Billy Bob Thornton I've Never Been the Same Since My Brother Died Oprah's Master Class

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  • @leeturiano4419
    @leeturiano4419 ปีที่แล้ว +96

    This video, means the absolute world to me. I'm 54 years old as I write this on July 3rd, 2023. I lost my brother, who was 9 years younger than me, on February 12, 2021, suddenly. I raised him since he was 11 after losing both parents early. He was my best friend, my go to guy , and we had our own language. Essentially, my world. We finished each other's sentences, won hockey championships together and had Marvel/ Fast and Furious "Brother's Days" at the theatres when the big flicks came out. And I lost that connection, and have been cut in half and adrift ever since. I'm still here, and I forge on and honor him daily, but the joy is missing. The world has lost it's color, and the very air is not the same. When I saw this video, it was the very first time I ever heard or saw someone take the feeling and explanation from my head, and say it where I could see it myself. It was like I said it myself.
    I apologize for this long-winded post- who wants to hear it, I know- but I want to say how this struck such a chord in me, and showed that I wasn't alone feeling this exact way. I also want to say I'm sorry, and I wish love and strength to anyone else who has lost that same connection, and also want to say that despite the unbelievable pain, do not give up on this life. We owe it to them to fight on for them, and owe it to those still here that care about us to try and rebuild who we once were.
    God bless you all....and I love and miss you, Jason. I'm working on it....

    • @royjonesjrjr6396
      @royjonesjrjr6396 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      I just loved your beautiful words.

    • @jman3254
      @jman3254 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      I lost my dad, who I saw every day of my life, almost two years ago. He was 85 years old. I never know of, or find people around me, who understand--- not even my own nearby cousins or church family, for example. And they have obviously all had loss too, but they still can't relate to how it happened to hit me. But I always find comments, like yours here, that show me there are some people out there that have had the same type of hard grief as me, with the same basic aspects to it. I wish I had people in my life who really understand the barren wasteland that I have been put in since I lost my father. Don't get me wrong, its a lot better, but I am still a lost and hollow man. I'm glad that I read this today. Thanks, and I'm sorry that you lost your brother. . .

    • @jman3254
      @jman3254 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      . . . and you're right, we do have to forge ahead despite the agony that we feel inside. Life is still really good and we are still very blessed. And we all have, or will, lose at some point in time, so we all have that in common. My father would hate to know that the last thing he ever did for me was ruin the rest of my life because he died. I could never burden him with that, if it was even possible. I hope that I will fully love life one day. I pray about it on a very regular basis. God bless us all.

    • @texaslife956rodz6
      @texaslife956rodz6 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

      Don't apologize.. it's how you feel your feelings are very valid. I pray for peace and comfort in your heart and send you all the love

    • @theresastirling2337
      @theresastirling2337 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      We'll said....the world has lost it's color, the air is not the same....so true

  • @melissageiger71
    @melissageiger71 ปีที่แล้ว +38

    My mother was killed in a robbery the day after the Superbowl '92'
    She was 49 and I had just turned 20.. I will never get over it. And I still cry when I think about it. She was loved by all who knew her. 💔

  • @alexandercordova5367
    @alexandercordova5367 3 ปีที่แล้ว +134

    I lost my brother almost 5 years ago and my life and families lives haven’t been anything close to the same since… the 50% happy 50% sad at any time line really hit

    • @treatmenice1564
      @treatmenice1564 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      same here

    • @cadesiegrist4047
      @cadesiegrist4047 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      I lost my mother just a lil before turning 21 I’m now 24 I don’t think I’ll ever recover from it but I do my best to keep pushing on like she would want me to at the end all we have is memories. Memories that we’ll never forget and those, those keep me going she still lives. Same as your brother. Sorry for you loss man

    • @lauriemfs8720
      @lauriemfs8720 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

      He said everything, I mean everything, this is me know, lost my brother/ hero 4 years ago to cancer. 😢❤💔

    • @sunshinenday3439
      @sunshinenday3439 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

      "Then he died and I've never trusted happiness since."
      This is the feeling.....trying to cope despite he just no longer is here....trying to enjoy moments but that reality that death is a guarantee that comes with live. Always wondering who is next and will they officially ruin me?

    • @sunshinenday3439
      @sunshinenday3439 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

      @@lauriemfs8720I'm sorry. I lost mine this August in an accident and Christmas is doubling down the pain.....I can imagine with you too. ❤ hugs

  • @lifewithjimmy4389
    @lifewithjimmy4389 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +11

    My baby girl passed away at 2 yrs old of a brain tumor. Then my parents passed away . Billy Bob you described my grief 100%. 😢thank you.

  • @gena7359
    @gena7359 ปีที่แล้ว +9

    Thank you! Stop telling people they will get over it. Some of us never want to get over. But i am content knowing that life is different now. Not better or worse, just different, a piece is gone, that will never be filled. Its impossible to fill and thats ok. Feel, accept and move on.

  • @adavidbujanda
    @adavidbujanda ปีที่แล้ว +70

    My sister died from cancer 8years ago, I've never heard anyone else explain it this way, this is exactly how I feel all the time.

