The amount and quality of content you produce is incredible. I recently detoxed off drugs, and when my anxiety or the pain of the withdrawals got too bad I'd watch your videos and they'd distract me. In a way you saved my life... thank you Mr. Ballen and your team ❤
I couldn’t imagine accidentally torturing someone for sixteen minutes and then having a lawsuit be my main concern. Then to try and cover it up by giving him more drugs? It’s honestly despicable.
Well, I've always said this, there is something....off, sadistic even, about MANY doctors, surgeons in particular. My mother always said this as well, and I'm inclined to believe this is quite true.
Personally if given the choice that i _"might"_ be able to forget an experience like that, or else just live with it; i'd take my chances with the amnesia drug. They should have disclosed that it happened though.
@@existenceisrelative I think the amnesia drug made things worse. He had horrible PTSD but he didn't understand why, he probably thought he had dementia or some other mental illness. Had he understood what happened to him maybe he would have been able to come to terms with it and not take his own life.
That last story really is horrifying. I’ve ran anesthesia in veterinary medicine and you can tell when a patient is experiencing pain without them being able to move or vocalize just by paying attention to the monitoring equipment. For an anesthetist to not notice for that long of a period of time should require some serious repercussions and the fact they tried to cover it up by administering drugs makes this story a billion times worse. I’m so sorry for Sherman and his family.
I'm a nurse and even I struggled to listen to this. That poor man! He was obviously suffering from PTSD caused by the trauma but he didn't even have a concrete memory to pin his symptoms to. Imagine the confusion and terror he must have experienced! And then he killed himself! That shocked me. Poor man. And his poor family.
Exactly. I also wondered that. Long before a horse starts to move his legs as first visible sign, his heartbeat and breathing go up, especially when certain pain related to the surgery is invoked like cutting, stitching, or working on bones. We would give extra sedation at that point of course. I wonder why this isnt monitored in humans. Knowing that in human anesthesia often brainwaves are also monitored.
Fun fact for those who are freaked out by the last story (so basically everyone): Most hospitals have equipment that watches your vitals and can tell if you're experiencing anesthesia awareness. Before going into surgery make sure to ask them what their anesthesia awareness prevention methods are.
@@sandralinkenback1750 I've had one surgery before I knew about anesthesia awareness and had no issues either. It's good to know the worst that could happen before going under though lol
had my wisdom teeth taken out and the anesthesia did NOT work, they literally were like "wait is the patient still awake?" because i was twitching and shaking from the pain. did not get compensated, was too young to even realize thats not what the procedure was supposed to be like.
The surgery story is one of my biggest nightmares. That is beyond terrifying. Thank God for that one nurse who noticed that Sherman was conscious. The fact that they tried to give him chemical amnesia to avoid a lawsuit is beneath contempt.
I actually woke up during my wisdom tooth surgery for what felt like a min or so; it was pretty cool to listen to what was happening. It sounded like shop class, and I remember hearing someone say they thought I was awake, and I passed back out. Thankfully I didn’t feel anything. RIP Sherman.
Come on you can't tell me you're surprised. The medical team probably used to work for the CDC or WHO. Nowadays in America the ends always justify the means
@@bri-manhunter2654 wow thats interesting..i actually had both of my wisdom teeth removed but under local anaestesia when i was like 10,to rhis day i dont understand why they didnt knock me out completely
When I had my first child, it suddenly turned into an emergency situation, I had to have a cesarean, and they had to put me out quickly. There was no time for an epidural or spinal. I went from having constant contractions to rushing to the operating room to everyone yelling, counting off instruments, and someone holding the breathing tube above my face, waiting for me to be put out so they could secure my airway. It was terrifying. The next thing I remember was the most excruciating pain ever. I could feel them cutting, everything and tried and tried to tell them to stop - I can feel it. The pain was horrific. I could hear but I couldn’t move, I couldn’t tell them and then I was out. I woke up in the recovery room screaming my head off stop stop I’m awake I can feel everything! I can feel it. My husband who couldn’t come in to the operating room, so also missed the birth, was very upset by the scene in front of him. I was covered in blood, Betadine and screaming my head off. The nurses got my pain under control, and I just kept saying I could feel them cutting. It was so bad I didn’t even care I’d had the baby at that point. Hours later, the anesthesiologist came in and I told him that I was awake and I felt everything and he said no that was not possible and quickly left. When my doctor came in, I told him and he said yes it was possible, he believed me and that the baby was okay and I was going to be okay. 6 months later, I had to have another procedure done, from the complications and was traumatized about going under. I had the same doctor and nurses. While talking to the nurse, she told me she saw my hand move and they realized I wasn’t all the way out. The Anesthesiologist had been fired, I wasn’t the first and ultimately we were included with 4 others in the lawsuit against him. I received $150. I probably should’ve had a lawyer.
I was getting a root canal a few years back and the local anasthetics failed, needless to say it hurt like a mf. I went about 20 minutes before stopped the procedure and had them refreeze the area. I couldnt imagine dealing with something like that in the case of more intense/invasive surgeries.
The 16 minutes story is, by far, one of the scariest scenarios. I couldn’t imagine being sliced open while being paralyzed and unable to stop it. It’s a shame that instead of the hospital helping Sherman through his trauma and owning their mistakes, they decide to play naive to cover their own skin. Prayers to Sherman’s family ❤️
I can imagine it. I've been in such pain a few times where no anesthetic worked, and the medical was not incompetent, it's a quirk of my personal biology.
How do you help someone through such a pain-inducing experience? You say sorry? Oops? My bad? No, the best way is to try and make them forget the whole experience by giving them midazolam "amnesia" and pray they won't remember the pain. The potential for lawsuits was not the priority for the surgeons and nurses. They would still get their paychecks regardless if their employer was sued.
I cant begin to imagine what Sherman felt. To take your own life days after just because of the thought of that pain, has to be something out of this world that most of us hopefully never comprehend. That anesthesiologist should be criminally liable. RIP Sherman my deepest condolences to his family.
I have a feeling he may have not killed himself if it weren’t for the amnesia drug. At least being able to link your trauma to something and know where it came from definitely helps you overcome it. I can’t imagine having to experience the trauma of that type of pain and not even knowing where it all came from
....I guess. But what Sherman endure is a drop in the bucket compared to almost any surgery before the 19th century. I mean...check out the Bradmore extractor and it's first use. What Sherman dealt with sucked...but I mean, that was the way it was done for hundreds of years before anesthesia was discovered.
@williamblackfyre4866 I mean deTh rates of procedures was over 50% and increased with time after the procedure so I guess at least they didn't have to deal with it and they did still drink to numb sensation
I've been paranoid about general anesthesia not functioning properly ever since I first heard of this exact same scenario 20 years ago. What a horrifying experience. I feel so bad for poor Sherman.
Hi John. Could you please do some more of the 411 Series? I know people love them as much as I do. I'd appreciate it greatly as I'm sure others would too. You're AWESOME!! THANK YOU! Thank You for your service! ( I'm also a vet).
So, we're they not paying attention to his heart rate?! The machines would've registered that his heart was going nuts and that he was feeling pain even though he couldn't respond! That's crazy! That anesthesiologist deserved to be sued!
My thought exactly as I was listening! Not just that, but midazolam or Versed, prevents the ability to create NEW memories (anterograde amnesia), it doesn't keep you from remembering things (retrograde amnesia). This is sus AF!
But even if they weren't looking at him, he was hooked on the monitors and any good anesthesiologist should have noticed the curve, the TOF, the spikes and the brain waves would. The machine would have been beeping!! What were they doing? Omg WTH?!? POOR MAN
It's unconscionable that the doctors cared more about avoiding a lawsuit than about that poor man's wellbeing. ALL of them should be held criminally liable for going along with the cover-up involving that amnesia drug.
Not advocating for the doctors here, but I feel like using an amnesia drug was also the conscionable decision there despite the massive malpractice. What he went through was horrible and shouldn’t have happened, so making him forget about it would’ve saved a lot of misery for everyone. But the fact that the human body doesn’t work like that also doomed everyone in the situation. Not to mention the doctors using that to avoid a damn lawsuit.
@@sugarkane1571 That's a really good point about how great it would've been for the amnesia drug to have actually worked!! For this poor man's sake, I wish it had!! Ugh. Yeah, it's sort of a weird issue. I have some traumas that I remember, and some that I don't. They both affect me. But it would be really cool if there was a legit way to shut it out of your mind for reallish, you know? Like in that movie, "Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind", but I only saw it once when it came out, so I'm not sure, but it came to mind.
@@dod2304 Yeah, but they gave him an amnesia drug AFTER, once they discovered that he'd been awake the whole time, because they wanted to make him forget and hide their error to avoid a lawsuit.
I think, if i were in the hot seat, or should i say table? I would lean towards not wanting the amnesia drug just for the sake of actually knowing the root cause of the mental trauma that would inevitably follow me around my entire life either way. Might as well start the rehabilitation from a better vantage point. I also think that with him thinking they were dreams vs actual memories it might have been worse for him because being it came on so randomly yet so intensely one can only assume the worst. Recovering from seeing your insides torn open seems immensely easier, especially considering that unless you have to have surgery again, you almost certainly wont ever experience it again. And brain is really good at making you forget the intensity of pain.
Poor Sherman. :/ They now have a device that attaches to the patient’s forehead and monitors muscle movement. It can tell if the patient is awake or waking, and anesthesia can be adjusted accordingly.
Well they apparently don’t here in Australia, doctors somehow left a family member of mine just conscious enough to hear them sawing through the bone in his leg just a couple of years back, still better than what the Romans had I guess :/
Dante B I had a hip replacement using sedation not an anaesthetic, the anaesthetist sat with me monitoring. When I had sedation I was aware of what was going on and talked to the anaethetist. Possibly your relative had the same. I didn't feel anything by the way.
This was developed at MGH (Mass General Hospital), and monitors brain wave activity, not muscle movement. When I was surged at MGH the anesthesiologist told me this is part of their routine and that it would be used during my surgery.
@@robertboudrie2234 - I had the device used in Atlanta when I had a hysterectomy. Monitoring brain waves does make more sense as they administer a paralytic. I remember talking with the anesthesiologist about it. I may have already been lightly sedated at that point.
…also watching their heart rate and blood pressure clues you in to distress! Monkeys could have done a better job, shame on that ENTIRE surgical team for now being aware or watching this patient!!!!!!!
The anaesthesiologist forgetting to administer anaesthesia which is literally in his name is ridiculously ironic. What happened to Sherman was absolutely horrific. A nightmare.
I think it was not an accident. I'm pretty sure that the drug they are referring to is propofol. The same drug that Michael Jackson got hooked on. I bet the anesthesiologist was either using it or selling it. The amnesia drug doesn't seem like something that would be necessary to have on hand during a surgical procedure.
@@annemcgregor1514 totally agree. And yes, Michael (rip) died of a massive amount of propofol that he himself couldn't have done because he already couldn't move at that time he was so drugged up, its impossible he could have put it in his IV. His doctor is the one that gave him the final fatal dose.
I was given Propofol for a shoulder replacement. I felt it going up my arm burning all the way up. I told gas passer and he just said hang on.I would of had plenty of time to start drip out of the IV.I’m sure Michaels tolerance was way high.
@@annemcgregor1514 Not an accident? You really think they would knowingly put a patient through that kind of horrendous pain? Btw, that drug is routinely stocked in ORs.
@@kimberlysevastyanenko3798 My son 's friend had back surgery a few years ago and in the middle of the operation the doctor walked out of the OR and went and bought drugs and got high. It was all over the news when it happened. I've worked in two different hospitals and you wouldn't believe what goes on.
That last story is appalling! Everyone involved in that surgery should've lost their medical licenses. Not for the initial mistake, but for the cover-up which subsequently cost Sherman his life!
Even for the initial mistake. We put all our faith in the medical staff to have us knocked out and no pain in surgery. Shit like that should be double, even triple checked.
From my wife who is a doctor told me that if this happens, usually the Anesthesiologist lose their licenses, but the other people get fined or fired, I’m sure ppl got fire, the Anesthesiologist has one job, you f that up, you don’t deserve that job.
That last story was probably one of the hardest to actually listen to because it could happen to anybody. The fact that tho hospital tried to cover up the trauma they caused him is absolutely unreal, they are the people who are supposed to help you, not ruin you
Yeah, my mom was prescribed medicine that rotted her fingers and toes. The doctors took no responsibility. Don't ever trust anyone who associates with Monsanto. They and their doctors are evil.
"Saving" or ruining" you depends on what makes the most profit. In this case it was obvious wich one was the correct answer. Just the tought of becoming financially broke makes people panic and commit atrocities. Thats how scary economy is.
As an OR nurse, I know that a lot has already happened in that 16 minutes. I couldn’t imagine the unthinkable pain that patient went through. That anesthesiologist is very incompetent and shouldn’t be allowed to practice again!
Probably the doctor as well. I doubt any truly competent surgeon, or at least one that is concerned about the welfare of his patient and his own reputation and liabilities as a surgeon, he would require the anesthesiologist to be beside the patient throughout the surgery. So, although I’m not surgeon or doctor, I really think the surgeon is in control in the OR and definitely the main culprit so to speak.
That's what I was thinking. Not an OR nurse, but my mom was an RN, my aunt and a few other ladies in my family. So I have some medical knowledge. The anesthesiologist should of been fired and investigated. The whole team should of been for not even noticing it.
Such a major blunder from the anesthesiologist. Not only did they forget to administer the anesthetic but totally neglected to monitor vital signs that would have given the whole situation away.
As an OR nurse, Sherman’s story breaks my heart. This is why we are always at the bedside when patients go to sleep and wake up. I know patients most likely will not remember me but I am their advocate when they are under anesthesia. I’d like to think that the extra amnesia medication was in hopes that he would not be traumatized by what he went through, not to avoid a lawsuit. But the fact that they were not forthcoming with what took place tells me this wasn’t the case. Had they informed the family of what happened they may have been able to acknowledge his trauma and work through it in therapy. Instead he had to live in paranoid fear. 💔 What a horrible thing.
Oh I definitely remember you guys being in there every time I have woken up(50+ surgeries so far) it would be freaky as all get out if you woke up alone in recovery. Reminds me too much of the movie Resident Evil. I appreciate you guys. I imagine you have stories yourself of folks being in altered states of mind when they wake up. My birth father is an OR nurse and his woman is an trauma/OR nurse. One of the most demanding jobs ever. Not just physically but psychologically/emotionally..
My OR experience is limited to my tole as Nursery personnel so always C/Sections but I have never forgotten the class day in Nursing school that we were taught that to paralyze someone without also sedating them is cruel. For a patient to be unable to move at all, to breathe, to scream, unconscionable.
@@theresas740 and the scariest thing I ever went through. I really thought they were trying to kill me when it happened. Especially when you didn't have a clue that the paralytic lowered your breathing like that, you really feel like you can't breathe. But it is amazing to know that that is how little air you get when on a paralytic and under sedation and it's actually enough air to live.
@Amanda Young, since you’re an OR nurse, what say you - how can this patient “see” what was happening if he’s paralyzed and draped off? There’s so many things about this story that’s sketchy. Wouldn’t he be intubated? Why weren’t his vital signs monitored? Wouldn’t his pain level be reflected in his heart rate, blood pressure and pulse? Why are they using laparoscopic equipment if Mr. Ballen’s narration makes the viewer believe his abdomen was open and retracted? I don’t doubt the man experienced an anesthetic “event”, what does the surgeon’s and anesthesiologist’s notes/summary state?
This was so anxiety inducing. I cant even start to imagine how horrifying it would be to be basically powerless but still have to endure that pain. I was physically shaking thinking about this.
This last story explains SO MUCH to me, all these years later. They always administer a drug called succinylcholine along with the narcotic painkillers used for the anesthesia; the Succinylcholine is used to prevent sudden, involuntary muscle spasms during the surgery, but that's ALL it does, it does absolutely nothing for pain, so you're fully awake but completely paralyzed. My now-deceased wife described this very thing when she had her hysterectomy; she kept trying to move, scream, do ANYTHING at all to let someone know she was still awake, but no one ever noticed. Afterward, once she was back in her room, the surgeon came in to tell her how everything went, but she interrupted him and told him that something had either gone terribly wrong, or she had had one Hell of a nightmare, as she recounted what she felt and what she heard them talking about (some Goddamned baseball game or something) and she finished by asking him if this was real or if it had just been some insane, drug-induced, terrifying nightmare. Well, he stared at her for a minute, then he slammed his tablet shut, jumped up off his chair, and he snapped at her, "Well, if you know all of THAT, then you already know how everything went!", and he stormed out of the room! In the years following this, she would be tormented with night terrors, really gruesome, blood-and-guts stuff; she would attempt suicide at least twice, she began to have unreasonable, angry outbursts, which was entirely out of character for her, because prior to this surgery, she used to be so quiet and reserved, basically seen but not heard. She became a very prolific shoplifter, eventually getting arrested for it a few times; she ended up on antidepressant drugs, and she had to eventually take drugs for the constant, crippling anxiety and panic attacks, addictive drugs that she would indeed become addicted to, along with narcotic pain killers due to permanent, chronic pain; this woman, my wife, became a stranger to me, she had changed so much from the quiet, church going lady she once was. We never did sue anyone over it; she was quite kind and very meek, and she just saw it as an accident that anyone could make, and she tried to go on with her life, but we NEVER.... neither her nor me, NEVER had it even remotely occurred to us that THIS had been the cause of her sudden onset "mental illness"!! Well, she's in a better place now, Lord willing and God rest her soul, but this just infuriates me because NOW I finally have an answer as to WHY she basically went crazy! She hadn't just suddenly become a psychopath, it was actually PTSD!
Oh my God this must’ve been a horrible realization for you. I’m sorry for your loss and what your wife suffered through. Maybe you should seek legal advice as you may still be within the statute of limitations and you can help protect other people.
My best friends gf was givin the wrong meds by a doc meant for the patient behind her last year, her hair fell out and almost died ,but since docters in high demand they take no responsibility.
Had Sherman's doctors been honest instead of worrying about being sued, at least he may have been able to get some therapy or something... That's so tragic...
The administration of Versed (midazolam) in that situation eould likely still be protocol, with the hope that it would completely remove the memory of the trauma, however some honestly after the procedure would have been nice
OH, IF THERE WAS ONLY SOLUTIONS TO BIG ISSUES Like Homeless People and No-Knock-Raids or Drug-Overusage or Such-and-Such. Ya know, some kind of video that makes terrible people and situations like Mr.Ballen covers less likely to happen. Oh, if TH-camr Some More News only had come up with really good Solutions. But he doesnt even have 1 Mio Subs, so how can it be expected his Solutions even reach the Ears of Politic-Dude-Humans? Oh well, if my mass-commenting to get Attention to this doesnt work, i just migrate to Mars. Whatever.
Sherman’s case happened in 2006. Monitors to trend patient vitals during general anesthesia have been around for decades. Any mid-level or above anesthesia provider would have been able to tell something was amiss even prior to incision (increased heart rate, blood pressure, etc) due to Sherman’s nerves given that he knew what was about to happen. This was a case of gross incompetence pure and simple. Anesthesiologist must have been on the side somewhere talking to one of the nurses as the surgeon proceeded, and should never be allowed to practice again.
If you think about it, it's something easy to solve no? Why pump the chemicals at the same time? Why not the sleepy chemical before the paralyzing? Why didn't they loudly announce SCAPEL since if you're not asleep, you can notice the nerves as you said. Like it's so simple to prevent and yet they neglect to do so.
My father is a nurse anesthetist. He was a regular nurse for many years before this, and he went through many more years of school while I was a child to get to where he is now. Having seen firsthand how hard you have to work to get into anesthesia, I have to believe that last case was either laziness, malice, or both. A deliberate choice went into withholding the correct medications from that man, even if that choice was to not pay attention despite knowing full well the importance of correctly-administered anesthesia during surgery.
My grandmother had a very similar experience as Sherman. She had to get surgery on her eye as she had multiple issues related to cancer around her eye. She was put under but they think she reacted to the anesthesia and was never made unconscious, but she was also not meant to be paralysed either. So once surgery had started she was completely conscious while they started cutting around her eye. She couldn't even move her eyes to make them aware. They only realised she was conscious was because she started crying and her blood pressure and heart rate went through the roof and eventually she passed out. She didn't have psychotic episode like Sherman, but she had nightmares almost every night for years about a surgeon running at her with a scalpel and stabbing at her eye. I have unbelievable respect for my grandmother.
@dthompsont3796 it was probably not to put her to sleep but to relax her but it was either too string or she reacted to the anesthesia and it didn't numb her. Either way that's what happened. Not saying my details are 100% correct but what happened, happened.
@@dthompsont3796this is not true, at all. I’ve had multiple eye surgeries. I was put to sleep for all of them. There are many types of eye surgery where the patient must be or can be put to sleep for.
I’m a doctor myself and listening to the last story made me tearful and gave goosebumps.. I can’t even imagine what he must have gone through and what he felt for those 16 mins. I just can’t.. its scary to even think about it.
I'm 70 years old and could write a book about medical malpractice on personal experiences with family, friends, and acquaintances! I had medical training during the Vietnam War so I understand more than the average Joe. Many in your field are butchers! I choose DNR instead of the meat factory! I pray that you make a difference in those who's lives are placed in your hands.
As an MD, can you think of any reason as to why he wouldn't have experienced tachycardia and increased BP under those circumstances? I've heard these stories before and always wonder why that is. Surely the monitor would alarm if the Anesthesiologist wasn't paying close attention to vitals throughout. Do certain paralytic drugs have an effect on vasoconstriction?
Not only did they make that mistake, but they tried to cover it up. Unbelievable, I’m glad they got sued. They ruined a man’s life and permanently traumatized him and his family. Everyone involved should’ve been fired and barred from any medical occupation in the future.
I had my entire abdomen opened up to repair a hernia in my diaphragm when I was 17. I remember a nurse telling me that I was screaming at some point during the operation, I have no memory of it but it's rather chilling to think that I woke up somehow. On top of that, the nurse who wheeled me to my recovery room, as I had first woke up after the operation, told me to get off the gurney and get into the bed, no one helped me and I moaned the whole time because my entire body felt wooden and sore, but she really couldn't have cared less. I must say that nurses do important work but when you're that vulnerable and get looked after by one like that, it really sours your entire perspective of hospitals.
