It's definitely a deep, touching, work put to such a good tune. Literally almost without closing my eyes, takes me to another place and time. Time travel is possible.
The song makes me think of my mom when I was on heroin. She never gave up on me. Now I'm 5 years clean and I talked to her on the phone almost every day and go to church with her on Sundays. Listen guys I was one of those people that everybody literally thought was a lost cause that would never change his life and I turned it around. I don't care how bad of an addict or alcoholic you are you can get your life back and find happiness but you have to make that decision and it's actually a really hard one to make but I can promise you you'll never regret it if you do it. If you're not ready that's okay but you'll be ready one day and take that opportunity and take your life back.
Tall words sir. Wish mine@3:55AM SF time were as poetic. And yet, it's life. I admire forthrightness...thanks for sharing your mind. BoomerNaut, sincerely Thanks, Dan (D
I never understood ths song. How about Sorry not sorry instead of "hate me today, hate me tomorrow" . Also Justin we have spoke of forgiveness many times. We live, we learn and then we grow. Its a beautiful thing and thank you for reminding about the "couch days" years ago. Now couch days are for studying relaxing and working on my next project. See you soon. Ill have a recognizable couple of friends that have worked with you. Hugs and love.
Jim Rike Absolutely amazing how Justin sung this song and not many songs can actually grab ahold of you like this did and take you into the story to feel what he was saying!
I don't know, I liked it a lot...made me cry a bit. But, the original is so passionate in a hard rock way, with the electric guitar, hits harder imo. Also, the way he (& he might've been joking, who knows, but still) kinda went, "What?" egotistically, twice, at the end, just made me go from wanting to "Like" this video to not liking it. (Makes it seem like he didn't learn from his big mistake)
My mother passed away a year ago and she used to make me listen to this song. She was a very big Blue October fan and was part of the fan club. We got flowers from the blue October fa.ily and that was the coolest thing I ever saw. This version is the best version of this song thank you for being part of my life and my moms.
This song can be seen so many ways. Goodbyes are hard whether they're for the best or not- people/addictions/relationships. Bug hugs to everyone out there feeling despair and hurt. Recovery is rough but we are worth it.
My brother just ended his own life a few months ago. I thought he had everything figured out. He had money; a beautiful wife, incredible kids, a solid job, a nice house, and surrounded by people who loved him. But these people had no idea what this internal battle was doing to him until he was gone. This song takes on a whole new meaning thinking about my big bro.
Hello, I'm very sorry for your loss. I can relate because only I know what's really going on inside myself but without the family or friends. I'm on my own and have felt this way as long as I can remember. Its rough. Stull javent found or understand what my purpose in life is other than to be alone in this world and it's not easy. I often wonder why I even wake up in the morning
I'm so sorry for your loss, my big brother died 3 years ago from a overdose. He just got out of jail and he had so much to live for. The sad part is I never got to meet him, besides talking to him on the phone. I got that call that he passed away and I was in tears.
Sorry for your loss. It's scary how often this happens. People who seemingly have it all seem to struggle as much as everyone else. I often wonder if It's not as much a matter of depression as it is a lack of fulfillment in modern society's definition of having it all.
All the best on your way to sobriety. After a huge relapse in 2013 I'm sober since then. Life's not always easy but drugs and alcohol aren't the solution to problems. Take care mate.
Im 10 mos sober. Alcohol and drugs. Hardest thing i've ever done. It's a struggle everyday. Just have to realize it's worth it. Seeing the world through sober eyes is a beautiful thing!
This song, this band, this man understands trials, tribulations and triumph. I love their music. I understand the depression and the pain, just not the victory yet. You help many with your music. Thank you
kevin hilt I woke up after tako g my life in the ER my kidneys failed..I was in a coma for a few days.. Im hurting now because I open my self up to someone who I thought cared for me She made me HATE myself. ..Everyday Im alive is a victory for me in a small way..
The right person. Some people tell you this, they don't mean it. They have no clue what so ever , at all, what you're going through or where you even have been.
This song gets me every time. From 2014-2016 I was living in my truck and my thoughts were getting so dark. In 2016, I attempted suicide 5 times (details on how are not important). One day in January 2018 I sat down and did a "life review" and wrote things I've always wanted to do in my life. I kept coming back to Forensic Psychology. Then on another page, I wrote goals I had to accomplish in order to attain them. I'm 36 years old and now a Senior at Sam Houston State (February 2020). I'm getting my Bachelor's degree in Victim Studies and minoring in Psychology in December (2020). In the up and coming months, I'm applying for the PhD level program of Psychology with Emphasis in Forensics to become a Forensic Psychologist. I still have that list of goals in my wallet and I look at it from time to time to keep the drive going. That I'm not done. When I get my own office as a Forensic Psychologist, this list of goals will go into a frame and I'll hang it right beside my Bachelor's and PhD degrees on the wall behind my desk to remind me everyday as I walk in that I accomplished my goals to get to that point. I've scratched and clawed my way to where I am now with determination, will, focus and hard work. My son (11 years old) is my happy thought that helped me through this. I want him to know there are going to be detours in life. But don't give up. He is the greatest detour to my legacy. I love you, bud!
That list... Same thing here. It saved me after my first attempt at ending the pain was botched by a friend. Then one night, 3am, it came to me. Make a list... I did. I am alive more now than ever before.
