I'm Bad At Coding ... (My Software Engineering Journey)

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  • I failed a lot during my journey to big tech. My journey starting in Learning Support, and was daunting the whole way through.
    📚Chapters📚
    0:00 - Intro
    0:47 - First Course (Recursion)
    1:26 - Internship/Co-op program
    1:46 - Always Look for Opportunity
    2:30 - OOP
    2:55 - Learn How You Learn
    3:36 - Figure Out University
    3:54 - Sometimes You Fail The Interview
    4:23 - How to be a Software Engineer
    4:53 - Slow Down
    5:35 - Your Life Isn't Over
    6:09 - Do the Research Yourself
    7:10 - Take a Chance On Yourself
    7:33 - Its All Relative
    8:06 - DON'T BE AN ELEPHANT
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  • @JasonGoodison
    @JasonGoodison  2 ปีที่แล้ว +171

    Grab the free resume templates I made: www.hiredfortech.com
    Watch this next: th-cam.com/video/EJiVWoFk8GA/w-d-xo.html

    • @josephuwimana1271
      @josephuwimana1271 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Hi Joson, I am more interested into building job landing resumes, which I think will be my best ways to help many of my unemployed friends. Is there any special software, special coding, ... you applied to create your templates?

    • @JasonGoodison
      @JasonGoodison  2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@josephuwimana1271 I made those resumes through Figma but would recommend Latex

    • @jadonwaston5692
      @jadonwaston5692 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      I feel like I’m the worst at everything I do but your video really, help put what I was feeling in perspective. I’ll make sure to keep going do my best and not give up

    • @subhasismandal4180
      @subhasismandal4180 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      How to hack DSA

    • @TheCodeTinkerer
      @TheCodeTinkerer ปีที่แล้ว +1

      What was your method to routinely study/work on the absctract conepts?
      How did you apply these newly learned concepts? Was it projectbased?
      I find that it can be very hard to apply the new concepts into something substantial after I have studied these. And when this happens I tend to wander in my focus a lot.
      Subbed btw

  • @akulabourne
    @akulabourne ปีที่แล้ว +944

    "If you aren't the smartest person in the room, you're doing something right. And if you are the smartest person in the room, find another room." These words of advice are legendary, mate.

    • @techmentormaria
      @techmentormaria ปีที่แล้ว +13

      100%. Never stop growing!

    • @nomadswe
      @nomadswe ปีที่แล้ว +10

      Well, when you become senior developer you will be the most experienced person in the room. Use that position and time to innovate/ learn new languages and solutions and educate your colleagues. Thats what im doing at least. :)

    • @knwr
      @knwr ปีที่แล้ว +4

      What if you're the only person in the room?

    • @nomadswe
      @nomadswe ปีที่แล้ว

      @@knwr Honestly dont know, never happened for me.

    • @Zigbii0
      @Zigbii0 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@knwr you decide on which room you stay at. Go find a better room, and that is an order.

  • @CodyBanks10
    @CodyBanks10 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2977

    That Indian guy on TH-cam is the real life saver.

    • @JasonGoodison
      @JasonGoodison  ปีที่แล้ว +506

      I did an interview with Gaurav Sen back when I made this channel. Hes a really smart guy and guys like him are the only reason I passed uni

    • @zainabtheva8636
      @zainabtheva8636 ปีที่แล้ว +42

      Please any link to the Indian guy's TH-cam channel?

    • @gudzrkl123
      @gudzrkl123 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@zainabtheva8636 th-cam.com/users/GauravSensei

    • @fahimahmed5242
      @fahimahmed5242 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@zainabtheva8636 th-cam.com/users/GauravSensei

    • @gkcs
      @gkcs ปีที่แล้ว +493

      That guy looks a lot like me.

  • @annaozor986
    @annaozor986 ปีที่แล้ว +367

    Dear Jason, thank you for putting this out. I feel highly encouraged. It's funny how I am nearly giving up because of how I usually feel so dumb after failing these coding challenges. I am taking this as a sign. I will try again till I succeed at my dreams. Thank you! You inspire me.

    • @technical157
      @technical157 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      rule #1 .. never give up! and you will always win ;)

    • @mattbox87
      @mattbox87 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      Don't give up, Anna!
      They can be hard, but once you've come out on the other side you'll get what they wanted to show you.
      Reflect on that and you'll get what they want out of you, and you'll get what you need to take in during the lectures.
      Then you'll be ready for the next one ;)

    • @TommyLoveTV
      @TommyLoveTV ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Thanks for sharing your story Jason! Very inspiring and you got yourself a sub.

    • @michaeloquendo9087
      @michaeloquendo9087 5 หลายเดือนก่อน

      I'm starting to learn coding this sucks

    • @user-pe3by3bc4e
      @user-pe3by3bc4e 3 หลายเดือนก่อน

      I work with a team that has an average of 30 years experience to my 10, so this is like work every day. Thank you for sharing your journey.

  • @mimbec
    @mimbec ปีที่แล้ว +191

    The biggest lesson here is that you do not have to be the smartest person in the room to be good at your job. I was terrible at school, didn't go to university and did odd jobs until i was 26. I landed my first IT job at 26 and worked really hard to understand all the different concepts and did a lot of work on certifications. I kept doing this over my career...always trying to learn new things. I was definitely not the leading expert on all technical topics but i did have a very broad knowledge of lots of different technical areas at a decent depth. Now, 10 years later, i work for one of the biggest and most successful security companies in the world.
    Everything Jason talks about in this video is spot on.

