I always stressed so much about work when I was younger. It’s hard to figure out the work/life balance. It does take time and some growth. Don’t give up, Maddie. It’s all a learning experience, even the crappy bits. Finding a therapist would be a great option to help you through those growing pains. Having that extra sounding board is always a great support. You. Got. This.
It is hard to figure out a work/life balance... but I also know it will take some time. I am looking into a therapist so hopefully I will have that figured out soon! I hope you have a great week!
Oh Maddie. You are so adorable. I wish I could tell you it gets easier, but I’m going to be 54 in less than a month and it gets so much harder so you must take your advice - enjoy things now. I hope you don’t quit your channel. You’re a breath of fresh air. Hang in there kiddo.
Aww thank you, Deb ❤️ I think it’s always important for us to be present in the moment and appreciate what we have - something I’m working… Thank you for the support!
as someone now in her 30's I just want to say that you are doing great and you are beautiful. You've come so far and this is just a transition for you. I know it's hard and I love your videos by the way.
The smell of the ocean on my skin 💕 oh and currently my Jimmy Choo perfume 🤣 Honestly I felt reassured when I watched this and realised other peoples brains get so overwhelmed and ramble too and we forget to think about breathing and just ‘being’ rather than ‘doing’ all the time. Literally I had filmed myself last week it would have been very similar content - and I have a great therapist! Just got very overwhelmed too with work, life, kids, responsibilities and fantasise about packing a bag and buying a one way ticket somewhere far away so Bali sounds good 🤣 I’m a week into some time off work and I’m literally not thinking more than a day ahead at the moment. That said I’ve been in that mania place too crazily going from one random activity to another. I don’t know if it helps but I’ll bet you there’s lots of people watching feeling exactly like that and you being authentic and sharing it doesn’t feel embarrassing as a watcher it makes you relatable and real and wouldn’t it be wonderful if the supportive aspects of this community could somehow connect together even more. Also I’m not sure if this helps but I’ll bet virtually no one is thinking or even judging your body the way you are, I literally don’t notice much about peoples bodies unless they have something lovely on clothes wise or similar- yet I very harshly judge my own. Why do we do that as I don’t have anyone in my life because their body is a certain way- I have them in my life because of their values, personality, authenticity etc etc etc. You are amazing and you are adulting fine- it’s tough and you can have lots of good stuff but still be justified in finding it hard. Keep doing you 💕😉
Jen, thank you for the note ❤️it’s funny how we don’t pay attention to others bodies but then we are so critical of ourselves.. I really appreciate the support and note. Admiring is hard but just like recovery, you need to keep going. I hope you have a good week!
All my friends from high school always said they couldn’t wait until they were 18 and could move out on their own. They found out that it wasn’t that much fun .
Hang it in there. Honestly you’re videos are so helpful no one talks about how hard it is just being an adult on top of trying to navigate recovery and trying to remind yourself that it’s worth it even when it feels like everything is falling apart. Always here to chat if you need. 💯 being an adult sucks and is hard regardless of how lucky we are. Fave scent currently is cotton candy 😂
Being an adult does suck sometimes and it's totally okay to vent about it. You're doing amazing and you are doing enough. As someone in her 30's who lives with her parents, you are an inspiration. I would love to have my independence but I can't afford it right now. I hope you get a chance to pause, breathe and have some fun too. Love to you and Fig! ❤️
Thank you Dorothy ❤️ I hope you are doing well and can find some time to relax in your everyday life also. Remembering to be present is something I am working on. Love back to you from Fig and I 🐰❤️
There is nothing wrong with living with your parents… you are lucky to have each other! You get to spend time with them… look at the positive aspects of it… it’s not always easy to see the brigggt side… but try to find it…
I don't want to "grow up" and be an adult either. Age wise I've been an adult for 6 years but I still feel like a child somehow. I just don't see myself as an adult. I don't feel ready. I know I need to get my life together and become independent but it stresses me out.
