The Truth about Anorexia
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 23 พ.ย. 2024
- Watch the vid I made in summer for context -
• My Eating Disorder
Hello angels. I’ve tried my best to make sure this isn’t a triggering video in any way, please be mindful though & in the comment section too. I'm sorry for the silence... I'm scared to upload this, although i find talking to the camera a lot easier than talking in real life, coz it doesn't feel like anyone can hear me, but anyways, if it can help even one person, then it's worth it.
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Contact: james@freefocus.co.uk
jodie@jodiejae.com
Disclaimer - This video is not sponsored.
Thanks so much for watching, love & light x
I love you guys beyond words, I hope you know that. Heres to the beautiful future that lies ahead!
Jodes, i don't have an eating disorder but i have suffered with self loathing , self doubt, feeling judged and still dealing with it but i just want to say that i love you and think that your so incredible
Just Jodes love you lots jodes!!! You’re strong and you can beat this!!!! Sending prayers and you’re in my thoughts always x
Just Jodes So proud of you, Jodes 💕💕💕
we’re all rooting for you jodes 💗 you’re doing so incredibly well. all the love and hugs to you x
What a horrible horrible illness - You're so brave for coming on camera and being so raw about it all. Keep doing what youre doing and taking it day by day, im so glad youre feeling a bit more positive. Sending love and hugs xxx
Also just thankyou for even just talking about it because im sure im not the only person who didnt really know that much about anorexia, it really helps me to understand it more too x
I’m so proud of you.
There aren’t enough words♥️. You’ve got this Jodes x
“This illness is vile beyond words.” Made me cry....so true. Thank you for speaking up, Jodes. The more we support each other and speak up about this, the less people will suffer and be consumed by this evil. We deserve so much more.
Everybody wants you to be happy and healthy, one day at a time youve got this jodes! ❤️🥰
I have suffered with anorexia nervosa for the last 10years. I am currently 18 weeks into inpatient. Please make sure you put you first at the moment. It is hell on Earth. I know TH-cam/social media is your life/job but I can’t possibly imagine how much more difficult trying to recover under the scrutiny of the media/public eye could be. Please make sure you put you first. We can do this! x
Good luck 💓
I really hope you overcome this babe and get back to being happy and healthy! You are such a beautiful woman, inside and out and you deserve to get better. You are totally worthy of everything you desire in life. You can do this, I believe in you! ❤
💗💗💗 such kind words, thank you!!!
I've been watching you for years and I can not explain to you how much you've helped me! I went through a stage where I hit rock bottom 2 years ago and was nearly hospitalised (not through an eating disorder but still mental health), I honestly felt helpless and your positivity helped me SO much! I sat every day and watched your videos and you were one of my inspirations to get better. I can't explain to you how proud I am of you for fighting this!! Just through watching your videos, I can tell you're one of the kindest and loveliest people I've ever come across!! Maybe sharing videos through your recovery journey will help you out a little as you can see how many people support you? Keep strong girl! You can do this!! Focus on one day at a time and before you know it, you'll be looking back and seeing how far you've come xxx
Please please fight Jodes we all love you and missed you, I watched my friend slip away due to this awful awful illness she was just 21, you can do this and we are all behind you, your world is your oyster and yours is just beginning my lovely so fight for it like you never have before! Sending you all my love and strength xxxxxxxxx
I've missed you gal, I'm wishing you all the strength in the world with your recovery. Having an ED can be like torture but we all know that you are capable of conquering this ❤️❤️❤️
I’ve been thinking about you every single day girl. I’ve missed you so much. I’m sending you so much love 💛
Recovery becomes a full time job, expect harsh anxiety and going back and forth in your mind, aslong as you're recovery focused you'll do fine, not perfectly, just fine, love ya girl xx
i've been watching you since you were sat in your bedroom at home with your brick wallpaper haha and i've been so worried about you recently, can honestly say i've thought about you every single day. it's amazing to see you're on the road to recovery, you're so so brave for uploading this and i'm sure this will help so many people. sending you all the love
Just watched this video whilst also struggling with anorexia and can really relate to your pain, I’ve been close to giving up these past days but this has inspired me to keep fighting so Thankyou and good luck, know one deserves to suffer from this disorder you deserve to recover and be happy.