    • @EzeAsuoha
      @EzeAsuoha ปีที่แล้ว +2

      U mind saying the company?

    • @dakotarockwell3247
      @dakotarockwell3247 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      This motivated and helped me calm down so much you have no idea. I'm graduating from NEIT with an associates in Cyber Sec and Network Engineering. Praying that I'm gonna make it in the world.

    • @93hothead
      @93hothead 8 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Fake and gay

  • @jacobmaximususaraga3622
    @jacobmaximususaraga3622 ปีที่แล้ว +3100

    "If you aren't the smartest person in the room, you are doing something right. If you are the smartest person in the room, find a different room."
    Now, this hits me so much. Thanks, Jason!

    • @JasonGoodison
      @JasonGoodison  ปีที่แล้ว +113

      Appreciate that! Its an elegant statement but the process to learning it wasnt elegant at all. Took way too long haha

    • @illusionhex1200
      @illusionhex1200 ปีที่แล้ว +15

      @@JasonGoodison That's a great advice to be honest, my college students are like below average and because of online exams they don't study anything, I feel like I'm doing great but it's too late when we realize that the people we are competing with were no competition at all. Now I just try to learn more and more and more , just enough that I get time to do all other extra activities, everything feels great and I enjoy my life more. This was a great experience for me as well from your pov. Great Job bro keep it up.

    • @TerribleTonyShow
      @TerribleTonyShow ปีที่แล้ว +1

      that is such a good quote, I smiled because of that and keeping that in my quote jar

    • @weirdo6495
      @weirdo6495 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      dang richest person must be homeless then

    • @jacobmaximususaraga3622
      @jacobmaximususaraga3622 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@weirdo6495 richest?

  • @hil449
    @hil449 ปีที่แล้ว +1534

    Dude, you're right in so many levels. I always thought going to these giant companies was impossible. When I started studying for programming competitions back in 2018 some people told me it would help me land an interview and maybe a job in companies such as facebook and google but I didnt really believe them, it was something so distant so I stopped studying. Context: I live in a poor part of Brazil and the school I study in isn't the most prestigious school even in the city. Last year a guy from the same school I study landed an internship at Facebook and soon after that an internship at Uber. I was speechless. I realized it was possible. I thought "if someone from my school did it then maybe I could do it too, why not try?" and I got in touch with him, we happen to be good friends nowadays. This fact gave me the movitation and goals I needed. I got back to studying for ICPC in August 2021, didnt really go to the nationals but its alright, kept studying, then stopped for 2 months. I had finally started planning my future. I planned leaving the company I worked at to spend 1~2 years only studying (the company ended up flopping but its another story lol). Then in February this year this friend was at Meta and said he could referral me and some friends as an intern. I saw this opportunity and got back to studying real hard. Ended up getting rejected in the final round but didnt care, I kept studying because I could clearly see my growth and that alone is so satisfying. Today I got an offer for an internship at Google here in Brazil. I couldn't believe it. Srsly, im stvpid AF. I take hours and even days to grasp subjects other people understand in one go. Im slow at solving problems (that hurts me a lot as a competitive programmer).. this is crazy but the best advice I could give is: if you want it go for it. Whatever it is. Stop worrying, stop overthinking, stop daydreaming, stop wondering, FREAKING DO IT RIGHT NOW. Start studying and apply yourself right now. Go ahead and dont look back. Ignore your feelings and thoughts of self-doubt, they will scream that you are not capable, simply keep going, its worth it. And the best thing is after some time you get some inertia and it becomes easy to keep grinding because now you're used to it. But the hardest part ALWAYS is starting. We dont know if we have another life. STOP DREAMING AND START PLANNING AND EXECUTING YOUR PLAN. Really guys, I cant stress this enough. I've procrastined studying my whole life, I only started getting some sense of accomplishment and growth once I took the guts to actually do it. Do it too, I promise it, if its something you enjoy you're not gonna regret it.
    Just to get back to the point of the video: if you want to get a job at these companies do your research, take some time to focus (at least some 4 hours a day) and just do it. Its not that difficult, a lot of people dont even try but if you work your 4$$ off its only a matter of time

    • @martelo589
      @martelo589 ปีที่แล้ว +15

      Thank you irmão

    • @paulorockz6899
      @paulorockz6899 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      @Hil Congratz mate, how old are you?

    • @hil449
      @hil449 ปีที่แล้ว +23

      @@paulorockz6899 25, but i don't think it matters

    • @sombraelerizo
      @sombraelerizo ปีที่แล้ว +36

      As a 25 year old dumb Venezuelan, this gives me hope and inspiration.

    • @amanbansal9509
      @amanbansal9509 ปีที่แล้ว +9

      i dont have words bro just wanna say keep it up

  • @Mat-eq8mk
    @Mat-eq8mk ปีที่แล้ว +56

    This reminds me of my own route. I started working at a tech company in a non-dev role and only started writing my own code because I wanted to get things done without waiting for the dev team. I still work at the same company, but I'm a senior software engineer. Initiative and a can-do attitude are two of the most important skills anyone can possess. Subbed!

