Ren - Su!cIde (Official Music Video)
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Ren - Su!cIde (Official Music Video)
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Thankyou everyone so much for watching, this one was difficult to write, but im glad I got to share it with you. As always here are the lyrics and the link to stream
found.ee/ren-suic-de
Oh I, Oh I, Oh I've
fallen through the cracks of the night sky
A light goes out on the other side,
suicide, suicide, suidice
Oh I, Oh I, Oh I'm
treading on the tracks in the night time
It never really felt like the right time
suicide, suicide, suicide
I'm so fucking lonely beneath this,
narcisistic, cant keep a secret,
miscount sheep, I can't sleep, a misfit
Some say troubled, but some say sadistic,
Bruises my brother, one time or the other,
my skin felt counterfeit, silicone, rubber
Bruises my sister, skin pop the blister
dig deep resist the feeling when it hits you
Oh I, Oh I, Oh I've
fallen through the cracks of the night sky
A light goes out on the other side,
suicide, suicide, suidice
Oh I, Oh I, Oh I'm
treding on the tracks in the night time
It never really felt like the right time
suicide, suicide, suicide
[sample] Sick boi, sick boi, bitten by a tick boi
I feel like its not me its the world thats sick
I'm so fucking washed up and sea sick
masochistic kid with a split lip
six feet deep I can't eat im nervous
won't stay down 'cause my body purges
useless my mother, cant keep in my supper
skin so pale 'cause my cheeks leak colour
Truth is my father, you choose your karma
draw for the sword then drive through the armour
Oh I, Oh I, Oh I've
fallen through the cracks of the night sky
A light goes out on the other side,
suicide, suicide, suidice
Oh I, Oh I, Oh I'm
treding on the tracks in the night time
It never really felt like the right time
suicide, suicide, suicide
Suicide suicide suicide
Suicide suicide suicide
Suicide suicide suicide
Suicide suicide suicide
It's hard to take off from the ground when your wings are cut,
Your stomach burns when you're drinking from an empty cup,
You know the entire ocean came from my tear ducts?
I see the world through fibonacci sequences and Double Dutch
I guess there’s some that’s born lucky, there’s some that’s not
I tried to cut away my bitterness - hatchet job
I locked my youth in a trunk inside a pick up truck
Then dumped the whole thing over the same bridge the night you jumped
I think about that sometimes , vividly
What it felt like to look down and see tranquility
One sudden movement in a world of possibility
Only one movement to expose our fragility
I fucking miss you and I miss myself
I miss thinking that were indestructible as well
I miss chilling by the pier cave and kicking back
Wirth Callum, Hugo, Sagar, Justin, Stevie and the fuckin lads
I miss missing that, I numbed myself to close the gap,
I never even call em up the distance is my plaster cast,
The truth is that the day you jumped my childhood jumped too,
But I still can’t find the anger all I find is missing you
Man I miss you,
with all my rhymes
I picture running 5 minutes quicker, I'm right on time
I picture pulling you back over the edge and then were crying
And holding you my brother and telling you that it's fine
that’s not the way that I worked
Coz I was late like a jerk
There's not a day where I could find a way to break from the hurt
Your body missing so we never got to wave to the hearse
I hope your listening , I love you man, I miss you absurd
Fuck
Your best song yet!
Awesome m8
Thank you, Ren.
Incredible and fitting tribute to your friend. Love to you wherever you need it today Ren ❤
Thank you, Ren ❤
Today I want to write something beautiful and eloquent but I’ve been staring at my computer screen for the past 10 minutes blankly. So I’ll just write.
Today, the 1st of June is my friend Joe’s birthday.
I first met Joe when I was 8 years old, my friend Josh said I had to meet this guy, so we both walked over to his, it took about 10 minutes from my house. I was greeted by this kid covered head to toe in freckles, he grinned at us, climbed onto the back of his sofa and screamed “Swanton Bomb!” then front flipped off the top and landed right onto his back on a stone floor. He lay still for a moment, twitched a few times, then got up, grinned at us, brushed himself off, and did it again.
This was Joe. He’d do anything to make people laugh. He ended up becoming one of my best friends. He was there when we stole our first cigarettes out of his mums pack, way too young. He was there when I had my first kiss, with a girl twice my size on the back of the 42 bus. He was there when I first got so drunk I threw up in the woods after drinking as much white lightning Cider as we could. I was there when he did his first backflip on skates, and saw him do a 720 off of the pier cave, that moment became legendary.
Joe was the funny one in our friend group, he’d make us laugh till it hurt. No one had a bad word to say about him. It was impossible not to like him. Usually we put celebrities, athletes and actors on pedestals, turn them into role models and admire them from a far. The person I admired was Joe.
Him and Sagar knew every word to the songs id write, we’d get drunk at parties and they’d be singing along as loud as they could. It gave me a lot of confidence back then.
On Christmas Eve 2010 I was sitting in a pub with Joe, he’d been feeling low after a couple of consecutive break ups. He tried to check himself into a mental health outpatient facility a few weeks earlier but they turned him away because he didn’t have an appointment. He turned to me and said that sometimes he wished he could just walk into the sea and keep walking. He said it in a kind of half joking throw away comment type of way, then took a sip of his drink, walked over to the juke box and put Dig by Incubus on. If I knew that was the last time I’d see Joe id have hugged him, told him how much I loved him, how much I looked up to him, how much we all loved him, and I wouldn’t have left that pub. I didn’t know that, so I finished my drink, said happy Christmas and left.
Two nights after Christmas I got woken up by a phone call at 3am, it was my friend Ella. She told me Joe was on the Menai Bridge, a large suspension bridge connecting the main land to the isle of Anglesey where we lived. He’d been on the phone to her in tears saying goodbye. He told her to tell everyone he loved them. I pulled on my clothes as fast as I could and started running toward the bridge. It was up a hill. I lived about a ten minute walk away, I could run it in five. As I ran I started dialling then redialing his number. The line was busy, which was a good sign, it meant he was still on the phone to someone. As I got about halfway, the busy tone changed. It told me the line was out of service. I got a sinking feeling and picked up my speed. I arrived to the bridge minutes after I left my house. It was deafeningly quiet. I was the first person to arrive. I got there probably about 2 minutes too late.