Sophie F Sending love to you. You can beat this horrible disease. You are loved and I’m proud of you. ❤️❤️❤️
Hayley Perkins that means so much to me Thankyou❤️
Ive thought of you every day chick. Sending so much love to you, time to build a happy life and I look forward to fun times ahead, maybe together when you're up to it in the future xxxx
I've missed you so much Jodes, i'm so proud of you for posting this video, you're such a strong, inspiring person that i love so much, sending you loads of hugs and prays your way, focus on your health, don't rush coming back on social media Jodes, i'll always be by your side, even if I can't be personally with you (i would honestly give anything to be with you right now) there's nothing you need to apologise for, I understand to the fullest, I know you're a warrior, keep fighting gorgeous, you're a beautiful human being with an amazing heart❤
YOU’VE GOT THIS GIRLIE💗
me & every other person here believes in you & loves you more than you probably realise. all of what you are going through has proved how strong you are & as hard as it may be, as long as you believe in yourself & realise how strong you can be/are, you can get through it all. am forever so insanely proud of you. you’re gonna find yourself again & youre gonna be okay. i love you always always always. ♥️✨
i think it’s definitely safe to say that unless you’ve been / are there yourself you won’t fully understand how horrendous anorexia (and other EDs) are. you’ve completely hit the nail on the head. your very very inspiring and i’m going to try and hold onto your words. thank you for making this video, you deserve the world and every victory in recovery, your stronger than you think and definitely by far stronger than Ana. love you so much💖⭐️
After suffering five years with this vile illness, i can promise you that letting go and recovering is incredible. The way you are talking Jodes; you can do this, the determination you have is so amazing❤️ Remember to take it day by day, use your close relationships in the best way, let them hold you up and you’ll eventually get to the place where you want to be! I wish you all the best, take your time and take care💫✨
Thank you so much, this has helped insanely. I have felt so stupid for a long time for getting smaller and smaller and without myself knowing but people pointing it out. You really inspire and im so thankful for you sharing your story, I really am grateful so so grateful thank you xx
even just making this video and putting it out there and explaining it will help you so so much, you are so inspiring and your attitude is beautiful. i am so glad that you have a network of people to support you because you deserve it more than words can say. your channel has always been known as the safe, happy place to go to and this reputation is beyond true, everything you say and do is so caring and engaging. keep going babe, YOU ARE SO STRONG wow
Wishing you the absolute best Jodie, I found a gratitude journal very helpful when I was badly mentally ill, at first it was literally just "I'm grateful for my bed" but as time went on, I've managed to add more things and it's helped me - plus therapy etc of course!
You’re so worthy of this journey to your “new book” Jodes. This isn’t a chapter for sure this is definitely re-writing your new book (your new zest for life!) and cut ties with history! You’re ready to flourish and nourish; to start a new healthy journey!! You deserve all the things you aspire to want to achieve and do, and I’ve no doubt that you’ll get through this as I know you’re such a strong willed person and you’ve got such a soft nature. Your purpose is to definitely heal yourself and then heal others as you’re such a kind, gentle and fun soul! You’re naturally a warm character and even through tough times you still smile and still try your best to keep going! That’s signs of someone who deserves the very best from life! You’re still showing gratitude and love even in this video, even when you feel broken down and you know what I think Jodes? Don’t go back and pick up the glass from where it’s shattered you but push forward in creating your new masterpiece! Life is yours for the taking and the world always falls in love with a stubborn heart that refuses to give up, soon enough with YOUR determination and drive you will come through the other side and life will throw you so many blessings. Just remember, this journey might have ups and downs but as long as you don’t quit, remember if you fall just try to get back up again, and keep going, as I really believe you’re going to get to where you want to be. I really believe in you and I think you’ll be SO proud of yourself as long as you keep going. You CAN silence the voice behind this dreadful illness and It’s worth fighting for your beautiful life to come, good luck Jodes and take care of yourself! You can do this and YOU will, just remember that. Xxx
