First Time Hearing Save Me by Jelly Roll | Suicide Survivor Reacts
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Could you please react to 'how to disappear completely' by Radiohead please.
Hey, I also wanted to say how much I appreciate your channel, how you put yourself and your past out there, the compassion you have, and the positivity you put out into the world. We need more people like you ♥️
Well thank you I appreciate all that you do ❤️
Keep on keeping on Amanda. You're doing awesome! P.S. You're supposed to "feel" songs!
"Discovery" only happens once...so, kick back and enjoy it.
I suffer from PTSD after a 35 year Army career. I lost my son to an IED explosion in Afghanistan 3 weeks after I retired. I started drinking so hard and popping pain pills. One night I sat at my kitchen table with my service pistol to my face. My cousin sent me the save me video. As I listened to it I stood up put my pistol in a cupboard and dumped every bottle and every pill in my house down the sink.
It's been 7 months and the PTSD is still bad and the pain still haunts me. But this song did "Save Me"
Christ I miss my son so bad.
I know this probably means nothing from an internet stranger - but my heart hurt reading your comment. Saying “I’m sorry” just falls flat, with what you’ve lost.
I hope the churning pain of losing your son will soften in time, so that the love and wonderful memories will shine through
@@oolillemyoo4099 your words and the love behind them made me smile. Some days are better than others. But I do have his three kids in my life and they really help papa. Blessings to you dear.
First off- THANK YOU FOR YOUR’S and YOUR SINS SERVICE! You truly are a hero to many. I’m so so very sorry to hear that your son paid the ultimate sacrifice. I can’t imagine the pain you do feel but please know how incredibly strong you are for not letting the demons of drugs and alcohol take you from your family as well. Having that amount of personal will power is incredible. My family and I will be praying for you and yours! Your story can and will help so many others!!!
@@haleyhopes5774 our service was our honor. But thank you for the kind and loving words
I am so incredibly sorry for your loss. His sacrifice (and yours) will never be forgotten. I am SO proud of you for fighting and for keeping yourself safe. Find ways to share your son's love with the world. I started a journal and wrote down every single memory of my parents and that helped keep them alive in some way for me.
Sweetie I don't know how much jelly roll you've ever listened to, but everything he sings or raps about is real life for him. His life is struggles are an open book to his fans
I was hoping someone was gonna point out the fact that he's words are REAL.
So true. I've been listening to jelly roll since the beginning
Jelly Roll rocks
He was incarcerated as a teenager, tried as an adult, and in the system for about 12 years. His words are real. All from the heart here.
I agree with you! He's an amazing singer/songwriter that knows how to write relatable songs to many people.
I just want to give Amanda a big hug and tell her she's perfect the way she is.
I agree she's fine the way she is today but life is about becoming something better everyday even if it's only .0001% from day to day and becoming something that's honorable and willing to go out in the world and do something great
I feel his music on a personal level. I'm probably as broken as he is. He vocally heals the soul.
A year ago my dad showed me this song and told me it was his favorite song in the world . Hell he even has the lyrics on a picture hanging in his house , last month he lost his battle with kidney failure … i miss my old man and this song makes me feel bittersweet cause never feel pain again but damn i miss my best friend .
My heart goes out to you. Please feel free to share your favorite memories of him here. Keep his memory alive.
Sorry for your loss
Can't go wrong with jelly please do more his music has literally saved my life
4 minutes and you have my support first time watching. This song is made for many of us still struggling and recovered. Bless you!
I have watched many reactors react to this song, this is the first time that the reactors reaction actually made me shed a tear.... I see that you completely felt this song. Stay strong, stay smiling!
This song saved me from myself and I’ve been wanting to do a cover so bad. I’m tearing up and people need to know this song for the bad times. This song helped me see my life in third person while listening .
I agree. September 2021, I lost my sister. Followed by my brother in January, my dog in March and then in June. My husband died from cancer, in June. We were married 26 years and most days I feel only a step or two away from insanity
I listen to this song daily literally. As someone recovering from SEVERE depression, this hits home. Your reaction is similar to how I thought almost daily. Congrats on overcoming what you did, and keep up the great work!
Keep fighting. You'll find the other side too!
Wow. He sings "I'm a lost cause, don't waste your time on me." And yet it's false, it's actually a cry for help. Though he never actually says it in the lyrics, the song is called SAVE ME.
