PLEASE read the book “More than a Body” pregnant or not, it has helped me IMMENSELY see my body in a different way. It will change you seeing your body strictly for appearance and for purpose.
I googled “15 weeks pregnant” and I saw a multitude of bodies, some bigger than you, some smaller than you, all as beautiful as you are. You’re growing TWO humans and, like, living at the same time?!! WHAT?! You’re a rockstar!
Colleen should not be saying “people have it way worse” because it is not a competition and you can’t keep comparing yourself to other people’s pregnancy. We all believe in you and you can make it through this!
No but I think they are well meaning in that they are attempting to get her to change her mentality based upon gratitude. She is very self absorbed- I mean, clearly someone who makes a living vlogging about everyday normality and sits in front of walls of pictures of herself. Her whole job is selling herself. So I think they are just trying to get her to look outside of her world for a moment.
@@ChoochooseU as someone with chronic health and pain issues I can say from my experience when someone says something like this to me it's incredibly hurtful and feels blatantly dismissive of my feelings and what I'm going through. I always say that I have never and will never claim that I have it worse than anyone else on the planet but it doesn't change the fact that what I'm going through is still hell. I understand trying to have a positive mindset and having gratitude and appreciation for the good in one's life,and I express that gratitude everyday in my prayers,but feeling upset or voicing those feelings isn't wrong either. I know when most say these things it isn't from a bad place or trying to be hurtful but it can very much come off that way.
@@perfectlyimperfect2368 This! It's extremely counterproductive and instead of changing the mindset to positive only leads to you having a negative mindset AND now guilt over the fact that you don't have a positive mindset. Sure, sometimes we need help from the outside to break a negative spiral or thought pattern. But that is for her sister/husband/best friend/pregnant friend to do.
@@perfectlyimperfect2368 I understand what you are thinking.... But the problem is people think gratitude is a noun- it’s a verb. Gratitude isn’t saying or thinking or a mindset- it’s an action. Of course everyone deserves and has their own right to FEEL what they feel. And then what next? We can stay stuck or make a decision to make change that helps us to grow.
I know this doesn't help because it's how you feel about yourself that matters, but I think you look younger, healthier and beautiful (as always) when you're pregnant.
Yes! Colleen is so absolutely beautiful & her skin looks so much healthier and more plump than before! She literally doesn’t have a single wrinkle! She looks AMAZING! All those vitamins are really showing & she looks like she’s just getting in all the nutrients that she needs. Colleen we love you. I’m so sorry you feel badly. I wish I could express to you how beautiful you’ve always been, but most especially now, because you are now Colleen with an even greater purpose: these beautiful & healthy babies! Take care of you girl. We’re all rooting for you & your success! ❤️
Agree! The extra weight fills out her face and makes her more youthful and healthy looking. I hope she doesn't go and lose all of the pregnancy weight again like she did with Flynn once she has the twins.
Colleen, if you need a break from vlogging - take one. We will be here when you come back. Brains can be brutal sometimes, and it sucks. You are so so so strong, and I have major respect for you. You are an amazing person and I admire you for your courage and will. I'm sending you lots of hugs. You will get through this. We believe in you!
I was coming to the comments to say this. We will completly understnd if she needs to take a break. If she wants to just do the podcast and forget vlogs, that's ok too.
@@insanatty I don’t think she does it compulsively. It’s her choice what to post or not. She’s a performer, it’s her job to provide some sort of entertainment for her followers. What she chooses to post is a 100% up to her. Even though she films Flynn, she NEVER films him in any delicate situations. If you don’t like it, don’t watch. If you’re not going to support her through this hard time, you can watch someone else’s channel - or at least stop spreading negative comments. Constructive criticism is always allowed, but to say that she shares her life compulsively? A punch below the belt if you ask me.
Colleen, I am a certified perinatal mental health therapist and an art therapist. I see mamas who feel this way every. Single. Day. You are not alone! Something you can try doing, if it sounds right for you, is to make two lists: one list of things that have changed in terms of your body, and another list of things you notice that have stayed the same. No right or wrong answers are possible. Take that list to your therapist and open up a discussion about how you feel. Much love!
Colleen. You are not sounding like a brat, this is your safe space, this is where we will comfort you if you are having a hard time, take it easy on yourself, you are pregnant with TWINs
honestly i read this as “colleen you’re sounding like a brat” and i was writing a whole book on why this comment was so wrong but then i looked back and i honestly want to say i genuinely apologize for almost writing a book on why you were wrong lol 😭 .
Hey Colleen, I am a twin and saw some pictures of my mum pregnant. I showed her your bump update and my mum said ' oh she must be 15-16 weeks' so I dnt know if that helps, but you are according to a twin mum (not a doctor but just by experience) showing a cute bump. Really glad you are in therapy, you are always you! X
Body Dysmorphia, Depression and generally your normal mental health issues getting a crappy boost during pregnancy doesn’t get spoken about. You are normal! How you feel happens to a lot of pregnant humans. Three humans are sharing one body! What! However you feel about that is okay. Engage all the mental health resources available, say peace to the camera whenever you aren’t feeling up to it. Walk out of the house and take a break from life every time you feel overwhelmed about it all. Never apologize about existing in your truth.
Big difference from your last pregnancy: you have a good therapist and much better doctors and medical professionals! AND a beautiful and kind toddler to cheer you on. And I LOVE that for you!! ♡♡♡
I honestly feel like there is a lot of body dysmorphia going on, even before pregnancy. To me, you always look like you. Please speak to your therapist about this, I’m sure you have already. Please try not to compare with your last pregnancy, it’s really damaging, even if you think it's cool. Sending love xo
I don’t remember her saying issues about her body before because she was happy, body dysmorphia is a clinical diagnosis where you have to meet certain criteria for a certain amount of *time.* anyway, she already said she’s speaking with a therapist who I’m sure is helping. Your body transforms quickly anyone would be feeling that way especially if you can’t fit into your own pants anymore.
@@ashcatchum that’s not the issue, you probably weren’t around the first time but she had pretty bad depression during pregnancy, she literally said she doesn’t recognize herself and that she doesn’t feel like herself. as someone with an eating disorder and body dysmorphia I can tell you that that is not normal behavior for someone and that is exactly what body dysmorphia is…you don’t feel like yourself, you don’t connect with your body, and you don’t know how big you really are because you see yourself as bigger or smaller…colleen had a clog from the other day where she showed herself at the same point in her pregnancy with Flynn and she said she thought she was huge that’s a perfect example of not realizing your actual size
can we just talk about how visibly better colleen seems during this pregnancy? like it seems like she is handling the major struggles that come with pregnancy (especially twin pregnancy) a lot better. she is an incredibly strong woman. i hope she realizes how many of us there are that love and look up to her, and will be here if she needs to talk about anything! we love and acknowledge you!
Yes, last time I had to stop watching her videos because they were causing me a lot of stress and anxiety, so I'm glad that things are better this time around.
@@cosmicjessica3201 Intense feelings of stress, fear or worry. The same way videos make people laugh, videos can also give people anxiety. It’s not rocket science maybe instead of mocking you can read about it. :)
@@cosmicjessica3201 You really shouldnt say something like that - it invalidates people's experiences and struggles. Just because you haven't experienced something doesnt mean that it doenst happen for others. You can't know how people's brains are wired. Some people have triggers, which can cause them immense anxiety or flashbacks, and triggers can be in videos. I'm not saying that is the case for this person, but just try and be more respectful please, because if you invalidate someone's experience, it can lead to them feeling really crappy about themselves, or can cause something worse to happen to them if they start to invalidate the experience as well
@@cosmicjessica3201 it’s not about being forced to watch anything, like they said “i stopped watching her videos”. if videos can make you feel happy and excited, they can do the opposite as well.
Body dysmorphia is so so so hard and I’m so so sorry it’s making everything that much harder for you. Just remember that it isn’t permanent. It’s part of the journey. And when you have them you will have that moment in the hospital again where you can sigh and say “I’m me again”
Body dysmorphia is super hard and I’ve never thought about how it will impact me when I carry children one day and any one else who deals with BD and carries children.
