“She isn’t real” has helped me realize that the person that I imagined them to be isn’t who they actually are but a fantasy that I created out of a person within my own mind. This is the best way that I can explain how I understand the lyric.
Or, he needed to be rid of the thought of her, and the only way for him to do so was to try and convince himself she was never real. Or, never for him.
I was 14 years old and thought I was in love for the first time with that fantasy of a girl, but later I realised she was someone else entirely. I must have listened to this song several times a day for like a year.
The beauty of music is it can mean many different things to everyone. To me the 1st song is a symbol of lust "a pheromone cult"..."pressure inside..". She is someone or something he believes would sate his desires make him whole. His anger being aimed at something he can't have "she isn't real" almost spoken like a mantra to himself. In vermillion part 2 it's like he comes to terms perfection was never attainable being whole was never possible. In the 1st the very idea of it held him back, made him anxious that he was broken. With part being his realisation and letting go of the unattainable ideal
This song is actually by a psychotic man who felt frustrated by her and decided to kill her. The feeling he felt grew inside him, that's why he said he couldn't let it grow inside him.
Corey Taylor really writes a lot of his songs straight from a psychological and personal stand point. Which makes these kinds of analyses so interesting. Can't wait to check that one out.
Personally, I think it's really good of you to use your platform/channel to help people with their internalized issues. It shows that you are a good human being and a blessing to those of us out here in the internet ether just making it through another day. Thank you, seriously. Hope you have a great day. 👍🇺🇸
The first one is about him stalking her, the second one is after he killed her. He somehow makes murder seem beautiful. And Corey hates Rick Rubin said they payed him alot of money and he would show up like an hour a week and leave.
@@stephenhaynes3460They sounded good, but I have seen a lot of stuff about how Rubin was working on a bunch of people's records all at once, and some stuff about Corey not liking the vocal takes he used. A lot of ppl complain that Corey isnt screaming his lungs out and crying in anguish on every song like Iowa but I like the deeper, more subdued tones of his voice on Vol. 3, and he screams a bunch too. There's a little more melody but he sounds good. The band sounds good. It's not as raw but it's more musical and its more or less defined their sound, where they can go from grindcore to grunge to acoustic to thrash or groove metal in the space of a couple tracks.
@mediumvillain that and also the fact that at the time they recorded Vol. 3 Corey was slowly getting sober. Whether throughout the whole IOWA era he was drinking 3 bottles of Jack Daniels a day, and not using any technique for his screams, But rather just yelling and "ripping" his vocal chords.
I remember when this album was released, Vermilion pt1 and pt2 really stood out for me. At the time I was living with 2 friends - a guy I went to school with, and a girl who I did love at one point but we had grown apart. Even though we were living together, I didn't see much of her because of my work hours, and i did miss her. One night I got home about 11 o'clock at night and a little while later I heard her leave the house. I had these two songs on repeat and I was thinking of how I missed spending time with her. She never came home. She took her own life that night. I still get a bit teary listening to these songs sometimes even 20 years on
From AliceBlue: @andrewwalker5164 My heart really sinks and I feel your words and those feelings so deeply. I lost someone I love deeply in the same way and somehow I believe they are in the earth around us and with us. We carry them in our hearts Sending you love x
From twixremix: @andrewwalker5164 hey, thank you for opening up about your friend’s suicide and the feelings you hold about that night. i’m so sorry. please know that you aren’t alone and even after 20 years, grief has no set time length. thank you again for being here and sharing this difficult time in your life.
From Listening2Day: @andrewwalker5164 What a poignant story you share here. Music has such a powerful way of touching emotions and memories. I hope this music also helps to bring you some peace as well.
From Micro: @andrewwalker5164 I hope the tears, however consequent or not, brought a little bit of rest to your heart, even if happens to be just by the possibillity to breathe a little more deeply. It's heartbreaking to lose someone you loved in such a sudden, unexpected and brutal way. At one moment there is life that is shared, conversations, moments of joy and memories created. There is sound, there is life. Then the moment you learn about what happenes, it feels like a button has been pressed, as if reality couldn't be trusted anymore. For it is too hard to compose with it, and too difficult to wrap our mind around the void that loss creates. I'm sorry that this person took their life that night. I can't begin to imagine the amount of pain they must have felt, and on your end, how much you certainly tried to rewrite the story in your mind - thinking of what could have been said or done differently to, maybe, change the narrative. It makes sense to still feel affected by it and get teary when you are reminded of her. Even through her absence, she keeps having a presence in your life, in your own story - she left a mark, one that was met with love and was highly meaningful for you. It's hard to feel like two trajectories can be shifted away so brutally, to feel like opportunities of life have been lost, while dealing with the reality of being part of those who keep having the possibility to grow, laugh, live. I hope that, through these 20 years you've been holding on to the truth that any sense of guilt you may have carried on your shoulders never belonged to you. That it's okay to release that away from your heart and mind. Because it's human to think about all the what if's, it's also okay to offer ourselves the kindness and grace we need at the same time, especially when we grieve. We can love, care, be loyal, and at the same time even the people closest to us can decide to not be seen despite being in front of our eyes. It's an expression of pain, but not any individual's fault. You have been a significant ally in her life. :heart:
not too many people understand just how genius they really are. That’s why I love Slipknot. One of the deepest bands I have ever listened to, and not too many people understand that they misinterpret the music. I’m glad I have friends that I sit and have conversations about their music with.
Snuff, dead memories, till we die and killpop are all songs id love to see you listen to, it’s been really refreshing to see someone who looks and acts like they wouldn’t listen to metal, not only enjoy it but dive deeper and see what we see, it makes a lot of us feel really seen and I definitely appreciate it a lot.
For me this song reminds me of when you're crushing on somebody. The thing is when you crush on somebody you are crushing on who you think they are and not who they really are. That person you have a crush on isn't real. You ask them out and get to know them you find out who they are. If there's disappointment because they don't live up to your fantasy you can't let that build up inside of you. It isn't their fault you built a fantasy partner in your head.
