Hearing him explain that a part can be *bored* and literally be like "No, I want to watch this" and switch out was so nice. That validation that a kid just wants to be a kid.
Yes lmao ice watched 1 show and come back to a completely different 1 as a teen it was books id read 3 at the same time and be frustrated because "I" was only reading 1 lol it was something i didn't understand and was frustrated EVERY day
What's really confusing I when one alters in control but others are near the surface and they argue over what they want to do or watch lol I can be at a restaurant and not know what to do bc different alters want different meals 🙄
I've been trying to do language immersion for multiple months now and oftentimes a part of myself just does that; get off Japanese immersion and switch back to my native language account. I set up a separate Japanese only account where it's all Japanese all the time.
@@shotakonkin2047 do you also have language knowlege conccentrated into a single part? We have that for spanish, russian, and ASL. We find it's a lot easier then trying to teach a bunch of parts something
@@solsystem1342 I watch language teaching channels to help give context for things that I don't understand naturally, I'm formally diagnosed with autism spectrum disorder so there's certain things that I don't naturally get subconsciously and need slightly more aid than usual. Things such as social cues and body language.
I'm 64 and was diagnosed in 1994 by a specialist. Mine was caused by severe, repeated child abuse from ages 4 to 16. I am so glad about the care and mandatory reporting. I've been in therapy since early 1980s
"It depends" That's even a joke within the psychologycal community, because that's literally our answer to almost everything 😂 He's so educated, I loved this video 🖤 Thank you for doing this
This was so informative and validating. Thank you so much for bringing this series to life. You're amazing at finding the voids in the world of DID awareness building and filling it in the most powerful ways
This is the kind of DID content I’ve been longing to see on TH-cam. Thank you, Multiplicity & Me and Dr. Lloyd! I hope the expert series is widely viewed and leads to a greater realisation amongst the general public that DID is not a fad but a well-established disorder which is *treatable* by mental health professionals. One of the most tragic aspects of the myth of DID being a fad, imo, is its potential of preventing people with DID from getting the care they so desperately need. As someone with a relatively late DID dx (mid-40’s), I can personally attest that the methods used to treat other mental health disorders often don’t work to alleviate DID symptoms and can often make them worse, contributing to one’s sense of hopelessness. Content like this gives me hope! Thanks again, Multiplicity & Me and Dr. Lloyd!!!
Lately, I’ve been concerned that maybe I’m misdiagnosing myself and advancing my multiplicity in a harmful direction by accepting it and trying to communicate to alters and make compromises. I really appreciate the reassurance that I’ve been doing right by respecting them and reaching out. I don’t think I have DID necessarily, but I’m at least gonna remain open to the possibility, if a therapist ever suggests I do. One of the biggest myths that’s bothered me is that people seem to think (or actively claim) that diagnosing a disorder is giving someone the disorder, completely invalidating their experience of having suffered from it and seeking professional help as the result. Too many people just invent a narrative in their head and completely ignore the relevant facts in favor of some concept they heard about once from a self help seminar. Thank y’all for establishing the truth, clearly and professionally.
hearing a professional talk about how one personal can internalise the effects of one situation and have it be a "trauma" to them, at a certain time in life, while another person at another time in life may not have even been bothered by the same situation-- that's so validating, helpful and empowering to hear. i don't have DID but i do likely have BPD (or maybe CPTSD) and since those disorders are often caused by trauma, i've lately been having a lot of complicated thoughts and feelings about how i "shouldnt" have developed what i did, because the stressful situations I was in as a kid aren't comparable to what a lot of others have experienced. but seeing it as being less about the "severity" of things that happened, and more about your ability to cope with it at that time is really helpful, ahh!
Well said! Thanks! My best friend has BPD among other disorders from childhood experiences and her two siblings (who lived through same experiences at an older age) mostly have denial and consistently shame my friend(their sister) for having any mental health issues. They insist that she is being dramatic or making excuses for bad choices in life. Its heartbreaking watching her try to get them to believe her or her doctor
Don’t worry about a diagnosis, if you had trauma then your only reason for being in therapy is to work through that trauma. Forget about labels. Terms are only helpful if you are actively seeking help to cope with any given mental disorder. So just go to therapy or don’t , don’t try and diagnose yourself there is really no help in that.❤️ I believe everyone has some kind of trauma that they could benefit going to therapy from.
This quote from you, "about how i "shouldnt" have developed what i did, because the stressful situations I was in as a kid aren't comparable to what a lot of others have experienced." One thing I finally learned in my 30's and I'm 44 now... Never ever discount the trauma YOU went through just because someone else had it worse... You can not compare yourself to others. You are you...
Our mother doesn't understand how our brain works. She went through a similar trauma as we did and when she realized we couldn't remember everything and we started asking questions she stated "Why don't you remember this, you were there. I remember everything that was done to me, why don't you remember what happened to you?" And we have tried many times to tell her "Our brain doesn't work like yours, we aren't the same." And its always been this constant fight between her and us with it all.
when he said you only need one other part that was so validating because the systems i watch on youtube have more than that and i feel like im faking it and am scared to talk to anyone in case i am faking it and i want attention from others so i havent had a diagnosis im scared of doctors and i dont think id be able to remember any of my symptoms but thank you that was an incredibly informative video x
@@mignonhagemeijer3726 If there's a handbook for trauma and trauma related conditions, that's it. A bit dry, but man- there is SO much there. We're on our... 5th or 6th readthrough with annotations? If it weren't for Van der Kolk's work, DID wouldn't even be in the DISM-V in the US.
I struggle with the hiding from shame at times. I had a crisis last year that brought my house of cards down...all the corridors and rooms were gone. The voices got so loud in my head that I was talking out loud in my house, in my car. I felt crazy. In 2016/17 I had a similar episode. I got my diagnosis in May by my Psychiatrist. This has been the most mental pain I have felt in my life. Looking through my poetry and writings over the years; seeing the things parts of me knew about the trauma and even revealing the DID itself, has been scary, healing but makes me terribly sad at times. I am slowing this process down as it's been a bit much.
@@MultiplicityAndMe It was... rough. Today is a self care day for certain. Thank you for the video, it's good to see actual facts and science around the condition, as well as get differing takes from experts.
Yay! We're a system who only just recently found out we have DID. This video is going to be so helpful not only for ourselves but so we can show to our loved ones so that they might understand a bit better
38:50 We self-diagnosed ourselves with OSDD-1b because, well, we have the memory. I’ve met and spoken to alters, remember them being there, have explored our innerworld and seen them there, experienced splits, been co-conscious, and seen how different they can be from me. It would be absolutely insane if this were anything else. I get that self diagnosing isnt great in many situations, but I’m more than sure, we have system friends both online and in person that are sure and have met a lot of us, and I even tried denying the idea of having the disorder for a good month before accepting it (as, well, alters kept taking over and showing me they were different from me). If there is literally anything else that could possibly be happening with these symptoms, do tell, but I feel like us self diagnosing is fair enough in this situation. -Monet
I loved this video, I am someone who is waiting to find and afford a therapist to help me cope with my dissociation and derealization. This helps me remember that I can still help myself and my alters, with help from people in my life. I often struggle remembering/communication between alters. Thankfully I have a loving and understanding boyfriend who can update me on what happens when an alter is present. +This is something I've been gradually doing research over several years after I began experiencing amnesia. The changes in senses, memories, likes and dislikes have become more noticeable to help me distinguish differences when cofronting or a switch is about to happen. Thank you for putting so much effort and sending love to the world.