@@jerrodroberts7873 that's great, sir! Sometimes hitting rock bottom is the only way for us to see the light. The only way from that point is up. Stick with that list. Add to it as well as checking off your accomplishments as you go. Don't give up, my friend 😁 When I graduate with my Bachelor's this December, I'm getting my son and his mom down here from out of state because that will be the icing on the cake to this one of many accomplishments I will complete. Having my son there as I walk across the stage will be the best feeling in the world.
When I first heard this song I was coming out of a very violent relationship and newly sober. I literally pulled over to the side of the road and bawled my eyes out. This song was one that literally saved my life. "The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won't touch again. In my sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night. While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight." That verse cut so deep and I will never forget it. I believe it is one of the best verses/lines ever written.
Hey...what's important is that you've grown and healed the right way. You're a beautiful instrument of God. With Him inside your heart, you are reaching so many people who have been so lost. You are right where you belong. God is using you to reach many lost ones. 💙 With this being said, Thank you so much Justin
Didn't hear this song, or Blue October until September 2019 .. almost immediately I placed it in my top 3 favorite songs of all time .. and then I kept listening, I didn't know that Justin's music would touch something in me so personally, it's as if he knew me ..that his music would become a backdrop for my life ..
My husband has been clean and sober now for almost 15 years. The first 8 years before sobriety where this song, completely. It pulls so hard at my heart. He still has many challenges. C-PTSD, ADHD, & chronic depression, etc. Our marriage can be a lot of work, but he is a wonderful husband and father. This song helps me remember the weight of the burdens he has carried. I love you BJL. Always.
I've never heard of you guys, this is the first song I've heard...I'm in tears. As a "troubled" person, I found this so personal in ways. For me, it was like an apology to my partner, when I'm having one of my really bad days I can get very irrational and emotional. He's my rock though, he holds me down when I feel like I'm spinning out of control. He deserves to hate me every now and then.
I've loved this for at least 12 years.... it never grows old.... now that I've had siblings battle addiction it's taken new life. This guy's voice speaks to my spirit.
Shit makes me cry still. I'm the toughest dude you ever met but this shit touches my soul. I had 5 years clean off Fetty & last summer I relapsed on perc 30s. Now I been stuck in a depression & on subs since. Fuck drugs. Tears in my eyes right now. Fuckkkkkkk drugs
I am sober now for TWO whole months thats the one accomplishment that you helped me with... As a Veteran with dried up emotions this song brought tears out for the first time in 5 years music is beautiful
I love this man the fact he speaks about how he felt. Even in this day and age guys always feel we are weak I'm still that way but he makes it just a little bit easier every time I hear him
How beautiful…. This song reminds me of my mom, and our co dependent can’t live with or without you relationship we still have. Even now that I’m 40 years old, we’re still going through it, but we love each other. Thank you for this. ❤
I know this is an old comment.. but, wow.. it’s really speaking to me - right now in this moment. And it’s hitting me yes in this moment, but as an overall message to do with everything I’m going through. Thank you.
Justin. You changed my entire life with this song. I have hate me today on my chest and my brother has hate me tomorrow on his. I watch what you do and love you for it. And I hope your happy
In darkness it's so hard to find light and Blue October has literally brightened my entire life through there music...there honesty about how real life is not easy....and just singing from the soul....Thank you
To my eldest two.... I hope I live long enough to have you two in my life again. I always did the best with what I had at the time. I swear there is no future on the road you've taken. I love you bunches, to the moon and back.
Justin went to to college in San Marcos tx where I was born I met him before he got famous he lived in the same place as my uncle. He was a really sweet guy he said I could tell people I was his guest so I could skateboard there. Met him again after they got big at the target I was struggling with my addiction and homeless he spoke to me he actually remembered me as a kid he told me tomorrow will be better keep trying never give up .then I met him again at industry a restaurant in San Marcos I'm sober and have a kid now I told him the story. They say never meet your favorite celebs because you will be disappointed Justin is a different breed a true genuine Soul who really does care he almost cried when I told him my story he even gave me a hug and signed an autograph super cool sweet genuine dude keep it up Justin don't let Fame ruin your heart you were put here to heal. 3 minutes of your time saved my life when no one else cared you've inspired me to be better you never know what someone is going through this guy didn't have to care he didn't have to do anything but he did and I'm thankful he did because I get to enjoy watching my daughter grow and seeing life change and unfold and just be a better human. It's ok to beat yourself up a little and want more it's healthy to an extent but don't let it defeat you. People called me loser crackhead my mother wished I was dead no one wanted to be around me now I'm on top not bragging just seems so surreal to think I'm here and not dead or in prison
This song has been there when I was so Depressed and felt so Alone. I battled addiction and not taking care of myself. I had almost given up, and looking for a different song I found this song, and this band. Blue October saved me. I felt understood. When ever I feel beaten down Blue October picks me up.
As we go through this Global Pandemic in 2020... I constantly watch & listen to alot of videos & analazing the words as never before. Let's all get through this & make our world better for all.
This has what's needed to happen the whole time. I'm not seeing this as a pandemic, but a world-wide cleanse that has needed to happen for a long long time!
