@@panicfvx i always picture it having more to do more with everything around the eyes than just the eyeballs. But a gaze softening would be eyes brows raising slightly, the eye lids being not half lidded but more relaxed, tension dissipating under the eyes and in the cheeks as they released a long breath or unclench their jaw, maybe the pupils expand slightly. A gaze hardening would obvious be the reverse, more furrowed brows, a lot of tension around the eyes, a sharper intake of breath and the pupils contracting. I think its one of those phrases that is meant to summon the image of a bunch of little micro-gestures but no one is considering what they are when they write so don't include any further description rendering the line meaningless.
My favorite recurring theme in the Lexi book vlog cinematic universe is the motivational speech full of triumphant resolve following the relatable depressive paralysis. It always hits when I need it most (every day)
You’re such a comfort watch for me. You make reading seem more human, more manageable. And I really appreciate that you sprinkle in your critiques in a way that isn’t at all malicious, just more curious on why certain decisions were made. The way you talk about your loss of motivation is something I, and it seems like many others, relate to deeply
@@is.tis_notre.kissss Okay, but if you're talking about the one I think you're talking about, at least THAT MC goes by Alex instead, and Galaxy is meant more as an illustration of who her mother is.
I need "life is tough and I am not, but the least I can do is take care of myself" merch pls. I am sending all the good vibes your way though Lexi really sorry you're going through it 💚
I'm so happy someone else feels this way about Powerless - I took a 3-sentence paragraph from one of the chapters & ran it through an adjective-finder because it was SO painful to read. There were 15 adjectives in that section alone. I had to DNF.
I finished it purely out of spite and will read the next one JUST to see if the writing got better now that the author is older and hopefully learned more about writing and world building.
Oh no 😂 I feel the same. This book actually made me angry to read. I wish I had DNFed. I am confused by the hype. I do wonder if it's because the people haven't read hunger games or other books like this?
"It's hard for me to wake up every day and choose to see humanity." That alone, I think, just answered this angry state I've been in for the past month, at least. I've been very black and white about people lately and largely bitter about people in general based off what you said about pouring out kindness into others who have shown to be undeserving/not appreciative. And with my seasonal depression coming with summer, it's been getting harder. I will be replaying this part of the video several times because you flawlessly managed to put such puzzling feelings into words. And with that, I can hopefully start to feel less like this ❤❤❤❤❤
🫶 it isn't easy, trust me i completely understand... when i am overwhelmed i like starting small with the people i love. forgiveness in small places helps you work up to forgiveness in big places.
Sometimes that's just how it is. I have been through several periods like this now. It gets easier to hold on to joy and love. It also gets easier to find your way back. I'm glad you are both here and I'm glad I am too.
Unclear if my reply got yeeted into the cyberspace void since an ad started playing while I was typing, but the gist was, having been there a few times now, it does get easier to hold onto the good things. Loving yourself & the world takes practice and you can overstrain yourself the same way you'd pull a muscle. But the human body and soul are so resilient. And I'm glad you are both here, and so am I. Lots of books left to read on this bitch of an earth 🥰
thank you for being transparent about your mental health. needed that reminder that bad times pass and reading can be self-care (which is why its so difficult to do when we are in a low period not wanting to take care of ourselves) you are not alone!
i just put out another one early this month 😎 i need to let my serotonin levels recharge for like three months in between each of those odysseys or my brain will rot out of my ears. a dangerous game.
"she let out the breath she didn't know she was holding" may be a cliche as a phrase, but the feeling itself is so relatable! i constantly forget to breathe for many seconds when i'm very focused on something, and then i make a deep inhale and let out a long exhale that apparently sounds like a heavy sigh because it has become a meme for my friend (i usually don't notice it, but he asks "why are you sighing?" "i'm not?" "ah, you forgot to breathe again.")
This was such a cathartic video. I got laid off at the end of last year and have been in total crisis ever since. It has been so hard to do anything that isn't scroll or play Stardew valley lol. Reading started to feel so scary, and it felt like all these books were piling up that I "needed" to read. Thanks for making this and making me feel less alone.
Notes on an Execution sounds exactly my jam. I love it when characters are properly three dimensional and allowed to be multiple things at once, just like real people are. No one is wholly good or wholly evil. Thank you for being open about mental health issues. It’s so important in removing the ridiculous and undeserved stigma around them, and undoubtedly helps more people than any of us can ever know. I hope this current better period lasts as long as possible for you.
seriously the way you talked about your ups and downs, and also how reading is so competitive right now, it was almost healing to me, I've read 8 books this year, it's not a lot, but for me is such a big deal, you've become my safe space on this couple of months that I know you
Um thank you for the pep talk and sharing about the rut you’re going through in the beginning and for admitting you haven’t been reading for a month. I also just barely finished one book on April (which I actually started in march). I just couldn’t fathom how much I just did not want to read. I was so stuck. Honestly, couldn’t even really do much else. Playing random games and immersing myself in reading random Reddit drama is also how I have numbing my gotten through the past few weeks (months). Anyways, I just wanted to share that I really appreciated you sharing that you’re are also susceptible to this period of “can’t do anything. Can’t move. Can’t concentrate.” I hate that we all go through but I like that I am not alone ❤ Here’s to better days full of reading many books for all of us!
