How I healed after the death of my best friend
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- If we view grief, death, and loss as a mountain, our healing can only truly begin when we realize that grief is a mountain that, no matter how hard you try, can never be summited.
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Happy Halloween, everyone! I hope this video reaches the person that needs to hear it. If you are trying to navigate the mountain known as grief, please know my heart is with you and I hope this video can help to assist you on the road to finding peace and healing.
Thanks grief is a very powerful thing. Good to see you. now let me watch the video. Have a great Sunday
This reached me at the right time, my best friend commited suicide in april of 2015 to then find out last night that she didnt mean to end her own life and now i feel completely lost & broken all over again xx
@@lisajohn450 I'm so sorry for your loss. I'm sure she's in heaven looking out for you. You will be in my prayers. Just try to remember all the good memories. God bless
Thanks for this
I love you Morgan and love Our Little Miss Light, Stephi!
I lost my best friend 4 days ago.. I miss her so much
So sorry for your loss!
I lost my close friend
Someone whom I shared so many intimate moments and created so many memories just a couple of days ago and I am heartbroken!💔 He had a terminal illness and then on top of that got
Cancer and it is so hard!
You've made a difficult choice to move from surface-level vlogging to this deeper content, and it's worth it to the people you touch.
Best video so far
I think so too!
@@sukijohnson5398 he is such a natural at speaking to all of us...i really love to hear what is here on this channel
Absolutely yes. ♥️♥️♥️
Yup
I agree keep up the good work Morgan. 👏❤️🔥
Everyday you're breathing and moving forward. Is another summit reached.
Got me cryin' over here bro.
Bro, me too... and it's been years.
I lost my oldest and closest friend this last Tuesday in a motorcycle accident. I've never experienced pain like this, I haven't stopped crying. He was like a brother from another mother. I don't even know where to start with my emotions.
I understand truly, how have you been at this time and date. Seems like it’s been 6 months so I understand how you feel because it’s been almost two years for me. Been there done that sadly. Amazing people though so that’s what makes me smile. Let me know how you’ve been I’d love to know.
This is exactly how I feel...this is the worst pain I have ever felt! Hugs friend...I hope today is better than yesterday for you.
same my brother js died yesterday it’s a pain like no other
Hello Morgan, I subscribed to your channel today. In January 3, 2014, my mom passed away by suffering to heart failure/heart attack. My mom just adopted me, and my 3 brothers. I missed my mom so much.🙏
Thank you for your words. I just lost a best friend...and the pain is extreme. Your words brought me comfort. Thank you
I've lost one of my best online friends last week, and sadly couldn't attend his funeral. I've never felt so emotionally wrecked before, since the last time I've lost someone, I wasn't able to fully comprehend the concept of death. He was a great guy, and I miss him. Hearing this today is helping me cope, even if just a little bit. Thank you, I really needed to hear this.
I lost both my Dad and brother within 6 months of each other. Not a day goes by that I don't miss them and wish I could talk with them. Grief is never ending and it changes us.
Plan for tomorrow but live for today. Always say I love you even when your mad.
Love you Morgan! Love this new style of video too.
It's been a pleasure to watch you grow and I can't wait for more❤
So sorry to hear of your loss. My thoughts are definitely with you, but you are 100% correct about grief changing us, although I've learned it doesn't always have to be in a bad way. Thanks so much for enjoying the video and watching!
Great subject. Over the years with CF at my age of 57. I have lost almost all of my good friends with CF. I feel for you Fibro, normal people just don't understand the kind of depression we feel. I have been to more funerals then I have ever been to weddings, and I used to photograph weddings for a living.
One day at a time we step through our life and pain, just keep moving forward.
Awww!! I’m so, sorry!! I’m a year younger than you. But, I have Cerebral Palsy.. I just started using walking aids about 4 yrs ago..
I understand you CF people, but, I don’t. I hope you understand what I’m trying to say??✌️
Approaching the 2 year anniversary of the death of a close friend who died in a freak accident. Your mountain metaphor is so helpful for accepting that I'll never be "okay" with the fact that he died. It's true that I'm one of the luckiest people on earth to have gotten to know him for the brief time that he was here. Thank you so much for making this.
