This was a cool concept for a game and genuinely challenging to see everything. It can be played without a webcam, but this is the intended way to experience it. I did my best :)
the whole theme about not missing anything by trying not to blink with the kid coming to terms about missing alot of his life is pretty darn genius i must say
When they said, "what's the point if he's not gonna get any better" I thought they were talking about his piano playing, but it was about him being sick?? Jeez thats dark
i dont know what would meet me there. one or both of my pet birds when i was younger than 7, the fish i had at the same time as the birds or ziva, the cat i have now. either way, i hope that a childhood pet actually welcomes me to the great beyond
@@duckmaster291 That would be why the OP said "red button to administer the pain medication", my dude. They didn't say it was a cure for his disease... I want to say you're being pedantic, but you're not, you're just super thick in the head.
Watching this live was such an experience. You had people being pissed because Dan kept blinking, and on the other hand you had people sobbing uncontrollably. 10/10 one of the best experiences of my life.
I didn't expect to cry watching this, but just that one line, that "He was everything he needed to be" broke the barrier. He was just a kid, he hadn't achieved anything, he was a loner and an unpopular loser. But he was still everything he needed to be. I wish someone I know would say those words to me too.
As long as you believe you are everything you need then that's all Your life is like a suitcase, there is only so much you can carry with it If your life feels shattered, don't go finding knew stuff to fix it with cause those shatters are still there and they can be reformed into the pieces your missing, if you just look for more things to replace it...you won't have any room for what you lost, and if you dont have room for what you lost, you won't have room for what you need - me 2021 I hope that anyone who reads this is able to refer to it when they feel over burdened or sad
My guy, keep going strong. I know it may seem like you’ve got a lot to go up against, but it’s worth it. Hundreds of millions of people around the word would think you’re one of the coolest people they’ve met if they got the chance to. Nobody gives anyone enough credit for being alive. It can suck, and there’s way too many lonely nights where it doesn’t feel like you want to, but just remember all those little moments you got, and all those little moments you gave everyone else. Imagine all the lives you couldn’t have touched if you weren’t here. Imagine all of the lives you haven’t gotten to touch yet if you vanished. Everyone has a purpose and no matter what you do, you’ll fulfill it.
Tbh the only person who can do it is you. I know from experience of fully accepting my existence as someone who felt and still feels worthless. I may hate the lack of motivation I have when I do something I'm not passionate about, and I may never achieve anything despite working as hard as my mind will allow me. But I've accepted the fact that no matter what happens, I will be forever proud of overcoming the odds stacked against me in my life. I lived through it, and that's all that matters. Fate will take it's course, and eventually I will die. But until then, I will try to make things for myself and other people that I can be proud of when it's finally time to leave this place. I'll write and draw my heart out until I die so that when I do there will be something to show for how much I was really capable of to begin with. I think leaving people as well as ourselves with gifts and memories is the best gift anyone can give to the world around them, and once you realize that you are inherently valuable because you live and work for the now and not the later things will turn around. Learn to value the little things along the way, because they'll end up mattering more then anything in the long run.
As someone who got cancer at 14, this hit hard because I was able to push through, and I have to think about the people that didnt make it. All the people I met in the hospital, who didnt have family, who didnt have friends to support them. They had nobody, and this video really represents that. He was finally ready, and during many points during my treatment I was as well.
Well, I'm glad that you pushed through and are still here. Not only that, but I find the fact that you feel for those you met who didn't have what you had while you were there and what you have now to be quite kind. Best wishes for the future. I mean that.
I was one of those in the hospital young that had no one. Still, there were other patients and even the nurses and doctors who were there that really helped me feel not so alone and thrown away. I'm glad you made it.
@@apollyonnoctis1291 He also trapped many people in Vault 666, a giant bedrock box, forced people to dig their own pit to the void which he dropped most into, and other crimes too horrid to list... But yes, he does bring us joy ^-^
It really hit home when Chloe started saying he was faking being sick. I got sick around that age; extreme pain, palpitations, constant cancer checks; and they ALL thought I was faking it just by how weird it was and still is. Man, the friends I lost from their fear of knowing a possibly dying person... how my siblings turned on me cause they had to take care of my chores... my parents yelling saying to suck it up and stop crying since they were overwhelmed... Chloe brought that all back up. Her voice actor making her sound indifferent, how she's "been through it before" and "knows he's just faking"... God they did that too well.
I felt this too, it’s how my first relationship ended. I was so crushed for years and hearing that part in the game just made me feel like I went through a time machine. I’ve never seen a game handle being chronically ill/disabled with such care and gentleness, this is a moving and relatable experience. Also being an artist with a mother who is very similar to the one portrayed, it just feels like this game was telling my life story in a way. Just so genuinely moving 💙 I hope you’re doing okay, and remember that you’ll always be more than your illnesses/disabilities 💙
@@sweetsunny5996 looks like we went through similar things. I felt the same way with the care and perfection of the story, and being brought back years in a matter of seconds. I do wonder if they consulted a family that went through this too. Thank you for your words, same to you 💖
For anyone who was upset about not seeing the full letter at 29:45, it’s pretty much all she wrote. All RT blinked past was an extra “Love, Chloe” at the end.
There was a kid in elementary that I didn't really "know", but I knew. She, unfortunately, passed days after her 7th birthday. She didn't live long, but every day at school felt brighter with her, and every student shared the same sentiment. This game reminded me of her impact on all of us. RIP, you'll never be forgotten.
I had a similar experience. I had a friend in elementary school who I'd play with everyday at recess. We'd go acorn hunting, smash them to see what was inside and bury the rest when it was time to go in, then see if we could find them the next day (we never could). She drowned in a swimming pool in 2nd grade, and the elementary school made a pretty memorial for her and a large portion of my class attended her funeral. She was a fun person to be around and was/is dearly missed.
Unfortunately within a blink of an eye, 1, 2, 3 generations will pass and yes. she will inevitably be forgotten. as will all of us unless we do something really big
This game’s ending with the parents being there at Benjamin’s deathbed as he is accepted by the cat and the mom and ferryman both reading the heart-wrenching story actually tears me apart. It makes me question my life and what my story is.
Cats know when you're sick or lonely or in pain. Some catz will usually never acknowledge you except to beg for food but once you're sick they won't leave your side.
Negativity below. I’m feeling bad so I tend to push that onto others. Read at your own risk. I hear cats also eat you after you die. If you’re sick, maybe they know you’re soon to die and wish to eat you. Just theorizing. Dogs also eat you. As far as being lonely, idk. I do know my dogs lick up my tears, but I think that’s because they like salt. Side note: I also really, really hate cats. I had one and it kinda ruined my childhood.
I lost my childhood cat last November, just a couple months shy of her 21st birthday. She was the sweetest lady, my millennium kitty, my constant companion for two-thirds of my life, always around to take care of me when I wasn't well. I miss her terribly, that Phoebe cat.
@@user-sf9gs2pg1b Funny enough Dogs eat their owners after death more than cats do because cats are picky eaters and some would prefer to starve themselves before eating disgusting human. Cats and dogs both are very social animals though and if you feel down will try to comfort you - cats even purr randomly if they notice you don't feel well because the purring can help calm and soothe pain as well as help with healing.
Fuck dude. Just... fuck. This game is heavy. It’s scary just how much each blink, each skip, makes my heart sink. When the red cloud of the disease consumed your entire vision, I felt like crying. What a masterpiece.
@@ActingOutVA Au contraire mon ami, this is a man of exquisite, refined taste, and above all a man of culture. Truly embodies the essence of high society.
I knew he wasn't gonna get better when he wrote the letter, but the mom's story really sealed it in. It was her way of coping with losing the child she loved so dearly so soon.
From what I understood the life Benny describes at first was the story made up by himself with the typewriter, but in reality he died in his bed... The fact that the ferryman said that despite Benny litearly dying at 11 years old and despite that called his life a full life... man, that hit me, because I always worry that I won't live a full life. And also the fact that in the end the parents were described as "ordinary" says that you don't NEED to land into a family that is the best in the world, man this is a good game with some good messaging. At least from how I understood it.
As a teenager with a chronic illness, this game means so much to me, i don't know how i could ever pay the developers back for this, thank you for posting this video
as a different teenager with a chronic illness, i wanted to let you know i appreciate the comment and i want you to know there’s at least one person out there who loves and supports you
as yet another teenager with chronic illness, i hope youre doing well, take care of yourself okay? yeah, life is pretty shit, but theres always something that makes it worthwhile
As another to add to the list, during my illness I also had a lovely Siamese who never once left my side. I lost him in January, so this entire thing hit really hard. Stay strong all of you.
this happens when a human reads in the middle of the line the blink thats why you saw him blink on the middle word "are" this is why in games like these you should be careful when given something to read if you want more evidence true reading your comment on the first line "Dear weird neighbour kid" and notice that you blink on the word "weird" or the word "neighbour" or in between them
@@Fatality2013 im guessing that someone knew the story and foreshadowed it before it was revealed that benny actually lied to the ferryman about getting better
1:54 The fact that the metronome induces anxiety when it pops up is so genius since it also represents the anxiety that Benjamin felt when having to play.
this game was so beautiful. when they revealed that the kid had passed and everything about him being an artist was just a dream i lost it and could not stop crying for the rest of the story
This one hits hard. I had a friend whos sister died from breast cancer when she was just 16 years old. She was VERY talented in drawing and she was not too bad at playing the piano. She died when I was 10, and it hit hard as hell, as she was one of the friendliest people I've ever met before.
It reminds me of my cousin, she was my best friend and she was the most amazing and friendliest girl, she past away at 10, she had DIPG which is a form of cancer that primarily affects children. She would have been sixteen with me this year, I miss her so much.