    • @thetechzon
      @thetechzon 8 หลายเดือนก่อน

      hi, can you please mentor me, I wanna do Software Engineering, currently learning Python Backend

    • @thetechzon
      @thetechzon 8 หลายเดือนก่อน

      hi, can you please mentor me, I wanna do Software Engineering, currently learning Python Backend

  • @brianmagana4478
    @brianmagana4478 ปีที่แล้ว +115

    I really needed this video. I have been having a real rough time after dropping out of college (comp sci major); suffered from agoraphobia from pandemic lockdown, anxiety, low self-esteem, undiagnosed ADHD. I recently started becoming more serious and less insecure about prospects in searching for my first job in software development (mostly because I don't want to be a loser almost-30 year old with 100k in debt and nothing to show for it). Hearing you say all of this really changed my outlook. So thank you for that.
    p.s. I literally JUST solved that weird zigzag problem OMG it was a ton of fun lol

    • @brianmagana4478
      @brianmagana4478 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@rumble1925 thanks for reaching out! Yo, i gotta say, I've since been eating a lot of hearty proteins in the mornings and working out in the evenings and things have improved tremendously for me. Can't and won't ditch the junk food, though. I just adjust my exercise whenever i indulge and i feel that things pan out nicely. But yeah, I don't generally like to promote healthy foods and dieting and what-not as magic cure-alls, but damn, no, that stuff does make a world of a difference. I think the exercise, by far, helps the most with my ADHD. It really gives me that powerful burst in dopamine that really puts me in an awesome mood and let's me do solid work!

    • @mindxcircus
      @mindxcircus ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Hey Brian? I just want to say it's comforting to read your comment and to be able to relate on a lot of grounds, which brought me to simply search "I am bad in coding" because at this point with just 2 portfolio websites, I feel like I am not qualified to any jobs that are advertised for front end web developer! And I am so frightened of interviews coz I feel like I might not know what to say or be able to do their tests. So worried of all that and yet so worried of also disappointing myself and be in my early 30s and still no permanent job related to my field (IT Diploma) I also graduated right when the world went into lockdown! March 2020! I have a diagnosed anxiety for years (and on meds, but I can cope much better) but the anxiety of trying to get my life together + worried if I will ever be good enough in coding to get hired are just always at a tug-o-war 😂 But recently I try to just keep doing projects, and teaching a new motto to myself "Just f it. Send the resume. Whichever comes back, just treat them all the same: whether you get the job or not, stay calm and keep going". Because my anxiety can take me from just seeing the job requirements advert to already seeing how I will not be able to perform, the company is disappointed in me, then I will get fired, carrying my keyboard, coffee mug and a potted plant... yea to that extent. So I do sincerely wish for both of us to enter the year with courage and determination to get through all of that, and get a good job for a start! Good luck, Brian! Good luck to me too I need it hahaha I'm so scared 🤣

    • @ThunderAppeal
      @ThunderAppeal ปีที่แล้ว

      You will always be a loser doesnt matter how much debt you have or dont have.

    • @brianmagana4478
      @brianmagana4478 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@ThunderAppeal ayyy, someone's got it rough

    • @nicholasbellizzi6915
      @nicholasbellizzi6915 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Agoraphobia and undiagnosed ADHD? Come on.

  • @mitchellbradbury
    @mitchellbradbury 2 ปีที่แล้ว +319

    Awesome video! Just finished my first year at UW and its crazy how so many people can relate to all the things you said. I will keep this video in mind as I go through university :)

    • @JasonGoodison
      @JasonGoodison  2 ปีที่แล้ว +10

      So happy you can relate! Stick in there haha it gets better

    • @lrfpv5292
      @lrfpv5292 ปีที่แล้ว

      How is Seattle?

    • @huiyinghong3073
      @huiyinghong3073 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Well u have to be FULLY VACCINATED And BOOSTERED to get hired. Your Vaccination status are more important than your skills.

    • @lrfpv5292
      @lrfpv5292 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@huiyinghong3073 Bro that's why i left the state

    • @mitchellbradbury
      @mitchellbradbury ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@janos1945 University of Waterloo

  • @dev_insights101
    @dev_insights101 ปีที่แล้ว +99

    2:55 that is actually the best way to learn. It helps you to understand if you really understood the topic. It also helps to build up confidence.

    • @JasonGoodison
      @JasonGoodison  ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Agreed! Underrated method for sure

    • @shaf8200
      @shaf8200 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      The Feynman Technique

  • @dovi9188
    @dovi9188 ปีที่แล้ว +28

    This is the most accurate and authentic representation, of what an average software engineer's journey is really like, that I've ever seen on youtube. And I've seen a lot. I especially liked the quote: "If you're not the smartest person in the room, you're doing something right. If you are the smartest in the room, find a different room."

  • @ashiunderthemask8831
    @ashiunderthemask8831 ปีที่แล้ว +19

    I feel the same. It seems like I'm the dumbest person in the room. I'm trying. Your video is inspiring. Making me feel the worth of who I am and with consistent learning, I will be better. Thanks Jason.

  • @irenechoi8126
    @irenechoi8126 2 ปีที่แล้ว +190

    This is the best TH-cam video I have ever watched in my life :) this literally explains what I am experiencing right now ! ur lessons in the video are really great and are things I will remind myself of in these tough times. tysm😊

    • @JasonGoodison
      @JasonGoodison  2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Thanks, Irene! So glad you liked this one. It gets better, promise!

    • @AK-ft7fd
      @AK-ft7fd ปีที่แล้ว

      @@JasonGoodison 🥺❤

  • @neva7900
    @neva7900 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    You know what, thank you. Your video probably changed my life for the better. Sincere thanks from a student that is going through the struggles you went through.

  • @GuppyPal
    @GuppyPal ปีที่แล้ว +9

    Awesome video, man. Super inspirational! I'm in graduate school for statistics right now planning on going into data science, and there are times when it feels incredibly overwhelming and difficult. But. I look back on things I thought were super difficult 6-12 months ago, and they're easy (or easy-ish) now. Just gotta work hard and be consistent, and things WILL pay off in time. Congrats!

