Linda, you are a gifted writer. I think your story would help so many people that are trying to find a way to cope. The story of your personal journey, as a mum, going through the worst unimaginable thing of seeing your child suffer, knowing death is imminent, is not something easily communicated to others. You did this so well. I know Curtis would be so proud of you. Please, when the timing is right, submit your story, just as you have read/written it, to an inspirational magazine or journal for publication. Personally, I have emailed this video to myself and placed it in a folder titled, Grief>Anger & Rethinking the approach. Thank you for having the courage to share this journey that no one wants to go on. Again, I am so sorry this happened to Curtis. God Bless your family, Terry.
Unfortunately I do know your pain, my beautiful 30 year old Son died on the 1st of May so it is very raw and painful and heartbreaking. My Son was diagnosed March 2023 with MPNST Sarcoma, doctors told us from the start they couldn’t operate the tumour was 15cm by 10cm and pushing on his heart Right lung and his windpipe. He faced chemotherapy and was so sick but always positive he would survive, four weeks after finishing chemo the tumour started to grow so then he went through 25 radiation sessions. 4 weeks later I rushed him to emergency has he was having trouble breathing, Jackson the same as Curtis his heart was damaged and was drowning in his own lung fluids, 8 weeks and he was dead. Like you I was there morning and night watching my beautiful boy suffering and die. My only comfort is I know he is in heaven and I look forward to running to him as fast as I can when God calls me home. Thank you for sharing your story with me.
I understand your pain. I lost my twin from a car wreack 2 months before we were supposed to graduate in 2001. I didn't get to say goodbye, I graduated by myself. I was mad at God for years, but after a few years, I got back close to God. Then, in 2015 my dad at 56 was diagnosed with pics dementia and for 8 years I became his caregiver till he died oct 18, 2022 . I became even closer to God. Sometimes we don't understand God's ways and why, but we just have to trust him and keep believing in him. He went through alot of pain so we can be forgiving for our sins. I don't know you personally but I love you and your family and will put you and your family on my prayer list. GOD LOVES YALL! KEEP YOUR HEAD UP , GODS GOT US!❤PRAY 🙏 🫂
I listened to your story in spite of no longer being a Christian. The pure sadness in your voice is evident and as a mom we always want to fix everything and have the people we love be ok and happy. I am almost five years into the loss of my husband and best friend and almost three years into the loss of my mom. Both died of cancer and the trauma and cruelty of it all is very real. Sending you a gentle hug and healing thoughts although even after all this time, I’m not sure if healing or any word out there can fit. ❤️❤️❤️
How heartbreaking to lose your child. I wish I could give you a hug. You are doing the Lord's work through telling your story and reminding people that they are not alone in questioning God in times of crisis and sorrow. We have to trust God's plan for us, even when it seems cruel and we feel abandoned by Him. You will always have this pain in your heart and a yearning for your son. Be strong when you can and weep when you need to. Sending love ❤
First I want to tell you how sad it is for anyone much less a sweet boy like yours to have cancer or any illness. I watched a mom of two young kids die on the Nov. 5th my bday she fought for 4 years her name is Jenny Apple. I'm sure you will feel him in your thoughts and dreams. RIP Curtis Linda I just wanted to say that you have the most comforting voice. I wish you could/would read stories. I know that sounds crazy but your voice is very caring and kind also relaxing. Thank you for sharing your story I hope it can help others. I also have no idea about god and dont even pretend I do but I think ppl who do if it helps that's what matters. I generally have never studied or practiced religion at all.
I am sorry for your loss. Having experienced loss, still dealing with grief immensely every day, and asking God 'why' so many times myself, you have no idea the comfort I find in listening to you telling your story. I appreciate that you spoke the heart, exposing your emotions and feelings - something I struggle to do myself. Would you mind sharing the sermon you talked about (if it is on TH-cam)?
Here is the message. Hopefully the link works. Thanks for your comments. Being able to help others is the only good thing so far to come from this tragedy. It’s encouraging to me. charlespriceministry.subspla.sh/sfv6hgf
Wow what a terrible cancer your son had! I’m so sorry this happened to your family. I hope the journey ahead is a lot happier and Thankyou for sharing how terrible these rare cancers can be. X
You went through a typical case where cancer is concerned. There are the many ups and downs and you had to suffer through all of them. Cancer isn’t an easy disease in any respect. You think a person is getting better and then they get worse. You had the worst outcome. It makes all of the trials seem futile and cruel that you had gone through. The many ups and downs were for naught. When you lose a child you suffer the rest of your life. I am sorry for you and your son. An illness such as his changes your life and those of everybody who cared for him.