This got me to tears reading this and watching the video. I’m not very close with my family as my parents left my country since I was 2, my great grandmother had died recently and she lived in the country I came from , I occasionally visited for summers but we never got rlly close so when she died I was heartbroken because there was that natural love from the few times we got to spend with each other but I ultimately felt as if i didn’t spend enough time with my great grandmother.
So like, this 11 year old boy was very sick and in his fever dreams, feeling like he’s not ready to go, like he still has so much to live for, he imagines a future where he is healed and becomes a world famous artist. But this is all a beautiful lie he dreamt up which prevents him from passing on. At the end, in self-reflection and together with his first love he starts accepting his imminent end and gains a new, more positive perspective on his life. Finally, in the company of his family he welcome the end of a short, but fully lived out life. Or did I understand wrong?
@@morrowmorrow4811 Now that you mention it: I feel like Elle was probably panicking, with her son being at death’s door but _he_ probably interpreted that as _her_ actually being close to death (the breathing being hard can also be taken as Elle having a severe health problem) and “dying” in his imagined grown-up future
Eyes were dry through most of this. Burst into tears in the living room when I heard: "Why is he smiling like that?" "He must be somewhere he likes." Fucking Hell.
@@coreyhahn7943 when the kittens died I was just sad. The type that gives you depression. That last bit made me sad but the emotional type not the emotionless one.
*SPOILER: Conclusion of story!* So he died while he was sick at home and the whole college and art gallery was all a dream, because he felt like he never achieved anything, but the thing he achieved was being there for others? Great story!
I have no idea why, but the moment he wrote that he just laid down and died, I teared up. I dunno why but everything just kinda felt hopeless, and it broke my heart. Same thing happened when everything went red and white
this really sent me tearing up, back in elementary school i lost 2 friends to leukemia and i just wondered if this is what they were feeling the whole time
@@aniyilator This is a really sad one, so please don't read if you're not mentally prepared. There was once a 911 call of a 11 year old (I think) who was stuck in a car. He called the police, stating that he was going to die. They didn't send anyone because they thought it was a prank call, so he actually died shortly after.
@@aniyilator it reminds me of the final verse in the song "Lucky Man", which was written by a kid. "A bullet had found him, his blood ran as he cried. No money could save him, so he laid down and he died. Ooh what a lucky man he was."
Plus, there’s that simple thing “he was everything he needed to be.” Because you are, we all are. You don’t have to amount to anything. For a life to be worthwhile you have to have made one person feel a little better even just one time. You’ll always be enough
I had such deja vu with him being sick. It reminded me of my childhood in the hospital, when my friends doctors and family said I was faking, and I was all alone and just wanted it to end already. I sobbed because I knew how he felt, I was just blessed enough to survive
Please, call it sadness, not "Depression". Depression is not just being sad because you watched something that made you cry or sad. Depression is much more. It eats you inside 'till you're nothing but something to waste.
This whole game has a really great concept. You try not to blink as if you are fighting the disease At last you just can't do anything no matter how hard you struggle
Not just that, but facing the truth. Sometimes, lying is associated with blinking especially when interrogated. The fact that he can't blink while facing the truth is perfect symbolism. It's hard to face the truth, to be honest and thus to accept it. God the mechanic fits the theme perfectly.
The dad was the best character he was comforting to everyone and was okay with you not being perfect and doing stuff with friends and not being perfect
Always need at least 1 person like that in a family, when everything and everyone is falling apart, they're the rock keeping everyone living and ticking on by. Tends to be the father I think.
@@maisie2730 That. That, hits hard. Especially now when most kids dont have a Father in there life saying, its ok being yourself while still enjoying life.
@@MisSpace What in the world are you on about? Why would it not be ok being yourself? Why would you not want to be your best self? You make zero sense.
Fun fact: The gate keeper is shown as a cat with 2 tails - According to Japanese mythology, if a cat is incredibly well cared for and loved during its life, it becomes a two tailed cat spirit - implying that after Earnie came in through the window, she was spoilt and pampered with affection the remainder of her life
Whoever wrote this game is one of the best writers I have ever encountered. This story is so poignant and moved my soul. I hope one day I can write something as moving as this...and the theme of this game made me not want to waste any more time.
This is like every writers go too when he cant think of something that would actlly mean something so he pulls u in with a child...you watch yourself grow you meet your first love or what ever and then die early causing everyone around to be sad but then they realise how good there lives were with you or some shit. You see this everyware, this was extremely predictable and boring.
@@themysteriousman1017 ok mr "expert writer", tell us a "moving" story then, I better cry a river when I finish reading it, and it better not be ugh pRedIcTaBle.
@@BasiliskDark536 I never said I was a expert, all I said was you see this style of writing everywhere, comics, books, movies, TV and games if the writer cant pull you in with something they think the reader would enjoy they go strait to the innocence of a child because they know it's instinctive for us to love and protect so we get attached to what there writing,and then they spice it up a little with an dream he never got or a parent dying(this guy was so desperate for you to get hooked he put both in the same story), it's a simple psychology trick and this guy was praising it like it was the best thing ever.
But that would make him blink a hell of a lot if they dried out. It would likely hurt too. I have dry eyes as a side effect of medicine I take, so I know from experience.
I can report as a person who played this game then watched the video to avoid spoilers, yes we have water in our eyes but we physically cannot cry cause of the blinking
As someone who lost a family member to cancer just 2 months ago, I really feel this, I wish he could've seen so many things, but that's just not how life works, life is difficult, and there's so many decisions, but you just have to treasure every moment
this game is absolutely crsuhing. for someone who already is afraid of forgetting a lot of memories, thinking about how they are gone in a blink is... terrifying. edit: is three weeks later now and i finished the video, after stopping halfway the first time.. wow.
As someone who's experienced nothing but crippling existential dread for the last few years after experiencing loss and occasionally thinks about similar stuff, I think it's important to remember that everything is finite and we don't truly own anything, even our memories, and one day we'll have to let go of everything, but you must not despair, just enjoy the moments while you can, there's no point in living in fear of the unknown.
As a chronically ill/disabled person, this was really meaningful to watch. It's also really quite meaningful to me that the game can be played with just your eye movement, this is technology often used in adaptive equipment for disabled people. There's a lot to be said for people who are born having certain hopes and dreams and a certain image of their future, only to realize their ambitions are truly unreachable, at least in the way they envisioned. And the fear of dying before we're able to do anything of value in the world is so deep. I really believe that no person has to do anything to have value. I don't care of other people think we're faking or lazy or entitled, it's not true. I've never seen a piece of media portray disability with such kindness and care. Thank you for playing this RT, I really appreciate it.
@@SF-zm2py Yes I want to be clear- I truly do not believe in laziness as a concept. We always have a reason for doing or not doing what others think we should be doing. Whether it's because of pain, sadness, not sleeping enough, sleeping too much, having a bad day, family trouble, whatever it is. Some things can be improved and it's important to put work into building stability and health for ourselves- but you don't need to "accomplish" anything to have a meaningful, fulfilling life. That's what I believe at least, and I feel like this game illustrated that belief in a lovely way. I hope you are taking care of yourself.
Thanks for playing this RT. Im a 17yr old with stage 4 cancer, diagnosed on Jan 12 of this year. Treatment has been really rough, and today was especially difficult due to chemo-nausea and complete exhaustion. When i finally got home today, i decided to watch this and it got me to really cry and reflect on my journey so far. I havent cried once since i was diagnosed, dont know why i havent cried but this did it for me, and i really really needed that. So thank you, and thank you for delivering such great content all the time.
I am really sorry to hear what you are currently going through right now. I know at that stage is already past the point of no return but I'm sure what you did for those past 17 years made a great impact to those around you. I lost a friend from germ cancer this February and it was painful to see him go at such a young age especially when his mother was the one who messaged his account on our group chat.
@@3sty216 Im really sorry to hear that, if you ever need to talk im here for you. My case is kind of unique, as its a rare but treatable cancer and the doctors are optimistic that i will survive, so dont worry about me too much, but thank you so much for your concern. It means a lot
as an artist with chronic fatigue, this really hit home for me. my entire childhood was taken away from me, except my art. i would draw every day since i had nothing to do. eventually i became suicidal as i had nobody, nothing, and nobody cared to stick around and be friends with me. i forgot what it was like to live a normal life, and became more of a recluse every day. eventually i would never leave my room except to get food, water etc. and i stopped talking to friends online. i would lose a little bit of myself each day, and within a few months i had lost all sense of self, the only thing tying me to reality being my drawings. eventually my mother found out about my depression, and took me to a therapist. i got medication and therapy and over the years my chronic fatigue and depression improved. itll never be completely gone, but at least now i know theres people looking out for me and im not alone
i can relate. the only thing i ever do now is just sit on my pc, watching youtube, writing comments, and looking at my friends list that is just full of offline people that haven't been on for years. i also go back through discord and look at my old messages i would send to my friends and i took for granted them responding to me, or playing games with me. its sad having no-one to talk to, or no-one to play with. if i could get a good best friend who is both in real life and online, i would be incredibly grateful. my crush (who doesnt even know she is, as im too afraid to admit it) was also on my discord friends list. times past, some of my other friends accounts were deleted, my crushes discord account switched, she stopped messaging me and never messages me anymore. i remember the good times - playing with her on roblox, having fun. those times have gone and i now just sit, staring at a screen, ruining my vision even more, and wishing for friends who wont leave. i know my story is different to yours but it makes me feel better sharing it with other people. Anyway, please dont waste your life at a screen. you will regret it. now go outside and play with your friends/family. you might miss the opportunity! Best Wishes, Element!
