Is it just me, or did anyone get weepy seeing Erik hugging Colleen when she was talking about the twin pregnancy? That is so sweet and I am grateful you two have each other
The way Erik said “is that okay?” and Colleen said “yeah of course that’s okay!” just warmed me in a way I can’t explain. Validation and acknowledgement is so important.
I really wish Colleen would lean in and start a video series or podcast interviewing other parents and pregnant people about their experiences, she clearly loves it
Amazing to hear someone with a "stable" life (thriving career, house, supportive partner and extended family) talk about the fears of pregnancy and having children in a real way. I wondered if I felt that way because my first pregnancy was unplanned and aspects of my life were not as stable yet so it's nice to be reminded that a lot of us feel that way no matter what because it's a massive life change that's as terrifying as it is wonderful (or MORE like Erik said and good for him for saying it!).
I always wanted a love like they have. Her vlogs helped me to leave a toxic relationship/living situation. Now I'm so thankful to be with someone who treats me like Erik treats her. I'm so thankful. Colleen's vids have helped me through that and were always there for the highs and the lows. I appreciate you, Colleen. Thank you for your content.
Having Maisy interrupt you with her amazing light and giggles brought me so much happiness, Finding out there was a girl, the pregnancy, the arrival, praying every day little lady bug comes home, now we are a year in and she’s everything. All of that emotion and build up to this moment 💗 Amazing Maisy! Love you guys.
Thank you Colleen for being so open, honest and excited to talk about pregnancy. I'm just teetering on starting my pregnancy journey and I feel really supported by your channel and followers. Like talking about pregnancy thoughts, fears, experiences normalizes this process for those just getting ready.
OMG- Maisy and her being so vocal and loving the camera! As for Restaurants- I would take my daughter when Restaurants were less crowded to get them more used to it.. and bring lots of toys and activities they only use at a restaurant. It will (hopefully) get easier. Also,bring help if you can. You’re an amazing Mom!
Hi Colleen! I wanted to say that whenever I got pregnant, I started watching your videos and to my shock we both were due on December 27th! It was beyond cool that we were literally on the same timeline together. However my girl was born December 16th just a few weeks after your babies. It also helped me considering I was quite nervous as well so it was much relatable. So glad I only had one baby though. I couldn’t imagine having twins. You’re literally wonder woman carrying your twins! 🥰
Colleen, I am in no way judging your parenting, but I grew up with an anxious mom and that made me very anxious. Kids look to their parents to read a situation. Even if the twins screamed and cried in a restaurant, all of you would be alright. Even if you thought people were judging you, or heck, even if they were judging you... you would all survive. Breathe through these things, you don't want to transfer that anxiety to the babies. I know, and you know, anxiety is exhausting, you don't want them to have to deal with that feeling all the time when things are literally fine. I'm not faulting you for being anxious, but for the kids sake you need to work on emotional regulation.
Your mom's reaction to finding out you were having twins, as well as her reactions during the gender reveal, was by far my favorite reactions of anyone, ever!!
TORTILLA TALK QUESTIONS: does Flynn understand the concept of school and is it something you have explained to him? Is he into/understand any sports? Also are u making little journals or memories albulm a for him and the twins like you have? And when did you first get diagnosed with ADHD did you have symptoms you were aware of? What differences do you see when taking your medication? -If you see this I just wanna say I LOVE your channel SM and it is something I look forward to watching everyday after school and I’ve been watching you since Flynn was born and I can’t believe time has gone by this fast. Maisy and Wesley remind me a lot of me and my twin brother when we were little. They are growing up in such a great environment and you guys are such great parents and I aspire to be like you when I grow up :)
I had so many of the same feelings while pregnant and never felt like I could tell anyone. I'm so glad you're normalizing talking about these things and telling the next generation of moms and dads that they're not alone if they have these feelings. I was really ashamed and it feels so amazing to hear I wasn't alone in feeling scared and a bit trapped and panicky at times. ❤❤
My twins are 18 and I still can’t believe I have twins some days lol . I actually had surgery thinking I was having an ectopic pregnancy then 2 weeks later I was told I was having twins! Definitely a wave of emotions!❤ also I felt allll the same emotions as you, it’s so much fear and excitement at the same time.
I love how caring you are Colleen! ❤️❤️When you were talking at the start of the video and maisy was talking over you and almost interrupting and you were just happy. I know a lot of people who would just get cranky that they were being interrupted, even by their own babies. It shows me how patient and kind you are❤️
Colleen first of all I wanted to say thank you for sharing your stories with us & how you found out you were having twins! I think you are wonderful mom & seeing how they bring so much joy to yours & Erik's lives honestly makes my heart so full🥰 love you all so much
Tortilla talk question: Can you please talk about your journey to motherhood? How you prepared to have babies like what you did to prepare for pregnancy, what kind of thought you put into what kind of a mother you wanted to be, what you looked for in the father of your potential children etc. I'm trying to conceive currently and start my motherhood journey, and it has not been an easy process and has been met with a lot of disappointments. Would love to hear from you! I look up to you so much and aspire to be the kind of mother you are one day! 🥰
Thank you so much for taking about being terrified in pregnancy. I’m now in my third trimester and it feel like time is flying by now and I’m so not prepared at all. Up til recently I haven’t really put much thought into me being pregnant and now all the thoughts and anxiety is hitting me all at once because I can’t keep pushing those thoughts out because the time is getting so close to have an actually tiny human being in my home soon. I feel so scared and overwhelmed now. The idea of birth is terrifying. It’s all hitting me at once now.
