4 years off // Protracted benzo withdrawal, Klonopin, Ativan
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If you feel suicidal dont visit a psych ward for sure
So true...in 2016 I stop taking effexor and feel very bad. A couple day later a go to the hospital and they keep me at psych. They give me prozac, olanzapine and clonazepam. I got a really bad reaction and I never been the same since that day. I'm now 1 year and half clean from all this shit but its was pure hell to quit. Even now i'm not feel fine. All these years wasted cause of these drugs.
They seem to know less!!
They do not see you as a person in those places and they think everything can be treated by pills. They just want you in and out quickly.
@@Loufoque19 i am 11 months off venlafaxine (effexor) and its pure hell...i feel your pain. Cheers from France
@@bugosestfire j’te comprends ;) cheers du Québec
Thank you for this intelligent and thorough message and for the generous use of your energy to help others.
I did find you a few months back. I too am on a healing journey. I let go of pharmaceuticals 3 1/2 years ago now. Iam in recovery from a hopeless state of mind and body. I want to thank you for taking the time to share your story. We need to keep spreading the message of hope.
Angela how r u now my friend
@@sangeetalambh6389 💞
Angela dare how are you doing this far out?🙏💝
I wish you all the best Angela.. don't be too hard on yourself, you are an inspiration to all of us a soldier of the light and you've lit the path up for us, and for that you deserve more than a medal ❤️👏🏼.
El Buffalo 20 thank you so much. 💜
Amazing story. Wow. Thank you for serving our country. Congratulations on 4 years off benzos. You are a true warrior. I'm so sorry you have suffered so much. You are in my prayers. I'm 2 years off klonopin. lexapro and trazadone. I was kindled and on and off psych meds for almost 20 years. This has been brutal but I'm doing much better. I'm 54 and healing has been slow but steady. I still struggle with fatigue, psoriasis, sleep issues and peripheral neuropathy all due to benzo withdrawal. God bless you.
You are a very very strong person. Thank you for sharing your story and helping others.
Please Angie don’t stop this TH-cam channel I need to watch them please
Your words and descriptions are so familiar! Thanks for for your voice it has helped me and thank you for what you are doing to bring awareness and support.
Damn you are so strong!! Your story is amazing. I have only been on and off benzos for short periods of time and I still went through total hell. I can not even imagine what you have been through. ❤️❤️❤️
Beautifully done video Angela on all benzo wd & healing is. Congratulations .. you will keep improving. I appreciate all you are doing to help all who took benzos.
Angie you are so strong, I’m amazed. I think you are one of the strongest persons I’ve ever seen. I hope you find more relief soon.
I'm strong AND so tired!
Thank you for your service! I have followed the medicating normal platforms.
Congrats on 4 years off. Today is my 4th year off from a cold turkey and while i’m still suffering greatly and largely debilitated I really appreciate your videos. They help me feel less alone and they give me hope. You are awesome being an advocate 👍🏻. Thanks! Ty also for your service to the country 🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸
Smiths NYI thank you so much for the nice comment. ❤️
I love how you own your recovery and progress, it was especially uplifting to listen to you describe how *YOU* choose to describe things, choosing your own language in doing so is such an empowering tool. Some might say that "damage", as opposed to "withdrawal", is merely semantics. ......... there are so many reasons why that simply isn't true and you named a few yourself.
I'm not a woman, not a soldier & have never been under fire .....I am however in awe of you & your journey.
As one who has both walked the multi-pharma consumer path & also works in medical/healthcare, the difficulties determining what is physiological & what is drug side-effect is ubiquitous, patient or practitioner. Multimorbidity is difficult enough to try and tease apart in an attempt to discover each individual's unique set of component conditions; throw the phenomena of polypharmacy in the mix and the task passes from possible to VERY VERY unlikely. Throw in a smidge of professional bias (every health care professional on the planet has some, they wouldn't be human without it), add some misunderstanding by family, friends, health professionals, some confirmation bias and it has now become 100% impossible to differentiate side effect from physiological irregularity & diagnosable condition.
Basically, without the resolve and determination that you've demonstrated, many people are simply doomed to more of the same. The good thing, though that seems a bad choice of words, is that none of us need be a genius, or super motivated to start the journey ..... in my experience, they all start from the same point ........... overwhelming desperation & pain ..... way beyond what can possibly be conveyed in these here words.
As for people trying to compare and saying "I suffered more than you" or "You can't be that bad if you're able to drive" blah blah blah ENOUGH ALREADY ........ Jesus H .... like the journey ain't tough enough and the odds are stacked against us enough already, we got a turn on ourselves now ... REALLY!?!?!?!?! Each other is all we got here ... take a breath and show some love. I only know my own experience, there is no possible way I can know yours or anyone else's, not unless I have walked EVERY SINGLE step they have. My experience might be similar to some, but NEVER the same.