You’re right.. there are people who have it worse than you. BUT that does NOT mean that you have to invalidate your feelings. Just because others may have more difficult situations, does not mean you can’t also have a hard time. It’s good that you can acknowledge that things could be worse, but you should remember how strong and beautiful and resilient you are for willingly putting yourself through this physical and emotional pain. My therapist has been working with me on treating myself like I would a friend. You wouldn’t tell your friend in the same situation that they should be grateful because others have it worse; you would tell them that they will get through this and tell them that they are so incredibly strong and are a super woman for going through this. If you wouldn’t say something to your friend, why say it to yourself?? I believe in you so much Colleen, you have helped me get through my darkest days and I know that on the other side of this pregnancy is a lifetime of happiness with your beautiful family. Keep on keeping on! Sending love and prayers 💕
Colleen saying she thinks she doesn’t looks like herself is so heartbreaking. Colleen if you’re reading this, what does “You” look like then? A skinny girl who loves life and isn’t pregnant? You’re beautiful no matter how much your body changes. And as it keeps changing you’re getting more gorgeous by the second. I know this comment won’t really change any feelings of yours but please keep trying to be positive. You’re doing great already💕
I was wondering these same things. I’m not sure what she imagines pregnancy to look like. I understand twin pregnancy moves quicker but one cannot be pregnant without growing and body changing. I don’t know. I’m torn on what to think. I do feel bad for her though.
@@latnprincess1 I was wondering am I the only one who doesn’t get her point, I mean she’s literally growing twins inside her tummy. I wonder what else she expects her body to be than expanding and making space for them?
@@umeshifernando7 I’m not sure what she means exactly but when I was pregnant the way I thought of myself in my head was still the way I looked when I wasn’t pregnant. And even though logically I knew what was going on and why my body was changing it was still mentally and emotionally terrifying to see if changing so much so quickly and knowing I would probably never look the same again.
@@umeshifernando7 I think that what she was trying to say was that she knows that her body will change a lot and she knows it's normal, BUT she hates the process and her mind makes her feel like it's wrong for the change to happen and it feels foreign. And like it also sounds like she is noticing how much faster her body is changing with twins so it's hard to keep adjusting to the changes maybe.
There’s some sort of mental issue here. I’m glad she got pregnant with twins and won’t have another baby after that. She should not go thought it again for her mental health. Women handle pregnancy very differently. I loved it and it was pretty easy for me.
“ Who looks like this” woman carrying twins, a woman that was big when she was pregnant with her first…Which is perfectly okay.. You are all baby, with Flynn, with these angels.. You went back to your regular body after Flynn, and you will this time too!!!!!! Pls try to remember that!!!!!!! It will all be okay… 💜💜💜💜💜
well but think about it, she is used to see herself as a very skinny woman. that is her normal. she doesn't gain weight, ever. so, I would assure you is very traumatic to see yourself gaining all this new weight in very short time.
@@zairabandy8695 Yep. Anyone with any body issues will find pregnancy weight gain traumatic. It's fully out of control. I'm getting heart palps just thinking about it.
I think it's important to realize that while your pregnant, the baby/babies have their own energy. It's like hanging out with someone 24/7 except that person is literally inside of you. I believe that is were the feeling of disassociation comes from. Because I felt similarly while pregnant, like I was put on the back burner and my body wasn't mine. Coupled with how focused on them you are and how you alter your life to protect/provide the right things for the baby, it can be a real overload. Self sacrificing is hard.
As a young woman who wants children oneday it's so good to see all angles of pregnancies good and bad, thankyou for sharing this part of your journey with us ♥️♥️
Please do not be afraid to speak with your doctor about how you’re feeling. My doctor put me on an antidepressant (pregnancy safe) when I was pregnant with my daughter and it was life changing! I still take it a year and a half later.
You should bring this up to your therapist, hon. Taking care of your mental health during pregnancy is super important. This kind of stress can seriously affect your health and the babies and if you need a break from filming-- take it. Your stability matters.
You continue to say “I’m so dramatic”, no Colleen. You aren’t, you’re going through so much. It’s not dramatic to feel feelings like this. You are pregnant, pregnancy isn’t easy! You are absolutely gorgeous! Changes aren’t always bad, you’re glowing. You can do it Colleen 🤍
Please please talk to your doctor about your feelings: your health is as important as the babies. Prenatal depression isn't talked about enough, you are so wonderful sharing this whilst continuing with everything! Big love to you.
@@b_r_a_n I mean if she talks to her doctor about it they will probably want her to go see a therapist which she is already doing. They might prescribe medicine but she’s pregnant and their could be a risk to the medication
@@b_r_a_n im sure she is really open with her doctors, or at least I assume because she always talks about how much she loves her doctor and therapist etc
I’m not going to tell you all the typical things like “it will be okay” or “give it time”…I just want to say your feelings are your own and valid,and offer all the cyber hugs I can send!!!
@@amandaellis9656 Thank you, I feel like she is hard enough on herself because of those type of comments(I’ve made them myself before)…I just want her to feel validated and accepted regardless of what she is going thru!❤️❤️❤️
@@StillJustDenise That is VERY true! So thoughtful of you!! Really I love that! When I’ve gone through a rough time if someone had said what you just said that would have helped so much!! 🥰
Don’t feel bad about your body colleen or bad about “Not being productive” you are doing what YOU can not everyone can do as much as you when they’re pregnant and some can do more. You are incredible for being able to be pregnant WITH TWINS *and* take care of a family. Everyone is proud of you for being able to get through tough pregnancies and if you need to complain, please just remember that your feelings ARE valid and we love you Colleen ❤️ Edit: also if you need a break take one, your overall health is more important than us seeing your videos ❤️
That is exactly how I felt postpartum. I was so depressed that I didn't feel like me. It's so hard to describe to other people, feeling like a shell of a person that you once were and wondering when you'll start to feel like yourself again. I know there's not much to say to make you feel better, but we are with you. Here to support you and listen. Your feelings are valid, all of them. Take care of yourself and your family. We love you! 💕
When you were talking about your negative body image : this sounds very familiar and I’ve never been pregnant. I felt defeated, unrecognizable, disgusting, and not myself after I had to gain so much weight in ED recovery. And mine isn’t temporary. Remember that YOU are still you no matter what your body looks like. You’re a wonderful human being! Don’t allow your brain to beat you down so much.
Yeah, I gained 60 lbs within a couple of months after being put on meds for mental health issues. I was too thin but that gain was fast. I've since stabilized with my weight to something more healthy. But the quick weight gain does a number on you. Even more so when you've been slim all your life.
This happened to me too during my recovery! I restored weight really quickly and it was really, really difficult. It's difficult to have so much of your identity wrapped up in your appearance. I hope you're doing well in your recovery❤️
She has said many many times she doesn’t want a break that it makes it worse and to hear people say to take a break makes her feel really bad because that’s not what she wants.
"My brain is mean" This is it. It's so refreshing to hear you acknowledge it. You don't owe the internet anything. Do what you need to do to combat the meanness in your brain. If the vlogs are hurting you, stop making them. If the comments are hurting you, turn them off.
She likes it Though and if is makes her feel badly about her self then fine stop! But she likes sharing her life...and it makes her feel not alone and gives her someone to help her. This Comment is not helpful.. sorry🙈
@@EllieandNora yeah. I was wondering if it might not make her feel better. Maybe doing more unedited or lightly edited vlogs could help? That way she gets the pros of vlogging with less triggers. Could maybe even try vlogging without the view finder.
Brains can be really mean. Complete liars , making stuff up to make us feel bad. It's important to have a little corner in ones head, where one can remember that
Remember, Colleen and everyone else, your body is something you own. YOU are your mind, your personality, your hopes and dreams, your gender, sexuality is all in your brain. Your body is a vessel not the person ❤️
I genuinely think you look so pretty when you're pregnant. And you do look like you. You really look so good in all your different stages of life. I watch and admire how pretty your face looks with the little extra weight on it. You seriously look great. And most importantly, you're beautiful on the inside.
"Its ok to not be ok" YASSSS Colleen!!!! We all need to hear this more. It's ok to breakdown, it's ok to cry, to stress, to be sad....its life, remember this everyone!!!
I know Colleen doesn’t see herself in her own body- but I do. I take one look at her and I don’t see the physical change she is going through. Because her body isn’t changing HER. She is still an amazing person: an amazing mom, an amazing singer, dancer, actor, magician :) She is still Colleen. She’s still the woman I look up to so much. I still know who she is. I still see the Colleen I know we all love. ♥️
well yes, but don't invalidate what she is saying. Like, actually her body is very different. Her face is a complete different face. She is use to see herself skinny so, don't tell her that she is beautiful because she doesn't see herself in this new body.
