I wanna make this comment to who ever is dealing with this right now and it is scared that they will never go back to normal , i know its scary and its torture but i promise you will get thur it. Alot of times people habe negative things to say, but no i am a survivor, i was injected bezos and they never told me they let me go for the ER and they blamed it on me telling my family i was a drugie, i ended up getting akathisia which is the worst thing , they ended up putting me in a psych ward and gave me more drugs serquel , cybalta and gabapentin all i can say is i went thur hell , but am here to tell you that am rooting for you and i know GOD will be with you because your not alone am here for you and GOD is too your not crazy and if doctors call you crazy who cares because i know your not and GOD knows your not , doctors that do this will get there karma and GOD sees everything . I hope this made you fight and remember there is light at the end of the tunnel relax and just breath
Thank you so much for continuing to help people recover from these horrible pills. I went cold turkey from 8 MGs of Alprazolam a day for years. It has been pure hell but there are windows of hope. I am on day 96 now. I am to the point where I can go to the gym and I feel so much better after workouts. Even if I don't feel like going, if I force myself to go I am thankful afterwards every time. The worst symptom I have left is my brain hurts. Not like a headache but like brain damage. Almost like severe brain damage. Well, I'm sure it is brain damage. Does this go away over time? Once I get my brain power back I believe I will be able to work again. The other symptom that's bad is that I am almost never happy anymore. Hopefully the gaba builds back up and I can feel happy again. Anyway, thank you for giving me hope. This is a horrible disease that I wish on nobody. God bless.
Brian G you sound like you're doing relatively well for 96 days off. I'm sure you'll make a full recovery and you will definitely know what happiness feels like in the future. keep going strong and don't push too hard!
tried going cold turkey off the same dose. Had a seizure and almost died. Currently on a taper and it sucks so bad. I can't imagine how I'll be once I'm off. I already can't function in society. The only relief I get is from my workouts.
I couldnt agree more about journaling and art!!!!! I never did either before but since I started doing both i feel so much better. The value of doing those two things are HUGE. PLEASE try it it, you wont regret it. And stick with it, it might not be easy at first but over time youll start to love it and find confort. Hope everyone heals. Love you all.
It's good knowing you're here. I'm not too young, and I'm mostly alone, but you do make me feel some hope (if not me, for many). Thanks for all you do. You're are star. :-)
I love all of your videos, you have been such an inspiration for me, tomorrow is my 2 years off, I still have so much syntoms but the worst has gone. I was on Ativan and Xanax for 10 years, at the end I was taking about 20 mg of benzos, I really was close to death. Now I have completely recover my life. We have almost have the same time off, that´s why you have been such a great support, I feel deeply grateful :)
Jose Omar Palacios wow that's really wonderful to hear that you are healing from such a high dose and after being so ill. I'm very glad to share this journey with you and I wish you a full recovery :)
LOVE this!!!They are all things i have done to get through this.You're so right about helping others too!!!I swear by me helping others everyday,it's taken away me focusing on my own misery.It's been my best distraction in this.It also helps me to know good things are coming from my suffering and hell.I'm able to save others by spreading awareness and i'm also able to help others suffering like i am!
So great that you are offering all of these coping strategies. I would add that I am learning things to avoid that set me off. I recently discovered that MSG (and hidden MSG!) sets off my insomnia in a horrible way since it's an excitotoxin. It can have many names so it's helpful to research the sources of this additive and the different names it goes by in (mainly) processed food. I thought I was eating healthy by buying frozen organic dinners but I ate some butternut squash ravioli and was up all night likely because of the "yeast extract" in the dish. Yeast extract is another name for MSG. Yesterday I read many labels and avoided this additive and slept through the night. FYI, 7 weeks off - dizziness, fatigue (getting better), insomnia, brain fog, memory challenges and mood swings. But I am hopeful and like you said, I talk to my symptoms as if they are outside of me and invite them to leave. It helps! Thanks again for your videos. You are an incredibly articulate person. :)
I want you to know that you are helping so many people through the toughest thing that they may experience in their lives I hope that you’re healing because you deserve to
Really good video. I've stayed away from looking up symptoms. Instead going to a select few people I've met in forums and ask if this is part of withdrawal. It's helped allot.
I found taking care of my plants helped me get through a lot. I have a collection of orchids that require specific and consistent care. So, I felt as though they needed me. I think feeling responsible for taking care of them helped me stay alive during the worst parts of withdrawal.
Ringer Heringa Drink Pink Himalayan’s SaltvWater!!! Shake it in Water and when it tastes Salty add some lemon to taste better and guzzle it down to LOWER CORTISOL & Calm Nervous System & Relive the Sweating & maybe get some Sleep🙏🦋Drink it all Day long! Google Sole water ! That’s what it’s called! It’s like an IV with 98 Minerals to REPLENISH and Hydrate ! The Water Totally Hydrates If theres PinknSalt In it 👍
I had a rare succulent collection of about 50 plants that helped me also! Unfortunately one if my biggest side effects was sensitivity to light and migraines which the sensitivity to light didn't help. I was able to go outside at night and it would look as bright as an overcast day, that's when I did my gardening, my partner would sit outside at night with me in the dark while I just worked on my plants.
Jyl Ion ld use more encouragement I’m struggling bad at 5 months CT. I got hit with mental and physical I’m going to loose my career I used Ativan for 6 weeks at .75 in July-aug. I didn’t like at all so doc said just stop I did and I went phycosis. My husband has been caring for our teenage boys I lost myself. I don’t shower much I struggle to cook and clean. I have lost my ability to feel. It like I didn’t raise my kids for all these years. I feel disconnected affaird to be home alone yet when my husband and boys are here I still sit in silence because all I can do is talk about this. I have had so many symptoms it’s insane. This was never me. Im having a very very hard time to see the light or silver lining I cry everyday I have been through so much I’m so scared and my cognitive gotnhit badly. I have a lot of symptoms and I’m loosing my family I need so much help. I am only 38 and I’m so tired of this I wake up after little sleep and again same thing. How do you push forward for so long I don’t see this being a short term thing. I’m missing out on my kids important years and I can’t help with school. I’m scared I won’t make it Now I’m hot day and night it’s 64 in my house and my family is freezing and I’m hot. I can’t be in the sun. Everyone is tired of hearing abioy this so I’m stuck in my mind stuck in silence
You reached into Hell with this video like a mighty, armor-glad glowing angel of Hope and light. All of this puts into perspective the scariest, most hopeless parts of this disease and gives me a more matter of factual way of facing it. Thank you so much.
Just wanted to say thanks for your videos. I was on klonopin for 10 years... im off now.. and i feel normal. I slowly tapered for about 7 months or so. The ashton manual was key. I got more info out of your videos than I ever did with any doctor. I dont regret taking the medication.. initially it did help. but of course over time it became a whole separate problem.. and the medication was non existent in helping my anxiety. I just wish the rest of the medical employees prescribing them would be as educated as you!!. Thanks Lil miss.
Agreed, "the most important thing is indeed, acceptance!" I'm so grateful to be able to state that. As a survivor of decades of benzo, opiate, alcohol addiction and protracted withdrawal, I can say that my biggest obstacle was always this inexplicable need to "understand" everything associated with every minute aspect of a process that is as ever-changing and dynamic as life itself! I want people to know there will be times when you are convinced that you've "got this" or, "will never be able to do this," and that is OK! I experienced both extremes sometimes at the same time! LOL! For me, acceptance of the simple fact that "life goes on while we struggle to understand it's complexities" is what finally allowed me to move on, to live....yep, John Lennon was right. I will never again allow myself to be held captive by doing "autopsies" on my mistakes, I will make them, try to learn from them, forgive myself, and move on to the best of my ability. It is so easy to get lost in the details of addiction and yes, withdrawal! Looking back, I should have looked forward a bit more! Best wishes to all who struggle with drug abuse and withdrawal, BTW, yes you CAN do this! Dennis R.
Dennis robbins could use more encouragement I’m struggling bad at 5 months CT. I got hit with mental and physical I’m going to loose my career I used Ativan for 6 weeks at .75 in July-aug. I didn’t like at all so doc said just stop I did and I went phycosis. My husband has been caring for our teenage boys I lost myself. I don’t shower much I struggle to cook and clean. I have lost my ability to feel. It like I didn’t raise my kids for all these years. I feel disconnected affaird to be home alone yet when my husband and boys are here I still sit in silence because all I can do is talk about this. I have had so many symptoms it’s insane. This was never me. Im having a very very hard time to see the light or silver lining I cry everyday I have been through so much I’m so scared and my cognitive gotnhit badly. I have a lot of symptoms and I’m loosing my family I need so much help. I am only 38 and I’m so tired of this I wake up after little sleep and again same thing. How do you push forward for so long I don’t see this being a short term thing. I’m missing out on my kids important years and I can’t help with school. I’m scared I won’t make it Now I’m hot day and night it’s 64 in my house and my family is freezing and I’m hot. I can’t be in the sun. Everyone is tired of hearing abioy this so I’m stuck in my mind stuck in silence
@@francinemartinez-cruz3335 I feel the same you felt. I'm isolated from my loved ones because I can't speak anything normal. My brain doesn't function normally and can't understand a simple thing. Was prescriped a big amount of benzo and no warnings after trauma and two tapers went badly wrong too quick and now with Ashton manual and tem months to go to zero. I was living a healthy active social life and now i fear leave my home or even taking trash out. Hope you have healed.