This will be one of your greatest journies. Someone who knew my situation told me to listen to Hate Me to understand what my son chose to do. The lyrics and video about his Mother hit so hard that I immediately loved to hate it and hated to love it. Watching and listening to Hate Me became a toturous therapy that enabled me to understand a major family problem and ignited a desire to hear and learn more about Blue October. It was quickly obvious that Blue October was Justin's dream and he had a story so I listened to music and watched videos and interviews in chronological order. That helped me understand how and when the band was created, the nasty disease that almost destroyed Justin and the gifts bestowed upon him that càused band members to believe he was worth their support though his actions negatively affected their lives and almost destoyed Blue October. When I finished watching and reading everything I could find about Justin Furstenfeld I knew someone will want to tell his story. The next day I read about the documentary being made about Justin. I would recommend that anyone who's new to Blue October try to listen to their songs or albums in proper sequence so they understand the trials and transformations of Justin, the band and their music. Some of their earler music reminded me of head bangers but that quickly passed and the music, lyrics and Justin's voice combined to make beautiful sense. Every member of Blue October has a unique talent that's used to compliment each other and fulfill their common goal for the band to be their lifelong career.
You should listen to the original of this, which is the version they played on the radio. I do like the acoustic better, but I love the line when his voice changes in the original- "So I'll drive so fucking far away that I never cross your mind" Then it changes again a little, - "And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind" I just think it sounds better and he should do it acoustic the same. Like everyone else on here, I've fought with same demons. Been clean & sober almost 9 yrs now. That's definitely an accomplishment someone helped me with and I'll never touch again.
I myself have suffered from depression all my life, the one thing I have learned is YOU are the only one you face every morning in the mirror, YOU are the one all day with you at your job 8 hours a day, YOU even follow you into your dreams at night. YOU must learn to Love and Trust YOU. If even YOU aren’t on YOUR side and YOU doubt YOURSELF.... YOUR inner self and outer self MUST make PEACE with one another, only then will YOU yourself KNOW PEACE.
I've heard this song thousands of times but it makes me tear up every time I hear. I think about everything I put my friends and family through over the years...
My son says these are the words he screams in his head- he hurts so bad to see me cry, but still help him as he struggles through his heroin addiction. Sorry son, but I won't ever hate you, you are beautiful. I'm here....always.
That little story of Justin's at the start really got me. I'm not like that anymore but as an 18 year old I really felt like I was the best thing in earth and I treated people like shit for my own selfish reasons and to feel good about myself. I too believe everything happens for a reason, so I don't really regret it per se, because I'm exactly where I want to be now in life at 30, but sometimes I do wish I didn't treat the people I loved so badly. They didn't deserve it. I hope one day I can grow enough balls to apologise to those people.
I’m sober now for 3 whole months it’s one accomplishment that you helped me with. The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing i won’t touch again. In a sick way I want to thank u for holding my head up late at night. While I was busy waging wars on myself you were trying to stop the fight. My favorite verse.
This is what makes a musician, a musician..as people we struggle with ourselves, and demons. But being able to accept them and over come them. It what make us prevail through our darkest of times.
I too Justin, dedicated this to someone who would rather hate me than see my love...painful reality of parenthood sometimes...easier for him to follow the hate than be strong enough to open his heart to me. Felt the pain man, felt the pain...
When Justin writes songs like this, it's hard to hate him. He may have gone through some absolute hellholes in his lifetime, but he channelled all that negative energy and turned it into something beautiful. What you see before you, ladies and gentlemen, is a real man.
This song is so beautiful. Especially playing it like this. It fully personified the lyrics in a way I've never felt , when listening to the radio version. Thanks Blue October.
06/2020- Still come back for the lyrics because they’re so understanding. Not sure why anyone wouldn’t at the very least respect the message. Can’t respect the dislikes sorry
This song instantly brings tears to my eyes. Every time I hear it I feel like I discover something new about myself. The words I have an infinite interpretation of. Feels like it’s all to close to home. Thank you Justin
Oh my. This man and this song reminds me of my husband that recently passed away. I cry to his voice. Every word. My depression , my sadness about what happened. And all the things my husband went through. I miss so much. Justin voice helps me through every second of my life. I only wish hug and Thanks for your help and band. You helped me through this most difficult situation in my life. He is saying all the things I wanted my husband to say. It makes me so good. Thanks for being the best band and songwriter ever. I don't think it would be possible without you... To my love Robert. Thanks for your beautiful voice everyday. You have made me stronger than I ever was.. When no one came back for me. Blue October never left my heart....DG ....❤🖤💙
This song shifted my view of my parents and allowed me to reconcile with them after trying my hardest to get away after feeling like I ruined their lives. I might not be here today with Blue October and Switchfoot.
One of those songs that you feel right down to your soul. It hit home so much. In a relationship I had when I was young, I saw the beauty in his soul even when he didn’t. He pushed me away. No matter what he said or did I stayed. After the final push I left. He now tells me I saved his life time and time again. We are like family. Although we are not together, I still Love him 30 years later. I feel music so much. It gets me through many hard times. I got chills listening to the emotions of this song. Thank you for sharing your soul with us 😢
T Mandell, thank you for sharing,. I had a very similar experience although the outcome was sadly not the same. Strangely I could never blame him for ending his anguish. But now I live with all the pain he left behind and 20 years later I still love him with all my heart & soul. Music has kept me hanging on as well. Bless you for being there when he needed you most.❤️
I've rediscovered Blue October recently. I love this band. Keep up the good work guys and continue to stay humble. Your humility is what brought me back.
This is Josh Wilson.... David's son this song can literally change your life if u take these word and run with them!!! And the soul he puts in this is so freeking awesome
An Absolutely Amazing Display of Gut-Wrenching, Heart-Twisting, Soul-Strangling & Tangibly-Real Emotion Equalled by None; except perhaps his audience..
I have never seen such a charismatic singer as Justin! Have loved you guys since Day 1. You're a real savior to so many people. Just know that we appreciate your talent and your love!!
