Hey. I was a Fentanyl addict for 17 years. I went cold turkey, it was rough. . I’m clean now for seven years . I went through a family over dose. It’s hard. You have to forgive yourself and everyone your holding hurtful feelings. Let it go. Call dad and start your life over. Please don’t waste anymore time. I’ll be praying for you.
THIS is the type of person Mark should help, not like the person he freqently has on for hits & views. This guy is bright, intelligent, articulate, and still full of promise! 😊❤
You don’t think Mark interviewed him for hits and views? You are very selective in your outlook, and I worry about you. You can’t live through this dude.
Well see this is the difference inbetween a person who’s addicted to opioids, and say someone addicted to meth or something like a benzo. Opioids don’t screw ur brain and ur ability to think and speak clearly the way other drugs do
What a beautiful young man. I cried throughout his interview & as a mom, as a nurse, as someone who lost a love who just decided to check out .... l want to just hug him & give him some comfort. I pray he finds his way or that his dad finds him before it's too late. Bless you AJ .
Dude, you are handsome and young - this is already A LOT! Please don't throw your life away. Forget about the pride and shame, just go to your dad, let him help you and turn your life around. Your dad will get old and he will appreciate having a son around ALIVE. Everyone makes mistakes, but there are things that can be mended and there are things that are IRREVERSABLE.
What you wrote is probably the difference between going on risking life, and going to another treatment or ten, until he has enough of this total mess. Another advantage he has is music which is a very powerful tool to use, similar to bombs used for tunneling and other jobs, not killing civilians in Palestine.
As a former heroin addict, I can tell you that he's probably been hearing this every day since he first picked up a drug. It doesn't matter what ANYBODY says; especially not a stranger on the internet. We get clean whenever we wake up and DECIDE that we ACTUALLY wanna get clean. We spend the entire time *wanting* to get sober, sure. But there's a shift that HAS to happen within ourselves, and no matter external words will ever be the causality to that. It comes from inside of us and isn't prompted by words.
The handsome and young parts yes, but just beneath is a kind soul who had a crappy start but could definitely turn it around. Frigging Fenty man… an evil unto itself. Can’t (? ) Those “in charge” (?) stop the cartels or whoever from shipping the poison in? Idk. I imagine top PD, council, mayor, whoever, gets paid just enough, is that it?
AJ, please do whatever u have to do to get clean. Fentanyl/opiates are soooo dangerous. For me, what helped was getting far away from my using friends, rehab, sober living( Oxford house). It takes a while to learn how to :…….live sober, To find fun in everyday life, to face your own problems and be willing to see yourself clearly, Being brutally honest with yourself and be willing to do the hard things. But there are many of us who HAVE DONE THIS AND YOU CAN TOO! Reach out for help! You deserve to have a beautiful life!
20:37 read the letter, brother. You can never heal before you do and before you forgive yourself! I feel like her brother sent it to you for a reason and again you are stuck in your situation because you are holding so much guilt. Get better, you have suffered long enough!!! Good luck, I'm rooting for you!!!!
Hi AJ I have a 31 year old son that likes Fentanyl. He has been sober for just under a year. He is surrounded by sober people and I think that is key in staying sober. I hope you are able to detach from people that use....it helps. Thank you for your story.
Beautifully said! I have almost 10 years clean. Even the literature tells us that we must change people, places, and things. I think it's the hardest, most important part of recovery. Playmates, Playgrounds, and Playthings! I hope you and your family enjoy years & years of recovery.
When I deleted my drug dealers number, that's when I knew I was actually done. I didn't write.it down, I had never memorized it, and I never kept it in a different phone. It was hard, and I sat there with my finger over that button for such a long time but, eventually, I hit it and that changed everything for me. I had never done that before and it just felt really big. I've got 9 years this October 💪🏽
@@Stacey0909they also tell us that no matter where we go, who we're with, what we're doing,we will ways still be us. So we must fix those underlying issues that drive us to use in the first place, and that way, when we change everything, we can handle it and aren't again driven to use out of fear of said change
You have so much life ahead of you kid. This part of your life can be a story you tell people when you’re older. The key, in my opinion is to face all the shit you don’t want to face. It’s a hard process but I sure hope you turn things around. You’re worth it.
My nephew went to prison between the ages of 19-23 for drugs and illegal firearm possession. He's going to be 26 next month. He's sober. He's a wildfire firefighter. He works out every day. He has a girlfriend. If you would have asked me when he was 19 if he would be successful, I wouldn't have had a lot of faith. It's never too late to turn your life around. You deserve to be happy and healthy!!!
You are right thing's could change actually in an instant.i lost my beautiful mother from HIV/Aids & it was such a shock;I stood by her & made sure that she passed with dignity she was 41yrs old & I was 21...it was the hardest time in my life until the day that I lost my 18yr old Son who went out on for his Saturday morning ride on his bike & never came back home again,I had a knock on my door at 1pm & it was the police to tell me that my boy had an accident on his bike & I need to go & identify him & bring him back home,I have a heart that is in a million pieces full of grief with sadness but my daughter who is now 19yrs old that I adore & she keeps me going ❣️please tell your loved one's that 18:13 you love them people 0@@sherrilynnnelson703 Edit.Mate I had beautiful teeth also & I had to get all my teeth ripped out from gum 😮 your own!!!
This was so difficult to watch. Such a young man in so much pain. I hope he can get connect with his Dad and get some help to heal. Wishing you all the Best AJ. You deserve more from life.
He has to want it. Look at Rebecca Mark has to put so much time and money trying to help him, but he would rather live on skid row. I don’t understand sometimes either especially living in LA at a certain point how anyone could want to live in skid row it’s wild, but some love the street.
Maybe you missed the memo, but there's ample amounts of research concluding that attractive people do better in life. Generally, they often get better jobs and on average are higher paid, even easier for them to get hired at times. They tend to be more successful, they tend to be more socially liked, etc. It's a major advantage. There's nothing wrong with saying that the guys got an advantage over other people, so if anything it's almost a dig. So get off your virtual signaling and accept reality and wish the lad all the best and be grateful that he might have a bit of an advantage that might help him get his life together and get a leg up. Don't be so obtuse and ignorant.
Don’t give up. I understand what he is saying because these were the conversations we had with our son. He was also young, handsome, articulate and an addict. He didn’t survive addiction but this kid can. He has self awareness but that is only a first step. Wishing him strength and peace. Good luck on your recovery journey.
He has a good head on his shoulders. I think he’s going to be ok. AJ, sobriety is worth the work. You’re young and you have so much going for you - you’re well-spoken, introspective, you take responsibility, and you’re and attractive guy. I know you can get and stay clean. You can do this!
he has a good head on his shoulders? stealing drugs from dealers. Using since high school. Stealing instead of working? I think ppl are hung up on his looks. Maybe you're not. But a lot of these comments are unbelievable. So his GF commits suicide and his first thought of the craziest thing he's seen is someone trying to steal his skateboard. (I know he wasn't there when she did it) but such polar examples Entitled maybe? And now his teeth? but no worries he'll steal teeth meds. I'm going off in general not on you.
He doesn't articulate well... like, like , like like like...like....yaknow like....like? He may just naturally be kinda.... like dumb? It's NOT the drugs... it's HIM.
@@Insomniac-c7e yeah he used it many times for emphasis, then he used it in his own sentence, that word is in his own vocabulary, its as if hes pointing out another persons hands for being dirty while his have not been cleaned either.