Rock on my sister ....... you are a freaking inspiration and MUCH LOVE to you!!!
I pray your recovery is soon.
Thanks so much for this video, I'll have to watch it three times. You understand. much love xo
Yes I can barely watch a 5 minute YT video, I'm so sorry this one is so long!!!
You're amazing, I'm grateful for your story it gives me so much hope
And this was 4 years ago! Look how far you’ve come! 🎉🎉🎉
Thank you for you honesty. ♥ Everyone has a longer road ahead than any of us realize. Thank you for helping me, as I listen to you on Jan. 2, 2023.
Ty and congratulations on the milestone. Wow. Truely. Peace from Aus.
You are so strong i cant believe it i hope you keep getting better
Hi Healingfrom benzos. Thank you so much for inspiring us all, and for holding the torch of hope for a community that goes through a lot of suffering. I was poly drugged with Lexapro, Ambien (tapered off now) and still tapering off Ativan. I have followed your videos and and follow the DR D podcasts. I also experience many of the same symptoms you describe in this video, and not sure which is worse, the loud tinnitus, this internal akathesia and feeling you at the edge of a cliff all the time, but the visual issue with 24/7 DP/DR, where the brain cannot process too much visual input at once throws me completely. Even though I have been through military & war, and a passed outdoor/nature enthusiast, I struggle to go outdoors now (like just outside my home), as feel too disorientated and get over anxious. Its firstly too bright when its a sunny day or too dark when cloudy, and like there too much information (area) for the brain to process the ""big picture"". I cannot drive far neither now, as traffic and physical motion all happens to fast for my brain to analyse which makes me anxious.. My vision also went very blurry, and it feels like a huge pressure behind my eyes all the time.I just wanted to know what coping mechanisms you use to get through the visual issues and DP/DR?
Hey I wanted to chime in and say I have the exact same vision issues! I am only 8 months off klonopin. I have had a lot of slow healing done over time. My vision issues, just as you described, have been my main symptom along with the dizziness. Thank you for sharing your ‘list’ it helps to know that we’re not alone in this.
Lacey Bretthauer research Lions Mane Mushroom to repair the damage
Did your vision issue clear up? I still have light DPDR
@@KT-ie6vf how r u now my friend
Please keep this channel going xx
God bless you and thank you for endeavoring to preserve freedom by serving in the military.
Thank you for hard rock truth and all your service for us. Amazing story! You will be in my thoughts and prayers. I too have a symptom I’ve never heard anyone talk about before. Two years off Kolonipin. Thank you again for your bravery ❤️
I’ve watched you from the beginning and I was so scared to come off Xanax. I quit taking it June 2016 and didn’t have any problems. Listening to you and some others I feel so damn lucky!
benzo awareness I crossed directly over to Valium and quit the Xanax. Tapered Valium over 6 months. Started at 20 mg a day and dropped 2 mg every two weeks
benzo awareness I am really lucky. The only withdrawal was insomnia and anxiety but it went away fairly quick. I still get anxiety attacks sometimes but I just lay down with headphones until I feel better.
Hi really you can say you had no problems, fair play. I get so scared some of the stories i read
Ugh! My doctor took me off of Klonopin cold turkey. Day 2 without it and I am going to freak out!!
Amanda Oneill I did fine tapering. Everyone is different. Be positive because you can be a lucky on. Only 30-40% experience the bad stuff.
Thank you for sharing your story. I have followed from beginning. I, too, have the visual issues and vertigo. You have put into words what I have been dealing with. I am roughly 44 months off cold turkey. My life has been a nightmare for past 10 years and trying to come to terms with it, and not fully remembering it is so painful. I appreciate you so very much.
Sending you hugs Stephanie, I know this is so hard!
Healingfrom Benzos , do you have issues also with lights? Since the beginning, when lights or any brightness hits my vision I keep seeing that light imprint in my visual field. I reminds me of when someone takes a picture with flash and you see the flash. I have this all the time with regular lights, it is like it has imprinted on my retina. Makes it very difficult to see at night.
@@stephanieott9056 yes I sure do but mine usually goes away in a few seconds. Also, I get a white circle that just appears randomly then goes away several times a day. Seems to be top right of my vision. It looks like when you see a camera flash and then look away and still see it except I don't have to look at any lights at all, it just appears and then goes away.
Thank you so very much for making this video . Please do another one in a year or 2
God bless you for what you have been through and thank you for your service in the military. Anyone who would ever say or cut down someone elses experience is just a down right awful. I have been clean since 2016. Still have symptoms. You say damage and I totally agree.
