As an old man (51) I hate giving advice because you end up sounding like one of those 'in my day' types. I still get those feelings of hopelessness. I still get annoyed with myself for wasting time. I'm still lost. I think Covid has added an extra layer to this. BUT you are allowed to feel lost; your allowed to feel hopeless and your allowed to drift. You don't have to fill every moment of every day with achievements. I still don't know what I want to do with my life. Except read books and write the book about Rosa Luxemburg that I've always wanted to write. The future always surprises us, even if we make plans. As John Lennon said, "Life is what happens whilst you're making other plans." It is good to talk to people (and you talking about it will help other people to talk about it.) And your videos are always a joy to me. Hope your family are all OK. My final word is that we should always be as forgiving of ourselves as we are our best friends. Sorry if this sounds like nonsense.
As a young male medical provider working through the pandemic these last few years, I just want you to know that your videos touch people of all backgrounds. Personally, I've found shelter in your works when all seems bleak. These times will pass, and I for one, will be thankful that you continued to share with us. Thank you, Emmie.
Such an interesting and probably unique experience of the pandemic. The problem for me is that the pandemic has alleviated and postponed lots of my problems and sources of anxiety, and now that we're potentially coming out of it, they become relevant again. Which gives me anxiety, again.
Being my favorite TH-camr, my only request to Emma was that we get to see more of her and her life outside of books and I’m glad she’s doing that :) I hope your subscribers do the same for you as you do for us, take away some of the stress from daily life 💜🌸
I've had a really rough start to the year as well, dealing with a lot of anxiety and dissociation, and even though it's not the same things I'm dealing with it is quite comforting to know that I'm not the only one struggling a bit. Thank you for talking about all this and making me feel a little less insane💕
i've commented this before but Emmie you & your videos are literally comfort and so therapeutic. we love your book content but we genuinely love you too so please always feel free to talk about how you feel on here. it's a rough time for us all but we'l get through it together. you've helped so many of us without knowing it and i hope you know we're always here for you too
I hope your brother’s doing okay. My brother just tested positive today and that’s my first experience with immediate family getting covid too, at least we’re both feeling the same things. Lots of love 💕
Sending healing to anybody else dealing with it or having family members catch it. My entire family but me caught it and it's so scary and no joke. Sending so much love. 💓
What's really important in life is to realize that all things can be taken away from you - a job, money, food, people, opportunities, etc. But what you will ALWAYS have an infinite supply of is yourself, no matter where you go. Remember that whatever happens, you will always have you and that is so important.
A whole year later and your video is still so incredibly comforting. Thank you for sharing this. You remind me to take a step back and to be ok with not being ok. It’s been a rough week and I’ve been trying to force myself to feel better all week. But it’s ok to just feel kinda crumby. You’re right it won’t get better in a week and hearing you say that feels like you gave me permission. Thank you!
When at 13:31 you started talking about how you feel on winter nights lately I just couldn’t relate more. I’m struggling with a lot of these feelings too and to be honest, just knowing that some other people experience them and fight through them is quite comforting 🧚🏻♀️ I hope your family is well
I totally agree with you. I have these feelings too at this time of year, and particularly this year 😔. Covid has also come to visit my immediate family too (my daughters and grandchildren), after escaping for almost 2 years..... Roll on Spring, and lighter nights 🤞
girl, I needed this type of video so much. I’m so glad you were able to open up. It made me feel seen. I was literally crying like 10 minutes ago and it’s like you came into my little corner and sat by me
aww makes me a little sad to hear you've been struggling, 😕 I definitely appreciate these types of videos emma, we all need to learn how to slow down and accept and adapt with certain things. hope you are doing much better today as this was filmed a few weeks ago. btw your thumbnail exudes peaceful and calm energy very beautiful. oh Canada is a tad brutal with the pandemic response, really hope you are shaking it off and know that you are truly not alone. we love your vlogs and virtual company. much love xoxo 🖤😊
This vlog is why I love watching TH-cam , it's hitting me in a way that I need right now and it's so comforting. Thank you, I appreciate it so much. I hate commenting but pressing "like" it's just not enough.
oh emma. i'm so sorry you've not been feeling well. thank you so much for being so open with us about how you feel and what you've been struggling with. i always feel so grateful to you because honestly your videos have get me through really hard times. thank you so much for all your hard work and i hope things get better soon. wish that you and your family get through this. sending you a big hug
Fun Fact- just to give you a huge smile, I literally watched this video beside my six year old and I was so in tune with what you were saying and forgot that she was watching… she lets out a huge WOW MOM! She goes I’ve never seen real snow flakes before!! You absolutely made her entire day!! At the end she says mom, I love her video. She compared it to a Disney movie that makes her feel happy! Thank you so much for all that you give💕💖💕
I'm not your main demographic (I would assume), I barely touched a book before December last year. But I randomly stumbled upon your video where you were trying to solve an Agatha Christie novel and was thoroughly entertained, so I decided to watch more of your videos. Since binge watching a large chunk of them, I have picked up a small selection of books that you have recommended or had been reading and I have been reading almost every day since. Your videos inspired me to read again and they have been a super relaxing break from everything stressful that has been going on in the last 24 months for me personally. It also gets me away from a phone or PC screen for a couple of hours everyday which also help me disconnect from everything. The fact you managed to avoid the beginning of the pandemic is honestly a blessing in disguise. The anxiety, the stress, the uncertainty, the lack of any information was honestly the worst part of the whole thing for me personally. Covid nearly took my nan this time last year, and my cousin too. Luckily they pulled through and recovered. Thankfully everyone in my family is vaccinated now and the latest wave that hit my country (UK) was shockingly high in numbers, but hospitalisation and deaths were low. I'm sure your family will get through this. During the last 2 years, I lost my job during the initial lockdowns, went into severe debt and almost had to declare bankruptcy, and have been struggling to find any proper work since. But I have just been plodding along trying to get on with things. I appreciate your openness with how you have been feeling lately as it has made me realise that I have been struggling for nearly 2 years now and I think I am just about hitting rock bottom. I barely remember anything day to day and everything just kind of blends into 1 large 2-year-long day. I feel like I have just been on autopilot since the beginning of 2020 and I feel like all the control of my life has been taken from me due to the state of the world at the moment. I have only recently just started to realise that I need to start taking more care of myself for the sake of my mental health. I have only been watching your channel for 2 months, but your videos have been an amazing escape into a world that I don't really have any knowledge on and they are the perfect way for me to just zone out for half an hour and ignore the stresses in life. Your videos are always super relaxing and always well produced and we all appreciate that here. Thank you for everything you do Emma.
I appreciate your honesty and openness so much. I've been feeling lost for some time now, despite having ups every now and then. I don't think you're being dramatic at all. You're a very strong person, I think. And you definitely are loved 🖤 Oh, and also, your videos give me a lot of strength. So thank you for that.
Emma you bring me so much joy and comfort! My brother passed away in 2020 and I've been unemployed for the last 5 months so I have often been struggling with feeling lost and unmotivated. When i'm alone at home in the day I put your videos on whilst i'm doing chores and it honestly helps so much and brings a smile to my face. I really enjoyed this more reflective and emotional video style, it really helps to hear other people share what they are going through.
Hi Emmerson. Honest self-reflection is may not be easy, but necessary for balance and growth. I really appreciate you sharing difficult feelings and thoughts with us. It's okay to feel lost or overwhelmed sometimes, even while appreciating the positivity in our lives. And sometimes doing what we love can be exhausting. You are a positive force in the world; a beacon of goodness. Just don't forget to tend to yourself.
i have a sleep disorder and am currently in recovery from mono. about wanting to nap every hour- i get it. i always feel so lazy but i suddenly get absolutely exhausted, and usually if i can just push through 20 minutes i’ll be fine… but those 20 minutes of my eyes sagging and muscles hurting are terrible. i’m betting on it getting better, but the recovery is so hard. i hope you’re doing well and fighting through this!
i really appreciate this style of vlogs because they make me feel heard and understood. seeing that others are also feeling the stress and hardships that i feel just shows that everyone goes through these things and eventually, hopefully finds themselves again. it is so comforting to know that everyone is going through something and it makes me feel less alone so thank you for that feeling emma, you kind kind soul! 💗
i completely lost all composure after looking up the rilke poem "i am too alone in the world..." thank you so much for sharing that. i'm glad we all of us are not alone in this struggle. i am finishing my masters in english this march and have been swimming in a pool of self-doubt for so long.. you don't know how much i appreciate you opening up, you are so loved. thank you for giving me a place to cry. you are truly a beacon of light in this world.