I hope you, the boys, gaz and eevee (I probably messed that up) are doing well and that the boys are around a bit more again for you soon❤️. Can’t imagine how it must feel not hearing or feeling them for a while. And thank you for still putting out such amazing content. Sending love and support to an amazing group of people both in the system and outside!
This video blew us away. It blew all the crap we get bogged down with out of the water and I understand systems who don't identify as traumatized so much better. Ty so much. I've sent this to my therapist who is in the situation of us being her first plural client and unable to get proper training because of state licensing laws and insurance issues.
I felt the same way and sent the video to my therapist as well. I would also suggest you send your therapist the link to Dr. Lloyd’s new TH-cam channel. Having a DID expert start a channel to help explain and give credence to the disorder has been something I’ve been longing to see for the past few years. TH-camrs with DID have done an amazing public service, but I’ve long wished for some DID experts to come forward to back them up with their clinical experiences and knowledge of the relevant research.
Oh my gosh, when he's comparing the types of traumas with the bombing vs critical, emotionally unavailable parents, I felt validated. I cant express how many times in the past I've compared others "real trauma" to my "minor problems" and just undermine myself. "There's always someone who has it worse", right?
@@kaiyodei endogenics are systems who claim to be systems with 0 trauma or cause for it. BPD and OSDD are also traumagenic, so. That’s not endogenics. Idk where this came from
Thank you so much for this Jess!! When he said it really takes only one more alter, and the trauma can be very simplistic based on the case, was refreshing. I met my first alter, who I consider my brother, when I was 15. (Body is 25 now) Both of us have been scared to come to terms with it, but had no choice when new alters showed themselves. I also have basically zero trauma memory. But I am the host. So yeah. Thank you so much to Dr. Lloyd As well. Very insightful and helpful. 💙
Really fantastic interview. I thought it was really factual and I learnt a lot. I can see you've put in a tremendous amount of effort into this video. Well done and I look forward to the rest of the series. Hope you all are doing well and are keeping safe
Thank you SO MUCH for this! I've been in therapy for a while but my DID diagnosis is new. My therapist really wants to continue helping me but she has never dealt with dissociative disorders before. She is doing her job and educating herself, reaching out to mentors, and trying to learn how to best help me. I'm going to send her this video because I think it will help us both. I can't thank you enough for the work you do. It has been a difficult three months for our system. I came to youtube to see if anyone else had this strange disorder I didn't know much about. I found nothing but education and acceptance. Thank you.
@@abbiepancakeeater52 nope. she dropped me as a client and i haven't been able to find anyone who both treats dissociative disorders AND takes my shitty insurance. yay american healthcare system
Man I wish I'd seen this video when i was writing a class paper on DID symptoms and myths.. I could've elaborated a lot more. Very informative! Thank you Jess and Dr. Lloyd!
I was diagnosed with dissociation but as part of having emotionally unstable personality disorder. I love watching your videos, thankyou for the information you provide. I wasnt diagnosed until I was 30 and I'm now 48 so been struggling a while and had cbt and dbt but still dissociate alot. My family say they believe I have at least 12 others. I find it hard to count how many. Thanks again for your information.
I have DID is the last several therapist don't know how to help me..and the suicidal alters are the worst. I manage it the best I can. and today has been a little challenging. Had moments living outside my body. watching tv on DID child alters showed up. I agree that it's hard in winter with my seasonal effective disorder. sometimes I rotate some with my ptsd.
This was really helpful. The point Dr. Mike Lloyd makes about the way having some support from others can make the difference between someone being 'high functioning' despite having extreme trauma, or struggling to cope which he refers to as 'low functioning' is so on point. The role of people in one's life and how they can contribute to one's ability to cope and, conversely of course' potentially worsen how one is coping is very important.
I don't have DID, nor know anyone personally who does, but came across system and spouse randomly, and found them super interesting and really enjoyed watching each alter, and wanted to learn more about it. Very good interview, so thank you
I love this. My husband and I talked about moving to where Dr. LLoyd is from America, but realistically well.....I have no money or I would go. For now I have him here.
My response to the fad question is, I was dissociating in the 1980s and social media didnt exist. I've always had a partial connection with part of me, called Jack. I call him my Helper, my brother. I'm aware, partially so. And I feel him take over. He is strong and no emotions. He can stand toe to toe with anyone (my dad was a psychopath and so i needed that I suppose). I still do. If Jack doesn't front in a year, I honestly become really sad because I cannot handle life and I NEED him and he hasn't been there. It has been a good year and that's been rough on me
Hello! I have OSDD & your part sound very much like my two (Billy & ???female) who are both strong protectors. Im guessing from certain events in my childhood. I do also have bpd & cptsd 💜
This video is amazing and so informative. We were officially diagnosed by Dr Mike Lloyd back in 2017(I think?) and he was just as amazing as he is in this video. We are hoping to be referred to the CTAD clinic again soon for treatment. Thank you so much Jess and co and Mike Lloyd for this video.
i'm really excited to see what you guys do with this series and i think it'll be really informative! as a uk subscriber who likely has did (i'm professionally recognised and waiting to be fully diagnosed) it's really interesting and reassuring to see an expert answering questions expressing his view, and it's good to learn about the clinical process. it's also amazing to know there's now 3 clinics in the uk!! i'm really thankful for this channel and please keep up the amazing work!
I would certainly love to have more long form videos like this with experts and such! I'm so glad I found your account its been so much relief and so much learning!
❤❤❤ *I am so glad you guys take your time with things... As much as you guys had not had a video every single week (which is fine), im glad you guys did so in order to have the best legit information and teachings of this disorder as professional as possible and as well taking care of yourselves. You are all a very strong system with loving support. And thanks to your hubby Jess for being an all loving supportive person in your guys' lives. Thank you!*
I love this idea!!! Thank you all so much for sticking around and starting this series on top of your other videos. I do not have DID but I appreciate learning and sharing what I learn with those I know. It's a ripple effect.
Super helpful video and perspective - thank you so much for the care and commitment you have to de-stigmatizing dissociation, and for the tempered tone and emphasis on education you have. Love you and the boys ❤️ you are incredibly courageous and I’m praying for your continued healing from the trauma so unjustly inflicted on you, whatever that looks like for your system.
Hey! I’ve been around since the BBC documentary times and I just want to thank you for sharing your+your systems story and the facts around things. I don’t have DID but I have learnt to look after my own mental health issues and if I ever encounter a system or even just anyone who seems to be experiencing their own mental issues I know I can behave around that person in the best way I can. I can help and support without understanding what’s happening. I don’t know if that completely makes sense but yeah, thank you for educating me and honestly just being someone else who understands 💖
Thank you and Dr Mike for such a fantastic interview! It was really informative and supportive. What a fab therapist and professional to know! Thank you for sharing this partnership and knowledge with the community. The video helped clarify quite a few things. Absolutely brilliant! It would be great to ask an expert with lived experience of being an OSDD 1a/1b system for representation of the DID spectrum. The Rings System and the Alexandrite System are fantastic OSDD 1b channels.
