I had to Google what his channel name means. It makes me feel so sad for this man. Obviously it’s been 2 years since he posted anything, I wonder what happened that he only posted three videos? I hope he is thriving somewhere and has chased all his demons away. God bless him.
I hope this guy is still alive and well. I remember first watching his three videos on his channel when they were first uploaded and I was going through a difficult, depressing time. It was comforting watching him speak through the camera at the time, hearing him share. Every once in awhile I come back to see if he ever uploads anything else, but I see that he hasn’t. It has gotten better for me now in comparison to last year - of course, I’m not perfect and I still have my low days, but I have been better. I hope it has gotten better for you too. ❤️
Same here. Perhaps he's found the motivation and moved on from this channel. I hope these side-effects from this medication he's talking about in this video didn't cause any complications. Lockdown was tough on everyone. Whether he has stayed in the same place or found some answers, we would like to know what he is doing and if he is OK.
@Apocalyptic Workshop Hey man, glad to see you're keeping yourself busy, saw that other channel. Don't ever think you're back at square one, because you never really are with all that you have gone through you have become stronger and more experienced with it, you brain will always "heal" itself from trauma over time and things will only get better.
Do not take chemicals for depression... You need to make changes in your lifestyle get a dog use the sauna daily and take cold showers/ exercise.. best advice I ever got...
I used to crave for good friends and company in the past. Now, I've gotten used to being alone so much that I don't even desire having to dealing with another persons. Everyone has their own quirks, obsessiveness,pet peeves that you kind of have to navigate your way through it so that you won't unintentionally upset or hurt them. I have enough of my own issues and can't be bothered to deal with a friend's or acquaintance's issues. Once you get used to being by yourself, it is very difficult to turn back around and have a 2-way or multiple "communal" way of living.
I'd love to hear how are you. Hopefully well. I've lived with depression and anxiety for 18 years now, there are much better times in between those years and some that are worse. In retrospect even the worst years are meaningful parts of life, but while living them it's hell. You are not alone. And it will pass, I promise. It will not change magically and just go away and it will require a lot from you, but nothing more than you can handle. Small steps. You have good insight, you have strength (even it might not feel like you do, but I see it).
Do we have any updates on this guy? I found this channel by accident. I used to watch him when he created content in Indonesia as Bule British. He did some great videos but used to delete them regularly and constantly changed his channel name.
I've watched all of your videos. Hope you're doing well. You're definitely not alone on this journey. Hope to see your new videos, doing or sharing whatever you want. Hearing you talk feels really calm.
I feel as I’m interacting with myself here Your situation and how you explain your experience is nearly identical to mine. As far as cutting my doses and everything! I’m currently off mine, and have been suffering for months. I’ve been scared to get back on because I can’t remember how it went last time; this video was exactly what I needed! I cannot tell you how much this helped me! Thank you And the last video too, thank you for sharing and reminding me that others know what I’m experiencing so closely I hope you are doing well friend
Hey man, just had TH-cam bring up your videos. I hope you're in a much better place now and that things are going well for you! I'm. 44 and have had similar problems to you in the past. I found the best thing for me was when I changed my diet to meat based. I cut out all vegetables and just ate red meat, Eggs, fruit and honey and I have not had a panic attack in 3 years now. Also, that feeling of dread has completely gone and I no longer jump whenever there's a knock at the door or I get a text message 😅I also have a generally much more optimistic and upbeat attitude to life. Cutting out processed food has an absolutely huge affect on mental well being. I have also been hitting the gym which again has a big impact. Finger's crossed that everything is going much better for you now, mate. England isn't a great place to be when you're down. We're told 'our' NHS is the best health service in the world, but that's not been my experience. Just know that you can get out of this rut. You've done it before and you will again. Take care
When you’re able, would love to hear an update. Struggling out here with a LOT of the exact same things as you brother. You’re not alone even though you feel as though you are.
Not sure why your videos just got recommended to me, but I see there are only 3, all released on the same day, 4 months ago. Hope you're doing ok, bud.
Honestly mate I've saved all your videos and I'm going through one of the hardest parts of my life, similar situation, no family, little friends, live in a city far away on my own for University. I've been on a few antidepressants before considering them again, good luck and please stay strong. All your subscribers are rooting for your happiness.
42 myself, living in Nagano. If not for my wife I would feel exactly the same. Even with the most loving woman in the world in my life I still struggle sometimes not to sink into lonliness, despair, and depression. Tomorrow I'm going to a clinic in Roppongi to see if they can help. I'm sure it has to be a brain chemistry thing. My life on paper is great and yet I can't drag myself up out of this funk. I hope you managed to get out of yours and I would love to see an update video and hear about how you're doing now.
just got this stuff prescriped last week - first time on dem pills - first day: felt dizzy, second day: went for a walk and passed out on the sidewalk. woke up in an ambulance. spend the rest of the day inside emergency room. not trying to scare anyone here out of trying them out but wanted to share this. fucked me up good that experience. keep it up king!
You may have to change until you get one that fits you. There are several just for that reason. When you do find the right one you will be back on track. Keep us updated. It's 4 months since you posted and those that saw your posts worry!
ive never seen anyone that mirrors my exact situation like this before. I'm a bit further down the line than you tho. Managed to find someone that loves me for who i am! Dude you are so like me 5 years ago it's insane. I'd love to talk with you if you wanted. Things can get infinitely better i promise you!
Hey I just noticed all your videos are 3 months old. I really hope you make more, I've never come across a channel that resonates with me so much. I really mean that...
Watch your videos man, hope you upload again sometime. 😢 We're rooting for you you're probably fine now hopefully and if not come on back we're here for you
I can recommend vitamin b3 (non flush - Niacin) for anxiety and b8 (Inositol) for depression. For me they worked way better than antidepressants, without the side effects. Hope this helps.