@@zairabandy8695 well the whole point of what I was saying was basically saying yes, I understand that Colleen can’t see herself in this new body but I can see her. And I know that she looks different but that doesn’t change who she is on the inside. So throughout the comment i was saying while yes her body is changing that internally she is the Colleen I know and love. But I see what you’re saying :)
When she said “IT TASTES LIKE A DAY SPA” I died and I am I the only one that wants to give her the biggest hug ever. Colleen idk if you’ll see this but you are so amazing, beautiful, and talented. The fact that you are able to grow TWINS is so amazing. It is ok to have feelings and not like pregnancy but you are so beautiful and strong and if you gotta take a break pls do because we care about you💜
you don’t sound like a brat. every pregnancy is different. you are going through YOUR problems. don’t compare yourself to other people because every body is so so so different
As someone who experienced extreme depression and anxiety in my first pregnancy, and didn't really understand that's what I was going through, your vlogs now and with Flynn have really helped me process that, and support me where I'm at, so please know that these videos are so helpful to others out there, and it's so supportive to see other women who aren't only sharing or feeling joy when pregnant (there's that too sometimes). You're an amazing woman. Thank you.
I hope Colleen gets help for her body image issues because I think they've always been there but pregnancy really just exasperates them. It's a hard thing to fight especially being on social media but I know Colleen is so strong.
I feel like your inlaws visiting is a blessing and a sign that you should take a vlogging break. We'll miss you. But just take the week or two to focus on family and health😁 we'll be waiting for you when you get back!
Sometimes when people comment things like "She seems to be doing much better this pregnancy. She's mentally handling this so much better this time around" I'm not sure how to feel. I say that because in the vlogs she is literally telling us that she's not doing well and is in fact doing worse than she did when she was pregnant with Flynn. Ik those comments are out of love though!
Maybe cause she used to say reallyyy often than she felt miserable:( way more that this time And this time she has said she feels more prepared thanks to seeking the right professional help But to be fair, we all choose to show whatever part we want of our selfs 🤷♀️
I think she’s not enjoying pregnancy at all but because she is fully aware of what is happening, she lives this pregnancy with more resilience than the previous one ?? Idk 🤷♀️
Maybe because at the start she was saying that at least she knows what to expect this time round other to last time she had no idea what to expect. But yeah I see what you mean and as you said those comments are out of love:)
i just wanted to say i look up to you so much in the aspect that you keep things real and you don’t sugarcoat anything in pregnancy. you’re doing so amazing and me being 25 weeks pregnant hasn’t been a walk in the park. i feel like every other youtube channel i watch about pregnancy i can’t relate to at all so thank you for being my support system. i’m 16 and pregnant so obviously my situation isn’t the same as yours but we both have our struggles and this has really helped me. keep your head up you’re doing amazing ♥️♥️
This honesty. This is just straight up strong and raw and this is why people respect you. You are a powerful person, Colleen. If you need to stop, stop. You deserve to meet your own needs before the viewer. What an absolute hero.
Imagine how cute this would be: Colleen and Erik have Flynn in the middle holding their shoulders. They each have a twin being held with the outside arm. They’re both kissing Flynn on the cheek and he has the biggest little smile ever. It’s hard to explain but it makes sense in my head. UR AN ABSOLUTE ✨QUEEN✨ COLLEEN!
16 weeks is almost half way, it’s not just the beginning! You’re so close to meeting them and returning to yourself, it’s so much easier said than done, but it’s all about how you phrase it to yourself. Try to tell yourself how close you are to meeting them, and how you still have to build their room, and find their names, and there’s still stuff to do to prepare that can occupy your mind as well. You’re so close to seeing the end to the changes to your body, and meeting your new additions!
You’re literally pregnant with twins, obviously it’s going to bigger than a normal pregnancy but at the end it’s going to be so worth it. I’m here to support you and you’re doing the best
yeah she knows that but she is used to see her self as a skinny woman so it is very traumatic to see herself gaining weight. this is not her normal self.
Not only that, but the belly in subsequent pregnancies tend to become bigger than before because the skin is already stretched out. I’m 24 weeks currently and I look like I could pass for 31 weeks. But yeah, that’s all you could do is do your best to be positive. I just wanted to shout out that you’re beautiful!
depression is never easy. but you gave yourself some great advice in the end. “its okay to not be okay” everyday is different and those feelings wont always be there. just remember you are still there even if you cant feel it, know it. the demons in your head are just a little louder than you somedays. this is just temporary. sending love your way! 💚
I love how even when she’s like at her lowest and exposing herself to us, being so vulnerable…she’s still concerned for others. You are truly amazing Colleen ❤️
This is the last time Colleen! Remember that! Time never stops and every day that passes you're a day closer to see your babies, a day closer to stop feeling depressed, a day closer to feel like yourself again, a day closer to see Flynn become a big brother. Every inch that your body grows the closer you get to the end of this pregnancy. You got this!
Your doing great, it's the overload of hormones. You will feel like yourself again. You also look amazing ! Depression sucks .when you get to hold your babies all these feelings will disappear
those are really empty promises for people struggling with existing depression with pregnancy. Depression is an ongoing struggle. None of it disappears. You have to cope.
@@caffienevaccine coleen said in the video it all went away when she gave birth so chill out. Of course that isnt the case for everyone but this person was obviously speaking to colleen
Ugh Colleen you look better than before! You’ve always been absolutely beautiful, but your skin looks so much more plump & healthy and your hair is thriving! You’re literally glowing! I would give anything to be at your weight, even while pregnant! You are so absolutely gorgeous. I’m so sorry you feel that way. We love you! ❤️
I looked like that at 15 weeks with all 3 pregnancies BUT didn’t have twins! People ALWAYS asked me if I was though!! I was small & all my babies were gigantic! lol
Same. I was pregnant during covid and hadn’t seen my neighbor in months. I was outside and he was like when are you due?? And I said October! It was like July. And he looked at me like ohhh wow 🤦🏻♀️.
Colleen is so freaking strong, she can post her feelings on something as toxic as the internet to us. She's getting through it and although I can't relate to her through her pregnancy, I can just be with her like she's my friend when I'm not actually with her and she doesn't even know me. You might look different, but you're still Colleen inside! And you might look different, but you're still beautiful and so strong. There could also be so many times that Colleen videotaped herself just crying and didn't show us, so if you're reading this and you did, Colleen, I'm sorry you had to go through those times, but we are here for you. Nobody read this but if you did, you're strong and amazing and thank you for taking the time to read me ranting about how strong Colleen is. You are too! 💜💜💜
It’s gotta be hard to feel like you’re not yourself. Especially when you’re used to being a certain size consistently. When I see you you remind me of Colleen from 10 years ago in the face. You are beautiful and a strong woman and you will get through this. The industry you’re in is hard on looks but you’re a beautiful pregnant woman.
As someone with a chronic illness that makes my weight fluctuate often, I can relate to the issues of body image rapidly changing. Its hard to see pictures and videos of yourself and not recognize yourself, and know that the reason is out of your control. I empathize with you so much, and am sending much love!
“I just feel like a shell of a human in a body I don’t know” I have felt this and it gave me a panic attack and I didn’t know how to word it so thank you ❤️
My daughter was my 9th ivf and now she's terminally ill. I think it's important to honor how you feel. It's just so interesting to me that how you look is so important to you right now to the point that you don't feel like you. You're a wonderful person; that is your identity; not your skinny body.
My mom had a horrible pregnancy with me just like this. She said the second I came out it was like a fog lifted and she was herself again❤️ I’m 13 weeks pregnant and having a tough time with depression but watching you everyday helps me get through it. We got this.
“TAKE A BREAK… and get away. We can go upstate!” Sorry Hamilton said it best. ☺️ hope this makes you feel better ❤️🩹 we will understand. Please your mental health is way more important.
Girl, if you need to take a break from filming, you do that. I know I can’t speak for everyone but I just want you to be healthy and happy and if you need to take a break for that to happen then that’s great!
I personally love tortilla talks with Colleen. No matter what you're talking about. You're doing an amazing job at absolutely everything. Do what you need to do to feel better. We love you!!! ❤️❤️❤️
Omg. This made me cry. I feel exactly the same, pregnant with my second boy. I do not feel like myself and my confidence i had prior is mostly gone. It’s hard, but hang in there mama! We’ll be okay soon.