Thank you for this..I am in school become a licensed therapist and I want to work with DID.. My husband had DID he and his system passed away. I lost my family in there I want to help others do bad since I couldn't help them.
I don't have DID but because of your videos, I got newfound courage to heal and take care of my mental health. I found out that I have Maladaptive daydreaming which cannot get diagnosed but I'm looking at getting help as well with dealing with trauma. I wish that the boys will be around more as well. I know that it is a bit quiet for the past few days. I wish all the best for you and the boys also with gaz and eevee.
as someone with it, do you have their equvilent of an innerworld? I'm skeptical on how some make it sound like, or a few honestly believe it is a real other universe.
Really enjoyed listening to this. I am late diagnosed autistic - that happened age 38. I was diagnosed BPD and Major Depression age 21. Recently diagnosed with CPTSD a few months ago. I am almost 50. I can strongly relate to depersonalization/derealization and shifting personality states and not feeling in control. I also have a long history of eating disorders and beginning to see the connection with changing personality states. Since childhood I have experienced distressing 'out of body' experiences. I suspect I may also have some kind of dissosiation disorder going on. I relate to the intense shame and not wanting to expose what I experiences and the fact that it seems normal to me as it's been going on since childhood. I had a metit mal seizure 30 years ago where I was insensitive to physical pain which isn't usual for me. I love to gain knowledge and self exploration and tend to sit on things mentally a long time before taking action due to shame and fear of not being believed and being able to explain myself. I am beginning to see some differences between autistic shutdown/meltdown and dissosiative symptoms and also connection. Can be a real mind eff at times!
This was helpful for us. We get so mixed up and have so much doubt as an OSDD system, but I'm just so easily able to point to specific things you both talked about and say "that's us!" - Jamie
I loved this interview! It learned so much and Dr. Mike is very engaging in how he explains things. Thank you all for making this series. I'm very exciting for future videos!!
Hello, I just wanted you, jake, jamie, ed, ollie, gaz and eevee to know that I love watching your videos, I hope you are well :). I find all of your videos entertaining and very educational (which is what I look for in a video). You're videos always put a massive smile on my face 😁 Daliwch ati gyda'r gwaith da ac bydd gennych gefnogwr cymreag bob answer (keep up the good work and you'll always have a welsh fan) ❤
@@MultiplicityAndMe Diolch yn fawr i ti hefyd, gobeithio bod pawb yn teimlon dda ac yn mwynhau'r haul sydd mas yn Cymru. (Also sorry if my spelling is rubbish, I can speak welsh but not spell it hahaha)
30:50 I will say here that one of my alters actually likes meditation and it's a nice calming easy way to switch... Doesn't always work as it can be very difficult to find a nice quite relaxing place where we can meditate but it does usually work as positive trigger for one specific alter to front. That said there was some really helpful advice there I hadn't really considered before. I'm not going to go into details here but the bit about stopping and realizing that there's no actual threat... that seems really obvious but trying to communicate that internally to other members of the system isn't really something I had even ever considered. I have noticed especially online, that alters will pop up when triggered by posts or whatever we've seen online, like they feel a need to protect when there's no actual danger because it's online and no one really knows where we live. Someone might make me feel terrible with some terrible troll post but there's no real threat, so that's something I think we need to work on.
That was so helpful for so many reasons! Not the least of which is the clinical perspective and understanding how my therapist is doing things. Thank you so much!
I do not have DID, but very interested in learning about all things for sensitivity purposes. This is so very helpful thank you for putting it together. I am in therapy for anxiety and depression, we are also working through suppressed memories and childhood trauma. And although I am in no way comparing situations, because that is not fair, there is some really great coping techniques in here that have been of great help and that I plan to try. Thank you all so much for what you do and share, I am sure you are helping so many people. Definitely have helped me!
Ever since I found this channel I've become so fascinated by DID,each alter ,etc to the point were I just want to learn as much as I can. I guess you can say im very positive about DID. And I know that each alter is just as human as everyone else, their just in ones head. That doesn't mean to me that ones crazy. anything but that. Having DID is amazing I love seeing how one goes about their day with DID. I don't know what it is but disorders just fascinate me. I get excited when I see one of the boys fronting because I get learn them and what they mean to you and what their part is in the system. Thank you for these videos Jess,Ollie,Jake,Jamie and Ed.
Great interview and thank you to Jess and Dr. Lloyd for putting this together. I do want to say, the answer to the differences between OSDD and DID was overwhelmingly incomplete. It feels like OSDD did not get enough attention, as it usually doesn't, which is frustrating to those of us who have it in the plural community. Coming from a popular DID TH-camr, it would be really wonderful to have an expert speak more thoroughly on OSDD.
I’ve just started treatment for complex PTSD dissociative disorder (not sure which one ) but I have parts and voices) and it’s took years to get where i am. It’s been a very confusing time and still don’t really understand what is going on inside me and all!! This video is very informative. Thank you. I’m doing the three stage trauma focused therapy.
I can’t imagining so scary as to losing time and coming back into my body and being somewhere I don’t remember going. I would think I was going crazy for sure. Great and informative interview.
It definitely feels crazy. Been there, done that. I’ve had a panic attack a few times when I would realize I didn’t know how I got somewhere else, or what happened between the last thing I remembered happening and “waking up”. I went into a Fugue State in 2020, and when I came to, everything was so screwed up in my life and caused me more trauma.
Please promise us you aren’t leaving too, youre one of the only DID channels we have left, youre incredible and a huge inspiration to us. thank you for everything and please keep going xx ❤️❤️
Shinnzy's Headspace I didn’t know about these channels and you’re 100% right. It is difficult to see the ones who taught you DID isn’t something to be ashamed of leave but you’re definitely right. I’ll be sure to look at your channel too, thank you x
You guys are amazing. Thank you for this informative discussion. I have been trying to understand everything I can about DID. Thank you for this. Keep up the good work..
I can’t figure out if I have OSDD or DID… or bipolar?? But that one doesn’t seem to fit nearly as much as a dissociative disorder. I’ve wondered if I’ve got DID off and on for years now. However I have a new drive for answers and healing as recently an alter took over (I think?) who is reallllyyyy angry and destructive. She has always been the most present “other” in my head. Although I keep doubting it’s not some sort of super mean inner monologue thing. We have conversations, usually disagreements, often. She was pretty quiet for a long time, until two super triggering events occurred close together. Since then, I’ve not been “myself” and gradually feeling more and more dissociated. Like she took over driving the body almost completely, I could only watch from a little box deep in my head. Sometimes feels like some level of co-consciousness, other times I’m gone for a bit. Like a very deep nap almost? And then I’ll get thrown in to “clean up” whatever chaos and destruction the Other has caused. I won’t remember doing/saying things until after the fact. Like “lie” (aka to myself and others, but once someone shows me evidence of me doing/saying “XYZ”, I’ll get a hazy kind of memory of doing X, maybe some bits of Y, no memory of Z at all. enough to where I question myself a lot. as soon as I have a thought along the lines of “I probably have DID/OSDD” I immediately think “maybe I’m making it up”. Then “okay but the symptoms, the evidence is pointing to this” and cycle right back to I’m making it up or I’m psychotic or something. If anyone has any advice or thoughts they can offer please please leave me a reply And yes I will be (finally) bringing this up in my next therapy session.