Please don't give up if one medicine doesn't work for you. My ex-wife suffered from similar issues and every medication affects everyone differently and it a very fine line between helping and making things worse sometimes. I'm 49 now and my marriage has ended and i've lost both of my parents and i spend most of my days working and playing solo board games. I completely understand where you are coming from. I will say that I was never a dog person, but my wife wanted one and he is the only thing in my life that brings me pure childlike joy. And I know that one day I will lose him, but I would immediately be back to adopt another dog. At the end of the day, everything in life is a distraction. We all want to leave something behind, but most of us won't be remembered. That is just the human condition. You are not alone.
@@stevebillups9238 Happy for you brother. Sending love and hugs your way 🤗💕 I suggest believing in a higher power, God as you understand him, and an afterlife, for your peace of mind. And maintaining a mood diary daily, noticing the cognitive distortions in my thinking has been really beneficial for me 🤗
Thanks for the video. I have been housebound in London Hotel for about 5 weeks (on and off alcohol has enabled me to get out to some extent, but obviously made things worse) second day off alcohol, but I had telephone appointment with Dr here and was prescribed Escitalopram 5mg for a week last Wednesday. I didn't pick them up until last Friday as was shaking from fear and was totally a sight, and this was me on alcohol. I had to go and collect them from Boots today as Dr called earlier and prescribed 28 tables, Escitalopram. Funny to describe, but waiting to go out of room, 1st for shower, then actually to hand in key scared the shit out of me; however, it wasn't that bad and when I was outside I gradually talked myself a little calmer - thus, I think the medication is having an effect. I guess you know feeling of feeling like a freak, all eyes on you etc is so shameful, but totally out of or control. Your story is in someways a little similar: I arrived here from China about 7 weeks ago, I worked there as International teacher. I have struggled with anxiety most of adult life, but to much lesser degree. I left Moscow to get to China 3 weeks before pandemic broke out. My Wife was pregnant with our Son and she and our daughter went to her mon's in the Philippines to give birth. She was meant to come to China, but the pandemic closed and made the journey in or out impossible. Months went to years, and over time my mental, and physical, health went down. Long story short, I was shipped out of China back to London via a medical hospital (yes a guy in Chinese mental hospital, with about 10 words of English). I was in there due to an act I carried out, best not to elaborate. Anyway, I think reality has hit in London and massive anxiety has been present even with self medication alcohol, medicines I had from China, and later Doctor. Money running down as in London hotel which is expensive. It's only today that I can only hope, and believe, that the Escitalopram will get me finished up here so I can travel on. I hope to get better, get physically fitter, stay away from alcohol and be able to travel to Philippines in Summer. Have been feeling so alone her, and guess I am, but reading your, and others, comments, If I have a panic attack "so what" I got to get my mindset right as sick of living in fear. Thanks for sharing, good luck.
How are you now, just found your vids and they are so valuable as youre talking about such personal but relevant stuff to so many people including me.💯
I hope you’re doing well, many of us are concerned and we consider ourselves to be your friends as we many of us can relate to all of the things you’ve mentioned in your videos were very concerned and hope to hear from you soon your friend here in the USA Florida
I will give this one a try. I am a so called hikikomoi I've bean like that for 2-3 years aperently I have depresion and anxiety too. I have been take some drugs but nothing really helps a lot. I would love to see more updates from you. This would mean a lot to the people who are like you. This may seem very selfish. But at least pls tell us if you are OK. Ps: love from your new subscriber ❤️
I never thought anyone was struggling as much as me. I ran across one of your videos and I knew I wasn’t struggling alone. If your reading this I hope your doing well.
recently found your vids ...ya sound like your from my neck of the woods ... i hope your doing better and maybe have a friend now ... i have the problem with my throat feel like its closing up at times ...anyway i hope lifes treatin you a lot better now
It's like listening to myself !!! Last year I developed panic attacks...had to call an ambulance twice- once at work. Doctor gave me the little "pam" pills. And you are right...it's comforting to know that I have them...just in case. I tried anti-anxiety pills....they dont work for me. I take magnesium. Thank you for sharing. There is always comfort in numbers !!
diazepam is an evil drug when used regularly, it took me 2 years to feel any kind of normal, the withdrawal was horrific. please continue to use sparingly bro. more vids please, your content is helping lots of people myself included. Would love see an update. best wishes
@@thejacobin9406 I didn’t go cold turkey pal, i tapered down under my Doctors supervision following years of diazepam use. I can relate it to “Jordan Petersons” hellish experiences. Never again
Please more upload. I am a Thai pharmacist (but not do the job as pharmacists), and it is my first time to know escitalopram. I hope you are strong. Love you.
Impressed with your take on taking personal control of how you take the meds - I have had depression and anxiety most on of my life off and on and a period of a few years with quite bad cPTSD - but I never experienced meds - personally I had issues with the health service/ mental health services and feel it is a very challenging system which does not always help people but often makes people's health and circumstances worse - Hope you found the way forward with your own situation - maybe you are abroad again now ? Hope you are well. Will subscribe and check in sometime all being well to see if you have updated your videos. Best Wishes.
Can relate to the blow of just making the brave steps to go all the way to the Philippines and having decent set up for the health scare scenario to spoil it all - i too have been struggling for some years and then the move away from friends has been hard in some ways and in others I am glad to be in a new location only that the culture is odd. You seem to have a real good grip on how to handle the meds to protect yourself - hopefully ( I do not have confidence in meds for mental health issues ) but impressed on your insight and research on them and taking control for yourself. Hope you are well now and that people find my comments useful - including on the spiritual stuff. I do not know if this is true but I also came across that there is tech that can affect people's mental health like frequencies and electro magnetic frequencies and maybe even the four G and the five G. . . .Best Wishes.
hey, hope u are ok...............i think u saved my sanity..........thank u so much for sharing your experiences and feelings.........please know that people are thinking about u..........we care about u.
Thank you for sharing your story with this - and anxiety/agoraphobia. You're not alone in having these experiences or feelings; I say this having them myself. How has the adjustment to Lexapro gone for you?