Everyone saying how handsome, like that has anything to do with addiction or mental health. Look past the skin and understand that what is on the inside is the only thing that matters . People saying "he could model" 😂 yeah, like one of the most shallow, drug filled industries there is. This is a young man who has a good head on his shoulders, whom i hope wholeheartedly can overcome his situation. Time flies by, looks fade, but the spirit and the heart can still burn and fire you to a good and better life 🙏🏾💯
True but that's the way humans r for the most part, looks will get u farther than others who r not as attractive. Right or wrong, and it is wrong, but.....🤔😏
Stop with your righteousness, the young man bring the subject himself in the video (ffs he says himself ruining his looks is one of the thing that concerns him the most about his drug use). It's not superficial to think and say he could model. It's the other way around. This young man, AJ, is objectively very pretty according to western societies standards. He could it is true, model. As a society we treat people differently based on their attractiveness and that's from day one of a human life. Numerous studies have shown that even at daycare, caregivers give more attention, are more patient etc with the prettier babies. And so on and so forth. AJ's personality and life have been molded, in part, by the fact that he's pretty. So you can bring all the hippie mindfull BS you want about inner beauty, it is not true that you treat ugly people the same way you treat Non-ugly and beautiful people. Nobody does.
@@jenseb99 you sound angry, rude, and plain pathetic. What is "hippie" about saying his looks have nothing to do with addiction problems. For everyone with addiction or trauma, it starts with what happens to your mind and brain. You are hurt over someone saying it's not about looks ffs. Grow up and go and talk to any person with addiction or mental health problems, and they will never say, "It doesn't matter , at least I'm still pretty." Western standards??? What has the got to do with addiction and trauma , what has his looks got to do with his current situation, do you think his looks will save him ?....think before you speak because there are more people agreeing with me than there are you. Oh, and yes , he could model, what a great positive industry that is for people with mental health issues and addiction problems . Get your head out of your ass and deal with the real world. Society says many things, but that doesn't help with all of the current problems in the Western world does it . If people care about someone's looks being a care giver or teacher , I'd say there is a problem in of itself. Have a good one
You are so young AJ. I lost my brother at the age of 26 to drugs. Please get out. Ask for help. Surround yourself with people not using. I’m rooting and praying for you. 🙏
I am happy 4 u, you will enjoy life with yourself again and friends and hopefully your family ❤ Hope your body is ok after this long time using opiates?! I send you a big hug 🫂 from Europe 😊
This beautiful boy reminds me of my son. He was also a talented musician and had music on SoundCloud and was articulate, sensitive and loving. He overdosed at 23 in LA 2 years ago. He went to rehab 3 times. Every time his addiction got worse. He was never homeless, quite the opposite. Watching this makes me so sad that no one is hugging this boy and telling him he is lovable and worth fighting for. But more than anything AJ has to learn to love himself and believe his life is worthwhile. Community, family and faith are more powerful than any rehab. They are the true sponsors of our lives. I pray he finds his way before it's too late. Toxic supply is the true pandemic and there is no vaccine.
He too scared of being overwhelmed with emotions when facing realities. He is trapped inside being very harsh on himself, denying himself getting the love and support from his dad that he needs so much to deal with his anger, resentment, sorrow and not least, his dreams and hopes for the future. I hope AJ finds a way to let love and basic security into his life again. Please read the note from Grace ❤
Or maybe he doesn't want to quit yet. he's around 22. But i agree mostly with your comment. It's just might be another reason. Stealing and such a hardcore addict he also might not see the need to work. Again I like your comment but i can't believe so many people are like he's a good smart guy. When people who look different not necessarily race (but sometimes) but just look bad people tend to be vile. I'm just making an observation. And he's stealing drugs I'm assuming from a dealer 🙄. He might have been smart in high school but he's going downhill fast. I'm judging i know. I'm not even gonna deny it. Go to rehab! Soon! seems entitled to me
@@hydraflora1342 Maybe the truth is partly this, partly that - it’s complicated. It’s definitely possible to be entitled and suffer at the same time. I think one of AJ’s worst problems is his pride. He denies himself the help he needs and continues to ‘behave badly’ and come up with 100s excuses and apologies fuelling his self hate. A vicious circle. But I can’t see this circle end without him having some love as well as a much needed ‘cleansing the air’ with dad. Some self respect and boundaries too.
Aj youre still young and have decades ahead you 🙏🏾♥️ i pray for sobriety peace safety and prosperity for you ✨️ you can do it ok 🙏🏾 others have done it ♧ luv from new zealand 🌵
By the way, I purchased your incredible book! I plan on giving it to my husband for Christmas and I can't wait to give it to him! I’m so tempted to open the box it came in but I won’t! We both love your TH-cam channel and the people you’ve interviewed! Its a beautiful way to commemorate the human beings you've introduced the world to in addition to unveiling your true love of photography! Congratulations and wishing you continued success!🥰
My God kid, get your act together and get clean!!!! You are absolutely gorgeous, intelligent, articulate, and gentle. There are so many opportunities out there for you.
AJ! I PROMISE you that your whole life is ahead of you. At times, as addicts, we can “forget” how hard this is on our families, and parents; specifically. If and only IF and when you decide that you’re ready to end this absolute madness, call your dad, and ask for help. I would NOT be sober without the community of AA, so NA is always going to be there. While my family was mad at me during active addiction - I can’t tell you how magical and beautiful my relationships with my loved ones are NOW, & there is no one who is prouder than our loved ones for us!🫶🤍🫶 I’m praying for you ❤
There is no harm in commenting on a person's looks. I think a lot of times folks want to compliment someone on their looks but for some reason they do not. I would say in an appropriate manner is the key. I will keep this young man and many others in my prayers who deal with a horrible bad habit they desire to rid themselves of. Thanks again Mark for the work you do.
“Pride and Shame” you nailed Mark. Please take some wise advice here young man. Pride and shame are two absolute killers of the devil. I wish you luck!
I hate when folks say “he is handsome” or she is “pretty” please help him or her. What about everyone else? Why do pretty folks deserve help so much more?
I actually was thinking to myself reading the comments "what do his looks have to do with anything?" Everyone deserves help, regardless of what they look like
I love the lives you share. I’ve got 8 years sober from alcohol and IV drugs. Life is always an option no matter how far down the rabbit hole you have fallen. Never give up trying to give up until you’ve giving it up. Then chase life the way you chased the dope man, and do the work to keep it and one day at a time society happens.
Wow , he looks like my son Diego, I wish I could hug him and tell him how special he is and that he was created perfect and that he is enough and smart and compassionate and worthy of a good life and that he can totally heal himself and take control of his life , that he’s stronger than he thinks he is. Life is beautiful and is waiting for you to say ENOUGH, I have the power to create the life I deserve. YOU CAN DO THIS 💓
Dude, stop beating yourself up. We all fall short. Let yesteryear go, it's a roadblock to moving forward. One day you will heal and flourish. You are intelligent enough to do anything you want. ' sending you love and hope❤
Thanks for this. I'm in Portland & keep narcan on me. I'm teaching my priest how to use it cuz we had 2 ODs last week. One was during Sunday Mass. I was an opioid addict & am still on methadone 2 decades later. I hope those in active addiction can remember that we ARE praying for them fervently. In the rooms & out; in the pews & on our knees at home. Hope is only a prayer away.
