Totally depend on every individu... i know ppl who needed 25g dried mckennay to start seeing stuff, also i know ppl who took 1.6 gr mckennay and went to odin and back🤣
But you have a positive afterglow that can last a month, the direction it took me gave me a career in IT when internet had just started. Definitely went through full ego death, remember feeling my face to see if it was a skull to only realise I was inside my mind looking out a window which was my eye socket. Took a couple hundred more acid over the whole 90's and it just wasn't the same. Mega trails and light posts were the shape of McDonald's arks and it lasted 3 days.
Yeah lol it’s not for everybody . That’s why I don’t try to convince everyone who says LSD is much worse and toxic than shrooms and will fry your brain. I stop trying to convince them because technically…. Ego death can “fry” someone’s brain who isn’t ready for it or can’t handle it…. And being that it lasts twice as long as shrooms, I understand the precaution. I just hate the disinformation and misunderstandings. At the end of the day set and set and setting both physically and metaphysically , determines the outcome and is the way to prevent negative experiences. Just because it helped me or other people doesn’t mean that others can, too.
In fact, if someone offered me a choice between a pill that caused me to vividly experience being endlessly buggered by prison gangs whilst being bitten by bulldogs, or another pill that GAVE me autism, I'd probably have to go with the autism pill.
"I suspect I had a mild form of autism, and this trip literally eradicated it" I'm shocked to hear someone had the same experience I did. I grew up with full on Asperger's, and during my freshman year of college I did acid twice, once at 300ug and another at 400ug. Ever since I've been able to read and understand people, and for the first time in my life social interactions were no longer a haze of confusion and awkward exchanges. Over the last 2 and a half years I've developed social skills, my identity, quality friends, I began thinking for myself, learned to love and empathize with others, and I finally opened my eyes to what the world really is outside of my own head. It's been incredibly difficult as you might imagine- trying to develop one whole childhood's worth of experiences, learned social patterns, and basic knowledge of the world in a few years, but it has been incredibly rewarding and my family recognizes the exponential growth I've made since going away to college. I hope we can invest in research towards acid and autism, because it really is a cure.
That’s incredibly interesting. As an autistic person (diagnosed with Asperger’s at 6) I would probably see that as less of a cure and more of a way of managing social symptoms. I would think that lsd (in theory based on other trip reports, I haven’t touched it) would even enhance certain autistic tendencies and abilities, particularly bottom-up thinking and creativity. Did you have any experiences with those areas?
That's absolutely insane man. 5 or 6 years ago the same thing happened to me. Visited my cousin in florida, and he had a whole sheet. First trip was 300ug, second 1 week later was 400ug. Most profound experiences of my life. I learned a lot about myself and this world in those 2 weeks.
@@tourmaline8347 I haven’t noticed much change in creativity post-trip (during yes for sure) but original thinking definitely improved. Looking back on my high school days I realize how much I accepted things as the way they were, not realizing most things in life are incredibly fluid and changeable. I think my ability to think and reason also became less dependent on loose/incorrect generalizations and has now become more organized and accurate.
I have Asperger's too. I'm usually quite socially awkward, but something after taking mushrooms I feel like I can improve. I'm not cured, but I'm so much better than before.
"I act normally now, I view everyone I meet as a part of my own consciousness". If the average person viewed others as a part of their own consciousness, the world would be vastly different, better I'd imagine.
When you realize, each and every of 8 billion lives on this planet is living their own life and thinking their own thoughts, feeling and experiencing their own events, that’s when you view people differently.
I've had a similar experience with LSD too. This kind of experience is like a full personality reset, the length of time these looping experiences last is impossible to describe, you come out feeling older, so so much older
Watch Close Encounters of The Fifth Kind if you want to know more about consciousness and how far we can take it. The disclosure team that created that documentary is led by Dr. Steven M Greer, alongside very high level/credible witnesses and testimonials that can be found on his TH-cam page for free, including astronauts like Edgar Mitchell and former CEOs of military industrial complex companies like Lockheed Martin and Raytheon. You can help expose the corruption that is keeping us at this low level one mind at a time. They are planning a world takeover we all know that and we have the key to stop it. Its your mind of course.
@@cheesiesttoe I smoked “hashish” from an acquaintance years ago and was immediately shot into a 6+ hour trip complete with looping thoughts, a sense of immobility, and a feeling of near delirium. Then it just … Ended and I was back to myself. I’m an experienced smoker, having smoked tons of green/hash/etc before and after. But to this day I have no idea wtf I smoked.
Wow. Hearing him explain his ego death was surreal. I’m sure people who have tripped hard know there is seldom times where you can find words to even BEGIN to describe the unreal feelings, emotions, visuals, etc that you feel. Hearing him say “I was nothing and everything at the same time” almost took me back to the one time I experienced ego death.
I experienced it again recently for the first time in a long time. I used to enjoy trying to trip heavily and see how it went when I was younger, but after some time away came back to enjoy trips right on the verge of mild and heavy. But, recently had an experience where I left my body, felt death and rebirth happening continuously and simultaneously, and felt the pristine peace of nothingness in a void of color, beauty, and emptiness, and realized I had been there many times before. It was this last time that I realized that THAT space must be directly akin to the DMT experience/DMT "space", and that basically any psychedelic in the right dosage and mindset has the potential to elicit that DMT release in our brains and take us there
@@Coffee_Wizards I've never tried it tripping but I will have to check it out. I hear people talk about it all the time. DMT was nice though because, all the times I tried it alone I never broke through and it just felt really uncomfortable, but while tripping it just felt like an amplification of what I was already feeling. I'm also curious what salvia would be like on psychs but it was just so weird on its own, idk if I'll ever try it
* *takes 1000ug of LSD* * "I felt embarrassed, because it looked like I couldn't handle my shit" -bruda, the fact you even knew what embarrassment was should be a reason for you to be praised at that moment
Went from “LSD can cure mental illnesses and I think medicine should research this” to “I have nightmares, PTSD, and may have developed bipolar disorder after this trip” real quick there, OP
LSD and other psychedelics have been shown to have huge potential in treating mental disorders. That doesn’t meant it’s a good idea to take massive doses ; just like any drug, dosage is important.
Always, have safety precautions on hand. Tripsitter, no re-load doses, just so, you dont up the dose and have benzos at hand, for horror stopping properties. There you should be safe.
One of my favorite trip reports, I would never ever take a dose like that though, this sounds way too much like my first salvia experience but way longer considering the duration of acid. I've had wild and long experiences with LSD but always respected it's power enough to fear a dose like this for good reason haha.
I have taken a relatively similar dosage, taking an entire strip of LSD at once. I will never be able to fully express what the experience was like because it cannot be explained in any existing human language. I didn’t have a bad trip, by the way.
I did this once cuz I thought I was getting ripped off bc the strips kept getting thinner and thinner so I was like well fuck it what’s the worst that can happen….I was high for like a day, I took it during the afternoon, went in a ride fell asleep after I rolled the blunt and woke up like 10 minutes later to a sign with all the colors you can imagine and I’m partially blind in one eye and I saw again perfectly for the first time in so many years. It was a really relaxing high tbh, the worst I ever had was I didn’t realize how out of shape I was a took a long walk through the woods, ate some shrooms and smoked a Dutch, that walk back was a trip no pun intended. I thought I was gonna die then the visuals started to kick in but I’ve been here before so I knew to just start control my breathing I’ll be alright and it was fine afterwards but that anxiety inducing part when you take drugs is what makes or breaks you.
@@nawhteven3830 Honestly best advice for someone tripping is hey you took drugs calm down. There's always that thought of "am I ok?" and if you aren't in control enough to say yes you have a bad trip. I doubt anyone who hasn't tripped/rolled/greened out even understands how much a "Hey you're ok" can help.
Super glad you had an, I assume, enjoyable experience. Mind-melting, but nice However, what is the point if you cannot report back on it? This is a genuine question, one I could ask myself to be honest.
Insane stuff man. Reminds me of the time I experienced ego death after smoking a ton of spice at a high school party where I barely knew anyone. I blacked out on the couch but was conscious enough to hear their voices. Everyone was talking about me and how weird they thought I was. This contributed to the ego death. I was convinced I was going to die. It was a full psychotic break. I already had social anxiety going into the event. And this exacerbated it exponentially. I don’t know what it was laced with but I knew that I was going to die. Lost track of time and space and felt like I was looking at myself from the third person. To the kids at the party, I was just a weirdo. But to me, It was hell on earth. The experience had changed my life for ever.I experienced depersonalization and derealization for nearly three years afterwards, and went through a partial hospitalization program. I constantly felt detached from either my surroundings or my own body. And the worst part about it is that every time I saw a kid who attended the party after the event occurred, they would bring up the situation. I’m still a total weirdo and loser to them. There was no positive side. Even if no one cares, I’m glad I got this off my chest.
im so sorry man, i know this might sound like bullshit coming from someone you dont know online but i understand 100 percent. the worst thing to experience in society is to be an outcast or utterly alone. and its even worse when you suspect those about yourself and they ring true to those around you
Life is an experience. It was meant to be like that. Don’t blame yourself. You are one part of life experience itself - part of something bigger. First step: love yourself fully. I mean that. Read it again love yourself fully. The effect of that is that you become appreciative of your time and start working on something greater. See it as a power. Only few have strong self love and are able to channel it. Outside appreciation will follow. Highschool is a weird time and you’re ahead of your time now. You’ll see people in their 30s/40s would hundert percent understand and think you’re brave. If you take anything from this comment, then start loving yourself. It’s so powerful. Love from Austria to you
That's some heavy shit brother. I'm sorry that happened to you. I don't know whether you meant that the weed was laced so you didn't know that it had trippy shit in it. If so I can't imagine what it's like to smoke something that's been laced and have a psychedelic experience that you weren't expecting. Especially in that social environment. Even when you know what's going on it can feel like you're going insane. You're fucking strong to fight through that and all the shit afterwards man. Fuck them kids. You're not a weirdo or a loser. They're just shallow-minded
That feeling of being older after a strong trip is universal it seems, I've definitely gotten that after shrooms. Mentally it's like you've gained 40 years. More than anything, you feel humbled.
Every time i take shrooms and then remember the moment, earlier the same day in the fields looking for the cubensis, it feels like it was a life ago 😂😂😂
I had this after being in a coma. 23 days I was in..I was taking silly amounts of opiates and benzos. A yr later and off shit for good. Thr coma and the things I aren't supposed to remember have changed my life. I've done trips too and understand this but nothing that profound. Wouldn't advice going into a coma though 😮😂
Yeah man, we've all seen the same thing just experienced it in our own way. All the same emotions persist which is why I think we are able to connect so strongly to this story I can feel how I felt with the emotions in his voice
@@Kholaslittlespot1 i suspect you might be right. To take an ego trip heroic dose like this and then be able to articulate details like this just doesn't seem very likely. When you land after a dose like this, your brain is going to be absolutely exhausted and while you may remember a snippet or 2, your not giving some detailed report like your a 15th century explorer braving a new world. I mean everyone is different i guess, but from personal experience, huge does make you absolutely pay to play.
This trip report made me remember that time I was tripping on a normal safe dose having a pretty good trip but I remember just little moments of bad thoughts and I’ve realized how my focus was so important, I came to the realization that you have the power to look at any side of the coin you choose, and I developed this mechanism where if i found a bad thought I would ask myself “What’s the good opposite version of this thought?” And that question instantly made my brain look for the good and opposite side of that thought which is love and joy and I entertained those loving thoughts to the point that I got that same realization most of the people who get scared on a trip get and it’s that LOVE is the most important thing in this planet and love is the answer for any emotional pain, that thought made me feel so safe, joyful and thankful and the rest of the trip was bliss and it’s also a mechanism that I need to keep adopting with my sober self. “What’s the good opposite version of this thought?”
I'm sure we're all familiar with Terrence Mckenna's advice on taking heroic doses. I love the man and his powerful faculties of vision and communication, however in my experience, I highly recommend the opposite approach. Why not see what the smallest effective dose is? What's the smallest dose that still has a profound effect on you? Check your ambition at the door, have respect for your body and the continuity of your mind. Take it easy. Temper your expectations, psychedelics are not enlightenment, what they offer is not always therapeutic, they are an experience unto themselves. Be gentle, begin with humility and respect for the drug and your own emotional bandwidth. Psychedelics can be a window into a beautiful spiritual experience, that's why we try them, but be realistic!! Everything in this world has another side to it's nature. They can have a side that is unnecessarily dark, gross, mean, paranoid, annoying and it's best to have as little experience of that as dosage will allow
Took around over 2000ug when I was on an end my life, tried to crawl thro a wormhole which was my wall. Had taken valium alcohol and lots of other stuff as I was the lowest I had ever been. Wife found me lying and choking in vomit and saved me. I feel so bad that I did this and so glad she saved me when I eventually stopped tripping balls 36 or so hours later. Never again
@@mga59xbd38 I mean im just very happy this person is still around. And kinda obvious why though, no one with good intentions for themselves in a trip takes LSD, alchohol and valium as a combo. Could have been dangerous even on 200.
@@ouwle6618, I combined LSD with Zoloft. I had been unaware of the potential lethality due to Serotonin Syndrome. Never again am I repeating that mistake.
Took 3 tabs, and while I was vibing my friend experienced ego death. As he was changing emotions every 2 seconds and uncontrollably pulsating his limbs, everything turned black and white and the anxiety felt like a dense ball of glowing red matter that I could see. Every once in awhile, his true consciousness would come through and beg for help. Didn’t have a single good trip after that.
My rebirth happened on 1200ug, the whole experience was intense and overwhelming but it was one of my most prolific trips and it stands out from the crowd. I gained so much knowledge that trip and it changed my perspective completely, it even cured my meth addiction and got me off pharmas
My wife and I use LSD time to time. She sometimes gets these weird anxious feelings while thinking of very small particles or atoms in huge quantities. She would try to explain it but the message would never click with me. Then one time we were mid trip and she had that feeling again but this time she was able to guide me to what she was experiencing and it was insane. It's hard to even describe it so it will sound silly. As I was following her voice and looking into her eyes she caused me to experience a sensation and see something that even now shakes me to the core. It was a presence that felt like a void. A blanket of absolute darkness that was hanging behind me and slowly wrapping around the right side of my peripheral vision. It had a feeling that was similar to the feeling that a living thing is beside you and watching and waiting for you to acknowledge it's existence. I was terrified. I couldn't look at it. Fear prevented me from accepting it's reality. I stayed in denial as I could make out that it was emptiness. Pure nothingness. Like a veil to another dimension was lifting, or a blanket spreading out is the pattern it took. The feeling of shear terror of this unknown entity was something I never felt before. I was able to pull myself out of it before I let things get too far (not sure what was too far honestly). I looked at my wife, a tear slid down my face, and said " oh my God what was that"! She lepped off the bed and said "you saw it"! She finally felt that she wasn't going crazy because something that has followed her for years has just been exposed to someone who never knew it existed. Whenever I think about it I still get a weird feeling like I saw something that I shouldn't have. Something that has been hidden has been brought to light. It didn't feel like an entity of good or evil. It felt like oblivion (dramatic I know). My wife and I still have trouble even discussing it because of how unnerving it was. I'm not much of a writer so I apologize for the sloppiness. Has anyone else felt this entity? Also I should note we were just taking the basic low dosage we normally take if that helps. Thanks for reading
I had something similar to me happen once. I was in my room tripping with the lights off laying in my bed. And I felt how something dark and gigantic was coming from behind me. I was really scared but I couldn't move. It was a presence, it was something but it wasn't good or evil, like you said. It felt like the entire empty space, and it was so huge and quiet, that it was almost too loud. Like if you where left in the middle of the galaxy where you could see nothing and hear nothing in the complete void. I remember I just let go and embraced it, then all of the sudden I heard something in the real world and I snapped out of it.
@@darien_g9454 I just looked it up and wow that is some interesting stuff. Thank you for dropping that comment. I will definitely investigate further into it.
You know that's actually quite a horrifying concept, but I think of it this way, time is an illusion of our minds, and technically time could be boiled down to a measurement of travel. When that veil is lifted, there are only 2 absolutes to experience, absolute life: experiencing every possible feeling all at once, and absolute death or void, and I think what you described was that feeling of the absolute void. Just space, no consciousness for a moment and just in a way experiencing nothing. Very trippy stuff, and this is only speculation, but maybe it could provide insight to someone.
By far one of the best descriptions of a trip or a bad/ego death. This is vvvvery similar to my trip. So well spoken, so glad I’m not alone in this perspective.
@@Logan.Bell05 let's open the door to an interdimensional prison with garden-variety sorcery methods aka pharmakeia aka altered states, then let's all subtly act like it is just a positive learning experience for the shedding of ego. Nah. The events he described are more akin to soul death rather than ego death, and his tale is more of a warning why doing such is wrong in and of itself. It's just signing up to meet a very manipulative pure evil that was sealed away long ago and that wants to bait and switch the unwary then remake them into its image so THEY'LL become the hopeless horrors roaming through the eternal darkness looking for some poor sob to pounce on. It isn't about set and setting. A grand lie is the setting from the start. "Super Mario" said it best. "If you do drugs, you go to Hell _before_ you die." So don't do drugs, kids.
Time and separateness (ego) is an illusion cause by thoughts. My daughter is 4 years old, she can also see that. When I am outside of my thoughts (in the now), she's asking me if inside we're the same. When we grow older, our thoughts are taking over us. We look at the world through thoughts (separateness and time). Thank you for sharing, my friend.
I don't get why realising this without LSD is the most amazing thing a human can experience but most people who realise it through LSD find it terrifying.
@@chiefcheeser I never did LSD, I was realizing this with weed. Basically, you don't need drags, just try to stop thinking. Try to focus your attention on the outside world.
You can loose your ego by hiking and spiritual experiences - I had this experience sitting in the Himalayas of Nepal. You realize that whilst you are infinitely small your mere existence is what creates this experience and that you sit in the center of the universe - you are not an external observator yet part of everything. You can have an experience like this everywhere where you feel whole - the tricky part is finding that place.
My first time taking shrooms was like this. I didn’t do any research as I was a dumb kid in Highschool not knowing just taking a little at time can get you high. I thought you had to do all of it at once to get the full experience. I had huge jar that my friend gave to me. Easily over five grams. I ate the whole jar and in thirty minutes i was already tripping. My parents were away at the time so I thought it was fine. I felt sick though the taste was horrible and I tried getting out of my mouth. My body did not want to move either. About an hour in and it’s really starting to set in. I just wanted to lay in my bed because my stomach hurt so bad. I put on head phones and it was the best part of the trip. Had my music going and my whole room was dancing it and slightly changing colors to the beats of the 808s when I closed my eyes I would get insane visuals I was absolutely loving it, it was stone spiraling stairs going on forever with old Victorian churches colliding into each other. When I opened my eyes my room would breathe and expand. Each song had felt forever and each song came with different visuals. My peak was coming up and I was laying there tear drop fell from my eye and instead of coming off my face I felt it swirl around my chin to the other side of my cheek and up to my nose. It really freaked me out but I was cool with it. After I don’t know why but I definitely fell asleep at one point. This is when things became done right terrifying. Extreme religious symbolism was popping into my head dead elks with human hands and nothing but bone. All the wrong things I’ve done my life was shown it felt like god was punishing me. I was being watched for everything I did, a Venus flytrap like thing was sucking me in suffocating me in this wet skin type thing. I would wake up in and out of this lucid hell. One point I felt like was actually going to die. My heart felt like it was being torn out of my chest I couldn’t breathe and I was all alone. The worst moment though I felt like my body was being morphed into some absolute abomination. I cant describe the horror it was my body sunk into the bed and I felt as I was covered in slime I couldn’t move as it was happening and I was just morphing into some sick monster. My ears was ringing with loudest noise I’ve ever heard in my entire life I felt my body molding into the walls and I was expanding if anyone saw me it feel like humiliation or I’ll be laughed at by all others as they seen what I’ve become. So much happend in that few hours of so and when I finally woke up from this night mare or whatever the fuck just happened I jumped out of my bed and puked all over my room. I cried so hard knowing none of that happened. To this day I have absolutely no clue how or why that happened.