That video of you telling your mom that you were having twins is the sweetest and most precious thing! I love it so much and you can see the genuine joy and relief on your sweet mamma’s face. That is just so sweet! ❤️
I wish i get half as lucky as you with my family. Watching yours and Erik’s relationship fills me with absolute awe, he loves you so much and you love him unconditionally. It’s truly a beautiful thing to witness. As a nanny I’ve seen so many kids but your three are so unique and just filled with light and. That says so much about how you’re raising them. Maisy Jo is going to have her big brothers supporting and protecting her always, and the boys are going to be the kind of boys that know how to treat the world with kindness. They’re all going to grow into such beautiful supportive, warm, loving, kind, gentle gorgeous people and I am privileged to be able to join you on this journey for as long as I am able. Much love from Manchester England
Erik, OMG you’re GENUINELY so close to perfect!!! Gus knows🤣 I want someone in my life who is half the person you are💕 I’m so glad Colleen had you because she truly deserves it!!! Colleen, you deserve the best, wether you know it, or not!! Your experience is terrifying, and I’m so glad yours was successful!!!!!💕💕💕💕💕
Yay early vlog release! All your kiddos are adorable but the older Maisy Jo gets the more I think about how beautiful she is going to be when she grows up! ❤
Maisy is just sooo adorable in the beginning of this video! 😍 Of course all your liltles are adorable. I love that you share your life with all of us! 💜
Colleen on your new years vlog I commented saying I’m praying I get pregnant this year ♥️ now I’m 8 weeks pregnant 🤰 your stories definitely comfort me. I tell myself I got this just by hearing your advice ♥️ love you and your sweet family.
I had someone very close to me pregnant with twins lose one, and then less than a year later found out that she was pregnant again. She now has two beautiful healthy babies and it wasn't until she got out the second crib that she had bought for that first twin that she lost that she realized "This was my baby. They just weren't ready to be earthside yet." I just always think about that when you bring up your lost angel and then getting pregnant with twins. Those babies were always meant to be yours. It could've been that one of them just wasn't ready to make an appearance yet. I'm not a mom yet so I hope I'm not offending anyone. All the love in my heart for anyone struggling through a difficult time, just hoping to shed some hope and some light 💜.
That chat at the end was so great to hear. It's like you are finally far enough away from the trauma of your pregnancies that you can see the whole picture. If you ever make a summary video on pregnancy topics this clip should definitely make it in. Also, Eric is so cute hugging you in this clip!
Totally relate to the fear. I had a long journey to try to get pregnant and of course also wanted my baby very much, but I was also terrified. The idea of caring for a baby itself is scary, and the fear is still there now two months into motherhood along with the joy😅
Bit of a serious tortilla talk question: if Flynn and/or one of the twins later on in life asked you to delete all the videos of them as kids because they were embarrassed of them or were having trouble finding jobs because people knew who they were etc , all the downsides of family vlogging, would you delete the videos? Love you! ❤️
Tortilla talk question: teen vogue recently posted an article about children of influencers and their consent to be online. Just wondering what your thoughts on the topic and how you approach raising children online?
Colleen, thank you for talking about being scared while pregnant. My husband and I are planning on trying to start soon, and I am so petrified and I don't think I can do it. I know once the baby is around, I'll feel better, but the idea of sharing my body for nearly a year (plus BF, etc) just scares the poop out of me. Thank you for letting us all know we're not alone
I cannot thank you enough for this video. I’m 28 weeks with boy girl twins and as time goes on the fear is really setting in. Watching you survive and thrive in twin parenthood has been one of my only comforts.
Thank you so much Colleen for talking about your experience while being pregnant. I am currently 18 weeks pregnant, and of course I am super excited and happy but I am also so scared! So thank you for making me feel better, and more normal! Ilysm!❣️
Hey Colleen I just wanted to thank you for your podcast. I have mild anxiety and your podcast helps me fall asleep. Thank you so much and love you girlie.❤
Colleen! I was pregnant with my first the same time you were pregnant with Flynn. My little boy was born November 17th just before you had Flynn! I had horrible pregnancies my pregnancy sickness didn’t go away till I was no longer pregnant with both of my babies. And it was so nice to see someone having the same struggles that I had. My second was born a month early and i so sympathized with your nicu journey! You are so strong and amazing! Raising babies is so hard and you are kicking ass! It is so incredible to hear someone having the same excitement and also fear. Especially going into a second pregnancy when you know how your body responds to it. It is such a hard decision to make.