  • @miornouxman7735
    @miornouxman7735 ปีที่แล้ว +36

    This actually motivated me because I am also thought i the dumbest among. my coursemates. I eventually got recommended by someone for an internship at Intel. Currently, I am self-teaching my self more about coding and do some mini projects. It actually kind of helpful and watching this video actually boosted my morale even more. Thanks for the video.

  • @blank4331
    @blank4331 ปีที่แล้ว +11

    Man this gave me extra motivation to push myself and keep working harder. I had this thinking that I was below average and not really good at programming. Always struggling while coding. But now I feel like I can do it as well. Thank you so much...

  • @charliehorse8686
    @charliehorse8686 ปีที่แล้ว +93

    I'm 55 years old, and I wrote my first video game when I was 13. I'm no genius... Games were pretty simple in 1982. I was just one of the few kids who owned a TRS-80, so my skills seemed like magic to other kids.
    I got an education, but not in computer science. (For various reasons.) But I still had coding skill. I wrote some freeware which gained a substantial user base, and it demonstrated my skills, so I applied at small businesses with that coding sample in-hand, and coding became my career from about age 25 to age 42.
    I loved it. For me it was creative, and I'd even call it ART! (At small businesses you often have design freedom.) The software I made was loved by users, always intuitive and easy to use, and it would rarely break. My software impressed users, but not necessarily fellow coders. I still believe I made better product than they did.
    But at some point, I needed to stop. Staring at a screen all day isn't good for the human psyche... at least mine. And I didn't want to get laid off at age... well, my current age. Because I knew if that happened, I may not get a job again.
    So, lacking other skills, I bought an existing business, followed its model, and I've made it thrive, making better money than ever. I still code, as a hobby and to create tools for my business, and my work is still beautiful art.

    • @jason18401
      @jason18401 ปีที่แล้ว

      Interesting whats the business?

    • @charliehorse8686
      @charliehorse8686 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      @@jason18401 Unrelated. It's a driving school for new drivers. I'm developing scheduling software for that industry. Will use it myself first, then maybe sell it.

  • @repie
    @repie 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +6

    Thank you for being vulnerable with your stories. It's really inspiring to tell kids that I tutor that they can achieve great heights when I know there's people like you who have done it despite their disadvantages.

  • @ying3481
    @ying3481 ปีที่แล้ว +45

    As a grad student just changing major from EE to CS, your experience of imposter syndrome and the feeling of everyone better than you is so relatable. Thank you so much for sharing your story and I learnt a lot! You really cheer me up and hope I can get my dream job like you!

    • @kingcort8073
      @kingcort8073 2 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Same here as a pharmacist switching to CS enrolled in college at age 28

  • @stevenstraker5105
    @stevenstraker5105 ปีที่แล้ว +20

    This took many years to learn (especially to not be an elephant), and it feels really good and validating to hear from someone who's gone on the journey to learn this too. Kudos

  • @cassidykjwei1264
    @cassidykjwei1264 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Awwww thanks for posting this video I'm all in tears. That's what I'm feeling right now as an old student just starting to learn about Networking and Programming. Thank you for making me feel there's always hope. 🥰

  • @leboleope5142
    @leboleope5142 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    The elephant analogy really blew my mind and helped shift my perspective about the things I am going through right now. Thank you for sharing your story. Very inspirational!

  • @vanessaekanem1416
    @vanessaekanem1416 2 ปีที่แล้ว +136

    I love your content! It's totally relatable. I learnt C & C++ in school. And although I didn't know what I was writing on my exam paper, I got a B. Honestly, C and C++ are difficult for me and when I see my classmates coding, I feel stupid and insecure about myself feeling like coding isn't for me.
    So thank you for this video. I feel better about myself after watching it.

    • @JasonGoodison
      @JasonGoodison  2 ปีที่แล้ว +13

      Glad to hear that! Stick with it! If I can do it, I have no doubt you can too :)

    • @jankolbe2879
      @jankolbe2879 2 ปีที่แล้ว +13

      Just a heads up from a programmer of 15+ years: C and C++ are pretty damn hard and it only gets easier after. They’re great languages, especially for teaching the fundamentals but they’re also fairly difficult compared to most other high level languages.
      So struggling in those languages is ok really and don’t necessarily means you can’t become a great programmer :)

    • @simpletongeek
      @simpletongeek ปีที่แล้ว +7

      A full 80% of graduating seniors Bachelor degree in Computer science *cannot* differentiate between pointer and value! That's just stupid. The school/teacher was doing them a disservice letting those people graduate!
      Worse, 90% of students don't even know what they're doing, but doesn't study further.
      I remember getting a B after 20 hours of classroom instruction. I took initiative of further study _on my own_ for another 20 hours before I was satisfied. That self-study initiative makes all the difference.
      C isn't difficult, just misunderstood.

    • @v01d_r34l1ty
      @v01d_r34l1ty ปีที่แล้ว +4

      @simpletongeek More an issue with how universities teach their students computer science. The reason they mostly teach Java instead of something like C is because they're teaching students to run before they walk, which is ultimately what the industry wants, but not what it needs.