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Aw, Colleen. My heart breaks for you. I felt exactly the same, durning both my pregnancies. I literally felt like my soul re-entered my body once I gave birth. It's so hard, just know you are doing a great job and it's ok to be upset. Xxx
Also,I noticed she went to the doctor and DID NOT say “We still don’t know the sex of the babies”! I’m waiting to see JoJo in an upcoming thumbnail!!!😍😍😍
I don’t know if this would help you at all, but during my anxiety flare ups this quote always helps remind me that it is temporary. “You are the sky, everything else is the weather.”
I know you can’t help the way you feel, so I’m not here to tell you not to feel that way. I’m here to just say thank you for sharing your world and your perspective with us- the ups and the downs. Your videos are very comforting. ❤️
That person looking back in the mirror, YOU don’t think you know…is a mother a mother of one soon to be three. I wish you could see what we see. A very lucky and beautiful person making a family. You have to look in the mirror and see you, see the great mom you are. The wonderful beautiful Colleen. It’s still you, it will always be you. No matter how big your tummy gets or how you think you look. You look like a pregnant mom, getting ready to birth twins. I understand it’s easy for us to say but girl you need to get it together take that deep breath, realize it’s still you and enjoy you pregnancy…you look exactly the same…just pregnant…with TWINS. Please embrace the moment, the changes and accept the fact that you are a mother building your family. Get a handle on your thoughts slow your mind down and take in all the miracles you’ve been bestowed upon..
I love how Colleen is talking about her feelings and saying how she feels and still saying disclaimers about what she is saying so that she doesn’t hurt other peoples feelings!!!❤️❤️ I love watching her vids!!!! U got this pregnancy!!!!
You’re feelings are valid and real and I get what you are feeling. I had twins and my stomach expanded sooooo quickly. The horrible symptoms I had got even worse and faster and stronger. You are not alone, Colleen. I wish I could hug you. I know how it feels being a multiple mom. And it is such a relief when meeting other multiple moms in person and relate to our feelings. You are halfway there, Colleen. ❤️
I know this is probably inappropriate to say in the serious matter, but when you showed the comparison of the two pregnancies, I fell so in love with the fringe all over again. Probably the wrong timing, but I had to say it, I'm actually obsessed with the fridge, it makes you look so young and gives your hair so much life, it's so gorgeous!
You ARE amazing!! You ARE raw and beautiful and vulnerable and millions of people LOVE you and are pulling for a quick and healthy pregnancy and delivery! We are ALL here for you! Keep talking to us and venting and helping grow those AMAZING babies! WE LOVE YOU!🤍❤️🤍❤️🤍
Being pregnant is hard…I totally understand how you feel being a shell of yourself. I had the same feeling my past pregnancy and it sucks, it’s so draining. You’re a rockstar momma. Those twins are lucky to have you. Sending prayers for some peace of mind for you and health for those babes as you continue to grow them. You are strong and you are validated!
“Who looks like this at 15 weeks” a second time mama pregnant with twins. You’re rocking it mama, take care of you ❤️ (but it is so weird! My tummy didn’t look like the D belly it was a B belly and I hated it, I just looked like I’d gained 50lbs and not pregnant. I’m glad my baby’s here and healthy and my tummy went back to ‘normal’ almost.)
I do understand Colleen anxiety, as a small person myself, I felt like my kids were going to burst out of me! I always said what if I had twins 😳 like how would my body cope so I understand why she’s anxious how will her small frame and skin and general organs etc find the space for the babies etc! As for the body dismorphia , I only have to put on a couple of lbs and I’m all over the place. I think the best thing we can do is respect her way of dealing with this, she is talking and sharing, that’s great and helpful for others, then looking for positive distraction and accepting the things she doesn’t like about herself, like that she thinks she’s eating too much. Then it’s simply a case of support and love. We all want the best for her and she’s working hard x
Your body isn't growing 2 humans. It's growing 3. You're a human too. ♥ You're still there.
Period!
This comment 🤍
Yes!!! I hope she sees this
i REALLY hope she sees this comment💖!!!
Love this ❤️
PLEASE read the book “More than a Body” pregnant or not, it has helped me IMMENSELY see my body in a different way. It will change you seeing your body strictly for appearance and for purpose.
Yes! It is an amazing book that offers some beautiful perspectives
YES!!!!
Yes omg!!
I’ll look it up! Thank you 🙏🏼
I agree :) it really helped me too
I googled “15 weeks pregnant” and I saw a multitude of bodies, some bigger than you, some smaller than you, all as beautiful as you are. You’re growing TWO humans and, like, living at the same time?!! WHAT?! You’re a rockstar!
this comment is so kind i love it
This comment is lovely ❤️
Love and second this comment!! 💕
you’re right i just looked it up and a lot of them are around her size
I searched too, you’re right!
Colleen should not be saying “people have it way worse” because it is not a competition and you can’t keep comparing yourself to other people’s pregnancy. We all believe in you and you can make it through this!
The thing is, if she doesn't people will try to cancel her... It's ridiculous. But she has to cover her grounds
@@silvermist9924 yeah it’s really sad
I wish people would stop saying “people have it worse” pregnancy is not a competition about who has it better or worse :(
No but I think they are well meaning in that they are attempting to get her to change her mentality based upon gratitude.
She is very self absorbed- I mean, clearly someone who makes a living vlogging about everyday normality and sits in front of walls of pictures of herself. Her whole job is selling herself. So I think they are just trying to get her to look outside of her world for a moment.
@@ChoochooseU as someone with chronic health and pain issues I can say from my experience when someone says something like this to me it's incredibly hurtful and feels blatantly dismissive of my feelings and what I'm going through. I always say that I have never and will never claim that I have it worse than anyone else on the planet but it doesn't change the fact that what I'm going through is still hell. I understand trying to have a positive mindset and having gratitude and appreciation for the good in one's life,and I express that gratitude everyday in my prayers,but feeling upset or voicing those feelings isn't wrong either. I know when most say these things it isn't from a bad place or trying to be hurtful but it can very much come off that way.
Okay yes. I love this comment so much.
@@perfectlyimperfect2368 This! It's extremely counterproductive and instead of changing the mindset to positive only leads to you having a negative mindset AND now guilt over the fact that you don't have a positive mindset. Sure, sometimes we need help from the outside to break a negative spiral or thought pattern. But that is for her sister/husband/best friend/pregnant friend to do.
@@perfectlyimperfect2368 I understand what you are thinking....
But the problem is people think gratitude is a noun- it’s a verb. Gratitude isn’t saying or thinking or a mindset- it’s an action.
Of course everyone deserves and has their own right to FEEL what they feel. And then what next?
We can stay stuck or make a decision to make change that helps us to grow.
I know this doesn't help because it's how you feel about yourself that matters, but I think you look younger, healthier and beautiful (as always) when you're pregnant.
Same❤️
that was deep, quizzard.
Absolutely agree
Yes! Colleen is so absolutely beautiful & her skin looks so much healthier and more plump than before! She literally doesn’t have a single wrinkle! She looks AMAZING! All those vitamins are really showing & she looks like she’s just getting in all the nutrients that she needs. Colleen we love you. I’m so sorry you feel badly. I wish I could express to you how beautiful you’ve always been, but most especially now, because you are now Colleen with an even greater purpose: these beautiful & healthy babies! Take care of you girl. We’re all rooting for you & your success! ❤️
Agree! The extra weight fills out her face and makes her more youthful and healthy looking. I hope she doesn't go and lose all of the pregnancy weight again like she did with Flynn once she has the twins.
Colleen, if you need a break from vlogging - take one. We will be here when you come back. Brains can be brutal sometimes, and it sucks. You are so so so strong, and I have major respect for you. You are an amazing person and I admire you for your courage and will. I'm sending you lots of hugs. You will get through this. We believe in you!
Yes we will. We are always with you! ❤❤❤
I agree with you
I was coming to the comments to say this. We will completly understnd if she needs to take a break. If she wants to just do the podcast and forget vlogs, that's ok too.
She won’t. She compulsively shares EVERYTHING about her life. And now she’s doing the same to her son who can’t consent to being filmed.