You seem much better here. Your energy is different, more alive.. i take escitalopram too. I don't feel that much improvement but i do feel worsening symptoms which are a good sign too😅 I remember taking them in the past and they made a huge improvement in my life. I was almost an entirely different person in a good way. It felt amazing and so surreal, thinking thats how others feel day to day with no medication. Its also sad realizing how we got f#cked with this thing when the other side feels so good amd peaceful
Some of the symptoms of anxiety can be from life experiences, diet, lack of exercise, social isolation and all can interact to cause one another. One thing that many people do not recognise is spiritual factors - things people are involved in ( I explored Eastern practices years ago - several different things I explored as they came across my path and awakened a search for spiritual meaning in myself - but - they were spiritually dangerous - most people do not realise this - that certain things can open spiritual doors and we can be attacked spiritually - I had gone from being raised in a religion ( which had been one of several issue in childhood ) also spooky cartoons and tv programmes, scary stories - a fascination for Halloween in childhood and adult scary tv shows that were on when I was a child. In adulthood going to groups under the guise of self improvement ( connected to Hinduism thought I was pretty clueless when I was going there) then a Buddhist meditation group and brief dip into some yoga and some other stuff - i started getting night terrors and a work friend of mine who went to another Eastern group doing "exercises" ( which are really worship rituals in disguise as exercises ) she had weird stuff happen including out of body / astral projection which is very dangerous. The thing that cleared all that out for me was finding salvation in Jesus Christ via The Bible - no religion - just a reconciled relationship to our Creator via the one off salvation transaction - info about that on some of my playlists accessible by clicking on the green circle to the top left of this post and from youtubers like "Nicholas Getty" and "Gregg Jackson" and Mark at "ProclaimHisWord". This is the free gift that extends into eternity and is clean not like religion and the eastern stuff i tried - also people make big dangerous mistakes - trying to contact the dead and stuff like that - many people have been affected by traumas and also due to involvement in spiritually dangerous stuff which isn't always presented as dark - but is subtle deception. At the same time - many people have been fooled into tapping into dark practices like kabbalah and even types of witchccraft, horror movies, tarot cards, horoscopes - opening doors that they cannot close - Jesus Christ is the Only Help for these and for salvation of the soul.
Good idea to read up online about medication you seem such a sensible guy . Take the medication if it helps I don’t take medication I like to excercise and eat very healthy it helps me a lot some days a have low mood tho but mostly I can manage it. Listening to your video . Your videos will help so many people
why worry? there are so many people dying everyday unnoticed. We just don't know when your and my time will be. Life is strange indeed and unpredictable.
Hi. How are you? I would love to know how you were doing. I’ve been watching your videos, and I’m so impressed with them. Please continue to upload videos. You’re doing a wonderful job.
I'm on this boat too for a long time now and I want to turn my life around with a little bit of help that I'm not sure I'm going to get but I'll remain hopeful and I'll also see what can I do. My woe consist of me being defective physically, mentally and socially. I'm also being haunted by the past plus my environment and where I came from. I wish to control some of it and alter my course to be better. Idle for quite a long time now, gaming back then and now reading my classic literature books which is now my passion. Now I want to return to college to take something related to literature. But it could be more complicated and I really wish I'm not sounding like making an excuse. Some things doesn't define us, it can depends and there can be more about us as a person and not just be define by our problems and status. Though the majority, functioning and has less issues individuals may not understand, it has to be enough that we have ourselves, others like us and the ideas, the arts, philopsophies and stories that we can immerse ourselves into and use to hopefully get out of our predicament, to be free, to live fully.
Yo I suggest you go for a run at least once a week. I have panic attacks but running helps and the severity dropped significantly. Would love to hear an update!
Beside that medicine, do take Vitamin D-3, you need it (most of us do). Lack of exposure to sun causes depression. That seems to be one of the causes in your case. Vitamin D-3 is very cheap and has lots of great effects. Hope you're feeling better these days.
I just seen your first video, man have you explained 100% how I feel. Wow I cannot believe I found some one that feels just like me. I with you man. Any help I can do let me no. I don't no what? But it was just nice to watch you videos.
I hope you are okay. The Corona shutdown destroyed so many millions of lives in so many ways. I wonder if the cure was worse than the disease. This young man has so much going for him, I hope he received the help he needed.
I also take a medication for my depression, though my doctor was very clear about having to start slowly. He advised me to cut the pills in half and take half a pill per day for the first 10-12 days, then switch to a full dose of one pill per day. He also told me that the effects wouldn't start until 4-8 weeks during our first appointment where we discussed starting with this antidepressant. I do live in Belgium, so maybe a difference in doctors experiences between our countries.
I was put on antidepressants here in UK but they made me feel so bad, but when I told the GP I felt the tablets were making me feel worse I was told to "Stop them, then". So I stopped them, and have refused tablets ever since. I only later found out that they should have tried me on different tablets if the initial ones don't work. I was with a friend in Belgium who went to see her GP then had to go to the hospital for tests, and the service reminds my of the medical system I grew up with in South Africa many years ago. Here in UK it's awful. I've not been able to get a GP appointment for a few months, now. Neither has my elderly dad who is supposed to be monitored by the GP after an operation but there are no appointments available. We've been told a week ago that there's nothing before Xmas. It wasn't too bad before a couple of surgeries closed down and left one to take up the patients, then shortly after was the lock downs which seem to have collapsed everything. The chemists are struggling to get some drugs at the moment, too. I'm having to rely on charities for my mental health problems, and they have long waiting lists but the NHS system couldn't help me because they are struggling to cope with people in a much worse condition than I am. Anyway, I'm going on a rant, now! 🙂
Hey, my friend, how are you doing? I'm from Vietnam by the way, but your loneliness is so close to what I have been seeing here, and that has really changed my world view, specially after your last video. We all care about you, mate. Trust me, please!
