When you totally heal and you will, you will be so much better than you ever we're trust me I was on Xanax for about six years and by the grace of God I have been off for 9 years. You will always be able to look back and see how strong you were to have made it through..and be thankful to God!! Bless you !!
Thank you for encouraged us...how long it takes for you to get strength...I am over 20 month and still getting strength and energy issue. Please let me know.
Thank you for this video. I am in the same place. I am 15 months off. I am praying for recovery for all who are going through this. Love to you and yours.
Thank you for your experience, strength, and hope. I have just started tapering off of Clonipin, 3mg a day for over 20 yrs. I’m now at 2.25 and moving to 2mg tomorrow. Most grueling thing I’ve ever experienced.
hi mate. your doing awesome. im 20 months too and couldnt have said it better, seems we are healing same pace. i am more functional and not suffering but my strength and stamina is nowhere what it used to be. so glad the horror days are over!
Thanks for sharing! i am almost 14 months off and the deep physical and muscular pain has made life challenging. I wanted to thank you for your videos. Acceptance is the hardest thing to wrestle with. Having very few people left in my life and also those who judge is difficult too. in some ways the longer I am off and still sick the more worn out I am. i hear that in your post. Its a gratefulness for not being at the beginning but also a why is this still going on that is gnawing away. Anyway, no matter what has complicated our recoveries or why we are more sensitive, God will use it for His good. Keep it up and God bless.
Thanks for all you do ! You are a saint . What a hell of nightmare klonopin w/d is . 13 months off still struggling with muscle aches and benzo belly . The hellish mental symptoms have eased so I see signs of healing . Your the best !
I'm 2 and a half years off and still am learning to cope with the physical residual effects from using benzos ..fatigue, pain,vertigo on a daily basis but I'm grateful to be off them and alive so I accept it and move forward.
When I clicked on your video,I was hoping to hear you're 100% healed at 20 months,I'm sorry that you're not there"yet",however I am very glad to see you still making videos,your earlier videos helped me so much through some of the worst times in my withdrawal,I think it's your warm kind tones and polite sweet manners that bring smiles to people's faces,I'm at 16 months ,I'm doing very well,been very well for 3 months now,hope it keeps like this,you're far too strong of a lady for this,it's only a matter of some more time until we see your video where it's all over,Thankyou so much for all you've done and still are doing for all of us who are suffering,when I look at you I see a very strong lady,you've come so far,you made videos when you barely had energy to talk,you've helped so many of us with your advise and kind nature,I wil. Always have a lot of respect for you,thanks
Thank you for posting the update. I am 11.5 months off and still suffering miserably on days. I noticed I have gotten better and grateful for and thinking I would heal at a year off however at the rate I'm going I don't know when but hoping it would be 2 years. This is terrible to go through. I'm still very sensitive and little thing stress me and make me have panic attacks. Anxiety, and other physical symptoms are still bad. Thanks again. I hope we all heal soon since this is very lonely and hard to go through.
TT Ng i started feeling better at 20mths after taking valium on and off for 20 years. my doctor recently had put me on elavil and it has helped me get some sleep which was seriously needed . but in no way am i healed, maybe 75%
Totally feel you on the exercise thing...I miss being able to do that. Benzos destroyed 5 years of hard work in the gym in no time flat. : ( Hopefully one day you'll be able to exert yourself at that level again. Cause it does stink i hate it. Fitness was my life....
I feel you massively there. I put years into working hard in the gym, and most of that is lost. Not being able to train properly means I cant work towards getting it back yet
Congrats on your 20 mths!! I'm at 25 mths after cold turkey and progesterone use. I get impatient a lot lately. Needed this nice reminder that it is a slow process. Keep going pretty lady!! Enjoy your life!!
You certainly sound fully healed. Most days I still talk in simple sentences, not being able to come up with specific words I'd like to use. I finished my taper 2 months after you. I was never stable during the taper. I may have kindled 3 times - coping with side effects from other psych meds the doc prescribed. I think the ativan destroyed my gaba receptors early on - I only used the ativan for sleep occasionally. Spent five years not knowing why I all of a sudden was having panic attacks all the time. Now, 22 months off and I've been in a wave for 3 months. The constant gut ache - that feeling like the first dip of the roller coaster - fun for a few seconds, not fun when it never goes away, I've been assured my heart is fine except for occasional racing and palps. But they are still so strong, it takes my breath away. The psychological torture of fearing my own body is keeping me from healing, I think. You are lucky to have had a great support system, I've had no one.
Thank you. Just Thank you. At 15 months after CT from klonopin, I still have bad digestive issues, muscular pain and intermittent neuropathy like symptoms in my arms, but people expect me to be at 100% now. Glad to know I'm not the only one.
Hello beautiful how do you feel now seven years ago you made this video and you were helping lots of people did you recover at the three-year mark or when was your recovery that you felt like your life had gone back to being a normal human to where you could eat normal bad foodjust your body regulate back to a normal state. Did you ever reach that point of going back to before or did you have to adjust to a new more sensitive state of being
Hi my healing was a very non linear process of up and down. I'm very well now and can eat most things in moderation. But I am sensitive and do need to be mindful of what I put into my body and my self care. At 4 months I started a gut reset, high protein diet that was super helpful. In 2017 or so I did ket which was a big change. Afterwards I did some stem cell therapy that made a big difference for my brain. And then in 2019 I turned a big corner with meditation and spiritual work so that by 2020 I felt I could confidently remain in a stable state of healing. Hope that helps
I just wanna thank you again! I really thank you for your time, I share these with my sister she's all I have left to "be" there for me. two years ago soon I started to come off I lost 7 family members that where significant within that time. I'm 29 no kids or wife its become so bad fighting this now heart palpitations plague me and the last anxiety attack Idk besides god how my heart didn't stop or explode.. i cried begging god for help an I found these ☺ doctors wont even consider this perspective nor percribe to get off here.. btw 3 ekgs, 2 chest x-ray, an blood work was perfect yet standing was a challenge, er gave me adavan I was able to walk out ok???? still cant find help. thank you for your help. so so so much. I pray I can find help.
overload is overwhelming.. even for a remarkable LADY.. AS YOU ARE. VERY WISE DECISION TO FOCUS ON THE BIG PICTURE. WE CAN ONLY SPREAD OURSELVES SO MUCH. WISHING YOU WELL .