He says it in the opening line
Literally starts with... somebody save me.. me from my self ive spent so long living in hell.... sounds like bro wants saved lmao
Another great reaction video. Thank you. My wife passed about 5 months ago now. I can't relate to all the specifics that Jelly Roll went thru, but I can certainly relate to that part of my grief while I just hated God with a passion. No matter how much folks warn widows and widowers what to expect, it's not real at all until we go thru if for ourselves. I am on the other side of it now, but still recovering in my own way. Thank you for all that you are doing. I did not know what to make of Jelly Roll when I first heard about him, but the first time I heard him sing, he pulled me right into his life. Another great artist.
Love Jelly Roll! You can definitely feel the pain and sorrow in his voice! It resonates in your soul! His music definitely helped through some dark times! And your right No One is a lost cause there is always a light shining no matter how dark it is just keep searching for it! If anyone needs an ear I'm always here! Much love 🖤🖤
Jelly Roll has saved a bunch of peoples lives. Including mine. As a man we're told to "man up" when we should open up. I have held in my childhood trauma of almost being raped when I was 8, physical abuse from my father, horrible life decisions, ex wife cheating on me then killing herself with a hot shot, PTSD from my time in the military, cumulative grief from losing my mom and best friend 10 days apart. In 45 and some days I pray to those I love that have passed on (I'm not really religious) but I pray for them to take me with them. I'm jealous of those that have passed on. They don't have to be buried above ground like in a skin coffin like I am.
But I came across Jelly Roll before he did this song. He's a rapper. That's how he got his start. And I heard his song "ENEMY" and the chorus had me in tears.
"My Only Enemy Is Me
I’m Up Аgаinst Something I Cаn’t Beаt
Well I’m Good Аt Putting On А Show But In My Mind It Аin’t How It Goes
My Only Enemy Is Me"
It's so simple but it made me realize in fighting against myself. It woke me up. Made me realize I'm not alone. The lyrics for almost all of Jelly Roll's songs are about battling mental illness. And he just released a country/rock style album after this song "save me" blew up.
Here's a little list of Jelly songs and they genre they're in.
RAP:
-Fall in the fall w/Struggle Jennings
-Same Old A**hole
-The Bottom
-Nothing Left At All
-Life Featuring Brix
-Enemy With Struggle Jennings
-A Dream (it's an Adam Calhoun song but it's so good I had to add It)
**Everyone of these songs (except Enemy) Jelly raps on and songs2 the hooks**
ROCK&ROLL:
-Promise
NOT ROCK/RAP/COUNTRY, R&B Maybe? The songs are sooooo good!!
-Glitter
-I Need You
COUNTRY:
-Sober
-Son of a Sinner
I am so sorry that you have been faced with so much grief and pain. You didn't deserve it. I promise that there's another side to it though. Please reach out if you need to, my email is in the video description. I appreciate your sacrifice as a soldier and I very much care if your light goes out.
I'm happy to see that you reacted to Jelly's song. I felt this would be a good song for your Channel. It hits me hard every time, no matter how many times I have heard it.
He came from under the ground hip hop scene back in the mid 2000’s. So under rated and puts his soul in his music
I love watching reactions to this video, every reactors face is exactly the same when they 1st hear Jelly's voice. Priceless
jelly rolls lastest album is amazing. i have complex ptsd, i tried to take my own life in 2020 and ended up spending a week in the icu, since i have a issues with my legs. mental health is a tough life but we all can make it
Just so you know this song was dedicated to his wife whose name is Baby, it was his way that she was making so much more money than him in helping him out even when he was homeless and broke and not to waste your time on him because he didn't feel like he wasn't a burden but the beautiful thing is is that she stayed with him and now he's making the big bucks and she gets to sit back and enjoy it❤
He is singing from his heart. He lived it. No joke. Nuff said
When you started to tell just a slight glimpse into your story I almost started to cry because I sympathize so much with you you're so insightful and a Shining Light thank you for what you do
I was molested when I was 12 and didn’t realize it then took me 22 years to open my mouth about it and telling my wife my mom and my dad was the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do!
I lost my brother to heroin overdose Thanksgiving morning 2011 that day I lost my big brother and my best friend, I never got to say goodbye and the last thing I said to him wasn’t nice and I wished he would die instead of telling him I love him!
I was a alcoholic and a drug addict for a long time but I’m almost 11 years sober and this hit me in the gut!