@@insanatty I don’t think she does it compulsively. It’s her choice what to post or not. She’s a performer, it’s her job to provide some sort of entertainment for her followers. What she chooses to post is a 100% up to her. Even though she films Flynn, she NEVER films him in any delicate situations. If you don’t like it, don’t watch. If you’re not going to support her through this hard time, you can watch someone else’s channel - or at least stop spreading negative comments. Constructive criticism is always allowed, but to say that she shares her life compulsively? A punch below the belt if you ask me.
Colleen, I am a certified perinatal mental health therapist and an art therapist. I see mamas who feel this way every. Single. Day. You are not alone! Something you can try doing, if it sounds right for you, is to make two lists: one list of things that have changed in terms of your body, and another list of things you notice that have stayed the same. No right or wrong answers are possible. Take that list to your therapist and open up a discussion about how you feel. Much love!
We need to blow this up so that Colleen sees this it would help her so much make sure to copy , like , and comment on 👆🏻that comment
Colleen. You are not sounding like a brat, this is your safe space, this is where we will comfort you if you are having a hard time, take it easy on yourself, you are pregnant with TWINs
honestly i read this as “colleen you’re sounding like a brat” and i was writing a whole book on why this comment was so wrong but then i looked back and i honestly want to say i genuinely apologize for almost writing a book on why you were wrong lol 😭 .
@@dededadonnnn omg😭🖐️
@@dededadonnnn so did i and i was about to go off lmao
@@geca7348 😭
@@biancamr2698 😭 lmao
Hey Colleen, I am a twin and saw some pictures of my mum pregnant. I showed her your bump update and my mum said ' oh she must be 15-16 weeks' so I dnt know if that helps, but you are according to a twin mum (not a doctor but just by experience) showing a cute bump. Really glad you are in therapy, you are always you! X
This is so sweet. "you are always you" 🥺
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@@coolvibes5662 stop trying to send this to people on this one specific video colleen is in pain currently so please stop.
I love this comment. ❤
“My brain is mean”. I can relate to that so much. It feels horrible when your own mind is your worst enemy at times. Sending hugs.
“Tuesday tortilla talk” I feel like that’s what it should be called when Colleen talks and she’s in the tortilla blanket orrr “tortilla talk”
Or "Let's Taco 'bout it"
taco Tuesday
Your profile picture is so cute!!
Body Dysmorphia, Depression and generally your normal mental health issues getting a crappy boost during pregnancy doesn’t get spoken about. You are normal! How you feel happens to a lot of pregnant humans. Three humans are sharing one body! What! However you feel about that is okay. Engage all the mental health resources available, say peace to the camera whenever you aren’t feeling up to it. Walk out of the house and take a break from life every time you feel overwhelmed about it all. Never apologize about existing in your truth.
This comment is so real, well said.
Yes, preach it girl!
It’s always the nicest of people that are hurting the most
Oh my gosh truuueee
Big difference from your last pregnancy: you have a good therapist and much better doctors and medical professionals! AND a beautiful and kind toddler to cheer you on. And I LOVE that for you!! ♡♡♡
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Saaqqaaaaaaa
When colleen goes "ARE YOU GUYS OKAY?!" after the blue sky boba 😂😂😂
Anyone else never heard "boba" and knows it as tapioca?? 🤔
I know, that made me laugh so hard!!! 😂😂😂😂😂😂
I honestly feel like there is a lot of body dysmorphia going on, even before pregnancy. To me, you always look like you. Please speak to your therapist about this, I’m sure you have already. Please try not to compare with your last pregnancy, it’s really damaging, even if you think it's cool. Sending love xo
Absolutely agree with you.
I definitely thought the same thing!
completely agree
I don’t remember her saying issues about her body before because she was happy, body dysmorphia is a clinical diagnosis where you have to meet certain criteria for a certain amount of *time.* anyway, she already said she’s speaking with a therapist who I’m sure is helping. Your body transforms quickly anyone would be feeling that way especially if you can’t fit into your own pants anymore.
@@ashcatchum that’s not the issue, you probably weren’t around the first time but she had pretty bad depression during pregnancy, she literally said she doesn’t recognize herself and that she doesn’t feel like herself. as someone with an eating disorder and body dysmorphia I can tell you that that is not normal behavior for someone and that is exactly what body dysmorphia is…you don’t feel like yourself, you don’t connect with your body, and you don’t know how big you really are because you see yourself as bigger or smaller…colleen had a clog from the other day where she showed herself at the same point in her pregnancy with Flynn and she said she thought she was huge that’s a perfect example of not realizing your actual size
can we just talk about how visibly better colleen seems during this pregnancy? like it seems like she is handling the major struggles that come with pregnancy (especially twin pregnancy) a lot better. she is an incredibly strong woman. i hope she realizes how many of us there are that love and look up to her, and will be here if she needs to talk about anything! we love and acknowledge you!
Yes, last time I had to stop watching her videos because they were causing me a lot of stress and anxiety, so I'm glad that things are better this time around.
@@cosmicjessica3201 it can happen, let’s not put other people down.
@@cosmicjessica3201 Intense feelings of stress, fear or worry. The same way videos make people laugh, videos can also give people anxiety. It’s not rocket science maybe instead of mocking you can read about it. :)
@@cosmicjessica3201 You really shouldnt say something like that - it invalidates people's experiences and struggles. Just because you haven't experienced something doesnt mean that it doenst happen for others. You can't know how people's brains are wired. Some people have triggers, which can cause them immense anxiety or flashbacks, and triggers can be in videos. I'm not saying that is the case for this person, but just try and be more respectful please, because if you invalidate someone's experience, it can lead to them feeling really crappy about themselves, or can cause something worse to happen to them if they start to invalidate the experience as well
@@cosmicjessica3201 it’s not about being forced to watch anything, like they said “i stopped watching her videos”. if videos can make you feel happy and excited, they can do the opposite as well.
Body dysmorphia is so so so hard and I’m so so sorry it’s making everything that much harder for you. Just remember that it isn’t permanent. It’s part of the journey. And when you have them you will have that moment in the hospital again where you can sigh and say “I’m me again”
Body dysmorphia. That makes a lot of sense.
Body dysmorphia is super hard and I’ve never thought about how it will impact me when I carry children one day and any one else who deals with BD and carries children.
You’re right.. there are people who have it worse than you. BUT that does NOT mean that you have to invalidate your feelings. Just because others may have more difficult situations, does not mean you can’t also have a hard time. It’s good that you can acknowledge that things could be worse, but you should remember how strong and beautiful and resilient you are for willingly putting yourself through this physical and emotional pain. My therapist has been working with me on treating myself like I would a friend. You wouldn’t tell your friend in the same situation that they should be grateful because others have it worse; you would tell them that they will get through this and tell them that they are so incredibly strong and are a super woman for going through this. If you wouldn’t say something to your friend, why say it to yourself?? I believe in you so much Colleen, you have helped me get through my darkest days and I know that on the other side of this pregnancy is a lifetime of happiness with your beautiful family. Keep on keeping on! Sending love and prayers 💕
Colleen saying she thinks she doesn’t looks like herself is so heartbreaking. Colleen if you’re reading this, what does “You” look like then? A skinny girl who loves life and isn’t pregnant? You’re beautiful no matter how much your body changes. And as it keeps changing you’re getting more gorgeous by the second. I know this comment won’t really change any feelings of yours but please keep trying to be positive. You’re doing great already💕
I was wondering these same things. I’m not sure what she imagines pregnancy to look like. I understand twin pregnancy moves quicker but one cannot be pregnant without growing and body changing. I don’t know. I’m torn on what to think. I do feel bad for her though.
@@latnprincess1 I was wondering am I the only one who doesn’t get her point, I mean she’s literally growing twins inside her tummy. I wonder what else she expects her body to be than expanding and making space for them?
@@umeshifernando7 I’m not sure what she means exactly but when I was pregnant the way I thought of myself in my head was still the way I looked when I wasn’t pregnant. And even though logically I knew what was going on and why my body was changing it was still mentally and emotionally terrifying to see if changing so much so quickly and knowing I would probably never look the same again.
@@umeshifernando7 I think that what she was trying to say was that she knows that her body will change a lot and she knows it's normal, BUT she hates the process and her mind makes her feel like it's wrong for the change to happen and it feels foreign. And like it also sounds like she is noticing how much faster her body is changing with twins so it's hard to keep adjusting to the changes maybe.