We have all missed you so much gorgeous but are beyond understanding of how necessary this break was. It allowed you to reevaluate your own mental well-being and concentrate on getting stronger everyday. I can’t put into words how proud I am of you, you are an angel and I love you to the moon and back. We will all fight this battle with you, you are not alone and you CAN do this. I promise! There will be hard days, weeks, months but it won’t last forever and you will still have the brightest future. You have inspired me beyond words, don’t be sorry for suffering, we are sorry you have had to put up with this. All my best hugs ❤️❤️
Glad to see you back doing videos again Jodie! You are so strong and I wish you all the best from the bottom of my heart
we all want nothing but the best for you. you CAN overcome this. you’re a strong, wonderful, beautiful woman and you’ve got us all by your side🖤✨
Jodes, I have followed you know for three years and I have always loved your content, your genuine personality and you as a genuinely lovely person. You are one of the most inspirational people out there and I really want you to know that we're all here for you, we're supporting you every step of the way and we've got your back. I don't suffer from an eating disorder but I am a very self-deprecating person and I do put myself down and it really helps to know there's people who care about you and are concerned for you - that's why we're here, we're your rocks if you like (you'd know I'm a geography student haha). You are gorgeous, you are strong and you deserve every ounce of happiness life will give you. Wishing you all the best xxx
Keep fighting Jodes, it is the hardest thing but there is a way out. I personally had a 'turning point' that I remember vividly and often it is the rock bottom of the disease and it's almost like an 'ah-ha' that you cannot carry on like this- a scary reality that, like you say, it's trying to kill you, because it almost does. YOU CAN DO THIS, it's hard, don't let people force you to go faster than you need to, even small progress is progress, but you can do it.
I'm happy to hear you are doing well and have good support around you, but please don't set your expectations of your self to high. Your a strong woman and I know you can overcome this but just remember if you have to go to hospital again down the line there is no shame in that, this condition can be extremely hard and I'm speaking from personal experience. I want to see YOU happy and well but if you set the bar to high you could be setting yourself up to fail. Just take one day at a time you are an inspiration and remember you deserve better and there is no shame in getting more help if you need it! Don't be to hard on your self and take care
I have been through a multitude of eating disorders and mental illnesses too, look back through your channel, your skin looked so healthy, your hair so glossy, you have a natural glow. And now it really isn't there, you don't look healthy at all, you are better than this! You will never reach ana's idea of perfection so tell her to f*ck off! You will not gain anything through eating disorders, you just become isolated and it strips your self confidence. Once you get past the stage of guilt with eating, you're on the road to recovery! Good luck Jodie, the best advice I can give you with recovery is, you'll get out what you put in. You have to be honest with yourself and others. ❤️❤️
Jodes this is so inspiring. I'm so glad to see you back and so determined to get better. I know you can do it.
Love you beyond words my gorgeous girl. Very proud to call you my best friend and together we WILL get through this, on to brighter days xxxx
My best friend, twin, soul sister, my rock & guiding light. I would be here without you. Together we will win xxxx
Sending you so much love angel❤️❤️
Honestly Jodes you have explained this so so well. You have really explained anorexia so amazingly!! I can tell you now, as a recovering anorexic, that everything therapists tells you is true. You may have heard of starvation syndrome, and the theory is literally so true. The more I ate the less anxious about food and body image I was. I became less and less consumed, and I’m feeling great currently. I was just moaning every therapy session saying my therapist was just wanting me to be fat, just telling me to “eat more” just as if it was as easy as that. But it is soo so true I promise. I know it’s not easy in the slightest, it is the hardest thing I’ve ever been through. I send you so so much love and support and courage jodes, I know how hard this journey is, but the recovered outcome will be amazing. Lyl!!! Xx
You're doing fantastic!!. I was diagnosed with anorexia 4 years ago and it tore me in half, I was living to die basically. But every little step you take, you're one step closer to recovery. It's a hard road to take, but it is so worth it. Life is worth living and you'll do amazing!