@@med7724 yeah exactly what med saiz, over 5g for a first timer is way too much. You need to be “comfortable” in that space of the psychedelic plane, settling yourself in, breathing. Panic and anxiety can easily settle in, but just breathing man really helps. Just breathing and relaying to yourself you exist in this space, and what your mind is trying to tell you is trying to work against you, its relaying itself going back through time, back to your first traumatic memories, because it never got forgotten. It was just hidden deep in your subconcsious, and just accepting these things for they have already happened, it can all lead to a complete human revitalization.
Little did I know that ego death was a thing, I experienced this about a year and a half ago.. and it still haunts me to this day. I regularly took acid every weekend. I was very familiar with the drug and one day felt comfortable enough taking 3 jelly tabs. I was told they were around 250mg each, but they were certainly way more than I was aware of. I completely blacked out and I had no control over my body and what it was doing my entire trip. I had visions of me being arrested, being on the National news, and death. I even had visions of time going in reverse while I was getting younger, all the way back to the 1800’s. It’s so hard to explain but I felt like I was no longer alive and just watching someone else live in my own body. At one point I ran outside and was looking over the edge of a three story balcony, and was about to jump off, not realizing I could’ve died. I was eventually taken to the hospital because I was literally losing my mind. I was entirely out of touch with my life and everything going on around me. I’ve not touched the drug since and don’t plan to, but I’m glad I’m not alone in this life changing experience.
The jelly tabs would've been 250ug each, not mg. And to be clear, a 750ug dose of LSD is absolutely insane. Most people who think they've taken 400ug have actually only taken around 200ug, since underdosed LSD is very common. This is why you should be wary of the dosages you see online. A 400ug trip is full-on ego death territory.
can confirm, 1000ug trips give you post death sensations… i genuinely felt i discovered the next stage after death, where your memories are lined up like the instruments in Wii Music, like a slideshow but you can choose to expand each memory, and knowing what you know now, you can try to influence your past self through manipulating the world & environment around yourself in said memory. Those “coincidences” are yourself alerting you about what your future self has learned from already going through that experience. this was one of many events in my trip , including but not limited to speaking to some sort of being that showed me the percent chance that I could become a living human being, in this era of the human race, in the body i possess now and it was so unbelievably small it was the only thing to fill the void that I and this being had been taking up, it spanned across my entire vision left to right, i had to turn my head to see just how massive and long this percentage was. Good lord that was incredible. But it did have the horrible moments like this guy did, but not as terrible. they were suffering in ways thought unimaginable, my friends were looking at memes in the background while i was laying on the floor, unresponsive to them but still active in my trip, or so they thought. Every 5-10 second meme they played out loud, my life would be recreated around the people in these memes, and you know memes so the dark nature of them would be the center point of the hallucinations, so it planted me as a horrible criminal doing terrible things, which may have also been my fucked yo friends messing with me (am not friends with that one anymore for obvious reasons)
Would absolutely make sense. Cuz If time is not linear and is instead all happening at once it would absolutely make sense. Deja vu, synchronicities, glitches in the matrix, coincidences, miracles……I wonder what other mystical qualities would resonate…hmm
The maximum I've done was 1000ug as well. But I did have the most pleasant trip as well. I was with a friend of mine who also had the same dose. We saw other people's auras and energy. Literally everyone who we saw as a negative person was transforming into some kind of morbid and demon-like creature with a deformed face. Everyone who was a positive and easygoing person had a bright yellowish aura and was seen as the most beautiful person ever alive. Seeing all these people around was accompanied with different sounds and music depending on the person. At one point we isolated ourselves on some meadow and we laughed a lot as I recall. On the peaking period shit got serious though. The weather was nice, but it became cloudy and there was a thunderstorm (even though it was really just a hallucination I'm pretty sure). We were both really frightened (as we shared the same trip for whatever reason) and started to panic a bit. But I, whose idea was to take the heroic dose stood up and said out loud: We come clean, we come with peace and joy, we come not to want, but to see. Do not betray us please, as we come to acknowledge, to understand, to be of use for thee. And believe it or not, the clouds began to disappear, the thunders stopped, the sky became clear. And the most amazing thing to this day happened to me. The Sun spoke to me. It said something in the language of my ancestors thousands of years ago I cannot really translate, but I felt it in my heart. It was a moment of joy, happiness and freedom. It was like it said to me that my intentions were good and that I shall be granted with the knowledge of the past, aware of the present and future. Everything turned from dark/grey to very bright and colorful, we were happy and smiling again. My friend had a "wowww" face at first, but then he was in peace and joy as well then he thanked me. I told him to thank the Universe and all it contains. All there ever was, is and will be. The comedown was soft and easy, we smoked, discussed and had so many questions we found the answers to later on in life. I did get the ability to do Tarot readings too, which was very interesting, but I have never done it for money or anything materialistic in return. I haven't done any drugs since 1.5/2 years as well, no drinking too. I'm just smoking weed and tobacco. Sorry for the poor explanation too, English is not my native language, but I tried my best 😅 Peace to everyone and stay safe ❤️
I had this very same realization during a DMT trip. I took the vape pen and hit it 5 times blinkers all. After the 5th hit I learned the reward of life is the beauty of death and that there is nothing to fear. Yes death in of itself is always violent. I felt it. But I trucked it like I usually do with my psychedelics but I never believed I would ever let myself die quietly. But now I’m no longer afraid of death. 15 minutes of DMT did more than years of therapy when I was younger
This shows I’m not alone and also learned that thinking is ego and being is just being. I learned how I’ve always worried about everything and was scared of being alone. Months later I’ve been in a psychotic state and have been scared in life because of this trip but recently it’s been the most enlightening experience I’ve ever had and have been able to converse and see people regularly. We’re all infinite and it help me lose my fear of life and learn to just flow
I listened to this with my eyes closed in the dark while laying in my bed, and tried to connect with the story. This video was EXTREMELY interesting, and it both felt like 5 minutes and an hour.
"It showed me the dark side of LSD" says the guy that took too much, not even by accident. Shying away from the fact that the dark side he was shown was his own.
Wild story! Most I’ve done at once was 450ug and that was super intense. Mixed it with DMT about 4 hours into it and had my first ego death, never been so scared.
@@mga59xbd38 in mine I basically forgot my name, my identity, my whole life. I couldn't see anything except some indescribable extradimensional landscape, a lot like whats shown in the video but orange. At one point I thought for sure I had lost my mind at some point and was now in an insane asylum just imagining my life. Then I forgot my life. Forgot what I was doing there, where I was, then language, I was like dissapearing piece by piece. Then i screamed for my grandma and she snapped me out of it and I felt like a dumbads lmao
Good report. A few things to point out here: One should never take so much LSD unless they know exactly what they are doing. It seems like this wasn’t the case. Higher dose = higher chance of psychosis if the set/setting is wrong. Not to say such doses shouldn’t be considered. I have heard of people really turn around their lives forever from them.
Smoked weed for over a year on a daily basis unable to quit even after trying I had failed Took a 600ug gel tan and was texting my plug thinking I was Finna get popped. I am now and plan to continue choosing sobriety.
@@Cherryexe-mr3mt hate to break it to ya but pretty sure 600ug wouldn’t even fit ona tab unless they mixed the liquid theyself to make it ultra high concentrate. most u can normally fit on ar 300 pretty sure
I still remember that day, it was in july 2 years ago, nowhere near 1000 ug, was just one 300 ug tab. All it took was a friend telling we were literally saying the same thing over and over. A perfectly good trip turned bad in 3 minutes at the most. It haunted me and still does when I try to process and understand what went wrong, I also became suicidal six months after. It was so bad, I felt the need to explain to my crew boss at the time that I couldn't continue working because of my condition. However, what I chose to do took place when I looked at myself in the mirror and said "You have people counting on you to stay alive, you can't do this to them" I did indeed say that to myself out loud inside of the customer's house on their third floor. So I took up meditation, I replaced first person shooter games with puzzles because I couldn't play one without thinking of how people do this in real life where there were actual repercussions. I soon started to drop the bad people in my life too since it was revealed to me we had different perspectives of what life was all about. To this day, the whole reason I am alive is what this video talks about. Love, not for myself, but for those who would like to see me live a life with them. Don't let your ego consume you, you don't need an ego to be independent, and you don't have to be rid of it completely, we just aren't at that level yet, but at least attempt to put positivity forward, and learn life doesn't make sense, and you are nobody to even try and say what it is. Live a happy life, a spiritual one, and when you feel like you can't keep going, just remember chances are someone you know is at the end of that same rope you're tied to and if you jump, you may pull them down with you.
glad to hear u are still with us, and i had a similar thing about the shooter games for a while. they just made me physically ill, especially the more recent and realistic ones like cod ww2, bothered me in particular so much
@@illuminating_daydream9712 It also made me physically sick, but it also put me on the edge of panic attacks everytime I tried to play them, and when I wasn't panicking, there was this type of brain fog coupled with excruciating anxiety which gave me really bad paranoia and intrusive thoughts, it was rough and took a lot of discipline and panic attacks to find a way to cope
15:03 I felt the same way after my bad trip. Just listening to him speak about it gave me a feeling of suffocation as I remembered those following months of pain. To anyone who wants to take LSD, remember that drugs are no joke.
Drugs are no joke. Drugs can be a tool - but with every tool, the person needs to stay at the top end and use the tool and not get used by it. It's the same with every drug, even coffee, but as you said LSD is far away from being a playing ground for light minded folks.
Drug abuse and taking drugs irresponsibly destroy the great potential of such substances... such a shame that irresponsible people put off useful and important research on drugs.
I used to hang out with competitive psychonauts, then one of them who was a really awesome person took 5 hits and committed suicide. It shocked all of us and I became a strong advocate of never taking the stuff outside of a proper controlled setting, which would require a high level of certain costly factors most wouldn't be able to afford unless they had a kind of health insurance to pay for it if it could be used in clinical sessions for therapy. It is a temporary psychotic break from reality and the mindset can get really messy without professional guidance and security.
@@emin4704 yeah, he was tripping at the bar and wasn't having a good time. Someone told him to go home because he was freaking people out and I think that was what pulled the trigger maybe. I could tell he had some stuff piled up and that was the kick that could have started the avalanche.
@@AlterFunKtion Geez man, I can't imagine what was going through his head at the time. I'll will definitely have tripkillers on hand just in case for my friends and I whilst tripping or when I'm solo too. It's never a bad idea I'm sure, anything can happen when psyches are involved.
I share a close experience with you as my friend did the same thing in the middle of a camping trip. but I have to disagree as to I believe that it isn't a break from reality, it is reality
My first trip was 1000ug I will make a video on my experience soon. I am in the process of writing a book about it. Every hour felt like a year and the hallucinations were so distorted that I was practically blind. All of my senses were messed up. Dry things felt wet. A hot shower was chilling to the bone. Everything was squishy. I still have nightmares and doctor-diagnosed PTSD to this day.
@@Vivec I forgor to mention that all matter is merely energy condensed to a slow vibration and that we are all one consciousness experiencing itself subjectively. There is no such thing as death; life is only a dream. We are the imagination of ourselves.
I feel like 1000ug is just absurd. I remember taking a 350ug tab (really good acid) and it was insane, after only 1h the visuals were becoming very intense, everything was forming geometric patterns and shit that I could barely understand what was happening around me. At that point I knew I was fucked. After about 3/4h I started to loose touch with reality, lost track of time, forgot who I was and was so experiencing ego death. Idk I just can’t imagine taking 1000ug without going insane that’s just crazy in my opinion
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As someone who did a dose over 1000ug accidentally with some tabs that were way stronger than any dealer should be making (I expected 300-350ug which is the most any dealer should be doing at most more realistically 100-200ug these tabs were more than 600ug). 1000ug is entirely unnecessary with acid I feel like even beyond sorta 500ug is entirely unnecessary 300ug is more than enough generally like by the point you reach a 1000 your getting to this point where your not making yourself trip more intensely taking more just for longer like 1000ug+ will have you tripping 24 hours with like a 12+hour peak and like 6 hours of ego death. Like even the online dosing guides for acid stop at 1000ug if that says anything about that dose.
Never did anything other than smoke weed, but the experience of becoming incredibly self conscious, and destroying yourself after realizing how much of a loser you actually are, is incredibly relatable.
Weed is like a caring mom telling you what you are doing wrong but lsd is like looking at yourself at your true self and seeing who you really are. Can be bad can be good
Self-reflection is the worst thing I have to come to terms with, as everytime I do I spiral into a dangerous bout of mental battles of present me and past me LSD would most likely help with it(a safe dose of course) but I worry about the possibility of depressive episodes finally getting the better of me.
I had a moment on my first mushroom trip where i was lying in bed and lost total connection to my physical body. I felt as i was just a dot of energy on my pillow such a crazy feeling and made me smile, really realized that we are really nothing but energy and had an overwhelming feeling from that trip onwards.
I’ve had a very similar experience with 750ug of LSD paired with around 150ug of psilocybin(roughly). The thing for me was the dissolving of an unconscious egoic divinity complex, and a challenge of understanding the prisons I build for myself for the sake of hiding behind shortcomings I make myself. Nothing holds me back except the ego I cling to. All of that is based in fear.
I've taken around this dose before it wasn't too bad but my heart was racing so fast that my chest cavity felt completely numb. also I remember spending several hours lying on the ground trying to just stay alive and breathe. eventually it subsided and I had a much nicer experience for the following 15 or so hours. I think the real trouble is that this person went to a party but who am I to say. I get a lot more out of it being alone
Thanks for making these videos. I usually have sleeping problems but I fall asleep to your trip reports amoung others and wake up feeling very refreshed.
The beginning of the trip is EXACTLY the same as my bad trip experience. Sheer hopeless terror, felt like I was burning the faces and eyes that usually appeared comical and cartoonish turned into demons that laughed at me and popped out of the walls. Really felt like I had been sent to hell
I had a similar experience with shrooms recently, I’ve not fully changed my life to reflect what I’ve learned but I understand now that I have a capacity to improve myself in a way I thought I had no control of in the past and feel far happier and less anxious than I used to in the time since
What disturbs me is the amount of people in the comment section who are ignoring that part. Like any pharmaceutical drug, it could absolutely help cure some mental disorders, but also like any pharmaceutical, it has side effects that can be severe and both of these must be taken into account when creating a medication. It's all about finding the dose that we can reap the most benefit from while minimizing the side effects.
As someone who has never taken psychoactive drugs (well... none stronger than caffeine), this has been an interesting listen. Thank you for your insight.
it can be a very positive experience, it's all set and setting. listening to crap like this could effect your mindset in a negative way. i don't even know why i clicked on this video to tell you the truth. not that it will effect me anyway, because i already know lsd is one of the safest drugs on the planet and nobody has ever died from taking it. now on an unexpected overdose you might think you're dying, but after about 3 or 4 hours you'll be functional again. i remeber one guy had told me he od'd and was tripping for a week. i had to call him on his bullshhh because i already know better. def a wild ride, but i wouldn't worry too much. you'll be fine.
Man, I relate so much to this. Between trips with Lucille and Demitri I have experienced a lot of what you mentioned. Good job putting it in to words. Once the door has been opened it can never be shut. I am grateful for the perspective I have received, but throughout the day it can feel like a burden.
@@amen7099 LSD and mushrooms have always been pretty widely available around me. It took me literal years to track down DMT. I always thought the folks who said “it will find you when you are ready” were a bit gatekeeper-ish, but there may be some level of truth to it. DMT had a profound effect on my psyche and I tried it while at a very stable point in my life. Had I done it when my life was still a mess, I can imagine it would have fukt me up. I hear good things about ordering online. I’ve never tried it personally. If you’re not tech savvy enough for that then I think you just have to ask. There’s more people who partake in psychedelics than most folks would think. Maybe try some concerts or festivals. I’ve dealt with the same guy for over a decade. He is trustworthy and reliable, but if you do buy from a random, I would definitely encourage you to get a test kit. And if you still have no luck there are lots of resources online for growing your own mushies and for DMT extraction. They both are fairly simple processes, unlike lab made LSD.
You were able to describe what I've been feeling ever since I had my worst bad trip. 2400. I took 8 double drop blotters and my mind hasn't ever been the same since
I have no interest in ever doing any psychedelics but the descriptions from people who have is endlessly fascinating to me. thank you truly going where I will not and further being will to describe it in such detail.
Trust me this is the bare minimum of detail youll get you experience so much more you cant explain when you take it (not encouraging use just letting u know)
We will all go there... it's basically facing your death prematurely. Realising that all things are temporary, experiencing it, changes your view on the world and the things you place importance on. We all experience this when we die.
I've reached these phases thru meditation as well and it's wild when you realize that you're unable to explain it away with drugs. I've tripped too but wouldn't take this amount tbh, you have to be ready to face demons if you're going to go into it without having made peace already. And doing that much is like forcing something that should flow, it'll traumatize you unless it happens when you've already dived into your issues without leaning on vices for escape. It's interesting how we've been presented with a seed of yearning to know, only to be led to the unknowable.
@@ezsurfing1169 a very long time of watching mooji and alan watts and eckhart tolle and ram dass and thich nhat ahn as well as educating myself about different cultures beliefs and following what felt right to me lol. To be fair i was not expecting to be suddenly opened up, but basically after about a decade of deeper meditation, clearing the mind, practicing presence etc it was a sudden epiphany after having had glimpses every so often through the years. It could also just be my perception of the "truth" though. It's a longer route. But probably safer than a bad trip or addiction lol. Another way is by having devotion through service or self care. Look into Buddhism and the bhagavad gita as there are spiritual lessons in both regardless of your faith. Practice yoga nidra to deal with trauma. Hope you find what you're looking for!! Good luck!! I think everyone should just follow what feels right to them, there are many ways to get up the mountain, as they say
I've had two trips, the first was an amazing rollercoaster that brought me to the very limits of what I could feel in terms of emotion. I took a very large dose and while I was peaking, I felt like I understood the universe and my place in it. I've looked into other peoples experiences and thought about my own trip ever since. The thing that comes up often is the nonexistence of time, there is only this moment the future is nothing and the past doesn't exist anymore and never will. For me what I have learned from my trips is enough.
for me it was kinda the same but the opposite. during my trip i kinda understood how time and space and work. time isn’t real i guess, i think time is a physical thing that maybe eventually we can manipulate it. the past happened when the earth was in a specific location. for example, if we were to go 1000 light years away from earth, we would see the earth 1000 years in the past. my point here is that i think we could get the past back and can go into the future if we can figure how to space jump to where the earth will be x amount of years in the future and past.
This is the Infinity of existing vs the Infinity of not exists. You are either in sync and apart of the living or you are shown not by the living to do that so you can exist. Our emotions guide us in a Direction to either be In sync. I believe this is the highest form of existence and compression. Think of it in dimensions. A 10th dimension being would be forever absorbs any form of consciousness through an either yes or no experience but in feelings. This also then falls into the thought of everything we have ever known has been taught to us and peaking into the sheer scale of time we lose it. We need to Become apart of the Infinty again and that’s what death is
Basically do good and you will be accepted through and do bad and you will be forced to feel that. The nothing rejecting you and the good rejecting you. Limbo. When we die we are forced though that key hole. That’s why bad trips or heavy heavy doesss usually fry people. Being stuck in limbo of experiences time and everything vs the opposite of void and nothing. This in itself creates a loop of infinity which in itself is a creature. It’s almost like Time being used as torture. Then being forced to return Back to this dimension
Ego is the constant push against nothing and good is the push to life and being apart of being. They are both needed to complete the loop but you guide which side of the frequency you feel. And we want to choose life cause we are apart of that
Also I assume when we have bad trip or do drugs wrong it’s because it’s the being toying with your life. When it comes down to it most humans will know when they trip will trip good or bad. And this being will toy with your trip depending on the dose because once you start tripping bad you know you’re not usually supposed to be there. It’s going against the alive frequencies. Our emotions are our guides
I've done almost 100 hits of acid in my 20s, and you're correct! I came out much better but the biggest dose I've taken was about 12 hits at once straight from a vial. The worst trip I've had and I've only had 2 bad trips. Glad you're ok though!
@@carson27907 1 tab = 1 hit (usually) I've done tabs, sugar cubes, paper hits and vial drops. tabs were my favorite. so, 1 cube, tab, drop from a vial, square of paper = 1 hit. hope that clarifies it for you ^_^
do you feel the high doses you took gave you any long term side effects? i recently did 500ug of acid and i feel i lost my mind, i dont feel any emotions and its been only 2 days as of now. does this feeling stay the same or it goes away?