Maddie, I look forward to your videos every Friday (knowing they are coming on Saturday). But if they stress you out more than being helpful (for YOU) I would want you to choose to take care of yourself first! My favorite scent right now is butter rum!
At the moment it’s citronella because it keeps the mosquitoes away… you’ve convinced me to stop working and go for a walk… I live in Florence, Italy, so it’s always pretty- just super hot atm!!!! Keep positing random thoughts videos. Thank you
Appreciate life right now, I agree. I try to do this but it's so very hard. I also have a Himalayan Pink Salt candle as well! We have a lot in common. My favourite scent: Pears soap and a million others!
Maddie, if these videos are getting to be something that is a cause of stress, or something you don’t look forward too as much as you used to, then maybe it’s not the best thing for you right now. Maybe in the future you could start up again! I’ve had to do that with playing piano. There is no shame😊 also fruit flies are horrid…keep up the good work. Im here cheering you on 💪
I am thinking about taking some time off TH-cam while I get work sorted out but I will definitely keep you all informed! Aren't fruit flies the worst?! Thank you for the support!
i will strive to enjoy my teenage years, i only have three left but thats okay, my family does not have much money so we can not get fresh fruit, but we buy the bags of frozen strawberries, so that is a option they are sometimes even better than the fresh ones because they are more ripe. please stay positive i know it can be hard, have a wonderful week
Buying frozen fruit is definitely a great option! I also try to buy in season and local produce so there is not as much transportation costs as well. I hope you have a wonderful week as well!
It's 11.47pm and I just got home an hr ago from watching my footy team win. On the way home all I could think about was your video waiting for me. I think you need a holiday, you have so much going on and are definitely overwhelmed by it all. The job seems to be your biggest stress. Can you talk to your manager about how you are struggling to cope with the current work load. How can you go away for work and thereby put you further behind. Being an adult is hard at times but also means asking for help when you need to. Hope things settle down for you. 😍
Awww your comment made me smile :) Thank you, Dianne! My job is definitely a huge stress but also something I know I need - financially and mentally. I need something to keep me busy and distracted, it's just a bit much sometimes. Thank you for your support, as always ❤️
My mum has a colleague who can just call off from work anytime she wants, and won't be able to get fired because her doctor has some kind of contract about her well being. Maddie, I'm saying this because what you're going through at the moment is a high risk of undergoing a burn out. Talk about this with your doctor, your doctor will be able to state things to your boss, and your boss will have to make you do less so you can actually breathe.
That's a really good suggestion, thank you! I just don't want to come across as undependable at work. I am still fairly new and on probation hire but maybe after a few months (if I'm not fired) and I still feel this way.
@@maddiejaneec I totally get that, going through the same kind of feeling at my job. Like, I work at a shop and I have autism, so I get overwhelmed easily, then it gets really busy during an *9 hour shift*. I made it through though, and want to tell them how it affects me and tell them about my autism... But at the same time I don't want to be treated "special" or like someone that does less than my other coworkers. But really, you should choose between talking about your struggles and do less, than not mentioning anything and working your ass off until you eventually just break down and end up quitting.
Hey you are doing good girl! The job sounds like a lot of added stress on you and maybe you should look into finding a different one that pays better but less stress. Look into remote jobs too where you can travel and also do your job and relax and have a good time. Easier said than done but I think finding a new job would be helpful for you. Also you live close-ish to me and if you ever want to have a glass of wine and rant about life then I'm all for that lol
Thank you for the comment! The job is a lot of stress but it is also a really good job to have and is setting me up for what I really want to do in the future. I think I just need to figure out how to handle everything and get adjusted. And I appreciate the offer! I will let you know ;)
Maddie… everyone has bad days… as an adult you do have options… you can sit and cry about it or you can decide that you are going to struggle through it… as an adult we have to make difficult decisions… we need to realize that sometimes our best isn’t going to be good enough (that’s a really hard one) and everytime we struggle through something we grow and get stronger even if we fail! You aren’t going to like what I’m going to say now… but I really think you should go back and listen to how ridiculous and petty you sound! All things considered you have it really, really good!!! You are crying over having to eat an apple instead of strawberries!!! I work with kids that truly only know they’ll have meals when school is in session!!!! I agree life is hard! Being an adult does suck!!! But please, stop feeling sorry for yourself!!! You are a smart, strong, beautiful woman with a ton of talent and people who care about you… now go hug that amazing rabbit!!!!!