  • @rockinreebz
    @rockinreebz ปีที่แล้ว +24

    I was 13 when I lost my mom to terminal cancer.
    Been almost 17 years, never ever EVER gets easier.
    I'm a month shy of being 30 years old.
    So many milestones, ups, downs, good times and bad.
    I'll never get over it.
    You are validated for feeling the loss.
    But don't stop. Never forget them, but keep going loves, forever.

  • @theresastirling2337
    @theresastirling2337 ปีที่แล้ว +35

    My, God, Billy. I lost my son almost 3 years ago. I sent this to my adult children. Your words hit all our chords like no other....

    • @Dapryor
      @Dapryor ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Wow, that’s a tough one. I hope you’re doing okay.

    • @theresastirling2337
      @theresastirling2337 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@Dapryor thank you....

  • @gamebred5662
    @gamebred5662 6 หลายเดือนก่อน +21

    Buddy just sent me this. Just lost my brother from another of over 27 years. Shit has me absolutely fucking broken. I'm having the hardest time accepting it an moving on. I'll never have another friend, brother like that again. Met as kids at little league football, me an him were a prob from day one. Had my back to the absolute fullest and I did his in anything wether right or wrong. Im my hardest times in life when everyone had turned their backs on me ( rightfully so) he didn't. He took me in an got me back on my feet, he believed in me. The pain in my heart is so heavy yall. Pray for me.

    • @Flsafsaniynu
      @Flsafsaniynu 5 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      سوف تراه لاتقلق عندما تموت وانت انسان صالح محب للخير ...المطلوب منك فعل الخير وتجتب الشر ..اخي ايضا توفى قبل شهرين والشي الذي يجعلني اصبر هو انني اعلم انه حي في العالم الاخر وسوف نلتقي يوما ما...انصحك بالاطلاع على تجارب الاقتراب من الموت.

    • @rather8948
      @rather8948 2 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Sorry for your lost brother I understand your pain I know it never goes away but even us strangers pray that you will find peace and be with them someday .

  • @alisonmorton9465
    @alisonmorton9465 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +7

    I just lost my mom 2 months ago. A friend sent me this and how Billy describes loss is exactly what I’m feeling. Sending my condolences to commenters who’ve lost someone they loved

  • @dillonlynch92
    @dillonlynch92 ปีที่แล้ว +43

    My sister was murdered 3 years ago. I feel like we have fallen apart. I miss my sister. I feel like when it comes to her I’ll never be happy. My other half is gone. But I’m blessed her kids are here and when I am with them the hurt goes away. She meant the world to me. Thank you for this advice.

    • @kab9706
      @kab9706 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      God bless you and your family, I'm so sorry.

    • @R.Oates7902
      @R.Oates7902 ปีที่แล้ว

      Dillon,
      I'm very sorry for your unimaginable loss!
      RIP
      🌹

    • @dazzstorm1
      @dazzstorm1 ปีที่แล้ว

      Top man, I've lost 3 people, daughter, older brother and dad.
      Just keep rolling man, your kids and mine need us. Every day is another day alive they don't have mate. Forwards Ever Backwards Never

  • @kristinuhrig2924
    @kristinuhrig2924 ปีที่แล้ว +26

    He expresses this better than anyone I have encountered this far after losing my husband of 30 years. I went to grief classes. I went to my church. I went on vacation with our five children once I had all the new responsibilities and finances figured out. It's been five years, and the melancholy just doesn't go away. One person described it as having a profound love with no place to put it. But I think Billy describes it better. At any given time I have 50% happy and 50% sad, and this pervasive melancholy isn't a reflection of a lack of faith, or a lack of confidence in heaven through Jesus Christ. My love for my husband wasn't an idol that I can't live without. It is simply my way of continuing to honor him and the love we shared, and the impact he had on my life. I feel like my right arm as been amputated. And while I am learning how to live with one arm, I'm never going to be the same "care free" person that I was before.

  • @thejudge7737
    @thejudge7737 ปีที่แล้ว +29

    I just lost my older brother at 39 last month and I feel like I’m never gonna get passed this….. I keep watching this video

    • @slayyedits2953
      @slayyedits2953 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      I’m so sorry

    • @amiepperson3951
      @amiepperson3951 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Lost my Mom 17 months ago. My best friend. Just keep going. Day by day. I know it seems lame, but that’s still how I have to do it. Just let me get through today. So very sad for your loss.

    • @horrorbiz72
      @horrorbiz72 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      I lost my brother on May 4th, 2023. This video hit home. I miss him so much. I have to pretend to be ok in front of others but I’m not. I’ve been seeing a therapist just so I can talk to someone. The people I thought would be there are nowhere to be found. My small family has fallen apart. I can’t stand when people try to mention God to comfort me. I’m in pain and just trying to make it a day at a time.