@@mattymerr701 i do, but not currently as ive been working on a big project and its been taking a lot of time, i can try to fit a commission in somewhere though
This game hit so hard for me I was sobbing by the end. My mum has multiple sclerosis and she used to be the most active person I knew, she had 2 horses and went riding daily. but by the time I was 12 she was struggling to walk, when I was 15 she couldn't even stand unassisted. I'm 18 now, my mum struggles to feed herself, she can't stand shes completely wheelchair-bound, she struggles to speak sometimes and is losing her memory, it's so fucking hard to watch this happen to her but I can't even begin to imagine what it's like having your body and mind slowly fail you.
My mom has MS too…she’s been getting worse over the past few years and she now uses a cane because her leg doesn’t move very well and goddamn this comment hit hard
@@BastiElektronik And yet even with all that I didnt cry at all, who cares about one kid dying? Millions of people die every day so what? Why do they get a special reportage compared to everybody else... But if they would have made a reference to the horrifically Racist and Fascist practice of measuring Skull sizes as practised during the Jim Crow Era, now _that_ would have made curl up and make me start sobbing😭
@@aturchomicz821 racism is definitely disheartening but you're comparing oranges to watermelons because they're very different topics, man vs terminal illness and man vs man. Is it wrong to cry from a story? Many have shed tears from both.
Jesus... between the music, the ending, the art style, and the interpretation of the afterlife, I can’t NOT cry... this is one of those games that are going to stick with me for a *very* long time.
This game really has something for everyone to relate to. Out of all the parts in the game, it was the dying cats sending the kid into a desperate frenzy to find a purpose that got me.
Dude, I fucking bawled Like I knew this game was gonna be sad, but I didn't think it would hit me like a freight train in the dead center of my core.. with cats...
at the start I thought "oh this is gonna be kinda sad" then "not much is happening, honestly don't feel that much" and by the end I was head-in-hands crying
Life is so unfair sometimes. You can wish to turn back and redo your mistakes, relive better memories, try and save the loved ones you lost, but no matter how hard you wish and beg and prayer, you can't undo what has been done.
As someone who became disabled at 15, this speaks to me SO deeply! I'm in my 30s and spend most of my life in a bed. It hurts to remember who I dreamt I was going to be or what I dreamt I was going to do with my life. I'm not dead but sometimes I feel like I am. Still, I am everything I need to be. ❤️
As another cripple I want you to know I understand and sending 💜's out to you. Being robbed of our futures is just fucking unfair, but I'm glad I'm alive so I can enjoy things, even people sometimes 😆 I always lament at what I've missed out on, but even being able to watch Dan and others I'm able to feel happy. I hope your end you can find a way to enjoy yourself in your own way. Xoxo
As a dyspraxic brother to an epileptic sister I understand. I know it’s just a silly game but during these covid times and the year we all have shared (and the personal chaos of my life like my great uncles death in November and me having to go to his funeral on my birthday; and multiple meltdowns I haven’t had for almost 2 decades)- it makes you think games like that have way more meaning. Life is too short. Our lives will only be a drop in the ocean compared to the years that history will have written by the end of it all. The earth will live on, the seas will still break their tides on all our shores and the sun will continue to rise and set. It is us that will disappear into the history books and be documented in just a sentence. Life is worth living. It’s too freaky to think that we all just die and then what happens is something we’ll never know. I have thought about this a lot over the months but around Xmas and Easter films like Highlander and Soul have been on TV (and I don’t watch a lot of TV, films or YT) but I’ve been hooked by them. They just like this game- make you realise- you only have one life full of particular years, particular months, particular weeks, particular days, particular hours, particular minutes, particular seconds in your life. Like thee will only be one 11:32pm 23rd of April 2021. That’s it. Once that time is done that time changes to 11:33pm 23rd of April 2021 etc... and you only get one of them. You cannot reverse with the benefit of hindsight or advance with eagerness to know your future. Life is built on moments. Moments of being trapped in Spots of time that are irresistible whether we want them to be or not. That’s one thing that poets have always written, singers have always sung and artists have always painted about- life. How our lives are all so separated into different isolated paths yet they are untied in one intensely unique thing- moments. We all are able to empathises with others by experiencing moments that are the same or similar to each other. That’s what makes life worth living. Why life is gives us both highs and lows. Why life is so paradoxical and so clear at the same time. So as I, a uni student that has returned home since Xmas preparing to leave to uni tomorrow, look back on mainly my 12 months of life on hold- locked in 4 walls. I look back and think- maybe yes- I haven’t used that time wisely and yes I’ll never get those days back but maybe I can still experience what those days should’ve be as they have just been delayed experiences- that’s all. Carpe Diem hey... hope you are all safe and have full, joyful and a loving life with the ones you love. You never know- maybe moments will leads us all to bump into each other someday. Hope you all had a happy Easter too. Carpe Diem! (Sorry if this all sounds like a sob story... this game just gave me Highlander philosophical thoughts).
By the end of it, I was really sobbing. I haven't felt this much since I saw a playthrough of "That Dragon, Cancer." That's another story based off a real child, who's parents wanted to honor his life.
Those final two lines really got me for some reason god, this game was good, especially when the ferryman is pleading with benny to just close his eyes as he relives his death
my friend died at the beginning of this year. Something was wrong with her heart, she was at a party, she passed out, she was brought to the hospital and it turned out she was dead. I'm 17 she was 19 and her sister is also my friend. I felt my heart breaking when I was told the news... but I also knew that her sister felt worse.
I think the message in this game is if you’re not careful or paying attention in life you can blink and before you know it a portion of your life has passed you by. Don’t take the moments, whether good or bad, for granted because your life can be cut short. 💝💕
I don't know why, but the painting at 16:05 hit me really hard out of nowhere. The realistic style mingling with the abstract depiction of his mum... something about it
Every screentime psa ever: "don't stand too close to the screen don't stare too long, and make sure to take frequent breaks to give your eyes a rest." This game: Exists
The "I think he's somewhere he likes." Line fucking broke me I'm now a sad blob in a bed holy shit this game hit me a lot harder than I thought it would.
Even though this didn’t show the whole game, this brought me to tears. As someone who’s pursuing their love for illustration, I’ve had times where I felt like I wasn’t enough. Thoughts of living a life not filled with satisfaction, resolve, or purpose. I want to be remembered, I want to make a change. Sometimes I dream of a life where I am successful, and I’m ok. But this game brought me back to my own reality, helping me see just what I have, and how I have effected the people I hold close to my heart. I feel changed after this. I see again that I have a loving family, amazing friends, and the opportunity to attend the best art school in the country. I know this is just a random TH-cam comment. But seeing this game, this video, and the message it presents helped ground me back to this world. Because I didn’t realize how far I’ve drifted away from it. Thank you
I personally don't have problems with feeling like I'm not enough. Whenever I fail I try harder next time and with that tactic i achieved my dream. What I'm trying to say is that when you feel bad think about all the times you improved and did something that would've been impossible for you in the past and ask yourself if it is impossible to do something like this again, that feeling of constant learning and improvement and always pushing myself really helps me.Everyone wants to make a difference and be remembered but don't forget to live in the present, because when you use the time you have in the present then theres no time or need to worry about the future.
God. I wasn't crying until I realised he never left that bed. As someone who has been through 4 surgeries (2 major), dealing with chronic pain, hospitals upon hospitals, mostly bedrdden, and never finishing highschool, this hurts. God, it really fucking hurts. But in a good way. Thank you for bringing this beautiful game to all of us, especially those that can relate a little bit too much. ❤️
As someone who's been nearly bedbound since age 12, this game hits hard. Thank you for playing this game, RT and I really appreciate the developers who created it. It's beautiful and heartbreaking.
fucking hell... I write this with tears still on my cheek... I lost my brother when he was 13 and I 10.... I fucking did not expect this... shit .... he too died of a disease from withing... this strikes way to close to home.... thanks for playing that RT, seriously, thank you edit: just bought this game. not intending on playing it soon, I don't have a webcam. still i wanted to support the creators
31:10 really broke me I relate to so much in that story to the point it’s worrying. I have spent so much time just watching my life go down the drain and instead of fixing it I just imagine a new life because fixing the one I have is harder. I dream of completing my goals making my family proud and happy. It’s so hard to stop daydreaming, I’ve done it everywhere my home, school, with friends, with family, alone, in a crowd you name it I’ve probably done it. I’ve never cried this hard to a game. I have seen a lot of advertising for it and I was scared that it was going to be a mess or not relatable I think the problem is it’s now too relatable. All I have to say it respect for the developers
Ouch your sentiment touches my soul. I wish I could stop daydreaming too, leaving the fantasy and waking up to my shit life is a curse. I too wish I could change my circumstances 😞
*Sorry for the ramble below got off on a mood, not deleting though.* *TLDR: Life not fair, everything conditions us to always want better and put us in a way where we dont feel like how we should. Life too short* this hits too hard... yet i too have reached that realization that everything from stories to games to comics to anime and everything in between always in some way shows or tells you that the world and life will in some way be some magical thing, or some magical or interesting events will happen, and that just fighting for things all the time or working hard will always bring you happiness or things you seek and you will have a good time or you will be made to feel a specific way, in the best of times or the worst. But then the reality is that, no, that wont always happen, you wont randomly get abducted by aliens, or stumble into a magical world, or even from the most slice of life kind of stories, things wont always work out. And we constantly seek to escape no matter what, into our own daydreams, our own little stories and universes and sometimes its inevitable even if we are doing something cool or something that SHOULD be amazing. I have found myself exploring castles in other countries or taking boat trips to islands in the middle of lakes, or whatever else and yet i still daydream I'm elseware, or for some odd reason just don't feel the impact of what I am doing... and its painful, because no matter what I will always at some point feel im not doing enough or that im not "FEELING" enough or the right way or that my life is still a waste and a struggle in some way and then seek refuge in a daydream, where I can hope for something different, something more magical or adventurous or whatever else where I am not the me that I am now. Some people seem to have an easy time and have it all figured out and know right were to go and what to do and say how they are always feeling the best. But then there are others that no matter what just cant get there and spend their whole lives figuring it out. I mean what the fuck is the point of using your whole life to figure out what makes you happy or fulfilled or what your "best life" is, if your just going to die shortly after and not have a whole life to actually live with and enjoy what makes you that way?! Its all one big disillusion sometimes and its not fair. Roughly 100 years is not enough time...