I’m so impressed by your resilience. I know that is a generic thing to say but genuinely I am so happy to see someone have your mindset. It’s inspiring to me as someone with severe mental illness
can i just say i love the candidness about mental health in your videos 😭 the struggle for self-care and engaging with things you genuinely like but have no energy for is SO real. we all have rotting eras, i try to tell myself it's just a preamble for a flourishing era. my rot will simply fertilize the soil so i can thrive again or something.
I’ve also been in the pits these past few weeks and seeing you talk about your experience makes me feel so much better about mine. I actually picked up Project Hail Mary at your recommendation and it cured me lol ❤️
I love that you showed your vulnerability of a reading slump, because I don’t think it’s talked about enough. We all love reading, but sometimes you just can’t find the spark, and it feels so frustrating! I always tell my friends “last year, my reading streak and the books I read = fire. This year, it’s a total dumpster fire” and that’s ok!! Sometimes I feel like reading can become this obsessive competition & kind of takes the fun out of it, which is the whole purpose OF reading - enjoyment! So I’m glad you found a book you liked 😊 and thank you for your videos and the unfiltered opinions you’ve shared ❤ looking forward to more in the future! Go you!!
The way you so openly talk about your mental health struggles makes me feel less alone. Also the kindness you show yourself inspires me to do the same. I'm sorry things are hard. I'm glad to be here with you and this community 💚 thanks for all the work and thoughtfulness you put into these videos!
I appreciate your candidness with your struggles, 'cause behind all the immaculate lighting, cozy vibes, filled bookshelves and ✨aesthetic✨, it can be easy to sort creators we like and their lifestyles onto a pedestal we think we can't achieve, or that they're way happier than us and "made it", when that's hardly the case most times.
Our thoughts on Powerless are IDENTICAL lol I feel so validated! I literally thought so many times "she really thought she did something with that line..." I do agree that it's ambitious and impressive for her age. And I will probably try book 2 since a) it will be trad pub, b) it has potential to grip me more based on the ending of book 1, and c) hopefully she's been honing her craft a bit!
lexi! what timing - I checked out like 10 books at my local library yesterday (hadn’t been in years) almost solely based on your recommendations! I already almost finished Hell Followed With Us (which as a trans person myself is SO intense but SO good) and I just wanna thank you for giving me fuel to seriously read again after so long
yesss i am so glad you loved that one 💘 the author dropped another that got even better reviews that is on my priority tbr rn (and i think has another coming out this year??) i love him lol good luck with the rest!!!!
Hi. I really appreciate you including your struggles. My daughter suffers pretty much exactly as you describe. I actually sent her your “week of dark academia” video because I knew your talk of it would resonate with her and make her feel less alone. Thank you.
that chronic mental and physical fatigue is so true! I struggle with BPD and ADHD and I haven't been able to read in about a year, whereas I'd read 100s of books just last year. I had to quit a very stable, well-paid job due to endo/PCOS health issues and pick up a part time and I barely have the energy to cook food or brush my teeth. It's rough! But there are some really good days and I have hope for those.
5 stars are scarce and sacred. One of the 3 I read this year was off of your suggestion (Seven Days in June…fire). Now I have a new possible one to add to my list! Great video Lexi!!
Just wanted to say that I really appreciate your brutal honesty when it comes to your mental health, not because you have to or anything, but just that it offers a sort of comfort seeing someone I look up to also struggle with this whole being a human thing
I swear I was watching one of these videos and my mom walks in and she listens for a sec and she’s like “my gosh she talks so fast” and I was like YEAH that’s why I love her, she moves at the speed of my attention span😂
This video came right at the perfect time. I struggled with that depression paralysis for weeks now, haven’t touched a book, didn’t do anything I liked, because nothing felt worth doing. Thank you for sharing those moments with us, it made me feel way less alone. ❤
Yes! Notes on an execution is one of my favourite books of all time, I’m so glad you read it! The prose is just so exquisite, almost every passage is like a gut punch in its own way.
i loooove a lexi book vlog with little anecdotes about depression, finding what makes you happy/interested in the moment, taking care of yourself, and ending triumphantly with a stellar review of a good book. as someone in a reading slump/depression episode rn, i really needed this video!! excited to add notes on an execution to my TBR!!
i've been a reading slump myself and yet have like 3 or 4 books around my desk i keep moving around and never opening up but this video not only made me feel less alone in that slump, but it's really helping motivate me to actually open up these books and try to read again!!