    • @kandiceblu1
      @kandiceblu1 8 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

      I never did get past it with my sister's death it took 10 years to feel 50% OK

    • @thejudge7737
      @thejudge7737 8 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      @@horrorbiz72 love you man!!! Real talk ! I Dnt know you but I just love how real you are about your feelings! Keep your head up and just keep doing the right thing ! I’m starting to feel bettsr

  • @lisa102176
    @lisa102176 ปีที่แล้ว +14

    I lost my brother in 1969, he was only 15 years old and I was 14 at the time. He was my hero and my soul mate. Billy Bob is right, you never get over it, I haven’t in 54 years. And I am still over 50% melancholy most of the time. I like to watch this video every so often to remind myself that this is the normal for some of us.

    • @amiepperson3951
      @amiepperson3951 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Glad to see someone use the word soul mate. My Mom will always be mine. Lost her unexpectedly 17 months ago. This video completely describes how I feel.

  • @terrygray7249
    @terrygray7249 ปีที่แล้ว +15

    Thank you, Billy Bob. I never knew how to put my feelings out there because of the loss of my brother until now. You helped me understand how I really feel.

  • @t.g.8214
    @t.g.8214 ปีที่แล้ว +11

    Lost my little brother, my best friend 3/18/23,
    BBT is right on it 50/50 exactly how it is, miss you Frankie so much.

  • @joshuathompson5395
    @joshuathompson5395 ปีที่แล้ว +27

    I lost my twin brother a year ago. We were only 30. Everything he said hit home

    • @KTmusicLover12
      @KTmusicLover12 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      My deepest sympathy! ❤🙏 I'm a twin. I can't even imagine your loss. 😢

    • @Tazz0021
      @Tazz0021 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    • @MoRNiNGSTaR14125
      @MoRNiNGSTaR14125 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      I lost my twin brother back in March. I see your pain, I know your pain and I feel your pain. Living without our other half is a hell I wish we didn't have to go through. I'm sorry for your loss brother.

    • @joshuathompson5395
      @joshuathompson5395 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@MoRNiNGSTaR14125 I’m sorry for your loss brother. Keep those good memories. You will always miss him. I will always keep you in my thoughts dude. Please stay strong and don’t let depression get you.

    • @theresastirling2337
      @theresastirling2337 11 หลายเดือนก่อน

      I list my son Danny 3 years ago. He is a twin. My heart goes out to you❤

  • @longblacktrain411
    @longblacktrain411 3 ปีที่แล้ว +31

    I know I haven't been the same in 16 years since I lost my Brother.

  • @luvmymunchkins810
    @luvmymunchkins810 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    I lost my sister to ovarian cancer in April 2022, at the age of 49. She's 23 months older than me. We Were always close. I can probably count on one hand how many times we fought growing up. I miss her so, so much. This makes so much sense to me. Thank you Billy Bob. ❤

  • @leoflores8942
    @leoflores8942 ปีที่แล้ว +13

    When my best friend passed. It didn’t feel real, sometimes I can’t believe it at times. I find my self getting happy and sad out of no where. I look back on all the great times we had. I miss him like crazy.. If only he knew how far I’ve come. He would be proud.. I miss you Jason. Love you bro.

    • @tadlee4928
      @tadlee4928 6 หลายเดือนก่อน

      I lost my best friend in the world too. You never stop thinking about them. I dread not being able to hear her voice ever again. Happiness is best shared...

  • @JarrodMiller-z7j
    @JarrodMiller-z7j 8 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    Thank you Billy Bob. My Dad. Thank you for saying how I feel.

  • @tiffanyburtin6206
    @tiffanyburtin6206 ปีที่แล้ว +13

    My brother was murdered 7 years ago today. I happen to find this video and it explains all the emotions I'm feeling everyday. We were a year apart and the way i felt when he died something in me broke. I try everyday to put on a smile and be happy. Now all there is is memories and i hope i never forget any of them

    • @831WatsonvilleCaLi
      @831WatsonvilleCaLi ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Memories last forever.

    • @danielmaron8926
      @danielmaron8926 7 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      Same

      Just half a year ago
      It never gets better huh..

  • @maerib9697
    @maerib9697 2 ปีที่แล้ว +29

    It has been 5 months since I lost my younger brother due to Covid. It was so unfair and I knew that if things would have been done differently, he would have lived. He was 32 years old with a promising career as an Architect. He was also the son that takes care of my parents back home since my sister and I live away. There was never a day that I never thought of him and all I can feel is the pain of losing him, I know it wasn't his time to go. It's something that time can never heal, and I just knew it. I still feel exactly the very same pain the day I found out that he passed. It haunts me all the time. And I knew, I can never be happy again. Losing someone so close to you for the first time seems so unreal. I knew things will never be back to how it was and I will never be the same person again. Billy Bob just put these feelings I have into words. How I wish I could turn back time and bring my brother back to life. I am bound to live in sadness and misery, but I have accepted that because I want to remember my brother everyday, for as long as I live.

    • @maccadicky8635
      @maccadicky8635 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      I lost my brother to Covid as well, it was 11 months ago, he was 34, a very talented musician. I hope you’ve found peace x

    • @robbierobinson5215
      @robbierobinson5215 ปีที่แล้ว

      Thank you🙏🏼

    • @amiepperson3951
      @amiepperson3951 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      In the last 18 months, I lost my wonderful Mom and Uncle both to Covid. I cry as I type these words. Feels like it just happened. I am so sorry for what you have lost. I found this video very comforting. I don’t feel like I’ve been so awful at this grieving thing when I hear his words. Good to know we are not alone in how we feel.