Joe’s body was never found.
Initially we refused to believe he was gone. The coastguard came out that night, with boats, and helicopters. Me and my friends spent the next 10 days putting up missing posters everywhere we could, walking up and down beaches with flashlights, getting about 3 hours sleep a night. When you’re walking up and down a beach with a torch when its dark everything looks like a body. We still haven’t found Joe.
As his birthday came around, I wrote a song, freckled angels, a song I dedicated to Joe which I sang in front of his friends and family. A charity football match was put on for him, raising money for the RNLI where I won two bottles of wine in a raffle, I drank them both as quickly as I could, naturally, turned to my friend and probably slurred something along the lines of “This is the last time I ever drink” That was 12 years ago, I haven’t touched a drop of alcohol since.
My first ever album I named Freckled Angels in tribute of one of the best people I ever knew.
Skip forward some years. I’d been sitting on this song I wrote a few years ago. It always felt a little incomplete. It was going to be my next release, but I was dreading it because of this feeling of incompletion. I decided, very last minute, to do something about it. I sat by my piano, and the rest of the song fell out of me. I hadn’t thought about Joe in a little while, and the song initially wasn’t going to be about him, but the words all fell out of me. I wrote and recorded a whole 2 minutes extra, recording each part as I wrote it. Tears spewing out of my eyes pretty much the whole time, and decided not to do my usual thing of perfecting each line, I just recorded every line as it came.
During this campaign I will be raising money for the RNLI, the group of brave men and women who spent hours tirelessly looking for Joe after the night he went missing. I'll also be donating 50% of the profit on all copies of the 'Freckled Angels' album directly to Joes family as a nice surprise gift. I will include links to the RNLI donation page below where 100% of the money will go to support them, I will be travelling to the UK later this month to make a music video, and have carved out a couple of days where I will travel to my home town on the isle of Anglesey to present the royal national lifeboat institution with a cheque of all the money raised.
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I already know this is gonna be so great and beautiful.❤️ I'm very sorry for your lost.😕💔
I’m sorry you had to go through this Ren, i cannot even begin to imagine what that pain must feel like, and my heart goes out to anyone who has been through similar situations or if anyone feels like your friend Joe did i hope they get help & know they are loved 😔 sending you big hugs, i just know this song is going to touch so many hearts. We all are with you RIP Joe 🕊️❤️🌹 x
Thank you for sharing your experiences with us Ren. Much love to you 💖 Sorry for your loss. RIP Joe 🕊️
it's a very sad and real life story Ren, thank you for being able to open up and transform pain and suffering into beautiful songs that can really support strangers who find them, this is a real gift
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I lost my son to suicide 5 years ago. I have been considering my own for those 5 years due to this and my own battle with chronic pain. I found your music last week, Ren, and it saved me. You saved me. SOMEONE knows how I feel!
Please stay with us, you’re loved!
I hope REN sees this. I’m sure he’d appreciate it. I’ve been there but thanks to whoever I’m still here.
I’m very sorry you lost your son, it’s tragic, I can’t even imagine! Chronic pain sucks royally, but you stood for the fight, and now here we are knowing you and please know you are loved! We don’t have to know one another, it’s the positive energy that feeds us and we gain the strength to hold on. I lost three cousins to MD, it was insane living knowing when you will die. I miss them often and reminded of the words they left behind. There’s so much I can say and share but all I want you to know is someone out here is going to need you one day and like you found Ren, they will find you and you too would have saved a life. 🙏🏽❤️🙏🏽❤️🙏🏽❤️
Hey, im reallly sorry for this situation and hope you can realise that there are lots of people tha feel the same way as you
lots of love and hope everyone thats reading this can see some light at the end of the tunnel
My son took his life and mine has been a walking hell ever since. He was only a child at 16. Many many times I've thought about the only way I could see him again. It's hard in a way that you pray no one else should go through. I'm sorry for your loss.
As a nurse i know people want to say dont talk about this but its a good sign when someone opens up about their thoughts about this. Ren thank you for this video and song. There's nothing wrong with feeling and opening up to let others know they can talk. I want them to talk before its too late. Thank you Ren
You're amazing, thank you!
Reach out your hand until they take it. You are amazing.
from one nurse to another, thank you for all you do! spending your life in the service of others is the most rewarding feeling, but it is also very difficult~ difficult physically, difficult emotionally, difficult mentally, etc… much love to all the nurse out there!
"It never really felt like the right time."
I've never seen a single sentence so perfectly describe suicidal thoughts. Constant, always there, always on your mind, but just... not quite yet. I'm just going to finish this book. I want to know what happens in the next season of that show. I can't leave the house this much of a mess, I'll do a deep clean first.
There's always a reason it's not quite the right time yet. Until the moment it is. And when you feel this way, every second of your life is spent finding things that make it not the right time yet.
I've never heard anyone make music that understood me like Ren does. I'm mentally ill, severely depressed, and I have an autoimmune disorder. He reaches out to us and says, "You're not alone in this."
Some nights moments like that are the only reason it isn't the right time. I hope he knows that. I hope you know, Ren, you're saving lives with your music.
He just saved mine. I mean it. He really did. He really did ....
I understand exactly what you're saying. Another line that rips at my soul "looking down and seeing tranquility "
Your comment makes a lot of sense to me. I heard somewhere throughout life, someone say "I'll do it when I finish a bottle of shampoo and conditioner at the same time." It never happens. I hope it never does for the person or wherever I heard it.
Thank you for staying. I know I'm four months past when you posted but I really hope you are still here.
@@njyates2396 I am! I'm watching an episode of Star Trek Next Gen with my friend every day. Keeping me here for now ❤️
Tomorrow is the six year anniversary of losing my 20 year old child in similar circumstances. Time does not heal, it accommodates. Beautiful song Ren. Thank you.