You're so awesome girl!You always look so beautiful.Thanks for these great videos!You're so right that everyone is effected different and no one knows how these things will effect them or how long this will last
Thank you for the video. I can tell how much you have healed from the other videos. I didn't see any evidence of the brain fog issues or word finding issues which gives me a lot of hope. I am still in the tapering process and I am consciously trying to be more of a Mary and less of a Martha, or I too am taking a slower approach at life. I wish you good health and enjoy your time with your family! There will be others to carry the torch for change.
Thank you so so much! I needed this because people really don't know how to take me either because getting off of these, makes me seem off, I believe and I'm always kind and friendly, if I'm able to do something on a certain day. Yeah, they certainly are nice but standoffish a bit. Then I look back and they've disappeared. It's okay, it really doesn't bother me. I've just noticed and moreso now. I'm still on a taper but I'm just not 100% stable. Don't think I will be until completely off and healed! I just know, that I'm doing the absolute best that I can and I know it's very misunderstood. It's strange because I believe I'm becoming a better version of myself. I have so much empathy and compassion for everyone! I hope your son is doing awesome and I hope you are completely healed and everything is going amazing for you! You are such an inspiration and a voice! I appreciate you so so much! You know how to help! Hug's sent! 🙏🙏🙌🙌🤗💞💐 If this is hard to understand, I'm sorry my brain is off track. 🙏🙌
Good to hear from you again!! I was only on Valium for about 5 months including taper. I'm now almost 5 months off, but also still struggling with some issues. Never thought it would take that long :-D I just got the flu and my symptoms got worse, I had a fever for over a week! So good that you are able to focus on being a mom and a wife, I'm trying to do the same thing. I'm sure things will improve even more for you with the passing of time. Thanx for sharing!! Love Kim
Hey Kimmy, I was also on valium for 5 months including taper, at this point I'm 2 months off and feel like I'm in hell with the withdrawals. Wanted to ask, how are you doing now? How long did it take before you felt well again? I see that you're Dutch also, feel free to reply in Dutch if you want :)
Thank you for your videos. Right now I'm 14 months free from Xanax. I definitely can relate to what you were going through 4 years ago. I'm not what I used to be. Right now I am very very limited to what I can do too, my threshold is very sensitive which can put me in a painful wave. My diet, physical, social activities, driving, sleeping, anxiety, stress, fear. Healing is very slow. I take alot of breaks, alone time, diaphragmic breathing, meditation, ice water sponge downs or baths which helps calm me down. I wonder how are you doing 4 years later from this video?
Yeah I don't like going to ER. They treat you like a addicted. I was dehydrated and had low potassium. But they were ok . But you can feel it. I told them i was going to write on my hand don't give benzodiazepine only to be to save my life. You are so amazing. God bless you Sweetie I miss your Videos. Wish you would do anyone so to see How HAPPY you are to have gotten your Life Back. I pray many Blessings over you and your Beautiful Family.
Thank you Jocelyn for giving us an update on how you were doing... you are correct everybody is different I took benzo's for only one week and I'm out nine months and it's way better but there is still lingering symptoms for example lightheadedness, fluctuating blood pressure from one minute to another, really low heartbeat at night, some days there is weakness, anxiety some days it comes back and leaves ...I would say about 80% there but yeh there is still healing to be done, so let's all have a little faith and know we will be 100% one day just hold on!
Thank you for your honesty! Appreciate you taking the time. I'm 17.5 months off a cold turkey after 6 months of use and still in benzo hell. Your video gives me hope.
Keep on keeping on. That's definitely how I look at it -- I have some really bad days still, but I know I'm not in benzo hell anymore and that's what I have to remember. I've learned I am crazy sensitive to skincare. Almost anything and everything throws me off.
I am a very long time user of Klonopin. Presently detoxing, down to a very small amount where the brick wall is. I wonder if I will be able to make it through the wall. Due to my age and other health problems I wonder if I will make it. Medical help is a complete joke so I'm on my own. My biggest problem now is trying to realize the difference between reality and withdrawal. Both are the same. Heart attacks are not fun, real or not. I have had my fair share.
Going off benzodiazepines I've heard is harder than going off herion. I'm still going through my taper and I really have to keep explaining to my doctor's they have to slow down. One doctor said we need you off by the end of the year. I wish I would have said what's the hurry. I'm trying my best and we all can't move at mock speed. I've had one good day. I get the facial stuff also. I also get this dizzy thing it's crazy. It helps to keep a journal. I'm not a mother but I would imagine that must be really hard. You must feel the guilt thing but don't. You seem to do your best and I'm sure your an even better mother bcuz of what you've gone through. One day when your kid's are older I'm sure they'll understand. It helps me to keep my spirituality. It's hard when you try to explain what your going through and some people look at me like I have three head's lol. It's okay through you've made a difference in people's lives. Not everyone can say or do that. God bless you.
Thank you for all of your past info and your honest update. I've got about 25 yrs on you and got benzoed only last year. At my age we worry about benzos triggering dementia or other age related problems. GP's prescribing benzos to the elderly why too often.
what a lot of people dont realize is that the anxiety disorder or whatever condition you had for doctors to put you on benzos in the first place is STILL going to be there so it may feel like youre not recovering soon enough.