Similar situation; this life sucks. Seek God; it really helped me. I know it's cliché, but it's the only thing that has helped me. Also, the pandemic experience was so similar to mine. I finally was coming off the meds, finally had a steady job, even started thinking about buying a house. Suddenly, everything got destroyed; they closed the gyms, which are my therapy, and I got locked in my room. I lost every single penny, friends, job, everything. Now, I'm really tired of starting again (this would be my fourth time starting again). But I was just reviewing my resume to start again, from zero, all over again. Thank you for the video and the advice!
I was put on this drug and it caused me severe suicidal thoughts and ideation. I would strongly suggest you research the drugs before taking them. I wish I had
I have no idea about how do you feel recently and we do need (somewhat) an update. I also want to share a bit of a story; My partner had severe anxiety/ depression and was in a very bad condition. He has been treated with ECT 10 yrs ago - normally with short term memory lost (side effects) and getting better months later. Now, he's on 25Mg of Allegron (Nortriptylene) everyday and do anything he likes to do. The best way for you probably is to keep yourself being active, think positive, do anything you'd like to do, good rest, and start making new friends as well (i know it sounds simplistic, but it's just a suggestion). If you're picky, maybe i'm not the best type of a friend for you, but at least i care towards others with the same situation. Cheers from Sydney Australia, Mate 😇👌🏽 #Humanity
People are asking for an update in this comment section mate which shows we all care. So I think you owe us an update because I've only just discovered this page and we all care about you. I notice you haven't added an e mail address in your 'about tab because I wanted to e mail you and have a video call with you as I can relate more than you know. So we are all here for you. So accept the help and start making those human connections. You got this mate! Big love!
Why say that he's passed away? I bet you don't even know him. It's cruel. If you genuinely know the guy and know of his wellbeing then write a genuine comment at the top. Lots of people are asking out of genuine concern.
Hi! You were in my recommendations, and I’ve suffered from depression for decades. That’s the generic form of Lexapro if I remember. I’m the poster child for Paxil, which is in the same family as Prozac and Lexapro. Can you give us a heads’s up and let us know how you’re doing now? Love and new sub from Philadelphia! 🙏🏼💖🕊
Hi. I have chronic clinical depression and anxiety. I take 10mg of Lexapro and 150mg of wellbutrin. They refer to this cocktail as Well Pro. It has helped me a lot. Taken together they kinda cancel out the bad effects of each other. Ask your doctor about that.
There is a reason we are all depressed. Personally - I lost my husband - died of Cocaine overdose and Daughter (estranged). The divide between the rich and the poor is what gets to us all.
Hope you’re well pal! Do upper your dose to 20mg/day if you are still having panic attacks… no need for diazepam then! I’ve been on 20mg for just over a year now!
Are you OK mate? I just feel the need to ask cause you haven't posted a video in a few years. I'm not the only Internet stranger who would like to know you're OK.
He started a TH-cam reaction channel with his wife about a year ago, although they seem to have stopped that now. On the outside it looks like things had changed for the better in his life.
If you ever read this comment I would like to recommend some great books. (Trust me). Rewiring The Anxious Brain by Catherine Pittman, and Stopping The Noise In Your Head by Reid Wilson. What maintains anxiety is avoidance. You gotta push yourself out of your comfort zone. The gym is a great place to start. Anyway, hope you are well. Take care.
Many of us are vitamin deficient. B5 pantothenic acid helped me when I was anxious and kinda sad. I no longer need it either. D3 & k2 drops also helped me feel more upbeat. I like a more natural approach due to being a lightweight, with no side effects. Hope this is a help to you.
I had to Google what his channel name means. It makes me feel so sad for this man. Obviously it’s been 2 years since he posted anything, I wonder what happened that he only posted three videos? I hope he is thriving somewhere and has chased all his demons away. God bless him.
I just found this channel but videos are 2 years old...i hope he is alright...
Same here
I hope this guy is still alive and well. I remember first watching his three videos on his channel when they were first uploaded and I was going through a difficult, depressing time. It was comforting watching him speak through the camera at the time, hearing him share. Every once in awhile I come back to see if he ever uploads anything else, but I see that he hasn’t. It has gotten better for me now in comparison to last year - of course, I’m not perfect and I still have my low days, but I have been better.
I hope it has gotten better for you too.
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Same here. Watched it long time ago and came back to see how he is doing.
Well, no updates so far and I'm kinda worried about him.
@hikikomori Bro?..
Same here. Perhaps he's found the motivation and moved on from this channel. I hope these side-effects from this medication he's talking about in this video didn't cause any complications. Lockdown was tough on everyone. Whether he has stayed in the same place or found some answers, we would like to know what he is doing and if he is OK.
Hey there to anybody got any tips on how to managed Anxiety......
He died. RIP.
@@Gukzilla How do you know?
Hi, it's me again. How are you feeling these days? Would love to hear another update soon. Cheers.
Yes please, you ok?
me too, i would also like to know how you are?
@S JLA he is not!!!!! this is just a sick joke
@Apocalyptic Workshop Hey man, glad to see you're keeping yourself busy, saw that other channel. Don't ever think you're back at square one, because you never really are with all that you have gone through you have become stronger and more experienced with it, you brain will always "heal" itself from trauma over time and things will only get better.
Do not take chemicals for depression... You need to make changes in your lifestyle get a dog use the sauna daily and take cold showers/ exercise.. best advice I ever got...
You're definitely not alone. I'm impressed by the amount of love in this comment section.
I used to crave for good friends and company in the past. Now, I've gotten used to being alone so much that I don't even desire having to dealing with another persons. Everyone has their own quirks, obsessiveness,pet peeves that you kind of have to navigate your way through it so that you won't unintentionally upset or hurt them. I have enough of my own issues and can't be bothered to deal with a friend's or acquaintance's issues. Once you get used to being by yourself, it is very difficult to turn back around and have a 2-way or multiple "communal" way of living.