    • @chipchippie
      @chipchippie ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Thank you for you're story, it is for you I got vaccinated. Lost my brother in 1996 so in some way maybe I helped someone not lose theirs. Doing things like this is what helped me with the loss I feel even more now that I am 25 years older after his passing. I was scared, the shots made me sick but that is why I got vaccinated.

    • @haleymitchell4538
      @haleymitchell4538 2 หลายเดือนก่อน

      I lost my brother in 2021 from Covid he was 34 years young, he is forever missed, our family is so different now. Much love to anyone that can relate!❤

  • @kda61
    @kda61 ปีที่แล้ว +14

    Lost Mom in 2005, Dad in 2018. I've never felt completely happy since, despite the fact I know I'm blessed with my children, other relatives, and great friends. I kept thinking I'd stop feeling the sadness and emptiness that I feel a lot of the time but years have gone by and it hasn't gotten better. This video helped me realize that I will always be in the 50/50.

  • @jaygee6738
    @jaygee6738 8 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    I lost my older brother (13 years older) coming up on 5 years ago. I feel the same way Billy does. There IS a melancholy, and I think it will never go away, and I don't ever want it to go away. It would be like Im forgetting him. I also get his point about never trusting happiness.

  • @piacollins490
    @piacollins490 2 ปีที่แล้ว +20

    This is a beautiful and very comforting video. I lost my beloved brother 4 years ago and I feel the same way as he does. I do not fight my pain I embrace it instead. It is the only tribute I can make to my brother, that how important he was to me. I love how he linked the fact of keeping his brother’s memories alive with the tribute that the movie and Art industry makes to big personalities after they passed away.
    Thank you Billy Bob Thornton for this video. It makes me realize that I am alone in the way I think and feel. You must be a very nice human being. God bless you and your family

  • @KennyGeez
    @KennyGeez ปีที่แล้ว +3

    I lost my brother just over 6 weeks ago. He was only 36 and cancer took his life. Every moment is excruciating. It is so hard to come to terms with the fact that life is truly unfair. He did nothing to deserve a short life but that is what he got. Watching the pain my parents go through losing their only son is agonizing. I really don't know how to go on... people say I need to be "happy" but I know I will never be truly happy again. I wish I could take his place every second, he deserved to live. Love my brother Mike forever

    • @theresastirling2337
      @theresastirling2337 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      Don't listen to those "people" who try to tell you how to feel. They have no idea.......

  • @sjmcgin
    @sjmcgin 8 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    My son passed away 10 years ago. These words are the best expressed sentiments of what it is like to have a brother, sister, son, daughter or spouse die. Thank you, Billy Bob Thornton!! Your words mean the world to me!

  • @MrsEleonora8
    @MrsEleonora8 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    I lost my brother two months ago. I feel every word he said. My soul aches every single minute. As time passes I feel it more and more painful and I have moments when it just breaks me. I feel half of myself is missing. He was only 25. He was my light. My little brother, always happy and optimistic. His smile and laugh. I hear him and feel him.

  • @kateshort8050
    @kateshort8050 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    i lost my brother and this is the most perfect description i've ever heard. thank you billy bob

  • @Danfromoverthere
    @Danfromoverthere 5 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    This is the best way to put it man. It’s so true I lost my mother to cancer. She was my best friend and I always have that little bit of sadness in me but everytime I play my drums i dedicate it to her. Every god damn hit on a cymbal or drum is for her because she inspired me to play. I’m glad he put into words exactly how I feel.

  • @wyattphillips28
    @wyattphillips28 5 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    This gets me everytime. My brother passed away the day after my birthday a few years ago. This video helps so much.

  • @leahartlee29
    @leahartlee29 2 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Ever since I lost my dad in 2020, and my mom in 2021, I haven't been the same. I used to be a happy person, but there is a melancholy like Billy Bob described. I miss them ever single day. They were that good. Not perfect, but great. I love and miss them so much!

  • @chingon2388
    @chingon2388 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    I lost my brother, my father abandoned us 😢 I feel this video. it's just me and my mom why God i love you, but I know it's for a reason

  • @derekwhipkey4442
    @derekwhipkey4442 6 หลายเดือนก่อน +4

    I lost my brother in 2009 he killed himself on his birthday. I found him and tried to revive him. It's been almost 15 yrs since he died. And everything billy Bob just said is so true.

    • @ccl1195
      @ccl1195 3 หลายเดือนก่อน

      I'm sorry. 💜

    • @goodlife5825
      @goodlife5825 3 หลายเดือนก่อน

      My brother died in 2009 June 12th from cancer, he died in my arms. The doctors told me he was going to die, and my brother told the doctors to tell because he didn't have the heart to tell me. I miss him deeply. And I'm not over it

  • @joejames158
    @joejames158 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    I lost my brother 4 years ago and 3 months after he passed our mother passed as well. The line Billy Bob Thornton says where he will never trust happiness again is SO true. Every single day since their loss, I can never accept or believe that I'm supposed to be happy...over anything. Most days I am so overwhelmed with grief that i cant function. But I have two beautiful children that I must and will be here for that keep me going.