Yes phi you are right...... I think even when 10 or 20 years passed after benzos off ,these guys relate some unrelated pain or other pains to benzos and they say its been 10 years still I'm not healed...... All idiots stop scaring others..... I don't want to watch these horror scareful comments...... I think worst case scenarios are with people who did cold turkey.......
I'm straight up terrified. I've been prescribed diazapam for about 16 years now. I have weened myself down from 30mg a day down to 7.5mg a day over the last year and a half. watching these videos are scaring the hell out of me yet giving me hope at the same time. I want to go faster with it, but I know that I have to take my time.... /sigh. I can't believe what the doctors have done to us. it's pathetic. I have current legal issues (a dui) and I'm very concerned that I might have to do a minimum of 10 days consecutive in the county jail. That's been the main reason for my recent weening a little faster process. Idk what to do. I don't want to die in jail over a "marijuana dui".. My life sucks.. hopefully this helps me to get totally sober and I never look back
Thank you for this! Would love to share my story with you! Cold turkey’d off of Ativan after 1 month of use 1mg once a day by my doctor who told me just stop taking it and take Buspar instead. HORRIBLE withdrawal that landed me in the ER in a state of psychosis. I had called and called my doctor telling her I didn’t feel good but they just told me to make an appointment!
It’s been downhill since then. Couldn’t even take the Zoloft I had been on for years. Everyone kept telling me my symptoms were from anxiety so I ended up trying Paxil after a couple of months. HORRIBLE symptoms AGAIN!!!!! Almost 4 weeks off of the Paxil and I feel terrible. I was getting somewhat better but I’m right back to the beginning 😔 I hate this for you and for anyone else affected by this!
I'm on week 15 cold turkey it's been hell although I only have one symptom left its excruciating I have the numb burning brain that's 24/7 not sure what I can do about this but reinstate I don't know what eps would take this away. Thank you so much for your videos they help so much you show me that I can get through this too.
I need info help for my son who has been on Valiums for several yrs. I asked VA Dr I want him taper off, she replied that since his Anxiety (OCD, Schizophrenia) has just started to improve she wanted him to wait another 6-12 months..This is Ridiculous! Especially since his Valiums have increased from 30 pills monthly 10mg to 45 pills monthly 2 yrs. ago, and recently increased to 90 Valiums monthly in Aug 2020. Can’t get help from her Supervisor, she is only Psychiatrist in Stockton clinic and does not know how to taper or familiar with handling OCD. He is52, I need help. Joseph.
I really have no one to talk to about this, I really hate this and there are days that I want to give up. Again, my daughter is the one that keeps me going and I’m scared for my life because I don’t know how this Withdraw will be!
i am 18 months bento free and I still have muscle pain, mainly in my lower back more locally expressed in the sacroiliac, after 14 months of Benzo free, i started feeling pain in my neck, does it is normal?
I can relate to your food and exercising...it isn't the same and you can't eat everything you ate before without paying the price hours later. And it is hard to get others to fully grasp that part. I believe with me, that some damages to my brain neurotransmitters have taken place and needs more time to balance again, but i don't deal with the immune system problem since I take certain supplements that keeps my cells healthy...along with lymphasizing exercises. But, it is an on going process as if I keep myself more in a bubble now. I've always found that 1/2 fresh lemon juice (alkalinity, Vit-C)with 1tbs Brag's Organic Apple Cider Vinegar (much needed potassium and live enzymes) with 1/4 tsp ginger (stomach issues and nauseousness) and turmeric pwd (inflammation, high BP) in 12oz water helps within 15mins or less when an "episode" comes on...and w/1/2 magnesium citrate pwd the better, for nerves, mood & muscle relaxation. I've shared it with others and they are amazed how fast it works. If you haven't already, you may try Eric Berg's channel. His vids cover a lot of health issues with natural remedies...most of his 1000s of vids are only 3mins or shorter. I believe he also, will take any ones health concerns via e-mail and provide an analysis response for free. He covers remedies for inflammation, stress, sugar dangers, gmo foods, moods, energy, muscle pains, etc. I find him very knowledgeable and different from most other health professionals. And I always seem to learn something new. Thanks for your experiences and time you've given, it does help. semper fi
AchillesIQ I totally agree I do an electrolyte mixture every day with mag citrate, potassium and Celtic sea salt. I will also do some lime juice in the mornings when I can. it's kind of hard to avoid illness when you have kids who are around other kids haha.
agreed same: no longer in benzo hell but have to live at a different pace. Working out, what I eat. Wonder if this will ever resolve. I'd like to have normal energy someday, haven't since I was 10.
My stress and anxiety levels would be very high when I woke up in the morning but after taking 500 mg of L-Tyrosine at bedtime -I seem to have noticed less anxiety for the past 3 days.
Jocelyn: Your videos have been very inspirational to me. This 'disease' can be very isolating and I have not been successful in getting much support. Perhaps thats because I actually tell them its Benzos. Maybe, I should make something up! LOL But I am in the 5th month of my taper from Klonopin and am now below .5 mg. I hope you and your daughters are enjoying life. TommyB
I have something for you to think about, we have very bad digestive problem. . our immune system comes from our digestive system. . therefore it takes longer to heal any other thing like a cold. . back pain could be inflammation of the digestive system pressing on the spin. . .. try probiotic digestive enzymes. it helped me, but everyone is different. . I'm bezo free for 4 year's. . i still feel sick from time to time .. but in bezo hell.. I still can't have a cup of coffee, or alcohol. . or I'll feel sick.. still after 4 years..
paul valenz yes probiotics can be helpful. actually the best thing for my gut was a temporary diet my doctor had me do for a few weeks. it's called the gut reset diet. you don't eat anything that ferments in your gut and this helps to balance out the bacteria and yeast in your digestive tract. it really helped and I'm going to need to do it again now that I'm. off the antibiotics
Hi, I ended my taper about 5 months ago and as you know this is a very challenging time. I was wondering did you ever find that the weather plays a part into head pressure, brain fog and difficult thoughts? It seems to me I have more windows on clear sunny days and the cloudy weather is just awful. Weird I know.