Hello AJ, I am very sorry that you lacked the guidance you needed and deserved growing up. As a mother, it upsets me to hear that you were allowed to drink and party at such a young age with no consequences. As far as your Dad now, so many guests on this channel do not have any support, so if your father and/or sister are willing to be there for you right now, please consider that kind of emotional support. Any issues with Dad can be worked on after the intense part of rehab. Pull yourself together, sweetie. You can do it, you know you can. {{{Hugs from NH}}} ❤
Mark, you are an excellent interviewer, make him really think about his motivation to use, he had to reflect and maybe he grew a little, maybe you planted a seed, it’s really so, so sad, such a young man.
I was raised by a single mom: idgaf, grow up, give your kids boundaries. My father was murdered. It could have gone way differently for me…. But my mom pulled it together. He is so self aware. A very bright young man. I hope he gets the healing he deserves. Press in, friend. You can do it.
@@thiccletics I'm so sorry about your father that had to be rough. But I completely agree with you. Grow up! this kid needs a shower rehab and motivation. And i say shower so he can get a job faster.
My guy, you are GORGEOUS and intelligent and have so much potential. You deserve to live your best life regardless of your past choices. Wishing you luck on your life journey; I hope, when you’re ready, that it involves you focusing on music & recovery. ❤
Mark thank you for showing the human being behind addiction and other issues. AJ you are so smart and so self aware, I truly believe you have it in you to come out on top. From me a recovering addict with 7yrs & 9mnths clean, I am sending love and positive energy your way. You are in my thoughts.
Let your father help you AJ. We all need help sometime in life. We all need a support system. God bless, and watch over you as you try to find a new road to travel. You are so young and have much to look forward to.
Marks not filming Rebecca for hits & views.... I think he truly believes theres hope. I feel the same as you about this young guy .... "hopeful" & hope he gives his Father the opportunity to tell him his side of the story & hopefully they can develop a bond. I dont feel the same about the other character he interviews....I believe he's using Mark & it drives me crazy to watch how he treats Mark.😅 I also understand Mark cant help everyone on skid row & believe the people he does meet & interview, do get offered opportunities & payment to appear on the show 👍
AJ, you can do this!!! You have so much life ahead of you. You are smart and well spoken. I pray you get the help you need. You deserve a better life!!
It’s so hard to watch someone with so much potential just throw their life away…hopefully AJ reads all these comments and they give him the motivation he needs to get it together and make an amazing life for himself!
There’s a lot of mention about his outward beauty, which is very visible, but what I see is an incredibly smart, self-aware articulate man with a great understanding of his own suffering. I do hope that you find another path that leads you to a place of peace It’s obvious you didn’t get it as a child, but you are so very deserving of it as an adult going forward Sending you love and blessings ❤️
@@janetmcguffey1394Jesus what planet of non-empathetic aliens do you come from? Maybe read up on addiction and how complicated it is and you might better educate yourself. I have worked with addicts for years as a recovery coach and it's your attitude and shunning stigma that makes their journey to recovery 1000x harder.
AJ, I wish you the best and hope you get help before it's too late. My younger brother was a Fentanyl addict for years and hated living like that, but just couldn't or wouldn't stop. He ended up taking his life eleven years ago but it still seems like it isn't real. He and I were very close, so I know the feelings you are going through. Being his older sister, I feel so guilty that I didn't see the signs. I'm truly sorry for your loss. You have so much potential and I hope you get better real soon. I am pulling for you to make a complete recovery. Don't give up.
I’ve watched a lot of these video’s on Mark’s channel and AJ just has so much to live for, AJ if you read this, please choose life by getting sober because I will be the first one to buy your first CD man… you have a beautiful heart and I’d love to see you thrive & live your best life… ❤
Hi, I agree 💯. I skip every comment that mentions his way of speech or his looks. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder. Modeling could hurt him, and that profession is very shallow and destructive.
It is hard to watch this and not see the enormous potential. The looks, the intelligence, his strong presence, allure and beauty, and probably a very talented musician. I believe AJ can do this, he is still very present. You can do this :)
If you are a parent you shouldn’t be drinking or using drugs around your kids. it’s one thing to have a drink every now and then and puff a joint out of sight. Whatever. but to be bucking lines and popping pills etc? yeah no. you should want your kids to be able to confide in you like a friend. Fenty is fuct i dunno why ppl risk it
I am 30 as of last night or whatever and I’m 23 days clean at 7am. I didn’t go to Rehab. I don’t battle the idea of relapse. I gave myself goals and told myself that I am capable of them as long as I work for them everyday. I write, sing, rap, freestyle, study, read, learn every single day while maintaining my household. And was saved by my best friend in the whole world, who has housed me during my drug addiction and mental health issues and conditions. And I finally woke up from it after being on the cusp of death. You can do this AJ, and I was lucky to have an easy allowance of fortune and love, which isn’t accessible for anyone in these shoes, but for some reason I was given the chance to fight off my own death. Bless you. I would love to make some music with you one day, even if I just make you some beats once I attain the program and keyboard again that I forfeited to addiction. But that’ll be sooner than later. All I want in return is absolutely nothing. Making music is my nectar and has given my soul value and confidence that I can be a beautiful person eventually. You got this bud. You are loved. I’ll keep you in my prayers good homie!
Wow 🤩! What an amazing person who is so self aware.. After reading all these comments and how it is possible to get clean , but obviously you really have to want to!! If you can’t do it for your self, do it for Grace to prove to your self that Love ❤️ is all there is! I am waiting to hear your music 🎶!! I just want to hug you and never let you go!!! ❤💯🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈
Hey doude from someone that is clean 3 years now I can see myself in you and the mindset that comes with being an addict but I believe there is hope for you still!! You are young and still have time to have kids and a family and live a life without having to chase everyday! please don't give up!!
I have a 43 year old son who is a homeless drug addict. Last month he overdosed on cocaine laced with fentanyl. He came out of it but he just isn’t the same. He’s still doing drugs, and he’s been given so much help, so many 2nd chances, and he still chooses the homeless lifestyle and methamphetamines. Love hasn’t been enough, and patience hasn’t been enough, hands up hasn’t been enough. He’s addicted to not just meth, but the homeless lifestyle. He’s had 3 major head/brain injuries. I, of course, carry a huge major guilt with me every waking moment. Why? I don’t know, but I still feel guilty for some reason.
You are not guilty. You must set yourself free from this burden otherwise it will kill you. You have done your best to your abilities , at some point it's no more in your hands. Let him go!.
I have a homeless 27 yr old son who is a fentanyl addict. Getting involved with PAL (parents of addicted loved ones) has helped me so much. Please look online for a local group. You can get over the guilt and find joy in your life. I promise
My house was the party house, i was slightly older when i tried weed, my mum was mentally unwell, and so i literally got away with alot. My dad wasnt around either. This guy has many parallels to how my life went. Ultimately its our decision. The way a persons life pans out, upbtinging, peers, situations certainly can play a huge part in the choices they make. Your girlfriend taking her own life has to really affect a person, using will help with the pain, and numb his feelings. So sorry for your loss mate x
I wanna give this dude the biggest hug. My mama heart hurts having a boy myself and just imagining him hurting. The amount of grief he needs to tackle is so sad. The ex addict in me also makes me want hug him because getting sober is so so possible. He’s so handsome and he’s actually incredibly intelligent. With the right people, support system, and confidence and treatment he could live an amazing inspiring life. I truly hope that for him. I hope he can get in contact with his dad for a start. Healing sucks but you have to start somewhere. He has big dreams, he can accomplish that but unfortunately he needs to take the hurt/grief/resentment head on. It sucks! But he has a lot of potential, he is not too far gone. I truly deep in my soul wish this young man the best. 🙏
Hey man you can still turn your life around ! You are young and can be noble and bold - it’s not too late for you! Take it one day at a time to recover and heal . If you have to break it up through an hour at a time / just do that ! I’ve been there - had to work on living one hour at a time !!! We are rooting for you .