Great video! I wondered how far off you are now. I am 16.5 months off and still suffering. Acceptance is the best advice. When I stopped resisting it took layers of stress off. I cant wait to be better and I hope I can get into life again and do more for others suffering. Great tips!
Yes the evil insomnia! I do sleep meditations on an app called insight timer. Check it out. I think survivors should have a celebration fundraiser party to help the cause and victims. Be blessed in all you do!
I just started the Ashton Manual, I’m so scared of my panic attacks and having withdrawals. I started this Monday, I’m trying not to think of how long the symptoms will be. I need and want off benzos. Has anyone done the Ashton Manual will minimal symptoms? I need to stop googling and the support groups are freaking me out. I have not read that one person didn’t suffer serious symptoms. Could anyone please tell me if you have withdrawal symptoms 24/7 for years, or does it come and go in spurts? (I pray) I’m looking for more success stories, and I realize that everyone suffers and all of are bodies are different. I’m just so afraid. I realized benzos are causing my panic attacks worse then ever which is why I need and want off these. I wish I could hear someone tell me their withdrawal symptoms are not every second of the day. I really need a support group for all of us going thru this who understands. Sorry I keep repeating myself. Looking to hear someone doesn’t have these symptoms every second of the day for years. Much love support prayers and positivity for all of us. I wouldn’t wish this in my worst enemy. Thinking of you all many prayers 🤗❤️💞
@@ItalianaBella333 don't worry here are worst case scenarios like cold turkeys so on...... Even I am scared...... Don't worry do slow taper you will be okay
How could you know insomnia is due to benzos which u stopped long 2 years back........... I am scared and irritated seeing people relate everylittle symptom to benzos...... Even if they get fever they tell still I am not healed..... Through out life relate every symptom to benzos and scare others who are ready to taper....... Don't make others loose hope..... All scary stories 😱
Thank you so much for this video, I see how you really want to help us and that means the world. I’m very happy and proud of you for going thru this and helping others. Watching you helps me feel like I’m not alone. Much love to you and the rest of us going thru this. 🤗😘
Thanks little miss perfect for sharing what actually helped you during benzo w/d and the most potent piece of advice and something I apply when symptomatic is acceptance, acceptance and more acceptance because at least that way we are not fighting the sx and adding extra stress to our already oversensitizsed nervous systems. I have subscribed to your channel. I am 30 months into my taper now and I've had to slow it right down as the sx get pretty intense and weird at times. Your posts will help a lot of people out as you are a survivor. .
I find ice baths really help when things get really intense. I know it sounds a little crazy but for me the shock takes my mind off of anything else and it has a slight calming effect as I warm up. I am Definitely going to try the magnesium. I am micro tapering .125 a month and I have about 8 months to go. Thank you for your advice. It is nice to see people that understand and care.
Another great video Jocelyne. It seems as though my insane stress from my benzo withdrawals has caused a lot of inflammatory responses in my body. I have terrible gastritis, acid reflux and chronic pelvic pain now. I wonder if anyone else experienced systemic inflammation from dealing with the chronic stress from this condition. Things just keep compounding and getting worse!
Scott Ever I think we all experience that. diet can make a big difference. I removed all foods that ferment in the gut for about a month and that made a huge difference for me. no sugar obviously and no processed foods.
Ya I had a sugary dessert and a beer the other night for the first time in months and I felt like I couldn't breathe afterwards. It's bad enough dealing with the usual fatigue, anxiety, mind fog and vision problems but now I have systemic inflammation on top of it... super depressing!
Hopefully this will bring more of a spotlight on these horrible drugs. Doctors don't know anything about the side effects of benzos or benzo withdrawal and I'm so angry at how they treat myself and others going through this. www.yahoo.com/celebrity/chris-cornells-family-says-wouldnt-intentionally-take-life-taken-extra-ativan-two-death-2-125217914.html
Dear sweet life saver... I'm officially impressed and relieved...EVERY SINGLE SYMPTOM EVEN THOUGH I WAS ON PRESCRIPTION ATIVAN FOR 2 YEARS AT 1MG TWICE A DAY. ADRENLIN RUSH...SORRY SPELLING SCREWED UP...SCARY AS SHIT..THOUGHT I WAS DYING TONIGHT AFTER ER DIAGNOSIS OF MUSCLE AND NERVE PAIN IN ENTIRE HEAD NECK AND FACE...EYES WONT SHUT..EVEN WITH THIS MUSCLE RELAXER AND PREDISONE STARTED TONIGHT. WRONG ANSWER.STILL WIRED. DIDN'T MEAN TO DO THIS COLD TURKEY BUT THEN I FOUND YOUR VIDEO AND KNOW IM GONNA GET THROUGH IT, AND REFUSE TO FILL MY SCRIPT. CANT DO THE UP NO DOWN TRAIN ANYMORE. Sorry for the caps..lol...wasn't yelling...but I just became aware that I felt like I was yelling at us all.. laughing internally.. another symptom...crying out with no sound... can't...tears won't come..or when they do it's only just a little or intensive grief and loss nightmare of screaming inside. I'm also on Wellbutrin and Lexapro, don't want to be, but it's going to have to wait until I get through this completely. And NO cold turkey to ANYONE on those meds...life threatening...this benzo withdrawal FEELS like death, but it's not.. yes, I can put a definition to FEELING of death. It is NOT peaceful. To the rest of you reading this, holy shit. I feel your pain. ..but I'm right there in Hell with you. Even God hasn't answered on this one. Honestly, fuck that. I found this warrior who has been there and moved from Survivor to Thriver. Thank you... don't know even know your name😘
Great video!!! I have suffered Benzo withdrawal as well and am still recovering.Something I often did and still do is grounding or earthing.Walking outdoors in nature or just in your yard barefoot.This is supposed to also help regulate the nervous system......
Chad Soard - I walk barefoot in my yard too. I've heard it works to walk barefoot on concrete as well. I've heard even washing one's hands under a faucet can provide some grounding because the water ultimately connects to the earth.
Hold your breath until you can't hold it no longer and repeat, your mind will have no choice but to only concentrate on that and only that. Repeat mantra's of wonderful words about yourself even when you don't feel like it, especially when you don't feel like it. Cardio at least twenty minutes can calm panic, the longer the better for sustained calm. Reading a book that keeps your focus and completely focuses you so that you are not thinking of what you don't want to think about. Remove sugar 100 percent if you add it back anxiety will rise. Laugh, comedians, friends, family and smile even when you don't feel like it. Change the song, change the book, change the movie change whatever it is to change your train of thought into something better. Love and peace to all...
Sis, your video a Tremendous Help!!! This helps sooo much. It helps to kno this isn't 4 ever.17 yrs on off 3 months cold turkey 👍🏾🌞🌙⭐️💯💐💜🦋🌍🐚😏☺️🥀🌾🌱🌍✊🏽🌷🌻🌾🌴🥀🌺
I love your videos. They are so helpful. You are so positive and I'm going to show my therapist and my psychiatrist your videos to help educate them. Thank you so much and God bless you. 💝
The intensity of my rebound anxiety and withdrawal that are most bothersome are tingling in hands n feet, depersonilazation, head pressure, dizziness, and do not do intense physical workouts or work. Itll make your nerves go crazy. Im trying my best to quit but its so hard. I realize i need to. Doc your awesome lady for helping us out. Much love. 💗💪
she's absolutely right about everything I was on klonapin for 5 years and I've been recovering for about a year now and it's touture and it sucks how no one can understand how traumatic these withdraws are... but u must except your anxiety and that your not going to be this way forever... exersize is key for restoring your natural neurotransmitters back and magnesium so essential for your anxiety because it's the third most abundant mineral in your body and most people don't get enough from food
Thank you so much for this video. Very helpful and hopeful. I just want to add my two cents into dealing with the relentless muscle pain and tension. I use a TENS machine, which is an electrical muscle stimulator. It not only helps relieve muscle issues, but also seems to help combat anxiety by acting as a distraction. My TENS machine is a key component in my coping mechanism arsenal.
I'm off around 3 weeks, and each day is different. You said something about eye pain, boy you said it! It feels like I'm losing my eyesight...also real bad joint and muscle pain. Neck pain...spinal pain. Went to the er around a week after quitting, and your right, they don't do anything. Not even an IV. Just a big waste of time. I'm hoping that it starts getting better, cuz I don't know how much longer I can do this. But the only alternative would be going through this again, no thanks.
Even People in very diffucult tapers will see improvments very early on! Im three months off and i already feel better! I can go to the gym again and i can follow My diet plan most of the time, My sleep is better, alot of the withdrawal symptoms gets easier as time go on, i can feel like life is worth living again! some days sucks but it's part of the recovery process, you have to accept when these "bad days" sneak Up on you. I oftn think for My self when i have bad withdrawal that " i have never healed, im never going to heal, the symptoms are as bad as during taper" and so om, BUT these exact throughts are being stimulated by Benzo withdrawal. Im here to say that dont give your hope Up, TIME WILL HEAL every single symptom you experience, Accept that its going to suck and be painfull sometimes, it's not permanent and you WILL HEAL!
Thank you for sharing. I ran into this at the right time. I needed a positive video for once. All these negative ones were making me feel worse... like doomed everyday and that can't help in any way feel better. I have been writing in my journal. Do you answer questions through here or email? Thank you again sister. Take care.