Absolutely! I could be in an underground bunker with no access to the outside world and my body would tell me when a rain storm was coming. It was painful and difficult to think straight. But that got better with time. I can enjoy a rainstorm now but I still definitely do better with lots of sunshine.
Did you get more intense symptoms during the period ? I would like to take a treatment but not now for the hormones balance . Did you take any treatment and if so how long did you wait until Benzo withdrawal finish ? I’m scared to take any kind of hormones in this moment
How many procent you cpnsidered yourself better for ex after one year? I was kindling and after 3 months im still suffering for terrible symptoms I’m expected to see the light after 5 months more . For one damn pill . God bless you and your family !
I was also prescribed a benzo in 2014 and took it only as prescribed. I've been trying to taper off of it with the help of a Doc and a therapist. I'm suffering badly! I also live in UT and am the mother of five. I have joined BB and it helps but I would love to connect with someone in my community who can support me who's been through this awful ordeal. Is there anyway you would be willing to get in touch with me via DM or another way? Thanks :)
My Story is extremely similar to yours. As far as being poly drugged, two CT from Benzos. I am only off of one medication right now out of three. Which is better than being on all three. But benzos are by far the worst.
What about having a baby on benzos? Obviously I don’t plan to but I am currently tapering and worried I’m 33 and I don’t have a ton of time… btw onlyyyy tapering to someday have a baby lol so yep.
Looking for advice...I was on klonopin (0.5 mg/day) for 3 weeks in January 2017 and various lower doses for all of December 2016. I have been tapering for 6 weeks and I'm down to 1/8 pill (0.0625 mg/day). I plan to be off completely at the end of this week. Other than some insomnia, I've had no symptoms, though I'm starting to feel it now. I just don't know if I should stretch out the taper beyond that. At this point, the taper has almost doubled the time that I've been on the klonopin. At some point, would increasing the total time I've had klonopin in my system be worse than slowing the taper?
It's really your decision. I understand not wanting to be on it for too long. but then I know people who were only on it for a few weeks and had to do a year taper. You seem to be pretty lucky so far. Ashton recommends tapering to at least the equivalent 0.025 of klonipin or 0.5-.0.25 of valium. You may be pretty close to that now. sorry I couldn't respond sooner. I wish you a full recovery :)
I hate my life now! I don't want to kill myself but I don't want to live anymore. I live in isolation and nobody in real life wants to be my friend. I have AA and recovery friends but it's not the same. I'm tired of doing everything alone. I live life in zoom land going to AA meeting after AA meeting all day. I was pushing myself in the gym and I ended up having stress induced cardiomyopathy. I have read acceptance is the answer a thousand times and it's still hard to accept that life is ruined. I don't know if I can make it through years of this hell
Please get in contact with me. I want to start tapering & I’m not open about my use of benzos to anyone in my life. I would really appreciate a chat or a call. I have few questions that I would like to hear your answer :). Thank you so much!
Hi Benzo lady, here’s some Good, positive news for your subscribers, there is a gene in the Brain that causes Anxiety Symptoms, has been identified, modification of the gene is shown to “Reduce Anxiety levels.” April 25, 2023
Don't think that way, my story is complex, it's not just about the time you've been on. Some people are on longer than you and get off and are just fine. Everyone is different/
It seems like some other things are going on. Have you been checked for Lyme's or Epstein Barr ? Thyroid or vitamin issues ? I was very sick until I started taking thyroid meds. Respectfully asking of course.
For the most part. I still get the burning skin sensation from time to time. I think it is a permanent result of valium use. It is really uncomfortable. No 100 percent relief for it either. Except the things that caused it. Again, clonidine I take, at least keeps me from having bp and high heart rate episodes with it, and akathisia.
I've been hiv positive for 17 years. They say my bloodwork is great but I feel like I'm always sick. I'm also coming off Rivatril cold turkey...who knows! (Rivatril are the 2 mg clonazepam tabs)
When you totally heal and you will, you will be so much better than you ever we're trust me I was on Xanax for about six years and by the grace of God I have been off for 9 years. You will always be able to look back and see how strong you were to have made it through..and be thankful to God!! Bless you !!
Thanks for the good word
Thank you for encouraged us...how long it takes for you to get strength...I am over 20 month and still getting strength and energy issue. Please let me know.
Thank you for this video. I am in the same place. I am 15 months off. I am praying for recovery for all who are going through this. Love to you and yours.
Mary Long how you feel today
Thank you for your experience, strength, and hope. I have just started tapering off of Clonipin, 3mg a day for over 20 yrs. I’m now at 2.25 and moving to 2mg tomorrow. Most grueling thing I’ve ever experienced.
hi mate. your doing awesome. im 20 months too and couldnt have said it better, seems we are healing same pace. i am more functional and not suffering but my strength and stamina is nowhere what it used to be. so glad the horror days are over!
Perfectly said! I'm approaching 26 months off. You hit the nail on the head! Thank you for posting!
Thanks for sharing! i am almost 14 months off and the deep physical and muscular pain has made life challenging. I wanted to thank you for your videos. Acceptance is the hardest thing to wrestle with. Having very few people left in my life and also those who judge is difficult too. in some ways the longer I am off and still sick the more worn out I am. i hear that in your post. Its a gratefulness for not being at the beginning but also a why is this still going on that is gnawing away. Anyway, no matter what has complicated our recoveries or why we are more sensitive, God will use it for His good. Keep it up and God bless.
Jennifer P thanks you :)
Yes I am also at 14 months and still very much in pain and mental anguish and I still have hope... This is the key... Hope.