Hope he doesn’t give up on getting sober he is so extremely well spoken and intelligent he could go so far. Aj if you are reading this don’t give up get sober build your life live your dream. Its possible!
Your desire to get clean is still so apparent and that’s a blessing. You can turn it all around one step at a time. From one addict and musician to another, start chasing your music like you do dope. Music soothes the soul, heals and eventually fill that cup. There is a beautiful life just waiting for you.
Such a lovely, intelligent and articulate person. I hope he finds a way out of his addiction. My nephew had a $500 day habit, and he's been sober of 5 years. I asked him once how he did it when so many fail, he said “I had a good people to come back to”.
I was thinking exactly the same things that you said about your girlfriend about you, you've got so much potential and seem to be an amazing person. I am sure many people who will watch this video will agree. You've just got to realize this and know that there are good people in this world - you already met one of them, Mark. I hope you get treatment, change your environment and find someone who will love you, that's what you deserve. Hope one day we will hear your music.
This young man knows there is a better life. He might not be yet ready, but he needs support. He is smart, articulate, and I pray for him. The more I listen to him, the more I feel he wants to change. He is thinking about it.
Dear A.J...please give yourself a chance at a better life. There is so much better out there for you if you choose it. Dont let shame stop you. Let your Dad help you, he clearly wants to. You're insightful, articulate and smart. Just because you had no guidance growing up doesnt mean that you can't have a wonderful future. Let people help you. Give therapy a chance ❤
You're a brave man, AJ, to be so honest and to let yourself be seen. I can see heart, hope and goodness in you. I hope you can get to a place to see that and live that for yourself as well. Best to you.
Such a clearly sensitive, articulate & gentle young man. You’ve had so much trauma from an early age. This is why you’re in such pain. Psychological & emotional pain. Please call or visit your father and seek his advice. Get off the streets, you’ll face death too often. See you’re sister. Love yourself. Know you can have a better time in life. ❤
Oh gosh what potential this guy has. Please try and get back into music and song writing because your soul will provide the inspiration and you can inspire us all.
AJ could be a model, he's such a good looking young man. I hope he mends his relationship with his dad and get's help with his addiction. I have seen 20 year old fentanyl addicts get clean, you can do it AJ. Your a good person, you have a good heart, it's okay, one day at a time, you have so much potential. God bless.
He’s very handsome and well spoken. My son just died of cancer and he tried so hard to keep surviving, so I kind of resent people who have everything going for them but choose to throw their lives away.
My sincere condolences to you. I totally understand how someone who is not caring about their lives upsets you , especially since your son cared so much about life and would have given anything to stay alive-as you would of done anything to make that possible too. Again, so very sorry for your loss. No mother should outlive their child.
Its so hard to understand people who are self destructing. Your son had a base of love. This young man did not. Hopefully that helps with understanding. Love and healing. ❤
It is Heartbreaking seeing such a Beautiful young man whom seems smart, self aware and Articulate on such a dark path heading fast to nowhere. I hope that someone who sees this video can reach out and help him. These videos and the Interviews have open my eyes and I see them in such a different light. It had been an amazing project. I will pray and never forget this young man.💕🐺
Hey. I was a Fentanyl addict for 17 years. I went cold turkey, it was rough. . I’m clean now for seven years . I went through a family over dose. It’s hard. You have to forgive yourself and everyone your holding hurtful feelings. Let it go. Call dad and start your life over. Please don’t waste anymore time. I’ll be praying for you.
Hell yeah! Congrats dude. That's hard. 17 years cold turkey?! How long were u laid up?
@ the withdrawal from the fentanyl was really bad . I still have withdrawals, but the main thing is that I’m clean . I pray a lot !!!
Congratulations to you , keep up the good work!
Mark you are incredible how you conduct an interview without ever interrupting....it allows them to be heard...we all just want to be heard
I agree. Sometimes the simplest thing to do is the hardest.
Who the fk are you?
Mark try your best!
THIS is the type of person Mark should help, not like the person he freqently has on for hits & views. This guy is bright, intelligent, articulate, and still full of promise! 😊❤
You don’t think Mark interviewed him for hits and views? You are very selective in your outlook, and I worry about you. You can’t live through this dude.
I think Mark should help him too right now. I think this guy will succeed.
They have to want help or it doesn't matter
Absolutely!!!
Well see this is the difference inbetween a person who’s addicted to opioids, and say someone addicted to meth or something like a benzo. Opioids don’t screw ur brain and ur ability to think and speak clearly the way other drugs do
AJ - Don’t give up Bro. Sometimes it takes a few trips to rehab before you can finally kick the habit. Keep going, you can do it! You are worth it!!
Well said. AJ, don’t give up. You are loved and you deserve a happy healthy life like the rest of us.
Very smart, sensitive and reflective guy. I hope he will accept all the help he needs.
One of the best (and saddest) interviews you’ve ever done.
AJ, read the note. Reach out to your dad. Contact your sister. Try rehab again. Take support.
You are loved.
What a beautiful young man. I cried throughout his interview & as a mom, as a nurse, as someone who lost a love who just decided to check out .... l want to just hug him & give him some comfort. I pray he finds his way or that his dad finds him before it's too late. Bless you AJ .
As a mom and as a nurse I understand, this young man is a nicer version of my own son
Dude, you are handsome and young - this is already A LOT! Please don't throw your life away. Forget about the pride and shame, just go to your dad, let him help you and turn your life around. Your dad will get old and he will appreciate having a son around ALIVE. Everyone makes mistakes, but there are things that can be mended and there are things that are IRREVERSABLE.
Well said i can tell your words came straight from the heart ❤️
What you wrote is probably the difference between going on risking life, and going to another treatment or ten, until he has enough of this total mess. Another advantage he has is music which is a very powerful tool to use, similar to bombs used for tunneling and other jobs, not killing civilians in Palestine.
As a former heroin addict, I can tell you that he's probably been hearing this every day since he first picked up a drug. It doesn't matter what ANYBODY says; especially not a stranger on the internet. We get clean whenever we wake up and DECIDE that we ACTUALLY wanna get clean.
We spend the entire time *wanting* to get sober, sure. But there's a shift that HAS to happen within ourselves, and no matter external words will ever be the causality to that. It comes from inside of us and isn't prompted by words.
The handsome and young parts yes, but just beneath is a kind soul who had a crappy start but could definitely turn it around. Frigging Fenty man… an evil unto itself.
Can’t (? ) Those “in charge” (?) stop the cartels or whoever from shipping the poison in? Idk. I imagine top PD, council, mayor, whoever, gets paid just enough, is that it?
You think beauty helps you in this society of narcissistic mediocrity? lol It's a curse, not a bonus.
AJ, please do whatever u have to do to get clean. Fentanyl/opiates are soooo dangerous. For me, what helped was getting far away from my using friends, rehab, sober living( Oxford house). It takes a while to learn how to :…….live sober, To find fun in everyday life, to face your own problems and be willing to see yourself clearly, Being brutally honest with yourself and be willing to do the hard things. But there are many of us who HAVE DONE THIS AND YOU CAN TOO! Reach out for help! You deserve to have a beautiful life!