I've also had depression and anxiety all my life.. Doesn't help when those that helped you like that still have reign and power to keep you their.. Not everyone gets to escape the clutches of those that keep you in the dark.. High five to those that do 🙂👍
This song touches me in so many ways. I liked this song when it was new and after 10 years I tear up when I hear it. Justin it's the best apology I have ever heard. I did not know you wrote it for this reason but really incredible to replace what I had thought it was for. I use this for my Mother and how when we were young we never give the respect that our parents deserve and it still fits for that too. Thanks for your passionate song I will cherish and share it as much as I can.
As a recovering addict and someone that lost a younger brother and many, many friends and a fiancee to addiction, this song really hits me. From the first time I heard it, it's been one of those songs that is like a part of a soundtrack to my life.....
I Listen To His Song Fear I Listened To His Words He Said Before he Sang The Song I Posted A Comment On The Song Fear As Well As This Song Together I Went Through A Horrible Life Chapter Through My Youngest Daughters Situation and I Raise Her Alone By Myself She Is 17yrs Old ,Old Enough Now To Know What We Been Through and It Brings Us Closer As A Mother&Daughter ,Im Praying Her Dad Will Get Help and Its Amazing How Blue October's Songs "Fear&Hate Me" Is What I Went Through and Go Through, Im Praying For Strength Everyday Your Music Is The Best Thank You For Hearing Your Words I Know I Can Overcome Anything ❤
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Just in case someone can't tell. This is a piece of art.
Masterpiece
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It's definitely a deep, touching, work put to such a good tune. Literally almost without closing my eyes, takes me to another place and time. Time travel is possible.
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This man will never know he saved my life. Thank you Justin!
Mine too! 4 years clean now. This song was my hope
@@maymaypooch I'm glad you're both here.
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I'm glad you guys are still here ❤
Thank you God 🙏❤️🩹💙
Phewww. Listening to this at 33 is a lot different than at 20. Holy shit!
Is getting better?
I’m 27, almost 28. I’m dreading turning 30. How do I cope? 😭
@@LegalAutomation Drink. Do it often and hard.
@@LegalAutomation love it!and be happy!
@Kris Williamson or 50s
The song makes me think of my mom when I was on heroin. She never gave up on me. Now I'm 5 years clean and I talked to her on the phone almost every day and go to church with her on Sundays. Listen guys I was one of those people that everybody literally thought was a lost cause that would never change his life and I turned it around. I don't care how bad of an addict or alcoholic you are you can get your life back and find happiness but you have to make that decision and it's actually a really hard one to make but I can promise you you'll never regret it if you do it. If you're not ready that's okay but you'll be ready one day and take that opportunity and take your life back.
Sending lots of love and positive vibes in your direction. Keep rockin' that sobriety!
So happy for you bro. Addiction has been kicking my ass for as long as I can remember. So glad to hear you are well. Love your mama man.
Tall words sir. Wish mine@3:55AM SF time were as poetic. And yet, it's life. I admire forthrightness...thanks for sharing your mind. BoomerNaut, sincerely Thanks, Dan (D
Joshboy future It’s the hardest thought that consumes my every day. The pain is real. Josh is my middle name.
Quite a moving statement, well done, hopefully somehow someone somewhere will be motivated by your story and follow your actions
“While I was busy raging wars with myself you tried to stop the fight.”
I believe that’s the best sentence I’ve ever heard.
You never doubted my warpped opinions on things like suicidal hate, you made me compliment myself when it was way to hard to take always got me :.(
Amen
that line has tore me up every time I've heard it. kills me.
Those are great lyrics. One of my favorite songs because it hits home
That entire verse is a masterpiece
This is when your soul takes over and the human ends. This is his soul singing the song
Reincarnated
Freaking awesome!
I never understood ths song. How about Sorry not sorry instead of "hate me today, hate me tomorrow" . Also Justin we have spoke of forgiveness many times. We live, we learn and then we grow. Its a beautiful thing and thank you for reminding about the "couch days" years ago. Now couch days are for studying relaxing and working on my next project. See you soon. Ill have a recognizable couple of friends that have worked with you. Hugs and love.
Jim Rike Absolutely amazing how Justin sung this song and not many songs can actually grab ahold of you like this did and take you into the story to feel what he was saying!
@@seanhaze4970 because sorry not sorry is not as powerful as the word hate
Wow this version hits deeper than the original. So beautiful
It absolutely does!!
I don't know, I liked it a lot...made me cry a bit. But, the original is so passionate in a hard rock way, with the electric guitar, hits harder imo. Also, the way he (& he might've been joking, who knows, but still) kinda went, "What?" egotistically, twice, at the end, just made me go from wanting to "Like" this video to not liking it. (Makes it seem like he didn't learn from his big mistake)
I recently attempted to end my life. For whatever reason, I was saved. Depression is ugly. Music has been my saving grace for so long ..
putsie1974 Been there not long ago. Still in the mind set.
@@dane2680 ...reach out to those around you. Your life is precious
putsie1974 I don’t know how. I do not believe my life is precious. To much has happened.
Never worth it friend... took me a few times to see the truth... love your life... it only comes once
Im Glad you are still here friend
My mother passed away a year ago and she used to make me listen to this song. She was a very big Blue October fan and was part of the fan club. We got flowers from the blue October fa.ily and that was the coolest thing I ever saw. This version is the best version of this song thank you for being part of my life and my moms.
I am sorry for your loss, my friend. I hope that someday the wounds will heal enough to feel peace.
