30. We had a son he was 2 years old at the time his father died and I was pregnant with our second child a girl, Ruby.
I threw myself into work, bought a sports bar and worked like an animal for the next 15 years I never really went through the grieving process I kept pushing it back. So about 20 years later I had a nervous breakdown. I just wanted to drive my car into a brick wall and nobody would let me.
So you know it can manifest itself at different times in different ways. Emotional trauma can become depression or not. For me it was erasing the pain. In order to do that I needed to stop feeling.
So I took anything I could till I couldn't feel anymore. I almost couldn't feel myself into a pine box. Today it's a much different story. I got myself the help I so desperately needed. I'll be 68 in a month, remarried 5 years ago, and I allow myself to feel everything. I can process feelings now. And I'm a better person for it
The SUN turned BLACK when my youngest SON died. God sent MERCY , GRACE & LOVE to soothe my soul. GOD'S LOVE ENDURES FOREVER.
Virtual hugs to you. Your child is with God safe and fine. Stay strong just like you are rn. 💗
I am VERY sorry that HAPPENED to you THAT sounds very TRAUMATIC I hope EVERYTHINGS ok
God bless your son and may he stay within the lords presence ❤️❤️❤️🙏🙏🙏
I haven't heard it yet, but I know I'll cry. I lost my son at 34 overdosed. So I'm getting my tears ready. He was in Puerto Rico and I was in Colorado. My heart has never been so broken. In memory of my son, Joshua 06/03/2019 😥💔
Awww, so sorry about your loss Shirley, my deep and sincere condolences, how have you been? 🌺 😢
Dear Lady, Condolences 💐 always 😢🙏
So so sorry. Deepest condolences. I cannot fathom. May you find some peace. ❤
I'm sorry brother
My husband passed away March 28th 2020, and I'll never be the same. That next June would have been our 30th anniversary. Although the loss of my husband was awful, losing a child has to be worse. I have two sons, and I don't know how I would ever cope if I lost either one. My oldest son married a woman who somehow pushed me completely out of their lives, three grandsons and all. It's been almost 20 years since we spoke but he's alive. I can watch him online because he's a professor. So I have an idea where he lives. I cried a river of tears at that loss, so Shirley, you must have cried an ocean of tears and probably still do. I'm so sorry for your loss. I believe your son is in a better place, and you'll see him again someday. His Spirit is watching over you. I believe that with all of my heart because my husband gives me signs he's still with me. I feel touches, and I live alone. Just gentle poking so I know he's with me all the time. May God bless you with peace, love and strength.
God is our refuge. My beief in God is what saved me from disaster. He is our shelter. He truly loves us!❤️😊
Same here. From such a young age I have had a very very strong relationship with God.
I’m yeshua we trust
Amen....
Yes
God rescuded me many Years ago Walk with God every Day Bless you love your Song 🎵 ❤ Amazing 👏 ❤
I am a Widow. My husband was the Love of my Life. He taught me that Real Men Cry. I fight depression daily. God Bless All Of U🙏🙏🙏🌎☮️
You are a warrior! God bless you too!
With God, you are never alone!❤️🕊❤️
Your comment stopped me immediately. I am just so sorry that you lost your dear husband. I've been with mine for 18 years, and he's my favorite person on this planet. We also don't have any extended family members, so we're all each other has, aside from our kids (ages 10, 19, & 20). I can't even imagine a life without him in it. I wish I could hug your neck. And I wish you the very best going forward. I know he's still with you, patiently waiting until you're beside him again ❤
I know what you are going through.
@RobinFowler-3r, I feel your pain…I too am a widow who lost the love of my life and the father of my 3 wonderful children. After 19 yrs. I’m still fighting depression. Sending you love and prayers! May God bless us all! ❤️🙏🌎🌍🌏
Im a survivor! Every one of you are valued and worth it ❤
1:44 been there myself one evening I'd end up with a mouthful of tramadol and codine over 60 pills in half of them in my mouth and a bottle of squash.
Parked up behind the church where my grandmother is burried, a police officer pulled up alongside my car, sees me and all the pills spread out on the dashboard, Amazing grace blasting over the radio by brother called me worried about our mum and the fact she was suicidal after loosing her husband our dad.
At the time we'd lost our garage MOT business to a massive fire
Fighting a loosing battle with the insurance company .