❤
20:37 read the letter, brother. You can never heal before you do and before you forgive yourself! I feel like her brother sent it to you for a reason and again you are stuck in your situation because you are holding so much guilt. Get better, you have suffered long enough!!! Good luck, I'm rooting for you!!!!
I hope his dad physically comes to get him. Gets him clean, gets him the support, therapy, and medical care he needs to continue his life.
Hi AJ I have a 31 year old son that likes Fentanyl. He has been sober for just under a year. He is surrounded by sober people and I think that is key in staying sober. I hope you are able to detach from people that use....it helps. Thank you for your story.
Beautifully said!
I have almost 10 years clean. Even the literature tells us that we must change people, places, and things. I think it's the hardest, most important part of recovery.
Playmates, Playgrounds, and Playthings!
I hope you and your family enjoy years & years of recovery.
@@Stacey0909 💯
When I deleted my drug dealers number, that's when I knew I was actually done. I didn't write.it down, I had never memorized it, and I never kept it in a different phone. It was hard, and I sat there with my finger over that button for such a long time but, eventually, I hit it and that changed everything for me. I had never done that before and it just felt really big. I've got 9 years this October 💪🏽
@@Stacey0909they also tell us that no matter where we go, who we're with, what we're doing,we will ways still be us. So we must fix those underlying issues that drive us to use in the first place, and that way, when we change everything, we can handle it and aren't again driven to use out of fear of said change
@@lemonadelunacy3291 congratulations on 9 years, amazing work ❤
He is beautiful to look at and seems gentle too. I hope he finds the strength to reach out to his father and mend wounds.
Trauma is the real gateway drug .
Very well said 💗
Best comment in the thread.
Truth
Exactly!
Amen
You have so much life ahead of you kid. This part of your life can be a story you tell people when you’re older. The key, in my opinion is to face all the shit you don’t want to face. It’s a hard process but I sure hope you turn things around. You’re worth it.
My nephew went to prison between the ages of 19-23 for drugs and illegal firearm possession. He's going to be 26 next month. He's sober. He's a wildfire firefighter. He works out every day. He has a girlfriend.
If you would have asked me when he was 19 if he would be successful, I wouldn't have had a lot of faith.
It's never too late to turn your life around.
You deserve to be happy and healthy!!!
Thank you for sharing. ❤
Having a job, working out, having a girlfriend... Is that what life is all about? In one day all of that could change so keep your eyes on God
You are right thing's could change actually in an instant.i lost my beautiful mother from HIV/Aids & it was such a shock;I stood by her & made sure that she passed with dignity she was 41yrs old & I was 21...it was the hardest time in my life until the day that I lost my 18yr old Son who went out on for his Saturday morning ride on his bike & never came back home again,I had a knock on my door at 1pm & it was the police to tell me that my boy had an accident on his bike & I need to go & identify him & bring him back home,I have a heart that is in a million pieces full of grief with sadness but my daughter who is now 19yrs old that I adore & she keeps me going ❣️please tell your loved one's that 18:13 you love them people 0@@sherrilynnnelson703 Edit.Mate I had beautiful teeth also & I had to get all my teeth ripped out from gum 😮 your own!!!
Happy for your nephew and my son in same age getting recovery now
He seems so sad. I hope he gets out of his situation. He seems like he really wants different.
This was so difficult to watch. Such a young man in so much pain. I hope he can get connect with his Dad and get some help to heal. Wishing you all the Best AJ. You deserve more from life.
What a handsome articulate young man! Please help him Mark!!!
I agree
Does not smile.
@@jimfoley8014 probably doesn’t have a lot to smile about rn :/ dont be rude
He has to want it. Look at Rebecca Mark has to put so much time and money trying to help him, but he would rather live on skid row.
I don’t understand sometimes either especially living in LA at a certain point how anyone could want to live in skid row it’s wild, but some love the street.
@@jimfoley8014he’s not happy, why would he?
AJ, if you’re reading this, you’re intelligent, handsome and so introspective. You have something going for you. Please don’t give while you’re young!
😂handsome? WTF does that have to do with anything?
@@fu9793 Whether you like it or not, it helps a great deal. This is just the way society is.
Maybe you missed the memo, but there's ample amounts of research concluding that attractive people do better in life. Generally, they often get better jobs and on average are higher paid, even easier for them to get hired at times. They tend to be more successful, they tend to be more socially liked, etc. It's a major advantage. There's nothing wrong with saying that the guys got an advantage over other people, so if anything it's almost a dig. So get off your virtual signaling and accept reality and wish the lad all the best and be grateful that he might have a bit of an advantage that might help him get his life together and get a leg up. Don't be so obtuse and ignorant.
@@svan9583virtue signaling
This poor guy was neglected. No security at home. He needs support. A mentor.❤
Don’t give up. I understand what he is saying because these were the conversations we had with our son. He was also young, handsome, articulate and an addict. He didn’t survive addiction but this kid can. He has self awareness but that is only a first step. Wishing him strength and peace. Good luck on your recovery journey.
He has a good head on his shoulders. I think he’s going to be ok. AJ, sobriety is worth the work. You’re young and you have so much going for you - you’re well-spoken, introspective, you take responsibility, and you’re and attractive guy. I know you can get and stay clean. You can do this!
he has a good head on his shoulders? stealing drugs from dealers. Using since high school. Stealing instead of working? I think ppl are hung up on his looks. Maybe you're not. But a lot of these comments are unbelievable. So his GF commits suicide and his first thought of the craziest thing he's seen is someone trying to steal his skateboard. (I know he wasn't there when she did it) but such polar examples Entitled maybe? And now his teeth? but no worries he'll steal teeth meds. I'm going off in general not on you.
A well spoken young guy who could succeed in life if he can get off that shit
gotta stay off it - welcome to america 😕
@@satchelpierce8990Drug addiction is everywhere.
The fact that he understands that he made the choice to relapse is a healthy sign that he still has a sense of self-awareness.
He doesn't articulate well... like, like , like like like...like....yaknow like....like?
He may just naturally be kinda.... like dumb?
It's NOT the drugs... it's HIM.
I still wish him the best of luck, he is still a baby boy like most males in the early 20s.
@@nikko.lottsahcocc6917 its ironic that you used the word like seriously twice, while calling him dumb for using it.....
@@oiBashyy I think he did that on purpose like for emphasis.
@@Insomniac-c7e yeah he used it many times for emphasis, then he used it in his own sentence, that word is in his own vocabulary, its as if hes pointing out another persons hands for being dirty while his have not been cleaned either.
Everyone saying how handsome, like that has anything to do with addiction or mental health.
Look past the skin and understand that what is on the inside is the only thing that matters .
People saying "he could model" 😂 yeah, like one of the most shallow, drug filled industries there is.
This is a young man who has a good head on his shoulders, whom i hope wholeheartedly can overcome his situation. Time flies by, looks fade, but the spirit and the heart can still burn and fire you to a good and better life 🙏🏾💯
🔆👑🔱
True but that's the way humans r for the most part, looks will get u farther than others who r not as attractive. Right or wrong, and it is wrong, but.....🤔😏
Stop with your righteousness, the young man bring the subject himself in the video (ffs he says himself ruining his looks is one of the thing that concerns him the most about his drug use).