What are your thoughts on KRATOM? It seems to work really well for anxiety, panic attacks and pain. But it has to be a RED VINE...like Red Bali,Red Borneo,Red Sumatra,and Red Gold. I think it's God send.
Yes defiently. I'm using kratom to help with the withdraw symptoms of being on Klonopin for 8 years. It would be be deathly harder for me if I didn't have kratom. Im waiting a mo the though to get my van home so I can live alone without a random roomate. Defiently need my space while doing this
So many people in recovery seem to focus on the negatives which is actually healing from medication addiction. If we stay stuck in the past it keeps us from moving forward. What a terrible way to waste your life. I CHOOSE to see coming off of my benzo meds as a plus & a way to regain my true feelings instead of the drugged version of me. Crying, whining & talking about hating doctors is self defeating. It never helps a person cross the river & get to the other side.
Singing ... helps so much. During birth many women used to sing thru the labor... a long time ago. And the women around her. I draw or make things when i am capable and not shaking so badly
I have some questions. I'm currently going through withdrawal and it is HORRIBLE! Insomnia, muscle aches,de personalization, everything is REALLY loud, food and drinks taste like chemicals, my skin feels like it's burning. I even get hot flashes and chills. Of course there's sheer panic. My blood pressure is VERY high! I keep feeling that I'm on the verge of passing out. So my question is did you experience ANY of these? What worked for those individual symptoms? The worst is the insomnia, de personalization, and body temperature changes. PLEASE any advice at all would help tremendously! Ty
Yes I had all that and more. To be clear, there are things to alleviate the symptoms a bit temporarily. But there's really no way to get rid of it until you're finished healing. As for the insomnia, I would lie down every day after lunch and , after the first moth or two I was usually able to nap. The only thing that helped with DR was fasting and, after I tapered and doing a ketogenic diet with
Thank you for your wisdom, I’m trying to get of Lyrica used for a pain syndrome (CRPS) and it is really Brutal, it’s been 6months I’m nearly half way there, I can get a treatment called Calmare when I’m of Lyrica which will fix my brain and stop the terrible pain. I also listen to Michael Soreas he is very good to listen to. thanks again.
Still suffering effects from 28 years of Zanex 3.0 MG per day , its been nearly one year clean now still trying to get back to normal sleep Chronic Insomnia still lingering. Sleeping only 2.00 hours a night chronic fatigue. Its worse than coming off opiates
Thank you 🙏, your videos are amazing and very much appreciated, i guess are bodies known what's going on, because as i watched this video I was amazed at what I am doing, and the similar things you suggest, esp. Mindfulness, i am hurting really bad and you are helping me with this situation, your pillows were driving me nuts, but you were very nice too look at, you are helping me believe I will live, ty
Thanks for your tips. I suffer from Fibromyalgia and a lot of its symptoms are the same as those, caused by benzo side effects. And those are the same as the ones you get when getting off of them. So, three for the price of one...😱
I just started the Ashton Manual, I’m so scared of my panic attacks and having withdrawals. I started this Monday, I’m trying not to think of how long the symptoms will be. I need and want off benzos. Has anyone done the Ashton Manual will minimal symptoms? I need to stop googling and the support groups are freaking me out. I have not read that one person didn’t suffer serious symptoms. Could anyone please tell me if you have withdrawal symptoms 24/7 for years, or does it come and go in spurts? (I pray) I’m looking for more success stories, and I realize that everyone suffers and all of are bodies are different. I’m just so afraid. I realized benzos are causing my panic attacks worse then ever which is why I need and want off these. I wish I could hear someone tell me their withdrawal symptoms are not every second of the day. I really need a support group for all of us going thru this who understands. Sorry I keep repeating myself. Looking to hear someone doesn’t have these symptoms every second of the day for years. Much love support prayers and positivity for all of us. I wouldn’t wish this in my worst enemy. Thinking of you all many prayers 🤗❤️💞
i’m coming off of 7 years of pins because the world is probably about to end or whatever. shoutout op you looking so fly makes me less pissed off about potentially seizing out. 🔥 🔥
Just FYI, magnesium works on gaba. That's why they call it the calming mineral. No doubt your body needs it but you should get it through food. Pumpkin seeds, etc.
Do you have somewhere your taper story? How fast did you go and did you cut through symptoms or hold? Also how low did you go with your liquid valium? Did you dilute it? I asked a similar question on one of your other videos but I would love to know your story of how you felt during your taper and then right after. I feel so scared at the beginning here. Thank you
Hi I here is a play list of all my videos. I did a couple during my taper and then one right after. If you have any other questions after seeing these I'd be happy to answer. th-cam.com/play/PLiYfSj-zJmtcLLaEs5VnJDog6ArrRcyBm.html
Thanks for confirming some things I already knew, I just doubt myself when I'm in "a moment". I was taking 6mg of clonazepam a day, I'm down to 0.5mg a day. After 1 year.Can't wait to be off for good.
Dr Drew explained the right brain is the creative, emotional side. I am glad you mentioned it and this video is great!!! I listen to music all the TIME. Mel Robbins book 5 4 3 2 1 countdown rule is also awesome to retrain your brain, it actually triggers your brain back to the present whenever we get in our heads too much!! Thanks so much for your kindness and ideas 🏵🌹💮🌸💖 I am going to start a benzo meeting in my town soon!!!!
My Dr just switched me to,valuim I tried it last night and ended up in his office today been tappering klonopin and I'm in some crazy pain in,my chest vision issues he tappered my,klonopin to fast...
Same happened to me, mate. I switched from alprazolam (10 mg a day, plus 150 oxycodone daily as well) to Rivotril (clonazepam in Europe at high doses cos it is longer acting).I also tapered oxycodone SR to 100 mg daily(I'm an ex H junkie, so, you know). Then I switched from clonazepam to Diazepam (Valium) 30 mg twice a day: it didn't work, I switched back to clonazepam, now only 3 or 6 drops daily. Still tapering with Oxycontin. One battle at a time. Best wishes, cheers!
My Mantra "I am one in spirit. Life energy heals me in every moment. It cleanses me of harmful impurities. My thoughts are clearing. I am letting go of useless emotions and tragic feelings. I tune my mind to crystal clarity - permitting my sight, perceptions, and dreams, to bloom and create! I shall always be prosperous in most pure ways, and, I shall share with others my open heart; for peace is within everyone, and streams all around us!The forces of life are eternal, and their energy fills an ocean whose vastness is never-ending. My soul swims freely within that vastness, as my spirit explores nature's infinite bounty. I am one in Spirit! Peace streams all around me!" - by Brad Michael Moore
I like when you said, “ accept “. That’s it !!! If you wanna be done with this shit accept what you are going through to get straight!! I’m two days off taking a med so I don’t seizure. I’m so back and forth in my head. I want off then I try to make myself believe I need it. SMH. I don’t need it. Just wanted it. Now withdrawing and it sucks!!! Accept, accept, accept!! I like that though. Thanks 🙏🏼
@@Fenderonly2746 I've heard coming off effexor can be really tough. I hope you can find some relief soon! I've taken 3 psych meds within a short period and almost done tapering off the last one. I don't know if some symptoms are from the meds or my other health issues. ugh.
Elizabeth W. I spent the first several months thinking I had a disease. So I can relate. The symptoms don’t feel like a withdrawal it feels like you have aids
Brilliant. Wish I had found this in january, when i brought to my attention my doctor losing his mind and taking me off 4mg xanax a day to zero might cause seizures or kill me, and he said, verbatim quote, "I DON'T CARE! GET OUT OF MY OFFICE!" (really, welcome to the zany world of Las Vegas "health care."). I quickly reached the same conclusion as you, acceptance. I thought, wow, i bet me stressing about having seizures or dying won't prevent that, so perhaps instead i should chill out, and whatever happens, happens. Best wishes, thanks again.
Sterling Wolfe your doctor sounds like a great guy, be sure to give him an appropriate Google review and check his status on pro publica to see how much he gets paid by pharma
wow. gave him the yelp review he well deserved, roflmao. i hit him so hard with that his family will feel it for generations. thanks, as to pro publica! I did not know! It was SO obvious! Now I can confirm with your tip.
Please make a video on chemical sensitivities. Whatever I use, bath soap, shampoo or anything like this, my symptoms increased severely. Please suggest some natural alternatives to this ( I couldn't find any without alcohol). I am 3 months off Alprazolam.
I know and that's an eternity when you're in it. But 4 years out of 5,6, or 7 decades of life is relatively little time. Lucinda has has some really good windows which shows her body is changing and healing. This won't last forever. Have hope
@@BenzoBrains sorry, i am just in complete despair. After 3 psyche wards being kindled like crazy and other drugs. I cant remember or follow simple directions for 2 years. ECT most likely helped fry my brain worse. Thanks for your videos and encouragement. I dont even remember posting this. I posted on another video. Take care.
Clonidine has other uses but is a blood pressure and anxiety treatment. In this case, it helped me so much with heart racing, insomnia and many more withdrawal issues. I feel the suffering of anyone going through this. If you have nothing to take, to help you, your only option is to let it run the course. Yes and months may be what one will be facing before relief, depending on your dose and length of time using them.
Did you have height heart rate (tachycardia), or panic attacks throughout the withdrawal? And on which part of the process that happened and how long it lasted and did you go to the ER? What part was the hardest?
Ana Lozada yes I had constant panic attacks and my heart did all kinds of weird things. I never went to the ER as I had a phobia of doctors and didn't believe they could do anything to help me any way.
