I've been working with a patient who had a stroke that has seemed to set his dementia into motion. I don't work directly in his memory care, but talking to him, he knew he was starting to forget things. He was a retired attorney. Very smart, well spoken, and had a calmness to him that showed he was used to being in control of things. He'd forget that he'd spoken to me the day prior, he couldn't get some simple words off the tip of his tongue, he'd misunderstand very simple instructions (how to press the call light). His memory therapy involved writing down what he did that day, and you can tell he really tried. Had pages full of stuff for each day. He regressed as the weeks went on. He couldn't find the word "pain" in his head to tell us he was hurting. He asked for my name 3 times in one conversation. He thought we were lying to him and always wanted everything to be approved by his wife first - but then he'd forget that we'd already spoken to her. And he loved to argue, but it was always nonsensical. He'd sit and think really hard about what he wanted to say, and then he'd cry when he couldn't get it. He had a spinal surgery and was given a morphine pump and quickly grew hooked on it. In 8 weeks he went from a respectable, established, retired professional to a man lost in his head, crying over literally losing his mind, screaming for pain medicine, and not being able to see the only person he trusts due to COVID restrictions. You see a lot of sad things working in hospitals, and you learn to wall yourself off from your emotions. Tbh I often found myself more annoyed than sympathetic toward him. But every once in a while, I have a case that gets to me. That one got to me a little.
This is a horrifying thought, and the same thought that always travels through my mind. Your memory is where your soul/true self is located. If you forget yourself, you die. You are someone else now, it doesnt matter if you still have the same body. Your memory of your life is gone, its as if you are already dead. To be confronted with these horrifying cases day by day is why i could never work in a hospital, but i respect the people that can. On a more positive note: For receiving such a generous gift as your life, you always pay with death in the end. Even life costs a certain currency, and that is death. You just pay back what has been given to you, its all a fair process.
I'm sorry to hear that, though not related but it sorta reminds me of myself. Not in this way but rather a nother. So I for long lacked empathy for people, more in the sense that their emotions truly didn't matter to me, more than anything I used to see stuff through analysing it and put values to it and on top of that being Bullied at school for my odd "clownish behaviour" didn't help either. It actually kinda made things worse on my part of trying to understand others more, stuff kept their pace until one day one of my friend came to me in. Hurry and said she wanted to talk to me, what she said will remain a secret as she so asked but I'll say that it probably was sensitive. She was crying to me about her problems and I was just there unfazed, I didn't know how to react I felt bad but didn't know how to show so I tried to give her reasons and solutions as to how her problems can be fixed ,it helped her but after that I was the one who was feeling lost. So I too know how it feels to be lost, it's wierd, sometimes you're happy then sad then angry and upset, overall just not well, in my case I was questioning my own self as to why can't I just empathize like others do, I always thought it was because of me being an introvert until one day I told my parents about it and then they took me to a phycologist, and after days of being tested I got diagnosed with Asperger's syndrome. Now I'm 18 and next year I'll be graduating from high school . The point is that hadn't it been for Y + X= Z I would never have become the person I am today, as I learned more and more about my condition I got introduced to a lot of things, one of them being drawing, and 2 years after I started drawing I got into multiple art competitions and other stuff, ( and a lot more ) . Though it may seem as though your job is hard but on the other hand you truly are doing people with problems a great solace, without people like I may have never become the person that I am today, All and all, it's all about give and take, we give support to take comfort or love in exchange for love. Work for improvement and improve for easier care. At least that's how I feel about it, it's like a reaction that needs to be fufiled in anyway there really is. And your task although stressful but quite essential for everyone, and I thank you for it. Thank you for your service and hopefully I wasn't mean in anyway😀 take care .
The last part is called terminal lucidity, it's when everything the patient (or in this case the player) remembers everything before death. It's kinda scary really, imagine you remembered everything but in the next second you're gone :(.
Damn, now i wanna die even more because i can barely remember anything, that way I can finally find out what happened in the past, what i did But i just hope it won't be distorted like some of my memories...
@@PDD555 I am aware of "Terminal Lucidity" existence but, I don't get why it has something to do with God. Some things are just so hard to explain so people just assume that it was God's doing or something.
minutes before dementia kills the patient they suddenly remember everything, the protagonist remembered his friend and his home and died on the hospital bed
@@yb101z I won’t, but I’ll just say this; please appreciate your friends and family’s kindness, shower them with love (not the Alabama kind of love), and do something to brighten their day.
I’ve heard that we see our lives play out in our minds as we die. No one knows if this is true or not but we have no way of knowing. If we somehow found a way to study the afterlife then perhaps but I don’t think that that will ever come to be
Yunno, when I clicked on this, I thought it was going to be a nostalgia trip in Minecraft form, revisiting the days that we can’t ever truly go back to. Boy, was I wrong. I feel like my view on the effect of dementia and terminal lucidity has been widened, if even ever so much. Truly, it is a heartbreaking thing…
For those who don't know what a *forget-me-not* is, it's an actual flower that symbolizes remembrance for those who have passed away, but more commonly, it represents true love and devotion. Which explains a lot.
1 detail I noticed was at the very end he could see everyone, which I think alludes to a study saying that a patient with dementia could remember mainly most things before inevitable death.
That thing is called Terminal Ludicity and until now there's no reason for the phenomenon to happen. The only thing we know is that when it happens it means that the patient is going to die soon.
@@ThyFloorestFloor Yeah. I want to study a different field of science, so I'm not really sure about this. Honestly I kinda think it's the brain giving a final effort to repair all of the neuron connections, but at what cost? The brain finally succeeds, but the person will die because the connections were too far gone to be successfully fixed.
@@kyoza5069 ngl, that doesn't sound right at all. I feel it's more like "War Emergency Power" kicking in one last time. Something is going to give out and that puts the body into a state of alert. Hormones are released that allow the brain to function for a brief period in the manner that it was previously able to achieve. Then whatever it was that was going to give out does so and it's over.
Good details: Forget-me-not flower from the girl He forgets her first Levels of dementia that he got Dog collar changing House changing Friends just being a memory
and the way he starts running after the third house, as if he realizes that something's wrong, only to enter the fourth house and realize how much worse it is...
and that the items on/in the refrigerator or whatever gradually became more and more muddled and rotated, making his mind seem disorientated and confused. also the food on the table starts to become different items that aren't food items, like a book and quill and other things, also making it seem confusing and changing. plus -him not remembering who he was, seeing nothing in the mirror -the lighting changing to soul lamps instead of torches - not remembering the dog - surroundings changing as he moves - not remembering what doors lead to where and what rooms were what - not remembering what the "good old days" were like and not knowing what tomorrow will have or if there will be a tomorrow - trying to save his last memories and items that he had that reminded him of things, people and friends he can't remember, storing them in an ender chest -last memories and thoughts before he dies being his friends
There are a solid handful, maybe more, mc vids I've seen that are better than 90% of the movies I've seen and it gives me hope. Heck TH-cam in general is better than Netflix imo.
I've seen some amazing studio-made films, like 'Ron's Gone Wrong' (2021), 'Joker' (2019) and 'Boy Erased' (2018), but I do agree with the sentiment that you guys share. Most of today's movies that I've seen don't have the thought-provoking charm that this video does. It feels like Hollywood, especially, cares more about money than spreading a good message.
To those who don’t understand the last part of the video, it’s a direct reference to terminal lucidity within people with dementia. In the final moments of their life, they can often suddenly remember everything - and then die. Life is cruel.
@@megawl2086 i think is better like this, having a chance to say goodby. Even if you are not aware, you still suffer and this could give you a last moment of peace
how is that a cruel ?? its a wonderful gift, finally recovering, having a chance to say its ok, that you remember, that it was just a weird phase. I would much rather have that than not.
When I saw this I originally was expecting a joke video but instead I was shown a video that describes the utter horror of forgetting those around you and losing your own sanity as everything around you is missing. This is amazing
I have memory problems that seem to get worse every now and then. I’m in the process of getting it diagnosed, but everyone needs a mental help specialist these days, and it makes it even harder to search for help when you forget that you have to. If this were in any form more real it would have hurt me to watch. A great piece of art in the medium this artist could make it in. Love when there is love to be had. Live every day like it’s your last. Ensure that you have no regrets. Feel every emotion you need to feel, then move on and feel every emotion after that. Cherish your moments when you can, they all pass.
@@MiloDeFrisco I'm truly sorry to hear that and also thank you for showing inspiration despite your current situation. I give you the best of my regards.
Honestly thats how I feel, I've always been horrified of the thought of losing memories I cherished, or even just losing people. I try not to think about it but honestly thats my reasoning for being Chronophobic (Fearing the idea of passing time) I always feel like I'm not given enough time on this earth and each birthday I have is just counting the year until my eventual death, along with others. Despite being an athiest I completely understand those who are religious, such as Christians. I mean, it'd be harder to fear your death if you believe that there will be a heaven, or something waiting for you, where you can meet your loved ones. Honestly I both love, and hate the idea of immortality. Blessed with living forever, but cursed with having to see countless people die infront of you, and no way to stop it other than isolating yourself. Which I find ironic, as those who dream of immortality often feel like it would be a route to stopping time- yet it doesnt. And yeah, I thought this was a joke at first but the person or people who made this truly made the setting feel endearing, and yet so horrifying.
I love how at some point, the door behind you disapears, like there is no going back, also the reappearence of colors and mementos from the past with more soothing music was a good scene, this small minecraft video teaches me that memories are fleeting, and progres is inevitable, but if we cherish the moments we had with care and preserve things from the past, it can persist a bit longer, shows importance in small objects, how they can encapsulate memories and just for a while bring back "good old times". I say this is art, even if just a meme.
I cannot listen to this song without feeling a sense of dread and despair. It makes my skin crawl knowing that this could happen to me in the future, and everything and everyone could just eventually fade from my mind
Dementia runs in my family. It's been on my mind for the past few years after working in an old folks home and seeing the effects first hand. Live everyday as if it were your last, don't take things to seriously, and always know that things could be worse. Live in the moment and enjoy life.
I was honestly expecting another meme, but instead I received the same vibes as the original album. Both this Minecraft visual and the album are extremely well made, and definitely convey an accurate message. Terminal lucidity at the end was a cherry on top of it all. Made me cry, this truly is a work of art.
@@johnnycranknose4098 if you didnt know, the title “Its just a burning memory” is a song from an album named “Everywhere At The End Of Time” or “EATEOT” for short. (I suggest watch it at your own safety because you will regret hearing the album)
I never tought I would ever see such a serious topic portrayed so perfectly by minecraft, or any other game for that matter. My grandma suffered from dementia for 20 years until the day she passed. It was hard for the whole family, there was fighting and sacrifice she was completely oblivious of. It tore her kids apart from one another. I feel guilty sometimes, when she passed last year, I didn't say goodbye, I stood there by her bed just watching her and reflecting on how much the whole family had waited for that moment. I felt relief that she would finally rest, and relief that we all would rest too. I was tired of seeing her scream in horror whenever someone she didn't know got into her room, we heard those screams everyday, she was scared and confused and just wanted to go home to a place she recognized. I can't even begin to imagine how awful that must feel, And to struggle like that for over 10 years... She deserved more. But we also did. I don't miss her, she was never good to me but, I can only move towards forgiving her. Slowly, but one day I will. Dementia and alzheimer are bad. Really bad. For the family, for the patient, the caretakers. I really wouldn't wish that over anyone. Most people fear being a burden, and living with someone with dementia is the definition of a burden, as much as you love them, they stop being themselves after years, they're no longer the person you knew and loved, they're not there anymore. It's an empty vessel. Most people don't live long enough to get to that stage, but my grandma was unlucky, she lived year after year after year and suddenly her health plummeted and she was gone in a couple days. I'm sorry this got so dark, and probably someone else who has seen this first person will disagree with me about their experience. I just had to vent a little bit about my own experience. Also sorry it's so long If you even made it this fsr
I made it this far and it made me stop breathing.. I'm truly sorry and it scares me that this could happen.. This video isnt exactly what the illness has but it does at the sametime.. I'm in shock atm I really hope you're okay and godbless your soul..
Don't feel sorry, I feel sorry for what happened to you and your family, I hope you guys get better and have happy lives. While your at it, go and eat ice cream in a picnic with your family, and tasty sandwiches. It'll help you recover your soul. Bye love! ♥️
I've been in the same situation but not for so long... I'm so sorry. Don't feel bad for being okay with the fact that she was finally able to rest. You don't have to forgive her either. You can always exist with the acceptance of what she's done knowing that it is over. May she rest in peace and may you find peace. Godspeed, my friend.
