Blue October brought the tears out and the house down in another stellar performance as part of X96 Lounge X concert series. This one is not to be missed. Shot on June 17, 2016. To watch more go to X96.com/video.
The song makes me think of my mom when I was on heroin. She never gave up on me. Now I'm 5 years clean and I talked to her on the phone almost every day and go to church with her on Sundays. Listen guys I was one of those people that everybody literally thought was a lost cause that would never change his life and I turned it around. I don't care how bad of an addict or alcoholic you are you can get your life back and find happiness but you have to make that decision and it's actually a really hard one to make but I can promise you you'll never regret it if you do it. If you're not ready that's okay but you'll be ready one day and take that opportunity and take your life back.
Tall words sir. Wish mine@3:55AM SF time were as poetic. And yet, it's life. I admire forthrightness...thanks for sharing your mind. BoomerNaut, sincerely Thanks, Dan (D
It's definitely a deep, touching, work put to such a good tune. Literally almost without closing my eyes, takes me to another place and time. Time travel is possible.
My brother just ended his own life a few months ago. I thought he had everything figured out. He had money; a beautiful wife, incredible kids, a solid job, a nice house, and surrounded by people who loved him. But these people had no idea what this internal battle was doing to him until he was gone. This song takes on a whole new meaning thinking about my big bro.
Hello, I'm very sorry for your loss. I can relate because only I know what's really going on inside myself but without the family or friends. I'm on my own and have felt this way as long as I can remember. Its rough. Stull javent found or understand what my purpose in life is other than to be alone in this world and it's not easy. I often wonder why I even wake up in the morning
I'm so sorry for your loss, my big brother died 3 years ago from a overdose. He just got out of jail and he had so much to live for. The sad part is I never got to meet him, besides talking to him on the phone. I got that call that he passed away and I was in tears.
Sorry for your loss. It's scary how often this happens. People who seemingly have it all seem to struggle as much as everyone else. I often wonder if It's not as much a matter of depression as it is a lack of fulfillment in modern society's definition of having it all.
Hey...what's important is that you've grown and healed the right way. You're a beautiful instrument of God. With Him inside your heart, you are reaching so many people who have been so lost. You are right where you belong. God is using you to reach many lost ones. 💙 With this being said, Thank you so much Justin
This song gets me every time. From 2014-2016 I was living in my truck and my thoughts were getting so dark. In 2016, I attempted suicide 5 times (details on how are not important). One day in January 2018 I sat down and did a "life review" and wrote things I've always wanted to do in my life. I kept coming back to Forensic Psychology. Then on another page, I wrote goals I had to accomplish in order to attain them. I'm 36 years old and now a Senior at Sam Houston State (February 2020). I'm getting my Bachelor's degree in Victim Studies and minoring in Psychology in December (2020). In the up and coming months, I'm applying for the PhD level program of Psychology with Emphasis in Forensics to become a Forensic Psychologist. I still have that list of goals in my wallet and I look at it from time to time to keep the drive going. That I'm not done. When I get my own office as a Forensic Psychologist, this list of goals will go into a frame and I'll hang it right beside my Bachelor's and PhD degrees on the wall behind my desk to remind me everyday as I walk in that I accomplished my goals to get to that point. I've scratched and clawed my way to where I am now with determination, will, focus and hard work. My son (11 years old) is my happy thought that helped me through this. I want him to know there are going to be detours in life. But don't give up. He is the greatest detour to my legacy. I love you, bud!
That list... Same thing here. It saved me after my first attempt at ending the pain was botched by a friend. Then one night, 3am, it came to me. Make a list... I did. I am alive more now than ever before.
@@jerrodroberts7873 that's great, sir! Sometimes hitting rock bottom is the only way for us to see the light. The only way from that point is up. Stick with that list. Add to it as well as checking off your accomplishments as you go. Don't give up, my friend 😁 When I graduate with my Bachelor's this December, I'm getting my son and his mom down here from out of state because that will be the icing on the cake to this one of many accomplishments I will complete. Having my son there as I walk across the stage will be the best feeling in the world.
All the best on your way to sobriety. After a huge relapse in 2013 I'm sober since then. Life's not always easy but drugs and alcohol aren't the solution to problems. Take care mate.
Im 10 mos sober. Alcohol and drugs. Hardest thing i've ever done. It's a struggle everyday. Just have to realize it's worth it. Seeing the world through sober eyes is a beautiful thing!
My mother passed away a year ago and she used to make me listen to this song. She was a very big Blue October fan and was part of the fan club. We got flowers from the blue October fa.ily and that was the coolest thing I ever saw. This version is the best version of this song thank you for being part of my life and my moms.
Didn't hear this song, or Blue October until September 2019 .. almost immediately I placed it in my top 3 favorite songs of all time .. and then I kept listening, I didn't know that Justin's music would touch something in me so personally, it's as if he knew me ..that his music would become a backdrop for my life ..