There’s some sort of mental issue here. I’m glad she got pregnant with twins and won’t have another baby after that. She should not go thought it again for her mental health. Women handle pregnancy very differently. I loved it and it was pretty easy for me.
“ Who looks like this” woman carrying twins, a woman that was big when she was pregnant with her first…Which is perfectly okay.. You are all baby, with Flynn, with these angels.. You went back to your regular body after Flynn, and you will this time too!!!!!! Pls try to remember that!!!!!!! It will all be okay… 💜💜💜💜💜
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Yes yes!! It’s good for her to remember that there is an other side to this ❤️
well but think about it, she is used to see herself as a very skinny woman. that is her normal. she doesn't gain weight, ever. so, I would assure you is very traumatic to see yourself gaining all this new weight in very short time.
@@zairabandy8695 Yep. Anyone with any body issues will find pregnancy weight gain traumatic. It's fully out of control. I'm getting heart palps just thinking about it.
I think it's important to realize that while your pregnant, the baby/babies have their own energy. It's like hanging out with someone 24/7 except that person is literally inside of you. I believe that is were the feeling of disassociation comes from. Because I felt similarly while pregnant, like I was put on the back burner and my body wasn't mine. Coupled with how focused on them you are and how you alter your life to protect/provide the right things for the baby, it can be a real overload. Self sacrificing is hard.
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@@coolvibes5662 …. Why
I think this is so well said!
As a young woman who wants children oneday it's so good to see all angles of pregnancies good and bad, thankyou for sharing this part of your journey with us ♥️♥️
Please do not be afraid to speak with your doctor about how you’re feeling. My doctor put me on an antidepressant (pregnancy safe) when I was pregnant with my daughter and it was life changing! I still take it a year and a half later.
She won’t she’ll just keep making videos about it. She def needs to just take them it’ll help her
@@alexandralawson9578 Oh, are you her doctor? Tell me more
@@alexandralawson9578 why did you fell the need to spread negativity
@@alexandralawson9578 some people chose to talk, others chose meds, some a mixture of both, it’s whatever suits the individual 🤷♀️
@@alexandralawson9578 whoa... why
Honey, you're not at the beginning, you're nearly half way! (For an average twin pregnancy).
You should bring this up to your therapist, hon. Taking care of your mental health during pregnancy is super important. This kind of stress can seriously affect your health and the babies and if you need a break from filming-- take it. Your stability matters.
God I hope she does. This is such a huge issue she needs to talk about. I mean she is pregnant.
Exactly. The daily vlogging needs to be maybe every two weeks for example
You continue to say “I’m so dramatic”, no Colleen. You aren’t, you’re going through so much. It’s not dramatic to feel feelings like this. You are pregnant, pregnancy isn’t easy! You are absolutely gorgeous! Changes aren’t always bad, you’re glowing. You can do it Colleen 🤍
Please please talk to your doctor about your feelings: your health is as important as the babies. Prenatal depression isn't talked about enough, you are so wonderful sharing this whilst continuing with everything! Big love to you.
she goes to therapy so I am sure she talks to her therapist about these things hopefully.
@@delaneyd.157 therapists arn't doctors tho
@@b_r_a_n I mean if she talks to her doctor about it they will probably want her to go see a therapist which she is already doing. They might prescribe medicine but she’s pregnant and their could be a risk to the medication
@@b_r_a_n unfortunately doctors can’t really prescribe much during pregnancy to help . Mental health professionals are the best care for now
@@b_r_a_n im sure she is really open with her doctors, or at least I assume because she always talks about how much she loves her doctor and therapist etc
I’m not going to tell you all the typical things like “it will be okay” or “give it time”…I just want to say your feelings are your own and valid,and offer all the cyber hugs I can send!!!
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I really love this comment! 💛 What a perfect thing to say!
@@amandaellis9656 Thank you, I feel like she is hard enough on herself because of those type of comments(I’ve made them myself before)…I just want her to feel validated and accepted regardless of what she is going thru!❤️❤️❤️
@@StillJustDenise That is VERY true! So thoughtful of you!! Really I love that! When I’ve gone through a rough time if someone had said what you just said that would have helped so much!! 🥰
@@amandaellis9656 I wish I could’ve said it for you too!❤️❤️❤️
Don’t feel bad about your body colleen or bad about “Not being productive” you are doing what YOU can not everyone can do as much as you when they’re pregnant and some can do more. You are incredible for being able to be pregnant WITH TWINS *and* take care of a family. Everyone is proud of you for being able to get through tough pregnancies and if you need to complain, please just remember that your feelings ARE valid and we love you Colleen ❤️
Edit: also if you need a break take one, your overall health is more important than us seeing your videos ❤️
I Absolutely Love you I always wanted too meet you and you are
Special too m❤🧡💛💚💜💙😍🥰
That is exactly how I felt postpartum. I was so depressed that I didn't feel like me. It's so hard to describe to other people, feeling like a shell of a person that you once were and wondering when you'll start to feel like yourself again. I know there's not much to say to make you feel better, but we are with you. Here to support you and listen. Your feelings are valid, all of them. Take care of yourself and your family. We love you! 💕
When you were talking about your negative body image : this sounds very familiar and I’ve never been pregnant. I felt defeated, unrecognizable, disgusting, and not myself after I had to gain so much weight in ED recovery. And mine isn’t temporary. Remember that YOU are still you no matter what your body looks like. You’re a wonderful human being! Don’t allow your brain to beat you down so much.
Yeah, I gained 60 lbs within a couple of months after being put on meds for mental health issues. I was too thin but that gain was fast. I've since stabilized with my weight to something more healthy. But the quick weight gain does a number on you. Even more so when you've been slim all your life.
This happened to me too during my recovery! I restored weight really quickly and it was really, really difficult. It's difficult to have so much of your identity wrapped up in your appearance.
I hope you're doing well in your recovery❤️
@@pjgr1231 totally agree! 1.5 years recovered! I hope the same for you 😁
colleen please take a break, we’d miss you but we wouldn’t be mad. it’s okay, please take care of your self
Take care of them babies
She has said many many times she doesn’t want a break that it makes it worse and to hear people say to take a break makes her feel really bad because that’s not what she wants.
I think talking to us helps her distract a little
@@winny7850 they are just saying this cause she said " and im like should i stop filming myself just so i can get a handle on this"
"My brain is mean"
This is it. It's so refreshing to hear you acknowledge it.
You don't owe the internet anything. Do what you need to do to combat the meanness in your brain. If the vlogs are hurting you, stop making them. If the comments are hurting you, turn them off.
She likes it Though and if is makes her feel badly about her self then fine stop! But she likes sharing her life...and it makes her feel not alone and gives her someone to help her. This Comment is not helpful..
sorry🙈
@@EllieandNora yeah. I was wondering if it might not make her feel better. Maybe doing more unedited or lightly edited vlogs could help? That way she gets the pros of vlogging with less triggers. Could maybe even try vlogging without the view finder.
@@hernameispekka_Rebecca yes
Brains can be really mean. Complete liars , making stuff up to make us feel bad. It's important to have a little corner in ones head, where one can remember that
I’m also struggling with pregnancy depression and this vlog definitely helped! 💛
3.29 million people have got your back colleen! Stay Strong!
what colleen thinks we will say when shes venting about her TWIN pregnancy: "omg shes so dramatic ugh" how we are: "colleen ur amazing and strong!".
yess! colleen is amazing
@@xsxmplyxjadex9566 period!!! ive been watching since before she got pregnant .. way before but yea shes so amazing and strong!
Remember, Colleen and everyone else, your body is something you own. YOU are your mind, your personality, your hopes and dreams, your gender, sexuality is all in your brain. Your body is a vessel not the person ❤️
For real!!!
100%! ❤️
I genuinely think you look so pretty when you're pregnant. And you do look like you. You really look so good in all your different stages of life. I watch and admire how pretty your face looks with the little extra weight on it. You seriously look great. And most importantly, you're beautiful on the inside.
Agreed. She is one of the most beautiful pregnant women I’ve ever seen.
Yes!! I agree with this comment.
You look so beautiful in that last outfit. That's a great color for you.
"Its ok to not be ok" YASSSS Colleen!!!! We all need to hear this more. It's ok to breakdown, it's ok to cry, to stress, to be sad....its life, remember this everyone!!!