Elena Joline ya, I went through hell while on tolerance withdrawal, but I’m doing better since I got on an atypical antidepressant, and since I started tapering over a month ago. It’s still not easy, but I’m way better than I was two months ago for sure! Thanks for the info! ☺️👍
Convalesce as much as possible. Make arrangements for living with a disability. Accept that you're not the same and don't make things worse by trying to be who you were. You'll heal and still never be same and that's a good thing ❤️
Does anyone know if tapering off 1mg of Klonopin daily will be difficult to taper. It helps me but hearing all this is terrifying me. Been taking for 4 yrs......HELP
Ed Dobrzeniecki nobody can answer that,because some people don’t have any symptoms and for others could be hell.That depends in many factors:diet,lifestyle,if you exercise...My advice:look here for some advice knowing that you are a different person and,ready or not,you will get through this.But don’t read too much about it because everyone is different;some people has to stop taking 8 or more mg.Try to take your time,and think about this if things getting hard:ask to your self if you have a bad day:in 1 month or year,where I’m going to be?,this bad moment it’s going to be a bad dream?....be positive and remember that is ok research information here,but only for research purposes.and if you can afford it,go to see a therapist.I wish you success 🌟🌟🌟🌟
@@jimenarodriguez2988 thanks for the advice and well wishes. Appreciate it. I definitely have to stay off internet causes its scares the hell outta me. Will definitely seek therapist. Didnt realize this stuff was poison when I started taking it
Is shaking, terror severe panic paws......i thought i was past this stage. I had a severe uti.....4 weeks in stopping lorazapam. Im.14 weeks off 1mg for 5 months use daily. Tapering with 5mg valium
I'm so sorry to hear this. Is there any way to find another prescriber or have a conversation with them where you can encourage them to look at the information for providers at benzoreform.org which is written by medical doctors and researchers?
@@BenzoBrains Thank you Jocelyn. The physiatrists said they can't help me and handed me pamphlets for drug & alcohol detox centres. It's ridiculous. I don't know how to make them understand this unique situation. My dearest General practitioner immigrated to Australia. She always helped me. Keep me in your prayers to help me find someone who can help me. ♥️
good idea I also keep track of how I feel in a journal. yet not so much the positive stuff so I will start writing positive things as well. if you don't mind miss how long did it take YOU to feel up to par??
I am on zolpidem or stilnoct 10mg a day but was taking 20mg per night to sleep for 8 years plus antidepressants which I have come of lexapro and was on 375 of venlafux down to 75 of that a day I went to doc he said to stay on the low dose of the anti and cut me down to 5mg a night for 4 weeks then come off it the problem is before I went to him he told me he wasn’t giving me anymore so I went cold turkey ended up in hospital with a total psychotic break I was so scared of myself and my mind the shaking the heart exploding sweating shaking I’m on my own with NO help with 5 small children so I went back on and decided a slow taper but the sever anxiety of what I have to face again is stopping me from tapering so fast I know I will die I wil either seizure or have a heart attack or take my own life cos I know what I’m about to experience I’m so scared and desperate to stay on them my doc doesn’t know a thing and we here in Ireland have to stick with the same doc please give me advice my kids are scared of me pacing the floors all night and snapping at them
In withdrawal now , feel terrible looking through a bunch of stupid videos cringing cuz nothing works to help 3 drug at home withdrawal symptoms yup then I'm like holy shit this girl is hot I mean Angel hot.I haven't been able to focus on anything but this beautiful woman here.damn I just needed to hear it from you real talk.I'll help u raise children take out trash fix food for u.seriously though I did listen I'm going to go to Aa meetings and visit my parents to help get my mind back to the basics
What if you can't take work off? My job is very high stress, I have two kids, a mortgage, and blah blah. Is there anyway of getting through this without the sever side effects? Honestly I tried cold turkey and literally felt like I was dying. I love your dedication, and hope you continue to be an advocate for all of us.
Thank you for taking the time. I'm going to have to start from the beginning again with your videos. If you were to write a book, I think it would be a real success. It's a subject some of us need to hide. I like what you said in another video about disability. My work is too dangerous to go in while I'm withdrawing. Definitely I'm going to use your tapper method.
I started using daily about a year ago. Got up to 7mg a few months ago. Been tapering off 0.5mg every week. At 1mg now. Hardest part is timing when to take my dose so that I can get enough sleep for work but also be very productive for work , I work as a farmer on a construction site. I have been getting more than usual back pain and even new hip pain, pain in my joints more than usual all together actually. Is this due to withdrawals ? Have also been getting migraines randomly. I can barely remember ever having a headache before this even. It is getting more difficult. I chose to lower my dose on a Friday so I can adjust somewhat over the weekend those first few days. I’ll barely get any sleep Friday night and Saturday night, and then Sunday I’ll wait til 8pm for my dose , mix it with some edibles and get some good sleep. I use Epsom salts, chamomile tea , lavender oils in my bath and diffuser, marijuana edibles, lots of marijuana works for me , lots of people advise against it though.
persianboy153 congratulations ! Avoiding chemicals that can set you back right now is big. Caffeine, alcohol msg are biggies. Diet is the main factor that contributes to healing, low carb, high fat and protein
What's really bad is I have an aneurysm on my heart that could explode at any minute and being yanked off Klonopin sent my blood pressure to 224/177 and they can't get it to come down. I feel like this is going to cause my heart to explode. I just want this to end.
Hello dear one, Was wondering if you suffered with severe insomnia due to the benzo withdrawal? And if so what did you do? My dear friend has been in that for 2 years now. She just had a sleep study and we are waiting for the results. Lord bless you!
So glad to she's doing a sleep study! I did have bad insomnia but there wasn't much that seemed to help at the time. Now I would definitely recommend my kundalini yoga video for sleep along with the Morter March video. It takes time but they really do work!
Two years ago when I went to rehab I was taken off of lorazepam and lamictal. I had been in them for 10 years. I’m still in the fog because I’ve been through so much since rehab, there hasn’t been any healing. I feel like I’m waiting away. So sad.
I wanna make this comment to who ever is dealing with this right now and it is scared that they will never go back to normal , i know its scary and its torture but i promise you will get thur it. Alot of times people habe negative things to say, but no i am a survivor, i was injected bezos and they never told me they let me go for the ER and they blamed it on me telling my family i was a drugie, i ended up getting akathisia which is the worst thing , they ended up putting me in a psych ward and gave me more drugs serquel , cybalta and gabapentin all i can say is i went thur hell , but am here to tell you that am rooting for you and i know GOD will be with you because your not alone am here for you and GOD is too your not crazy and if doctors call you crazy who cares because i know your not and GOD knows your not , doctors that do this will get there karma and GOD sees everything . I hope this made you fight and remember there is light at the end of the tunnel relax and just breath
Thank you so much for continuing to help people recover from these horrible pills. I went cold turkey from 8 MGs of Alprazolam a day for years. It has been pure hell but there are windows of hope. I am on day 96 now. I am to the point where I can go to the gym and I feel so much better after workouts. Even if I don't feel like going, if I force myself to go I am thankful afterwards every time. The worst symptom I have left is my brain hurts. Not like a headache but like brain damage. Almost like severe brain damage. Well, I'm sure it is brain damage. Does this go away over time? Once I get my brain power back I believe I will be able to work again. The other symptom that's bad is that I am almost never happy anymore. Hopefully the gaba builds back up and I can feel happy again. Anyway, thank you for giving me hope. This is a horrible disease that I wish on nobody. God bless.
Brian G you sound like you're doing relatively well for 96 days off. I'm sure you'll make a full recovery and you will definitely know what happiness feels like in the future. keep going strong and don't push too hard!
how did you do it? I'm in the sMe boat and at a loss as to what to do
wow. thats a lot to go CT!!
Benzo Brains very well indeed...
tried going cold turkey off the same dose. Had a seizure and almost died. Currently on a taper and it sucks so bad. I can't imagine how I'll be once I'm off. I already can't function in society. The only relief I get is from my workouts.
I couldnt agree more about journaling and art!!!!! I never did either before but since I started doing both i feel so much better. The value of doing those two things are HUGE. PLEASE try it it, you wont regret it. And stick with it, it might not be easy at first but over time youll start to love it and find confort. Hope everyone heals. Love you all.
It's good knowing you're here. I'm not too young, and I'm mostly alone, but you do make me feel some hope (if not me, for many). Thanks for all you do. You're are star. :-)
I love all of your videos, you have been such an inspiration for me, tomorrow is my 2 years off, I still have so much syntoms but the worst has gone. I was on Ativan and Xanax for 10 years, at the end I was taking about 20 mg of benzos, I really was close to death. Now I have completely recover my life.
We have almost have the same time off, that´s why you have been such a great support, I feel deeply grateful :)
Jose Omar Palacios wow that's really wonderful to hear that you are healing from such a high dose and after being so ill. I'm very glad to share this journey with you and I wish you a full recovery :)
Jesus... I was only on 2 mg off and on since 2014... I was withdrawaling anyway for 2 years while still on, but didn't know it. Love to you
Thank you for this
LOVE this!!!They are all things i have done to get through this.You're so right about helping others too!!!I swear by me helping others everyday,it's taken away me focusing on my own misery.It's been my best distraction in this.It also helps me to know good things are coming from my suffering and hell.I'm able to save others by spreading awareness and i'm also able to help others suffering like i am!