This song, this band, this man understands trials, tribulations and triumph. I love their music. I understand the depression and the pain, just not the victory yet. You help many with your music. Thank you
kevin hilt I woke up after tako g my life in the ER my kidneys failed..I was in a coma for a few days.. Im hurting now because I open my self up to someone who I thought cared for me She made me HATE myself. ..Everyday Im alive is a victory for me in a small way..
I love this man the fact he speaks about how he felt. Even in this day and age guys always feel we are weak I'm still that way but he makes it just a little bit easier every time I hear him
I've loved this for at least 12 years.... it never grows old.... now that I've had siblings battle addiction it's taken new life. This guy's voice speaks to my spirit.
The right person. Some people tell you this, they don't mean it. They have no clue what so ever , at all, what you're going through or where you even have been.
In darkness it's so hard to find light and Blue October has literally brightened my entire life through there music...there honesty about how real life is not easy....and just singing from the soul....Thank you
Justin. You changed my entire life with this song. I have hate me today on my chest and my brother has hate me tomorrow on his. I watch what you do and love you for it. And I hope your happy
This will be one of your greatest journies. Someone who knew my situation told me to listen to Hate Me to understand what my son chose to do. The lyrics and video about his Mother hit so hard that I immediately loved to hate it and hated to love it. Watching and listening to Hate Me became a toturous therapy that enabled me to understand a major family problem and ignited a desire to hear and learn more about Blue October. It was quickly obvious that Blue October was Justin's dream and he had a story so I listened to music and watched videos and interviews in chronological order. That helped me understand how and when the band was created, the nasty disease that almost destroyed Justin and the gifts bestowed upon him that càused band members to believe he was worth their support though his actions negatively affected their lives and almost destoyed Blue October. When I finished watching and reading everything I could find about Justin Furstenfeld I knew someone will want to tell his story. The next day I read about the documentary being made about Justin. I would recommend that anyone who's new to Blue October try to listen to their songs or albums in proper sequence so they understand the trials and transformations of Justin, the band and their music. Some of their earler music reminded me of head bangers but that quickly passed and the music, lyrics and Justin's voice combined to make beautiful sense. Every member of Blue October has a unique talent that's used to compliment each other and fulfill their common goal for the band to be their lifelong career.
You should listen to the original of this, which is the version they played on the radio. I do like the acoustic better, but I love the line when his voice changes in the original- "So I'll drive so fucking far away that I never cross your mind" Then it changes again a little, - "And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind" I just think it sounds better and he should do it acoustic the same. Like everyone else on here, I've fought with same demons. Been clean & sober almost 9 yrs now. That's definitely an accomplishment someone helped me with and I'll never touch again.
How beautiful…. This song reminds me of my mom, and our co dependent can’t live with or without you relationship we still have. Even now that I’m 40 years old, we’re still going through it, but we love each other. Thank you for this. ❤
My husband has been clean and sober now for almost 15 years. The first 8 years before sobriety where this song, completely. It pulls so hard at my heart. He still has many challenges. C-PTSD, ADHD, & chronic depression, etc. Our marriage can be a lot of work, but he is a wonderful husband and father. This song helps me remember the weight of the burdens he has carried. I love you BJL. Always.
I've rediscovered Blue October recently. I love this band. Keep up the good work guys and continue to stay humble. Your humility is what brought me back.
I too Justin, dedicated this to someone who would rather hate me than see my love...painful reality of parenthood sometimes...easier for him to follow the hate than be strong enough to open his heart to me. Felt the pain man, felt the pain...
That little story of Justin's at the start really got me. I'm not like that anymore but as an 18 year old I really felt like I was the best thing in earth and I treated people like shit for my own selfish reasons and to feel good about myself. I too believe everything happens for a reason, so I don't really regret it per se, because I'm exactly where I want to be now in life at 30, but sometimes I do wish I didn't treat the people I loved so badly. They didn't deserve it. I hope one day I can grow enough balls to apologise to those people.
This is what makes a musician, a musician..as people we struggle with ourselves, and demons. But being able to accept them and over come them. It what make us prevail through our darkest of times.
My son says these are the words he screams in his head- he hurts so bad to see me cry, but still help him as he struggles through his heroin addiction. Sorry son, but I won't ever hate you, you are beautiful. I'm here....always.
The man can write like no other putting lyrics together to paint maybe the worst part of his life to heal,to learn,to share to show us all how to truly say here I am now and I want to be better your a contribution to so many lives and for all those lives THANK YOU
To my eldest two.... I hope I live long enough to have you two in my life again. I always did the best with what I had at the time. I swear there is no future on the road you've taken. I love you bunches, to the moon and back.
Oh my. This man and this song reminds me of my husband that recently passed away. I cry to his voice. Every word. My depression , my sadness about what happened. And all the things my husband went through. I miss so much. Justin voice helps me through every second of my life. I only wish hug and Thanks for your help and band. You helped me through this most difficult situation in my life. He is saying all the things I wanted my husband to say. It makes me so good. Thanks for being the best band and songwriter ever. I don't think it would be possible without you... To my love Robert. Thanks for your beautiful voice everyday. You have made me stronger than I ever was.. When no one came back for me. Blue October never left my heart....DG ....❤🖤💙
This song touches me in so many ways. I liked this song when it was new and after 10 years I tear up when I hear it. Justin it's the best apology I have ever heard. I did not know you wrote it for this reason but really incredible to replace what I had thought it was for. I use this for my Mother and how when we were young we never give the respect that our parents deserve and it still fits for that too. Thanks for your passionate song I will cherish and share it as much as I can.