This song can be seen so many ways. Goodbyes are hard whether they're for the best or not- people/addictions/relationships. Bug hugs to everyone out there feeling despair and hurt. Recovery is rough but we are worth it.
Can you please bring back her smile, make shine like it used to be.
Lost my wife to drugs...
I’m so sorry for your loss
My brother just ended his own life a few months ago. I thought he had everything figured out. He had money; a beautiful wife, incredible kids, a solid job, a nice house, and surrounded by people who loved him. But these people had no idea what this internal battle was doing to him until he was gone. This song takes on a whole new meaning thinking about my big bro.
Stay strong❤🙏🌻
So sorry
Hello, I'm very sorry for your loss.
I can relate because only I know what's really going on inside myself but without the family or friends. I'm on my own and have felt this way as long as I can remember. Its rough. Stull javent found or understand what my purpose in life is other than to be alone in this world and it's not easy. I often wonder why I even wake up in the morning
I'm so sorry for your loss, my big brother died 3 years ago from a overdose. He just got out of jail and he had so much to live for. The sad part is I never got to meet him, besides talking to him on the phone. I got that call that he passed away and I was in tears.
Sorry for your loss. It's scary how often this happens. People who seemingly have it all seem to struggle as much as everyone else. I often wonder if It's not as much a matter of depression as it is a lack of fulfillment in modern society's definition of having it all.
As a recovering alcoholic and drug addict this song still cuts deep.
All the best on your way to sobriety. After a huge relapse in 2013 I'm sober since then. Life's not always easy but drugs and alcohol aren't the solution to problems. Take care mate.
Dennis Haines me too but not recoverd 😪
Im 10 mos sober. Alcohol and drugs. Hardest thing i've ever done. It's a struggle everyday. Just have to realize it's worth it. Seeing the world through sober eyes is a beautiful thing!
Dennis haines. Looks likes its been 5 months how you doing man?
Keep on keeping on brother. Never really dealth with any addiction problems, but I admire people who overcome a problems like these. Best wishes!
I'm alive because of this song thanks Justin
gamriestu me too
Keep fighting. Depression is a nasty battle. One day at a time.
keep your head up! the world won't be the same without yuo. we all have a place here and now, seize the moment and conquer your inner demons!
No your alive because God isn't ready for you! Trust me I know this because I've been there.
I'm addict and my husband had to give up on me...this song helps me
This song, this band, this man understands trials, tribulations and triumph. I love their music. I understand the depression and the pain, just not the victory yet. You help many with your music. Thank you
Lionel Mendez w depression it’s never a victory it’s just dealing w it honestly. 3x I’ve tried to take my own life.
Lionel Mendez I’m looking for the victory too my friend , but accepting it is the first step
hilt same.. it is just dealing with it. No cure
Amen.
kevin hilt I woke up after tako g my life in the ER my kidneys failed..I was in a coma for a few days.. Im hurting now because I open my self up to someone who I thought cared for me She made me HATE myself.
..Everyday Im alive is a victory for me in a small way..
When you hate yourself you need at least one person to say you're ok.
No one says I’m gonna be ok they know im gone I’ll be dead soon enough
@@dr.yayson2585 you're ok to me. Better alive than dead.
@@dr.yayson2585 Be better than ok, you are.
@@dr.yayson2585 You really can be alright if you want to be. I pray you find the desire to make a better life for yourself.
The right person. Some people tell you this, they don't mean it. They have no clue what so ever , at all, what you're going through or where you even have been.
This song gets me every time. From 2014-2016 I was living in my truck and my thoughts were getting so dark. In 2016, I attempted suicide 5 times (details on how are not important). One day in January 2018 I sat down and did a "life review" and wrote things I've always wanted to do in my life. I kept coming back to Forensic Psychology. Then on another page, I wrote goals I had to accomplish in order to attain them. I'm 36 years old and now a Senior at Sam Houston State (February 2020). I'm getting my Bachelor's degree in Victim Studies and minoring in Psychology in December (2020). In the up and coming months, I'm applying for the PhD level program of Psychology with Emphasis in Forensics to become a Forensic Psychologist. I still have that list of goals in my wallet and I look at it from time to time to keep the drive going. That I'm not done. When I get my own office as a Forensic Psychologist, this list of goals will go into a frame and I'll hang it right beside my Bachelor's and PhD degrees on the wall behind my desk to remind me everyday as I walk in that I accomplished my goals to get to that point. I've scratched and clawed my way to where I am now with determination, will, focus and hard work. My son (11 years old) is my happy thought that helped me through this. I want him to know there are going to be detours in life. But don't give up. He is the greatest detour to my legacy. I love you, bud!
That list... Same thing here. It saved me after my first attempt at ending the pain was botched by a friend.
Then one night, 3am, it came to me. Make a list...
I did. I am alive more now than ever before.
@@jerrodroberts7873 that's great, sir! Sometimes hitting rock bottom is the only way for us to see the light. The only way from that point is up. Stick with that list. Add to it as well as checking off your accomplishments as you go. Don't give up, my friend 😁 When I graduate with my Bachelor's this December, I'm getting my son and his mom down here from out of state because that will be the icing on the cake to this one of many accomplishments I will complete. Having my son there as I walk across the stage will be the best feeling in the world.
Amazing
@@roxannadrake7186 thank you!!!
I don't live far from Huntsville Tx. Good school. Thanks for sharing hopefully you inspired someone who might be in a similar situation.