Watching this gave me such mix signals of fear, but also grief. I had a grandfather on my moms side. He was a great man, he volunteered to fight in Vietnam, and when he came back home, he was so hurt by what he saw, he turned to drinking, and would abuse my mom and my aunt (physically). I never knew he existed untill I was about 7. My mom was driving him to a new nursing home, and she also had to pick me up from a birthday party. I was a shy kid and I was always told to stay away from strangers. He would ask me questions about myself like I’d known him my whole life. A year and a half ago, I learned more about him, and I found out he’d been diagnosed with dementia. My mom even though she resented him, she still cared about him. And my dad never wanted me around him, but for a little while he would call us and we would say hi, and he would be the nicest man in the whole world. One day, my dad told us that he wanted us to get out of the house for a little while. He took us to Dave and busters, played some arcade games and had a blast. I came back home to see my mom pouring with tears. I hugged her and she told me, my grandpa Bruce had died. So much was going through my mind. She told me how they sang his favorite Irish song before he died. I wish I had gotten to know him better, I wish I knew my grandad. Now that I’m slightly older now, I like to think that, in those final few months, he didn’t remember the hate, and the grief he had to go through, and he was the man my mom had known for those few years. I now had recently found out that my non biological grandfather (who I consider to be my real grandad) has dementia. And I’m so afraid, and I’ve been trying so hard to get know him as well as I can. I love him too much and I’m scared he’s gonna be gone just like my grandpa Bruce. If you’ve just read this whole thing I’m sorry for just emotion dumping. This video made me just feel so much and I had to get it out. Thank you for this
I don't know if I should hate myself for crying over a story I can't relate about, after all it's all parasocial, although I hope your grandpa remembers you as long as he can.
My grandma also has dementia and I rarely have the opportunity to see her (I'm a student and she lives 800km away from me). She was one of the nicest and most caring persons I know and now can't recognise any family members and forgot how to speak or walk recently. It's so sad. Dementia in general is just sad.
i just realized that the protagonist forgets the dog's collar color. it's originally cyan, then on the 2nd stage it turns gray and on the 3rd stage it turns black
My grandmother had dementia in her last years. A once cheerful and sharp lady she became unrecognizable. My dad and aunt did everything they could to keep her home, but eventually, they had to move her to a nursing home. She understood what was happening and got depressed to the point of not eating and they had to feed her through a tube. Two weeks later she was hospitalized. My dad asked her if she needed anything, and in a final moment of clarity, she said, "I want to be healthy".
Arrived expecting a meme, Left feeling genuine emotion and a weird feeling in my chest. A mixture of despair thinking about this terrible illness, and reconcilliation knowing that terminal lucidity will at least provide a brief moment of reconnection with forgotten people. I could write a hundred thousand words and still it would not do justice how amazing this is. Bravo, sir. Bravo.
@@luz2949 Almost all the content regarding the Caretaker's masterpiece that I've seen are memes. An example that comes to mind is the association with Trollface getting dementia. So when I saw this, I expected a meme as well. I was delightfully proven wrong though
My dad had dementia and he became so distant that I could barely even recognize him. After everything we went through in his last moments, he started crying saying how he remembered us. We had a touching moment before he sadly passed away. Love you Dad.
God, that’s horrifying. I’ve heard so and seen so many scenarios like this and the gravity of each one feels just as heavy as the last. Crazy, you can build up who you are for the first 60 years of your life just to slowly degrade after and not even recognize who you even are at the end of it. I’m sorry you had to go through that man, hope you’re doing alright.
This is a perfectly edited and preformed video. Each time he enters the house, the level of cheerfulness/vibrancy degrades with something dissapearing and eventually he couldn’t even remember what his house looked like, what food he was once served, the colour of his house,his friends and how the colour of his dog’s collar till the point where he couldnt even remember what he himself looked like, and afther the part where he travled up the stairs to encounter 3 rooms, 1 of them was labbled.. well, nothing showing that he couldnt remember anything from his past. Another 1 of them was labeled ‘the good old days’ and how it lead to a dull grey, meaning that he could not remember anything from the time when he felt the most alive... the time when he could still remember. The last one was labeled ‘tommorow’ which was led to nothing, symbolizing that he does not have anything to do the following day, or rather, he does not remember what he wanted to do the next day. And the last part where he was walking down the long hallway, it started with a dull grey colour with represents nothing and how it eventually built up to something. This ‘something’ shows how his dementia was eventually lifted from him and how the same flower the girl gave him at the start was potted in each pot and his achievements he accomplished during his ‘good old days’ but this hallway is eventually ended with a bed and a chest, which he would put his belongings in, showing the things he truly cared about, would not be carried with him to his afterlife, or in this case, his last sleep. When he passes out, we were able to see his last thoughts were about his friends, the few people who truly were able to brighten his day, even though it would for just that one day, he was grateful for them trying to provide him with the greatest comfort they could
I love how they have an end where the Character regains clarity and then the screen cuts. It’s an actual thing that happens with dementia patients. Before they die sometimes they will become much more aware and remember. It’s like a last hooray in their life.
Afterlife, not so cruel, when he is in heaven he prob remembers everything and can hang out with his friends 😊😂 If he remembers everything before he dies, whats to say he will renember it all in heaven?
@@jackmccool9911 I don't believe in heaven. I think when you die it'll be the same as before you were born: Peace. Emptiness. Darkness. No thoughts. No sense of time. Nothing.
what if I just yoinked this comment away, jk I personally think that dementia is more scary than death, imagine forgetting everything, everyone you loved and loved you. This is a great depiction of dementia.
it's scary for the outsider but quite often it happends that people with dementia get back their memories just before they die (terminal lucidity) it's just feels like a happy end to their life.
If you've ever had those moments of being in a dream or coming out of one, that hazy confusion of not knowing what's real, feeling like something isn't right but not knowing what it is. That is what I imagine dementia is like all the time.
I will never understand how it must feel to have all your memories slowly, but always being taken away, then minutes before death, having the equivilent of the movie of your life finaly start up again.
Jesus. The fact that you managed to portray the emotions this 6 hour album made us feel in the span of 4 minutes... amazing. This game, this album, and you are all amazing.
Its so painful that the girl who gave our protagonist the "forget me not" flower, which symbols eternal love, was the first to be forgotten. Damn it dude, you ruined my day.
Dementia runs in my family so all day i was fucking loosing my mind cause i dont want this shit to happen to me. Its awful and i feel so bad for anyone who has this.
@@mycatgavebirth1163 dude, you have to keep your mind proactive ALWAYS. Play cards, paint, do math, idk, whatever you like, this can, at least delay this desease, I’m telling you because in my family is running something similar.
@@martinbaca7697 im sorry man, ill do that. Im a overthinker so my mind is always running, but all we can do is hang in there. The way i see it is have fun while you can, just do things that make you super happy till you cant ya know?
@@martinbaca7697 im sorry man, ill do that. Im a overthinker so my mind is always running, but all we can do is hang in there. The way i see it is have fun while you can, just do things that make you super happy till you cant ya know?
2 weeks ago, I watched this video and I didn't understand a single thing, only sadness in this video. Now after I'm rewatching it when I've done my research about this, it's just even more sad, depressing, confusing and also disturbing at the same time. You made me really feel the video, this is truly well made, especially that it's made in minecraft too. You have ruined, aswell as made my day. Thank you!
I feel terrible for the people that go through this. It must drive them insane. My grandma has dementia, I never really understood what it was until a few months ago. I can't imagine how scared and frustrated she felt, to have days where she can't remember our names, or who we are. We got her to a new home where she's getting the help she needs and deserves, even though I know there most likely isn't anything they can do. My only hope is that she remembers all her happy memories Edit: Thanks for all the kind replies everyone, it really means a lot 🙂
the moment the dog disappeared was especially sad and scary because the character has made us aware of his routine everytime he steps in the house was to feed his dog or pet it but when the dog wasn't there when he came in, it created a sense of void that felt eerily uncomfortable. this is an awesome video that could have won awards.
This was so beautiful and incredibly heart breaking. Mojang was not lying when they said you can do whatever you want in minecraft, and to be honest the last thing i expected from minecraft player, is a masterpiece of a short film.
th-cam.com/video/eatIzqwB2dA/w-d-xo.html Christ died for your sins and rose on the third day, showing that anyone who trusts in him for salvation, will have everlasting life. (John 11:25-26) "Jesus said unto her, I am the resurrection, and the life: he that believeth in me, though he were dead, yet shall he live:And whosoever liveth and believeth in me shall never die. Believest thou this?" (John 3:16) For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.
My aunt recently passed away from dementia and this made me remember what it was like going to her house while she was going through different stages of dementia, thank you Nifika for making me remember the good ol 'days
I remember my great grandma asking my grandpa where he youngest son was and how she needed to see him, but he unfortunately died two weeks earlier in the same exact nursing home. I could tell it hurt my grandpa to have to remind his mom her own son died. I cry about it to this day.
@@cafe6847 I'm not exactly sure, seeing as I was unaware you could die of dementia, but it is a disease that slowly deteriorates the brain matter, so I suppose it's possible
Bro this is amazing, dementia is such a weird thing. It’s one of my worst fears, forgetting all the memories I’ve made. But I can tell how much work went into this and it definitely paid off!
This reminds me of the many thousands of forgotten and abandoned Minecraft worlds out there that were either never finished, or left to die. To me, Minecraft itself is like a burning memory: a haven of freedom and creativity that everyone will eventually leave behind, but a memory nonetheless.
Very well put. I feel the same way. I kept some of the old worlds I had played with friends. Go back to houses and places, where we had made memories. Certain things can bring back those memories. So then these are things you must cherish. ;)
There's was one thing in particular that I have never forgotten about way back in the days of 1.5.2 I still remember him. First thing I ever did was being him into the world. He was my pet wolf. His name was Rusty He ventured with me everywhere. Every new update and biome/world build we got to explore, I always took Rusty with me. But unfortunately, I stopped playing after 1.9 since I began losing interest and good computers that could run it. I lost all of my saves I never saw Rusty again. And I miss him dearly
Something that gets me, as someone who works with people with dementia in various stages, is the searching. Often they're searching for something. They have an "unmet need" and want to find a solution, but they don't know how to express it. Dementia doesn't just take memory. It takes speech, comprehension, and even vision. People in advanced stages often wander, asking for loved ones who are long gone ("when is my husband going to be here?" "Do you know where my mother is?"). After working there for a while, you become familiar to them. They may believe you're their child, grandchild, sometimes even spouse or parent. Not because you resemble the lost loved one, but because you're *there* and you're comparatively permanent and, in some capacity, familiar. It's painful, having someone many many times your age call you "mama" but you just roll with it. You answer their questions to the best of your ability, maybe get them to talk about their experiences or join the group activity. But these are temporary measures. They pacify for a short time. But these things are in an attempt to make living through this -iving through the end of their lives - more comfortable.
It sounds like your patients a kid again. They forget what knowledge they have earned with the passing years so they cling to the thing they had by them in the past, with the inability to see that the ones they love are long gone. The fact that they can’t differentiate between different people besides the fact that you the caretaker are there for them the most is very sad.
a sad detail is that the girl gives him a flower called "forget me not", which represents eternal love, however, she is the first to forget. perhaps a strong but ancient love ... in the end, he manages to remember her in her last moments, and he is the one who is closest to hers. sure is because she is the one who was more important
No, the girl didn’t forget. He did, this video was representing him having dementia and every door he goes through he loses some memory, portrayed by the slowly transforming gray surroundings and his friends disappearing one by one.
"Last online 7 years ago" vibes. I miss some of those friends I made back then. I miss the simpler times. Back when I always wanted to stay up longer and still couldn't wait for tomorrow. But we grew up didn't we? I'm not sure if the world and the people around me changed or I did but it is not the same anymore. All I wanted was to be an adult and now all I want is to be a kid again. What I wouldn't give. I hope the good times comes again some day.
I never understood why all the other kids wanted to grow up and become adults. I remember my parents telling me that being an adult is really hard, and when I heard that, I made up my mind to enjoy being a kid for as long as I can.
You know. I come back to this video every once in a while. This is just depressing. And I don't know why but every time I am on the edge of a depressive episode, I come back. Great video, and a great representation. And it makes me feel. Empty. Maybe this video contributes to me beginning the episodes. But still, I come back.
Yea, makes my realize that someday I'll be on my death bed and all my friends, family, and maybe even kids, will surround me with tears in their eyes as I slowly shut mines. Remembering all the good times I had in life.
@@rasianket7220 That's the best case scenario which most people wont get to experience. Most people are gonna die in an accident and never get to say their last words or their body just got lost and couldnt be found.... Which is even more terrifying to think about
At first, when I saw this I didn't see that it was about dementia. I took it in an entirely separate way. It's odd, how 1 thing can have 2 separate meanings to 2 different people. I thought it was the loss of that "spark" of Minecraft, of childhood, of any sense of direction in your life. The slowly corroding and fading home of a once vibrant and wonderful present became a dull and passing past. How night was always another step closer, and how doors kept closing. The memories of that game and those people who filled your life with such joy are gone. The glory days are over. I genuinely teared up thinking this was the meaning. How everything was being lost and becoming a dull gray. I know when I think back I look at the days and memories past, memories I will never relive. I also look back at the years I think were robbed from me. The experiences I should've had, the growth that should've been much more colorful, but instead, I can't remember the past year and a half of my life. The years where I'm finally supposed to become myself. (I didn't want to make this about Rona, trust me, but while writing this I made the connection that it is for that very reason I've felt dull the past while.) I was supposed to travel with friends and keep making that infamous year the best in my life. Now I have college and adulthood looming over me. However, such as the end of this video, it all sort of comes back, you get out of it, I did. I look back at those years- both the ones growing up enjoying Minecraft, and the one I felt was robbed from me- with a sense of happiness. Happiness that I got what I did. Those late nights enjoying myself with people thousands of miles away, and those days of laughing at lunch, and singing the national anthem on a cold and rainy football game. I got to live those days, but they're over. Now I have new endeavors, now I'm living a new life. Freshman me from 2020 and Minecraft me from before then are gone, those kids lived their life and have moved on. Now it's my turn to carry on what they started. Thank you for reading my paragraph - Matt
You got this Matt, I know how it feels man. I went through my college through the whole pandemic and now I’ve suddenly been thrust into the work force. It feels like it moves really fast and came out of nowhere, I can’t help but look back and see all the old memories I’ll never experience again. From playing with my friends on the play ground to playing games with my friends after school while our moms talked, and ultimately just that glow of not having to worry about bills, work, my purpose as a person. For me I took it very much the same way, just that loss of childhood and coming to terms with that. The adult world is scary and there are days that I question if I’m ready for it and if I’m cut out for it. Its hard, it’s really hard, but even though all of those warm happy memories can’t be relived, they still walk with me and remind me that I can still enjoy life and things aren’t as grey as they seem. Have a good day man, remember; one step forward is one step in the right direction. You and anyone else reading this, you made it this far; let’s see how far we can go!