    • @melonielangat
      @melonielangat ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Alright alright, I laughed at this coz this is me from the first sentence to the last sentence

  • @kittisochaczki128
    @kittisochaczki128 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    Dear Jason! Thank you for putting this out! This is the first video I have seen from you, but you defo gained a subscriber! I will start CS next year after many years without school, and my impostor syndrome is already high enough WITHOUT even being in school! All I can think about is that I will be the dumbest(maybe oldest) person in the room. But I really want to change career and life! Thank you for being so honest and share your struggles! kudos x

  • @ChloeJee
    @ChloeJee ปีที่แล้ว +5

    I'm now a senior and your honesty really gives me lots of strength to keep trying in figuring out why am I so poor at coding instead of walking away from it!!!

  • @ryanb1738
    @ryanb1738 ปีที่แล้ว +18

    45 years old and just beginning to program. Feels like my brain isn't made for it, but your video is encouragement to keep going.

    • @SeCluDred
      @SeCluDred ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Remember: Rome was not built in a day :)

    • @OiskiPoiskiDK
      @OiskiPoiskiDK ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Your brain just needs to adjust to the principals. You'll get there.
      The most difficult part is to think like a computer. Purely logical. We often think in abstracts, however, the computer does not. It's precise.
      A year from now you'll come back to this comment and tell me that you've landed your first job as a programmer. You're a junior but I'll kick it! I believe.

    • @ryanb1738
      @ryanb1738 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@OiskiPoiskiDK Thank you for the encouragement!

  • @cholaybrown
    @cholaybrown ปีที่แล้ว +17

    Wow, thank you! 🖤 I actually went to UW and studied Anthro/Arts… while I was there I spent a lot of time in the comfy lounge and was obsessed with the tech being built. I wanted to minor in CS but I «knew» that wasn’t for me, I felt like it was out of my league and stuck to my skeletons and paint.
    I took a leap and switched careers back in 2018. I now work for a charity teaching coding and slowly building apps but I still crave full time development. This video is a reminder of the work I need to do to get there. Don’t Sulk, I needed that! 🤓

    • @JasonGoodison
      @JasonGoodison  ปีที่แล้ว

      That ius so cool! I used to spend time there too. Wonder if we were ever there at the same time - small world!

  • @bxav2813
    @bxav2813 ปีที่แล้ว +25

    Thanks for the motivation! I needed this, I’m having existential crisis after hours of frustration as to why I can’t visualize the recursive methods of a tree data structure 😭 I’m so pressured to study DSA ASAP since either I pass it or not get a SWE job in the future…

  • @davidtucker3538
    @davidtucker3538 ปีที่แล้ว +18

    Over twenty years in the industry and I think I still suck at coding. Although FAANG hire smart coders, the rest of the Tech companies also value innovators. I realized that I was good in prototyping, copy pasting fragments of other people's code and getting the initial code to work quickly. That's what I stuck with doing and survived. The smart people come in and make your code perfect. My advise would be find what you like about the tech industry and own it. Also the learning never stops. I still spend 2-3 hours a day learning technology.

  • @maxwellamoakoagyapong9486
    @maxwellamoakoagyapong9486 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    You’re a great guy. You always try to make a significant impact in every company you go to.

  • @SurajKumar-vu7ef
    @SurajKumar-vu7ef 2 ปีที่แล้ว +19

    This video is so real and relatable to many of us. This was an amazing motivator for me, great lessons taught through your journey!

    • @JasonGoodison
      @JasonGoodison  2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      So glad you enjoyed it! Really glad to hear that :)

    • @21Screen
      @21Screen ปีที่แล้ว +1

      You're probably one of those indian guys from youtube. thank you 🙏 Namaste

  • @jennytai6226
    @jennytai6226 2 ปีที่แล้ว +8

    Thanks so much! Currently struggling with midterms but I feel way better now

    • @JasonGoodison
      @JasonGoodison  2 ปีที่แล้ว

      Glad to hear that 😄good luck with your midterms

  • @dysax8894
    @dysax8894 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Hey man, I found your video incredibly motivating. It's well edited and has good information while still being light hearted and entertaining. Keep up the good work man!

  • @AzuraiFrostwing
    @AzuraiFrostwing ปีที่แล้ว +21

    You've singlehandedly inspired me to resume learning coding after dropping out of college for Web Dev and Programming.
    It's nice to hear about not only your successes, but your failures, hurdles, and lessons learned as well. You don't pretend you're perfect, or pretend everything worked perfectly in your favor.
    Thank you!

    • @thetechzon
      @thetechzon 8 หลายเดือนก่อน

      hey how is the journey ?

    • @marumomoloto4455
      @marumomoloto4455 3 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Yoo how's it going

  • @boldytiger
    @boldytiger 2 ปีที่แล้ว +10

    This video has so many meanings. Well done 👍
    I'm a drop out and got into coding same as u, because i needed to do something. I tried it, i liked it. Still learning frontend mainly hoping for an internship to train and enhance my technological skills. Thanks for this great story.

    • @JasonGoodison
      @JasonGoodison  2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Love to hear that! You’ll get there!

  • @muhammadaliawan7352
    @muhammadaliawan7352 ปีที่แล้ว +16

    As a CS major I needed to hear all of this 🙌🙌🙌🙌🙌🙌

    • @JasonGoodison
      @JasonGoodison  ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Love that this resonated with you :)

    • @ThatGuy33121
      @ThatGuy33121 ปีที่แล้ว

      I’m on 3rd year of CS. What year are you in

  • @VitorFlaibam
    @VitorFlaibam ปีที่แล้ว +2

    I was searching for that content because I'm in a tech company job I got because the disability law and I got in without any experience and I'm struggling real hard to learn and I often feel too dumb or incompetent to be in the job. Your video motivated me a lot. I'm doing small things like going through a json file and validating the fields in python but now I see that that's a little step towards something bigger. I'll get there. I'll not give up. Thanks for your video, man! ♥️

  • @charlesadrianatienza1496
    @charlesadrianatienza1496 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Thank you for making this video; I'm a incoming first-year BS ComSci student who has been under a lot of pressure to learn coding but has occasionally had trouble doing so. I'm grateful for the inspiration and pressure release this video has provided.