It is so great to have you as a guide throught all this hell.
Can't find the words to thank you enough.
So great that you are offering all of these coping strategies. I would add that I am learning things to avoid that set me off. I recently discovered that MSG (and hidden MSG!) sets off my insomnia in a horrible way since it's an excitotoxin. It can have many names so it's helpful to research the sources of this additive and the different names it goes by in (mainly) processed food. I thought I was eating healthy by buying frozen organic dinners but I ate some butternut squash ravioli and was up all night likely because of the "yeast extract" in the dish. Yeast extract is another name for MSG. Yesterday I read many labels and avoided this additive and slept through the night. FYI, 7 weeks off - dizziness, fatigue (getting better), insomnia, brain fog, memory challenges and mood swings. But I am hopeful and like you said, I talk to my symptoms as if they are outside of me and invite them to leave. It helps! Thanks again for your videos. You are an incredibly articulate person. :)
Does avoiding msg And hidden name helps with insomnia?
I want you to know that you are helping so many people through the toughest thing that they may experience in their lives
I hope that you’re healing because you deserve to
Really good video. I've stayed away from looking up symptoms. Instead going to a select few people I've met in forums and ask if this is part of withdrawal. It's helped allot.
I found taking care of my plants helped me get through a lot. I have a collection of orchids that require specific and consistent care. So, I felt as though they needed me. I think feeling responsible for taking care of them helped me stay alive during the worst parts of withdrawal.
Jyl Ion oh yes I forgot gardening! gardening really helps me feel peace.
I'm much too tired to do anything, let alone gardening!
Ringer Heringa Drink Pink Himalayan’s SaltvWater!!! Shake it in Water and when it tastes Salty add some lemon to taste better and guzzle it down to LOWER CORTISOL & Calm Nervous System & Relive the Sweating & maybe get some Sleep🙏🦋Drink it all Day long! Google Sole water ! That’s what it’s called! It’s like an IV with 98 Minerals to REPLENISH and Hydrate ! The Water Totally Hydrates If theres PinknSalt In it 👍
I had a rare succulent collection of about 50 plants that helped me also! Unfortunately one if my biggest side effects was sensitivity to light and migraines which the sensitivity to light didn't help. I was able to go outside at night and it would look as bright as an overcast day, that's when I did my gardening, my partner would sit outside at night with me in the dark while I just worked on my plants.
Jyl Ion ld use more encouragement I’m struggling bad at 5 months CT. I got hit with mental and physical I’m going to loose my career I used Ativan for 6 weeks at .75 in July-aug. I didn’t like at all so doc said just stop I did and I went phycosis. My husband has been caring for our teenage boys I lost myself. I don’t shower much I struggle to cook and clean. I have lost my ability to feel. It like I didn’t raise my kids for all these years. I feel disconnected affaird to be home alone yet when my husband and boys are here I still sit in silence because all I can do is talk about this. I have had so many symptoms it’s insane. This was never me. Im having a very very hard time to see the light or silver lining I cry everyday I have been through so much I’m so scared and my cognitive gotnhit badly. I have a lot of symptoms and I’m loosing my family I need so much help. I am only 38 and I’m so tired of this I wake up after little sleep and again same thing. How do you push forward for so long I don’t see this being a short term thing. I’m missing out on my kids important years and I can’t help with school. I’m scared I won’t make it Now I’m hot day and night it’s 64 in my house and my family is freezing and I’m hot. I can’t be in the sun. Everyone is tired of hearing abioy this so I’m stuck in my mind stuck in silence
Thanks for your devotion, I am glad to see that you are better now, it gives me hope. Lot of love for you.
Gabriel Talbot thank you!
These are so practical. Thank you for “sitting with me” in the middle of my taper hell and making me cry, feel not so alone and have increased hope!
KrisRach, how are you?
You reached into Hell with this video like a mighty, armor-glad glowing angel of Hope and light. All of this puts into perspective the scariest, most hopeless parts of this disease and gives me a more matter of factual way of facing it. Thank you so much.
Thank you for this video. It’s good to watch on a hard day to help steer myself in the right direction.
Just wanted to say thanks for your videos. I was on klonopin for 10 years... im off now.. and i feel normal. I slowly tapered for about 7 months or so. The ashton manual was key. I got more info out of your videos than I ever did with any doctor. I dont regret taking the medication.. initially it did help. but of course over time it became a whole separate problem.. and the medication was non existent in helping my anxiety. I just wish the rest of the medical employees prescribing them would be as educated as you!!. Thanks Lil miss.
cee dee Aw thank you! I hope you can help educate some of those medical employees in the future :)
cee dee you give me hope
you are right dr. Heather Ashton is the key. She kept here
manual free on the net and has all the tapering shedules.
Agreed, "the most important thing is indeed, acceptance!" I'm so grateful to be able to state that. As a survivor of decades of benzo, opiate, alcohol addiction and protracted withdrawal, I can say that my biggest obstacle was always this inexplicable need to "understand" everything associated with every minute aspect of a process that is as ever-changing and dynamic as life itself! I want people to know there will be times when you are convinced that you've "got this" or, "will never be able to do this," and that is OK! I experienced both extremes sometimes at the same time! LOL! For me, acceptance of the simple fact that "life goes on while we struggle to understand it's complexities" is what finally allowed me to move on, to live....yep, John Lennon was right. I will never again allow myself to be held captive by doing "autopsies" on my mistakes, I will make them, try to learn from them, forgive myself, and move on to the best of my ability. It is so easy to get lost in the details of addiction and yes, withdrawal! Looking back, I should have looked forward a bit more! Best wishes to all who struggle with drug abuse and withdrawal, BTW, yes you CAN do this! Dennis R.
Dennis how long it take you to heal?
Myy word IS MY DEFIANCE.
Dennis robbins could use more encouragement I’m struggling bad at 5 months CT. I got hit with mental and physical I’m going to loose my career I used Ativan for 6 weeks at .75 in July-aug. I didn’t like at all so doc said just stop I did and I went phycosis. My husband has been caring for our teenage boys I lost myself. I don’t shower much I struggle to cook and clean. I have lost my ability to feel. It like I didn’t raise my kids for all these years. I feel disconnected affaird to be home alone yet when my husband and boys are here I still sit in silence because all I can do is talk about this. I have had so many symptoms it’s insane. This was never me. Im having a very very hard time to see the light or silver lining I cry everyday I have been through so much I’m so scared and my cognitive gotnhit badly. I have a lot of symptoms and I’m loosing my family I need so much help. I am only 38 and I’m so tired of this I wake up after little sleep and again same thing. How do you push forward for so long I don’t see this being a short term thing. I’m missing out on my kids important years and I can’t help with school. I’m scared I won’t make it Now I’m hot day and night it’s 64 in my house and my family is freezing and I’m hot. I can’t be in the sun. Everyone is tired of hearing abioy this so I’m stuck in my mind stuck in silence
@@francinemartinez-cruz3335 I feel the same you felt.
I'm isolated from my loved ones because I can't speak anything normal. My brain doesn't function normally and can't understand a simple thing.
Was prescriped a big amount of benzo and no warnings after trauma and two tapers went badly wrong too quick and now with Ashton manual and tem months to go to zero. I was living a healthy active social life and now i fear leave my home or even taking trash out.
Hope you have healed.
Great video! I wondered how far off you are now. I am 16.5 months off and still suffering. Acceptance is the best advice. When I stopped resisting it took layers of stress off. I cant wait to be better and I hope I can get into life again and do more for others suffering. Great tips!
Jennifer P I'm almost 2 years off. I still get insomnia which can make me symptomatic. it's all part of the journey right?
Yes the evil insomnia! I do sleep meditations on an app called insight timer. Check it out. I think survivors should have a celebration fundraiser party to help the cause and victims. Be blessed in all you do!
I just started the Ashton Manual, I’m so scared of my panic attacks and having withdrawals. I started this Monday, I’m trying not to think of how long the symptoms will be. I need and want off benzos. Has anyone done the Ashton Manual will minimal symptoms? I need to stop googling and the support groups are freaking me out. I have not read that one person didn’t suffer serious symptoms. Could anyone please tell me if you have withdrawal symptoms 24/7 for years, or does it come and go in spurts? (I pray) I’m looking for more success stories, and I realize that everyone suffers and all of are bodies are different. I’m just so afraid. I realized benzos are causing my panic attacks worse then ever which is why I need and want off these. I wish I could hear someone tell me their withdrawal symptoms are not every second of the day. I really need a support group for all of us going thru this who understands. Sorry I keep repeating myself. Looking to hear someone doesn’t have these symptoms every second of the day for years. Much love support prayers and positivity for all of us. I wouldn’t wish this in my worst enemy. Thinking of you all many prayers 🤗❤️💞
@@ItalianaBella333 don't worry here are worst case scenarios like cold turkeys so on...... Even I am scared...... Don't worry do slow taper you will be okay
How could you know insomnia is due to benzos which u stopped long 2 years back........... I am scared and irritated seeing people relate everylittle symptom to benzos...... Even if they get fever they tell still I am not healed..... Through out life relate every symptom to benzos and scare others who are ready to taper....... Don't make others loose hope..... All scary stories 😱
Thank you so much for this video, I see how you really want to help us and that means the world. I’m very happy and proud of you for going thru this and helping others. Watching you helps me feel like I’m not alone. Much love to you and the rest of us going thru this. 🤗😘
Thanks little miss perfect for sharing what actually helped you during benzo w/d and the most potent piece of advice and something I apply when symptomatic is acceptance, acceptance and more acceptance because at least that way we are not fighting the sx and adding extra stress to our already oversensitizsed nervous systems. I have subscribed to your channel. I am 30 months into my taper now and I've had to slow it right down as the sx get pretty intense and weird at times. Your posts will help a lot of people out as you are a survivor.