I lost a close friend yesterday morning in a car crash, i don't even know how to feel.. but was comforting to watch this video, Thanks. Fellow Cfer 💜
So sorry to hear about your friend. My thoughts are with you! Unfortunately, a thing I've learned is there are no words that can make anything better in the present moment, but hopefully as you begin to heal you can remember they are always with you.
@@MorganSolo Thankyou, i will hold on to the great memories forever 🍀
Eddie from Toronto 🇨🇦: I Lost my Only Friend 10mths ago im 40,Never been married no kids and my friend was Life I Completely Loat my Identity I had no idea who i was i spent every day with "Carlos" i Put him under my wing and sobered him up and i took care of him and i need to tell every this There is No Time Limit! On Greving! Do not feel Ashamed to Mourn The pain Never goes Away u just have good days and bad ones but u always hurt.
With sadness comes strength. You're on a hella path right now. Dont stop... only to smell the roses.
Hey brother, Thank you for your courage & willingness to share! I lost my life partner 8 yrs ago to cancer, it took me 8 yrs to date to feel better about my life. I appreciate everything you shared today!
Thank you for sharing!
That was very heartfelt and deep! I have lost so many people myself and just two days ago lost my best friend whom I was with all of the time! He was an absolute blessing and
We loved each other so much! He had HIV which turned into AIDS and then he got cancer and died. I watched him take his last breath!
It hurts so much and I
Thought he would get better but that didn’t happen! I know he is with Jesus and is no longer in pain, but now I have to go on without him and it is hard! He was amazing and touched me profoundly!
I will miss him so much
Until we meet again!
Thank you for this video. I just lost my best friend. My kindred spirit. I really needed to hear this message today. RIP Joey 😢
I’m so sorry for your loss. I’m going through the same thing. The pain is excruciating.
Thank you so much. Yesterday I attended the funeral of a special friend of 25 years. He has always been the go-to person for me.
Morgan, this video couldn't have come at a better time for me. I've been watching you for a few years, but I got into the CF YT community through Claire, and she completely changed the way I looked at the world and my own life. When she died it was earth shattering and I didn't even know her personally. I can only imagine how it feels to go through what you did throughout your life. Having lost a fair share of people in my own personal life, this video speaks to me in such a strong way. Your analogy about the summit is so perfect. So happy for you and your change in channel direction. Thank you.
Thank you so much for watching. I unfortunately never got to meet Claire, but I watched her videos and learned a lot about her through my friendship with Justin. She meant so much to a lot of people, and I hope that I can use my channel and my perspective through CF to give people the same hope and inspiration they had when watching her. ❤️
Me too and same ❤️🩹
I never had a friendship that felt genuine, I always felt out of touch with other people and I felt like I couldn’t be myself. I met Dylon and I must say I didn’t quite like him at first, I thought he was conceited but I was wrong. We related on a lot of struggles and had each others back when ever we felt our lowest. He always knew what to say and I tried to always be a positive support to him even though I have my own struggles with addiction. He was my best friend and more importantly family! I know that you really wanted to change and we even talked about it the night before you passed. I’ll forever be grateful for having you in my life and I wish things were different. I’m not going to lie, there is a lingering sense of emptiness and sorrow rendering my very soul because of your absence, I will do my best to honor your memory.
My friend she died from an overdose. Her personality was so vibrant every time we met up it was a great time. We all have our struggles with addiction and after she transitioned I was left devastated. It's crazy how it still feels like it was yesterday I miss her so much.😢
@@richienickson8085 It’s hard to assimilate that they’re really no longer here. That has been the most difficult for me, seeing how the world just keeps moving forward. I’m sure that you’re doing the best to honor your friend.
@@phillip6126 yeah and it's like you see other people in them and it's like you can't help but treat them good. I know that sounds odd but it's the truth.
@@richienickson8085 That is so true, I completely get that! I know I’ve found myself doing that and I have to check myself because I don’t want to come off in bad way.
The mosaic concept is so beautiful. Crying hard rn
I don’t know what to say. That left me speechless. I get it. On such a deep level. I’m a cancer mom. My son has a lot of the introspection you do also because of growing up in the hospital & so close to death. He was in active treatment for 13yrs. After a bone marrow transplant he finally is in remission. I stayed with him through the whole thing. Not a helicopter parent, just a sincere advocate. Anyway, I feel every word of this. I am enjoying these videos your sharing. Such in-depth feelings. Things people don’t talk about much but really need to. It’s wonderful your putting it out there so we can all hear it and not feel so isolated in our own minds. Take care ✌️⭐️
When you love deeply you grieve deeply!