You are so strong. I am just starting to taper and you give me hope!! Thanks so much
Thank u for making me feel less Alone
Congrats on 4 years!!
I'll be off 3 years on Jan 26th!!
nybeachgirl 1976 congratulations!!! The worst is behind us!
great job keep going stay strong
Do you still have anexity or insomnia?
WOW. thank you for all you have done. I know my words will always fall short. I AM currenetly 11 months off a 26 years Klonopin habit. The 11 months followed a 5 month taper. Right now I am currently going thru hell. I also got off of a 10 yr. fentenly and oxycodone habit. (12 month taper - a walk in the park compared to this). @ 65 yrs of age I have been in a wheelchair for 45 yrs. Old age is creepin' in also. Please be strong. I cannot drive now at all. It's not safe. We are all different & have different stories but we are all in this together. Please hang in there. SINCERELY.
Been off Klonopin for a few years now. It was the only thing I took for 2 yrs. Just had a bad panic attack while getting my haircut. It's rough.. a good support system really helps the process of healing.
I watched this 4 times.. Seriously a very helpful video.. Thank you.
Eric Evans I’m glad I could help even a little. Hang in there!
9months in and everyday it's rage with burning skin and satan Steven King intrusive thoughts like you said in one of your other videos.. Thanks for your comment.. Bless you👊
Eric Evans keep going Eric! It’s all temporary. All those thoughts are gone for me. Long gone. THANK GOD! If I am healing so will you!
I appreciate that.. Thanks a million👍
I’m back to akathisia as well. I can say that these videos help me realize that I’m probably not dying . Thank you
Stubbornly how r u now myy frd
I'm sorry to hear that but glad to hear ur off I'm on 1 mg klonapin and now been taking 3 months I broke both legs from a fall from 20 but now I'm tryin to get off this shit I'm trying to taper and get help I have beautiful 2 yr old son has to watch go through detox I'm tryin to taper off I'm done with all this sickness and thank you for ur service
You are my new hero. I’m an addict, and have detoxed from just about everything you can think of. I was trying to come off Suboxone (a second time) last fall. The doctor prescribed me Klonopin for the brutal anxiety. It was the only thing that really helped. I took it on and off throughout my taper. I came off Suboxone successfully back in 2012, and as brutal as it was, in no way did it feel as nearly dark as how I’m feeling now. My last dose of Klonipin was about 2 weeks ago. My brain didn’t even establish reality for a whole week. Throughout ANYTHING I’ve ever been addicted to, this darkness is on a whole new level. Unlike you, this is largely my own fault though. I just thought somehow I would be different, and I wouldn’t get withdrawal. So now, I’m still stuck on Suboxone, because I cannot afford for anything to get darker in my head. I used to think that the depression and anxiety from Suboxone withdrawal was the worst thing someone could feel, but I was so wrong. This is the absolute worst thing I’ve ever felt in my 38 years of being alive. I made up my mind to NEVER touch another drug again. When I do finally come off Suboxone, I’m not going to use Benzos. I have no idea how long this will take, but I don’t know how people get the strength to push through it. It’s debilitating. I thought I would be OK just taking them for a week or two than stop, so I didn’t get a dependency. Nope. Every time I stop and start, it gets worse. I wasn’t even aware that it was the Klonipin that was doing it at first. I thought it was my Suboxone taper, but nope. I’m NEVER doing this to myself again. Ever.
jax jaxie google “Ashton manual” and read how to taper off SLOWLY!
Sad when we have to defend our symptoms to others in withdrawal.
Good video.
This gives me hope!!! I'm at 4 years off now, and I can relate to what you are saying about your symptoms. I'll keep going!!!Thank you!!!!!
Keep going! Also, I offer coaching one-on-one so if you need a session, book here: www.angiepeacock.com
@@AngiePeacockMSW Thank you. I just had one with B., but I will keep it in mind as my story seems quite similar to yours. The nerve pain as well as the agoraphobia is similar. Your videos are gold!
It's been 6 years and counting and I just found out what what is happening to me. I actually started to believe the doctors when they kept telling me it was all in my head. I got so angry at the word psychosomatic, but after so many years, I began to give in. Then I saw what happened to Dr. Jordan Peterson recently and realized that this is what's happening to me. Hearing your story gives me hope...I'm still tapering with 5 to go. Just finished the first one after 6 years. Thank you so much for sharing your experiences. I needed to hear that. And I subscribed.
John W. Ryon IV I’m so sorry John! I’m glad you figured it out!!!
@@AngiePeacockMSW I only figured it out because of wonderful people like yourself who share their story. And of course, led here by our Heavenly Father!