This is the most relatable content I've seen on the Internet this year. I've been having so much trouble reading because of my mental health too, and hearing that I'm not alone in that means so much. We're in it together. Thank you ❤
I found this channel about a week ago in the midst of a massive reading (and life) slump and overall really love your videos and style of narration. The way that the 'Tragedy Strikes' portion of this video was wayyyy too relatable... anyways definitely adding Notes on an Execution to my tbr for when my brain cells decide to function again!
Thank you for being a reader who talks about the life slumps that get you out of reading - not that you lost the luster for books, but life is just so in the way that your stress level cannot allow you to calm down enough to read a book. The amount of times I pick up a new book after not finishing the last one is astonishing, but I tell myself one day I'll get back to them and hope to find one that grips me from the beginning and reminds me that life doesn't have to be all about what we've accomplished, but instead what we've learned and felt and experienced.
I, too, am in the trenches and in a reading slump. I’m sorry you’re struggling. Your comments while laying on the floor were comforting and did inspire me to make a cup of hot tea and fold laundry while watching the rest, so thank you for that 🫶🏼
lexi, i’m sorry for the real life/mental stuff you are going through; you talking about how difficult it is to do something you love, and then feeling guilty about it, is so real and something i also feel on and off. but just so you know, after watching a few of your videos a month ago, you have helped me gain to courage to pick up a book again after yearssss. i’m on book five, and i feel like a part of me is whole again. so thank you for that, and i hope the later half of the year treats you well. ❤️
I just found your channel and just the first part of this video makes me really like you. I loved how real you were and I completely relate on the struggles I been struggling off and on for a longggg time and what u said kind of stuck with me!
You conveyed so perfectly the experience of reading Notes On An Execution- I adore that book; I think while it is difficult, and uncomfortable at times, it brings up important topics with nuance and some level of objectivity. The final chapter as well as the epilogue made me weep ngl, it was so emotional, and it's stuck with me.
7:07 i FEEL you on this so hard. i get the same way whenever im going through Stuff where i either read like a book a day or or don't read for the next five to ten business weeks (right now it is the former lol), but when it IS the latter it feels so so awful. i'm glad that you're feeling at least a little bit better, and i can't wait to give "notes on an execution" a read! sounds exactly like my sorta vibe
i love watching your videos lexi!! i read tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow because you recommended it and it's now one of my favourite books, thank you so much 💗💗
i've absolutely adored watching your videos and it was both so heartbreaking and comforting seeing you on this journey of reading :') im glad you found another book that impacted you so severely
I can’t explain how i just come back to your channel with so much enthusiasm to watch what new thing you have to say. I’m so glad you decided to make a yt channel, you feel like a bestie rant/talk every time
I related to so many things that were happening in your video. The slump. The consuming grief that takes you away from the person you want to be. The need to unplug but also reconnect. Appreciated your vulnerability in the trenches and I hope things continue to look up for you as you regain your willingness to read🤗
gotta be real with you, i really appreciate how honest you are about your mental health in your videos. sometimes i just can't pick up a book for weeks and all the "i read 20 books this month" content makes me feel even worse. thanks for making me feel like i'm not alone on this.
I really appreciate that you are not sugar coating life and how things honestly go. It’s so refreshing. Especially when I am in the same boat but what I read was Ali Hazlewood’s “The Love Hypothesis”. I genuinely love your personality along with your banter and wish you were my bff so we could discuss books we’ve both read together! When you first made your channel I was really happy to find it! Stay hydrated and get some sunlight! Cheers!
I just wanna say that you’re so real for letting us know that you’re on a reading slump. Sometimes it is what it is and we learn to eventually overcome it. It’s not realistic to chow down on 5-10+ books every single month, but a lot of people are afraid to say that, especially in the book reading community. So thank you.
I love your videos, they have something that other booktube hasn't hit for me. Not sure what it is but I know that I like watching every single one of your videos and I skip around with others. Also I got back into reading this year half because I stumbled on your channel! So thanks
i don't usually leave comments but i've been going through it too and really related to everything you said. i'm thankful for the reminder that this is temporary and we will get through this!!