I agree with you
I'd love to hear how are you. Hopefully well. I've lived with depression and anxiety for 18 years now, there are much better times in between those years and some that are worse. In retrospect even the worst years are meaningful parts of life, but while living them it's hell. You are not alone. And it will pass, I promise. It will not change magically and just go away and it will require a lot from you, but nothing more than you can handle. Small steps. You have good insight, you have strength (even it might not feel like you do, but I see it).
@Apocalyptic Workshop Please read my comment posted above!!
@Apocalyptic Workshop Really glad you're doing alright.
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Has anybody heard from him?
This is two years ago. Really hope all is better for you now. Thanks for sharing how a lot of people feel
Just found your channel. I'ts been 2yrs since your last update...
I truly hope you're doing well. 🍀
Sending you tons of love & positive vibes! 🥰✨🌞
Do we have any updates on this guy?
I found this channel by accident. I used to watch him when he created content in Indonesia as Bule British. He did some great videos but used to delete them regularly and constantly changed his channel name.
I hope your ok man, would love to hear back from you. I've tapered off several medication but the anxiety and depression always comes back.
I've watched all of your videos. Hope you're doing well. You're definitely not alone on this journey. Hope to see your new videos, doing or sharing whatever you want. Hearing you talk feels really calm.
I feel as I’m interacting with myself here
Your situation and how you explain your experience is nearly identical to mine. As far as cutting my doses and everything! I’m currently off mine, and have been suffering for months. I’ve been scared to get back on because I can’t remember how it went last time; this video was exactly what I needed! I cannot tell you how much this helped me! Thank you
And the last video too, thank you for sharing and reminding me that others know what I’m experiencing so closely
I hope you are doing well friend
I hope the meds helped you and you feel better. Please keep us updated. Much love and strength
I check back every so often in the hope this guy posts. I hope you're doing ok if you read this. Be good to see ya say hello if you're up to it?
Hey man, just had TH-cam bring up your videos. I hope you're in a much better place now and that things are going well for you! I'm. 44 and have had similar problems to you in the past. I found the best thing for me was when I changed my diet to meat based. I cut out all vegetables and just ate red meat, Eggs, fruit and honey and I have not had a panic attack in 3 years now. Also, that feeling of dread has completely gone and I no longer jump whenever there's a knock at the door or I get a text message 😅I also have a generally much more optimistic and upbeat attitude to life. Cutting out processed food has an absolutely huge affect on mental well being. I have also been hitting the gym which again has a big impact.
Finger's crossed that everything is going much better for you now, mate. England isn't a great place to be when you're down. We're told 'our' NHS is the best health service in the world, but that's not been my experience. Just know that you can get out of this rut. You've done it before and you will again. Take care
When you’re able, would love to hear an update. Struggling out here with a LOT of the exact same things as you brother. You’re not alone even though you feel as though you are.
Your videos are important and helpful to a lot of people, keep up the good work and I hope you continue getting better.
Wow, you seem to be doing much better than on previous vids. I hope it is going well for you. The epidemic hit hard all of us. Keep us updated! :)
How are you feeling these days? Hope to hear from you soon. 🙏🏻❤
I started taking Lexapro few months ago and I can tell I don't get as down as I used to. I'm grateful for it
Not sure why your videos just got recommended to me, but I see there are only 3, all released on the same day, 4 months ago. Hope you're doing ok, bud.
Same
Same here ...
Honestly mate I've saved all your videos and I'm going through one of the hardest parts of my life, similar situation, no family, little friends, live in a city far away on my own for University. I've been on a few antidepressants before considering them again, good luck and please stay strong. All your subscribers are rooting for your happiness.
How you doing now everything going better mate ?
Im happy to hear you are feeling a bit better : )
Hope you’re doing alright man, you’re not alone
42 myself, living in Nagano. If not for my wife I would feel exactly the same. Even with the most loving woman in the world in my life I still struggle sometimes not to sink into lonliness, despair, and depression. Tomorrow I'm going to a clinic in Roppongi to see if they can help. I'm sure it has to be a brain chemistry thing. My life on paper is great and yet I can't drag myself up out of this funk. I hope you managed to get out of yours and I would love to see an update video and hear about how you're doing now.
This just got on my recommendations and I'm glad I did
just got this stuff prescriped last week - first time on dem pills - first day: felt dizzy, second day: went for a walk and passed out on the sidewalk. woke up in an ambulance. spend the rest of the day inside emergency room. not trying to scare anyone here out of trying them out but wanted to share this. fucked me up good that experience. keep it up king!
You may have to change until you get one that fits you. There are several just for that reason. When you do find the right one you will be back on track. Keep us updated. It's 4 months since you posted and those that saw your posts worry!
I'm glad to hear you're better
ive never seen anyone that mirrors my exact situation like this before. I'm a bit further down the line than you tho. Managed to find someone that loves me for who i am! Dude you are so like me 5 years ago it's insane. I'd love to talk with you if you wanted. Things can get infinitely better i promise you!
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He has so many "friends" on here thats for sure.
Hey I just noticed all your videos are 3 months old. I really hope you make more, I've never come across a channel that resonates with me so much. I really mean that...
Watch your videos man, hope you upload again sometime. 😢 We're rooting for you you're probably fine now hopefully and if not come on back we're here for you
I can recommend vitamin b3 (non flush - Niacin) for anxiety and b8 (Inositol) for depression. For me they worked way better than antidepressants, without the side effects. Hope this helps.
give us an update if you can, you are such a kind sounding human, I hope you are feeling well.
Please don't give up if one medicine doesn't work for you. My ex-wife suffered from similar issues and every medication affects everyone differently and it a very fine line between helping and making things worse sometimes. I'm 49 now and my marriage has ended and i've lost both of my parents and i spend most of my days working and playing solo board games. I completely understand where you are coming from. I will say that I was never a dog person, but my wife wanted one and he is the only thing in my life that brings me pure childlike joy. And I know that one day I will lose him, but I would immediately be back to adopt another dog. At the end of the day, everything in life is a distraction. We all want to leave something behind, but most of us won't be remembered. That is just the human condition. You are not alone.