I wake up and remember. I tell the names of ppl I. The room to my Drs and they are horrified, but are still scared to do better pain control because the stigma on med-seekers! But I can remember the woman's name who handed you the saw and the student who observed- yeah, the one I said I wouldn't allow to watch. Nurses dont lift a hand to help me into a bed in my last three spinal surgeries where my spine was fused with rods and screws. They dont give a rats tail about helping.
I remember after a surgery the nurses rushing me out to my sister's car so they could prerpare for the next patient. I just woke up from major surgery, could barely breathe, was vomiting like crazy. Nurse tried shoving a cheese cracker and a pain killer down my throat, which was so dry my tongue felt like it could disintegrate, and then gave me a plastic baggy and pushed me out of the door! I vomited many times in the parking lot and then we just drove home. Really made the experience kinda crappy.
Hey Mrballen, I had this happen to me in early 2000. A second back surgery. I was face down looking at the floor and paralyzed. Couldn't move, scream nothing! Felt the doctor cut into my lower back and rig on my spine. What a ride. I told the doctor what happened while I was in recovery. Explained to him exactly the steps he took. I finally blacked out. Wow
That last story is the most stressful and disturbing story I have ever heard. Tragic and absolutely bonkers. As usual you do a great job telling it, what a great channel and awesome job your doing!
@@DSP_Gaming0 for real I have had surgeries in the past and luckily that never happened to me and i was just horrified when I was listening to that guy's story
I have to admit.... I've heard several of the stories you've told us, from other sources, but somehow your way of telling them is so unique that over and over again I don't immediately regocnize them!
The explanation of the metal pellet in the reporters leg was the first time I have heard exactly how the poison was released, I new he'd been jabbed with a brolly but wax covered ball was fascinating , best story teller.
The last story just actually caused a mild anxiety attack for me. That was too much to hear and imagine. The idea of going through that pain and terror, then adding not being able to connect the feelings to something is just too much. Your storytelling is beyond amazing!
Unfortunately it happens enough time that they have a machine to uh monitor your brain waves in order to make sure you are past our. I believe there's a whole movie about it about it. One of my biggest fears to be honest
@MrBallen Just for your information, you mentioned in "#2 Bug Bite" that Georgi Markov would stop on the Waterloo Bridge in late 1970's and enjoy the view of the West Minster Palace and the London Eye... There was no London Eye back in the 70's, it was made for the Millennium which opened on New Years Eve in 1999 (However only took its first passengers in Feb 2000). There was a ferris wheel before this but, that was the Great Wheel at Earl's Court that closed in 1906. He would however, definitely been still having a great view of Big Ben, the Royal Festival Hall, and Whitehall Gardens! Great video, just wanted to help :)
What a lovely way to provide information. Some facts gets lost when it’s not a focal part of the story didn’t bug me at all that he included the london eye but it’s nice to gently inform people without revelling in catching someone’s oversight
As I listened to 16 minutes I literally had goosebumps. Thinking about this story from my point of view as a nurse in the OR makes me physically sick. We are there for our patient. When they don’t understand what is going to happen, we prepare them. When they don’t have a voice, we yell for them. When they are at their most vulnerable we protect them. And to hear how this team failed him is utterly heartbreaking. There were so many signals to look out for and they were completely ignored. I just want anyone who is reading this to know, the majority is looking out for you, and this nurse will scream justice for you at all costs.
My sister was in a car crash due to a drunk driver when she was 14. She was heavily intoxicated and the left side of her face and chest were crushed by a phone pole. She laid on a gurney for 14 hours while they worked to get the alcohol and drugs out of her system when she was cleared she was rushed into surgery. The anesthesia didn't work for the first 6 minutes. They knew because her heart rate kept jumping and she would move her tongue with the pain. Because of all the pain and damage to her face and organs and trauma done to her they placed her into a medically induced coma to recover. My parents met with doctors and had agreed to give her this amnesia drug to help her forget the 14 hours of pain on the brink of death and the 7 minutes of surgery. My sister doesn't remember much but has had severe sleep Paralysis since. She's 35 now and has made quite a life for herself as a massage therapist and PI. She has made statements at schools about drunk driving and drug use as well as prescribed medication abuse. She amazes me that she's still with us.
@@blackcat6.2. she still has trauma but she can see smell taste and hear. She doesn't have much feeling in her face but it's mostly metal plated. Her left eye cries almost constantly. She's learned to live again.
My crazy surgery story… I went in for back surgery back in 2014. I was nervous but hopeful. The same doctor had operated on me a few years prior so I had faith that things would be ok. This surgery was a bit more intense than the last though, it was a 360 fusion. Essentially they cut your abdomen open and move your organs around and reach through and take out the bad disc. Then they stitch you up and rotate you, all whilst you’re still under anesthesia and then they cut you back and fuse the spine where the disc was removed. I woke up from surgery and was on a heck of a lot of pain medicine. I don’t really remember much of me being in the hospital except for being hooked up to a drain and pain pump. The doctor didn’t come and see me which I thought was super odd but I just shook it off and she sent her PA to come and handle my case. I should have known this was wrong of her. Well two weeks after surgery I was experiencing extreme pain. My right leg was throbbing in pain so bad and I couldn’t sit down or walk very well without being in excruciating pain. I went to the doctors office for 2wk post op check and she took X-rays and the doc was being such a bitch. I couldn’t understand why she was being so grouchy with me. Well I left the appointment and just dealt with it and she assured me I would start to feel better and my pain was just post op pain. After all I just had spine surgery. Unfortunately for me we moved to Colorado a few weeks later (husband was a US Marine!) and when we got to Colorado I just tried dealing with the pain, it did get a bit better but the physical therapy wasn’t really doing anything for me, I wasn’t feeling 100% and I couldn’t walk very far or sit for long periods of time without getting intense pain. I ended up making an appointment to see a different orthopedic surgeon. She was amazing and very thorough. She took pelvic X-rays and told me to go back the next day for an MRI. This never usually happens and you usually have to wait weeks for an appt! I went for the mri and a few days later I received a phonecall from her nurse saying I needed a new surgery. I about collapsed because if you have ever had spine surgery you know how painful it is and if just endured a really big surgery a few months earlier. Being under anesthesia for 8hrs wasn’t something I wanted to do again. A few days later my husband drove me to my appointment and the doctor was waiting for me with a few other hospital officials. She explained to me that the reason I was in so much pain was because the previous doctor has done what’s known as a Never Event. She had taken a healthy disc out of my spine and replaced it with bone and left the bad disc that had needed removing inside my spine and it had begun to calcify. The doctor said that I needed another fusion to repair the damaged disc and that it would be another extensive surgery but she had to do it otherwise I would lose function of my legs. She was surprised I hadn’t already lost control of my bowel and bladder. I was terrified of getting another surgery. A couple of weeks went by and i went into my second surgery after kissing my two babies goodbye and holding my husbands hand. Funny thing was it was the Marine Corps birthday, 10th November and we were supposed to be attending the ball that night 😔 Wasn’t going to be any dancing for me for a while!! Thankfully the surgery was a success. We had to file a lawsuit against my original doctor and because she had removed a healthy disc and it was proven she had done so, she couldn’t deny it and they had to put out. It’s just shit that the California law hasn’t been changed since the 70s (I think) and there’s a cap on the amount for malpractice cases. It’s not about the money but if I’d had the first surgery in Colorado I would have been a millionaire by now. It would have made the fact that I’ve now developed fibromyalgia a lot easier to swallow! The mental turmoil that I went through was really tough. Just knowing what the doctor did and not being able to change it has been rough. I’m just thankful that my second doctor in Colorado was able to give me my quality of life back. Long story. It’s 4am and I’m an insomniac… if you read this far, God Bless 💕
*hugs* I am sorry that happened to you. I understand, though. I have had Fibromyalgia (among other things) since I was a child. Over the years, various types of traumas have caused it to get worse and worse, but I keep fighting to have as normal a life as possible. Fibromyalgia affects people differently. My entire body, including my insides, hurts. The severity and portion of my body that hurts varies day to day, hour to hour. I feel for anyone living with invisible illnesses. It's difficult enough being sick. Having people not believe you can be very hard, as well. ❤
@Gary Johns you could at least have some empathy, she suffered a very traumatizing experience that is life threatening. How you feel in her shoes? Sometimes it's better to not comment🙄
Both of my kids woke up in the middle of wisdom teeth removal surgery. They were almost immediately put back under. The dentist told them both that they metabolized the anesthesia more quickly than is normal, and to be sure to mention it before any future surgeries. From reading the comments, it's more common than I realized!
That last story did not disappoint. I’ve built a tolerance to scary stories, but that one was on a whole other level. I legit started to have anxiety. Well done, Mr.Ballen. Well done.
My mom said that this happened to her once. She was aware of them cleaning her abdomen and the doctor asking for a scalpel then the nurse noticed her eyes open. That was all she remembered. I greatly fear that this might be a genetic resistance.
Anesthesia awareness happened to my mother when she underwent an emergency C-Section for my sibling. They didn't administer enough of the anesthetic and she felt everything they did to her. Every cut. Every break. Every stitch. She always gets anxious when she needs to get surgery and has panic attacks when she needs to lie on a hospital bed. The fact that she's still alive and (mostly) sane with us almost 30yrs later is a miracle. She's a strong woman.
Happens all the time with C-sections. They can and should numb you, but as far as actually putting you under they can’t. Not safe for the baby or mom. Why didn’t she say she could feel it? Where are you from if you don’t mind my asking cause I know all countries are different.
Yep. I went through this during my cesarean as well. They tried to give me an epidural. I have cardiac complications and they tried to administer the medicine very slowly but my son was in such distress I had to be cut open immediately. I felt everything. I’m sure the entire hospital could hear me screaming. However, we are both doing very well now.
@@kristencat this happened to me as well. It was an emergency and I told them to just cut me and get my baby out and I could feel it all. Worst experience of my life
Having a cesarian makes it twice as likely your child will have ADHD. My friend was born cesarian and you would never know. Though he insists on leaving his house through the window.
I've had multiple surgeries over the years. And the last story, is literally my worst nightmare. I can't imagine what that man was going through. The story gave me chills, just hearing it.
My stepmother did her Master's thesis in Psychology on people who survived suicide attempts made by jumping off the Golden Gate bridge. One of the people she interviewed had been a diver. Midway through his attempt, he changed his mind and changed his position in midair, to ensure his survival.
@@seadragonwitchbitchThere's a documentary called The Bridge. It's about suicides/attempted suicides off Golden Gate Bridge. Kevin Hines, one of the people featured, has a similar story...
It’s truly heartbreaking how those medical “professionals” valued avoiding a lawsuit over the life of another human being alike. No wonder we’re all so divided and distrusting of each other nowadays :(
@Emmett00q8 exactly but that's the problem. What you are saying is that we should just settle for living in a world with no compassion?? That's depressing.. not very inspiring. Money really means nothing trust me...
Sherman's story made me cry. That poor man. It made me think of every trauma I've ever been through, and the body keeps the score. Even if you don't exactly remember those events, something really has changed inside of you and healing needs to occur.
@@FreedomAndJustice4All I don’t think they meant it. Most professionals in that field want to help and fix problems. This experience is more common than we’d like to believe. What happened is shocking and horrific but I don’t think this type of thing is intentional.
@@blues3000 intentional or not, the failed to do their job and on top of that, tried to cover it up. They have no fucking excuse! They are pure evil. 🤬
@@IncendiaT1990 the anesthesiologist failed at their job. The doctor isn’t evil for doing his/her job which is to operate on the patient . 20,000 people this will happen to in one year according to this video. That is a lot of people in the7billion people on the planet. And clearly shows it can be caused by something other than a failure on the medical professionals part. Just a thought tho , obviously the entire story is horrific
@@IncendiaT1990 well, for covering it up, they did a really, really lousy job, what with documenting it so thoroughly. Sounds totally evil, huh? Rather than hoping that the benzodiazapene induced amnesia of the procedure (not a full sized incision, but a couple of inches does feel like a mile being cut and blunt dissected (for better healing than if simply cut)). They could've instead went with propofol, aka "Milk of Amnesia" to obliterate memory, but that's a general, even if it's short acting (also, the drug that killed Michael Jackson). They fucked up, documented it and hoped to not have their malpractice insurance go up due to litigation. But, fucking up is pure evil, therefor everyone who ever lived is evil, as we've all fucked up at some time or another. Well, except for me. I'm a perfect 10, alas, on the Richter scale... Pretty sure that the illustrated dictionary has my picture under fuck up. ;)
I've watched a number of your "mature audiences only" videos now...this is the first one that seriously messed me up. The fact that last story is something that can and did actually happen is the most horrifying thing I think I may have ever heard, and I'm pretty sure I'd rather die than ever submit to surgery again...
The worst part, is that if they hadn’t taken away the memory. He wouldn’t have felt insane, it still would’ve been traumatizing but he would know that the images that plagued him were from an event that has past and he could get therapy and heal. They basically forced him into a position where he could only be gaslit. What an awful thing to put someone through.
They might have thought they were doing him a favour; if you can't remember pain, can it still hurt you? (Obviously the answer is yes in this case, but they might not have known that.)
I don't blame him for taking his life. It's sad but I've had a traumatic childhood that my family forced me to try and forget. They constantly gaslit me and told me it was all just my imagination. They finally told me the trauma I am experiencing was real and it all happened the day after I tried to take my life. It's horrible, it makes you feel so crazy and just out of touch with the world. It makes you feel like you're attention seeking and you can't get help. It's a horrible hopeless feeling that seems like it never has an answer and you just can't escape it. I have nothing but pure love and empathy for Sherman. I have ever since I first heard about this and I can never ever stop coming back to it.
@@intuitivemischief3167 - I think if they were trying to do that, they could have just stopped his heart & killed him... so I don't think that's what they were trying to do. I sincerely think they were trying to help him AND themselves, both
I had vericocele surgery when I was 15 and this actually happened to me too, except they caught it before the surgery happened and they didn’t tape my eyes shut. They administered the pain killer and paralysis drug but when I got knocked out, I came back like 15 seconds later and I heard a nurse scream “he’s awake!” And then they put me out again. Lmao then I woke after the surgery was over, strapped to a hospital bed in the upright position, and not like, slightly elevated. It was almost completely vertical. And they had a tube down my throat pumping oxygen into my system. Then I started screaming and they came to me and started laughing and were like “we had to put a breathing tube in you because your oxygen was too low!” Then they pulled the tube out and I was coughing up blood for the rest of the day because they didn’t lubricate it properly. I still wonder what else happened during that surgery. I think surgery’s need to be recorded. Crazy.
I had something similar happen when I was a kid (decades ago). They put me out and began the procedure. There was no cutting, but it involved inserting a tube down my pee-hole, and at some point I woke up and saw what they were doing and felt it. They noticed I was awake and put me out again, but the experience caused long lasting fear & mental trauma. I was just a kid (maybe 5 or 6 years old) and couldn't tell anyone, as I was so young and just couldn't explain anything, other than it happened during the surgery, but my Mother didn't think anything of it and just attributed it to fear of a kid & didn't question any further. Over the years the memory would get triggered on rare occasions and I would remember waking up and experiencing the pain, followed by slowly drifting off again and waking up after the procedure in a hospital bed in extreme pain. It wasn't until I was much older that I could piece it together and figure out what happened. And I did some research to be sure and I found out that it was actually a medical procedure performed way back then, but has since been done away with long ago. So I know it actually happened.
The anesthesiologist or nurse anesthetist should be present during any procedure for this reason and they are supposed to monitor the patient the entire time. They should be monitoring brain activity the entire time. They don’t want to administer too little anesthetic so you don’t wake up, but they don’t want to give you a little too much so you don’t overdose either. I too have woken up during surgery, don’t remember feeling any pain, I do remember hearing the nurse anesthetist that introduced herself to me before surgery, but I promptly fell back “asleep.” God bless that woman. No doctor should just come in, knock you out, then go to the next person. They should also be monitoring what’s going on at all times.
The episode about the man who felt his surgery was definitely reality, I have been in advanced medical care as an advanced medical professional for over 20 years, first as an Expert Combat Medic to Emergency Medicine RN to PhD Health Psychology & Doctor Of Naturopathy (ND), and as a nurse, I assisted with a few surgeries and witnessed several major screwups, i.e wrong limb amputated, eye destroyed with a laser scaple, removal of the wrong section of intestine, and several other major screwups as well as countless minor ones and I came to truly believe that something, regardless of how significant, but something goes wrong during every surgical procedure, and you definiently don't want to hear what the surgical team talks about during your procedure, I've rarely seen anyone talk negative about the patient on the table, but they certainly talk about everything else and some of it is down right funny but some is extremely private information about previous or upcoming patients, I left the nursing field mainly because of the "political" nature of advanced nursing, clicks, cover ups, candles, etc, you'd think you were working for congress, but as a psychologist/ND I truly love my profession and I go out of my way to be as professional as possible but we're all human and mistakes and down right crap judgement happens every day, so I warn every one to do extensive research on any Doctor or other Professional that you entrust major medical treatment to, get to know them, I for one allow my patients to ask me any thing they won't to, and I actually answer honestly regardless of if its embarrassing or positive, and if my patient shares something embarrassing or odd or what have you with me I share a similar story of my own if I have one that is relevant and I have found that in my case at least, it builds greater trust and respect with my patient and I
I had to have a urology/nephrology procedure under anesthesia with an intern and trust me, as a woman, I do not like interns judging my privates. I know they try to be professional, but I'm sure if you're not perfect and get the wrong kind of person, they have some things to comment on (at least in private).
As soon as he said camera, I knew what the procedure is and the incision is around an inch or two, depending upon the camera/light unit (it's fiberoptic, but has dual channels for video and light to be piped in, as the human body is rather poorly illuminated inside for some reason). Still, that's still not the most pleasant experience in the world, given one's opening skin and then muscle and widening the opening with hemostats and fingers, then inserting a trochar to guide the fiberoptic unit. It's not quite as severe as many cases each year, where major open surgery is performed on a patient who had anesthesia fail. My wife was lucky. Went in for a C section, had a migraine and didn't think to tell doctor. She was wide awake when someone noticed tears and the surgeon lost all sense of decorum in a manner much akin to this retired US Army NCO's command of profanity. The anesthesiologist then increased the dosage, rendering her unconscious and shortly after birth, coding. Something undocumented, but the electrode burns are distinctive and it was in her chart.
My Stepfather experienced "Anesthesia Awareness" for the entire surgery to fix his torn Achilles tendon. When he finally came out of it and told the nurse and doctors what happened, they didn't believe him..... Until he repeated back all the various conversations the doctors and nurses had between them during the surgery. They were shocked....my Stepfather said it was the most brutal experience of his lifetime.
people get terrified coz they cam hear and understand staffs talking with each other.they probably imagine it when they say,cut the ligament or suture the skin
@@dakshinanair2398i had 3 knee surgeries, 2 of them i was put to sleep and the first of those 2 was so much work they gave me a 36 hour nerve block in my hip down to ease the pain a little when it wore off. Not being a smartass, im not a nurse or anything but in my case, [acl, mcl, meniscus & patellar tendon surgery] i was put out twice. The 3rd surgery on the same knee months later was just for scar tissue removal and i was awake for that one
Certain drugs administered into the body lower heart rate, part of it is required for surgery to keep a patient from bleeding out too fast. Heart rate too high blood kinda gets all over, heart rate low they can keep the patient alive
Someone saw something and it was covered up. To save their ass. Doctors are extremely corrupt!!! I do not trust them at all. Theyre bullies, narcissists, insane inhumane pieces of garbage.
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How does content this awesome manage to hide from me for so long? I just discovered MrBallen's TH-cam channel earlier today and I've lost track of how many videos I've already watched and enjoyed. You're an amazing storyteller, MrBallen! I'll keep watching!
The last story about the surgery gives me flashbacks. When I was in 4th grade, I had bad stomach pains for days. Little did I know, it was my appendix. The doctors I went to, had no clue what was wrong with me, or why stomach was hurting. My parents finally take me to the ER. The last thing I honestly remember, was talking to the receptionist and telling them how I felt. Next thing you know, I get this bad taste in my mouth. All I see is bright lights gleaming down on me, I pull whatever is clinging to my face that's giving me the bad taste. (it was the oxygen mask) I leaned my head up, shaking of the groggy feeling, as the blurred surgeon and nurses started clear. I heard a soft, "ooop, woah buddy, you're not supposed to be awake" they proceed to reapply my mask. I then woke up in my room to recover. Still a crazy memory I have, never left my mind.
That’s so cool to hear dude, I have a similar story to this but never heard of anyone who also went through similar stuff. I had a couple of knee surgeries when I was a teenager, and on the third time I had to undergo surgery I remember of a flashback I had during the operation; I just remember my vision going from very dark and blurry to just blurry but getting brighter, and soon enough I could distinguish some colours, which were mainly that light green from medical staff clothes and white. I also remember bringing my head slightly up and trying to change the focus of my sight, and when I tilted my eyes to the side, I just remember that it took quite a while for the image to become concrete. The best way I can describe this is: imagine you’re playing a first-person video game and when you control the camera, there’s a delay to display the image related to how fast you turned your head to look to the side; I don’t know if I was clear enough here but I tried. Last thing I remember is seeing the silhouette in the shape of a human standing tall right next to my lying body, which was obviously either a doctor or a nurse, and soon enough everything went black again, so I assume they noticed me awake and set me back asleep. This probably lasted something around 30 seconds only and I didn’t feel any pain at all too; to this day, 6-7 years later, I am not fully sure if this really happened or if that was a hallucination or something alike, but reading your story kind of reassured that for me
“16 mins” was the first time I’ve ever felt personally connected to a story you’ve told. Having been awake for about 2mins while they cut me open for an emergency C-section, that pain and fear is on a whole different level. To this day I still can’t be put under, due to panic attacks going in and coming out. So horrific what they did to him and the pain his family has to live with now.
@@ckay8145 it’s due to the fact that planned/less emergent c-sections aren’t done under full anesthesia like other surgeries, rather regional anesthesia with epidurals
@@ckay8145 it's a very big issue. modern obstetrics and gynecology is not based in any way on evidence for what works best during birth, and ignores traditional midwifery techniques which were proven. it has a lot to do with racism and colonialism. it's very, very sad. the worst countries for it are america, ireland, and the uk. the best countries for giving birth are places like france, ghana, finland, jamaica, places with a strong midwife culture that resisted victorian "science" around birth.