This was a cool concept for a game and genuinely challenging to see everything. It can be played without a webcam, but this is the intended way to experience it. I did my best :)
Epic
Epic
Epic gamer moment
Is depressing as hell
Imagine if someone tried to speedrun this game
Game: don't blink
Dan: *blinks*
Game: close your eyes
Dan: *intense stare*
He's really good at following complex directions.
Pissed me tf off lmao
@@JustLostTheGame Nice pfp
@@BoiledToast_0 lol
Game: just please follow the instructions, I’m begging you
Dan: *N O*
the whole theme about not missing anything by trying not to blink with the kid coming to terms about missing alot of his life is pretty darn genius i must say
Also with the recurring theme of the metronome as those symbolize time in music the passage of time
Fr
Yes
Agreed. This is one of the greatest, most creative, and most emotionally jarring video game concept I've ever discovered. It's honestly amazing.
Blink and you miss your life
When they said, "what's the point if he's not gonna get any better" I thought they were talking about his piano playing, but it was about him being sick?? Jeez thats dark
hoooooly shit I just realized that as you said it, woooowie that is dark. oh gosh there the tears go again-
damn I didn't realize that...
@@tygeghjbgh4102 I think the ferryman is a cat
and also when the mom says "why are you smiling like that" in the beginning it matches with what the father said at the end after he passes.
@@cosmologicl ooo, thats good
Call me sentimental but the idea of your childhood pet being the one to welcome you into the great beyond is incredibly touching.
Ahhhhhhh godfucking damnit this is making me cry
If I ever die, I hope I get to see my first cat if that happens.
And the thing that killed it’s kittens leads you there
i dont know what would meet me there. one or both of my pet birds when i was younger than 7, the fish i had at the same time as the birds or ziva, the cat i have now. either way, i hope that a childhood pet actually welcomes me to the great beyond
My dog Sadie will see me there if that's true, would be nice.
As soon as I heard the line, "He was an 11 year old boy who never got to grow old," it was over, I couldn't stop the waterworks.
Should have blinked
For me it was the whole ending story
I hate stories where kids get hurt in some way
;-;
yup, thats what got me
It was the cat coming in through the window that got me.
Everything after just made me cry harder.
@@ABonafideSkeleton ugh same my poor eyes
In case you didn’t notice, the ferryman’s boat is actually ben’s toy boat
My god, your right
And the ferryman, harbinger of death, was a coyote/wolf thing, the same thing that killed the kittens
And the God or the gatekeeper is the same cat as Ben had when he was a kid.
I think this all means Ben is still alive when he goes through this. Trapped In his own mind trying to remember his short life.
@@beanieteamie7435 i hope so
3:02
"Don't blink" says the man blinking three times before even finishing the sentence
Oh my goodness, RT QUOTED DOCTOR WHO!
*dies from happines*
@Egg Egg egg egg Cang yor spek fore 5 froakin monates yro forakin boritchh
I had to go to a full playthrough just to try see what the second part of the letter Chloe wrote was.
It's okay guys, it was just "Love, Chloe".
You dropped your crown sir
You are a legend
Thank you,
@@jaredjosephsongheng372 you're welcome
I think this is one of the choices that actually changes depending on your prior choices and actions.
“He has reached down, deep within himself, and created a masterpiece!”
Dan somewhat frightened: i HAvE??
pov: you drew furry for the first time
@@Wilker_uwu oh my god haha
This gave me a chuckle, just wanna let you know :)
And now we can see that it was because he needed to do well for his fantasy but didn’t know what a masterpiece looked like...
@@Wilker_uwu returmning to momke
@@Wilker_uwu Thank god, I was going to cry if I saw anymore sad comments. Heres to comedic relief
How dare Chloe call Dan the Least popular boy in school. Excuse me but, he was The Drift King I'll have you know!
Yeah, in COLLEGE lol
@@Immortal_Cultivation EXCUSE YOU ,HE STILL HIS THE DRIFT KING
As people have pointed out
HE HIS THE DRIFT DADY
Drift Daddy
@@Idknomore2 Gonna have to agree with Juan on this one, his title as Drift King has long passed. Dan is the Drift Daddy
I hope he drifts me soon
This game gives the phrase "don't blink or you'll miss it" a whole new meaning.
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Well that is the point of this game
similar premise to superliminal. having a general moral to the game which follows along with the story and the common mechanics when playing.
including the indie development story but I won't go into that lol
It also sums up the phrase "Times passes by in a blink of an eye"
I just realised he could have pressed the red button to administer the pain medication, but chose the cat instead. Im crying.
It's pain med, not a cure for his desise.
@@duckmaster291 they never said it was
@@hiddensinix2767 red buttons like this are always for morphine which slows the heart and eases the pain
@@duckmaster291 yeah I get that what's your point lad
@@duckmaster291 That would be why the OP said "red button to administer the pain medication", my dude. They didn't say it was a cure for his disease...
I want to say you're being pedantic, but you're not, you're just super thick in the head.
My eyes got so dry from not blinking, but luckily they got wet again by the end 🥲
:'
Man, the developers of this "game" are brilliant.
thanks game!
@@RTGame LMAO
Yes
Watching this live was such an experience. You had people being pissed because Dan kept blinking, and on the other hand you had people sobbing uncontrollably. 10/10 one of the best experiences of my life.
Ooh you got the premium bundle
I was on the side of my heart is being ripped out of my chest
It's one of those games that makes you hate the player, I hated Rt while playing this, because he never actually tried to keep his eyes open
i just thought it was funny when there was a major plot thing happening and then just
"aw shit I blinked"
Both extremes, the good and the bad.
I didn't expect to cry watching this, but just that one line, that "He was everything he needed to be" broke the barrier.
He was just a kid, he hadn't achieved anything, he was a loner and an unpopular loser. But he was still everything he needed to be.
I wish someone I know would say those words to me too.
As long as you believe you are everything you need then that's all
Your life is like a suitcase, there is only so much you can carry with it
If your life feels shattered, don't go finding knew stuff to fix it with cause those shatters are still there and they can be reformed into the pieces your missing, if you just look for more things to replace it...you won't have any room for what you lost, and if you dont have room for what you lost, you won't have room for what you need - me 2021
I hope that anyone who reads this is able to refer to it when they feel over burdened or sad
You are everything you need to be
My guy, keep going strong. I know it may seem like you’ve got a lot to go up against, but it’s worth it. Hundreds of millions of people around the word would think you’re one of the coolest people they’ve met if they got the chance to.
Nobody gives anyone enough credit for being alive. It can suck, and there’s way too many lonely nights where it doesn’t feel like you want to, but just remember all those little moments you got, and all those little moments you gave everyone else.
Imagine all the lives you couldn’t have touched if you weren’t here. Imagine all of the lives you haven’t gotten to touch yet if you vanished. Everyone has a purpose and no matter what you do, you’ll fulfill it.
Keep your head up King 👑
Tbh the only person who can do it is you. I know from experience of fully accepting my existence as someone who felt and still feels worthless. I may hate the lack of motivation I have when I do something I'm not passionate about, and I may never achieve anything despite working as hard as my mind will allow me. But I've accepted the fact that no matter what happens, I will be forever proud of overcoming the odds stacked against me in my life. I lived through it, and that's all that matters. Fate will take it's course, and eventually I will die. But until then, I will try to make things for myself and other people that I can be proud of when it's finally time to leave this place. I'll write and draw my heart out until I die so that when I do there will be something to show for how much I was really capable of to begin with. I think leaving people as well as ourselves with gifts and memories is the best gift anyone can give to the world around them, and once you realize that you are inherently valuable because you live and work for the now and not the later things will turn around. Learn to value the little things along the way, because they'll end up mattering more then anything in the long run.
As someone who got cancer at 14, this hit hard because I was able to push through, and I have to think about the people that didnt make it. All the people I met in the hospital, who didnt have family, who didnt have friends to support them. They had nobody, and this video really represents that. He was finally ready, and during many points during my treatment I was as well.
lol
@@LegalizeTheNuclearBomb saying lol in response to this guy's heartfelt message is a bad thing to do, but it's got me in stitches lmao
Well, I'm glad that you pushed through and are still here. Not only that, but I find the fact that you feel for those you met who didn't have what you had while you were there and what you have now to be quite kind. Best wishes for the future. I mean that.
I was one of those in the hospital young that had no one. Still, there were other patients and even the nurses and doctors who were there that really helped me feel not so alone and thrown away. I'm glad you made it.
@@novaangle2183 glad you made it as well ❤️
“I wanna see what made you ab-so-lutely great”
He built a volcano full of shit and murdered hundreds of thousands with it. Truly his finest hour
I didn’t understand this for a second, then I remembered it’s rt
Its a reference to city skylines video by RT
😂😂 real good one
He also brought joy to millions.
Not bad at all.
@@apollyonnoctis1291 He also trapped many people in Vault 666, a giant bedrock box, forced people to dig their own pit to the void which he dropped most into, and other crimes too horrid to list...
But yes, he does bring us joy ^-^
It really hit home when Chloe started saying he was faking being sick. I got sick around that age; extreme pain, palpitations, constant cancer checks; and they ALL thought I was faking it just by how weird it was and still is.