I feel like this impacted so many of us deeply because of our familiarity with Minecraft itself. We've all seen it in some form or another, and many have played it. It actually felt familiar, and so did the loss of familiarity. Amazing video
The last part where he was walking down the hallway is symbolizing terminal lucidity where he can finally see(or remember) himself in the mirror, remember all the achivement in his life and finally remembers his friends... Wow. Just Wow
I was not expecting an emotional masterpiece. This was seriously well done. Ever since I’ve listened to the The Caretaker (where burning memory came from) I’ve had a new undeniable fear. Slowly losing my grip on reality and having my entire world reduced to simple shapes and patterns.
My English teacher showed us this video the other day . He wanted to show us that “ anything can be made into art” . I rewatched this a few times and think I’ve finally understood the meaning of it. Thank you
@Xx_Gaming_ TeamXx actually, they would. I've had a few teachers who've even encouraged us to play the game outside of work due to the creative opportunities within it.
The EXP orbs only appearing at the end of the first trip through the house and never again kinda fucked me up when I realized It's like those are the memories you made that day, and then afterwards...
Ohhh right the exp orbs symbolizes the experience he had that day but as he went through the house again he never got any exp orbs because he has forgotten about the experience he had that day
My nana has something similar to dementia, she forgets basic things like where she put her credit card, but it will only get worse. We recently moved her to an assisted living place, and she has already made a friend. I hope she remembers all the good times she had.
1:37 AM, I was about to click on a scary video, and then I was like "Naaah, I probably won't be able to sleep afterwards. Besides, look, there's a Minecraft video!" Wish I would've clicked on that instead. Because now I actually can't sleep.
Stage 1 - The house is as it should be. Your friends remain stable, everything is where it should be, even the dog go is happy Stage 2 - The house is greyed out in places, and some things aren’t present. The doggie is different. Stage 3 - More confusion, more missing-ness, different dog, and you take a quick moment to recognise even yourself. Stage 4/5/6 - Memory is unpresent anymore, the house is unfamiliar, it’s all gone. Finale - It all comes back to you for a moment, your friends, your achievements, your recognisability. And just as soon as it comes back, it fades away.
the finale represents terminal lucidity by the way, this usually occurs before a patient dies after living with neurological disorders (ex, dementia) it's heartbreaking to see these things actually happen in real life
I lost two of my best friends to the same car crash when I was 16. This video brought me such an intense feeling of love and loss that I haven’t felt in a while, and for that, I thank you sincerely. This video portrayed possibly one of the most important aspects of my friendship with them, that most people in my day to day life will never understand. Thank you for bringing them into my consciousness again. Here’s to those burning memories 🍻
This video always makes me cry, dementia is absolutely terrifying, forgetting your friends, your pets, how your house looked, how you look and not being able to remember
yeah. my grandma had dementia and she was convinced that her and my papas house wasnt their house. that they were renting it. atleast she didnt get to the stage where she forgot us. i miss you, grandma.
It took me a while to realize a lot of things, how the dogs collar changed colors as he walked through the doors: that all the xp he got represented what level of dementia he was in, how scary it was to lose everything by… you, yourself, in a month or week. The thought of losing my memories haunt me, I never rlly thought a world where you could travel endlessly can tear me up, that all the time I spent with everyone could just become meaningless. I’m not really scared of death because… it will happen, but dementia? That something else, a prison of memories that doesn’t make sense, a world that is full of questions but no answers. I’ve been pretty fearless, but… It’s scary, trapped in a loop that won’t end no matter what. It’s very very scary, I can’t even find words for it, terrifying, a never ending nightmare… I can’t imagine what people with dementia feels and see. I’m just out of words… I can go on and on about how terrifying it is but we all know that. A sad image of a hospital that is black and white, even your name simply, a life so full just gone, missing. How the first level is like the memories of the “good ol days” and… level 6? Like… A infinite ocean with a dark mist around blocking your view with big waves… but one exit that is… somewhere I guess. It’s probably worst than that but that’s my guess… this video portrays dementia greatly, I thought I was going to be a meme or smth lol… but I was wrong, very wrong.
I mean I knew everything that happened, but the xp bar representing which stage it was on, that's one thing I did not notice, now it makes this whole thing much more meaningful 😭
This is an out of world experiense. Never have a clip nor movie ever made me feel such strong emotions. This is art in it finest form Da Vinchi would be proud.
Before I start, I want you to know one thing: this broke something in me. While my grandfather doesn't understand Minecraft or video games or any of this, he does have Dementia and Parkinson's. It has been very hard to watch him deteriorate over these last 6 years, but my family and I have been there with him every step of the way. Now, while this video is only 4 minutes long, I can assure you that this is almost exactly how it has gone over the years, but we can only guess at so much of how he is doing in his own head. He isn't at the point anymore where he can effectively tell us what he thinks or how he is feeling. And to see what it is like from his point of view... it hurts to think that this is what it is like to be trapped in your own head, knowing that something isn't right, but also not knowing why you know. I want to congratulate you on everything, from the design to the transitions to the overall meaning and execution. I hope you go on to do bigger and better projects, and I hope you go on to make people experience more feelings and emotions like you did here with this short video.
@@lunaticnomad0 same, my grandmother is currently experiencing dementia and in sone moments she forgets who i am, this video just shows me that feeling
“Is it terrifying?” “No, I don’t think so, It’s the way it is, y‘ know, the drip finally stops” “I’ll see you on the other side” “Oh Bojack, no, there is no other side”
I have seen a few videos on minecraft isn’t what it used to be and the old days are forever gone. But this video just brought me back and the subtle differences that are also so noticeable keep the shock of the memories forever fading and we’ll only have a few in the end. Thank you so much for making this short film !
It's actually like a dementia patient because the house slowly begins to loose color and certain characteristics about it until be forgets everything including himself (when he looked in the mirror and sees nothing
same, even though I'm still very young and there's still a lot of years before I might have Alzheimer's , I'm afraid of my grandma having it because almost everyone from her family has it. I really don't want her to forget me.
@@fhufhfhjfjfjf9534 the music is from an album called everywhere at the end of time. Written by a brilliant musician. I suggest you listen to it, its probably one of the most popular avante garde pieces to date, its 6 hours long and is meant to be listed to for a week or so. Give it a listen and you'll have a p good understanding of the video
Jesus Christ this is something else- didn’t know I could feel this way. That whole album gave me a sense of dread but it was somehow sad and beautiful at the same time
@@MarionetteHannah fr it reminded me of when i wake up in a night terror or panic attack where u cant remember who u are or how to run or move u just know u want to get away from whatever is hiding in that memory and when you find it irl you know that is what it was about
I like how subtle the transitions are. I didn’t know that it wasn’t the same house (or rather time) until the house got dim and there was only one housemate. When you suffer from dementia, you can be at one place and then another in just moments. Fantastic job, y’all!
The inventory items seem like a nice touch. To me they represent the things you alone take with you on your journey, they represent the good and the bad experiences, the memories that you alone had that no one can capture or record, and at then end of the day when you grow old and the memory fades, these items are all that's left. No one can tell you who you were, you come and leave this earth alone, with memories in the void.
I really love how the house gets less and less detailed, showing how we’ve forgotten certain things. I would love to watch a video on a full analysis on this. It’s just- such an amazing piece of art. Well done.
dk if i'm the only one that noticed but at 1:08, the beef is in the middle item frame and at 1:40 it switched with the apple at the top frame, there was a carrot at 1:08, too, and was just replaced with another apple which is SUCH a good detail.
I worked 3 years taking care of elders near death with dementia, this brought me to tears. Very accurate. This is a excellent representation and visual to dementia and the audio masterpiece "Just a Burning memory" by the Caretaker. To anyone who wants to understand how its like to have everything you have ever known slowly dissipate into a blur of confusion this is it. Please people, call your loved ones and keep them mentally engaged to prevent this. My sympathy goes out to others who may be suffering.
I dont believe keeping people mentally engaged prevents dementia. There isnt much known about it and there is no cure as far as we know. It really is a horrid condition. One time I thought about the answer to the question what is the worst state a human can be in? My answer was loneliness but I believe forgetting your memories,your experiences,you friends,your family,your life is far far more horrible.
@@hsgame4088 its statistically proven that people who are mentally engaged with life and do various mentally complex tasks and hobbies have a much smaller chance of dementia. but statistics dont necessarily tell the whole story and it could be a chicken and egg type of deal. where it could be that mental engagement is staving off dementia, OR people with a proprensity to dementia have more trouble doing mentally engaging tasks and therefore stop doing them or avoid them to begin with.
@@oscarlove4394 Hmmm thanks for the info I did some research before and hadnt found any studies done on this theory. But I will keep that in mind(unless I get dementia then I will probably forget),It seems we should try to engage with our grandparents,great uncles,fathers,mothers who have reached seniority. And keep them doing stuff however miniscule simply to keep them engaged.
This really hits hard. My grandpa is really old now. Him and my family never had a very good relationship, and we kind of distanced ourselves. Two weeks ago he started coming around again, and he seems to be trying to gain our love again. But I fear that he won't have much more time. But only time will tell.
One of the main issues is that even from a young age you are used to things just fading out of memory. Things you did a week ago suddenly just don't exist anymore and things you once love you suddenly just have no interest in and can't remember why you ever did. So if you get dementia you don't even realize it because you're so used to many of these symptoms being just common place. At least that's been my experience not with dementia but just life, suddenly taking a semester off of school and suddenly not being able to remember the last year and what you learned in those past three semesters that seemed so important at the time. So I can see how it's really easy to not realize it's happening even if your mind was willing to.
My grandpa has Alzheimer’s and this video really makes me feel for him. Especially in quarantine where he can’t even remember why he can’t see his family. I very much dread the day he forgets me. Great video man.
@@jaydeemorgan3316 Dont worry. You, or others that you love, cant get dementia if they are active, even on their eldery stages. It basically reduces chances of dementia because their brain is working. Demetia appears from: brain damage, and high inactivity in eldery stages, or medium inactivity in adult ages, and low inactivity in child ages. So basically, you and others should always be active with your brain, eldery or not, everyone always has a chance of getting dementia, even on the lowest chances. Do hobbies daily, play games, do sports, etc. are some pretty, pretty good ways to reduce these chances.
@@jaydeemorgan3316 the comment above me listed some reasons, but it’s also because we live longer than we were originally intended to. Not that it’s a bad thing, but living into you 80’s hasn’t always been possible/intended
The fucking forget-me-not flower, as he places it into the ender chest, followed by the even bigger emotional hit when he gets into the bed, remembers everything but only has a second before death... Shit always makes me cry no matter how many times I come back
The way you portray the mood, the confusing cycle, the eventual loss of everything that felt familiar, the changes that makes you question “was that always there?” I love this video.