Exactly how I always thought about it. The fear that convinces you to not interact because "she probably doesn't like me anyway", "I probably made it all up".
This is the CD that got me in to this band. The local rock station was playing Duality left and right at the time, then both Vermilion songs came out and that was all it took, became a huge fan. Enjoy your analysis of this music, it gives a perspective that I didn't understand at the time, I was just the typical rocker banging his head. lol
This song has been my long time favorite of my favorite band and helped me thru the many years of battling suicide attempts and depression and mental breakdown. Literally both parts helped me realize how much I internalize all my feelings. I’m so glad I found this channel. ❤
It feels like a lifetime ago. I had just worked myself past serious suicidal plans. But my mind was fixated on a woman. A woman that I couldnt have and that I didnt need. The vermilion songs shined a light on my unhealthy obsession for me. And I moved past that issue. I grew up thinking love was neglect, abuse and pain. Especially from women. I didnt know what to do with myself. Everyone else made me feel like I needed a wife or girlfriend to be happy. But I dont. My happiness is inside and I can be in control of my emotions. No one else can ever be the solution. So your interpretation of this song is exactly how I received it back when I heard it. On a different note Id love to see you listen to some Hatebreed songs. Basically any of them. Hard heavy sound but the lyrics have incredible meaning and messages. They literally saved my life. They told me I have the power in myself, so I tried to make it one more day. And here we are 20 years later. Happy, fulfilled, and trying to listen and mentor some of the other guys that need some compassion and to be heard.
Amazing how from walking through really heavy and dark times, you are now standing up while being a voice of inspiration for others. What a journey! And what a beautiful testimony of growth/healing. You can be proud of yourself for not giving up on yourself and for gaining such profound insight on the battles you've been facing. I myself grew up in an abusive environment, so it's been - and somehow keep being - a lifelong process to dissociate that type of pain from genuine love. It leaves you with this void inside and the belief that you would only feel complete through others (or external substitutes). Instead, it's been such a meaningful journey it to learn to meet myself at an emotional level, and to be the one who builds a strong backbone for my life. Interestingly as you mention mentoring, at Heartsupport we have an online mentorship program (for which of course we always need more people willing to step in and volunteer). If that would be of any interest for you, here's the link to our website with more information: www.heartsupport.com/bts-volunteer - You have a strong story to tell and without a doubt a heart for this. Would love to count you in! - Marie-Anne
I'm on the verge, my friends. I can't anymore. Peace be with everyone. I hope no one ever feels that loss ever. I wish love and peace and happiness on everyone who see's this.
I love these reactions and i especially love your interpretations and your take on the songs! Please keep being awesome! You are helping me while jamming out! And I love it! 🤘🤘❤
You’ve found the words that I’d never found but felt. I have a tattoo on my chest with these words: “I won’t let this build up inside of me” because 5 years ago I was lost. I was profoundly frustrated because of many of “impossible to resolve” problems. I had a depression. And the only meaning and piece of a human happiness to me was my girlfriend that later cheated on me and I had to stop our relationships. And when I was at the bottom of my life I heard both these songs and main words and it helped me and now I’m doing well. That’s why I tattooed it on my chest as a symbol and the reminder about to what it could lead if you let all these stuff build up inside of you. Thank you for such a great reaction and explanation of meanings of these two songs from your professional experience. You are amazing! God bless you!
This song saved me from myself in my darkest times thank you for your evaluation I never understood why it resonated with me in such a strong way now it seems to make more sense
Same here man. I grew up alone. I seemed companionship at a young age and still ended up alone. Betrayed by people again and again. This song as many others to this day built up a lot of sadness in my life and helped me express my sadness and frustration in life. I guess that’s why men become so isolated socially in modern society. Regardless the amount of relationships I had felt suffocating but without felt lonely and cold… Regardless of our past traumas we should have more therapeutic songs like this. This art is exactly how music should be. Every story every lyric should be of a story a message.
It’s nice to hear someone have pretty much the same exact interpretation that I had when I first heard this. I was a desperate young man with hopeless expectations. This song was one step in a long process of understanding and managing my expectations. I love that your conclusion is the same one I had when I first heard this. Hoping to be saved is such a mental trap, we have to save ourselves. “She isn’t real I can’t make her real.”
Parts 1 and 2 were great to watch… I love metal music and hard rock music, and Slipknot is easily in my top 10 favorites… all of that said your analysis of their lyrics has really helped add a new layer of appreciation for them (my appreciation was always for the level of talent that all possess to make such incredible songs). All of that said this has also helped me with my own therapy, and your reactions have helped me to dig deeper into my self and feelings between sessions, your reactions are hopefully doing the same for others. I can’t express enough even to strangers (which is why I’m not ashamed to say) MENTAL HEALTH IS SO IMPORTANT TO LIFE, and you reactions are great in helping to provide that… thank you, and keep doing awesome things for people
As a youth i never fully grasped the lyrics of most of their songs. A line or a rhyme by itself would have carried an idea or emotion that i could reflect on and sing for myself when i needed encouragement. When i got older i started to see that these songs contain so much thought and work. Thank you for your videos. Its great to see another person respond to the songs the way i do and put into words exactly what they mean.
A good psychological torment album with Corey Taylor is Stone Sour’s House of Gold and Bones parts 1 & 2 lyrically it’s a mental whirlwind. Even has accompanying comics. I’d love to hear a therapist’s reaction to those.