Jode, this video has truly inspired me to the cores. 6 years of my life have been stolen away by mental illness, and like you say enough is enough, I cannot afford to lose any more years to these horrible illnesses. I was so consumed that I started to believe I wasn’t needed or loved and no one would care if I took my life. Thank YOU for this video as it practically saved my life wether you believe it or not. I would like to write more to you but I’ve been so embarrassed to have suffered, but yeah mental illnesses are just labels and they do not define us!!!
It scares me how much I resonate with your description of how anorexia affects you. I am older than you are (30) and have had several hospital admissions too. I feel like I’ve passed my chances of getting better now and just existing like you say.
I don’t want you to end up like me or worse. I have known people from hospital be 50 years old and have spent their whole life in and out of treatment. It is no way to live and you definitely have so much to live for and have so much opportunities waiting for you. Lots of love and keep fighting xxx
i hope you overcome this shitty illness, it takes to many lives and honestly is such a struggle. you can tell your trying really hard in recovery, as someone who also suffers i can see how much you want to recover. your smile seems real and you've come such a long way to start beating this eating disorder. you are amazing never forget that you are worth so much more than anorexia. one day you won't live by anorexia you live and beat it . you will rebuild your live and do amazing things keep it going girly xxxx
I’m behind you every step of the way. You’ve got this. I absolutely adore you♥️
So glad to hear you're getting better and getting the help you need. I think it's so brave but so important you share this story to help people understand. I've missed your videos and I honestly am so moved by your story. You're so strong and I'm so glad you're seeing the light. You deserve every happiness Jodes and know there are hundreds of people who believe in you
It’s crazy because I found your channel when I watched your videos on reviewing Zoella products. You just seemed so happy. Don’t ever judge a book by its cover. Stay strong❤️
Sending you so much love. As a previous anorexia sufferer you can beat this I did and you can. It doesn’t define you, with this disorder, you become anorexia (not the person) but you are not anorexia YOU ARE JODES. So much love, you’ve got this💗
I have never rooted for someone more. It breaks my heart that anorexia has taken so much from you but it is so good to see you with such a fighting attitude! You are so so worth it. I know there is a beautiful life waiting for you beyond your illness and I know you are strong enough to see it for yourself. So much love xxxxx
this is one of the truest, bravest and raw videos i’ve ever seen. i’m currently inpatient for anorexia & have been feeling lost, with no future etc but this has given me that little bit of hope so thank you. keep fighting x
We love you and support you always! We’re all here if you need us! Stay strong Jodes!❤️❤️❤️
You can beat this illness, I know you can xx
So so brave if you to upload this. Don’t worry about the gap in uploads, you need to prioritise yourself at the end of the day. 💞
I’m going through anorexia recovery at the moment know just how difficult it is! It’s so scary but incredibly rewarding🌿You need to do what is right for you so please never be afraid of feel guilty for taking a break. Your health is priority and we all just want to see you happy 💛 sending you all the lurvvv xx
We will support you the whole way, remember how proud we all are of you to reach this turning point!!!! You are not a burden on anyone, you have such a good heart and you are so strong to face the reality of it all - we are beyond proud of you ❤️❤️
What a wonderfully articulated video. The fact you've waited to post this to address it shows your maturity and ability to recover. I was very close to this point years ago and my family and friends pulled me back. Life is worth living and it's wonderful that you're showing it. I wish you all the best with your recovery xxx
You are so brave! Take each minute as it comes and keep talking to someone. Anyone. Never stop talking. My whole life I’ve watched the good days and the bad with anorexia. Often the bad. With A close family member. Never stop fighting back. You do deserve better, you deserve the world. Xxx
I don’t normally leave comments but I just wanted to say I think you are amazing! So brave and so beautiful! Thank you for uploading this. I hope it helped you sharing this, I know it’s definitely helped me and I’m sure loads of others too! You are so strong and you’ve got this!!! 💜💜💜
You’ve been in my thoughts lately. Hoping that you were doing well. I can’t wait to see you overcome this illness ❤️
Inpatient was one of the scariest experiences and I agree with you. You have to be at rock bottom to be there. Especially if your one on one and watched 24/7 it's horrific. I got better and so can you angel💗
Jenny Hunt I don’t know you, but I’m so proud of you. ❤️❤️❤️👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻
@@hayleyperkins9654 thank you so much ❤️
I saw u in London the other day I didn’t come up to u as I didn’t want to bother u and I’m a v shy person x I wanted to say ur so brave and we all love you and support you through every thing ur such a beautiful kind person and it comes across even on camera stay strong ly
Jodes your so incredibly brave don’t apologize this isn’t your fault it’s a mental illness that you have to deal with I love and support you through this sm ❤️
You’ve got this girl! Sending all the love 💕
You can do this Jodes, I believe in you xxx
Aww Jode, firstly thank you for being so open about mental illness and anorexia.... you are an amazing young lady! Hope your true friends and family haven’t walked away when you’ve pushed them.... hope they realise that was the illness not you!
