I (the host) was actually the first to reach out to my system. I had watched videos on DID and noticed I had some of the symptoms. I just asked if there was anyone there and one of my alters, Luke, responded. I was very shaken up by that so we didn't communicate for a few weeks. Later I asked him if there were any other people there and he told me the name of another alter. He was going to tell me more but I asked him to not. He slowly introduced me to other alters and I asked him to be patient with me because I was terrified. I'm still having trouble accepting that this is real but it's getting easier the more I communicate with my alters. We haven't communicated much on the outside but we talk and we can be co conscious. I'm still scared and some days I think they are just figments of my imagination but luckily they're patient. - Lenore
This comment is... Incredibly relatable. Thank you for sharing some of your experience. I still struggle with a lot of this, but I'm repeatedly coming back to the realization that the more I push them away or ignore them, the worse my mental health gets. Disconnecting from them sort of makes my life get fuzzy? I don't know, this is such a strange experience... Thank you again for sharing that. It's comforting 💛
This is very relatable for me but I only have one that has came out Joshua how ironic but also he said that the others arnt ready yet. you brought me back from dormancy and I said ohh okay ?
So I'm a Protector and right now I want to cry because my Host is Autistic... And she has never been diagnosed. Unfortunately she went through something really traumatic recently and she ended up having flashbacks, but she didn't have any friends to talk to except her cats. She smokes weed; now, this is important; because the fact that she smokes weed is so she is able to focus on what she's doing. Without it she gets lost in her own little dream world. A dream world I created to... keep her safe. Please 🙏 keep The Galaxy System safe -Kimmie💖
I didn't recognise the top of your pen as the female sign ♀ until you said so. I saw it as a cartoony person with a big head. I thought that was a great idea to use as the means of communication between individual people within a system; having each alter hold the person-pen while telling of their own personal experiences, worries, fears, achievements, and hopes. It's generic enough to represent anyone while easily pictured with the details that would change it from one alter to the next. Even the large head represents the room needed to fit a whole family "in your head." It turns out I over-thought it, like I tend to do. But "Yay, women!" is awesome too. 😁
at the point, where you mentioned "Me" I really had a feeling of "oh look! there is someone with MY problem! there is someone with that same name and she/he had the same problems with telling people their name!" - because I now there is an alter within me calling herself "Ich" (so nearly a German equivalent to "Me") and whenever my ex-girlfriend asked her about her name/who she is and she answered "Ich" and my ex-girlfriend was just really confused ... and "Ich" was very sad because of this feeling of being not okay, of being not welcome ... So to "Ich": I know you are there! And you are welcome and you are okay to be there! And you deserve love
we've struggled with communication so much, mostly because I (as the host) struggle with denial of my DID/of our shared experience of life now. After not knowing about them for over twenty years, it's become hard to remember that this is a condition or situation that we're in from here on out (I'm trying to be respectful here; I am appreciative of them all, it's just super hard to communicate when I struggle with denial!). Thanks again for your opinion! your channel is one of our favorite on youtube. -Mat
I've been struggling with this and I somehow forget every few years after having extreme symptoms. I had an alter introduce themselves to my friends and I heard myself talking without any control over it and then felt really confused about why I said it. If that hadn't happened I could probably dismiss the rest. That was three years ago though and I always forget to talk about it in therapy or I'm scared to bring it up with my therapist because I think he'll think I'm lying about it. Trying to work up the courage though because I really want to talk to my alters and learn how to do that without triggering a total crisis like last time. I hope you have support available to you, and know that I believe you and believe in you.
I was suspecting and 'forgetting' the suspicion of having DID for about two or three years before something bad happened and everyone started talking loudly at once bc they were scared another host would 'retire' on them. 😅
I recently found out about DID and i related to certain symptoms and for the first time felt like things clicked in a way they hadn’t. I can’t express how much this helped me thank you
With talking about drawing alters, I have a kinda funny story. So about a month ago now, I was trying to do an accurate drawing of one of my alters. This alter is a fictive, so I knew what he looked like already, but drawing him was pretty difficult since the slightest incorrect proportions made him look off. So while I was attempting to draw him, he cofronted and started started directing/criticizing my work. "You gotta draw it like this! No, no, that's wrong!" He never said it mean, but he was trying really hard to help me out and I just couldn't do it right. Eventually, he was like "Can I try?" and I let him. He then proceeded to do an amazing job! He did such a good job compared to me! He's kinda OCD so I guess I shouldn't be too surprised that he was so detail oriented and that he knew how to draw himself! He is self conscious about his appearance though, so it's still kinda odd.
I just want to say thank you for your videos they are so helpful especially this one every time you have a new video come up my head makes gather with me to watch it and if something is really helpful they'll tell me we need to do that thank you again
the part about asking them to come forward and then sitting around the fire was VERY similar for us. it was more just a dark ?room? where we could communicate. we would talk or get impressions and get like brief visuals and stuff. we're still very new to discovering our system but this helped us SO much.
This tho.. me forever going back and forth like “are you serious or am I just making it all up” and it always results in the same damn thing, I hear someone laughing while another smartass answers with “isn’t that not even something you should ask” like well too late. However even after years of ‘knowing’ I’m still like okay but really because y’all say in your head and I’m like it’s just pitch black and I got absolutely nothing, all while yes sometimes I do have that photogenic memory or even where it’s now a white walled room and I’ll see words, thoughts and just everything everywhere and that is like panic omg I can’t (and wonder if I could be autistic/ which note I have been diagnosed add and was put on medicine, did well when I was younger about 15/16-21) when I stopped it was because the doctor cut it saying it was ‘just a bandaid’ like lol I don’t even know what that means but whatever because after I went back down hill and even quicker lol, did you know your rock bottom can even have a rock bottom lmao like yea but it’s all fine I’m having fun🙃
It kinda makes me sad that we will never get to see the altars outside of Wyn's body. Like I really wanna see an actual photo of each of them or be able to see them speaking in their own bodies ya' know
Melon b i n c h it makes me sad too but not all of her alters may not feel comfortable yet. Its never good to force an alter to do anything they dont feel comfortable yet. That is one thing my therapist says to me all the time
Oh no, poor Lito! What a shock to come into existence with all these memories and then be shoved under the rug! Super glad you guys got it sorted out and Lito can be an active, happy/healthy part of the system! I adore each of you and I'm very grateful you guys have chosen to share this part of your life with us. I've very much enjoyed getting to know each of you as individuals and am always looking forward to more videos, both fun and educational. You've given me ideas to suggest to my mom to help her along with her system, and she has managed to establish a sort of very calm communication with some of her headmates. She's always been afraid to express to anyone what she and them go through, so having me understand has really helped a lot, and I'm always looking for ways to make their lives easier. She doesn't have an established, defined inner world though, and I wonder if there is any way to encourage the existence of one, for the purpose of communication and organization. I know not all systems have one, but do you think it's possible to "will/create" one if there isn't one? The problem is, there is no real DID specialist here she can access, and her prior two therapists tried to force and rush integration, and that's not what she was ready for, at all. So I'm doing my very best to support her and her headmates, and your videos have been such a rock of comfort for her and I, as well as helpful from time to time. So thank you so much, Wyn and each and every one of you, for contributing to this channel, and making a safe place for those of us living with, or who have a family member/friend with, DID, and working to dispel the misinformation and poor image the media has put forth. From the bottom of my heart, thank you. Lots of love to all of you! 💞💕