I took 4 tabs of “the strongest acid I’ve ever had, take it all at once” according to my old high school connect, back in 2014. The trip convinced me that I had fried my brain and been living, completely disabled in a wheelchair to the age of 70-80 (I was 17 at the time) becoming disabled via freak accident and living is literally my worst fear. It showed me everything I was afraid of, then that, then “God” in probably the first 2-3 hours. I consciously observed my state of being as my basic understanding of the world, time, and myself, disintegrated in front of me. Mind blowing visions of pure psychedelia in bursts, then (my mind blocked them out but I remember the horror and my friend shaking me out of screaming in his room multiple times) visions of pure terror, created by the gods, themselves. Most of it was hell. The next morning after not sleeping, I smoked a bowl with my friend from the night before. We were in our college campuses parking lot. After we finished the bowl and he left the car to go to class, my high turned back into an alarming state of fucked up consciousness. “Everything felt like a Japanese video game” is the best way I could describe it. I thought I broke my brain. I think I was saying things like that throughout the trip. I remember saying (a few hours in) “i literally derped myself” *lol* and weird shit like that. I don’t even think some of it was English, but it was how I was trying to express what was happening to me. The whole trip lasted about 24 hours end to end before I finally passed from exhaustion. I was terrified to go to sleep. Most of the good parts, my mind hid from me, till 3 months later, on a tab of NBOME 25I, first trip since the experience; everything, the whole experience downloaded into my consciousness in a flash. Split second. I remembered the entire thing. It’s old memories now, but it was a hell of an experience. I should write an actual report. I assume the dose was 800ug. Double dosed tabs. I’ve had a few DMT experiences and can confirm that high dose LSD is something you cannot control or think through, direct much, if at all, because you lose the faculties and basic comprehension required, to do so. DMT was easy compared to that.
@@flippingfruitsforeuros3453 I agree but when was being a kid about being responsible? I’m 25 and I’ve learned a lot from all my life experiences. I do agree though. Hell of a trip
In that situation, actually in every life situation, you should accept the conditions your reality. It gets much better after that. On my last LSD trip I found myself meditating near a fire place almost burning. I could see beyond time and was also hearing a lot of voices in which I felt what I've done wrong in my life. Most of my trips were bad trips. And I am pretty grateful for that 'cause could look beyond the curtain of illusions that made me blind in my life.
That’s one thing I learned on my first trip. A bad trip is only a bad trip if you don’t accept it for what it is. Once you accept what your subconscious is trying to tell you, you can even enjoy your trip
You can't have expectations when you take any dose. That screwed him. You can't expect anything, you'll just be fighting to keep an anchor the whole time. Literally expect nothing ever tripping.
My worst trip was very similar to this. Had 2 friends trying to calm me down but I felt like I was going insane and dying. It was so terrifying. I had had a few good trips and a few bad trips....but when you have the ONE bad trip, you know it. I was sure I was gonna die...or be in that trip forever.
@@Gustavo-wu3of A bad trip is that you enter your unconsciousness, and come into contact with an unresolved trauma. Normally a person does everything they can to avoid an unresolved trauma. Sometimes people go into therapy for years and never get around to that trauma. Now you know why. But you can also move towards it. Maybe with some professional help. You will see that your addictions dissolve and that you become happier and that you no longer have to postpone or avoid anything. I wish you the best.
So it’s normal to expect u might get fucked in ur ass by white supremacists and black dudes? Cuz I gotta be honest I was on the fence about trying lsd, but now…u can kiss that shit goodbye I’ll jus wait for the after life to discover the secrets of the universe
I had the same experience but with CBD oil..Yes you read correctly ,CBD oil,what a shame to admit that..I once drank 10ml of 20%CBD oil&after 3hours I had the worst experience of my life..To this day I cannot fathom how stupid CBD resulted in that way while weed didn't.
God this trip report is just wild and gives me goosebumps. I’ve been sober for five years now but I’ve definitely had my fair share LSD trips. The most I ever took was 3 geltabs. I just could not even imagine getting to this level it sounds horrifying. The time I took 3 gel tabs was some extremely intense visuals and hallucinations I could still tell we’re not real. This story on the other hand sounds like a realm I would never want to be in
I discovered about my autism on my own, before trying psychedelics. I do know that in certain situations, people might think of me as mentally retarded or something, but I never felt bad about it, as you described. On the contrary, I think that my autism is an extraordinary gift, that I wouldn't give away for anything else. It makes me special, it enables my deep interests in science, math and philosophy (beyond what is possible for a neurotypical person, maybe to the point of obsession, but in my view this is good too). Yes, it does create me problems like poor social interactions, can't understand why people act as they do sometimes, procrastinate beyond rational limits and miss deadlines (that's the worst), disregard social norms and hierarchy thus causing me troubles with supervisors and managers, and so on... And yet, I would much prefer to be who I am, than be 'normal'. And then, I do take lsd. Never taken anything like 1000 ug, 300 ug max. I think that if anything, it amplifies my autism and brings me closer to my childhood years, which is great. In this state, the brain is more plastic and more sensitive to new experiences and information. The days become full with experiences and the time slows down. Effectively, I experience more life in the same amount of time. I definitely wouldn't like lsd to remove my autism and for now it doesn't. I've always felt like there's something unusual and special about me, even before anyone else noticed, when I was 3-4 years old. Or I might simply be obsessed with this notion that I'm special, but I like that about myself too. Actually, if you're constantly convinced that you're special, that acts like a self-fulfilling prophecy and and makes you special, both for yourself and for the others, and makes you act differently. My heroes in history are people like Georg Cantor, Archimedes, Newton, Einstein, Kurt Godel, and none of them has been a 'normal person', not only because of their intellectual achievements, but also in their everyday lives and as perceived by others. I don't want to be normal, I'd much rather be myself, than anyone else ever.
Excellently put my good man, personally (I don't know if you even care) I have the opposite experience of you, I'm entirely neurotypical except for my ADHD and social interaction for me is a breeze. It is very easy for me to understand people, so I find it interesting that you have trouble with it, as it is something I've never experienced. I respect your drive though, even if it is just how you are that is something that will take you beyond what neurotypical people can usually accomplish, which I'm sure you've observed. Anyways, great comment and I found it very interesting, thanks for this!
Broke down crying when you said "after death" experience, thanks for sharing its nice to know there's others out there that have been that far into the land of nineteen.
Lol when I’m tripping the same awesome shit shows up for me in the right time frame on yt. Free will is totally an illusion and I’m here enjoying every moment forever. I’ve been sober 100% now for 26 months and it’s a high in itself.
There used to be a time in my life when I took a tab of LSD once every few days. Basically you wouldn’t normally see me sober when I went out. I was always tripping and it kind of became normal to me. Then of course I started taking higher doses. I never really got addicted cause it was very easy to quit but I only quit after a very high dose I took. The same way you described it I started feeling as if I never took any drug and it was just how it always was. The place where I was thrown in to by the drug I later called “the dimension of squares” and it would be hard to describe it but I feel you’d understand. After that I only tried taking acid twice and each a year after but I could never get out of the bad trip after that. I was 15 at the time.
The funniest thing about this is I think I wasn’t scared at all while it was happening. I didn’t even exist at that point. All reality was a quick spiral of dying and being reborn over and over again. There was nothing else. Only some empty rooms and squares… and sirens for whatever reason. Anyway, I only got scared after I was on the come down but it also took some time for me to realise how fucked it was.
Gotta start over with microdoses lol. Honestly you should probably have at least twice as many microdoses under your belt as you do full doses, Ive discovered as long as I do that life is good lol
I've taken 20 hits of some quality L back in the day with a friend. Changed my life forever. We ate soaking wet sour patch watermelon candy's that I was dosing from my vial. Onset was about 15-20min. Ate them until things got "confusing". I remember walking through a fractal rainforest as an orb of light with invisible footsteps that shot beams of lasers in all directions. Low points: finding out what it means to be a puddle. Weird low: Finding out what it's like to be the sun tattoo on some chicks back at a hippy festival 😂😂. Things got weird.
Crazy story, I've never experimented with psychedelics. I have always wanted to try to further elevate my self awareness, to overcome personal obstacles and some trauma. This story mixed with the Silent Hill music has me second guessing about the situation. 😅
It sounds like you are interested in them for all the right reasons. There is risk though, irrespective of your previous experience, rigorous meditation practice or your perfectly manicured set and setting, sometimes you roll the dice and you lose. Only thing to do in those situations is just to sit and sweat it out. The one part of the experience that cannot be properly conveyed is the emotional component, you are going to feel ALL of the emotions off and on for about 8 hours. It's a marathon, plan accordingly. Ultimately, there is beauty to be found in the experience and that's what all the fuss is about.
I don't think if your ego dies completely you would just love everything, I think you would just feel completely neutral. You can only feel an emotion of any kind in relation to yourself, particularly towards beings or things. Love and Hate are not opposite emotions but rather very closely related. They're both obsessive in nature, and the only difference being if you want to protect or destroy. You can't want to protect and love something unless you have attachment to it, which you can only have in relation to yourself and your ego.
@@Psydefex absolutely. Fear is the strongest form of repulsion, and just below fear is disgust. It leads to a desire to separate from and avoid something/someone entirely. Love and Hate are both emotions of obsession, meaning still wishing to engage with the object of said affection, the only difference being the desire to help or harm.
Have wanted to wake a 1,000ug dose for a while for this exact reason, I've always wanted to know what's beyond life and if you're ready it let the acid guide you through it, you're bound for one hell of a ride that only a few humans ever have gotten to experience.
lol you’re not special bro. Be grateful for the experiences and awakening you can gain from lower, more safe, dosages. Not worth risking getting trauma just so u can claim to have done something “only a few humans ever experience” how cool
Bruh, my soul fell through the bed while I was crunched up into a ball on the bed moaning and groaning because all my muscles are being over flexed while my brain juices are being hammered by the acid lol
I was severely depressed at 20. Ready to throw myself away. I took one tab of some government grade 1000ucg. My ego fell off, I attained the 3rd Jana of enlightenment, and perceived every timeline of reality I could move myself into. Five years later, I’ve got my own business, my first child, and I’ve wrestled myself into an astute and professional human being. Be safe out there.
@@tylerryan9457 there is a part of your brain called the default mode network. This portion of your brain controls your Ego, or your sense of self-identity. It regulates things that you like/dislike. Intense meditation or psychedelic use can “disable” the default mode network. In many Buddhist or Hindu literatures, the concept of the “Jana” (translation: “Gate”) define varying levels of enlightenment. There are 8 different plateaus of enlightenment, the fourth being recognized as “A state of non-return”. The first Jana can be attained by a beginner mendicant in only an hour of trying. “Great is the man who defeats 1000 of his enemies. Greater still is the man who defeats himself.” -Siddhartha Gautama, the Heavenly Buddha
Ou for sharing one of the darkest moments people wouldn't normally share. Each of us that had heroic doses have had similar feeling but from different experiences. At least I had, felt horrible and it was hard to fully accept even after a few months but eventually I understood I was weak and that trip broke me so I can rebuild myself from scratch now after many years I'm grateful I'm and proud of who I've become. I hope you feel the same
Loving all the trip stories in the comments. The way you mentioned, "You don't know anything different. It just feels like that's the way its always been" I kept saying when I was on 2.5 tabs "I don't even feel any different" and then I would feel super overwhelmed, then be like "I feel completely normal" and kept repeating the cycle "going in and out"
Took 14 grams of mushrooms when I was younger. One of the most beautiful, and disconnected experiences I have ever had. I was burning up so much, I stripped down to my boxers and laid belly down on a tile table outside. I kept moaning because I couldn't speak, my buddies thought my brain was turning to mush, but I was just trying to explain how awesome it felt. My sense of touch and spacial recognition have never felt that way, and will never feel that way again.
When I took 12 g i stripped naked, built a gigantic Bonfire on a natural gas pipe line, casted a circle, and sacrificed my own blood to Chronos by cutting myself with my ritual athame. (Had been doing psychedelic magick.) Shrooms Can get crazy. I lived next to a cow pasture, instead of using them like drugs, I added them to my diet. Place them on my altar And was using it as sacrament For full moon rituals. And I did have All good trips But I would be having fun while also self harmingTo offer blood to entities or sitting 2ft away from a Bonfire... on a frigging pipeline
had an experience like this in a downtown city, ended up loosing my mind within an infinite maze of skyscrapers, people, and cars. Like the backstage of a movie that starred me. Ended in a lot of mental problems, depression, anxiety, alcoholism, and self loathing. I can't smoke too much weed now cause it makes me trip. But on the other side of it all, I have tried to better myself everyday and for the first 2 years I wasn't myself completely, but now part of me is this self. But I've gotten better with controlling it, and excepting reality as how it is. It's just a lot to take in at once like this, and its always great to relate to other people who have gone through like minded experiences. Just don't do Apple Cider In December. Stuff can mess you up. But you get to open your third eye at the same time. Its just how to live with it. Time heals everything, don't act in the past, live in the present, and you can shape your future. Fuckin' cheers c*nt, good stuff init mate
Sounds like you needed it man, theres no such thing as a bad trip, all life is a experience for us to learn. You just had a lifetime of experience in a night What you experienced in that hell is something people are going through regularly, stay humble
One time when I was 17, I was at my grandmas house and I decided I was gonna trip like I’d never tripped before. I haven’t done psychs since then and before this event I was pretty inexperienced, having done both mushrooms and acid 2 times previous. Anyway long story short I took like 4 grams and smoked a 2 gram joint and lost my shit. I took half my dose, waited for it to kick in, smoked then took the second half. While I was smoking I felt awesome I was sitting out on my grandmas roof looking out over all the flowers in her back yard. The colors were sick. Then I went back inside and tried to lay down in bed and that’s when it hit me. I remember suddenly I was in a Soviet mural with little worker guys going off in every direction for infinity. Then there was an army of giant robot dogs but drawn in the style of old Mickey Mouse cartoons coming out of the walls. I stumbled to the bathroom getting overwhelmed fast and thought ti myself “this isn’t fun anymore”. That was it. From then on the trip went south super fast. The room I was in had pinkish red wallpaper with like a flowery vine pattern on it I thought would be cool. It wasn’t. The red overpowered the flowers and I thought i was in hell. I had the humming intro to Shotz to tha double glock by bone thugs playing on loop in my head and I was in the album cover of 2 lo key’s on that devilshit going in and out of consciousness. I totally lost track of time. Eventually I came back enough to google how to stop a bad trip and I ended up somehow watching funny cat videos trying to calm down and every cat had a different vibe and would make my trip improve or get worse again. Haven’t done psychs since but I want to try again in a better environment with friends
I had a similar experience with gel tabs and acid it was fun until it wasn’t. I was peaking in my room and trying to listen to some good music but the music kept getting distorted and I tried watching funny videos but they weren’t funny they were giving me so much anxiety. Everything kept looping and I was questioning who I was. I stayed awake for almost 55 hours following that. I was going back and forth in my room all night every hour just walking back and forth eventually when morning came I jumped in the shower tried walking to my brothers, outside all the trees appeared to be evil puppets and when I got to the overpass I couldn’t go, it was as if I knew I would jump off to end the trip, I walked back home he picked me up and I finished tripping at his place. I haven’t had acid since it’s been roughly 4 years
The truth in this is that the turning point always happens when you tell youreself its not fun anymore. Its weird how it works like that. And you cant really warn people about this fact because it will just make them more inclined to think it.
its stories like this that make this platform so great. good story mate, glad you made it through okay and appreciate you being able to articulate and share this experience with all of us.
I’ve lived in fear for many years for the fear of experiencing the eternal pain and pleasure, that repetitiveness that had happened during my trip made me think that there is an entity currently suffering what we all where feeling during our peaks.
A friend ate a full sheet and ended up in a psych ward for 2 weeks. He played Paper Boy for 3 days straight. He is now and forever known simply as Paper Boy.
@@jeffdaman5779 Isn't it better to find crystals at such a point or liquid lsd instead? You would feel that much paper in your stomach I can imagine xD
Man...after my first true bad trip out of dozens a few days ago I can slightly resonate with this. I’m no stranger to acid, and not even the tabs I took a couple of days ago. We had these golden gel tabs, never seen or taken anything like them before. About a month back I went to a huge camp-out festival in the plains of Texas and was able to take two tabs plus a little bit of shrooms and was completely fine. The trip was amazing and I tripped for 16 hours. It was my first time doing lucy in 3 years and it reinvigorated my love for it. After that I would trip on and off every week until last week. Long story short, I went into another experience after a 3 week long break with a buddy who never tried these gels before and we both did one. After an hour it hit us like a truck and my body heated to an uncomfortable degree and I started having anxiety off the bat. My friend was having such a good time he ended up taking 3 over the span of the night, but that one tab had me on my ass thinking I was gonna die. I thought “how tf did I handle two of these plus shrooms in the middle of Texas??” And “when was this going to end?”. The entire trip consisted of me checking the time and watching everything shift and wave around me. It was the most intense trip I ever had. My friends comforted me, and kept me from panicking. We had a safety net (xannies) but I refused to take it and instead opted to ride it out. Kinda happy I did too, my friend told me his bad trip story about how he experienced ego death and “went thru the worst” and it comforted me. After that I closed my eyes, to which a voice echoed out “are you ready to make peace with everything?” And I envisioned everyone’s life essence in this earth/dimension forming into a huge ball that turned into a sperm cell, racing against other sperm cells made from other dimensions all racing to fertilize the egg of a new reality. Then, I had an out of body experience and opened my eyes cuz shit was getting far too profound. It came in waves as well, and ended up lasting around 8-10 hours. After that, the entire next day I felt physically uncomfortable but strangely more at peace with everything around me. I don’t even really consider it a bad experience, I wasn’t traumatized at all. It wasn’t nightmarish or anything and didn’t mess with my psyche at all, instead kinda made me more appreciative of everything I have. It also showed me that mayyybe I’ve overstayed my welcome in lucyland and I should take a big break for a bit. I always found it funny that unlike other drugs, acid will literally make you feel like you don’t want to do it or any other drug ever again. Does it always go that way? Nah. But it’s still funny that it’d make you think that way. Buuuut yeah, that’s my personal trip report.
I resonate with that ending there. I went thru a period of relatively frequent LSD use in 2019 starting with a terrifying trip that showed me for the first time the dark side of acid. That's a long story itself, but after I returned from the peak and touched back down to reality (a little), it was easily the best trip I've had - insanely beautiful, I felt connected to my friends in a sort of way like we'd all been thru some real shit together. The visuals were insane. But that peak haunted me for a while. I definitely some level of PTSD, but I had this idea in my head that I could somehow trip that hard again but have a good experience and thus the best acid trip ever. So I kinda chased that idea, I never took super high doses (no more than 3) but I tripped maybe once a months for a few months. I finally learned my lesson when I started out a trip with weird vibes, like the whole thing felt forced instead of natural if that makes sense. That went up and down for a while until 4 or 5 hours in, we took some dabs. I decided to do 2 dabs while my friends did just one each. This ended up with me on my back, thinking over and over these self conscious thoughts about why I push myself this hard, why do I have to go so hard to get fucked up, why do I use drugs like this, why am I so obsessed with drugs and psychedelics? I eventually realized that I didn't like the path I was on in life but I didn't want to think what I was about to think, I kept avoiding it like an elephant in the room until I finally just thought it: "I hate myself". As soon as I thought that, I felt a tingly pins-and-needles static-y sorta sensation creep down my body starting at the top of my head all the way down to my feet over the course of like 15-20 seconds during which time I was trying to take it back and say I didn't hate myself. But the damage was done and I destroyed that version of myself. I didn't know what to do and for the rest of the night I felt awkward, like I wasn't myself, I couldn't focus or be coordinated, I literally didn't know how I was supposed to act or say. I had no clue how to be me. It must've been awkward for my friends. The next day I felt more like myself but still kinda off and I spent the rest of the weekend pulling myself together. That set me on a new path of trying to be true to myself as much as possible, something I still am working on because of other traumas/mental health issues, but I'm a better person than I've ever been before. BUT the big thing for me after that trip was that I needed a long LONG break from acid to re-evaluate why I use it, how I use it, my relationship with the drug, etc. I took it once more 7-8 months later in June 2020 during the COVID lock down but haven't touched it since. I still feel that my journey with this substance is not over and that there's still more to be learned and enjoyed from LSD, but it's something that cannot be taken for granted. When the time feels right, I'll come back to it, but not yet.