  • @humbertsmith8864
    @humbertsmith8864 8 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Just beautiful....thanks for that direction!

  • @dougrogers835
    @dougrogers835 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Thanks to Billy for the encouragement. Lost my son to Leukemia when he was 32 years old. 7 years ago. It is still the first thing I think about when I go to sleep and the first thing I think of when I wake up. When people say how you doin' I just say fine thanks to be nice. I never ask anybody how they are doing.

  • @blastingsound
    @blastingsound ปีที่แล้ว +2

    dang ... lost my big brother just a couple years ago ... nicest person in my life ... this was needed.. glad it was in my feed.

  • @shendricks9354
    @shendricks9354 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Thank you Billy Bob, your truth is helping e to get thru losing my Sweet Baby Sister.🙏🏽

  • @lindaalonso5452
    @lindaalonso5452 5 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Thank you Billy B T just beautiful from the heart and true ❤I feel the same except my brother was 1 yr older & no sudden but a long suffering . Neither is easy ✝️💟☮️

  • @texaslife956rodz6
    @texaslife956rodz6 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    I lost my dad almost 10 years ago. But i was never able to mourn him because my daughter had a nervous breakdown because of his passing. I needed to care for her for a long time instead of worrying about wht i was going through. And you're right.. It's not something you ever get over. But i have learned how to start living life happy.. if i hadn't, why does tht say about me or who my dad was. I owe it to him to live life to the fullest, but most of all, how to be happy. Its wht i know he would gave wanted me to do. My love goes to all who are grieving who have lost some soo dear to them.

  • @derekwhipkey4442
    @derekwhipkey4442 6 หลายเดือนก่อน

    I'm right there with u billy.

  • @JaymeeKay
    @JaymeeKay ปีที่แล้ว +5

    I like Billy more now. I miss my brother like a literal piece of me is missing. And it is...

  • @jacquelineithell307
    @jacquelineithell307 8 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    I lost my big brother 17 years ago he was my right hand in life my mother passed 16 weeks later , not a day passes without a thought of them the only good l feel is they are together he was her first born RIP

  • @carch7243
    @carch7243 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    My little brother was murdered 32 years ago. Everything Mr. Thornton said is the honest truth. My life was forever changed the moment my brother died. There is a sadness that will always be there, until the day I die. it is said that time heals, and it does, but never completely. Time only manages to keep the obsessiveness at bay.

  • @julianlavalley7454
    @julianlavalley7454 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I lost my oldest brother in 99 and my older brother in 03. I will love them and honor them forever

  • @stickmanutilities
    @stickmanutilities 4 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    I lost my older bro and only bro. Lost him 8 years ago today. This speech hits me all the time.

  • @joepowers8887
    @joepowers8887 5 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Lost my younger brother 13 years ago…he was 24…”I’ve never trusted happiness since”….damn those words hit me hardddd

  • @dawnwennberg9884
    @dawnwennberg9884 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Now I know how sling blade was so well done. Amazing acting from the heart. Thanks for sharing. I needed to hear this tonight. I wish you all well.

  • @spacerick6787
    @spacerick6787 5 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    The not trusting happiness bit hits too close to home. When my younger brother left this world - I had just gotten a new job. Hung out with this girl I had been seeing over 3 or so weeks for a whole weekend. The world was looking up so much - I felt so fucking good. My last great week ended October 20th, 2019 at sometime between 1 and 2 in the morning. I slept through all the calls because I had been drinking happily with my roommates celebrating a good time. I had work the next day so I was out for the count until my alarm. Saw the 30+ missed calls. flood of texts. Called my Mom back right away. Asked if I was sitting. I thought maybe another one of our family dogs had died as we had lost one just a couple weeks before.
    I still struggle to fully appreciate when I'm genuinely happy. Afraid to express it, even to myself. Like if I am visibly happy, the universe will punish me again.

  • @bartpike441
    @bartpike441 ปีที่แล้ว

    I lost my brother and when I was twelve he was eighteen he died saving other people's lives. I was never the same mold me into who I am as an musician artist. Not dropping names but I remember a time when I was playing bass guitar for Jerry Reed heavy emotion. Jerry told me to think about the saddest thing I could think of when I played that song. I did I played it better than ever but it took so much out of me I still have to do it now because it's second nature but it exhaust me. He also told me when I'm playing Happy songs to think about the best thing I could think of those are the ones I try to grab a tape to but I relate more to sadness.

  • @kraquin
    @kraquin ปีที่แล้ว +6

    It's like the saying, Grief is love with no place to put it.

  • @germancruz2358
    @germancruz2358 6 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    I lost my brother in 2012, May 26th…he was the best looking one of the family, the funniest, the best at sports, the most artistic, whatever he wanted to be good at he got good at. He was amazing to me, my hero, i wanted to dress like him, smell like him, i got into drawing & soccer because of him. He would get all the girls, i was always amazed at how talented he was. When i lost him, only him and i know what i dreamt about that night before i woke up yo my moms screams. I miss him every day, i miss hearing that gate rattle and him asking me if i can open the door thru the window, i lost a piece of me when i lost him, a piece ill never get back.