I have never seen such a charismatic singer as Justin! Have loved you guys since Day 1. You're a real savior to so many people. Just know that we appreciate your talent and your love!!
An Absolutely Amazing Display of Gut-Wrenching, Heart-Twisting, Soul-Strangling & Tangibly-Real Emotion Equalled by None; except perhaps his audience..
One of those songs that you feel right down to your soul. It hit home so much. In a relationship I had when I was young, I saw the beauty in his soul even when he didn’t. He pushed me away. No matter what he said or did I stayed. After the final push I left. He now tells me I saved his life time and time again. We are like family. Although we are not together, I still Love him 30 years later. I feel music so much. It gets me through many hard times. I got chills listening to the emotions of this song. Thank you for sharing your soul with us 😢
T Mandell, thank you for sharing,. I had a very similar experience although the outcome was sadly not the same. Strangely I could never blame him for ending his anguish. But now I live with all the pain he left behind and 20 years later I still love him with all my heart & soul. Music has kept me hanging on as well. Bless you for being there when he needed you most.❤️
Why does this video have a single thumbs down. Music saved his life. And people put thumbs down. Love blue October. Im glad your still with us justin. Hope i see you in Massachusetts
I know this is a song about an abandoned lover, but i lost a best friend. I abandoned him in the depths of his depression. He OD'ed. He had blue eyes. His life mattered. And im so sorry chase.
When Justin writes songs like this, it's hard to hate him. He may have gone through some absolute hellholes in his lifetime, but he channelled all that negative energy and turned it into something beautiful. What you see before you, ladies and gentlemen, is a real man.
This is Josh Wilson.... David's son this song can literally change your life if u take these word and run with them!!! And the soul he puts in this is so freeking awesome
I Listen To His Song Fear I Listened To His Words He Said Before he Sang The Song I Posted A Comment On The Song Fear As Well As This Song Together I Went Through A Horrible Life Chapter Through My Youngest Daughters Situation and I Raise Her Alone By Myself She Is 17yrs Old ,Old Enough Now To Know What We Been Through and It Brings Us Closer As A Mother&Daughter ,Im Praying Her Dad Will Get Help and Its Amazing How Blue October's Songs "Fear&Hate Me" Is What I Went Through and Go Through, Im Praying For Strength Everyday Your Music Is The Best Thank You For Hearing Your Words I Know I Can Overcome Anything ❤
I have listened to this version everyday for a few months now. I am working in 90* heat and I still get chills. The calm nature of his voice and the emotion that is there is so powerful.
i was depressed for a few years but never knew about it,( i have never done drugs or drink much alcohol ) i just got on with life.my family came first on every thing. i had a very bad few days with my girlfriend we have been together for almost 24 years now, then on 26 august this year i was sitting in the living room , my girlfriend 2 daughters and son and 2 grandchildren in the house, every body doing their own thing , i got up said nothing went up stairs and attempted suicide by hanging , my youngest daughter (20yrs) and my girlfriend stopped it going further, my face was purple. never seen them so upset in my life, we all have bad days in life , but life must go on , not only for me but for my family, remember everybody , there is somebody out there that will listen and help.
This too shall pass... words that speak to me. The Footsteps The Serenity Prayer. Words that I have been loving since I was a kid. Never knowing that Serenity was a prayer for addicts. It's just so relatable. And right on the mark. Suicide is never the answer. Look, there are people who do care for you. Never hurts to reach out.
I like how you said " I didn't heal in the right way" when it happens you don't really see it because you heal wrong sometimes!... But when you do, your heart freaks out! WHAT DID YOU DO! This is one of the most beautiful songs-so many emotions and hands down best version! Thank you!
Yes justin this song has helped me more than you know..I'm an addict in active recovery and I just dont have words to Express how I feel and you..this song..your other songs give me those words..thanks you guys!!
I've also had depression and anxiety all my life.. Doesn't help when those that helped you like that still have reign and power to keep you their.. Not everyone gets to escape the clutches of those that keep you in the dark.. High five to those that do 🙂👍
Thank you. I always shared the other video to get my family members off the drugs. I will never hate him, but I am sure a great enabler. Till he went to prison. Recovery and lobe now. ❤️🙏❤️🙏
Every single version of this song is so beautiful. I've heard 2 different acoustic versions and the next one is more beautiful than the last. Idk how he does it. No other bands ever kept my attention this long
This song pulls the strings that hold my heart together! The more I play this song each and every word pulls tighter on my strings just to try to make me whole again!!! Forever in love with “Hate Me”
"crawling like a cockroach, leaving babies in my bed. Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I'm alone. Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home..." The lyrical impact in this incredible musical gift is violently breathtaking
I have ALWAYS liked this bit for some reason, and it's nice to see someone else point it out. Everyone in my life just rolls their eyes at me for my lyrical loves :)
So after all these years, I'd personally like to thank you, Justin. I sang your song for three years in my head before I realized my first daughter was being born. And then I had two... Thank you.