Thank you so much for opening up, it resonated with me on multiple levels. I’ve always had problems with my mental health, but the pandemic definitely made it worse, developing a health anxiety on top of everything else. Winters are always harder, and it’s really easy to lose hope, but I’m deliberately trying to look for beautiful things in life. Your vlogs are always a safe haven, and I’m thankful for that. As a nature lover myself, who unfortunately lives in the city, the way you capture the serenity of nature makes me so happy. I also have a dream of moving to a forest or near a lake. That would be so nice. Hoping your brother will have a quick recovery!
I know that tired but restless but bored but stuck feeling very well. It's sooo frustrating. It sounds like you might be feeling a little depressed though I haven't really agreed with calling it depression when the world is falling apart, I think it's very reasonable to feel so down. I hope your brother feels better soon!
I love leaving the window open too, and everyone hates me for it 😀 I always love going for a walk in the park, sitting on a bench reading and people watching when I feel 😕
I hope your brother is doing better and doesn't have lasting effects from this horrible virus. As another person commented below, you have a way of reaching people of all walks of life. I'm old enough to be your mother and yet you speak to me on so many levels. Thank you for sharing your love and knowledge of books, as well as sharing your life with us. You wouldn't believe how much you touch us, Emma. We are so lucky to have you.
You have been such an inspiration. I have had to deal with the repercussions of having cancer and surgery in the middle of covid, so whilst I know we cannot know exactly how you feel I have a small idea. You are not alone
The pandemic makes me feel like I've been reliving the same day for the past 2 years. Being isolated, doing online school from the start of the pandemic destroyed any form of social life that I've had before. Feels very hopeless. But sharing your experience and seeing someone struggling with similar stuff feels comforting. Thank you 🤍 I hope that it's going to get better soon ❤
Heart of Kentucky. Hi Emmie. Looks like you know exactly what to do, to lift yourself up. I said a prayer for you. I hope you have a blessed Sunday. Katie.
life can be really tough sometimes, and as we struggle to stay positive we burn ourselves out, it's almost impossible to have great weeks all the time so thank you for showing us these real moments. luckily, in terms of how to help each other through these difficult times, the pandemic is something we are all experiencing at the same time, so you are not alone and we are all here for you. im sending you lots of love and i hope your family is doing better 💜
Thank you for being so open and honest! I always tend to feel depressed during the dark winter months, which is just what the cold/dark weather does to people... I know the feeling of every day being the same and not really knowing what I'm doing. But it will get better. I'm 32 and I still haven't figured out what's going on with everything... You're young, I think you will figure it out step by step. You study something that you love and that is already very valuable. And you enjoy little things like your sandwich and the snow 🥰 I'm sure you'll get through the struggle of online school as well!
I deeply relate to this! Back in the last week of December 2019, I was let go from my job, spiraling from a new health issue, and from my chronically severe mental illness. By January/February 2020, I was barely getting out of bed. By March 2020, when the pandemic hysteria started, I felt so numb to it. I think I was too absorbed in my own head and my issues to fully feel scared by it. ✨all this to say, that you are not alone in this, and that relationship to the trauma caused by the pandemic is valid! Thank you for being a calming presence on the internet. ♥️
Thank you so much for this video, Emmie! I love that your channel is a place that we can come to relax and feel better, but I also think it's important to see that sometimes life can be really tough, and we feel frustrated, and bored, and overwhelmed, and a lot of other things. We spend a lot of time online, and on the internet most people only share the good part of life, and maybe that's not wrong, but we need to remember that this is not the reality, and that it's not just us that feel lost; we are only human. I never get tired of saying that I love love love your vlogs. So comforting 🥺❤ I hope you have an excellent day whenever you're reading this :)
I feel so grateful that you posted, I have been feeling very tired... You came to my rescue the perfect time... Thank you Emma, hope you are doing well! Sending love💛💛
When you go through something that breaks your identity down to a version of you you don’t recognize, it’s incredibly hard, of course. But the recovery period is often never talked about - you’re fine now, so why are you stuck in the past? I had an experience similar to yours, I think, that took everything I loved from me for a year. I realized in the two years that followed that I’d been waiting for things to “go back to normal”. I kept waiting for the person I was before to come back and take my current self’s place again. Once I realized that I was irrevocably changed by the experience and that my pursuits should be for the person I am now and not the person who had her future “taken away”, my future began to fall back into place with the clarity I’d been missing. Hank Green said it best for me: “You have no obligation to the person you used to be.” Sending lots of peace from the Netherlands. 🙏🏻
I had felt lost for such a long time that I no longer remember when it all started in the first place. But since I've found your channel I've been binge watching all of your videos and honestly, they have really improved my mood. You have been such an inspiration to me Emma. You made me buy some new books and start reading again. Even the way you're so organized has inspired me to do better since I'm a giant procrastinating potato. I really appreciate you opening up about your life. It makes me feel less alone. I hope you and your family are doing great. 💕🌻
I’ve been doing Yoga with Adriene too :) it’s been very enriching to have on a daily basis. I loved all your animal footage. Particularly the squirrels. They just made my heart smile. I’ve been feeling a little lost myself, and I appreciate how vulnerable you chose to be with this vlog. It makes those lost feelings less overwhelming when I watch things like this and feel less alone.
I don't often watch videos like this, sometimes i feel like people get preach-y or it sounds more like their trying to sound happier than they are, which if it's working for them and it's how they cope, i understand! just not something I would necessarily feel better watching. but this video, your video of talking about your week, your mental health, your relationship to the pandemic, somehow it's really helped me gather my own thoughts and calm down a little over my shortcomings. Because i am deeply lucky to still be safe and healthy, but I've also felt lost (and personally, useless) But you... really helped. Give me a moment of solace and clarity and acceptance. I hope you remain as self-aware and truthful and attentive because, it's so important and i hope this life treats you better, and you continue to treat yourself well.
You put into words how I have been feeling this last few weeks. And I think getting outside, doing chores, finding a rhythm to your day (exactly what you were doing) does a lot to help you see beyond the emotions to the little things that bring you peace and joy. Thanks for reminding me that so many of us are all feeling the same things and that we are not alone.
I hope your brother is doing better. Thank you for being so open about your struggles, I think the start of the year has been difficult for many of us, you're definitely not alone in your feelings. The past two months have been pretty stressful for me. Everything's fine now, but I'm still mentally recovering from the intense anxiety. And your videos definitely help with that, they're like a little virtual safe haven that calms me down and helps me feel hopeful again. So thank you and I hope you feel better soon, you and all of us will get through this time and we all appreciate you. Sending lots of love 💛💛
Hey Emma! I’m sorry that you are feeling that way. It’s been also rough for me… I lost a close family member a month ago and I’m trying to deal with it. Therapy has helped me so much and I can’t stop recommending it. I’ve also come to the conclusion that in this lostness and darkness that we are is also our best chance to get to know us. I feel that when everything is okay and fine we just enjoy life, but when we are vulnerable, we get to know ourselves and find out who we really are, how we treat ourselves, how patient we are with ourselves… It’s hard and it definitely doesn’t feel good, but it’s worth it! I love you and you can do this! You are a very strong girl! Never doubt it❤️
There's that song again! Oh the feels! ...such a good one, ❤️ I am sorry you are feeling this, let me assure you you are not alone. To share a little, I am navigating a lot of loss and change right now. Loss of my son, loss of my mother as she continues to fall into the throws of Alzheimer's, loss of our home, loss of trust and needing to turn away from some who are unhealthy for me. Loss of my normal as we move through this pandemic... What I mean is.....I understand what you're saying and it's ok. It's ok to feel these things because they are real. I also have much to be thankful for and I am blessed beyond words. We would never know the wonderful without the sorrow. I am learning to be thankful for it. I want to come to a place I am thankful for the things I wish most hadn't happened. I'm reading a book called Dear Edward right now. It jumped out at me at a thrift store like it was waiting for me to show up and smacked me in the face. It's about a 12yo boy who is the sole survivor of a plane crash and loses his entire family in one second. Then how he gets through and what he learns and how he gets through his tremendous loss, while he helps others who's families were on that plane. My son was named Edward, he was 12 when he died. There is so much about this book I relate to, it's like he sent me a sign to help me see things differently, like a mirror image from his new perspective on the other side. We lost him in this reality, but he lost all of us from his. It's been hard to read, but soooo good at the same time. There is light at the end of the dark tunnel. I've also been reading the dark interval, which as you know is amazing. It's been so good for my heart in so many ways. You are the reason I now know Rilke, I'm forever thankful. Anyhow, that was a tangent. The point is you're not alone and it's ok. You're ok..... I'm ok .....everything will be ok. Thank you for sharing your journeys, you help more than you know. ❤️📚📖🐿️☕❄️🥶❤️
So, a couple things. I'm a little embarrassed, I dumped A LOT of probably unneccessary personal information in my comment. I can't stop thinking about it so I had to come back and say something. I apologize if this seemed like "oh, here is my big bag of BS in case you think you're having a bad day", it was not at all intended to come across in a dismissive way. I did not mean to minimize what you (or anyone else here) is going through. If something is affecting you, hurting you, it matters, it's real and I hope my comment didn't take away from that fact. You've created this amazing place and I felt comfortable sharing.....maybe too comfortable. You have helped me navigate through all of this in a very personal way because I relate to you. Your videos help me remember what is truly important to me and no matter what I will be ok. They are inspiring. So, just wanted to say that and I hope your brother is doing better and your family is well, I hope you are immersed in some amazing books and a hello to Emma's Grandma!