Thanks for all you do ! You are a saint . What a hell of nightmare klonopin w/d is . 13 months off still struggling with muscle aches and benzo belly . The hellish mental symptoms have eased so I see signs of healing . Your the best !
Peter Muller hi how are you feeling today
I'm 2 and a half years off and still am learning to cope with the physical residual effects from using benzos ..fatigue, pain,vertigo on a daily basis but I'm grateful to be off them and alive so I accept it and move forward.
When I clicked on your video,I was hoping to hear you're 100% healed at 20 months,I'm sorry that you're not there"yet",however I am very glad to see you still making videos,your earlier videos helped me so much through some of the worst times in my withdrawal,I think it's your warm kind tones and polite sweet manners that bring smiles to people's faces,I'm at 16 months ,I'm doing very well,been very well for 3 months now,hope it keeps like this,you're far too strong of a lady for this,it's only a matter of some more time until we see your video where it's all over,Thankyou so much for all you've done and still are doing for all of us who are suffering,when I look at you I see a very strong lady,you've come so far,you made videos when you barely had energy to talk,you've helped so many of us with your advise and kind nature,I wil. Always have a lot of respect for you,thanks
Thank you for posting the update. I am 11.5 months off and still suffering miserably on days. I noticed I have gotten better and grateful for and thinking I would heal at a year off however at the rate I'm going I don't know when but hoping it would be 2 years. This is terrible to go through. I'm still very sensitive and little thing stress me and make me have panic attacks. Anxiety, and other physical symptoms are still bad. Thanks again. I hope we all heal soon since this is very lonely and hard to go through.
TT Ng i started feeling better at 20mths after taking valium on and off for 20 years. my doctor recently had put me on elavil and it has helped me get some sleep which was seriously needed . but in no way am i healed, maybe 75%
@@gfloor4127 how you feeling now..I just started my hell .on just. 25 1x a day for only 4 wks....
How are you now?
Totally feel you on the exercise thing...I miss being able to do that. Benzos destroyed 5 years of hard work in the gym in no time flat. : ( Hopefully one day you'll be able to exert yourself at that level again. Cause it does stink i hate it. Fitness was my life....
I feel you massively there. I put years into working hard in the gym, and most of that is lost. Not being able to train properly means I cant work towards getting it back yet
Congrats on your 20 mths!! I'm at 25 mths after cold turkey and progesterone use. I get impatient a lot lately. Needed this nice reminder that it is a slow process. Keep going pretty lady!! Enjoy your life!!
You certainly sound fully healed. Most days I still talk in simple sentences, not being able to come up with specific words I'd like to use. I finished my taper 2 months after you. I was never stable during the taper. I may have kindled 3 times - coping with side effects from other psych meds the doc prescribed. I think the ativan destroyed my gaba receptors early on - I only used the ativan for sleep occasionally. Spent five years not knowing why I all of a sudden was having panic attacks all the time. Now, 22 months off and I've been in a wave for 3 months. The constant gut ache - that feeling like the first dip of the roller coaster - fun for a few seconds, not fun when it never goes away, I've been assured my heart is fine except for occasional racing and palps. But they are still so strong, it takes my breath away. The psychological torture of fearing my own body is keeping me from healing, I think. You are lucky to have had a great support system, I've had no one.
Thank you. Just Thank you. At 15 months after CT from klonopin, I still have bad digestive issues, muscular pain and intermittent neuropathy like symptoms in my arms, but people expect me to be at 100% now. Glad to know I'm not the only one.
Hello beautiful how do you feel now seven years ago you made this video and you were helping lots of people did you recover at the three-year mark or when was your recovery that you felt like your life had gone back to being a normal human to where you could eat normal bad foodjust your body regulate back to a normal state. Did you ever reach that point of going back to before or did you have to adjust to a new more sensitive state of being
Hi my healing was a very non linear process of up and down. I'm very well now and can eat most things in moderation. But I am sensitive and do need to be mindful of what I put into my body and my self care. At 4 months I started a gut reset, high protein diet that was super helpful. In 2017 or so I did ket which was a big change. Afterwards I did some stem cell therapy that made a big difference for my brain. And then in 2019 I turned a big corner with meditation and spiritual work so that by 2020 I felt I could confidently remain in a stable state of healing. Hope that helps
The best advice.Exact feelings, perfect explanation.
I just wanna thank you again! I really thank you for your time, I share these with my sister she's all I have left to "be" there for me. two years ago soon I started to come off I lost 7 family members that where significant within that time. I'm 29 no kids or wife its become so bad fighting this now heart palpitations plague me and the last anxiety attack Idk besides god how my heart didn't stop or explode.. i cried begging god for help an I found these ☺ doctors wont even consider this perspective nor percribe to get off here.. btw 3 ekgs, 2 chest x-ray, an blood work was perfect yet standing was a challenge, er gave me adavan I was able to walk out ok???? still cant find help. thank you for your help. so so so much. I pray I can find help.
overload is overwhelming.. even for a remarkable LADY.. AS YOU ARE. VERY WISE DECISION TO FOCUS ON THE BIG PICTURE. WE CAN ONLY SPREAD OURSELVES SO MUCH. WISHING YOU WELL .
