Thanks Wendy- another video that really ticks all the boxes for me. I am riddled with guilt for my regain and growing increasingly resentful of people who appear to be able to eat anything and not battle a weight issue. I have experienced the self-imposed isolation after weight regain, and the self-loathing. I am currently in a situation where we are heading over to the UK to visit my husband's family in early November. Last time we were over there, I was 40 lbs lighter. I am really battling with myself over this because I don't want to go looking like this. Typically I would be counting the days till this trip in eager anticipation. Last time we went over, I was looking and feeling my absolute best, and our family there was stunned at my transformation as they had, of course, known me at my physical worst. Now I am facing the reality of facing them in shame, 40 lbs heavier, and wanting to hide and find a reason to not go. Mind you, even at my current weight, I am still over 100 lbs lighter than I was before my sleeve. You are so right- I am bullying myself. I am stressing out beyond belief about getting some of this weight off so I feel better about going over. It's probably no surprise that my metabolism is shot after a lifetime of yoyo dieting, and being post menopausal....it seems like a complete uphill battle. I feel like I am living in a state of perpetual driving hunger and my body is doing everything within it's power to sabotage my success. I appreciate your candid podcasts and your wonderful guest speakers. I look forward to your next post.
Thanks Wendy- another video that really ticks all the boxes for me. I am riddled with guilt for my regain and growing increasingly resentful of people who appear to be able to eat anything and not battle a weight issue. I have experienced the self-imposed isolation after weight regain, and the self-loathing. I am currently in a situation where we are heading over to the UK to visit my husband's family in early November. Last time we were over there, I was 40 lbs lighter. I am really battling with myself over this because I don't want to go looking like this. Typically I would be counting the days till this trip in eager anticipation. Last time we went over, I was looking and feeling my absolute best, and our family there was stunned at my transformation as they had, of course, known me at my physical worst. Now I am facing the reality of facing them in shame, 40 lbs heavier, and wanting to hide and find a reason to not go. Mind you, even at my current weight, I am still over 100 lbs lighter than I was before my sleeve. You are so right- I am bullying myself. I am stressing out beyond belief about getting some of this weight off so I feel better about going over. It's probably no surprise that my metabolism is shot after a lifetime of yoyo dieting, and being post menopausal....it seems like a complete uphill battle. I feel like I am living in a state of perpetual driving hunger and my body is doing everything within it's power to sabotage my success. I appreciate your candid podcasts and your wonderful guest speakers. I look forward to your next post.