I’ve been feeling very similarly recently and I just wanna say thank you so much for sharing. It’s comforting to know I’m not alone, and it’s also helpful to see what helps others when they’re struggling. You’ve given me some ideas to get through. I hope you’re feeling better 😌
Satie + animals in slow-motion = superb. Thank you for sharing your perspective, one which I imagine resonates with many people who may be reluctant to permit themselves to have.
I'm relating so much to how you are feeling now.. I'm feeling odd especially today I'm so depressed I feel like I can't even feel ok going to work.. I'm feeling lonely and I just feel like crying today...okay the squirrels just made my day ahhh thank you emma 💕
Thank you for being so vulnerable and so honest on this channel. I’m sorry that your family is/was sick and you had a rough start to 2022. Januarys can be especially hard… Thanks for always being a bright light in this complicated world! xx
Idk why but something about the winter nights is soo scary to me, so I go through all that questioning my self and my future, honestly I've been crying every night for the past 5 days, it's awful. *Thank you emma for filming your experience with this* 💖💗
A friend gifted me these words during a time of sorrow and reflection and I feel someone else might benefit from hearing them as I did: "...And for the record, you handle all this crap like a champ. I know you feel weak today. You get to. You can feel tired and pathetic and sorry for yourself. You've earned that s#&t and have evey right to. You feel those things, fully and completely. Sob, rage, beg for answers, whimper, plead. Breathe. Clear yourself and get back to it. Back to doing your life with integrity and bravery and the never ending resilience you are f@#&ing famous for and gifted with. Or cursed. Or both. I love you and believe in you so much ❤️"
I love what you said about nature, about feeling the most essence of yourself in nature. I feel the same way, but I'm currently living in a place where I don't have easy access to nature and it's really hard on my mental health and overall morale. Love the vlogs where you talk about books and also emotionally charged life things, it's always a comfort to see I'm not alone
Hey Emma, I wish the situation with your family will get better and I hope you will feel better soon too. Yes, we're here for you cause you've been here for us throughout this pandemic. I came across your channel in June 2020 and your videos during those times made my lockdown bearable. Whether you're doing a used books haul (I've been meaning to read Solaris!) in the car whilst it was raining outside or you're reciting an entire poem in your backyard, you made us forget about what happened in the world for a while. So, thank you. And all the best with your classes! Take care!
As I was nodding off to sleep the other night I realized how grateful I was for sleep. Not in a depressing, can’t stand my waking existence kind of way but it’s such a nice break. From the screens, the noise, the stress idk
Genuine love from Malaysia!!❤️❤️ Thank you for making the content you make so consistently, and more importantly for being raw with your feelings, I can feel as if we’re journeying through life together in a sense🙊🥰 you’re not alone and I hope you’ll be able to take the time you need to rest, reset and get back up every time you stumble💪🏻 God bless
Emma, dear, I understand how you are feeling, lost and hopeless, but what you managed to do with this video is simply amazing. You share an enchanted world with a brave heroine (-17C I am freezing jogging at 0C). Nothing that we can say can really change reality, but you are doing well, maybe more for us than for yourself. I can't do anything but I am sending gratitude and love to you.
I love how calm and mellow your videos are. I just know I’m going to find some peace when I’m watching you. Even though this video may not seem as positive , It’s really so comforting and wholesome 💞
It was sooooo beautiful seeing the snow flakes and seeing them individually. I have only seen snow fall 3 times in my life, so that was magical. Hang in there Emma, you are such a beautiful soul. Signing off from a 36 degrees (96.8 F) in sunny Melbourne, Australia.
I hope you and your family are all doing well. January blues are a thing, truly, I started this year with the news that I will lose my only sibling to cancer in a short period of time and the anxiety and stress are through the roof, However, I am doing my best to just keep plugging on, keeping myself doing things, walking, reading, knitting, seeing my family when possible and trying to remind myself that I am lucky to have what I have. Stopping every now and then to have a good, cleansing cry is a good thing, and I do that too, Sending you love and strength and wishing you fabulous reading from across the pond :)
Emmie! Your videos have seriously made the pandemic so much easier for me. It's so nice to know there's another person out there who feels the same way I do. I've been trying to write a book through lockdown and it's been tougher than I thought. It's hard when your world is turning upside down. But your videos are always so cozy and nice so THANK YOU!!
💕I also have post concussion syndrome. Life is very real so thank you for you candidness. May we all feel less alone and a spark of hopefulness! Thank goodness for books, art, tea and music!
Coming out of denial just hurts. My husband is dying during a pandemic and I wish we could do all the things he would like but we can't because there is a pandemic. Life is good but sometimes it sucks and we have to acknowledge it. This to shall pass, I am grateful for the escape of books. My daughter is an English teacher so I am enjoying the reminders of her struggles and joys of being a student through you.
Thank you so much for opening up in this vlog, I think its going to help many of us face how we are feeling and learn how to deal with those feelings . I enjoyed watching the snowflakes and the single snowflake fall into your coffee . The squirrels ,birds and mushrooms were just so lovely to see , sending hugs and support to you and I hope your brother gets well soon . Thank you again for just being beautiful ,amazing, kind you !
I am still messed up afterwards. Getting broken up with, everything being online, and then being told to come in person for classes. I feel like i've lost momentum and can't be around others. It is something i'm still working through.
Hi Emma I think it’s always good to express when your feeling the way you are. We all have days like this. It’s normal. I think it helps to go to be early at the same time every night I would say 9 pm is good staying up too late is when the bad thought creep into our minds. Get up around the same time everyday , try that for 30 days. Sleep 8-9 hours a night so 9 pm to 7 or 8 am. I think you will notice you will feel a bit better. Also talking about it always helps. We all support you! Stephanie 🌈😁☺️
Hey Emma, sending all the love! I felt quite emotional watching this. The way you described how you feel throughout the day really resonated me. I'm so sorry things have been hard but thank you for being so real. While I watched this video I didn't feel alone.