This was so informative and I can’t wait to see what becomes of this series. It’s been a stressful time for everyone and abit of drama has happened so it’s wonderful to see this channels and others continuing to put out the right message out there. Hope everyone in the system and the family are all safe and well
I must also say thank you, I feel a lot better after this video. For years I've been involved with mental health services but I keep falling out of it because it doesn't work for me. More so because I felt like I was just slapped with a BPD diagnosis, from 14 at a young age I genuinely believed it, at 21 I managed to fight for a rediagnosis to prove that I had it but as an older more informed adult I look at it and feel its simply not true the more I learn and research about Did the more the jigsaw that was forever missing fits, to hear Dr Lloyd say that inexperienced or unknowledgeable clinicians tend ot just avoid did diagnosing and slap other diagnosis on (unless I have misinterpreted him) made me feel better. We're currently waiting on our first appointment back to see about getting treatment again and exploring the possibility of did but sadly lock down put a halt on that 😕 so thank you for this video it means a lot. Sorry this comment is so long
Thank you. Thank you for not leaving too. (I totally understand why others did. Self care is important.) This community needs the fresh air that is Jess and system. I am now a proud subscriber of Dr Lloyd. Thank you for bringing him into the lives of people all over the world. Stay safe World Neighbors 🌎🌍🌏 so much love to you all.
Hey Jess and everyone else, We love your videos and their content, this one is by far or favorite! It is a great interview with lots of good information. We came across Dr. Llyod's site late last week and binged all his videos. We thank you both for everything you've been doing!
What a lovely video Jess 🙂 You very kindly commented on a comment I had made in a past video (mental health clinician with DID keeping quiet about my diagnosis). Keep up the good work.
Thank you so much this video really made me feel a little less scared. But this is still so hard to accept...i feel so alone and I feel like this just will be used against us. I'm seeing so many signs of how long this has been my life but I ignored it and sometimes I still want to. Its too hard. Too strange to people. Embarrassing
I read about your idea of the ask an expert when I was checking your patreon. I don't know why I skipped over this video and didn't see it. Amazing, well made video! Wonderful questions. I loved the doctor and his energy, he was very thorough as were you guys with your questions. I look forward to more type of these videos and I really hope to be part of you guys' patreon in the future. Keep up the awesome work! .. You deserve more views than this.
I was always so confused about having OSDD (and I was even questioning myself about having alters) when I tried to compare my traumas (the ones I remember) to someone's traumas. I always say like nyeeh, it is not a big deal... however it is, but I don't know..
Brilliant channel. Thank you for putting this together. Just a little challenge on citing CTAD as the first clinic treating trauma and dissociative disorders? What about the Clinic for Dissociative Studies, the Pottergate Clinic and the Traumatic Stress Clinic at the Maudsley? These specialist places have been around for many, many years!
Why? she has DID not OSDD 1a. The therapist she's talking to will talk about it on his channel though, just go to some of his older vids and ask and he will likely cover it for you in depth.
This was sooo helpful! What Mr Lloyd said about the person in leafy Surrey was spot on. I also liked his quote " Don't hide cause hiding is where shame sits". I listen to guided meditations but really struggle to relax, I do like just having a good loud chat into thin air! I guess someone benefits! The last time I dissociated big time was I'd gone to watch Misfits. I'd never seen it before. I got chatting to my new teddies and was still in that head space, episode 2 came on and I was a gonna! It said it was an 18! I can only look into this subject a little bit at a time cause it seems a painful subject for me.
I hope you Jess, and your system and family are staying safe during these crazy times, not just outside of the internet but inside it as well. I love you guys, and I love the message of love and acceptance you spread :)
Thanks for this...when i was first diagnosed i turrned to youtube for some other stories or experiences. A lot of sites i did not find to be genuine until i found yours thanks so much.
Hearing him explain that a part can be *bored* and literally be like "No, I want to watch this" and switch out was so nice. That validation that a kid just wants to be a kid.
Yes lmao ice watched 1 show and come back to a completely different 1 as a teen it was books id read 3 at the same time and be frustrated because "I" was only reading 1 lol it was something i didn't understand and was frustrated EVERY day
What's really confusing I when one alters in control but others are near the surface and they argue over what they want to do or watch lol I can be at a restaurant and not know what to do bc different alters want different meals 🙄
I've been trying to do language immersion for multiple months now and oftentimes a part of myself just does that; get off Japanese immersion and switch back to my native language account.
I set up a separate Japanese only account where it's all Japanese all the time.
@@shotakonkin2047 do you also have language knowlege conccentrated into a single part? We have that for spanish, russian, and ASL. We find it's a lot easier then trying to teach a bunch of parts something
@@solsystem1342 I watch language teaching channels to help give context for things that I don't understand naturally, I'm formally diagnosed with autism spectrum disorder so there's certain things that I don't naturally get subconsciously and need slightly more aid than usual.
Things such as social cues and body language.
"Do what works for you, but don't hide. Hiding is where shame sits." POWERFUL words right there! WOW.
I hide away every day I only feel safe alone and at home. I sleep mostly
@@Ohkeh640 me too
**reading this comment from hiding place** oh no
We've literally got an alter who named herself Shame
Double meaning ftw
During all the drama in the community right now, you guys are a breath of fresh air. Thanks! -Neo, the Escariot System
Love the channel and our so very dear Multiplicityandme! All the very best to you all!
I second this wholeheartedly dude! -Pit, the Xaro's Mothkitties system
More drama? God, does it ever stop in the DID "Community?" its starting to look and sound like a soap opera on tv at this point.
What drama
@@DamyenLeFay Dissociadid and team pinata drama along with Trisha
They come in hand in hand 😂
I'm 64 and was diagnosed in 1994 by a specialist. Mine was caused by severe, repeated child abuse from ages 4 to 16. I am so glad about the care and mandatory reporting. I've been in therapy since early 1980s
"It depends"
That's even a joke within the psychologycal community, because that's literally our answer to almost everything 😂 He's so educated, I loved this video 🖤 Thank you for doing this
This was so informative and validating. Thank you so much for bringing this series to life. You're amazing at finding the voids in the world of DID awareness building and filling it in the most powerful ways
This is the kind of DID content I’ve been longing to see on TH-cam. Thank you, Multiplicity & Me and Dr. Lloyd!
I hope the expert series is widely viewed and leads to a greater realisation amongst the general public that DID is not a fad but a well-established disorder which is *treatable* by mental health professionals.
One of the most tragic aspects of the myth of DID being a fad, imo, is its potential of preventing people with DID from getting the care they so desperately need. As someone with a relatively late DID dx (mid-40’s), I can personally attest that the methods used to treat other mental health disorders often don’t work to alleviate DID symptoms and can often make them worse, contributing to one’s sense of hopelessness.