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So sorry for your loss ❤❤ Big hug to confort you from a human to another
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My 13 year old son died 12 years ago,of natural causes. And yes,you are so right.....Some things time does NOT heal. Losing a child is one of those things. I'm so sorry for your loss,and I hope that you've found a way to live with the grief and still find happiness.......❤
“Time does not heal, it accommodates”-beautifully said.
You’re a beautiful soul Ren. Thank you for everything you do.
Yes, a beatiful soul, you hit it !
I am gonna travel to England because of him to See him live❤
exactly my sentiment, what a truly unique & special soul, the world needs this right now with all the BS we're being told to comply with
Already had it on repeat
Second this
My exact thoughts! Not interested in these type songs but his way with words are masterfull ,world & life topics could only come from someone goin through or been through it makes me want to & not live his life which is a weird juxtaposition as normal subcontious would have stans wanting 110% to be in their "idols " place, for an artist so young he's found a look on the world I've not long embraced at 40 & fk me I've lived a few lives 😂, mad respect!!
Englsih is not my native language so i'll do my best.
Thanks man, I've been in a depression for about 12 years, I fought as hard as I could but I've started considering suicide 6 month ago. With my last piece of life I asked for help but no one answered to my call. But i heard your song and it gave me enough energy to fight one last time and find the right people to help me and it worked. Now I have pills but not forever and i can live a new life. I know I own it to myself but you helped me so much. So thank you with all my still beating heart.
Not sure where you are but I know Kokopelli. Are you Dine'? Do you live near Farmington? Would love to meet you so we could be 2 humans', talking, face to face. I know a thing or gazillion about pain. I will listen.
Thanks for sharing hun. I've made a number of attempts over the years, but now at 54 I thank the God's I survived. All we have is each and every minute, right here and now, to make the decision we're going to choose happiness and gratitude. Despite the past, despite what's happening in our lives, we have to choose to have faith and trust the process. You are here for a reason. All the absolute best mate. (Have you read "Desiderata")?
not sure how and where you are now but i hope you're doing alright
I don’t know you, but I am here for you. There is so much love in the world and so much love here for you
My 24year old bright, beautiful, talented nephew ended his life last week. The devastation, heart ache and pain have decimated the family. Hundreds of people are affected. Keep speaking out about mental health. Thank you for this.
It feels like a privilege to be allowed so far into your heart Ren. I'm sorry for the pain you feel.
sometimes it’s too much to keep it in and with that, he will continue to help those that are afraid to reach out.
we are witnessing a big push in the movement that’s long overdue. 🫶
Thanks Ren, your vulnerability is inspiring further than you know. You understand marketing and how to get into peoples souls of all ages, job well done and you deserve to find your own inner happiness.
Beautifuly put!
That's it. those are the words I was looking for. Well said.
He's not alone. A lot of us feel this way 😞😢
@@rockinrobbie1985 I'm sorry for yours too. ❤
This is not a career, not a march to fame, this is a man's artist journey we get to follow 🙏❤️
Beautifully said. ✨🙏🏼✨ What a privilege to see his truth as an artist, and more importantly an amazing soul.
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So true, Ren will be recognised for his greatness nothing else
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I'm a survivor of an attempt and I have to say that your music resonates with me. It's such a lonely, pain filled place to be, thinking about suicide, making the plan to end things. If someone had showed me your music back then I wouldnt have felt so alone. I doubt I would have followed through if id had even a bit of hope that things could be better. Im grateful to still be here and to have had the chance to do so much more with my life. PLEASE, never stop believing in yourself! You are reaching so many people with what you have created.
The wold is glad that you are here, keep bringing your light to it. This music brings us who feel like a speck of sand on a sandless beach, together and know that there are others that understand
I'm glad you decided to stick around. We need people to like you to share your light.
God bless.
It's good to hear you realise now that you would have been making a mistake had your first attempt succeeded. Too many never have the opportunity for hindsight. But it's not really so much "surviving an attempt" as much as it is failing one, is it? Calling oneself a "Survivor" in this situation only really serves as an attempt to minimise the level of responsibility one believes they have for their own actions and makes attempts to find the root cause(s) that looked them to attempt suicide, less likely.
Rest in peace, Lunney. Will always appreciate your friendship through school.
During a month-long camping trip in the summer of ‘97 I found my friend hanging in a tree when I woke up one morning. To this day I have never shared my thoughts or feelings of that morning with anyone. I’ve carried this baggage for decades, not knowing what to do with it.
I appreciate you, Ren. You are able to express feelings that I haven’t been able to articulate all these years. Cathartic. Thanku. ❤️🩹🫶🏼
Oh this reaction is heartfeld and so hitting home..warm hug for you.❤
@@christelsegbars1630 ♥️
What are your thoughts and feelings?
Gosh I cannot even imagine having to go through something like that. I’m so sorry you’ve carried that pain with you for so long. I hope that you can work through that trauma and see the good memories you had with your friend before that day 💓
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Your an absolute legend my brother. Because of you, now we all know Joe, and his memory will forever live on. I’m certain he would be so proud of you
Please never silence your voice nor your light, Ren. You are a beacon.
You saved a lot people w that song man...
Hope you know...
We all thank you...
I believe he did and does. I wish I could have listened to this song with my son. I found this song today. It hit me so hard. My son was gone eight years ago. I don't know about your situation, but I hope you enjoy every moment of your life with your loved ones.
I am a 75 year old woman, and this got my first TH-cam comment ever. Thank you, beautiful boy.
Congrats. All the best
Deserve a nice comment
This cheered me up so much after bawling my eyes out thank you for your comment ❤
Here's hoping you continue to explore more on TH-cam. I'm not far behind you in age and was convinced that modern music was generic and stale.
Artists like Ren prove me wrong. But what's also obvious with him is that he has a deep respect for music from the past.
I take it you can't possible have missed seeing Chinchilla?