I met you once in St. Louis Mo Justin, your band and songs mean so much to me I have the prechorus to Fear tattooed on my right forearm I wish I could hug you every day and maybe that sounds weird but I’m so thankful music saved you and you were able to release that to help and inspire others like you did me
I never thought I'd se my 21st birthday. I was drinking and doing drugs. Running around with thugs and guns. Going to jail. I turn 32 this year and I'm happier than ever. Thanks, Justin. You've inspired so many people to change into who they need to be.....
Hey its not my girl erika its the beautifull ladies hubby beautifull hb. Lol . i appreciate your heart n soul n boldness you touch people at a personal level . apologize for my lack of punctuation..... Yea ive heard ur music for years and always end up here. Hate me. I know it shud pass. But i admire ur confidence and not being afraid to be heard. Your voice. I mean. I been told i am good but i never sang for anyone its hard but. Congrats ur the sh!t!!! You helped me alot. Hoping to hear the next heart hitter bless us!!!
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The song makes me think of my mom when I was on heroin. She never gave up on me. Now I'm 5 years clean and I talked to her on the phone almost every day and go to church with her on Sundays. Listen guys I was one of those people that everybody literally thought was a lost cause that would never change his life and I turned it around. I don't care how bad of an addict or alcoholic you are you can get your life back and find happiness but you have to make that decision and it's actually a really hard one to make but I can promise you you'll never regret it if you do it. If you're not ready that's okay but you'll be ready one day and take that opportunity and take your life back.
Sending lots of love and positive vibes in your direction. Keep rockin' that sobriety!
So happy for you bro. Addiction has been kicking my ass for as long as I can remember. So glad to hear you are well. Love your mama man.
Tall words sir. Wish mine@3:55AM SF time were as poetic. And yet, it's life. I admire forthrightness...thanks for sharing your mind. BoomerNaut, sincerely Thanks, Dan (D
Joshboy future It’s the hardest thought that consumes my every day. The pain is real. Josh is my middle name.
Quite a moving statement, well done, hopefully somehow someone somewhere will be motivated by your story and follow your actions
Just in case someone can't tell. This is a piece of art.
Masterpiece
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It's definitely a deep, touching, work put to such a good tune. Literally almost without closing my eyes, takes me to another place and time. Time travel is possible.
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This man will never know he saved my life. Thank you Justin!
Mine too! 4 years clean now. This song was my hope
@@maymaypooch I'm glad you're both here.
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I'm glad you guys are still here ❤
Thank you God 🙏❤️🩹💙
My brother just ended his own life a few months ago. I thought he had everything figured out. He had money; a beautiful wife, incredible kids, a solid job, a nice house, and surrounded by people who loved him. But these people had no idea what this internal battle was doing to him until he was gone. This song takes on a whole new meaning thinking about my big bro.
Stay strong❤🙏🌻
So sorry
Hello, I'm very sorry for your loss.
I can relate because only I know what's really going on inside myself but without the family or friends. I'm on my own and have felt this way as long as I can remember. Its rough. Stull javent found or understand what my purpose in life is other than to be alone in this world and it's not easy. I often wonder why I even wake up in the morning
I'm so sorry for your loss, my big brother died 3 years ago from a overdose. He just got out of jail and he had so much to live for. The sad part is I never got to meet him, besides talking to him on the phone. I got that call that he passed away and I was in tears.
Sorry for your loss. It's scary how often this happens. People who seemingly have it all seem to struggle as much as everyone else. I often wonder if It's not as much a matter of depression as it is a lack of fulfillment in modern society's definition of having it all.
Hey...what's important is that you've grown and healed the right way. You're a beautiful instrument of God. With Him inside your heart, you are reaching so many people who have been so lost. You are right where you belong. God is using you to reach many lost ones. 💙 With this being said, Thank you so much Justin
This song gets me every time. From 2014-2016 I was living in my truck and my thoughts were getting so dark. In 2016, I attempted suicide 5 times (details on how are not important). One day in January 2018 I sat down and did a "life review" and wrote things I've always wanted to do in my life. I kept coming back to Forensic Psychology. Then on another page, I wrote goals I had to accomplish in order to attain them. I'm 36 years old and now a Senior at Sam Houston State (February 2020). I'm getting my Bachelor's degree in Victim Studies and minoring in Psychology in December (2020). In the up and coming months, I'm applying for the PhD level program of Psychology with Emphasis in Forensics to become a Forensic Psychologist. I still have that list of goals in my wallet and I look at it from time to time to keep the drive going. That I'm not done. When I get my own office as a Forensic Psychologist, this list of goals will go into a frame and I'll hang it right beside my Bachelor's and PhD degrees on the wall behind my desk to remind me everyday as I walk in that I accomplished my goals to get to that point. I've scratched and clawed my way to where I am now with determination, will, focus and hard work. My son (11 years old) is my happy thought that helped me through this. I want him to know there are going to be detours in life. But don't give up. He is the greatest detour to my legacy. I love you, bud!