I know Colleen doesn’t see herself in her own body- but I do. I take one look at her and I don’t see the physical change she is going through. Because her body isn’t changing HER. She is still an amazing person: an amazing mom, an amazing singer, dancer, actor, magician :) She is still Colleen. She’s still the woman I look up to so much. I still know who she is. I still see the Colleen I know we all love. ♥️
Ik right she’s so beautiful
Yes, really true!! ❤️
well yes, but don't invalidate what she is saying. Like, actually her body is very different. Her face is a complete different face. She is use to see herself skinny so, don't tell her that she is beautiful because she doesn't see herself in this new body.
@@zairabandy8695 she’s beautiful no matter what tho?
@@zairabandy8695 well the whole point of what I was saying was basically saying yes, I understand that Colleen can’t see herself in this new body but I can see her. And I know that she looks different but that doesn’t change who she is on the inside. So throughout the comment i was saying while yes her body is changing that internally she is the Colleen I know and love. But I see what you’re saying :)
When she said “IT TASTES LIKE A DAY SPA” I died and I am I the only one that wants to give her the biggest hug ever. Colleen idk if you’ll see this but you are so amazing, beautiful, and talented. The fact that you are able to grow TWINS is so amazing. It is ok to have feelings and not like pregnancy but you are so beautiful and strong and if you gotta take a break pls do because we care about you💜
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you don’t sound like a brat. every pregnancy is different. you are going through YOUR problems. don’t compare yourself to other people because every body is so so so different
As someone who experienced extreme depression and anxiety in my first pregnancy, and didn't really understand that's what I was going through, your vlogs now and with Flynn have really helped me process that, and support me where I'm at, so please know that these videos are so helpful to others out there, and it's so supportive to see other women who aren't only sharing or feeling joy when pregnant (there's that too sometimes). You're an amazing woman. Thank you.
I hope Colleen gets help for her body image issues because I think they've always been there but pregnancy really just exasperates them. It's a hard thing to fight especially being on social media but I know Colleen is so strong.
I feel like your inlaws visiting is a blessing and a sign that you should take a vlogging break. We'll miss you. But just take the week or two to focus on family and health😁 we'll be waiting for you when you get back!
Sometimes when people comment things like "She seems to be doing much better this pregnancy. She's mentally handling this so much better this time around" I'm not sure how to feel. I say that because in the vlogs she is literally telling us that she's not doing well and is in fact doing worse than she did when she was pregnant with Flynn. Ik those comments are out of love though!
exactly !
This!
Maybe cause she used to say reallyyy often than she felt miserable:( way more that this time
And this time she has said she feels more prepared thanks to seeking the right professional help
But to be fair, we all choose to show whatever part we want of our selfs 🤷♀️
I think she’s not enjoying pregnancy at all but because she is fully aware of what is happening, she lives this pregnancy with more resilience than the previous one ?? Idk 🤷♀️
Maybe because at the start she was saying that at least she knows what to expect this time round other to last time she had no idea what to expect. But yeah I see what you mean and as you said those comments are out of love:)
i just wanted to say i look up to you so much in the aspect that you keep things real and you don’t sugarcoat anything in pregnancy. you’re doing so amazing and me being 25 weeks pregnant hasn’t been a walk in the park. i feel like every other youtube channel i watch about pregnancy i can’t relate to at all so thank you for being my support system. i’m 16 and pregnant so obviously my situation isn’t the same as yours but we both have our struggles and this has really helped me. keep your head up you’re doing amazing ♥️♥️
Hey Colleen, you should try Ding Tea. They have really good non-caffeinated boba options. I think there's one nearby to you.
Yes! Definitely check it out
I hope she saw this!
This honesty. This is just straight up strong and raw and this is why people respect you. You are a powerful person, Colleen. If you need to stop, stop. You deserve to meet your own needs before the viewer. What an absolute hero.
you took the words from my brain. she is such a beautiful soul.
Imagine how cute this would be: Colleen and Erik have Flynn in the middle holding their shoulders. They each have a twin being held with the outside arm. They’re both kissing Flynn on the cheek and he has the biggest little smile ever. It’s hard to explain but it makes sense in my head. UR AN ABSOLUTE ✨QUEEN✨ COLLEEN!
Omg it would be so cute!!
Perfect sense!
Please don’t force yourself to film. If you think you need a break for your own sanity and mental health, do it. Take the break :)
u got this colleen! ur such a strong woman who can do anything omg
This!!!
16 weeks is almost half way, it’s not just the beginning! You’re so close to meeting them and returning to yourself, it’s so much easier said than done, but it’s all about how you phrase it to yourself. Try to tell yourself how close you are to meeting them, and how you still have to build their room, and find their names, and there’s still stuff to do to prepare that can occupy your mind as well. You’re so close to seeing the end to the changes to your body, and meeting your new additions!
This!!
This! She is almost half way! Plus she will probably give birth sooner so she’s definitely halfway!
You’re literally pregnant with twins, obviously it’s going to bigger than a normal pregnancy but at the end it’s going to be so worth it. I’m here to support you and you’re doing the best
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@@coolvibes5662 This isn't the time for this bro....
yeah she knows that but she is used to see her self as a skinny woman so it is very traumatic to see herself gaining weight. this is not her normal self.
Not only that, but the belly in subsequent pregnancies tend to become bigger than before because the skin is already stretched out. I’m 24 weeks currently and I look like I could pass for 31 weeks. But yeah, that’s all you could do is do your best to be positive. I just wanted to shout out that you’re beautiful!
depression is never easy. but you gave yourself some great advice in the end. “its okay to not be okay” everyday is different and those feelings wont always be there. just remember you are still there even if you cant feel it, know it. the demons in your head are just a little louder than you somedays. this is just temporary. sending love your way! 💚
I love how even when she’s like at her lowest and exposing herself to us, being so vulnerable…she’s still concerned for others. You are truly amazing Colleen ❤️
I agree ❤️ bless her soul
You've got this girl!!! One minute at a time.
This is the last time Colleen! Remember that! Time never stops and every day that passes you're a day closer to see your babies, a day closer to stop feeling depressed, a day closer to feel like yourself again, a day closer to see Flynn become a big brother. Every inch that your body grows the closer you get to the end of this pregnancy. You got this!
Well said 👍🏻
I hope she see this, really great way to put it ❤️
i love how safe she feels sharing her feelings w us. always want her to feel that way. love you colleen 🤍
Your doing great, it's the overload of hormones. You will feel like yourself again. You also look amazing ! Depression sucks .when you get to hold your babies all these feelings will disappear
those are really empty promises for people struggling with existing depression with pregnancy. Depression is an ongoing struggle. None of it disappears. You have to cope.
Also that’s extremely invalidating to say it’s hormones alone.
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@@caffienevaccine coleen said in the video it all went away when she gave birth so chill out. Of course that isnt the case for everyone but this person was obviously speaking to colleen
She looks exactly like herself but she sees something else..
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I know 😔 bless her soul ❤️
Ugh Colleen you look better than before! You’ve always been absolutely beautiful, but your skin looks so much more plump & healthy and your hair is thriving! You’re literally glowing! I would give anything to be at your weight, even while pregnant! You are so absolutely gorgeous. I’m so sorry you feel that way. We love you! ❤️
I looked like that at 15 weeks with all 3 pregnancies BUT didn’t have twins! People ALWAYS asked me if I was though!! I was small & all my babies were gigantic! lol
Same. I was pregnant during covid and hadn’t seen my neighbor in months. I was outside and he was like when are you due?? And I said October! It was like July. And he looked at me like ohhh wow 🤦🏻♀️.
Same!! My daughter was 10lbs 3oz!!! Holy moly 😳
I love when you talk about the ups AND the downs of your pregnancy. Vent to us. We love you! ❤️
Colleen is so freaking strong, she can post her feelings on something as toxic as the internet to us. She's getting through it and although I can't relate to her through her pregnancy, I can just be with her like she's my friend when I'm not actually with her and she doesn't even know me. You might look different, but you're still Colleen inside! And you might look different, but you're still beautiful and so strong. There could also be so many times that Colleen videotaped herself just crying and didn't show us, so if you're reading this and you did, Colleen, I'm sorry you had to go through those times, but we are here for you.
Nobody read this but if you did, you're strong and amazing and thank you for taking the time to read me ranting about how strong Colleen is. You are too! 💜💜💜
It’s gotta be hard to feel like you’re not yourself. Especially when you’re used to being a certain size consistently. When I see you you remind me of Colleen from 10 years ago in the face. You are beautiful and a strong woman and you will get through this. The industry you’re in is hard on looks but you’re a beautiful pregnant woman.