Back in the days I felt like I'm not afraid of dementia, at all. Because my family has generic dementia, and I knew that one day, just one day, it will eventually come to me. Years later, I went to the hospital. I have been diagnosed with dementia. All my "mental preparations" I have done, all my prays and hopes and dreams, they would shatter in a million pieces. It's hard to describe the feeling you had in that moment. When it finally comes to you, no matter what you've done, you just couldn't take it. I had tears up in my eyes. I never let them dropped. I didn't speak a word. I was in my car on the way home. All I had in my mind is, Why? Why me? Why does it has to come so early in my life? Suddenly, I was in my room. I don't know how, I don't know why. What's happening in the middle, I don't know, and I won't know. Anxiety struck. It struck hard. I put a camera recording my room. What I saw is truly heartbreaking. Whenever I suddenly lost my memory again, I would go ahead and check the videos. I felt like I was watching another person. I didn't pick up that key on the floor. I didn't fold that towel. I didn't read that book. Or did I? The video tells me I did, but my brain just won't let me recall it. I just don't have the footage in my mind, no matter how hard I think. I am watching memories that doesn't belong to my memory. It's like a lost puzzle of my memory, but I just couldn't shove it back in where it was. It belongs to there but it don't. I won't let that happen in my life. I won't let go of my life. I started training my memories and try to get them back. I'm starting to participate in speech competitions. When I'm memorising the texts, out of a surprise, I didn't forget them the next day. I would think that I saved myself. My heart was like released from a death sentence. But, that's when things struck hard. Real hard. The day of competition, I was in my class, rehearsal the speeches in my mind. I felt like I was ready. I went to the toilet, and the next second I was on stage. It's like you had a nightmare, and suddenly woke up to reality. How did I go from toilet to the stage, I don't know. I forgot what did I say on the stage and which part of the speech I am in. I tried to restart the whole script, read it all over again. And the feeling hit again. My head was empty. I spent so much time and effort perfectly memorising each and every word, and now I had zero image about any of it. I don't even remember the title of it. I was on the stage. Anxiety struck. It struck hard. I said, "I'm sorry, thank you." Then walked off the stage. Everybody is not looking, but staring at me. He was performing smooth and well a second ago, why did everything suddenly went down? My feelings were indescribable. Dementia, once again, like a katana, cleanly sliced through my hope. On the way home, I felt real, real down. I felt like I can see the world is gray. My anxiety and sadness built up to a level I can't comprehend anymore. I had a really bad headache, I passed out. I woke up on the hospital, and tragedy struck again. I was told that I had brain cancer. Not the worse one but still, I can't speak a word. Why does all that have to happen on me? I started writing lots and lots of really long texts about my good old times. I'm so, so, so, so, so afraid of losing any of them, but it's happening. It's painful. I really wanna keep them forever. I'm writing down each and every thing I can remember. My best buddies. My old times where you don't even know what depression is. I didn't know my writing skills are actually something, that's because I haven't tried, just like many other things I didn't got to do in my life. I woke up in my room. Starring at the ceiling. I asked myself, "Why was my room painted blue?" Then I burst into tears. I have Trypophobia. Those tiny holes, they might just be what my decaying memory looks like. The day's still passing by, and my life would still go on. If you gave me a choice, I'd rather start a new life right now. But still, I have no regrets meeting you and Zack in my life. I might be forgetting what my room looks like, I might be forgetting what you looks like, And one day, I might finally forget how to breathe, in that moment, I hope I can went through all my lost memories, even in a split second. I will forget the years of pains. By that moment, I will be walking towards the end of me, smiling, if I didn't forget how to smile. My friend had dementia. I asked him what it feels like to have dementia after watching this vid. I thought I was a tough guy until I read this text he sent me.
it was all interesting to read, until that last part hit. the "i might forget, what my room looks like, i might forget what you look like" really makes you think about how much of a personality is left when there are no memories.
That was the best short I’ve ever watched amazing job. And think about this you will probably forget this ever exists in some time unless you see it again maybe when you have a few seconds left to live you’ll think of this video or someone else or something else but some things you’ll forget completely and never know them again
Not only one of the most emotionally touching Minecraft video’s of all time, but also one of the scariest, as it explores nostalgia and the pain of having to miss your loved ones through a block game, while also exploring a very real subject that thousands, heck, millions are struggling with in real life. An outstanding masterpiece that will be embedded into the Minecraft culture for many years to come.
I miss playing with my friends… it’s been years and years and years without seeing them… I am all alone in this once alive world…. Nobody to hang out with… Just alone in this empty nostalgic world as each update goes by…
I never thought one of the best ways to portray the theme of “Everywhere at the End of Time.” Each faded change to each loop is so subtle, and are each perfect. The fact that one friend disappears each time is sad, but a great detail. The ending with the friends seen as the the person with dementia fades away was a great way to end it, and really hit me hard. Dementia is scary, and you’ve captured it’s essence perfectly. Well Done indeed.
@m6gnum The song is about dementia, and the deterioration of the brain impacted by it. With each loop, certain things fade away slowly, representing how dementia takes its toll over a period of time, until there is eventually nothing left.
As you feel the line between your mind and reality get more and more blurry, you start to dread every second of what you call your life. “Where’s my reflection?” You ask yourself, unaware that it was never yours to begin with.
Every time I come back to this video I feel dread, sadness and just generally disturbed. I cannot imagine how painful it is to forget all the people you love, all the memories you experienced. There's just always something off about this song that makes me feel unsettled. This video has some genius attention to detail and symbolism. Trully a beautiful video
because the song is a slowed down and distorted edit of an old song and it was made specifically to sound like that to express the emotions you feel when hearing it
This scares me. Forgetting everything and everyone is just so horrible, even the thought sends shivers down my spine... Greatly executed video man, it describes the illness very well.
...body's aching all the time Goodbye, everybody, I've got to go, Gotta leave you all behind and face the truth Mama, ooooooooh I don't want to die, I sometimes wish I'd never been born at all. (sorry)
i fucking teared up reading this. My grandmother keeps asking "where is my husband (died last year) where is my sister (died in 2019), my brother ( her brother died in ww2), my mother? (died in the 70s), I must make them dinner"
This makes my heart heavy, i feel a hint of nostalgia and many notes of sadness. This makes me feel like I have just found an old friend just to loose them. This is a true masterpiece.
Towards the end when he put the flower in the enderchest and seeing "forget-me-not", legitimately made me cry. The last sequence hit so hard. I can relate to this because it has already happened before which is why it made me so emotional and I'm sure it has happened to many people watching this. I can't imagine creating this video in the first place. Must've been painful...
I first saw this video about a year and a half ago. Nowadays I'm down in dumps. I have suddenly remembered that this video existed at 1 AM and decided to revisit it and I'm very happy I did. It's evoking strong emotions.
*2011 Minecraft:* "Haha funny block game!"
*2021 Minecraft:* "Do you want to watch a human mind deteriorate in real time?"
I certainly do, DavidH0777
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I've been working with a patient who had a stroke that has seemed to set his dementia into motion. I don't work directly in his memory care, but talking to him, he knew he was starting to forget things. He was a retired attorney. Very smart, well spoken, and had a calmness to him that showed he was used to being in control of things. He'd forget that he'd spoken to me the day prior, he couldn't get some simple words off the tip of his tongue, he'd misunderstand very simple instructions (how to press the call light). His memory therapy involved writing down what he did that day, and you can tell he really tried. Had pages full of stuff for each day. He regressed as the weeks went on. He couldn't find the word "pain" in his head to tell us he was hurting. He asked for my name 3 times in one conversation. He thought we were lying to him and always wanted everything to be approved by his wife first - but then he'd forget that we'd already spoken to her. And he loved to argue, but it was always nonsensical. He'd sit and think really hard about what he wanted to say, and then he'd cry when he couldn't get it. He had a spinal surgery and was given a morphine pump and quickly grew hooked on it. In 8 weeks he went from a respectable, established, retired professional to a man lost in his head, crying over literally losing his mind, screaming for pain medicine, and not being able to see the only person he trusts due to COVID restrictions.
You see a lot of sad things working in hospitals, and you learn to wall yourself off from your emotions. Tbh I often found myself more annoyed than sympathetic toward him. But every once in a while, I have a case that gets to me. That one got to me a little.
Oh god that sounds horrible
This is a horrifying thought, and the same thought that always travels through my mind. Your memory is where your soul/true self is located. If you forget yourself, you die. You are someone else now, it doesnt matter if you still have the same body. Your memory of your life is gone, its as if you are already dead. To be confronted with these horrifying cases day by day is why i could never work in a hospital, but i respect the people that can. On a more positive note: For receiving such a generous gift as your life, you always pay with death in the end. Even life costs a certain currency, and that is death. You just pay back what has been given to you, its all a fair process.
That sounds awesome to work in that line of employment, though sometimes sad the mind and body can do very drastic things it baffles me
I'm sorry to hear that, though not related but it sorta reminds me of myself.
Not in this way but rather a nother. So I for long lacked empathy for people, more in the sense that their emotions truly didn't matter to me, more than anything I used to see stuff through analysing it and put values to it and on top of that being Bullied at school for my odd "clownish behaviour" didn't help either.
It actually kinda made things worse on my part of trying to understand others more, stuff kept their pace until one day one of my friend came to me in. Hurry and said she wanted to talk to me, what she said will remain a secret as she so asked but I'll say that it probably was sensitive.
She was crying to me about her problems and I was just there unfazed, I didn't know how to react I felt bad but didn't know how to show so I tried to give her reasons and solutions as to how her problems can be fixed ,it helped her but after that I was the one who was feeling lost. So I too know how it feels to be lost, it's wierd, sometimes you're happy then sad then angry and upset, overall just not well, in my case I was questioning my own self as to why can't I just empathize like others do, I always thought it was because of me being an introvert until one day I told my parents about it and then they took me to a phycologist, and after days of being tested I got diagnosed with Asperger's syndrome.
Now I'm 18 and next year I'll be graduating from high school . The point is that hadn't it been for Y + X= Z I would never have become the person I am today, as I learned more and more about my condition I got introduced to a lot of things, one of them being drawing, and 2 years after I started drawing I got into multiple art competitions and other stuff, ( and a lot more ) .
Though it may seem as though your job is hard but on the other hand you truly are doing people with problems a great solace, without people like I may have never become the person that I am today,
All and all, it's all about give and take, we give support to take comfort or love in exchange for love. Work for improvement and improve for easier care.
At least that's how I feel about it, it's like a reaction that needs to be fufiled in anyway there really is. And your task although stressful but quite essential for everyone, and I thank you for it.
Thank you for your service and hopefully I wasn't mean in anyway😀 take care .
@@mysterioushawk2171 Very well spoken, young man.
The last part is called terminal lucidity, it's when everything the patient (or in this case the player) remembers everything before death. It's kinda scary really, imagine you remembered everything but in the next second you're gone :(.
False hope.
@The Real Jeff L - PLEASE TH-cam NO BAN - Eh, I don't really believe in God. But if you do so, then keep it up.
@@JackAss-xo3gp it's very truth, one of my family members passed through lucidity moments right before passing out
Damn, now i wanna die even more because i can barely remember anything, that way I can finally find out what happened in the past, what i did
But i just hope it won't be distorted like some of my memories...
@@PDD555 I am aware of "Terminal Lucidity" existence but, I don't get why it has something to do with God. Some things are just so hard to explain so people just assume that it was God's doing or something.
Even the most serious of Minecraft short films, couldn't escape the horrors of the glitched ender chest.
XD
The Mojang special
I always thought it was a function
im out here crying and this made me smile, thanks man
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the fact that he can see all his friends right before he dies, it made me tear up
minutes before dementia kills the patient they suddenly remember everything, the protagonist remembered his friend and his home and died on the hospital bed
Terminal lucidity
@@redditstoriesfuny how Dows that work I find it weird
@@redditstoriesfuny like your whole life you couldn’t remember something but then when it’s killing you remember
Fr tho
Him seeing his friends at the end when he goes to sleep is like when a patient with dementia remembers their memories right before they die. :(
Yeah that’s the point
It's called "terminal lucidity"
@The BiteJaw Dino DWM if somebody makes a dominic toretto joke…
@@yb101z I won’t, but I’ll just say this; please appreciate your friends and family’s kindness, shower them with love (not the Alabama kind of love), and do something to brighten their day.
I’ve heard that we see our lives play out in our minds as we die. No one knows if this is true or not but we have no way of knowing. If we somehow found a way to study the afterlife then perhaps but I don’t think that that will ever come to be
Yunno, when I clicked on this, I thought it was going to be a nostalgia trip in Minecraft form, revisiting the days that we can’t ever truly go back to. Boy, was I wrong. I feel like my view on the effect of dementia and terminal lucidity has been widened, if even ever so much. Truly, it is a heartbreaking thing…
The same bro
Same
i thought it was a meme and now im almost in tears
Music is a strong thing
I suggest you listen to the ‘everywhere at the end of time’ album, it’s really sad and somehow sums up dementia in the form of songs.
For those who don't know what a *forget-me-not* is, it's an actual flower that symbolizes remembrance for those who have passed away, but more commonly, it represents true love and devotion. Which explains a lot.
i thought it had no meaning and it was bad grammar but thank you for the meaning
there's a metal song called "Forget Not" by Ne Obliviscaris, it's a beautiful song capturing this. I recommend listening to it.
Thank you for the flower interpretation. I knew that one, but much of flower language has been left on the way side.
1 detail I noticed was at the very end he could see everyone, which I think alludes to a study saying that a patient with dementia could remember mainly most things before inevitable death.
That thing is called Terminal Ludicity and until now there's no reason for the phenomenon to happen. The only thing we know is that when it happens it means that the patient is going to die soon.
@@ThyFloorestFloor Yeah. I want to study a different field of science, so I'm not really sure about this. Honestly I kinda think it's the brain giving a final effort to repair all of the neuron connections, but at what cost? The brain finally succeeds, but the person will die because the connections were too far gone to be successfully fixed.
Death
@@kyoza5069 ngl, that doesn't sound right at all. I feel it's more like "War Emergency Power" kicking in one last time. Something is going to give out and that puts the body into a state of alert. Hormones are released that allow the brain to function for a brief period in the manner that it was previously able to achieve. Then whatever it was that was going to give out does so and it's over.
@@cunicularius2064 seems similar to a adrenaline rush, once it's over your body has taken its toll and gives out
The “good ole days” door leading to nowhere frankly got to me.
Same
Me too man. Honestly brought me back memories from my personal good old days. And how there isn’t a way back anymore…
Olé 😈🥵🍔🤑🤙
The thought that all your memories are slowly fading away and you don’t even realize it just hurts me
its over, time to let go...