I've been going through a bit of a slump recently and hearing you talk about how you make it through yours made me feel more confident in myself in return, so I just wanted to say thanks! Also, your channel has rapidly become one of my favorites on the entire site; there's just something magical to me about how you talk about things that scratches my brain LMAO so thanks again for that :)
3:18 -- This section speaks to my SOUL. Thank you for being so authentic, forthright, and, most of all -- positive. You inspire me. We *are* in this together, this is only temporary, and we can make it through these struggles. Love and light
Honestly this is exactly how I've been feeling and it's both sad (I wish you weren't going through this - or did since it's already happened) and comforting (someone else feels the way I do), so thank you for sharing. I'm on a mission to find my own reading slump curing genre of books.
i’m struggling a lot with something similar to what you’re struggling with in this video and i honestly really needed this right now. thank you for this. you are massively cool and inspiring in ways you probably don’t even realize. new comfort video wooo
It’s the second time I started one of your vids and then stopped to read a book you’re talking about 😃 so I truly empathize with the way you feel and the reading block, but most importantly just wanted to let you know that you have a positive influence on at least one person - you make me read 🙏😌❤️
Really grateful to see someone who I consider A Reader acknowledge that sometimes there are weeks where you cannot read and they suck and are awful but also happen and it’s ok. Your intro pep talk will be something I come back to when life is hard because it was the perfect inspiring mix of this sucks! And let’s go! Thank you for sharing this vulnerability and I hope life eases soon
I just love the way you speak! Thanks for being so open and vulnerable for us. I have been there (in depression and reading slumps) and it’s not easy to pick yourself back up but you’re doing an amazing job.
i am glad you found the 5 star book only 2 books in but i am sad we couldn't hear you review more books. thanks for chronicling your struggle to start reading tho, it was so real and i never hear anyone talk about it
Just casually binging your videos 😅 the quotes you shared from Notes on an Execution just HIT & I’ve added it to my TBR. It’s such an interesting concept & I can’t wait to read. Your channel is so fun & I love hearing alllll your unhinged takes on books 🎉😂
I felt this so bad. I've been in such a horrible reading slump that last 4 months and pulling myself out of it has been tough. Glad to know i'm not the only one, but also we'll get through this! (ps if anyone has super heartwarming summery vibe books pls share them!)
I’m so glad I’m not the only person who didn’t enjoy powerless! I would thoroughly recommend the serpent and the wings of night for similar vibes but a stronger story imo
What if the five star books were the friends we made along the way
no truer words
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Aaa I love that ❤❤❤❤❤ I wish there were more people like you
“Life is tough and I am not, but the least I could do is take care of myself.” Is going to be my new motto in depressive episodes lol
Bars!!!
Put it on a shirt bc I felt that in my soul
Same
"The smile didn't reach his eyes" is my "she let go of the breath she didn't know she was holding"
i just picture the 🙂 emoji
"The knowing laugh of a mother"
"he looked at me like he could see every thought in my head" Its just annoying to me like, how ?
“Their gaze darkened or softened” - is this even possible like I've never been able to imagine this in a way that isn't absurdly supernatural
@@panicfvx i always picture it having more to do more with everything around the eyes than just the eyeballs. But a gaze softening would be eyes brows raising slightly, the eye lids being not half lidded but more relaxed, tension dissipating under the eyes and in the cheeks as they released a long breath or unclench their jaw, maybe the pupils expand slightly. A gaze hardening would obvious be the reverse, more furrowed brows, a lot of tension around the eyes, a sharper intake of breath and the pupils contracting. I think its one of those phrases that is meant to summon the image of a bunch of little micro-gestures but no one is considering what they are when they write so don't include any further description rendering the line meaningless.
Paedyn.... Payton and Hayden thrown together in a particle accelerator
This made me smile for the first time today, thank you
PARTICLE ACCELERATOR MADE ME CRY PLEASE
It' reminds me of a name a Mormon influencer would name their kid.
My favorite recurring theme in the Lexi book vlog cinematic universe is the motivational speech full of triumphant resolve following the relatable depressive paralysis. It always hits when I need it most (every day)
YES THIS 👆🏽
a polly pocket trapped in a blender while you're forced to watch as it crumbles is the perfect way to capture my essence in one sentence. bravo
I just wanna say I really appreciate the “Uncle Jake” picture being a permanent feature on the gallery wall. 10/10
the gasp i gusped when it said 1.5 months
Laying on the floor with "divorce tier list" on the board behind you is iconic. Also, I have absolutely been there haha
You’re such a comfort watch for me. You make reading seem more human, more manageable. And I really appreciate that you sprinkle in your critiques in a way that isn’t at all malicious, just more curious on why certain decisions were made. The way you talk about your loss of motivation is something I, and it seems like many others, relate to deeply
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"paedyn" ⚰im taxing every fantasy author with an outrageous main character name going forward
I've seen one with 'Galaxy' as their name. Gotta be one of the quickest times i shut a book😭😭
@@is.tis_notre.kissss Okay, but if you're talking about the one I think you're talking about, at least THAT MC goes by Alex instead, and Galaxy is meant more as an illustration of who her mother is.