@@johnw.ryoniv8953 how r u now
53 months out . I still have some of this as well . I see double lines at night still but my eye test are normal . Heart rate stuff is much better but still can flare up . I only feel about %70 . My brain still burns sometimes but much better . Stay safe out there .
Thankyou for ur videos. I jumped off .25 Ativan and had very few side effects. Now trying to wean off .25 serequel and then the trazadone. One at a time.
Outstanding, thank you 🌹
Thank you for sharing. I am so bad right now in major AD withdrawal PAWS and Xanax tolerance and no one believes. I am in hardcore withdrawals shaking and today I am starting xanax daily water titration. But thank you for sharing. I have inner anxiety. So so bad. God bless you.
Mary B it takes a long time but we do get better! Taper at your own speed, seek support from the support groups and take it one second at a time. It’s taken me many, many years to get to where I am now.
All of us who have been thru it believe you.
Research Lions Mane Mushroom to repair the damage
Thank you for coming back with an update . I can’t believe you are pushing through all this still. Wow you are a strong woman!!! Most people including myself would crumble with that kind of anxiety and driving. God Bless you for getting yourself through this. ❤️🙏🏻 As I was listening toward the end and you talk about people talking to you or walking into the grocery store and feeling a flight or fright response ...I honestly think you are still having panic attacks. I will definitely check out that website.
it's like an overstimulation response, not really a panic attack.
Of course, angela is extremely courageous and clever: she was a soldiar in Iraq. I m not sure, each woman is able to have her strenght!!
Healingfrom Benzos ok thank you 😊!!
frantz kafka I agree
Wow....you're a Trooper....These Dr's need to be held accountable....
Thank you. And Congratulations! You are one of my heroes (I have just a couple)!
Sorry to hear about your troubles. I’m taking care of my brother who is still suicidal after 18 months off Klonipin and 11 months off Seroquel. He is still suffering from a toro agoraphobia,acathesia and sleeping problems. He also felt as if if was going to have a heart attack and muscle weakness. Anxiety and panic attacks have gotten better. I’ve tried to find a lawyer who would take this case and sue the doctors and pharmaceutical companies for damage. But I haven’t been able to find one. My brother is 62 and has been on various drugs for 11 years starting with hydrocodone for severe headaches that he suffered from when he had an accident at his auto shop and injected fuel. He lost his wealth and family due to a divorce that he was unable to defend. I’ve saved his life so far having cooked food and doing hot external ginger compresses on his kidneys. You must be feeling better being off the poisonous drugs. In your case, I think the government is responsible for taking care of your financial and living necessities. They owe it to you.
Emmanuel Vacakis he needs more healing time it sounds like. I was very suicidal until 22 months off and still had that symptom a little after here and there. Also, I wrote this about the justice system . There is no justice for us: www.madinamerica.com/2019/08/battles-of-a-benzo-injury-jeans-story/
Good video. I'm five years off the only thing that got better is ringing in my head.
How long have u used them Peter?
@@hyperanthropos6716 I was on benzo for 35 years. ct I hope this year things start to change
peter noble omg im so cry off benzo 11months(tranxene and clonazepam) still have ringing in my head all the time,who helping me.
@@ramraungthong822 how r u now my. frd
Thank you for your honesty. I’m on xanax and very scared to come off. . But it’s people like you who keep it real for me. Screw the hatersXO
Annette Dellapi if you decide to come off, just don’t cold turkey! Healing is inevitable it just takes a long time
Healingfrom Benzos You’re very kind for taking the time to acknowledge me❣️It truly helps to know that I’m not alone...
The Ministry of Truth KMK thank
you, greatly, for your advice.❤️❤️
Annette Dellapi you are not alone! There are a lot of us here just in the comments to support you!
Healingfrom Benzos Wow❣️The support. Thank you❣️.
you are one yr behind me and yet you helped me thank you stay strong I will pray for you
kevin forrester thanks Kevin! How are you feeling? Is there more healing up ahead for me?
@@AngiePeacockMSW we both hope sorry I'm in such pain talk later
@@kevinforrester3379 my frd how r u now
Thank you.
Sending love to you xx
Your vision stuff will clear x
Bless your heart!! Going through a similar thing, right now ..... 😢
Thank you for the video. I went from being a med student to really struggling.
Eric Horwitz sorry Eric. You will get your brain back.
Girl your amazing a true benzo warrior. I don't know you I'm just a scared 37 year old on 20mg of Valium for over five years living in Ireland. But I've watched your videos and saw the hell you were in but blew my mind when u still went to school etc an inspiration truly. I can see how much you've come on and just well done xx
She was a soldiar in Iraq!