You're so awesome girl!You always look so beautiful.Thanks for these great videos!You're so right that everyone is effected different and no one knows how these things will effect them or how long this will last
Thank you for the video. I can tell how much you have healed from the other videos. I didn't see any evidence of the brain fog issues or word finding issues which gives me a lot of hope. I am still in the tapering process and I am consciously trying to be more of a Mary and less of a Martha, or I too am taking a slower approach at life. I wish you good health and enjoy your time with your family! There will be others to carry the torch for change.
thank you :)
Thank you so so much! I needed this because people really don't know how to take me either because getting off of these, makes me seem off, I believe and I'm always kind and friendly, if I'm able to do something on a certain day. Yeah, they certainly are nice but standoffish a bit. Then I look back and they've disappeared. It's okay, it really doesn't bother me. I've just noticed and moreso now. I'm still on a taper but I'm just not 100% stable. Don't think I will be until completely off and healed! I just know, that I'm doing the absolute best that I can and I know it's very misunderstood. It's strange because I believe I'm becoming a better version of myself. I have so much empathy and compassion for everyone! I hope your son is doing awesome and I hope you are completely healed and everything is going amazing for you! You are such an inspiration and a voice! I appreciate you so so much! You know how to help! Hug's sent! 🙏🙏🙌🙌🤗💞💐 If this is hard to understand, I'm sorry my brain is off track. 🙏🙌
Thanks for reaching out. I have no doubt you are becoming a better you through this process.
Good to hear from you again!! I was only on Valium for about 5 months including taper. I'm now almost 5 months off, but also still struggling with some issues. Never thought it would take that long :-D I just got the flu and my symptoms got worse, I had a fever for over a week! So good that you are able to focus on being a mom and a wife, I'm trying to do the same thing. I'm sure things will improve even more for you with the passing of time. Thanx for sharing!! Love Kim
Girly I bet you do much better once it's summer. I got a lot of fevers this winter too. thanks for your kind words
Hey Kimmy, I was also on valium for 5 months including taper, at this point I'm 2 months off and feel like I'm in hell with the withdrawals. Wanted to ask, how are you doing now? How long did it take before you felt well again? I see that you're Dutch also, feel free to reply in Dutch if you want :)
@@ThomDammers how are you now?
Thank you for your videos. Right now I'm 14 months free from Xanax. I definitely can relate to what you were going through 4 years ago. I'm not what I used to be. Right now I am very very limited to what I can do too, my threshold is very sensitive which can put me in a painful wave. My diet, physical, social activities, driving, sleeping, anxiety, stress, fear. Healing is very slow. I take alot of breaks, alone time, diaphragmic breathing, meditation, ice water sponge downs or baths which helps calm me down. I wonder how are you doing 4 years later from this video?
Yeah I don't like going to ER. They treat you like a addicted. I was dehydrated and had low potassium. But they were ok . But you can feel it. I told them i was going to write on my hand don't give benzodiazepine only to be to save my life. You are so amazing. God bless you Sweetie I miss your Videos. Wish you would do anyone so to see How HAPPY you are to have gotten your Life Back. I pray many Blessings over you and your Beautiful Family.
Thank you Jocelyn for giving us an update on how you were doing... you are correct everybody is different I took benzo's for only one week and I'm out nine months and it's way better but there is still lingering symptoms for example lightheadedness, fluctuating blood pressure from one minute to another, really low heartbeat at night, some days there is weakness, anxiety some days it comes back and leaves ...I would say about 80% there but yeh there is still healing to be done, so let's all have a little faith and know we will be 100% one day just hold on!
We are never ever the same after benzo use & benzo withdrawl. Never! April 1, 2012 was my last little piece of a benzo and I’m still not the same.
How are you doing now?
Thank you for your honesty! Appreciate you taking the time. I'm 17.5 months off a cold turkey after 6 months of use and still in benzo hell. Your video gives me hope.
How are u doing now!?
How are you feeling now?
Keep on keeping on. That's definitely how I look at it -- I have some really bad days still, but I know I'm not in benzo hell anymore and that's what I have to remember. I've learned I am crazy sensitive to skincare. Almost anything and everything throws me off.
By the way, I'm right at the 15 month mark.
Yup, if I dye my hair or do anything with chemicals it can throw me into a wave.
congratulations :)
on that note, do you have any recommendations for a face moisturizer that is safe?
I am a very long time user of Klonopin. Presently detoxing, down to a very small amount where the brick wall is. I wonder if I will be able to make it through the wall. Due to my age and other health problems I wonder if I will make it. Medical help is a complete joke so I'm on my own. My biggest problem now is trying to realize the difference between reality and withdrawal. Both are the same. Heart attacks are not fun, real or not. I have had my fair share.
Going off benzodiazepines I've heard is harder than going off herion. I'm still going through my taper and I really have to keep explaining to my doctor's they have to slow down. One doctor said we need you off by the end of the year. I wish I would have said what's the hurry. I'm trying my best and we all can't move at mock speed. I've had one good day. I get the facial stuff also. I also get this dizzy thing it's crazy. It helps to keep a journal. I'm not a mother but I would imagine that must be really hard. You must feel the guilt thing but don't. You seem to do your best and I'm sure your an even better mother bcuz of what you've gone through. One day when your kid's are older I'm sure they'll understand. It helps me to keep my spirituality. It's hard when you try to explain what your going through and some people look at me like I have three head's lol. It's okay through you've made a difference in people's lives. Not everyone can say or do that. God bless you.
Thank you for all of your past info and your honest update. I've got about 25 yrs on you and got benzoed only last year. At my age we worry about benzos triggering dementia or other age related problems. GP's prescribing benzos to the elderly why too often.
snakeriverwatch yes they are, more than the rest of the population which is just criminal
what a lot of people dont realize is that the anxiety disorder or whatever condition you had for doctors to put you on benzos in the first place is STILL going to be there so it may feel like youre not recovering soon enough.
Yes phi you are right...... I think even when 10 or 20 years passed after benzos off ,these guys relate some unrelated pain or other pains to benzos and they say its been 10 years still I'm not healed...... All idiots stop scaring others..... I don't want to watch these horror scareful comments...... I think worst case scenarios are with people who did cold turkey.......