That list... Same thing here. It saved me after my first attempt at ending the pain was botched by a friend.
Then one night, 3am, it came to me. Make a list...
I did. I am alive more now than ever before.
@@jerrodroberts7873 that's great, sir! Sometimes hitting rock bottom is the only way for us to see the light. The only way from that point is up. Stick with that list. Add to it as well as checking off your accomplishments as you go. Don't give up, my friend 😁 When I graduate with my Bachelor's this December, I'm getting my son and his mom down here from out of state because that will be the icing on the cake to this one of many accomplishments I will complete. Having my son there as I walk across the stage will be the best feeling in the world.
Amazing
@@roxannadrake7186 thank you!!!
I don't live far from Huntsville Tx. Good school. Thanks for sharing hopefully you inspired someone who might be in a similar situation.
As a recovering alcoholic and drug addict this song still cuts deep.
All the best on your way to sobriety. After a huge relapse in 2013 I'm sober since then. Life's not always easy but drugs and alcohol aren't the solution to problems. Take care mate.
Dennis Haines me too but not recoverd 😪
Im 10 mos sober. Alcohol and drugs. Hardest thing i've ever done. It's a struggle everyday. Just have to realize it's worth it. Seeing the world through sober eyes is a beautiful thing!
Dennis haines. Looks likes its been 5 months how you doing man?
Keep on keeping on brother. Never really dealth with any addiction problems, but I admire people who overcome a problems like these. Best wishes!
My mother passed away a year ago and she used to make me listen to this song. She was a very big Blue October fan and was part of the fan club. We got flowers from the blue October fa.ily and that was the coolest thing I ever saw. This version is the best version of this song thank you for being part of my life and my moms.
I am sorry for your loss, my friend. I hope that someday the wounds will heal enough to feel peace.
I'm alive because of this song thanks Justin
gamriestu me too
Keep fighting. Depression is a nasty battle. One day at a time.
keep your head up! the world won't be the same without yuo. we all have a place here and now, seize the moment and conquer your inner demons!
No your alive because God isn't ready for you! Trust me I know this because I've been there.
I'm addict and my husband had to give up on me...this song helps me
Didn't hear this song, or Blue October until September 2019 .. almost immediately I placed it in my top 3 favorite songs of all time .. and then I kept listening, I didn't know that Justin's music would touch something in me so personally, it's as if he knew me ..that his music would become a backdrop for my life ..
This song, this band, this man understands trials, tribulations and triumph. I love their music. I understand the depression and the pain, just not the victory yet. You help many with your music. Thank you
Lionel Mendez w depression it’s never a victory it’s just dealing w it honestly. 3x I’ve tried to take my own life.
Lionel Mendez I’m looking for the victory too my friend , but accepting it is the first step
hilt same.. it is just dealing with it. No cure
Amen.
kevin hilt I woke up after tako g my life in the ER my kidneys failed..I was in a coma for a few days.. Im hurting now because I open my self up to someone who I thought cared for me She made me HATE myself.
..Everyday Im alive is a victory for me in a small way..
Holy hell..... this got to me. Such raw emotion. Painfully beautiful when the soul comes out....
Agreed 100%
You should watch some Alice in Chains unplugged
Kinda killer, huh? Every ex junkie knows this one all too well. Nice when beauty can emerge from the ugliest depths
His 10th anniversary live version has my whole heart 🖤
I suffered from depression and anxiety and panic attacks music is one of my medicine's good bless great song writer's
I love this man the fact he speaks about how he felt. Even in this day and age guys always feel we are weak I'm still that way but he makes it just a little bit easier every time I hear him
I've loved this for at least 12 years.... it never grows old.... now that I've had siblings battle addiction it's taken new life. This guy's voice speaks to my spirit.
My 28 yr old son overdosed on 11/25/11 I am crying now and this song always brings me to tears
I'm a grown freaking man and I am bawling on the freaking sofa
When you hate yourself you need at least one person to say you're ok.
No one says I’m gonna be ok they know im gone I’ll be dead soon enough
@@dr.yayson2585 you're ok to me. Better alive than dead.
@@dr.yayson2585 Be better than ok, you are.
@@dr.yayson2585 You really can be alright if you want to be. I pray you find the desire to make a better life for yourself.
The right person. Some people tell you this, they don't mean it. They have no clue what so ever , at all, what you're going through or where you even have been.
I’m a 55 year old mom of four. My oldest son turned me on to this song/group. I absolutely LOVE it...
I hope she knows i pray for her every night 🙏💔
She doesn't have to know. It's a secret between you and God.
In darkness it's so hard to find light and Blue October has literally brightened my entire life through there music...there honesty about how real life is not easy....and just singing from the soul....Thank you
Ok, so I'm not the only one balling my eyes out when I hear this song - good!