Hi Amanda, i am same age as you , from Dublin and have successfully withdrawn 20 mg. 17 months off after 15 years on. You hang in there, keep strong. There is light at the end of the tunnel. Look up blood type diet, its the only true way of eating.Eat all organic foods. Eliminate all sugar. Fast, if and when you can. Drink water only for fluid. Keep electronic and WIFI away from you when sleeping or resting. Be careful of all supplements.
@@Paul-ek5lu Paul hi
So good to hear from someone from my planet! Thanks so much for the info and congratulations on coming off the poison! Paul was it very hard going, did you taper, what's the best plan??
From Dublin also
My brother was also on psychotic drugs for 13 years. Can you explain in more detail about your class action case against Seroquel and how much you got.
Angie,, I feel like I know you thank you so much❤ thank you for helping me😢🙏🏼❤️
So many say that!
I am on 1 mg alprazolam.. Easily available but scary to remove them from my table what you suggest.
Thank you for your honesty, your personal experiences and helping so many of us. It's been only 4 months off benzos for me. It is hell. Noone in my world understands. I no longer talk about it. This is my new normal. No life. All the horrid symptoms you've described I'm living. But, at least now I have an answer. Thank you.
I've been off for 13 months now and I'm just wondering how you are doing now? If you have time to reply that would be very nice! Thanks!
@@putgodfirst1192 Hi! It's been almost 17 months now. Sleeping better. Feeling better. However, continuing problems vertigo, balance issues. According to ENT specialists and neurologists, everything checks out fine. Thank goodness! Still taking this journey one day at a time. Blessings to you my friend!🙏💜🙏
@@maureenriddell9513 Did you have any paranoia? Thank you so much for replying and your a success to benzo people! Many blessings and prayers to you!!
@@putgodfirst1192 Hi! No. No paranoia. Anger, frustration and depression. Not able to do what I use to. Focusing on healthy foods and vitamins. Taking one day at a time. Exercise, getting outdoors, prayer and meditation do help. Be well! You're going to be ok!🙏💜🙏WE are going to be ok!
@@maureenriddell9513 thank you very much!! Have an very goodnight!
Wow, yeah. Previous traumas prepared me as well. I'm familiar with longterm suffering.
Do you know why when the dose gets really , and I am coming off benzos now. Why is it that the small dose I take seems to sometimes causes me anxiety ..
As I was also doing my research I believe I saw it takes 5 years to recover. But it also has alot to do with what you eat and how you manage on daily basis.
Thanks Angie.
I'm so sorry for what has happened to you. I pray for continue healing for you.
In 4 years I was switched many many times on different meds, AD.'s, benzos, z drugs, like 19 different times. Sometimes trying the same med 2-3 times. I was cold turkey from all the meds, I was also kindled so many times. I did not know any of this until I started researching wondering why I was feeling worse and experiencing all these different symptoms. I had to research on my own because nobody believed me and my Dr would tell me it's me not the meds. Even though I didn't have any of these issues before meds.
I wanted to ask you if you still have symptoms for a long time, (like 3 years) does that mean you are permanently damaged and those symptoms won't go away? I have symptoms that come and go and then I have symptoms that are here everyday like head issues, eye pressure, vision issues, inner vibrating/shaking, body pain, jaw tightness, muscle tension/tightness and some others.
Looking for hope but also honesty.
Thank you!
PrayforHealing ! I still have symptoms at 4 years off but the trajectory has been towards healing so I expect to keep healing.
Healingfrom Benzos Another question.. Did things like having an intense conversation, arguing, getting excited, loud noises, make you feel worse? I guess overstimulation.??
Also, do/did your eyes get worse if it's cloudy out or when the sun setting. It seems like my eye pressure and vision gets worst during these times.
Thank you for your service! Also, thank you for this channel. I am on day 2 benzodiazepine free. My doctor took me off of Klonopin cold turkey after. I am going to freak out!!
Andrea Turnquist not everyone has a hard time coming off. Can you ask him to do a sensible taper?
@@AngiePeacockMSW I did. I took 3mg of Klonopin 3x a day. He just stopped and told me the benzo withdrawal is in my head. It is very real.
@@andreaturnquist4855 9mg total a day? What was his reason for not tapering you?
please report him to the medical board in your state.
I find your story inspirational. You have come out of a nightmare history and are sane and reasonable, albeit still challenged, understandable given your background. You were damaged while serving. Short synopsis of me = 35 years on, using Klonopin and Ambien, 3.5 months off, regrettably cold turkey, huge mistake! I’m still uncomfortable but up from miserable. As a citizen and taxpayer I feel we all should take care of our military veterans, whatever it takes. FWIW, I see you as a high need achiever personality, prone to to burdening yourself by taking on many responsibilities… . You might want to back off where you can; life doesn’ have to be hard to be okay.🤷🏼♂️
you speak the truth! I'm trying!