Man, the friends I lost from their fear of knowing a possibly dying person... how my siblings turned on me cause they had to take care of my chores... my parents yelling saying to suck it up and stop crying since they were overwhelmed... Chloe brought that all back up. Her voice actor making her sound indifferent, how she's "been through it before" and "knows he's just faking"... God they did that too well.
I felt this too, it’s how my first relationship ended. I was so crushed for years and hearing that part in the game just made me feel like I went through a time machine. I’ve never seen a game handle being chronically ill/disabled with such care and gentleness, this is a moving and relatable experience. Also being an artist with a mother who is very similar to the one portrayed, it just feels like this game was telling my life story in a way. Just so genuinely moving 💙 I hope you’re doing okay, and remember that you’ll always be more than your illnesses/disabilities 💙
@@sweetsunny5996 looks like we went through similar things. I felt the same way with the care and perfection of the story, and being brought back years in a matter of seconds. I do wonder if they consulted a family that went through this too.
Thank you for your words, same to you 💖
@@sweetsunny5996 I feel for you both and hope you’re better now
So, maybe don't fake a sickness then
Sounded like it was tough, I assume things are better now?
This video proves that rt will be able to survive a total of 15 seconds against scp 173.
That’s 15 seconds longer than I will.
Yeah he mentioned the weeping angels from doctor who.
@@Simplepotato 2:32
Blink one eye at a time to last an extra 5 seconds
RT needs to play Containment Breach 😁
my son passed away last November, a game has never affected me this much.
I'm so sorry for your loss. I hope the pain you feel will ease in time
I'm so sorry. I send my deepest condolences to you and your family. 😔
Siento mucho tu perdida, aguanta, se fuerte.
I'm sorry for you loss
May he rest in peace
May he Rest In Peace. I hope that you and your loved ones can find peace as well, I’m so sorry.
For anyone who was upset about not seeing the full letter at 29:45, it’s pretty much all she wrote. All RT blinked past was an extra “Love, Chloe” at the end.
Bro that scene had me in tears
Thank you.
Aw that's just bout the best thing fr
Carefully. He's a hero.
Thank you :D
There was a kid in elementary that I didn't really "know", but I knew. She, unfortunately, passed days after her 7th birthday. She didn't live long, but every day at school felt brighter with her, and every student shared the same sentiment. This game reminded me of her impact on all of us. RIP, you'll never be forgotten.
I had a similar experience. I had a friend in elementary school who I'd play with everyday at recess. We'd go acorn hunting, smash them to see what was inside and bury the rest when it was time to go in, then see if we could find them the next day (we never could). She drowned in a swimming pool in 2nd grade, and the elementary school made a pretty memorial for her and a large portion of my class attended her funeral. She was a fun person to be around and was/is dearly missed.
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Unfortunately within a blink of an eye, 1, 2, 3 generations will pass and yes. she will inevitably be forgotten. as will all of us unless we do something really big
@@WolfyRed stfu
@@WolfyRed please, that’s disrespectful
This game’s ending with the parents being there at Benjamin’s deathbed as he is accepted by the cat and the mom and ferryman both reading the heart-wrenching story actually tears me apart. It makes me question my life and what my story is.
It made me want to stop wasting my life and hurry up and post more content. Fr fr I WILL NOT WASTE MY LIFE!! 😭
@@TheHappyHummy your not wasting your life if you don’t post content to the internet
@@dougalbadger4918 I kinda am, since ive invested the last 6 years of my life into it and want it as a my career so I can take care of my family by 24
@@TheHappyHummy out of curiosity, how old are you?
@@TheHappyHummy but your channel was made 4 years ago how did you spend 6 years doing it
Cats know when you're sick or lonely or in pain. Some catz will usually never acknowledge you except to beg for food but once you're sick they won't leave your side.
Most pets are like that.
Negativity below. I’m feeling bad so I tend to push that onto others. Read at your own risk.
I hear cats also eat you after you die. If you’re sick, maybe they know you’re soon to die and wish to eat you. Just theorizing. Dogs also eat you. As far as being lonely, idk. I do know my dogs lick up my tears, but I think that’s because they like salt.
Side note: I also really, really hate cats. I had one and it kinda ruined my childhood.
I lost my childhood cat last November, just a couple months shy of her 21st birthday. She was the sweetest lady, my millennium kitty, my constant companion for two-thirds of my life, always around to take care of me when I wasn't well. I miss her terribly, that Phoebe cat.
@@user-sf9gs2pg1b Funny enough Dogs eat their owners after death more than cats do because cats are picky eaters and some would prefer to starve themselves before eating disgusting human. Cats and dogs both are very social animals though and if you feel down will try to comfort you - cats even purr randomly if they notice you don't feel well because the purring can help calm and soothe pain as well as help with healing.
@@user-sf9gs2pg1b i hate cats too bro, but i like dogs they are good companions
Fuck dude. Just... fuck. This game is heavy. It’s scary just how much each blink, each skip, makes my heart sink. When the red cloud of the disease consumed your entire vision, I felt like crying.
What a masterpiece.
I was crying when they started telling the story of the kid
God it hurt ;-;
Well, it's better to have a story than having only white pages
Pretentious comment
@@TS111WASD Uh, how though? OP was being legitimate and passionate about expressing their feelings, but ok then lol.
@@Artificial_Elysium fuck dude. just... fuck. this reply is heavy. it makes my heart sink. i felt like crying.
give me a break lmfao
"Don't blink. Don't even blink. Blink and you're dead. Don't turn your back. Don't look away. And don't blink.”
"Good Luck"
“Your life will depend on this.”
@@MRPUMKINMAN uncultured
Doctor Who Quote
@@ActingOutVA Au contraire mon ami, this is a man of exquisite, refined taste, and above all a man of culture. Truly embodies the essence of high society.
I knew he wasn't gonna get better when he wrote the letter, but the mom's story really sealed it in. It was her way of coping with losing the child she loved so dearly so soon.
That red orb when he’s in pain is such a weirdly accurate depiction
Explain
@@lfroujibetmusic probably a visual representation of that pain, a wild, writhing thing that takes over until you cant see (or feel) anything else
This stream genuinely crushed me. I have also never been so annoyed at dan blinking lmao
lmao
This was terrible because im really good at keeping my eyes open
👁👁
I agree
Same
From what I understood the life Benny describes at first was the story made up by himself with the typewriter, but in reality he died in his bed... The fact that the ferryman said that despite Benny litearly dying at 11 years old and despite that called his life a full life... man, that hit me, because I always worry that I won't live a full life. And also the fact that in the end the parents were described as "ordinary" says that you don't NEED to land into a family that is the best in the world, man this is a good game with some good messaging. At least from how I understood it.
11 is my age :(
It was very thoughtful of you to upload a video so your audience can win a staring contest.
I lost, a lot
True fan keep staring until the end of the video. Victory in the war is better than victory in a battle.
@Egg Egg egg egg Egg Egg egg egg
I was doing that the entire time
It's training.
As a teenager with a chronic illness, this game means so much to me, i don't know how i could ever pay the developers back for this, thank you for posting this video
as a different teenager with a chronic illness, i wanted to let you know i appreciate the comment and i want you to know there’s at least one person out there who loves and supports you
@@kilbear9664 i love and support you too, thanks buddy
as yet another teenager with chronic illness, i hope youre doing well, take care of yourself okay? yeah, life is pretty shit, but theres always something that makes it worthwhile
@@cheembs2241 i'm doing wellllll, and yeah life comes with a lot of crap, uh? I hope you're doing fine too! Imma live for the little moments
As another to add to the list, during my illness I also had a lovely Siamese who never once left my side. I lost him in January, so this entire thing hit really hard. Stay strong all of you.
Jokes on you game, I cried so hard I didn't NEED to blink.
Which bit did you cry at?
gaming strat pog
Nevermind I understand what you mean
You literally copied a comment from word for word, with the same capitalization and punctuation.
@@roguechlnchllla6564 really?
Thanks for saying.
If it’s actually true that’s fucking sad. For a verified channel even.
29:44
Dear weird neighbour kid,
You are my first love
RT:*blinks instantly*
*screaming*
You are my first *LOOOOOOOOOOOOO*
this happens when a human reads in the middle of the line the blink
thats why you saw him blink on the middle word "are"
this is why in games like these you should be careful when given something to read
if you want more evidence true reading your comment on the first line "Dear weird neighbour kid" and notice that you blink on the word "weird" or the word "neighbour" or in between them
@@bababklj3638 wow that’s cool
someone in chat said “benny you were the coolest 11 year old to live” and i BROKE DOWN 😭😭😭
Awwww >
What does this even mean?
@@Fatality2013 im guessing that someone knew the story and foreshadowed it before it was revealed that benny actually lied to the ferryman about getting better
@@FanFoRlYfE from the context, it could also just have been said live on stream after the reveal, which makes sense to me
@@levleone4045 Oh, I was just thinking they were done for because they realized they've been spoiled somehow. That makes sense too
1:54 The fact that the metronome induces anxiety when it pops up is so genius since it also represents the anxiety that Benjamin felt when having to play.
this game was so beautiful. when they revealed that the kid had passed and everything about him being an artist was just a dream i lost it and could not stop crying for the rest of the story
no stop 😭 im an idiot and didnt realize thats what that meant stop no im crying again
This one hits hard. I had a friend whos sister died from breast cancer when she was just 16 years old. She was VERY talented in drawing and she was not too bad at playing the piano. She died when I was 10, and it hit hard as hell, as she was one of the friendliest people I've ever met before.
Holy shit man, I'm so sorry.
She met the Gatekeeper
It reminds me of my cousin, she was my best friend and she was the most amazing and friendliest girl, she past away at 10, she had DIPG which is a form of cancer that primarily affects children. She would have been sixteen with me this year, I miss her so much.