I think this is one of my favorite videos of yours. So real and honest allowing others to feel safe feeling THE EXACT SAME WAY. Thank you we are here for you
Emmie, I hope you know that your videos bring so much peace in times of restless solitude. The cinematography, the nighttime talks, the simple little moments that show the beauty of this world and what it means to be human--your videos are so much of a comfort to me, and I thank you for that
This was amazing, not because you were having a bad week (which I'm truly sorry for!), but because it was so liberating to see someone actually share how they are struggling with things and how not everything is perfect and good and happy and relaxing and cozy all the time! I have had a rough start of the year as well, because of some non-covid related issues my mom has had, and... Oh my god, I've been so stressed and sad and anguished! And this adds up to things that are failing in our apartment which we can't get fixed because we have been self-isolating, shielding my mom since March 16th, 2020, so we don't go anywhere and we don't see anyone in person since that day. And we can't get repairmen in the aparment but things keep breaking and giving up on us now and... Argh. It's been a rough couple of years and a rough start of the year and I'm so very tired and depressed and hopeless and feeling like nothing has any meaning anymore... And watching at least one person on the internet being open and saying "I don't feel well" or "I'm having a bad week" and not making it seem as though their lives are perfect or like all there is in the world are books... Uff, it has been liberating and it has made me feel less alone. Thank you and, if you can, please do make more of these! It is incredibly helpful and comforting. Take care and good luck with school and everything! And I hope your brother gets well soon! A hug from Chile (where it's summer and it's hot and dry and disgusting, I hate summer!). :)
I’ve been feeling lost and lonely lately too, and this video felt like cozying up for a good conversation with a friend. Thank you for sharing this with us! 💕
I also had a pretty rough start this year, in the beginning of the year I lacked time being alone bc through Chistmas and stuff I was always surrounded by people which was really draining my energy level. Aditionally I kinda found out that I lost all the fun in activities I seemed to like and just did them because of the habits i build. But hopefully it will all get better and its really comforting to see that I am not the only one struggeling. Thank you for sharing 💕
in the beginning of the video I kept trying to tell you "Go outside. Nature will help." and of course you couldn't here me. But it's always such a balm to me when I'm feeling overwhelmed or sad or confused or blah. I was so glad when you decided to brave the cold even without my sage advice. Hehehe. Covid got lots more real for me since the beginning of the year as well - my daughter got it, my son and most of his family got it, my husband got it and then gave it to me. Friends near and far seem to be catching it, the number of people I know directly who are positive at the moment seems to be rising exponentially and so my worry rises as well. I have so much I wanted to do once the holidays were over and instead I'm giving myself a pat on the back if I put on shoes for the day or run the dishwasher. I hope your brother gets through his case with as much comfort and ease as possible. HUGS to you. (nice, safe long distant hugs!) Oh, and as for not knowing what your future might hold - hey, I'm in my 60's and I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up. But it hasn't stopped me from having lots of unplanned love and adventures while I'm trying to figure it out. I love a quote from John Lennon - "Life is what happens while you are busy making other plans."
I was feeling a bit relieved when I saw the title of this video. I've been feeling really lost as well since new year's eve, because it hit me how unhappy I really am currently. I began studying at university in the fall of 2020, so I moved out and I moved to a new city. For 3 semesters now I have been studying online and I could rarely meet people, let alone find close friends around here. It's hard to keep going, it feels like nothing makes sense when you don't have a secure social environment, but knowing other people feel like this too helps. And fleeing into the world of books helps a lot too... So thank you so much!
Holding you in the Light. Perhaps she’ll be comforted that so many others are suffering with pandemic fatigue. It’s taken Omicron and me two years to hit me, I’m a strong resilient prayed adventurous women. Absolutely loved the videos of the cemetery and the squirrels and the ducks in the river in the sunshine.
Hope your brother is doing okay! I got covid last week. It was pretty sad, not gonna lie, because I had been safe and taken measures not to get it, but most importantly I was worried because I had seen my grandma the day before I had a fever and realized oh I have Covid. Luckily she is doing okay and although I got some symtoms and felt pretty bad for a few days, now I'm okay too. Honestly this last few weeks have not been the happiest and I've also been reflecting about the pandemic and how it's affecting our lives, school, etc. It was nice hearing you talk and seeing other people are feeling this way and it's okay, we don't have to be happy all the time. Lots all love, and I hope the rest of your january was amazing. Having Yoga, books and nature is nice and helps 💕
Emmie you can't imagine how your videos help me a lot because I have anxiety and I'm almost always alone so I see you reading and studying and doing things that make you feel good helps me deal with all this, I hope with all my heart that your family be well. :)
Just to let you know you're not the only one who is struggling with everything that's going on.❤ I've started a new job in my field (translation) about 5 months ago. Although it started very promising the workload started piling up and I didn't want to say no, so I kept adding more. And I know that couldn't continue. At this point, I've just had 6 days off but the thought of going back to work tomorrow makes me sick. I was at a breaking point before those six days off, but those days off I feel like haven't changed a thing. And I feel burned out, stressed, emotional and everything else. just the same. Knowing I'm not the only one struggling mentally gives me comfort in a strange way. I love your channel alot first of all, and I share the same love for books as you do. But I'm in such a bad space mentally, I can't even bring myself to read, which I love doing. Honestly at this point I'm burned out. Hopefully my books will pull me through.😥
I remembered this line from Great Expectations: Heaven knows we need never be ashamed of our tears, for they are rain upon the blinding dust of earth, overlying our hard hearts... I think it's a great reminder particularly during these times. Love the vid Emmie, Many thanks!
I feel you. I'm juggling so many things right now. I feel overwhelmed and stuck in my head. Things get better though. Thank you for your video, your words comfort me so much.
Hi Emma! I find you are very courageous to share how you feel, thank you. I hope everything turns out well for you and your family. I can totally relate to your feelings, sometimes I feel so much detached from the world, that it is difficult to move forward, but finding those little actions to regain some kind of routine helps, music and series also help because I get stressed if I start too many books at once... I love your videos and your bookshelves and I wish I had a snowy winter! In the end I try to tell myself that these days will also pass! Thank you for all you give us, and take care!!
Emma, please keep it as real as you're comfortable with. The section beginning around the 12:30 mark really resonated with me, having recently graduated during the pandemic and feeling similarly lost and stressed having to find my way in life amidst these troubled times. It's so reassuring to know that it's not just me feeling this strange mix of feelings while soldiering on. Much love and good health to you and your family, hope your brother is recovering well.
Thank you Emma for this lovely video. It has started to snow here for the first time this year, and this was nice to watch with the snowflakes falling down in the background
I’ve had a rough start to the year with my parents arguing through me again. Now after finally settling in in Canada I have to move back to England to live with my mum. It’s all negative but I see the light in it. Travelling the world and having lived in 3 continents at 16😎. That’s what I tell myself to feel better. I just wanna let this out so yeah whoever’s reading have a nice day
I 1000% FEEL YOU🖤 I honestly can’t think of a time that I didn’t feel lost in life. but I am definitely learning how to manage that feeling and actually work towards finding purpose and direction. as you said, it’s not so much that i’m scared of what the future holds but more that I’m annoyed that I don’t have a direction. literally finished your sentence in my head before you said it. major feels. I’m so indecisive about what I want to do with my education and my career and I find it impossible for myself to commit to anything because I am afraid of making the wrong decision and “wasting” my time. ugh. I feel you. I believe in you. I believe in me. you’ll get through these dark days. and next time they come knocking, you’ll be more prepared to confront them.
Thank you for opening up and sharing Emma ❤️ I love watching this kinds of vlogs and it's nice knowing I'm not alone in the way I've been feeling lately, and the comments are also nice. Thank you for creating such a safe space. We love you!
Thank you for this vlog! It was a comfort as always. ❄️🤍 I think we can all relate to how you’ve been feeling. The pandemic has been rough. Sorry you’re feeling the stress. It will be ok. Sending healing prayers for your sweet brother. We’ve finally been touched by Covid in my family as well this week. I think it’s about the realization that we we only have so much control over it in our lives. Self care definitely helps when you’re feeling lost. Whatever that means for you. Stay safe lovely Emma. Sending lots of 🤍🤍🤍!
As an old man (51) I hate giving advice because you end up sounding like one of those 'in my day' types. I still get those feelings of hopelessness. I still get annoyed with myself for wasting time. I'm still lost. I think Covid has added an extra layer to this. BUT you are allowed to feel lost; your allowed to feel hopeless and your allowed to drift. You don't have to fill every moment of every day with achievements. I still don't know what I want to do with my life. Except read books and write the book about Rosa Luxemburg that I've always wanted to write. The future always surprises us, even if we make plans. As John Lennon said, "Life is what happens whilst you're making other plans." It is good to talk to people (and you talking about it will help other people to talk about it.) And your videos are always a joy to me. Hope your family are all OK. My final word is that we should always be as forgiving of ourselves as we are our best friends. Sorry if this sounds like nonsense.
As a young male medical provider working through the pandemic these last few years, I just want you to know that your videos touch people of all backgrounds. Personally, I've found shelter in your works when all seems bleak.
These times will pass, and I for one, will be thankful that you continued to share with us. Thank you, Emmie.
Such an interesting and probably unique experience of the pandemic. The problem for me is that the pandemic has alleviated and postponed lots of my problems and sources of anxiety, and now that we're potentially coming out of it, they become relevant again. Which gives me anxiety, again.
I feel that too, even having to adjust back to taking the city bus is so overwhelming - hope you're doing okay xx
@@emmiereads thank you same to you ❤️
Yeah same
@@emmiereads what is that beautiful song called? It just sticks with me for so long
Being my favorite TH-camr, my only request to Emma was that we get to see more of her and her life outside of books and I’m glad she’s doing that :)
I hope your subscribers do the same for you as you do for us, take away some of the stress from daily life 💜🌸
including more of my own life on my channel has been so nice and therapeutic for me so I'm glad! you're all wonderful and absolutely do!