    • @WildGuyNice
      @WildGuyNice 4 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      My little brother was exactly like that too! A part of our soul dies with them. Something we can't get back and something that time doesn't heal. My heart hurts. Especially during the holidays when there's an empty seat at the dinner table and everyone is silent holding back their tears while we eat and celebrate the holidays without him. I also hear my mom cry at night. It's truly the most terrifying pain that I can't explain.

    • @germancruz2358
      @germancruz2358 4 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      @@WildGuyNice my mom lost her son and father the same year, idk how she held the house down alone, she is the strongest person i know. Holidays always sucked, but honestly the last years he was rarely with us cuz he would rather be with his friends drinking. Im sorry for your loss, nothing we can do but cry secretly at night and remember the good times in the day.

    • @WildGuyNice
      @WildGuyNice 4 หลายเดือนก่อน

      @@germancruz2358 Yeah, I also admire my mother's strength for pushing forward. And it's true. I try to hide my crying to hurt anyone like I do. It's tough working during the holidays, though. Good thing I'm at a little corner where they can't see me cry. I choke so much I wouldn't even be able to explain why I'm crying.

  • @davidbeane1110
    @davidbeane1110 6 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    44 years ago my precious little brother 17 years old died right before my eyes and I will never forget nor get over it.

  • @jennifergibb274
    @jennifergibb274 5 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    I lost my sister in 2016. This is the words I can’t express 😢

  • @jman3254
    @jman3254 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Hearing how Billy Bob feels is how I have been feeling since my dad died almost two years ago. I think that if i talked with Billy that we would both discover that we have a connection, because of how the grief hit us. Of course, my experience isn't exactly the same as his, but very close. Most people out there just don't get it. This must be because either the relationship with the one they lost wasn't as close, or they are just wired differently and respond to the grief easier and come to terms with it quicker. The loneliness can almost cause an emotional breakdown sometimes. I can relate to everything that this man is saying. God bless him. God bless me. God bless us all.

  • @MJ-wrty
    @MJ-wrty 3 ปีที่แล้ว +8

    I needed to hear this.

  • @roycema
    @roycema 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

    This how ive felt since i lost my father we did everything together.

  • @georgemcbride8788
    @georgemcbride8788 ปีที่แล้ว

    Lost my brother June 7th 1980 . I was 16 . he was 20 . I feel ever word of this

  • @bbrockRailFan
    @bbrockRailFan ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I can relate to Billy. My Dad died back in 2014 and I own his house now. Their are days this place haunts me and I have dreams all the time he is yelling at me or we are arguing'. It truly screws with my head sometimes.

  • @andrewshiels8711
    @andrewshiels8711 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Grief is one of the hardest things to deal with, I find it a never ending endurance, 2008 my grandson was still born, 2010 my father died, 2011 my son died, 2016 my older brother died, 2018 my wife died and in 2020 my mum died, the emptiness and sadness that grief leaves you with is indescribable 💔

  • @mariahlee1510
    @mariahlee1510 10 หลายเดือนก่อน

    I lost my older sister 3 years ago to cancer. My world was crushed and this video somehow brings me comfort knowing that there is words for this type of pain.

  • @tomscerbo1588
    @tomscerbo1588 10 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Billy Bob's eyes are a window to his soul! God bless you & your brother Amen!🙏😇💜

  • @jimmyb1258
    @jimmyb1258 9 หลายเดือนก่อน

    My little brother passed away 3 years ago this June 29th and I was as close to him as any 2 people can be. We both had ADHD and although we were very different in alot of ways we shared a bond that through our disorders that was as multifaceted as it was tight. We had our own language and even phrases that we used to communicate where we were at any given moment. We used it in mixed company and in situations where we had to be "normal". We complimented each other and where he was deficient in some tasks, I would take over and vice versa. We had a little handyman Service and we rarely had to be vocal about the division of labor or who would do what, we just went to work. We would both feel the urge for a break at the same time and offen emerged from different areas at the same time for a break. I was VERY fortunate to have spent nearly every day with him the last 1 and a half of his life, and he died suddenly at age 44 of a Pulmonary Embolism and up until the day he died I have felt sadness of someone who I cared about passing away but I had no idea what grief was. Billybob Thornton put that so perfectly and so accurately defined exactly how I feel about his death. When I talk about him around people, I can see that it makes them uncomfortable and I understand why but I will continue to talk about him and to him. I talk to him and I hope that he can hear me. I knew him well enough that I can realistically imagine how he would respond. Happy Birthday little brother, there isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about you and miss ya kid! You taught me many things in the last time we had together and I am a better Man because of it. Oh and watch out for Gram she'll get you with the butter on your nose and you'll have a giant zit for a month. Love ya and miss you, you friggin Moose 🫎 lol ,ALWAYS Jimmy

  • @LO54765
    @LO54765 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    This resonates with me so much! This is my way of thinking.