Take care we are all here supporting you, you can and will beat anorexia xxxxx
I hope you’re ok Jodes, missing your presence online but wishing you health and happiness x
so proud of you for talking about this. i suffered for 4 yrs aged 12-16 so i understand everything you talk about, we are all rooting for you and you are strong enough to beat this
I have always really enjoyed watching your videos, you are just really soothing and calming to watch. Don't want to say too much because I feel like I don't want to trigger anyone but lately I've been feeling quite low mentally and have been struggling quite a lot with the food side of stuff and feeling really anxious about my body and just generally struggling with my relationship with food. Sometimes it's hard for me to accept that I'm struggling because I kind of feel like it makes me weak or less strong than I feel I should be. But I'm determined that I am going to start really trying to focus on getting myself back to a place where I just eat what makes me feel happy. Thank you for bringing me and so many other people strength, inspiration and hope for recovery
Not watched this yet but you’re so brave. I’ll always support you, sending you lots of love and I hope you feel better❤️😭😭
You have got this gorgeous girl. Keep strong, keep fighting & keep winning. Sending you all the love, and all of the strength to overcome this horrible illness. xx
A member of my family had Anorexia and it was horrible to watch, a few years later I went down a similar route. Jodes, you are so strong and so brave and so amazing, you can do this and you will get better. We all love you so so much ❤️
Very happy to hear you say “I deserve better” because it’s so absolutely true and that’s what you need to hold on to and remind yourself throughout this. Wishing you all the luck in the world with your recovery Jodes❤️ You are not 1 in 5
Your bravery shines through the darkness and I am sending so much love. You are such an incredible and inspirational woman sharing this story with whoever may need it 💞 Stay strong girl, you can beat this 💗xx
I read a book when I was younger called Just Listen, one character had anorexia and the story was told from her sisters perspective. Reading it had an incredible effect on me and since then I have had an incredible sympathy and empathy for any sufferer, as well as an understanding. You can fight this Jodes, pull out every positive you can, as well as all your friends and family you have such a strong online community behind you, you can do this 🥰
I was only finding your Twitter last night to see what you were up to!!! So so so much LOVE❤️❤️❤️
You’re so strong, sending all my love 💜
You are beautiful, you are smart, you deserve to have friends, you deserve to eat and fuel your body. You deserve to have a life full of happiness and laughter Jodes. Myself and thousands of others are rooting for you. Take your time, recover and come back 100000000 times stronger that the illness. You got this girl ❤
Also I think you should screenshot and print out all of these comments, from here, Twitter and instagram and put them on your wall. Look at them every day, especially when that unwell voice is loud. Then read the comments, read them aloud until that unwell voice is drowned out ❤
lots of love , i was inpatient many times none of which helped me and i never want to go back to that horrific dark place. you can do this hunnie xxxx
I am in the exact same position as you. I too was hospitalised, I am from Manchester and I went to cheadle priory, and it was the worst experience of my life. Dogs are treated better than what the girls were. I had to discharge myself cos I wasn’t getting any help, all they were was a feeding farm and didn’t help with the mental state. I’m still trying everyday to get better and it’s the hardest journey. I’m still trapped. I just want you to know that you’re not on your own. I’m so glad you have an amazing support system around you. Keep strong xxx
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Everyone is rooting for you jodes. You have been such a help within other people’s individual journeys regarding mental health, and now it is our turn to help you.