How are you doing now?
@@LuxLisbon32 Still here. Still in therapy lol.
@@stevebillups9238 Happy for you brother. Sending love and hugs your way 🤗💕 I suggest believing in a higher power, God as you understand him, and an afterlife, for your peace of mind. And maintaining a mood diary daily, noticing the cognitive distortions in my thinking has been really beneficial for me 🤗
Thanks for the video. I have been housebound in London Hotel for about 5 weeks (on and off alcohol has enabled me to get out to some extent, but obviously made things worse) second day off alcohol, but I had telephone appointment with Dr here and was prescribed Escitalopram 5mg for a week last Wednesday. I didn't pick them up until last Friday as was shaking from fear and was totally a sight, and this was me on alcohol. I had to go and collect them from Boots today as Dr called earlier and prescribed 28 tables, Escitalopram. Funny to describe, but waiting to go out of room, 1st for shower, then actually to hand in key scared the shit out of me; however, it wasn't that bad and when I was outside I gradually talked myself a little calmer - thus, I think the medication is having an effect. I guess you know feeling of feeling like a freak, all eyes on you etc is so shameful, but totally out of or control. Your story is in someways a little similar: I arrived here from China about 7 weeks ago, I worked there as International teacher. I have struggled with anxiety most of adult life, but to much lesser degree. I left Moscow to get to China 3 weeks before pandemic broke out. My Wife was pregnant with our Son and she and our daughter went to her mon's in the Philippines to give birth. She was meant to come to China, but the pandemic closed and made the journey in or out impossible. Months went to years, and over time my mental, and physical, health went down. Long story short, I was shipped out of China back to London via a medical hospital (yes a guy in Chinese mental hospital, with about 10 words of English). I was in there due to an act I carried out, best not to elaborate. Anyway, I think reality has hit in London and massive anxiety has been present even with self medication alcohol, medicines I had from China, and later Doctor. Money running down as in London hotel which is expensive. It's only today that I can only hope, and believe, that the Escitalopram will get me finished up here so I can travel on. I hope to get better, get physically fitter, stay away from alcohol and be able to travel to Philippines in Summer. Have been feeling so alone her, and guess I am, but reading your, and others, comments, If I have a panic attack "so what" I got to get my mindset right as sick of living in fear. Thanks for sharing, good luck.
How are you now, just found your vids and they are so valuable as youre talking about such personal but relevant stuff to so many people including me.💯
Were here for u 💓 life is a ongoing journey
I hope you’re doing well, many of us are concerned and we consider ourselves to be your friends as we many of us can relate to all of the things you’ve mentioned in your videos were very concerned and hope to hear from you soon your friend here in the USA Florida
Really wish we could get an update from this man.
I will give this one a try. I am a so called hikikomoi I've bean like that for 2-3 years aperently I have depresion and anxiety too. I have been take some drugs but nothing really helps a lot. I would love to see more updates from you. This would mean a lot to the people who are like you. This may seem very selfish. But at least pls tell us if you are OK.
Ps: love from your new subscriber ❤️
I never thought anyone was struggling as much as me. I ran across one of your videos and I knew I wasn’t struggling alone. If your reading this I hope your doing well.
Same
Ask God just ONCE to help u and he will! ❤
God will help u in Jesus name! ❤
recently found your vids ...ya sound like your from my neck of the woods ... i hope your doing better and maybe have a friend now ... i have the problem with my throat feel like its closing up at times ...anyway i hope lifes treatin you a lot better now
You are wonderfully made in Jesus mighty name ❤
It's like listening to myself !!!
Last year I developed panic attacks...had to call an ambulance twice- once at work.
Doctor gave me the little "pam" pills. And you are right...it's comforting to know that I have them...just in case.
I tried anti-anxiety pills....they dont work for me. I take magnesium.
Thank you for sharing. There is always comfort in numbers !!
diazepam is an evil drug when used regularly, it took me 2 years to feel any kind of normal, the withdrawal was horrific. please continue to use sparingly bro. more vids please, your content is helping lots of people myself included. Would love see an update. best wishes
You arent supposed to quit cold turkey my dude. I titrated off them for over a year, minimal side effects
@@thejacobin9406 I didn’t go cold turkey pal, i tapered down under my Doctors supervision following years of diazepam use. I can relate it to “Jordan Petersons” hellish experiences. Never again
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@@tonyxvx1966 JB got off cold turkey, perhaps you titrated too fast?
you can't use 'sparingly' it's a daily thing until you taper off
Please more upload. I am a Thai pharmacist (but not do the job as pharmacists), and it is my first time to know escitalopram. I hope you are strong. Love you.
I started praying and it helped as well.
Impressed with your take on taking personal control of how you take the meds - I have had depression and anxiety most on of my life off and on and a period of a few years with quite bad cPTSD - but I never experienced meds - personally I had issues with the health service/ mental health services and feel it is a very challenging system which does not always help people but often makes people's health and circumstances worse - Hope you found the way forward with your own situation - maybe you are abroad again now ? Hope you are well. Will subscribe and check in sometime all being well to see if you have updated your videos. Best Wishes.
Can relate to the blow of just making the brave steps to go all the way to the Philippines and having decent set up for the health scare scenario to spoil it all - i too have been struggling for some years and then the move away from friends has been hard in some ways and in others I am glad to be in a new location only that the culture is odd. You seem to have a real good grip on how to handle the meds to protect yourself - hopefully ( I do not have confidence in meds for mental health issues ) but impressed on your insight and research on them and taking control for yourself. Hope you are well now and that people find my comments useful - including on the spiritual stuff. I do not know if this is true but I also came across that there is tech that can affect people's mental health like frequencies and electro magnetic frequencies and maybe even the four G and the five G. . . .Best Wishes.
hey, hope u are ok...............i think u saved my sanity..........thank u so much for sharing your experiences and feelings.........please know that people are thinking about u..........we care about u.