I used to work in the medical field, when I was in the Army. I can't imagine someone going through that kind of pain. And for those doctors who decided to give him the medicine to wipe away his memory is appalling. I pray that not only did this family sue for money, but also had their licenses removed. My prayers go out to that family.
Yes!!! This was the most sickening part. I didn't even know those drugs existed. I heard about this case before but I bad no idea the doctors gave him those drugs
Every one on that surgery team should needs to be arrested for making him feel some of the worst torture anyone could feel. I can’t even imagine the horrific pain of people cutting you open and moving around your organs, then dislodging your gallbladder. The worst part is he felt everything for 16 minutes straight, and when they realized he was awake the gave him more drugs to make him forget what caused the trauma and pain. It is sad because of there choices he ended up taking his own life. 🕊️ R.I.P Sherman Sizemore 🕊️
As a nurse this really pisses me off. Anaesthatists have ONE job to do, and they get paid a Shit ton of money to do it. If the family hasnt done their own investigations, that incompetent anaesthatist would have gone and done it to the next patient. In my country New Zealand the patients must be informed of such incidents by law, and they are covered by a national accident compensation insurance that gives them extremely well funded, lifelong care if needed. There was no justice for Sherman though. Now I have to go to bed feeling upset.
Exactly, its so triggering knowing that if that one stupid person didnt do that one stupid and extremely avoidable mistake could've potentially saved an innocent man from commiting suicide.
Same here in the UK. Never mind the law it's your ethical responsibility to inform the patient and be totally transparent. Then you offer support, whether it be mental health or physical health. I'm a nurse too, and mistakes are made, but this was purely putting a patient at risk to save their arses.
@@constitution_8939 I administer Midazolam all the time and like any drug that can have sedative effects there is always the possibility of an overdose. Which is basically what's happening if the kidneys begin to fail, or you get respiratory depression. However, in elderly patients the kidneys tend not to work optimally and I'm sure COVID was already causing massive problems in their respiratory system. The problem I have with your comment is this: was it the Midazolam that caused the death of these patients and how on earth do you know that they weren't going to die anyway? Kidney failure is often a part of old age, with or without this drug. COVID-19s effect on the physiology of the elderly patients will have been destructive anyway. The 2 points you made about kidney failure and respiratory failure ARE components of overdose BUT they are also components of Covid AND old age. I don't get how you know that ALL these deaths were attributed to ONE DRUG, when there are alternative possibilities for these deaths. Where did you get this info?
"If the family hasnt done their own investigations, that incompetent anaesthatist would have gone and done it to the next patient." So you are saying this happens in every one of his surgeries? He never gets it right? I would also think that a nurse would know how to spell "anesthetist", but I guess you never make mistakes. (How ironic!)
Poor Sherman, and his family. Pains me to think if they hadn’t been so negligent, and then shady on top of it he’d still be with us... the irony is they still had a law suit on their hands. Likely a much larger settlement after he took his own life.
If someone decided to locate all of those medical people involved in what happened to Sherman, and expose them to similar levels of pain... I wouldn't have a problem with that. Not at all.
It’s quite common that general anesthesia lowers heart rate in older patients, mostly caused by the paralytic. Usually 40-60 bpm. Most cases of death in the operating room in age 60+ is due to minor undetected heart issues which were exacerbated by anesthesia. That’s what makes it so risky. Despite being panicked, the medication definitely could’ve kept him in the 40-60 bpm range.
In this day and age they definitely do measure the heart, but, more importantly, also an EEG (brain scan) to be able to see differences in consciousness. This -shouldn't- happen anymore, though it still does sometimes (as anesthesia is still a badly understood field of medicine). Keep in mind, though, that part of the anesthesiologist's job is also to keep the heart rate & blood pressure stable, so the heart rate would likely not spike as much as you'd think -- hence the EEG.
The way you told that last story in particular was fantastic. All of them were great, but that was a zinger. An absolute nightmare of a scenario. Thanks so much for monetising your talents and skills in story telling, all success much deserved.
In Sherman Sizemore's story, MrBallen spent a little less than 16 minutes of story telling, but that felt like an hour or two! I just can't imagine the pain he went through.
The drug propofol does the mobilizing feels like being paralyzed ..I had it for a colonoscopy ..I would never have ever again ..if I needed to say help while under it I could not ..scared me They use it was told because patient wakes up quickly and has no side affects No one discussed what would be used..always did before He may of had that Horrible experience
The sedative Midazolam is a drug that was given to thousands of elderly C - 19 patients in hospitals in England in 2020 & 2021 and given so much of either before or while on ventilators that shutdown their kidneys flooding their bodies with water and bodily fluids that made it's way to their lungs to the point of drowning them while on these ventilators and Killed them. This was One method of how these Murdering Criminals have increased the "C 19 Death" numbers by killing all these people that would Not have died otherwise. This is a FACT and I'd go on but even this statement may be Deleted by TH-cam so I'll leave it at that not even sure if this information can found on the net because of this whole Criminal Conspiracy begun by Fauci and others who should have already been Hanged for "Crimes Against Humanity" and Mass Murder.
I was 14 when I was diagnosed with leukemia. Part of my treatment was to get a bone marrow biopsy every few months to check for lymphocytes. Because I was so young, they didn't want to overdo the anaesthesia so they wound up not giving me enough the 2nd time they did the biopsy. I woke up in the middle of them taking out a chunk of bone from my hip to get at the bone marrow. I still remember the sound of the machines, the extreme pain, and screaming. I remember them trying to calm me down, promising it was almost over, and calling over the anesthesiologist before I faded back to sleep. They at least told my mom what had happened. It was nearly 28 years ago and definitely not for 16 minutes, but I still remember bits and pieces. That clarinet run in Rhapsody in Blue always reminds me of the pain and awakeness (and the screaming) from that surgery.
Red Vines, Dude! Similar story here!! Got diagnosed with leukemia as I was 4 year olds, don't remember much of the treatments I was administered it as i'm now 26 and on full recovery since i'm 13. But the ONE thing i remember is exactly that "bone marrow biopsy every few months"... Basicaly they use anaesthesia, don't know what the mix of drugs exactly is, but what I know is that they were using something called "Hypnovel" that was supposed to put you in a trance-like state so you don't feel anything... Turned out I was allergic to that stuff and instead of calming me down and put me to sleep, It had the exact opposite effect. Putting me in a verry agressive mood like if I was becoming ferral but capable of speech (as my mom told me), apparently i was biting and screaming insults (I supposedly wasn't supposed to know at my age) to every person present in the room. Right after they used an "antidote?" to stop the effect of hypnovel, I came back to conciousness being strapped on the bed with an arm splint and a transfusion, totally unaware of what had just happened. Since then I had to go through those bone marrow biopsy only with Nitrous oxide (laughing gas). So basicaly I felt every single one of them but also had to laugh during it... I can tell you it wasn't very fun at all and since you'd experienced that type of pain, I'm sure you can agree too... But all that is behind me now and I'm thankfull for the doctors hard work to get me rid of this cancer. Stay safe mate, happy you've beaten it too! (PS: Sorry for any misspells I'm french)
@@gypsyrose8485 yeah, except this is "common", some people dont feel the effects of anesthesia and you could also develop a resistance to it, so while sometimes the doctors fuck up and cover it up, many times its just that they dont know, i mean, theyll ask you questions before anesthesia to try and tell if you wont be fully effected by it, the point of my comment being, its not always the doctors fault, nor is it always avoidable.
I almost got sick listening to the third story. I couldn't imagine the pain that man went through. The way you tell the story feels like your right there with him. I love the way you get into the story and bring it to life.
I listen to every kind of story on this channel I'm a big fan of crime and I've heard everything and ask you started going into detail I got nauseous and had to cut it off
It's rare that videos like this actually disturb me as a lifelong horror enthusiast. They enrage, disgust, sadden, but typically do not give me that chilling, nauseating sense of terror. The last story did that for me. There are few things I can imagine that are as horrifying as that.
My husband experienced a portion of the anesthesia awareness when he went in for a colon resection. The surgeon had intended to use a lesser anesthesia for the surgery, but my husband's family has issues with certain types of anesthesia. He remembers feeling about 30 seconds of the cut, and then the doctors must have seen his blood pressure spike and they administered a stronger anesthesia, causing his recovery time to be two hours longer than originally planned. Add to that, the hospital had written his instructions down incorrectly when he said to only tell me or his father about his status, and instead said that they couldn't tell me anything as to why he wasn't out of surgery yet. When the nurse did finally decide to say something, she walked up and said "Can I talk to you privately?" My heart nearly stopped of course, and all she then said was "I'm not allowed to tell you, but he's okay." That day isn't anything that I would wish upon anyone else!
@@xan8466 He was definitely not happy after. They failed to notice that the pain meds weren't helping either for several days. But that got resolved thankfully. He hasn't seemed to have much trauma, but I know that he does get periodic nightmares. It's been over a decade now, and the dreams aren't as frequent.
@@jenniferhof9448 ah, I see. Im always terrified of large surgeries because I see examples of this. I'm sorry to hear about what happened, and wish you both the best, then
@@xan8466 I can understand that fear for sure! I have been through so many surgeries myself, and I can say that I have never had an issue like this. Thank you so much for the well wishes! Here's to good health for you and yours!
I feel horrible due to my mother inform about waking as proccess was almost finished. 😭how much I didn't grasp the impact. I pray her spirit knows my ignorance at the time. If I could only comprehended & been a voice😭😟
Some of these stories make me extremely anxious but I have NEVER felt anxiety like when he was telling that last story. That was a straight up nightmare
Because of stories like these I was extremely scared of being woken up when I got my wisdom teeth out. I have a big tolerance to pain killers and muscle relaxers which I didn't take or find out about until I was 19 first time I took either of them it didn't affect me at all except make me itchy. I was so scared of waking up during my wisdom teeth removal and none of my family thought I would but I told the dentist in charge about it. I woke up in the middle but he had a girl looking for any signs and withdrew then put me under again. Thank God the dental surgeon listened when I told him there's a big chance ill wake up i have a high tolerance
I actually had the last story happen to me. I woke up when I was getting a rod put into my thigh and couldn’t open my eyes. I was able to start rocking back and forth on my shoulders though and I literally heard someone say “oh fuck he’s awake put him out put him out.” Honestly never even crossed my mind to sue. I was already in such unbelievable amounts of pain from shattering my femur that it really didn’t even hurt anymore than it already did. I think you just cap out at a certain threshold where your body is just like whatevs - a 10 is a 10.
I had a heart surgery and several years later eye surgery in the hospital. They had to cut both eyes open and fiddle with the stuff inside. I normally get about 9-12 shots, at the eye drs office, in each eye every 3 weeks due to a medical condition causing my sight to fail. But this full surgery was neccessary as it was getting worse. I could still see. I'm never numb for the shots. And you very much can feel those needles and pressure of liquid into the eyes. I was fully awake for everything and could feel everything every time. Couldn't speak during the hospital surgies though. And they had administered the full dosages of everything those times. I would rather die than go through that again. And during my emergency c-section, the epidural didn't work. They shot me 3 times with a numbing agent, i felt the needle wiggling in my spine. Then they tried 3 more times with the epidural. I also felt all 3 of those wiggling in my spine. But none of it worked. I felt everything then too. But they had to do it, as both me and my son were dying. He was suffocating and my organs were failing fast. I will never go through it again.
I woke up on the table during a surgery. The doctor tried to deny that it had happened. My shoulders were bruised from them trying to hold me down. I have vague memories of the trauma but I know it happened.
I've heard stories of anesthesiologists having patients that had very high tolerance towards the drugs they were given but I've never heard of them outright denying that the patients woke up and were feeling everything. They just usually keep giving the patient more and more until they reach the highest dosage they can give, and if that doesn't work then the patient just has to endure until it is over.
Me too, woke up during an appendix surgery. But luckily my doctor admitted that it happened and apologized a hundred times. I don't remember being in pain, but I remember very clearly I was not able to breathe and trying to get air so bad and of course panicked. But they knocked me out again right away.
I was in a reasonably bad road accident when I was a teenager and had to have emergency surgery at the scene, they couldn't administer anaesthetic as there was none/nobody to administer it so they just pumped me full of as much morphine as they could and went to work. The memory is a little hazy but I clearly remember looking down at my leg whilst they were going at it with scalpels and a drill, that shit terrified me.
Sherman’s story is just terrifying on a primal level. You would think the heart rate and such would tell the surgeons something. Great vids MrBallen, love the channel.
there is no sure way to tell if a patient is experiencing awareness. There is also no medical definition of being 'put to sleep.' It is defined medically as being totally unaware and not making any memories. Heart rate can be a good indicator of pain, and there is a device they can put on your head that will monitor your brain waves to see if you're active while under. Before the invention of paralytics, lots of patients died on the operating table as a result of the trauma their bodies go through while surgery is performed, so they are crucial for patient safety, but the story shows that medical professionals can be very lax in their care for you, which is why you should always bring things like this up especially if you are having surgery and putting your life in their hands.
@@gownerjones MD here. There is some respiratory and cardiac depression but nowhere near enough to offset the elevation that would be expected from someone being cut in pieces. It was likely a case of incompetence where they failed to monitor vitals regularly and I assume the older machines lacked alarm functions perhaps?
The fact that 20000 people A YEAR are traumatized during surgery is mind boggling and absolutely horrifying. all of those doctor's and nurses are probably still practicing and it makes me sick, they tried to wipe this guys mind instead of admitting they fucked up and killed a man. should be in prison
I was definitely traumatized during surgery...an emergency c-section. The surgery was completely unnecessary. I was in labor and dilated 1cm the day before the birth of my baby boy. Had the same midwife as I had during my first pregnancy. She was awesome! First pregnancy was a dream. Delivered naturally, no issues during that pregnancy nor in delivery. Natural delivery, baby was out in less than 30 mins of active labor. 2nd pregnancy, same (until delivery). Textbook pregnancy, no issues, had the same midwife (Jessica). She was staff at a very well respected OB/GYN office that had just hired a new OB/GYN physician, fresh out of school/residency. I had never met this man once. At all. Ever. Back to the story...went to the hospital after contractions began (remember, I had been to midwife the DAY BEFORE, she examined me, I was one cm dilated, she could feel baby's head, so he was effaced, as a baby should be right before delivery! Went to hospital following day after midwife appt, ultrasound was done. Baby was still head down, in position. But staff nurses said to go home, eat Taco Bell (LITERALLY told me that), come back after contractions were less than 5 mins apart. Followed instructions. Back at hospital, nurse techs said they "couldn't find" his head. Brought other techs in, said they couldn't read ultrasound. I'm in SEVERE pain b/c they're shoving their arms into me, no one seems to know what the hell they're doing. Instead of calling my midwife, they contact the new OB/GYN b/c he's on call & at the hospital. Again...NEVER MET THIS MAN IN MY ENTIRE PREGNANCY! He comes in, looks at me, & says to the staff, not me: "let's just take her in for an emergency c-section. We have other labors here at the moment." I tried arguing, seeing as it's MY body & MY baby. Next thing I know, I'm being wheeled into surgical suite. My husband said it looked like a horror film they way they were yanking organs out & slapping them on a surgical table. Long story long, my body has NEVER been the same. They discharged us less than 24 hours later. Never made sure my bowels were working. Went home so impacted that I cannot explain the amount of pain I was in. Now my son is almost 18, and my body has never been the same. I live in a pain that I would not wish on Satan. I have almost zero quality of life. If not for my children and my husband, I wouldn't be here. I suffer every single day. And now that doctors refuse to give pain meds to those who ACTUALLY need it, my life is spent in bed almost exclusively. As far as meds go, I would give anything just to have a resolution...even if it means removal of scar tissue from time to time. Nothing would please me more than to have a truly educated specialist who knows an answer to this nightmare. Sorry for the very long rant. I have all but given up on the medical community. All I want is someone who will listen to me and help. I pray to God that no mom EVER has to experience⅛th of what I had to suffer through, and still do to this day. God Bless everyone who stuck with my story. ❤❤❤ 21:16
I thought I was going to be most interested in Number 2, the Ricin assassination. But Sherman Sizemore's ordeal is absolutely chilling. The anesthesiologist more or less killed Sherman outright. He had one job, administer two drugs and he screwed it up. The real kicker is the coverup attempt. That is just so damn cowardly it boils my blood. I hope that doctor never worked in a hospital ever again.
Its name is Bruce Cannon anesthesiologist. The whole hospital should be tried for murder, crimes against humanity corruption, perversion. These evilist of things are guilty. Putrid pure evil. They push the bs. The whole community of perverts. Pure total evil
@@TrendK1ller The human mind and body have survived millions of years of trauma, we adapt with time. Although women are much better at forgetting pain than men are.
I think Robert should still hold the record for highest jump (at the time). They gave the title to Larry Donovan because he quote "survived" but technically so did Robert. His friends say he spoke to them before he died so technically he survived the fall. It's more like he died from complications due to his injuries. Although the injuries were the direct cause, it wasn't an immediate death if what his friend say is true and he did speak to them. Idk. Seems like we might as well give it to him.
@@stkyfngrszmooth well these bots are literally all over TH-cam Sad that TH-cam focuses on problems that don’t exist and don’t do anything about these bots
Your videos help me more than you know. Some of us have mental health issues. Mine is clinical depression. Your stories help me escape and get up and get life done. Best story teller I've yet to hear. Thank you. I find your kindness to the victims, making them human is amazing.
Sherman's story of "anesthesia awareness" happened to me 10 years ago during kidney surgery. I was also 8 months pregnant. You explained it very well. It's a terrifying and extremely painful experience. I was completely helpless and was trying so hard to indicate that I was awake but I couldn't move or do anything else and just had to lay there and endure the TORTURE. I was also intubated, which is not supposed to happen when someone is conscious. The apparatus breathes for you, so you can't feel yourself breathing but also somehow aren't dying. It feels like drowning without dying. Then add the pain of the tubes and surgical devices and other medical interventions. Then add the fact of knowing your baby could be at risk too during this whole situation. It was absolutely the worst experience and felt like an eternity. The anesthesiologist also tried to give me an amnesia drug right after (I started screaming when the paralytic wore off and the tube was out of my trachea at the end of the surgery when they would normally be waking the patient up). My mom was there thankfully and she refused to allow it and blocked them from touching me because the drug was not healthy for my baby and could pose a huge risk if I was to go into labor from the shock of this incredibly traumatic experience. The anesthesiologist sent me a letter a few weeks later apologizing and claiming that the hospital had started some educational classes in hopes to avoid this happening ever again. I never sued them, but I should have. I was overwhelmed by that time, with a new baby and horrible flashbacks keeping me awake at all hours. I was exhausted and traumatized and alone. I still think about it and have night terrors about it. I still have emergency level blood pressure and heart rate spikes when entering ANY healthcare facility due to the PTSD this experience left me with. I have been waiting for a really popular TH-camr to talk about this subject and how horrible it really is. Many people have heard of it, but think it's probably a myth or an exaggeration. Or they think it's extremely rare and basically never happens. As you said, it happens to thousands every year but the majority do not remember it. More people need to know about this and something needs to be done about it (there IS a way to confirm a patient is completely unconscious before starting a surgery, but it's time consuming and expensive so they don't do it). I wouldn't wish this horror on even my worst enemy. Thank you for talking about this!
Oh, what you went through!! So many things happening -- and while you were pregnant! Thank God your Mother was there to stop them from giving you the amnesia drug!
OH MY LORD!!! That sounds incredibly painful. I'm so sorry you went through that. I've never had surgery but if I do I'm going to make sure to remind them to give me the drug that will knock me out. Honestly surgery scares me half to death and this just makes it even more terrifying. Again I'm so sorry you had to go through that and I hope you have gotten the help you need to overcome the trauma.
@@matthewcrispinwordofGod I've been thinking about this as well. If they adminster the anesthesia first, they can check to see if you are feeling anything -- then administer the paralytic drug. My husband had to have surgery on his leg. The doctor & anesthesiologist were planning general anesthesia, but we convinced them to anesthetize only the leg. Reluctantly they agreed. Afterwards the doctor commented on how well the surgery went that way and that he may suggest it to future patients. I know general anesthesia is necessary for a lot of surgeries, but they use it sometimes when they don't need to -- for their own convenience.
I knew Sherman, my aunt played piano in his church. It was a very sad and tragic event. Thank you for your storytelling and the way you captivate the listener and honor the victims you cover.
That's such a sad story. I pray for that man's family. I would have a hard time dealing with knowing one of my loved ones went through so much by someone that's supposed to help you feel better.
Holy moly, Sherman’s case is so incredibly screwed up. The fact that doctors made the decision to give him an amnesiac unwillingly because of something they screwed up with? That is horrible!
Or maybe They did it so he would not be scared for life but in the end it did not work either way it was a bad choice and should of instead got the family and ask them if that’s what they want them to do and then give him mental help.
@@juicedup14 not all nor most doctors, but a few doctors do have a chip on their shoulder something about the power to kill someone n have the knowledge to bring them back to life so dont mess with me, or their worried about the higher cost of malpractice insurance rates going up
I did an aesthetic rotation while doing my nursing degree. The pt is constantly monitored, and in a lot of cases we were actually monitoring brain activity as well. Just in case. Because it's rare, but it happens. I can also understand giving him drugs to forget what happened, but out of compation. They would have been horrified by what they had accidentally done. But it shouldn't have been covered up. We have procedures in place to handle things when they go wrong and make sure it never happens again. It's a horrific nightmare. And if they'd been honest, Sherman might have had a better outcome.
That’s not compassion, that’s medical negligence and they should have been criminally charged. I hope for your patients sakes you don’t “understand” giving someone amnesia drugs to forget the trauma you just caused them. And it’s “anesthetic.” - signed, a rad tech.
The third story leaves me wondering how a heart monitor wouldn’t have alarmed everyone to the patient’s current state of panic. Surely his heart rate was incredibly high when he was panicking?
This is exactly my question! Did the paralytic impact heart rate? If not, the doctors should have been alerted to the skyrocketing rise of his heart rate to know something was seriously wrong!