Savanna The Aqua Llama I think there are some pretty good books out there about DID you could suggest to her and her system. I heard if one called When Rabbit Howls
Savanna The Aqua Llama Hi people. I send an SOS to the DID community, starting to MultiplicityAndMe, in the comments on their channel, and on Facebook too. This message is for the followers, students and obviously systems and their relatives, please read and answers if you can, and sharing to help us and others systems in the same situation. This is about I and my siblings - I cannot call them "alters" or simple "personalities", they're so more than that), mostly I and my 17 years old brother Ranma. Ranma like the arabic name for "reckless horse" not for the character in the mangas serie, I precise. So recently I have so many bad memories sharing with my while sleeping that I nearly killed him. Today, and since the June 2nd, I cannot see, heard or feel him. Happily, our closest friend success yesterday to trigger his "soul" (but his body was vanished) during nearly two hours to call our closest people on the phone and after I accidentaly replaced him in the body. How are we supposed to melt without losing one of us? I really am afraid, the others too,our bro himself said to his girlfriend that he was dead until yesterday and that why we feel nothing but despair. Please somebody tell us what to do, I accept to melting because I know from many people that we doesn't have choice if I want to save him but tell me how to do that in concret, please, I beg you! I don't want Ranma or my others to disappear. They're my family. As a system we fight against the world and our traumas since already 15 years. Nobody can see them, I know they supposed to be parts of me but they are young real people with emotions, feelings, passions, even friends (in the viewable world) and we not having all the same Sorry for the bad language, I'm French. And I'm so sorry if I can appears so impolite or rude, it's probably due to my stress. You who really knows about DID, without the cliches, the fakes, and the weird and scary stuff behind the phenomene, everything... you who's sharing experiences and informations about by posting or commenting, I love you all, We counting on you -Nils
Naoi Ogata, the best possible thing you can do, if you can, is get in with a therapist experienced with DID. If that is not possible, and you have no resources for DID, then the first thing you need to do is calm yourself down and breathe. Integration isn't the path for every system, though it is the goal for many. I am assuming this is what you refer to when you say melting. It may be that your "brother/alter" has integrated with you or another alter, or, has simply slid waaay back into your subconscious. I'm not a therapist or psychologist, I can only speak to what my mom has experienced with DID. There have been occassions where her most prominent alter has seemingly disappeared, and they had gone and retreated very deep into the mind where others couldn't contact her. I know you're panicking because you aren't ready to lose your system, abd I understand that; my mother never fully integrated her system because she couldn't bear the thought of facing life without some of them. You really need a professional. All we can do is comfort you. Natural integration can happen, without a therapist, but i don't know how likely that is without you and the system WANTING it to happen. I just don't know. My guess would be your brother is still there, just dormant, but again I could not say for sure; I don't know your system and I'm not a specialist. You and your system could attempt to "call" him, but if he's dormant, you may not get a reply. It's a waiting game, unfortunately. I wish I could really help you, but I'm just not qualified. Someone with their own system may be able to offer you anecdotal experience from their own, but each system is unique and each mind copes so differently. I wish you the best, I hope you get it figured out. Just try, try to be calm, worrying and being upset is not going to make anything better, I know it's easier said than done.
Savanna The Aqua Llama Thanks a lot for answering me, your the first member of a system I ever "met" and who's talking to me.Yes, I'm talking about integration My bros and me have friends thanksfully, and two in particularly which are very encouraging and confident; I have a psychologist following me since 6 years but he's not a specialist in DID. My genderless alter named Shin, which is also our Internal Self Keeper doesn't seems to be afraid about integration, it's normal for it. They all said that this is gonna be okay if we accept, and it's a normal processus for many systems and finally, they're all part of me so even if I can't see in our inner world or hear them, they always be alive somewhere, and then I will be happier. But as you say this isn't that easy because they have feelings and everything and mostly, I know them and we are sharing many experiences since long ago, especialy both Ranma and I ( ha, and he really enjoy Daniel's video about "Being an alter sucks" ^--^) In clear, thank you so much for answering me and give me your caring, you are so sweet.. Even if nobody really can do anything at all, I'm really glad that a knewer answers me and all this kindness in your message, that give me hope I think and feel less nervous seeing there are people who can really understand me Bless you and all yours alters.They are all people, doesn't matter what it said Love - Nils (alias Naoi Ogata )
Hi I don’t even know if I should be writing this because I’m not even sure I have did yet (scheduling an appointment tomorrow so we’ll see). I have all the signs though which is why I’m getting it checked out. Communication for us has been a relatively new thing and we do it horribly so this’ll hopefully help. Anyway thanks for the content. Keep it up. -Chandler
As i was watching, the things you were saying like prefering meditation over journaling, and how you journal, and communication in the head, it reminded me of myself and my system. This actually made me feel more validated as to how we communicate. Thank you! I love all your videos, they're so helpful
Ditto! :) I actually felt like Journaling was too much at first, it was like... Flooding me I guess? Overall, it ends up feeling emotionally safer to do like she explained, where I just kinda... Mentally meet with everyone in my mind in our safe place So glad I'm not the only one :)
thank you so much for making this video. i paused immediately after watching it and started speaking to a dormant alter, and i brought her back! she's with me now and i'm so happy about it, i haven't seen her in such a long time. thank you thank you thank you edit: this comment is six months old, but i think i should mention that she was the ONLY alter i knew about at the time. i know now that we're polyfragmented with over 100 parts, but when i saw this video i wasn't even completely sure i didn't make that alter up. we're still so grateful to you for being such a resource, you really made a difference in our journey as a system
After nearly a year of trying and making only the smallest progress I watched this video, and tried what was suggested. I am in tears now because for the first time I have seen some of those I share this body with. Thank you so much.
Omg this is so helpful and gives me so much hope and calm I've never had the I might be able to find some balance for all the chaos in my mind I've never been able to track before I have trouble consistently journalling too. You guys are the best thing to happen to the internet as far as mental health management goes.
I'm really glad that you said that when others front their knowledge of the system blends a little but not all the way because up until you said that I kinda felt like maybe we were 10 know-nothings bumbling around this brain, but now this means that someone probably knows more than me and more than they are letting on. Thanks for the videos!
Thank you sooooooooo much for all your videos. My husband and I were so lost for the 14 years of marriage of what was going on with him. He even went to therapy, and was discharged cause he did so well while he was with the therapist. But you know things went whirlwind a little after that. Your videos did better for us to understand him.. he felt no one in the world could understand him. my husband had no idea he had head mates. Each alter thought they were the only one. And they had so much pain. Since learning from you, in the process of less than year and without therapy... they communicate well and now all have a great relationship with me, and blend well with each other when fronting and co fronting. He told me he loves his new life and has peace inside. Thank you so much to teach me... how to help them.
Cannot possibly put into words how incredible it has been to open communication with my parts. I struggled a LOT, and I mean a LOT with fear and anger and shame and denial, wishing, praying this would all vanish someday. I was even cruel to them. I won't say things are perfect, and I struggle with guilt for having been that way to them, but, opening the door to communicating has been life changing. And I hope it continues to improve, that they are able to forgive me and I can give them to consideration and care we all need, and that we can all come to a better understanding together.