It's not superficial to think and say he could model. It's the other way around.
This young man, AJ, is objectively very pretty according to western societies standards. He could it is true, model.
As a society we treat people differently based on their attractiveness and that's from day one of a human life.
Numerous studies have shown that even at daycare, caregivers give more attention, are more patient etc with the prettier babies. And so on and so forth.
AJ's personality and life have been molded, in part, by the fact that he's pretty.
So you can bring all the hippie mindfull BS you want about inner beauty, it is not true that you treat ugly people the same way you treat Non-ugly and beautiful people. Nobody does.
He has not lost his teeth, hair, face, body yet,,YET!!!! I THINK IS WHAT SOME WERE SAYING!!!! BUT YES, SOME WERE BEING SHITTY!!!!!
@@jenseb99 you sound angry, rude, and plain pathetic.
What is "hippie" about saying his looks have nothing to do with addiction problems. For everyone with addiction or trauma, it starts with what happens to your mind and brain.
You are hurt over someone saying it's not about looks ffs. Grow up and go and talk to any person with addiction or mental health problems, and they will never say, "It doesn't matter , at least I'm still pretty."
Western standards??? What has the got to do with addiction and trauma , what has his looks got to do with his current situation, do you think his looks will save him ?....think before you speak because there are more people agreeing with me than there are you.
Oh, and yes , he could model, what a great positive industry that is for people with mental health issues and addiction problems .
Get your head out of your ass and deal with the real world. Society says many things, but that doesn't help with all of the current problems in the Western world does it .
If people care about someone's looks being a care giver or teacher , I'd say there is a problem in of itself.
Have a good one
You are so young AJ. I lost my brother at the age of 26 to drugs. Please get out. Ask for help. Surround yourself with people not using. I’m rooting and praying for you. 🙏
Took 17 years to finally stop using opiates entirely; been 5 years now. There's hope for everyone if I can do it...
Congratulations
WOW.....good for you 👍 How did you do it?
So proud of you 💚 God bless you
Congratulations, and you are awesome for offering encouragement to others.
I am happy 4 u, you will enjoy life with yourself again and friends and hopefully your family ❤
Hope your body is ok after this long time using opiates?! I send you a big hug 🫂 from Europe 😊
This beautiful boy reminds me of my son. He was also a talented musician and had music on SoundCloud and was articulate, sensitive and loving. He overdosed at 23 in LA 2 years ago. He went to rehab 3 times. Every time his addiction got worse. He was never homeless, quite the opposite. Watching this makes me so sad that no one is hugging this boy and telling him he is lovable and worth fighting for. But more than anything AJ has to learn to love himself and believe his life is worthwhile. Community, family and faith are more powerful than any rehab. They are the true sponsors of our lives. I pray he finds his way before it's too late. Toxic supply is the true pandemic and there is no vaccine.
He too scared of being overwhelmed with emotions when facing realities. He is trapped inside being very harsh on himself, denying himself getting the love and support from his dad that he needs so much to deal with his anger, resentment, sorrow and not least, his dreams and hopes for the future. I hope AJ finds a way to let love and basic security into his life again. Please read the note from Grace ❤
Or maybe he doesn't want to quit yet. he's around 22. But i agree mostly with your comment. It's just might be another reason. Stealing and such a hardcore addict he also might not see the need to work. Again I like your comment but i can't believe so many people are like he's a good smart guy. When people who look different not necessarily race (but sometimes) but just look bad people tend to be vile. I'm just making an observation. And he's stealing drugs I'm assuming from a dealer 🙄. He might have been smart in high school but he's going downhill fast. I'm judging i know. I'm not even gonna deny it. Go to rehab! Soon! seems entitled to me
@@hydraflora1342 Maybe the truth is partly this, partly that - it’s complicated. It’s definitely possible to be entitled and suffer at the same time. I think one of AJ’s worst problems is his pride. He denies himself the help he needs and continues to ‘behave badly’ and come up with 100s excuses and apologies fuelling his self hate. A vicious circle. But I can’t see this circle end without him having some love as well as a much needed ‘cleansing the air’ with dad. Some self respect and boundaries too.
Aj youre still young and have decades ahead you 🙏🏾♥️ i pray for sobriety peace safety and prosperity for you ✨️ you can do it ok 🙏🏾 others have done it ♧
luv from new zealand 🌵
You are worth so much more than the way you are living AJ. If your dad wants to reach out and help, let him xx
By the way, I purchased your incredible book! I plan on giving it to my husband for Christmas and I can't wait to give it to him! I’m so tempted to open the box it came in but I won’t! We both love your TH-cam channel and the people you’ve interviewed! Its a beautiful way to commemorate the human beings you've introduced the world to in addition to unveiling your true love of photography! Congratulations and wishing you continued success!🥰
My God kid, get your act together and get clean!!!! You are absolutely gorgeous, intelligent, articulate, and gentle. There are so many opportunities out there for you.
go man, go. i wil support you.
AJ! I PROMISE you that your whole life is ahead of you. At times, as addicts, we can “forget” how hard this is on our families, and parents; specifically. If and only IF and when you decide that you’re ready to end this absolute madness, call your dad, and ask for help. I would NOT be sober without the community of AA, so NA is always going to be there.
While my family was mad at me during active addiction - I can’t tell you how magical and beautiful my relationships with my loved ones are NOW, & there is no one who is prouder than our loved ones for us!🫶🤍🫶 I’m praying for you ❤
There is no harm in commenting on a person's looks. I think a lot of times folks want to compliment someone on their looks but for some reason they do not. I would say in an appropriate manner is the key. I will keep this young man and many others in my prayers who deal with a horrible bad habit they desire to rid themselves of. Thanks again Mark for the work you do.
“Pride and Shame” you nailed Mark. Please take some wise advice here young man. Pride and shame are two absolute killers of the devil. I wish you luck!
Yes!
Mark ty again, excellent interview! AJ please try not to let poor decisions of your past define your future❤
This young man needs help he's articulate and feel thar there's HOPE for him! ✨️🙏✨️
This young man has potential. If he continues down this path, we'll be talking about him in the past tense.
I hate when folks say “he is handsome” or she is “pretty” please help him or her. What about everyone else? Why do pretty folks deserve help so much more?
Its called pretty privilege, they don't deserve more than anyone else. But society gives it to them .
because they are pretty
I've often wondered about that myself. Like if you're not pretty you don't deserve anything , like WHAT ??? You Take Care and Stay Safe
I actually was thinking to myself reading the comments "what do his looks have to do with anything?" Everyone deserves help, regardless of what they look like
It's a horrible truth about society...looks assume entitlement
This interview hit me hard. I pray his sister and father watch this
I love the lives you share. I’ve got 8 years sober from alcohol and IV drugs.
Life is always an option no matter how far down the rabbit hole you have fallen.
Never give up trying to give up until you’ve giving it up.
Then chase life the way you chased the dope man, and do the work to keep it and one day at a time society happens.
Wow , he looks like my son Diego, I wish I could hug him and tell him how special he is and that he was created perfect and that he is enough and smart and compassionate and worthy of a good life and that he can totally heal himself and take control of his life , that he’s stronger than he thinks he is. Life is beautiful and is waiting for you to say ENOUGH, I have the power to create the life I deserve. YOU CAN DO THIS 💓
Dude, stop beating yourself up. We all fall short. Let yesteryear go, it's a roadblock to moving forward. One day you will heal and flourish. You are intelligent enough to do anything you want. ' sending you love and hope❤
What an intelligent eloquent and handsome young man. I truly hope he finds the strength and help to be able to turn his life around.