I've had a really rough start to the year as well, dealing with a lot of anxiety and dissociation, and even though it's not the same things I'm dealing with it is quite comforting to know that I'm not the only one struggling a bit.
Thank you for talking about all this and making me feel a little less insane💕
Same girl❤️
Also dealing with anxiety and so much sadness for over a year :(
I send a big hug to all of you from Mexico
same
i've commented this before but Emmie you & your videos are literally comfort and so therapeutic. we love your book content but we genuinely love you too so please always feel free to talk about how you feel on here. it's a rough time for us all but we'l get through it together. you've helped so many of us without knowing it and i hope you know we're always here for you too
you always have the nicest things to say, that's so heartwarming to know, thank you lovely
I hope your brother’s doing okay. My brother just tested positive today and that’s my first experience with immediate family getting covid too, at least we’re both feeling the same things. Lots of love 💕
he's all better now! he recovered pretty quickly thank goodness, I hope yours is doing just as well
Sending healing to anybody else dealing with it or having family members catch it. My entire family but me caught it and it's so scary and no joke. Sending so much love. 💓
What's really important in life is to realize that all things can be taken away from you - a job, money, food, people, opportunities, etc. But what you will ALWAYS have an infinite supply of is yourself, no matter where you go. Remember that whatever happens, you will always have you and that is so important.
A whole year later and your video is still so incredibly comforting. Thank you for sharing this. You remind me to take a step back and to be ok with not being ok. It’s been a rough week and I’ve been trying to force myself to feel better all week. But it’s ok to just feel kinda crumby. You’re right it won’t get better in a week and hearing you say that feels like you gave me permission. Thank you!
When at 13:31 you started talking about how you feel on winter nights lately I just couldn’t relate more. I’m struggling with a lot of these feelings too and to be honest, just knowing that some other people experience them and fight through them is quite comforting 🧚🏻♀️
I hope your family is well
I totally agree with you. I have these feelings too at this time of year, and particularly this year 😔. Covid has also come to visit my immediate family too (my daughters and grandchildren), after escaping for almost 2 years..... Roll on Spring, and lighter nights 🤞
girl, I needed this type of video so much. I’m so glad you were able to open up. It made me feel seen. I was literally crying like 10 minutes ago and it’s like you came into my little corner and sat by me
aww makes me a little sad to hear you've been struggling, 😕 I definitely appreciate these types of videos emma, we all need to learn how to slow down and accept and adapt with certain things. hope you are doing much better today as this was filmed a few weeks ago. btw your thumbnail exudes peaceful and calm energy very beautiful. oh Canada is a tad brutal with the pandemic response, really hope you are shaking it off and know that you are truly not alone. we love your vlogs and virtual company. much love xoxo 🖤😊
This vlog is why I love watching TH-cam , it's hitting me in a way that I need right now and it's so comforting. Thank you, I appreciate it so much. I hate commenting but pressing "like" it's just not enough.
oh emma. i'm so sorry you've not been feeling well. thank you so much for being so open with us about how you feel and what you've been struggling with. i always feel so grateful to you because honestly your videos have get me through really hard times. thank you so much for all your hard work and i hope things get better soon. wish that you and your family get through this. sending you a big hug
Fun Fact- just to give you a huge smile, I literally watched this video beside my six year old and I was so in tune with what you were saying and forgot that she was watching… she lets out a huge WOW MOM! She goes I’ve never seen real snow flakes before!! You absolutely made her entire day!! At the end she says mom, I love her video. She compared it to a Disney movie that makes her feel happy! Thank you so much for all that you give💕💖💕
gave me the biggest smile thank you so much:') absolutely made my day, all the love to you two!
I'm not your main demographic (I would assume), I barely touched a book before December last year. But I randomly stumbled upon your video where you were trying to solve an Agatha Christie novel and was thoroughly entertained, so I decided to watch more of your videos. Since binge watching a large chunk of them, I have picked up a small selection of books that you have recommended or had been reading and I have been reading almost every day since. Your videos inspired me to read again and they have been a super relaxing break from everything stressful that has been going on in the last 24 months for me personally. It also gets me away from a phone or PC screen for a couple of hours everyday which also help me disconnect from everything.
The fact you managed to avoid the beginning of the pandemic is honestly a blessing in disguise. The anxiety, the stress, the uncertainty, the lack of any information was honestly the worst part of the whole thing for me personally. Covid nearly took my nan this time last year, and my cousin too. Luckily they pulled through and recovered. Thankfully everyone in my family is vaccinated now and the latest wave that hit my country (UK) was shockingly high in numbers, but hospitalisation and deaths were low. I'm sure your family will get through this.
During the last 2 years, I lost my job during the initial lockdowns, went into severe debt and almost had to declare bankruptcy, and have been struggling to find any proper work since. But I have just been plodding along trying to get on with things. I appreciate your openness with how you have been feeling lately as it has made me realise that I have been struggling for nearly 2 years now and I think I am just about hitting rock bottom. I barely remember anything day to day and everything just kind of blends into 1 large 2-year-long day. I feel like I have just been on autopilot since the beginning of 2020 and I feel like all the control of my life has been taken from me due to the state of the world at the moment. I have only recently just started to realise that I need to start taking more care of myself for the sake of my mental health.
I have only been watching your channel for 2 months, but your videos have been an amazing escape into a world that I don't really have any knowledge on and they are the perfect way for me to just zone out for half an hour and ignore the stresses in life. Your videos are always super relaxing and always well produced and we all appreciate that here. Thank you for everything you do Emma.
Feeling bored and restless but not wanting to do anything is such a big mood!!
I appreciate your honesty and openness so much. I've been feeling lost for some time now, despite having ups every now and then. I don't think you're being dramatic at all.
You're a very strong person, I think. And you definitely are loved 🖤
Oh, and also, your videos give me a lot of strength. So thank you for that.
Emma you bring me so much joy and comfort! My brother passed away in 2020 and I've been unemployed for the last 5 months so I have often been struggling with feeling lost and unmotivated. When i'm alone at home in the day I put your videos on whilst i'm doing chores and it honestly helps so much and brings a smile to my face. I really enjoyed this more reflective and emotional video style, it really helps to hear other people share what they are going through.
Hi Emmerson. Honest self-reflection is may not be easy, but necessary for balance and growth. I really appreciate you sharing difficult feelings and thoughts with us. It's okay to feel lost or overwhelmed sometimes, even while appreciating the positivity in our lives. And sometimes doing what we love can be exhausting. You are a positive force in the world; a beacon of goodness. Just don't forget to tend to yourself.
i have a sleep disorder and am currently in recovery from mono. about wanting to nap every hour- i get it. i always feel so lazy but i suddenly get absolutely exhausted, and usually if i can just push through 20 minutes i’ll be fine… but those 20 minutes of my eyes sagging and muscles hurting are terrible. i’m betting on it getting better, but the recovery is so hard. i hope you’re doing well and fighting through this!
My heart goes out to you, Emma. So wish you a happy ending to your difficult time. Been there and it's awful. xxx
Yoga with Adriene is also saving my month. I had a rough week and your video remind me that I am not alone
i really appreciate this style of vlogs because they make me feel heard and understood. seeing that others are also feeling the stress and hardships that i feel just shows that everyone goes through these things and eventually, hopefully finds themselves again. it is so comforting to know that everyone is going through something and it makes me feel less alone so thank you for that feeling emma, you kind kind soul! 💗
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i completely lost all composure after looking up the rilke poem "i am too alone in the world..." thank you so much for sharing that. i'm glad we all of us are not alone in this struggle. i am finishing my masters in english this march and have been swimming in a pool of self-doubt for so long.. you don't know how much i appreciate you opening up, you are so loved. thank you for giving me a place to cry. you are truly a beacon of light in this world.
Thank you so much for opening up, it resonated with me on multiple levels. I’ve always had problems with my mental health, but the pandemic definitely made it worse, developing a health anxiety on top of everything else. Winters are always harder, and it’s really easy to lose hope, but I’m deliberately trying to look for beautiful things in life. Your vlogs are always a safe haven, and I’m thankful for that. As a nature lover myself, who unfortunately lives in the city, the way you capture the serenity of nature makes me so happy. I also have a dream of moving to a forest or near a lake. That would be so nice. Hoping your brother will have a quick recovery!