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So many practical ideas. I'll be referring to this video throughout my taper. Thank you for giving back.
SMOKE THC. GRASS, WEED, FLOWER ..15 year BENZO addict here. My last dose was December 2018.
You can do this!
I find ice baths really help when things get really intense. I know it sounds a little crazy but for me the shock takes my mind off of anything else and it has a slight calming effect as I warm up. I am Definitely going to try the magnesium. I am micro tapering .125 a month and I have about 8 months to go. Thank you for your advice. It is nice to see people that understand and care.
dannyboi162 holy shit lol
I do ice baths about 3 times a week too, they are great both mentally and physically.
I feel so much more optimistic after watching these videos.
Great Video for sure. All your videos have been most helpful. Two months into a diazapam taper...Thank you for documenting your journey!!!
I thought that I was alone and going crazy. Thank you so much!!
Another great video Jocelyne. It seems as though my insane stress from my benzo withdrawals has caused a lot of inflammatory responses in my body. I have terrible gastritis, acid reflux and chronic pelvic pain now. I wonder if anyone else experienced systemic inflammation from dealing with the chronic stress from this condition. Things just keep compounding and getting worse!
Scott Ever I think we all experience that. diet can make a big difference. I removed all foods that ferment in the gut for about a month and that made a huge difference for me. no sugar obviously and no processed foods.
Ya I had a sugary dessert and a beer the other night for the first time in months and I felt like I couldn't breathe afterwards. It's bad enough dealing with the usual fatigue, anxiety, mind fog and vision problems but now I have systemic inflammation on top of it... super depressing!
Hopefully this will bring more of a spotlight on these horrible drugs. Doctors don't know anything about the side effects of benzos or benzo withdrawal and I'm so angry at how they treat myself and others going through this.
www.yahoo.com/celebrity/chris-cornells-family-says-wouldnt-intentionally-take-life-taken-extra-ativan-two-death-2-125217914.html
Yes. Same here.
Brain inflamattion can b detected by spinal tap.
I recovered from benzodiazepines withdrawal symptoms and I am 9 months Derealisation free
That's wonderful!
Dear sweet life saver... I'm officially impressed and relieved...EVERY SINGLE SYMPTOM EVEN THOUGH I WAS ON PRESCRIPTION ATIVAN FOR 2 YEARS AT 1MG TWICE A DAY. ADRENLIN RUSH...SORRY SPELLING SCREWED UP...SCARY AS SHIT..THOUGHT I WAS DYING TONIGHT AFTER ER DIAGNOSIS OF MUSCLE AND NERVE PAIN IN ENTIRE HEAD NECK AND FACE...EYES WONT SHUT..EVEN WITH THIS MUSCLE RELAXER AND PREDISONE STARTED TONIGHT. WRONG ANSWER.STILL WIRED. DIDN'T MEAN TO DO THIS COLD TURKEY BUT THEN I FOUND YOUR VIDEO AND KNOW IM GONNA GET THROUGH IT, AND REFUSE TO FILL MY SCRIPT. CANT DO THE UP NO DOWN TRAIN ANYMORE. Sorry for the caps..lol...wasn't yelling...but I just became aware that I felt like I was yelling at us all.. laughing internally.. another symptom...crying out with no sound... can't...tears won't come..or when they do it's only just a little or intensive grief and loss nightmare of screaming inside. I'm also on Wellbutrin and Lexapro, don't want to be, but it's going to have to wait until I get through this completely. And NO cold turkey to ANYONE on those meds...life threatening...this benzo withdrawal FEELS like death, but it's not.. yes, I can put a definition to FEELING of death. It is NOT peaceful. To the rest of you reading this, holy shit. I feel your pain. ..but I'm right there in Hell with you. Even God hasn't answered on this one. Honestly, fuck that. I found this warrior who has been there and moved from Survivor to Thriver. Thank you... don't know even know your name😘
Great video!!! I have suffered Benzo withdrawal as well and am still recovering.Something I often did and still do is grounding or earthing.Walking outdoors in nature or just in your yard barefoot.This is supposed to also help regulate the nervous system......
Earthing all night on an Earthing mat has really helped my son
Chad Soard - I walk barefoot in my yard too. I've heard it works to walk barefoot on concrete as well. I've heard even washing one's hands under a faucet can provide some grounding because the water ultimately connects to the earth.
Hold your breath until you can't hold it no longer and repeat, your mind will have no choice but to only concentrate on that and only that. Repeat mantra's of wonderful words about yourself even when you don't feel like it, especially when you don't feel like it. Cardio at least twenty minutes can calm panic, the longer the better for sustained calm. Reading a book that keeps your focus and completely focuses you so that you are not thinking of what you don't want to think about. Remove sugar 100 percent if you add it back anxiety will rise. Laugh, comedians, friends, family and smile even when you don't feel like it. Change the song, change the book, change the movie change whatever it is to change your train of thought into something better. Love and peace to all...
Sis, your video a Tremendous Help!!! This helps sooo much. It helps to kno this isn't 4 ever.17 yrs on off 3 months cold turkey 👍🏾🌞🌙⭐️💯💐💜🦋🌍🐚😏☺️🥀🌾🌱🌍✊🏽🌷🌻🌾🌴🥀🌺
Great advice. I will be watching all your videos once I start my recovery from benzos. Which I’m planning to start very very soon. Thank you.
Best Advice so far,And I watched tons of videos,Most are empty void chatter.Thanks.
You're welcome
I love your videos. They are so helpful. You are so positive and I'm going to show my therapist and my psychiatrist your videos to help educate them. Thank you so much and God bless you. 💝
Tracey Ryche White thank you, I hope they are willing to learn
Benzo Brains , I hope so too!
The intensity of my rebound anxiety and withdrawal that are most bothersome are tingling in hands n feet, depersonilazation, head pressure, dizziness, and do not do intense physical workouts or work. Itll make your nerves go crazy. Im trying my best to quit but its so hard. I realize i need to. Doc your awesome lady for helping us out. Much love. 💗💪
How are you feeling now?
I'm praying for everybody on here. If we really want this, with the right tools we can make it through this
Good video , I hope to see the day where benzos are banned or made illegal .
never doctors and big pharma make way to much money from these types of drugs. but im with ya
Justgo 403 same
sweety gal it's murder of the mind.
My videos won't be so kind to big pharma
@@benzopicnicbasket5817 how are you now?
she's absolutely right about everything I was on klonapin for 5 years and I've been recovering for about a year now and it's touture and it sucks how no one can understand how traumatic these withdraws are... but u must except your anxiety and that your not going to be this way forever... exersize is key for restoring your natural neurotransmitters back and magnesium so essential for your anxiety because it's the third most abundant mineral in your body and most people don't get enough from food
august 223
Me too.
4 yrs .05 50% drop think iit peaked 14 days now wtf is happening !!
Did you taper or cold turkey?
Thank you so much for this video. Very helpful and hopeful.
I just want to add my two cents into dealing with the relentless muscle pain and tension. I use a TENS machine, which is an electrical muscle stimulator. It not only helps relieve muscle issues, but also seems to help combat anxiety by acting as a distraction. My TENS machine is a key component in my coping mechanism arsenal.
I have a tens machine as well and I find it to be very helpful when I remember to use it
The right kind of chiropractic is really helpful. I am blessed with a good one
I really don't want to go though anymore of this. Life has been hell enough.
Sis Congrats, UR Artistically gifted! Yes crafts do help w/ focus & calming!17 yrs & cold turkey 3 months☺️💐💐😮😏
I'm off around 3 weeks, and each day is different. You said something about eye pain, boy you said it! It feels like I'm losing my eyesight...also real bad joint and muscle pain. Neck pain...spinal pain. Went to the er around a week after quitting, and your right, they don't do anything. Not even an IV. Just a big waste of time. I'm hoping that it starts getting better, cuz I don't know how much longer I can do this. But the only alternative would be going through this again, no thanks.
Even People in very diffucult tapers will see improvments very early on! Im three months off and i already feel better! I can go to the gym again and i can follow My diet plan most of the time, My sleep is better, alot of the withdrawal symptoms gets easier as time go on, i can feel like life is worth living again! some days sucks but it's part of the recovery process, you have to accept when these "bad days" sneak Up on you. I oftn think for My self when i have bad withdrawal that " i have never healed, im never going to heal, the symptoms are as bad as during taper" and so om, BUT these exact throughts are being stimulated by Benzo withdrawal. Im here to say that dont give your hope Up, TIME WILL HEAL every single symptom you experience, Accept that its going to suck and be painfull sometimes, it's not permanent and you WILL HEAL!
Thank you for sharing. I ran into this at the right time. I needed a positive video for once. All these negative ones were making me feel worse... like doomed everyday and that can't help in any way feel better. I have been writing in my journal. Do you answer questions through here or email? Thank you again sister. Take care.