Good details:
Forget-me-not flower from the girl
He forgets her first
Levels of dementia that he got
Dog collar changing
House changing
Friends just being a memory
and the way he starts running after the third house, as if he realizes that something's wrong, only to enter the fourth house and realize how much worse it is...
and that the items on/in the refrigerator or whatever gradually became more and more muddled and rotated, making his mind seem disorientated and confused. also the food on the table starts to become different items that aren't food items, like a book and quill and other things, also making it seem confusing and changing. plus
-him not remembering who he was, seeing nothing in the mirror
-the lighting changing to soul lamps instead of torches
- not remembering the dog
- surroundings changing as he moves
- not remembering what doors lead to where and what rooms were what
- not remembering what the "good old days" were like and not knowing what tomorrow will have or if there will be a tomorrow
- trying to save his last memories and items that he had that reminded him of things, people and friends he can't remember, storing them in an ender chest
-last memories and thoughts before he dies being his friends
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I also notice that the ground is turning into dirt every time he leaves
i mean he still has the flower in the end soo o guess it might be something he hanged on
You've managed tell a better story in a 3 minute minecraft video than many studios have in 3 hour film that took months to produce
It’s made with love and care. Not with the drive to only get money out of it
@@pizzapatrica7044true.
There are a solid handful, maybe more, mc vids I've seen that are better than 90% of the movies I've seen and it gives me hope. Heck TH-cam in general is better than Netflix imo.
I've seen some amazing studio-made films, like 'Ron's Gone Wrong' (2021), 'Joker' (2019) and 'Boy Erased' (2018), but I do agree with the sentiment that you guys share. Most of today's movies that I've seen don't have the thought-provoking charm that this video does. It feels like Hollywood, especially, cares more about money than spreading a good message.
To those who don’t understand the last part of the video, it’s a direct reference to terminal lucidity within people with dementia. In the final moments of their life, they can often suddenly remember everything - and then die.
Life is cruel.
it's kinda like it mocks you, just slams memories right back in your head right before you die, they were never truly gone
Meh, ‘life’ is indifferent. It’s our minds that imbue it with value judgements like ‘cruel’. Life couldn’t give a shit.
@@aaqilian5.085 why stop there? if you want to make an obvious remark I can one up you. Life is just a word.
@@megawl2086 i think is better like this, having a chance to say goodby. Even if you are not aware, you still suffer and this could give you a last moment of peace
how is that a cruel ?? its a wonderful gift, finally recovering, having a chance to say its ok, that you remember, that it was just a weird phase. I would much rather have that than not.
When I saw this I originally was expecting a joke video but instead I was shown a video that describes the utter horror of forgetting those around you and losing your own sanity as everything around you is missing. This is amazing
You should look into the backroom, there's about 26446437482748585 floors (I think)
I have memory problems that seem to get worse every now and then. I’m in the process of getting it diagnosed, but everyone needs a mental help specialist these days, and it makes it even harder to search for help when you forget that you have to. If this were in any form more real it would have hurt me to watch. A great piece of art in the medium this artist could make it in. Love when there is love to be had. Live every day like it’s your last. Ensure that you have no regrets. Feel every emotion you need to feel, then move on and feel every emotion after that. Cherish your moments when you can, they all pass.
@@MiloDeFrisco I'm truly sorry to hear that and also thank you for showing inspiration despite your current situation. I give you the best of my regards.
@@melon5031 if you mean the back rooms I actually looked into at one point the concept is amazing.
Honestly thats how I feel, I've always been horrified of the thought of losing memories I cherished, or even just losing people. I try not to think about it but honestly thats my reasoning for being Chronophobic (Fearing the idea of passing time) I always feel like I'm not given enough time on this earth and each birthday I have is just counting the year until my eventual death, along with others. Despite being an athiest I completely understand those who are religious, such as Christians. I mean, it'd be harder to fear your death if you believe that there will be a heaven, or something waiting for you, where you can meet your loved ones. Honestly I both love, and hate the idea of immortality. Blessed with living forever, but cursed with having to see countless people die infront of you, and no way to stop it other than isolating yourself. Which I find ironic, as those who dream of immortality often feel like it would be a route to stopping time- yet it doesnt. And yeah, I thought this was a joke at first but the person or people who made this truly made the setting feel endearing, and yet so horrifying.
I’m stunned that was only 4 minutes. Felt like 10 at least.
Looks like you forgotten something, eh?
…
WA
For tho
*for real tho *
I love how at some point, the door behind you disapears, like there is no going back, also the reappearence of colors and mementos from the past with more soothing music was a good scene, this small minecraft video teaches me that memories are fleeting, and progres is inevitable, but if we cherish the moments we had with care and preserve things from the past, it can persist a bit longer, shows importance in small objects, how they can encapsulate memories and just for a while bring back "good old times". I say this is art, even if just a meme.
I cannot listen to this song without feeling a sense of dread and despair. It makes my skin crawl knowing that this could happen to me in the future, and everything and everyone could just eventually fade from my mind
Thats the point
Its gonna be weird, but when I see tiktoks pop up and they use this song, it triggers my fight or flight response
Dementia runs in my family. It's been on my mind for the past few years after working in an old folks home and seeing the effects first hand. Live everyday as if it were your last, don't take things to seriously, and always know that things could be worse. Live in the moment and enjoy life.
Listening to the six hours of all stages is quite the experience
on the bright side, you won't notice a thing when it finally happens
I was honestly expecting another meme, but instead I received the same vibes as the original album. Both this Minecraft visual and the album are extremely well made, and definitely convey an accurate message. Terminal lucidity at the end was a cherry on top of it all. Made me cry, this truly is a work of art.
Came for the laughs, got tears instead...
What album?
@@johnnycranknose4098 if you didnt know, the title “Its just a burning memory” is a song from an album named “Everywhere At The End Of Time” or “EATEOT” for short. (I suggest watch it at your own safety because you will regret hearing the album)
@@johnnycranknose4098 The Caretaker - Everywhere at The End of Time
@@Infixation I only listened to the shorter version of the album out there and uh yeah it's terrifying
I never tought I would ever see such a serious topic portrayed so perfectly by minecraft, or any other game for that matter.
My grandma suffered from dementia for 20 years until the day she passed. It was hard for the whole family, there was fighting and sacrifice she was completely oblivious of. It tore her kids apart from one another.
I feel guilty sometimes, when she passed last year, I didn't say goodbye, I stood there by her bed just watching her and reflecting on how much the whole family had waited for that moment. I felt relief that she would finally rest, and relief that we all would rest too.
I was tired of seeing her scream in horror whenever someone she didn't know got into her room, we heard those screams everyday, she was scared and confused and just wanted to go home to a place she recognized. I can't even begin to imagine how awful that must feel, And to struggle like that for over 10 years... She deserved more.
But we also did.
I don't miss her, she was never good to me but, I can only move towards forgiving her. Slowly, but one day I will.
Dementia and alzheimer are bad. Really bad. For the family, for the patient, the caretakers. I really wouldn't wish that over anyone. Most people fear being a burden, and living with someone with dementia is the definition of a burden, as much as you love them, they stop being themselves after years, they're no longer the person you knew and loved, they're not there anymore. It's an empty vessel. Most people don't live long enough to get to that stage, but my grandma was unlucky, she lived year after year after year and suddenly her health plummeted and she was gone in a couple days.
I'm sorry this got so dark, and probably someone else who has seen this first person will disagree with me about their experience. I just had to vent a little bit about my own experience. Also sorry it's so long If you even made it this fsr
I made it this far and it made me stop breathing.. I'm truly sorry and it scares me that this could happen.. This video isnt exactly what the illness has but it does at the sametime.. I'm in shock atm I really hope you're okay and godbless your soul..
Don't feel sorry, I feel sorry for what happened to you and your family, I hope you guys get better and have happy lives. While your at it, go and eat ice cream in a picnic with your family, and tasty sandwiches. It'll help you recover your soul. Bye love! ♥️
This story is sad
I've been in the same situation but not for so long... I'm so sorry. Don't feel bad for being okay with the fact that she was finally able to rest. You don't have to forgive her either. You can always exist with the acceptance of what she's done knowing that it is over. May she rest in peace and may you find peace. Godspeed, my friend.
I understand your struggle friend.
Watching this gave me such mix signals of fear, but also grief. I had a grandfather on my moms side. He was a great man, he volunteered to fight in Vietnam, and when he came back home, he was so hurt by what he saw, he turned to drinking, and would abuse my mom and my aunt (physically). I never knew he existed untill I was about 7. My mom was driving him to a new nursing home, and she also had to pick me up from a birthday party. I was a shy kid and I was always told to stay away from strangers. He would ask me questions about myself like I’d known him my whole life. A year and a half ago, I learned more about him, and I found out he’d been diagnosed with dementia. My mom even though she resented him, she still cared about him. And my dad never wanted me around him, but for a little while he would call us and we would say hi, and he would be the nicest man in the whole world. One day, my dad told us that he wanted us to get out of the house for a little while. He took us to Dave and busters, played some arcade games and had a blast. I came back home to see my mom pouring with tears. I hugged her and she told me, my grandpa Bruce had died. So much was going through my mind. She told me how they sang his favorite Irish song before he died. I wish I had gotten to know him better, I wish I knew my grandad. Now that I’m slightly older now, I like to think that, in those final few months, he didn’t remember the hate, and the grief he had to go through, and he was the man my mom had known for those few years. I now had recently found out that my non biological grandfather (who I consider to be my real grandad) has dementia. And I’m so afraid, and I’ve been trying so hard to get know him as well as I can. I love him too much and I’m scared he’s gonna be gone just like my grandpa Bruce. If you’ve just read this whole thing I’m sorry for just emotion dumping. This video made me just feel so much and I had to get it out. Thank you for this
I don't know if I should hate myself for crying over a story I can't relate about, after all it's all parasocial, although I hope your grandpa remembers you as long as he can.
@@eris_irise thank you so much, god bless 🙏
My grandma also has dementia and I rarely have the opportunity to see her (I'm a student and she lives 800km away from me). She was one of the nicest and most caring persons I know and now can't recognise any family members and forgot how to speak or walk recently. It's so sad. Dementia in general is just sad.
God can lead you and your grandpa/s to happiness all I can say is enjoy every thing you can
@@RealMoosterchef your absolutely right, thank you. I deeply appreciate it.
im speechless
Hey check mark 😏
@@pineappler6473 Why do you care that they have a checkmark
Hi speechless
SUBI?!
This is depressing
I still have the world me and my brother made together. Rest In Peace Joshua, I’ll always miss you and our time of happiness together.
made me cry
@@Landontalaria same man
@@Landontalaria same
Much love to you and your brother.
@@cxx23 bit too late now, hes dead
i just realized that the protagonist forgets the dog's collar color. it's originally cyan, then on the 2nd stage it turns gray and on the 3rd stage it turns black
noo stopp 😭
Nice eyes you got there... can we trade eyes? So i can see better
@@commissargab6181 oh my
I NOTICED THAT i thought it was just changing the color of preference
@@commissargab6181 if u have blue eyes i'll trade 😀
My grandmother had dementia in her last years. A once cheerful and sharp lady she became unrecognizable. My dad and aunt did everything they could to keep her home, but eventually, they had to move her to a nursing home. She understood what was happening and got depressed to the point of not eating and they had to feed her through a tube. Two weeks later she was hospitalized. My dad asked her if she needed anything, and in a final moment of clarity, she said, "I want to be healthy".
the same situation..., i undestand you pain
this is something really special
First reply
@@soulvisionsmc second reply :D
@@hasbenyek5370 third reply
fourth reply
I just got this recommended too.....was not expecting this at all.....
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This was just sad, the fact that at the end he went through terminal lucidity is just heart breaking.
I wish I didn't scroll to the comments and learn what terminal lucidity meant, I would've accepted that as a happy ending
Such a heartache
a chance for a last farewell
what's terminal lucidity?
@@phalipa8958 it’s when a dementia patient’s memory will come back shortly before death
Arrived expecting a meme,
Left feeling genuine emotion and a weird feeling in my chest. A mixture of despair thinking about this terrible illness, and reconcilliation knowing that terminal lucidity will at least provide a brief moment of reconnection with forgotten people. I could write a hundred thousand words and still it would not do justice how amazing this is.
Bravo, sir. Bravo.
memes coming from such a horrible illness isn’t really nice
@@luz2949 humans rely on things like comedy to comprehend, and understand horrific tragedies.
@@TOH_Fan I know that, I was just saying. I’m not sure as to how the person thought this was a meme though
same
@@luz2949 Almost all the content regarding the Caretaker's masterpiece that I've seen are memes. An example that comes to mind is the association with Trollface getting dementia. So when I saw this, I expected a meme as well. I was delightfully proven wrong though
bro i wasn't ready for this, im just sitting in my chair and crying
My dad had dementia and he became so distant that I could barely even recognize him. After everything we went through in his last moments, he started crying saying how he remembered us. We had a touching moment before he sadly passed away. Love you Dad.
RIP To your dad
God, that’s horrifying. I’ve heard so and seen so many scenarios like this and the gravity of each one feels just as heavy as the last. Crazy, you can build up who you are for the first 60 years of your life just to slowly degrade after and not even recognize who you even are at the end of it. I’m sorry you had to go through that man, hope you’re doing alright.
cringe lol he is in hell now
It would have been really awful if someone in the replies did a joke about being fatherless. Hope you're doing good.