I know that tired but restless but bored but stuck feeling very well. It's sooo frustrating. It sounds like you might be feeling a little depressed though I haven't really agreed with calling it depression when the world is falling apart, I think it's very reasonable to feel so down. I hope your brother feels better soon!
You have created a home of books and love and nature and magic and I am so grateful for it
I love leaving the window open too, and everyone hates me for it 😀
I always love going for a walk in the park, sitting on a bench reading and people watching when I feel 😕
I hope your brother is doing better and doesn't have lasting effects from this horrible virus. As another person commented below, you have a way of reaching people of all walks of life. I'm old enough to be your mother and yet you speak to me on so many levels. Thank you for sharing your love and knowledge of books, as well as sharing your life with us. You wouldn't believe how much you touch us, Emma. We are so lucky to have you.
Sometimes it's just very hard to explain what you feel, but isn't it the beauty of life to see the Ups and Downs.
BE STRONG!!!
You have been such an inspiration. I have had to deal with the repercussions of having cancer and surgery in the middle of covid, so whilst I know we cannot know exactly how you feel I have a small idea. You are not alone
The pandemic makes me feel like I've been reliving the same day for the past 2 years. Being isolated, doing online school from the start of the pandemic destroyed any form of social life that I've had before. Feels very hopeless. But sharing your experience and seeing someone struggling with similar stuff feels comforting. Thank you 🤍 I hope that it's going to get better soon ❤
Heart of Kentucky. Hi Emmie. Looks like you know exactly what to do, to lift yourself up. I said a prayer for you. I hope you have a blessed Sunday. Katie.
life can be really tough sometimes, and as we struggle to stay positive we burn ourselves out, it's almost impossible to have great weeks all the time so thank you for showing us these real moments. luckily, in terms of how to help each other through these difficult times, the pandemic is something we are all experiencing at the same time, so you are not alone and we are all here for you. im sending you lots of love and i hope your family is doing better 💜
ah yes exactly, I hope you and your loved ones are doing alright as well, thankfully everyone over here is all good
Thank you for being so open and honest! I always tend to feel depressed during the dark winter months, which is just what the cold/dark weather does to people... I know the feeling of every day being the same and not really knowing what I'm doing. But it will get better. I'm 32 and I still haven't figured out what's going on with everything... You're young, I think you will figure it out step by step. You study something that you love and that is already very valuable. And you enjoy little things like your sandwich and the snow 🥰 I'm sure you'll get through the struggle of online school as well!
I deeply relate to this! Back in the last week of December 2019, I was let go from my job, spiraling from a new health issue, and from my chronically severe mental illness. By January/February 2020, I was barely getting out of bed. By March 2020, when the pandemic hysteria started, I felt so numb to it. I think I was too absorbed in my own head and my issues to fully feel scared by it.
✨all this to say, that you are not alone in this, and that relationship to the trauma caused by the pandemic is valid! Thank you for being a calming presence on the internet. ♥️
Thank you so much for this video, Emmie! I love that your channel is a place that we can come to relax and feel better, but I also think it's important to see that sometimes life can be really tough, and we feel frustrated, and bored, and overwhelmed, and a lot of other things. We spend a lot of time online, and on the internet most people only share the good part of life, and maybe that's not wrong, but we need to remember that this is not the reality, and that it's not just us that feel lost; we are only human.
I never get tired of saying that I love love love your vlogs. So comforting 🥺❤ I hope you have an excellent day whenever you're reading this :)
I feel so grateful that you posted, I have been feeling very tired... You came to my rescue the perfect time... Thank you Emma, hope you are doing well! Sending love💛💛
thank you beautiful, I hope you get all the rest you need!
When you go through something that breaks your identity down to a version of you you don’t recognize, it’s incredibly hard, of course. But the recovery period is often never talked about - you’re fine now, so why are you stuck in the past? I had an experience similar to yours, I think, that took everything I loved from me for a year. I realized in the two years that followed that I’d been waiting for things to “go back to normal”. I kept waiting for the person I was before to come back and take my current self’s place again. Once I realized that I was irrevocably changed by the experience and that my pursuits should be for the person I am now and not the person who had her future “taken away”, my future began to fall back into place with the clarity I’d been missing. Hank Green said it best for me: “You have no obligation to the person you used to be.”
Sending lots of peace from the Netherlands. 🙏🏻
I had felt lost for such a long time that I no longer remember when it all started in the first place. But since I've found your channel I've been binge watching all of your videos and honestly, they have really improved my mood. You have been such an inspiration to me Emma. You made me buy some new books and start reading again. Even the way you're so organized has inspired me to do better since I'm a giant procrastinating potato. I really appreciate you opening up about your life. It makes me feel less alone. I hope you and your family are doing great. 💕🌻
I’ve been doing Yoga with Adriene too :) it’s been very enriching to have on a daily basis. I loved all your animal footage. Particularly the squirrels. They just made my heart smile. I’ve been feeling a little lost myself, and I appreciate how vulnerable you chose to be with this vlog. It makes those lost feelings less overwhelming when I watch things like this and feel less alone.
yes! I feel like it changes my whole morning and gives me so much joy, thank you Molly
I don't often watch videos like this, sometimes i feel like people get preach-y or it sounds more like their trying to sound happier than they are, which if it's working for them and it's how they cope, i understand!
just not something I would necessarily feel better watching.
but this video, your video of talking about your week, your mental health, your relationship to the pandemic, somehow it's really helped me gather my own thoughts and calm down a little over my shortcomings.
Because i am deeply lucky to still be safe and healthy, but I've also felt lost (and personally, useless) But you... really helped. Give me a moment of solace and clarity and acceptance. I hope you remain as self-aware and truthful and attentive because, it's so important and i hope this life treats you better, and you continue to treat yourself well.
You put into words how I have been feeling this last few weeks. And I think getting outside, doing chores, finding a rhythm to your day (exactly what you were doing) does a lot to help you see beyond the emotions to the little things that bring you peace and joy. Thanks for reminding me that so many of us are all feeling the same things and that we are not alone.
I hope your brother is doing better.
Thank you for being so open about your struggles, I think the start of the year has been difficult for many of us, you're definitely not alone in your feelings.
The past two months have been pretty stressful for me. Everything's fine now, but I'm still mentally recovering from the intense anxiety. And your videos definitely help with that, they're like a little virtual safe haven that calms me down and helps me feel hopeful again. So thank you and I hope you feel better soon, you and all of us will get through this time and we all appreciate you.
Sending lots of love 💛💛
He is thankfully! Sending you so many good things, I hope you’re doing alright this week💙
Hey Emma! I’m sorry that you are feeling that way. It’s been also rough for me… I lost a close family member a month ago and I’m trying to deal with it. Therapy has helped me so much and I can’t stop recommending it.
I’ve also come to the conclusion that in this lostness and darkness that we are is also our best chance to get to know us. I feel that when everything is okay and fine we just enjoy life, but when we are vulnerable, we get to know ourselves and find out who we really are, how we treat ourselves, how patient we are with ourselves…
It’s hard and it definitely doesn’t feel good, but it’s worth it!
I love you and you can do this! You are a very strong girl! Never doubt it❤️
There's that song again! Oh the feels! ...such a good one, ❤️ I am sorry you are feeling this, let me assure you you are not alone. To share a little, I am navigating a lot of loss and change right now. Loss of my son, loss of my mother as she continues to fall into the throws of Alzheimer's, loss of our home, loss of trust and needing to turn away from some who are unhealthy for me. Loss of my normal as we move through this pandemic... What I mean is.....I understand what you're saying and it's ok. It's ok to feel these things because they are real. I also have much to be thankful for and I am blessed beyond words.
We would never know the wonderful without the sorrow. I am learning to be thankful for it. I want to come to a place I am thankful for the things I wish most hadn't happened.
I'm reading a book called Dear Edward right now. It jumped out at me at a thrift store like it was waiting for me to show up and smacked me in the face. It's about a 12yo boy who is the sole survivor of a plane crash and loses his entire family in one second. Then how he gets through and what he learns and how he gets through his tremendous loss, while he helps others who's families were on that plane. My son was named Edward, he was 12 when he died. There is so much about this book I relate to, it's like he sent me a sign to help me see things differently, like a mirror image from his new perspective on the other side. We lost him in this reality, but he lost all of us from his. It's been hard to read, but soooo good at the same time. There is light at the end of the dark tunnel.