Emily, thank you for the comment. I realized after watching the video back how ridiculous I sound. I am extremely grateful for everything I have and acknowledge that I should not be complaining about a thing. You are right, I need to just push forward and struggle through it. There is no need to cry about my life when I am so fortunate. I am currently lying on the floor with Fig now and cannot express the amount of love I have for this rabbit. Thank you again and I hope you have a good week!
@@maddiejaneec but- I would argue that your ED has served a purpose and you had an ED for a reason….maybe you don’t know that exact reason yet. But, I have learnt that it is HIGHLY possible that these “things” you are “complaining” about is NOT what you are actually upset/sad/angry etc about. But these are the things that are on the surface and causing stress today. So I really do not think any of this is petty and I think you have a lot more going on than you realize! Keep your chin up! You are doing so well and everyone has bad days! Doesn’t matter we do or do not have- we all have the bad days!!💜💜💜
You are such a talented and beautiful person! It’s difficult to see you struggle trying to be “perfect”… you are perfectly imperfect!!!! Embrace thst!! It’s what makes you “you” and you are fortunate… and it is really hard to reprogram your brain not to equate every bad, frustrating or uncomfortable emotion with being fat… which, my friend, you are not…
I hate being 34 marrige no kids , this is stupid with the all showoff ppl do in social media, chasing glam and fame, and for wat?! idk anddddd i cant have babys cus i have a prob... and i neet to do a surgury to fix this bull***.....i hate myslfe sometims.... and so sad and i wanna stay healthy but sometime i just being hatefull to ppl if i see kids cus im 34 i hate that.... grr... also not having freinds anymore cus the true is there are not freinds!!💔 i want to go to a party and do drugs (tho i dont do it) i cant be the wife i need to be, i just hat 5 years unevursry... and Israel so hard to live in. Oh i hope u wont stop the channle cus ill be more down, but i love u no matter wat. Stay with us and Tc..🙏❤ and i love musk vanila✌
I am sorry to hear that you are also going through a rough time. Life can be so hard sometimes... I am here supporting you! Have you ever thought about adopting? That is something I have considered :) I feel the same about wanting to party and do drugs but also just want to stay at home in pyjamas 😂 Happy five year anniversary to you! And musk vanilla is a great scent :) ❤️
Editing is for perfectionists. Not great for someone who has an eating disorder. You are young and will find something that does not fuel your anxiety and eating disorder. Life is too short!!
It is definitely for a perfectionist but I do enjoy it. I am hoping that this is just a stepping stone to get to the life that does not fuel my anxiety and Ed :)
I always stressed so much about work when I was younger. It’s hard to figure out the work/life balance. It does take time and some growth. Don’t give up, Maddie. It’s all a learning experience, even the crappy bits. Finding a therapist would be a great option to help you through those growing pains. Having that extra sounding board is always a great support. You. Got. This.
It is hard to figure out a work/life balance... but I also know it will take some time. I am looking into a therapist so hopefully I will have that figured out soon! I hope you have a great week!
Oh Maddie. You are so adorable. I wish I could tell you it gets easier, but I’m going to be 54 in less than a month and it gets so much harder so you must take your advice - enjoy things now.
I hope you don’t quit your channel. You’re a breath of fresh air. Hang in there kiddo.
Aww thank you, Deb ❤️ I think it’s always important for us to be present in the moment and appreciate what we have - something I’m working… Thank you for the support!
as someone now in her 30's I just want to say that you are doing great and you are beautiful. You've come so far and this is just a transition for you. I know it's hard and I love your videos by the way.
Awww thank you ❤️ I appreciate the support!