  • @jeffreyrivera4117
    @jeffreyrivera4117 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    God damn this video hit me like a truck. I'm in CC right now and I feel like I am so behind in CS compared to some of my friends in other Universities. I feel like I barely know anything but I got into a summer Undergraduate Research Program at a Cal State. I really underestimated my work and I feel like I was truly a below average CS student. After watching this video however, I really do feel like I'm going to be ok. The "Your life isn't over" lesson really resonated with me as well. I went to a free coding BootCamp and they offered an Internship for beginner software engineering work and I did not even get offered an interview, but now I have this Research Program. You always do get another shot :)

  • @helensu5303
    @helensu5303 ปีที่แล้ว +12

    Thank you for this! I just started learning coding a few days ago for a new career change. I’m about to give up since it’s so hard but I think I’ll stick with it for a little bit more!

    • @elprofetaliz6692
      @elprofetaliz6692 ปีที่แล้ว

      Dont give up, you got this!

    • @Gaukh
      @Gaukh ปีที่แล้ว

      Don’t give up. Took me almost a year to get to a point where I feel like I could make a regular website with stuff that isn’t just HTML and CSS.
      Still not knowing how to center something within a div sometimes. Still confused about flex and especially grid…
      I am about to be somewhat sufficient with react. Compared to the last time I used it, 3 months after I started, I don’t feel lost anymore!

  • @peepokekler
    @peepokekler ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Great video! This was so refreshing and motivating. Happy to have content like yours in the community.

  • @elmirasmiscellaneous1129
    @elmirasmiscellaneous1129 ปีที่แล้ว

    I've been needing this video for so long! Thank you for sharing.I've been needing this video for so long! Thank you for sharing. To this day I still remember that feeling of being the dumbest person in the room and being behind everyone. I'm starting to learn to ignore it and just do my thing.

  • @navdeepgill7331
    @navdeepgill7331 2 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    Your channel is amazing! As a UW CS student in my first coop, your content is super relatable.

    • @JasonGoodison
      @JasonGoodison  2 ปีที่แล้ว

      Thanks! Really appreciate that 🙂

  • @himanshunawalkar4963
    @himanshunawalkar4963 ปีที่แล้ว +10

    I really thought I am the only one going through this shit, but it doesn't seem so bad seeing many others like me. Its crazy how youtube algo works, came at the right time in my life

  • @xiongbenjamin
    @xiongbenjamin ปีที่แล้ว

    Thank you for the honest journey. Very humbling and assuring to the rest of the aspiring techies.

  • @cryptician6113
    @cryptician6113 ปีที่แล้ว

    This video is definitely very inspiring! Many devs here on youtube glorify their job and/or skills to the point that oneself feels like a total noob compared to any developer who already has some work experience! Your story and the way you told it in this video totally motivates me because not only does it show how far you can go in a short period of time with enough effort and grit, but also shows great empathy on the big struggle it is to break into tech and to get through the first (really difficult) tech jobs. I feel so understood and this video really is a helping hand to keep on, never stop learning and believing you will eventually get there, and to not feel like a dumbass in a crowd of cracks as much!

  • @natedagreat850
    @natedagreat850 ปีที่แล้ว +43

    Hey Jason, I'm only 3 months into my tech journey and I have already secured a Software Engineer job at a tech company and I'm ecstatic. I came accross this video and love the tempo of the video, the value, and the tasteful use of B-Roll haha. I fully expected MANY more subscribers.
    I just liked, subscribed, and went to your site and submitted my email for those templates for the future when I start chasing down the big tech dream!

    • @JasonGoodison
      @JasonGoodison  ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Beautiful! Thak you for the kind words, and I'll make sure to send that email out soon :)

    • @cesarventura2535
      @cesarventura2535 ปีที่แล้ว

      @Tyler Harris you can do it Tyler

    • @cdu379
      @cdu379 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @Tyler Harris You can definitely do it. Just don’t give up. I went through a Bootcamp and during the first 4 weeks of in person I seriously thought “there’s no way I’m going to be able to do this” then it just eventually clicks after you do it over and over again. You can do it!

    • @bitchslsp6978
      @bitchslsp6978 ปีที่แล้ว

      @Tyler Harris not alone bro

    • @victorius6635
      @victorius6635 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@cdu379 did you know how to code at all before going to the bootcamp?

  • @mannananand1866
    @mannananand1866 2 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    OMG thank you so much! This was an incredible depiction of your journey and complementing the insightful lessons with some clasic Goodison humour was fun to watch! Big fan :)

    • @JasonGoodison
      @JasonGoodison  2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Thank you! So glad you enjoyed it :)

  • @brendanbischoff6898
    @brendanbischoff6898 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I usually hate watching vlog-related coding videos (I spend enough time with damn tutorials lol) but man, am I glad I watched this one. Spot on dude, I'm in a Bootcamp right now feeling like I'm not absorbing anything fast enough but you are absolutely right. Gotta slow down and look at it differently. Congrats on your success with Microsoft!

  • @mjrupprecht6458
    @mjrupprecht6458 ปีที่แล้ว

    Dude. I needed to hear what you said in this video. Good luck on your continuous journey and thank you!