@@MadMaxBS touché, absolutely agree with the final note. I also felt like the last (bad) trip I had was forced and not natural. I wholly understood what you meant. I was in a bad spot, not right with myself and in pain but I went in anyways. Good Set and setting is a true rule one should always follow before even considering going into an experience. It has the potential to do great things-but also bring you down to the worst of yourself. I never think of acid as a very spiritual experience in the religious sort of manner, it’s just a drug like any other, but more of a journey into the self. Self-spiritual? Idk what you’d call it, but that’s how I view it. I’ve certainly had bouts of not feeling much like myself but I never exceeded 500ug before. There’s something mystical about doing it out of your element. I never had such a great time losing myself and giving luce complete control than when I was out there in the middle of buttfuck nowhere Texas. I’ve also been sorting myself out much more since my bad trip a month ago. Take time and stay sober to learn more about your true self, then when ready journey back into lucyland. Lucy isn’t your bitch, you are its bitch when on it.
I bought 4 tabs, and I dropped 2. Didn't know the 2 would have equaled 600ug or 700ug. It was honestly terrifying and beautiful. I went into this wormhole it wasn't a dmt wormhole. It was like I was getting blasted with memories. I could see the past, present, and what I think is the future all in like a second.
i did 1000 ug back in the 80s. it was provided to me by a pharmacy student who had his own lab and was known to provide high quality lsd. it was my first time, and it was nothing like this. it was definitely strange and had its moments of mild unpleasantness - but no open eye hallucinations. no near, or post death bs... no flashbacks, no suicidal thoughts.
It’s interesting that you mentioned that you had a mild form of autism, but was cured of it. I also have high functioning autism, but LSD never cured my autism, not even the many heroic doses that I’ve done. Instead, I’ve learned to accept myself, that my autism isn’t always a curse, but rather, a different worldview than the narrow, singular, neurotypical view. I’ve even come to understand myself on a deep level and as a result, love myself again. I hadn’t felt that self-love since I was in elementary school. Before LSD, I was suicidal, emotionally stunted and closed off, and so full of hate. Afterwards, I’ve become more loving, emotionally intelligent, and more open minded. I wasn’t that closed minded before, but I’m much more open minded now. I also understand both the cons AND the pros this world has to offer. I’m thankful I’ve never experienced ego death, but I surmise it might be because I haven’t had much of one in the first place. Or perhaps, I did experience ego death, but not in the way most people do, because my ego was so deleterious and negative that when it died, it was only a positive experience. I’m gonna cut this off before I get too long winded, so I’ll leave off this comment with a sentiment of gratitude for sharing your story.
Your words resonate with me, because there are aspects to being on the autism spectrum that imho should be considered gifts...why would you want to "cure" that?? But, like for anybody, gaining insights that help you understand yourself and your relation to the world can help the gift part stand out, and the not-so-gifty part diminish or at least be more manageable.
I am Autistic also but everybody has an ego mate. Mine is also notoriously difficult to kill. I'm not entirely sure I've experienced it. I have had some incredibly intense, high dose experiences on a myriad of different psychedelics including DMT, Salvia, LSD, Mushrooms and ketamine/nos. The Psychedelics mixed with the dissociatives I'm pretty sure is what has most often caused ego death but I'm sure my perception of what my ego is is different to other people due to my Autism. I am the only one out of my close friends that hast had a psychotic break due to psychedelics and they were all from average doses in bad settings.
I’ve had a trip like this on a way smaller dose than this, had PTSD for about six months. But it taught me so much about myself and my insecurities and helped me grow in so many profound ways. While going through the trip and the six months after that, it was a very dark time, it completely broke me and I had to rebuild myself but I’m glad I went through that cuz I know I am capable of overcoming major sufferings and set backs and it has enabled me to also help other people. It also got me closer to God after observing the unity in everything and then learning about the concept of Tawheed in Islam.
my first LSD trip was 1200 and i heard the damn water flowing through the pipes in the walls and outside, while it was winter, the ice makes crackling sounds and i could hear it all crystal clear, so amazing. i also looked at a book that explained drugs which had very fancy colors for 5 hours straight
After like 7 hits of weed I can feel every force acting on me and tangibly separate them from one another. I can hear the air brushing on each fan blade as it spins and I can hear the fine details of the white noise from my noise cancelling headphones and it’s so cool ;-; Edit: spelling
@@currently0nline i didnt even knew what the guy that gave it to me meant with that so i just took it since i wanted to try everything eventually and im pretty resilient, i also smoked like 1 or 2g to enhance the trip, was great but you always need to see for yourself if you can take this much, another one that took also LSD was going straight to the hospital, so always be careful with drugs! edit: forgot to mention that i was also drunk af, 2 or 3 vodka bottles in at that point
Man bad trips are so scary. I remember one time I was tripping hard and the only thing keeping me sane was listening to music every time I would stop the music I would feel that fear in my brain I understood that there was nothing to be scared about but that it just never went away. I was with my girlfriend at the time and I was stuck in a loop I kept saying the same thing over over and I was aware of it, that’s when I had that feeling of “I’m losing myself”. I’ve been sober for about 6 months I was a daily weed smoker for 8 years after the trips the need or craving to smoke stopped completely and I gave myself to god.
Yahweh God? Im curious cause im Christian and many psychonauts don't appreciate Christianity, but I feel once you understand it, this lesson you learn on it certainly applies to Jesus message
I don’t understand why people think it’s cool to abuse substances, especially acid. If you’ve taken it before, you should know or at least realize the limits on how much you can/should take. I knew after tabbing out the first time, that 1, 1 and a half, or on a really good day maybe 2 would be my limit. Anymore than that, I knew for a fact would send me to the shadow realm. I think the hardest part people have when tripping balls in a bad way is acceptance, the regret, and wishfullness to stop what’s going on. Especially when your life is not going too well, acid will shove that in your face and make you deal with it. When you’re on acid everything you think in your head becomes a visual in front of you. People forget that the brain can process things so quickly especially when it’s panicking. Acid can be the best and the worst at the same time, as long as you’re able to realize why the trip is doing whatever it is doing, the second you’ll accept it things will become a bit more tame. Then again I am mostly speaking from my experience.
Strongest trip I've ever taken was 2 gel tabs, supposedly 450ug each. Interestingly enough my mental state didn't seem much different from lighter doses I had taken, but the visuals were insane. My entire field of view was twisting and blending like I'd never seen before, to the extent that I couldn't make out anything about 10 feet infront of me. Spent most of the beginning of the trip going back and forth between funny youtube videos and confronting god. During the second half, my brother and his friends (who were all on the same dosage) swooped by and we walked to one of the friend's houses. For some reason I dont remember, i chose not to grab shoes even though it was winter (winters are mild here but definitely still cold) so I walked barefoot all the way there. He had a foot massager when we got there though so I still count it as a W. got my soul sucked out toes first
99%+ of the time people greatly exaggerate their doses. Dealers have an incentive to lie--or give you a cheap(er) research chemical passed off as LSD. As someone with decades of experience with acid, I would estimate your total dose to have been in the range of 200-350ug max. Only once have I taken 400ug; and I was so far gone that I was unable to move from the fetal position and couldn't comprehend anything that was happening. It was basically a waste because I would have had a much better experience taking less. I recommend that most people stick to 50-250ug, depending on their experience and their goals for the trip. Stay safe and have fun! EDIT: P.S. on average, most gels are 75-150ug and most blotter is about 40-80ug.
I lived 100's of lifes on a really high dose it really messed with me and i had some PTSD like symptoms for about 6-8 months because i forgot who i was, but from there i learned from it and it changed everything to the positive my self esteem went up and i became mentally stronger than ever.
Something strange that always happens to me on lsd (or even when I smoke too much weed now) is my vision stops feeling like a thing my body is doing. It starts feeling like experience is pouring out of my eyes and that I’m not seeing the world in front of me but like I am throwing it up 🤮…from my eyes… lol.
Wow. That's a rough and peculiar picture but it strangely speaks to something I'm trying to wrap my head around; how we're all projecting so much instead of just perceiving. It's inevitable - but it can be recognised at least, and therefore woven into the perception of things. I know it might not be at all connected to how you felt or are feeling - but it somehow spoke to me as a fitting symbolism of how a lot of problems we create ourselves in our own lives by just projecting fears, insecurities and ultimately misunderstanding in social interaction and relationships. edit: thank you for sharing, wishing good journeys ahead!
That is exactly what I felt tubing down a river a few weeks ago with family. I noticed it almost immediately something about my vision felt way off. Like I wasn’t perceiving life the same way, the experience of floating on water down the river and conversations felt projected like a video was being played through my eyes. Felt like a after death scenario but it was beautiful and scary at the same time, just going with the flow literally lol. I don’t smoke weed anymore though, tends to make me super aware of things and can’t stand the feeling all of the sudden. Not to mention random panic attacks and passing out. 😬
I’ve done something like this before. Unfortunately, it happened to be my first bad trip and last trip ever. I thought my head was going to explode and I was watching my entire life from start to end. I was hearing the voices of my loved ones telling me I was useless. I had to be taken to the hospital and my heart rate was 160. I feel this trip was a warning; I had received the message years ago, so why hadn’t I hung up the phone?
@@labv_n4857 Yeah, start tiny. Like a tab/100ug at most. Maybe less. Don’t take more because you don’t feel anything. Don’t take it if you’re sleepy, depressed, or ill, physically or mentally. Enjoy yourself. If you start thinking bad thoughts, remind yourself that the trip will eventually end
@@labv_n4857 do a lotttttttt of research and really ask yourself if youre ready for this. lsd is extremely powerful and while youre on it you will be at its mercy. it can have long lasting effects on you. once you know you might not want to anymore.
A very small dose of LSD (50 ug) seems to have somewhat helped my social anxiety and brain fog. I used to spend my life in my head, and now even though I still do to some extent I feel so much more free
I also think it’s just given me such an appreciation for life. Not one that’s like “oh my god the world looks so beautiful now that I’ve seen it in vibrant colors for 12 hours” more just like an innate subconscious feeling of appreciation to be alive and to have people in my life that I love and can talk to more honestly and earnestly now
It’s also seemed to allow me to feel memories more. I have a shit memory but every now and then I get these intense feelings of old memories from childhood that I’ve long forgotten. Almost like I remember exactly how it felt to be in that moment for 5 minutes
That end part is exactly how I felt. After my trip every time I walked through the door I couldnt help but feel like my dad wanted to yell at me with a screaming rage. I couldn't be around my family I was constantly thinking they were afraid of me and disgusted by me or didnt want me alive. It hurt to exist altogether.
For anyone who experienced anything like this, I just want you to know you're not stupid, you're not retarded. You understand things in ways other people don't. I believe we have the ability to see the world for what I could be instead of what it is. Psychedelics open us to that realization that the world is majorally a bunch of sad miserable people doing everything they can to make each other happy. They dont see the world in the same way we do. And thats why we have trouble understanding what they see. It has nothing to do with something really being wrong with us.
You definitely took things to an extreme with the dosage, surprisingly your recount was very detailed, a lot of congruency to my EGO Death experience and im sure many others as well.
i've done around 700-800ug in a day, no issues along the way even though I was overly anxious about just life overall at the time, just gotta double up one you start to level after the first dose
At one point I actually found myself in like a 1940s wedding, everyone dressed in black, rooms were fully red and I was walking down a long hall with many doorways trying to find where the wedding was... honestly was very interesting
So you didn't take it all at once is what you're saying? I get that some people do this, personally I find it peculiar and kind of counterproductive to the conventional experience and challenges associated with deep diving, but if it works for you and you like it then that's all that matters. I personally would rather introduce a different psychedelic into the mix rather than redose on the same one
I’ve done it 800ug on Halloween at party in Amsterdam. I smoked 3 g of white widow haze. Completely destroyed my ego (was kinda good ig tho). Stopped caring about what other people thought about me mostly . I wish I hadn’t done it at early age 16 tho but I could handle it.
First off two thumbs up👍🏼👍🏼 what a pure form of a absolute vivid experience. Ego death is so impossibly hard to explain. This story did a great job. My very first time with a psychedelic I ate 4 gram. Sold to me by a friend of a friend for 40 bucks and I was told they were a very strong psilocybin strain mushrooms. In fact she said the guy who ate the entire eighth the night before sat in the street crying thinking he was a refrigerator. I laughed that off and thought I was special somehow didn’t matter the strain ( I can’t name the strain I was too young ) at the age of 17, which was 30 years ago I experienced the hell of ego death. It felt like I died in my own head and I’d never be normal again. There’s no amount of letting go that can keep a teenage mind from going full panic! Now that I’m older I have dosed far higher and felt pure bliss losing control. It’s therapeutic. My point is!! If you are a young person there is no shame in going slow!!! Do not play around with psychedelics. Take it slow and if you want to meet the devil than you’ve been warned. The pure terror that my first BIG trip took me to was a nightmare. I had taken acid, a small amount of shrooms but the girl that sold me the eighth warned me. Do teens ever listen though lol. I wish I would’ve. That experience did give me the opportunity to tell my now 17 yo. Son to be easy and not grow up to fast. If 2 grams isn’t giving you a desired effect take a month off, find a new strain and a safe place. Pray/meditate before hand and have a plan. Psychedelics are a proven part of neurological recovery as well as anti desperation. They open our true potential. As long as we respect them!!! If we don’t respect them… well then they certainly show us humility in the rawest form. Safe journeys everyone🙏🏼 And remember mycelia mimics the human neural pathways of the brain. LSD peyote and DMT all share the same molecular structure as serotonin. Coincidence?? No we are meant to ingest this just responsibly that’s all
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“1000ug doesn’t provide a spiritual experience, it provides a post-death experience”
Chilling
That bit gave me goosebumps
Totally depend on every individu... i know ppl who needed 25g dried mckennay to start seeing stuff, also i know ppl who took 1.6 gr mckennay and went to odin and back🤣
Same thing bro.
sounds like my 750mcg trip
But you have a positive afterglow that can last a month, the direction it took me gave me a career in IT when internet had just started. Definitely went through full ego death, remember feeling my face to see if it was a skull to only realise I was inside my mind looking out a window which was my eye socket. Took a couple hundred more acid over the whole 90's and it just wasn't the same. Mega trails and light posts were the shape of McDonald's arks and it lasted 3 days.
I love that sentiment.
"It fixed a bunch of my problems, gave me perspective in my life, and my life is so much better now. Do NOT DO what I DID."
Yeah lol it’s not for everybody . That’s why I don’t try to convince everyone who says LSD is much worse and toxic than shrooms and will fry your brain.
I stop trying to convince them because technically…. Ego death can “fry” someone’s brain who isn’t ready for it or can’t handle it…. And being that it lasts twice as long as shrooms, I understand the precaution. I just hate the disinformation and misunderstandings. At the end of the day set and set and setting both physically and metaphysically , determines the outcome and is the way to prevent negative experiences.
Just because it helped me or other people doesn’t mean that others can, too.
Shutup
@@brandon33371 dry
Because it's a risk, with a cost.
In fact, if someone offered me a choice between a pill that caused me to vividly experience being endlessly buggered by prison gangs whilst being bitten by bulldogs, or another pill that GAVE me autism, I'd probably have to go with the autism pill.
"I suspect I had a mild form of autism, and this trip literally eradicated it"
I'm shocked to hear someone had the same experience I did. I grew up with full on Asperger's, and during my freshman year of college I did acid twice, once at 300ug and another at 400ug. Ever since I've been able to read and understand people, and for the first time in my life social interactions were no longer a haze of confusion and awkward exchanges. Over the last 2 and a half years I've developed social skills, my identity, quality friends, I began thinking for myself, learned to love and empathize with others, and I finally opened my eyes to what the world really is outside of my own head. It's been incredibly difficult as you might imagine- trying to develop one whole childhood's worth of experiences, learned social patterns, and basic knowledge of the world in a few years, but it has been incredibly rewarding and my family recognizes the exponential growth I've made since going away to college. I hope we can invest in research towards acid and autism, because it really is a cure.
That’s incredibly interesting. As an autistic person (diagnosed with Asperger’s at 6) I would probably see that as less of a cure and more of a way of managing social symptoms. I would think that lsd (in theory based on other trip reports, I haven’t touched it) would even enhance certain autistic tendencies and abilities, particularly bottom-up thinking and creativity. Did you have any experiences with those areas?
That's absolutely insane man. 5 or 6 years ago the same thing happened to me.
Visited my cousin in florida, and he had a whole sheet.
First trip was 300ug, second 1 week later was 400ug.
Most profound experiences of my life.
I learned a lot about myself and this world in those 2 weeks.
@@tourmaline8347 I haven’t noticed much change in creativity post-trip (during yes for sure) but original thinking definitely improved. Looking back on my high school days I realize how much I accepted things as the way they were, not realizing most things in life are incredibly fluid and changeable. I think my ability to think and reason also became less dependent on loose/incorrect generalizations and has now become more organized and accurate.
There is no such thing as a cure for autism, it's something you're born with.
I have Asperger's too. I'm usually quite socially awkward, but something after taking mushrooms I feel like I can improve. I'm not cured, but I'm so much better than before.
"I act normally now, I view everyone I meet as a part of my own consciousness".
If the average person viewed others as a part of their own consciousness, the world would be vastly different, better I'd imagine.
It's crazy how alien this idea would sound if you were talking to someone in person
yeah its almost like we should start a consciousness religion
When you realize, each and every of 8 billion lives on this planet is living their own life and thinking their own thoughts, feeling and experiencing their own events, that’s when you view people differently.
@@Luhwes Have you read The Egg by Andy Weir?
@@devinward461 no why
I've had a similar experience with LSD too. This kind of experience is like a full personality reset, the length of time these looping experiences last is impossible to describe, you come out feeling older, so so much older
Watch Close Encounters of The Fifth Kind if you want to know more about consciousness and how far we can take it. The disclosure team that created that documentary is led by Dr. Steven M Greer, alongside very high level/credible witnesses and testimonials that can be found on his TH-cam page for free, including astronauts like Edgar Mitchell and former CEOs of military industrial complex companies like Lockheed Martin and Raytheon. You can help expose the corruption that is keeping us at this low level one mind at a time. They are planning a world takeover we all know that and we have the key to stop it. Its your mind of course.
yeah it fucked me up for awhile
@@cheesiesttoe I smoked “hashish” from an acquaintance years ago and was immediately shot into a 6+ hour trip complete with looping thoughts, a sense of immobility, and a feeling of near delirium. Then it just … Ended and I was back to myself.
I’m an experienced smoker, having smoked tons of green/hash/etc before and after. But to this day I have no idea wtf I smoked.
this is so accurate. been looking for a way to the describe it for the longest
@@katyalupochev9589 bro that was not fuckin hashish, fuck whoever sold you that shit under the false pretense that it was hashish fr
Wow. Hearing him explain his ego death was surreal. I’m sure people who have tripped hard know there is seldom times where you can find words to even BEGIN to describe the unreal feelings, emotions, visuals, etc that you feel. Hearing him say “I was nothing and everything at the same time” almost took me back to the one time I experienced ego death.
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I experienced it again recently for the first time in a long time. I used to enjoy trying to trip heavily and see how it went when I was younger, but after some time away came back to enjoy trips right on the verge of mild and heavy. But, recently had an experience where I left my body, felt death and rebirth happening continuously and simultaneously, and felt the pristine peace of nothingness in a void of color, beauty, and emptiness, and realized I had been there many times before. It was this last time that I realized that THAT space must be directly akin to the DMT experience/DMT "space", and that basically any psychedelic in the right dosage and mindset has the potential to elicit that DMT release in our brains and take us there
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@@ajahncodar Yes 100%, especially when n20 is used during the peak.
@@Coffee_Wizards I've never tried it tripping but I will have to check it out. I hear people talk about it all the time. DMT was nice though because, all the times I tried it alone I never broke through and it just felt really uncomfortable, but while tripping it just felt like an amplification of what I was already feeling. I'm also curious what salvia would be like on psychs but it was just so weird on its own, idk if I'll ever try it
* *takes 1000ug of LSD* *
"I felt embarrassed, because it looked like I couldn't handle my shit"
-bruda, the fact you even knew what embarrassment was should be a reason for you to be praised at that moment
Really true words 😂
😂 seriously takes a hero’s dose 10x and is like “im embarrassed😢” broooo your an fing mad man in my book lol
@@TheNitroPythonhero’s dose is a wild term 😂
He knew they were the United States of Life, like gut, doing it to him 🫢 they casted him looks!