@@maddiejaneec yes , of course!
The smell of the ocean on my skin 💕 oh and currently my Jimmy Choo perfume 🤣
Honestly I felt reassured when I watched this and realised other peoples brains get so overwhelmed and ramble too and we forget to think about breathing and just ‘being’ rather than ‘doing’ all the time.
Literally I had filmed myself last week it would have been very similar content - and I have a great therapist!
Just got very overwhelmed too with work, life, kids, responsibilities and fantasise about packing a bag and buying a one way ticket somewhere far away so Bali sounds good 🤣
I’m a week into some time off work and I’m literally not thinking more than a day ahead at the moment. That said I’ve been in that mania place too crazily going from one random activity to another.
I don’t know if it helps but I’ll bet you there’s lots of people watching feeling exactly like that and you being authentic and sharing it doesn’t feel embarrassing as a watcher it makes you relatable and real and wouldn’t it be wonderful if the supportive aspects of this community could somehow connect together even more.
Also I’m not sure if this helps but I’ll bet virtually no one is thinking or even judging your body the way you are, I literally don’t notice much about peoples bodies unless they have something lovely on clothes wise or similar- yet I very harshly judge my own. Why do we do that as I don’t have anyone in my life because their body is a certain way- I have them in my life because of their values, personality, authenticity etc etc etc.
You are amazing and you are adulting fine- it’s tough and you can have lots of good stuff but still be justified in finding it hard. Keep doing you 💕😉
Jen, thank you for the note ❤️it’s funny how we don’t pay attention to others bodies but then we are so critical of ourselves.. I really appreciate the support and note. Admiring is hard but just like recovery, you need to keep going. I hope you have a good week!
All my friends from high school always said they couldn’t wait until they were 18 and could move out on their own. They found out that it wasn’t that much fun .
Haha I said the same, I take it back now …
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Keep posting Maddie, we appreciate you!
Oooh good one. Another nice incense smell. Thank you!
Hang it in there. Honestly you’re videos are so helpful no one talks about how hard it is just being an adult on top of trying to navigate recovery and trying to remind yourself that it’s worth it even when it feels like everything is falling apart. Always here to chat if you need. 💯 being an adult sucks and is hard regardless of how lucky we are.
Fave scent currently is cotton candy 😂
Cotton candy is a great smell and taste! I am glad you enjoy the videos. I really appreciate the support, take care :)
Being an adult does suck sometimes and it's totally okay to vent about it. You're doing amazing and you are doing enough. As someone in her 30's who lives with her parents, you are an inspiration. I would love to have my independence but I can't afford it right now. I hope you get a chance to pause, breathe and have some fun too. Love to you and Fig! ❤️
Thank you Dorothy ❤️ I hope you are doing well and can find some time to relax in your everyday life also. Remembering to be present is something I am working on. Love back to you from Fig and I 🐰❤️
There is nothing wrong with living with your parents… you are lucky to have each other! You get to spend time with them… look at the positive aspects of it… it’s not always easy to see the brigggt side… but try to find it…
My favourite scent: going for a run through a neighbourhood and smelling laundry. You know that exhaust fumes from their laundry room?
Ooooh yes, that’s a good smell haha I totally agree
I don't want to "grow up" and be an adult either. Age wise I've been an adult for 6 years but I still feel like a child somehow. I just don't see myself as an adult. I don't feel ready. I know I need to get my life together and become independent but it stresses me out.
I can totally relate... I definitely don't see myself as an adult and honestly don't think I ever will! Maybe that's okay though?
Maddie, I look forward to your videos every Friday (knowing they are coming on Saturday). But if they stress you out more than being helpful (for YOU) I would want you to choose to take care of yourself first!
My favorite scent right now is butter rum!
Jaclyn, thank you for the comment. I am thinking about taking some time off TH-cam but still not sure yet. Thank you for the support ❤️
At the moment it’s citronella because it keeps the mosquitoes away… you’ve convinced me to stop working and go for a walk… I live in Florence, Italy, so it’s always pretty- just super hot atm!!!! Keep positing random thoughts videos. Thank you
Haha makes sense! I am so jealous that you live in Italy! I have never been but it’s near the top of my list of places I want to go soon!