I just had my twins in December and I don’t think you understand how much I completely relate to this! We had 4 miscarriages trying to get pregnant with them and as soon as I found out it was twins my already bad anxiety just skyrocketed. I thought for sure I was going to lose them or something horrible was going to happen the entire pregnancy. I thought for sure there was no way this was going to work out when I had so many losses. I didn’t have anyone that i knew that went through multiple losses or infertility and I definitely didn’t have anyone that went through a twin pregnancy. I remember watching your miscarriage story and it definitely helped me not feel so alone. Then you got pregnant with the twins and it gave me hope. I followed through your entire pregnancy. I had no idea that I would eventually be sitting here with healthy twins of my own. So thank you so so much for sharing your journey. You definitely make a difference. ❤
Hi Colleen! I love you so much and your journey is an inspiration. I'm currently writing a novel where my main character is pregnant with twins. This video helped to give me some reassurance that what I've written so far is not far-fetched or out of the ordinary. Thank you so much for sharing with us! -Taylor
Loved how open you have been about your pregnancies 💕 My cousin and his wife just lost their twin baby girls a few weeks ago and our family is still in the process of grieving, I always said from the day the told us they were pregnant with twins that I didn’t believe it until i saw the babies. Fast forward to them being 5 months pregnant, she got early preeclampsia and started seizing which lead to soo many complications which prompted drs to tell my cousin he has to choose between his wife or the babies and them having a 7 year d daughter already he obviously chose his wife in such a difficult moment. They also had a miscarriage right before the found out about the twin pregnancy. They are all doing okay now as okay as can be but i do want to thank you for always being so open and vulnerable about life and being a mom. Soo thank you🙏🏼💕
I'm 16 weeks pregnant with my first and everyday I still have that scared feeling of can my body handle this can I mentally handle this but here I am doing it and so excited. I have had a lot of similar symptoms to colleens (including the harder ones) and my test lines went dark within seconds so I really thought twins too but there's just one. Hearing her talk about her feelings of pregnancy and eventually get through hard times and now seeing these amazing kids is what really keeps my strength in my own pregnancy.
I love so much how you just talked through Maisy babbling at the camera while you were trying to have a serious conversation! 😂 I know for a lot of people it would be really hard for them to focus through all that but as a person from a big family where there are always tons of kids and babies talking I really felt like I was talking to one of my good friend or sisters while our kids just acted a fool 😂 Thank you for always keeping it so real! 💗
A true testament of how wonderful it is watching and listening to you talk about pregnancy and your daily life with young children is me, a childless woman by choice, never wanting to miss your vlogs and podcast. A person expressing their passions is a fabulous gift to humanity! ❤
I had a verrrry dark line on a positive pregnancy test at only 9DPO (days past ovulation, I was tracking ovulation) and only ended up being pregnant with one healthy baby - so dark positive lines don't always mean twins, just an fyi for other moms who might be scared of that possibility! Much love to you Colleen and all your adorable kiddos!
If you've experienced a loss, you realize just how fragile those first few months can be. It's terrifying. All you want is a healthy baby, but! You KNOW that feeling of loss. It's so damnhard to put into words. The love you instantly feel. The terror that runs hand in hand with it.
I’m currently 29 weeks pregnant with my first baby and the closer it gets to my due date the more scared I get. I cry all the time just because im terrified of giving birth. Thank you so much for posting this ❤
I was so scared too, but the doctors and nurses will make sure they take care of you and baby. ❤ I was so worried about giving birth I forgot to worry about the parenting part 😅 After the birth, I was like oh shoot now time to learn how to parent 😂 You got this!
Thank you for sharing about your pregnancy. I’m currently pregnant with our first and there are days where I get so terrified not knowing what’s gonna happen and what’s gonna change. Would love to hear more about your pregnancies? 🙏🏽☺️
I'm due next month, first pregnancy, and I'm settling into a "oh crap I'm terrified" zone. Like, pregnancy itself has been scary in various ways, but realizing that she's going to be out and about in the world soon and all that that comes with is terrifying me right now! (And she is a very wanted and planned for baby, btw)
Hi Colleen!! I also get anxiety taking my baby to restaurants and am worried that they will cry and disrupt the people around us. Something that has helped ease the stress with going out is packing a snack or something for my baby to chew on that I know they will like. Just in case they don’t want whatever we are eating and it also helps distract them and buy us some time to eat!
TTQ: when casting for haters back off were you involved in the decision making for who plays what character? If so what made Eric stand out from the other people who auditioned for Patrick? (Was it just destiny 😂) Not sure if you already answered this question before? Love from Canada 💗
As a currently pregnant person (with just one baby, first question i asked in my first scan was "there's just one, right?"), thank you for talking about the fear that comes along with this. i would say my primary reaction to all of this is fear and uncertainty that we did the right thing. We talked about and planned for this pregnancy, but once those two lines showed up it was suddenly very real with no going back. Everyone else is just so excited for us, and I sometimes feel like I'm not responding properly for them.