What about Mare from the Red Queen and America Singer from the Selection? I think those really made booktube history
@@finaleclipse2110 jail time, these authors need to be held accountable for their actions
@@finaleclipse2110lilly blossom bloom who is a florist 😭
I haven’t seen anyone else point out the weird alliteration lists in powerless THANK YOU I was losing my mind over this 😭
It’s reminding me of the Shatter Me series I can’t 💀
@@abiade9614 I never read that series, but I DNFed the author’s other series specifically because of the writing 😭
I need "life is tough and I am not, but the least I can do is take care of myself" merch pls. I am sending all the good vibes your way though Lexi really sorry you're going through it 💚
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every time a reading montage hard cuts to lexi crying hysterical, snotty tears, i sigh and add another book to my to-read list
Im so traumatized by ads that I thought that in 5:00 you were abt to do a better help add LMAO
bruh deadass I thought it was, I just stopped being able to read for a minute there
unfortunately i come by my mental instability honestly LMFAO
I’m glad I’m not the only one 😂
The IRONY it would have been!
💀 Help, I clicked on this timestamp and it cut to a better help ad 💀💀💀 they're listening
no bc SAME it had me worrieddd
I'm so happy someone else feels this way about Powerless - I took a 3-sentence paragraph from one of the chapters & ran it through an adjective-finder because it was SO painful to read. There were 15 adjectives in that section alone. I had to DNF.
we are few but we are strong
I finished it purely out of spite and will read the next one JUST to see if the writing got better now that the author is older and hopefully learned more about writing and world building.
Oh no 😂 I feel the same. This book actually made me angry to read. I wish I had DNFed. I am confused by the hype. I do wonder if it's because the people haven't read hunger games or other books like this?
“I’m not Mr. Rogers. This is not my neighborhood.” Is going into my personal lexicon. Thank you 😂
HUZZAH LEXI CONTENT TO GET ME THROUGH FINALS
FR I was running out of videos to rewatch
good luck on your finals!!!! we're gonna ace em! :D
GOOD LUCK 🎉
I feel like we are besties because im invested in the ✨book gossip✨
I need some details please (to distract me from my own personal drama, thank you very much)🫖
"It's hard for me to wake up every day and choose to see humanity." That alone, I think, just answered this angry state I've been in for the past month, at least. I've been very black and white about people lately and largely bitter about people in general based off what you said about pouring out kindness into others who have shown to be undeserving/not appreciative. And with my seasonal depression coming with summer, it's been getting harder. I will be replaying this part of the video several times because you flawlessly managed to put such puzzling feelings into words. And with that, I can hopefully start to feel less like this ❤❤❤❤❤
🫶 it isn't easy, trust me i completely understand... when i am overwhelmed i like starting small with the people i love. forgiveness in small places helps you work up to forgiveness in big places.
Sometimes that's just how it is. I have been through several periods like this now. It gets easier to hold on to joy and love. It also gets easier to find your way back. I'm glad you are both here and I'm glad I am too.
Unclear if my reply got yeeted into the cyberspace void since an ad started playing while I was typing, but the gist was, having been there a few times now, it does get easier to hold onto the good things. Loving yourself & the world takes practice and you can overstrain yourself the same way you'd pull a muscle. But the human body and soul are so resilient. And I'm glad you are both here, and so am I. Lots of books left to read on this bitch of an earth 🥰
thank you for being transparent about your mental health. needed that reminder that bad times pass and reading can be self-care (which is why its so difficult to do when we are in a low period not wanting to take care of ourselves) you are not alone!
please do more recaps of books like you did with credence and twisted love. I LIVE for those, they’re amazing.
i just put out another one early this month 😎 i need to let my serotonin levels recharge for like three months in between each of those odysseys or my brain will rot out of my ears. a dangerous game.
@@newlynova Honestly, fair. WATCHING the recaps cracks my brain, so I can only imagine how making them feels.
What is the 3rd recap you did? I'm so excited! But I have a hard time searching through your videos
@@yourbiggest1fan a beautiful disaster by Jamie Mcguire
"she let out the breath she didn't know she was holding" may be a cliche as a phrase, but the feeling itself is so relatable! i constantly forget to breathe for many seconds when i'm very focused on something, and then i make a deep inhale and let out a long exhale that apparently sounds like a heavy sigh because it has become a meme for my friend (i usually don't notice it, but he asks "why are you sighing?" "i'm not?" "ah, you forgot to breathe again.")
This was such a cathartic video. I got laid off at the end of last year and have been in total crisis ever since. It has been so hard to do anything that isn't scroll or play Stardew valley lol. Reading started to feel so scary, and it felt like all these books were piling up that I "needed" to read. Thanks for making this and making me feel less alone.
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"life is tough and I am not, but the least I can do is take care of myself" immediately subscribed.
Notes on an Execution sounds exactly my jam. I love it when characters are properly three dimensional and allowed to be multiple things at once, just like real people are. No one is wholly good or wholly evil.