I love this song and music video so much. I imagine it as a narration of his love. This woman that he loves. It's BASED on a woman, but the woman he built up in his mind isn't the person he thought it was. He's tormenting himself by trying to breathe life into the woman he thinks he loves, but all that's happening is she's floating around in this morbid, animated but still lifeless way. Basically this woman was dead before she was ever alive, and the process the character is going through is actually mourning this person who was never alive. He's giving in and allowing himself to feel grief. He's allowed this toxic hope to build up so much inside of him, that this imaginary person needs to be legitimately grieved in order for him to move on. The last verse to me is like a tragic catharsis, finally telling himself the hard truths and reassuring him in between every sentence. She isn't real (i won't let this build up inside of me) i can't make her real (it's okay man, you can't let it build up)
this song is actually by a psychotic man who felt frustrated by her and decided to kill her the feeling he felt was growing inside him that's why he said he couldn't let it grow inside him in part one he hadn't killed her yet and he was trying to contain himself, already in part 2 because he couldn't keep it inside himself
Esculto essa musica desdá minha adolescência, e é minha favorita do Slipknot, mas nunca sentir tanta a mensagem da musica como agora vendo seus vídeos. E é incrível como na minha vida eu fazia esse ciclo de depositar minha esperança e minha felicidade em alguém, e ficar confuso e perdido quando esse alguém me fazia mal, desde 2023 comecei a me cuidar com terapia e bons exercícios e amigos que me escultam e querem meu bem. Espero que essa realização e essa mensagem da musica chegue a muitas pessoas 🙏
What you said at the end about interpreting music as you hear it yourself is important. I love hearing the way other people interpret, but using your own thoughts is also important
The song that I listen to every time I am drinking my coffee in the morning before going to school. Realizing that I have nobody and they're just inside my head.
That song (and phrase: I won't let this build up inside of me) is so powerful to me, that I have a tattoo on my left arm s2 I live it like a mantra, and it feels good
HOOOOOOOOOOOO (unsuspecting train meme) lol seriously though, Vermillion 1 and 2 are some of my favorite Slipknot songs (and songs in general). Not just for the composition. But the underlying psychological story that plays out. I know the singer and bandmates all have very rough lives and terrible times in their lives. You can only peak in through the lens of their creative outlet to see a fraction of their inner turmoil. Its also so relatable. Like who hasn't felt that intense need for someone else to make their life right only to find out that it wasn't necessity. But you find its just infatuation and now you don't know what do to. Great video. Great analysis. Subbed!
Did you all notice the first time she opens her eyes throughout the whole video Is when Corey said she isn’t real Been listening to slipknot for 15 years now❤
Before I found out the what the song was actually about I thought it was about dealing with bipolar as a man and the struggle with the rage and anger mixed with deep sadness and shame and struggling with identity and who I was. It still hits me like that to this day
This pair of songs always makes me think of the stages of bipolar syndrome. Pt.1 is Mania, Pt. 2 is Depression. First he wants her at all costs, second he believes he can NEVER have her.
Actually if we pay attention to the visuals, Vermillion part 2 was the prequel to the whole storyline of Vermillion which was an amazing approach. It started as an unrequited admiration that turned into an unhealthy obsession (part1).
Some of Slipknots tracks honestly moved me to tears before just from the message in it and the relatability to how Corey is saying that message. Some of the tracks like this one have such an emotional response to me. Slipknot is definitely not just all scream yell devil curse gore gross. By far they have been my favorite band for some time and I will always cherish these songs for what they are.
Mettal starts with angst and after u find ur peace u don't hear the words u feel then and instead of the anger u feel emotion in a sad front. This song helped me move on when saw my wife in bed with my best freind of 23 years and I walked from Southern Minnesota to Canada trying to understand the lyrics
Bought this album when it dropped. Only speakers in the house were on my brothers computer in his room. Im in there listening to this when him and then wife. Ex wife to him now but not my story. She asked me who it was and couldn't believe it was slipknot. Didnt ask me why i was listening loud and tears behind a smile. That goes back to old drama in my life.
I've been watching your videos for the last hour. Im a metal singer myself and its awesome to watch someone react to some of the deep tool, korn, and slipknot songs without negative judgemet. I've tried to get counseling my whole life and have always been met with a reaction that my pain through childhood abuse, and my mental status from such is a result of my own sins. I dont believe in therapy or counseling anymore because through all of the judgement I'm also smart enough to know that most counselors have never experienced any real horrors in their lives and are making assumptions based on text books. I wish I had different experiences. I'd love to have someone listen to me the way you do these artists. My lyrics are a reflection of me, but never tell the whole story. You are doing something wonderful, and even though I'll never see another therapist, you give me hope that maybe after I'm gone someone may hear what I've been screaming and take the time to understandit without judgement. Thank you for what you do. @heartsupport
@heartsupport To me, the songs are about being in a relationship with someone who you've put on a pedastal and worship. The first song is the anger and rage felt immediately losing that person, while part 2 is about the sadness felt over that loss and realization that they are gone. The she isn't real part is realizing that the person you loved was not who they really were. It was merely an image that you built in your own head of who they were. After my divorce, when people asked why we weren't together anymore, I told them it was because I was in love with someone who didn't exist. Both of these songs, along with other Slipknot songs, helped me get through some rough times.
PLEASE react and explain ‘Bother’ - the song by Corey Taylor’s side project - Stone Sour! Love your reactions, you’re putting all the inner thoughts and feelings from these songs into words just amazingly!
“I won’t this build up inside of me” Having become somewhat infatuated with a woman I used to work with but being unable to be with her, when that realisation sunk in I emotionally “shut down” towards this individual in an attempt to stop feeling an attachment to her. Just my thoughts on how parts 1 & 2 tie together for me
My partner and i have been in therapy since January. What we thought was 'only' an emotional affair with his work colleague so intense like limerance, has turned out him being victim of narcissistic abuse. Eventually he was discarded and his world crashed down and nearly ended our 9 year relationship. I'm convinced his vulnerability for his fixation with her started because he never deals with anything. She seemed like this perfect escape from reality and his identity issues. When he realised it wasnt love and was infatuation mixed with narcissistic abuse he felt relieved because he originally believed that he must have fallen out of love with me in order to fall for someone else, but in fact it was a synthetic pull and manipulation made possible by his issues and vulnerability. Its been the hardest 8 months of our lives, we're still working on our issues together and individually in therapy, we havent been physically or emotionally intimate in this time and its so so hard, but i believe its a blessing in disguise- he would never have had therapy or started dealing with these issues if this hadnt happened to us. This video makes me so sad with the pain of being deceived and reading those messages of betrayal, feeling like once again im not enough for somone, their second choice, but it also makes me feel hope that once that dilusion of his, burst, he will heal, we wil heal. I didnt realise until now how much pain is still inside me from this. Ive felt emotionally numb until now. ❤
I kinda think that the first one was about an obsession whereas the second one is the realization that the perfect person is just a figment of our imagination but at the end when her eyes open and she sees the sun it's about seeing the light after the storm is done !!