Paralytics are weird. Some have no side effects others have literally everything. The changes they’re looking for have more to with the heart rhythm not the rate. So unless the rate is REALLY slow or REALLY fast it doesn’t pull much attention. They’re taught to look for changes in the rhythm / “pattern” of the heart squiggles. That go from normal to deadly. We also don’t know his medical hx. Most elderly people are on many different meds (like stuff for high BP, heart arrhythmias, etc.) over time they develop a therapeutic amount of those drugs in their bodies that don’t allow their HR & BP to show the same changes like you or I would to things like pain, anxiety, stress etc. I’ve seen elderly people with gnarly injuries & their HR not get above 80. One of the biggest reasons we tell people to “treat the patient not the monitor”. What a truly tragic event though, I couldn’t imagine his pain & trauma. Heartbreaking.
Sometimes the surgical team are too invested in the surgery and don't notice the monitor, specially because there's someone in the room precisely for that. That is the anesthesiologist job, they clearly were not in the room; I've seen anesthesiologists administer extra pain killers because they notice heart rate going up. This indeed sounds like a massive screw up
I always had a fear of these things so the last time I had surgery 10 years ago, as I was being wheeled in to the theatre I asked the anesthesiologist was it possible to happen and they assured me no, because they would be monitoring my heart rate the whole time and it’s horror story stuff 🤷🏻♂️ It put my mind at rest but I still fear it to this day. Especially when watching videos like this 🤣
Ugh, the Sherman-story is so tragic and reminds us of how advanced our brains are. 😞 As a survivor and sufferer of PTSD, I get really tired when people say that it is good to not remember something bad that has happened. A part of our brains will always remember and send out some very uneasy signals to the rest of the body. It is horrible when you really can't remember the whole event or just some picture of it, cause you can't apply the signals in your body to something that makes sense.
It is horrible. I experience this regularly. I’m fortunate that I married a woman who is hell bent on helping me through my past trauma. I still have memories from my childhood that are so buried that I don’t remember them until one night they will flood back and I will be a withered weeping mess for the next couple days as I recount what has happened to me and finally after all these 30+ years process it and get through it. I think it’s our brains defense against seeking death when something so horrible happens we would normally kill ourself.
@@coreyh55 When I was a kid I had this dream that I remembered. That is, until I was about 9 when my next door neighbor came over to talked to me and she was telling me "she was so sorry that happened to me" and went on to tell me a story about what he uncle did to her. I just sat there and listened and after she left I asked my mom what she was talking about and my mom told me what happened to me when I was little. That was when I realized the "dream" I would remember bits and pieces of was not a dream at all. My mom and the neighbor had gotten in an argument and my mom went on to explain to her about why she was over protective of me. She told her about what happened to me, but didn't think to mention that I didn't really remember it. Or at least my parents thought I didn't remember it since I never mentioned anything. The neighbor talking to me that day and me finding out it wasn't a dream fucked me up more than the trauma itself in my opinion.
A bunch of traumatic shit happened to me when I was too young to form memories, and then later in my life when I was very intoxicated. Now my nervous system is broken, so I have chronic tachycardia, seizures and panic attacks, all because of PTSD
If y'all develop an unexplained neurological problem and you have past trauma, look up Functional Neurological Disorder, it's pretty common, but not well understood and it's often misdiagnosed
Also, I thought the anesthesiologist is supposed to stay by the patient during the entire procedure to monitor them. When Mr Ballen said they yelled for him to "get over here" I was even more shocked.
these days ...more and more doctors and nurses are incompetent ... and I've had an experient with an lunatic doctor who's not at the medical practice anymore
@@scatdog1 I was awake during an actual operation. I had to have a c section under general anesthesia because stuff wss going very wrong. While they were starting to knock me out I was very shocked and kept thinking I'm sure I'm not supposed to feel this. I then went under very briefly but woke again and could feel everything.. I couldn't understand why I wasn't passing out from shock. After all in TV shows etc they show patients.. Well anyone really gets so much pain they black out. I didn't. I had that thought foremost in my mind as it was happening, don't worry you'll pass out very soon, any second it iwll happen, now? Nothing. I did eventually go under but I don't know why. The Dr's didn't believe me until about 2 days later when I repeated a very detailed conversation two nurses were having with the anesthetist and surgeon. I'm not sure if the reason I didnt go into shock was heart meds they had given me to keep my heart rate slow. I suffer from SVT and take regular meds for it. But I have ptsd now so not too keen on asking Dr's questions about what went wrong and why. I have spoken to other people who have had a similar experience and they too didn't go into shock or anything. So maybe it's not what happens?
@Lisa Dunn - Back in 2003, I also felt a portion of my C-section and following tubal ligation. I was given a local anesthesia but still felt very groggy. At some point after the nurse taking my daughter, the anesthesia begin to wear off. Everything still felt very heavy as I tried to move my hand and fingers, even a small gesture to get someone's attention. Fortunately my anesthesiologist, who was amazing, noticed my anesthesia was wearing off. I clearly remember him asking my doctors how much longer because it was wearing off. I saw my two doctors, Obstetricians whom I trust wholeheartedly, look at each other and one responded honestly "We don't know. We are still sponging." The next thing I remember is a mask going over my face and then the recovery room. Apparently the procedure had taking longer than anticipated as I was not clotting properly. I count myself blessed to have had such a wonderful team. I shudder to think what Sherman endured knowing how I felt during those moments when I could feel their hands moving around within me. His whole team should lose their medical practice licenses.
I've woken up twice during surgery in two separate occasions, but never felt any pain like this poor guy. Both times the doctor just said to go back to sleep and I did. I can't imagine what horrors Sherman went through.
I've actually endured the Anesthesia Awareness scenario TWICE!! I can attest that it absolutely sucks and leaves a lasting imprint on your nerves. The pain is so intense that it causes neuropathy. It is a true 10 on the pain scale. Passing out from the pain is a mercy. Fortunately on one occasion the anesthesiologist noticed I was awake while the surgeon was busy hammering a large metal rod into the hollow area of my tibia (larger shin bone). At that time thankfully they adjusted the sedative and soon after was unconscious. I can still feel the sensation from time to time of scalpels cutting my leg or ankle, the fiber wire cutting through the bone of my shin, the drill boring screws through the bone to hold the rod in place, large surgical pins being driven through my feet. All of it makes me cringe just recalling it. But yeah. Been there twice. It is Hell. And it leaves a scar that can't be seen, but is certainly felt. And it never goes away.
@@mirai1-p8g Because it was what is known as "invasive" surgery. Read the description of what was being done. Local anesthetic is only used for procedures done on the surface layers or skin or a little deeper like epidurals, generally. Going into bone, rods, screws, will always require going to sleep. If you don't know why, ask a doctor about trying it.
The surgery story is terrifying. I’m not even scared of this happening to me but it’s just terrifying that he felt every second of it but then was drugged into forgetting it.
I am scared of this happening to me. So scared in fact that when i did a small surgery a few years ago i opted to be awake and instead only use local anesthetic on the area they did surgery on. It went all fine and i almost felt nothing, and i felt in control and most importantly, safe.
It happened to me. The anesthesiologist hadn't screwed up, but I was in organ failure and couldn't metabolize anything but the paralytic. I didn't know pain like that was possible. It actually sent me into shock and I died briefly on the table.
I just had a major lung surgery about a month ago. About an hour before they came to bring me down to get prepped and whatnot and my mother had just gotten there. She was going to wait in my room for me to be done surgery and be wheeled back up. As they are wheeling me out she says, "You remembered to tell them you can't have any succinycholine, right? " . So they stopped rolling my bed out and I was like... "Uh, no, what the hell is that?".... Long story short, apparently it's a paralytic to keep people still when having surgery, and my great grandfather just never woke up again after it was given to him for a surgery back in his 50s. He was alive, but basically in a permanent vegetative state. It turns out that side of my family are all highly allergic to this stuff, and after my mother was tested as was her father and many of their siblings, and all were positive for this allergy she was told don't waste time with testing, future generations should just assume and not use it as they're all going to likely have the same gene and be allergic as well.... She had thought she had told me at some point, I'm 44 now and never had any major health issues before, so it just never came up. As it turns out its use isnt as common as it used to be and my anesthesiologist hadn't planned on me having any anyways... But that sucks that I could have possibly been all done over something I either didnt remember or never knew. My 2 year old boy had a major surgery last year and I'm so grateful nothing happened to him either because I'd be so lost without my little guy. I love Mrballen stories, but I never want to be the subject of one.
This is beyond a nightmare - if I happen to go through a surgery, I am going to tell this story to whoever my surgeon is and make sure every imaginable measure is taken that it doesn't happen and heck I'm going to tell this story on the day of the surgery, to every single person in the surgery room until I get knocked out.
Once I realized what MrBallen was going to be talking about, it started a spiraling down panic boulevard for me. This happened to me. I remember everything that was said and done during my surgery. I remember the pain of feeling someone's hands inside me, moving organs around to get to a tumor. I remember my body trying to throw up from the pain, and being unable to, let alone scream, because of the tube down my throat. I remember the conversations they, the doctors, interns, and nurse. I remember watching the anesthesiologist dance. I remember begging God, to please let me die from the pain of the cauterilization of the abdominal tumor. I remember my right arm being next to a tray with surgical tools on it, and trying so hard to get my fingers to move, so they would know that I was still awake. But that was when the surgeon started trying to burn off part of the tumor. It took 15 minutes of unbelievable pain for me to finally pass out. I woke up again after they were done. But I was in shock. They couldn't get my pain under control. It took YEARS for me to be able to trust doctors again.
Yeh, I curled up in a ball as he started describing what Sherman went through. It happened to me too. I tried to move anything to get their attention. That was my first c-section. My second I at least had an epideral since it wasn't an emergency like the first. I pushed for the epideral due to the first c-section experience. They didn't believe me even then. Not until I was talking to them, and able to carry a coherent conversation while on the same anesthetic that was used the first time. I just didn't have to have the paralytic since I had the epi. It is now in my records that the 'twilight' meds don't work on me. I am so sorry you had to go through that. It is horrendous.
My Dad was a lifetime Firefighter. He was deeply traumatized by his experiences. "Always have a way to get OUT. If not, just GET OUT any way you can, you don't want to burn." - I love you DAD ✌❤
OMG. I think I could have lived my whole life without knowing the number of people a year have the anathesia experience. That was the most horrifying story yet.
That's why the anesthesiologist is equally as important (if not more in my eyes) as the surgeon. Ad a vet tech I check my anesthetic patients every second they are under anesthesia to make sure they are not only asleep, but mentally unaware and unresponsive. I can't imagine.
You are an excellent "STORYTELLER". The way you narrated how Sherman felt during those 16 minutes (even though he didn't even remember the event) is uneasy.
As always, YES. The bit on Sherman had me physically cringing in an imaginary pain. It was a struggle to finish, which is insane considering no video footage was used in the story. Level 1,000,000 story telling, unlocked
The last story has been one of my great fears since childhood. I was lucky enough to spend a little bit of time in operations in multiple hospitals as a nursing student. In every single one, the anesthesiologist started the procedure at the patient's side, then at their head (so they don't cross the sterile field), constantly monitoring their vital signs/breathing patterns. I, only once, saw an anesthesiologist leave the patient to go sit down in the corner of the room. One of the great anesthesiologists that I had the pleasure to shadow took me under his wing and was explaining the scope of his job and stressed the importance of keeping track of meds. Monitoring patients constantly because some work through their meds faster and you never know which ones will or won't. He inspired me to become a nurse anesthetist. Since this is such a deep fear of mine, I want to be in the room, making sure that fear doesn't come to fruition for anyone under my care.
@Sunfeld Jiramhir and you're acting like an idiot. I know it may hurt you to see others who are happy, have great relationships, and are successful, but slow your roll a little and stop projecting yourself onto others. Go out there and make something of yourself, kid. Maybe you'll get there one day and want to show it off too...who knows.
I was pregnant with my third child and it was a planned c-section. I talked to the anesthesiologist before the surgery and he talked me out of getting an epidural and that I should get a caudal because apparently an epidural can miss some spots but the caudal is more effective. So I agreed. I was in the OR and they gave me the caudal, I'm still awake but shouldn't feel any pain, but the caudal ran up instead of down and before I knew it I realized I couldn't breathe but I couldn't tell anyone because no matter how I tried nothing would come in or out of my mouth. I remember opening my eyes as wide as I could to try and alert someone that I couldn't breathe. I was already opened up and they were pulling my baby out when this happened. The next thing I remembered is coming to with a nurse pumping a bag that was over my mouth. She was breathing for me. The caudal ran up paralyzing my lungs making me unable to breathe. It's been 35 years and I still remember that fear I felt knowing I couldn't breathe but yet not being to tell anyone. I can't imagine what this guy felt and the fear his brain remembered.
Your heart rate and blood pressure must’ve gone up so that should’ve alerted the staff.. although I wonder if the medication might’ve dampened those responses.
When I was younger, I had to go under for my dentist appointments since I felt everything the regular way. The last time, on my last minute that I was under, I couldn’t breathe! I panicked so hard and the dentist got annoyed and told me to calm down. I was so lucky that I was waking up
@@iLastStar That is what happened to me. My vital signs were messed up and I was sweating profusely which told them something was wrong. They gave me more anesthesia and I was out for the remainder of my surgery.
Omg! That last story is by far the scariest one I have ever heard. My heart rate was thumping high during this one. How devastating for him and his family. And as usual, MrBallen told the story flawlessly.
I've actually experienced anesthesia awareness when I was a kid (assuming it counts with a local and not just general). Luckily, it was just a relatively minor surgery on my toe as opposed to someone digging around my kidneys. Still, over a decade later and I still can't believe no one stopped to ask why the kid in the operating chair was screaming his head off and and saying "I'd rather you kill me! STOP!" - Between the botched anesthesia and the fact I had to go to a different doctor 6 months later FOR THE EXACT SAME OPERATION ON THE SAME TOE because they didn't fix the issue, I'm amazed my family never sued the hospital.
I had a procedure on my toe and thank the lord the doctor doctor waited and listened to my father and me when we said I have a high tolerance for things like that. He was about to begin but checked to make sure everything was numb but I could still feel a little so he administered more local. I cannot imagine having felt him rip my toe nail off and pour acid on it essentially but my nail grew back so I still have issues with it and technically need to get it done again.
Lol, my family told the doctors to skip local anesthesia when I was 10 because we were poor. 'Just go ahead and dig into my body doc', and yes I screamed. Went through that in two different scenarios. Yay!
@@terrafraser7806 The docs did check to make sure my toe was numb... unfortunately, the idiots kept sticking me directly where the infections was (meaning the anesthetic was neutralized and therefore completely ineffective) and didn't wait for it to take effect before _immediately_ "checking", seeing that I could still feel stuff, and sticking another needle in. THIRTEEN SHOTS LATER, I was so desperate for them to stop that I lied and said that I couldn't feel anything. - And before anyone gets on me about "dude, what did you expect to happen when you lie about the anesthetic working": 1) I was like 10-11 at the time, 2) my dad was sitting next to me the entire time (through a dozen ineffective shots and 10 minutes of me screaming my head off) without saying a word, and 3) I didn't even KNOW it was going to be a surgery until they were sitting me in the chair.
That 3rd story got me! The fact he had to go through that is already aweful enough! The fact that they were able to do even MORE damage to his mind and then for him to take his own life weeks later is absolutely heartbreaking. Those who made that decision to try to get him to forget their mistake. I would love to see what karma had coming for them
The amount and quality of content you produce is incredible. I recently detoxed off drugs, and when my anxiety or the pain of the withdrawals got too bad I'd watch your videos and they'd distract me. In a way you saved my life... thank you Mr. Ballen and your team ❤
That is awesome. Congratulations and keep on keepin on. I went through the same thing and it sucks but the other side is so much better. 👍
I'm 19 year old guy and i can't tie my shoes
Hell ya great stuff. Im over four years clean myself. Keep up the good fight. And yes hes a great story teller and great content
Congratulations 👏 Keep moving forward; you are strong, important, and your life has purpose!!!
The hardest thing you'll ever have to do and you got through it. Congrats and realize how powerful you are for getting through it.
I couldn’t imagine accidentally torturing someone for sixteen minutes and then having a lawsuit be my main concern. Then to try and cover it up by giving him more drugs? It’s honestly despicable.
imo i wouldve wanted to forget, it obviously didn't work, rip sherman.
Very sad and painful.
Well, I've always said this, there is something....off, sadistic even, about MANY doctors, surgeons in particular. My mother always said this as well, and I'm inclined to believe this is quite true.
Personally if given the choice that i _"might"_ be able to forget an experience like that, or else just live with it; i'd take my chances with the amnesia drug. They should have disclosed that it happened though.
@@existenceisrelative I think the amnesia drug made things worse. He had horrible PTSD but he didn't understand why, he probably thought he had dementia or some other mental illness. Had he understood what happened to him maybe he would have been able to come to terms with it and not take his own life.
That last story really is horrifying. I’ve ran anesthesia in veterinary medicine and you can tell when a patient is experiencing pain without them being able to move or vocalize just by paying attention to the monitoring equipment. For an anesthetist to not notice for that long of a period of time should require some serious repercussions and the fact they tried to cover it up by administering drugs makes this story a billion times worse. I’m so sorry for Sherman and his family.
i say a few life sentences for everyone in on giving him amnesia
I'm a nurse and even I struggled to listen to this. That poor man! He was obviously suffering from PTSD caused by the trauma but he didn't even have a concrete memory to pin his symptoms to. Imagine the confusion and terror he must have experienced! And then he killed himself! That shocked me. Poor man. And his poor family.
The last story is actually a movie with Jessica alba in it from like 07’
Exactly. I also wondered that. Long before a horse starts to move his legs as first visible sign, his heartbeat and breathing go up, especially when certain pain related to the surgery is invoked like cutting, stitching, or working on bones. We would give extra sedation at that point of course. I wonder why this isnt monitored in humans. Knowing that in human anesthesia often brainwaves are also monitored.
Gotta say, of all of Ballen’s stories, this was the worst by far.
It’s like bedtime stories but for adults
Haha thanks dudes!!
Yep... Exactly
I will often put on your videos and have no problem falling asleep just listening to you telling the story
Fax
What kind of f’ed up bedtime stories did you listen to as a child
Fun fact for those who are freaked out by the last story (so basically everyone): Most hospitals have equipment that watches your vitals and can tell if you're experiencing anesthesia awareness. Before going into surgery make sure to ask them what their anesthesia awareness prevention methods are.
I've had three surgeries and haven't woken during them that I'm aware of, but it still worries me.
@@sandralinkenback1750 I've had one surgery before I knew about anesthesia awareness and had no issues either. It's good to know the worst that could happen before going under though lol
had my wisdom teeth taken out and the anesthesia did NOT work, they literally were like "wait is the patient still awake?" because i was twitching and shaking from the pain. did not get compensated, was too young to even realize thats not what the procedure was supposed to be like.
Then how come there are 20.000 cases annually of this blunder all over the world?
Wrong! it happens A LOT
The surgery story is one of my biggest nightmares. That is beyond terrifying. Thank God for that one nurse who noticed that Sherman was conscious. The fact that they tried to give him chemical amnesia to avoid a lawsuit is beneath contempt.
@Instagram User wtf is this bruh?delete it
I actually woke up during my wisdom tooth surgery for what felt like a min or so; it was pretty cool to listen to what was happening. It sounded like shop class, and I remember hearing someone say they thought I was awake, and I passed back out. Thankfully I didn’t feel anything. RIP Sherman.
Come on you can't tell me you're surprised. The medical team probably used to work for the CDC or WHO. Nowadays in America the ends always justify the means
Why would anybody want to remember this?
@@bri-manhunter2654 wow thats interesting..i actually had both of my wisdom teeth removed but under local anaestesia when i was like 10,to rhis day i dont understand why they didnt knock me out completely
The surgery story is one of my worst nightmares. Not falling asleep during surgery is literally one of the most terrifying thoughts to me
There must be safeguards like taking someone with you who makes sure the doctors are doing their job
When I had my first child, it suddenly turned into an emergency situation, I had to have a cesarean, and they had to put me out quickly. There was no time for an epidural or spinal. I went from having constant contractions to rushing to the operating room to everyone yelling, counting off instruments, and someone holding the breathing tube above my face, waiting for me to be put out so they could secure my airway. It was terrifying. The next thing I remember was the most excruciating pain ever. I could feel them cutting, everything and tried and tried to tell them to stop - I can feel it. The pain was horrific. I could hear but I couldn’t move, I couldn’t tell them and then I was out. I woke up in the recovery room screaming my head off stop stop I’m awake I can feel everything! I can feel it. My husband who couldn’t come in to the operating room, so also missed the birth, was very upset by the scene in front of him. I was covered in blood, Betadine and screaming my head off. The nurses got my pain under control, and I just kept saying I could feel them cutting. It was so bad I didn’t even care I’d had the baby at that point. Hours later, the anesthesiologist came in and I told him that I was awake and I felt everything and he said no that was not possible and quickly left. When my doctor came in, I told him and he said yes it was possible, he believed me and that the baby was okay and I was going to be okay. 6 months later, I had to have another procedure done, from the complications and was traumatized about going under. I had the same doctor and nurses. While talking to the nurse, she told me she saw my hand move and they realized I wasn’t all the way out. The Anesthesiologist had been fired, I wasn’t the first and ultimately we were included with 4 others in the lawsuit against him. I received $150. I probably should’ve had a lawyer.
@@kaymarie1246 that’s so awful, only $150 is ridiculous.
I was getting a root canal a few years back and the local anasthetics failed, needless to say it hurt like a mf. I went about 20 minutes before stopped the procedure and had them refreeze the area. I couldnt imagine dealing with something like that in the case of more intense/invasive surgeries.
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The 16 minutes story is, by far, one of the scariest scenarios. I couldn’t imagine being sliced open while being paralyzed and unable to stop it. It’s a shame that instead of the hospital helping Sherman through his trauma and owning their mistakes, they decide to play naive to cover their own skin. Prayers to Sherman’s family ❤️
Smh bunch of quacks lol.
I can imagine it. I've been in such pain a few times where no anesthetic worked, and the medical was not incompetent, it's a quirk of my personal biology.
How do you help someone through such a pain-inducing experience? You say sorry? Oops? My bad? No, the best way is to try and make them forget the whole experience by giving them midazolam "amnesia" and pray they won't remember the pain. The potential for lawsuits was not the priority for the surgeons and nurses. They would still get their paychecks regardless if their employer was sued.