Content like this gives me hope! Thanks again, Multiplicity & Me and Dr. Lloyd!!!
genderal plurality might be the fad. you can use various forms of mediumship and channeling and become a system
@@kaiyodei yeah sure 😂
I completely agree
Lately, I’ve been concerned that maybe I’m misdiagnosing myself and advancing my multiplicity in a harmful direction by accepting it and trying to communicate to alters and make compromises. I really appreciate the reassurance that I’ve been doing right by respecting them and reaching out. I don’t think I have DID necessarily, but I’m at least gonna remain open to the possibility, if a therapist ever suggests I do.
One of the biggest myths that’s bothered me is that people seem to think (or actively claim) that diagnosing a disorder is giving someone the disorder, completely invalidating their experience of having suffered from it and seeking professional help as the result. Too many people just invent a narrative in their head and completely ignore the relevant facts in favor of some concept they heard about once from a self help seminar. Thank y’all for establishing the truth, clearly and professionally.
hearing a professional talk about how one personal can internalise the effects of one situation and have it be a "trauma" to them, at a certain time in life, while another person at another time in life may not have even been bothered by the same situation-- that's so validating, helpful and empowering to hear. i don't have DID but i do likely have BPD (or maybe CPTSD) and since those disorders are often caused by trauma, i've lately been having a lot of complicated thoughts and feelings about how i "shouldnt" have developed what i did, because the stressful situations I was in as a kid aren't comparable to what a lot of others have experienced. but seeing it as being less about the "severity" of things that happened, and more about your ability to cope with it at that time is really helpful, ahh!
Well said! Thanks! My best friend has BPD among other disorders from childhood experiences and her two siblings (who lived through same experiences at an older age) mostly have denial and consistently shame my friend(their sister) for having any mental health issues. They insist that she is being dramatic or making excuses for bad choices in life. Its heartbreaking watching her try to get them to believe her or her doctor
Don’t worry about a diagnosis, if you had trauma then your only reason for being in therapy is to work through that trauma. Forget about labels. Terms are only helpful if you are actively seeking help to cope with any given mental disorder. So just go to therapy or don’t , don’t try and diagnose yourself there is really no help in that.❤️ I believe everyone has some kind of trauma that they could benefit going to therapy from.
This quote from you, "about how i "shouldnt" have developed what i did, because the stressful situations I was in as a kid aren't comparable to what a lot of others have experienced."
One thing I finally learned in my 30's and I'm 44 now... Never ever discount the trauma YOU went through just because someone else had it worse...
You can not compare yourself to others. You are you...
Our mother doesn't understand how our brain works. She went through a similar trauma as we did and when she realized we couldn't remember everything and we started asking questions she stated "Why don't you remember this, you were there. I remember everything that was done to me, why don't you remember what happened to you?" And we have tried many times to tell her "Our brain doesn't work like yours, we aren't the same." And its always been this constant fight between her and us with it all.
@@lccxxx way to minimise it...
when he said you only need one other part that was so validating because the systems i watch on youtube have more than that and i feel like im faking it and am scared to talk to anyone in case i am faking it and i want attention from others so i havent had a diagnosis im scared of doctors and i dont think id be able to remember any of my symptoms but thank you that was an incredibly informative video x
i thought it had to be 3 or more. and of course with fronting and switching and everything
@@kaiyodei Nope. only need to be 2 parts (Aka just yourself and someone else)
I feel the same!! but i heard if youre scared of faking, you're not faking because if you were faking, you would know that you are.
Omg I feel just like you
If you question yourself: am i faking it... well you don't. people who does they know that they are faking... :D so they won't ask themselves
i love how he describes alters and the theory of structural dissociation. Hes very honoring to both the science and the people in the system.
Man, I really want to learn more about the neuroscience behind DID! Sounds super interesting
You should check out Kristin Chronicles! She has quite a few videos on it ^_^
Read "The Body Keeps the Score" by Bessel van der Kolk M.D.
@@TheInfinitySystem that book was on my to read list! Heard great things about it. :)
@@mignonhagemeijer3726 If there's a handbook for trauma and trauma related conditions, that's it. A bit dry, but man- there is SO much there. We're on our... 5th or 6th readthrough with annotations? If it weren't for Van der Kolk's work, DID wouldn't even be in the DISM-V in the US.
I struggle with the hiding from shame at times. I had a crisis last year that brought my house of cards down...all the corridors and rooms were gone. The voices got so loud in my head that I was talking out loud in my house, in my car. I felt crazy. In 2016/17 I had a similar episode. I got my diagnosis in May by my Psychiatrist. This has been the most mental pain I have felt in my life. Looking through my poetry and writings over the years; seeing the things parts of me knew about the trauma and even revealing the DID itself, has been scary, healing but makes me terribly sad at times. I am slowing this process down as it's been a bit much.
Puzzles and Pieces!!! that is the cutest way to say hello to your followers!!! I squealed lol
Lol me tooooo
Thank you guys for sticking with it. You mean so much to all of us.
We have therapy in 45 mins, but will come back to watch this later! Thank you! 💕
Best of luck! Hope it goes well 😄
@@MultiplicityAndMe It was... rough. Today is a self care day for certain. Thank you for the video, it's good to see actual facts and science around the condition, as well as get differing takes from experts.
Yay! We're a system who only just recently found out we have DID. This video is going to be so helpful not only for ourselves but so we can show to our loved ones so that they might understand a bit better
This makes us so happy!! 🥹
as soon as you started talking about reassurance I started crying. Don't know why but I also feel better.
38:50 We self-diagnosed ourselves with OSDD-1b because, well, we have the memory. I’ve met and spoken to alters, remember them being there, have explored our innerworld and seen them there, experienced splits, been co-conscious, and seen how different they can be from me. It would be absolutely insane if this were anything else. I get that self diagnosing isnt great in many situations, but I’m more than sure, we have system friends both online and in person that are sure and have met a lot of us, and I even tried denying the idea of having the disorder for a good month before accepting it (as, well, alters kept taking over and showing me they were different from me).
If there is literally anything else that could possibly be happening with these symptoms, do tell, but I feel like us self diagnosing is fair enough in this situation.
-Monet
I loved this video, I am someone who is waiting to find and afford a therapist to help me cope with my dissociation and derealization. This helps me remember that I can still help myself and my alters, with help from people in my life. I often struggle remembering/communication between alters. Thankfully I have a loving and understanding boyfriend who can update me on what happens when an alter is present. +This is something I've been gradually doing research over several years after I began experiencing amnesia. The changes in senses, memories, likes and dislikes have become more noticeable to help me distinguish differences when cofronting or a switch is about to happen. Thank you for putting so much effort and sending love to the world.
I hope you, the boys, gaz and eevee (I probably messed that up) are doing well and that the boys are around a bit more again for you soon❤️. Can’t imagine how it must feel not hearing or feeling them for a while. And thank you for still putting out such amazing content. Sending love and support to an amazing group of people both in the system and outside!