This song reminds me of my ex-wife. We spent many years apart because of the military, desperately loved each other, but never really spent much time together. After we got married, we quickly realized that each of us had built this idea of the other person, which wasn’t accurate. It fell apart, quickly and in flames. Took me years to get over her. Whenever she is, I hope she’s happy and prosperous.
I would really love you to analyze Architecs songs. Doomsday, Memento mori, Holly Hell which deal with the lost of the band member due to cancer or straight up accusations like Matchmade in heaven or black lungs. A lot to unpack there.
I needed to hear this today. I haven't had the chance to let things go because I'm always so stuck on outside sources to help my internal problems. @heartsupport
I would like to say, Welcome Maggot! Corey Taylor is a Lyrcial Genous! The dude (& the 9 in general) are amazing. Personally speaking, they have saved my life. #maggot4lyfe
I've gone through a boatload of your content tonight, and I love it. If you want some more mental health-centric music(as you spoke alot of with Slipknot and BMTH), I'd highly recommend Falling in Reverse. Old or new, doesn't matter. Anything from The Drug in Me is You, all the way up to Watch the World Burn, and everything in-between
Please do any of TEN.56s songs. I just discovered your videos with slipknot and literally cry at three of them. I suffer from PTSD and depression and this band is very therapeutic for me so I’m very curious to hear your views on them. Thanks for doing what you do and listening
To me, the lifeless girl is a fantasy in his mind that he desperately wants but can’t bring to life because she doesn’t actually exist. She is a construct of his mind. It is a hope to find his perfect match, but the realization that it will only ever be a fantasy in his head. When he says, “I won’t let this build up inside of me” is an attempt to convince himself to get over his fantasy, but he still struggles to do so. He’s trying to accept it but he just can’t. There is no resolve. He never actually overcomes it. This song is haunting from beginning to end.
In my opinion, this song is about Purity - another Slipknot song that they had to remove from their debut commercial album. I can't remember if Corey heard the story from someone else, or read it himself, but it was a myth/scary story type story about a girl buried in a box, and a boy would being her food in exchange for her telling me scary stories. Slipknot included a section of the story just before Frail Limb Nursery, and Corey wrote a song called Purity but they had to recall the Slipknot album and delete Purity due to a copywrite claim from the original story writer. From what i heard, someone about that story really affected Corey and he thought about it a lot. Here are a few of the lines why i think Vermillion relates to Purity, in no particular order. "She's a myth that i have to believe in" "All i need to make it real is one more reason" (Apparently Corey thought that it was a real event that actually happened). "She isn't real, I can't make her real" "A song that no one sings" "I won't let this build up inside of me" (Again, i heard that this story really affected Corey at one point) This is all my own personal opinion and I've never heard anyone else say anything like this. But to me, it makes sense.
“She isn’t real” has helped me realize that the person that I imagined them to be isn’t who they actually are but a fantasy that I created out of a person within my own mind. This is the best way that I can explain how I understand the lyric.
I'm living it
From Pt 1 when he says "I am a slave and I am a master" is good because it shows he is the one causing it yet at the same time being controlled by it.
Or, he needed to be rid of the thought of her, and the only way for him to do so was to try and convince himself she was never real. Or, never for him.
I was 14 years old and thought I was in love for the first time with that fantasy of a girl, but later I realised she was someone else entirely. I must have listened to this song several times a day for like a year.
I always thought ''she'' was death
This song feels like the realization that there is no hope. And I can't listen to it without crying. 😭
Yeah. Well said.
The beauty of music is it can mean many different things to everyone. To me the 1st song is a symbol of lust "a pheromone cult"..."pressure inside..". She is someone or something he believes would sate his desires make him whole. His anger being aimed at something he can't have "she isn't real" almost spoken like a mantra to himself. In vermillion part 2 it's like he comes to terms perfection was never attainable being whole was never possible. In the 1st the very idea of it held him back, made him anxious that he was broken. With part being his realisation and letting go of the unattainable ideal
This song is actually by a psychotic man who felt frustrated by her and decided to kill her. The feeling he felt grew inside him, that's why he said he couldn't let it grow inside him.
Same.
Some of us are just destined to live sad. At least we can share that.
Now we need Snuff, that’s a golden song
She needs to listen to the live version
Corey Taylor really writes a lot of his songs straight from a psychological and personal stand point. Which makes these kinds of analyses so interesting. Can't wait to check that one out.
Corey is absolutely like a lot of us, and absolutely brilliant at articulating. Thinking about him lately with his current struggles
We are cooking up something good...😉
@@holycegaming4367 listen to this man
Personally, I think it's really good of you to use your platform/channel to help people with their internalized issues. It shows that you are a good human being and a blessing to those of us out here in the internet ether just making it through another day. Thank you, seriously. Hope you have a great day. 👍🇺🇸
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Now you see why Corey is something special. He pulls you through on many many songs.
Literally been my fav slipknot song since I was in high school when it came out.
The first one is about him stalking her, the second one is after he killed her. He somehow makes murder seem beautiful. And Corey hates Rick Rubin said they payed him alot of money and he would show up like an hour a week and leave.
Can't imagine Rick Rubin and Slipknot in a room together. Lot of real big egos
Yeah no way Corey and Rick's ego fits into a studio, that album did have a different sound then all there others so I guess Rick did something on it.
@@stephenhaynes3460They sounded good, but I have seen a lot of stuff about how Rubin was working on a bunch of people's records all at once, and some stuff about Corey not liking the vocal takes he used.