Maybe he thought aliens were operating on him.
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I cant begin to imagine what Sherman felt. To take your own life days after just because of the thought of that pain, has to be something out of this world that most of us hopefully never comprehend. That anesthesiologist should be criminally liable. RIP Sherman my deepest condolences to his family.
I have a feeling he may have not killed himself if it weren’t for the amnesia drug. At least being able to link your trauma to something and know where it came from definitely helps you overcome it. I can’t imagine having to experience the trauma of that type of pain and not even knowing where it all came from
....I guess. But what Sherman endure is a drop in the bucket compared to almost any surgery before the 19th century. I mean...check out the Bradmore extractor and it's first use. What Sherman dealt with sucked...but I mean, that was the way it was done for hundreds of years before anesthesia was discovered.
@@williamblackfyre4866 not in combination with the amnesia drug. part of it was the mental torment of experiencing that trauma, but not consciously
I’ve felt everything during two dialysis catheter surgeries….cutting, stitches, insertion AND removal!!
@williamblackfyre4866 I mean deTh rates of procedures was over 50% and increased with time after the procedure so I guess at least they didn't have to deal with it and they did still drink to numb sensation
I've been paranoid about general anesthesia not functioning properly ever since I first heard of this exact same scenario 20 years ago. What a horrifying experience. I feel so bad for poor Sherman.
Just know if you smoke weed, DEFINITELY make sure to let the doctors know. It can mess with how well anesthesia works
Let ur dr know about any medications even otc, alcohol, cigarettes, vitamins, and especially drugs
My dumbass about died from anesthesia.
@@savannahjohnson633 You should also let your doctors know if you are a natural redhead. Anaesthesia works differently on natural redheads.
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So, we're they not paying attention to his heart rate?! The machines would've registered that his heart was going nuts and that he was feeling pain even though he couldn't respond! That's crazy! That anesthesiologist deserved to be sued!
That’s a great point.
That makes no sense that heart rate and blood pressure alerts were ignored for so long.
That's literally the anesthesiologists entire job due9ng surgery... how incompetent. Failed both parts of their job. Should definitely be sued
My thought exactly as I was listening! Not just that, but midazolam or Versed, prevents the ability to create NEW memories (anterograde amnesia), it doesn't keep you from remembering things (retrograde amnesia). This is sus AF!
My thoughts exactly. Heart rate in an operation is usually monitored. What a nightmare...poor guy.
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That 3rd story😔
First time i literally struggled to finish a story. The pain must of been immense
Same.. i was like 'man this is too tragic, i want to quit now'
@@soupricemf1260 I had a similar experience with a c section in 2004 , the spinal block only took effect on one side so I could feel the whole thing
MUST HAVE
Tought the same..ong poor Guy.
But even if they weren't looking at him, he was hooked on the monitors and any good anesthesiologist should have noticed the curve, the TOF, the spikes and the brain waves would. The machine would have been beeping!! What were they doing? Omg WTH?!? POOR MAN
It's unconscionable that the doctors cared more about avoiding a lawsuit than about that poor man's wellbeing. ALL of them should be held criminally liable for going along with the cover-up involving that amnesia drug.
Not advocating for the doctors here, but I feel like using an amnesia drug was also the conscionable decision there despite the massive malpractice. What he went through was horrible and shouldn’t have happened, so making him forget about it would’ve saved a lot of misery for everyone. But the fact that the human body doesn’t work like that also doomed everyone in the situation.
Not to mention the doctors using that to avoid a damn lawsuit.
@@sugarkane1571 That's a really good point about how great it would've been for the amnesia drug to have actually worked!! For this poor man's sake, I wish it had!! Ugh. Yeah, it's sort of a weird issue. I have some traumas that I remember, and some that I don't. They both affect me. But it would be really cool if there was a legit way to shut it out of your mind for reallish, you know? Like in that movie, "Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind", but I only saw it once when it came out, so I'm not sure, but it came to mind.
Versed is one of the amnesia drugs and it's routinely given before surgery. Not unusual.
@@dod2304 Yeah, but they gave him an amnesia drug AFTER, once they discovered that he'd been awake the whole time, because they wanted to make him forget and hide their error to avoid a lawsuit.
I think, if i were in the hot seat, or should i say table? I would lean towards not wanting the amnesia drug just for the sake of actually knowing the root cause of the mental trauma that would inevitably follow me around my entire life either way. Might as well start the rehabilitation from a better vantage point. I also think that with him thinking they were dreams vs actual memories it might have been worse for him because being it came on so randomly yet so intensely one can only assume the worst. Recovering from seeing your insides torn open seems immensely easier, especially considering that unless you have to have surgery again, you almost certainly wont ever experience it again. And brain is really good at making you forget the intensity of pain.
Poor Sherman. :/ They now have a device that attaches to the patient’s forehead and monitors muscle movement. It can tell if the patient is awake or waking, and anesthesia can be adjusted accordingly.
Well they apparently don’t here in Australia, doctors somehow left a family member of mine just conscious enough to hear them sawing through the bone in his leg just a couple of years back, still better than what the Romans had I guess :/
Dante B I had a hip replacement using sedation not an anaesthetic, the anaesthetist sat with me monitoring. When I had sedation I was aware of what was going on and talked to the anaethetist. Possibly your relative had the same. I didn't feel anything by the way.
This was developed at MGH (Mass General Hospital), and monitors brain wave activity, not muscle movement. When I was surged at MGH the anesthesiologist told me this is part of their routine and that it would be used during my surgery.
@@robertboudrie2234 - I had the device used in Atlanta when I had a hysterectomy. Monitoring brain waves does make more sense as they administer a paralytic. I remember talking with the anesthesiologist about it. I may have already been lightly sedated at that point.
…also watching their heart rate and blood pressure clues you in to distress! Monkeys could have done a better job, shame on that ENTIRE surgical team for now being aware or watching this patient!!!!!!!
The anaesthesiologist forgetting to administer anaesthesia which is literally in his name is ridiculously ironic. What happened to Sherman was absolutely horrific. A nightmare.
I think it was not an accident. I'm pretty sure that the drug they are referring to is propofol. The same drug that Michael Jackson got hooked on. I bet the anesthesiologist was either using it or selling it. The amnesia drug doesn't seem like something that would be necessary to have on hand during a surgical procedure.
@@annemcgregor1514 totally agree. And yes, Michael (rip) died of a massive amount of propofol that he himself couldn't have done because he already couldn't move at that time he was so drugged up, its impossible he could have put it in his IV. His doctor is the one that gave him the final fatal dose.
I was given Propofol for a shoulder replacement. I felt it going up my arm burning all the way up. I told gas passer and he just said hang on.I would of had plenty of time to start drip out of the IV.I’m sure Michaels tolerance was way high.
@@annemcgregor1514 Not an accident? You really think they would knowingly put a patient through that kind of horrendous pain? Btw, that drug is routinely stocked in ORs.
@@kimberlysevastyanenko3798 My son 's friend had back surgery a few years ago and in the middle of the operation the doctor walked out of the OR and went and bought drugs and got high. It was all over the news when it happened. I've worked in two different hospitals and you wouldn't believe what goes on.
That last story is appalling! Everyone involved in that surgery should've lost their medical licenses. Not for the initial mistake, but for the cover-up which subsequently cost Sherman his life!
Dear GOD
Wonder if they did?
Even for the initial mistake. We put all our faith in the medical staff to have us knocked out and no pain in surgery. Shit like that should be double, even triple checked.
They really traumatized him for life and then took away his ability to mentally heal from it. This story is beyond f**ked
From my wife who is a doctor told me that if this happens, usually the Anesthesiologist lose their licenses, but the other people get fined or fired, I’m sure ppl got fire, the Anesthesiologist has one job, you f that up, you don’t deserve that job.
Dude, you are one hell of a storyteller. That last story had me on the edge of my seat. Heart goes out to Sherman and his family. May he RIP
That last story was probably one of the hardest to actually listen to because it could happen to anybody. The fact that tho hospital tried to cover up the trauma they caused him is absolutely unreal, they are the people who are supposed to help you, not ruin you
Scary when you realize what the world is REALLY like
They should keep the tape off their eyes or something so they for sure the individual isn’t awake how can that happen to 20k people a year
Yeah, my mom was prescribed medicine that rotted her fingers and toes. The doctors took no responsibility. Don't ever trust anyone who associates with Monsanto. They and their doctors are evil.
"Saving" or ruining" you depends on what makes the most profit. In this case it was obvious wich one was the correct answer.
Just the tought of becoming financially broke makes people panic and commit atrocities. Thats how scary economy is.
Absolutely disgusting
As an OR nurse, I know that a lot has already happened in that 16 minutes. I couldn’t imagine the unthinkable pain that patient went through. That anesthesiologist is very incompetent and shouldn’t be allowed to practice again!
Probably the doctor as well. I doubt any truly competent surgeon, or at least one that is concerned about the welfare of his patient and his own reputation and liabilities as a surgeon, he would require the anesthesiologist to be beside the patient throughout the surgery. So, although I’m not surgeon or doctor, I really think the surgeon is in control in the OR and definitely the main culprit so to speak.
That's what I was thinking. Not an OR nurse, but my mom was an RN, my aunt and a few other ladies in my family. So I have some medical knowledge. The anesthesiologist should of been fired and investigated. The whole team should of been for not even noticing it.
Your very VERY polite.
The person responsible is what we have a lot of today a lot of people who can't be arsed to do there Jobs properly.
@@ThePumpingiron27 should HAVE been fired 😒
Such a major blunder from the anesthesiologist. Not only did they forget to administer the anesthetic but totally neglected to monitor vital signs that would have given the whole situation away.
As an OR nurse, Sherman’s story breaks my heart. This is why we are always at the bedside when patients go to sleep and wake up. I know patients most likely will not remember me but I am their advocate when they are under anesthesia. I’d like to think that the extra amnesia medication was in hopes that he would not be traumatized by what he went through, not to avoid a lawsuit. But the fact that they were not forthcoming with what took place tells me this wasn’t the case. Had they informed the family of what happened they may have been able to acknowledge his trauma and work through it in therapy. Instead he had to live in paranoid fear. 💔 What a horrible thing.
Should have been handled exactly as you hope.
Oh I definitely remember you guys being in there every time I have woken up(50+ surgeries so far) it would be freaky as all get out if you woke up alone in recovery. Reminds me too much of the movie Resident Evil. I appreciate you guys. I imagine you have stories yourself of folks being in altered states of mind when they wake up. My birth father is an OR nurse and his woman is an trauma/OR nurse. One of the most demanding jobs ever. Not just physically but psychologically/emotionally..
My OR experience is limited to my tole as Nursery personnel so always C/Sections but I have never forgotten the class day in Nursing school that we were taught that to paralyze someone without also sedating them is cruel. For a patient to be unable to move at all, to breathe, to scream, unconscionable.
@@theresas740 and the scariest thing I ever went through. I really thought they were trying to kill me when it happened. Especially when you didn't have a clue that the paralytic lowered your breathing like that, you really feel like you can't breathe. But it is amazing to know that that is how little air you get when on a paralytic and under sedation and it's actually enough air to live.
@Amanda Young, since you’re an OR nurse, what say you - how can this patient “see” what was happening if he’s paralyzed and draped off? There’s so many things about this story that’s sketchy. Wouldn’t he be intubated? Why weren’t his vital signs monitored? Wouldn’t his pain level be reflected in his heart rate, blood pressure and pulse? Why are they using laparoscopic equipment if Mr. Ballen’s narration makes the viewer believe his abdomen was open and retracted? I don’t doubt the man experienced an anesthetic “event”, what does the surgeon’s and anesthesiologist’s notes/summary state?
This was so anxiety inducing. I cant even start to imagine how horrifying it would be to be basically powerless but still have to endure that pain. I was physically shaking thinking about this.
This last story explains SO MUCH to me, all these years later. They always administer a drug called succinylcholine along with the narcotic painkillers used for the anesthesia; the Succinylcholine is used to prevent sudden, involuntary muscle spasms during the surgery, but that's ALL it does, it does absolutely nothing for pain, so you're fully awake but completely paralyzed. My now-deceased wife described this very thing when she had her hysterectomy; she kept trying to move, scream, do ANYTHING at all to let someone know she was still awake, but no one ever noticed. Afterward, once she was back in her room, the surgeon came in to tell her how everything went, but she interrupted him and told him that something had either gone terribly wrong, or she had had one Hell of a nightmare, as she recounted what she felt and what she heard them talking about (some Goddamned baseball game or something) and she finished by asking him if this was real or if it had just been some insane, drug-induced, terrifying nightmare. Well, he stared at her for a minute, then he slammed his tablet shut, jumped up off his chair, and he snapped at her, "Well, if you know all of THAT, then you already know how everything went!", and he stormed out of the room! In the years following this, she would be tormented with night terrors, really gruesome, blood-and-guts stuff; she would attempt suicide at least twice, she began to have unreasonable, angry outbursts, which was entirely out of character for her, because prior to this surgery, she used to be so quiet and reserved, basically seen but not heard. She became a very prolific shoplifter, eventually getting arrested for it a few times; she ended up on antidepressant drugs, and she had to eventually take drugs for the constant, crippling anxiety and panic attacks, addictive drugs that she would indeed become addicted to, along with narcotic pain killers due to permanent, chronic pain; this woman, my wife, became a stranger to me, she had changed so much from the quiet, church going lady she once was. We never did sue anyone over it; she was quite kind and very meek, and she just saw it as an accident that anyone could make, and she tried to go on with her life, but we NEVER.... neither her nor me, NEVER had it even remotely occurred to us that THIS had been the cause of her sudden onset "mental illness"!! Well, she's in a better place now, Lord willing and God rest her soul, but this just infuriates me because NOW I finally have an answer as to WHY she basically went crazy! She hadn't just suddenly become a psychopath, it was actually PTSD!
Oh my God this must’ve been a horrible realization for you. I’m sorry for your loss and what your wife suffered through. Maybe you should seek legal advice as you may still be within the statute of limitations and you can help protect other people.
Not sure if it's PTSD bro... just saying.
@@dfgiuy22 What do you think it was, then? 🤨
It sure as Hell wasn't a trip to Disney!
I'm so sorry for everything you both went through.. I'm glad she can rest now.. hopefully you can to...
My best friends gf was givin the wrong meds by a doc meant for the patient behind her last year, her hair fell out and almost died ,but since docters in high demand they take no responsibility.
Had Sherman's doctors been honest instead of worrying about being sued, at least he may have been able to get some therapy or something... That's so tragic...
Exactly. And they still got sued in the end, so the only thing they accomplished was killing an innocent man.
The administration of Versed (midazolam) in that situation eould likely still be protocol, with the hope that it would completely remove the memory of the trauma, however some honestly after the procedure would have been nice
This made me physically ill. I send love to his precious soul in heaven as well as love, prayers and peace to the family.
Such evil people.
OH, IF THERE WAS ONLY SOLUTIONS TO BIG ISSUES
Like Homeless People and No-Knock-Raids or Drug-Overusage or Such-and-Such.
Ya know, some kind of video that makes terrible people and situations like Mr.Ballen covers
less likely to happen.
Oh, if TH-camr Some More News only had come up with really good Solutions. But he doesnt even have 1 Mio Subs, so how can it be expected his Solutions even reach the Ears of Politic-Dude-Humans?
Oh well, if my mass-commenting to get Attention to this doesnt work, i just migrate to Mars. Whatever.
Sherman’s case happened in 2006. Monitors to trend patient vitals during general anesthesia have been around for decades. Any mid-level or above anesthesia provider would have been able to tell something was amiss even prior to incision (increased heart rate, blood pressure, etc) due to Sherman’s nerves given that he knew what was about to happen. This was a case of gross incompetence pure and simple. Anesthesiologist must have been on the side somewhere talking to one of the nurses as the surgeon proceeded, and should never be allowed to practice again.
I agree, I'm almost livid listening to this story, because medical malpractice especially of arrogant and ignorant anesthesiologists really irk me.
If you think about it, it's something easy to solve no? Why pump the chemicals at the same time? Why not the sleepy chemical before the paralyzing? Why didn't they loudly announce SCAPEL since if you're not asleep, you can notice the nerves as you said. Like it's so simple to prevent and yet they neglect to do so.
Thank you, you just calmed my mind a lot with this information.
My thoughts exactly
I was thinking that too, the machines should have been screaming.
My father is a nurse anesthetist. He was a regular nurse for many years before this, and he went through many more years of school while I was a child to get to where he is now. Having seen firsthand how hard you have to work to get into anesthesia, I have to believe that last case was either laziness, malice, or both. A deliberate choice went into withholding the correct medications from that man, even if that choice was to not pay attention despite knowing full well the importance of correctly-administered anesthesia during surgery.
I smell nepotism.
@@JohnGardnerAlhadiswhat?
@@harls_974 What part of my comment was difficult to understand?
@@JohnGardnerAlhadis Yeah...wut?!
@@AnalyticalMenace Do neither of you know the meaning of the word "nepotism"...?
My grandmother had a very similar experience as Sherman. She had to get surgery on her eye as she had multiple issues related to cancer around her eye. She was put under but they think she reacted to the anesthesia and was never made unconscious, but she was also not meant to be paralysed either. So once surgery had started she was completely conscious while they started cutting around her eye. She couldn't even move her eyes to make them aware. They only realised she was conscious was because she started crying and her blood pressure and heart rate went through the roof and eventually she passed out. She didn't have psychotic episode like Sherman, but she had nightmares almost every night for years about a surgeon running at her with a scalpel and stabbing at her eye. I have unbelievable respect for my grandmother.
They don't put you to sleep for eye surgery unless it's to remove the entire eye.
@@dthompsont3796I’m not sure you should make an assessment about her grandmother’s eye cancer surgery.
God bless her; so do I🥰
@dthompsont3796 it was probably not to put her to sleep but to relax her but it was either too string or she reacted to the anesthesia and it didn't numb her. Either way that's what happened. Not saying my details are 100% correct but what happened, happened.
@@dthompsont3796this is not true, at all. I’ve had multiple eye surgeries. I was put to sleep for all of them. There are many types of eye surgery where the patient must be or can be put to sleep for.
I’m a doctor myself and listening to the last story made me tearful and gave goosebumps.. I can’t even imagine what he must have gone through and what he felt for those 16 mins. I just can’t.. its scary to even think about it.
Ya it’s just so horrifying!!! Good on you for being a doctor!
I'm 70 years old and could write a book about medical malpractice on personal experiences with family, friends, and acquaintances! I had medical training during the Vietnam War so I understand more than the average Joe. Many in your field are butchers! I choose DNR instead of the meat factory! I pray that you make a difference in those who's lives are placed in your hands.
As an MD, can you think of any reason as to why he wouldn't have experienced tachycardia and increased BP under those circumstances? I've heard these stories before and always wonder why that is. Surely the monitor would alarm if the Anesthesiologist wasn't paying close attention to vitals throughout. Do certain paralytic drugs have an effect on vasoconstriction?
Not only did they make that mistake, but they tried to cover it up. Unbelievable, I’m glad they got sued. They ruined a man’s life and permanently traumatized him and his family. Everyone involved should’ve been fired and barred from any medical occupation in the future.
Can you imagine being the nurse that noticed. My god
I had my entire abdomen opened up to repair a hernia in my diaphragm when I was 17. I remember a nurse telling me that I was screaming at some point during the operation, I have no memory of it but it's rather chilling to think that I woke up somehow. On top of that, the nurse who wheeled me to my recovery room, as I had first woke up after the operation, told me to get off the gurney and get into the bed, no one helped me and I moaned the whole time because my entire body felt wooden and sore, but she really couldn't have cared less. I must say that nurses do important work but when you're that vulnerable and get looked after by one like that, it really sours your entire perspective of hospitals.
Oh I'm so sorry this happened to you, this kind of treatment is ridiculous. Theres no excuse for it at all.
How horrible for you. I am so sorry.
I wake up and remember. I tell the names of ppl I. The room to my Drs and they are horrified, but are still scared to do better pain control because the stigma on med-seekers! But I can remember the woman's name who handed you the saw and the student who observed- yeah, the one I said I wouldn't allow to watch.
Nurses dont lift a hand to help me into a bed in my last three spinal surgeries where my spine was fused with rods and screws. They dont give a rats tail about helping.
Some nurses are incredibly professional and compassionate but others seem to be stone cold.
I remember after a surgery the nurses rushing me out to my sister's car so they could prerpare for the next patient. I just woke up from major surgery, could barely breathe, was vomiting like crazy. Nurse tried shoving a cheese cracker and a pain killer down my throat, which was so dry my tongue felt like it could disintegrate, and then gave me a plastic baggy and pushed me out of the door! I vomited many times in the parking lot and then we just drove home. Really made the experience kinda crappy.
Hey Mrballen, I had this happen to me in early 2000. A second back surgery. I was face down looking at the floor and paralyzed. Couldn't move, scream nothing! Felt the doctor cut into my lower back and rig on my spine. What a ride. I told the doctor what happened while I was in recovery. Explained to him exactly the steps he took. I finally blacked out. Wow
That last story is the most stressful and disturbing story I have ever heard. Tragic and absolutely bonkers. As usual you do a great job telling it, what a great channel and awesome job your doing!
Bro the way he told it, I feel like I was there. That really fucked me up
I was having anxiety the whole time 😭
Yea and I had to listen to it after going to bed, just trying to imagine the pain he went through will mess with your mind.
I had to turn it off
@@DSP_Gaming0 for real I have had surgeries in the past and luckily that never happened to me and i was just horrified when I was listening to that guy's story
I have to admit.... I've heard several of the stories you've told us, from other sources, but somehow your way of telling them is so unique that over and over again I don't immediately regocnize them!
I agree!
The explanation of the metal pellet in the reporters leg was the first time I have heard exactly how the poison was released, I new he'd been jabbed with a brolly but wax covered ball was fascinating , best story teller.
I like how he animates with his whole body over the tense parts of the story. Really makes the story a little more…tense, haha
Yes..heard them too. There' only some many horror stories to go around.
Yes I agree, his storytelling is on another level.💯
The last story just actually caused a mild anxiety attack for me. That was too much to hear and imagine. The idea of going through that pain and terror, then adding not being able to connect the feelings to something is just too much. Your storytelling is beyond amazing!