  • @dpenney7144
    @dpenney7144 3 ปีที่แล้ว +11

    Trust billybob to put my pain into words

  • @emmarhondawilson7071
    @emmarhondawilson7071 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    This is so sad. I lost my brother in 2020. I cried everyday for 2 years straight. All I can say is that the universe feels different. We have a different relationships with our siblings than our parents or other family members. But each holiday or birthday gets me super emotional still. But I know that life has to go and move on. We can not stay stuck or we will grieve ourselves to death.

  • @Marshajfleming
    @Marshajfleming 10 หลายเดือนก่อน

    This is SO profoundly true. All respect Mr. Thornton

  • @angiemantellsmith6820
    @angiemantellsmith6820 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    This is how I honor my brother. This is how I feel thank you for sharing 😢

    • @CGJUGO80
      @CGJUGO80 ปีที่แล้ว

      @JC-du6sn Spamming the same comment onto people who lost loved ones? You have no shame

  • @DaFadedCook
    @DaFadedCook 10 หลายเดือนก่อน

    I’m loosing my mother the doc told me she’d be surprised if she didn’t pass today. This is the best way to describe how I feel. But I feel so empty. I don’t know what I’m going to do without my favorite lady in my life 😞

  • @PilarOnate-cn8lw
    @PilarOnate-cn8lw 6 หลายเดือนก่อน

    This is so beautifully stated…I describe the ongoing pain of losing my brother as the eternal background noise of sadness…I get immersed in the activities of my life and may appear to be ok, but it’s a hurt that will never end…

  • @caligula_0029
    @caligula_0029 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Losing my mom and brother within a few month has been really tough. This has help me with being ok with never getting over with but it’s ok. Love the video thanks Billy

  • @gettinmarried1
    @gettinmarried1 11 หลายเดือนก่อน

    I have had tremendous loss and almost feel guilty for being happy. I too am 50% sad on a daily basis. Feeling this way has become a way of life for me

  • @fh5047
    @fh5047 9 หลายเดือนก่อน

    I lost my brother suddenly 3 weeks ago, he was 51, I can’t see how I will ever feel the same, it’s so hard to explain as iv never experienced this before, all I know is that it feels like I will never be the same happy I was before

  • @fernandotamayo5848
    @fernandotamayo5848 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I lost my brother 2 years ago!😢😭😭😭😭😭😭. And I’ve not been the same. I miss him a lot everyday 😢

  • @mannytsupra2687
    @mannytsupra2687 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

    I lost my cousin this past October, no warning just a text message from my sister at 5am while I was sleeping saying he passed away last night. it's been 6 months and still feels like yesterday with this dam pain. The way he explains this is so real. I fear I will never be able to deal with him passing. But seeing others in the same situation makes it feel human.

  • @JordanVidaurre
    @JordanVidaurre 6 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    This made me cry...i lost my big brother on Christmas Eve 😢💔

    • @PauloNabani
      @PauloNabani 6 หลายเดือนก่อน

      I lost my younger brother on Christmas Eve, hang in there

  • @bart4676
    @bart4676 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

    I lost my twin brother March 13th, 2 years ago. Your words have never been more true. Even though we were 52 at the time, i still felt we were 10, 13 and 50 years old. thats right its ok to feel like this, it is just the way it is. Then August 1st of this past year i lost my older brother. 18 months older. Let me tell u the pain of losing my twin is no different than losing my older brother. If not for our faith my Dad and myself would not be able to get through this. Thank you so much Billy Bob Thornton

  • @melissacarmona1358
    @melissacarmona1358 3 หลายเดือนก่อน

    I’ve read so many posts on this video and to each one of you who have felt that loss, I’m so sorry 😢. Hugs to all of you. Thank you for sharing your stories ❤

  • @lifeofcorn894
    @lifeofcorn894 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    I watched my brother and 4 childhood friends die at 6years old. I’ve been in therapy, on off of drugs and attempted suicide multiple times. Christmas is hard, and I always watch bad Santa, I’ve always related to Billy’s negative character in that movie around the holidays. And his cynical ness. Now it makes a lot of since. Keep pushin billy.

  • @MrPireasxios
    @MrPireasxios 2 หลายเดือนก่อน

    I lost my brother ten months ago and this is spot on.

  • @RB-ko8qv
    @RB-ko8qv ปีที่แล้ว

    I lost my father when I was 13, he was ill but his death absolutely shocked me and my two brothers and my sweet beautiful Mother. I haven't said Happy Fathers day in 48 years. We weren't ready for that pain.
    My Sweet Mother passed in 2015 my older brother the following year. Three years later I lost my little brother.
    What he said was powerful. I've nerver been able to really express the feelings that have been with me for so long, but this is close.
    I've had many good times but that happiness never stays long. It's strange being the only one left.
    The reality of my mortality is now with me more than I prefer but I still find joy and I'm grateful and sad too.