My brother at the time unaware he had made me jump spitting out the pills from my mouth
But it's still feel like I've already died inside 😶
That's the best advice anyone can have. Survive first ❤️
I've struggled with depression most of my life, I'm 29 now and I was ready to give up. Then I learned about the thief on the cross and found Matthew 11:28 "come to me all who are burdened and I will give you rest" and I gave my life to Jesus and my sun hasn't been black since.
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Amen 🙏🏻
That is what we all need to do. Jesus is the answer for any problem we face.
@@jamclibusmar Amen
Yea brother thanks for the song. Too many times in my years when I drank I felt that pain and emptiness to the core of my being. Thankfully God gave me a way out that I never thought possible. I’ve been sober 18 years now. Life’s not perfect but I never feel that complete emptiness now
My brother committed suicide 4 months ago, we both come from an abusive family, i could talk about it, heal. He couldn't. I've been on my knees but feel his presence somehow. The feeling of hope is coming, life is so fragile, both fantastic and cruel. Thank you for this song ❤️.
I’m so sorry
@@missclassy2878 Thank you 🙏
I’m so sorry, may he rest in peace 😔
@@MFDCookie Thank you 🙏
My prayers are with you 🕊️
My sister put a .32 in her mouth when she was 21 and my Mom tried to take her life so many times,about the 3rd attempt we were in ICU and she was conscious but incubated, and I went off yelling at her why? Why? do you want to leave me so badly? Don’t you love me? If I have to be on this earth and suffer you have to suffer with me ! I think you’re being selfish ,only thinking about yourself and your feelings, what about the feelings of the people that love you? The people that will be hurt alone and heartbroken because of your actions. Then I asked her if it hurt (she sliced her wrists took pills and was in a ice cold bathtub for 2 days) technically she was DOA but the hospital tried a new tx to rewarm a hypothermic body, they said possibility of brain damage from bodies methane gases, remarkably she had no brain damage . She nodded her head yes that the suicide attempt hurt. I said Good! Are you going to try to do it again? She shook her head no. lol
She never tried to kill her self again and she died a few years later from a massive brain hemorrhagic stroke.
Cemeteries aren’t for the dead, they’re for the living .
I pray for your healing and recovery 🙏🙏🙏✝️
I'm 61 and lived with depression all of my life. The worst time for me was when I was 40. I had the end of my life all planned out. My daughter came over that night for a visit and spent the night talking to me, so my time passed. What has helped me get out of the darkness first, was music, and medicine, and there was a forum I hung out in called wing of madness. As I started to get a little past the deepest despair, I was glad I didn't kill myself. I was able to finally notice the blue sky, the flowers and their vivid colors. Just little things I would have missed. I really have to end this saying that music was my huge crutch. I'm still on meds 21 years later, and though I would prefer not to have to be on them, I found out the hard way that I can't do without them. For anyone that is in the pit of despair, it really does get better, find your crutch, your outlet, and stand strong.
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if anti-depressants, just know you’ll never get off them if you keep using them. They’re ineffective as a treatment
@Lineproof yeah, I'll never be able to get off them, I tried and it was a horrible failure. Others can be on awhile and get off them, and others recover from depression without any meds. I wish I was that person! 😊
I feed people. I give them resources if they don't have them. Sometimes coats. Homeless people. I like cooking Big at Thanksgiving and going to different parks and feeding people. I gather toys and stuff thru the year for kids around me I know won't get much if anything. Food baskets for families and the elderly. Thats what we did. Now, I try to continue what we started. I will always try to give out love and a sandwich. Along with prayers for a better life and understanding of You Lord.
Amen.
JESUS CHRIST is the only reason I am still here. God bless each and everyone who are on this channel and are hurting and suffering for what ever the reason. I Love you all
Teresa God bless you & yes Jesus is the answer he never fails us 🙏🙏🙏
Thank you
I LOVE YOU BACK,WE HAVE THE GRACE OF JESUS CHRIST WITH US.
God bless
That was beautiful and I cried. Thank you for sharing
around 15 years afo the sun went black. I don't even feel anymore, I'm on meds for depression. I cared for my hubby 24/7, for 5 years, very very hard work, I buried him on the 5th sep 24. I have no tears, no feelings, no joy... I'm done, I have nothings left, I'm 8 years sober. had to strip my house to accomadate hospitail beds etc. Its 5.41 am in scotland. I'm so tired just existing. Well done with everything you've done xxx God bless xxx
Stay strong sister❤❤Jesus will always be with you❤
This hits too close to home. It's been 2 years since I had the gun in my hand. My sun is still black from time to time, but I'm still fighting ! Thank you for sharing your story
Stay strong brotha
I had a gun to my head and pulled the trigger, but it had no ammo
I thought it did
@user-dq4gm1zc2d ... you are still here for a reason...I hope you've found some peace with whatever is hurting you so badly
Keep up the good fight.