A lot of ppl complain that Corey isnt screaming his lungs out and crying in anguish on every song like Iowa but I like the deeper, more subdued tones of his voice on Vol. 3, and he screams a bunch too. There's a little more melody but he sounds good. The band sounds good. It's not as raw but it's more musical and its more or less defined their sound, where they can go from grindcore to grunge to acoustic to thrash or groove metal in the space of a couple tracks.
@mediumvillain None of us last forever. He’s getting worn out. I saw a suggested video of him talking about it
@mediumvillain that and also the fact that at the time they recorded Vol. 3 Corey was slowly getting sober.
Whether throughout the whole IOWA era he was drinking 3 bottles of Jack Daniels a day, and not using any technique for his screams, But rather just yelling and "ripping" his vocal chords.
I remember when this album was released, Vermilion pt1 and pt2 really stood out for me. At the time I was living with 2 friends - a guy I went to school with, and a girl who I did love at one point but we had grown apart. Even though we were living together, I didn't see much of her because of my work hours, and i did miss her. One night I got home about 11 o'clock at night and a little while later I heard her leave the house. I had these two songs on repeat and I was thinking of how I missed spending time with her. She never came home. She took her own life that night. I still get a bit teary listening to these songs sometimes even 20 years on
From AliceBlue: @andrewwalker5164 My heart really sinks and I feel your words and those feelings so deeply. I lost someone I love deeply in the same way and somehow I believe they are in the earth around us and with us. We carry them in our hearts
Sending you love x
From twixremix: @andrewwalker5164 hey, thank you for opening up about your friend’s suicide and the feelings you hold about that night. i’m so sorry. please know that you aren’t alone and even after 20 years, grief has no set time length. thank you again for being here and sharing this difficult time in your life.
From Listening2Day: @andrewwalker5164 What a poignant story you share here. Music has such a powerful way of touching emotions and memories. I hope this music also helps to bring you some peace as well.
From Micro: @andrewwalker5164 I hope the tears, however consequent or not, brought a little bit of rest to your heart, even if happens to be just by the possibillity to breathe a little more deeply. It's heartbreaking to lose someone you loved in such a sudden, unexpected and brutal way. At one moment there is life that is shared, conversations, moments of joy and memories created. There is sound, there is life. Then the moment you learn about what happenes, it feels like a button has been pressed, as if reality couldn't be trusted anymore. For it is too hard to compose with it, and too difficult to wrap our mind around the void that loss creates.
I'm sorry that this person took their life that night. I can't begin to imagine the amount of pain they must have felt, and on your end, how much you certainly tried to rewrite the story in your mind - thinking of what could have been said or done differently to, maybe, change the narrative. It makes sense to still feel affected by it and get teary when you are reminded of her. Even through her absence, she keeps having a presence in your life, in your own story - she left a mark, one that was met with love and was highly meaningful for you. It's hard to feel like two trajectories can be shifted away so brutally, to feel like opportunities of life have been lost, while dealing with the reality of being part of those who keep having the possibility to grow, laugh, live.
I hope that, through these 20 years you've been holding on to the truth that any sense of guilt you may have carried on your shoulders never belonged to you. That it's okay to release that away from your heart and mind. Because it's human to think about all the what if's, it's also okay to offer ourselves the kindness and grace we need at the same time, especially when we grieve. We can love, care, be loyal, and at the same time even the people closest to us can decide to not be seen despite being in front of our eyes. It's an expression of pain, but not any individual's fault. You have been a significant ally in her life. :heart:
I can relate to that feeling, I think I remember listening to this song when my grandad died, even though I learnt the news around a few hours later.
not too many people understand just how genius they really are. That’s why I love Slipknot. One of the deepest bands I have ever listened to, and not too many people understand that they misinterpret the music. I’m glad I have friends that I sit and have conversations about their music with.
Yes very well put and I'm in full agreement. Slipknot is really helping me out through a very very dark time in my life right now
I knew you'd be shook 😂 And the steam train wooo had me laughing 😂
Snuff, dead memories, till we die and killpop are all songs id love to see you listen to, it’s been really refreshing to see someone who looks and acts like they wouldn’t listen to metal, not only enjoy it but dive deeper and see what we see, it makes a lot of us feel really seen and I definitely appreciate it a lot.
By far, one of their best songs.
For me this song reminds me of when you're crushing on somebody. The thing is when you crush on somebody you are crushing on who you think they are and not who they really are. That person you have a crush on isn't real. You ask them out and get to know them you find out who they are. If there's disappointment because they don't live up to your fantasy you can't let that build up inside of you. It isn't their fault you built a fantasy partner in your head.
Exactly how I always thought about it. The fear that convinces you to not interact because "she probably doesn't like me anyway", "I probably made it all up".
I tried to get a girl to realize I like her through music and I legit cired for weeks on end when she said she sees me as a friend and nothing more
This woman is such a vibe.
Vermillion 1 and 2 always reminded me of watching my friends deal with and try to overcome addiction.
Love is the most beautiful thing and the most torturous and vulnerable thing in existence simultaneously.
This is the CD that got me in to this band. The local rock station was playing Duality left and right at the time, then both Vermilion songs came out and that was all it took, became a huge fan. Enjoy your analysis of this music, it gives a perspective that I didn't understand at the time, I was just the typical rocker banging his head. lol
literally the little ''jumpscare" at 0:17 was the first thing to make me smile today, and its past 10pm
Sidenote, I do use Slipknot music as therapy not just Slipknot either but mostly Slipknot helps me process music is medicine
When I saw them live back in the day they play this video across the top of the stadium it was an experience!
You're interpretation of this song is incredible, i am definitely subscribed.
Metal music has always been my therapy . Thank you
The deluxe version of all hope is gone album has another version of vermilion pt2 it’s awesome
Try Left Behind from Iowa album.
Yeah I'd love to see that one.
Yea, because they're very similar. You jadrools.