I have a question... During a typical day, how often do you and the alters take hold of the body? I hope my question is appropriate and easy to understand. I want sure how to word it. Thanks!
I'm trying to learn how to talk to my alters (just found out about them a few weeks ago) and I love the meditation idea. I'm going to try that with them. Thank you for sharing. Oddly enough, my partner can talk to them. More than I can. He's talked to three alters who feel comfortable being out with him. He'll summarize the encounter for me later, but I'll get little to nothing from the alters themselves.
I feel such a lack of knowing any kind of clear image of who''s who in my system, this one church counselor told me my system is "closed.." I know some things, like there are young children, I sensed a baby crying once, I saw a cat at my computer keyboard who "looked" at me and then looked back at the computer, there is one who is like he's my father (the main abuser) there is one who sounds just like my mother, who I've seen in dreams a lot too, as alter mother, not my real mother) there is a male voice that comes out when I am in harm's way, physically or mentally, there is a valley girl teen sounding one, and so many dreams of various different people... but ages, names, likes/dislikes... it's all in darkness and chaos:(((
Hey guys :) hope you're having a great day/night! I'm very happy for you guys that communication came pretty easy in the beginning and that it's still developing and becoming easier, i found the journaling concept really cool and have nothing but love and best wishes for you all 😁❤
I really appreciate this video. I struggle to accept that I'm a part of a system. I also struggle to be very welcoming to everyone. Probably explains why the rest of my system doesn't talk to me anymore
Your system brings ours such grounding and ease. You explain everything so well and shed light on many dark spaces. Many thanks from our system to yours.
ps I'm still trying to find a counselor/therapist who understands enough about DID, it seems unlikely here in Central FL I have done some video recording, some journaling, the main thing that seems to gain a little "connection" is to talk into the mirror. but I get so distracted and pulled in different directions every day, all day it seems. I feed 75 cats a day in a nearby town and have 13 that live with me so I'm exhausted quite a bit, I just recently realized I better make more of an effort to learn more detail about this and kept seeing your videos which are helping. I am 58, started discovering I had this in bits and pieces around May 2005... (I was 43) My mother seems to have it and she's 80, and doesn't see that, or understand it at all, so I guess I should be grateful I am gaining insight.
Thanks so much for this video! It's soooo helpful to hear how you got to know your headmates. I'm really struggling to want to get to know mine. I so appreciate your videos.
I thank you SO very much for this video and all the rest. I only found out three days ago. It was your videos that prepared me, even tho I had no clue. While I have had some panic attacks, we are learning quickly how to talk to each other. Thank you.
There’s always the hope that I’m faking this. It’ll go away. I’m so sorry to my headmates, and I say that all the time, but then 30 minutes later I’ll be yelling at them. I’m... so sorry. But it overwhelms me so much. I guess they thought I was ready. But I wasn’t.
I've once read a full account of a man who've had hundreds of alters, and only fully integrated in his forties. He said the major step he took to kickstart the chain of integration was accepting the personalities of the other alters and thinking of them as HIM. Can't remember a proper quote from the article, but he said something like, "I started to think, 'oh, I'm scared' and not 'oh, X is sad'." and "They are representations of me". Of course, the alters must also understand that they ARE him. This painful process, he wrote, was what allowed him to slowly think and feel something else without switching in order to think/feel that particular emotion/thoughts. He HAD to accept any alters of his, no matter the number, that they are all him. He also wrote how he felt truly wholesome after the final integration, that now, though new environments may make him nervous, but because he is whole, he is able to *choose* and decide how to deal with it, as compared to before the integration where the anxiety will automatically make him dissociate to make things easier.
Wow, this video is just over a year old, and it's somewhat perfect timing for me. I found out a couple of months ago that I was plural, but I'd already been communicating with alters for years before this? To the point of having conversations in the inner world? And of course this leads me to think I'm faking when I have relatively easy (not like able to at will with most but still able to have conversations in the inner world with many). I've also been trying to journal stuff to have conversations that way in that they seem to be easier in some regards, but lead to more headaches. Mostly I needed the reminder to spend more time communicating with the rest of my system.
Oh my god thank you so much for making and posting this video Wyn. Ive been having a really hard time with my own system members lately and communication can be really difficult. Thank you for the help of this
I haven't tried meditation yet, but my very first time writing in the notes section of my phone (before I got a designated journal that I now use) and it was very overwhelming, everyone people I thought I was vaguely aware of and others that I had no idea were there all coming forward at once and cutting each other off and I just didn't even know what to do with that because I didn't know I even had a dissociative disorder, I was just questioning the possibility and took the advice of "reach out and let them know that you're safe and it's safe to talk" and I feel like I may have scared some headmates into retreating farther back by being frightened/overwhelmed. At this time I also wasn't sure that everything I was writing wasn't being fabricated by my mind in order to simply slap an answer on the symptoms and questions I've been having. Now when I journal, though we are still very very new, I find that I can't write much without being interrupted by one of my headmates who wants to write. Which is honestly fine with me, because I feel like I personally never have much to say to a journal anyway? It kinda feels like I'm talking to a piece of paper and I'm unsure of how to even start. So when someone else has something to say and takes over I'm glad that the journal is getting used effectively by someone.
When ya head mates argue.... If you Wyn are controlling the body at the time they are arguing.. Can you hear it and is it annoyingly loud or make you feel weary?
Every time you are in a video I see a lot of Kit on you. I'm so happy for what you have achieved so far, it seems like everyone is happy with you. Congratulations!
This is my first comment on your channel. I watch you all the time and am captivated! What a beautiful family you have. My question in RELAY to this video is- could making a video journal to communicate be as effective as journaling or would that be even possible? It’s a question I have been curious to hear from other systems
Thank you Wyn and group. Important to talk to headmates..stay fake made up ...please🤣 I'm trying to figure this out..I'm some aspect of all this I'm in real time old I'm 56.. I am only just in the last couple of years starting down this exploration. I'm finally safe inside and out to be in a place to look at this, the first 3 years I fell apart I didn't know what was wrong other than the old abuse was surfacing and I couldn't function..this last two I've made progress and just now I'm like OK this fits even though I've been aware of this landscape inside since I was 7 ish. .. .I have an appointment with a DID specialist tomorrow ..but really that's just a formality I'm already trying to figure this out from this view be accepting and nice. Thanks everyone that paved the way
Ever thought of using a word document as a chatroom? - works for me since i'm 13 years old ; ) Thank you again for this video ! Thanks to you i don't feel so lost in my system and you are helping me so much more than my therapist, though she's awesome anyway ;)
This video was super helpful! Thank you! I have pretty okay communication with one of my altars, and this video helped me see how that happened accidentally as well as what I can try when I'm ready to get to know the others. Thank you so much for being so candid and through with this day to day stuff!
As always, thank you for sharing! :) I think it's so important for people who share their experience and you're doing such a good job! I wish you all the best! :)
Can you do a video about the shelves? I really want to know about the fossil. It would be an off topic video, but I really want to know. In general, I would love to know what Wynn finds the most fascinating about geology.