You are still here for a reason ❤ You are loved
My sun turned black when my son's lifeless body found. Arrested my eldest son for his murder. I went to inpatient care because I was not safe to be alone. I use music, I talk it out, and I have a great support system.
Bless you 🙏❤️ xo #RIPMYBOY 🕊️ Casey Durham 🕊️ xoxo Love you so much miss you like nothing of this world 🌎 💔 xoxo 1985 _ 2022 .... God how I miss you man .. love always and until we see each other again { Moms } xoxo #Wareagle #Lookgoodfeelgood 🙏
That's terrible, the old story of Cain & Abel. So sorry for your loss & family tragedy. My mother was devastated when my younger brother Kevin died, even more devastated when her 5 yr old granddaughter was killed in a car accident. RIP Kevin & Rozlin "Rose" 🌹💔😥
Found my 21 yr old son dead of a gunshot wound Aug 31 will be a yr. I want to die everyday. Faith is getting me through.
Take as good care of yourself as you can. No words...
I hope its getting better for you
Im here if you need to talk.
I've been through similar
The saddest part of my life. I lost my mom at 14 and my dad at 15. Glad the sun came back out for me. I would imagine saying goodbye to a child so much harder. My heart goes out to those parents.
You sound like a very humble, kind and wise person. I get the impression your parents were pretty great.
You are a beautiful soul! ❤🕯️🙏🏼
I lost my son to cancer December 27th 2020. My sun still isn’t out, he was 33
As I read these comments, I learn a lot about myself. I am so thankful. When I feel at my worst, I am sent blessings. God has been my refuge. Knowing I am not alone is consoling. Hoping to someday tell my story so that I may help someone. 🙌🏾
Literally being in nature is one of the very best remedies for when the sun turns black. Being next to your fur baby or another animal if you don't have one helps you feel not so alone. Sending loving and healing vibes to all..... Hold on. Hold on hard. Someday it will all be okay.
True. Lost now my two fur babies. My 8 months old died from a vet mistake. My first one, 2 years old now, life also took it away from me. He still lives with my ex. After 5 years I was cheated and he decided to switch me for his new virtual girlfriend. I had to move out, lost the house I thought was ours, the friends, the city. Everything had to change in just a couple of weeks. It hurts so much. I just wish I could have my fur babies again to help me through it... losing everything you cared is just horrible, i thought therapy could help, but at the end it all comes on how you deal with your pain. And it is so much...
@cRyS112 I'm so sorry. You will find new love and companions. Trust in life's beautiful endless possibilities. Remeber every action changes you and your life.
@@cRyS112.
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Amen !!!
I lost my mum today, I can't relax and I found your song. I've played it over and over. I suffer with depression and anxiety. Your song is beautiful. Thank you for helping me get through tonight.
Sorry for your loss
Stay strong
Love you ❤️
I am sorry for your loss Irene, love and prayers out to you and your family 🙏🏽❤️
I am so sorry for your loss. My heart is with you. Take one step at a time. Just be. 💔
Sorry for your loss. Prayers be to you tonight.
🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗❤️ here's a million hugs for you so I feel loss keep your head up stay strong and always keep the good memories with you He's watching over you 100% cuz I know my dad's watching over me he visits me in my dream sometimes and I'll tell you they're not dreams cuz I can feel him it'll be okay My prayers go out to you and your family be safe much love
Thank you for this song. My mom who was my best friend took her life Jan 4, 2011. I was the one that found her cold and deceased. I hate to admit there are few moments I remember from that night. The sun turned black for me that day but here I am almost 13 years later doing great. I’ve had my dark moments but kept fighting. Today I’m married with a family and happy for the most part. Hugs and love to all those who are in the dark moments. Hugs and love to everyone!! You are wanted and loved!
My Sun Turned Black Soooo many times in my 70 plus years..