Appreciate life right now, I agree. I try to do this but it's so very hard. I also have a Himalayan Pink Salt candle as well! We have a lot in common. My favourite scent: Pears soap and a million others!
Oooh pears soap sounds lovely! I love the smell of nag champa incense and sandalwood! Hope you have a nice week!
@@maddiejaneec And to you too Maddie xxx
love that you licked your salt lamp... lol! And my favorite smell is a newborn baby. But also my moms bread in the oven, or a pot of beans simmering.
Haha it was salty… surprise surprise…
@@maddiejaneec l got one for Christmas a few years ago, and that was the first thing I did was lick it . So it made my night. Haha
Maddie, if these videos are getting to be something that is a cause of stress, or something you don’t look forward too as much as you used to, then maybe it’s not the best thing for you right now. Maybe in the future you could start up again! I’ve had to do that with playing piano. There is no shame😊 also fruit flies are horrid…keep up the good work. Im here cheering you on 💪
Oh an some of my favorite scents are my dog, subway, and the woods:)
I am thinking about taking some time off TH-cam while I get work sorted out but I will definitely keep you all informed! Aren't fruit flies the worst?! Thank you for the support!
Yes for all three! Except not the Toronto subway in the heat 😂
i will strive to enjoy my teenage years, i only have three left but thats okay, my family does not have much money so we can not get fresh fruit, but we buy the bags of frozen strawberries, so that is a option they are sometimes even better than the fresh ones because they are more ripe. please stay positive i know it can be hard, have a wonderful week
Buying frozen fruit is definitely a great option! I also try to buy in season and local produce so there is not as much transportation costs as well. I hope you have a wonderful week as well!
@@maddiejaneec thats fair
It's 11.47pm and I just got home an hr ago from watching my footy team win. On the way home all I could think about was your video waiting for me. I think you need a holiday, you have so much going on and are definitely overwhelmed by it all. The job seems to be your biggest stress. Can you talk to your manager about how you are struggling to cope with the current work load. How can you go away for work and thereby put you further behind. Being an adult is hard at times but also means asking for help when you need to. Hope things settle down for you. 😍
Awww your comment made me smile :) Thank you, Dianne! My job is definitely a huge stress but also something I know I need - financially and mentally. I need something to keep me busy and distracted, it's just a bit much sometimes. Thank you for your support, as always ❤️
My mum has a colleague who can just call off from work anytime she wants, and won't be able to get fired because her doctor has some kind of contract about her well being.
Maddie, I'm saying this because what you're going through at the moment is a high risk of undergoing a burn out. Talk about this with your doctor, your doctor will be able to state things to your boss, and your boss will have to make you do less so you can actually breathe.
That's a really good suggestion, thank you! I just don't want to come across as undependable at work. I am still fairly new and on probation hire but maybe after a few months (if I'm not fired) and I still feel this way.
@@maddiejaneec I totally get that, going through the same kind of feeling at my job. Like, I work at a shop and I have autism, so I get overwhelmed easily, then it gets really busy during an *9 hour shift*. I made it through though, and want to tell them how it affects me and tell them about my autism... But at the same time I don't want to be treated "special" or like someone that does less than my other coworkers.
But really, you should choose between talking about your struggles and do less, than not mentioning anything and working your ass off until you eventually just break down and end up quitting.
You need to do deals like I do, I haven't paid for anything like toiletries in years! My fav scent is cinnamon.
I should definitely get on that!
Fav scent….. coffee, pumpkin stuff, pecholi
Yes for all of those things!
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meeee toooo, I want to have no responsibilities
Let’s just make being a child a lifelong thing 😂
Rant away, you’re real. ❤️❤️❤️❤️
Haha thank you, Kate!