Still the ego talking, need more!
Went from “LSD can cure mental illnesses and I think medicine should research this” to “I have nightmares, PTSD, and may have developed bipolar disorder after this trip” real quick there, OP
LSD and other psychedelics have been shown to have huge potential in treating mental disorders. That doesn’t meant it’s a good idea to take massive doses ; just like any drug, dosage is important.
@@OutLookificationyup my first dosage was 100ug and im chilling
I mean, this dude took 1000ug, which is an absolutely ridiculous amount.
Always, have safety precautions on hand. Tripsitter, no re-load doses, just so, you dont up the dose and have benzos at hand, for horror stopping properties. There you should be safe.
@@dr4876emphasis on ABSOLUTELY ridiculous amount
One of my favorite trip reports, I would never ever take a dose like that though, this sounds way too much like my first salvia experience but way longer considering the duration of acid. I've had wild and long experiences with LSD but always respected it's power enough to fear a dose like this for good reason haha.
Easily one of the very best, it's mind-boggling how deep the rabbit hole goes.
@@Vivec holy fucking shit dude
1,000 Micrograms I thought I was going crazy when I took three tabs
This guy is built different
@@devinjacksun5681 sometimes 1000ug is one tab you can get 1000ug tabs
My tabs were dosed at 100-150 Micrograms I took 3
And I was already peaking on some strong shrooms
@@Vivec Infinitely deep.
I have taken a relatively similar dosage, taking an entire strip of LSD at once. I will never be able to fully express what the experience was like because it cannot be explained in any existing human language. I didn’t have a bad trip, by the way.
I did this once cuz I thought I was getting ripped off bc the strips kept getting thinner and thinner so I was like well fuck it what’s the worst that can happen….I was high for like a day, I took it during the afternoon, went in a ride fell asleep after I rolled the blunt and woke up like 10 minutes later to a sign with all the colors you can imagine and I’m partially blind in one eye and I saw again perfectly for the first time in so many years. It was a really relaxing high tbh, the worst I ever had was I didn’t realize how out of shape I was a took a long walk through the woods, ate some shrooms and smoked a Dutch, that walk back was a trip no pun intended. I thought I was gonna die then the visuals started to kick in but I’ve been here before so I knew to just start control my breathing I’ll be alright and it was fine afterwards but that anxiety inducing part when you take drugs is what makes or breaks you.
@@nawhteven3830 Honestly best advice for someone tripping is hey you took drugs calm down. There's always that thought of "am I ok?" and if you aren't in control enough to say yes you have a bad trip. I doubt anyone who hasn't tripped/rolled/greened out even understands how much a "Hey you're ok" can help.
Super glad you had an, I assume, enjoyable experience. Mind-melting, but nice
However, what is the point if you cannot report back on it? This is a genuine question, one I could ask myself to be honest.
@@Blewlongmun everyone handles things differently. one thing could work for someone and a completely different thing could work for another
Lol 👍
Insane stuff man. Reminds me of the time I experienced ego death after smoking a ton of spice at a high school party where I barely knew anyone. I blacked out on the couch but was conscious enough to hear their voices. Everyone was talking about me and how weird they thought I was. This contributed to the ego death. I was convinced I was going to die. It was a full psychotic break. I already had social anxiety going into the event. And this exacerbated it exponentially. I don’t know what it was laced with but I knew that I was going to die. Lost track of time and space and felt like I was looking at myself from the third person. To the kids at the party, I was just a weirdo. But to me, It was hell on earth. The experience had changed my life for ever.I experienced depersonalization and derealization for nearly three years afterwards, and went through a partial hospitalization program. I constantly felt detached from either my surroundings or my own body. And the worst part about it is that every time I saw a kid who attended the party after the event occurred, they would bring up the situation. I’m still a total weirdo and loser to them. There was no positive side. Even if no one cares, I’m glad I got this off my chest.
im so sorry man, i know this might sound like bullshit coming from someone you dont know online but i understand 100 percent. the worst thing to experience in society is to be an outcast or utterly alone. and its even worse when you suspect those about yourself and they ring true to those around you
Fuck welll that’s terrible
Life is an experience. It was meant to be like that. Don’t blame yourself. You are one part of life experience itself - part of something bigger. First step: love yourself fully. I mean that. Read it again love yourself fully. The effect of that is that you become appreciative of your time and start working on something greater. See it as a power. Only few have strong self love and are able to channel it. Outside appreciation will follow. Highschool is a weird time and you’re ahead of your time now. You’ll see people in their 30s/40s would hundert percent understand and think you’re brave. If you take anything from this comment, then start loving yourself. It’s so powerful. Love from Austria to you
That's some heavy shit brother. I'm sorry that happened to you. I don't know whether you meant that the weed was laced so you didn't know that it had trippy shit in it. If so I can't imagine what it's like to smoke something that's been laced and have a psychedelic experience that you weren't expecting. Especially in that social environment. Even when you know what's going on it can feel like you're going insane. You're fucking strong to fight through that and all the shit afterwards man. Fuck them kids. You're not a weirdo or a loser. They're just shallow-minded
Why were they all talking about you?
That feeling of being older after a strong trip is universal it seems, I've definitely gotten that after shrooms. Mentally it's like you've gained 40 years.
More than anything, you feel humbled.
What dose did u take?
Probably the damage to the brain if it’s my guess
Every time i take shrooms and then remember the moment, earlier the same day in the fields looking for the cubensis, it feels like it was a life ago 😂😂😂
I had this after being in a coma. 23 days I was in..I was taking silly amounts of opiates and benzos. A yr later and off shit for good. Thr coma and the things I aren't supposed to remember have changed my life. I've done trips too and understand this but nothing that profound. Wouldn't advice going into a coma though 😮😂
As someone who’s experienced something like this before, I am impressed by how accurate you described your experience
Yeah man, we've all seen the same thing just experienced it in our own way. All the same emotions persist which is why I think we are able to connect so strongly to this story I can feel how I felt with the emotions in his voice
I don't think this even comes close.
He's reading from a trip report online, which I suspect is embellished/made up.
@@Kholaslittlespot1 i suspect you might be right. To take an ego trip heroic dose like this and then be able to articulate details like this just doesn't seem very likely. When you land after a dose like this, your brain is going to be absolutely exhausted and while you may remember a snippet or 2, your not giving some detailed report like your a 15th century explorer braving a new world. I mean everyone is different i guess, but from personal experience, huge does make you absolutely pay to play.
Bro this is an erowid report
This trip report made me remember that time I was tripping on a normal safe dose having a pretty good trip but I remember just little moments of bad thoughts and I’ve realized how my focus was so important, I came to the realization that you have the power to look at any side of the coin you choose, and I developed this mechanism where if i found a bad thought I would ask myself “What’s the good opposite version of this thought?” And that question instantly made my brain look for the good and opposite side of that thought which is love and joy and I entertained those loving thoughts to the point that I got that same realization most of the people who get scared on a trip get and it’s that LOVE is the most important thing in this planet and love is the answer for any emotional pain, that thought made me feel so safe, joyful and thankful and the rest of the trip was bliss and it’s also a mechanism that I need to keep adopting with my sober self. “What’s the good opposite version of this thought?”
You don't understand how my brain just clicked to this :)
Facts
Wow I love this ! Thank you!
Unfortunately the love is not always reciprocated.
That's called reciprocal inhibition, common trick in CBT. Really good way of trying to analyse your thought process objectively
I'm sure we're all familiar with Terrence Mckenna's advice on taking heroic doses. I love the man and his powerful faculties of vision and communication, however in my experience, I highly recommend the opposite approach. Why not see what the smallest effective dose is? What's the smallest dose that still has a profound effect on you? Check your ambition at the door, have respect for your body and the continuity of your mind. Take it easy. Temper your expectations, psychedelics are not enlightenment, what they offer is not always therapeutic, they are an experience unto themselves. Be gentle, begin with humility and respect for the drug and your own emotional bandwidth. Psychedelics can be a window into a beautiful spiritual experience, that's why we try them, but be realistic!! Everything in this world has another side to it's nature. They can have a side that is unnecessarily dark, gross, mean, paranoid, annoying and it's best to have as little experience of that as dosage will allow
Fully agreed
read your comment again and take psychedelics out of the equasion and you might as well described life itself.
10000% agreed I tempered too close to my mind first months. Now I take low dosage of any at all, they sure are nice but have to be aware as well.
@@PlaviStrumf whoa
For me tho the lowest is still higher than most
Took around over 2000ug when I was on an end my life, tried to crawl thro a wormhole which was my wall. Had taken valium alcohol and lots of other stuff as I was the lowest I had ever been. Wife found me lying and choking in vomit and saved me. I feel so bad that I did this and so glad she saved me when I eventually stopped tripping balls 36 or so hours later.
Never again
That’s insane, I’m glad you’re still here bro. Stay strong
metal asf
Jesus Christ. Honestly a dumb thing to have done. Why didn’t you dose on 200 micrograms?
@@mga59xbd38 I mean im just very happy this person is still around. And kinda obvious why though, no one with good intentions for themselves in a trip takes LSD, alchohol and valium as a combo. Could have been dangerous even on 200.
@@ouwle6618, I combined LSD with Zoloft. I had been unaware of the potential lethality due to Serotonin Syndrome. Never again am I repeating that mistake.
Took 3 tabs, and while I was vibing my friend experienced ego death. As he was changing emotions every 2 seconds and uncontrollably pulsating his limbs, everything turned black and white and the anxiety felt like a dense ball of glowing red matter that I could see. Every once in awhile, his true consciousness would come through and beg for help. Didn’t have a single good trip after that.
exactly
Not bad if you only takes 1 🤷♂️
@@unsaii exactly what...
@@tumultuousv i never had a good trip after my shit was like that w my homie
@@unsaii it’s cause your paranoid forget that experience and let them take you on a adventure don’t try to control it just let it flow
My rebirth happened on 1200ug, the whole experience was intense and overwhelming but it was one of my most prolific trips and it stands out from the crowd.
I gained so much knowledge that trip and it changed my perspective completely, it even cured my meth addiction and got me off pharmas
That’s fucking cool.
an actual rebirth for me becuase during the trip i thought i died and had what felt like an out of body transition to somehwere else, somewhere dark…
Maybe it was just placebo. Correlation isn't always causation
And now you have an lsd addiction
@@trashmix2184 you cant get addicted to acid
My wife and I use LSD time to time. She sometimes gets these weird anxious feelings while thinking of very small particles or atoms in huge quantities. She would try to explain it but the message would never click with me.
Then one time we were mid trip and she had that feeling again but this time she was able to guide me to what she was experiencing and it was insane. It's hard to even describe it so it will sound silly.
As I was following her voice and looking into her eyes she caused me to experience a sensation and see something that even now shakes me to the core. It was a presence that felt like a void. A blanket of absolute darkness that was hanging behind me and slowly wrapping around the right side of my peripheral vision. It had a feeling that was similar to the feeling that a living thing is beside you and watching and waiting for you to acknowledge it's existence. I was terrified. I couldn't look at it. Fear prevented me from accepting it's reality. I stayed in denial as I could make out that it was emptiness. Pure nothingness. Like a veil to another dimension was lifting, or a blanket spreading out is the pattern it took. The feeling of shear terror of this unknown entity was something I never felt before. I was able to pull myself out of it before I let things get too far (not sure what was too far honestly). I looked at my wife, a tear slid down my face, and said " oh my God what was that"! She lepped off the bed and said "you saw it"! She finally felt that she wasn't going crazy because something that has followed her for years has just been exposed to someone who never knew it existed.
Whenever I think about it I still get a weird feeling like I saw something that I shouldn't have. Something that has been hidden has been brought to light. It didn't feel like an entity of good or evil. It felt like oblivion (dramatic I know). My wife and I still have trouble even discussing it because of how unnerving it was.
I'm not much of a writer so I apologize for the sloppiness.
Has anyone else felt this entity? Also I should note we were just taking the basic low dosage we normally take if that helps.
Thanks for reading
I had something similar to me happen once. I was in my room tripping with the lights off laying in my bed. And I felt how something dark and gigantic was coming from behind me. I was really scared but I couldn't move. It was a presence, it was something but it wasn't good or evil, like you said. It felt like the entire empty space, and it was so huge and quiet, that it was almost too loud. Like if you where left in the middle of the galaxy where you could see nothing and hear nothing in the complete void. I remember I just let go and embraced it, then all of the sudden I heard something in the real world and I snapped out of it.
damn I'm sorry totally freaky I'd never take that stuff again! yikes!
reminds me of Almaas' theory of holes
@@darien_g9454 I just looked it up and wow that is some interesting stuff. Thank you for dropping that comment. I will definitely investigate further into it.
You know that's actually quite a horrifying concept, but I think of it this way, time is an illusion of our minds, and technically time could be boiled down to a measurement of travel. When that veil is lifted, there are only 2 absolutes to experience, absolute life: experiencing every possible feeling all at once, and absolute death or void, and I think what you described was that feeling of the absolute void. Just space, no consciousness for a moment and just in a way experiencing nothing. Very trippy stuff, and this is only speculation, but maybe it could provide insight to someone.
By far one of the best descriptions of a trip or a bad/ego death. This is vvvvery similar to my trip. So well spoken, so glad I’m not alone in this perspective.
1 love brother
"ego death" what a fake, deceptive marketing term.
@@thewardenofoz3324 What do you mean
@@Logan.Bell05 let's open the door to an interdimensional prison with garden-variety sorcery methods aka pharmakeia aka altered states, then let's all subtly act like it is just a positive learning experience for the shedding of ego. Nah.
The events he described are more akin to soul death rather than ego death, and his tale is more of a warning why doing such is wrong in and of itself. It's just signing up to meet a very manipulative pure evil that was sealed away long ago and that wants to bait and switch the unwary then remake them into its image so THEY'LL become the hopeless horrors roaming through the eternal darkness looking for some poor sob to pounce on. It isn't about set and setting. A grand lie is the setting from the start.
"Super Mario" said it best. "If you do drugs, you go to Hell _before_ you die." So don't do drugs, kids.
@@thewardenofoz3324 😊
Time and separateness (ego) is an illusion cause by thoughts. My daughter is 4 years old, she can also see that. When I am outside of my thoughts (in the now), she's asking me if inside we're the same. When we grow older, our thoughts are taking over us. We look at the world through thoughts (separateness and time).
Thank you for sharing, my friend.
Well said mate 👏
I don't get why realising this without LSD is the most amazing thing a human can experience but most people who realise it through LSD find it terrifying.
We create our world through how we perceive
@@chiefcheeser I never did LSD, I was realizing this with weed. Basically, you don't need drags, just try to stop thinking. Try to focus your attention on the outside world.
You can loose your ego by hiking and spiritual experiences - I had this experience sitting in the Himalayas of Nepal. You realize that whilst you are infinitely small your mere existence is what creates this experience and that you sit in the center of the universe - you are not an external observator yet part of everything.
You can have an experience like this everywhere where you feel whole - the tricky part is finding that place.
My first time taking shrooms was like this. I didn’t do any research as I was a dumb kid in Highschool not knowing just taking a little at time can get you high. I thought you had to do all of it at once to get the full experience. I had huge jar that my friend gave to me. Easily over five grams. I ate the whole jar and in thirty minutes i was already tripping. My parents were away at the time so I thought it was fine. I felt sick though the taste was horrible and I tried getting out of my mouth. My body did not want to move either. About an hour in and it’s really starting to set in. I just wanted to lay in my bed because my stomach hurt so bad. I put on head phones and it was the best part of the trip. Had my music going and my whole room was dancing it and slightly changing colors to the beats of the 808s when I closed my eyes I would get insane visuals I was absolutely loving it, it was stone spiraling stairs going on forever with old Victorian churches colliding into each other. When I opened my eyes my room would breathe and expand. Each song had felt forever and each song came with different visuals. My peak was coming up and I was laying there tear drop fell from my eye and instead of coming off my face I felt it swirl around my chin to the other side of my cheek and up to my nose. It really freaked me out but I was cool with it. After I don’t know why but I definitely fell asleep at one point. This is when things became done right terrifying. Extreme religious symbolism was popping into my head dead elks with human hands and nothing but bone. All the wrong things I’ve done my life was shown it felt like god was punishing me. I was being watched for everything I did, a Venus flytrap like thing was sucking me in suffocating me in this wet skin type thing. I would wake up in and out of this lucid hell. One point I felt like was actually going to die. My heart felt like it was being torn out of my chest I couldn’t breathe and I was all alone. The worst moment though I felt like my body was being morphed into some absolute abomination. I cant describe the horror it was my body sunk into the bed and I felt as I was covered in slime I couldn’t move as it was happening and I was just morphing into some sick monster. My ears was ringing with loudest noise I’ve ever heard in my entire life I felt my body molding into the walls and I was expanding if anyone saw me it feel like humiliation or I’ll be laughed at by all others as they seen what I’ve become. So much happend in that few hours of so and when I finally woke up from this night mare or whatever the fuck just happened I jumped out of my bed and puked all over my room. I cried so hard knowing none of that happened. To this day I have absolutely no clue how or why that happened.
You ate too much for the first trip bro... try taking 1g or 1.5g, you said you had over 5g, thats waaay too much imo
@@med7724 yeah exactly what med saiz, over 5g for a first timer is way too much. You need to be “comfortable” in that space of the psychedelic plane, settling yourself
in, breathing. Panic and anxiety can easily settle in, but just breathing man really helps. Just breathing and relaying to
yourself you exist in this space, and what your mind is trying to tell you is trying to
work against you, its relaying itself going back through time, back to your first traumatic memories, because it never got forgotten. It was just hidden deep in your subconcsious, and just accepting these things for they have already happened, it can all lead to a complete human revitalization.
@@med7724 he literally said he didn’t know he wasn’t meant to take that much first time
How did it change your life today
Very good. 10/10
Little did I know that ego death was a thing, I experienced this about a year and a half ago.. and it still haunts me to this day. I regularly took acid every weekend. I was very familiar with the drug and one day felt comfortable enough taking 3 jelly tabs. I was told they were around 250mg each, but they were certainly way more than I was aware of. I completely blacked out and I had no control over my body and what it was doing my entire trip. I had visions of me being arrested, being on the National news, and death. I even had visions of time going in reverse while I was getting younger, all the way back to the 1800’s. It’s so hard to explain but I felt like I was no longer alive and just watching someone else live in my own body. At one point I ran outside and was looking over the edge of a three story balcony, and was about to jump off, not realizing I could’ve died. I was eventually taken to the hospital because I was literally losing my mind. I was entirely out of touch with my life and everything going on around me. I’ve not touched the drug since and don’t plan to, but I’m glad I’m not alone in this life changing experience.
You should take more
It’s a nice experience when you give into it
The jelly tabs would've been 250ug each, not mg. And to be clear, a 750ug dose of LSD is absolutely insane. Most people who think they've taken 400ug have actually only taken around 200ug, since underdosed LSD is very common. This is why you should be wary of the dosages you see online. A 400ug trip is full-on ego death territory.
can confirm, 1000ug trips give you post death sensations… i genuinely felt i discovered the next stage after death, where your memories are lined up like the instruments in Wii Music, like a slideshow but you can choose to expand each memory, and knowing what you know now, you can try to influence your past self through manipulating the world & environment around yourself in said memory. Those “coincidences” are yourself alerting you about what your future self has learned from already going through that experience. this was one of many events in my trip , including but not limited to speaking to some sort of being that showed me the percent chance that I could become a living human being, in this era of the human race, in the body i possess now and it was so unbelievably small it was the only thing to fill the void that I and this being had been taking up, it spanned across my entire vision left to right, i had to turn my head to see just how massive and long this percentage was. Good lord that was incredible. But it did have the horrible moments like this guy did, but not as terrible. they were suffering in ways thought unimaginable, my friends were looking at memes in the background while i was laying on the floor, unresponsive to them but still active in my trip, or so they thought. Every 5-10 second meme they played out loud, my life would be recreated around the people in these memes, and you know memes so the dark nature of them would be the center point of the hallucinations, so it planted me as a horrible criminal doing terrible things, which may have also been my fucked yo friends messing with me (am not friends with that one anymore for obvious reasons)
That’s insane but true lol
Would absolutely make sense. Cuz If time is not linear and is instead all happening at once it would absolutely make sense. Deja vu, synchronicities, glitches in the matrix, coincidences, miracles……I wonder what other mystical qualities would resonate…hmm
Wow, great description. Comparing seeing our memories post death to wii music seems silly on the outside but like, I know exactly what you’re saying.