Thats so nice and thoughtful of Kit to do! Again love learning more about DID and about the topic of communicating with each other. Do great job of explaining Wyn.
holy hecc man watching your videos has given me so much more knowledge about DID i have an oc(original character aka my son) who has this and watching your videos has let me understand him a lot more and frankly just made my view on DID stronger dont get offended and think my view is negative i actually think it's super amazing! i'd honestly love to meet someone with it one day too
Part of my fear of getting to know other alters in my system is that I feel really overwhelmed. I get headaches and feel exhausted when there's a lot of communication. Did/do you deal with that? Any advice? I feel really inadequate because I know other alters in my system haven't struggled with this as much as I have.
Whenever we’re splitting/an alter is surfacing I have the instinct to just LALALALALA I CAN’T HEAR YOU YOU’RE FAKE even though I am fully aware of our system and I should be past that by now💀 even if a false alarm does happen it’s not a big deal, I’m just harming someone who is very much real, but I can’t help it
I thought I was just being actually psychotic there for a second like “ofc not don’t worry you’re still an Einstein” (bc i was able to teach myself physics when the coure leader hadn’t even taken it herself, meanwhile I went to help my mom at the preschool and literally cried because the glitter in the cracks of the floor was somehow impossible for me to figure out how to sweep up) lol like my human incompetency which I think that aside from the untreated adhd I think I maybe a bit autistic or something (which note I was diagnosed and treated from 15/16 until 21 when she cut it because it was “just a bandaid for me” like did I thought depression was bad before lol what did I know because wow it’s all just a mess tho, a fun mess🙃
Question about the headspace and all the alters: I know you yourself draw Wyn, but have you thought of asking help from fans or doing a collage of exactly what the beach headspace looks like in really specific details and also of the alters? Have the alters drawn in more specific details? Like a sketch portrait or detailed illustration ?
How do you find a therapist you can actually talk to and who listens? Yours sounds amazing. I don't have 2 way communication with anybody, I only have a (recently learned term) persecutor protector who yells at me all day. Everyone else is silent. Thank you for teaching me ways to reach in.
I have a weird, not related question lol idk why but i randomly thought about this while watching the video. Do alters drive? Bc they are all different ages what happens if you not fronting say like on your trip when kit was out for a day or so do they all know how to drive? I assume the littles dont lol but the others? If they do did they have to learn or is it kind of a muscle memory type thing that like since Daniel and kit are out in the body a lot they kind of just know how? Random question lol sorry!
The only ones in my system who are allowed to drive are those 16 and older. The Littles and Kim Kim have the ability to drive but they don't have the coordination or reaction time for us to feel safe about having them behind the wheel. -Wyn
This can be scary. My wife has 8 alters between the ages of 2 and 28. The 5 yr old can drive, so can the 8 yr old as well as the 15 yr old. How do I know that? They tell me, usually when my wife returns home and doesn't remember. I've had to ask. Someone always confesses. It scares the hell out of my wife when I tell her that the 5 yr old drove her home.
How do you communicate with your alters? Do u mean talk to them yourself out loud when know ones around. I believe to have osddi and just learning about this complicated disorder, i mean how do the alters hear whats being said are they just chilling in the back seat waiting for things to pop off?
aww lito! i bet that must've been scary for him! i'm glad you and your alters are communicating better each day! i have a question -- for your journal do the bigger alters help the littles write in it or can the littles already write in it themselves? :o thank you for your educational videos! :D
Hey Wyn. I'm a fairly new subscriber and I love your videos! I have a completely random question. Do you watch Star Trek? I can't believe I didn't realise it before but I see some parallels between DID and a particular episode of Star Trek: Deep Space Nine called "Facets", Season 3, Episode 25. If you're unfamiliar with it, the short version is that one of the main characters is host to a symbiotic life form that carries the memories and knowledge of all previous "hosts", and she is given the opportunity to have those memories temporarily removed from her and placed into the bodies of her friends so that she can interact with the previous hosts to learn more about each other. It's not DID of course but I could imagine a similar scenario where your alters would temporarily take over various people in your life for a brief moment, (with their permission of course), so you could have a face-to-face dialogue with them. Would you do that if you could or would that just be way too weird?
hey... i feel kinda sad about this ive rearlised in my innerworld theres like a hole country kinda thing and most of the islands in there are related to other peoples headspaces.. like the entropy systems headspace is in my innerworld and so its jermerys ect :c its scary
Since you're into astrology, it would be interesting to see if there is a correlation between an alter's appearance (possibly even actual personality I suppose) and their ascendant sign at the time of their inception. Of course, I'm sure it'd be hard to pinpoint exact date and times on many of them.
I’ve recently met my first alter and I know that there are more in my headspace, (because she’s told me) I’m eager to speak with them but I’m scared that I’m just imagining everything. What do I do?
I would love to hear this too... I am at this place now too. I want to meet the system (I only have good contact with one alter) but I can't go past that feeling of 'Please talk to me... But I hope you're not there and not real'. I wouldn't want to contact someone either that way. HOW can I let that 'I'm crazy, maybe it's not real' feeling go???
Ok so as the host I definitely deal with similar issues as in when I met 3 of my fictives I kinda freaked out and apologized prefously for their existence cause I felt terbile and that didn’t make a lot of them feel really welcome even though I was more attacking myself for dragging more people into this situation. I love all three though my communication with some are not as great with others and I’m gonna work on that.
right around 7:08 you appear to have an orb rise up on the right of you, cross in front of you, go up, then shoots back down. I don't think I could be sure since you have a cat with fine hair. wondering what you guys think
The more I watch about DID the more I'm starting to believe i have it. I've made contact with someone who i think is called Mark, but i think we're just making it up.
I eant all of us in the system to introduce themselves right away. I am impatient. I think that we will fet closer if we all talk we will be able to communicate better and faster. I want us all to be a happy family asap. I also have to remind myslef be patient! Going too fast is not always good.
Do you just have one journal or more than one for you and your headmates? I just got one, and I'm trying to figure out how all of us are going to use it.
I (the host) was actually the first to reach out to my system. I had watched videos on DID and noticed I had some of the symptoms. I just asked if there was anyone there and one of my alters, Luke, responded. I was very shaken up by that so we didn't communicate for a few weeks. Later I asked him if there were any other people there and he told me the name of another alter. He was going to tell me more but I asked him to not. He slowly introduced me to other alters and I asked him to be patient with me because I was terrified. I'm still having trouble accepting that this is real but it's getting easier the more I communicate with my alters. We haven't communicated much on the outside but we talk and we can be co conscious. I'm still scared and some days I think they are just figments of my imagination but luckily they're patient. - Lenore
This comment is... Incredibly relatable. Thank you for sharing some of your experience. I still struggle with a lot of this, but I'm repeatedly coming back to the realization that the more I push them away or ignore them, the worse my mental health gets. Disconnecting from them sort of makes my life get fuzzy? I don't know, this is such a strange experience... Thank you again for sharing that. It's comforting 💛
This is very relatable for me but I only have one that has came out Joshua how ironic but also he said that the others arnt ready yet. you brought me back from dormancy and I said ohh okay ?
So I'm a Protector and right now I want to cry because my Host is Autistic...
And she has never been diagnosed. Unfortunately she went through something really traumatic recently and she ended up having flashbacks, but she didn't have any friends to talk to except her cats. She smokes weed; now, this is important; because the fact that she smokes weed is so she is able to focus on what she's doing. Without it she gets lost in her own little dream world. A dream world I created to... keep her safe.