Take all the time you need, we will still be here ready and waiting - the pivotal thing is to focus on you.
It’s okay to be selfish. It’s okay to relapse as long as you bounce back again.
The fact you can acknowledge your journey means recovery is doable.
stay strong love a fellow recovering gal 💓x
(lol that was so rambly and made no sense sorry)
You’re so strong Jodie!
You are a strong, beautiful and powerful young woman. I know you can beat this horrible illness and I want to thank you for your open and honest video. I can’t wait to see your journey/recovery and I wish you all the best 💖
Jodes if ever you feel down, watch this video back and listen to those strong words of yours! You can do this and we are all here to support you xxx
Hi jodes I am an older lady who has watched your channel for years, and just want to send you all my best wishes
on your road to recovery, never give up Jodes you got this, takecare pet Xx
This is an incredible video and you are such a strong person to be able to even talk about it the way you are. It breaks my heart to hear you say sorry because it's not your fault. Yes you may have pushed people away but it's the ones that come back and stick around that are truly loyal to you! Wish you all the best in your recovery! You look amazing xx
You are so strong, don’t ever think you’re anything less than beautiful, amazing, inspirational and overall an incredible human. I believe you have every possibility of becoming jodes again and your mindset just shows how you can beat this horrible time, sending you so much love x
I can’t even tell you how amazingly brave you’ve been throughout all of this and how brave you continue to be. I constantly pray that you will recover fully and live a happy life without this illness. Sending love and positivity always and wishing that things look up soon 💗 carry on being as brave as you are!
I just want you to know, you are so amazing! The fact that you have made a video and posted about this is amazing and making people so aware of exactly how it makes you feel is what we need. You are so brave and incredible and an inspiration to everyone. You are so motivated and dedicated to doing this and every single person here believes in you and we know you can do this. Your gunna beat this. We love you and are all here supporting you.
You are so strong Jodes, and you are an inspiration. Thank you for talking openly about mental illness. We can get through this xx
I don’t usually comment on videos, but i just want to say you are so strong. Right now you are being so amazing, after watching someone so close to me go through anorexia i know how hard it can be for them. I wish you all the best and hope you can keep fighting and pushing through this. Xx
You've got this girl! Keep Smiling ❤❤
I’m watching this while sat in a hospital bed for this exact reason. I was trapped in the Illness and now I’m trapped in hospital. But u got admitted and u got through it , currently been in for a week as an inpatient I miss home so much and like u I am finding difficult and I want to get out. This video helped a lot❤️
The world is much brighter with you in it. You are so special and deserve health and happiness. Wishing you all the best and sending you strength.
That dark voice can tell you what it wants but I’ve just read through all these comments and that’s what’s really true❤️ you’ve got this Xx
You are so brave for fighting this and sharing it over the Internet, you can beat this girl 💗💗
Welcome back to your life, Jodes.
Wish I could give you a big hug.
Been supporting you since 2016 and I ain't ever gonna stop. So extremely proud of you. You're beautiful, we love you Jodes ❤️
Sending my love Jode’s. You’re such a strong human. Keep fighting ❤️
I’m currently inpatient and I can relate to this so much. I love you and you have the power and strength to beat this 💗
I’m sending you so much love! I believe in you 💗
im so so proud of u jodes, im always gonna stick by u and support u angel ♡
You are such an incredible woman Jodes. This illness will take you NO LONGER. You've got this, I believe in you.
sending so much love & the biggest hugs, im proud of you and love you so much. stay strong ❤️
You're such a beut inside and out. Super brave of you to speak out like this, you have no idea how you will inspire others to get the help they need. Keep going Jodes x
So lovely to see you. Stay strong lovely girl. You are brave beyond words to speak about this. Thank you for being so honest. Pls don't apologise. We all love you and only want good things for you.
I think I speak on behalf of a lot of people, I believe that you can do this Jose’s, you have so many people behind you family, friends, fans, followers , you can be the person you want to be 💕💕💕