Justin. You changed my entire life with this song. I have hate me today on my chest and my brother has hate me tomorrow on his. I watch what you do and love you for it. And I hope your happy
That is so cool ❤️
So so much emotion in the version. I started crying...
I aint gunna lie, I teared up myself.. This guys soul is soo amazing.
I've loved blue October for a long time. First time I've seen this version 😢 I teared up
Literally the first time I've knowingly heard this band. I'm going searching for more of their songs now.
This will be one of your greatest journies. Someone who knew my situation told me to listen to Hate Me to understand what my son chose to do. The lyrics and video about his Mother hit so hard that I immediately loved to hate it and hated to love it. Watching and listening to Hate Me became a toturous therapy that enabled me to understand a major family problem and ignited a desire to hear and learn more about Blue October.
It was quickly obvious that Blue October was Justin's dream and he had a story so I listened to music and watched videos and interviews in chronological order. That helped me understand how and when the band was created, the nasty disease that almost destroyed Justin and the gifts bestowed upon him that càused band members to believe he was worth their support though his actions negatively affected their lives and almost destoyed Blue October.
When I finished watching and reading everything I could find about Justin Furstenfeld I knew someone will want to tell his story. The next day I read about the documentary being made about Justin.
I would recommend that anyone who's new to Blue October try to listen to their songs or albums in proper sequence so they understand the trials and transformations of Justin, the band and their music.
Some of their earler music reminded me of head bangers but that quickly passed and the music, lyrics and Justin's voice combined to make beautiful sense. Every member of Blue October has a unique talent that's used to compliment each other and fulfill their common goal for the band to be their lifelong career.
You should listen to the original of this, which is the version they played on the radio. I do like the acoustic better, but I love the line when his voice changes in the original- "So I'll drive so fucking far away that I never cross your mind" Then it changes again a little, -
"And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind"
I just think it sounds better and he should do it acoustic the same. Like everyone else on here, I've fought with same demons. Been clean & sober almost 9 yrs now. That's definitely an accomplishment someone helped me with and I'll never touch again.
How beautiful…. This song reminds me of my mom, and our co dependent can’t live with or without you relationship we still have. Even now that I’m 40 years old, we’re still going through it, but we love each other.
Thank you for this. ❤
This is what I aspire to be, his voice, the lyrics, the music, it’s so beautiful.... it’s so damn beautiful
My husband has been clean and sober now for almost 15 years. The first 8 years before sobriety where this song, completely. It pulls so hard at my heart. He still has many challenges. C-PTSD, ADHD, & chronic depression, etc. Our marriage can be a lot of work, but he is a wonderful husband and father. This song helps me remember the weight of the burdens he has carried. I love you BJL. Always.
I've rediscovered Blue October recently. I love this band. Keep up the good work guys and continue to stay humble. Your humility is what brought me back.
I too Justin, dedicated this to someone who would rather hate me than see my love...painful reality of parenthood sometimes...easier for him to follow the hate than be strong enough to open his heart to me. Felt the pain man, felt the pain...
Hahaha your slick
Makes the song even more emotional and powerful, and I didn't realize it could hit harder like this....
That little story of Justin's at the start really got me.
I'm not like that anymore but as an 18 year old I really felt like I was the best thing in earth and I treated people like shit for my own selfish reasons and to feel good about myself. I too believe everything happens for a reason, so I don't really regret it per se, because I'm exactly where I want to be now in life at 30, but sometimes I do wish I didn't treat the people I loved so badly. They didn't deserve it.
I hope one day I can grow enough balls to apologise to those people.
Phewww. Listening to this at 33 is a lot different than at 20. Holy shit!
Is getting better?
I’m 27, almost 28. I’m dreading turning 30. How do I cope? 😭
@@LegalAutomation Drink. Do it often and hard.
@@LegalAutomation love it!and be happy!
@Kris Williamson or 50s
This is what makes a musician, a musician..as people we struggle with ourselves, and demons. But being able to accept them and over come them. It what make us prevail through our darkest of times.
My son says these are the words he screams in his head- he hurts so bad to see me cry, but still help him as he struggles through his heroin addiction. Sorry son, but I won't ever hate you, you are beautiful. I'm here....always.
This is like one of the first pictures you see on the wall on a museum. Real art
The man can write like no other putting lyrics together to paint maybe the worst part of his life to heal,to learn,to share to show us all how to truly say here I am now and I want to be better your a contribution to so many lives and for all those lives THANK YOU
This song, this one in particular, SAVED MY LIFE
This song brings me to tears every time I hear it. I'll never give up on my boyfriend while he navigates recovery.
this didnt age well. he started using meth again and got scary violent. I had to leave.
If you listen, he's playing in the keys of Stand by Me......... This is one of my favorite songs for many reasons............... Tears...........