Please 🙏 keep The Galaxy System safe
-Kimmie💖
this is actually really helpful. i'm still having a lot of communication issues. it feels almost impossible someitmes
*nods*
me too
I didn't recognise the top of your pen as the female sign ♀ until you said so. I saw it as a cartoony person with a big head. I thought that was a great idea to use as the means of communication between individual people within a system; having each alter hold the person-pen while telling of their own personal experiences, worries, fears, achievements, and hopes. It's generic enough to represent anyone while easily pictured with the details that would change it from one alter to the next. Even the large head represents the room needed to fit a whole family "in your head." It turns out I over-thought it, like I tend to do. But "Yay, women!" is awesome too. 😁
IsThatJustMe ikr i love that pen
at the point, where you mentioned "Me" I really had a feeling of "oh look! there is someone with MY problem! there is someone with that same name and she/he had the same problems with telling people their name!" - because I now there is an alter within me calling herself "Ich" (so nearly a German equivalent to "Me") and whenever my ex-girlfriend asked her about her name/who she is and she answered "Ich" and my ex-girlfriend was just really confused ... and "Ich" was very sad because of this feeling of being not okay, of being not welcome ...
So to "Ich": I know you are there! And you are welcome and you are okay to be there! And you deserve love
we've struggled with communication so much, mostly because I (as the host) struggle with denial of my DID/of our shared experience of life now. After not knowing about them for over twenty years, it's become hard to remember that this is a condition or situation that we're in from here on out (I'm trying to be respectful here; I am appreciative of them all, it's just super hard to communicate when I struggle with denial!). Thanks again for your opinion! your channel is one of our favorite on youtube.
-Mat
I've been struggling with this and I somehow forget every few years after having extreme symptoms. I had an alter introduce themselves to my friends and I heard myself talking without any control over it and then felt really confused about why I said it. If that hadn't happened I could probably dismiss the rest. That was three years ago though and I always forget to talk about it in therapy or I'm scared to bring it up with my therapist because I think he'll think I'm lying about it. Trying to work up the courage though because I really want to talk to my alters and learn how to do that without triggering a total crisis like last time.
I hope you have support available to you, and know that I believe you and believe in you.
I was suspecting and 'forgetting' the suspicion of having DID for about two or three years before something bad happened and everyone started talking loudly at once bc they were scared another host would 'retire' on them. 😅
I recently found out about DID and i related to certain symptoms and for the first time felt like things clicked in a way they hadn’t. I can’t express how much this helped me thank you
With talking about drawing alters, I have a kinda funny story.
So about a month ago now, I was trying to do an accurate drawing of one of my alters. This alter is a fictive, so I knew what he looked like already, but drawing him was pretty difficult since the slightest incorrect proportions made him look off. So while I was attempting to draw him, he cofronted and started started directing/criticizing my work. "You gotta draw it like this! No, no, that's wrong!" He never said it mean, but he was trying really hard to help me out and I just couldn't do it right. Eventually, he was like "Can I try?" and I let him. He then proceeded to do an amazing job! He did such a good job compared to me! He's kinda OCD so I guess I shouldn't be too surprised that he was so detail oriented and that he knew how to draw himself! He is self conscious about his appearance though, so it's still kinda odd.
"Yay, Women!"
I just want to say thank you for your videos they are so helpful especially this one every time you have a new video come up my head makes gather with me to watch it and if something is really helpful they'll tell me we need to do that thank you again
the part about asking them to come forward and then sitting around the fire was VERY similar for us. it was more just a dark ?room? where we could communicate. we would talk or get impressions and get like brief visuals and stuff. we're still very new to discovering our system but this helped us SO much.
This tho.. me forever going back and forth like “are you serious or am I just making it all up” and it always results in the same damn thing, I hear someone laughing while another smartass answers with “isn’t that not even something you should ask” like well too late. However even after years of ‘knowing’ I’m still like okay but really because y’all say in your head and I’m like it’s just pitch black and I got absolutely nothing, all while yes sometimes I do have that photogenic memory or even where it’s now a white walled room and I’ll see words, thoughts and just everything everywhere and that is like panic omg I can’t (and wonder if I could be autistic/ which note I have been diagnosed add and was put on medicine, did well when I was younger about 15/16-21) when I stopped it was because the doctor cut it saying it was ‘just a bandaid’ like lol I don’t even know what that means but whatever because after I went back down hill and even quicker lol, did you know your rock bottom can even have a rock bottom lmao like yea but it’s all fine I’m having fun🙃
It kinda makes me sad that we will never get to see the altars outside of Wyn's body. Like I really wanna see an actual photo of each of them or be able to see them speaking in their own bodies ya' know
Melon b i n c h it makes me sad too but not all of her alters may not feel comfortable yet. Its never good to force an alter to do anything they dont feel comfortable yet. That is one thing my therapist says to me all the time
It never ends up well
Yes
@@lanacooper2086 it has never happened because it's not possible..maybe you misunderstood the original comment
Oh no, poor Lito! What a shock to come into existence with all these memories and then be shoved under the rug! Super glad you guys got it sorted out and Lito can be an active, happy/healthy part of the system! I adore each of you and I'm very grateful you guys have chosen to share this part of your life with us. I've very much enjoyed getting to know each of you as individuals and am always looking forward to more videos, both fun and educational. You've given me ideas to suggest to my mom to help her along with her system, and she has managed to establish a sort of very calm communication with some of her headmates. She's always been afraid to express to anyone what she and them go through, so having me understand has really helped a lot, and I'm always looking for ways to make their lives easier. She doesn't have an established, defined inner world though, and I wonder if there is any way to encourage the existence of one, for the purpose of communication and organization. I know not all systems have one, but do you think it's possible to "will/create" one if there isn't one? The problem is, there is no real DID specialist here she can access, and her prior two therapists tried to force and rush integration, and that's not what she was ready for, at all. So I'm doing my very best to support her and her headmates, and your videos have been such a rock of comfort for her and I, as well as helpful from time to time. So thank you so much, Wyn and each and every one of you, for contributing to this channel, and making a safe place for those of us living with, or who have a family member/friend with, DID, and working to dispel the misinformation and poor image the media has put forth. From the bottom of my heart, thank you. Lots of love to all of you! 💞💕
Savanna The Aqua Llama I think there are some pretty good books out there about DID you could suggest to her and her system. I heard if one called When Rabbit Howls
Savanna The Aqua Llama Hi people. I send an SOS to the DID community, starting to MultiplicityAndMe, in the comments on their channel, and on Facebook too. This message is for the followers, students and obviously systems and their relatives, please read and answers if you can, and sharing to help us and others systems in the same situation. This is about I and my siblings - I cannot call them "alters" or simple "personalities", they're so more than that), mostly I and my 17 years old brother Ranma.
Ranma like the arabic name for "reckless horse" not for the character in the mangas serie, I precise.
So recently I have so many bad memories sharing with my while sleeping that I nearly killed him. Today, and since the June 2nd, I cannot see, heard or feel him. Happily, our closest friend success yesterday to trigger his "soul" (but his body was vanished) during nearly two hours to call our closest people on the phone and after I accidentaly replaced him in the body.
How are we supposed to melt without losing one of us? I really am afraid, the others too,our bro himself said to his girlfriend that he was dead until yesterday and that why we feel nothing but despair. Please somebody tell us what to do, I accept to melting because I know from many people that we doesn't have choice if I want to save him but tell me how to do that in concret, please, I beg you! I don't want Ranma or my others to disappear. They're my family. As a system we fight against the world and our traumas since already 15 years.