This video blew us away. It blew all the crap we get bogged down with out of the water and I understand systems who don't identify as traumatized so much better. Ty so much. I've sent this to my therapist who is in the situation of us being her first plural client and unable to get proper training because of state licensing laws and insurance issues.
I felt the same way and sent the video to my therapist as well. I would also suggest you send your therapist the link to Dr. Lloyd’s new TH-cam channel. Having a DID expert start a channel to help explain and give credence to the disorder has been something I’ve been longing to see for the past few years. TH-camrs with DID have done an amazing public service, but I’ve long wished for some DID experts to come forward to back them up with their clinical experiences and knowledge of the relevant research.
Im in that place right now!
From what I can tell from this video he seems like such a nice and down-to-earth person and that is a great trait for a therapist
Oh my gosh, when he's comparing the types of traumas with the bombing vs critical, emotionally unavailable parents, I felt validated. I cant express how many times in the past I've compared others "real trauma" to my "minor problems" and just undermine myself. "There's always someone who has it worse", right?
It would be interesting to hear an expert talk more about the dissociative spectrum that can include osdd and bpd
Please check out my video on precisely this topic!
@@thectadclinic so endogenic systems are real?
Yes someone who was just diagnosed with OSDD. I would love to see that
@@kaiyodei endogenics are systems who claim to be systems with 0 trauma or cause for it. BPD and OSDD are also traumagenic, so. That’s not endogenics. Idk where this came from
Thank you so much for this Jess!! When he said it really takes only one more alter, and the trauma can be very simplistic based on the case, was refreshing.
I met my first alter, who I consider my brother, when I was 15. (Body is 25 now)
Both of us have been scared to come to terms with it, but had no choice when new alters showed themselves.
I also have basically zero trauma memory. But I am the host. So yeah.
Thank you so much to Dr. Lloyd As well. Very insightful and helpful. 💙
Really fantastic interview. I thought it was really factual and I learnt a lot. I can see you've put in a tremendous amount of effort into this video. Well done and I look forward to the rest of the series. Hope you all are doing well and are keeping safe
Thank you SO MUCH for this! I've been in therapy for a while but my DID diagnosis is new. My therapist really wants to continue helping me but she has never dealt with dissociative disorders before. She is doing her job and educating herself, reaching out to mentors, and trying to learn how to best help me. I'm going to send her this video because I think it will help us both. I can't thank you enough for the work you do. It has been a difficult three months for our system. I came to youtube to see if anyone else had this strange disorder I didn't know much about. I found nothing but education and acceptance. Thank you.
I really hope things worked out for you. Doing therapy for someone who dissociates without proper training can be really dangerous :(
@@abbiepancakeeater52 nope. she dropped me as a client and i haven't been able to find anyone who both treats dissociative disorders AND takes my shitty insurance. yay american healthcare system
@@TheDevler23as a therapist so sorry you are dropped as a client over this!
hope you found a therapist to work with you!
Man I wish I'd seen this video when i was writing a class paper on DID symptoms and myths.. I could've elaborated a lot more. Very informative! Thank you Jess and Dr. Lloyd!
I was diagnosed with dissociation but as part of having emotionally unstable personality disorder. I love watching your videos, thankyou for the information you provide. I wasnt diagnosed until I was 30 and I'm now 48 so been struggling a while and had cbt and dbt but still dissociate alot. My family say they believe I have at least 12 others. I find it hard to count how many. Thanks again for your information.
I have DID is the last several therapist don't know how to help me..and the suicidal alters are the worst. I manage it the best I can. and today has been a little challenging. Had moments living outside my body. watching tv on DID child alters showed up. I agree that it's hard in winter with my seasonal effective disorder. sometimes I rotate some with my ptsd.
This was really helpful. The point Dr. Mike Lloyd makes about the way having some support from others can make the difference between someone being 'high functioning' despite having extreme trauma, or struggling to cope which he refers to as 'low functioning' is so on point. The role of people in one's life and how they can contribute to one's ability to cope and, conversely of course' potentially worsen how one is coping is very important.
The amount of respect and understanding in this video is wholesome
I don't have DID, nor know anyone personally who does, but came across system and spouse randomly, and found them super interesting and really enjoyed watching each alter, and wanted to learn more about it. Very good interview, so thank you
I love this. My husband and I talked about moving to where Dr. LLoyd is from America, but realistically well.....I have no money or I would go. For now I have him here.
My response to the fad question is, I was dissociating in the 1980s and social media didnt exist. I've always had a partial connection with part of me, called Jack. I call him my Helper, my brother. I'm aware, partially so. And I feel him take over. He is strong and no emotions. He can stand toe to toe with anyone (my dad was a psychopath and so i needed that I suppose). I still do. If Jack doesn't front in a year, I honestly become really sad because I cannot handle life and I NEED him and he hasn't been there. It has been a good year and that's been rough on me
Hello! I have OSDD & your part sound very much like my two (Billy & ???female) who are both strong protectors. Im guessing from certain events in my childhood. I do also have bpd & cptsd 💜
This video is amazing and so informative. We were officially diagnosed by Dr Mike Lloyd back in 2017(I think?) and he was just as amazing as he is in this video. We are hoping to be referred to the CTAD clinic again soon for treatment.
Thank you so much Jess and co and Mike Lloyd for this video.
i'm really excited to see what you guys do with this series and i think it'll be really informative! as a uk subscriber who likely has did (i'm professionally recognised and waiting to be fully diagnosed) it's really interesting and reassuring to see an expert answering questions expressing his view, and it's good to learn about the clinical process. it's also amazing to know there's now 3 clinics in the uk!! i'm really thankful for this channel and please keep up the amazing work!
I would certainly love to have more long form videos like this with experts and such! I'm so glad I found your account its been so much relief and so much learning!
❤❤❤ *I am so glad you guys take your time with things... As much as you guys had not had a video every single week (which is fine), im glad you guys did so in order to have the best legit information and teachings of this disorder as professional as possible and as well taking care of yourselves. You are all a very strong system with loving support. And thanks to your hubby Jess for being an all loving supportive person in your guys' lives. Thank you!*
I know this video is rather old but this is very helpful information from a professional that actually understands things.
I love this idea!!! Thank you all so much for sticking around and starting this series on top of your other videos. I do not have DID but I appreciate learning and sharing what I learn with those I know. It's a ripple effect.
Super helpful video and perspective - thank you so much for the care and commitment you have to de-stigmatizing dissociation, and for the tempered tone and emphasis on education you have. Love you and the boys ❤️ you are incredibly courageous and I’m praying for your continued healing from the trauma so unjustly inflicted on you, whatever that looks like for your system.
Hey! I’ve been around since the BBC documentary times and I just want to thank you for sharing your+your systems story and the facts around things. I don’t have DID but I have learnt to look after my own mental health issues and if I ever encounter a system or even just anyone who seems to be experiencing their own mental issues I know I can behave around that person in the best way I can. I can help and support without understanding what’s happening. I don’t know if that completely makes sense but yeah, thank you for educating me and honestly just being someone else who understands 💖
Rest in Power Gorge Floyd ✊🏿❤️
THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING YOU GUYS DO!!!!!