With my brother taking his life at 32 years of age..I was 22..that there was a struggle for me..years of depression..I was pregnant at the time and also lost my baby at 7 months..a son..That put a double whammy on me..and in 2017..my best friend took her life..Still to this day.. I'm angry..sooo angry because she left me and so many behind. Dark days have seemed common in my life..But with each turmoil I face I believe with Jesus helping me I've been able to get up and try to continue my life..Until I'm called home
Bless everyone
Im sorry to hear that. My sister took her life on November 12, 201à
Sorry to hear of your very sad loss. My youngest brother took his life age 27. Life is never the same, but we carry them in our hearts and they can bring us deep strength at times to support others ❤
I have struggled with depression and anxiety disorder for multiple years. Now at almost 66 I find helpful to do self talk in my mirror. It can be about anything, the subjects. For me much of it was begging and pleading and analyzing my former drug use. Telling myself that I AM A GOOD PERSON AND I DESERVE BETTER. I also wrote a list of all good, positive healthy things
That I can do with me or with friends. I found that to be helpful. As much as it can hurt or feel impossible, PLEASE reach out to ppl or your pet even. Let them know exactly how you feel, thoughts of how it could be better. When you're stronger, reach out to someone who used to be where you are. Hugs are free, so reach out and share .
I have had depression for years and clear back when I was in school. Kids can be cruel back then and even now. I find what helps me is my dog poppi, walking and gospel music. Just remember God is always with you.
Yess Jesus is always with us❤If God is foe us who can be against us?
one thing worse than depression is not having a feeling of what being loved is like
This is really true, especially when you know what being loved is and is not
@@c.white-achampong6982 that hits really hard
I realised that last night.
I feel like I am sooooo alone and so scared that I have to carry on another day/week/month/year with this feeling. I feel homesick for a place that's was never home and heartbroken over a love I have never had and its hurting.
Damn right 😢
God loves you don’t for get I feel it to stay up 🆙 🙏
My sun turned black when I lost my son October 2022 to fentanyl poisoning and depression. Turned even blacker when I found out my brother sold it to him. I am now active in the fentanyl war that makes my son brighter. Great song hugs and prayers to you
I am so sorry for your loss.
Stay strong Sheri, God will guide and bless you. Prayers to you.
As a father, even the thought of what your going through hurts. with the utmost compation to your situation I am so sorry for your loss
I'm sorry for your loss I lost my husband in July.
@@gizzyg5337 I'm so sorry
Dear Father God, I Pray for all the lonely and those in their darkest hour. I Pray that you lift them up Lord Jesus, you were at your darkest hour on the Cross. Your Grace and mercy is sufficient, Amen
Amen!
In Jesus name 🙏 helps me out o f this depression 😢
Amen. Thank you.
amen
Amen
My son called me from the hospital, 100s of miles away. He had a seizure at work and passed out. They found a tumor on his brain.
I cried daily for months.
I lost my dad to cancer, 5 days after my 21st birthday. Now I felt I was reliving it, but this is worse, this is my son, and there's nothing I can do!
I did everything I could think of to stay busy, I started painting, doing artwork with rocks, crystals, sticks, and shells.
My granddaughters keep me going, one step one breath, one prayer 💜
I've facing various tribulations. I just put my faith in Jesus Christ.
Keep the faith
I'm in the darkness time of life I have no family or friends that ever call me, I just got my faith with God
@@JoeyandCamoI can be here for you. If you want to talk.❤
@primeiroultimo1726 I appreciate it but it's to deep I feel like I just lost everyone in my life especially my son Camo my parents gave me up at age 12 to the State of Oregon.
God bless you 🙏
Whenever I get depressed/Sad/or even just feel like a nobody I pray to God, he is my light when it comes to those negative feelings and thoughts in my mind.
Same.. Amen
God is with you
AMEN 🙌 IM 67 GOD BLESS YOU PRAYERS FOR EVERYONE AMEN LOVE FROM NC 👱♀️😘🕊🩸👑🎚💃👏🐎🎵🛐🛐🛐
this, as some random 14 year old kid, made me realize how little i know and how much i have yet to feel and learn at a time where i really needed it. Thanks dude, beautiful song and I hope everything's okay for you in life.
as a 14 yr old person, i never saw another 14 yr old being so mature
@@sofia_darksoul As a 16 year old person, I consider this 14 year old to be more matured than me
im 14 too. i feel like its the age where we really start to grow up and be accepted as a teenager. like yeah we are legally teenagers at 13 but 14 is just when we start to mature. i hope no one has to relate to this song but i know some people will and thats okay (sorry if this comment makes no sense)
As some random 14 year old, i hate my life. It's painful and I don't want to deal with school anymore. Last year was the best year of my entire life so far and this year is already looking down. Keep your life on a good track, cause when you're in a deep state you can never recover.