Thank you for being open about mental health issues. It’s so important in removing the ridiculous and undeserved stigma around them, and undoubtedly helps more people than any of us can ever know. I hope this current better period lasts as long as possible for you.
seriously the way you talked about your ups and downs, and also how reading is so competitive right now, it was almost healing to me, I've read 8 books this year, it's not a lot, but for me is such a big deal, you've become my safe space on this couple of months that I know you
🫶 i am proud of you, it isn't easy to find time in life to slow down for things that you love - keep it up 💘
omg i'm on book five. i see u n i hear u lmao
“heres some parallels! look at parallel this is” absolutely killed me. Put me down after that passage cause what 😭😭😭
Omg yes thank you for that Powerless review 😭 EXACTLY how I felt
Um thank you for the pep talk and sharing about the rut you’re going through in the beginning and for admitting you haven’t been reading for a month. I also just barely finished one book on April (which I actually started in march). I just couldn’t fathom how much I just did not want to read. I was so stuck. Honestly, couldn’t even really do much else. Playing random games and immersing myself in reading random Reddit drama is also how I have numbing my gotten through the past few weeks (months).
Anyways, I just wanted to share that I really appreciated you sharing that you’re are also susceptible to this period of “can’t do anything. Can’t move. Can’t concentrate.” I hate that we all go through but I like that I am not alone ❤
Here’s to better days full of reading many books for all of us!
🫶 we do what we need to do to survive
I’m so impressed by your resilience. I know that is a generic thing to say but genuinely I am so happy to see someone have your mindset. It’s inspiring to me as someone with severe mental illness
can i just say i love the candidness about mental health in your videos 😭 the struggle for self-care and engaging with things you genuinely like but have no energy for is SO real. we all have rotting eras, i try to tell myself it's just a preamble for a flourishing era. my rot will simply fertilize the soil so i can thrive again or something.
omg, the exam week(s) just finished
your videos are my little treat
mine just started😔 enjoy your time! hope you have a relaxing time
@@itseIv thank youuuu💞 good luck with your exams, i hope it all goes well:))))
congratulations
I’ve also been in the pits these past few weeks and seeing you talk about your experience makes me feel so much better about mine. I actually picked up Project Hail Mary at your recommendation and it cured me lol ❤️
I love that you showed your vulnerability of a reading slump, because I don’t think it’s talked about enough. We all love reading, but sometimes you just can’t find the spark, and it feels so frustrating! I always tell my friends “last year, my reading streak and the books I read = fire. This year, it’s a total dumpster fire” and that’s ok!! Sometimes I feel like reading can become this obsessive competition & kind of takes the fun out of it, which is the whole purpose OF reading - enjoyment! So I’m glad you found a book you liked 😊 and thank you for your videos and the unfiltered opinions you’ve shared ❤ looking forward to more in the future! Go you!!
The way you so openly talk about your mental health struggles makes me feel less alone. Also the kindness you show yourself inspires me to do the same. I'm sorry things are hard. I'm glad to be here with you and this community 💚 thanks for all the work and thoughtfulness you put into these videos!
I appreciate your candidness with your struggles, 'cause behind all the immaculate lighting, cozy vibes, filled bookshelves and ✨aesthetic✨, it can be easy to sort creators we like and their lifestyles onto a pedestal we think we can't achieve, or that they're way happier than us and "made it", when that's hardly the case most times.
Our thoughts on Powerless are IDENTICAL lol I feel so validated! I literally thought so many times "she really thought she did something with that line..."
I do agree that it's ambitious and impressive for her age. And I will probably try book 2 since a) it will be trad pub, b) it has potential to grip me more based on the ending of book 1, and c) hopefully she's been honing her craft a bit!
The random motivational speech about being unable to take care of yourself is so valid and was really needed. Thank you
I also went through a slump recently (also because of rough times). Hope you are doing better, be kind to yourself 🫶
Yeah Red's unique internal monologue was probably my fav part of Five Survive
lexi! what timing - I checked out like 10 books at my local library yesterday (hadn’t been in years) almost solely based on your recommendations! I already almost finished Hell Followed With Us (which as a trans person myself is SO intense but SO good) and I just wanna thank you for giving me fuel to seriously read again after so long
yesss i am so glad you loved that one 💘 the author dropped another that got even better reviews that is on my priority tbr rn (and i think has another coming out this year??) i love him lol
good luck with the rest!!!!
“Life is tough and I am not”🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲🫠🫠🫠🫠
The part with you laying on the carpet is resonating with me so much.
Hi. I really appreciate you including your struggles. My daughter suffers pretty much exactly as you describe. I actually sent her your “week of dark academia” video because I knew your talk of it would resonate with her and make her feel less alone. Thank you.
that chronic mental and physical fatigue is so true! I struggle with BPD and ADHD and I haven't been able to read in about a year, whereas I'd read 100s of books just last year. I had to quit a very stable, well-paid job due to endo/PCOS health issues and pick up a part time and I barely have the energy to cook food or brush my teeth. It's rough! But there are some really good days and I have hope for those.