Thank you for saying this I’m proud of you and lots of hugs to you keep moving forward
I hope you know now how worthy and lovable you are and that you didn't deserve that abuse. I'm also sorry for your brother. I hope he rests in peace. I'm so proud of you for your 11 years!!!!!
Love this song! Really enjoyed watching! Thank you so much!
Jelly Roll’s music has definitely saved me from the dark place that I’ve been in. I wish someday I’ll be able to let him know just how much his music has helped me keep going.
Your reaction alone gave me chills alone..to see someone who can relate..I relate way to much to this song
So glad i found this channel, there is nothing therapy like a person who has been through so much and yet brings so much positivity.
You have no idea how much I needed this. You're amazing
❤️ From South Alabama
I'm a year behind this reaction but Amanda, your reaction hits home SOOO much because of your life experiences. Thank you for sharing yourself here!
A lot of Jelly Roll's music deals with mental health. Rapping or singing Jelly Roll knows how to make you feel something.
I love seeing these reaction videos. He opens up the real in people. What he says is real. The reaction you gave was real. The feelings we feel that he's speaking about are real. Hearing your words about yourself and sharing your story was real. I love it. It's hard to find this anymore.
Jelly Roll always has you feeling some sort of way 🖤 You should check out Creature by him with Tech N9ne and Krizz Kaliko, or Echoes 🖤🖤
I'm adopted, have 4 types of depression symptoms, borderline personality disorder, and last but not least, a generalized anxiety disorder. Feeling like a lost cause is my every day and every day I fight that notion as much as I can with mantras..."I'm enough, I can last just one more day," and the day after I tell myself again, "I'm enough, Just one more day".
I'm not okay. I hate the question how are you? The lie of "I'm good, how are you?" is expected and when I don't have the energy to lie and tell the truth, it freaks people out.
Thank you for being part of the solution to breaking the stigma.
You never have to lie here. I was also diagnosed with BPD and generalized anxiety. I promise that living a happy and healthy life IS possible.
love this song and jelly roll. i can relate to the song. of course i'll listen
This video reaction and your honesty of your life made be become a subscriber. I'm a 4 year recovering addict myself. I know this pain everyday. I fight it everyday. Thank you for being you and shinning a light on these struggles
I am super proud of you for your recovery! Keep fighting!
i never really thought of mental health as a problem that i would ever have. but after my military service and other horrible things happen to me in life, i am a huge advocator for mental health. I literally at one point was so afraid that i might harm myself that it was extremely scary because i was not sure if i could stop it. Man it was rough but im doing so much better now. I think this is why his music resonates with me. I just thank god every morning that i am still alive and i have a wonderful wife who has been nothing but patient with me and such good kids. sometimes i wake up and feel like im in a dream. thank you for sharing your story, thats awesome how you got over things in life and is doing great!
You are so awesome and such an inspiration. thank you for reaction and never forget people care so much about you and are so proud :).
Thank you for your channel. First time watching. Your words have given me some hope today. Thank you.
Everything in this song was going through my head in Oct when I lost Karen and Princess. I am a volunteer fire police member the 2nd asst fire police chief ( emergency traffic controller) when I radioed in that i was responding i was acknowledged by dispatch and a few minutes later i was told stand down and report to the fire house. About an hour later the fire fighters came back and i could tell they were all trying to hide they were crying. My best friend who i know for 20 years and also volunteers (fire police with me) came and told me about my G/F and puppy. Being 8 years sober and having my friends kept my going. But yeah my mind was a mess. Great song and Great video Amanda you rock.
Of course your mind was a mess. I can't imagine how heartbreaking that was for you. But you are fighting in their honor and I am SO proud of you for your 8 years!
I needed this today. Thanx ❤
seeing you upload makes things a little easier, im having bad thoughts.. ill be fine but this makes things a little easier seeing you upload again. thank you.
That opening line and commentary...thanks for all you do!!!
Not broken...incomplete
I can't hear this song without crying. I was born in 1965 and grew up in a house that was very abusive in all forms of abuse. I because a drug addict . Went to prison. Which saved my life. I came out the other side of all this. I am definitely a Survivor. Jellyroll represents us all. That's what I love about him.
Thanks for your honesty. Proud of you!
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Jelly rolls music has literally helped keep me alive. ❤ him. Just found your channel, new subscriber here
i could search my entire life and never experience love from a soul like yours. i too have been used, abused, neglected, and just treated as nothing more than a paycheck. so i gave up on it all. im so broken that i dont ever want my story to come from my lips again. im just afraid that no one would understand.