Literally same, it's a whole new found fear I had never considered.
Same…I found myself at work not working but frozen in fear and anxiety for this poor man…
Unfortunately it happens enough time that they have a machine to uh monitor your brain waves in order to make sure you are past our. I believe there's a whole movie about it about it. One of my biggest fears to be honest
I think it's worse that the hospital tried to cover it up. At least if they just took responsibility that would've been better.
Yep i had to really battle through this one. And it happens to 20k people every year... how long until we can automate entire surgeries using robots?
@MrBallen Just for your information, you mentioned in "#2 Bug Bite" that Georgi Markov would stop on the Waterloo Bridge in late 1970's and enjoy the view of the West Minster Palace and the London Eye... There was no London Eye back in the 70's, it was made for the Millennium which opened on New Years Eve in 1999 (However only took its first passengers in Feb 2000). There was a ferris wheel before this but, that was the Great Wheel at Earl's Court that closed in 1906. He would however, definitely been still having a great view of Big Ben, the Royal Festival Hall, and Whitehall Gardens!
Great video, just wanted to help :)
Came here for this comment! 👍
Thank god it wasn't only me thinking this lol
What a lovely way to provide information. Some facts gets lost when it’s not a focal part of the story didn’t bug me at all that he included the london eye but it’s nice to gently inform people without revelling in catching someone’s oversight
nobody cares 😊
@@magentanyx4847 👍
As I listened to 16 minutes I literally had goosebumps. Thinking about this story from my point of view as a nurse in the OR makes me physically sick. We are there for our patient. When they don’t understand what is going to happen, we prepare them. When they don’t have a voice, we yell for them. When they are at their most vulnerable we protect them. And to hear how this team failed him is utterly heartbreaking. There were so many signals to look out for and they were completely ignored. I just want anyone who is reading this to know, the majority is looking out for you, and this nurse will scream justice for you at all costs.
You don't know how comforting it is to read this. Thank you.
@@a_n_g_e_l_tash agreed
My sister was in a car crash due to a drunk driver when she was 14. She was heavily intoxicated and the left side of her face and chest were crushed by a phone pole. She laid on a gurney for 14 hours while they worked to get the alcohol and drugs out of her system when she was cleared she was rushed into surgery. The anesthesia didn't work for the first 6 minutes. They knew because her heart rate kept jumping and she would move her tongue with the pain. Because of all the pain and damage to her face and organs and trauma done to her they placed her into a medically induced coma to recover. My parents met with doctors and had agreed to give her this amnesia drug to help her forget the 14 hours of pain on the brink of death and the 7 minutes of surgery. My sister doesn't remember much but has had severe sleep Paralysis since. She's 35 now and has made quite a life for herself as a massage therapist and PI. She has made statements at schools about drunk driving and drug use as well as prescribed medication abuse. She amazes me that she's still with us.
@@Gaarakunpro ♥️ that was super terrifying to read hope she had a great recovery take care my friend
@@blackcat6.2. she still has trauma but she can see smell taste and hear. She doesn't have much feeling in her face but it's mostly metal plated. Her left eye cries almost constantly. She's learned to live again.
My crazy surgery story… I went in for back surgery back in 2014. I was nervous but hopeful. The same doctor had operated on me a few years prior so I had faith that things would be ok. This surgery was a bit more intense than the last though, it was a 360 fusion. Essentially they cut your abdomen open and move your organs around and reach through and take out the bad disc. Then they stitch you up and rotate you, all whilst you’re still under anesthesia and then they cut you back and fuse the spine where the disc was removed.
I woke up from surgery and was on a heck of a lot of pain medicine. I don’t really remember much of me being in the hospital except for being hooked up to a drain and pain pump. The doctor didn’t come and see me which I thought was super odd but I just shook it off and she sent her PA to come and handle my case. I should have known this was wrong of her. Well two weeks after surgery I was experiencing extreme pain. My right leg was throbbing in pain so bad and I couldn’t sit down or walk very well without being in excruciating pain. I went to the doctors office for 2wk post op check and she took X-rays and the doc was being such a bitch. I couldn’t understand why she was being so grouchy with me. Well I left the appointment and just dealt with it and she assured me I would start to feel better and my pain was just post op pain. After all I just had spine surgery. Unfortunately for me we moved to Colorado a few weeks later (husband was a US Marine!) and when we got to Colorado I just tried dealing with the pain, it did get a bit better but the physical therapy wasn’t really doing anything for me, I wasn’t feeling 100% and I couldn’t walk very far or sit for long periods of time without getting intense pain. I ended up making an appointment to see a different orthopedic surgeon. She was amazing and very thorough. She took pelvic X-rays and told me to go back the next day for an MRI. This never usually happens and you usually have to wait weeks for an appt! I went for the mri and a few days later I received a phonecall from her nurse saying I needed a new surgery. I about collapsed because if you have ever had spine surgery you know how painful it is and if just endured a really big surgery a few months earlier. Being under anesthesia for 8hrs wasn’t something I wanted to do again. A few days later my husband drove me to my appointment and the doctor was waiting for me with a few other hospital officials. She explained to me that the reason I was in so much pain was because the previous doctor has done what’s known as a Never Event. She had taken a healthy disc out of my spine and replaced it with bone and left the bad disc that had needed removing inside my spine and it had begun to calcify. The doctor said that I needed another fusion to repair the damaged disc and that it would be another extensive surgery but she had to do it otherwise I would lose function of my legs. She was surprised I hadn’t already lost control of my bowel and bladder. I was terrified of getting another surgery. A couple of weeks went by and i went into my second surgery after kissing my two babies goodbye and holding my husbands hand. Funny thing was it was the Marine Corps birthday, 10th November and we were supposed to be attending the ball that night 😔 Wasn’t going to be any dancing for me for a while!!
Thankfully the surgery was a success. We had to file a lawsuit against my original doctor and because she had removed a healthy disc and it was proven she had done so, she couldn’t deny it and they had to put out. It’s just shit that the California law hasn’t been changed since the 70s (I think) and there’s a cap on the amount for malpractice cases. It’s not about the money but if I’d had the first surgery in Colorado I would have been a millionaire by now. It would have made the fact that I’ve now developed fibromyalgia a lot easier to swallow! The mental turmoil that I went through was really tough. Just knowing what the doctor did and not being able to change it has been rough. I’m just thankful that my second doctor in Colorado was able to give me my quality of life back. Long story. It’s 4am and I’m an insomniac… if you read this far, God Bless 💕
Bless your heart
Your story makes me think of Christopher Duntsch aka Dr. Death. He was a spine surgeon and his story is a doozy.
*hugs* I am sorry that happened to you. I understand, though. I have had Fibromyalgia (among other things) since I was a child. Over the years, various types of traumas have caused it to get worse and worse, but I keep fighting to have as normal a life as possible. Fibromyalgia affects people differently. My entire body, including my insides, hurts. The severity and portion of my body that hurts varies day to day, hour to hour. I feel for anyone living with invisible illnesses. It's difficult enough being sick. Having people not believe you can be very hard, as well. ❤
GOOD GOD THIS IS A NOVEL SIZED WRITING I AINT TAKING THE TIME TO READ YOUR NOVEL
@Gary Johns you could at least have some empathy, she suffered a very traumatizing experience that is life threatening.
How you feel in her shoes?
Sometimes it's better to not comment🙄
Very very few stories ever actually distress me, but Sherman's story made me physically nauseous. You are a great story teller.
Both of my kids woke up in the middle of wisdom teeth removal surgery. They were almost immediately put back under. The dentist told them both that they metabolized the anesthesia more quickly than is normal, and to be sure to mention it before any future surgeries. From reading the comments, it's more common than I realized!
That last story did not disappoint. I’ve built a tolerance to scary stories, but that one was on a whole other level. I legit started to have anxiety. Well done, Mr.Ballen. Well done.
this is my biggest fear I think this is all I thought about before my appendectomy
Same here
Yea kinda left a tear, a true shock
Crazy his heart rate didn't increase at all
My mom said that this happened to her once. She was aware of them cleaning her abdomen and the doctor asking for a scalpel then the nurse noticed her eyes open. That was all she remembered. I greatly fear that this might be a genetic resistance.
Anesthesia awareness happened to my mother when she underwent an emergency C-Section for my sibling.
They didn't administer enough of the anesthetic and she felt everything they did to her. Every cut. Every break. Every stitch. She always gets anxious when she needs to get surgery and has panic attacks when she needs to lie on a hospital bed.
The fact that she's still alive and (mostly) sane with us almost 30yrs later is a miracle. She's a strong woman.
Happens all the time with C-sections. They can and should numb you, but as far as actually putting you under they can’t. Not safe for the baby or mom. Why didn’t she say she could feel it? Where are you from if you don’t mind my asking cause I know all countries are different.
Extremely common for women’s medical problems to be horrifically neglected.
Yep. I went through this during my cesarean as well. They tried to give me an epidural. I have cardiac complications and they tried to administer the medicine very slowly but my son was in such distress I had to be cut open immediately. I felt everything. I’m sure the entire hospital could hear me screaming. However, we are both doing very well now.
@@kristencat this happened to me as well. It was an emergency and I told them to just cut me and get my baby out and I could feel it all. Worst experience of my life
Having a cesarian makes it twice as likely your child will have ADHD.
My friend was born cesarian and you would never know. Though he insists on leaving his house through the window.
I've had multiple surgeries over the years. And the last story, is literally my worst nightmare. I can't imagine what that man was going through. The story gave me chills, just hearing it.
I’m scheduled for a surgery on 2/21 and now I’m even more anxious/nervous than I was before 😫
@@SeneeuhVision its gonna hurt SO much!
@@adamhudson4349 staaaahhhp 😭😫😅
@@SeneeuhVision for what omg
@@SeneeuhVision Remind the anesthesiologist to be sure he/she gives you both drugs!
My stepmother did her Master's thesis in Psychology on people who survived suicide attempts made by jumping off the Golden Gate bridge. One of the people she interviewed had been a diver. Midway through his attempt, he changed his mind and changed his position in midair, to ensure his survival.
That's beyond fascinating, I'd love to hear more if you're willing to share
@@seadragonwitchbitch Unfortunately, that's all she told me. My stepmother died several years ago, so I can't ask her.
@@seadragonwitchbitchThere's a documentary called The Bridge. It's about suicides/attempted suicides off Golden Gate Bridge. Kevin Hines, one of the people featured, has a similar story...
It’s truly heartbreaking how those medical “professionals” valued avoiding a lawsuit over the life of another human being alike. No wonder we’re all so divided and distrusting of each other nowadays :(
Those are suppose to be the "higher class higher society" people as well. People that make big money over time become evil I'm convinced.
Literally. So disgusting
@@Travis00q86 everyone is different. people with compassion and sympathy would not have done something like that.
@@Travis00q86 it's just money, what they did was unacceptable
@Emmett00q8 exactly but that's the problem. What you are saying is that we should just settle for living in a world with no compassion?? That's depressing.. not very inspiring. Money really means nothing trust me...
Sherman's story made me cry. That poor man. It made me think of every trauma I've ever been through, and the body keeps the score. Even if you don't exactly remember those events, something really has changed inside of you and healing needs to occur.
Yes the body, soul and spirit all are still aware of what has happened... as is God. What those doctors did is evil.
@@FreedomAndJustice4All I don’t think they meant it. Most professionals in that field want to help and fix problems. This experience is more common than we’d like to believe. What happened is shocking and horrific but I don’t think this type of thing is intentional.
@@blues3000 intentional or not, the failed to do their job and on top of that, tried to cover it up. They have no fucking excuse! They are pure evil. 🤬
@@IncendiaT1990 the anesthesiologist failed at their job. The doctor isn’t evil for doing his/her job which is to operate on the patient . 20,000 people this will happen to in one year according to this video. That is a lot of people in the7billion people on the planet. And clearly shows it can be caused by something other than a failure on the medical professionals part. Just a thought tho , obviously the entire story is horrific
@@IncendiaT1990 well, for covering it up, they did a really, really lousy job, what with documenting it so thoroughly.
Sounds totally evil, huh? Rather than hoping that the benzodiazapene induced amnesia of the procedure (not a full sized incision, but a couple of inches does feel like a mile being cut and blunt dissected (for better healing than if simply cut)). They could've instead went with propofol, aka "Milk of Amnesia" to obliterate memory, but that's a general, even if it's short acting (also, the drug that killed Michael Jackson).
They fucked up, documented it and hoped to not have their malpractice insurance go up due to litigation.
But, fucking up is pure evil, therefor everyone who ever lived is evil, as we've all fucked up at some time or another.
Well, except for me. I'm a perfect 10, alas, on the Richter scale... Pretty sure that the illustrated dictionary has my picture under fuck up. ;)
I've watched a number of your "mature audiences only" videos now...this is the first one that seriously messed me up. The fact that last story is something that can and did actually happen is the most horrifying thing I think I may have ever heard, and I'm pretty sure I'd rather die than ever submit to surgery again...
The worst part, is that if they hadn’t taken away the memory. He wouldn’t have felt insane, it still would’ve been traumatizing but he would know that the images that plagued him were from an event that has past and he could get therapy and heal. They basically forced him into a position where he could only be gaslit. What an awful thing to put someone through.
Honestly, I'm surprised he handled it as well as he did.
They might have thought they were doing him a favour; if you can't remember pain, can it still hurt you? (Obviously the answer is yes in this case, but they might not have known that.)
@@Elena-tq9vs they were just trying to cover up their mistake to avoid being sued.
I don't blame him for taking his life. It's sad but I've had a traumatic childhood that my family forced me to try and forget. They constantly gaslit me and told me it was all just my imagination. They finally told me the trauma I am experiencing was real and it all happened the day after I tried to take my life. It's horrible, it makes you feel so crazy and just out of touch with the world. It makes you feel like you're attention seeking and you can't get help. It's a horrible hopeless feeling that seems like it never has an answer and you just can't escape it. I have nothing but pure love and empathy for Sherman. I have ever since I first heard about this and I can never ever stop coming back to it.
@@intuitivemischief3167 - I think if they were trying to do that, they could have just stopped his heart & killed him... so I don't think that's what they were trying to do. I sincerely think they were trying to help him AND themselves, both
I had vericocele surgery when I was 15 and this actually happened to me too, except they caught it before the surgery happened and they didn’t tape my eyes shut. They administered the pain killer and paralysis drug but when I got knocked out, I came back like 15 seconds later and I heard a nurse scream “he’s awake!” And then they put me out again. Lmao then I woke after the surgery was over, strapped to a hospital bed in the upright position, and not like, slightly elevated. It was almost completely vertical. And they had a tube down my throat pumping oxygen into my system. Then I started screaming and they came to me and started laughing and were like “we had to put a breathing tube in you because your oxygen was too low!” Then they pulled the tube out and I was coughing up blood for the rest of the day because they didn’t lubricate it properly. I still wonder what else happened during that surgery. I think surgery’s need to be recorded. Crazy.
I think recording surgeries would be a great idea
I had something similar happen when I was a kid (decades ago). They put me out and began the procedure. There was no cutting, but it involved inserting a tube down my pee-hole, and at some point I woke up and saw what they were doing and felt it. They noticed I was awake and put me out again, but the experience caused long lasting fear & mental trauma. I was just a kid (maybe 5 or 6 years old) and couldn't tell anyone, as I was so young and just couldn't explain anything, other than it happened during the surgery, but my Mother didn't think anything of it and just attributed it to fear of a kid & didn't question any further. Over the years the memory would get triggered on rare occasions and I would remember waking up and experiencing the pain, followed by slowly drifting off again and waking up after the procedure in a hospital bed in extreme pain. It wasn't until I was much older that I could piece it together and figure out what happened. And I did some research to be sure and I found out that it was actually a medical procedure performed way back then, but has since been done away with long ago. So I know it actually happened.
I agree surgery should be recorded. It will never happen as then they will be open to lawsuits.
The anesthesiologist or nurse anesthetist should be present during any procedure for this reason and they are supposed to monitor the patient the entire time. They should be monitoring brain activity the entire time. They don’t want to administer too little anesthetic so you don’t wake up, but they don’t want to give you a little too much so you don’t overdose either. I too have woken up during surgery, don’t remember feeling any pain, I do remember hearing the nurse anesthetist that introduced herself to me before surgery, but I promptly fell back “asleep.” God bless that woman. No doctor should just come in, knock you out, then go to the next person. They should also be monitoring what’s going on at all times.
@@paranoyd70 :(
Sherman’s story is probably one of the most horrific things that a human being can experience. May he Rest In Peace.
Not nearly close to the most horrific way to go.
Good Lord I can’t even imagine!
The episode about the man who felt his surgery was definitely reality, I have been in advanced medical care as an advanced medical professional for over 20 years, first as an Expert Combat Medic to Emergency Medicine RN to PhD Health Psychology & Doctor Of Naturopathy (ND), and as a nurse, I assisted with a few surgeries and witnessed several major screwups, i.e wrong limb amputated, eye destroyed with a laser scaple, removal of the wrong section of intestine, and several other major screwups as well as countless minor ones and I came to truly believe that something, regardless of how significant, but something goes wrong during every surgical procedure, and you definiently don't want to hear what the surgical team talks about during your procedure, I've rarely seen anyone talk negative about the patient on the table, but they certainly talk about everything else and some of it is down right funny but some is extremely private information about previous or upcoming patients, I left the nursing field mainly because of the "political" nature of advanced nursing, clicks, cover ups, candles, etc, you'd think you were working for congress, but as a psychologist/ND I truly love my profession and I go out of my way to be as professional as possible but we're all human and mistakes and down right crap judgement happens every day, so I warn every one to do extensive research on any Doctor or other Professional that you entrust major medical treatment to, get to know them, I for one allow my patients to ask me any thing they won't to, and I actually answer honestly regardless of if its embarrassing or positive, and if my patient shares something embarrassing or odd or what have you with me I share a similar story of my own if I have one that is relevant and I have found that in my case at least, it builds greater trust and respect with my patient and I
I had to have a urology/nephrology procedure under anesthesia with an intern and trust me, as a woman, I do not like interns judging my privates. I know they try to be professional, but I'm sure if you're not perfect and get the wrong kind of person, they have some things to comment on (at least in private).
I love how intense you get while telling the last one. I can only imagine how traumatic that 16 minutes was for him.
As soon as he said camera, I knew what the procedure is and the incision is around an inch or two, depending upon the camera/light unit (it's fiberoptic, but has dual channels for video and light to be piped in, as the human body is rather poorly illuminated inside for some reason).
Still, that's still not the most pleasant experience in the world, given one's opening skin and then muscle and widening the opening with hemostats and fingers, then inserting a trochar to guide the fiberoptic unit. It's not quite as severe as many cases each year, where major open surgery is performed on a patient who had anesthesia fail.
My wife was lucky. Went in for a C section, had a migraine and didn't think to tell doctor. She was wide awake when someone noticed tears and the surgeon lost all sense of decorum in a manner much akin to this retired US Army NCO's command of profanity. The anesthesiologist then increased the dosage, rendering her unconscious and shortly after birth, coding. Something undocumented, but the electrode burns are distinctive and it was in her chart.
My Stepfather experienced "Anesthesia Awareness" for the entire surgery to fix his torn Achilles tendon. When he finally came out of it and told the nurse and doctors what happened, they didn't believe him..... Until he repeated back all the various conversations the doctors and nurses had between them during the surgery. They were shocked....my Stepfather said it was the most brutal experience of his lifetime.
always get spinal ansethetic tfor limb surgery then you are awake and you can tell them if it hurts
for lower limb surgeries,u remain awake.u can talk,joke move ur hands,anything other than movement and sensations below belly button
people get terrified coz they cam hear and understand staffs talking with each other.they probably imagine it when they say,cut the ligament or suture the skin
@@dakshinanair2398i had 3 knee surgeries, 2 of them i was put to sleep and the first of those 2 was so much work they gave me a 36 hour nerve block in my hip down to ease the pain a little when it wore off. Not being a smartass, im not a nurse or anything but in my case, [acl, mcl, meniscus & patellar tendon surgery] i was put out twice. The 3rd surgery on the same knee months later was just for scar tissue removal and i was awake for that one
Yes its awful. They didnt believe me either until i repeated their conversations and told them everything i saw and felt
You'd think a person's heart rate and blood pressure would react violently to sooo much pain?! Poor Poor Sherman! My condolences to his family.💔
You would think, but it doesn't for some reason.
@@FoofyWoothe sedative decreases vitals
Certain drugs administered into the body lower heart rate, part of it is required for surgery to keep a patient from bleeding out too fast. Heart rate too high blood kinda gets all over, heart rate low they can keep the patient alive
I guess just don't get an operation in West Virginia???
Someone saw something and it was covered up. To save their ass. Doctors are extremely corrupt!!! I do not trust them at all. Theyre bullies, narcissists, insane inhumane pieces of garbage.
How does content this awesome manage to hide from me for so long? I just discovered MrBallen's TH-cam channel earlier today and I've lost track of how many videos I've already watched and enjoyed. You're an amazing storyteller, MrBallen! I'll keep watching!
The last story about the surgery gives me flashbacks. When I was in 4th grade, I had bad stomach pains for days. Little did I know, it was my appendix. The doctors I went to, had no clue what was wrong with me, or why stomach was hurting. My parents finally take me to the ER. The last thing I honestly remember, was talking to the receptionist and telling them how I felt. Next thing you know, I get this bad taste in my mouth. All I see is bright lights gleaming down on me, I pull whatever is clinging to my face that's giving me the bad taste. (it was the oxygen mask) I leaned my head up, shaking of the groggy feeling, as the blurred surgeon and nurses started clear. I heard a soft, "ooop, woah buddy, you're not supposed to be awake" they proceed to reapply my mask.
I then woke up in my room to recover.
Still a crazy memory I have, never left my mind.
was it any painful? sounds funny
@@multiply67 Not at all lol I always wondered what went thru the nurses mind, as well as the doctor's 😂
Glad they noticed
Good thing you couldn't feel it.
That’s so cool to hear dude, I have a similar story to this but never heard of anyone who also went through similar stuff.
I had a couple of knee surgeries when I was a teenager, and on the third time I had to undergo surgery I remember of a flashback I had during the operation;
I just remember my vision going from very dark and blurry to just blurry but getting brighter, and soon enough I could distinguish some colours, which were mainly that light green from medical staff clothes and white.