TORTILLA TALK: I just want to say thank you so much for speaking up on the fears of being pregnant/having a baby. I had my son November 5th, 2021 (we almost gave birth on the same day!) and the fears during pregnancy and after giving birth were true strong feelings for me. The expectation of only being happy is just not realistic for all woman and it’s great to hear someone else understand that. I don’t know what I would do without my little boy of course! But thank you for normalizing a somewhat taboo topic when it comes to pregnancy 💛
I’m so glad you and Lauren are friends. Your stories are so similar baby wise… I commented a few times to tell you about her so you could ask advice since she was a few months ahead of you I am so glad you guys already knew each other. You both have the cutest families ❤
TTQ: Hey Colleen! Will you be adding more tour dates after Chicago? Will you be adding a stop in the Chicago suburbs like previous years?! *fingers crossed*
Your mom excited scream saying she’s moving in after finding out you’re having twins is something I’ll always remember!! My baby is now pregnant with her first and I feel the same way!! We’re coming to your show in May so you’ll see her baby belly at the meet n greet! Love you so much!! I’m so in love with you and your family!!
TTQ: Hi Colleen, Amman here in California, so at your shows you pick on people to come onstage -you picked on me, January 21, in Thousand Oaks during the “biggest fan” -,and my question is, how do you choose who you pick? It must be so hard out of the hundreds of people there, you choose one. Why did you pick me, or whoever else, out of all people? -Amman
Did you name the baby that you lost? I know you’ve shared that for your living children you don’t pick out the name until later on, but losses can be different. My 13 week loss we named, but my 5 week loss we didn’t. Thank you for always sharing your story, it gives me hope for the future 💕
TTQ: when you were little and dreamed of being a mom what did you imagine. Like any idea what your husband would look like, how many kids, what genders, what they looked like etc. because you always say your dream was to be a mom so im curious what you pictured for yourself❤️
I have medical conditions and with my last *unplanned* pregnancy, my whole family thought I was going to die. Had a horrible emergency C-section and baby was in the NICU. She's almost 5 now, doing great, and wouldn't trade her for the world. Thanks for reflecting and speaking on this. I know a lot of people relate.❤
Is it just me, or did anyone get weepy seeing Erik hugging Colleen when she was talking about the twin pregnancy? That is so sweet and I am grateful you two have each other
Same
Same, it was such a sweet moment
I squealed like a fan 😂
Not just you!
Same
Erik and Christopher going and getting guitars together is so sweet 🥺
Bromance
Maisey in the camera laughing and chatting it up just put a much needed smile on my face 😊
Maybe I’m hearing things but i swear she kept looking into the camera and was saying cute 🥰
@@EscapeReality94 I heard it too! 😂
When she was doing that, I was being reminded of Flynn
The way Erik said “is that okay?” and Colleen said “yeah of course that’s okay!” just warmed me in a way I can’t explain. Validation and acknowledgement is so important.
I really wish Colleen would lean in and start a video series or podcast interviewing other parents and pregnant people about their experiences, she clearly loves it
That would be so cool
There is SO MUCH that isn’t talked about with birth/what to truly expect or be prepared for. This sort of series would be so smart and helpful 🙌🏻
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This is a brilliant idea 👌👌👌
This is such a great idea 💡
I love how supportive, real, and loving Erik was in this
“Pregnant” in the title gives me a mini heart attack every time😭😭
SAMEEEEE
Makes me excited
Amazing to hear someone with a "stable" life (thriving career, house, supportive partner and extended family) talk about the fears of pregnancy and having children in a real way. I wondered if I felt that way because my first pregnancy was unplanned and aspects of my life were not as stable yet so it's nice to be reminded that a lot of us feel that way no matter what because it's a massive life change that's as terrifying as it is wonderful (or MORE like Erik said and good for him for saying it!).
Gwen yelling "COLLEEN BALLINGER!" Echos through my brain at random parts of my day 😂 idk why
OMGG sameeeee i'm so glad that i'm not alone
I love the part of the video when she laughs points to erik and says, “erik i love you!” Makes me weep!! 😭🥰
@@meganmartin_omg yes!!! I have actually started to say friends and families names in that manner because of him! 😂
Sameeee
@@meganmartin_ I cannot believe this lol I thought it was just me. We are a community. 🤗
I always wanted a love like they have. Her vlogs helped me to leave a toxic relationship/living situation. Now I'm so thankful to be with someone who treats me like Erik treats her. I'm so thankful. Colleen's vids have helped me through that and were always there for the highs and the lows. I appreciate you, Colleen. Thank you for your content.
Having Maisy interrupt you with her amazing light and giggles brought me so much happiness,
Finding out there was a girl, the pregnancy, the arrival, praying every day little lady bug comes home, now we are a year in and she’s everything. All of that emotion and build up to this moment 💗
Amazing Maisy!
Love you guys.