Thank you and Dr Mike for such a fantastic interview! It was really informative and supportive. What a fab therapist and professional to know! Thank you for sharing this partnership and knowledge with the community. The video helped clarify quite a few things. Absolutely brilliant!
It would be great to ask an expert with lived experience of being an OSDD 1a/1b system for representation of the DID spectrum. The Rings System and the Alexandrite System are fantastic OSDD 1b channels.
This is so helpful for me as I try to work through my own trauma and dissociation. I'll be watching this several times, I think. Thank you, both!
Thank you for this..I am in school become a licensed therapist and I want to work with DID.. My husband had DID he and his system passed away. I lost my family in there I want to help others do bad since I couldn't help them.
I don't have DID but because of your videos, I got newfound courage to heal and take care of my mental health. I found out that I have Maladaptive daydreaming which cannot get diagnosed but I'm looking at getting help as well with dealing with trauma. I wish that the boys will be around more as well. I know that it is a bit quiet for the past few days. I wish all the best for you and the boys also with gaz and eevee.
as someone with it, do you have their equvilent of an innerworld? I'm skeptical on how some make it sound like, or a few honestly believe it is a real other universe.
Really enjoyed listening to this. I am late diagnosed autistic - that happened age 38. I was diagnosed BPD and Major Depression age 21. Recently diagnosed with CPTSD a few months ago. I am almost 50. I can strongly relate to depersonalization/derealization and shifting personality states and not feeling in control. I also have a long history of eating disorders and beginning to see the connection with changing personality states. Since childhood I have experienced distressing 'out of body' experiences. I suspect I may also have some kind of dissosiation disorder going on. I relate to the intense shame and not wanting to expose what I experiences and the fact that it seems normal to me as it's been going on since childhood. I had a metit mal seizure 30 years ago where I was insensitive to physical pain which isn't usual for me. I love to gain knowledge and self exploration and tend to sit on things mentally a long time before taking action due to shame and fear of not being believed and being able to explain myself. I am beginning to see some differences between autistic shutdown/meltdown and dissosiative symptoms and also connection. Can be a real mind eff at times!
Brilliant interview, thank you so much Jess and Dr Mike 👏👏👏
This was helpful for us. We get so mixed up and have so much doubt as an OSDD system, but I'm just so easily able to point to specific things you both talked about and say "that's us!"
- Jamie
I loved this interview! It learned so much and Dr. Mike is very engaging in how he explains things. Thank you all for making this series. I'm very exciting for future videos!!
Hello, I just wanted you, jake, jamie, ed, ollie, gaz and eevee to know that I love watching your videos, I hope you are well :). I find all of your videos entertaining and very educational (which is what I look for in a video). You're videos always put a massive smile on my face 😁 Daliwch ati gyda'r gwaith da ac bydd gennych gefnogwr cymreag bob answer (keep up the good work and you'll always have a welsh fan) ❤
Aww diolch yn fawr! Dw’in caru ti ☺️💖🌸🙏
@@MultiplicityAndMe Diolch yn fawr i ti hefyd, gobeithio bod pawb yn teimlon dda ac yn mwynhau'r haul sydd mas yn Cymru. (Also sorry if my spelling is rubbish, I can speak welsh but not spell it hahaha)
Thank you to all of you, this has been so helpful and so full of love 💖
Didn't know anything about DID until this video. Super informative!
30:50 I will say here that one of my alters actually likes meditation and it's a nice calming easy way to switch... Doesn't always work as it can be very difficult to find a nice quite relaxing place where we can meditate but it does usually work as positive trigger for one specific alter to front.
That said there was some really helpful advice there I hadn't really considered before. I'm not going to go into details here but the bit about stopping and realizing that there's no actual threat... that seems really obvious but trying to communicate that internally to other members of the system isn't really something I had even ever considered. I have noticed especially online, that alters will pop up when triggered by posts or whatever we've seen online, like they feel a need to protect when there's no actual danger because it's online and no one really knows where we live. Someone might make me feel terrible with some terrible troll post but there's no real threat, so that's something I think we need to work on.
Validation and acceptance is something we all desire and deserve 💕🙏
That was so helpful for so many reasons! Not the least of which is the clinical perspective and understanding how my therapist is doing things. Thank you so much!
This is a fantastic interview. I’m so happy to learn more about DID.
I do not have DID, but very interested in learning about all things for sensitivity purposes. This is so very helpful thank you for putting it together. I am in therapy for anxiety and depression, we are also working through suppressed memories and childhood trauma. And although I am in no way comparing situations, because that is not fair, there is some really great coping techniques in here that have been of great help and that I plan to try. Thank you all so much for what you do and share, I am sure you are helping so many people. Definitely have helped me!
Wow, this was incredible. His energy and explanations were great. This is a great idea, I look forward to the next instalments.
Ever since I found this channel I've become so fascinated by DID,each alter ,etc to the point were I just want to learn as much as I can. I guess you can say im very positive about DID. And I know that each alter is just as human as everyone else, their just in ones head. That doesn't mean to me that ones crazy. anything but that. Having DID is amazing I love seeing how one goes about their day with DID.
I don't know what it is but disorders just fascinate me. I get excited when I see one of the boys fronting because I get learn them and what they mean to you and what their part is in the system.
Thank you for these videos Jess,Ollie,Jake,Jamie and Ed.
Great interview and thank you to Jess and Dr. Lloyd for putting this together. I do want to say, the answer to the differences between OSDD and DID was overwhelmingly incomplete. It feels like OSDD did not get enough attention, as it usually doesn't, which is frustrating to those of us who have it in the plural community. Coming from a popular DID TH-camr, it would be really wonderful to have an expert speak more thoroughly on OSDD.
Have you seen Dr Lloyd’s YT channel yet? He has published a separate video explaining the difference between OSDD and DID. Hope you find that helpful.
I agree, I had the same thought
I’ve just started treatment for complex PTSD dissociative disorder (not sure which one ) but I have parts and voices) and it’s took years to get where i am. It’s been a very confusing time and still don’t really understand what is going on inside me and all!! This video is very informative. Thank you. I’m doing the three stage trauma focused therapy.
I can’t imagining so scary as to losing time and coming back into my body and being somewhere I don’t remember going. I would think I was going crazy for sure. Great and informative interview.
It definitely feels crazy. Been there, done that. I’ve had a panic attack a few times when I would realize I didn’t know how I got somewhere else, or what happened between the last thing I remembered happening and “waking up”.
I went into a Fugue State in 2020, and when I came to, everything was so screwed up in my life and caused me more trauma.
I just recently got diagnosed and this helps a lot. Thank you for teaching us about DID and giving people with DID a voice.
THIS IS SO IMPORTANT. I can't stress this enough, THANK YOU Multiplicity&Me
Literally everyone I talk to I have to school on DID ! I’m no expert by any means but don’t like people who “assume” they know!