I've also been reading the dark interval, which as you know is amazing. It's been so good for my heart in so many ways. You are the reason I now know Rilke, I'm forever thankful.
Anyhow, that was a tangent. The point is you're not alone and it's ok. You're ok..... I'm ok .....everything will be ok.
Thank you for sharing your journeys, you help more than you know. ❤️📚📖🐿️☕❄️🥶❤️
So, a couple things. I'm a little embarrassed, I dumped A LOT of probably unneccessary personal information in my comment. I can't stop thinking about it so I had to come back and say something. I apologize if this seemed like "oh, here is my big bag of BS in case you think you're having a bad day", it was not at all intended to come across in a dismissive way. I did not mean to minimize what you (or anyone else here) is going through. If something is affecting you, hurting you, it matters, it's real and I hope my comment didn't take away from that fact. You've created this amazing place and I felt comfortable sharing.....maybe too comfortable. You have helped me navigate through all of this in a very personal way because I relate to you. Your videos help me remember what is truly important to me and no matter what I will be ok. They are inspiring. So, just wanted to say that and I hope your brother is doing better and your family is well, I hope you are immersed in some amazing books and a hello to Emma's Grandma!
I’ve been feeling very similarly recently and I just wanna say thank you so much for sharing. It’s comforting to know I’m not alone, and it’s also helpful to see what helps others when they’re struggling. You’ve given me some ideas to get through. I hope you’re feeling better 😌
it's definitely very comforting to know it's not just me, and I'm so glad - I hope they help!
Satie + animals in slow-motion = superb. Thank you for sharing your perspective, one which I imagine resonates with many people who may be reluctant to permit themselves to have.
Indeed Emma...We ABSOLUTELY do need this!! .. So..Thank YOU a million times...for all your lovely contents.
I'm relating so much to how you are feeling now.. I'm feeling odd especially today I'm so depressed I feel like I can't even feel ok going to work.. I'm feeling lonely and I just feel like crying today...okay the squirrels just made my day ahhh thank you emma 💕
Thank you for being so vulnerable and so honest on this channel. I’m sorry that your family is/was sick and you had a rough start to 2022. Januarys can be especially hard…
Thanks for always being a bright light in this complicated world! xx
Idk why but something about the winter nights is soo scary to me, so I go through all that questioning my self and my future, honestly I've been crying every night for the past 5 days, it's awful. *Thank you emma for filming your experience with this* 💖💗
A friend gifted me these words during a time of sorrow and reflection and I feel someone else might benefit from hearing them as I did:
"...And for the record, you handle all this crap like a champ. I know you feel weak today. You get to. You can feel tired and pathetic and sorry for yourself. You've earned that s#&t and have evey right to. You feel those things, fully and completely. Sob, rage, beg for answers, whimper, plead.
Breathe.
Clear yourself and get back to it. Back to doing your life with integrity and bravery and the never ending resilience you are f@#&ing famous for and gifted with. Or cursed. Or both.
I love you and believe in you so much ❤️"
I love what you said about nature, about feeling the most essence of yourself in nature. I feel the same way, but I'm currently living in a place where I don't have easy access to nature and it's really hard on my mental health and overall morale. Love the vlogs where you talk about books and also emotionally charged life things, it's always a comfort to see I'm not alone
Hey Emma, I wish the situation with your family will get better and I hope you will feel better soon too. Yes, we're here for you cause you've been here for us throughout this pandemic. I came across your channel in June 2020 and your videos during those times made my lockdown bearable. Whether you're doing a used books haul (I've been meaning to read Solaris!) in the car whilst it was raining outside or you're reciting an entire poem in your backyard, you made us forget about what happened in the world for a while. So, thank you. And all the best with your classes! Take care!
As I was nodding off to sleep the other night I realized how grateful I was for sleep. Not in a depressing, can’t stand my waking existence kind of way but it’s such a nice break. From the screens, the noise, the stress idk
Genuine love from Malaysia!!❤️❤️ Thank you for making the content you make so consistently, and more importantly for being raw with your feelings, I can feel as if we’re journeying through life together in a sense🙊🥰 you’re not alone and I hope you’ll be able to take the time you need to rest, reset and get back up every time you stumble💪🏻 God bless
love that, I feel that way too:') so much love back!
Emma, dear, I understand how you are feeling, lost and hopeless, but what you managed to do with this video is simply amazing.
You share an enchanted world with a brave heroine (-17C I am freezing jogging at 0C). Nothing that we can say can really change reality, but you are doing well, maybe more for us than for yourself. I can't do anything but I am sending gratitude and love to you.
I love how calm and mellow your videos are. I just know I’m going to find some peace when I’m watching you. Even though this video may not seem as positive , It’s really so comforting and wholesome 💞
It was sooooo beautiful seeing the snow flakes and seeing them individually. I have only seen snow fall 3 times in my life, so that was magical. Hang in there Emma, you are such a beautiful soul. Signing off from a 36 degrees (96.8 F) in sunny Melbourne, Australia.
I hope you and your family are all doing well. January blues are a thing, truly, I started this year with the news that I will lose my only sibling to cancer in a short period of time and the anxiety and stress are through the roof, However, I am doing my best to just keep plugging on, keeping myself doing things, walking, reading, knitting, seeing my family when possible and trying to remind myself that I am lucky to have what I have. Stopping every now and then to have a good, cleansing cry is a good thing, and I do that too, Sending you love and strength and wishing you fabulous reading from across the pond :)
Emmie! Your videos have seriously made the pandemic so much easier for me. It's so nice to know there's another person out there who feels the same way I do. I've been trying to write a book through lockdown and it's been tougher than I thought. It's hard when your world is turning upside down. But your videos are always so cozy and nice so THANK YOU!!
💕I also have post concussion syndrome. Life is very real so thank you for you candidness. May we all feel less alone and a spark of hopefulness! Thank goodness for books, art, tea and music!
Im sorry you have to deal with that too, I hope you’re finding things/ways that help! 💙
Coming out of denial just hurts. My husband is dying during a pandemic and I wish we could do all the things he would like but we can't because there is a pandemic. Life is good but sometimes it sucks and we have to acknowledge it. This to shall pass, I am grateful for the escape of books. My daughter is an English teacher so I am enjoying the reminders of her struggles and joys of being a student through you.
I wish I could give your whole family the biggest hug and so much light, sending you all so much love Tina
@@emmiereads I feel the same about you and yours. Big hugs.
Thank you so much for opening up in this vlog, I think its going to help many of us face how we are feeling and learn how to deal with those feelings . I enjoyed watching the snowflakes and the single snowflake fall into your coffee . The squirrels ,birds and mushrooms were just so lovely to see , sending hugs and support to you and I hope your brother gets well soon . Thank you again for just being beautiful ,amazing, kind you !
I am still messed up afterwards. Getting broken up with, everything being online, and then being told to come in person for classes. I feel like i've lost momentum and can't be around others. It is something i'm still working through.
Hi Emma I think it’s always good to express when your feeling the way you are. We all have days like this. It’s normal. I think it helps to go to be early at the same time every night I would say 9 pm is good staying up too late is when the bad thought creep into our minds. Get up around the same time everyday , try that for 30 days. Sleep 8-9 hours a night so 9 pm to 7 or 8 am. I think you will notice you will feel a bit better. Also talking about it always helps. We all support you! Stephanie 🌈😁☺️
yes! thank you dear🥰 Definitely need to get into a regular sleep schedule and this was the reminder I needed💙
Hey Emma, sending all the love! I felt quite emotional watching this. The way you described how you feel throughout the day really resonated me. I'm so sorry things have been hard but thank you for being so real. While I watched this video I didn't feel alone.
I think this is one of my favorite videos of yours. So real and honest allowing others to feel safe feeling THE EXACT SAME WAY. Thank you we are here for you
Emmie, I hope you know that your videos bring so much peace in times of restless solitude. The cinematography, the nighttime talks, the simple little moments that show the beauty of this world and what it means to be human--your videos are so much of a comfort to me, and I thank you for that
This was so relatable in so many ways, I'm crying. Hugs ❤
This was amazing, not because you were having a bad week (which I'm truly sorry for!), but because it was so liberating to see someone actually share how they are struggling with things and how not everything is perfect and good and happy and relaxing and cozy all the time!
I have had a rough start of the year as well, because of some non-covid related issues my mom has had, and... Oh my god, I've been so stressed and sad and anguished! And this adds up to things that are failing in our apartment which we can't get fixed because we have been self-isolating, shielding my mom since March 16th, 2020, so we don't go anywhere and we don't see anyone in person since that day. And we can't get repairmen in the aparment but things keep breaking and giving up on us now and...