Wow, so sad story. Luckily, I'm an agnostic person, who don't "blind" believe in "God". (However, I do think that e.g.: the 10 commandments are wise general advice by wise ancient humans... ) However I do not need to reconcilate a good "God" with good intentions and terrrible bad things happening to good people. E.g. how can I try to justify a "God" taking the life of a beautiful and possitive young boy?. EVEN if he would had done terrible wrong things (I don't think he did!, this is just "phylosophic" talk),: even "if", he had a whole life ahead, to correct most of his (supposed just in order to make a point), mistakes. And if this is seen as a God kind of "punishment" to one the parents (again: I don't think that this is the case!); how it would be justified to take the life of a child for the mistakes of a parent? (Yeah, similar to the case of David & Batsheba 1st child). Some would tell: aww only God knows and God knows better. Well, call me an arrogant, but I feel that I know better: Sorry "God", but I cannot believe in such a "God". (and anyway, by Judaism God judges deeds, not "creeds". Acts, not "believes") So yeah, no way I can "believe" that bad things happen to good people for a "celestial planned good reason", nor as "sadistic planned punisment" I think that cancer is a disease which doesn't have a "plan" or a "mission", it doesn't kill bad people and passes over good people. & the real angels are doctors and scientists who are working hard to find a cure and in order to develop a way to diagnose cancer earlier (lung cancer, in special). Our own child seems to be insterested in the cels failure leading to Osteosarcoma = bone children violent cancer, hopefully she will dedicate her life as a physician, to scientific reseach. To you I would say that it is what it is: Bad things happed to good people. Not fair but this is what it is. Also, maybe the body of people die, but their "being" never end as long as remebered by others. I will remember lovely, carring Curtis forever and hopefully his legacy will encourage others to fight his type of cancer. I hope you will have a good life, and that you will be able to find joy and happiness, with your lovely son Connor 💗💖💗💖💗💝💖💖
Thanks for your thoughts. Our boy was so precious to us and losing him was excruciating. I still believe in God and want him in my life despite this tragedy. ❤
Linda, you are a gifted writer. I think your story would help so many people that are trying to find a way to cope. The story of your personal journey, as a mum, going through the worst unimaginable thing of seeing your child suffer, knowing death is imminent, is not something easily communicated to others. You did this so well. I know Curtis would be so proud of you. Please, when the timing is right, submit your story, just as you have read/written it, to an inspirational magazine or journal for publication. Personally, I have emailed this video to myself and placed it in a folder titled, Grief>Anger & Rethinking the approach. Thank you for having the courage to share this journey that no one wants to go on. Again, I am so sorry this happened to Curtis. God Bless your family, Terry.
Unfortunately I do know your pain, my beautiful 30 year old Son died on the 1st of May so it is very raw and painful and heartbreaking. My Son was diagnosed March 2023 with MPNST Sarcoma, doctors told us from the start they couldn’t operate the tumour was 15cm by 10cm and pushing on his heart
Right lung and his windpipe. He faced chemotherapy and was so sick but always positive he would survive, four weeks after finishing chemo the tumour started to grow so then he went through 25 radiation sessions. 4 weeks later I rushed him to emergency has he was having trouble breathing, Jackson the same as Curtis his heart was damaged and was drowning in his own lung fluids, 8 weeks and he was dead. Like you I was there morning and night watching my beautiful boy suffering and die. My only comfort is I know he is in heaven and I look forward to running to him as fast as I can when God calls me home. Thank you for sharing your story with me.
I am so sorry to hear this. The toll of the emotional and physical roller coaster ride is unimaginable. Your story has touched me deeply.
I understand your pain. I lost my twin from a car wreack 2 months before we were supposed to graduate in 2001. I didn't get to say goodbye, I graduated by myself. I was mad at God for years, but after a few years, I got back close to God. Then, in 2015 my dad at 56 was diagnosed with pics dementia and for 8 years I became his caregiver till he died oct 18, 2022
. I became even closer to God. Sometimes we don't understand God's ways and why, but we just have to trust him and keep believing in him. He went through alot of pain so we can be forgiving for our sins. I don't know you personally but I love you and your family and will put you and your family on my prayer list. GOD LOVES YALL! KEEP YOUR HEAD UP , GODS GOT US!❤PRAY 🙏 🫂
I am so sorry! I have no words.
I listened to your story in spite of no longer being a Christian.
The pure sadness in your voice is evident and as a mom we always want to fix everything and have the people we love be ok and happy.
I am almost five years into the loss of my husband and best friend and almost three years into the loss of my mom.
Both died of cancer and the trauma and cruelty of it all is very real.
Sending you a gentle hug and healing thoughts although even after all this time, I’m not sure if healing or any word out there can fit.
❤️❤️❤️
Thank you.
How heartbreaking to lose your child. I wish I could give you a hug. You are doing the Lord's work through telling your story and reminding people that they are not alone in questioning God in times of crisis and sorrow. We have to trust God's plan for us, even when it seems cruel and we feel abandoned by Him. You will always have this pain in your heart and a yearning for your son. Be strong when you can and weep when you need to. Sending love ❤
Thank you so much!