I've been subscribed to you for over 2 years and noticed you haven't uploaded in a while.
Hope you’re in a better place. I think I am...
praying your doing well brother
Thank you for sharing your story with this - and anxiety/agoraphobia. You're not alone in having these experiences or feelings; I say this having them myself. How has the adjustment to Lexapro gone for you?
Hey there, how are things with you now? Hope you're doing better. Let us all know you're ok, please. Thanks! Hang in there.
You seem much better here. Your energy is different, more alive.. i take escitalopram too. I don't feel that much improvement but i do feel worsening symptoms which are a good sign too😅
I remember taking them in the past and they made a huge improvement in my life. I was almost an entirely different person in a good way. It felt amazing and so surreal, thinking thats how others feel day to day with no medication. Its also sad realizing how we got f#cked with this thing when the other side feels so good amd peaceful
Some of the symptoms of anxiety can be from life experiences, diet, lack of exercise, social isolation and all can interact to cause one another. One thing that many people do not recognise is spiritual factors - things people are involved in ( I explored Eastern practices years ago - several different things I explored as they came across my path and awakened a search for spiritual meaning in myself - but - they were spiritually dangerous - most people do not realise this - that certain things can open spiritual doors and we can be attacked spiritually - I had gone from being raised in a religion ( which had been one of several issue in childhood ) also spooky cartoons and tv programmes, scary stories - a fascination for Halloween in childhood and adult scary tv shows that were on when I was a child. In adulthood going to groups under the guise of self improvement ( connected to Hinduism thought I was pretty clueless when I was going there) then a Buddhist meditation group and brief dip into some yoga and some other stuff - i started getting night terrors and a work friend of mine who went to another Eastern group doing "exercises" ( which are really worship rituals in disguise as exercises ) she had weird stuff happen including out of body / astral projection which is very dangerous.
The thing that cleared all that out for me was finding salvation in Jesus Christ via The Bible - no religion - just a reconciled relationship to our Creator via the one off salvation transaction - info about that on some of my playlists accessible by clicking on the green circle to the top left of this post and from youtubers like "Nicholas Getty" and
"Gregg Jackson" and Mark at "ProclaimHisWord". This is the free gift that extends into eternity and is clean not like religion and the eastern stuff i tried - also people make big dangerous mistakes - trying to contact the dead and stuff like that - many people have been affected by traumas and also due to involvement in spiritually dangerous stuff which isn't always presented as dark - but is subtle deception. At the same time - many people have been fooled into tapping into dark practices like kabbalah and even types of witchccraft, horror movies, tarot cards, horoscopes - opening doors that they cannot close - Jesus Christ is the Only Help for these and for salvation of the soul.
Good idea to read up online about medication you seem such a sensible guy . Take the medication if it helps I don’t take medication I like to excercise and eat very healthy it helps me a lot some days a have low mood tho but mostly I can manage it. Listening to your video . Your videos will help so many people
4 months ago? Hope things have started looking up for him. He seems like a genuinely good person
I really worry about this guy. Can anyone know how to find him?
why worry? there are so many people dying everyday unnoticed. We just don't know when your and my time will be. Life is strange indeed and unpredictable.
Hi. How are you? I would love to know how you were doing. I’ve been watching your videos, and I’m so impressed with them. Please continue to upload videos. You’re doing a wonderful job.
I'm on this boat too for a long time now and I want to turn my life around with a little bit of help that I'm not sure I'm going to get but I'll remain hopeful and I'll also see what can I do. My woe consist of me being defective physically, mentally and socially. I'm also being haunted by the past plus my environment and where I came from. I wish to control some of it and alter my course to be better. Idle for quite a long time now, gaming back then and now reading my classic literature books which is now my passion. Now I want to return to college to take something related to literature. But it could be more complicated and I really wish I'm not sounding like making an excuse. Some things doesn't define us, it can depends and there can be more about us as a person and not just be define by our problems and status. Though the majority, functioning and has less issues individuals may not understand, it has to be enough that we have ourselves, others like us and the ideas, the arts, philopsophies and stories that we can immerse ourselves into and use to hopefully get out of our predicament, to be free, to live fully.
Yo I suggest you go for a run at least once a week. I have panic attacks but running helps and the severity dropped significantly.
Would love to hear an update!
Beside that medicine, do take Vitamin D-3, you need it (most of us do). Lack of exposure to sun causes depression. That seems to be one of the causes in your case. Vitamin D-3 is very cheap and has lots of great effects.
Hope you're feeling better these days.
My doctor just told me that too. I started taking it.
@@SuperToughnut I’d suggest taking vitamin k along with it.
I just seen your first video, man have you explained 100% how I feel. Wow I cannot believe I found some one that feels just like me. I with you man. Any help I can do let me no. I don't no what? But it was just nice to watch you videos.
I hope you are okay. The Corona shutdown destroyed so many millions of lives in so many ways. I wonder if the cure was worse than the disease. This young man has so much going for him, I hope he received the help he needed.
I hope you are ok man you are not alone we all feel like this some are just better at hiding it that’s all
I also take a medication for my depression, though my doctor was very clear about having to start slowly. He advised me to cut the pills in half and take half a pill per day for the first 10-12 days, then switch to a full dose of one pill per day. He also told me that the effects wouldn't start until 4-8 weeks during our first appointment where we discussed starting with this antidepressant. I do live in Belgium, so maybe a difference in doctors experiences between our countries.