This got me to tears reading this and watching the video.
I’m not very close with my family as my parents left my country since I was 2, my great grandmother had died recently and she lived in the country I came from , I occasionally visited for summers but we never got rlly close so when she died I was heartbroken because there was that natural love from the few times we got to spend with each other but I ultimately felt as if i didn’t spend enough time with my great grandmother.
It’s always the best of people who seem to get torn away from us.
So like, this 11 year old boy was very sick and in his fever dreams, feeling like he’s not ready to go, like he still has so much to live for, he imagines a future where he is healed and becomes a world famous artist. But this is all a beautiful lie he dreamt up which prevents him from passing on. At the end, in self-reflection and together with his first love he starts accepting his imminent end and gains a new, more positive perspective on his life. Finally, in the company of his family he welcome the end of a short, but fully lived out life.
Or did I understand wrong?
You're accurate and I'm crying :(
FUCKBKB IM CRYIGNG AGAIN
this is exactly what happened
What was the whole part about elle being unable to breathe? Where it turned all white? Was that her panicing as Benny died?
@@morrowmorrow4811 Now that you mention it: I feel like Elle was probably panicking, with her son being at death’s door but _he_ probably interpreted that as _her_ actually being close to death (the breathing being hard can also be taken as Elle having a severe health problem) and “dying” in his imagined grown-up future
Eyes were dry through most of this. Burst into tears in the living room when I heard:
"Why is he smiling like that?"
"He must be somewhere he likes."
Fucking Hell.
everything past the point where benny tells his actual life had me in tears
No i dont think he likes hell
Not even when the kittens died?
Nope not in hell
@@coreyhahn7943 when the kittens died I was just sad. The type that gives you depression. That last bit made me sad but the emotional type not the emotionless one.
*SPOILER: Conclusion of story!*
So he died while he was sick at home and the whole college and art gallery was all a dream, because he felt like he never achieved anything, but the thing he achieved was being there for others? Great story!
Ohh
DUDE YOURE GONNA MAKE ME CRY AGAIN
Imma be honest
This shit is way to good to be real
Spoilers :((
edit your comment with a warning or something man this sucks
@@iPillow hmmmm gurl
I have no idea why, but the moment he wrote that he just laid down and died, I teared up. I dunno why but everything just kinda felt hopeless, and it broke my heart. Same thing happened when everything went red and white
same. that's the moment when I realized he was _not_ going to get better, and it totally wrecked me
It's just devastating to think about an 11 year old being in such a state to have that thought process
this really sent me tearing up, back in elementary school i lost 2 friends to leukemia and i just wondered if this is what they were feeling the whole time
@@aniyilator This is a really sad one, so please don't read if you're not mentally prepared.
There was once a 911 call of a 11 year old (I think) who was stuck in a car. He called the police, stating that he was going to die. They didn't send anyone because they thought it was a prank call, so he actually died shortly after.
@@aniyilator it reminds me of the final verse in the song "Lucky Man", which was written by a kid.
"A bullet had found him, his blood ran as he cried.
No money could save him, so he laid down and he died.
Ooh what a lucky man he was."
I thought this would be a wholesome story, I was not expecting an emotional roller coaster about life and fulfillment.
I was expecting humour, boy that Changed fast
@@flamepath7583 Same man... same
Isn't that wholesome? Or did wholesome start to mean "warm and fuzzy" while I wasn't paying attention?
Helo LONK with different nem Edit: Purposely misplet Edit: 2 I thk I hbing a strko Edit: 3 HELP
Basically, we still get a wholesome story but someone keep bringing crying onion
When I first read the title I assumed it was probably some type of platformer where you jump by blinking, not this rollercoaster of emotions
For those of us who feel like failures who'll never amount to anything, this is a rough one to watch.
It's never too late, Mark.
Plus, there’s that simple thing “he was everything he needed to be.” Because you are, we all are. You don’t have to amount to anything. For a life to be worthwhile you have to have made one person feel a little better even just one time. You’ll always be enough
Dang man you got me
I feel it to brother
fuck yeah man.
I had such deja vu with him being sick. It reminded me of my childhood in the hospital, when my friends doctors and family said I was faking, and I was all alone and just wanted it to end already. I sobbed because I knew how he felt, I was just blessed enough to survive
yo dude you good
your family sounds not the best but random strangers love ya buddy dont give up 👊
I know I’m just a stranger on the internet but I’m glad you’re here. It really sucks getting sick- I’m glad you’re okay
More then glad to see that you're okay!
Might I ask what you had if it isn't too uncomfortable for you?
This hits home
me before this: ah a new vid from RTGame, I’ll have fun watching it-
Me after: *D E P R E S S I O N*
Yeah I was expecting laughs but got the feels instead
Please, call it sadness, not "Depression". Depression is not just being sad because you watched something that made you cry or sad. Depression is much more. It eats you inside 'till you're nothing but something to waste.
@@pepsi3005.....its a joke pissrain
@@milimnava9375 No, it's not.
@@pepsi3005 There is times to say that, but this isn't it, it clearly is a joke by the caps and space between each letter
When a thirty-minute video about a game makes me much sadder than a full-length movie
True
the game itself is actually about an hour and 30 minutes or a bit less but i completely agree, no movie has made me cry like this lol
@@macarooni4023 yeah
Ikr? I never cry watching movies, but here I am sobbing like a newborn.
This whole game has a really great concept.
You try not to blink as if you are fighting the disease
At last you just can't do anything no matter how hard you struggle
There’s nothing you can do, and have to fight to relive the moments
Holy shit
Not just that, but facing the truth. Sometimes, lying is associated with blinking especially when interrogated. The fact that he can't blink while facing the truth is perfect symbolism. It's hard to face the truth, to be honest and thus to accept it.
God the mechanic fits the theme perfectly.
The dad was the best character he was comforting to everyone and was okay with you not being perfect and doing stuff with friends and not being perfect
Always need at least 1 person like that in a family, when everything and everyone is falling apart, they're the rock keeping everyone living and ticking on by.
Tends to be the father I think.
@@maisie2730 just a random parent but not always sometimes it’s a sibling
@@bobjhon7391
True, I know it would be my sister who would be that if my Dad went
@@maisie2730 That. That, hits hard. Especially now when most kids dont have a Father in there life saying, its ok being yourself while still enjoying life.
@@MisSpace
What in the world are you on about?
Why would it not be ok being yourself? Why would you not want to be your best self? You make zero sense.
Fun fact: The gate keeper is shown as a cat with 2 tails - According to Japanese mythology, if a cat is incredibly well cared for and loved during its life, it becomes a two tailed cat spirit - implying that after Earnie came in through the window, she was spoilt and pampered with affection the remainder of her life
Whoever wrote this game is one of the best writers I have ever encountered. This story is so poignant and moved my soul. I hope one day I can write something as moving as this...and the theme of this game made me not want to waste any more time.
Same...
This is like every writers go too when he cant think of something that would actlly mean something so he pulls u in with a child...you watch yourself grow you meet your first love or what ever and then die early causing everyone around to be sad but then they realise how good there lives were with you or some shit. You see this everyware, this was extremely predictable and boring.
@@themysteriousman1017 ok mr "expert writer", tell us a "moving" story then, I better cry a river when I finish reading it, and it better not be ugh pRedIcTaBle.
@@BasiliskDark536 I never said I was a expert, all I said was you see this style of writing everywhere, comics, books, movies, TV and games if the writer cant pull you in with something they think the reader would enjoy they go strait to the innocence of a child because they know it's instinctive for us to love and protect so we get attached to what there writing,and then they spice it up a little with an dream he never got or a parent dying(this guy was so desperate for you
to get hooked he put both in the same story), it's a simple psychology trick and this guy was praising it like it was the best thing ever.
@@themysteriousman1017 r u really some1 to criticize some1's writing when u misspelt " actlly and everyware"
"Why are you not crying?"
Probably the lack of blinking that dried up his eyes.
But that would make him blink a hell of a lot if they dried out. It would likely hurt too. I have dry eyes as a side effect of medicine I take, so I know from experience.
I can report as a person who played this game then watched the video to avoid spoilers, yes we have water in our eyes but we physically cannot cry cause of the blinking
Daniel's wide eyed face is just like that one pic of Nicholas Cage istg
Nicholas Cage body pillow
@Egg Egg egg egg not dry at all 😳
As someone who lost a family member to cancer just 2 months ago, I really feel this, I wish he could've seen so many things, but that's just not how life works, life is difficult, and there's so many decisions, but you just have to treasure every moment
I'm so incredibly sorry for your loss. You are very wise. I hope he lived a happy life
@@plimellro Thank you, and I'd like to think that he did. Thank you again stranger, I hope you have a good life 😊
@@pinkpeppers5580 I hope you have a great life as well
this game is absolutely crsuhing. for someone who already is afraid of forgetting a lot of memories, thinking about how they are gone in a blink is... terrifying.
edit: is three weeks later now and i finished the video, after stopping halfway the first time.. wow.
As someone who's experienced nothing but crippling existential dread for the last few years after experiencing loss and occasionally thinks about similar stuff, I think it's important to remember that everything is finite and we don't truly own anything, even our memories, and one day we'll have to let go of everything, but you must not despair, just enjoy the moments while you can, there's no point in living in fear of the unknown.
As a chronically ill/disabled person, this was really meaningful to watch. It's also really quite meaningful to me that the game can be played with just your eye movement, this is technology often used in adaptive equipment for disabled people. There's a lot to be said for people who are born having certain hopes and dreams and a certain image of their future, only to realize their ambitions are truly unreachable, at least in the way they envisioned. And the fear of dying before we're able to do anything of value in the world is so deep. I really believe that no person has to do anything to have value. I don't care of other people think we're faking or lazy or entitled, it's not true. I've never seen a piece of media portray disability with such kindness and care. Thank you for playing this RT, I really appreciate it.