RicanChula7 hi I can answer any questions you have here. That way others can benefit from your experience
What are your thoughts on KRATOM? It seems to work really well for anxiety, panic attacks and pain. But it has to be a RED VINE...like Red Bali,Red Borneo,Red Sumatra,and Red Gold. I think it's God send.
Yes defiently. I'm using kratom to help with the withdraw symptoms of being on Klonopin for 8 years. It would be be deathly harder for me if I didn't have kratom. Im waiting a mo the though to get my van home so I can live alone without a random roomate. Defiently need my space while doing this
Great question..
Yes red bali helps me a LOT but it’s something to be cautious about. It can cause another addiction/dependence
So many people in recovery seem to focus on the negatives which is actually healing from medication addiction. If we stay stuck in the past it keeps us from moving forward. What a terrible way to waste your life. I CHOOSE to see coming off of my benzo meds as a plus & a way to regain my true feelings instead of the drugged version of me. Crying, whining & talking about hating doctors is self defeating. It never helps a person cross the river & get to the other side.
You have helped so many people. Thank you so much for helping me.
Singing ... helps so much. During birth many women used to sing thru the labor... a long time ago. And the women around her. I draw or make things when i am capable and not shaking so badly
I have some questions. I'm currently going through withdrawal and it is HORRIBLE! Insomnia, muscle aches,de personalization, everything is REALLY loud, food and drinks taste like chemicals, my skin feels like it's burning. I even get hot flashes and chills. Of course there's sheer panic. My blood pressure is VERY high! I keep feeling that I'm on the verge of passing out. So my question is did you experience ANY of these? What worked for those individual symptoms? The worst is the insomnia, de personalization, and body temperature changes. PLEASE any advice at all would help tremendously! Ty
Yes I had all that and more. To be clear, there are things to alleviate the symptoms a bit temporarily. But there's really no way to get rid of it until you're finished healing. As for the insomnia, I would lie down every day after lunch and , after the first moth or two I was usually able to nap. The only thing that helped with DR was fasting and, after I tapered and doing a ketogenic diet with
DR?
There in Hell with you..read my post.
Yes! Cold all day long. Burning sensations in my muscles. Pain. Exhausted. Very poor sleep. Jelly legs. Losing weight. Nausea.
Thank you for your wisdom, I’m trying to get of Lyrica used for a pain syndrome (CRPS)
and it is really Brutal, it’s been 6months I’m nearly half way there, I can get a treatment called Calmare when I’m of Lyrica which will fix my brain and stop the terrible pain. I also listen to Michael Soreas he is very good to listen to. thanks again.
Still suffering effects from 28 years of Zanex 3.0 MG per day , its been nearly one year clean now still trying to get back to normal sleep Chronic Insomnia still lingering. Sleeping only 2.00 hours a night chronic fatigue. Its worse than coming off opiates
Thank you 🙏, your videos are amazing and very much appreciated, i guess are bodies known what's going on, because as i watched this video I was amazed at what I am doing, and the similar things you suggest, esp. Mindfulness, i am hurting really bad and you are helping me with this situation, your pillows were driving me nuts, but you were very nice too look at, you are helping me believe I will live, ty
How are you now?
Thanks for your tips. I suffer from Fibromyalgia and a lot of its symptoms are the same as those, caused by benzo side effects. And those are the same as the ones you get when getting off of them. So, three for the price of one...😱
I just started the Ashton Manual, I’m so scared of my panic attacks and having withdrawals. I started this Monday, I’m trying not to think of how long the symptoms will be. I need and want off benzos. Has anyone done the Ashton Manual will minimal symptoms? I need to stop googling and the support groups are freaking me out. I have not read that one person didn’t suffer serious symptoms. Could anyone please tell me if you have withdrawal symptoms 24/7 for years, or does it come and go in spurts? (I pray) I’m looking for more success stories, and I realize that everyone suffers and all of are bodies are different. I’m just so afraid. I realized benzos are causing my panic attacks worse then ever which is why I need and want off these. I wish I could hear someone tell me their withdrawal symptoms are not every second of the day. I really need a support group for all of us going thru this who understands. Sorry I keep repeating myself. Looking to hear someone doesn’t have these symptoms every second of the day for years. Much love support prayers and positivity for all of us. I wouldn’t wish this in my worst enemy. Thinking of you all many prayers 🤗❤️💞
Great video I just wonder how long to the withdrawls last? 6 months and more?
I find 432hz music helps and an app called insite timer.
People talk about how exercise helps but what if it's so hard because of the physical symptoms. What can you do? I would love to exercise.
deep breathing stretching, i plan on making a video for people in acute with these things
Smart and beautiful inside and out ..your helping many people, thanks
i’m coming off of 7 years of pins because the world is probably about to end or whatever. shoutout op you looking so fly makes me less pissed off about potentially seizing out. 🔥 🔥
Just FYI, magnesium works on gaba. That's why they call it the calming mineral. No doubt your body needs it but you should get it through food. Pumpkin seeds, etc.
Do you have somewhere your taper story? How fast did you go and did you cut through symptoms or hold? Also how low did you go with your liquid valium? Did you dilute it? I asked a similar question on one of your other videos but I would love to know your story of how you felt during your taper and then right after. I feel so scared at the beginning here. Thank you
Hi I here is a play list of all my videos. I did a couple during my taper and then one right after. If you have any other questions after seeing these I'd be happy to answer. th-cam.com/play/PLiYfSj-zJmtcLLaEs5VnJDog6ArrRcyBm.html
Thanks for confirming some things I already knew, I just doubt myself when I'm in "a moment". I was taking 6mg of clonazepam a day, I'm down to 0.5mg a day. After 1 year.Can't wait to be off for good.
Florida Boy - You were on a lot of clonazepam. That sounds like a fast taper. Come back and tell us how you are doing!
Dr Drew explained the right brain is the creative, emotional side.
I am glad you mentioned it and this video is great!!!
I listen to music all the TIME.
Mel Robbins book 5 4 3 2 1 countdown rule is also awesome to retrain your brain, it actually triggers your brain back to the present whenever we get in our heads too much!!
Thanks so much for your kindness and ideas 🏵🌹💮🌸💖
I am going to start a benzo meeting in my town soon!!!!
Holly Cline that's wonderful! I'm sure those meetings will be much needed
Benzo Brains
They have some meeting for people who come off psych meds
But not enough!!!!
It will be desperately needed..
My Dr just switched me to,valuim I tried it last night and ended up in his office today been tappering klonopin and I'm in some crazy pain in,my chest vision issues he tappered my,klonopin to fast...
Same happened to me, mate. I switched from alprazolam (10 mg a day, plus 150 oxycodone daily as well) to Rivotril (clonazepam in Europe at high doses cos it is longer acting).I also tapered oxycodone SR to 100 mg daily(I'm an ex H junkie, so, you know). Then I switched from clonazepam to Diazepam (Valium) 30 mg twice a day: it didn't work, I switched back to clonazepam, now only 3 or 6 drops daily. Still tapering with Oxycontin. One battle at a time. Best wishes, cheers!
Thank you so much for your insights. You’re a saint.
My Mantra
"I am one in spirit. Life energy heals me in every moment. It cleanses me of harmful impurities. My thoughts are clearing. I am letting go of useless emotions and tragic feelings. I tune my mind to crystal clarity - permitting my sight, perceptions, and dreams, to bloom and create! I shall always be prosperous in most pure ways, and, I shall share with others my open heart; for peace is within everyone, and streams all around us!The forces of life are eternal, and their energy fills an ocean whose vastness is never-ending. My soul swims freely within that vastness, as my spirit explores nature's infinite bounty. I am one in Spirit! Peace streams all around me!" - by Brad Michael Moore
Thank you for all your great advice. I appreciate you.❤️🙏🙂
I like when you said, “ accept “.
That’s it !!! If you wanna be done with this shit accept what you are going through to get straight!! I’m two days off taking a med so I don’t seizure. I’m so back and forth in my head. I want off then I try to make myself believe I need it. SMH. I don’t need it. Just wanted it. Now withdrawing and it sucks!!! Accept, accept, accept!! I like that though. Thanks 🙏🏼
I have protracted withdrawal from an anti depressant and all the symptoms are the same as benzos
Do you mind sharing which antidepressant and what symptoms are you having?
Elizabeth W. Effexor cold turkey after 16 years. I'm 9 months off, severe tinnitus, muscle twitches , vertigo, ear fullness, twitching inner ears, tight muscles, headaches, numbness, parasthesia mostly
I also used to have lots of head pressure and neck pressure and visual hallucinations, but those are gone
@@Fenderonly2746 I've heard coming off effexor can be really tough. I hope you can find some relief soon! I've taken 3 psych meds within a short period and almost done tapering off the last one. I don't know if some symptoms are from the meds or my other health issues. ugh.
Elizabeth W. I spent the first several months thinking I had a disease. So I can relate. The symptoms don’t feel like a withdrawal it feels like you have aids
Brilliant. Wish I had found this in january, when i brought to my attention my doctor losing his mind and taking me off 4mg xanax a day to zero might cause seizures or kill me, and he said, verbatim quote, "I DON'T CARE! GET OUT OF MY OFFICE!" (really, welcome to the zany world of Las Vegas "health care."). I quickly reached the same conclusion as you, acceptance. I thought, wow, i bet me stressing about having seizures or dying won't prevent that, so perhaps instead i should chill out, and whatever happens, happens. Best wishes, thanks again.