This is my favorite interaction on all of the internet.
45 years ago I drove my car off a bridge. Last week I contemplated an overdose the difference between now and then; I know the feeling will pass. Keep writing Ren, it's needed.
I am glad that you're still here.
I hope you'll feel better soon. I hope you know how strong you are and how much the world is better off with you in it.
You're loved. I love you, friend. Reach out if you ever want to talk. You're not alone
stay strong friend 🤍 proud of you for surviving
Much love & strength to you. I hope you find joy & adventures in the future that make your life richer.
I’ve recently grappled with wanting to give up since my partner drowned in late January. He too battled suicidal ideation & depression for many years. It seems he drowned accidentally but we’ll never really know. He had said to me before he wanted the sea to take him away.
Same, I used to attempt it so often but not now, I know things get better plus I don't want to miss what Ren is gonna do next! Lol
I'm currently in a detox unit recovering from a heroin addiction I don't think I can do this and I don't Wana be here anymore I hate feeling this way ren Ur music helps me so much more than you know thankyou
Praying for you Tommy ❤
Damn, I’m straight up cryin now. What beautiful art from such pain. Respect and condolences all.
This song was released on what would've been my son Elijah's 24th birthday. He took his own life on September 24, 2021. Ren your music touches me, moves me. Your honesty helps me heal. So thankful that you exist.....
Prayers lifted for the repose of your son, Elijah’s soul and for your peace.
much love big hugs & lots of compassion. my heart is aching for you.
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SO sorry for your loss.
That is very sad to hear. I wish you all the best! ❤️
I have been struggling with dark thoughts for a long time and last night I found myself scared, alone in the woods, it has never got this bad before.
In the UK, the video has a link to “the Samaritans”, a charity there for those who need some emotional support.
I clicked the link and spoke to a lovely lady for half an hour. Then the police came and helped direct me to more support and crisis centre.
Last night. This song saved my life.
Thank you Ren. Thank you so much.xx
I hope you heal Liam.
Glad you are still here ♥️
From the daughter of a victim of mental illness, I promise that the ppl you think won't miss you, will. I promise their hurt will never heal. And I promise they're glad- and I'm glad you're still here.
Hang in there brother !
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Man this really does hit different to most modern music. The emotion being expressed is on a whole other level. it’s more than just music.
How are you feeling?
@@eva-ov8sp that’s a hard question to answer my friend, but I do know that it is always warming when a stranger asks. I hope you live long and find peace x
@@danieldinsdale3248 thanks but...if you're not ok we can talk about it
@@eva-ov8sp I admire your persistence friend but honestly I’m feel better. How’s life on your end?
@@danieldinsdale3248 i'm better too but please don't give up ok?
Hi Ren. I’m a 55yo Veteran who suffers from PTSD,Major chronic depression,Bipolar disorder plus many physical issues. I cannot explain how much your music resonates in me. THANK YOU. Never give up your truth,you are helping people in ways that you and I cannot imagine . I pray for your strength to carry on in this disjointed world and for your happiness and success. Again THANK YOU. I lost 7 brothers in a single year from 4 different wars a while back I wish they had had the opportunity to hear this,maybe some of them would still be around. To all my veteran brothers and sisters out there never,give up I can tell you from my own personal struggles and attempts that there is hope and light on the other side I’ve seen and lived it. I love and pray for you all no matter where you served or who with . One foot in front of the other and NEVER give up,it’s what we do.
Thank you for your service, I wish u all the best.
Whole heartedly agree!
Be well x
You are not alone friend.
Kind words from someone who is experiencing what you have gone through, 1st thank you for your service, 2nd keeping an open mind look into micro-dosing magic mushrooms, there seems to be a lot of great potential in helping with depression. Lots of info on you tube, try to find one you trust
Hi Ren…I’m sorry you lost your friend. I lost my son. He would’ve loved your music! Thank you for writing such a beautiful song. You will save lives with your art ❤
Beautiful
already has
Oh, wow... your comment hit me there just as the song was starting.
Sorry about your son, Amanda x
Sterke en veel wijsheid .
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I remember discovering you in a busking video a few years ago. Seeing how far you've come, and everything you've gone through on the way. The world is gonna know you. Make the ground shake, Ren!
This video smashes EVERY commercially made music video, that's EVER been made. Within 2 minutes of watching my first Ren video, "Hi Ren", my instincts were SCREAMING super nova. Dude is miles above super star potential. Maybe the most versatile and influential musicians to ever exist. I'm 50, I've heard it ALL and never heard anything like this kid. I told my wife he was different, after hearing 1 song and then I dove down the rabbit hole and realized just how different, versatile and intelligent Ren is. Genius recognizes genius and this kid is HIGH level genius, PERIOD, not just verbally. EVERYTHING he does SCREAMS genius. Kid is the Saitama of the music world. Killing everything with a single punch. Stay freelance bro, never go industry. You don't need those rats. Your star is rising, regardless. You ARE a force of nature, no doubt.
This comment wins the internet in my opinion nad I just found Ren about 6 hours ago and am so shocked I did not know about him before now.
Brother…I haven’t cried since late 2006, after I hit my last roadside bomb in Iraq, and was flown to Washington DC, for a year of ineffective mental treatment.
I haven’t cried in 16 years…unable, or unwilling.
I listen to your music constantly while I’m out drinking, after once being 20 months sober.
As a writer myself, every time I hear one of your songs, I understand them a little bit more…
A couple weeks ago when I stopped a medication, my emotions came back…now…I can’t listen to you without crying.
I want you to know, you give people like myself permission to feel, to be pissed off, and accept whom we are. As human beings, or artists, and students of navigating our own minds.
You are truly loved and appreciated, brother…empathy doesn’t make us weak…it reminds us that what we do for ourselves, we do for others.
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Joshua, you've probably heard "thank you for your service" many times. Reading your comment, words fall short. All I can say from one woman to one man that gave up so much for so many is that I love you. Simply put. I love you. I thank you. I keep my promises and I promise I will always keep you in my thoughts and prayers everyday. If their is anything I can do..