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And Free Venezuela
This song has been my long time favorite of my favorite band and helped me thru the many years of battling suicide attempts and depression and mental breakdown. Literally both parts helped me realize how much I internalize all my feelings. I’m so glad I found this channel. ❤
I love the way you analize the lyrics, best regards from Brazil : )
It feels like a lifetime ago. I had just worked myself past serious suicidal plans. But my mind was fixated on a woman. A woman that I couldnt have and that I didnt need. The vermilion songs shined a light on my unhealthy obsession for me. And I moved past that issue. I grew up thinking love was neglect, abuse and pain. Especially from women. I didnt know what to do with myself. Everyone else made me feel like I needed a wife or girlfriend to be happy. But I dont. My happiness is inside and I can be in control of my emotions. No one else can ever be the solution. So your interpretation of this song is exactly how I received it back when I heard it. On a different note Id love to see you listen to some Hatebreed songs. Basically any of them. Hard heavy sound but the lyrics have incredible meaning and messages. They literally saved my life. They told me I have the power in myself, so I tried to make it one more day. And here we are 20 years later. Happy, fulfilled, and trying to listen and mentor some of the other guys that need some compassion and to be heard.
Amazing how from walking through really heavy and dark times, you are now standing up while being a voice of inspiration for others. What a journey! And what a beautiful testimony of growth/healing. You can be proud of yourself for not giving up on yourself and for gaining such profound insight on the battles you've been facing. I myself grew up in an abusive environment, so it's been - and somehow keep being - a lifelong process to dissociate that type of pain from genuine love. It leaves you with this void inside and the belief that you would only feel complete through others (or external substitutes). Instead, it's been such a meaningful journey it to learn to meet myself at an emotional level, and to be the one who builds a strong backbone for my life.
Interestingly as you mention mentoring, at Heartsupport we have an online mentorship program (for which of course we always need more people willing to step in and volunteer). If that would be of any interest for you, here's the link to our website with more information: www.heartsupport.com/bts-volunteer - You have a strong story to tell and without a doubt a heart for this. Would love to count you in!
- Marie-Anne
I'm on the verge, my friends. I can't anymore. Peace be with everyone. I hope no one ever feels that loss ever. I wish love and peace and happiness on everyone who see's this.
"This song is low key beeeeeeautiful"...
-He murdered her
LISTEN TO SNUFF SONG BY SLIPKNOT! THIS SONG HAD ME CRYING! COREY TAYLOR AND JIM ROOT PLAYED THIS SONG FOR ME BEFORE THE PUBLIC HEARD IT!
I love your input on Slipknot songs….. I wish you were here to us all decades ago
Slipknot is one of my favourite Bands and this Song is one of my favourites
We all want what isn't real
You are so incredibly awesome! Thank you for what you do!
I love these reactions and i especially love your interpretations and your take on the songs! Please keep being awesome! You are helping me while jamming out! And I love it! 🤘🤘❤
You’ve found the words that I’d never found but felt. I have a tattoo on my chest with these words: “I won’t let this build up inside of me” because 5 years ago I was lost. I was profoundly frustrated because of many of “impossible to resolve” problems. I had a depression. And the only meaning and piece of a human happiness to me was my girlfriend that later cheated on me and I had to stop our relationships. And when I was at the bottom of my life I heard both these songs and main words and it helped me and now I’m doing well. That’s why I tattooed it on my chest as a symbol and the reminder about to what it could lead if you let all these stuff build up inside of you. Thank you for such a great reaction and explanation of meanings of these two songs from your professional experience. You are amazing! God bless you!
This song saved me from myself in my darkest times thank you for your evaluation I never understood why it resonated with me in such a strong way now it seems to make more sense
Same here man. I grew up alone. I seemed companionship at a young age and still ended up alone. Betrayed by people again and again. This song as many others to this day built up a lot of sadness in my life and helped me express my sadness and frustration in life. I guess that’s why men become so isolated socially in modern society. Regardless the amount of relationships I had felt suffocating but without felt lonely and cold…
Regardless of our past traumas we should have more therapeutic songs like this. This art is exactly how music should be. Every story every lyric should be of a story a message.
It’s nice to hear someone have pretty much the same exact interpretation that I had when I first heard this. I was a desperate young man with hopeless expectations. This song was one step in a long process of understanding and managing my expectations. I love that your conclusion is the same one I had when I first heard this. Hoping to be saved is such a mental trap, we have to save ourselves.
“She isn’t real
I can’t make her real.”
One of the best vocal performances of all-time in my opinion.
My Plague by Slipknot was my favorite of the Iowa album
Please react to Ren - Hi Ren. It captures mental health struggles beautifully. The video is done in one take (3rd attempt). ❤ Your reactions 😊
Another song series that is pretty cool is Metallica - Unforgiven I, II and III.
Another great song series: Tool - Disposition, Reflection, Triad
Parts 1 and 2 were great to watch… I love metal music and hard rock music, and Slipknot is easily in my top 10 favorites… all of that said your analysis of their lyrics has really helped add a new layer of appreciation for them (my appreciation was always for the level of talent that all possess to make such incredible songs). All of that said this has also helped me with my own therapy, and your reactions have helped me to dig deeper into my self and feelings between sessions, your reactions are hopefully doing the same for others. I can’t express enough even to strangers (which is why I’m not ashamed to say) MENTAL HEALTH IS SO IMPORTANT TO LIFE, and you reactions are great in helping to provide that… thank you, and keep doing awesome things for people
Bro... I listen to this song since it came out. I've got so emotional with this video. Damn
And just like that you lifted all the weight off my shoulders. Th and you 😊
As a youth i never fully grasped the lyrics of most of their songs. A line or a rhyme by itself would have carried an idea or emotion that i could reflect on and sing for myself when i needed encouragement. When i got older i started to see that these songs contain so much thought and work. Thank you for your videos. Its great to see another person respond to the songs the way i do and put into words exactly what they mean.