@@mateigabrielzaharia4842 bro you basically just did 😭
This is a perfectly edited and preformed video. Each time he enters the house, the level of cheerfulness/vibrancy degrades with something dissapearing and eventually he couldn’t even remember what his house looked like, what food he was once served, the colour of his house,his friends and how the colour of his dog’s collar till the point where he couldnt even remember what he himself looked like, and afther the part where he travled up the stairs to encounter 3 rooms, 1 of them was labbled.. well, nothing showing that he couldnt remember anything from his past. Another 1 of them was labeled ‘the good old days’ and how it lead to a dull grey, meaning that he could not remember anything from the time when he felt the most alive... the time when he could still remember. The last one was labeled ‘tommorow’ which was led to nothing, symbolizing that he does not have anything to do the following day, or rather, he does not remember what he wanted to do the next day. And the last part where he was walking down the long hallway, it started with a dull grey colour with represents nothing and how it eventually built up to something. This ‘something’ shows how his dementia was eventually lifted from him and how the same flower the girl gave him at the start was potted in each pot and his achievements he accomplished during his ‘good old days’ but this hallway is eventually ended with a bed and a chest, which he would put his belongings in, showing the things he truly cared about, would not be carried with him to his afterlife, or in this case, his last sleep. When he passes out, we were able to see his last thoughts were about his friends, the few people who truly were able to brighten his day, even though it would for just that one day, he was grateful for them trying to provide him with the greatest comfort they could
This is the best one ive ever read, thank you for writing this.
I can't hold me tears 😢
Imagine not reading the whole thing
this made me tear up
No, you’re tearing up 😭
I love how they have an end where the Character regains clarity and then the screen cuts. It’s an actual thing that happens with dementia patients. Before they die sometimes they will become much more aware and remember. It’s like a last hooray in their life.
Terminal lucidity
I heard that Terminal lucidity is temporary, and that afterwards, they forget how to breathe
Afterlife, not so cruel, when he is in heaven he prob remembers everything and can hang out with his friends 😊😂
If he remembers everything before he dies, whats to say he will renember it all in heaven?
@@jackmccool9911 I don't believe in heaven. I think when you die it'll be the same as before you were born: Peace. Emptiness. Darkness. No thoughts. No sense of time. Nothing.
@@jackmccool9911 What heaven
what if I just yoinked this comment away, jk
I personally think that dementia is more scary than death, imagine forgetting everything, everyone you loved and loved you. This is a great depiction of dementia.
it's scary for the outsider but quite often it happends that people with dementia get back their memories just before they die (terminal lucidity) it's just feels like a happy end to their life.
Yep.
@@MichaelDancificationthe way it was portrayed in the video is... bittersweet.
If you've ever had those moments of being in a dream or coming out of one, that hazy confusion of not knowing what's real, feeling like something isn't right but not knowing what it is. That is what I imagine dementia is like all the time.
I will never understand how it must feel to have all your memories slowly, but always being taken away, then minutes before death, having the equivilent of the movie of your life finaly start up again.
Jesus. The fact that you managed to portray the emotions this 6 hour album made us feel in the span of 4 minutes... amazing. This game, this album, and you are all amazing.
@@noble2151 Everywhere at the End of Time
@@lavacakez he used only 1 song from the album
@@Aatsau They used the first song for most of it, then a piece of something from the final act, and then the final song of the album.
Agreed
@@Aatsau but showed all stages
Its so painful that the girl who gave our protagonist the "forget me not" flower, which symbols eternal love, was the first to be forgotten. Damn it dude, you ruined my day.
Dementia runs in my family so all day i was fucking loosing my mind cause i dont want this shit to happen to me. Its awful and i feel so bad for anyone who has this.
@@mycatgavebirth1163 i hope it can be cured
@@mycatgavebirth1163 dude, you have to keep your mind proactive ALWAYS. Play cards, paint, do math, idk, whatever you like, this can, at least delay this desease, I’m telling you because in my family is running something similar.
@@martinbaca7697 im sorry man, ill do that. Im a overthinker so my mind is always running, but all we can do is hang in there. The way i see it is have fun while you can, just do things that make you super happy till you cant ya know?
@@martinbaca7697 im sorry man, ill do that. Im a overthinker so my mind is always running, but all we can do is hang in there. The way i see it is have fun while you can, just do things that make you super happy till you cant ya know?
This GENUINELY unsettled me. You did such a great job at conveying the feelings this album causes. Beautifully tragic.
Which album
I'm home alone and it's dark don't do me like that
@@noble2151 Everywhere at the End of Time by The Caretaker, it includes the song you hear in the video.
2 weeks ago, I watched this video and I didn't understand a single thing, only sadness in this video. Now after I'm rewatching it when I've done my research about this, it's just even more sad, depressing, confusing and also disturbing at the same time. You made me really feel the video, this is truly well made, especially that it's made in minecraft too. You have ruined, aswell as made my day. Thank you!
I feel terrible for the people that go through this. It must drive them insane. My grandma has dementia, I never really understood what it was until a few months ago. I can't imagine how scared and frustrated she felt, to have days where she can't remember our names, or who we are. We got her to a new home where she's getting the help she needs and deserves, even though I know there most likely isn't anything they can do. My only hope is that she remembers all her happy memories
Edit: Thanks for all the kind replies everyone, it really means a lot 🙂
Vist her frequently as much as you can it may be heartbreaking but trust me you wish you did if you didn't
@@lastdogstanding7723 yeah, you're right
I hope you’re doing well man
Give her a drawing. Dont know if it'll help but hopefully she can tell that its meaningful.
I have dementia since I was 11 life sucks but I least I’m not sad because I forgot my problems
the moment the dog disappeared was especially sad and scary because the character has made us aware of his routine everytime he steps in the house was to feed his dog or pet it but when the dog wasn't there when he came in, it created a sense of void that felt eerily uncomfortable. this is an awesome video that could have won awards.
@Mama lmao
@Mama if you can remember to
and the bone too D:
Why did the dog dissapear
@@relyt593 The character forgot about it's existance
This was so beautiful and incredibly heart breaking. Mojang was not lying when they said you can do whatever you want in minecraft, and to be honest the last thing i expected from minecraft player, is a masterpiece of a short film.
Incredibly true! I'm a project recreating ireland in minecraft on a 1:1 scale. Which is another insane capability minecraft has!
@@BTEIreland Hope the project goes well. Good luck to you, and everyone who is participating in recreating the earth 1:1 scale in minecraft.
th-cam.com/video/eatIzqwB2dA/w-d-xo.html
Christ died for your sins and rose on the third day, showing that anyone who trusts in him for salvation, will have everlasting life.
(John 11:25-26) "Jesus said unto her, I am the resurrection, and the life: he that believeth in me, though he were dead, yet shall he live:And whosoever liveth and believeth in me shall never die. Believest thou this?"
(John 3:16) For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.
@@charlie4christ536 sorry but, may i ask who the hell asked?
@@kim-jong-un8096 Kim here spitting straight fax
"Forget me not"...
One detail, but so wealthy.
My aunt recently passed away from dementia and this made me remember what it was like going to her house while she was going through different stages of dementia, thank you Nifika for making me remember the good ol 'days
I remember my great grandma asking my grandpa where he youngest son was and how she needed to see him, but he unfortunately died two weeks earlier in the same exact nursing home. I could tell it hurt my grandpa to have to remind his mom her own son died. I cry about it to this day.
@@cheese1445 damn bro I couldn't imagine :(
I wanna ask not to be rude but how does ur grandma died to dementia I remember dementia only lost memory slowly sorry for bad English
@@cafe6847 I'm not exactly sure, seeing as I was unaware you could die of dementia, but it is a disease that slowly deteriorates the brain matter, so I suppose it's possible
@Kyntiz oh okay thanks for the info
Bro this is amazing, dementia is such a weird thing. It’s one of my worst fears, forgetting all the memories I’ve made. But I can tell how much work went into this and it definitely paid off!
@@kgkbuugj thats not exactly correct in many cases
same
Same, well somewhat I’m not afraid of forgetting things, I’m afraid of Minecraft.
Fun fact dementia is one of my greatest fears
@@ASchoolComputer HOW IS THAT FUN
This reminds me of the many thousands of forgotten and abandoned Minecraft worlds out there that were either never finished, or left to die. To me, Minecraft itself is like a burning memory: a haven of freedom and creativity that everyone will eventually leave behind, but a memory nonetheless.
Very well put. I feel the same way. I kept some of the old worlds I had played with friends. Go back to houses and places, where we had made memories. Certain things can bring back those memories. So then these are things you must cherish. ;)
@JacklStar same here 100%
I wish those days could come back
There's was one thing in particular that I have never forgotten about way back in the days of 1.5.2
I still remember him. First thing I ever did was being him into the world.
He was my pet wolf. His name was Rusty
He ventured with me everywhere. Every new update and biome/world build we got to explore, I always took Rusty with me. But unfortunately, I stopped playing after 1.9 since I began losing interest and good computers that could run it. I lost all of my saves
I never saw Rusty again. And I miss him dearly
🤓
This was so perfectly well made that even the xp particles at 0:45 bring the meaning of the experience left behind because of the dementia
and the fact that people cant get all the xp they lost back when they die makes it more accurate.
Something that gets me, as someone who works with people with dementia in various stages, is the searching. Often they're searching for something. They have an "unmet need" and want to find a solution, but they don't know how to express it. Dementia doesn't just take memory. It takes speech, comprehension, and even vision. People in advanced stages often wander, asking for loved ones who are long gone ("when is my husband going to be here?" "Do you know where my mother is?"). After working there for a while, you become familiar to them. They may believe you're their child, grandchild, sometimes even spouse or parent. Not because you resemble the lost loved one, but because you're *there* and you're comparatively permanent and, in some capacity, familiar. It's painful, having someone many many times your age call you "mama" but you just roll with it. You answer their questions to the best of your ability, maybe get them to talk about their experiences or join the group activity. But these are temporary measures. They pacify for a short time. But these things are in an attempt to make living through this -iving through the end of their lives - more comfortable.
It sounds like your patients a kid again. They forget what knowledge they have earned with the passing years so they cling to the thing they had by them in the past, with the inability to see that the ones they love are long gone. The fact that they can’t differentiate between different people besides the fact that you the caretaker are there for them the most is very sad.
Damn..
Man i wish i could save comments…
@@Rrrab sаmе
@@Rrrab screenshot
a sad detail is that the girl gives him a flower called "forget me not", which represents eternal love, however, she is the first to forget. perhaps a strong but ancient love ... in the end, he manages to remember her in her last moments, and he is the one who is closest to hers. sure is because she is the one who was more important
Where did you get that
@@okaberintarou2515 in Wikipedia xd
@@michon8943 what name
It reminds me of a friend I had who i haven’t seen or talked to in over 3 years
No, the girl didn’t forget. He did, this video was representing him having dementia and every door he goes through he loses some memory, portrayed by the slowly transforming gray surroundings and his friends disappearing one by one.
"Last online 7 years ago" vibes.
I miss some of those friends I made back then. I miss the simpler times. Back when I always wanted to stay up longer and still couldn't wait for tomorrow. But we grew up didn't we? I'm not sure if the world and the people around me changed or I did but it is not the same anymore. All I wanted was to be an adult and now all I want is to be a kid again. What I wouldn't give. I hope the good times comes again some day.
This gives me dementia vibes
I never understood why all the other kids wanted to grow up and become adults. I remember my parents telling me that being an adult is really hard, and when I heard that, I made up my mind to enjoy being a kid for as long as I can.
You're living in a good time right now, but you won't notice it until it's gone
You wouldn’t give yourself to be a child?
I probably am a part of the ‘last online 7 years ago’ dudes, and yeah, i made friends and a girl, games are not important for me anymore
You know. I come back to this video every once in a while. This is just depressing. And I don't know why but every time I am on the edge of a depressive episode, I come back. Great video, and a great representation. And it makes me feel. Empty. Maybe this video contributes to me beginning the episodes. But still, I come back.
It’s sad how the girl gives him the flower named “forget me not” and she’s the first memory he forgets
(i beat the horizon in likes lets gooo)
Actually, I think it's the only thing he remembers since he keeps the flower with him all the way until the end
Hmm... wonder where the xp he got came from...
Thats kinda funny
@@JustARegularPlayer Could be a reference how they had lost four person, their friends, and theirselves
@@JustARegularPlayer lol
Man I thought its gonna be about the good old days of Minecraft, the nostalgia trip. But damn..... That was depressing
saddest thing i saw in a while..
Yea, makes my realize that someday I'll be on my death bed and all my friends, family, and maybe even kids, will surround me with tears in their eyes as I slowly shut mines. Remembering all the good times I had in life.
@@rasianket7220 That's the best case scenario which most people wont get to experience. Most people are gonna die in an accident and never get to say their last words or their body just got lost and couldnt be found.... Which is even more terrifying to think about
@Arstotzkan M.O.I border investigator Terminal lucidity
this just hits diffrent
At first, when I saw this I didn't see that it was about dementia. I took it in an entirely separate way. It's odd, how 1 thing can have 2 separate meanings to 2 different people. I thought it was the loss of that "spark" of Minecraft, of childhood, of any sense of direction in your life. The slowly corroding and fading home of a once vibrant and wonderful present became a dull and passing past. How night was always another step closer, and how doors kept closing. The memories of that game and those people who filled your life with such joy are gone. The glory days are over. I genuinely teared up thinking this was the meaning. How everything was being lost and becoming a dull gray. I know when I think back I look at the days and memories past, memories I will never relive. I also look back at the years I think were robbed from me. The experiences I should've had, the growth that should've been much more colorful, but instead, I can't remember the past year and a half of my life. The years where I'm finally supposed to become myself. (I didn't want to make this about Rona, trust me, but while writing this I made the connection that it is for that very reason I've felt dull the past while.) I was supposed to travel with friends and keep making that infamous year the best in my life. Now I have college and adulthood looming over me. However, such as the end of this video, it all sort of comes back, you get out of it, I did. I look back at those years- both the ones growing up enjoying Minecraft, and the one I felt was robbed from me- with a sense of happiness. Happiness that I got what I did. Those late nights enjoying myself with people thousands of miles away, and those days of laughing at lunch, and singing the national anthem on a cold and rainy football game. I got to live those days, but they're over. Now I have new endeavors, now I'm living a new life. Freshman me from 2020 and Minecraft me from before then are gone, those kids lived their life and have moved on. Now it's my turn to carry on what they started. Thank you for reading my paragraph - Matt
Man, you'll do fine in your next year's of highschool and then college. Stay happy bro
Thank you for sharing - Momo
The 1st part of this comment describes what I was thinking but I wasn't sure how to word it to mysealf, thank you for giving me the words.