5 stars are scarce and sacred. One of the 3 I read this year was off of your suggestion (Seven Days in June…fire). Now I have a new possible one to add to my list! Great video Lexi!!
notes on an execution added to the tbr... your recs are unmatched!!
Just wanted to say that I really appreciate your brutal honesty when it comes to your mental health, not because you have to or anything, but just that it offers a sort of comfort seeing someone I look up to also struggle with this whole being a human thing
I swear I was watching one of these videos and my mom walks in and she listens for a sec and she’s like “my gosh she talks so fast” and I was like YEAH that’s why I love her, she moves at the speed of my attention span😂
This video came right at the perfect time. I struggled with that depression paralysis for weeks now, haven’t touched a book, didn’t do anything I liked, because nothing felt worth doing. Thank you for sharing those moments with us, it made me feel way less alone. ❤
🫶 we do what we have to do to make it through the day
20:39 Hail Mary project, cerulean sea, AND under the whispering door?? the taste is immaculate
Yes! Notes on an execution is one of my favourite books of all time, I’m so glad you read it! The prose is just so exquisite, almost every passage is like a gut punch in its own way.
I have had back to back two star reads, so this video is very relevant to me
Finally someone who agrees with me about powerless
we are few but we are mighty
the more unhinged you get (less hinged?) the better the videos, 1 minute in I can tell this is a banger
i loooove a lexi book vlog with little anecdotes about depression, finding what makes you happy/interested in the moment, taking care of yourself, and ending triumphantly with a stellar review of a good book. as someone in a reading slump/depression episode rn, i really needed this video!! excited to add notes on an execution to my TBR!!
i've been a reading slump myself and yet have like 3 or 4 books around my desk i keep moving around and never opening up but this video not only made me feel less alone in that slump, but it's really helping motivate me to actually open up these books and try to read again!!
This is the most relatable content I've seen on the Internet this year. I've been having so much trouble reading because of my mental health too, and hearing that I'm not alone in that means so much. We're in it together. Thank you ❤
The premise of Notes on an execution looks sooo interesting! Definitely goes to my long long long tbr list; love your video(as always) ♥️
I found this channel about a week ago in the midst of a massive reading (and life) slump and overall really love your videos and style of narration. The way that the 'Tragedy Strikes' portion of this video was wayyyy too relatable... anyways definitely adding Notes on an Execution to my tbr for when my brain cells decide to function again!
not related to books at all, but a hair tutorial? your hair is actually my hair goals
i do the tiktok leggings/tights curl method :) it turns out differently literally every time LMAO i am not an expert at allll
Thank you for being a reader who talks about the life slumps that get you out of reading - not that you lost the luster for books, but life is just so in the way that your stress level cannot allow you to calm down enough to read a book. The amount of times I pick up a new book after not finishing the last one is astonishing, but I tell myself one day I'll get back to them and hope to find one that grips me from the beginning and reminds me that life doesn't have to be all about what we've accomplished, but instead what we've learned and felt and experienced.
I, too, am in the trenches and in a reading slump. I’m sorry you’re struggling. Your comments while laying on the floor were comforting and did inspire me to make a cup of hot tea and fold laundry while watching the rest, so thank you for that 🫶🏼
lexi, i’m sorry for the real life/mental stuff you are going through; you talking about how difficult it is to do something you love, and then feeling guilty about it, is so real and something i also feel on and off. but just so you know, after watching a few of your videos a month ago, you have helped me gain to courage to pick up a book again after yearssss. i’m on book five, and i feel like a part of me is whole again. so thank you for that, and i hope the later half of the year treats you well. ❤️
🫶 proud of you and thank you for sharing - we will get through this
I just found your channel and just the first part of this video makes me really like you. I loved how real you were and I completely relate on the struggles I been struggling off and on for a longggg time and what u said kind of stuck with me!
You conveyed so perfectly the experience of reading Notes On An Execution- I adore that book; I think while it is difficult, and uncomfortable at times, it brings up important topics with nuance and some level of objectivity. The final chapter as well as the epilogue made me weep ngl, it was so emotional, and it's stuck with me.
9:10 wow that looks like the best spot ever to just read for hours
7:07 i FEEL you on this so hard. i get the same way whenever im going through Stuff where i either read like a book a day or or don't read for the next five to ten business weeks (right now it is the former lol), but when it IS the latter it feels so so awful. i'm glad that you're feeling at least a little bit better, and i can't wait to give "notes on an execution" a read! sounds exactly like my sorta vibe
i love watching your videos lexi!! i read tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow because you recommended it and it's now one of my favourite books, thank you so much 💗💗
This felt like a mutual therapy session
i've absolutely adored watching your videos and it was both so heartbreaking and comforting seeing you on this journey of reading :') im glad you found another book that impacted you so severely
not me taking the "tell me every thought you have" to heart every single video. this may as well be my own personal live stream
I love the journeys you go on in your videos. I’m glad you’re back from the slump!