I love how affectionate and cuddly Eric is. Relationship goals! ❤❤
erik clinging to colleen like a baby koala is my favorite thing 🥺❤️🩹
Thank you Colleen for being so open, honest and excited to talk about pregnancy. I'm just teetering on starting my pregnancy journey and I feel really supported by your channel and followers. Like talking about pregnancy thoughts, fears, experiences normalizes this process for those just getting ready.
OMG- Maisy and her being so vocal and loving the camera!
As for Restaurants- I would take my daughter when Restaurants were less crowded to get them more used to it.. and bring lots of toys and activities they only use at a restaurant. It will (hopefully) get easier. Also,bring help if you can. You’re an amazing Mom!
Hi Colleen! I wanted to say that whenever I got pregnant, I started watching your videos and to my shock we both were due on December 27th! It was beyond cool that we were literally on the same timeline together. However my girl was born December 16th just a few weeks after your babies. It also helped me considering I was quite nervous as well so it was much relatable. So glad I only had one baby though. I couldn’t imagine having twins. You’re literally wonder woman carrying your twins! 🥰
Colleen, I am in no way judging your parenting, but I grew up with an anxious mom and that made me very anxious. Kids look to their parents to read a situation. Even if the twins screamed and cried in a restaurant, all of you would be alright. Even if you thought people were judging you, or heck, even if they were judging you... you would all survive. Breathe through these things, you don't want to transfer that anxiety to the babies. I know, and you know, anxiety is exhausting, you don't want them to have to deal with that feeling all the time when things are literally fine. I'm not faulting you for being anxious, but for the kids sake you need to work on emotional regulation.
Your mom's reaction to finding out you were having twins, as well as her reactions during the gender reveal, was by far my favorite reactions of anyone, ever!!
TORTILLA TALK QUESTIONS: does Flynn understand the concept of school and is it something you have explained to him? Is he into/understand any sports? Also are u making little journals or memories albulm a for him and the twins like you have? And when did you first get diagnosed with ADHD did you have symptoms you were aware of? What differences do you see when taking your medication?
-If you see this I just wanna say I LOVE your channel SM and it is something I look forward to watching everyday after school and I’ve been watching you since Flynn was born and I can’t believe time has gone by this fast. Maisy and Wesley remind me a lot of me and my twin brother when we were little. They are growing up in such a great environment and you guys are such great parents and I aspire to be like you when I grow up :)
Love Eric and Colleens' relationship it just warms my heart seeing Eric hugging Colleen from behind. God bless this loving family! ❤🙏
I had so many of the same feelings while pregnant and never felt like I could tell anyone. I'm so glad you're normalizing talking about these things and telling the next generation of moms and dads that they're not alone if they have these feelings. I was really ashamed and it feels so amazing to hear I wasn't alone in feeling scared and a bit trapped and panicky at times. ❤❤
My twins are 18 and I still can’t believe I have twins some days lol . I actually had surgery thinking I was having an ectopic pregnancy then 2 weeks later I was told I was having twins! Definitely a wave of emotions!❤ also I felt allll the same emotions as you, it’s so much fear and excitement at the same time.
I love how caring you are Colleen! ❤️❤️When you were talking at the start of the video and maisy was talking over you and almost interrupting and you were just happy. I know a lot of people who would just get cranky that they were being interrupted, even by their own babies. It shows me how patient and kind you are❤️
I love that Erik says “I don’t care if it’s okay, it’s how I felt”. ❤
Colleen first of all I wanted to say thank you for sharing your stories with us & how you found out you were having twins! I think you are wonderful mom & seeing how they bring so much joy to yours & Erik's lives honestly makes my heart so full🥰 love you all so much
I love to see Erik loving on her. It makes me so happy to see a couple so much in love!
Tortilla talk question: Can you please talk about your journey to motherhood? How you prepared to have babies like what you did to prepare for pregnancy, what kind of thought you put into what kind of a mother you wanted to be, what you looked for in the father of your potential children etc.
I'm trying to conceive currently and start my motherhood journey, and it has not been an easy process and has been met with a lot of disappointments.
Would love to hear from you! I look up to you so much and aspire to be the kind of mother you are one day! 🥰
15:16 Erik holding you is the sweetest moment. UGH WHERE IS MY SIGNIFICANT OTHER. I WANT LOVE TOO
She sounds just like Flynn when he was a baby! So adorable
Thank you so much for taking about being terrified in pregnancy. I’m now in my third trimester and it feel like time is flying by now and I’m so not prepared at all. Up til recently I haven’t really put much thought into me being pregnant and now all the thoughts and anxiety is hitting me all at once because I can’t keep pushing those thoughts out because the time is getting so close to have an actually tiny human being in my home soon. I feel so scared and overwhelmed now. The idea of birth is terrifying. It’s all hitting me at once now.