I was put on antidepressants here in UK but they made me feel so bad, but when I told the GP I felt the tablets were making me feel worse I was told to "Stop them, then". So I stopped them, and have refused tablets ever since. I only later found out that they should have tried me on different tablets if the initial ones don't work. I was with a friend in Belgium who went to see her GP then had to go to the hospital for tests, and the service reminds my of the medical system I grew up with in South Africa many years ago. Here in UK it's awful. I've not been able to get a GP appointment for a few months, now. Neither has my elderly dad who is supposed to be monitored by the GP after an operation but there are no appointments available. We've been told a week ago that there's nothing before Xmas. It wasn't too bad before a couple of surgeries closed down and left one to take up the patients, then shortly after was the lock downs which seem to have collapsed everything. The chemists are struggling to get some drugs at the moment, too. I'm having to rely on charities for my mental health problems, and they have long waiting lists but the NHS system couldn't help me because they are struggling to cope with people in a much worse condition than I am. Anyway, I'm going on a rant, now! 🙂
Youre such a nice person ,I do hope things improve for you
Hey, my friend, how are you doing? I'm from Vietnam by the way, but your loneliness is so close to what I have been seeing here, and that has really changed my world view, specially after your last video. We all care about you, mate. Trust me, please!
Hey brother! Sending some good energy out your way. Love to hear an update and we should hook up a gaming session soon
Hi pls make more videos of your life it is highly relatable to me.
Bro you are a fucking genius and I know u can beat this I need your help buddy keep uploading
I want to hug him so bad and tell him everything is going to be okey 🥺
Similar situation; this life sucks. Seek God; it really helped me. I know it's cliché, but it's the only thing that has helped me. Also, the pandemic experience was so similar to mine. I finally was coming off the meds, finally had a steady job, even started thinking about buying a house. Suddenly, everything got destroyed; they closed the gyms, which are my therapy, and I got locked in my room. I lost every single penny, friends, job, everything. Now, I'm really tired of starting again (this would be my fourth time starting again). But I was just reviewing my resume to start again, from zero, all over again. Thank you for the video and the advice!
I was put on this drug and it caused me severe suicidal thoughts and ideation. I would strongly suggest you research the drugs before taking them. I wish I had
Did you ever try any others?
Man I hope you are better, please make a new video. A lot of people wanna see you better. 🤗
hi, hope you're doing well. Whenever you'll feel like it please do make an update if you feel like sharing
@S JLA thank you!c I was a bit worried :)
It would be good to hear how you are getting on.
I wonder where you are. I hope things are better for you now my friend.
How are things today? Merry Christmas and all the best for 2024 🎄
I have no idea about how do you feel recently and we do need (somewhat) an update. I also want to share a bit of a story; My partner had severe anxiety/ depression and was in a very bad condition. He has been treated with ECT 10 yrs ago - normally with short term memory lost (side effects) and getting better months later. Now, he's on 25Mg of Allegron (Nortriptylene) everyday and do anything he likes to do. The best way for you probably is to keep yourself being active, think positive, do anything you'd like to do, good rest, and start making new friends as well (i know it sounds simplistic, but it's just a suggestion). If you're picky, maybe i'm not the best type of a friend for you, but at least i care towards others with the same situation. Cheers from Sydney Australia, Mate 😇👌🏽
#Humanity
People are asking for an update in this comment section mate which shows we all care. So I think you owe us an update because I've only just discovered this page and we all care about you. I notice you haven't added an e mail address in your 'about tab because I wanted to e mail you and have a video call with you as I can relate more than you know. So we are all here for you. So accept the help and start making those human connections. You got this mate! Big love!
He can't give any update anymore, sadly he passed away.
@@Gukzillageez, for real?! I was about to ask how’s he been? 😢
Why say that he's passed away? I bet you don't even know him. It's cruel. If you genuinely know the guy and know of his wellbeing then write a genuine comment at the top. Lots of people are asking out of genuine concern.
Hi! You were in my recommendations, and I’ve suffered from depression for decades. That’s the generic form of Lexapro if I remember. I’m the poster child for Paxil, which is in the same family as Prozac and Lexapro. Can you give us a heads’s up and let us know how you’re doing now? Love and new sub from Philadelphia! 🙏🏼💖🕊
Did you put on weight with Paxil? I stopped taking it when I noticed it was giving me water retention.
Hi. I have chronic clinical depression and anxiety. I take 10mg of Lexapro and 150mg of wellbutrin. They refer to this cocktail as Well Pro. It has helped me a lot. Taken together they kinda cancel out the bad effects of each other. Ask your doctor about that.
Thank you so much for opening about this,
Sending hugs here from philippines. :')
There is a reason we are all depressed. Personally - I lost my husband - died of Cocaine overdose and Daughter (estranged). The divide between the rich and the poor is what gets to us all.
hope you’re well 😢
Sending you a ton of hugs and kisses
Hope you’re well pal! Do upper your dose to 20mg/day if you are still having panic attacks… no need for diazepam then! I’ve been on 20mg for just over a year now!
i genuinely hope this guy is doing okay
Hello Hikikomori, I would love to hear how you are doing. Do post when you feel ready. Bye for now. :)
Great news! Can you give us an update? Positive or negative.
Are you OK mate? I just feel the need to ask cause you haven't posted a video in a few years. I'm not the only Internet stranger who would like to know you're OK.
He started a TH-cam reaction channel with his wife about a year ago, although they seem to have stopped that now. On the outside it looks like things had changed for the better in his life.
@@danielcowan8673 that's good to know. I just wanted to know the dude was OK. He was in a low place.
whats the name of the channel@@danielcowan8673
@@danielcowan8673whats channel?
@danielcowan8673 what's the name of his new channel?
Be strong in there 🤗
If you ever read this comment I would like to recommend some great books. (Trust me). Rewiring The Anxious Brain by Catherine Pittman, and Stopping The Noise In Your Head by Reid Wilson.
What maintains anxiety is avoidance. You gotta push yourself out of your comfort zone. The gym is a great place to start.
Anyway, hope you are well. Take care.
Please come back and update us? How you’re well 🙏🏼
Many of us are vitamin deficient. B5
pantothenic acid helped me when I was anxious and kinda sad. I no longer need it either. D3 & k2 drops also helped me feel more upbeat. I like a more natural approach due to being a lightweight, with no side effects. Hope this is a help to you.
I hope your feeling a bit better these days. Remember your NOT alone.
I am relieved to hear that you started taking medication.