@@cockstealer bro i promise you no matter what has happened things will be better of all the things i could promise thats the one i'd emphasize the most. with time and life's trials people learn everything they know about life and i promise you one day if you never give up you'll learn and see for yourself based from those lessons things do get better you just gotta keep going and keep fighting for a view from the top
My sun has been black most of my life. With no one to turn to, I turned to music. Thats how I found you tonight. With the time I have left, I'm looking for brighter days 🌞
It's important to note: once you get past depression you are so many times more stronger.
Sometimes it's impossible to get past it 😢
Kimberly you are so right.
I am at my lowest tonight 🙏
@@Kimberly-ps5sq Yeah I agree, I try keep my chin up and fight each day, I'm 38 and still fighting. It is a mental illness I don't think it does pass? its something we have to except and may have to live with forever.
@@Kimberly-ps5sq i don't think you can completely get rid of it because it is the way your mind tells you something is wrong much like how your body feels pain. I've gone through the big one s like heart break and insecurities I'm 1000 stronger after I figured it all out. Depression will always be apart of our lives but only pay it the attention it deserves "oh I feel bad I'm going to do something about" and no more👍
@@frankbolger1906 thinking of you
I’m not very happy that TH-cam age-restricted this video when teenagers are some of the people who should hear it the most!
When the sun turns black for me, i look to my kids. My four sons are the reasons i wake up every day. Their smiles and just them being around me gives me the strength to push forward.
I feel you brother. Family is my reason too.
Same here brother, I have four sons too, but unfortunately for me it’s only pictures I can turn to. But knowing they are out there is what keeps me here as I know one day we will all be together 🙏 but until that day the sun is always black 💔
Oh, please let the sun shine. You are loved
In 2023 I got two strokes n doctors discovered 2 blood clots on my right side of my Brian,, that led to a 9 hour emergency open brain surgery n glory to God I survived n it took a year for me to recover , the healing never stops m today I'm suffering from depression aswell as a mental illness n that's all my long term side effects.. bt u knw wt pulls me thrgh? Prayer, faith , will power n endurance,, it's ok to not be ok, cry if u must, mope around if u must bt remember one thing ,,,, our God won't give u so many obstacles if he knew u cant handle it,,, u had some of the difficult tests, bt ur fairth kept u above all
Lucky to have survived ...my wife was 6 months pregnant when she had a sudden stroke she was put in a coma the baby was taken 2 days into it and survived ....2.5 lbs baby boy ....she lived for another 6 days before test came back saying she had blood clots surrounding her heart ...her valve was stuck open allowing these clots to flow In .....I got 1 night out of 6 were they would reduse the meds to check for brain activity ....I got 15 -20 min with her witch felt like 3 hrs .....I got to talk to her and she would squeeze my hand to answer my questions or validate she was getting what I was saying ....in they 20 min I was sitting on the bed with her and had both her hands in mine and it happened.....she knew she had the baby.....I promised her to do my part as a father and husband.....told her I was sorry she had to leave us and I would make sure her kids grew up with her relevant in thier lives .....her arms went limp and the machines went crazy .....I was kicked out of the room ......was told 4 hrs later she was all done ....there was no brain activity that she had several aneurysms throughout her brain .....I'm grateful I got those last min with her but if I knew that the min her arms went limp on me my life would change the way it has I don't know what I'm trying to say ....my mind is scattered ....I have alot of pain I'm trying to heal from ...my son is now 6 years old my oldest is 7 and I have a 4 year old autistic child with a girl I've been with for 5 years that I fell absolutely in love with ....truly thought she was my twin flame ....I for gone thru what I went thru loosing my business woth 18 employees and my 3 story house into a camper with my kids all for my kids I hooked up with this angel that brought me so much peace and love and freedom to work and support my family .....she decided to rip my heart out .....telling Me I did it all right it was her ......she cheated than when i found out she ghosted me and our son .....I check in on her but she is avoiding us in shame ... ..I hate to admit but it was easier to loose my wife ...knowing I could never fix it .....she's still alive and living her best life and I'm stuck again ...gave up my job lost everything. To take her place raising our son .....I'm all messed up ....dark times ......just be grateful you survived .....God obviesly has a plan for you .....