I'm a drummer. I know that music is excellent therapy. I'm glad you have that and Ren to help.
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This was so beautiful to read. I feel like Ren was put on this earth to share his pain in order to help heal people. I'm so sorry to hear what you've gone through, but I'm glad that coming of the meds and connecting with your higher self is finally helping. Know that you are loved and supported, and by sharing your story, you too are helping others. It's always ok to be vulnerable. Take good care of you ❤
Joshua, I served on Walter Reed’s Ward 57 in 2006. I was a tall blond in a white consult jacket. Perhaps we met. You are my brother and I pray for each of us. Years later I suffered a multi-trauma and I walk the walk. My mottos changed from, “One can do more…” to “Courageous suffering begets fierce joy.” You and I are loved and admired more than we can ever know. I pray for your peace, and that joy.
Fuck all, thank you for your service.
@@bearbait7405 Wow, fierce joy. Thats me all over.
Oh Ren, as someone who considered taking the decision to ‘stop’ and who is now working as a mental health nurse, your ability to articulate the pain and emotion of depression and su!c!de just blows me away, every single time.
What a beautifully artistic soul you have.
That was absolutely breathtaking 💔
This song is incredible. Thank you for writing it.
Ren's music cuts so deep, yet heals at the same time.
Thank you, Ren. For all that you are, for all that you do. ❤
One of the more enjoyable tangential effects of Ren Fandom is that, if you accidentally get really obsessive, you get to know Joe a little bit along the way. Thanks, ren.
Simply outstanding (again!). I'm 69 years old and I've never seen or heard anyone as authentic as Ren. We are witnessing the emergence of a very special talent 👏👏👏
Never been a fan of rap or hip hop but Ren is different. Draw forth the sword and drive through the armor. Keep the faith Ren.
Man you know how to crumble me and doubtlessly many others. So fucking heart wrenching. The world needs your music and your fragility.
When I was 18, I lost my 16yo sister to suicide. It's been almost 9 years and it still hurts. She was my best friend and I miss her every day and want her by my side.
What a strong song this is, Ren. Thank you for such beautiful, relatable words. My sincere condolences.
I am SO sorry for your loss.
Anyone listening to this, just know no matter what anyone says, there is only one you in this world, you couldn't be more unique and more special! One of a kind! ❤
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Yep, unique.
Just like everybody else.
Even more than that, in the entire existence of the universe, there is only one you.
Yes, indeed and for everyone, so special, 1 of 7.8 billion!
Loneliness and self critism are my companions throughout my journey of whatever this life is. Suicidal thoughts give me company often i try to drown them out but i am so depressed its almost deafining
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12 years and it’s every day that I miss my brother. Thank you for releasing your art. It helps and it heals. ❤❤❤❤❤
The honesty in your emotion is utterly vital. You’re doing something hugely important, Ren.
I don’t often comment but wanted to say thank you for helping my husband finally release the pain of losing his friend of 50+ years the same way and realising he is not alone in the way he feels. You have a very unique talent.
This really hit me, especially during the last part when Ren put his entire heart and soul into how he felt. An amazing song that has and will touch people like me.
7-22-23 it’s been the roughest few days since my brother took his own life. I’m lost. I’m broken. This song is hitting me beyond words. Hold your loved ones close. Rest in peace Chris. I miss you absurd.
I can hear your tears , , I'm so sorry for your loss 😥
That means a lot. Thank you.
My heart breaks for you and yours: "come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light."
Hold fast to the word of life.
I hope you find truth peace and love.
My sons first experience of suicide was when their 16 year old cousin took his own life. In a 2 year period we were connected to 6 other men who also chose that path; my eldest son's best mate, at 23, an uncle... the list goes on... thank you for talking about it and I look forward to hearing your words in this song. Words are so important. Stay strong.
Oh and... One of my all time favourite songs has the same title: th-cam.com/video/8GOZW7iwgnE/w-d-xo.html
Thankyou for sharing..bless you 🙏
Thank you - I helped open a boxing club and we lost 2 young lads there during Covid and a female friend during that time too. The threat of suicide is real - We have become almost desensitised to it now, which is really sad.
😢 I Lost 6 friends just in motorcycles and I don't count the ones freefalling on the whites
I used to listen to Shinedown Daylight.
Brent Smiths voice gives strength.
Young artist, I am a middle-aged woman from Canada. I have lost so many friends to drugs and suicide. My days are ghosts. This captured it perfectly. Thank you.
I hope you’ll find the light 🙏🏻
@@misterdutchification I have through Stoic practice, kindness, and community service.
Fell down a ren rabbit hole tonight. 1 hour in and sleeps been calling🥲
Hi Ren. i'm 51 years old, diagnosed with Parkinsons at 39. I went from young to an old man so quickly, it would make your head spin. today is better then tomorrow but worse then yesterday. I'm so so sorry for the pain you've experienced in your life, but i thank you for sharing
such a powerful song.. as someone who has attempted suicide a few times, and struggles with Complex PTSD, and also as someone who lost a close friend to suicide, this song is so relevant to me.
Wow, Ren! A beautiful tribute to your dear friend. Has me choked with tears every time I listen to it.
That’s one powerful song!!
Sending hugs.
To say I think you are one of the realist and most interesting artists I've listened to in an age is a massive understatement.
In a world of filters, egos, PR agents and bullshit, you are truly a breath of fresh air, Ren. 🥰
There's not many songs in my 50+ years revolving around the sun that have left me in tears... And here we are, writing this comment moist eyed and emotional.
So sad for your loss Ren, but thank you for opening your heart to the world.