Thank you for this.
My sister died falling on her stairs.
I couldn’t save her although I am an emergency nurse.
The peak of grief and the valley of desolation etc.❤ 🙏
Thanks for this video.. it made me realize that my best friend will always be with me just like she never left my side although she's not physically here. Losing your best friend is harder than I've ever imagined especially the one you've known for 21 years. I miss her so much she was only 27 years old and I'm glad to know that she misses me too for showing up in my dreams after watching this video.. She passed away May 16th 2024 to gun violence her super old lady roommate "accidentally" shot her she claims and I pray for justice. I truly miss her every single day some days I think of her more than others but she's always on my mind. I still send her msgs everyday just to make myself feel a little better about it since I tell her what's going on in my day. etc.. Forever our hearts, rest well Nina 💙
I act normal because I really can’t believe that he’s gone. I just think he’s still here.
January 27, 2020. I lost my mom to cancer. I was there for the last month and she had time with my daughter. Time is so hard. As Rosie gets older and the milestones she crosses that my mom isn’t here to see. Rosie won’t remember her. She’ll know the memories and pictures. I talk to her all the time and think about her or movies that come on that she would watch on repeat “momma would love this” or a song that comes on “there’s momma!” I don’t think I’ll ever get over her death but we can’t be sad forever. I still remember the day of her last breath but it also helps me keep going for my daughter. ❤️
Lost my best friend 2 weeks ago, this helps wit the sadness and anger, thank you...
I lost my Angel. It hurts so bad, thank you…❤ Somehow, someway I have to carry on 💔….🙏🏼🌹🧡🦋
My best friend passed away a week ago. She was 27, had CF and was waiting for her new lungs. She got into the hospital with pneumonia. I wanted to visit her but I had to say goodbye to her on the phone instead. I've gone through hell but the grief is teaching as you said. She was really strong, never complained and lived her life as fully as she could. I wish her carefree breathing and clear air where she is. I've suffered with depression, anxiety and other things before this happened and her loss made me realize how short this life is and that I have to live and do the things I love. I read somewhere that grief doesn't get smaller, life is what will grow around it.
Wow Morgan - I'm sure you've touched a lot of peoples hearts with this one. You've put into words something that's very difficult to describe, when explaining to someone that hasn't experienced grief.
I witnessed my mother's death and tried to resuscitate her when I was 14, and have carried that confusion/anger/sadness for the past 24 years or so. My ex wife left me almost 2 years ago because my wrestling with the grief was too much for her, but that's ok because I'm still here and still able to work towards being a better person than I was yesterday.
Thanks Morgan, a few of us are definitely benefitting from this vid 😀
Awww!! Keep climbing!! I know you can do it!!✌️
@@pammym190 thank you 😊 tomorrow's worth fighting for
What a beautiful way of describing grief. I lost my best friend tragically a few days ago and I don’t think it is something that I will ever over come or want to. He was a beautiful soul so kind and caring. Only the best die young ❤❤❤
Grief means u have loved hard! Someone once said to me, I think it’s in a song actually… “the bigger the love the harder the fall…well, I’m crashing through the floor”…makes a lot of sense to me-I’ve crashed thru the floor on many occasions when I’ve lost people close to me…but they are with us every day.
Every where we are, there they’ll be.
I have just been to my friend's funeral today and I came across your video. Your words really touched me and made a lot of sense. I really needed this today. Thank you.
You have lost so much in your young life.. but, with that loss comes great wisdom. You now see the big picture! You were never wrong with your feelings!! I hope you know that?! Grief will tug at you now and again.. but, with your sweet heart and as you get older.. handling it will be different!!
May God bless this friendship known as Erin and Morgan❤️
Yes, I’m a devout Catholic.. Sorry!!
A very close and dear friend of mine passed away on October 8th of this last year. I am very sad, and your video has helped me. I'm 46 years old, I have lost my grandparents. I loved them. It seems like loosing one of my best friends has been one of the most difficult things I've delt with. Your video has helped me, and I realize loss is something we all face.
thank you so much bro. just lost my best friend💔
I learned a close friend who i had traveled with spent time woth with died and its like i cannot accept the death, i have even thought is it a lie. I feel a part of me has been stolen....many memories that only we would be able to share with each other to get the full experience. I have not hadNy friends and thos loss kust seems. Unfair. I keep going and i remind myself to be thankful for the friendship.