I loved how Maisy literally wouldn’t let her mama be sad! ❤
That video of you telling your mom that you were having twins is the sweetest and most precious thing! I love it so much and you can see the genuine joy and relief on your sweet mamma’s face. That is just so sweet! ❤️
Gwens reaction to the twin announcement lives rent free in my head.
I wish i get half as lucky as you with my family. Watching yours and Erik’s relationship fills me with absolute awe, he loves you so much and you love him unconditionally. It’s truly a beautiful thing to witness. As a nanny I’ve seen so many kids but your three are so unique and just filled with light and. That says so much about how you’re raising them. Maisy Jo is going to have her big brothers supporting and protecting her always, and the boys are going to be the kind of boys that know how to treat the world with kindness. They’re all going to grow into such beautiful supportive, warm, loving, kind, gentle gorgeous people and I am privileged to be able to join you on this journey for as long as I am able. Much love from Manchester England
It’s a testament to how amazing you and Eric are as parents to see just how happy and thriving your kids are ❤
Man, I got scared 😂😂 BTW I love how strong you are having 3 small kids. It is a lot. You give boss women power ❤
erik just sitting behind you and holding you is the type of love i need. i need to just sit and hold onto someone or be held like that
❤ That clip of your mom finding out about the twins is my favorite of all time, I cry tears of joy everytime ❤️
Combined with the gender reveal scavenger hunt, 😂 amazing. Lol love Gwen!
I love rachels reaction and slapping the ultrasound out of colleens hand while yelling stop it! 😂🥰
Watching Colleen’s moms reaction again had me crying all over again. I love the family relationship the Ballingers have 💛
Erik, OMG you’re GENUINELY so close to perfect!!! Gus knows🤣 I want someone in my life who is half the person you are💕 I’m so glad Colleen had you because she truly deserves it!!! Colleen, you deserve the best, wether you know it, or not!! Your experience is terrifying, and I’m so glad yours was successful!!!!!💕💕💕💕💕
I love when Erik peaked out from behind her and said, “it’s terrifying!” Lol
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Yay early vlog release! All your kiddos are adorable but the older Maisy Jo gets the more I think about how beautiful she is going to be when she grows up! ❤
Maisy is just sooo adorable in the beginning of this video! 😍 Of course all your liltles are adorable. I love that you share your life with all of us! 💜
Erik hugging Colleen is the sweetest thing ever. I strive to be like them one day.
Omg Maisy is absolutely adorable!! Her giggling just brings joy❤
Your mother is the best! I love her reaction ❤
Maisy interrupting all of that talk at the beginning of the video is HILARIOUS!
YES 😂❤
Colleen on your new years vlog I commented saying I’m praying I get pregnant this year ♥️ now I’m 8 weeks pregnant 🤰 your stories definitely comfort me. I tell myself I got this just by hearing your advice ♥️ love you and your sweet family.
I had someone very close to me pregnant with twins lose one, and then less than a year later found out that she was pregnant again. She now has two beautiful healthy babies and it wasn't until she got out the second crib that she had bought for that first twin that she lost that she realized "This was my baby. They just weren't ready to be earthside yet." I just always think about that when you bring up your lost angel and then getting pregnant with twins. Those babies were always meant to be yours. It could've been that one of them just wasn't ready to make an appearance yet. I'm not a mom yet so I hope I'm not offending anyone. All the love in my heart for anyone struggling through a difficult time, just hoping to shed some hope and some light 💜.
I feel the same way..
This made me tear up. Thank you for sharing
That chat at the end was so great to hear. It's like you are finally far enough away from the trauma of your pregnancies that you can see the whole picture. If you ever make a summary video on pregnancy topics this clip should definitely make it in. Also, Eric is so cute hugging you in this clip!
Totally relate to the fear. I had a long journey to try to get pregnant and of course also wanted my baby very much, but I was also terrified. The idea of caring for a baby itself is scary, and the fear is still there now two months into motherhood along with the joy😅
Bit of a serious tortilla talk question: if Flynn and/or one of the twins later on in life asked you to delete all the videos of them as kids because they were embarrassed of them or were having trouble finding jobs because people knew who they were etc , all the downsides of family vlogging, would you delete the videos? Love you! ❤️
Tortilla talk question: teen vogue recently posted an article about children of influencers and their consent to be online. Just wondering what your thoughts on the topic and how you approach raising children online?
Colleen, thank you for talking about being scared while pregnant. My husband and I are planning on trying to start soon, and I am so petrified and I don't think I can do it. I know once the baby is around, I'll feel better, but the idea of sharing my body for nearly a year (plus BF, etc) just scares the poop out of me. Thank you for letting us all know we're not alone
I cannot thank you enough for this video. I’m 28 weeks with boy girl twins and as time goes on the fear is really setting in. Watching you survive and thrive in twin parenthood has been one of my only comforts.