As someone with a chronic illness that makes my weight fluctuate often, I can relate to the issues of body image rapidly changing. Its hard to see pictures and videos of yourself and not recognize yourself, and know that the reason is out of your control. I empathize with you so much, and am sending much love!
“I just feel like a shell of a human in a body I don’t know” I have felt this and it gave me a panic attack and I didn’t know how to word it so thank you ❤️
Me being Transgender
@@paultmlnsn oh damn. Now you got me wondering if that’s why I’m feeling like this
@@bri2146 You can look into it more
@@paultmlnsn bet. How have you been treated since transitioning
@@bri2146 I sadly haven't transitioned yet.
I love how Colleen asked the twins “are you okay” when she tasted the bad boba
ikr hahahaha
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if anyone is wondering when that was the time stamp is 4:16 well the exact time was 4:18
@@Victoria-_- thanks I forgot to do that
My daughter was my 9th ivf and now she's terminally ill. I think it's important to honor how you feel. It's just so interesting to me that how you look is so important to you right now to the point that you don't feel like you. You're a wonderful person; that is your identity; not your skinny body.
I am very sorry
My mom had a horrible pregnancy with me just like this. She said the second I came out it was like a fog lifted and she was herself again❤️ I’m 13 weeks pregnant and having a tough time with depression but watching you everyday helps me get through it. We got this.
You're feelings are 100% valid. You got this girl. You're a rockstar.
“TAKE A BREAK… and get away. We can go upstate!” Sorry Hamilton said it best. ☺️ hope this makes you feel better ❤️🩹 we will understand. Please your mental health is way more important.
Girl, if you need to take a break from filming, you do that. I know I can’t speak for everyone but I just want you to be healthy and happy and if you need to take a break for that to happen then that’s great!
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Yes! She can take a break whenever she wants. I just want her to be safe, happy, and healthy. ❤️
@cool vibes it looks great but please stop sending this it’s great and all but your being a bit needy
Exactly!!
I just love how honest she is an how she really speaks on the struggles new mom go threw
I personally love tortilla talks with Colleen. No matter what you're talking about. You're doing an amazing job at absolutely everything. Do what you need to do to feel better. We love you!!! ❤️❤️❤️
"Who looks like this at 15 wks"
SOMEONE WHO IS PREGNANT WITH TWINS
AND her second pregnancy! 100% normal to look like that right now! and every pregnancy is different.
Lmao right! Girl you do know your having TWO babies of course your going to be bigger. Your not going to be a 00 8 months pregnant 😂😂
I just googled it and the size is very similar!!! Did she forget to put TWINS???? WE LOVE you girl, there are TWO beautiful human beings in there!!!
Thank you!!!
I just want to say youre feelings are valid.
Omg. This made me cry. I feel exactly the same, pregnant with my second boy. I do not feel like myself and my confidence i had prior is mostly gone. It’s hard, but hang in there mama! We’ll be okay soon.
When you’re 7 months pregnant, you’ll continue to look like a warrior princess, beautiful and radiating the incredible pregnancy glow 🌟✨🌟
Hi:)if you wanna try a boba drink without caffeine, i recommend “Brown sugar boba milk” ,i think it is what it’s called. It is one of the most popular boba drink in Hong Kong. It is technically just brown sugar with milk and boba. Idk if it is your cup of tea but i really like it.
Nice pun
I’m so sorry you’re hurting like this. It is so difficult to be pregnant. I know you are fighting every day. You are doing so wonderful.
Aw, Colleen. My heart breaks for you. I felt exactly the same, durning both my pregnancies. I literally felt like my soul re-entered my body once I gave birth. It's so hard, just know you are doing a great job and it's ok to be upset. Xxx
Also,I noticed she went to the doctor and DID NOT say “We still don’t know the sex of the babies”! I’m waiting to see JoJo in an upcoming thumbnail!!!😍😍😍
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she also posted on her tiktok that we’re gonna know the sexes soon 👏👏
@@elliehamilton3816 Omg did she?? Thank you!! I’m headed to TikTok!!❤️❤️❤️
@@StillJustDenise yeah! it’s in her description on her newest one!
I went through this as well. Its hard, you have 2 in there so can be harder. Your feelings are totally valid.
I don’t know if this would help you at all, but during my anxiety flare ups this quote always helps remind me that it is temporary. “You are the sky, everything else is the weather.”
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I know you can’t help the way you feel, so I’m not here to tell you not to feel that way. I’m here to just say thank you for sharing your world and your perspective with us- the ups and the downs. Your videos are very comforting. ❤️
That person looking back in the mirror, YOU don’t think you know…is a mother a mother of one soon to be three. I wish you could see what we see. A very lucky and beautiful person making a family. You have to look in the mirror and see you, see the great mom you are. The wonderful beautiful Colleen. It’s still you, it will always be you. No matter how big your tummy gets or how you think you look. You look like a pregnant mom, getting ready to birth twins. I understand it’s easy for us to say but girl you need to get it together take that deep breath, realize it’s still you and enjoy you pregnancy…you look exactly the same…just pregnant…with TWINS. Please embrace the moment, the changes and accept the fact that you are a mother building your family. Get a handle on your thoughts slow your mind down and take in all the miracles you’ve been bestowed upon..
I love how Colleen is talking about her feelings and saying how she feels and still saying disclaimers about what she is saying so that she doesn’t hurt other peoples feelings!!!❤️❤️ I love watching her vids!!!! U got this pregnancy!!!!
Ikr she is so considerate to others, even when she’s struggling ❤️
Your feelings are completely valid, change is scary especially at such a fast pace. We are here to listen through 💕
You’re feelings are valid and real and I get what you are feeling. I had twins and my stomach expanded sooooo quickly. The horrible symptoms I had got even worse and faster and stronger. You are not alone, Colleen. I wish I could hug you. I know how it feels being a multiple mom. And it is such a relief when meeting other multiple moms in person and relate to our feelings. You are halfway there, Colleen. ❤️
I know this is probably inappropriate to say in the serious matter, but when you showed the comparison of the two pregnancies, I fell so in love with the fringe all over again. Probably the wrong timing, but I had to say it, I'm actually obsessed with the fridge, it makes you look so young and gives your hair so much life, it's so gorgeous!
“I’m gunna working a bit” -Flynn🥺🥺❤️❤️❤️
he’s so precioussss
can we talk about how CUTE Flynn was when he put his hand on his little hip in the beginning?!? 💗💗💗💗
You ARE amazing!! You ARE raw and beautiful and vulnerable and millions of people LOVE you and are pulling for a quick and healthy pregnancy and delivery! We are ALL here for you! Keep talking to us and venting and helping grow those AMAZING babies! WE LOVE YOU!🤍❤️🤍❤️🤍
HAHAHAHA WHEN SHE TASTED THE BLUE BOBA AND SAID “ARE YOU GUYS OKAY??” TO THE TWINS AHAHAHAH
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Being pregnant is hard…I totally understand how you feel being a shell of yourself. I had the same feeling my past pregnancy and it sucks, it’s so draining. You’re a rockstar momma. Those twins are lucky to have you. Sending prayers for some peace of mind for you and health for those babes as you continue to grow them. You are strong and you are validated!
“Who looks like this at 15 weeks” a second time mama pregnant with twins. You’re rocking it mama, take care of you ❤️ (but it is so weird! My tummy didn’t look like the D belly it was a B belly and I hated it, I just looked like I’d gained 50lbs and not pregnant. I’m glad my baby’s here and healthy and my tummy went back to ‘normal’ almost.)
I do understand Colleen anxiety, as a small person myself, I felt like my kids were going to burst out of me! I always said what if I had twins 😳 like how would my body cope so I understand why she’s anxious how will her small frame and skin and general organs etc find the space for the babies etc! As for the body dismorphia , I only have to put on a couple of lbs and I’m all over the place. I think the best thing we can do is respect her way of dealing with this, she is talking and sharing, that’s great and helpful for others, then looking for positive distraction and accepting the things she doesn’t like about herself, like that she thinks she’s eating too much.
Then it’s simply a case of support and love. We all want the best for her and she’s working hard x
I honestly love how honest Colleen always is with her pregnancies it's really refreshing 💜