I always had problems with making friends in my life cause I’m “a little weird”. I found my best friend in middle school, and we were friends for 18 years, talking on video chat every day religiously. Called her for our daily call a few months ago, and the state police answered. Had to tell her estranged parents and sister that she was gone. Think about her every single day. Miss her everyday.
Edit. My friend didn’t have any health problems, and the night I talked to her, 2 hours before she died, she was extremely happy and optimistic. Unfortunately, she did drugs, nothing serious, didn’t shoot up, didn’t steal, or do it every day, someone gave her something laced with Fentanyl, and just passed away within 30 minutes. And she didn’t just “fall asleep” unfortunately.
I had been to 15 funerals prior to this. Family members, ex boyfriends, friends, etc. nothing compares to losing someone your age, someone so close to you, that you thought would be here with you forever. It just hits differently, and will always be different, and hard.
I've watched some of your newer videos but had skipped this one because I had never really lost anyone close to me...on Valentine's day, a few days ago, my roommate and best friend went into septic shock and died within a few hours.. he had broken a bone in his foot, was misdiagnosed with some nerve inflammation before he was told it was actually broken, and it just seemed like he wasn't getting better. Plus he had COPD, severe anxiety, and other odd symptoms kept popping up. I was 2 hours away with my boyfriend and my roommate called me needing help and I called 911 because I felt like I couldn't get there fast enough.. he was admitted into the ICU and barely over 24 hours later, he was gone. I held his hand while he took his last breaths. I'm obviously in the very beginning stages of grieving him but I'm going to come back and refer to this video during the stages of grief.. thank you for sharing and I'm sorry for your losses
Thank you for sharing this. It has helped. I lost a very close friend to cancer a month ago
Thank you for making this video. Even 2 years later, you’re helping. My mom passed in May and I just lost my bff of over 30 years, unexpectedly. He was showing signs of improvement after being in ICU for a week; they moved him to step down. I had just talked to him, and within the hour he coded and was gone. I’m totally gutted and really struggling to keep it together. I never got to tell him how much he meant to me. My birthday cake and Christmas dinner are still sitting in the freezer, waiting for him to come home and celebrate together. But it’s not ever going to happen and the grief is unreal.
I really needed this missing my childhood best friend that’s been gone since 2020. Aaron I love and miss you forever
Hi Morgan.
November 12, 2023. I lost my best friend to a stroke. She was only 28 years old. She left behind a loving daughter and boyfriend. It’s been nine months now and it still hasn’t gotten any easier to think about her.
She and I met at work. We became inseparable very quickly. Ironically, we also lived around the corner from each other. I miss her so much. I’ve never dealt with having to lose somebody that that was that close to me. It’s just bringing my mortality to mind. And how I’m getting to an age where I am going to start losing the people I love. I’m sad I lost her. I’m angry she’s gone. But most of all I love her and I never want to forget her.
RIP Araya ❤
I lost my best friend today. I found out after checking my phone after my job interview. I am in shock and denial. I don't know what to do, and it's hard to process. I love you forever Chloe. You will always be in my heart
This is the first Vid of yours i have watched., one of the best ones ive seen anywhere.. My Beautiful Wife Jan went to Heaven 3years & 3 weeks ago.. Always trying ro make Jan proud of me and i kniw she is always by my side. God Bless Morgan
I really appreciated this video because my grandpa died in October and I'm still very sad.
I am sorry for the loss of your friends. I only experienced losing one friend from cancer. So I can not comprehend what you went through. In 1985, he was 18 & I was 16. I watched him go from an athletic , competitive skater to 2 years later very very ill at deaths door. I saw him 2 days before he passed. I didn't stop crying until I had a dream with him in it. He sat next to me & told me he was 'alright now ' That helped me but I've never got over his death. I'm 53 now & still think of my last meeting with him. It's affected me all my life & I've drank to numb it. Sending you warm love & Thank you for sharing this ❤️
Oh Morgan, I have never heard anyone explain grief more eloquently from the heart. In all my years of hospice nurse having to say goodbye to those who I grew close to and my own family, pets and friends, this really sums it all up. I would love to share this with my hospice group. Really, nothing else need be said. 💕
I am loving your new content!!!!! So deep and raw❤
All of our experience in life are what make us who we are. We feel things for a reason, sometimes it’s sorrow to remember people and things lost, we feel disappointment for things we wish we did different, we feel joy and pride for things we’ve accomplished or fun experiences we’ve had. Never have regrets, and never change a moment in your life, because you wouldn’t be the you, you are today.