It happens with mental disability too. What the hell am I even doing right now, anyways?
@@SF-zm2py Yes I want to be clear- I truly do not believe in laziness as a concept. We always have a reason for doing or not doing what others think we should be doing. Whether it's because of pain, sadness, not sleeping enough, sleeping too much, having a bad day, family trouble, whatever it is. Some things can be improved and it's important to put work into building stability and health for ourselves- but you don't need to "accomplish" anything to have a meaningful, fulfilling life. That's what I believe at least, and I feel like this game illustrated that belief in a lovely way. I hope you are taking care of yourself.
Thanks for playing this RT.
Im a 17yr old with stage 4 cancer, diagnosed on Jan 12 of this year. Treatment has been really rough, and today was especially difficult due to chemo-nausea and complete exhaustion.
When i finally got home today, i decided to watch this and it got me to really cry and reflect on my journey so far. I havent cried once since i was diagnosed, dont know why i havent cried but this did it for me, and i really really needed that.
So thank you, and thank you for delivering such great content all the time.
I am really sorry to hear what you are currently going through right now. I know at that stage is already past the point of no return but I'm sure what you did for those past 17 years made a great impact to those around you. I lost a friend from germ cancer this February and it was painful to see him go at such a young age especially when his mother was the one who messaged his account on our group chat.
I wish you luck on your journey, you’re incredibly strong I believe in you
@@3sty216 Im really sorry to hear that, if you ever need to talk im here for you.
My case is kind of unique, as its a rare but treatable cancer and the doctors are optimistic that i will survive, so dont worry about me too much, but thank you so much for your concern. It means a lot
@@xaviorshideout Thank you :)
@Amelia Jacobs Hope you are well too
as an artist with chronic fatigue, this really hit home for me. my entire childhood was taken away from me, except my art. i would draw every day since i had nothing to do. eventually i became suicidal as i had nobody, nothing, and nobody cared to stick around and be friends with me. i forgot what it was like to live a normal life, and became more of a recluse every day. eventually i would never leave my room except to get food, water etc. and i stopped talking to friends online. i would lose a little bit of myself each day, and within a few months i had lost all sense of self, the only thing tying me to reality being my drawings. eventually my mother found out about my depression, and took me to a therapist. i got medication and therapy and over the years my chronic fatigue and depression improved. itll never be completely gone, but at least now i know theres people looking out for me and im not alone
i can relate. the only thing i ever do now is just sit on my pc, watching youtube, writing comments, and looking at my friends list that is just full of offline people that haven't been on for years. i also go back through discord and look at my old messages i would send to my friends and i took for granted them responding to me, or playing games with me. its sad having no-one to talk to, or no-one to play with. if i could get a good best friend who is both in real life and online, i would be incredibly grateful. my crush (who doesnt even know she is, as im too afraid to admit it) was also on my discord friends list. times past, some of my other friends accounts were deleted, my crushes discord account switched, she stopped messaging me and never messages me anymore. i remember the good times - playing with her on roblox, having fun. those times have gone and i now just sit, staring at a screen, ruining my vision even more, and wishing for friends who wont leave. i know my story is different to yours but it makes me feel better sharing it with other people. Anyway,
please dont waste your life at a screen. you will regret it. now go outside and play with your friends/family. you might miss the opportunity!
Best Wishes, Element!
This is very relatable to me.
I wish the best for you dude. We’re all here as support.
Lucky to have a talent with artistry too!
Also, Strayan too. Do you do commissions?
@@mattymerr701 i do, but not currently as ive been working on a big project and its been taking a lot of time, i can try to fit a commission in somewhere though
Me watching this video is the equivalent of when I hold my breath when the characters go underwater in movies.
Sameee
And in my case, fail miserably
This almost killed me in Finding Nemo
Steve can lift billions of tons but can't hold his breath for 30 seconds...
Im a grown ass man sobbing here, im suprised he held his blinks for so long, meanwhile im over here blinking repeatedly due to tears
Yeah. I hadn't seen such a heartbreakinh story in a while
Your profile picture is so perfect for this comment.
Tbh he actually blinked like 3 times more than the game thought he did
I can't stop giggling about the idea of a speedrun with facecam for this game
The speedrun would require lighting fast blinking
So they would program robots to blink for them
hand strats
just wave your hand over the cam to emulate blinking really fuckin fast
@@thatoneguy9582 basically john cena you can't see me.
This game hit so hard for me I was sobbing by the end.
My mum has multiple sclerosis and she used to be the most active person I knew, she had 2 horses and went riding daily. but by the time I was 12 she was struggling to walk, when I was 15 she couldn't even stand unassisted. I'm 18 now, my mum struggles to feed herself, she can't stand shes completely wheelchair-bound, she struggles to speak sometimes and is losing her memory, it's so fucking hard to watch this happen to her but I can't even begin to imagine what it's like having your body and mind slowly fail you.
My mom has MS too…she’s been getting worse over the past few years and she now uses a cane because her leg doesn’t move very well and goddamn this comment hit hard
Weather through it you will, sometimes in life you gotta cherish the past and keep walking forwards
“Why’s he smiling like that?”
“He must be somewhere that he likes”
Game why must you hurt me so!
That part HURT.
Thats the part thats making me cry curretly
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also i just realised that the second thing the mom says in the game is 'why are you smiling like that?' THE FORSHADOWING AAA
those 2 sentences make me wanna cry my eyes out again
Man goes through physiological terror every time he blinks
"How you doing chat? You good?" Me, sobbing uncontrollably: DO I LOOK-
Like your dad??"
This game is brutal, the voice acting really drives it home.
You're so right. If it wasn't for the voice acting, I wouldn't be crying like this
@@BastiElektronik And yet even with all that I didnt cry at all, who cares about one kid dying? Millions of people die every day so what? Why do they get a special reportage compared to everybody else...
But if they would have made a reference to the horrifically Racist and Fascist practice of measuring Skull sizes as practised during the Jim Crow Era, now _that_ would have made curl up and make me start sobbing😭
@@aturchomicz821 racism is definitely disheartening but you're comparing oranges to watermelons because they're very different topics, man vs terminal illness and man vs man. Is it wrong to cry from a story? Many have shed tears from both.
@@aturchomicz821 just because something isn't uncommon doesn't mean it's not sad
@@aturchomicz821 What the hell is your problem dude
Goddamn the voice acting in this game is top tier
Very true
It is REALLY good
The guy who played Richard I think is the same guy who voiced someone in a kids cartoon I watch sometimes
@@splattyfatty chad
@@ok-kh9cb chad
Jesus... between the music, the ending, the art style, and the interpretation of the afterlife, I can’t NOT cry... this is one of those games that are going to stick with me for a *very* long time.
*yes same, through ugly tears and not quite prepared for such an emotional smack to the face, yeah*
Gave me goose bumps, couldn’t cry because my tears have ran out
Dan: "I have to take these pictures because Im traveling through time at an alarming rate."
Also Dan: *doesnt take the picture*
The wolves eating the kittens just made me want to punch myself out of pure dread..
This game really has something for everyone to relate to. Out of all the parts in the game, it was the dying cats sending the kid into a desperate frenzy to find a purpose that got me.
This game just fucking crushed me. This shit's worse than This War of Mine which i have urgency to fill buckets with my tears.
Dude, I fucking bawled
Like I knew this game was gonna be sad, but I didn't think it would hit me like a freight train in the dead center of my core.. with cats...
Dan really had the audacity to make me cry so hard at 8am on a Saturday. The nerve of some people.
It's not Saturday anywhere in the world....
Edit: The stream was 8am on a Saturday?
@@arterca The joke is this internet user named Arterca :3 who replied to a joke with confusion,and the internet did not take kindly to them.
@@a.person1805 i didn't come here to be personally attacked like this at 8am on a Saturday.
I cried to
@@arterca it was streamed on a saturday
honestly this game is heart wrenching, going from this to a podcast call with kevin was quite the tone shift
@Egg Egg egg egg Not really
"He must be somewhere he likes"
My HEART
at the start I thought "oh this is gonna be kinda sad" then "not much is happening, honestly don't feel that much" and by the end I was head-in-hands crying
Life is so unfair sometimes. You can wish to turn back and redo your mistakes, relive better memories, try and save the loved ones you lost, but no matter how hard you wish and beg and prayer, you can't undo what has been done.
Isn't that life being fair?
@@genevie1998 AYO
As someone who became disabled at 15, this speaks to me SO deeply! I'm in my 30s and spend most of my life in a bed. It hurts to remember who I dreamt I was going to be or what I dreamt I was going to do with my life. I'm not dead but sometimes I feel like I am.