I'm straight up terrified. I've been prescribed diazapam for about 16 years now. I have weened myself down from 30mg a day down to 7.5mg a day over the last year and a half. watching these videos are scaring the hell out of me yet giving me hope at the same time. I want to go faster with it, but I know that I have to take my time.... /sigh. I can't believe what the doctors have done to us. it's pathetic. I have current legal issues (a dui) and I'm very concerned that I might have to do a minimum of 10 days consecutive in the county jail. That's been the main reason for my recent weening a little faster process. Idk what to do. I don't want to die in jail over a "marijuana dui".. My life sucks.. hopefully this helps me to get totally sober and I never look back
Just wondering how you are doing? Did you have to do the 10 days?
Yeah did you go okay in Jail and get off the Benzos? Your situation is a great example of why the system is so fucking unfair and even dangerous
Thank you for this! Would love to share my story with you! Cold turkey’d off of Ativan after 1 month of use 1mg once a day by my doctor who told me just stop taking it and take Buspar instead. HORRIBLE withdrawal that landed me in the ER in a state of psychosis. I had called and called my doctor telling her I didn’t feel good but they just told me to make an appointment!
It’s been downhill since then. Couldn’t even take the Zoloft I had been on for years. Everyone kept telling me my symptoms were from anxiety so I ended up trying Paxil after a couple of months. HORRIBLE symptoms AGAIN!!!!! Almost 4 weeks off of the Paxil and I feel terrible. I was getting somewhat better but I’m right back to the beginning 😔 I hate this for you and for anyone else affected by this!
I'm on week 15 cold turkey it's been hell although I only have one symptom left its excruciating I have the numb burning brain that's 24/7 not sure what I can do about this but reinstate I don't know what eps would take this away. Thank you so much for your videos they help so much you show me that I can get through this too.
I'm sorry you're going through this. one symptom is promising. I hope you continue to heal completely as quickly as possible
Thank you so much
Congratulations to you.
Thank you.
I need info help for my son who has been on Valiums for several yrs. I asked VA Dr I want him taper off, she replied that since his Anxiety (OCD, Schizophrenia) has just started to improve she wanted him to wait another 6-12 months..This is Ridiculous! Especially since his Valiums have increased from 30 pills monthly 10mg to 45 pills monthly 2 yrs. ago, and recently increased to 90 Valiums monthly in Aug 2020. Can’t get help from her Supervisor, she is only Psychiatrist in Stockton clinic and does not know how to taper or familiar with handling OCD. He is52, I need help.
Joseph.
I really have no one to talk to about this, I really hate this and there are days that I want to give up. Again, my daughter is the one that keeps me going and I’m scared for my life because I don’t know how this Withdraw will be!
God bless you .
i am 18 months bento free and I still have muscle pain, mainly in my lower back more locally expressed in the sacroiliac, after 14 months of Benzo free, i started feeling pain in my neck, does it is normal?
No one knows the pain unless you're in withdrawals
I can relate to your food and exercising...it isn't the same and you can't
eat everything you ate before without paying the price hours later. And it is hard to get others to fully grasp that part. I believe with me, that some damages to my brain neurotransmitters have taken place and needs more time to balance again, but i don't deal with
the immune system problem since I take certain supplements that keeps my cells healthy...along with lymphasizing exercises. But, it is an on going process as if I keep myself more in a bubble now.
I've always found that 1/2 fresh lemon juice (alkalinity, Vit-C)with 1tbs Brag's Organic Apple Cider Vinegar (much needed potassium and live enzymes) with 1/4 tsp ginger (stomach issues and nauseousness) and turmeric pwd (inflammation, high BP) in 12oz water helps within
15mins or less when an "episode" comes on...and w/1/2 magnesium citrate
pwd the better, for nerves, mood & muscle relaxation. I've shared it with others and they are amazed how fast it works.
If you haven't already, you may try Eric Berg's channel. His vids cover a lot of health issues with natural remedies...most of his 1000s of vids are only 3mins or shorter. I believe he also, will take any ones health concerns via e-mail and provide an analysis response for free. He covers remedies for inflammation, stress, sugar dangers, gmo foods, moods, energy, muscle pains, etc. I find him very knowledgeable and different from most other health professionals. And I always seem to learn something new. Thanks for your experiences and time you've given, it does help. semper fi
AchillesIQ I totally agree I do an electrolyte mixture every day with mag citrate, potassium and Celtic sea salt. I will also do some lime juice in the mornings when I can. it's kind of hard to avoid illness when you have kids who are around other kids haha.
agreed same: no longer in benzo hell but have to live at a different pace. Working out, what I eat. Wonder if this will ever resolve. I'd like to have normal energy someday, haven't since I was 10.
Love your videos. They give me hope.
My stress and anxiety levels would be very high when I woke up in the morning but after taking 500 mg of L-Tyrosine at bedtime -I seem to have noticed less anxiety for the past 3 days.
Mybrothers keepers that's great I hope it continues to help :)
Jocelyn: Your videos have been very inspirational to me. This 'disease' can be very isolating and I have not been successful in getting much support. Perhaps thats because I actually tell them its Benzos. Maybe, I should make something up! LOL But I am in the 5th month of my taper from Klonopin and am now below .5 mg. I hope you and your daughters are enjoying life. TommyB
I have something for you to think about, we have very bad digestive problem. . our immune system comes from our digestive system. . therefore it takes longer to heal any other thing like a cold. . back pain could be inflammation of the digestive system pressing on the spin. . ..
try probiotic digestive enzymes. it helped me, but everyone is different. .
I'm bezo free for 4 year's. . i still feel sick from time to time .. but in bezo hell.. I still can't have a cup of coffee, or alcohol. . or I'll feel sick.. still after 4 years..
but not in bezo hell
paul valenz yes probiotics can be helpful. actually the best thing for my gut was a temporary diet my doctor had me do for a few weeks. it's called the gut reset diet. you don't eat anything that ferments in your gut and this helps to balance out the bacteria and yeast in your digestive tract. it really helped and I'm going to need to do it again now that I'm. off the antibiotics
Hi, Great video! How are you doing these days?? You are a bout 43, 44 months??