Last year I lost my boyfriend of 20 years. His family took everything and put me my dog & 3 cats out. We are struggling but we are still together. My sun is still black. My fur babies are what's getting me through this & GOD keeps helping us survive together. ❤️
Ur not alone I'm currently homeless with my little brother and our three cats
Our mom throw us out after she got Married to her new husband,
Always remember God is with you at all times
that's terrible! praying for you. what type of monsters would do that??? and to top it all off, they kick your children out as well. don't worry, God is a God of recompense - they'll get exactly what they deserve.
you are never homeless if you can find home within yourself.. you might be houseless for now, but not everyone lives in a house anyway
@@alien-vc6lk damn
May you find strength. I can't imagine. 😪
Before you even started singing i dropped a like, no one is alone, no one, ever. We are in this world together, so we help each other, period.
I want to meet, hug and spend time with everyone who listens to this song and feels bad right now. I wish this were possible and we could heal together :')💛
I wish that too!
Me too 😢
Bless your soul and thank you- you just blessed mine and countless others
@@gildaniels8503 oh thank you very much. It made me happy to see that I was useful in life :)
The feeling is unimaginable, difficult to describe, and you just want it all to stop forever. But you hold on to hope. And this song speaks volumes.... don't give up. ❤
If you have never personally dealt with depression, you have no idea how devastating it can be. I have been dealing with depression since 2001, I have been taking several types of anti-depressants over the past 22 yrs & I still have suicidal thoughts almost every single day. The sad part of our society is that most people don't recognize depression as a sickness, but see it as a weakness ☹️
Hang in there it will be okay❤
Depression is a disease that can sometimes lead to death. 😮
If someone has never experienced chronic pain, grief, domestic violence, or depression, they really have no business commenting about it--bc they just sound silly, and it annoys the person that IS going through it.
From the outside looking in --each of those problems seem fairly easy to deal with; but, as you know, when one is going through it themselves, there are many factors that an outsider fails to consider. 😮
Thank you for saying that. I needed to hear it today. And you said it perfectly. 💜
I also have depression is doing pull my self out other information cry every DAY MY HUSBAND IS ALWAYS DRUNK HE HIT ME
FOR THE FIRST TIME AFTER 42 YEARS
I CALLED THE POLICE I'M SO SAD I DIDN'T HAVE HIM ARRESTED
GOD BLESS
SANDY
You are right. If I say losing my spouse of 20 years, almost ended my life by my own hands..I was selfish. Because of that I’m here. Not by choice just didn’t want my legacy being a p’ssy. Day by day I’m going
I'm proud of everyone out here fighting, keep going, you're worth it❤
You too sis, and you too reader! You are all worth. It may feel like the opposite sometimes but you really gotta hammer it down because its true; YOU ARE WORTH!
Thank you BOTH @michellevandenberg5870 @
My worth is unknown. People have been saved by me and yet the saving has yet to come around. I wish i was cared for
Jesus Christ helps me through my sadness and hurt always! I just lost my late wife just over 17 months ago and it still hurts!! But I know I am not alone and God helps me through my hardest times and through GOD and Jesus Christ I find my happiness and joy!!
“It’s sad you came all this way cause you won’t find Jesus in LA”-Alec Benjamin
So sorry to hear
I’m atheist but ya know if it works it works
I’m an atheist, but if it helps you, that’s good.
I lost my husband to terminal cancer in October 2020 I find God and Jesus is still helping me through it. Also it still hurts everyday.
I lost my wife of 55 years to Covid-19 which nearly took me. This put me in a very dark place as I was grieving for Ann and fighting Covid-19. I wanted to do something to ease the pain. So I started a diary, putting down my darkest thoughts and my pain. After about five months my entries became lighter and easier. Then I realized my mind was heading in the same direction. I had been taking my dark thoughts and grief out of my head and putting them onto paper which meant I could read my thoughts which I found so helpful. I know I will never know happiness again but was able to face. the world once again.
I'm 67 and starting to write things down when I was about 13, It helped but the disease didn't go away. I'm so sorry about your wife. I had a husband that I loved so much, and a little boy to raise by myself because he left us. He played games, coming in and out of our lives and it hurt so much. He's been gone for many years, passed away a few years ago and I still love him, always will. Writing does help. Much love my friend.