“Did deep resist the feeling when it hits you “ if u have been in that place you know how deep you need to dig and every single person who makes it through are so much stronger than they believe they are and need to recognise the strength they have inside themselves
Well, I'm fucking wrecked. The emotion you poured into this is beautiful. I hope making it helped you heal just a little more. You've got an army behind you now and we appreciate you more than you will ever know. 🖤🖤
My nephew died of suicide about one week after I last got close to it. I got help. He didn't let anyone know. This was a few weeks ago. This is the only time I will mention it. The family keeps silent. Self destruction runs in our family. I learned how to transform suicidal feelings by letting go of things instead of myself. I am still letting go, to make sure the urge does not come back during this very dark time. I keep finding purpose in my life to keep from doing this thing to myself. You help me so much with this task. When I heard a few days ago that you were planning to release this song I was relieved. We are the kind who walk through the fire and out the other side. We talk about it. My nephew couldn't do that. Let's keep talking. It helps.
Thanks for sharing
Prayers lifted for the repose of his soul and for the family’s and friends’ peace.
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I've listened to this 10+ times today, grieving the loss of three loved ones in just the last few months, this has really let me just sit and feel everything today. Sometimes it's just hard to let yourself feel, but listening to this opened the emotional floodgates. Thank you for that.
I lost my son to suicide 7 months ago and grieving has been life changing .Thank you for this song as my son suffered from mental illness and this song is a tiny glimpse into the torture he endured. I only wish he had heard your music before he ended his life .
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As someone who lost a dear friend to suicide, this hits hard.
My deepest condolences on your loss Ren.
Prayers lifted for the repose of your friend’s soul and for your peace.
Everyones crying and full of love at the same time.. ❤ Rennnnnn!! Thanks so much for everything you do. You will save lives with this song.
This young man who talks like he's old. He talks like he's been through it, he talks like he's cold. Talks like he's been around, talks like he's up and down, talks like he's deep down in it. This guy is brilliant.
As a nurse, CPP, DID, and AuDHD…this song hits and hurts. I am glad to say attempting was more of a struggle than talking about myself and how I’m feeling. Thank you REN!
I knew this was coming after you spoke out about it on Knox's channel. Man this is going to be some deep sh1t I can tell. We appreciate you so much mate, and I have lost a friend to suicide, as so many others have as well. You are going to touch so many lives with this one. ❤❤❤❤❤❤🙏🙏💯💯. I hope you continue to heal and grow as a person and artist, and that the ones who we have lost, stay with us as a reminder that we are all human, none of us are perfect, and we can all learn something from each other ❤❤❤❤
Lost my son to suicide 7 years ago - when I first heard Hi Ren it resonated on so many levels for male mental health. Thank you for your courage in bringing this crisis to the front of our minds and confronting the epidemic that is so taboo in our society. ❤ love and strength to you Ren! You are a legend!
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So sorry for your loss. Big love to you my felllow human ❤
Prayers lifted for the repose of your son’s soul and your peace.
This is the rawest,most honest song I have ever heard. Thank you, Ren. Your honesty honors us.
I felt every word of that lyrical bomb, bro! Good job getting that out of your head!
You are something else mate……..I’ve introduced my 10 year old lad to your stuff and withheld a few expletives here and there 😂 but hearing him sing the first few bars of ‘illest of our time’ in the shower this morning made my heart melt. He loves you man and your music is the first he’s ever taken an interest in. He’ll never forget you bro and long will your legacy live on as it’s growing by the minute!!!
Awesome! Good job Dad!
Same here!!! My daughters 10 and 7 singing your music (ones I can play :) each time they jump in my truck!
I was watching Animal while my 17month old grandson was round and he was mesmerised by it and he never stands still that long normally!
I'm 54 and can't listen to nothing apart from ren and chinchilla, love you guys ❤
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🤣🤣 I also introduced Ren to my 14 year old boy but my 5 year old son is absolutely obsessed with Rens music.
He bugs me half the day to put Ren on, then I have to quickly turn the volume down for the expletives, which I don’t always manage to do🤣🤣 but after a little chat, he understands not to say those words outside of the house🤣🤣
His top songs just to name a few are Power, Girls, What You Want & diazepam & the love music trilogy.
I’m still in recovery from a su!ic!de attempt in February. I was sectioned and am now in a much better place. Things really can get better but i didn’t believe it when I was in that headspace. It’s truly a disease. I’ve struggled with thoughts like that since I was 17. I’m 25 now.
Thank you for this song Ren. If I hadn’t lived I wouldn’t have gotten to hear it ❤️ I try to look for the little things like that now. There’s so much to experience and learn and see.
Thank you for making all of us feel less alone and seen. Thank you for sharing your art with the world. It’s a much better place with you in it.
Condolences for your friend. I hope he found peace. 😓
Thanks for sharing these hopeful words
Dear Jiji, you are worth hapiness, you are loved by all the strangers from all over the world who react to your honoust reaction..... please accept my warm hug for you❤❤❤
How did you come to suffer so much at such a young age?
@@ILTOMBA thank you for reading ❤️ there is always some hope, no matter how small
@@christelsegbars1630 thank you so much for your lovely words. I am accepting your hug to give you one in return. 🫂❤️
WOW! WOW! WOW! I only discovered you a few days from one of the many reaction videos. Listening to your music really puts my own plight into perspective. You are an incredibly talented individual, thank you for everything you are doing for us. Much Love.
This is my first time listening to Ren and the end absolutely broke me. This line "but I still can't find the anger all I find is missing you" made me sob. Never before I've heard someone putting into words that feeling
Yo, Ren is straight up hitting me in the feels with his song "Su!cIde"! This dude came out of nowhere and straight-up tore my life into pieces with his words. Every damn lyric and melody sends chills down my spine. I've even made it a priority to practice his songs to ease my mental stress.
Ren's lyrics are like a punch in the gut, man. He captures that feeling of being lost and lonely so damn well. It's like he's speaking directly to my soul. His words resonate deep within, making me realize I'm not alone in my struggles. He ain't afraid to delve into the darkness and expose his vulnerabilities. He's not some fake-ass artist trying to hide behind a mask. Nah, he bares it all, unapologetically. And that's what makes him so damn authentic.