@@Hay_Bay Everything, everywhere, all at once
The maximum I've done was 1000ug as well. But I did have the most pleasant trip as well. I was with a friend of mine who also had the same dose. We saw other people's auras and energy. Literally everyone who we saw as a negative person was transforming into some kind of morbid and demon-like creature with a deformed face. Everyone who was a positive and easygoing person had a bright yellowish aura and was seen as the most beautiful person ever alive. Seeing all these people around was accompanied with different sounds and music depending on the person. At one point we isolated ourselves on some meadow and we laughed a lot as I recall. On the peaking period shit got serious though. The weather was nice, but it became cloudy and there was a thunderstorm (even though it was really just a hallucination I'm pretty sure). We were both really frightened (as we shared the same trip for whatever reason) and started to panic a bit. But I, whose idea was to take the heroic dose stood up and said out loud: We come clean, we come with peace and joy, we come not to want, but to see. Do not betray us please, as we come to acknowledge, to understand, to be of use for thee. And believe it or not, the clouds began to disappear, the thunders stopped, the sky became clear. And the most amazing thing to this day happened to me. The Sun spoke to me. It said something in the language of my ancestors thousands of years ago I cannot really translate, but I felt it in my heart. It was a moment of joy, happiness and freedom. It was like it said to me that my intentions were good and that I shall be granted with the knowledge of the past, aware of the present and future. Everything turned from dark/grey to very bright and colorful, we were happy and smiling again. My friend had a "wowww" face at first, but then he was in peace and joy as well then he thanked me. I told him to thank the Universe and all it contains. All there ever was, is and will be. The comedown was soft and easy, we smoked, discussed and had so many questions we found the answers to later on in life. I did get the ability to do Tarot readings too, which was very interesting, but I have never done it for money or anything materialistic in return.
I haven't done any drugs since 1.5/2 years as well, no drinking too. I'm just smoking weed and tobacco.
Sorry for the poor explanation too, English is not my native language, but I tried my best 😅 Peace to everyone and stay safe ❤️
Wow, amazing trip 🌟
Glad you don’t do drugs anymore just weed and tobacco
Wow thanks for sharing
Your trip report sounds much more real than the trip report in the actual video. I feel like their is a lot of fake negative trip reports out there.
Thank you for giving me closure :') I see you 🤍
I had this very same realization during a DMT trip. I took the vape pen and hit it 5 times blinkers all. After the 5th hit I learned the reward of life is the beauty of death and that there is nothing to fear. Yes death in of itself is always violent. I felt it. But I trucked it like I usually do with my psychedelics but I never believed I would ever let myself die quietly. But now I’m no longer afraid of death. 15 minutes of DMT did more than years of therapy when I was younger
How’d u get dmt
3.5 grams of shrooms made me realize all this lmao
@@dawsonweems141 telegram bro
@Rain do tell?
@@milee105 Get a job in fast food. If a guy there doesn't sell psychedelics, quit.
This shows I’m not alone and also learned that thinking is ego and being is just being. I learned how I’ve always worried about everything and was scared of being alone. Months later I’ve been in a psychotic state and have been scared in life because of this trip but recently it’s been the most enlightening experience I’ve ever had and have been able to converse and see people regularly. We’re all infinite and it help me lose my fear of life and learn to just flow
My man didn’t just get blasted into another dimension
He got blasted into all dimensions at all times simultaneously
I took 350 once and felt like I was leaving my body I can’t imagine how fucked up it must be to get a dose like this love the report
I listened to this with my eyes closed in the dark while laying in my bed, and tried to connect with the story. This video was EXTREMELY interesting, and it both felt like 5 minutes and an hour.
"It showed me the dark side of LSD" says the guy that took too much, not even by accident. Shying away from the fact that the dark side he was shown was his own.
Kind of a gross misinterpretation of what dude was saying but ok
There is only one thing
Takes a shitload of LSD: "I started wondering why I was feeling so uncomfortable"
Wild story! Most I’ve done at once was 450ug and that was super intense. Mixed it with DMT about 4 hours into it and had my first ego death, never been so scared.
Would you describe your experience?
@@mga59xbd38 he prolly cant 😭😭😭
@@mga59xbd38 in mine I basically forgot my name, my identity, my whole life. I couldn't see anything except some indescribable extradimensional landscape, a lot like whats shown in the video but orange. At one point I thought for sure I had lost my mind at some point and was now in an insane asylum just imagining my life. Then I forgot my life. Forgot what I was doing there, where I was, then language, I was like dissapearing piece by piece. Then i screamed for my grandma and she snapped me out of it and I felt like a dumbads lmao
@@Space_Ghost_Hunter, OMG, what you’ve described sounds so scary.
How have you been after the trip? Any side effects? Do you feel like a different person? Any toll on your mental state?
Good report.
A few things to point out here:
One should never take so much LSD unless they know exactly what they are doing. It seems like this wasn’t the case. Higher dose = higher chance of psychosis if the set/setting is wrong.
Not to say such doses shouldn’t be considered.
I have heard of people really turn around their lives forever from them.
You're right and there is absolutely no justification to take that much for any reason. If you need to take more than 160 mics it's not good acid
Smoked weed for over a year on a daily basis unable to quit even after trying I had failed
Took a 600ug gel tan and was texting my plug thinking I was Finna get popped. I am now and plan to continue choosing sobriety.
@@Cherryexe-mr3mt hate to break it to ya but pretty sure 600ug wouldn’t even fit ona tab unless they mixed the liquid theyself to make it ultra high concentrate. most u can normally fit on ar 300 pretty sure
I still remember that day, it was in july 2 years ago, nowhere near 1000 ug, was just one 300 ug tab. All it took was a friend telling we were literally saying the same thing over and over. A perfectly good trip turned bad in 3 minutes at the most. It haunted me and still does when I try to process and understand what went wrong, I also became suicidal six months after. It was so bad, I felt the need to explain to my crew boss at the time that I couldn't continue working because of my condition. However, what I chose to do took place when I looked at myself in the mirror and said "You have people counting on you to stay alive, you can't do this to them" I did indeed say that to myself out loud inside of the customer's house on their third floor. So I took up meditation, I replaced first person shooter games with puzzles because I couldn't play one without thinking of how people do this in real life where there were actual repercussions. I soon started to drop the bad people in my life too since it was revealed to me we had different perspectives of what life was all about. To this day, the whole reason I am alive is what this video talks about. Love, not for myself, but for those who would like to see me live a life with them. Don't let your ego consume you, you don't need an ego to be independent, and you don't have to be rid of it completely, we just aren't at that level yet, but at least attempt to put positivity forward, and learn life doesn't make sense, and you are nobody to even try and say what it is. Live a happy life, a spiritual one, and when you feel like you can't keep going, just remember chances are someone you know is at the end of that same rope you're tied to and if you jump, you may pull them down with you.
bad pill? lmao
@@meiwnnss0710 sometimes trips go bad
glad to hear u are still with us, and i had a similar thing about the shooter games for a while. they just made me physically ill, especially the more recent and realistic ones like cod ww2, bothered me in particular so much
@Meiwn Nss Nothing is impossible, but no one seemed affected the way I was even after they saw me spiral into a mess
@@illuminating_daydream9712 It also made me physically sick, but it also put me on the edge of panic attacks everytime I tried to play them, and when I wasn't panicking, there was this type of brain fog coupled with excruciating anxiety which gave me really bad paranoia and intrusive thoughts, it was rough and took a lot of discipline and panic attacks to find a way to cope
15:03 I felt the same way after my bad trip. Just listening to him speak about it gave me a feeling of suffocation as I remembered those following months of pain. To anyone who wants to take LSD, remember that drugs are no joke.
LSD makes my brain funny
Drugs are no joke. Drugs can be a tool - but with every tool, the person needs to stay at the top end and use the tool and not get used by it. It's the same with every drug, even coffee, but as you said LSD is far away from being a playing ground for light minded folks.
nobody should want LSD, it is evil
Drug abuse and taking drugs irresponsibly destroy the great potential of such substances... such a shame that irresponsible people put off useful and important research on drugs.
Did u overdose? What u mean by months of pain?
I used to hang out with competitive psychonauts, then one of them who was a really awesome person took 5 hits and committed suicide. It shocked all of us and I became a strong advocate of never taking the stuff outside of a proper controlled setting, which would require a high level of certain costly factors most wouldn't be able to afford unless they had a kind of health insurance to pay for it if it could be used in clinical sessions for therapy. It is a temporary psychotic break from reality and the mindset can get really messy without professional guidance and security.
My condolences, did this happen mid-trip?
@@emin4704 yeah, he was tripping at the bar and wasn't having a good time. Someone told him to go home because he was freaking people out and I think that was what pulled the trigger maybe. I could tell he had some stuff piled up and that was the kick that could have started the avalanche.
@@AlterFunKtion Geez man, I can't imagine what was going through his head at the time. I'll will definitely have tripkillers on hand just in case for my friends and I whilst tripping or when I'm solo too. It's never a bad idea I'm sure, anything can happen when psyches are involved.
I share a close experience with you as my friend did the same thing in the middle of a camping trip. but I have to disagree as to I believe that it isn't a break from reality, it is reality
@@dylansegur1201 it's another layer of reality that we are not usually adapted to, so maybe not a break from but a deeper dive into.
My first trip was 1000ug I will make a video on my experience soon. I am in the process of writing a book about it. Every hour felt like a year and the hallucinations were so distorted that I was practically blind. All of my senses were messed up. Dry things felt wet. A hot shower was chilling to the bone. Everything was squishy. I still have nightmares and doctor-diagnosed PTSD to this day.
Wishing you all the best mate, thank you for sharing
@@Vivec I forgor to mention that all matter is merely energy condensed to a slow vibration and that we are all one consciousness experiencing itself subjectively. There is no such thing as death; life is only a dream. We are the imagination of ourselves.
@@squamousthomas3267 hello Bill Hicks, I have missed you …
All this stuff makes me want to try 1000ug
@@squamousthomas3267 Slanderous and untrue, get trolled epically.
I feel like 1000ug is just absurd. I remember taking a 350ug tab (really good acid) and it was insane, after only 1h the visuals were becoming very intense, everything was forming geometric patterns and shit that I could barely understand what was happening around me. At that point I knew I was fucked. After about 3/4h I started to loose touch with reality, lost track of time, forgot who I was and was so experiencing ego death. Idk I just can’t imagine taking 1000ug without going insane that’s just crazy in my opinion
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I agree, I have a hard time believing that happened
As someone who did a dose over 1000ug accidentally with some tabs that were way stronger than any dealer should be making (I expected 300-350ug which is the most any dealer should be doing at most more realistically 100-200ug these tabs were more than 600ug). 1000ug is entirely unnecessary with acid I feel like even beyond sorta 500ug is entirely unnecessary 300ug is more than enough generally like by the point you reach a 1000 your getting to this point where your not making yourself trip more intensely taking more just for longer like 1000ug+ will have you tripping 24 hours with like a 12+hour peak and like 6 hours of ego death. Like even the online dosing guides for acid stop at 1000ug if that says anything about that dose.
Never did anything other than smoke weed, but the experience of becoming incredibly self conscious, and destroying yourself after realizing how much of a loser you actually are, is incredibly relatable.
Watching videos about psychedelic drugs I actually doubt that some of the joints I smoked were only weed lol
@@LetzteOptionthey bind to many of the same receptors if you didn't know that relationship
Weed is like a caring mom telling you what you are doing wrong but lsd is like looking at yourself at your true self and seeing who you really are. Can be bad can be good
@@LetzteOption that’s because weed is of itself a psychedelic
Self-reflection is the worst thing I have to come to terms with, as everytime I do I spiral into a dangerous bout of mental battles of present me and past me
LSD would most likely help with it(a safe dose of course) but I worry about the possibility of depressive episodes finally getting the better of me.
I had a bad trip to. Thought I died to. Changed me forever to. Caution to everyone who partakes. Will change you forever!
I had a moment on my first mushroom trip where i was lying in bed and lost total connection to my physical body. I felt as i was just a dot of energy on my pillow such a crazy feeling and made me smile, really realized that we are really nothing but energy and had an overwhelming feeling from that trip onwards.
I’ve had a very similar experience with 750ug of LSD paired with around 150ug of psilocybin(roughly). The thing for me was the dissolving of an unconscious egoic divinity complex, and a challenge of understanding the prisons I build for myself for the sake of hiding behind shortcomings I make myself. Nothing holds me back except the ego I cling to. All of that is based in fear.
Do you mean 750ug of LSD?
@@Cowboynudes definitely lol. It’ll be awhile til I take it again.
@@Cowboynudes thanks for catching that
Facts, got same conclusions on 200
all of that is based in fear... gdamn i felt that
I've taken around this dose before it wasn't too bad but my heart was racing so fast that my chest cavity felt completely numb. also I remember spending several hours lying on the ground trying to just stay alive and breathe. eventually it subsided and I had a much nicer experience for the following 15 or so hours. I think the real trouble is that this person went to a party but who am I to say. I get a lot more out of it being alone
Thanks for making these videos. I usually have sleeping problems but I fall asleep to your trip reports amoung others and wake up feeling very refreshed.
That's wonderful, happy to hear it mate!
Thought I was the only one
The beginning of the trip is EXACTLY the same as my bad trip experience. Sheer hopeless terror, felt like I was burning the faces and eyes that usually appeared comical and cartoonish turned into demons that laughed at me and popped out of the walls. Really felt like I had been sent to hell
I had a similar experience with shrooms recently, I’ve not fully changed my life to reflect what I’ve learned but I understand now that I have a capacity to improve myself in a way I thought I had no control of in the past and feel far happier and less anxious than I used to in the time since
Man went through every LSD cliché in the book in 15 minutes.
lol so true - did miss being chased across a playing field by an empty crisp packet
Ah the classic gang raped by prisoners and bitten by pit bulls in hell prison, we’ve all been there amirite
In pt 2 he ends up in the loony bin thinking he's a glass of orange juice.
Love how he says it can cure mental disorders and then says that it gave him BPD
What disturbs me is the amount of people in the comment section who are ignoring that part.
Like any pharmaceutical drug, it could absolutely help cure some mental disorders, but also like any pharmaceutical, it has side effects that can be severe and both of these must be taken into account when creating a medication. It's all about finding the dose that we can reap the most benefit from while minimizing the side effects.
@@maggie6152 Yeah not to mention autism isn't like a lot of disorders, you can help the symptoms but you can't cure the permanent shape of your brain.
As someone who has never taken psychoactive drugs (well... none stronger than caffeine), this has been an interesting listen. Thank you for your insight.
Interesting how a story can be different to different people. As someone who can imagine what its all like, this story is absolutely terrifying.
This is definitely the eeeextreme end of things
don't confuse psychoactive and psychedelic.
it can be a very positive experience, it's all set and setting. listening to crap like this could effect your mindset in a negative way. i don't even know why i clicked on this video to tell you the truth. not that it will effect me anyway, because i already know lsd is one of the safest drugs on the planet and nobody has ever died from taking it. now on an unexpected overdose you might think you're dying, but after about 3 or 4 hours you'll be functional again. i remeber one guy had told me he od'd and was tripping for a week. i had to call him on his bullshhh because i already know better. def a wild ride, but i wouldn't worry too much. you'll be fine.
@@ekay4495 unfortunately this is what most of my trips turn out to be like even in smaller doses
Man, I relate so much to this. Between trips with Lucille and Demitri I have experienced a lot of what you mentioned. Good job putting it in to words. Once the door has been opened it can never be shut. I am grateful for the perspective I have received, but throughout the day it can feel like a burden.
Where can I get some
@@amen7099 LSD and mushrooms have always been pretty widely available around me. It took me literal years to track down DMT. I always thought the folks who said “it will find you when you are ready” were a bit gatekeeper-ish, but there may be some
level of truth to it. DMT had a profound effect on my psyche and I tried it while at a very stable point in my life. Had I done it when my life was still a mess, I can imagine it would have fukt me up.
I hear good things about ordering online. I’ve never tried it personally. If you’re not tech savvy enough for that then I think you just have to ask. There’s more people who partake in psychedelics than most folks would think. Maybe try some concerts or festivals. I’ve dealt with the same guy for over a decade. He is trustworthy and reliable, but if you do buy from a random, I would definitely encourage you to get a test kit.
And if you still have no luck there are lots of resources online for growing your own mushies and for DMT extraction. They both are fairly simple processes, unlike lab made LSD.
You were able to describe what I've been feeling ever since I had my worst bad trip. 2400. I took 8 double drop blotters and my mind hasn't ever been the same since
>"I think LSD can cure mental disorders, I'm not as autistic anymore"
>"I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder"
Don't do 1000 kids
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I have no interest in ever doing any psychedelics but the descriptions from people who have is endlessly fascinating to me. thank you truly going where I will not and further being will to describe it in such detail.
Trust me this is the bare minimum of detail youll get you experience so much more you cant explain when you take it (not encouraging use just letting u know)
@@carson27907 life changing
We will all go there... it's basically facing your death prematurely. Realising that all things are temporary, experiencing it, changes your view on the world and the things you place importance on. We all experience this when we die.
I've reached these phases thru meditation as well and it's wild when you realize that you're unable to explain it away with drugs. I've tripped too but wouldn't take this amount tbh, you have to be ready to face demons if you're going to go into it without having made peace already. And doing that much is like forcing something that should flow, it'll traumatize you unless it happens when you've already dived into your issues without leaning on vices for escape. It's interesting how we've been presented with a seed of yearning to know, only to be led to the unknowable.
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how through meditation?
@@ezsurfing1169 Reach out to the name above 👆👆 he sells psychedelics discreetly
@@ezsurfing1169 a very long time of watching mooji and alan watts and eckhart tolle and ram dass and thich nhat ahn as well as educating myself about different cultures beliefs and following what felt right to me lol. To be fair i was not expecting to be suddenly opened up, but basically after about a decade of deeper meditation, clearing the mind, practicing presence etc it was a sudden epiphany after having had glimpses every so often through the years. It could also just be my perception of the "truth" though. It's a longer route. But probably safer than a bad trip or addiction lol. Another way is by having devotion through service or self care. Look into Buddhism and the bhagavad gita as there are spiritual lessons in both regardless of your faith. Practice yoga nidra to deal with trauma. Hope you find what you're looking for!! Good luck!! I think everyone should just follow what feels right to them, there are many ways to get up the mountain, as they say
@@littlewillowlinda this is one of those rare comments you hope to find. Be blessed
I've had two trips, the first was an amazing rollercoaster that brought me to the very limits of what I could feel in terms of emotion. I took a very large dose and while I was peaking, I felt like I understood the universe and my place in it. I've looked into other peoples experiences and thought about my own trip ever since. The thing that comes up often is the nonexistence of time, there is only this moment the future is nothing and the past doesn't exist anymore and never will. For me what I have learned from my trips is enough.
for me it was kinda the same but the opposite. during my trip i kinda understood how time and space and work. time isn’t real i guess, i think time is a physical thing that maybe eventually we can manipulate it. the past happened when the earth was in a specific location. for example, if we were to go 1000 light years away from earth, we would see the earth 1000 years in the past. my point here is that i think we could get the past back and can go into the future if we can figure how to space jump to where the earth will be x amount of years in the future and past.