Thank you for this, really needed some guidance or advice & I came across your video. I just lost my childhood friend on May 4th 2023, friendship for about over a decade. He was 24 years old. Still can’t express all the thoughts going through my head but one thing for sure is his spirit & memory will forever live on through me. I love you Richard, see you in the next life brother…
I’m so sorry for your loss, Morgan. You’re the best. 💛🕯🐐🙏
Loving this change in content. Its very insightful and just fills my soul with reflection.
Really digging this new stuff! Keep it up dude! 🖤
Very well said!
You hit home with today’s video. I really enjoy your content and everything you’ve said is something I’ve been feeling and struggling with a lot lately. Thank You for being you and sharing your stories.
So sorry about your friend Morgan, life simply is not fair! Thank you for being so vulnerable in this video. One of your best videos.
I really needed to hear all of this. Thank you
Today it has reached me, your video, after that my 1st best friend left due to an organic failure, complete, by alcohol, a few years ago.
But the 1st one before the days, he was not reachable a few weeks, i want so say good bye to my 2nd best friend. He was only 36, i am 52.
He was an amazing guy, killed by COPD a lounge desease. He leaved 5-6 years with a new one, never smoked again now he is gone.
my last friend. I wanna die.
Yup the pain is just so hard ... but thank u for ur message . I have been thinking of how will I get thru this but ur right. I won't . I just need to stay positive. Cause I cry when I hear a song or think of a memory with my best friend. It won't go away . But I know she wouldn't want me sad ,she was the happiest person in this world . I love u pauline I will always miss u n think of u everyday ❤
I really am so glad you posted this 🌸🌺❤️
Thank you! Within this passed month I lost another friend that triggered a lot hard losses ive had within the passed 5 years. This was really nice to hear.
I love this path you're on. Much needed video. Thank you.💙 Gone but never forgotten.
Thanks Morgan. My mom just died on the 9th and I needed to hear this. Thanks for the assist.
Thank you, Morgan. This was by far the most meaningful and beautiful video I have come across. It actually feels like a blessing... because you have articulated some of my deepest, longstanding feelings about grief and loss..... You are right about that summit of grief and are beyond your years in wisdom. You have also have been living an exceptional life with so many losses to face and process along the way. My first painful loss was my mother's passing decades ago, when I was in high school. Sure, there have been many others and more to come. Your words have touched my heart, and are a great reminder of how forever love really is. Take good care.
Wow Morgan this video was outstanding!! You helped me see a perspective that I had never considered and I feel it could be life changing for sure. Thank you for putting yourself, your story and your words of wisdom out there to help another human.
I’m so sorry for your loss 😢❤
This is my new fav video of yours! Great job Morgan.
Thank you for posting this.
I love your new vlogs! You are touching lives Morgan!
My best friend of almost 20 years passed away Oct 6th of this year from a severe asthma attack that caused her heart to stop. I'm only a couple minutes into this video but I just wanted to say thank you because I feel like I needed this. I am also sorry for the loss of your best friend and other loved ones who have passed.
My best friend died from an asthma attack a month ago. It is the most painful thing I have experienced. My heart goes out to you. I wish you peace and healing.
@ejfeucht I am so sorry for your loss. It truly is one of the most painful things I've experienced. Throughout the grieving process, I have had different reactions during the stages, and grief, in general, I've learned is something you can not prepare enough for. I hope you find peace & healing as well. Sending positive thoughts and vibes to you & may our best friends' souls rest in peace with no more pain and suffering. 🕊
Great video Morgan. This is another example of how intelligent and meaningful content can be made. Keep up the great work!! This suits you!