Please promise us you aren’t leaving too, youre one of the only DID channels we have left, youre incredible and a huge inspiration to us. thank you for everything and please keep going xx ❤️❤️
Shinnzy's Headspace I didn’t know about these channels and you’re 100% right. It is difficult to see the ones who taught you DID isn’t something to be ashamed of leave but you’re definitely right. I’ll be sure to look at your channel too, thank you x
tysm for this video 💕 ive been questioning whether im a system or not bc i have a lot of symptoms and this video has helped a lot
If therapy created DID, that would require a whoooooooole lot of creativity given the diversity of the systems out there!
Trauma created the DID
it's a form of hypnosis I think. and the creativity could be subconsious. as some creative people just seem to get their ideas "out of the blue"
All attentions seeking girls though can you explain or name one masculine cis male with it ?
You guys are amazing. Thank you for this informative discussion. I have been trying to understand everything I can about DID. Thank you for this. Keep up the good work..
I can’t figure out if I have OSDD or DID… or bipolar?? But that one doesn’t seem to fit nearly as much as a dissociative disorder. I’ve wondered if I’ve got DID off and on for years now. However I have a new drive for answers and healing as recently an alter took over (I think?) who is reallllyyyy angry and destructive. She has always been the most present “other” in my head. Although I keep doubting it’s not some sort of super mean inner monologue thing. We have conversations, usually disagreements, often. She was pretty quiet for a long time, until two super triggering events occurred close together. Since then, I’ve not been “myself” and gradually feeling more and more dissociated. Like she took over driving the body almost completely, I could only watch from a little box deep in my head. Sometimes feels like some level of co-consciousness, other times I’m gone for a bit. Like a very deep nap almost? And then I’ll get thrown in to “clean up” whatever chaos and destruction the Other has caused. I won’t remember doing/saying things until after the fact. Like “lie” (aka to myself and others, but once someone shows me evidence of me doing/saying “XYZ”, I’ll get a hazy kind of memory of doing X, maybe some bits of Y, no memory of Z at all. enough to where I question myself a lot.
as soon as I have a thought along the lines of “I probably have DID/OSDD” I immediately think “maybe I’m making it up”. Then “okay but the symptoms, the evidence is pointing to this” and cycle right back to I’m making it up or I’m psychotic or something.
If anyone has any advice or thoughts they can offer please please leave me a reply
And yes I will be (finally) bringing this up in my next therapy session.
I love this video so much. I wish you could do a regular sesh with him every month for us all.
This was so informative and I can’t wait to see what becomes of this series. It’s been a stressful time for everyone and abit of drama has happened so it’s wonderful to see this channels and others continuing to put out the right message out there. Hope everyone in the system and the family are all safe and well
Thank you for continuing to provide accessible education and information to everyone who is looking for it during this difficult time.
Awwww the painting of the kitties!! I met them in 2014, the black and white one has the softest fur evah! 🥰
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Brilliant and so helpful! Jess, thank you so much for introducing us to Dr. Lloyd. Great interview, and very timely. Lots of love!
You're looking amazing jess, really glowing xx
It’s just sweat from the hot sun in that room 😂🙈 but thank you 💦
I must also say thank you, I feel a lot better after this video. For years I've been involved with mental health services but I keep falling out of it because it doesn't work for me. More so because I felt like I was just slapped with a BPD diagnosis, from 14 at a young age I genuinely believed it, at 21 I managed to fight for a rediagnosis to prove that I had it but as an older more informed adult I look at it and feel its simply not true the more I learn and research about Did the more the jigsaw that was forever missing fits, to hear Dr Lloyd say that inexperienced or unknowledgeable clinicians tend ot just avoid did diagnosing and slap other diagnosis on (unless I have misinterpreted him) made me feel better. We're currently waiting on our first appointment back to see about getting treatment again and exploring the possibility of did but sadly lock down put a halt on that 😕 so thank you for this video it means a lot. Sorry this comment is so long
@@MultiplicityAndMe also I'll take your answer but I genuinely believe you're just looking great :)
Thank you. Thank you for not leaving too. (I totally understand why others did. Self care is important.) This community needs the fresh air that is Jess and system. I am now a proud subscriber of Dr Lloyd. Thank you for bringing him into the lives of people all over the world.
Stay safe World Neighbors 🌎🌍🌏 so much love to you all.
Hey Jess and everyone else, We love your videos and their content, this one is by far or favorite! It is a great interview with lots of good information. We came across Dr. Llyod's site late last week and binged all his videos. We thank you both for everything you've been doing!
What a lovely video Jess 🙂 You very kindly commented on a comment I had made in a past video (mental health clinician with DID keeping quiet about my diagnosis). Keep up the good work.
Thank you so much this video really made me feel a little less scared. But this is still so hard to accept...i feel so alone and I feel like this just will be used against us. I'm seeing so many signs of how long this has been my life but I ignored it and sometimes I still want to. Its too hard. Too strange to people. Embarrassing
I read about your idea of the ask an expert when I was checking your patreon. I don't know why I skipped over this video and didn't see it. Amazing, well made video! Wonderful questions. I loved the doctor and his energy, he was very thorough as were you guys with your questions. I look forward to more type of these videos and I really hope to be part of you guys' patreon in the future. Keep up the awesome work! .. You deserve more views than this.
I was told I had recovered memory syndrome and only relating to this now ! Thank you 🙏
I was always so confused about having OSDD (and I was even questioning myself about having alters) when I tried to compare my traumas (the ones I remember) to someone's traumas. I always say like nyeeh, it is not a big deal... however it is, but I don't know..
Brilliant channel. Thank you for putting this together. Just a little challenge on citing CTAD as the first clinic treating trauma and dissociative disorders? What about the Clinic for Dissociative Studies, the Pottergate Clinic and the Traumatic Stress Clinic at the Maudsley? These specialist places have been around for many, many years!
Fantastic vid again. Really helpful again for us supporting our loved ones and their system.
Can you talk also about OSDD 1A?
Why? she has DID not OSDD 1a. The therapist she's talking to will talk about it on his channel though, just go to some of his older vids and ask and he will likely cover it for you in depth.
This was sooo helpful! What Mr Lloyd said about the person in leafy Surrey was spot on. I also liked his quote " Don't hide cause hiding is where shame sits". I listen to guided meditations but really struggle to relax, I do like just having a good loud chat into thin air! I guess someone benefits! The last time I dissociated big time was I'd gone to watch Misfits. I'd never seen it before. I got chatting to my new teddies and was still in that head space, episode 2 came on and I was a gonna! It said it was an 18! I can only look into this subject a little bit at a time cause it seems a painful subject for me.
Thank you so very much! Cool episode. Thank you for the links.
When i first read Dr.Mike i thought it was the hot youtube doctor but this was still informative
The sexy doctor. Me too.
I know, me too!
this is such a fantastic video! and SO important too! thank you, Jess and Mike! great start to the #ATE series!
Thanks, this is very good. I would love if you kept this series going!
I hope you Jess, and your system and family are staying safe during these crazy times, not just outside of the internet but inside it as well. I love you guys, and I love the message of love and acceptance you spread :)
Excellent interview! Thank you for putting this content out there
Thanks for this...when i was first diagnosed i turrned to youtube for some other stories or experiences. A lot of sites i did not find to be genuine until i found yours thanks so much.
We all thank you so much for you all sharing your life, science and facts. 💖