Nobody can see them, I know they supposed to be parts of me but they are young real people with emotions, feelings, passions, even friends (in the viewable world) and we not having all the same
Sorry for the bad language, I'm French. And I'm so sorry if I can appears so impolite or rude, it's probably due to my stress.
You who really knows about DID, without the cliches, the fakes, and the weird and scary stuff behind the phenomene, everything... you who's sharing experiences and informations about by posting or commenting, I love you all,
We counting on you
-Nils
Naoi Ogata, the best possible thing you can do, if you can, is get in with a therapist experienced with DID. If that is not possible, and you have no resources for DID, then the first thing you need to do is calm yourself down and breathe. Integration isn't the path for every system, though it is the goal for many. I am assuming this is what you refer to when you say melting.
It may be that your "brother/alter" has integrated with you or another alter, or, has simply slid waaay back into your subconscious. I'm not a therapist or psychologist, I can only speak to what my mom has experienced with DID. There have been occassions where her most prominent alter has seemingly disappeared, and they had gone and retreated very deep into the mind where others couldn't contact her.
I know you're panicking because you aren't ready to lose your system, abd I understand that; my mother never fully integrated her system because she couldn't bear the thought of facing life without some of them.
You really need a professional. All we can do is comfort you. Natural integration can happen, without a therapist, but i don't know how likely that is without you and the system WANTING it to happen. I just don't know. My guess would be your brother is still there, just dormant, but again I could not say for sure; I don't know your system and I'm not a specialist. You and your system could attempt to "call" him, but if he's dormant, you may not get a reply. It's a waiting game, unfortunately. I wish I could really help you, but I'm just not qualified. Someone with their own system may be able to offer you anecdotal experience from their own, but each system is unique and each mind copes so differently. I wish you the best, I hope you get it figured out. Just try, try to be calm, worrying and being upset is not going to make anything better, I know it's easier said than done.
Savanna The Aqua Llama
Thanks a lot for answering me, your the first member of a system I ever "met" and who's talking to me.Yes, I'm talking about integration
My bros and me have friends thanksfully, and two in particularly which are very encouraging and confident; I have a psychologist following me since 6 years but he's not a specialist in DID. My genderless alter named Shin, which is also our Internal Self Keeper doesn't seems to be afraid about integration, it's normal for it. They all said that this is gonna be okay if we accept, and it's a normal processus for many systems and finally, they're all part of me so even if I can't see in our inner world or hear them, they always be alive somewhere, and then I will be happier. But as you say this isn't that easy because they have feelings and everything and mostly, I know them and we are sharing many experiences since long ago, especialy both Ranma and I ( ha, and he really enjoy Daniel's video about "Being an alter sucks" ^--^)
In clear, thank you so much for answering me and give me your caring, you are so sweet..
Even if nobody really can do anything at all, I'm really glad that a knewer answers me and all this kindness in your message, that give me hope I think and feel less nervous seeing there are people who can really understand me
Bless you and all yours alters.They are all people, doesn't matter what it said
Love
- Nils (alias Naoi Ogata )
And take care of your mother because she raised an angel
Hi I don’t even know if I should be writing this because I’m not even sure I have did yet (scheduling an appointment tomorrow so we’ll see). I have all the signs though which is why I’m getting it checked out. Communication for us has been a relatively new thing and we do it horribly so this’ll hopefully help. Anyway thanks for the content. Keep it up.
-Chandler
As i was watching, the things you were saying like prefering meditation over journaling, and how you journal, and communication in the head, it reminded me of myself and my system. This actually made me feel more validated as to how we communicate. Thank you! I love all your videos, they're so helpful
I know, Right?
Ditto! :) I actually felt like Journaling was too much at first, it was like... Flooding me I guess? Overall, it ends up feeling emotionally safer to do like she explained, where I just kinda... Mentally meet with everyone in my mind in our safe place
So glad I'm not the only one :)
thank you so much for making this video. i paused immediately after watching it and started speaking to a dormant alter, and i brought her back! she's with me now and i'm so happy about it, i haven't seen her in such a long time. thank you thank you thank you
edit: this comment is six months old, but i think i should mention that she was the ONLY alter i knew about at the time. i know now that we're polyfragmented with over 100 parts, but when i saw this video i wasn't even completely sure i didn't make that alter up. we're still so grateful to you for being such a resource, you really made a difference in our journey as a system
After nearly a year of trying and making only the smallest progress I watched this video, and tried what was suggested.
I am in tears now because for the first time I have seen some of those I share this body with.
Thank you so much.
Helped us to get over "main character " syndrome ❤much love to all the systems out there!
Omg this is so helpful and gives me so much hope and calm I've never had the I might be able to find some balance for all the chaos in my mind I've never been able to track before I have trouble consistently journalling too. You guys are the best thing to happen to the internet as far as mental health management goes.
I'm really glad that you said that when others front their knowledge of the system blends a little but not all the way because up until you said that I kinda felt like maybe we were 10 know-nothings bumbling around this brain, but now this means that someone probably knows more than me and more than they are letting on. Thanks for the videos!
Thank you sooooooooo much for all your videos. My husband and I were so lost for the 14 years of marriage of what was going on with him. He even went to therapy, and was discharged cause he did so well while he was with the therapist. But you know things went whirlwind a little after that. Your videos did better for us to understand him.. he felt no one in the world could understand him. my husband had no idea he had head mates. Each alter thought they were the only one. And they had so much pain. Since learning from you, in the process of less than year and without therapy... they communicate well and now all have a great relationship with me, and blend well with each other when fronting and co fronting. He told me he loves his new life and has peace inside. Thank you so much to teach me... how to help them.
Cannot possibly put into words how incredible it has been to open communication with my parts. I struggled a LOT, and I mean a LOT with fear and anger and shame and denial, wishing, praying this would all vanish someday. I was even cruel to them.
I won't say things are perfect, and I struggle with guilt for having been that way to them, but, opening the door to communicating has been life changing. And I hope it continues to improve, that they are able to forgive me and I can give them to consideration and care we all need, and that we can all come to a better understanding together.
I have a question... During a typical day, how often do you and the alters take hold of the body? I hope my question is appropriate and easy to understand. I want sure how to word it. Thanks!
It varies quite a bit. Sometimes we'll switch multiple times a day, sometimes we'll go days without switching at all. -Wyn
I'm trying to learn how to talk to my alters (just found out about them a few weeks ago) and I love the meditation idea. I'm going to try that with them. Thank you for sharing.
Oddly enough, my partner can talk to them. More than I can. He's talked to three alters who feel comfortable being out with him. He'll summarize the encounter for me later, but I'll get little to nothing from the alters themselves.