This is the Infinity of existing vs the Infinity of not exists. You are either in sync and apart of the living or you are shown not by the living to do that so you can exist. Our emotions guide us in a Direction to either be In sync. I believe this is the highest form of existence and compression. Think of it in dimensions. A 10th dimension being would be forever absorbs any form of consciousness through an either yes or no experience but in feelings. This also then falls into the thought of everything we have ever known has been taught to us and peaking into the sheer scale of time we lose it. We need to
Become apart of the Infinty again and that’s what death is
Basically do good and you will be accepted through and do bad and you will be forced to feel that. The nothing rejecting you and the good rejecting you. Limbo. When we die we are forced though that key hole. That’s why bad trips or heavy heavy doesss usually fry people. Being stuck in limbo of experiences time and everything vs the opposite of void and nothing. This in itself creates a loop of infinity which in itself is a creature. It’s almost like
Time being used as torture. Then being forced to return Back to this dimension
Ego is the constant push against nothing and good is the push to life and being apart of being. They are both needed to complete the loop but you guide which side of the frequency you feel. And we want to choose life cause we are apart of that
Also I assume when we have bad trip or do drugs wrong it’s because it’s the being toying with your life. When it comes down to it most humans will know when they trip will trip good or bad. And this being will toy with your trip depending on the dose because once you start tripping bad you know you’re not usually supposed to be there. It’s going against the alive frequencies. Our emotions are our guides
I've done almost 100 hits of acid in my 20s, and you're correct! I came out much better but the biggest dose I've taken was about 12 hits at once straight from a vial. The worst trip I've had and I've only had 2 bad trips. Glad you're ok though!
I took 20
i can take heroic doses of lsd & be fine mentally, but shrooms & dmt fucks me up.
Wdym hits? Ive only used tabs so i got no idea what youre talking about
@@carson27907 1 tab = 1 hit (usually) I've done tabs, sugar cubes, paper hits and vial drops. tabs were my favorite. so, 1 cube, tab, drop from a vial, square of paper = 1 hit. hope that clarifies it for you ^_^
do you feel the high doses you took gave you any long term side effects? i recently did 500ug of acid and i feel i lost my mind, i dont feel any emotions and its been only 2 days as of now. does this feeling stay the same or it goes away?
I took 4 tabs of “the strongest acid I’ve ever had, take it all at once” according to my old high school connect, back in 2014.
The trip convinced me that I had fried my brain and been living, completely disabled in a wheelchair to the age of 70-80 (I was 17 at the time) becoming disabled via freak accident and living is literally my worst fear.
It showed me everything I was afraid of, then that, then “God” in probably the first 2-3 hours. I consciously observed my state of being as my basic understanding of the world, time, and myself, disintegrated in front of me.
Mind blowing visions of pure psychedelia in bursts, then (my mind blocked them out but I remember the horror and my friend shaking me out of screaming in his room multiple times) visions of pure terror, created by the gods, themselves.
Most of it was hell.
The next morning after not sleeping, I smoked a bowl with my friend from the night before. We were in our college campuses parking lot. After we finished the bowl and he left the car to go to class, my high turned back into an alarming state of fucked up consciousness.
“Everything felt like a Japanese video game” is the best way I could describe it. I thought I broke my brain. I think I was saying things like that throughout the trip.
I remember saying (a few hours in) “i literally derped myself” *lol* and weird shit like that. I don’t even think some of it was English, but it was how I was trying to express what was happening to me.
The whole trip lasted about 24 hours end to end before I finally passed from exhaustion. I was terrified to go to sleep.
Most of the good parts, my mind hid from me, till 3 months later, on a tab of NBOME 25I, first trip since the experience; everything, the whole experience downloaded into my consciousness in a flash. Split second. I remembered the entire thing. It’s old memories now, but it was a hell of an experience.
I should write an actual report.
I assume the dose was 800ug. Double dosed tabs.
I’ve had a few DMT experiences and can confirm that high dose LSD is something you cannot control or think through, direct much, if at all, because you lose the faculties and basic comprehension required, to do so.
DMT was easy compared to that.
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I think it’s really irresponsible to do this at 17 where your brain isn’t fully developed.
Good it went well
@@flippingfruitsforeuros3453 I agree but when was being a kid about being responsible? I’m 25 and I’ve learned a lot from all my life experiences. I do agree though. Hell of a trip
In that situation, actually in every life situation, you should accept the conditions your reality. It gets much better after that. On my last LSD trip I found myself meditating near a fire place almost burning. I could see beyond time and was also hearing a lot of voices in which I felt what I've done wrong in my life. Most of my trips were bad trips. And I am pretty grateful for that 'cause could look beyond the curtain of illusions that made me blind in my life.
Yeah you have to know how to be the unattached observer, which is what meditation teaches
Bro sounds like you just need a job. You really needed a drug to call you a loser lol
That’s one thing I learned on my first trip. A bad trip is only a bad trip if you don’t accept it for what it is. Once you accept what your subconscious is trying to tell you, you can even enjoy your trip
@@blackberry_seed8390 that's a nice bullshit answer to tell yourself and others.
@@Swoozy585 Ronnie mcnutt yourself
You can't have expectations when you take any dose. That screwed him. You can't expect anything, you'll just be fighting to keep an anchor the whole time. Literally expect nothing ever tripping.
My worst trip was very similar to this. Had 2 friends trying to calm me down but I felt like I was going insane and dying. It was so terrifying. I had had a few good trips and a few bad trips....but when you have the ONE bad trip, you know it. I was sure I was gonna die...or be in that trip forever.
I feel you.
I did ~3g of shrooms in my first time and had one of the worst experiences in my life. Never again.
@@Gustavo-wu3of A bad trip is that you enter your unconsciousness, and come into contact with an unresolved trauma. Normally a person does everything they can to avoid an unresolved trauma. Sometimes people go into therapy for years and never get around to that trauma. Now you know why. But you can also move towards it. Maybe with some professional help. You will see that your addictions dissolve and that you become happier and that you no longer have to postpone or avoid anything. I wish you the best.
So it’s normal to expect u might get fucked in ur ass by white supremacists and black dudes? Cuz I gotta be honest I was on the fence about trying lsd, but now…u can kiss that shit goodbye I’ll jus wait for the after life to discover the secrets of the universe
I had the same experience but with CBD oil..Yes you read correctly ,CBD oil,what a shame to admit that..I once drank 10ml of 20%CBD oil&after 3hours I had the worst experience of my life..To this day I cannot fathom how stupid CBD resulted in that way while weed didn't.
Wow that was my 1st trip
God this trip report is just wild and gives me goosebumps. I’ve been sober for five years now but I’ve definitely had my fair share LSD trips. The most I ever took was 3 geltabs. I just could not even imagine getting to this level it sounds horrifying. The time I took 3 gel tabs was some extremely intense visuals and hallucinations I could still tell we’re not real. This story on the other hand sounds like a realm I would never want to be in
I discovered about my autism on my own, before trying psychedelics. I do know that in certain situations, people might think of me as mentally retarded or something, but I never felt bad about it, as you described. On the contrary, I think that my autism is an extraordinary gift, that I wouldn't give away for anything else. It makes me special, it enables my deep interests in science, math and philosophy (beyond what is possible for a neurotypical person, maybe to the point of obsession, but in my view this is good too). Yes, it does create me problems like poor social interactions, can't understand why people act as they do sometimes, procrastinate beyond rational limits and miss deadlines (that's the worst), disregard social norms and hierarchy thus causing me troubles with supervisors and managers, and so on... And yet, I would much prefer to be who I am, than be 'normal'. And then, I do take lsd. Never taken anything like 1000 ug, 300 ug max. I think that if anything, it amplifies my autism and brings me closer to my childhood years, which is great. In this state, the brain is more plastic and more sensitive to new experiences and information. The days become full with experiences and the time slows down. Effectively, I experience more life in the same amount of time. I definitely wouldn't like lsd to remove my autism and for now it doesn't. I've always felt like there's something unusual and special about me, even before anyone else noticed, when I was 3-4 years old. Or I might simply be obsessed with this notion that I'm special, but I like that about myself too. Actually, if you're constantly convinced that you're special, that acts like a self-fulfilling prophecy and and makes you special, both for yourself and for the others, and makes you act differently. My heroes in history are people like Georg Cantor, Archimedes, Newton, Einstein, Kurt Godel, and none of them has been a 'normal person', not only because of their intellectual achievements, but also in their everyday lives and as perceived by others. I don't want to be normal, I'd much rather be myself, than anyone else ever.
Excellently put my good man, personally (I don't know if you even care) I have the opposite experience of you, I'm entirely neurotypical except for my ADHD and social interaction for me is a breeze. It is very easy for me to understand people, so I find it interesting that you have trouble with it, as it is something I've never experienced. I respect your drive though, even if it is just how you are that is something that will take you beyond what neurotypical people can usually accomplish, which I'm sure you've observed.
Anyways, great comment and I found it very interesting, thanks for this!
I feel you and I are one of the same soul.
Badass. Very badass.
Thats beautiful
@Big Trav 👍
Broke down crying when you said "after death" experience, thanks for sharing its nice to know there's others out there that have been that far into the land of nineteen.
How do you cope with this?
What's the land of nineteen ?
It’s just your brains idea of after death we will never know what that experience actually is so don’t follow the illusion of it, your life is real.
@Timothy Burns ? Your “death” before life is just non-existence just like your life after death is non-existence. N
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Dude the TH-cam algorithm is actually an unstoppable force. As soon as I talk about something , it pops right into my sub box 🙇🏾
true, its insane sometimes. The walls have ears. xD
Lol when I’m tripping the same awesome shit shows up for me in the right time frame on yt. Free will is totally an illusion and I’m here enjoying every moment forever. I’ve been sober 100% now for 26 months and it’s a high in itself.
There used to be a time in my life when I took a tab of LSD once every few days. Basically you wouldn’t normally see me sober when I went out. I was always tripping and it kind of became normal to me. Then of course I started taking higher doses. I never really got addicted cause it was very easy to quit but I only quit after a very high dose I took. The same way you described it I started feeling as if I never took any drug and it was just how it always was. The place where I was thrown in to by the drug I later called “the dimension of squares” and it would be hard to describe it but I feel you’d understand. After that I only tried taking acid twice and each a year after but I could never get out of the bad trip after that. I was 15 at the time.
The funniest thing about this is I think I wasn’t scared at all while it was happening. I didn’t even exist at that point. All reality was a quick spiral of dying and being reborn over and over again. There was nothing else. Only some empty rooms and squares… and sirens for whatever reason. Anyway, I only got scared after I was on the come down but it also took some time for me to realise how fucked it was.
It’s like being on Mars, I know that place bro! 🤯
Gotta start over with microdoses lol. Honestly you should probably have at least twice as many microdoses under your belt as you do full doses, Ive discovered as long as I do that life is good lol
Where do u find it? Asking for research purposes
I've taken 20 hits of some quality L back in the day with a friend. Changed my life forever. We ate soaking wet sour patch watermelon candy's that I was dosing from my vial. Onset was about 15-20min. Ate them until things got "confusing". I remember walking through a fractal rainforest as an orb of light with invisible footsteps that shot beams of lasers in all directions. Low points: finding out what it means to be a puddle. Weird low: Finding out what it's like to be the sun tattoo on some chicks back at a hippy festival 😂😂. Things got weird.
Someone going through LSD
Lmao! That last thing totally reminds me of some thoughts I'd have. Honestly, I hate those sorts of thoughts, feels like my OCD brain can't handle it
Crazy story, I've never experimented with psychedelics. I have always wanted to try to further elevate my self awareness, to overcome personal obstacles and some trauma. This story mixed with the Silent Hill music has me second guessing about the situation. 😅
Just don’t take 1000ug like this idiot and you’ll be fine, stick with mushrooms too, I wouldn’t do lsd as a beginner
I highly recommend it, but obviously don’t do this much
It’s only like that if you take way too much but it can be really fun and empowering
@@nathandelman5980 yeah my man's got the right idea here, just gotta be sensible about it really
It sounds like you are interested in them for all the right reasons. There is risk though, irrespective of your previous experience, rigorous meditation practice or your perfectly manicured set and setting, sometimes you roll the dice and you lose. Only thing to do in those situations is just to sit and sweat it out. The one part of the experience that cannot be properly conveyed is the emotional component, you are going to feel ALL of the emotions off and on for about 8 hours. It's a marathon, plan accordingly. Ultimately, there is beauty to be found in the experience and that's what all the fuss is about.
This trip sounded extremely traumatic. I’m glad that you were able to grow in a positive way from it.
This isn't my report bro, I was just reading someone else's story out. I hope the author is doing well, I'm sure he is.
@@Vivec oh I see. Thanks for clearing that up
@@Vivec no he is fucked for life probably so bad he dosent even realize
He may think its over but it isn't
I don't think if your ego dies completely you would just love everything, I think you would just feel completely neutral. You can only feel an emotion of any kind in relation to yourself, particularly towards beings or things. Love and Hate are not opposite emotions but rather very closely related. They're both obsessive in nature, and the only difference being if you want to protect or destroy. You can't want to protect and love something unless you have attachment to it, which you can only have in relation to yourself and your ego.
The opposite of love is fear not hate
@@Psydefex absolutely. Fear is the strongest form of repulsion, and just below fear is disgust. It leads to a desire to separate from and avoid something/someone entirely. Love and Hate are both emotions of obsession, meaning still wishing to engage with the object of said affection, the only difference being the desire to help or harm.
Have wanted to wake a 1,000ug dose for a while for this exact reason, I've always wanted to know what's beyond life and if you're ready it let the acid guide you through it, you're bound for one hell of a ride that only a few humans ever have gotten to experience.
Do not ever take this amount, it's completely reckless and a waste of acid. You'd be a fool to purposely dabble in doses this high.
lol you’re not special bro. Be grateful for the experiences and awakening you can gain from lower, more safe, dosages. Not worth risking getting trauma just so u can claim to have done something “only a few humans ever experience” how cool
Bruh, my soul fell through the bed while I was crunched up into a ball on the bed moaning and groaning because all my muscles are being over flexed while my brain juices are being hammered by the acid lol
@@dashawnrobinson1802 ouch bro what made you want to take that much
Not beyond life, beyond our definition of consciousness.
I was severely depressed at 20. Ready to throw myself away. I took one tab of some government grade 1000ucg. My ego fell off, I attained the 3rd Jana of enlightenment, and perceived every timeline of reality I could move myself into. Five years later, I’ve got my own business, my first child, and I’ve wrestled myself into an astute and professional human being. Be safe out there.
What is this “3rd Jana of elightenment”
@@tylerryan9457 there is a part of your brain called the default mode network. This portion of your brain controls your Ego, or your sense of self-identity. It regulates things that you like/dislike.
Intense meditation or psychedelic use can “disable” the default mode network.
In many Buddhist or Hindu literatures, the concept of the “Jana” (translation: “Gate”) define varying levels of enlightenment. There are 8 different plateaus of enlightenment, the fourth being recognized as “A state of non-return”. The first Jana can be attained by a beginner mendicant in only an hour of trying.
“Great is the man who defeats 1000 of his enemies. Greater still is the man who defeats himself.”
-Siddhartha Gautama, the Heavenly Buddha
@@tylerryan9457 en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dhyana_in_Buddhism
even listening to this i’m just getting that sense of looping time again, i’ve never had a bad trip but even the good ones still have to be respected
Ou for sharing one of the darkest moments people wouldn't normally share. Each of us that had heroic doses have had similar feeling but from different experiences. At least I had, felt horrible and it was hard to fully accept even after a few months but eventually I understood I was weak and that trip broke me so I can rebuild myself from scratch now after many years I'm grateful I'm and proud of who I've become. I hope you feel the same
Loving all the trip stories in the comments. The way you mentioned, "You don't know anything different. It just feels like that's the way its always been" I kept saying when I was on 2.5 tabs "I don't even feel any different" and then I would feel super overwhelmed, then be like "I feel completely normal" and kept repeating the cycle "going in and out"
Took 14 grams of mushrooms when I was younger. One of the most beautiful, and disconnected experiences I have ever had. I was burning up so much, I stripped down to my boxers and laid belly down on a tile table outside. I kept moaning because I couldn't speak, my buddies thought my brain was turning to mush, but I was just trying to explain how awesome it felt. My sense of touch and spacial recognition have never felt that way, and will never feel that way again.
woah
Holy fuck man 14 grams?! That's a fat dose... You sir are a psychedelic champion
When I took 12 g i stripped naked, built a gigantic Bonfire on a natural gas pipe line, casted a circle, and sacrificed my own blood to Chronos by cutting myself with my ritual athame. (Had been doing psychedelic magick.)
Shrooms Can get crazy. I lived next to a cow pasture, instead of using them like drugs, I added them to my diet. Place them on my altar And was using it as sacrament For full moon rituals.
And I did have All good trips But I would be having fun while also self harmingTo offer blood to entities or sitting 2ft away from a Bonfire... on a frigging pipeline
@@powderedbuns8251 he’s a true psyconaut captain. much respect and love to y’all!
I know that feelings of sensation being taken to a whole new level, on 5g of natal I felt like I was melting and couldn't feel where my body was
had an experience like this in a downtown city, ended up loosing my mind within an infinite maze of skyscrapers, people, and cars. Like the backstage of a movie that starred me. Ended in a lot of mental problems, depression, anxiety, alcoholism, and self loathing. I can't smoke too much weed now cause it makes me trip. But on the other side of it all, I have tried to better myself everyday and for the first 2 years I wasn't myself completely, but now part of me is this self. But I've gotten better with controlling it, and excepting reality as how it is. It's just a lot to take in at once like this, and its always great to relate to other people who have gone through like minded experiences. Just don't do Apple Cider In December. Stuff can mess you up. But you get to open your third eye at the same time. Its just how to live with it. Time heals everything, don't act in the past, live in the present, and you can shape your future. Fuckin' cheers c*nt, good stuff init mate
Sounds like you needed it man, theres no such thing as a bad trip, all life is a experience for us to learn. You just had a lifetime of experience in a night
What you experienced in that hell is something people are going through regularly, stay humble
Blissful ignorance is a sin
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One time when I was 17, I was at my grandmas house and I decided I was gonna trip like I’d never tripped before. I haven’t done psychs since then and before this event I was pretty inexperienced, having done both mushrooms and acid 2 times previous. Anyway long story short I took like 4 grams and smoked a 2 gram joint and lost my shit. I took half my dose, waited for it to kick in, smoked then took the second half. While I was smoking I felt awesome I was sitting out on my grandmas roof looking out over all the flowers in her back yard. The colors were sick. Then I went back inside and tried to lay down in bed and that’s when it hit me. I remember suddenly I was in a Soviet mural with little worker guys going off in every direction for infinity. Then there was an army of giant robot dogs but drawn in the style of old Mickey Mouse cartoons coming out of the walls. I stumbled to the bathroom getting overwhelmed fast and thought ti myself “this isn’t fun anymore”. That was it. From then on the trip went south super fast. The room I was in had pinkish red wallpaper with like a flowery vine pattern on it I thought would be cool. It wasn’t. The red overpowered the flowers and I thought i was in hell. I had the humming intro to Shotz to tha double glock by bone thugs playing on loop in my head and I was in the album cover of 2 lo key’s on that devilshit going in and out of consciousness. I totally lost track of time. Eventually I came back enough to google how to stop a bad trip and I ended up somehow watching funny cat videos trying to calm down and every cat had a different vibe and would make my trip improve or get worse again. Haven’t done psychs since but I want to try again in a better environment with friends
I had a similar experience with gel tabs and acid it was fun until it wasn’t. I was peaking in my room and trying to listen to some good music but the music kept getting distorted and I tried watching funny videos but they weren’t funny they were giving me so much anxiety. Everything kept looping and I was questioning who I was. I stayed awake for almost 55 hours following that. I was going back and forth in my room all night every hour just walking back and forth eventually when morning came I jumped in the shower tried walking to my brothers, outside all the trees appeared to be evil puppets and when I got to the overpass I couldn’t go, it was as if I knew I would jump off to end the trip, I walked back home he picked me up and I finished tripping at his place. I haven’t had acid since it’s been roughly 4 years
The truth in this is that the turning point always happens when you tell youreself its not fun anymore. Its weird how it works like that. And you cant really warn people about this fact because it will just make them more inclined to think it.
lol i’m terrified of psychedelics but you mentioning memphis references in your trip eased my fear a bit
when i trip the whole human experience seems so minimalistic.
hey man honestly I'm rather happy that you found a way to recover from and grow from this trip experience. You're a strong man
its stories like this that make this platform so great. good story mate, glad you made it through okay and appreciate you being able to articulate and share this experience with all of us.
I’ve lived in fear for many years for the fear of experiencing the eternal pain and pleasure, that repetitiveness that had happened during my trip made me think that there is an entity currently suffering what we all where feeling during our peaks.
A friend ate a full sheet and ended up in a psych ward for 2 weeks. He played Paper Boy for 3 days straight. He is now and forever known simply as Paper Boy.