I'm a grown freaking man and I am bawling on the freaking sofa
A man is courageous when he admits his mistakes honestly.
When I first heard this song I was coming out of a very violent relationship and newly sober. I literally pulled over to the side of the road and bawled my eyes out. This song was one that literally saved my life. "The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won't touch again. In my sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night. While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight." That verse cut so deep and I will never forget it. I believe it is one of the best verses/lines ever written.
Hey...what's important is that you've grown and healed the right way. You're a beautiful instrument of God. With Him inside your heart, you are reaching so many people who have been so lost. You are right where you belong. God is using you to reach many lost ones. 💙 With this being said, Thank you so much Justin
Didn't hear this song, or Blue October until September 2019 .. almost immediately I placed it in my top 3 favorite songs of all time .. and then I kept listening, I didn't know that Justin's music would touch something in me so personally, it's as if he knew me ..that his music would become a backdrop for my life ..
My husband has been clean and sober now for almost 15 years. The first 8 years before sobriety where this song, completely. It pulls so hard at my heart. He still has many challenges. C-PTSD, ADHD, & chronic depression, etc. Our marriage can be a lot of work, but he is a wonderful husband and father. This song helps me remember the weight of the burdens he has carried. I love you BJL. Always.
Holy hell..... this got to me. Such raw emotion. Painfully beautiful when the soul comes out....
Agreed 100%
You should watch some Alice in Chains unplugged
Kinda killer, huh? Every ex junkie knows this one all too well. Nice when beauty can emerge from the ugliest depths
His 10th anniversary live version has my whole heart 🖤
I’m a 55 year old mom of four. My oldest son turned me on to this song/group. I absolutely LOVE it...
I hope she knows i pray for her every night 🙏💔
She doesn't have to know. It's a secret between you and God.
You can hear his voice breaking, like he's on the verge of tears. This song is so powerful
I've never heard of you guys, this is the first song I've heard...I'm in tears. As a "troubled" person, I found this so personal in ways. For me, it was like an apology to my partner, when I'm having one of my really bad days I can get very irrational and emotional. He's my rock though, he holds me down when I feel like I'm spinning out of control. He deserves to hate me every now and then.
❤
I've loved this for at least 12 years.... it never grows old.... now that I've had siblings battle addiction it's taken new life. This guy's voice speaks to my spirit.
My 28 yr old son overdosed on 11/25/11 I am crying now and this song always brings me to tears
I suffered from depression and anxiety and panic attacks music is one of my medicine's good bless great song writer's
Justin is truly an inspiration for myself as well as many many others. Thank you Justin!
Why would anyone give this a thumbs down?? Amazing confession and amazing song with perfect vocals!
Shit makes me cry still. I'm the toughest dude you ever met but this shit touches my soul. I had 5 years clean off Fetty & last summer I relapsed on perc 30s. Now I been stuck in a depression & on subs since. Fuck drugs. Tears in my eyes right now. Fuckkkkkkk drugs
"hate me so you can finally see what's good for you" .... God ... I understand this so much
THIS ONE should be titled "best version" !
ilmanit Y.E.S.💔❤I could not agree more!💔❤
I like the 10th aniversary concert version. So good this song
I am sober now for TWO whole months thats the one accomplishment that you helped me with... As a Veteran with dried up emotions this song brought tears out for the first time in 5 years music is beautiful
This song, this one in particular, SAVED MY LIFE
Ok, so I'm not the only one balling my eyes out when I hear this song - good!
So so much emotion in the version. I started crying...
I aint gunna lie, I teared up myself.. This guys soul is soo amazing.
I've loved blue October for a long time. First time I've seen this version 😢 I teared up
I love this man the fact he speaks about how he felt. Even in this day and age guys always feel we are weak I'm still that way but he makes it just a little bit easier every time I hear him
He wrote this for his mom! Amen 🙏🙏🙏 one of my favorite songs!!!! My daughter doesn't speak to me 😢
Pray to God, he will heal your relationship with your daughter. He cares for you.
The speech before this song is one of the best, heart felt speeches and I can relate to it so much even though I am not famous
This song brings me to tears every time I hear it. I'll never give up on my boyfriend while he navigates recovery.
this didnt age well. he started using meth again and got scary violent. I had to leave.
How beautiful…. This song reminds me of my mom, and our co dependent can’t live with or without you relationship we still have. Even now that I’m 40 years old, we’re still going through it, but we love each other.
Thank you for this. ❤
Most BEAUTIFUL emotional love song I've ever heard.
Suitable for an addicted child to his mother. This breaks my heart
The lord will take everything away. Allowing you to find yourself through pain so that you can shine the way you were always meant to shine
I know this is an old comment.. but, wow.. it’s really speaking to me - right now in this moment. And it’s hitting me yes in this moment, but as an overall message to do with everything I’m going through.
Thank you.
Justin. You changed my entire life with this song. I have hate me today on my chest and my brother has hate me tomorrow on his. I watch what you do and love you for it. And I hope your happy
That is so cool ❤️
A version that shows a boy grown to a man who has figured a lot of things out, but still feels the pain.
In darkness it's so hard to find light and Blue October has literally brightened my entire life through there music...there honesty about how real life is not easy....and just singing from the soul....Thank you
To my eldest two.... I hope I live long enough to have you two in my life again. I always did the best with what I had at the time. I swear there is no future on the road you've taken. I love you bunches, to the moon and back.
All the acoustic songs he performs are just so raw and relatable. Love it!