Thanks for this. I'm in Portland & keep narcan on me. I'm teaching my priest how to use it cuz we had 2 ODs last week. One was during Sunday Mass. I was an opioid addict & am still on methadone 2 decades later. I hope those in active addiction can remember that we ARE praying for them fervently. In the rooms & out; in the pews & on our knees at home. Hope is only a prayer away.
For real loved reading your comments and God Bless all those suffering with addiction
Hello AJ,
I am very sorry that you lacked the guidance you needed and deserved growing up. As a mother, it upsets me to hear that you were allowed to drink and party at such a young age with no consequences.
As far as your Dad now, so many guests on this channel do not have any support, so if your father and/or sister are willing to be there for you right now, please consider that kind of emotional support. Any issues with Dad can be worked on after the intense part of rehab.
Pull yourself together, sweetie. You can do it, you know you can. {{{Hugs from NH}}} ❤
Mark, you are an excellent interviewer, make him really think about his motivation to use, he had to reflect and maybe he grew a little, maybe you planted a seed, it’s really so, so sad, such a young man.
I was raised by a single mom: idgaf, grow up, give your kids boundaries.
My father was murdered. It could have gone way differently for me…. But my mom pulled it together.
He is so self aware. A very bright young man. I hope he gets the healing he deserves. Press in, friend. You can do it.
@@thiccletics I'm so sorry about your father that had to be rough. But I completely agree with you. Grow up! this kid needs a shower rehab and motivation. And i say shower so he can get a job faster.
Wishing you love and strength to beat your addiction AJ. Don’t keep going down this path, it quickly gets to the point where you can’t turn back.
My guy, you are GORGEOUS and intelligent and have so much potential. You deserve to live your best life regardless of your past choices. Wishing you luck on your life journey; I hope, when you’re ready, that it involves you focusing on music & recovery. ❤
Mark thank you for showing the human being behind addiction and other issues. AJ you are so smart and so self aware, I truly believe you have it in you to come out on top. From me a recovering addict with 7yrs & 9mnths clean, I am sending love and positive energy your way. You are in my thoughts.
Connect with your dad, please. I lost mine last year. I never got to say goodbye. ❤
Let your father help you AJ. We all need help sometime in life. We all need a support system. God bless, and watch over you as you try to find a new road to travel. You are so young and have much to look forward to.
Marks not filming Rebecca for hits & views.... I think he truly believes theres hope. I feel the same as you about this young guy .... "hopeful" & hope he gives his Father the opportunity to tell him his side of the story & hopefully they can develop a bond. I dont feel the same about the other character he interviews....I believe he's using Mark & it drives me crazy to watch how he treats Mark.😅 I also understand Mark cant help everyone on skid row & believe the people he does meet & interview, do get offered opportunities & payment to appear on the show 👍
@@jaqikennedy9990are you sniffing glue?
AJ, you can do this!!! You have so much life ahead of you. You are smart and well spoken. I pray you get the help you need. You deserve a better life!!
Great interview.. what a great kid " it’s good that he realizes his own issues and is definitely very intelligent
From Canada.. you've shown that you have self respect. Keep fighting.
It’s so hard to watch someone with so much potential just throw their life away…hopefully AJ reads all these comments and they give him the motivation he needs to get it together and make an amazing life for himself!
There’s a lot of mention about his outward beauty, which is very visible, but what I see is an incredibly smart, self-aware articulate man with a great understanding of his own suffering.
I do hope that you find another path that leads you to a place of peace
It’s obvious you didn’t get it as a child, but you are so very deserving of it as an adult going forward
Sending you love and blessings ❤️
When he mentioned his gf took her own life, and you could hear the sadness in his voice. 😔.
Slow hand clap
Horribly sad
just another reason to get high...sorry, it is tough to accept his self-pity..
@@janetmcguffey1394Jesus what planet of non-empathetic aliens do you come from? Maybe read up on addiction and how complicated it is and you might better educate yourself. I have worked with addicts for years as a recovery coach and it's your attitude and shunning stigma that makes their journey to recovery 1000x harder.
This handsome young man has soooo much to offer. He’s not a dummy and I hope he gets help soon.
Very well spoken and articulate. That gives him a better chance than most. He can make it if he wants it bad enough.
Thank you for helping people understand the complexities of addiction .
Wonderfully articulate young man... Addiction truly is an equal opportunity offender.
AJ, I wish you the best and hope you get help before it's too late. My younger brother was a Fentanyl addict for years and hated living like that, but just couldn't or wouldn't stop. He ended up taking his life eleven years ago but it still seems like it isn't real. He and I were very close, so I know the feelings you are going through. Being his older sister, I feel so guilty that I didn't see the signs. I'm truly sorry for your loss. You have so much potential and I hope you get better real soon. I am pulling for you to make a complete recovery. Don't give up.
I’ve watched a lot of these video’s on Mark’s channel and AJ just has so much to live for, AJ if you read this, please choose life by getting sober because I will be the first one to buy your first CD man… you have a beautiful heart and I’d love to see you thrive & live your best life… ❤
Everyone is basically saying he should be saved because he's handsome. I guess the ugly or just ordinary looking get what's coming to them.
Right? I replied how I hate those comments!!! ✌️
Hi, I agree 💯. I skip every comment that mentions his way of speech or his looks.
Beauty is in the eye of the beholder. Modeling could hurt him, and that profession is very shallow and destructive.
@mjgerleman, you are so right. It sounds like they are saying ordinary looking people deserve a crappy life. Sad.
Yeah comments like that bother me too. Incredibly shallow.
They mean that he looks young and healthy and that it isn't too late to turn his life around.
It is hard to watch this and not see the enormous potential. The looks, the intelligence, his strong presence, allure and beauty, and probably a very talented musician. I believe AJ can do this, he is still very present. You can do this :)
What a handsome young man…he is so well spoken. I pray he can get the help he needs and go forward in a positive way….
Hi AJ...You are an intelligent, handsome young man. Please give treatment another chance. Wishing you all the best and a long & happy life ahead..
AJ- You are a bright young man with alot of potential. Don't let the drugs rip you off anymore. You are worth it brother!
His mom set a bad example for him, you don’t do drugs around your children, they aren’t your friends.
What about his dad, who left when he was 5?
@@bloomerdavid He was horrible as well, be he didn’t introduce him to drugs, and drugs are his problem.
@@bloomerdavidthat’s one side of it.
If you are a parent you shouldn’t be drinking or using drugs around your kids. it’s one thing to have a drink every now and then and puff a joint out of sight. Whatever. but to be bucking lines and popping pills etc?
yeah no.
you should want your kids to be able to confide in you like a friend.
Fenty is fuct i dunno why ppl risk it
@@ow3wellshe abandoned him. Do you know the impact this has on a child? This is most likely why he sought drugs to cope.
I am 30 as of last night or whatever and I’m 23 days clean at 7am. I didn’t go to Rehab. I don’t battle the idea of relapse. I gave myself goals and told myself that I am capable of them as long as I work for them everyday. I write, sing, rap, freestyle, study, read, learn every single day while maintaining my household. And was saved by my best friend in the whole world, who has housed me during my drug addiction and mental health issues and conditions. And I finally woke up from it after being on the cusp of death. You can do this AJ, and I was lucky to have an easy allowance of fortune and love, which isn’t accessible for anyone in these shoes, but for some reason I was given the chance to fight off my own death. Bless you. I would love to make some music with you one day, even if I just make you some beats once I attain the program and keyboard again that I forfeited to addiction. But that’ll be sooner than later. All I want in return is absolutely nothing. Making music is my nectar and has given my soul value and confidence that I can be a beautiful person eventually. You got this bud. You are loved. I’ll keep you in my prayers good homie!