Shawn M Detroit I hear it now. At first I was hearing Pearl Jam’s cover of Last Kiss
To my eldest two.... I hope I live long enough to have you two in my life again. I always did the best with what I had at the time. I swear there is no future on the road you've taken. I love you bunches, to the moon and back.
honesty is such an amazing quality in a world full of lies.. I'll always like this band
Oh my. This man and this song reminds me of my husband that recently passed away. I cry to his voice. Every word. My depression , my sadness about what happened. And all the things my husband went through. I miss so much. Justin voice helps me through every second of my life. I only wish hug and Thanks for your help and band. You helped me through this most difficult situation in my life. He is saying all the things I wanted my husband to say. It makes me so good. Thanks for being the best band and songwriter ever. I don't think it would be possible without you... To my love Robert. Thanks for your beautiful voice everyday. You have made me stronger than I ever was.. When no one came back for me. Blue October never left my heart....DG ....❤🖤💙
This song touches me in so many ways. I liked this song when it was new and after 10 years I tear up when I hear it. Justin it's the best apology I have ever heard. I did not know you wrote it for this reason but really incredible to replace what I had thought it was for. I use this for my Mother and how when we were young we never give the respect that our parents deserve and it still fits for that too. Thanks for your passionate song I will cherish and share it as much as I can.
I’m speechless..his most heartfelt performance of this song I’ve ever seen. I love how he elaborated more and how he sang it differently. True artist.
I really love this version then the original. You really feel the emotions when he sings this song I cried big time 😭
I have never seen such a charismatic singer as Justin! Have loved you guys since Day 1. You're a real savior to so many people. Just know that we appreciate your talent and your love!!
An Absolutely Amazing Display of Gut-Wrenching, Heart-Twisting, Soul-Strangling & Tangibly-Real Emotion Equalled by None; except perhaps his audience..
One of those songs that you feel right down to your soul. It hit home so much. In a relationship I had when I was young, I saw the beauty in his soul even when he didn’t. He pushed me away. No matter what he said or did I stayed. After the final push I left. He now tells me I saved his life time and time again. We are like family. Although we are not together, I still
Love him 30 years later. I feel
music so much. It gets me through many hard times. I got chills listening to the emotions of this song. Thank you for sharing your soul with us 😢
T Mandell, thank you for sharing,. I had a very similar experience although the outcome was sadly not the same. Strangely I could never blame him for ending his anguish. But now I live with all the pain he left behind and 20 years later I still love him with all my heart & soul. Music has kept me hanging on as well. Bless you for being there when he needed you most.❤️
Why does this video have a single thumbs down. Music saved his life. And people put thumbs down. Love blue October. Im glad your still with us justin. Hope i see you in Massachusetts
This is my first exposure to the song and band, holly crap am I a fan of this.
It's a song that the lyrics grab you so tight, it's brilliant
Always chokes me up.
Superb 🙏
So much emotion on his face when he sings. Incredible. So much better to watch him play live.
he reminds me of aaron lewis these guys have true feelings and can sing about things that have happend in their lives its raw talent
I know this is a song about an abandoned lover, but i lost a best friend. I abandoned him in the depths of his depression. He OD'ed. He had blue eyes. His life mattered. And im so sorry chase.
When Justin writes songs like this, it's hard to hate him. He may have gone through some absolute hellholes in his lifetime, but he channelled all that negative energy and turned it into something beautiful. What you see before you, ladies and gentlemen, is a real man.
Love this version of this powerful songs. I cried.
This is Josh Wilson.... David's son this song can literally change your life if u take these word and run with them!!! And the soul he puts in this is so freeking awesome
I watched Justin last night is a small auditorium where he told his whole story....this guy is amazing.
I Listen To His Song Fear I Listened To His Words He Said Before he Sang The Song I Posted A Comment On The Song Fear As Well As This Song Together I Went Through A Horrible Life Chapter Through My Youngest Daughters Situation and I Raise Her Alone By Myself She Is 17yrs Old ,Old Enough Now To Know What We Been Through and It Brings Us Closer As A Mother&Daughter ,Im Praying Her Dad Will Get Help and Its Amazing How Blue October's Songs "Fear&Hate Me" Is What I Went Through and Go Through, Im Praying For Strength Everyday Your Music Is The Best Thank You For Hearing Your Words I Know I Can Overcome Anything ❤
I enjoy this version. Hearing the words more than the misic really puts things in perspective
This version is so well put together and his voice is so damn amazing..
I have listened to this version everyday for a few months now. I am working in 90* heat and I still get chills. The calm nature of his voice and the emotion that is there is so powerful.
Its too early in the morning. And I'm too grown, to be all in my feelings.
I cried like a baby when he played this at the concert. Literally just couldn't stop crying.
Me right now.