I can’t explain how i just come back to your channel with so much enthusiasm to watch what new thing you have to say. I’m so glad you decided to make a yt channel, you feel like a bestie rant/talk every time
I related to so many things that were happening in your video. The slump. The consuming grief that takes you away from the person you want to be. The need to unplug but also reconnect. Appreciated your vulnerability in the trenches and I hope things continue to look up for you as you regain your willingness to read🤗
You know its gonna be a good day when Lexi uploads
Hoepfully this gets me a 5 star book sdded to my tbr 😭
gotta be real with you, i really appreciate how honest you are about your mental health in your videos. sometimes i just can't pick up a book for weeks and all the "i read 20 books this month" content makes me feel even worse. thanks for making me feel like i'm not alone on this.
I really appreciate that you are not sugar coating life and how things honestly go. It’s so refreshing. Especially when I am in the same boat but what I read was Ali Hazlewood’s “The Love Hypothesis”. I genuinely love your personality along with your banter and wish you were my bff so we could discuss books we’ve both read together! When you first made your channel I was really happy to find it! Stay hydrated and get some sunlight! Cheers!
8:47 is exactly why I love Lexi’s content.
once again, Lexi gives me knowledge of a book centering around themes i have soul-deep necessity for this year. my sincerest thanks oh wise one
I just wanna say that you’re so real for letting us know that you’re on a reading slump. Sometimes it is what it is and we learn to eventually overcome it. It’s not realistic to chow down on 5-10+ books every single month, but a lot of people are afraid to say that, especially in the book reading community. So thank you.
I love your videos, they have something that other booktube hasn't hit for me. Not sure what it is but I know that I like watching every single one of your videos and I skip around with others.
Also I got back into reading this year half because I stumbled on your channel! So thanks
i don't usually leave comments but i've been going through it too and really related to everything you said. i'm thankful for the reminder that this is temporary and we will get through this!!
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Notes on Execution has been on my tbr for awhile and now I’m more excited to read it.
I too am in such a reading slump. Hopefully this video helps me get out of it too
I've been going through a bit of a slump recently and hearing you talk about how you make it through yours made me feel more confident in myself in return, so I just wanted to say thanks! Also, your channel has rapidly become one of my favorites on the entire site; there's just something magical to me about how you talk about things that scratches my brain LMAO so thanks again for that :)
I audibly gasped when I saw my girl lexi posted today! Thank you for blessing us on this Friday with your face, voice and humour!
3:18 -- This section speaks to my SOUL. Thank you for being so authentic, forthright, and, most of all -- positive. You inspire me. We *are* in this together, this is only temporary, and we can make it through these struggles. Love and light
Honestly this is exactly how I've been feeling and it's both sad (I wish you weren't going through this - or did since it's already happened) and comforting (someone else feels the way I do), so thank you for sharing. I'm on a mission to find my own reading slump curing genre of books.
i’m struggling a lot with something similar to what you’re struggling with in this video and i honestly really needed this right now. thank you for this. you are massively cool and inspiring in ways you probably don’t even realize. new comfort video wooo
🫶 keep your head up
It’s the second time I started one of your vids and then stopped to read a book you’re talking about 😃 so I truly empathize with the way you feel and the reading block, but most importantly just wanted to let you know that you have a positive influence on at least one person - you make me read 🙏😌❤️
Really grateful to see someone who I consider A Reader acknowledge that sometimes there are weeks where you cannot read and they suck and are awful but also happen and it’s ok. Your intro pep talk will be something I come back to when life is hard because it was the perfect inspiring mix of this sucks! And let’s go! Thank you for sharing this vulnerability and I hope life eases soon
I really enjoyed the honesty of reading and falling out of reading and falling back into reading. It was refreshing and similar to my own journey ❤
I just love the way you speak! Thanks for being so open and vulnerable for us. I have been there (in depression and reading slumps) and it’s not easy to pick yourself back up but you’re doing an amazing job.
i am glad you found the 5 star book only 2 books in but i am sad we couldn't hear you review more books. thanks for chronicling your struggle to start reading tho, it was so real and i never hear anyone talk about it
Just casually binging your videos 😅 the quotes you shared from Notes on an Execution just HIT & I’ve added it to my TBR. It’s such an interesting concept & I can’t wait to read. Your channel is so fun & I love hearing alllll your unhinged takes on books 🎉😂
i literally love u so much lexi never stop making content
I felt this so bad. I've been in such a horrible reading slump that last 4 months and pulling myself out of it has been tough. Glad to know i'm not the only one, but also we'll get through this! (ps if anyone has super heartwarming summery vibe books pls share them!)
I’m so glad I’m not the only person who didn’t enjoy powerless! I would thoroughly recommend the serpent and the wings of night for similar vibes but a stronger story imo