Thanks, matt. You'll do great
You got this Matt, I know how it feels man. I went through my college through the whole pandemic and now I’ve suddenly been thrust into the work force. It feels like it moves really fast and came out of nowhere, I can’t help but look back and see all the old memories I’ll never experience again. From playing with my friends on the play ground to playing games with my friends after school while our moms talked, and ultimately just that glow of not having to worry about bills, work, my purpose as a person. For me I took it very much the same way, just that loss of childhood and coming to terms with that. The adult world is scary and there are days that I question if I’m ready for it and if I’m cut out for it. Its hard, it’s really hard, but even though all of those warm happy memories can’t be relived, they still walk with me and remind me that I can still enjoy life and things aren’t as grey as they seem. Have a good day man, remember; one step forward is one step in the right direction. You and anyone else reading this, you made it this far; let’s see how far we can go!
The flower. The flower was a forget-me-not.
I'm so late, but the flower.
You're really amadude, this much talent for a mincraft video is insane
I feel like this impacted so many of us deeply because of our familiarity with Minecraft itself. We've all seen it in some form or another, and many have played it. It actually felt familiar, and so did the loss of familiarity. Amazing video
It's about dementia
@@SkyRecruit18 and the medium of Minecraft is effective because we are at a time where we are clutching to our memories of the game
@@dynawesome couldn't agree with you more, it's a game for life and the first real game most of us experienced at a young age
I love the addition of experience orbs at 0:43. Its a perfect metaphor of “an experience left behind”
I thought it meant the dog died at first 💀
Honestly, I thought it symbolized the stages of dementia, since I was looking at his level.
The experience is the level of dementia
i also felt the same crazy huh?
I thought it represents Serlut died because Serlut gave the player flowers, and Serlut did not appear the second time.
The last part where he was walking down the hallway is symbolizing terminal lucidity where he can finally see(or remember) himself in the mirror, remember all the achivement in his life and finally remembers his friends...
Wow. Just Wow
@@JettoALT that's why it's called terminal lucidity
@@JettoALT lol trying to one up corned beef and look smarter but you got shattered.
Its so sad to know that in the end you Will remember everyone just to die later.
Happened to my grandpa right before he had a surgery he didn’t wake up from
Hello?
Kids? Dear?
Where are you?
Darkness.
Alone.
All I know.
I’m forever alone.
I was not expecting an emotional masterpiece. This was seriously well done. Ever since I’ve listened to the The Caretaker (where burning memory came from) I’ve had a new undeniable fear. Slowly losing my grip on reality and having my entire world reduced to simple shapes and patterns.
My English teacher showed us this video the other day . He wanted to show us that “ anything can be made into art” .
I rewatched this a few times and think I’ve finally understood the meaning of it. Thank you
Wow your teacher is cool
@Xx_Gaming_ TeamXx not everything is fake you just have 0 faith in humanity. Never had a cool teacher?
@Xx_Gaming_ TeamXx actually, they would. I've had a few teachers who've even encouraged us to play the game outside of work due to the creative opportunities within it.
@Xx_Gaming_ TeamXx ty
@Xx_Gaming_ TeamXx Mine did once. Just because YOU can't believe it, doesn't mean it didn't happen. That's a you problem.
The EXP orbs only appearing at the end of the first trip through the house and never again kinda fucked me up when I realized
It's like those are the memories you made that day, and then afterwards...
Oh shit! I just realized that, good find m8
I just realized
Pd: That Charlotte Corday pfp tho nice
Thanks to you i understand the meaning of the xp orbs now, i couldnt figure it out thank you
Holy shit...
Ohhh right the exp orbs symbolizes the experience he had that day but as he went through the house again he never got any exp orbs because he has forgotten about the experience he had that day
My nana has something similar to dementia, she forgets basic things like where she put her credit card, but it will only get worse. We recently moved her to an assisted living place, and she has already made a friend. I hope she remembers all the good times she had.
My Nana is forgetful too but learning about my own adhd as a 23yo helped me realize my Nana just had adhd too
I'm sorry I can't do much more than say I hope she gets better.
@@ratsmacker4458 thank you!!
Please, go visit her.
@@rexanator100 Since I’m a kid still, I can’t visit her every day, but we will visit her in a couple days from now!
This is by far the best video I have ever seen. I've seen this since it came out and I just found it again. Loved it.
Wow you have artistic talent man, awesome symbolism
Whats up checkmark
@@IThinkIExist-is3cz this one kinda sus🈷️
@@IThinkIExist-is3cz whats up non-checkmark
Sunny?
Man.. the good ol days
It’s 10 o’clock, I can’t deal with this level of sadness.
I’m crying now
Same thing,almost.
1:37 AM, I was about to click on a scary video, and then I was like "Naaah, I probably won't be able to sleep afterwards. Besides, look, there's a Minecraft video!"
Wish I would've clicked on that instead. Because now I actually can't sleep.
Don't worry, we are crying with you..
same
It's 5am and literally balling my eyes out
Stage 1 - The house is as it should be. Your friends remain stable, everything is where it should be, even the dog go is happy
Stage 2 - The house is greyed out in places, and some things aren’t present. The doggie is different.
Stage 3 - More confusion, more missing-ness, different dog, and you take a quick moment to recognise even yourself.
Stage 4/5/6 - Memory is unpresent anymore, the house is unfamiliar, it’s all gone.
Finale - It all comes back to you for a moment, your friends, your achievements, your recognisability. And just as soon as it comes back, it fades away.
This also feels like old nostalgia, everyone and your friends play minecraft, get a dog, build a house but now... not anymore
not the dog 😭😭😭😭
the finale represents terminal lucidity by the way, this usually occurs before a patient dies after living with neurological disorders (ex, dementia) it's heartbreaking to see these things actually happen in real life
@@shadmium3471 what do u mean by lucidity?
@@GooseVis56 maybe you could search it up, just a suggestion
I lost two of my best friends to the same car crash when I was 16. This video brought me such an intense feeling of love and loss that I haven’t felt in a while, and for that, I thank you sincerely. This video portrayed possibly one of the most important aspects of my friendship with them, that most people in my day to day life will never understand. Thank you for bringing them into my consciousness again. Here’s to those burning memories 🍻
What’s even sadder is mourning a person that’s still alive.
yes
you mean for the caretakers?
How
Gay nigguh
@@NeneARZ Because you know they are on their way out.
This video always makes me cry, dementia is absolutely terrifying, forgetting your friends, your pets, how your house looked, how you look and not being able to remember
Then looks like my brother got dementia or there is anything like dementia ;v
@@soupvce no one asked you to reply and if you say "because you wanted to" that's the exact reason I shared my experience
@@soupvce??????
@@soupvce they aint waiting till someone asks so they can comment , kid
yeah. my grandma had dementia and she was convinced that her and my papas house wasnt their house. that they were renting it. atleast she didnt get to the stage where she forgot us. i miss you, grandma.
It took me a while to realize a lot of things, how the dogs collar changed colors as he walked through the doors: that all the xp he got represented what level of dementia he was in, how scary it was to lose everything by… you, yourself, in a month or week. The thought of losing my memories haunt me, I never rlly thought a world where you could travel endlessly can tear me up, that all the time I spent with everyone could just become meaningless. I’m not really scared of death because… it will happen, but dementia? That something else, a prison of memories that doesn’t make sense, a world that is full of questions but no answers. I’ve been pretty fearless, but… It’s scary, trapped in a loop that won’t end no matter what. It’s very very scary, I can’t even find words for it, terrifying, a never ending nightmare… I can’t imagine what people with dementia feels and see. I’m just out of words… I can go on and on about how terrifying it is but we all know that. A sad image of a hospital that is black and white, even your name simply, a life so full just gone, missing. How the first level is like the memories of the “good ol days” and… level 6? Like… A infinite ocean with a dark mist around blocking your view with big waves… but one exit that is… somewhere I guess. It’s probably worst than that but that’s my guess… this video portrays dementia greatly, I thought I was going to be a meme or smth lol… but I was wrong, very wrong.
Amazing. I agree I couldn’t live like that
my man really went deep. I respect it
underrated
wise words man.. you can write a novel about fears with that talent
I mean I knew everything that happened, but the xp bar representing which stage it was on, that's one thing I did not notice, now it makes this whole thing much more meaningful 😭
This is an out of world experiense. Never have a clip nor movie ever made me feel such strong emotions. This is art in it finest form Da Vinchi would be proud.
Man I decided to watch this before sleep and now I can't sleep
Weird, isn't it?
i watched you before sleep and i can’t stop laughing
Ayo horizon
capybara
Oh it’s this guy. Hello!
Before I start, I want you to know one thing: this broke something in me.
While my grandfather doesn't understand Minecraft or video games or any of this, he does have Dementia and Parkinson's. It has been very hard to watch him deteriorate over these last 6 years, but my family and I have been there with him every step of the way. Now, while this video is only 4 minutes long, I can assure you that this is almost exactly how it has gone over the years, but we can only guess at so much of how he is doing in his own head. He isn't at the point anymore where he can effectively tell us what he thinks or how he is feeling. And to see what it is like from his point of view... it hurts to think that this is what it is like to be trapped in your own head, knowing that something isn't right, but also not knowing why you know.
I want to congratulate you on everything, from the design to the transitions to the overall meaning and execution. I hope you go on to do bigger and better projects, and I hope you go on to make people experience more feelings and emotions like you did here with this short video.
It was too painful to watch for the same reason.
@@lunaticnomad0 same, my grandmother is currently experiencing dementia and in sone moments she forgets who i am, this video just shows me that feeling
god bless your family. i teared up :(
im so sorry for your loss, stay strong.
I'm so sorry to hear that
“Is it terrifying?”
“No, I don’t think so, It’s the way it is, y‘ know, the drip finally stops”
“I’ll see you on the other side”
“Oh Bojack, no, there is no other side”
honeslty the show is super under rated
@@slide6725 yup, I thought it was a usual funny sitcom show that was just animated, but oh how wrong I was. Bittersweet ending
Bojack horseman refrence?
@@slide6725 man, mfs love saying "underrated" nowadays
@@slide6725 tf you mean underrated millions of people have watched it
I have seen a few videos on minecraft isn’t what it used to be and the old days are forever gone.
But this video just brought me back and the subtle differences that are also so noticeable keep the shock of the memories forever fading and we’ll only have a few in the end.
Thank you so much for making this short film !
I love how the house gets more and more abstract everytime, like the memory of the house is being distorted
It's actually like a dementia patient because the house slowly begins to loose color and certain characteristics about it until be forgets everything including himself (when he looked in the mirror and sees nothing
Could that...? No... It couldn't be... Could this... be the point?
@@Josuh yes, i was evidencing the detail i liked more in the video.
i didn't say that it was a secret or something
@@Josuh Hahaha.. I doubt it. No way you're right.. right?
oh wow you really think so?
“Oh yeah I forgot to get some blocks in the house I’ll grab them.”
“What was I doing again?”
You wanted to grab some blocks in the house 👍
@@feuerigel6030 who are you? Who’s house is this?
@@luigi7146 Huh?I'm your friend Jim dude and uh your in your house.
You ok?
@@JMPD478 I don’t know a Jim.
@@luigi7146 yo its your boi Joe, remember me?
I’m at a low risk for Alzheimer’s and this shit still terrifies me
Yeah as someone who's family tree basically confirms I'm going to have it, it's definitely something that's always there to think about
Yeah as someone who's family tree basically confirms I'm going to have it, it's definitely something that's always there to think about
same, even though I'm still very young and there's still a lot of years before I might have Alzheimer's , I'm afraid of my grandma having it because almost everyone from her family has it. I really don't want her to forget me.
@@jamwrightiam i see what you did there
@@Anduswandus wait I don't remember commenting this
This felt like deja vu until it was dark and nobody was there and instantly I was like "I would be terrified"
I never thought a minecraft video could make me tear up. Dementia is a terrible thing to see your loved ones go through.
It’s the worst way to die
ok i can't hold myself from saying this but
*Everywhere At The End Of Cube*
can someone explain this video to me im confused
@@fhufhfhjfjfjf9534 the music is from an album called everywhere at the end of time. Written by a brilliant musician. I suggest you listen to it, its probably one of the most popular avante garde pieces to date, its 6 hours long and is meant to be listed to for a week or so. Give it a listen and you'll have a p good understanding of the video
@skYe_ u explained dementia not the video
Jesus Christ this is something else- didn’t know I could feel this way. That whole album gave me a sense of dread but it was somehow sad and beautiful at the same time
That shit scared tf outa me
@@el_pumbasitor8373 cant blame ya. Dementia is terrifying.