If you're reading this, know that your music is a lifeline for so many of us. You've created something special, something that speaks to our inner demons. Keep doing what you're doing, man. We need more artists like you who aren't afraid to confront the raw, messy parts of life.
So, here's to Ren, the master of expressing our darkest thoughts and emotions through his music. You're a true inspiration, bro. Can't wait to see what else you've got in store for us. Much love, respect, and appreciation! 🙌🖤
Glad you were able to complete the song, a painful but (hopefully) therapeutic process for you.
I can't wait to hear it ❤
I found you and your music about a year ago with Violet's Tale. I was in a dark time then and you sorta just hit home and i fell in love with your message and your passion. You've helped me through some really tough times and I'd like to thank you. It's taken time for me to actually sit and listen to this song because I know what it's about and what it means to you. I'm so sorry for your loss and I really hope your friend is in a good place right now, watching you and seeing the man you've become. I'm having a few drinks right now, and one is going to be for you and yours. Keep doing what you're doing Ren. Even in the darkest times, we can always find the light
Your songs bring out every single emotion in me.thank you for sharing your pain and frustration.i cried so hard for you
This is the authenticity in music that the world needs. Please don't ever stop doing this.
YES... You nailed it. 🤙
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If i could hit the thumbs up 1000 times I would.
My 16 yr daughter has been suicidal for past 4 years. I haven't been able to really reach her , I've used anger, talking, coaching, and begging. I showed her this today we cried. This showed her there's 2 sides to suicide the person we loose & the person they loved in us that would go with them. Thank you Ren for being so vulnerable & valuable at the same time.
I hope she turns the corner.
Hope she gets through the troubling times she's having. Much love from the UK!
So happy to hear about the experience you shared with her today. Wishing you two nothing but the best for the future. :)
Music is beautiful
Hold her tight, we lost our daughter 9 years ago to suicide. My heart will always be broken.
This was beyond amazing. Words fail. Thank you
This one just hits different. No words man, Just wow...
You done Joe proud with this one my friend.
😢By being this vulnerable you’ve give a voice to and told the story of millions of us who have lost someone to or attempted suicide. Thank you ❤
I was actually a little surprised that that wasn't what was mentioned in his comment about the 'inspiration'(for lack of a better word) for this song, I love that he is such a transparent human being that seems to bring kindness, love and empathy out of other human beings. But when I listened to this the first time, I was an ass 'assuming' that was what this song was about. I guess I was wrong, I'm sure it resonates today, regardless. I am Sure, as with many of his songs, we all take it where we need it, we all have a different journey, but we all feel the same feelings. As we are human beings. 🥹 Much Love. 💚🦋🎶
@ KCs Funhouse 💯💯 true
@@D.RED420he mentioned it not long ago in his community posts you can see it ❤
Lost my dad to it. It’s been 8 years (as of May 15th). Think of him every day. Remind myself to “get past today. Tomorrow is a different problem.” Honestly believe that your music helps. Didn’t know if I really wanted to hear this, but thankful I did. From one stranger to another, thank you and much ❤.
Prayers lifted for the repose of your father’s soul and for your peace.
I'm so sorry for your loss. It must be shattering to lose your parent to suicide. We never get over such losses. We learn to live with them. Sending you love.
I hope talking about it helps with the pain and the healing.. as someone who struggles with depression and suicidal thoughts- I’m hopeful that these conversations can make the whole subject less taboo to talk about so people don’t feel alone in their suffering. From one stranger to another, thanks for sharing and stay strong💜
I lost dad 6yrs ago and we're coming up on what would've been his 67th birthday... my brother in law 14yrs ago when he was 23. It still hurts. Sorry for your loss... 💔
And here I'm crying rivers again.
I can't cry, even if I want to so badly. There's just nothing than that f*cking depression and that running running running in my head. But every single time I hear and see your music/videos, I just break out in tears at the end. So thank you for letting me feel something again. All my love goes to you and your art. You deserve to be known and to be heard - and now you are. And we all are so incredibly happy for you, and so f*cking proud - as you should be. ❤
This song made me cry. It's just so raw and emotional and honest. I lost my childhood friend to suicide in january 2023 and the lyrics resonated with me on so many levels. I have never before heard someone sing about these exact feelings
Man. My friend jumped too. I'm sorry, Ren. It doesn't get easier, but I do feel seen, hearing this. Thank you for sharing this, and I hope knowing you've touched so many people helps you, even just a little.
you said it for me
so sorry for you loss man!
Prayers lifted for the repose of your friend’s soul and for your peace.
Wow, "It's hard to take off from the ground when your wings are cut".... That is deep... my son died by suicide in 2014, Ren, Thank You for voicing the pain that occurs after having someone die by suicide. I am constantly awaiting your new songs to be posted!! Love your work!! Thank You!!
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your music is doing such incredible things. thank you thank you thank you Ren. everything you feel, I can feel it in your songs because I feel it in me too.
God bless you Ren! I love you and the incredible work you do. Keep it up. The world needs you and the messages you send. I hope to see you in Kansas City.
Thank you Ren, everytime you create one of these honest vunerable songs , I see it reverberate through the male population around me. Ren is the sound of healing, Ren is the sound of talking it through, Ren is the sound of trusting that there is kindness on the other side of our words . I hope you get the help you offer the rest of the world. ❤
This!
I teared up a lil there
The songs that you put out recently are incredible, just brilliant, unique,original, strong stuff, love them all.
It's not just that this song is beautiful and shattering in its own right, but we all actually love Ren. Not like, "Oh, I love that band," We Love Ren like family or a long time friend. The song touches us even more because we care so much about the person singing it.
Thank you for stating this truth perfectly!! 😍 I completely agree with what you said! Both my Hubby and myself care deeply about Ren the human being & want so damn much for Ren to experience the long, healthy, happy & fulfilled future he's been dreaming of & fighting so very hard to achieve one day! My Soulmate & I are both RENegades for life!! 💙🙃
Have an awesome weekend, sweetie!