Hi, I ended my taper about 5 months ago and as you know this is a very challenging time. I was wondering did you ever find that the weather plays a part into head pressure, brain fog and difficult thoughts? It seems to me I have more windows on clear sunny days and the cloudy weather is just awful. Weird I know.
Absolutely! I could be in an underground bunker with no access to the outside world and my body would tell me when a rain storm was coming. It was painful and difficult to think straight. But that got better with time. I can enjoy a rainstorm now but I still definitely do better with lots of sunshine.
Did you get more intense symptoms during the period ?
I would like to take a treatment but not now for the hormones balance .
Did you take any treatment and if so how long did you wait until Benzo withdrawal finish ? I’m scared to take any kind of hormones in this moment
How many procent you cpnsidered yourself better for ex after one year? I was kindling and after 3 months im still suffering for terrible symptoms I’m expected to see the light after 5 months more . For one damn pill . God bless you and your family !
I was also prescribed a benzo in 2014 and took it only as prescribed. I've been trying to taper off of it with the help of a Doc and a therapist. I'm suffering badly! I also live in UT and am the mother of five. I have joined BB and it helps but I would love to connect with someone in my community who can support me who's been through this awful ordeal. Is there anyway you would be willing to get in touch with me via DM or another way? Thanks :)
Hi I think we connected already :)
My Story is extremely similar to yours. As far as being poly drugged, two CT from Benzos. I am only off of one medication right now out of three. Which is better than being on all three. But benzos are by far the worst.
Hi!Are u healed now?
Do you have an update?
I’m 26, 7 months off. Just derealization left. Still really shitty though.
Yeah that's the one that lingers. A keto diet really helped to clear that up for me
What about having a baby on benzos? Obviously I don’t plan to but I am currently tapering and worried I’m 33 and I don’t have a ton of time… btw onlyyyy tapering to someday have a baby lol so yep.
I've seen it successfully done. For the baby's sake though I wouldn't recommend it. My son experienced withdrawals
So did you have any of the problems you have now before ???
Looking for advice...I was on klonopin (0.5 mg/day) for 3 weeks in January 2017 and various lower doses for all of December 2016. I have been tapering for 6 weeks and I'm down to 1/8 pill (0.0625 mg/day). I plan to be off completely at the end of this week.
Other than some insomnia, I've had no symptoms, though I'm starting to feel it now. I just don't know if I should stretch out the taper beyond that. At this point, the taper has almost doubled the time that I've been on the klonopin. At some point, would increasing the total time I've had klonopin in my system be worse than slowing the taper?
It's really your decision. I understand not wanting to be on it for too long. but then I know people who were only on it for a few weeks and had to do a year taper. You seem to be pretty lucky so far. Ashton recommends tapering to at least the equivalent 0.025 of klonipin or 0.5-.0.25 of valium. You may be pretty close to that now. sorry I couldn't respond sooner. I wish you a full recovery :)
I hate my life now! I don't want to kill myself but I don't want to live anymore. I live in isolation and nobody in real life wants to be my friend. I have AA and recovery friends but it's not the same. I'm tired of doing everything alone. I live life in zoom land going to AA meeting after AA meeting all day. I was pushing myself in the gym and I ended up having stress induced cardiomyopathy. I have read acceptance is the answer a thousand times and it's still hard to accept that life is ruined. I don't know if I can make it through years of this hell
I'm so sorry, I know it's not the life you would choose right now, but it does get better.
Please get in contact with me. I want to start tapering & I’m not open about my use of benzos to anyone in my life. I would really appreciate a chat or a call. I have few questions that I would like to hear your answer :). Thank you so much!
Hi you can email me at benzobrains.com
Are you healed 100%?
Hi Benzo lady, here’s some Good, positive news for your subscribers, there is a gene in the Brain that causes Anxiety Symptoms, has been identified, modification of the gene is shown to “Reduce Anxiety levels.” April 25, 2023
What kind of cold meds can you take? And how long was you on benzos total time?
Every one is different . When I was in withdrawal Sudafed revved up my symptoms . I was on benzos a total of about 5 years
How long were you on benzodiazepines at what amount? Thank you for the videos.
stephen delong I was on 2mg ativan for 3 years . I then did a valium taper for a year and a half
Benzo Brains wow, I have been on 2 mg for about 15 years. This is going to be rough.
Don't think that way, my story is complex, it's not just about the time you've been on. Some people are on longer than you and get off and are just fine. Everyone is different/
Benzo Brains thank you.
How you feeling now?
Much better thanks
They messed up my stomach so bad…
It seems like some other things are going on. Have you been checked for Lyme's or Epstein Barr ? Thyroid or vitamin issues ?
I was very sick until I started taking thyroid meds.
Respectfully asking of course.
Gia Aziza yes I've been tested for,everything, more than once actually hah. I'm glad you found some relief through thyroid therapy.
For the most part. I still get the burning skin sensation from time to time. I think it is a permanent result of
valium use. It is really uncomfortable. No 100 percent relief for it either. Except the things that caused it. Again, clonidine
I take, at least keeps me
from having bp and high heart rate episodes with it,
and akathisia.
I've been hiv positive for 17 years. They say my bloodwork is great but I feel like I'm always sick. I'm also coming off Rivatril cold turkey...who knows! (Rivatril are the 2 mg clonazepam tabs)
Can I ask what were your symptoms when you first got your diagnoses?
Good gawd what are you going to be like in 20 years. Your body by all your issues, is 70 already!
So diazepines are like Godzilla! Not magilla gorilla! My doctor gave them to me thanks doc! Punk ass!
youre so beautiful
thank you