Except you already HAVE love from my soul. There are plenty of people here, myself included, that will hold space for your story.
@@MentalAmanda you are such a sweet and caring soul.
Wow!!
This is heavy! Great commentary!!
Keep what you're doing you are amazing your ability to associate mental health and current music and the descriptive lyrics of some music is incredible I wish I could find someone like yourself who understood the way you do I have BPD borderline and most people can't even understand it lyrics especially jelly rolls and others like him speak so deeply to me
i never heard of this guy but like a month ago i started listening to him. hits home so hard, never really had music that i can connect with so much. all his songs are great.
Another great song and request that gave much for Amanda to discuss,
Never saw you before but you seem genuine which is always a relief to me as my depression has enveloped my life and I've been loosing hope in my fellow man for years now to were I rarely speak to anyone face to face for weeks at a time, glad you found your way out keep that head up
People will disappoint you. There are awful people in the world who do awful things. But there are also people who will love you and people who do heroic things. Be mindful of who you let in your circle and the media you let in your mind! Keep fighting for the RIGHT people!
Just your channel I work in mental health. I often play Jelly roll for my patients his songs always hit hard because he speaks a truth that we all share. I always tell my patients that I am proud of them for being survivors, and everyday is a chance for a new beginning. Thank you
You gave me hope, thank you.
JELLY SINGS AND RAPS THE TRUTH ABOUT HIS LIFE. GREAT REACTION AND NEW SUB FROM NOVA SCOTIA!! LETS GO CHAMP.
I to had been in the phych ward, I had lost SSOO much. I was orphaned since 6, lost siblings, in 14 different institutions before 10 years of age. Foster homes all alone. Then got married and she died, just drank, smoked weed daily. Weakly attemped suicide. Them prayed to GOD to SAVE ME and he guided me through Rehabilitation and found an Engineering position just retired after 10 years. Been clean for 15 years, and I just want to hug him also. Like you said that life is not to be easy. There would not be lessons to learn if it were easy. And I believe the lessons that we struggle with will continue to manifest themselves in on form or another until we learn them. And man I am hard headed at times.
You are exceptional the way you are Amanda!! Keep being you beautiful!!
I love that song I felt like that alot when I was younger and still do sometimes but time can heal just take the ball and run with it thank you ❤️
i love the way you started this video i have mental issues but scared to ask 4 help and to prideful TBH...just feel stuck but channels like yours makes me feel like im not alone in this battle so THANK YOU, I just ran into ur channel and its great keep it up bye.
Welcome to the community! You are correct, you are NEVER alone. Stop by anytime, we've got your back!
Wow he has an amazing voice. I was not expecting that.
Jelly Roll's music helped me get through one of the roughest patches ever, spiritually and mentally, recently. I've only found real peace in the last few months and begun to get my life moving forward again.
You are wonderful, believe that!!! If everyone was honest and sought help, there are not enough professionals to go around. We need to be there for one another in life all.
Glad I found this & glad I found you.
I remember at the age of 12 starting to feel lost and not belonging I have been able to fight of them feelings of hopelessness with the perceived help of drugs and alcohol at times getting a yr or so of happiness. I stopped drugs and alcohol 8yrs ago at 64 I am alone and dwelling on my failure's waiting for my last breath. "Save me" has somehow given me solace and peace I listen to it when I think I cant take it any longer.
It's never too late to find a purpose, a passion and hope my love!
I've been dealing with pretty heavy mental stuff for about 15 years now, and as much as the dark thoughts come up.. as much as I may not believe good things will come some times. Everything you said at the end, about no one being broken beyond repair, someone being out there that cares about you and all that.. that's the reason I keep going, I've learned people come and go, so I try to cherish what comes before it goes. I just deal with the darkness as it comes, and try my best to push them back. People are often surprised to find how bright, nice and loving my mind is, when they find out even some of the things I think about on a daily basis. This song is one song that resonates so much with me, because it strikes so close to home on how I feel when I meet new people..
Thank you for this. Wow did it come at the right moment. Just wow 😢😢😢😢😢
I'm a 4-time suicide survivor. I know what pain is like. i have PTSD and other mental health diagnoses. I served 14 years in the U.S. Navy. As I got older, the illnesses got worse. I wasn't on any meds at the time. I was medically retired in 1994. Had a family to support and really no hope for the future. Amanda's right. We as a society need to eliminate the stigma of mental illness. Society sees us as trash and labels us as criminals even if we have never done anything illegal. They tell you to "Just get over it". I'm telling this from personal experience. We need to help each other get through this thing called life!!! and nit beat each other down.