  • @TeresaDungan-i6o
    @TeresaDungan-i6o 9 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Thank you dear man for your openness and honesty. I’ve had too much loss of my nearest and dearest, my son, my husband and my brother. All too young. Your expression of grief and living with it makes perfect sense and completely bittersweet 50/50 on a good day. Thank you for a beautiful testimony of love that is eternal. I’ve found that people who have suffered loss have more empathy for others and a rich depth to their soul when it comes to living.

  • @marib5873
    @marib5873 หลายเดือนก่อน

    I recently lost my brother in April and I feel this so much

  • @draganadojcinovic6079
    @draganadojcinovic6079 หลายเดือนก่อน

    I had the same loss 3 years ago. My younger brother suddenly passed away due to brain aneurism on Jun 17th 2021. Till then he had been healthy young man of 26 years old age. With him, leaving us so suddenly, we stayed in shock, pain and life was nightmare. But I am waking up every day in belief that he just temporarily moved to other space, better place and we will be together again. Sending him love every moment of my life, wherever he is.

  • @sissybennett5967
    @sissybennett5967 10 หลายเดือนก่อน

    I lost my son at 36 years, melanoma brain cancer over 10 years ago , thought, I would never get over, it in 2013 , then lost my husband 2018 , almost killed me, still moving on, but never forget him, lost my grandkids grandpa a little over 2 years ago ..life has changed in so many ways , but I still have my 3 grandkids 26 yr.old girl 19 yr.old grandson and a 13 yr.old, who's, really having problems from Losing his Dad at almost 3. It's a miserable times, sometimes , but by therapy and , AND GOD ABOVE , IS SLOWLY HELPING, YOUR NEVER THE SAME , JUST PRAY ALOT..PRAY FOR ALL , IN THIS SINCERE TIMES ..🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏💕💕

  • @destinydelaney1621
    @destinydelaney1621 หลายเดือนก่อน

    I totally understand this and feel the same after loosing my brother then my eldest son.

  • @zeldasmith6154
    @zeldasmith6154 2 ปีที่แล้ว +8

    Siblings can be your worst enemy or your soul mate.

    • @lilyclyahMystery
      @lilyclyahMystery 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      I agree!! My baby sister was my soulmate!! she passed away a year ago🥺 she was only 23 💔 I still cry everyday but i consider myself lucky to have had such unconditional love 😍😍😍

  • @teresaslo
    @teresaslo หลายเดือนก่อน

    Same here I lost my sister and I feel the same way....

  • @jennifergibb795
    @jennifergibb795 4 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    I feel the exact same way

  • @bassallyear
    @bassallyear 9 หลายเดือนก่อน

    I had the best year of my life last year. Met almost every goal and made over 6 digits for the first time in my life. Then January 4th, my dog got hit and killed my a car. That damn dog saved my life years ago. My life has always been this way. As soon as I'm
    really happy, something happens that pushes me back.
    Last time it happened i was traveling for work, and came home to my girl gone. Which is where that dog came into play. It's really hard for me to trust being happy. Because when i am, shit goes south.

  • @retrowolf3456
    @retrowolf3456 4 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    My brother Alex died just weeks ago, he passed suddenly due to Diabetes and Dialysis, he was plagued by diabetes at age 5 and there were alot of close calls wgere we could have lost him, He passed at home on Memorial Day 2024 at the age of 32, After so many treatments, blood transfusions, eye injections, asthma etc. I feel like the mind and body can only take so much , Melancholy has become a norm to me as I had many family members leave this world and now my family has lost a key piece of themselves.

  • @daderespresenative
    @daderespresenative ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Lossed my bro my brother George 7 yrs ago and ill never get over it

  • @stephani633
    @stephani633 ปีที่แล้ว

    I feel the exact same way… it doesn’t get better in time … it’s a never ending pain that cannot be described unless you’ve lived it

  • @Rolex1995
    @Rolex1995 6 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    My brother passed away 3 weeks ago….the melancholy in me is real …

  • @altorres5988
    @altorres5988 9 หลายเดือนก่อน

    We love you Billy Bob ❤

  • @goodlife5825
    @goodlife5825 3 หลายเดือนก่อน

    My brother died in 2009 June 12th from cancer, he died in my arms. The doctors told me he was going to die... they said he would go to sleep one day and not wake up.. so after that everytime I would see him sleep i would wake him up (intentionally).. one day he went to sleep and I couldn't woke him up..., I later found out that,. prior to that my brother had told the doctors to tell me what would happen to him because he didn't have the heart to tell me. ...
    I miss him deeply, I wish I could've said more to him, I wish I would've been able to comfort him. I was younger then, now that I look back I wish I could've done more for him..
    I love my brother and his absence changed my life ..
    I'm not over it.

  • @JCourts2k23
    @JCourts2k23 10 หลายเดือนก่อน

    I know the feeling, im legally blind and lived with my mom and dad all my life, my dad passed away couple years ago at 72 from alzhiemers, and all i do is worry, worry about my mom, whats going to happen to her and then me, its touch, its still hard, think of my dad everyday, never thought he’d be gone.

  • @jamesstrum4793
    @jamesstrum4793 8 หลายเดือนก่อน

    30 years my brother has been gone. He was just 16, two years older than me.