Wow 🤩! What an amazing person who is so self aware.. After reading all these comments and how it is possible to get clean , but obviously you really have to want to!! If you can’t do it for your self, do it for Grace to prove to your self that Love ❤️ is all there is! I am waiting to hear your music 🎶!! I just want to hug you and never let you go!!! ❤💯🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈
Hey doude from someone that is clean 3 years now I can see myself in you and the mindset that comes with being an addict but I believe there is hope for you still!! You are young and still have time to have kids and a family and live a life without having to chase everyday! please don't give up!!
I have a 43 year old son who is a homeless drug addict. Last month he overdosed on cocaine laced with fentanyl. He came out of it but he just isn’t the same. He’s still doing drugs, and he’s been given so much help, so many 2nd chances, and he still chooses the homeless lifestyle and methamphetamines. Love hasn’t been enough, and patience hasn’t been enough, hands up hasn’t been enough. He’s addicted to not just meth, but the homeless lifestyle. He’s had 3 major head/brain injuries. I, of course, carry a huge major guilt with me every waking moment. Why? I don’t know, but I still feel guilty for some reason.
You are not guilty.
You must set yourself free from this burden otherwise it will kill you. You have done your best to your abilities , at some point it's no more in your hands. Let him go!.
Forgive yourself
I have a homeless 27 yr old son who is a fentanyl addict. Getting involved with PAL (parents of addicted loved ones) has helped me so much. Please look online for a local group. You can get over the guilt and find joy in your life. I promise
My house was the party house, i was slightly older when i tried weed, my mum was mentally unwell, and so i literally got away with alot. My dad wasnt around either. This guy has many parallels to how my life went. Ultimately its our decision. The way a persons life pans out, upbtinging, peers, situations certainly can play a huge part in the choices they make. Your girlfriend taking her own life has to really affect a person, using will help with the pain, and numb his feelings. So sorry for your loss mate x
I wanna give this dude the biggest hug. My mama heart hurts having a boy myself and just imagining him hurting. The amount of grief he needs to tackle is so sad. The ex addict in me also makes me want hug him because getting sober is so so possible. He’s so handsome and he’s actually incredibly intelligent. With the right people, support system, and confidence and treatment he could live an amazing inspiring life. I truly hope that for him. I hope he can get in contact with his dad for a start. Healing sucks but you have to start somewhere. He has big dreams, he can accomplish that but unfortunately he needs to take the hurt/grief/resentment head on. It sucks! But he has a lot of potential, he is not too far gone. I truly deep in my soul wish this young man the best. 🙏
You carry a lot of complex grief. You dad knows he messed up. Let him help you. Fight for yourself man. Praying for you.
Hey AJ - sending you all best wishes from South Africa. You have so much potential! Good luck!
Hey man you can still turn your life around !
You are young and can be noble and bold - it’s not too late for you!
Take it one day at a time to recover and heal .
If you have to break it up through an hour at a time / just do that !
I’ve been there - had to work on living one hour at a time !!!
We are rooting for you .
It's never too late to embrace recovery.
Hope he doesn’t give up on getting sober he is so extremely well spoken and intelligent he could go so far. Aj if you are reading this don’t give up get sober build your life live your dream. Its possible!
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Your desire to get clean is still so apparent and that’s a blessing. You can turn it all around one step at a time. From one addict and musician to another, start chasing your music like you do dope. Music soothes the soul, heals and eventually fill that cup. There is a beautiful life just waiting for you.
So mindful and so aware ! Beautiful soul ! Absolutely stunning to look at ! He is the whole package!
Sending you strength
Such a lovely, intelligent and articulate person. I hope he finds a way out of his addiction. My nephew had a $500 day habit, and he's been sober of 5 years. I asked him once how he did it when so many fail, he said “I had a good people to come back to”.
I was thinking exactly the same things that you said about your girlfriend about you, you've got so much potential and seem to be an amazing person. I am sure many people who will watch this video will agree. You've just got to realize this and know that there are good people in this world - you already met one of them, Mark. I hope you get treatment, change your environment and find someone who will love you, that's what you deserve. Hope one day we will hear your music.
This young man knows there is a better life. He might not be yet ready, but he needs support. He is smart, articulate, and I pray for him. The more I listen to him, the more I feel he wants to change. He is thinking about it.
Dear A.J...please give yourself a chance at a better life. There is so much better out there for you if you choose it. Dont let shame stop you. Let your Dad help you, he clearly wants to. You're insightful, articulate and smart. Just because you had no guidance growing up doesnt mean that you can't have a wonderful future. Let people help you. Give therapy a chance ❤
You're a brave man, AJ, to be so honest and to let yourself be seen. I can see heart, hope and goodness in you. I hope you can get to a place to see that and live that for yourself as well. Best to you.
Huge potential. Intelligent and insightful young man. I hope AJ gets clean. 💙
Such a clearly sensitive, articulate & gentle young man. You’ve had so much trauma from an early age. This is why you’re in such pain. Psychological & emotional pain. Please call or visit your father and seek his advice. Get off the streets, you’ll face death too often. See you’re sister. Love yourself. Know you can have a better time in life. ❤
Oh gosh what potential this guy has. Please try and get back into music and song writing because your soul will provide the inspiration and you can inspire us all.
So much potential with this young man. Wish him the best. Please don’t waste your life on drugs. You’re still young with a good future.
He could model.
He chose fentanyl instead
Yeah there's no easy access to drugs in that career 😂😂
He really could ❤ hope he gets clean 🙏🙏 regardless of what he does.
That was my first thought!
I hate these stupid comments
AJ could be a model, he's such a good looking young man. I hope he mends his relationship with his dad and get's help with his addiction. I have seen 20 year old fentanyl addicts get clean, you can do it AJ. Your a good person, you have a good heart, it's okay, one day at a time, you have so much potential. God bless.
He’s very handsome and well spoken. My son just died of cancer and he tried so hard to keep surviving, so I kind of resent people who have everything going for them but choose to throw their lives away.
You know nothing about drug addiction. Hopefully, he will find the road out but many find it impossible to overcome.
My sincere condolences to you. I totally understand how someone who is not caring about their lives upsets you , especially since your son cared so much about life and would have given anything to stay alive-as you would of done anything to make that possible too. Again, so very sorry for your loss. No mother should outlive their child.
I totally agree. I am so sorry that you lost your son too soon..
So sorry to hear of your loss. It’s so frustrating, when addicts are to proud to get the help they could have. I wish you happy memories of your son.
Its so hard to understand people who are self destructing. Your son had a base of love. This young man did not. Hopefully that helps with understanding. Love and healing. ❤
It is Heartbreaking seeing such a Beautiful young man whom seems smart, self aware and Articulate on such a dark path heading fast to nowhere. I hope that someone who sees this video can reach out and help him. These videos and the Interviews have open my eyes and I see them in such a different light. It had been an amazing project. I will pray and never forget this young man.💕🐺
Great bone structure & self awareness. Sobriety will do wonders for AJ if he truly wants it 💯