I appreciate this video, and I am grateful to you for sharing your experiences. Shout out to your mom❤
Preach it bro. Such an important topic
This was awesome, Morgan, thank you for sharing your thoughts! I'm so sorry for your losses. I don't have CF, but I lost my very best friend a few years ago, and the things you said here really helped me...Sending you love & hugs! 🦋🌈💜
Wow Morgan. I am so proud of you for talking publicly about this. I know it was 2015 but that was not long ago. I can only imagine how raw it must still feel. The guilt is real and even when we know that there was nothing more that we could have done. It hurts regularly no matter what. Just know that folks out here in the world care and appreciate you.
I've been through a lot of grief, both from losing loved ones, as well as losing "things" that were connected to those people. I never realized it, but what you said about those emotions being a "positive" in a way is so true. It reminded me of the quote that says something like "it's better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all." It's so true because all of those people brought so much to our lives that I don't think I could even think about what life would be like if I hadn't known/loved them! Anyway, all of that to say, thank you for this video Morgan. It helped me thibk of the losses I've gone through in somewhat of a new light and that is so appreciated!! I've been a follower of yours for quite some time now and I have to say, I think this is the most clear headed and open I've ever seen you. And I'm loving the new content!!
This is so powerful just what I needed to hear I recently lost my beloved dog and mother-in-law and I'm going through a really tough time but there's a saying I really like the harder you love the harder you grief X
Sorry about your loss
Thank you for sharing ❤️ My dad died today and I needed to watch this ❤️❤️
Thanks for sharing this Morgan. I remember you saying in an old video that you wanted to live for those who were gone. I understood at the time. But I think it's important to also live for oneself. If we only live for others, it's easy to become hollow martyrs. I have a different story than yours but sometimes I try to take care of everyone before myself and ironically that leaves me with little left to give.
My heart is with you brother stay strong
I love this type of video. You are so strong because of what you’ve been through. Stay in touch with your feelings. Stay strong. May your life be blessed with goodness.
I'm new to your channel, but I really dig the vibes and honesty of this video and this is exactly the type of content that I like to absorb because it's real. Also, I'm looking forward to seeing the content you create in the future. Peace and love to you and Stephie Lee, pls take care of yourself and stay kind.
Really needed this, thank you
Very welcome. Hope it helps!
I’ve been following you for a minute now and this is by far the most raw and honest I’ve seen you. Of course, I love “fun Morgan,” but thanks to you for talking to my heart today.
thank you so much for this video.
Thank you Morgan for sharing your heartfelt perspective. I lost my husband to cancer in March and your words ring true, it helps to hear other people's stories of grief. I love the new direction you're taking in your videos, I'm sending love and light to you and Stephi and Memaw too. Your videos have brought laughter and tears, so appreciate you. There is a wonderful little book called Grieving is Loving by Joanne Cacciatore, it's beautiful and profound and has brought many healing moments to me as well. Peace to your heart and all who know grief.
These videos are so beautiful✨💜🌞🦋
Thank you so much for this sharing..😢lost my fiancé on dec 30dec last year ..it has been truly hard i lost mom 4 yrs back and now this...its a month but his memories lingers and i still feel sick to the stomach. The last bit was gold when you brought up i am feeling I rather stay shut off then getting to know another person .
Going thru so much i have no words for..
But appreciate stumbling onto your video when everything you said resonated with me.😢
Thank you once again for this sharing...🥺
I’ve been trying to find a way to keep pushing after losing what I saw as a brother. I haven’t watched this video yet but thank tou
Thank you for all of these beautiful words, 2 days ago my best friend passed away. I really needed this video. My heart is full of her love and I will keep her in me forever. 🤍
Thank You for sharing that Morgan. Bless you!
I’m here for this new content ❤️
The peak you reached was the peak you were meant to reach. Everything happens for a reason. I'm so glad you did a sit down really calm and more in depth video about this. I have a few really bad illnesses that can take my own life at anytime. Of course I have many friends I have lost to the same things. Thanks again for posting and sharing.
Lost my best friend just over a year ago. The false summit made me cry instantly.
Thank you ❤.
I fully understand this place. I personally dont know anyone with CF but I have lost alot of friends and family due to drugs, alcoholism or cancer. So I just am still pretty new at expressing emotions and even just identifying them. So thank you for this as we can do something for the loved ones who passed in a memory of doing something they enjoyed. They will never leave us but we can always have the beautiful memories. You are so well spoken and know that no grief is the same. .