Argh. It's been a rough couple of years and a rough start of the year and I'm so very tired and depressed and hopeless and feeling like nothing has any meaning anymore... And watching at least one person on the internet being open and saying "I don't feel well" or "I'm having a bad week" and not making it seem as though their lives are perfect or like all there is in the world are books... Uff, it has been liberating and it has made me feel less alone.
Thank you and, if you can, please do make more of these! It is incredibly helpful and comforting.
Take care and good luck with school and everything! And I hope your brother gets well soon!
A hug from Chile (where it's summer and it's hot and dry and disgusting, I hate summer!). :)
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I’ve been feeling lost and lonely lately too, and this video felt like cozying up for a good conversation with a friend. Thank you for sharing this with us! 💕
I also had a pretty rough start this year, in the beginning of the year I lacked time being alone bc through Chistmas and stuff I was always surrounded by people which was really draining my energy level. Aditionally I kinda found out that I lost all the fun in activities I seemed to like and just did them because of the habits i build. But hopefully it will all get better and its really comforting to see that I am not the only one struggeling. Thank you for sharing 💕
in the beginning of the video I kept trying to tell you "Go outside. Nature will help." and of course you couldn't here me. But it's always such a balm to me when I'm feeling overwhelmed or sad or confused or blah. I was so glad when you decided to brave the cold even without my sage advice. Hehehe. Covid got lots more real for me since the beginning of the year as well - my daughter got it, my son and most of his family got it, my husband got it and then gave it to me. Friends near and far seem to be catching it, the number of people I know directly who are positive at the moment seems to be rising exponentially and so my worry rises as well. I have so much I wanted to do once the holidays were over and instead I'm giving myself a pat on the back if I put on shoes for the day or run the dishwasher. I hope your brother gets through his case with as much comfort and ease as possible. HUGS to you. (nice, safe long distant hugs!) Oh, and as for not knowing what your future might hold - hey, I'm in my 60's and I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up. But it hasn't stopped me from having lots of unplanned love and adventures while I'm trying to figure it out. I love a quote from John Lennon - "Life is what happens while you are busy making other plans."
Having a coffee outside is a great idea. Why not? Snow can be so beautiful and invigorating. ❄️ Nature heals!
Also the WAY I love your apartment clips, your place is so cozy, homey, and peaceful .. and I just strive to feel that way in my room too!
I was feeling a bit relieved when I saw the title of this video. I've been feeling really lost as well since new year's eve, because it hit me how unhappy I really am currently. I began studying at university in the fall of 2020, so I moved out and I moved to a new city. For 3 semesters now I have been studying online and I could rarely meet people, let alone find close friends around here.
It's hard to keep going, it feels like nothing makes sense when you don't have a secure social environment, but knowing other people feel like this too helps. And fleeing into the world of books helps a lot too... So thank you so much!
Holding you in the Light. Perhaps she’ll be comforted that so many others are suffering with pandemic fatigue. It’s taken Omicron and me two years to hit me, I’m a strong resilient prayed adventurous women. Absolutely loved the videos of the cemetery and the squirrels and the ducks in the river in the sunshine.
We love you Emma, and we're all here for you! I hope you're feeling better now ❤❤❤❤
Thank you Camila❤️
the moment where a snowflake gently met your coffee resting in the snow was utterly transcendent.
Hope your brother is doing okay! I got covid last week. It was pretty sad, not gonna lie, because I had been safe and taken measures not to get it, but most importantly I was worried because I had seen my grandma the day before I had a fever and realized oh I have Covid. Luckily she is doing okay and although I got some symtoms and felt pretty bad for a few days, now I'm okay too. Honestly this last few weeks have not been the happiest and I've also been reflecting about the pandemic and how it's affecting our lives, school, etc. It was nice hearing you talk and seeing other people are feeling this way and it's okay, we don't have to be happy all the time. Lots all love, and I hope the rest of your january was amazing. Having Yoga, books and nature is nice and helps 💕
Emmie you can't imagine how your videos help me a lot because I have anxiety and I'm almost always alone so I see you reading and studying and doing things that make you feel good helps me deal with all this, I hope with all my heart that your family be well. :)
that snowflake dropping in the coffee... God sent!
Just to let you know you're not the only one who is struggling with everything that's going on.❤ I've started a new job in my field (translation) about 5 months ago. Although it started very promising the workload started piling up and I didn't want to say no, so I kept adding more. And I know that couldn't continue. At this point, I've just had 6 days off but the thought of going back to work tomorrow makes me sick. I was at a breaking point before those six days off, but those days off I feel like haven't changed a thing. And I feel burned out, stressed, emotional and everything else. just the same. Knowing I'm not the only one struggling mentally gives me comfort in a strange way. I love your channel alot first of all, and I share the same love for books as you do. But I'm in such a bad space mentally, I can't even bring myself to read, which I love doing. Honestly at this point I'm burned out. Hopefully my books will pull me through.😥
I remembered this line from Great Expectations: Heaven knows we need never be ashamed of our tears, for they are rain upon the blinding dust of earth, overlying our hard hearts... I think it's a great reminder particularly during these times. Love the vid Emmie, Many thanks!
We like your honesty in your videos and your more deph videos !
I feel you. I'm juggling so many things right now. I feel overwhelmed and stuck in my head. Things get better though. Thank you for your video, your words comfort me so much.
Hi Emma! I find you are very courageous to share how you feel, thank you. I hope everything turns out well for you and your family.
I can totally relate to your feelings, sometimes I feel so much detached from the world, that it is difficult to move forward, but finding those little actions to regain some kind of routine helps, music and series also help because I get stressed if I start too many books at once...
I love your videos and your bookshelves and I wish I had a snowy winter!
In the end I try to tell myself that these days will also pass!
Thank you for all you give us, and take care!!
Emma, please keep it as real as you're comfortable with. The section beginning around the 12:30 mark really resonated with me, having recently graduated during the pandemic and feeling similarly lost and stressed having to find my way in life amidst these troubled times. It's so reassuring to know that it's not just me feeling this strange mix of feelings while soldiering on.
Much love and good health to you and your family, hope your brother is recovering well.
I love you being comfortable to share your thoughts even if they're not all positive. It's a safe space for all of us! ❤️
Thank you Emma for this lovely video. It has started to snow here for the first time this year, and this was nice to watch with the snowflakes falling down in the background
I’ve had a rough start to the year with my parents arguing through me again. Now after finally settling in in Canada I have to move back to England to live with my mum. It’s all negative but I see the light in it. Travelling the world and having lived in 3 continents at 16😎. That’s what I tell myself to feel better. I just wanna let this out so yeah whoever’s reading have a nice day
Parents arguing through me has caused so much stress, it's almost unbearable. I'm sorry you're dealing with this walaal :(
I 1000% FEEL YOU🖤 I honestly can’t think of a time that I didn’t feel lost in life. but I am definitely learning how to manage that feeling and actually work towards finding purpose and direction. as you said, it’s not so much that i’m scared of what the future holds but more that I’m annoyed that I don’t have a direction. literally finished your sentence in my head before you said it. major feels. I’m so indecisive about what I want to do with my education and my career and I find it impossible for myself to commit to anything because I am afraid of making the wrong decision and “wasting” my time. ugh. I feel you. I believe in you. I believe in me. you’ll get through these dark days. and next time they come knocking, you’ll be more prepared to confront them.
The music you use for your vlogs are so beautiful and are so calming!
Thank you for opening up and sharing Emma ❤️ I love watching this kinds of vlogs and it's nice knowing I'm not alone in the way I've been feeling lately, and the comments are also nice. Thank you for creating such a safe space. We love you!
Thank you for talking about how you feel, especially if it helps you. So glad you spent time in nature! And hello to Emmie’s grandma! 🌸
Thank you for this vlog! It was a comfort as always. ❄️🤍 I think we can all relate to how you’ve been feeling. The pandemic has been rough. Sorry you’re feeling the stress. It will be ok. Sending healing prayers for your sweet brother. We’ve finally been touched by Covid in my family as well this week. I think it’s about the realization that we we only have so much control over it in our lives. Self care definitely helps when you’re feeling lost. Whatever that means for you. Stay safe lovely Emma. Sending lots of 🤍🤍🤍!
Sending you so much love Linda, hope you all recover quickly💙
@@emmiereads Thank you! 💙