Hey you are doing good girl! The job sounds like a lot of added stress on you and maybe you should look into finding a different one that pays better but less stress. Look into remote jobs too where you can travel and also do your job and relax and have a good time. Easier said than done but I think finding a new job would be helpful for you. Also you live close-ish to me and if you ever want to have a glass of wine and rant about life then I'm all for that lol
Thank you for the comment! The job is a lot of stress but it is also a really good job to have and is setting me up for what I really want to do in the future. I think I just need to figure out how to handle everything and get adjusted. And I appreciate the offer! I will let you know ;)
Maddie… everyone has bad days… as an adult you do have options… you can sit and cry about it or you can decide that you are going to struggle through it… as an adult we have to make difficult decisions… we need to realize that sometimes our best isn’t going to be good enough (that’s a really hard one) and everytime we struggle through something we grow and get stronger even if we fail!
You aren’t going to like what I’m going to say now… but I really think you should go back and listen to how ridiculous and petty you sound! All things considered you have it really, really good!!! You are crying over having to eat an apple instead of strawberries!!! I work with kids that truly only know they’ll have meals when school is in session!!!!
I agree life is hard! Being an adult does suck!!! But please, stop feeling sorry for yourself!!! You are a smart, strong, beautiful woman with a ton of talent and people who care about you… now go hug that amazing rabbit!!!!!
Emily, thank you for the comment. I realized after watching the video back how ridiculous I sound. I am extremely grateful for everything I have and acknowledge that I should not be complaining about a thing. You are right, I need to just push forward and struggle through it. There is no need to cry about my life when I am so fortunate. I am currently lying on the floor with Fig now and cannot express the amount of love I have for this rabbit. Thank you again and I hope you have a good week!
@@maddiejaneec but- I would argue that your ED has served a purpose and you had an ED for a reason….maybe you don’t know that exact reason yet. But, I have learnt that it is HIGHLY possible that these “things” you are “complaining” about is NOT what you are actually upset/sad/angry etc about. But these are the things that are on the surface and causing stress today. So I really do not think any of this is petty and I think you have a lot more going on than you realize! Keep your chin up! You are doing so well and everyone has bad days! Doesn’t matter we do or do not have- we all have the bad days!!💜💜💜
You are such a talented and beautiful person! It’s difficult to see you struggle trying to be “perfect”… you are perfectly imperfect!!!! Embrace thst!! It’s what makes you “you” and you are fortunate… and it is really hard to reprogram your brain not to equate every bad, frustrating or uncomfortable emotion with being fat… which, my friend, you are not…
I hate being 34 marrige no kids , this is stupid with the all showoff ppl do in social media, chasing glam and fame, and for wat?! idk anddddd i cant have babys cus i have a prob... and i neet to do a surgury to fix this bull***.....i hate myslfe sometims.... and so sad and i wanna stay healthy but sometime i just being hatefull to ppl if i see kids cus im 34 i hate that.... grr... also not having freinds anymore cus the true is there are not freinds!!💔 i want to go to a party and do drugs (tho i dont do it) i cant be the wife i need to be, i just hat 5 years unevursry... and Israel so hard to live in. Oh i hope u wont stop the channle cus ill be more down, but i love u no matter wat. Stay with us and Tc..🙏❤ and i love musk vanila✌
I am sorry to hear that you are also going through a rough time. Life can be so hard sometimes... I am here supporting you! Have you ever thought about adopting? That is something I have considered :) I feel the same about wanting to party and do drugs but also just want to stay at home in pyjamas 😂 Happy five year anniversary to you! And musk vanilla is a great scent :) ❤️
Editing is for perfectionists. Not great for someone who has an eating disorder. You are young and will find something that does not fuel your anxiety and eating disorder. Life is too short!!
It is definitely for a perfectionist but I do enjoy it. I am hoping that this is just a stepping stone to get to the life that does not fuel my anxiety and Ed :)
Made it to the end of the video!
My favourite scent is benzine, my own sweat and Ariana Grande perfume.
I'm not joking
Haha that's too funny! Can't say I have ever encountered that smell but I trust your judgement!