All in how r u now my friend
@@sangeetalambh6389 Thanks for asking, wounded warrior😊. I’m at 11 months and have nuclear-like anxiety and insomnia, along with IBD, feeling awful! I’m hoping all this perseverance will pay off with some equanimity. I’m on the verge of reinstating benzos (for life) to function better but will give effort another month or so. How are you; gradually getting more relief?
@@Fwmatl I quit alc and nicoteen take benzos only 15 days and quit still feel dp dr 417 days sober now
You look healthy been following you since the beginning. I have the same visual things going on.
you encourage me to divulge my story.
❤ I believe it is damaged!
You really have been through it!
KING L.A. do you feel comfortable telling me more about your vision stuff? You can find me on FB if that’s better. “Angela Peacock”
@@AngiePeacockMSW when you mentioned the wheels on the car go the opposite way.
Pretty much the same symptoms that you speak of.
I have been cut and if I could go back in time never have ever taken any of these meds especially Benzos aside from psychoactive medications.
Thank you for reaching out to me it's very hard for me to describe sometimes.
I got your page on Facebook thank you so much.
Edit: I didn't get Angela I will look you up.
@@AngiePeacockMSW you are a wealth of information and a lot of people will be greatful for your strength and your story!
I am a survivor too .. am overwhelmed myself today but have seen great benefits with the lions mane mushroom.. I know I repeated all over your page so thank you just trying to help y’all ... also if you need to talk or want more recommendations cool I just don’t want to overwhelm God bless I get you though....
Michael oh wow cool yes you can email me and I can give you my number if that’s easier. Whatever your more comfortable with universallove8@icloud.com
If you don't mind me asking, how do you find the will to keep going? I'm at 20 months and I'm starting to feel like none of this was worth it. I mean yes I feel better but it doesn't feel worth everything I've been through and continue yo go through
Robert Hazouri the way I do this is one day. One second, one hour at a time. I do not let myself worry about next week or tomorrow or next month. One day at a time is how I do it.
I just found ur channel Thank u for Sharing..I've been on benzos & other psych meds..for many many yrs..now I'm withdrawaling badly from benzos that were prescribed to me in the early 90's this is pure Hell...I hope to b were ur at fingers crossed 🤞
Btw does anyone goin thru this have a hard time doing anything even working? As I currently can't do anything without severe dizziness ect
Hello and welcome and I'm sorry! Yes most I coach are not able to work because symptoms can be so bad.
Did u have brain zaps while trying to sleep through withdraws jus 6 months dicided to go cold turkey . Have brain zaps while trying to sleep it’s sick .
Yep. I thought about 45 drugs, but I counted one day its around 60 medications.
Incredible that we survived. 🙏
AS mine was more than 60 too but psych drugs only was like 45.
I’m damaged more than this from only one drug after 1 year use. 3 years out. Zero healing. Some have luck some don’t
@@grv91vr23 what have you tried?
I can sooooo relate with the restless almost "super human energy" as you put it. Luckily I found ultra marathons and iron Man to blow off all that steam but I agree it's unnatural and very uncomfortable, especially in a social setting!
I admire your tenacity and would really appreciate your opinion on something: I go really hard physically and mentally, I can work out and study for hrs...but socially I don't really push myself at all. Mainly for 2 reasons. 1. I don't have a car and in the middle of nowhere and 2.because every time I do I panic and I go back to thinking "well if time is going to heal me anyway then why the fuck would I make the time harder by forcing myself to be all panicky?"...which I'm conflicted because I've always been taught to embrace fear and pain in order to grow..but I don't feel like I'm growing from social situations, I feel like I'm just torturing myself and then get bitter about it. What are your thoughts?
I've been off from clonazepam 4 months ago. Tapering with my doctor, that lasted 4 months. It's safer to do it with patience... I'm on daily rehab meeting which have helped a lot and weekly seeing my psychiatrist. I'm ok during the day. I've got photophobia at night but I'll cope with that. Being alone is not the answer...reach some group meetings. It's not hopeless. It's worst being on it.
Angie I also wanted to say in 65 years old and don’t you think I am being tapered off the klonopin too fast three weeks it’s impossible I have lost everything I ever loved because of me being on medication I lost both my children and my husband and I am so depressed I’m more depressed than when I started going to the psychiatrist and I need to talk to someone please
Wow ! That's a lot of different meds 😥and the VA did that to you?
Hey im glad you are better..we have to fight this epic battle and we gona win it.. did you have tinnitus and how long it lasted?
Kiko Kiklis I’ve had tinnitus for over 16 years from the very first few years of taking meds. I was also in the army and around lots of weapons without ear plugs so it’s better not to compare to my timeline.
Can you walk straight or is every thing swaying???