Wholeheartedly agree. It's unexplainable .. just love
Well said💯
Ren IS love ❤️
Watching Ren on his Twitch is amazing, as he is able to make it feel like we are all there hanging out chattin' with him! I don't know how he does it, but it's top notch! 👏
I lost my girlfriend to suicide 4yrs ago, completely fucked up my life. Brought me to suicide, brought me to addictions to numb the emptiness. I pray those who are experiencing the same thing, same thoughts, same feelings, reach out. I love you, we can get through this ❤️
Thanks man. I needed that. Drunk while I read this but made me go to fucking bed...
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Hey bro. Lost my wife 2 and a half years ago. In the thick of it still it feels.
You ever want anyone to talk to, save my info. What happened happened, but we're still here and I love you man
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Beautiful...keep it coming. Everyone is battling something. Feels good to know, no one is alone
Ren just found your music...Wow it really is deep and amazing... lots of love and prayers from Guyana 🇬🇾
I'm a 46 year old male and this is the first song that's made me cry that isn't directly associated with a moment in my own life. Between 'Hi Ren" and this I've never encountered an artist that hits me in the soul so hard.
I'm 52 and I'm right there with you brother. Thought I was too old and too hardened for any "new" music to get to me. Then I heard "Hi Ren".
Yep 46 too. And this guy is next level. Never been so excited to watch an artist grow, he is groundbreaking & his music will be talked about in generations to come.
i'm way older than all of you . i'm 81. you are all punks
54 in a week and same here.
Ren has lived a lifetime already it send and somehow has the gift and talent and puts in the hard work to translate his thoughts and emotions into relatable music. What a guy. Greetings from the Netherlands.
Exactly the same - I love 90s grunge, 70s disco, 00 nu-metal , and more , but Ren's art/music/story telling resonates at such base a level. What an incredible talent , first artist in probably 30 years , actually maybe all my years, that has made me stop , think , listen and just be awe struck.
Came down from apartment to donate to a busker today, as I heard her performing ‘How to be me’ we both evangelised to a passer by about REN’s awesomeness! So I bought her a pint as well. 😂
Man, your music is beautiful!
Nothing else to say but thanks man. You’re a truly powerful story teller who’s raw and human and it’s needed so badly in the world to have people willing to be this way. It’s a hard path to take.
The day this comes out is my birthday and I've been living with cripling depression and anxiety for 4yrs, right now I'm low but I know I can be the man I was again. I too had a friend like Joe, last year he jumped of a cliff even though he hated heights and nobody knows why he did. We all have our bad times and need someone to listen, we need to look out for our loved ones and try to be the hand they need for support. I am so glad I found you Ren as your music has helped ground me when I'm start to slip, thankyou for being a beautiful person.
Keep fighting Johny. The world needs you.
Johny, things do get better, you will feel light and cheerful again one day, I promise. I’ve been through it and am living proof that things do come right again and life can feel light and joyful in the way it used to once feel. Hold onto that HOPE. Please find and invest in a great psychotherapist or Jungian psycho analyst that you connect with and has the same values as you. They can really, really be transformational, if they’re good and in tune with you. For now listen to The Blindboy podcasts mental health and psychology podcasts. They are pure gold, helped me ALOT!!! You will get through this. You will! 100% possible. You woudn’t be here on this earth if you weren’t meant to be, remember that. Eventually life will show you why, it will come. With time and reflection you will find more and more tools and tidbits that bring you more peace and joy as you soften into accepting yourself and seeing you’re strengths and value. You just have to be strong and get though this challenging time, you will be so wise once you make it through. I kind of like to think of these conditions as a very loud wake up call, maybe it’s your soul telling you to look inward and work though and release layers of trauma/ un healthy core beliefs…to find and live in alignment your authentic self. Or it’s something or many things in your environment that needs to change, so that you a living a life that aligns with your values. Also please watch ‘Stutz’ on Netflix - really cool mental health doco, lots of amazing mental tools nuggets of gold. Disclaimer, I’m not a psychologist - I’m just speaking from my single personal experience. Ps. Even psychologists/ doctors reccomend their patients to listen to the blindboy podcast!! Just search for his mental heath or psychology podcasts. You’ve got this! You have value, you many not see it now, and you may feel those terrible crippling feelings all the time, but with the right help and knowledge and reflection and tools things will come right again, you will feel peace, joy and sunny again. ❤
Good wishes on ya birthday mate. Hang in there. There are good things out there. Its hard. Push on through. Your not alone.
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There’s a whole world of us pulling for you, my friend. I’m so glad that you are here and sharing music, time, and your story with us. Thanks for being awesome you❤️
I lost my father to suicide almost 25 years ago. I almost got to him in time but was too late. You words encapsulate perfectly that anger, guilt and sadness. Thank you for making this song, it is needed.
My dad did the same thing totally resonate with this feeling happened 13 years ago. Your not alone and the only way we can get thru this is by knowing Jesus Christ is real and we never die. I know we will see our dads again Matt that's how I was able to move forward. You live your best life & help others especially the people dealing with the same problem you already faced. Thank you Ren for writing this song it helps all of us. My cousin also committed suicide in 2021 it's more common than you would think,. So we have to pray to stay strong during these hard times for us and other people. God bless you all
Prayers lifted for the souls of your fathers and for peace.
How the heck did i Miss that :O :O
Thank You Ren!!! I Love You All 💚🙏☯✨🕊
Holy shit man. Every time you release something its like you share a part of yourself with the world. Not some surface level drivel like a lot of artists, but something that people can connect to. I have nothing else to say than thank you for this and everything you decide to share. Your music is art portrayed in sound.
My daughter took her life in August 2018. She will forever be 24. I will grow old and miss her until I take my last breath. Our mental health system is unbelievably broken, she asked to be admitted, the dr said she didnt need to be. 3 days later she was gone. I hope this song brings awareness and help to those struggling. Thank you Ren.
Our Daughter will forever be 22 so I understand the gut wrenching pain. Ren is an Angel on Earth