A good psychological torment album with Corey Taylor is Stone Sour’s House of Gold and Bones parts 1 & 2 lyrically it’s a mental whirlwind. Even has accompanying comics. I’d love to hear a therapist’s reaction to those.
Glad you put licensed and listened to pt one first.
I love this song and music video so much. I imagine it as a narration of his love. This woman that he loves. It's BASED on a woman, but the woman he built up in his mind isn't the person he thought it was. He's tormenting himself by trying to breathe life into the woman he thinks he loves, but all that's happening is she's floating around in this morbid, animated but still lifeless way. Basically this woman was dead before she was ever alive, and the process the character is going through is actually mourning this person who was never alive. He's giving in and allowing himself to feel grief. He's allowed this toxic hope to build up so much inside of him, that this imaginary person needs to be legitimately grieved in order for him to move on. The last verse to me is like a tragic catharsis, finally telling himself the hard truths and reassuring him in between every sentence. She isn't real (i won't let this build up inside of me) i can't make her real (it's okay man, you can't let it build up)
this song is actually by a psychotic man who felt frustrated by her and decided to kill her the feeling he felt was growing inside him that's why he said he couldn't let it grow inside him in part one he hadn't killed her yet and he was trying to contain himself, already in part 2 because he couldn't keep it inside himself
A lot of people have Slipknot totally wrong, if you decifer the lyrics, there's a lot of deep stuff in them.
Definitely my #1 band 🤘
Esculto essa musica desdá minha adolescência, e é minha favorita do Slipknot, mas nunca sentir tanta a mensagem da musica como agora vendo seus vídeos. E é incrível como na minha vida eu fazia esse ciclo de depositar minha esperança e minha felicidade em alguém, e ficar confuso e perdido quando esse alguém me fazia mal, desde 2023 comecei a me cuidar com terapia e bons exercícios e amigos que me escultam e querem meu bem. Espero que essa realização e essa mensagem da musica chegue a muitas pessoas 🙏
What you said at the end about interpreting music as you hear it yourself is important. I love hearing the way other people interpret, but using your own thoughts is also important
Best reaction to this music video
The song that I listen to every time I am drinking my coffee in the morning before going to school. Realizing that I have nobody and they're just inside my head.
My favorite love song
and now the masterpiece THE NEGATIVE ONE.
This whole record changed my life - but specially Vermillion pt 1+2
I never heard anyone put it into words like this its amazing
That song (and phrase: I won't let this build up inside of me) is so powerful to me, that I have a tattoo on my left arm s2 I live it like a mantra, and it feels good
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HOOOOOOOOOOOO (unsuspecting train meme) lol
seriously though, Vermillion 1 and 2 are some of my favorite Slipknot songs (and songs in general). Not just for the composition. But the underlying psychological story that plays out. I know the singer and bandmates all have very rough lives and terrible times in their lives. You can only peak in through the lens of their creative outlet to see a fraction of their inner turmoil. Its also so relatable. Like who hasn't felt that intense need for someone else to make their life right only to find out that it wasn't necessity. But you find its just infatuation and now you don't know what do to.
Great video. Great analysis. Subbed!
Thank you for helping me understand my feelings. Thank you!
Did you all notice the first time she opens her eyes throughout the whole video
Is when Corey said she isn’t real
Been listening to slipknot for 15 years now❤
Before I found out the what the song was actually about I thought it was about dealing with bipolar as a man and the struggle with the rage and anger mixed with deep sadness and shame and struggling with identity and who I was. It still hits me like that to this day
I needede to hear this words, so thx and respect to your knowledge and viewing angle 🫰🏻
This pair of songs always makes me think of the stages of bipolar syndrome. Pt.1 is Mania, Pt. 2 is Depression. First he wants her at all costs, second he believes he can NEVER have her.
Actually if we pay attention to the visuals, Vermillion part 2 was the prequel to the whole storyline of Vermillion which was an amazing approach. It started as an unrequited admiration that turned into an unhealthy obsession (part1).
Some of Slipknots tracks honestly moved me to tears before just from the message in it and the relatability to how Corey is saying that message. Some of the tracks like this one have such an emotional response to me. Slipknot is definitely not just all scream yell devil curse gore gross. By far they have been my favorite band for some time and I will always cherish these songs for what they are.
Mettal starts with angst and after u find ur peace u don't hear the words u feel then and instead of the anger u feel emotion in a sad front. This song helped me move on when saw my wife in bed with my best freind of 23 years and I walked from Southern Minnesota to Canada trying to understand the lyrics
Bought this album when it dropped. Only speakers in the house were on my brothers computer in his room. Im in there listening to this when him and then wife. Ex wife to him now but not my story. She asked me who it was and couldn't believe it was slipknot. Didnt ask me why i was listening loud and tears behind a smile. That goes back to old drama in my life.
I love this song. It's been there when iv had to move on after heartbreak. I love the reaction
I love your interpretation of Vermillion 1 and 2. The only video you haven't Watched was Thoughtless
I recommend you “The Virus of Lifes” from Subliminal Verses too. Please this song is very interesting 👌🏻
Ok, the song you NEED to hear is “Finale”. Probably the next most or THE most beautiful Slipknot song.
Great generalized points.
Wish we could see the reaction to what the commonly held beliefs of the true meanings are for both of these songs.
I've been watching your videos for the last hour. Im a metal singer myself and its awesome to watch someone react to some of the deep tool, korn, and slipknot songs without negative judgemet. I've tried to get counseling my whole life and have always been met with a reaction that my pain through childhood abuse, and my mental status from such is a result of my own sins. I dont believe in therapy or counseling anymore because through all of the judgement I'm also smart enough to know that most counselors have never experienced any real horrors in their lives and are making assumptions based on text books. I wish I had different experiences. I'd love to have someone listen to me the way you do these artists. My lyrics are a reflection of me, but never tell the whole story. You are doing something wonderful, and even though I'll never see another therapist, you give me hope that maybe after I'm gone someone may hear what I've been screaming and take the time to understandit without judgement. Thank you for what you do. @heartsupport
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To me, the songs are about being in a relationship with someone who you've put on a pedastal and worship. The first song is the anger and rage felt immediately losing that person, while part 2 is about the sadness felt over that loss and realization that they are gone. The she isn't real part is realizing that the person you loved was not who they really were. It was merely an image that you built in your own head of who they were.