Thank you
Hey angie I am also on my 4th year after a 6 years of abuse of anti depressants and i still feel like a crap horrible blood sugar issues hypoglycemia vertigo and a very severe depression since one year i feel like i have no reasob to live for i just feel so un motivated. When i wake up in the morning i feel so lost and disconeected then I start ahving anxiety and panic attacks can you suggest any thing that would help me with this depression and panic and anxiety.
Thank you
First, check your diet and try to eliminate all sugar or caffeine. Next listen to “the anxious truth” podcast starting on episode one and see if any of his principles help.
I am still on clonazepam! I weaned myself off of 2 milligrams over 4 months and started going through paranoid schizophrenia then psychosis and then was taken to a mental hospital. Why I was in the hospital, I was placed back on clonazepam. Symptoms I can’t handle anything that causes the least amount of stress. I can not be on the phone for more than a minute. My brain was damaged, yet I look normal on the outside. I’m not able to work. The fatigue is tremendous! I have severe fatigue. I also have to lay down most of the time to get relief. Going anywhere for entertainment I just say I don't want to go, but the truth be known as I shut the door I break down crying. I feel burning all over my skin and my brain and am in fight or flight all the time.
Hi! I suffer from irritable bowel syndrome due to abstinence to clonazepam or maybe it is because in withdrawal I got a throat infection and I took antibiotic and ibuprofen of 1000 mg each! I do not know, but after two months of that I started with strong stomach problems, they have done some studies and they are going well and I do not know if it is from that or because of the benzo abstention that also has those symptoms, I have been like this for almost 8 months and no I find a solution! They are very strong pain and inflammation, I have taken some medication perp without solution! do you know anything about that? thanks for the support!
@interstellar I'm definitely much better! but I still have some horrible days that make me think that I will never be cured and that everything will come back! (waves and windows) that's how this horrible process is, one step forward and two or three steps back, but year after year I look back and see that I'm better! I'm still in the fight and something good must come out of all this!
@interstellar I know and I'm so sorry you're going through this! I know about that hell and when I was at the strongest I always thought that I would not live but you must resist, I read in benzos groups of people who were cured and I clung to that, I talked to many people and they all told me that only time and good eating habits, eat as healthy as possible and drink quality water and leave sugar!
I think your brain is still trying to stabilize. Have you tried any mushroom medicinals? Lion’s mane is wonderful for healing and it contains nerve growth factor. Cordyceps helps the immune system. Reishi mushroom defeats inflammation. Ginger tea and holy basil tea is healing as well. Sending you good cheer.
I call it’s protracted shock syndrome I’m going through it right now I been on medication from childhood to adulthood I’m 42 it’s been hell on earth
It's fucking mind boggling how you are this far out but also how functional you've kept yourself and no doubt it's down to your military background much love, stop listening to other stories you know this!!! X
Any advice for a someone who off them 8 months now when does it quit ? .05 klonapin 4 urs never abised never got hooked no answers at all except a addiciton specialist ? Why when im not addicted ?
_BLeW_ A_FuSe_ me either never addicted. It just takes time. Click on my channel and go back and watch other videos. There’s even one that shares coping and tools to help! It’s just a matter of time. Everyone heals.
Hope you heal all the way soon at least your able to function a lil hope all your symptoms improve very soon but do you think can you completely heal or or some peoples symptoms or damage is permanent?
Rashad Aljouwani I know that I have been slowly healing so far so why would the healing just stop? I am a complicated case with extreme amount of medications in my history so I don’t know for sure but I believe in my healing yes
Im sure you’ll heal completely too you did come along way some people say they healed at 5 years my case is different too after I tapered and jumped off Xanax and gabapentin I started drinking about 2 months after I got off to help me sleep I’d only drink at bedtime every 2 to 3 days kinda heavily for about 8 months cause at the time I needed to get sleep to function than I stoped drinking and the symptoms were way worse I feel like I did some permanent damage some symptoms have improved a lilt but some symptoms haven’t improved at all it’s been a year and a half since I stoped drinking i feel like some of these symptoms permanent that’s what it feels like that’s why I asked you but I’m glad you’re doing wayy better I’ve been fallowing you since 2016 that’s when I started my taper
And what I meant to say in my first comment is am glad your able to function a whole lot...
@@rashadaljouwani235 You will heal too, just stay away from alcohol and those other things. Let your body heal as naturally as possible.
Thank you hoping so..am definitely staying away from alcohol or anything that messes with my gaba receptors thank you again an god bless you !
Am barley getting to all your video's. I understand 100 am gonna continue to do my research. And I will get back to you. Dont worry you are not alone.