Sterling Wolfe your doctor sounds like a great guy, be sure to give him an appropriate Google review and check his status on pro publica to see how much he gets paid by pharma
wow. gave him the yelp review he well deserved, roflmao. i hit him so hard with that his family will feel it for generations. thanks, as to pro publica! I did not know! It was SO obvious! Now I can confirm with your tip.
Please make a video on chemical sensitivities.
Whatever I use, bath soap, shampoo or anything like this, my symptoms increased severely. Please suggest some natural alternatives to this ( I couldn't find any without alcohol).
I am 3 months off Alprazolam.
For some people it does not eventually go away unfortunately. Lucinda meyer is more than 4 years in hell now.
I know and that's an eternity when you're in it. But 4 years out of 5,6, or 7 decades of life is relatively little time. Lucinda has has some really good windows which shows her body is changing and healing. This won't last forever. Have hope
@@BenzoBrains sorry, i am just in complete despair. After 3 psyche wards being kindled like crazy and other drugs. I cant remember or follow simple directions for 2 years. ECT most likely helped fry my brain worse. Thanks for your videos and encouragement. I dont even remember posting this. I posted on another video. Take care.
Clonidine has other uses but is a blood pressure and anxiety treatment.
In this case, it helped me so much with heart racing,
insomnia and many more
withdrawal issues.
I feel the suffering of anyone going through this.
If you have nothing to take, to help you, your only option
is to let it run the course.
Yes and months may be
what one will be facing before relief, depending on your dose and length of time using them.
Did you have height heart rate (tachycardia), or panic attacks throughout the withdrawal? And on which part of the process that happened and how long it lasted and did you go to the ER? What part was the hardest?
Ana Lozada yes I had constant panic attacks and my heart did all kinds of weird things. I never went to the ER as I had a phobia of doctors and didn't believe they could do anything to help me any way.
Read my post. Terror panic attacks.
Elena Joline ya, I went through hell while on tolerance withdrawal, but I’m doing better since I got on an atypical antidepressant, and since I started tapering over a month ago. It’s still not easy, but I’m way better than I was two months ago for sure! Thanks for the info! ☺️👍
I did some times make sure you eat
Tachachardia is a sign of Low.blood SUGAR
It is very common in any withdrawl
Just dosed down to 0.25 and feeling squirrelly. I had forgotten about you talking about magnesium. I think I'll go take an Epsom salt bath
Thank you for all the videos you have shared they are so helpful. Did your tinnitus ever go away?
You are such an angel!
But if you can’t work or drive all of the sudden because of classic horrible side effects after 20 years- what do you do????
Convalesce as much as possible. Make arrangements for living with a disability. Accept that you're not the same and don't make things worse by trying to be who you were. You'll heal and still never be same and that's a good thing ❤️
Does anyone know if tapering off 1mg of Klonopin daily will be difficult to taper. It helps me but hearing all this is terrifying me. Been taking for 4 yrs......HELP
Ed Dobrzeniecki nobody can answer that,because some people don’t have any symptoms and for others could be hell.That depends in many factors:diet,lifestyle,if you exercise...My advice:look here for some advice knowing that you are a different person and,ready or not,you will get through this.But don’t read too much about it because everyone is different;some people has to stop taking 8 or more mg.Try to take your time,and think about this if things getting hard:ask to your self if you have a bad day:in 1 month or year,where I’m going to be?,this bad moment it’s going to be a bad dream?....be positive and remember that is ok research information here,but only for research purposes.and if you can afford it,go to see a therapist.I wish you success 🌟🌟🌟🌟
@@jimenarodriguez2988 thanks for the advice and well wishes. Appreciate it. I definitely have to stay off internet causes its scares the hell outta me. Will definitely seek therapist. Didnt realize this stuff was poison when I started taking it
Benzos saved my life...however now I'm tethered to them. If/when I do quit I hope I am not where I was when I went on them in the first place.
I regret. Its my biggest regret.
They almost ended mine
Quick question. How many times a week should I take Epsom salt baths and how long do I sit soaking in the tub.
ASMR helps so much. Micheal Sealy is good. Art is good. Doing anything but laying down is helpful..
Is shaking, terror severe panic paws......i thought i was past this stage. I had a severe uti.....4 weeks in stopping lorazapam. Im.14 weeks off 1mg for 5 months use daily. Tapering with 5mg valium
My doctors cut me off. I'm losing the battle.
I'm so sorry to hear this. Is there any way to find another prescriber or have a conversation with them where you can encourage them to look at the information for providers at benzoreform.org which is written by medical doctors and researchers?
@@BenzoBrains Thank you Jocelyn. The physiatrists said they can't help me and handed me pamphlets for drug & alcohol detox centres. It's ridiculous. I don't know how to make them understand this unique situation. My dearest General practitioner immigrated to Australia. She always helped me. Keep me in your prayers to help me find someone who can help me. ♥️
good idea I also keep track of how I feel in a journal. yet not so much the positive stuff so I will start writing positive things as well. if you don't mind miss how long did it take YOU to feel up to par??
Wow you are a truly amazing individual.
I am on zolpidem or stilnoct 10mg a day but was taking 20mg per night to sleep for 8 years plus antidepressants which I have come of lexapro and was on 375 of venlafux down to 75 of that a day I went to doc he said to stay on the low dose of the anti and cut me down to 5mg a night for 4 weeks then come off it the problem is before I went to him he told me he wasn’t giving me anymore so I went cold turkey ended up in hospital with a total psychotic break I was so scared of myself and my mind the shaking the heart exploding sweating shaking I’m on my own with NO help with 5 small children so I went back on and decided a slow taper but the sever anxiety of what I have to face again is stopping me from tapering so fast I know I will die I wil either seizure or have a heart attack or take my own life cos I know what I’m about to experience I’m so scared and desperate to stay on them my doc doesn’t know a thing and we here in Ireland have to stick with the same doc please give me advice my kids are scared of me pacing the floors all night and snapping at them
In withdrawal now , feel terrible looking through a bunch of stupid videos cringing cuz nothing works to help 3 drug at home withdrawal symptoms yup then I'm like holy shit this girl is hot I mean Angel hot.I haven't been able to focus on anything but this beautiful woman here.damn I just needed to hear it from you real talk.I'll help u raise children take out trash fix food for u.seriously though I did listen I'm going to go to Aa meetings and visit my parents to help get my mind back to the basics
Michael Sealey is awesome!!
What if you can't take work off? My job is very high stress, I have two kids, a mortgage, and blah blah. Is there anyway of getting through this without the sever side effects? Honestly I tried cold turkey and literally felt like I was dying. I love your dedication, and hope you continue to be an advocate for all of us.
Views 12 999 985 yeah not surprised about the cold turkey, a taper shouldn't be as bad. Some people take it very very slow and can still work
Thank you for taking the time. I'm going to have to start from the beginning again with your videos. If you were to write a book, I think it would be a real success. It's a subject some of us need to hide. I like what you said in another video about disability. My work is too dangerous to go in while I'm withdrawing. Definitely I'm going to use your tapper method.
I started using daily about a year ago. Got up to 7mg a few months ago. Been tapering off 0.5mg every week. At 1mg now. Hardest part is timing when to take my dose so that I can get enough sleep for work but also be very productive for work , I work as a farmer on a construction site. I have been getting more than usual back pain and even new hip pain, pain in my joints more than usual all together actually. Is this due to withdrawals ? Have also been getting migraines randomly. I can barely remember ever having a headache before this even. It is getting more difficult. I chose to lower my dose on a Friday so I can adjust somewhat over the weekend those first few days. I’ll barely get any sleep Friday night and Saturday night, and then Sunday I’ll wait til 8pm for my dose , mix it with some edibles and get some good sleep. I use Epsom salts, chamomile tea , lavender oils in my bath and diffuser, marijuana edibles, lots of marijuana works for me , lots of people advise against it though.
Why don’t doctors tell us when coming off or tapering is difficult.
They are often misinformed or simply don't know
Cause there influenced by big pharma. Big pharma bunch of crooks.
I’m 3 month benzo free! (Klonopin) I still feel a mild symptoms. What else can I do. But it’s 1,000 times better. Any tips?
persianboy153 congratulations ! Avoiding chemicals that can set you back right now is big. Caffeine, alcohol msg are biggies. Diet is the main factor that contributes to healing, low carb, high fat and protein
What helps you with insomnia after you taper?
Thanks for the advice your advice is great
You have the best and most informative and positive videos! Thank you so much for sharing your experience with us. 🙏☺️❤️
What's really bad is I have an aneurysm on my heart that could explode at any minute and being yanked off Klonopin sent my blood pressure to 224/177 and they can't get it to come down. I feel like this is going to cause my heart to explode. I just want this to end.
You just gave 100 people a panic attack
Hello dear one,
Was wondering if you suffered with severe insomnia due to the benzo withdrawal? And if so what did you do? My dear friend has been in that for 2 years now. She just had a sleep study and we are waiting for the results. Lord bless you!
So glad to she's doing a sleep study! I did have bad insomnia but there wasn't much that seemed to help at the time. Now I would definitely recommend my kundalini yoga video for sleep along with the Morter March video. It takes time but they really do work!
Two years ago when I went to rehab I was taken off of lorazepam and lamictal. I had been in them for 10 years.
I’m still in the fog because I’ve been through so much since rehab, there hasn’t been any healing. I feel like I’m waiting away. So sad.
A high quality CBD tincture has helped with the depression.
What brand of CBD