Wishing you a well pregnancy ❤
Thank you so much Colleen for talking about your experience while being pregnant. I am currently 18 weeks pregnant, and of course I am super excited and happy but I am also so scared! So thank you for making me feel better, and more normal! Ilysm!❣️
i always gets chills watching your mom reaction, she’s actually so sweet
Hey Colleen I just wanted to thank you for your podcast. I have mild anxiety and your podcast helps me fall asleep. Thank you so much and love you girlie.❤
Its so cute how Wesley is Colleens twin and Maisy and Flynn are Eriks
Colleen! I was pregnant with my first the same time you were pregnant with Flynn. My little boy was born November 17th just before you had Flynn! I had horrible pregnancies my pregnancy sickness didn’t go away till I was no longer pregnant with both of my babies. And it was so nice to see someone having the same struggles that I had. My second was born a month early and i so sympathized with your nicu journey! You are so strong and amazing! Raising babies is so hard and you are kicking ass! It is so incredible to hear someone having the same excitement and also fear. Especially going into a second pregnancy when you know how your body responds to it. It is such a hard decision to make.
I literally LOVE your mom. Her love for you and your entire family just radiates from her. I can just tell that she is such an amazing woman.
I just had my twins in December and I don’t think you understand how much I completely relate to this! We had 4 miscarriages trying to get pregnant with them and as soon as I found out it was twins my already bad anxiety just skyrocketed. I thought for sure I was going to lose them or something horrible was going to happen the entire pregnancy. I thought for sure there was no way this was going to work out when I had so many losses. I didn’t have anyone that i knew that went through multiple losses or infertility and I definitely didn’t have anyone that went through a twin pregnancy. I remember watching your miscarriage story and it definitely helped me not feel so alone. Then you got pregnant with the twins and it gave me hope. I followed through your entire pregnancy. I had no idea that I would eventually be sitting here with healthy twins of my own. So thank you so so much for sharing your journey. You definitely make a difference. ❤
Tortilla talk: you said you and Eric have different design styles, have you had trouble decorating your house?
Hi Colleen! I love you so much and your journey is an inspiration. I'm currently writing a novel where my main character is pregnant with twins. This video helped to give me some reassurance that what I've written so far is not far-fetched or out of the ordinary. Thank you so much for sharing with us! -Taylor
Loved how open you have been about your pregnancies 💕 My cousin and his wife just lost their twin baby girls a few weeks ago and our family is still in the process of grieving, I always said from the day the told us they were pregnant with twins that I didn’t believe it until i saw the babies. Fast forward to them being 5 months pregnant, she got early preeclampsia and started seizing which lead to soo many complications which prompted drs to tell my cousin he has to choose between his wife or the babies and them having a 7 year d daughter already he obviously chose his wife in such a difficult moment. They also had a miscarriage right before the found out about the twin pregnancy. They are all doing okay now as okay as can be but i do want to thank you for always being so open and vulnerable about life and being a mom. Soo thank you🙏🏼💕
I'm 16 weeks pregnant with my first and everyday I still have that scared feeling of can my body handle this can I mentally handle this but here I am doing it and so excited. I have had a lot of similar symptoms to colleens (including the harder ones) and my test lines went dark within seconds so I really thought twins too but there's just one. Hearing her talk about her feelings of pregnancy and eventually get through hard times and now seeing these amazing kids is what really keeps my strength in my own pregnancy.
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Its so cute how wesley is Colleens twin and Maisy and Flynn are Eriks
omgosh MAISY was SOOOOOOOOOO AMAZING in this video!!!!! she made me laugh so much!!!!🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰
i love the twins. they are so well behaved
I love so much how you just talked through Maisy babbling at the camera while you were trying to have a serious conversation! 😂 I know for a lot of people it would be really hard for them to focus through all that but as a person from a big family where there are always tons of kids and babies talking I really felt like I was talking to one of my good friend or sisters while our kids just acted a fool 😂 Thank you for always keeping it so real! 💗
A true testament of how wonderful it is watching and listening to you talk about pregnancy and your daily life with young children is me, a childless woman by choice, never wanting to miss your vlogs and podcast. A person expressing their passions is a fabulous gift to humanity! ❤
I had a verrrry dark line on a positive pregnancy test at only 9DPO (days past ovulation, I was tracking ovulation) and only ended up being pregnant with one healthy baby - so dark positive lines don't always mean twins, just an fyi for other moms who might be scared of that possibility! Much love to you Colleen and all your adorable kiddos!
When I found out about my baby, there wasn't any joy. There was only sheer terror. The joy, love, and wonder came after.
If you've experienced a loss, you realize just how fragile those first few months can be.
It's terrifying. All you want is a healthy baby, but! You KNOW that feeling of loss. It's so damnhard to put into words. The love you instantly feel. The terror that runs hand in hand with it.
I’m currently 29 weeks pregnant with my first baby and the closer it gets to my due date the more scared I get. I cry all the time just because im terrified of giving birth. Thank you so much for posting this ❤
I’m almost 35 weeks and I feel the same. Even though it’s my 3rd. Lol it’s been 8 years and I’m terrified.