I lost my son Dec 27th 2020 ... and this song got me through so much even still to this day
I'm so sorry. Please feel free to share your favorite memories of him here. Keep his memory alive 💖
Good luck girl ❤️❤️❤️
This just gave me another day, hearing what you said.
Well watch it tomorrow. And the day after. Don't give up. I care if your light goes out.
i couldnt understand who you said once said it, but as soon as i heard "do not pray for an easy life, pray for the strength to endure a difficult one" ..that hit me as hard as i just hit your subscribe button, and i havent even gotten to the reaction! ... Thank you for sharing that
Welcome! 💖
Its funny, there is another side to this song for me and you've nailed a few things, while my issue was not addiction, my life has been broken for so long, you've earned a new sub I love your reaction to this
Such an important message for so many. ❤
Just found your channel today, your story and knowledge needs to get out there!
Hi Amanda, I am a combat veteran who struggles with survivors guilt and a whole cocktail of mental challenges. I am very impressed with your perseverance and your strength. I have come to find you as a huge inspiration. I just wanted to thank you for that. I appreciate it more then you can imagine.
People like you are MY inspiration. So you inspire me to inspire you to inspire me! Hehe. Thank you for your sacrifice
you make my day better.
You are an inspiration to me... Your honest description of your past blew me away... losing my daughter.. the self hate ...
Im still there , but seeing this makes me feel not so alone.. subd
My condolences. I speak from experience that losing a child is a Hell that I wouldn't wish on anyone. I'm glad you found the channel and look forward to seeing you around 💖
This is my introduction to you. I love this song. It's odd that a song that makes me look so hard at myself also brings me peace. It's a contradiction, it's a force beyond logic. It makes me cry almost every time.
I'm a recovering drug addict, alcoholic, domestic violence survivor, and self harmer..I have been homeless. My addiction caused me to lose everything, including my kid's.
This man is a savior to so many people. He is the voice to the voiceless. I love seeing people hear this song for the first time and their reactions.
I'm struggling today. My mental health is not ok. I've been suppressing these feelings for awhile now. And I couldn't any longer. I was actually suicidal and decided to listen to my playlist entitled "Healing in music". And I have the playlist on shuffle. This song was the first one to play today. And it just reminded me of how much I have already overcome. Who and where I used to be versus who and where I am today.
Jelly Roll saved my life today. Literally!
I reached out for help and my daughters are with me tonight and will be coming with me to an appointment tomorrow. I was going to go today, but, I was scared. It's not my first time feeling this way. But I'm not alone. And I'm safe.
I'm sure you know more about Jelly Roll today vs when you made this reaction video. But in case you don't, he has so many videos on social media where he shares his story.
3 years ago I finally admitted I was addicted to dating sites and pornography. I was in an online relationship with a girl in florida while being married. I came forward about it to my wife and I told her I dont blame her if she left, because I might be a lost cause. She told me to get sober and she will stay. My dad is in 12 step and he found a program for sex and love addiction for me. I didnt stay in 12 step but I went to therapy. I am 3 years sober from dating sites, and it will be 4 on boxing day. My wife stuck around and helped me feel like I wasnt a lost cause and I am so damned grateful for her. I related so much to this song, and its one I have on repeat. Thank you for this channel cause you are helping so many people open up, and talk instead of hiding it.
It is amazing how you have recovered. Love the reaction. Would love your take on the song Fear by Blue October
The good part is, Jelly has recovered and is doing very well.right now. He had a rough life, but is now flourishing.
I think you are awesome Amanda!! Keep your head up beautiful
You are a beautiful soul.
Keep up your important work
Really enjoyed your reaction and I'm a new subscriber. Jelly roll is one of my favorite artists that I relate to. I also suffer from extreme depression. Just three years ago I had everything I wanted. Work my way up from the bottom and had a good career, a wife, and was going on in constant Adventures all over the country. In 2019 I lost everything. It was like Murphy's Law kicked in full effect and no matter what I did everything got strip for me. I ended up homeless it on drugs and everything else. I can honestly say if it wasn't for the girl I'm with now, who has been my best friend since we were kids, I would probably be dead. I still think about that period And it gets to me at times. Depression kicks on and off ever since I went through all of that. Especially gets to me when I think of losing my dogs my car and my home and my career. Now I tried to just focus on rebuilding. Back at the bottom where I started. When I was younger I handled it better I guess being successful for the past decade made it even rougher on me
2017 was like that for me and I have had a LOT of loss and hardship since then, but happiness IS possible. I'm proud of you for continuing to fight and for how far you've come!