@@jeffdaman5779 Isn't it better to find crystals at such a point or liquid lsd instead? You would feel that much paper in your stomach I can imagine xD
Lmao
@@jeffdaman5779 it's a video game
Man...after my first true bad trip out of dozens a few days ago I can slightly resonate with this. I’m no stranger to acid, and not even the tabs I took a couple of days ago. We had these golden gel tabs, never seen or taken anything like them before. About a month back I went to a huge camp-out festival in the plains of Texas and was able to take two tabs plus a little bit of shrooms and was completely fine. The trip was amazing and I tripped for 16 hours. It was my first time doing lucy in 3 years and it reinvigorated my love for it. After that I would trip on and off every week until last week.
Long story short, I went into another experience after a 3 week long break with a buddy who never tried these gels before and we both did one. After an hour it hit us like a truck and my body heated to an uncomfortable degree and I started having anxiety off the bat. My friend was having such a good time he ended up taking 3 over the span of the night, but that one tab had me on my ass thinking I was gonna die. I thought “how tf did I handle two of these plus shrooms in the middle of Texas??” And “when was this going to end?”. The entire trip consisted of me checking the time and watching everything shift and wave around me. It was the most intense trip I ever had. My friends comforted me, and kept me from panicking. We had a safety net (xannies) but I refused to take it and instead opted to ride it out. Kinda happy I did too, my friend told me his bad trip story about how he experienced ego death and “went thru the worst” and it comforted me. After that I closed my eyes, to which a voice echoed out “are you ready to make peace with everything?” And I envisioned everyone’s life essence in this earth/dimension forming into a huge ball that turned into a sperm cell, racing against other sperm cells made from other dimensions all racing to fertilize the egg of a new reality. Then, I had an out of body experience and opened my eyes cuz shit was getting far too profound. It came in waves as well, and ended up lasting around 8-10 hours. After that, the entire next day I felt physically uncomfortable but strangely more at peace with everything around me. I don’t even really consider it a bad experience, I wasn’t traumatized at all. It wasn’t nightmarish or anything and didn’t mess with my psyche at all, instead kinda made me more appreciative of everything I have. It also showed me that mayyybe I’ve overstayed my welcome in lucyland and I should take a big break for a bit. I always found it funny that unlike other drugs, acid will literally make you feel like you don’t want to do it or any other drug ever again. Does it always go that way? Nah. But it’s still funny that it’d make you think that way. Buuuut yeah, that’s my personal trip report.
I resonate with that ending there. I went thru a period of relatively frequent LSD use in 2019 starting with a terrifying trip that showed me for the first time the dark side of acid. That's a long story itself, but after I returned from the peak and touched back down to reality (a little), it was easily the best trip I've had - insanely beautiful, I felt connected to my friends in a sort of way like we'd all been thru some real shit together. The visuals were insane. But that peak haunted me for a while. I definitely some level of PTSD, but I had this idea in my head that I could somehow trip that hard again but have a good experience and thus the best acid trip ever. So I kinda chased that idea, I never took super high doses (no more than 3) but I tripped maybe once a months for a few months. I finally learned my lesson when I started out a trip with weird vibes, like the whole thing felt forced instead of natural if that makes sense. That went up and down for a while until 4 or 5 hours in, we took some dabs. I decided to do 2 dabs while my friends did just one each. This ended up with me on my back, thinking over and over these self conscious thoughts about why I push myself this hard, why do I have to go so hard to get fucked up, why do I use drugs like this, why am I so obsessed with drugs and psychedelics? I eventually realized that I didn't like the path I was on in life but I didn't want to think what I was about to think, I kept avoiding it like an elephant in the room until I finally just thought it: "I hate myself". As soon as I thought that, I felt a tingly pins-and-needles static-y sorta sensation creep down my body starting at the top of my head all the way down to my feet over the course of like 15-20 seconds during which time I was trying to take it back and say I didn't hate myself. But the damage was done and I destroyed that version of myself. I didn't know what to do and for the rest of the night I felt awkward, like I wasn't myself, I couldn't focus or be coordinated, I literally didn't know how I was supposed to act or say. I had no clue how to be me. It must've been awkward for my friends. The next day I felt more like myself but still kinda off and I spent the rest of the weekend pulling myself together. That set me on a new path of trying to be true to myself as much as possible, something I still am working on because of other traumas/mental health issues, but I'm a better person than I've ever been before. BUT the big thing for me after that trip was that I needed a long LONG break from acid to re-evaluate why I use it, how I use it, my relationship with the drug, etc. I took it once more 7-8 months later in June 2020 during the COVID lock down but haven't touched it since. I still feel that my journey with this substance is not over and that there's still more to be learned and enjoyed from LSD, but it's something that cannot be taken for granted. When the time feels right, I'll come back to it, but not yet.
@@MadMaxBS touché, absolutely agree with the final note. I also felt like the last (bad) trip I had was forced and not natural. I wholly understood what you meant. I was in a bad spot, not right with myself and in pain but I went in anyways. Good Set and setting is a true rule one should always follow before even considering going into an experience. It has the potential to do great things-but also bring you down to the worst of yourself. I never think of acid as a very spiritual experience in the religious sort of manner, it’s just a drug like any other, but more of a journey into the self. Self-spiritual? Idk what you’d call it, but that’s how I view it. I’ve certainly had bouts of not feeling much like myself but I never exceeded 500ug before. There’s something mystical about doing it out of your element. I never had such a great time losing myself and giving luce complete control than when I was out there in the middle of buttfuck nowhere Texas. I’ve also been sorting myself out much more since my bad trip a month ago. Take time and stay sober to learn more about your true self, then when ready journey back into lucyland. Lucy isn’t your bitch, you are its bitch when on it.
Hey buddy where can I get some goods
I bought 4 tabs, and I dropped 2. Didn't know the 2 would have equaled 600ug or 700ug. It was honestly terrifying and beautiful. I went into this wormhole it wasn't a dmt wormhole. It was like I was getting blasted with memories. I could see the past, present, and what I think is the future all in like a second.
Reach out to the name above 👆👆 he sells psychedelics discreetly. He have shrooms,mushroom, Dmt,LSD, Lad,weed and more
i did 1000 ug back in the 80s. it was provided to me by a pharmacy student who had his own lab and was known to provide high quality lsd. it was my first time, and it was nothing like this. it was definitely strange and had its moments of mild unpleasantness - but no open eye hallucinations. no near, or post death bs... no flashbacks, no suicidal thoughts.
Then it weren’t acid my dude
It’s interesting that you mentioned that you had a mild form of autism, but was cured of it. I also have high functioning autism, but LSD never cured my autism, not even the many heroic doses that I’ve done. Instead, I’ve learned to accept myself, that my autism isn’t always a curse, but rather, a different worldview than the narrow, singular, neurotypical view. I’ve even come to understand myself on a deep level and as a result, love myself again. I hadn’t felt that self-love since I was in elementary school. Before LSD, I was suicidal, emotionally stunted and closed off, and so full of hate. Afterwards, I’ve become more loving, emotionally intelligent, and more open minded. I wasn’t that closed minded before, but I’m much more open minded now. I also understand both the cons AND the pros this world has to offer. I’m thankful I’ve never experienced ego death, but I surmise it might be because I haven’t had much of one in the first place. Or perhaps, I did experience ego death, but not in the way most people do, because my ego was so deleterious and negative that when it died, it was only a positive experience. I’m gonna cut this off before I get too long winded, so I’ll leave off this comment with a sentiment of gratitude for sharing your story.
Yea the autism cured thing doesn’t seem right to me it starts in the womb. I’m sure people are just finding new mindsets to cope or something.
Your words resonate with me, because there are aspects to being on the autism spectrum that imho should be considered gifts...why would you want to "cure" that?? But, like for anybody, gaining insights that help you understand yourself and your relation to the world can help the gift part stand out, and the not-so-gifty part diminish or at least be more manageable.
Glad you're with us mate. Welcome to the family hahaha
I am Autistic also but everybody has an ego mate. Mine is also notoriously difficult to kill. I'm not entirely sure I've experienced it. I have had some incredibly intense, high dose experiences on a myriad of different psychedelics including DMT, Salvia, LSD, Mushrooms and ketamine/nos. The Psychedelics mixed with the dissociatives I'm pretty sure is what has most often caused ego death but I'm sure my perception of what my ego is is different to other people due to my Autism.
I am the only one out of my close friends that hast had a psychotic break due to psychedelics and they were all from average doses in bad settings.
I have aspergers and your story sounds quite similar to mine wish you the best mate you described it beautifuly
I’ve had a trip like this on a way smaller dose than this, had PTSD for about six months. But it taught me so much about myself and my insecurities and helped me grow in so many profound ways. While going through the trip and the six months after that, it was a very dark time, it completely broke me and I had to rebuild myself but I’m glad I went through that cuz I know I am capable of overcoming major sufferings and set backs and it has enabled me to also help other people. It also got me closer to God after observing the unity in everything and then learning about the concept of Tawheed in Islam.
my first LSD trip was 1200 and i heard the damn water flowing through the pipes in the walls and outside, while it was winter, the ice makes crackling sounds and i could hear it all crystal clear, so amazing. i also looked at a book that explained drugs which had very fancy colors for 5 hours straight
After like 7 hits of weed I can feel every force acting on me and tangibly separate them from one another. I can hear the air brushing on each fan blade as it spins and I can hear the fine details of the white noise from my noise cancelling headphones and it’s so cool ;-;
Edit: spelling
Nah man you were just druggged af
1200ug? On the first trip?
@@currently0nline i didnt even knew what the guy that gave it to me meant with that so i just took it since i wanted to try everything eventually and im pretty resilient, i also smoked like 1 or 2g to enhance the trip, was great but you always need to see for yourself if you can take this much, another one that took also LSD was going straight to the hospital, so always be careful with drugs!
edit: forgot to mention that i was also drunk af, 2 or 3 vodka bottles in at that point
@@trythis2006 bro 2 or 3 BOTTLES of vodka? Bro what??
Man bad trips are so scary. I remember one time I was tripping hard and the only thing keeping me sane was listening to music every time I would stop the music I would feel that fear in my brain I understood that there was nothing to be scared about but that it just never went away. I was with my girlfriend at the time and I was stuck in a loop I kept saying the same thing over over and I was aware of it, that’s when I had that feeling of “I’m losing myself”. I’ve been sober for about 6 months I was a daily weed smoker for 8 years after the trips the need or craving to smoke stopped completely and I gave myself to god.
Yahweh God? Im curious cause im Christian and many psychonauts don't appreciate Christianity, but I feel once you understand it, this lesson you learn on it certainly applies to Jesus message
I don’t understand why people think it’s cool to abuse substances, especially acid. If you’ve taken it before, you should know or at least realize the limits on how much you can/should take. I knew after tabbing out the first time, that 1, 1 and a half, or on a really good day maybe 2 would be my limit. Anymore than that, I knew for a fact would send me to the shadow realm. I think the hardest part people have when tripping balls in a bad way is acceptance, the regret, and wishfullness to stop what’s going on. Especially when your life is not going too well, acid will shove that in your face and make you deal with it. When you’re on acid everything you think in your head becomes a visual in front of you. People forget that the brain can process things so quickly especially when it’s panicking. Acid can be the best and the worst at the same time, as long as you’re able to realize why the trip is doing whatever it is doing, the second you’ll accept it things will become a bit more tame. Then again I am mostly speaking from my experience.
beautiful comment homie
I need more explanation on what went through his mind to take this much. I mean his friends only did 1-2, why’d he do 7+?
@@ChilleDINJerseY he said he had a history of taking heroic doses so he likely assumed hed be fine on any amount
Strongest trip I've ever taken was 2 gel tabs, supposedly 450ug each. Interestingly enough my mental state didn't seem much different from lighter doses I had taken, but the visuals were insane. My entire field of view was twisting and blending like I'd never seen before, to the extent that I couldn't make out anything about 10 feet infront of me. Spent most of the beginning of the trip going back and forth between funny youtube videos and confronting god. During the second half, my brother and his friends (who were all on the same dosage) swooped by and we walked to one of the friend's houses. For some reason I dont remember, i chose not to grab shoes even though it was winter (winters are mild here but definitely still cold) so I walked barefoot all the way there. He had a foot massager when we got there though so I still count it as a W. got my soul sucked out toes first
bro no way you had some 450ug each tabs..
Those are the best trips sometimes, solid mental state but absolutely insane visuals
that no shoes shit is real im telling you every time i trip i wake up with dirty ass feet lmfaoo
99%+ of the time people greatly exaggerate their doses. Dealers have an incentive to lie--or give you a cheap(er) research chemical passed off as LSD. As someone with decades of experience with acid, I would estimate your total dose to have been in the range of 200-350ug max. Only once have I taken 400ug; and I was so far gone that I was unable to move from the fetal position and couldn't comprehend anything that was happening. It was basically a waste because I would have had a much better experience taking less. I recommend that most people stick to 50-250ug, depending on their experience and their goals for the trip. Stay safe and have fun! EDIT: P.S. on average, most gels are 75-150ug and most blotter is about 40-80ug.
I would like some
That's a hero dose. This was extremely interesting. You described your experience very well.
I lived 100's of lifes on a really high dose it really messed with me and i had some PTSD like symptoms for about 6-8 months because i forgot who i was, but from there i learned from it and it changed everything to the positive my self esteem went up and i became mentally stronger than ever.
Something strange that always happens to me on lsd (or even when I smoke too much weed now) is my vision stops feeling like a thing my body is doing. It starts feeling like experience is pouring out of my eyes and that I’m not seeing the world in front of me but like I am throwing it up 🤮…from my eyes… lol.
Holy fuck I’ve never been able to describe this feeling but I have it too after years off trips
ive gotten this on shrooms and when getting super high on weed
Wow. That's a rough and peculiar picture but it strangely speaks to something I'm trying to wrap my head around; how we're all projecting so much instead of just perceiving. It's inevitable - but it can be recognised at least, and therefore woven into the perception of things. I know it might not be at all connected to how you felt or are feeling - but it somehow spoke to me as a fitting symbolism of how a lot of problems we create ourselves in our own lives by just projecting fears, insecurities and ultimately misunderstanding in social interaction and relationships.
edit: thank you for sharing, wishing good journeys ahead!
That is exactly what I felt tubing down a river a few weeks ago with family. I noticed it almost immediately something about my vision felt way off. Like I wasn’t perceiving life the same way, the experience of floating on water down the river and conversations felt projected like a video was being played through my eyes. Felt like a after death scenario but it was beautiful and scary at the same time, just going with the flow literally lol. I don’t smoke weed anymore though, tends to make me super aware of things and can’t stand the feeling all of the sudden. Not to mention random panic attacks and passing out. 😬
@@PNWTrek that’s what we call depersonalization
I’ve done something like this before. Unfortunately, it happened to be my first bad trip and last trip ever. I thought my head was going to explode and I was watching my entire life from start to end. I was hearing the voices of my loved ones telling me I was useless. I had to be taken to the hospital and my heart rate was 160. I feel this trip was a warning; I had received the message years ago, so why hadn’t I hung up the phone?
I might do my first trip soon...any advice?
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Yeah, start tiny. Like a tab/100ug at most. Maybe less. Don’t take more because you don’t feel anything. Don’t take it if you’re sleepy, depressed, or ill, physically or mentally. Enjoy yourself. If you start thinking bad thoughts, remind yourself that the trip will eventually end
@@labv_n4857 do a lotttttttt of research and really ask yourself if youre ready for this. lsd is extremely powerful and while youre on it you will be at its mercy. it can have long lasting effects on you. once you know you might not want to anymore.
@@br13r16 thanks alot 🌟have an awesome week ahead
@@pineapple7024 noted sir
A very small dose of LSD (50 ug) seems to have somewhat helped my social anxiety and brain fog. I used to spend my life in my head, and now even though I still do to some extent I feel so much more free
I also think it’s just given me such an appreciation for life. Not one that’s like “oh my god the world looks so beautiful now that I’ve seen it in vibrant colors for 12 hours” more just like an innate subconscious feeling of appreciation to be alive and to have people in my life that I love and can talk to more honestly and earnestly now
It’s also seemed to allow me to feel memories more. I have a shit memory but every now and then I get these intense feelings of old memories from childhood that I’ve long forgotten. Almost like I remember exactly how it felt to be in that moment for 5 minutes
That end part is exactly how I felt. After my trip every time I walked through the door I couldnt help but feel like my dad wanted to yell at me with a screaming rage. I couldn't be around my family I was constantly thinking they were afraid of me and disgusted by me or didnt want me alive. It hurt to exist altogether.
For anyone who experienced anything like this, I just want you to know you're not stupid, you're not retarded. You understand things in ways other people don't. I believe we have the ability to see the world for what I could be instead of what it is. Psychedelics open us to that realization that the world is majorally a bunch of sad miserable people doing everything they can to make each other happy. They dont see the world in the same way we do. And thats why we have trouble understanding what they see. It has nothing to do with something really being wrong with us.
Never go heroic without an escape plan, benzos, alcohol etc... some kind of depressant. Hard won experience taught me that.
Does alcohol help calm a bad trip?
@@shelleysmith6667 No, alcohol killing a trip is a myth, benzos are certified trip killers tho
@@shelleysmith6667 prolly, i use alcohol whenever i have a reactor overload on speed
couldnt sleep for 38 hours after dropping acid and exploring my traumas, alcohol really saved me or I wouldve gone insane if I hit the 48 hour mark
@@johnnyjoestar5965 oh it really works well as a trip killer? ill keep that in mind, thats a huge relief that alcohol can abort a trip
You definitely took things to an extreme with the dosage, surprisingly your recount was very detailed, a lot of congruency to my EGO Death experience and im sure many others as well.
i've done around 700-800ug in a day, no issues along the way even though I was overly anxious about just life overall at the time, just gotta double up one you start to level after the first dose
At one point I actually found myself in like a 1940s wedding, everyone dressed in black, rooms were fully red and I was walking down a long hall with many doorways trying to find where the wedding was... honestly was very interesting
@@Buhllistic sounds mad that, if you ever fancy writing up your experience I'd love to read it out on here
So you didn't take it all at once is what you're saying? I get that some people do this, personally I find it peculiar and kind of counterproductive to the conventional experience and challenges associated with deep diving, but if it works for you and you like it then that's all that matters. I personally would rather introduce a different psychedelic into the mix rather than redose on the same one
I’ve done it 800ug on Halloween at party in Amsterdam. I smoked 3 g of white widow haze. Completely destroyed my ego (was kinda good ig tho). Stopped caring about what other people thought about me mostly . I wish I hadn’t done it at early age 16 tho but I could handle it.
@@Buhllistic wtf? Different reality?
You have to go through the worst thing in the world to experience the best.
First off two thumbs up👍🏼👍🏼 what a pure form of a absolute vivid experience. Ego death is so impossibly hard to explain. This story did a great job. My very first time with a psychedelic I ate 4 gram. Sold to me by a friend of a friend for 40 bucks and I was told they were a very strong psilocybin strain mushrooms. In fact she said the guy who ate the entire eighth the night before sat in the street crying thinking he was a refrigerator. I laughed that off and thought I was special somehow didn’t matter the strain ( I can’t name the strain I was too young ) at the age of 17, which was 30 years ago I experienced the hell of ego death. It felt like I died in my own head and I’d never be normal again. There’s no amount of letting go that can keep a teenage mind from going full panic! Now that I’m older I have dosed far higher and felt pure bliss losing control. It’s therapeutic. My point is!! If you are a young person there is no shame in going slow!!! Do not play around with psychedelics. Take it slow and if you want to meet the devil than you’ve been warned. The pure terror that my first BIG trip took me to was a nightmare. I had taken acid, a small amount of shrooms but the girl that sold me the eighth warned me. Do teens ever listen though lol. I wish I would’ve. That experience did give me the opportunity to tell my now 17 yo. Son to be easy and not grow up to fast. If 2 grams isn’t giving you a desired effect take a month off, find a new strain and a safe place. Pray/meditate before hand and have a plan. Psychedelics are a proven part of neurological recovery as well as anti desperation. They open our true potential. As long as we respect them!!!
If we don’t respect them… well then they certainly show us humility in the rawest form.
Safe journeys everyone🙏🏼
And remember mycelia mimics the human neural pathways of the brain. LSD peyote and DMT all share the same molecular structure as serotonin.
Coincidence?? No we are meant to ingest this just responsibly that’s all