I feel such a lack of knowing any kind of clear image of who''s who in my system, this one church counselor told me my system is "closed.." I know some things, like there are young children, I sensed a baby crying once, I saw a cat at my computer keyboard who "looked" at me and then looked back at the computer, there is one who is like he's my father (the main abuser) there is one who sounds just like my mother, who I've seen in dreams a lot too, as alter mother, not my real mother) there is a male voice that comes out when I am in harm's way, physically or mentally, there is a valley girl teen sounding one, and so many dreams of various different people... but ages, names, likes/dislikes... it's all in darkness and chaos:(((
Hey guys :) hope you're having a great day/night! I'm very happy for you guys that communication came pretty easy in the beginning and that it's still developing and becoming easier, i found the journaling concept really cool and have nothing but love and best wishes for you all 😁❤
I really appreciate this video. I struggle to accept that I'm a part of a system. I also struggle to be very welcoming to everyone. Probably explains why the rest of my system doesn't talk to me anymore
Your system brings ours such grounding and ease. You explain everything so well and shed light on many dark spaces. Many thanks from our system to yours.
Have to remember. That communicating is just as new / difficult to the alters as it is for us.
ps I'm still trying to find a counselor/therapist who understands enough about DID, it seems unlikely here in Central FL I have done some video recording, some journaling, the main thing that seems to gain a little "connection" is to talk into the mirror. but I get so distracted and pulled in different directions every day, all day it seems. I feed 75 cats a day in a nearby town and have 13 that live with me so I'm exhausted quite a bit, I just recently realized I better make more of an effort to learn more detail about this and kept seeing your videos which are helping. I am 58, started discovering I had this in bits and pieces around May 2005... (I was 43) My mother seems to have it and she's 80, and doesn't see that, or understand it at all, so I guess I should be grateful I am gaining insight.
Thanks so much for this video! It's soooo helpful to hear how you got to know your headmates. I'm really struggling to want to get to know mine. I so appreciate your videos.
I thank you SO very much for this video and all the rest. I only found out three days ago. It was your videos that prepared me, even tho I had no clue. While I have had some panic attacks, we are learning quickly how to talk to each other. Thank you.
There’s always the hope that I’m faking this. It’ll go away. I’m so sorry to my headmates, and I say that all the time, but then 30 minutes later I’ll be yelling at them. I’m... so sorry. But it overwhelms me so much. I guess they thought I was ready. But I wasn’t.
This is interesting! I’ve always wondered how this went on.
You have really opened my eyes to split personally. You seem like your on the right track. Thank you for sharing 😊
I've once read a full account of a man who've had hundreds of alters, and only fully integrated in his forties. He said the major step he took to kickstart the chain of integration was accepting the personalities of the other alters and thinking of them as HIM. Can't remember a proper quote from the article, but he said something like, "I started to think, 'oh, I'm scared' and not 'oh, X is sad'." and "They are representations of me".
Of course, the alters must also understand that they ARE him.
This painful process, he wrote, was what allowed him to slowly think and feel something else without switching in order to think/feel that particular emotion/thoughts. He HAD to accept any alters of his, no matter the number, that they are all him.
He also wrote how he felt truly wholesome after the final integration, that now, though new environments may make him nervous, but because he is whole, he is able to *choose* and decide how to deal with it, as compared to before the integration where the anxiety will automatically make him dissociate to make things easier.
1:15 is me omg 💀
thank you for this video, i see where i can improve :)
Wow, this video is just over a year old, and it's somewhat perfect timing for me. I found out a couple of months ago that I was plural, but I'd already been communicating with alters for years before this? To the point of having conversations in the inner world? And of course this leads me to think I'm faking when I have relatively easy (not like able to at will with most but still able to have conversations in the inner world with many).
I've also been trying to journal stuff to have conversations that way in that they seem to be easier in some regards, but lead to more headaches.
Mostly I needed the reminder to spend more time communicating with the rest of my system.
Oh my god thank you so much for making and posting this video Wyn. Ive been having a really hard time with my own system members lately and communication can be really difficult. Thank you for the help of this
I haven't tried meditation yet, but my very first time writing in the notes section of my phone (before I got a designated journal that I now use) and it was very overwhelming, everyone people I thought I was vaguely aware of and others that I had no idea were there all coming forward at once and cutting each other off and I just didn't even know what to do with that because I didn't know I even had a dissociative disorder, I was just questioning the possibility and took the advice of "reach out and let them know that you're safe and it's safe to talk" and I feel like I may have scared some headmates into retreating farther back by being frightened/overwhelmed. At this time I also wasn't sure that everything I was writing wasn't being fabricated by my mind in order to simply slap an answer on the symptoms and questions I've been having. Now when I journal, though we are still very very new, I find that I can't write much without being interrupted by one of my headmates who wants to write. Which is honestly fine with me, because I feel like I personally never have much to say to a journal anyway? It kinda feels like I'm talking to a piece of paper and I'm unsure of how to even start. So when someone else has something to say and takes over I'm glad that the journal is getting used effectively by someone.
This is me a lot lately I feel, I think
Wow thanks , I needed this today. Watching all your videos this quarintine and this one really validated a lot of things for me.
When ya head mates argue.... If you Wyn are controlling the body at the time they are arguing.. Can you hear it and is it annoyingly loud or make you feel weary?
The way you (say you) treat new alters makes me want to be part of your system! 😃 😂
Was it just me or when you started talking about Leto, specifically him forgiving everyone, could you hear Leto coming out?
Every time you are in a video I see a lot of Kit on you. I'm so happy for what you have achieved so far, it seems like everyone is happy with you. Congratulations!
This is my first comment on your channel. I watch you all the time and am captivated! What a beautiful family you have.
My question in RELAY to this video is- could making a video journal to communicate be as effective as journaling or would that be even possible?
It’s a question I have been curious to hear from other systems
Thank you Wyn and group.
Important to talk to headmates..stay fake made up ...please🤣
I'm trying to figure this out..I'm some aspect of all this I'm in real time old I'm 56..
I am only just in the last couple of years starting down this exploration.
I'm finally safe inside and out to be in a place to look at this, the first 3 years I fell apart I didn't know what was wrong other than the old abuse was surfacing and I couldn't function..this last two I've made progress and just now I'm like OK this fits even though I've been aware of this landscape inside since I was 7 ish. ..
.I have an appointment with a DID specialist tomorrow ..but really that's just a formality I'm already trying to figure this out from this view be accepting and nice.
Thanks everyone that paved the way
Ever thought of using a word document as a chatroom? - works for me since i'm 13 years old ; )
Thank you again for this video ! Thanks to you i don't feel so lost in my system and you are helping me so much more than my therapist, though she's awesome anyway ;)
Using meditation for communication is a really good idea! We should try that!
This video was super helpful! Thank you! I have pretty okay communication with one of my altars, and this video helped me see how that happened accidentally as well as what I can try when I'm ready to get to know the others.
Thank you so much for being so candid and through with this day to day stuff!
As always, thank you for sharing! :) I think it's so important for people who share their experience and you're doing such a good job! I wish you all the best! :)
Can you do a video about the shelves? I really want to know about the fossil. It would be an off topic video, but I really want to know. In general, I would love to know what Wynn finds the most fascinating about geology.
Thats so nice and thoughtful of Kit to do! Again love learning more about DID and about the topic of communicating with each other. Do great job of explaining Wyn.
1:02 is an excellent point and I'm guilty of doing exactly the unwelcoming thing you describe 😂
This video is really helpful for me, thank you so much for sharing your experience!
holy hecc man watching your videos has given me so much more knowledge about DID
i have an oc(original character aka my son) who has this and watching your videos has let me understand him a lot more and frankly just made my view on DID stronger
dont get offended and think my view is negative i actually think it's super amazing! i'd honestly love to meet someone with it one day too
Lito is such an amazing person. I would like to be more like him
I'm new to communicating with my parts and I found this helpful, thanks.