Prayers for you dear. I only have one son. And he’s my life! 🙏🏼♥️⭐️
First I want to tell you how sad it is for anyone much less a sweet boy like yours to have cancer or any illness. I watched a mom of two young kids die on the Nov. 5th my bday she fought for 4 years her name is Jenny Apple. I'm sure you will feel him in your thoughts and dreams. RIP Curtis
Linda I just wanted to say that you have the most comforting voice. I wish you could/would read stories. I know that sounds crazy but your voice is very caring and kind also relaxing. Thank you for sharing your story I hope it can help others. I also have no idea about god and dont even pretend I do but I think ppl who do if it helps that's what matters. I generally have never studied or practiced religion at all.
Thank you so much. I appreciate your comments.
I listen to audiobooks all the time and appreciate how they take their time when reading the books. ❤
My deepest sympathy on the loss of your beautiful son. I am glad you are finding comfort in your faith.
I'm so sorry. God Bless you and your family. In Jesus Name I pray.
Bless you & your family. 🙏
I am sorry for your loss. Having experienced loss, still dealing with grief immensely every day, and asking God 'why' so many times myself, you have no idea the comfort I find in listening to you telling your story. I appreciate that you spoke the heart, exposing your emotions and feelings - something I struggle to do myself. Would you mind sharing the sermon you talked about (if it is on TH-cam)?
Here is the message. Hopefully the link works. Thanks for your comments. Being able to help others is the only good thing so far to come from this tragedy. It’s encouraging to me.
charlespriceministry.subspla.sh/sfv6hgf
Wow what a terrible cancer your son had! I’m so sorry this happened to your family. I hope the journey ahead is a lot happier and Thankyou for sharing how terrible these rare cancers can be. X
Blessings
So young
I am so sorry. He has very soulful eyes.
Omg this is so sad rip ur son
I'm sorry you are so hurt been there at Avery young age wanted to die myself God is. Merciful and he brought merhru he loves you
You went through a typical case where cancer is concerned. There are the many ups and downs and you had to suffer through all of them. Cancer isn’t an easy disease in any respect. You think a person is getting better and then they get worse. You had the worst outcome. It makes all of the trials seem futile and cruel that you had gone through. The many ups and downs were for naught. When you lose a child you suffer the rest of your life. I am sorry for you and your son. An illness such as his changes your life and those of everybody who cared for him.
Wow, so sad story. Luckily, I'm an agnostic person, who don't "blind" believe in "God". (However, I do think that e.g.: the 10 commandments are wise general advice by wise ancient humans... )
However I do not need to reconcilate a good "God" with good intentions and terrrible bad things happening to good people.
E.g. how can I try to justify a "God" taking the life of a beautiful and possitive young boy?. EVEN if he would had done terrible wrong things (I don't think he did!, this is just "phylosophic" talk),: even "if", he had a whole life ahead, to correct most of his (supposed just in order to make a point), mistakes.
And if this is seen as a God kind of "punishment" to one the parents (again: I don't think that this is the case!); how it would be justified to take the life of a child for the mistakes of a parent?
(Yeah, similar to the case of David & Batsheba 1st child).
Some would tell: aww only God knows and God knows better.
Well, call me an arrogant, but I feel that I know better: Sorry "God", but I cannot believe in such a "God".
(and anyway, by Judaism God judges deeds, not "creeds". Acts, not "believes")
So yeah, no way I can "believe" that bad things happen to good people for a "celestial planned good reason", nor as "sadistic planned punisment"
I think that cancer is a disease which doesn't have a "plan" or a "mission", it doesn't kill bad people and passes over good people.
& the real angels are doctors and scientists who are working hard to find a cure and in order to develop a way to diagnose cancer earlier (lung cancer, in special). Our own child seems to be insterested in the cels failure leading to Osteosarcoma = bone children violent cancer, hopefully she will dedicate her life as a physician, to scientific reseach.
To you I would say that it is what it is: Bad things happed to good people. Not fair but this is what it is. Also, maybe the body of people die, but their "being" never end as long as remebered by others. I will remember lovely, carring Curtis forever and hopefully his legacy will encourage others to fight his type of cancer.
I hope you will have a good life, and that you will be able to find joy and happiness, with your lovely son Connor 💗💖💗💖💗💝💖💖
Thanks for your thoughts. Our boy was so precious to us and losing him was excruciating. I still believe in God and want him in my life despite this tragedy. ❤
@lindamccormick5 God is real, and your son is with him. I wish I could give you a hug. Death is the birth of our soul.
You sound restarted
If you’re going to mock someone the least you can do is to not sound restarted yourself.
It’s ok. I don’t even know what that means so I’m blissfully unaware. 😊