  • @anjaligupta__
    @anjaligupta__ 2 ปีที่แล้ว +22

    Love this video, I actually relate to it a lot! I will definitely keep these lessons in mind ❤

    • @JasonGoodison
      @JasonGoodison  2 ปีที่แล้ว

      So glad you could relate, Anjali! ❤️

  • @OliviaLearns
    @OliviaLearns 2 ปีที่แล้ว +14

    thanks for the inspiring video! I just came out from a failed whiteboarding session, and this made me feel a little better. My takeaway is that I shouldn't take failure personally and that I should take that as an opportunity to see what I need to work on.! So happy I found your videos !

    • @JasonGoodison
      @JasonGoodison  2 ปีที่แล้ว

      So glad this was able to help you! If I had a penny for every time I failed an interview, I wouldn't need to do interviews haha

    • @TechOnScreen
      @TechOnScreen 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@JasonGoodison amazing line.

  • @nyri0
    @nyri0 6 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    "Everything is relative" is so true. And also "surround yourself with smarter people". When I joined a big tech company just after graduation, I had the imposter's syndrome because everyone around me was so much more experienced. But that environment and knowledge base helped me grow so fast and now I am on par with most of my co-workers. Not the smartest in the room, but getting "high performer" ratings and ever learning new things.

  • @haze86
    @haze86 ปีที่แล้ว

    This is an excellent video. New fan here. Well structured, good mix of levity without overdoing it, good pacing, good messaging. Nailed it.

  • @crzune
    @crzune ปีที่แล้ว +9

    I know the the feeling brother, I was bad at coding for the first 2-3 years. Partly because I had other commitments and secondly because well the degree I did was fast food education and didn't give us enough time to properly understand the core fundamentals of programming.

  • @nikosikkurnosik
    @nikosikkurnosik 2 ปีที่แล้ว +12

    OMG this video is so much needed now! I didn't know how to code before the university(don't have so much understanding now too...) and I was even thinking about quitting, because I don't understand anything. But I've passed some programming classes with a help of god and my friends:)) I don't think that I'm even an average, because every programming class is hard af and other students don't seem to struggle as much. But your video gives me hope, that one day everything will be alright

    • @JasonGoodison
      @JasonGoodison  ปีที่แล้ว

      Glad to hear this resonated with you! You'll find one day things mostly just "click". People say that all the time and you worry "but what if it doesnt for me" but trust me, it will. Keep at it!

  • @ajhahn7765
    @ajhahn7765 6 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Wow I needed to hear this today. Thank you so much for making this video. I was about ready to call it quits because I can't even get an interview.

  • @fortuneitiola
    @fortuneitiola ปีที่แล้ว

    This is so inspirational. Now, I'm hopeful. Thanks Jason, I appreciate you telling your story.

  • @joeljacob6731
    @joeljacob6731 ปีที่แล้ว +9

    If things are hard in your life, that means your close to the level up.

  • @sakshidosani3751
    @sakshidosani3751 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    I had saved this video to my "watch later" playlist and kinda forgot about it but when I saw it today I wasn't disappointed at all!
    This is my first time on your channel and it felt worth subscribing :)
    Also, as you started speaking I started relating a lot, but as the video progressed I got to know how much hardwork you've put in.🙌
    I'm currently a 4th year cs student with no internship experience and upcoming interviews and I'm very scared and I feel highly unprepared 🙂

    • @rayaneadam4778
      @rayaneadam4778 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      don't worry you got this! :)

    • @mattbox87
      @mattbox87 ปีที่แล้ว

      You got this!
      Remember the impostor syndrome cuts both ways; you might think you don't deserve it but it ain't necessarily so!

  • @vadsclub124
    @vadsclub124 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    love this video!! Really encouraging. What a story! And you told it (and edited it) very well!!

  • @AH-pb8cm
    @AH-pb8cm ปีที่แล้ว

    Good advice! Always, always believe in yourself.

  • @PoojaDutt
    @PoojaDutt 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Yess this is so relatable! Awesome video! 😀

  • @osamakheireddine9493
    @osamakheireddine9493 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    Unreal video Jason, you’ve given me hope (after being rejected by toast and many others). Just goes to show that determination is what gets you where you want

    • @JasonGoodison
      @JasonGoodison  ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Love to hear that :) thanks for commenting!

  • @TheCandace018
    @TheCandace018 ปีที่แล้ว

    I enjoyed this video! I am currently at my lowest point at university but hearing your story really encouraged me to keep going. Thank you for sharing.

  • @Richa_cute
    @Richa_cute ปีที่แล้ว

    You're so honest about the struggle with coding. Thankyou for the encouragement. 🙂

  • @adityasagar9078
    @adityasagar9078 ปีที่แล้ว +25

    I am literally at my lowest right now , all my classmates are so good at coding and I still suck, this video gave me hell of a motivation

    • @Atomic-Potato
      @Atomic-Potato ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Not to brag or anything but im one of the good ones in my class, not the best ones tho, but even then i still feel like shit, because no matter how good iam theres always gonna be someone better, but again this video confirms that it doesnt really matter

    • @holy8782
      @holy8782 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@Atomic-Potato I know a shit ton of programmers who have amazing jobs. They all tell me that they're shit at it. I have no idea if they're being humble, trying to make me feel better, or actually believe that theyre shit. But it does give me hope.

    • @speedzero7478
      @speedzero7478 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      You only lose if you give up

    • @LfunkeyA
      @LfunkeyA ปีที่แล้ว

      @@holy8782 they're just a bunch of whiners who have never spent a week at a warehouse or production facility.