@@MarionetteHannah fr it reminded me of when i wake up in a night terror or panic attack where u cant remember who u are or how to run or move u just know u want to get away from whatever is hiding in that memory and when you find it irl you know that is what it was about
I like how subtle the transitions are. I didn’t know that it wasn’t the same house (or rather time) until the house got dim and there was only one housemate. When you suffer from dementia, you can be at one place and then another in just moments. Fantastic job, y’all!
The inventory items seem like a nice touch. To me they represent the things you alone take with you on your journey, they represent the good and the bad experiences, the memories that you alone had that no one can capture or record, and at then end of the day when you grow old and the memory fades, these items are all that's left. No one can tell you who you were, you come and leave this earth alone, with memories in the void.
I really love how the house gets less and less detailed, showing how we’ve forgotten certain things. I would love to watch a video on a full analysis on this. It’s just- such an amazing piece of art. Well done.
its about dementia
@@Kooczsi yeah haha, i love the way they represent it in this video!
dk if i'm the only one that noticed but at 1:08, the beef is in the middle item frame and at 1:40 it switched with the apple at the top frame, there was a carrot at 1:08, too, and was just replaced with another apple
which is SUCH a good detail.
@@aria1606 omg what srsly ?! i didnt notice that!! thanks for saying this beautiful detail :D❤️❤️
I guess that could be them forgetting where stuff was organized
Or it could be me looking too much into things
I worked 3 years taking care of elders near death with dementia, this brought me to tears. Very accurate.
This is a excellent representation and visual to dementia and the audio masterpiece "Just a Burning memory" by the Caretaker.
To anyone who wants to understand how its like to have everything you have ever known slowly dissipate into a blur of confusion this is it.
Please people, call your loved ones and keep them mentally engaged to prevent this. My sympathy goes out to others who may be suffering.
I dont believe keeping people mentally engaged prevents dementia.
There isnt much known about it and there is no cure as far as we know.
It really is a horrid condition.
One time I thought about the answer to the question what is the worst state a human can be in?
My answer was loneliness but I believe forgetting your memories,your experiences,you friends,your family,your life is far far more horrible.
@@hsgame4088 its statistically proven that people who are mentally engaged with life and do various mentally complex tasks and hobbies have a much smaller chance of dementia.
but statistics dont necessarily tell the whole story and it could be a chicken and egg type of deal. where it could be that mental engagement is staving off dementia, OR people with a proprensity to dementia have more trouble doing mentally engaging tasks and therefore stop doing them or avoid them to begin with.
@@oscarlove4394 Hmmm thanks for the info I did some research before and hadnt found any studies done on this theory.
But I will keep that in mind(unless I get dementia then I will probably forget),It seems we should try to engage with our grandparents,great uncles,fathers,mothers who have reached seniority.
And keep them doing stuff however miniscule simply to keep them engaged.
This really hits hard. My grandpa is really old now. Him and my family never had a very good relationship, and we kind of distanced ourselves. Two weeks ago he started coming around again, and he seems to be trying to gain our love again. But I fear that he won't have much more time. But only time will tell.
One of the main issues is that even from a young age you are used to things just fading out of memory. Things you did a week ago suddenly just don't exist anymore and things you once love you suddenly just have no interest in and can't remember why you ever did. So if you get dementia you don't even realize it because you're so used to many of these symptoms being just common place. At least that's been my experience not with dementia but just life, suddenly taking a semester off of school and suddenly not being able to remember the last year and what you learned in those past three semesters that seemed so important at the time. So I can see how it's really easy to not realize it's happening even if your mind was willing to.
My grandpa has Alzheimer’s and this video really makes me feel for him. Especially in quarantine where he can’t even remember why he can’t see his family. I very much dread the day he forgets me. Great video man.
This really made me think about the things in life that I take for granted.
Why does human biology have to give us flaws like this (The ability to get demantia)
@@jaydeemorgan3316 Dont worry. You, or others that you love, cant get dementia if they are active, even on their eldery stages. It basically reduces chances of dementia because their brain is working. Demetia appears from: brain damage, and high inactivity in eldery stages, or medium inactivity in adult ages, and low inactivity in child ages.
So basically, you and others should always be active with your brain, eldery or not, everyone always has a chance of getting dementia, even on the lowest chances. Do hobbies daily, play games, do sports, etc. are some pretty, pretty good ways to reduce these chances.
@@jaydeemorgan3316 the comment above me listed some reasons, but it’s also because we live longer than we were originally intended to. Not that it’s a bad thing, but living into you 80’s hasn’t always been possible/intended
hands down one of the best minecraft videos ever created.
The fucking forget-me-not flower, as he places it into the ender chest, followed by the even bigger emotional hit when he gets into the bed, remembers everything but only has a second before death... Shit always makes me cry no matter how many times I come back
That's actually wonderful, you show that you have a heart that you're not ashamed of showing. Remember to treasure it : )✌🏼...
The way you portray the mood, the confusing cycle, the eventual loss of everything that felt familiar, the changes that makes you question “was that always there?”
I love this video.
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Back in the days I felt like I'm not afraid of dementia, at all. Because my family has generic dementia, and I knew that one day, just one day, it will eventually come to me. Years later, I went to the hospital. I have been diagnosed with dementia. All my "mental preparations" I have done, all my prays and hopes and dreams, they would shatter in a million pieces. It's hard to describe the feeling you had in that moment. When it finally comes to you, no matter what you've done, you just couldn't take it. I had tears up in my eyes. I never let them dropped. I didn't speak a word. I was in my car on the way home. All I had in my mind is, Why? Why me? Why does it has to come so early in my life? Suddenly, I was in my room. I don't know how, I don't know why. What's happening in the middle, I don't know, and I won't know. Anxiety struck. It struck hard. I put a camera recording my room. What I saw is truly heartbreaking. Whenever I suddenly lost my memory again, I would go ahead and check the videos. I felt like I was watching another person.
I didn't pick up that key on the floor.
I didn't fold that towel.
I didn't read that book.
Or did I?
The video tells me I did, but my brain just won't let me recall it. I just don't have the footage in my mind, no matter how hard I think. I am watching memories that doesn't belong to my memory. It's like a lost puzzle of my memory, but I just couldn't shove it back in where it was. It belongs to there but it don't.
I won't let that happen in my life. I won't let go of my life. I started training my memories and try to get them back. I'm starting to participate in speech competitions. When I'm memorising the texts, out of a surprise, I didn't forget them the next day. I would think that I saved myself. My heart was like released from a death sentence. But, that's when things struck hard. Real hard. The day of competition, I was in my class, rehearsal the speeches in my mind. I felt like I was ready. I went to the toilet, and the next second I was on stage. It's like you had a nightmare, and suddenly woke up to reality. How did I go from toilet to the stage, I don't know. I forgot what did I say on the stage and which part of the speech I am in. I tried to restart the whole script, read it all over again. And the feeling hit again. My head was empty. I spent so much time and effort perfectly memorising each and every word, and now I had zero image about any of it. I don't even remember the title of it. I was on the stage. Anxiety struck. It struck hard. I said, "I'm sorry, thank you." Then walked off the stage. Everybody is not looking, but staring at me. He was performing smooth and well a second ago, why did everything suddenly went down? My feelings were indescribable. Dementia, once again, like a katana, cleanly sliced through my hope. On the way home, I felt real, real down. I felt like I can see the world is gray. My anxiety and sadness built up to a level I can't comprehend anymore. I had a really bad headache, I passed out.
I woke up on the hospital, and tragedy struck again. I was told that I had brain cancer. Not the worse one but still, I can't speak a word. Why does all that have to happen on me?
I started writing lots and lots of really long texts about my good old times. I'm so, so, so, so, so afraid of losing any of them, but it's happening. It's painful. I really wanna keep them forever. I'm writing down each and every thing I can remember. My best buddies. My old times where you don't even know what depression is. I didn't know my writing skills are actually something, that's because I haven't tried, just like many other things I didn't got to do in my life. I woke up in my room. Starring at the ceiling. I asked myself, "Why was my room painted blue?" Then I burst into tears.
I have Trypophobia. Those tiny holes, they might just be what my decaying memory looks like. The day's still passing by, and my life would still go on. If you gave me a choice, I'd rather start a new life right now. But still, I have no regrets meeting you and Zack in my life. I might be forgetting what my room looks like, I might be forgetting what you looks like, And one day, I might finally forget how to breathe, in that moment, I hope I can went through all my lost memories, even in a split second. I will forget the years of pains. By that moment, I will be walking towards the end of me, smiling, if I didn't forget how to smile.
My friend had dementia. I asked him what it feels like to have dementia after watching this vid.
I thought I was a tough guy until I read this text he sent me.
Damn just damn. I hope your friend is doing well
This made me cry....hope your friend is it's all right
this is one of the most powerful things i’ve read in a while. thank you for sharing
it was all interesting to read, until that last part hit. the "i might forget, what my room looks like, i might forget what you look like" really makes you think about how much of a personality is left when there are no memories.
Good text, but I don't believe it is real.
That was the best short I’ve ever watched amazing job. And think about this you will probably forget this ever exists in some time unless you see it again maybe when you have a few seconds left to live you’ll think of this video or someone else or something else but some things you’ll forget completely and never know them again
Not only one of the most emotionally touching Minecraft video’s of all time, but also one of the scariest, as it explores nostalgia and the pain of having to miss your loved ones through a block game, while also exploring a very real subject that thousands, heck, millions are struggling with in real life. An outstanding masterpiece that will be embedded into the Minecraft culture for many years to come.
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it's about dementia
@@MadGeek17 Yes, that’s what the commenter was implying.
Yes it is very sad.
I miss playing with my friends… it’s been years and years and years without seeing them… I am all alone in this once alive world…. Nobody to hang out with… Just alone in this empty nostalgic world as each update goes by…
I like how the food was originally cooked in the frames and then it became raw as time went on
And also flipped in random directions to show that something's just not right
Perpendicular food
Raw Memories?
I think he always forgot to cook it, or didnt remember how to cook.
*Because of his Condition*
I never thought one of the best ways to portray the theme of “Everywhere at the End of Time.” Each faded change to each loop is so subtle, and are each perfect. The fact that one friend disappears each time is sad, but a great detail. The ending with the friends seen as the the person with dementia fades away was a great way to end it, and really hit me hard. Dementia is scary, and you’ve captured it’s essence perfectly. Well Done indeed.
I cant understand, what is referred to demencia in this video?
@m6gnum The song is about dementia, and the deterioration of the brain impacted by it. With each loop, certain things fade away slowly, representing how dementia takes its toll over a period of time, until there is eventually nothing left.
As you feel the line between your mind and reality get more and more blurry, you start to dread every second of what you call your life. “Where’s my reflection?” You ask yourself, unaware that it was never yours to begin with.
As someone who hasn't had the time to listen to the whole album, this is horrifying in a way I've never experienced
i’ve attempted to listen to it nonstop and it’s a lot to take in at once.
Every time I come back to this video I feel dread, sadness and just generally disturbed. I cannot imagine how painful it is to forget all the people you love, all the memories you experienced. There's just always something off about this song that makes me feel unsettled. This video has some genius attention to detail and symbolism. Trully a beautiful video
same it’s very interesting
Beautiful
Maybe don’t come back?
Bro this made me tear. Very well put. Both the video and comment.
because the song is a slowed down and distorted edit of an old song and it was made specifically to sound like that to express the emotions you feel when hearing it
This scares me. Forgetting everything and everyone is just so horrible, even the thought sends shivers down my spine...
Greatly executed video man, it describes the illness very well.
...body's aching all
the time
Goodbye, everybody, I've got to go,
Gotta leave you all behind and face the truth
Mama, ooooooooh
I don't want to die,
I sometimes wish I'd never been born at all.
(sorry)
Your pfp made my day
@@johnwunderwaffle what???
@@doge5762 it's a song - "Bohemian Rhapsody"
@@kushagrajoshi937 i know but how does the song have anything to do with this😑
Getting home after work each day... Tired but happy to see your family. each day they disappear one by one until there is nobody. You live alone.
“I’m gonna join my friends old world! Where we first built our castles- wait where is everybody?”
“They died 13 years ago don’t you remember?”
i fucking teared up reading this.
My grandmother keeps asking "where is my husband (died last year) where is my sister (died in 2019), my brother ( her brother died in ww2), my mother? (died in the 70s), I must make them dinner"
@@Prauwlet213 that's fucked up
Having no other family other than your children and grandchildren. That's sad
I hope she have a peaceful future.
@@Prauwlet213 thats so sad...
@@Prauwlet213 that "I must make them dinner" just really hit
@@Prauwlet213 ah fuck i m crying
This makes my heart heavy, i feel a hint of nostalgia and many notes of sadness. This makes me feel like I have just found an old friend just to loose them. This is a true masterpiece.
Towards the end when he put the flower in the enderchest and seeing "forget-me-not", legitimately made me cry. The last sequence hit so hard. I can relate to this because it has already happened before which is why it made me so emotional and I'm sure it has happened to many people watching this. I can't imagine creating this video in the first place. Must've been painful...
You deserve a sub
I first saw this video about a year and a half ago. Nowadays I'm down in dumps. I have suddenly remembered that this video existed at 1 AM and decided to revisit it and I'm very happy I did. It's evoking strong emotions.