@catwithoutthe hat we are actually animals lol but I understand
Never too grown to be in your feelings, they are important
@@aweirdperson.864 thank you don't run from them you'll never find you
Love this song and for the ones keeping sober, keep up the good work you are somebody!!!!!
i was depressed for a few years but never knew about it,( i have never done drugs or drink much alcohol ) i just got on with life.my family came first on every thing. i had a very bad few days with my girlfriend we have been together for almost 24 years now, then on 26 august this year i was sitting in the living room , my girlfriend 2 daughters and son and 2 grandchildren in the house, every body doing their own thing , i got up said nothing went up stairs and attempted suicide by hanging , my youngest daughter (20yrs) and my girlfriend stopped it going further, my face was purple. never seen them so upset in my life, we all have bad days in life , but life must go on , not only for me but for my family, remember everybody , there is somebody out there that will listen and help.
I hope you are OK. I prayed for you. Not sure if you are spiritual or religious but look up to God (Jesus).
This too shall pass... words that speak to me.
The Footsteps
The Serenity Prayer.
Words that I have been loving since I was a kid. Never knowing that Serenity was a prayer for addicts. It's just so relatable. And right on the mark.
Suicide is never the answer. Look, there are people who do care for you. Never hurts to reach out.
I like how you said " I didn't heal in the right way" when it happens you don't really see it because you heal wrong sometimes!... But when you do, your heart freaks out! WHAT DID YOU DO! This is one of the most beautiful songs-so many emotions and hands down best version! Thank you!
God bless you. Thanks for the music and your life....they are both appreciated!!
I love how he is honest about depression etc... I love this tune and the meaning behind it!!
Yes justin this song has helped me more than you know..I'm an addict in active recovery and I just dont have words to Express how I feel and you..this song..your other songs give me those words..thanks you guys!!
justin stephens good luck, I believe in you
Everything Justin does is pure heart and soul...I love his music for that reason....
Falling in love with this tune once again.
Gorgeous rendition ❤😭
Blue October-- thank you for your exquisite no bs lyrics .You touch my soul. Beautiful.
Thank you.....I'm putting this in my saved video vault. Tears of joy man. 🤘
This is my ever thought right now. Heroin addiction ruined my life and all those who loved me. This song wow!
"Could you please bring back her smile"
Me too brother. Never could I understand but I feel you.
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I've also had depression and anxiety all my life.. Doesn't help when those that helped you like that still have reign and power to keep you their.. Not everyone gets to escape the clutches of those that keep you in the dark.. High five to those that do 🙂👍
Thank you. I always shared the other video to get my family members off the drugs. I will never hate him, but I am sure a great enabler. Till he went to prison. Recovery and lobe now. ❤️🙏❤️🙏
His music has helped me through so much. Thank you.
Blue October: Hate me
Me:no I don’t think I will
Every single version of this song is so beautiful. I've heard 2 different acoustic versions and the next one is more beautiful than the last. Idk how he does it. No other bands ever kept my attention this long
His voice gives me CHILLS
Cheers brother, Thanks for keeping it real, one day at a time.. YOU GOT THIS !!
This song pulls the strings that hold my heart together! The more I play this song each and every word pulls tighter on my strings just to try to make me whole again!!! Forever in love with “Hate Me”
"crawling like a cockroach, leaving babies in my bed. Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I'm alone. Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home..."
The lyrical impact in this incredible musical gift is violently breathtaking
I have ALWAYS liked this bit for some reason, and it's nice to see someone else point it out. Everyone in my life just rolls their eyes at me for my lyrical loves :)
So after all these years, I'd personally like to thank you, Justin. I sang your song for three years in my head before I realized my first daughter was being born. And then I had two... Thank you.
Thank you! This is my favorite song. You changed my life.
WOW you're one AMAZING human being i was losing faith in humans you have just returned my faith WHAT AN AMAZING THING TO DO 💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗
An incredible gift you gave... I hope they received it.
I met you once in St. Louis Mo Justin, your band and songs mean so much to me I have the prechorus to Fear tattooed on my right forearm I wish I could hug you every day and maybe that sounds weird but I’m so thankful music saved you and you were able to release that to help and inspire others like you did me
This lead singer reminds me so much of my best friend of years ago, Ray. And just a beautiful, sad song....
Damn x96 haven't listened to them since I moved away 12 years ago. Clearly still got it
love hearing the stories behind songs
damn, this song still gets me in the feels... thank you!
I never thought I'd se my 21st birthday. I was drinking and doing drugs. Running around with thugs and guns. Going to jail. I turn 32 this year and I'm happier than ever. Thanks, Justin. You've inspired so many people to change into who they need to be.....
Pass the box of tissues!
Humble looks and sounds great on him. His voice just keeps getting better
"And will you never say that you LOVED me". Past tense ;) I see you man. Awesome
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you.
Truer words have never been spoken.
Completely addicted to this version. Holy hell. This is just absolutely incredible. This is just wow. Unreal.
Hey its not my girl erika its the beautifull ladies hubby beautifull hb. Lol . i appreciate your heart n soul n boldness you touch people at a personal level . apologize for my lack of punctuation..... Yea ive heard ur music for years and always end up here. Hate me. I know it shud pass. But i admire ur confidence and not being afraid to be heard. Your voice. I mean. I been told i am good but i never sang for anyone its hard but. Congrats ur the sh!t!!! You helped me alot. Hoping to hear the next heart hitter bless us!!!