After my divorce, when people asked why we weren't together anymore, I told them it was because I was in love with someone who didn't exist. Both of these songs, along with other Slipknot songs, helped me get through some rough times.
I like your reactions, I also laugh at your craziness ☺️
PLEASE react and explain ‘Bother’ - the song by Corey Taylor’s side project - Stone Sour!
Love your reactions, you’re putting all the inner thoughts and feelings from these songs into words just amazingly!
This song helped me through a decade long break up
“I won’t this build up inside of me”
Having become somewhat infatuated with a woman I used to work with but being unable to be with her, when that realisation sunk in I emotionally “shut down” towards this individual in an attempt to stop feeling an attachment to her. Just my thoughts on how parts 1 & 2 tie together for me
This is my favorite slipknot song next to snuff. But i have always wondered what a therapist would think of this song. 🤔
Part 2 is about over coming depression and the darkness within, and renewing ones self.
My partner and i have been in therapy since January. What we thought was 'only' an emotional affair with his work colleague so intense like limerance, has turned out him being victim of narcissistic abuse. Eventually he was discarded and his world crashed down and nearly ended our 9 year relationship.
I'm convinced his vulnerability for his fixation with her started because he never deals with anything. She seemed like this perfect escape from reality and his identity issues. When he realised it wasnt love and was infatuation mixed with narcissistic abuse he felt relieved because he originally believed that he must have fallen out of love with me in order to fall for someone else, but in fact it was a synthetic pull and manipulation made possible by his issues and vulnerability.
Its been the hardest 8 months of our lives, we're still working on our issues together and individually in therapy, we havent been physically or emotionally intimate in this time and its so so hard, but i believe its a blessing in disguise- he would never have had therapy or started dealing with these issues if this hadnt happened to us. This video makes me so sad with the pain of being deceived and reading those messages of betrayal, feeling like once again im not enough for somone, their second choice, but it also makes me feel hope that once that dilusion of his, burst, he will heal, we wil heal. I didnt realise until now how much pain is still inside me from this. Ive felt emotionally numb until now. ❤
I kinda think that the first one was about an obsession whereas the second one is the realization that the perfect person is just a figment of our imagination but at the end when her eyes open and she sees the sun it's about seeing the light after the storm is done !!
Have you heard Snuff yet? It's so impactful and emotional. You will love it!
I miss you, Kayla. Forever. My heart. Forever.
This song reminds me of my ex-wife. We spent many years apart because of the military, desperately loved each other, but never really spent much time together.
After we got married, we quickly realized that each of us had built this idea of the other person, which wasn’t accurate. It fell apart, quickly and in flames.
Took me years to get over her.
Whenever she is, I hope she’s happy and prosperous.
I would really love you to analyze Architecs songs. Doomsday, Memento mori, Holly Hell which deal with the lost of the band member due to cancer or straight up accusations like Matchmade in heaven or black lungs. A lot to unpack there.
this song was my therapy
I needed to hear this today. I haven't had the chance to let things go because I'm always so stuck on outside sources to help my internal problems. @heartsupport
@heartsupport Omg I love both the versions of this song .. but your breakdown hit so hard thankyou - I get it ❤
I would like to say, Welcome Maggot! Corey Taylor is a Lyrcial Genous! The dude (& the 9 in general) are amazing. Personally speaking, they have saved my life. #maggot4lyfe
I've gone through a boatload of your content tonight, and I love it. If you want some more mental health-centric music(as you spoke alot of with Slipknot and BMTH), I'd highly recommend Falling in Reverse. Old or new, doesn't matter. Anything from The Drug in Me is You, all the way up to Watch the World Burn, and everything in-between
Please do any of TEN.56s songs. I just discovered your videos with slipknot and literally cry at three of them. I suffer from PTSD and depression and this band is very therapeutic for me so I’m very curious to hear your views on them.
Thanks for doing what you do and listening
Wow I like how u did that, explained it perfectl
y, I'd like to see ur interpretation of A perfect circle- 3 libras
That train picture 🤣🤣🤣
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To me, the lifeless girl is a fantasy in his mind that he desperately wants but can’t bring to life because she doesn’t actually exist. She is a construct of his mind. It is a hope to find his perfect match, but the realization that it will only ever be a fantasy in his head. When he says, “I won’t let this build up inside of me” is an attempt to convince himself to get over his fantasy, but he still struggles to do so. He’s trying to accept it but he just can’t. There is no resolve. He never actually overcomes it. This song is haunting from beginning to end.
Check out Stone Sour - Hesitate (live/accoustic) (same singer, different band, similar song)
She reminds me of the butterfly in part 1 that also laid to rest at the end.
I loove this song!!!
In my opinion, this song is about Purity - another Slipknot song that they had to remove from their debut commercial album.
I can't remember if Corey heard the story from someone else, or read it himself, but it was a myth/scary story type story about a girl buried in a box, and a boy would being her food in exchange for her telling me scary stories.
Slipknot included a section of the story just before Frail Limb Nursery, and Corey wrote a song called Purity but they had to recall the Slipknot album and delete Purity due to a copywrite claim from the original story writer.
From what i heard, someone about that story really affected Corey and he thought about it a lot. Here are a few of the lines why i think Vermillion relates to Purity, in no particular order.
"She's a myth that i have to believe in"
"All i need to make it real is one more reason" (Apparently Corey thought that it was a real event that actually happened).
"She isn't real, I can't make her real"
"A song that no one sings"
"I won't let this build up inside of me" (Again, i heard that this story really affected Corey at one point)
This is all my own personal opinion and I've never heard anyone else say anything like this. But to me, it makes sense.