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I was so scared too, but the doctors and nurses will make sure they take care of you and baby. ❤ I was so worried about giving birth I forgot to worry about the parenting part 😅 After the birth, I was like oh shoot now time to learn how to parent 😂 You got this!
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Wishing you a healthy and safe delivery! I was very scared too, but in the end everything was okay. ❤️
Thank you for sharing about your pregnancy. I’m currently pregnant with our first and there are days where I get so terrified not knowing what’s gonna happen and what’s gonna change. Would love to hear more about your pregnancies? 🙏🏽☺️
I'm due next month, first pregnancy, and I'm settling into a "oh crap I'm terrified" zone. Like, pregnancy itself has been scary in various ways, but realizing that she's going to be out and about in the world soon and all that that comes with is terrifying me right now! (And she is a very wanted and planned for baby, btw)
Hi Colleen!! I also get anxiety taking my baby to restaurants and am worried that they will cry and disrupt the people around us. Something that has helped ease the stress with going out is packing a snack or something for my baby to chew on that I know they will like. Just in case they don’t want whatever we are eating and it also helps distract them and buy us some time to eat!
TTQ: when casting for haters back off were you involved in the decision making for who plays what character? If so what made Eric stand out from the other people who auditioned for Patrick? (Was it just destiny 😂) Not sure if you already answered this question before? Love from Canada 💗
As a currently pregnant person (with just one baby, first question i asked in my first scan was "there's just one, right?"), thank you for talking about the fear that comes along with this. i would say my primary reaction to all of this is fear and uncertainty that we did the right thing. We talked about and planned for this pregnancy, but once those two lines showed up it was suddenly very real with no going back. Everyone else is just so excited for us, and I sometimes feel like I'm not responding properly for them.
TORTILLA TALK: I just want to say thank you so much for speaking up on the fears of being pregnant/having a baby. I had my son November 5th, 2021 (we almost gave birth on the same day!) and the fears during pregnancy and after giving birth were true strong feelings for me. The expectation of only being happy is just not realistic for all woman and it’s great to hear someone else understand that. I don’t know what I would do without my little boy of course! But thank you for normalizing a somewhat taboo topic when it comes to pregnancy 💛
I’m so glad you and Lauren are friends. Your stories are so similar baby wise… I commented a few times to tell you about her so you could ask advice since she was a few months ahead of you I am so glad you guys already knew each other. You both have the cutest families ❤
Love Maisy’s little voice while you’re talking in this video!!😂🙄❤️
I’m almost 7 weeks with our second and it can be so scary and wonderful then anxiety ridden. It’s a rollercoaster!
Happy St Patrick’s Dayyyy!!!!🍀🌈☀️You made the best leprechaun trap that I saw this year! It is so awesome!!! 🫶
aaah, I'm gonna go rewatch those videos now - I'm still sobbing happy tears for you every time. Such a happy ending ❤
TTQ: Hey Colleen! Will you be adding more tour dates after Chicago? Will you be adding a stop in the Chicago suburbs like previous years?! *fingers crossed*
I hope so!
TTQ: do you vlog on the weekends? i can’t tell bcs sometimes you do sometimes you don’t. ilysm and hope you have a great day!💗
Your mom excited scream saying she’s moving in after finding out you’re having twins is something I’ll always remember!! My baby is now pregnant with her first and I feel the same way!! We’re coming to your show in May so you’ll see her baby belly at the meet n greet! Love you so much!! I’m so in love with you and your family!!
So weird, yesterday I rewatched you tell your mom about the twins, love that moment 😅 when she says “I love you Erik” she’s amazing 🤩
TTQ: Hi Colleen, Amman here in California, so at your shows you pick on people to come onstage -you picked on me, January 21, in Thousand Oaks during the “biggest fan” -,and my question is, how do you choose who you pick? It must be so hard out of the hundreds of people there, you choose one. Why did you pick me, or whoever else, out of all people?
-Amman
your mom’s raw reaction is making me cry, she’s so sweet🥹
Did you name the baby that you lost? I know you’ve shared that for your living children you don’t pick out the name until later on, but losses can be different. My 13 week loss we named, but my 5 week loss we didn’t. Thank you for always sharing your story, it gives me hope for the future 💕
The joy in my heart when your sweet baby smiles and giggles into the camera! Soak it up... they grow way too fast!
It was lovely to see Erik hugging Colleen. 😊
i love how siblings as babies all look so a like. Wes and Mais both look just like little Flynn
I love how Colleen talks to the babies as if they can understand her properly.
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Watching your moms reaction to the news made me cry. So sweet ❤
TTQ: when you were little and dreamed of being a mom what did you imagine. Like any idea what your husband would look like, how many kids, what genders, what they looked like etc. because you always say your dream was to be a mom so im curious what you pictured for yourself❤️
I have medical conditions and with my last *unplanned* pregnancy, my whole family thought I was going to die. Had a horrible emergency C-section and baby was in the NICU. She's almost 5 now, doing great, and wouldn't trade her for the world. Thanks for reflecting and speaking on this. I know a lot of people relate.❤