Justin went to to college in San Marcos tx where I was born I met him before he got famous he lived in the same place as my uncle. He was a really sweet guy he said I could tell people I was his guest so I could skateboard there. Met him again after they got big at the target I was struggling with my addiction and homeless he spoke to me he actually remembered me as a kid he told me tomorrow will be better keep trying never give up .then I met him again at industry a restaurant in San Marcos I'm sober and have a kid now I told him the story. They say never meet your favorite celebs because you will be disappointed Justin is a different breed a true genuine Soul who really does care he almost cried when I told him my story he even gave me a hug and signed an autograph super cool sweet genuine dude keep it up Justin don't let Fame ruin your heart you were put here to heal. 3 minutes of your time saved my life when no one else cared you've inspired me to be better you never know what someone is going through this guy didn't have to care he didn't have to do anything but he did and I'm thankful he did because I get to enjoy watching my daughter grow and seeing life change and unfold and just be a better human. It's ok to beat yourself up a little and want more it's healthy to an extent but don't let it defeat you. People called me loser crackhead my mother wished I was dead no one wanted to be around me now I'm on top not bragging just seems so surreal to think I'm here and not dead or in prison
This song has been there when I was so Depressed and felt so Alone. I battled addiction and not taking care of myself. I had almost given up, and looking for a different song I found this song, and this band. Blue October saved me. I felt understood. When ever I feel beaten down Blue October picks me up.
The best song ever written
As we go through this Global Pandemic in 2020... I constantly watch & listen to alot of videos & analazing the words as never before. Let's all get through this & make our world better for all.
This has what's needed to happen the whole time. I'm not seeing this as a pandemic, but a world-wide cleanse that has needed to happen for a long long time!
"So you can finally see what's good for u" kills me
Literally the first time I've knowingly heard this band. I'm going searching for more of their songs now.
This will be one of your greatest journies. Someone who knew my situation told me to listen to Hate Me to understand what my son chose to do. The lyrics and video about his Mother hit so hard that I immediately loved to hate it and hated to love it. Watching and listening to Hate Me became a toturous therapy that enabled me to understand a major family problem and ignited a desire to hear and learn more about Blue October.
It was quickly obvious that Blue October was Justin's dream and he had a story so I listened to music and watched videos and interviews in chronological order. That helped me understand how and when the band was created, the nasty disease that almost destroyed Justin and the gifts bestowed upon him that càused band members to believe he was worth their support though his actions negatively affected their lives and almost destoyed Blue October.
When I finished watching and reading everything I could find about Justin Furstenfeld I knew someone will want to tell his story. The next day I read about the documentary being made about Justin.
I would recommend that anyone who's new to Blue October try to listen to their songs or albums in proper sequence so they understand the trials and transformations of Justin, the band and their music.
Some of their earler music reminded me of head bangers but that quickly passed and the music, lyrics and Justin's voice combined to make beautiful sense. Every member of Blue October has a unique talent that's used to compliment each other and fulfill their common goal for the band to be their lifelong career.
You should listen to the original of this, which is the version they played on the radio. I do like the acoustic better, but I love the line when his voice changes in the original- "So I'll drive so fucking far away that I never cross your mind" Then it changes again a little, -
"And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind"
I just think it sounds better and he should do it acoustic the same. Like everyone else on here, I've fought with same demons. Been clean & sober almost 9 yrs now. That's definitely an accomplishment someone helped me with and I'll never touch again.
I myself have suffered from depression all my life, the one thing I have learned is YOU are the only one you face every morning in the mirror, YOU are the one all day with you at your job 8 hours a day, YOU even follow you into your dreams at night. YOU must learn to Love and Trust YOU. If even YOU aren’t on YOUR side and YOU doubt YOURSELF.... YOUR inner self and outer self MUST make PEACE with one another, only then will YOU yourself KNOW PEACE.
I've heard this song thousands of times but it makes me tear up every time I hear. I think about everything I put my friends and family through over the years...
WOW you're one AMAZING human being i was losing faith in humans you have just returned my faith WHAT AN AMAZING THING TO DO 💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗
My son says these are the words he screams in his head- he hurts so bad to see me cry, but still help him as he struggles through his heroin addiction. Sorry son, but I won't ever hate you, you are beautiful. I'm here....always.
That little story of Justin's at the start really got me.
I'm not like that anymore but as an 18 year old I really felt like I was the best thing in earth and I treated people like shit for my own selfish reasons and to feel good about myself. I too believe everything happens for a reason, so I don't really regret it per se, because I'm exactly where I want to be now in life at 30, but sometimes I do wish I didn't treat the people I loved so badly. They didn't deserve it.
I hope one day I can grow enough balls to apologise to those people.
This song helped me through the hardest times in my life. I credit it a lot for being here today. 💞
Thank you Justin.
The song that still Heals me . When ever I feel I need to go Downhill
I’m sober now for 3 whole months it’s one accomplishment that you helped me with. The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing i won’t touch again. In a sick way I want to thank u for holding my head up late at night. While I was busy waging wars on myself you were trying to stop the fight.
My favorite verse.
This is like one of the first pictures you see on the wall on a museum. Real art
This is what I aspire to be, his voice, the lyrics, the music, it’s so beautiful.... it’s so damn beautiful
This is what makes a musician, a musician..as people we struggle with ourselves, and demons. But being able to accept them and over come them. It what make us prevail through our darkest of times.
If you listen, he's playing in the keys of Stand by Me......... This is one of my favorite songs for many reasons............... Tears...........