Depression never goes away! Fresh air, self care, sunshine, great people
I lost my son 3 years ago, it's been so hard to climb out of my depression. What keeps me going is the love of the lord. I know some day I will see my son again. Blessings
indeed....and rest assured he's waiting with arms wide open for you to join him again too
Sorry about your son. God has a plan for you.
Sorry , it will all get better
amen
I just lost mine 3 months ago. It created a hole in my soul. he was 24+ it happened in his sleep. never woke up again. My family are filled with doctors and nurses but there was nothing they could do He left silently without any good byes but again I wouldn't have been able to take it anyways. I hope his soul is with the Lord. Amen
I lost my husband in February 2024 and have been depressed! But God has come into my heart and lifted me up!!!! That song is so beautiful! Made me cry!
Sandra,
I’m so sorry for your loss darlin, I can’t imagine what you’re going through, but I know Jesus loves you & He’s right there with you.
Jesus is the only one that can give you true peace. I pray He wraps His arms around you & comforts you. I’m bedridden, on Hospice Care & I know I won’t be here much longer, but as long as Jesus is in me, beside me & waiting for me; makes it all worth it. My husband & I met in Elementary school & found each other again a few years later & been married ever since. He’s not handling this very well, but I told him that I would wait for him when he comes to join me. This life is just a blink! Please take care of yourself & reach out to Jesus; He will never fail you.
With Love & Prayers, Sister Patricia/Apostolic 💓✝️🙏🙌🕊
Bless you Sandra love you ❤❤❤
God will break you down and from that he will raise you up just follow his path
My best friend committed suicide last year. He was only 29. He had moved 12 hrs away so we weren't in touch as much. He had suffered with depression for many years. I miss him dearly. I wish he had someone close by who could of been there for him. He was such an amazing artist. He played guitar and could sketch and paint so beautifully. I look forward to seeing him in paradise one day.
My mother passed away when I was 12. It was such an emotional roller coaster for anyone especially as a preteen. When she was in the ICU fighting for her life in a coma due to diabetes complications, all of my aunts and uncles on my father’s side were present and I decided to kneel down on her bedside on the cold hospital floor and sing a song she always sang to me when I was young. It was Amazing Grace. When I got to the second verse of the song, she woke up out of the coma right then and there and sang the song with me as best as she could.
Unfortunately a few days later she went to her home in Heaven but I was still left alone it felt like. I began to search for love in all the wrong places, took advantage of girls my age and developed an addiction to pornography (which I still fight to this day).
I am now 31 and happily married with a beautiful 5 year old girl and I think of that story of singing to my mother and her waking up as a reminder that I can find peace in the midst of very difficult times because of God’s Amazing Grace.
Love you all and please reach out to others if you are struggling, and reach out to those who are struggling.
You should be very proud of yourself mate, the fact you're still up and fighting and with a little one of your own shows you what type of man you are. Very well done
this made me cry. i’m so sorry, i can’t even imagine the pain you felt
@@ljsart8405I’m sorry I made you cry 😢 I just wanted to hopefully encourage others that have experienced similar traumas. I chose, by the grace of God, to turn my past hurts into future positives.
@@Flawgoreappreciate the kind words brother
@@thomassonnathan no it’s all good :) you don’t have to apologize. i’m just an emotional person 😂
When I was very lonely, the only peace I felt came from the times that I spent listening to worship music lying on the floor lost in the presence of the Lord. When I run to Him, He is always faithful to wrap his Spirit around my heart. He brings peace and hope every time!
Your comments is very interesting to view, hope you're having a nice day?
Agree!
Mann my sentiments exactly. People who think that we are crazy just don’t understand the overwhelming peace and contentment he bestows upon us in those moments of rejoicing. My prayer is that everyone embraces the Lord God Jesus Christ so that they too can experience this same level of peace and love!!!
Amen
Thanks for sharing, your truth. I needed that. Thanks, June.
this emptiness in my heart doesn't go away, yet I still smile.
Me too!
Sometimes I wonder if people can tell my smile is just a mask, covering the pain and loneliness deep inside.
@@McCarthyJohn100 nope not even in the slightest.
Me too..... somehow I manage ,but it's getting harder and harder
Idk where the emptiness comes from. On the outside, It seems perfect...on the inside...desolate!! I just keep putting one foot in front of the other and keep going😥
You look like my favorite grandson. I love you on sight. You have an amazing personality that draws others to you. God is real. I’ve experienced Him. Believe, read, pray. He is there. He is love. He heals, protects, provides and you will be with Him forever. 🙂