I also remember bringing my head slightly up and trying to change the focus of my sight, and when I tilted my eyes to the side, I just remember that it took quite a while for the image to become concrete. The best way I can describe this is: imagine you’re playing a first-person video game and when you control the camera, there’s a delay to display the image related to how fast you turned your head to look to the side; I don’t know if I was clear enough here but I tried.
Last thing I remember is seeing the silhouette in the shape of a human standing tall right next to my lying body, which was obviously either a doctor or a nurse, and soon enough everything went black again, so I assume they noticed me awake and set me back asleep.
This probably lasted something around 30 seconds only and I didn’t feel any pain at all too;
to this day, 6-7 years later, I am not fully sure if this really happened or if that was a hallucination or something alike, but reading your story kind of reassured that for me
“16 mins” was the first time I’ve ever felt personally connected to a story you’ve told. Having been awake for about 2mins while they cut me open for an emergency C-section, that pain and fear is on a whole different level. To this day I still can’t be put under, due to panic attacks going in and coming out. So horrific what they did to him and the pain his family has to live with now.
Wow! That’s so scary!!!
you're like the third person in 20 minuts saying they've had this happen during a c-section. What's wrong with doctors and c-sections?
@@ckay8145 it’s due to the fact that planned/less emergent c-sections aren’t done under full anesthesia like other surgeries, rather regional anesthesia with epidurals
@@ckay8145 it's a very big issue. modern obstetrics and gynecology is not based in any way on evidence for what works best during birth, and ignores traditional midwifery techniques which were proven. it has a lot to do with racism and colonialism. it's very, very sad. the worst countries for it are america, ireland, and the uk. the best countries for giving birth are places like france, ghana, finland, jamaica, places with a strong midwife culture that resisted victorian "science" around birth.
Scary stuff... Women deserve praise/respect for childbirth definitely.
I used to work in the medical field, when I was in the Army. I can't imagine someone going through that kind of pain. And for those doctors who decided to give him the medicine to wipe away his memory is appalling. I pray that not only did this family sue for money, but also had their licenses removed. My prayers go out to that family.
Yes!!!
This was the most sickening part.
I didn't even know those drugs existed.
I heard about this case before but I bad no idea the doctors gave him those drugs
Most doctors are like that though, they don't care about patient health or wellbeing at all, they care about their bottom line
Every one on that surgery team should needs to be arrested for making him feel some of the worst torture anyone could feel. I can’t even imagine the horrific pain of people cutting you open and moving around your organs, then dislodging your gallbladder. The worst part is he felt everything for 16 minutes straight, and when they realized he was awake the gave him more drugs to make him forget what caused the trauma and pain. It is sad because of there choices he ended up taking his own life.
🕊️ R.I.P Sherman Sizemore 🕊️
As a nurse this really pisses me off. Anaesthatists have ONE job to do, and they get paid a Shit ton of money to do it. If the family hasnt done their own investigations, that incompetent anaesthatist would have gone and done it to the next patient. In my country New Zealand the patients must be informed of such incidents by law, and they are covered by a national accident compensation insurance that gives them extremely well funded, lifelong care if needed. There was no justice for Sherman though. Now I have to go to bed feeling upset.
Exactly, its so triggering knowing that if that one stupid person didnt do that one stupid and extremely avoidable mistake could've potentially saved an innocent man from commiting suicide.
Same here in the UK. Never mind the law it's your ethical responsibility to inform the patient and be totally transparent. Then you offer support, whether it be mental health or physical health. I'm a nurse too, and mistakes are made, but this was purely putting a patient at risk to save their arses.
If it is a FACT, as you stated, provide the proof please.
@@constitution_8939 I administer Midazolam all the time and like any drug that can have sedative effects there is always the possibility of an overdose. Which is basically what's happening if the kidneys begin to fail, or you get respiratory depression. However, in elderly patients the kidneys tend not to work optimally and I'm sure COVID was already causing massive problems in their respiratory system. The problem I have with your comment is this: was it the Midazolam that caused the death of these patients and how on earth do you know that they weren't going to die anyway? Kidney failure is often a part of old age, with or without this drug. COVID-19s effect on the physiology of the elderly patients will have been destructive anyway. The 2 points you made about kidney failure and respiratory failure ARE components of overdose BUT they are also components of Covid AND old age. I don't get how you know that ALL these deaths were attributed to ONE DRUG, when there are alternative possibilities for these deaths. Where did you get this info?
"If the family hasnt done their own investigations, that incompetent anaesthatist would have gone and done it to the next patient." So you are saying this happens in every one of his surgeries? He never gets it right? I would also think that a nurse would know how to spell "anesthetist", but I guess you never make mistakes. (How ironic!)
Poor Sherman, and his family. Pains me to think if they hadn’t been so negligent, and then shady on top of it he’d still be with us... the irony is they still had a law suit on their hands. Likely a much larger settlement after he took his own life.
He was trying to remember something like you try to remember a horrible realistic dream
I’m so fucking sad for his story, what an embarrassment of a medic team 🙃🥺🥺
If someone decided to locate all of those medical people involved in what happened to Sherman, and expose them to similar levels of pain... I wouldn't have a problem with that. Not at all.
I hope that medical team gets what they deserve for their involvement
Oh are you a doctor? Follow the science. :smug
What's bizarre for the last story is don't they monitor your heart when you're in surgery? Surely his heart rate would be through the roof
Cover up.
It’s quite common that general anesthesia lowers heart rate in older patients, mostly caused by the paralytic. Usually 40-60 bpm. Most cases of death in the operating room in age 60+ is due to minor undetected heart issues which were exacerbated by anesthesia. That’s what makes it so risky.
Despite being panicked, the medication definitely could’ve kept him in the 40-60 bpm range.
In this day and age they definitely do measure the heart, but, more importantly, also an EEG (brain scan) to be able to see differences in consciousness. This -shouldn't- happen anymore, though it still does sometimes (as anesthesia is still a badly understood field of medicine). Keep in mind, though, that part of the anesthesiologist's job is also to keep the heart rate & blood pressure stable, so the heart rate would likely not spike as much as you'd think -- hence the EEG.
So U can amnestesiate someone and give them Trauma without even getting problems lol
@@SneakySalaXander he didn't have the anaesthesia though did he? Or have I misunderstood and he had it but it just didn't work?
The way you told that last story in particular was fantastic. All of them were great, but that was a zinger. An absolute nightmare of a scenario. Thanks so much for monetising your talents and skills in story telling, all success much deserved.
In Sherman Sizemore's story, MrBallen spent a little less than 16 minutes of story telling, but that felt like an hour or two!
I just can't imagine the pain he went through.
oh my god. U just broke me. I can't even imagine.
The drug propofol does the mobilizing feels like being paralyzed ..I had it for a colonoscopy ..I would never have ever again ..if I needed to say help while under it I could not ..scared me
They use it was told because patient wakes up quickly and has no side affects
No one discussed what would be used..always did before
He may of had that
Horrible experience
The sedative Midazolam is a drug that was given to thousands of elderly C - 19 patients in hospitals in England in 2020 & 2021 and given so much of either before or while on ventilators that shutdown their kidneys flooding their bodies with water and bodily fluids that made it's way to their lungs to the point of drowning them while on these ventilators and Killed them. This was One method of how these Murdering Criminals have increased the "C 19 Death" numbers by killing all these people that would Not have died otherwise. This is a FACT and I'd go on but even this statement may be Deleted by TH-cam so I'll leave it at that not even sure if this information can found on the net because of this whole Criminal Conspiracy begun by Fauci and others who should have already been Hanged for "Crimes Against Humanity" and Mass Murder.
I was 14 when I was diagnosed with leukemia. Part of my treatment was to get a bone marrow biopsy every few months to check for lymphocytes. Because I was so young, they didn't want to overdo the anaesthesia so they wound up not giving me enough the 2nd time they did the biopsy.
I woke up in the middle of them taking out a chunk of bone from my hip to get at the bone marrow. I still remember the sound of the machines, the extreme pain, and screaming. I remember them trying to calm me down, promising it was almost over, and calling over the anesthesiologist before I faded back to sleep. They at least told my mom what had happened.
It was nearly 28 years ago and definitely not for 16 minutes, but I still remember bits and pieces. That clarinet run in Rhapsody in Blue always reminds me of the pain and awakeness (and the screaming) from that surgery.
scary how many times they cover things up. glad they atleast told your mom, so she could help you.
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Red Vines, Dude! Similar story here!! Got diagnosed with leukemia as I was 4 year olds, don't remember much of the treatments I was administered it as i'm now 26 and on full recovery since i'm 13. But the ONE thing i remember is exactly that "bone marrow biopsy every few months"...
Basicaly they use anaesthesia, don't know what the mix of drugs exactly is, but what I know is that they were using something called "Hypnovel" that was supposed to put you in a trance-like state so you don't feel anything... Turned out I was allergic to that stuff and instead of calming me down and put me to sleep, It had the exact opposite effect. Putting me in a verry agressive mood like if I was becoming ferral but capable of speech (as my mom told me), apparently i was biting and screaming insults (I supposedly wasn't supposed to know at my age) to every person present in the room. Right after they used an "antidote?" to stop the effect of hypnovel, I came back to conciousness being strapped on the bed with an arm splint and a transfusion, totally unaware of what had just happened.
Since then I had to go through those bone marrow biopsy only with Nitrous oxide (laughing gas). So basicaly I felt every single one of them but also had to laugh during it... I can tell you it wasn't very fun at all and since you'd experienced that type of pain, I'm sure you can agree too... But all that is behind me now and I'm thankfull for the doctors hard work to get me rid of this cancer.
Stay safe mate, happy you've beaten it too!
(PS: Sorry for any misspells I'm french)
good pick for piece of music and instrument for sudden awakening into an unknown world.
@@gypsyrose8485 yeah, except this is "common", some people dont feel the effects of anesthesia and you could also develop a resistance to it, so while sometimes the doctors fuck up and cover it up, many times its just that they dont know, i mean, theyll ask you questions before anesthesia to try and tell if you wont be fully effected by it, the point of my comment being, its not always the doctors fault, nor is it always avoidable.
I almost got sick listening to the third story. I couldn't imagine the pain that man went through. The way you tell the story feels like your right there with him. I love the way you get into the story and bring it to life.
I was about to say the same thing. Felt like throwing up imagining what that’s like.
I could barely listen. I just had to know how it ended. It was God awful
Yeah it drove me nuts this one was tough
I listen to every kind of story on this channel I'm a big fan of crime and I've heard everything and ask you started going into detail I got nauseous and had to cut it off
Yeah I began to feel physically ill. I also wanted to cry.
It's rare that videos like this actually disturb me as a lifelong horror enthusiast. They enrage, disgust, sadden, but typically do not give me that chilling, nauseating sense of terror. The last story did that for me. There are few things I can imagine that are as horrifying as that.
Honestly I thought I had a dark persona until I found Sherman and realized my biggest fear yet
My husband experienced a portion of the anesthesia awareness when he went in for a colon resection. The surgeon had intended to use a lesser anesthesia for the surgery, but my husband's family has issues with certain types of anesthesia. He remembers feeling about 30 seconds of the cut, and then the doctors must have seen his blood pressure spike and they administered a stronger anesthesia, causing his recovery time to be two hours longer than originally planned. Add to that, the hospital had written his instructions down incorrectly when he said to only tell me or his father about his status, and instead said that they couldn't tell me anything as to why he wasn't out of surgery yet. When the nurse did finally decide to say something, she walked up and said "Can I talk to you privately?" My heart nearly stopped of course, and all she then said was "I'm not allowed to tell you, but he's okay." That day isn't anything that I would wish upon anyone else!
How was your husband after? Any trauma or other issues?
@@xan8466 He was definitely not happy after. They failed to notice that the pain meds weren't helping either for several days. But that got resolved thankfully. He hasn't seemed to have much trauma, but I know that he does get periodic nightmares. It's been over a decade now, and the dreams aren't as frequent.
@@jenniferhof9448 ah, I see. Im always terrified of large surgeries because I see examples of this. I'm sorry to hear about what happened, and wish you both the best, then
@@xan8466 I can understand that fear for sure! I have been through so many surgeries myself, and I can say that I have never had an issue like this. Thank you so much for the well wishes! Here's to good health for you and yours!
I feel horrible due to my mother inform about waking as proccess was almost finished. 😭how much I didn't grasp the impact.
I pray her spirit knows my ignorance at the time. If I could only comprehended & been a voice😭😟
Some of these stories make me extremely anxious but I have NEVER felt anxiety like when he was telling that last story. That was a straight up nightmare
I feel you, my anxiousness got me more anxious what an ugly feeling!
@@romanaaranda4692 right!? But here I am at 3AM still binge watching every single video I havnt watched yet lol
Because of stories like these I was extremely scared of being woken up when I got my wisdom teeth out. I have a big tolerance to pain killers and muscle relaxers which I didn't take or find out about until I was 19 first time I took either of them it didn't affect me at all except make me itchy. I was so scared of waking up during my wisdom teeth removal and none of my family thought I would but I told the dentist in charge about it. I woke up in the middle but he had a girl looking for any signs and withdrew then put me under again. Thank God the dental surgeon listened when I told him there's a big chance ill wake up i have a high tolerance
I had to pause and calm down lol.
@@TheReviewedByMe 😄 frfr that's the epitome of a living a nightmare. Straight up terror
I actually had the last story happen to me. I woke up when I was getting a rod put into my thigh and couldn’t open my eyes. I was able to start rocking back and forth on my shoulders though and I literally heard someone say “oh fuck he’s awake put him out put him out.” Honestly never even crossed my mind to sue. I was already in such unbelievable amounts of pain from shattering my femur that it really didn’t even hurt anymore than it already did. I think you just cap out at a certain threshold where your body is just like whatevs - a 10 is a 10.
That’s kinda reassuring actually 😅
HOW DID U SHATTER UR FEMUR. Gawd isn't it the strongest bone? Still tho, wow 😮
@@sarahnuamah7009 lol going into labor and contractions made me realize it gets worse that just 10😅
I had a heart surgery and several years later eye surgery in the hospital. They had to cut both eyes open and fiddle with the stuff inside. I normally get about 9-12 shots, at the eye drs office, in each eye every 3 weeks due to a medical condition causing my sight to fail. But this full surgery was neccessary as it was getting worse. I could still see. I'm never numb for the shots. And you very much can feel those needles and pressure of liquid into the eyes. I was fully awake for everything and could feel everything every time. Couldn't speak during the hospital surgies though. And they had administered the full dosages of everything those times. I would rather die than go through that again. And during my emergency c-section, the epidural didn't work. They shot me 3 times with a numbing agent, i felt the needle wiggling in my spine. Then they tried 3 more times with the epidural. I also felt all 3 of those wiggling in my spine. But none of it worked. I felt everything then too. But they had to do it, as both me and my son were dying. He was suffocating and my organs were failing fast. I will never go through it again.
I woke up on the table during a surgery. The doctor tried to deny that it had happened. My shoulders were bruised from them trying to hold me down. I have vague memories of the trauma but I know it happened.
I woke during surgery and felt everything.
I've heard stories of anesthesiologists having patients that had very high tolerance towards the drugs they were given but I've never heard of them outright denying that the patients woke up and were feeling everything. They just usually keep giving the patient more and more until they reach the highest dosage they can give, and if that doesn't work then the patient just has to endure until it is over.
Me too, woke up during an appendix surgery. But luckily my doctor admitted that it happened and apologized a hundred times. I don't remember being in pain, but I remember very clearly I was not able to breathe and trying to get air so bad and of course panicked. But they knocked me out again right away.
I was in a reasonably bad road accident when I was a teenager and had to have emergency surgery at the scene, they couldn't administer anaesthetic as there was none/nobody to administer it so they just pumped me full of as much morphine as they could and went to work. The memory is a little hazy but I clearly remember looking down at my leg whilst they were going at it with scalpels and a drill, that shit terrified me.
Same same. But now they slip you vercet to mess up your memory.
The last story gave me serious anxiety, can’t even imagine what he must have went through and how heartbreaking for his family.
Sherman’s story is just terrifying on a primal level. You would think the heart rate and such would tell the surgeons something.
Great vids MrBallen, love the channel.
Ikr? He must have sweated a lot too! How come nobody at all was paying attention?
I'm not a medical professional but it could be that the first drug also regulates heart rate and perspiration and things like that, right?
there is no sure way to tell if a patient is experiencing awareness. There is also no medical definition of being 'put to sleep.' It is defined medically as being totally unaware and not making any memories. Heart rate can be a good indicator of pain, and there is a device they can put on your head that will monitor your brain waves to see if you're active while under.
Before the invention of paralytics, lots of patients died on the operating table as a result of the trauma their bodies go through while surgery is performed, so they are crucial for patient safety, but the story shows that medical professionals can be very lax in their care for you, which is why you should always bring things like this up especially if you are having surgery and putting your life in their hands.
@@gownerjones MD here. There is some respiratory and cardiac depression but nowhere near enough to offset the elevation that would be expected from someone being cut in pieces. It was likely a case of incompetence where they failed to monitor vitals regularly and I assume the older machines lacked alarm functions perhaps?
@@aggressivelyamicable5987 Thank you for the clarification, Doctor.
The fact that 20000 people A YEAR are traumatized during surgery is mind boggling and absolutely horrifying. all of those doctor's and nurses are probably still practicing and it makes me sick, they tried to wipe this guys mind instead of admitting they fucked up and killed a man. should be in prison
I was definitely traumatized during surgery...an emergency c-section. The surgery was completely unnecessary. I was in labor and dilated 1cm the day before the birth of my baby boy. Had the same midwife as I had during my first pregnancy. She was awesome! First pregnancy was a dream. Delivered naturally, no issues during that pregnancy nor in delivery. Natural delivery, baby was out in less than 30 mins of active labor. 2nd pregnancy, same (until delivery). Textbook pregnancy, no issues, had the same midwife (Jessica). She was staff at a very well respected OB/GYN office that had just hired a new OB/GYN physician, fresh out of school/residency. I had never met this man once. At all. Ever. Back to the story...went to the hospital after contractions began (remember, I had been to midwife the DAY BEFORE, she examined me, I was one cm dilated, she could feel baby's head, so he was effaced, as a baby should be right before delivery! Went to hospital following day after midwife appt, ultrasound was done. Baby was still head down, in position. But staff nurses said to go home, eat Taco Bell (LITERALLY told me that), come back after contractions were less than 5 mins apart. Followed instructions. Back at hospital, nurse techs said they "couldn't find" his head. Brought other techs in, said they couldn't read ultrasound. I'm in SEVERE pain b/c they're shoving their arms into me, no one seems to know what the hell they're doing. Instead of calling my midwife, they contact the new OB/GYN b/c he's on call & at the hospital. Again...NEVER MET THIS MAN IN MY ENTIRE PREGNANCY! He comes in, looks at me, & says to the staff, not me: "let's just take her in for an emergency c-section. We have other labors here at the moment." I tried arguing, seeing as it's MY body & MY baby. Next thing I know, I'm being wheeled into surgical suite. My husband said it looked like a horror film they way they were yanking organs out & slapping them on a surgical table. Long story long, my body has NEVER been the same. They discharged us less than 24 hours later. Never made sure my bowels were working. Went home so impacted that I cannot explain the amount of pain I was in. Now my son is almost 18, and my body has never been the same. I live in a pain that I would not wish on Satan. I have almost zero quality of life. If not for my children and my husband, I wouldn't be here. I suffer every single day. And now that doctors refuse to give pain meds to those who ACTUALLY need it, my life is spent in bed almost exclusively. As far as meds go, I would give anything just to have a resolution...even if it means removal of scar tissue from time to time. Nothing would please me more than to have a truly educated specialist who knows an answer to this nightmare. Sorry for the very long rant. I have all but given up on the medical community. All I want is someone who will listen to me and help. I pray to God that no mom EVER has to experience⅛th of what I had to suffer through, and still do to this day. God Bless everyone who stuck with my story. ❤❤❤ 21:16
I thought I was going to be most interested in Number 2, the Ricin assassination. But Sherman Sizemore's ordeal is absolutely chilling. The anesthesiologist more or less killed Sherman outright. He had one job, administer two drugs and he screwed it up. The real kicker is the coverup attempt. That is just so damn cowardly it boils my blood. I hope that doctor never worked in a hospital ever again.
Its name is Bruce Cannon anesthesiologist. The whole hospital should be tried for murder, crimes against humanity corruption, perversion. These evilist of things are guilty. Putrid pure evil. They push the bs. The whole community of perverts. Pure total evil
@Killingdance I feel like that experience causes such a colossal amount of trauma that no amount of therapy would ever fix
@@TrendK1ller The human mind and body have survived millions of years of trauma, we adapt with time. Although women are much better at forgetting pain than men are.
WHOS READY FOR THE PODCAST?!!?!! Taking it to the NEXT level!! ✊ keep up the hard work MrBallen Team!!!
Gonna be good!
I sure am!!!!
Yes!! So exiting!!
@@MrBallen which logo are you gonna use? Top left or bottom right?
@@MrBallen yep☺️☺️☺️
I think Robert should still hold the record for highest jump (at the time). They gave the title to Larry Donovan because he quote "survived" but technically so did Robert. His friends say he spoke to them before he died so technically he survived the fall. It's more like he died from complications due to his injuries. Although the injuries were the direct cause, it wasn't an immediate death if what his friend say is true and he did speak to them. Idk. Seems like we might as well give it to him.
That's what I was thinking too.
Poor guy gave his life for nothing. :(
Great. Now my favorite channel has been infiltrated with crap in the comments section.
@@stkyfngrszmooth They all have, it sucks. Not only have the ads gotten worse, the spam has also. TH-cam too busy removing dislike button though.
@Instagram User you are subhuman to me
@@stkyfngrszmooth well these bots are literally all over TH-cam
Sad that TH-cam focuses on problems that don’t exist and don’t do anything about these bots
Your videos help me more than you know. Some of us have mental health issues. Mine is clinical depression. Your stories help me escape and get up and get life done. Best story teller I've yet to hear. Thank you. I find your kindness to the victims, making them human is amazing.