When I started watching your other channel I was convinced you were healed. I cant believe you are still going through this although I hear it is not uncommon. The mental symptoms are the worst I feel. Can you please do an update on what mental symptoms you are dealing with and do you feel like yourself now? Did you find the joy that we are all missing still, that desire that makes you want to get up everyday. Is the apathy gone? Would love to know. You are amazing!!!!!!! and inspiring
Monica Bennett I act as normal as I can but no I don’t feel good, never. My feelings are still pretty gone. I know how to act happy or excited but inside I feel nothing. I don’t even remember what it’s like to feel good. I’ll make another video soon.
@@AngiePeacockMSW we are so similar. People think because I kept working that I'm not as bad off. They have no idea how I have to push through everyday, secretly freaking out and not showing it. Having panic attacks out in the parking lot or in the employee bathroom. I can't stay home either, can't sit still, can't ever relax, never calm, never feel right, total apathy. Totally don't feel like myself and can't even remember what "normal" feels like. Even when I'm in a so called window im always waiting for the other shoe to drop and withdrawl is ALWAYS on the back of my mind. The real messed up part of this was I was only on .75 Xanax for 5 months given to me by my idiot gastro for stomach issues. Pulled me off cold turkey. I had never taken meds before that. 28 months in protracted, still can't believe it. I too was one of the unlucky ones. Just like you I get my hope from others that are farther along that have healed or still healing. I just had to reach out cuz I our withdrawl is so similar, minus the vision issues I had it all. Look forward to your next video, thank you for all you do!
@@AngiePeacockMSW hope you are doing good. Another horrible Holiday for those of us still struggling. Can i please ask you what mental symptoms if any you still have. When you said in your last video it took you longer for your psychological symptoms to go away and you were worried cuz it happened soon we for others is how I feel now. They are the worst in this. Also do you still get adrenaline/cortisol surges? Thank you for replying. Hope you and Joe are having a good holiday in the road
Monica Bennett mental left now is still dr dp but it’s not nearly as bad as other times. I have a lot of weird existential type thoughts but the suicidal and other scary thoughts that are too taboo to write on TH-cam mostly left around month 28. I might still get them randomly but they are REALLY REALLY MILD and really I shouldn’t even mention it because they are super rare and super mild. Hmmm what else mental: I have cog fog all the time and mostly it feels like someone hit me over the head. I feel stupid and slow and like I can’t think straight. Also, it’s hard to organize my thoughts or read or concentrate or plan things. Anything that takes multiple steps, I have to ask people to help me because I just can’t do it.
Hi hon, hope you are well
From your experience did you have an over dose ? Dose overdose effect body or brain ?
Dose it mean it take longer to recover? Or it makes no difference
I was over dosed wi Ativan 1 mg and had to stop immediately
Dose that effect recovery? Did you taper or just stoped?
Overdose can give you more of an issue, sure but normal dose can be severe too. The important thing is to taper safely if possible and give your body and brain time to heal. People do heal from overdoses, too!
@@AngiePeacockMSW dose it effect more gabe when overdose? Thank you for your replay 😭😭
@@eimankibaida-ye8mj I don't think anyone has an answer to that. I do know that it is extremely difficult to overdose and die from benzos. I would assume once your receptors are all full the rest of the drug would just be in your system but not attached to receptors. Focus on healing, not on the fear.
What do you suggest to eat if you're living in poverty? Any advice would be great!
Carrie Johnson farmers markets, chicken thighs, sardines, tuna, oatmeal, as many vegetables as possible. Eggs are cheap and super good for you. When you buy bulk food it’s cheaper, even food pantries can be a good source for in season fruits and veggies. Just eat less of the bad stuff too! Less sugar, less bread, less soda, less unhealthy fats. Here’s a good list to try to shop from: www.eatingwell.com/article/291245/complete-keto-diet-food-list-what-you-can-and-cannot-eat-if-youre-on-a-ketogenic-diet/
@@AngiePeacockMSW thank you sweetie!
Yes their are mean people in the groups. That’s why I have a select few people I talk too who are off. Not a comparison but the list of meds is large like myself. And the white matter thing as well, I think both of us having that. Might count for some other issues.
I've been on benzos since 2011. I've been off of them for 3 months. It's been an extremely hard road to navigate. I have agoraphobia and my anxiety is 100. I can handle that I think but will my memory improve at some point?
Yes it will. This can do a real number on the brain. It will recover!
Hi , what benzos,do you mind sharing? I have Ativan and cannot handle it 😢
How are you feeling are you 100% ? Im 18 months off but still have anxiety im worried this will be permanent i never had anxiety before benzo use
chris yako this is a new video so I’m the same as here
It is possible you were prescribed cipro and mefloquine. Those antibiotics can do the same mental side effects (as I have personally found out)
It's not what started it. Doxycycline started it.
Congratulations