Just wanted to say hi. Don't get "out" much lately. All the best
Part of my fear of getting to know other alters in my system is that I feel really overwhelmed. I get headaches and feel exhausted when there's a lot of communication. Did/do you deal with that? Any advice? I feel really inadequate because I know other alters in my system haven't struggled with this as much as I have.
This is my favorite video from the Entropy System. Thank you!
Whenever we’re splitting/an alter is surfacing I have the instinct to just LALALALALA I CAN’T HEAR YOU YOU’RE FAKE even though I am fully aware of our system and I should be past that by now💀 even if a false alarm does happen it’s not a big deal, I’m just harming someone who is very much real, but I can’t help it
I thought I was just being actually psychotic there for a second like “ofc not don’t worry you’re still an Einstein” (bc i was able to teach myself physics when the coure leader hadn’t even taken it herself, meanwhile I went to help my mom at the preschool and literally cried because the glitter in the cracks of the floor was somehow impossible for me to figure out how to sweep up) lol like my human incompetency which I think that aside from the untreated adhd I think I maybe a bit autistic or something (which note I was diagnosed and treated from 15/16 until 21 when she cut it because it was “just a bandaid for me” like did I thought depression was bad before lol what did I know because wow it’s all just a mess tho, a fun mess🙃
That’s really really helpful .. thank you for sharing 💕
This is such a great video! Thank you. My alters also decided it was time for me to know, so I really identify with that post of your story.
Thank you. I struggle with this.
Question about the headspace and all the alters: I know you yourself draw Wyn, but have you thought of asking help from fans or doing a collage of exactly what the beach headspace looks like in really specific details and also of the alters? Have the alters drawn in more specific details? Like a sketch portrait or detailed illustration ?
"Oh yeah sure, go ahead and talk, can you just be fake please?... but journal if you want to!" Yeah......... I'm guilty. >.
I needed this today.
Another great video! I was wondering if anyone in the system has a unique handwriting or if everyone has the same handwriting?
Handwriting changing in journals was my first clue. That's where I'm at right now is opening communication
thank you SO much
Your shirt makes me happy.
How do you find a therapist you can actually talk to and who listens? Yours sounds amazing. I don't have 2 way communication with anybody, I only have a (recently learned term) persecutor protector who yells at me all day. Everyone else is silent. Thank you for teaching me ways to reach in.
Thank you so much for this video.
I have a weird, not related question lol idk why but i randomly thought about this while watching the video.
Do alters drive? Bc they are all different ages what happens if you not fronting say like on your trip when kit was out for a day or so do they all know how to drive? I assume the littles dont lol but the others? If they do did they have to learn or is it kind of a muscle memory type thing that like since Daniel and kit are out in the body a lot they kind of just know how?
Random question lol sorry!
The only ones in my system who are allowed to drive are those 16 and older. The Littles and Kim Kim have the ability to drive but they don't have the coordination or reaction time for us to feel safe about having them behind the wheel. -Wyn
This can be scary. My wife has 8 alters between the ages of 2 and 28. The 5 yr old can drive, so can the 8 yr old as well as the 15 yr old. How do I know that? They tell me, usually when my wife returns home and doesn't remember. I've had to ask. Someone always confesses. It scares the hell out of my wife when I tell her that the 5 yr old drove her home.
How do you communicate with your alters? Do u mean talk to them yourself out loud when know ones around. I believe to have osddi and just learning about this complicated disorder, i mean how do the alters hear whats being said are they just chilling in the back seat waiting for things to pop off?
You are so pretty and your hair style is perfect for you.😊
Holy shit this is intense
Thank you for these videos.
what about a journal for each headmate for when they come forward?
thank you so much for this video p's you all amazing
We feel, when it was just Colby, Keegan and lilith things were simple but then 3 went to 26 in like 3-4 months and oh boy-
Great video as always! Very interesting.
Do you have a video that shows your portrait drawings of everyone in the system?
aww lito! i bet that must've been scary for him! i'm glad you and your alters are communicating better each day! i have a question -- for your journal do the bigger alters help the littles write in it or can the littles already write in it themselves? :o thank you for your educational videos! :D
Our Littles can actually all write at varying skill levels. We let them write on their own unless they ask for help. -Wyn
Hey Wyn. I'm a fairly new subscriber and I love your videos! I have a completely random question. Do you watch Star Trek? I can't believe I didn't realise it before but I see some parallels between DID and a particular episode of Star Trek: Deep Space Nine called "Facets", Season 3, Episode 25. If you're unfamiliar with it, the short version is that one of the main characters is host to a symbiotic life form that carries the memories and knowledge of all previous "hosts", and she is given the opportunity to have those memories temporarily removed from her and placed into the bodies of her friends so that she can interact with the previous hosts to learn more about each other. It's not DID of course but I could imagine a similar scenario where your alters would temporarily take over various people in your life for a brief moment, (with their permission of course), so you could have a face-to-face dialogue with them. Would you do that if you could or would that just be way too weird?
I think that would be a really cool experience to have! -Wyn
I just wanna say hi to you guys and I love you!
hey... i feel kinda sad about this ive rearlised in my innerworld theres like a hole country kinda thing and most of the islands in there are related to other peoples headspaces.. like the entropy systems headspace is in my innerworld and so its jermerys ect :c its scary
this is an amazing video! very helpful
1:14 is a big mood 😂
Since you're into astrology, it would be interesting to see if there is a correlation between an alter's appearance (possibly even actual personality I suppose) and their ascendant sign at the time of their inception. Of course, I'm sure it'd be hard to pinpoint exact date and times on many of them.
i love how you say i’m wyn
I’ve recently met my first alter and I know that there are more in my headspace, (because she’s told me) I’m eager to speak with them but I’m scared that I’m just imagining everything. What do I do?
Did you find out what to do, a year into your journey? I am now where you were then.
I would love to hear this too... I am at this place now too. I want to meet the system (I only have good contact with one alter) but I can't go past that feeling of 'Please talk to me... But I hope you're not there and not real'. I wouldn't want to contact someone either that way. HOW can I let that 'I'm crazy, maybe it's not real' feeling go???
Ok so as the host I definitely deal with similar issues as in when I met 3 of my fictives I kinda freaked out and apologized prefously for their existence cause I felt terbile and that didn’t make a lot of them feel really welcome even though I was more attacking myself for dragging more people into this situation. I love all three though my communication with some are not as great with others and I’m gonna work on that.
amazing, Epic ~~ this all groundbreaking thank you, always. :) :)
Wonderfull video Wyn! ❤️
right around 7:08 you appear to have an orb rise up on the right of you, cross in front of you, go up, then shoots back down. I don't think I could be sure since you have a cat with fine hair. wondering what you guys think
The more I watch about DID the more I'm starting to believe i have it. I've made contact with someone who i think is called Mark, but i think we're just making it up.
I eant all of us in the system to introduce themselves right away. I am impatient. I think that we will fet closer if we all talk we will be able to communicate better and faster. I want us all to be a happy family asap. I also have to remind myslef be patient! Going too fast is not always good.
Do you just have one journal or more than one for you and your headmates? I just got one, and I'm trying to figure out how all of us are going to use it.