Shawn M Detroit I hear it now. At first I was hearing Pearl Jam’s cover of Last Kiss
The most beautiful song xxx
honesty is such an amazing quality in a world full of lies.. I'll always like this band
Justin and this band has done more for people than he realizes. I have been a fan since day one
I too Justin, dedicated this to someone who would rather hate me than see my love...painful reality of parenthood sometimes...easier for him to follow the hate than be strong enough to open his heart to me. Felt the pain man, felt the pain...
Hahaha your slick
When Justin writes songs like this, it's hard to hate him. He may have gone through some absolute hellholes in his lifetime, but he channelled all that negative energy and turned it into something beautiful. What you see before you, ladies and gentlemen, is a real man.
This song is so beautiful. Especially playing it like this.
It fully personified the lyrics in a way I've never felt , when listening to the radio version. Thanks Blue October.
This is my first exposure to the song and band, holly crap am I a fan of this.
06/2020- Still come back for the lyrics because they’re so understanding. Not sure why anyone wouldn’t at the very least respect the message. Can’t respect the dislikes sorry
This song instantly brings tears to my eyes. Every time I hear it I feel like I discover something new about myself. The words I have an infinite interpretation of. Feels like it’s all to close to home. Thank you Justin
Idk but evertime I listen to this a tear will fall what a masterpiece in real lives
An absolute masterpiece of a version of this. If you can relate to this song , it gets you
Makes the song even more emotional and powerful, and I didn't realize it could hit harder like this....
Oh my. This man and this song reminds me of my husband that recently passed away. I cry to his voice. Every word. My depression , my sadness about what happened. And all the things my husband went through. I miss so much. Justin voice helps me through every second of my life. I only wish hug and Thanks for your help and band. You helped me through this most difficult situation in my life. He is saying all the things I wanted my husband to say. It makes me so good. Thanks for being the best band and songwriter ever. I don't think it would be possible without you... To my love Robert. Thanks for your beautiful voice everyday. You have made me stronger than I ever was.. When no one came back for me. Blue October never left my heart....DG ....❤🖤💙
This song shifted my view of my parents and allowed me to reconcile with them after trying my hardest to get away after feeling like I ruined their lives. I might not be here today with Blue October and Switchfoot.
One of those songs that you feel right down to your soul. It hit home so much. In a relationship I had when I was young, I saw the beauty in his soul even when he didn’t. He pushed me away. No matter what he said or did I stayed. After the final push I left. He now tells me I saved his life time and time again. We are like family. Although we are not together, I still
Love him 30 years later. I feel
music so much. It gets me through many hard times. I got chills listening to the emotions of this song. Thank you for sharing your soul with us 😢
T Mandell, thank you for sharing,. I had a very similar experience although the outcome was sadly not the same. Strangely I could never blame him for ending his anguish. But now I live with all the pain he left behind and 20 years later I still love him with all my heart & soul. Music has kept me hanging on as well. Bless you for being there when he needed you most.❤️
I've rediscovered Blue October recently. I love this band. Keep up the good work guys and continue to stay humble. Your humility is what brought me back.
This is Josh Wilson.... David's son this song can literally change your life if u take these word and run with them!!! And the soul he puts in this is so freeking awesome
An Absolutely Amazing Display of Gut-Wrenching, Heart-Twisting, Soul-Strangling & Tangibly-Real Emotion Equalled by None; except perhaps his audience..
I have never seen such a charismatic singer as Justin! Have loved you guys since Day 1. You're a real savior to so many people. Just know that we appreciate your talent and your love!!
The most beautiful song ever!!
Everything Justin does is pure heart and soul...I love his music for that reason....
I really love this version then the original. You really feel the emotions when he sings this song I cried big time 😭
I've also had depression and anxiety all my life.. Doesn't help when those that helped you like that still have reign and power to keep you their.. Not everyone gets to escape the clutches of those that keep you in the dark.. High five to those that do 🙂👍
This song touches me in so many ways. I liked this song when it was new and after 10 years I tear up when I hear it. Justin it's the best apology I have ever heard. I did not know you wrote it for this reason but really incredible to replace what I had thought it was for. I use this for my Mother and how when we were young we never give the respect that our parents deserve and it still fits for that too. Thanks for your passionate song I will cherish and share it as much as I can.
As a recovering addict and someone that lost a younger brother and many, many friends and a fiancee to addiction, this song really hits me. From the first time I heard it, it's been one of those songs that is like a part of a soundtrack to my life.....
he reminds me of aaron lewis these guys have true feelings and can sing about things that have happend in their lives its raw talent
I can never hate him, he taught me what love is and isn't. I hate the addiction.
It's a song that the lyrics grab you so tight, it's brilliant
Always chokes me up.
Superb 🙏
I Listen To His Song Fear I Listened To His Words He Said Before he Sang The Song I Posted A Comment On The Song Fear As Well As This Song Together I Went Through A Horrible Life Chapter Through My Youngest Daughters Situation and I Raise Her Alone By Myself She Is 17yrs Old ,Old Enough Now To Know What We Been Through and It Brings Us Closer As A Mother&Daughter ,Im Praying Her Dad Will Get Help and Its Amazing How Blue October's Songs "Fear&Hate Me" Is What I Went Through and Go Through, Im Praying For Strength Everyday Your Music Is The Best Thank You For Hearing Your Words I Know I Can Overcome Anything ❤
Love this version of this powerful songs. I cried.
So much emotion on his face when he sings. Incredible. So much better to watch him play live.