Sending you hugs 💗
Sherman's story of "anesthesia awareness" happened to me 10 years ago during kidney surgery. I was also 8 months pregnant. You explained it very well. It's a terrifying and extremely painful experience. I was completely helpless and was trying so hard to indicate that I was awake but I couldn't move or do anything else and just had to lay there and endure the TORTURE. I was also intubated, which is not supposed to happen when someone is conscious. The apparatus breathes for you, so you can't feel yourself breathing but also somehow aren't dying. It feels like drowning without dying. Then add the pain of the tubes and surgical devices and other medical interventions. Then add the fact of knowing your baby could be at risk too during this whole situation. It was absolutely the worst experience and felt like an eternity. The anesthesiologist also tried to give me an amnesia drug right after (I started screaming when the paralytic wore off and the tube was out of my trachea at the end of the surgery when they would normally be waking the patient up). My mom was there thankfully and she refused to allow it and blocked them from touching me because the drug was not healthy for my baby and could pose a huge risk if I was to go into labor from the shock of this incredibly traumatic experience. The anesthesiologist sent me a letter a few weeks later apologizing and claiming that the hospital had started some educational classes in hopes to avoid this happening ever again. I never sued them, but I should have. I was overwhelmed by that time, with a new baby and horrible flashbacks keeping me awake at all hours. I was exhausted and traumatized and alone. I still think about it and have night terrors about it. I still have emergency level blood pressure and heart rate spikes when entering ANY healthcare facility due to the PTSD this experience left me with. I have been waiting for a really popular TH-camr to talk about this subject and how horrible it really is. Many people have heard of it, but think it's probably a myth or an exaggeration. Or they think it's extremely rare and basically never happens. As you said, it happens to thousands every year but the majority do not remember it. More people need to know about this and something needs to be done about it (there IS a way to confirm a patient is completely unconscious before starting a surgery, but it's time consuming and expensive so they don't do it). I wouldn't wish this horror on even my worst enemy. Thank you for talking about this!
Oh, what you went through!! So many things happening -- and while you were pregnant! Thank God your Mother was there to stop them from giving you the amnesia drug!
OH MY LORD!!! That sounds incredibly painful. I'm so sorry you went through that. I've never had surgery but if I do I'm going to make sure to remind them to give me the drug that will knock me out. Honestly surgery scares me half to death and this just makes it even more terrifying. Again I'm so sorry you had to go through that and I hope you have gotten the help you need to overcome the trauma.
I can't even imagine the pain u had to go through, I'm so sorry u had to experience that nightmare
@@matthewcrispinwordofGod I've been thinking about this as well. If they adminster the anesthesia first, they can check to see if you are feeling anything -- then administer the paralytic drug.
My husband had to have surgery on his leg. The doctor & anesthesiologist were planning general anesthesia, but we convinced them to anesthetize only the leg. Reluctantly they agreed. Afterwards the doctor commented on how well the surgery went that way and that he may suggest it to future patients.
I know general anesthesia is necessary for a lot of surgeries, but they use it sometimes when they don't need to -- for their own convenience.
I am so so sorry that happened to you Melinda. What an absolute nightmare! Big hugs ❤️
I knew Sherman, my aunt played piano in his church. It was a very sad and tragic event. Thank you for your storytelling and the way you captivate the listener and honor the victims you cover.
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It was tragic.. May his soul rest in peace
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That's such a sad story. I pray for that man's family. I would have a hard time dealing with knowing one of my loved ones went through so much by someone that's supposed to help you feel better.
Holy moly, Sherman’s case is so incredibly screwed up. The fact that doctors made the decision to give him an amnesiac unwillingly because of something they screwed up with? That is horrible!
Might not be the first or last time.
Makes me wonder about those that do not like going to a doctor.
I heard doctors have a god complex.
Or maybe They did it so he would not be scared for life but in the end it did not work either way it was a bad choice and should of instead got the family and ask them if that’s what they want them to do and then give him mental help.
@@juicedup14 not all nor most doctors, but a few doctors do have a chip on their shoulder something about the power to kill someone n have the knowledge to bring them back to life so dont mess with me, or their worried about the higher cost of malpractice insurance rates going up
I did an aesthetic rotation while doing my nursing degree. The pt is constantly monitored, and in a lot of cases we were actually monitoring brain activity as well. Just in case. Because it's rare, but it happens. I can also understand giving him drugs to forget what happened, but out of compation. They would have been horrified by what they had accidentally done. But it shouldn't have been covered up. We have procedures in place to handle things when they go wrong and make sure it never happens again.
It's a horrific nightmare. And if they'd been honest, Sherman might have had a better outcome.
That’s not compassion, that’s medical negligence and they should have been criminally charged. I hope for your patients sakes you don’t “understand” giving someone amnesia drugs to forget the trauma you just caused them. And it’s “anesthetic.” - signed, a rad tech.
The third story leaves me wondering how a heart monitor wouldn’t have alarmed everyone to the patient’s current state of panic. Surely his heart rate was incredibly high when he was panicking?
This is exactly my question! Did the paralytic impact heart rate? If not, the doctors should have been alerted to the skyrocketing rise of his heart rate to know something was seriously wrong!
Paralytics are weird. Some have no side effects others have literally everything. The changes they’re looking for have more to with the heart rhythm not the rate. So unless the rate is REALLY slow or REALLY fast it doesn’t pull much attention. They’re taught to look for changes in the rhythm / “pattern” of the heart squiggles. That go from normal to deadly. We also don’t know his medical hx. Most elderly people are on many different meds (like stuff for high BP, heart arrhythmias, etc.) over time they develop a therapeutic amount of those drugs in their bodies that don’t allow their HR & BP to show the same changes like you or I would to things like pain, anxiety, stress etc. I’ve seen elderly people with gnarly injuries & their HR not get above 80. One of the biggest reasons we tell people to “treat the patient not the monitor”. What a truly tragic event though, I couldn’t imagine his pain & trauma. Heartbreaking.
That’s my question
Sometimes the surgical team are too invested in the surgery and don't notice the monitor, specially because there's someone in the room precisely for that. That is the anesthesiologist job, they clearly were not in the room; I've seen anesthesiologists administer extra pain killers because they notice heart rate going up. This indeed sounds like a massive screw up
I always had a fear of these things so the last time I had surgery 10 years ago, as I was being wheeled in to the theatre I asked the anesthesiologist was it possible to happen and they assured me no, because they would be monitoring my heart rate the whole time and it’s horror story stuff 🤷🏻♂️
It put my mind at rest but I still fear it to this day. Especially when watching videos like this 🤣
Ugh, the Sherman-story is so tragic and reminds us of how advanced our brains are. 😞 As a survivor and sufferer of PTSD, I get really tired when people say that it is good to not remember something bad that has happened. A part of our brains will always remember and send out some very uneasy signals to the rest of the body. It is horrible when you really can't remember the whole event or just some picture of it, cause you can't apply the signals in your body to something that makes sense.
It is horrible. I experience this regularly. I’m fortunate that I married a woman who is hell bent on helping me through my past trauma. I still have memories from my childhood that are so buried that I don’t remember them until one night they will flood back and I will be a withered weeping mess for the next couple days as I recount what has happened to me and finally after all these 30+ years process it and get through it. I think it’s our brains defense against seeking death when something so horrible happens we would normally kill ourself.
@@coreyh55 When I was a kid I had this dream that I remembered. That is, until I was about 9 when my next door neighbor came over to talked to me and she was telling me "she was so sorry that happened to me" and went on to tell me a story about what he uncle did to her. I just sat there and listened and after she left I asked my mom what she was talking about and my mom told me what happened to me when I was little. That was when I realized the "dream" I would remember bits and pieces of was not a dream at all. My mom and the neighbor had gotten in an argument and my mom went on to explain to her about why she was over protective of me. She told her about what happened to me, but didn't think to mention that I didn't really remember it. Or at least my parents thought I didn't remember it since I never mentioned anything. The neighbor talking to me that day and me finding out it wasn't a dream fucked me up more than the trauma itself in my opinion.
@Ai7A is this a troll..?
A bunch of traumatic shit happened to me when I was too young to form memories, and then later in my life when I was very intoxicated. Now my nervous system is broken, so I have chronic tachycardia, seizures and panic attacks, all because of PTSD
If y'all develop an unexplained neurological problem and you have past trauma, look up Functional Neurological Disorder, it's pretty common, but not well understood and it's often misdiagnosed
Also, I thought the anesthesiologist is supposed to stay by the patient during the entire procedure to monitor them. When Mr Ballen said they yelled for him to "get over here" I was even more shocked.
these days ...more and more doctors and nurses are incompetent ... and I've had an experient with an lunatic doctor who's not at the medical practice anymore
Some have even gone golfing leaving an assistant
Why didn’t dude go into shock.
@@scatdog1 I was awake during an actual operation. I had to have a c section under general anesthesia because stuff wss going very wrong. While they were starting to knock me out I was very shocked and kept thinking I'm sure I'm not supposed to feel this. I then went under very briefly but woke again and could feel everything.. I couldn't understand why I wasn't passing out from shock. After all in TV shows etc they show patients.. Well anyone really gets so much pain they black out. I didn't. I had that thought foremost in my mind as it was happening, don't worry you'll pass out very soon, any second it iwll happen, now? Nothing. I did eventually go under but I don't know why. The Dr's didn't believe me until about 2 days later when I repeated a very detailed conversation two nurses were having with the anesthetist and surgeon. I'm not sure if the reason I didnt go into shock was heart meds they had given me to keep my heart rate slow. I suffer from SVT and take regular meds for it. But I have ptsd now so not too keen on asking Dr's questions about what went wrong and why. I have spoken to other people who have had a similar experience and they too didn't go into shock or anything. So maybe it's not what happens?
@Lisa Dunn - Back in 2003, I also felt a portion of my C-section and following tubal ligation. I was given a local anesthesia but still felt very groggy. At some point after the nurse taking my daughter, the anesthesia begin to wear off. Everything still felt very heavy as I tried to move my hand and fingers, even a small gesture to get someone's attention. Fortunately my anesthesiologist, who was amazing, noticed my anesthesia was wearing off. I clearly remember him asking my doctors how much longer because it was wearing off. I saw my two doctors, Obstetricians whom I trust wholeheartedly, look at each other and one responded honestly "We don't know. We are still sponging." The next thing I remember is a mask going over my face and then the recovery room. Apparently the procedure had taking longer than anticipated as I was not clotting properly. I count myself blessed to have had such a wonderful team. I shudder to think what Sherman endured knowing how I felt during those moments when I could feel their hands moving around within me. His whole team should lose their medical practice licenses.
I've woken up twice during surgery in two separate occasions, but never felt any pain like this poor guy. Both times the doctor just said to go back to sleep and I did. I can't imagine what horrors Sherman went through.
I've actually endured the Anesthesia Awareness scenario TWICE!! I can attest that it absolutely sucks and leaves a lasting imprint on your nerves. The pain is so intense that it causes neuropathy. It is a true 10 on the pain scale. Passing out from the pain is a mercy. Fortunately on one occasion the anesthesiologist noticed I was awake while the surgeon was busy hammering a large metal rod into the hollow area of my tibia (larger shin bone). At that time thankfully they adjusted the sedative and soon after was unconscious. I can still feel the sensation from time to time of scalpels cutting my leg or ankle, the fiber wire cutting through the bone of my shin, the drill boring screws through the bone to hold the rod in place, large surgical pins being driven through my feet. All of it makes me cringe just recalling it. But yeah. Been there twice. It is Hell. And it leaves a scar that can't be seen, but is certainly felt. And it never goes away.
That is horrifying, but it isn't pain that caused the neuropathy. Neuropathy is caused by nerve damage. Don't ask me why, I just had to say it.
Why the hell were you asleep during a leg operation? Local or partial anesthesia wasn't enough?
@@mirai1-p8g Because it was what is known as "invasive" surgery. Read the description of what was being done. Local anesthetic is only used for procedures done on the surface layers or skin or a little deeper like epidurals, generally. Going into bone, rods, screws, will always require going to sleep. If you don't know why, ask a doctor about trying it.
So very sorry that happened!
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Why don't YOU try it and find out!!
The surgery story is terrifying. I’m not even scared of this happening to me but it’s just terrifying that he felt every second of it but then was drugged into forgetting it.
I am scared of this happening to me. So scared in fact that when i did a small surgery a few years ago i opted to be awake and instead only use local anesthetic on the area they did surgery on. It went all fine and i almost felt nothing, and i felt in control and most importantly, safe.
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That’s why its my biggest fear, surgeries scares the hell out of me
It happened to me. The anesthesiologist hadn't screwed up, but I was in organ failure and couldn't metabolize anything but the paralytic. I didn't know pain like that was possible. It actually sent me into shock and I died briefly on the table.
I just had surgery 2 days ago. I thank the Lord that I did not see story #3 before that. That poor man.
I just had a major lung surgery about a month ago. About an hour before they came to bring me down to get prepped and whatnot and my mother had just gotten there. She was going to wait in my room for me to be done surgery and be wheeled back up. As they are wheeling me out she says, "You remembered to tell them you can't have any succinycholine, right? " . So they stopped rolling my bed out and I was like... "Uh, no, what the hell is that?".... Long story short, apparently it's a paralytic to keep people still when having surgery, and my great grandfather just never woke up again after it was given to him for a surgery back in his 50s. He was alive, but basically in a permanent vegetative state. It turns out that side of my family are all highly allergic to this stuff, and after my mother was tested as was her father and many of their siblings, and all were positive for this allergy she was told don't waste time with testing, future generations should just assume and not use it as they're all going to likely have the same gene and be allergic as well.... She had thought she had told me at some point, I'm 44 now and never had any major health issues before, so it just never came up. As it turns out its use isnt as common as it used to be and my anesthesiologist hadn't planned on me having any anyways... But that sucks that I could have possibly been all done over something I either didnt remember or never knew. My 2 year old boy had a major surgery last year and I'm so grateful nothing happened to him either because I'd be so lost without my little guy. I love Mrballen stories, but I never want to be the subject of one.
yeah.now i'm wfrqid to have one
I’m about to have 7 surgeries, and I really wish I didn’t see this
Same here! I saved this one until well after my January surgery.
@@cooterville4916 talk to the anesthesiology team about it. Seriously.
This is beyond a nightmare - if I happen to go through a surgery, I am going to tell this story to whoever my surgeon is and make sure every imaginable measure is taken that it doesn't happen and heck I'm going to tell this story on the day of the surgery, to every single person in the surgery room until I get knocked out.
Sounds like a plan.
Once I realized what MrBallen was going to be talking about, it started a spiraling down panic boulevard for me. This happened to me. I remember everything that was said and done during my surgery. I remember the pain of feeling someone's hands inside me, moving organs around to get to a tumor. I remember my body trying to throw up from the pain, and being unable to, let alone scream, because of the tube down my throat. I remember the conversations they, the doctors, interns, and nurse. I remember watching the anesthesiologist dance. I remember begging God, to please let me die from the pain of the cauterilization of the abdominal tumor. I remember my right arm being next to a tray with surgical tools on it, and trying so hard to get my fingers to move, so they would know that I was still awake. But that was when the surgeon started trying to burn off part of the tumor. It took 15 minutes of unbelievable pain for me to finally pass out. I woke up again after they were done. But I was in shock. They couldn't get my pain under control.
It took YEARS for me to be able to trust doctors again.
Yeh, I curled up in a ball as he started describing what Sherman went through. It happened to me too. I tried to move anything to get their attention. That was my first c-section. My second I at least had an epideral since it wasn't an emergency like the first. I pushed for the epideral due to the first c-section experience. They didn't believe me even then. Not until I was talking to them, and able to carry a coherent conversation while on the same anesthetic that was used the first time. I just didn't have to have the paralytic since I had the epi. It is now in my records that the 'twilight' meds don't work on me. I am so sorry you had to go through that. It is horrendous.
Holy shit, dude, I don't blame you for not trusting doctors from then on...
I hope you did a lawsuit and tried to get these doctors into jail.
They dont go to jail for malpractice dude it’s a civil matter
Omg that sounds horrible, I am so sorry you had too go through that.
My Dad was a lifetime Firefighter. He was deeply traumatized by his experiences. "Always have a way to get OUT. If not, just GET OUT any way you can, you don't want to burn." - I love you DAD ✌❤
OMG. I think I could have lived my whole life without knowing the number of people a year have the anathesia experience. That was the most horrifying story yet.
That's why they have you sign a release. Some people just never wake up.
That's why the anesthesiologist is equally as important (if not more in my eyes) as the surgeon. Ad a vet tech I check my anesthetic patients every second they are under anesthesia to make sure they are not only asleep, but mentally unaware and unresponsive. I can't imagine.
There is a movie called Awake. Does no one remember that? It shows first person account of heart surgery while someone is awake.
My God? Some people never said up from the anesthesia? I didn't know that. This is just insane.
@@beafraid2951 we need people like you! 😭😭😭
You are an excellent "STORYTELLER". The way you narrated how Sherman felt during those 16 minutes (even though he didn't even remember the event) is uneasy.
As always, YES. The bit on Sherman had me physically cringing in an imaginary pain. It was a struggle to finish, which is insane considering no video footage was used in the story. Level 1,000,000 story telling, unlocked
The last story has been one of my great fears since childhood. I was lucky enough to spend a little bit of time in operations in multiple hospitals as a nursing student. In every single one, the anesthesiologist started the procedure at the patient's side, then at their head (so they don't cross the sterile field), constantly monitoring their vital signs/breathing patterns. I, only once, saw an anesthesiologist leave the patient to go sit down in the corner of the room. One of the great anesthesiologists that I had the pleasure to shadow took me under his wing and was explaining the scope of his job and stressed the importance of keeping track of meds. Monitoring patients constantly because some work through their meds faster and you never know which ones will or won't. He inspired me to become a nurse anesthetist. Since this is such a deep fear of mine, I want to be in the room, making sure that fear doesn't come to fruition for anyone under my care.
That is inspring!
Wish I had someone like you in the room so it never had to happen to me. Thanks for what you do. I also commend you for your passion.
@Sunfeld Jiramhir and you're acting like an idiot. I know it may hurt you to see others who are happy, have great relationships, and are successful, but slow your roll a little and stop projecting yourself onto others. Go out there and make something of yourself, kid. Maybe you'll get there one day and want to show it off too...who knows.
That’s my biggest frear as of today
That happy juice tho 👌🏽
I was pregnant with my third child and it was a planned c-section. I talked to the anesthesiologist before the surgery and he talked me out of getting an epidural and that I should get a caudal because apparently an epidural can miss some spots but the caudal is more effective. So I agreed. I was in the OR and they gave me the caudal, I'm still awake but shouldn't feel any pain, but the caudal ran up instead of down and before I knew it I realized I couldn't breathe but I couldn't tell anyone because no matter how I tried nothing would come in or out of my mouth. I remember opening my eyes as wide as I could to try and alert someone that I couldn't breathe. I was already opened up and they were pulling my baby out when this happened. The next thing I remembered is coming to with a nurse pumping a bag that was over my mouth. She was breathing for me. The caudal ran up paralyzing my lungs making me unable to breathe. It's been 35 years and I still remember that fear I felt knowing I couldn't breathe but yet not being to tell anyone. I can't imagine what this guy felt and the fear his brain remembered.
Your heart rate and blood pressure must’ve gone up so that should’ve alerted the staff.. although I wonder if the medication might’ve dampened those responses.
That’s horrifying!
When I was younger, I had to go under for my dentist appointments since I felt everything the regular way. The last time, on my last minute that I was under, I couldn’t breathe! I panicked so hard and the dentist got annoyed and told me to calm down. I was so lucky that I was waking up
Jesus lady you have my sympathy what a horrible thing to happen
@@iLastStar That is what happened to me. My vital signs were messed up and I was sweating profusely which told them something was wrong. They gave me more anesthesia and I was out for the remainder of my surgery.
I just found your channel and I have to tell you that you’re the best story teller I’ve ever heard! Love your channel so much!!
Omg! That last story is by far the scariest one I have ever heard. My heart rate was thumping high during this one. How devastating for him and his family. And as usual, MrBallen told the story flawlessly.
I've actually experienced anesthesia awareness when I was a kid (assuming it counts with a local and not just general). Luckily, it was just a relatively minor surgery on my toe as opposed to someone digging around my kidneys. Still, over a decade later and I still can't believe no one stopped to ask why the kid in the operating chair was screaming his head off and and saying "I'd rather you kill me! STOP!"
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Between the botched anesthesia and the fact I had to go to a different doctor 6 months later FOR THE EXACT SAME OPERATION ON THE SAME TOE because they didn't fix the issue, I'm amazed my family never sued the hospital.
I remembered waking up during heart surgery once. It wasn't open heart but rather up through my veins and arteries. They put me out again.
I had a procedure on my toe and thank the lord the doctor doctor waited and listened to my father and me when we said I have a high tolerance for things like that. He was about to begin but checked to make sure everything was numb but I could still feel a little so he administered more local. I cannot imagine having felt him rip my toe nail off and pour acid on it essentially but my nail grew back so I still have issues with it and technically need to get it done again.
Lol, my family told the doctors to skip local anesthesia when I was 10 because we were poor. 'Just go ahead and dig into my body doc', and yes I screamed. Went through that in two different scenarios. Yay!
@@terrafraser7806 The docs did check to make sure my toe was numb... unfortunately, the idiots kept sticking me directly where the infections was (meaning the anesthetic was neutralized and therefore completely ineffective) and didn't wait for it to take effect before _immediately_ "checking", seeing that I could still feel stuff, and sticking another needle in. THIRTEEN SHOTS LATER, I was so desperate for them to stop that I lied and said that I couldn't feel anything.
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And before anyone gets on me about "dude, what did you expect to happen when you lie about the anesthetic working": 1) I was like 10-11 at the time, 2) my dad was sitting next to me the entire time (through a dozen ineffective shots and 10 minutes of me screaming my head off) without saying a word, and 3) I didn't even KNOW it was going to be a surgery until they were sitting me in the chair.
@@jameswest6232 damn. I can understand that yeah my doc waited a bit before testing then I still felt some so he was like cool more anesthetic
That 3rd story got me! The fact he had to go through that is already aweful enough! The fact that they were able to do even MORE damage to his mind and then for him to take his own life weeks later is absolutely heartbreaking. Those who made that decision to try to get him to forget their mistake. I would love to see what karma had coming for them
The 16 minutes clip terrified me and am 63 years old never have fear! Love the content even it was 2 years ago😉