Another song that may be a good reaction is Whiskey Lullaby by Brad Paisley and Alison Krauss. Subject matter is a mix of some other songs you've reacted to. Keep up the good work and spreading the message for everyone that they have worth and there are other options.
Ive fought four decades severe bipolar with suicidal fantasy so the darkest, undeniable premise of this song is the avenue I can never turn out of.
I've learned that I may not be able to turn things off, but I can find ways to work with my symptoms or dial them down.
When jelly roll says it it is absolutely real. He has been THROUGH it.
No ONE IS EVER SO LOST THAT THEY CAN’T BE SAVED
Life has shattered me, but God makes me whole. Had two close brushes with suicide, and I'm currently recovering from one now. There is light and color at the end of the tunnel. The world you live in doesn't have to be grey and neither cold nor hot. You WILL be happy again. Believe it. *hugs to everyone who needs one tonight*
His story is amazing, and he is such a humble person. He gives back in so many ways! You should check it out, in detail. He’s very open about his life struggles. I’ve heard him say that he makes music for the broken.
I feel you sweetheart. First time I heard this song I cried like a little baby, lol. But on the real, jelly sings his life basically. If he's singing it he's lived it. He makes these songs for people like us because he is like us.
You are AMAZING !!!
I’m 29 and been using benzos and opiates for 15 years and hearing this song truly helped me get and stay sober for a year now and it’s amazing to know someone else struggles and feels the same way you do inside. This song is a true masterpiece 👌🏻 sorry for the sob story
Never apologize for sharing your truth. Proud of you for your year!
I'm so glad to see you react to this track as I suggested it months ago in a comment on here.
The first time I heard it I felt that it could have been written for me as it perfectly sums me up.
I AM broken, no medication or talking therapy or support groups have helped so I am at my witts end and don't know what will help.
The only thing that I do know is that I won't die of old age, I will die by my own hand I just don't know exactly when.
A song that means almost as much at the moment is Something To Remind You by Staind
I believed with everything in me that I would die by my own hand one day. I couldn't take meds, support groups/therapy did next to nothing. I'm now happier than I ever thought possible. It took a lot of fighting but has been VERY much worth it. It's not impossible!
@@MentalAmanda Here's the link for the Staind song mentioned above
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I was an addict for 23 years its hard its very hard gettng sober is the hardest thing you will ever do and to say sober is an everyday challenge but if you want it bad enough you can do it its a great feeling
Love your channel. I am dealing with my own demons and depression (suicidal thoughts.... Not right now mind you). A US Navy Veteran (retired 20 years), I always pushed off mental health help after every deployment and through all that suppression and substance abuse (alcohol) my demons came knocking about 5 years after retirement. I am trying to resolve all of this but I feel like such a burden to my family and friends (including my teenage son that I lose hope. BUT I am still here.
Again thank you for being here on You Tube, you help.
First of all, thank you for your sacrifice. Second, you aren't a burden at all. In fact, when we are open and share our struggles, those around us realize that they can do the same and it actually HELPS them. There are several other vets here (such as Rick James who is very active around the comments and Friday streams) that would be happy to help you. You aren't alone. We've got your back.
@@MentalAmanda , thank you.
You are so intriguing and captivating I just enjoy Listening to you.. Is truly amazing woman.
this made me weep!
😮❤ thank you for doing this. I love this song very much and I’m sorry about your pet anyone can deal with that is the strong in the future all I don’t know if I could do it. I want to say thank you so much in this sucks that happened to you, I will never do that to somebody disrespectful and not a way to treat women you’re so beautiful lol love you
I am a suicide survivor. I've also had people in my childhood try to kill me multiple times. I lost my entire family. My sister. My mom 2020 my dad 2020. I have PTSD anxiety manic depression. Ex wife 5 kids. I have suffered with mental health for so long. And everybody just wants you to shut up about. I am glad I found your channel. And I for one when I've heard jelly row for the first time it was this song. Stay strong and keep up the fight against Mental Health God bless
You're a fighter and I'm so proud of you for holding on through so much loss and struggle. I believe in you, please keep going. 💖