Still, I am everything I need to be. ❤️
As another cripple I want you to know I understand and sending 💜's out to you. Being robbed of our futures is just fucking unfair, but I'm glad I'm alive so I can enjoy things, even people sometimes 😆 I always lament at what I've missed out on, but even being able to watch Dan and others I'm able to feel happy. I hope your end you can find a way to enjoy yourself in your own way. Xoxo
You’re all so strong! Keep being happy and don’t lose hope on living a good life 😄
As a dyspraxic brother to an epileptic sister I understand. I know it’s just a silly game but during these covid times and the year we all have shared (and the personal chaos of my life like my great uncles death in November and me having to go to his funeral on my birthday; and multiple meltdowns I haven’t had for almost 2 decades)- it makes you think games like that have way more meaning. Life is too short. Our lives will only be a drop in the ocean compared to the years that history will have written by the end of it all. The earth will live on, the seas will still break their tides on all our shores and the sun will continue to rise and set. It is us that will disappear into the history books and be documented in just a sentence. Life is worth living. It’s too freaky to think that we all just die and then what happens is something we’ll never know. I have thought about this a lot over the months but around Xmas and Easter films like Highlander and Soul have been on TV (and I don’t watch a lot of TV, films or YT) but I’ve been hooked by them. They just like this game- make you realise- you only have one life full of particular years, particular months, particular weeks, particular days, particular hours, particular minutes, particular seconds in your life. Like thee will only be one 11:32pm 23rd of April 2021. That’s it. Once that time is done that time changes to 11:33pm 23rd of April 2021 etc... and you only get one of them. You cannot reverse with the benefit of hindsight or advance with eagerness to know your future. Life is built on moments. Moments of being trapped in Spots of time that are irresistible whether we want them to be or not. That’s one thing that poets have always written, singers have always sung and artists have always painted about- life. How our lives are all so separated into different isolated paths yet they are untied in one intensely unique thing- moments. We all are able to empathises with others by experiencing moments that are the same or similar to each other. That’s what makes life worth living. Why life is gives us both highs and lows. Why life is so paradoxical and so clear at the same time. So as I, a uni student that has returned home since Xmas preparing to leave to uni tomorrow, look back on mainly my 12 months of life on hold- locked in 4 walls. I look back and think- maybe yes- I haven’t used that time wisely and yes I’ll never get those days back but maybe I can still experience what those days should’ve be as they have just been delayed experiences- that’s all. Carpe Diem hey... hope you are all safe and have full, joyful and a loving life with the ones you love. You never know- maybe moments will leads us all to bump into each other someday. Hope you all had a happy Easter too. Carpe Diem!
(Sorry if this all sounds like a sob story... this game just gave me Highlander philosophical thoughts).
By the end of it, I was really sobbing. I haven't felt this much since I saw a playthrough of "That Dragon, Cancer." That's another story based off a real child, who's parents wanted to honor his life.
god i remember watching a play through of that game. it never left me, and i imagine this game will stay with me, too.
Those final two lines really got me for some reason
god, this game was good, especially when the ferryman is pleading with benny to just close his eyes as he relives his death
When daniel blinked when he got the letter from chloe, I died inside slightly
I think the other part says love chloe, I watched a different play through of it
@@aiden6843 I see...
Deer weird neighbor kid
You are my first love
Love Chloe
@@whomidity3953 I don’t without my glasses
I’m gonna pick up this game just to see if there was more
"Why is he smiling like that?" "He must be somewhere that he likes" I don't know why but that really got to me.
Me too fam... me too
I just want to know how many people kept their eyes closed for the entirety of the credits and only realized it from watching this video.
I distinctly remember several people during the credits saying "you can open your eyes now"
It's so weird seeing a couple hours edited down to just a half hour. This game made me cry like a baby. It's magnificent.
My feelings have balls and they've been kicked with considerable force
If my feelings had physical balls they would have been ripped out, boiled, burned, frozen, and then stiched back up
Best analogy ever.
emotion is stored in the balls
@@thatoneguy9582 Never before, has something so odd. So strange...
Been something I couldn’t agree more with
31:13 so not only are we dead, we were 11?! Jesus this game is EMOTIONal
I K R
@@anna_9195 right
This is the definition of "Blink and you'll miss it"
Ah damn I commented this too and now I just found this one. I thought I was so original for it LOL
@@yukisoba8888 I was scared someone took it too lol
my friend died at the beginning of this year. Something was wrong with her heart, she was at a party, she passed out, she was brought to the hospital and it turned out she was dead. I'm 17 she was 19 and her sister is also my friend. I felt my heart breaking when I was told the news... but I also knew that her sister felt worse.
ok
@@efeayar1222 thank you. This game just kinda reminded me of it.
I’m sorry for your loss.😔
@@keepyourshoesathedoor thank you
I’m sorry for what you and your sister when through. I wish the best for you.
I think the message in this game is if you’re not careful or paying attention in life you can blink and before you know it a portion of your life has passed you by. Don’t take the moments, whether good or bad, for granted because your life can be cut short. 💝💕
wow... i never thought of it like this
I’ve been blinking school away...
What else am I supposed to do while walking to class?
@@AtomickPhoenix Not do it to add some drama?
@@splattyfatty yeah and hold your breath for maximum tension
_Passes out with eyes WIDE open_
I don't know why, but the painting at 16:05 hit me really hard out of nowhere. The realistic style mingling with the abstract depiction of his mum... something about it
Every screentime psa ever: "don't stand too close to the screen don't stare too long, and make sure to take frequent breaks to give your eyes a rest."
This game: Exists
The "I think he's somewhere he likes." Line fucking broke me I'm now a sad blob in a bed holy shit this game hit me a lot harder than I thought it would.
Even though this didn’t show the whole game, this brought me to tears. As someone who’s pursuing their love for illustration, I’ve had times where I felt like I wasn’t enough. Thoughts of living a life not filled with satisfaction, resolve, or purpose.
I want to be remembered, I want to make a change. Sometimes I dream of a life where I am successful, and I’m ok. But this game brought me back to my own reality, helping me see just what I have, and how I have effected the people I hold close to my heart. I feel changed after this. I see again that I have a loving family, amazing friends, and the opportunity to attend the best art school in the country.
I know this is just a random TH-cam comment. But seeing this game, this video, and the message it presents helped ground me back to this world. Because I didn’t realize how far I’ve drifted away from it.
Thank you
I personally don't have problems with feeling like I'm not enough. Whenever I fail I try harder next time and with that tactic i achieved my dream. What I'm trying to say is that when you feel bad think about all the times you improved and did something that would've been impossible for you in the past and ask yourself if it is impossible to do something like this again, that feeling of constant learning and improvement and always pushing myself really helps me.Everyone wants to make a difference and be remembered but don't forget to live in the present, because when you use the time you have in the present then theres no time or need to worry about the future.
When you opened Chloes letter and immediately blinked something inside me died
God. I wasn't crying until I realised he never left that bed. As someone who has been through 4 surgeries (2 major), dealing with chronic pain, hospitals upon hospitals, mostly bedrdden, and never finishing highschool, this hurts. God, it really fucking hurts. But in a good way.
Thank you for bringing this beautiful game to all of us, especially those that can relate a little bit too much. ❤️
As someone who's been nearly bedbound since age 12, this game hits hard. Thank you for playing this game, RT and I really appreciate the developers who created it. It's beautiful and heartbreaking.
fucking hell... I write this with tears still on my cheek... I lost my brother when he was 13 and I 10.... I fucking did not expect this... shit .... he too died of a disease from withing... this strikes way to close to home.... thanks for playing that RT, seriously, thank you
edit: just bought this game. not intending on playing it soon, I don't have a webcam. still i wanted to support the creators
THATS TUFF
31:10 really broke me I relate to so much in that story to the point it’s worrying. I have spent so much time just watching my life go down the drain and instead of fixing it I just imagine a new life because fixing the one I have is harder. I dream of completing my goals making my family proud and happy. It’s so hard to stop daydreaming, I’ve done it everywhere my home, school, with friends, with family, alone, in a crowd you name it I’ve probably done it. I’ve never cried this hard to a game. I have seen a lot of advertising for it and I was scared that it was going to be a mess or not relatable I think the problem is it’s now too relatable. All I have to say it respect for the developers
Ouch your sentiment touches my soul. I wish I could stop daydreaming too, leaving the fantasy and waking up to my shit life is a curse. I too wish I could change my circumstances 😞
*Sorry for the ramble below got off on a mood, not deleting though.*
*TLDR: Life not fair, everything conditions us to always want better and put us in a way where we dont feel like how we should. Life too short*
this hits too hard... yet i too have reached that realization that everything from stories to games to comics to anime and everything in between always in some way shows or tells you that the world and life will in some way be some magical thing, or some magical or interesting events will happen, and that just fighting for things all the time or working hard will always bring you happiness or things you seek and you will have a good time or you will be made to feel a specific way, in the best of times or the worst.
But then the reality is that, no, that wont always happen, you wont randomly get abducted by aliens, or stumble into a magical world, or even from the most slice of life kind of stories, things wont always work out.
And we constantly seek to escape no matter what, into our own daydreams, our own little stories and universes and sometimes its inevitable even if we are doing something cool or something that SHOULD be amazing.
I have found myself exploring castles in other countries or taking boat trips to islands in the middle of lakes, or whatever else and yet i still daydream I'm elseware, or for some odd reason just don't feel the impact of what I am doing... and its painful, because no matter what I will always at some point feel im not doing enough or that im not "FEELING" enough or the right way or that my life is still a waste and a struggle in some way and then seek refuge in a daydream, where I can hope for something different, something more magical or adventurous or whatever else where I am not the me that I am now.
Some people seem to have an easy time and have it all figured out and know right were to go and what to do and say how they are always feeling the best. But then there are others that no matter what just cant get there and spend their whole lives figuring it out.
I mean what the fuck is the point of using your whole life to figure out what makes you happy or fulfilled or what your "best life" is, if your just going to die shortly after and not have a whole life to actually live with and enjoy what makes you that way?!
Its all one big disillusion sometimes and its not fair. Roughly 100 years is not enough time...
I'd suggest looking up the condition of Maladaptive daydreaming. It sounds like it may apply to you.
@@Spo0kl ?
@@Spo0kl fun fact I have gotten “therape”
How to speed run:
Start furiously blinking.
I kinda wanna see speedruns of this game now..
“so when he know he had to go, he was okay, because he’d already lived a agreat life. A full life.” Was that the saddest line for me only?
Same!! He was TWELVE and he tried so hard when he should have just been a kid