  • @khalid.6540
    @khalid.6540 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Thank you so much man for your honesty and for everything❤️!! I liked the video, I started to learn python 2 months ago, I feel lost a little bit and your video motivated me, and if you have any advice please I’ll be more than happy

  • @jonintc
    @jonintc ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Great video. Academically speaking, I might be an opposite example but the fear of not being good enough still applies. I was the number 1 CS student in my high school graduating class because I did C++ AP comp sci in 1 quarter (out of a year) and spent the remaining year doing binary tree balancing and helping classmates who struggled. I never applied to Google or any FAANG companies in the past 20 years because I thought I wasn’t good enough and mainly because I don’t want to live in the bay area or seattle. But I’ve been successful where I’m at. Your inspiring story helps me realize not to be afraid to apply to bigger tech companies, so thank you.

  • @Donfeur
    @Donfeur 4 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Thank you so much talking about your experiences man, this helps us a lot!

  • @carlosflores-tz8ri
    @carlosflores-tz8ri ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Personal opinion... One of the best videos I've ever seen
    Thanks a lot for sharing!

  • @vinylguy8092
    @vinylguy8092 ปีที่แล้ว +9

    This is a life-changing video. I feel as though I can't learn JS, but I can sit down and write parts of it out of my head. I must be my own worst enemy sometimes. I would like to see a video from you on being hired as an older junior developer, as in one who is about to turn 60. I am determined to find my first dev job, even if I have to create my own!

  • @Rin-qj7zt
    @Rin-qj7zt ปีที่แล้ว

    You are amazing. Thank you for giving me some clarity

  • @omarz5009
    @omarz5009 ปีที่แล้ว

    needed a boost of motivation. Thank you.

  • @CrazyzzzDudezzz
    @CrazyzzzDudezzz ปีที่แล้ว +4

    It’s nice to come across someone that had almost the exact same experience front to back. Currently trying to grind out LC and man it is tough for someone like me. I literally went back to solve the zig zag problem and couldn’t (I solved it two months ago). I’ve got a long way to go.

    • @JasonGoodison
      @JasonGoodison  ปีที่แล้ว

      Yo fuck that problem though - it still haunts me hahaa

  • @stuckinthematrix
    @stuckinthematrix 2 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    production value, story-telling and humour on point!

    • @JasonGoodison
      @JasonGoodison  2 ปีที่แล้ว

      Thank you! Appreciate the kind words :)

  • @andrestubellejaiii5216
    @andrestubellejaiii5216 ปีที่แล้ว

    THANK YOU! just thank you, for the boost of confidence, and relief even if im not the smartest in the room.

  • @shlokjain12
    @shlokjain12 ปีที่แล้ว

    Your Journey is practical motivation to my ears, Thanks for sharing was feeling down for a while.

  • @rakurame6990
    @rakurame6990 2 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    Thanks for this video, man.
    Congratulations too. I also have a same limiting belief that I'm not good at coding. Being an experienced professional in different domain, sometimes it is hard for me what if I fail in SW Dev jobs

    • @JasonGoodison
      @JasonGoodison  ปีที่แล้ว +2

      You wont! You can do it, I know :) thanks for commenting

    • @rakurame6990
      @rakurame6990 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@JasonGoodison Thanks, man. I hope I will achieve that 💯💯

  • @nosferatunoir2740
    @nosferatunoir2740 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    Impostor syndrome is really awful. I wish I was as confident as you were when you decided to go for internships in university, I was so afraid I was inferior to my classmates that I'd never get in. I basically gained all of my confidence during the pandemic because I focused on nothing but learning to cope with the lockdown. Things get better, but sometimes it takes a lot of faith in the process and reflection to see any results to your effort.

  • @juhen9
    @juhen9 ปีที่แล้ว

    Thanks Jason! Really needed this!!

  • @lucasdecarvalho654
    @lucasdecarvalho654 ปีที่แล้ว

    THIS VIDEO IS EVERYTHING! THANK U FOR THAT

  • @GyroZeppeli_
    @GyroZeppeli_ ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Jason Thank you for this video. It is like, when you get low on your exam and you think you are the only one but then there are someother people who also got low score and you become happy since you are not the only one who fails it. I was going to give up but this video just became a fuel for me. A fuel to believe in myself. And I hope that fuel will burn hot forever. No fuel can go forever nor finish but it can attract other fuels and make them burn. I had a fuel which was almost finished and now you poured some gas into it. A lot of gas, If someone see this, Unless you blow to your own fire it will never finish. All you need to heat up it again is finding a fuel. This video is just a crazy fuel which you should watch every few months. I just found it and I am happy to find it. I hope you won't fail and I won't too.

    • @JasonGoodison
      @JasonGoodison  ปีที่แล้ว

      This was a really nice comment to read. I’m so glad you enjoyed the content :) hope I can make more that you like too!

  • @speedzero7478
    @speedzero7478 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    I spent the last seven years in IT, just starting my journey coding. Your story is inspirational to me, and you made a lot of good points.

    • @dirtysouth3291
      @dirtysouth3291 ปีที่แล้ว

      May I ask what you did in those past 7 years?

    • @preetichauhan7534
      @preetichauhan7534 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@dirtysouth3291 IT is more than just "coding"

  • @letcodeitnow
    @letcodeitnow ปีที่แล้ว

    This is what I needed right now, thanks for this video man

  • @benix7420
    @benix7420 ปีที่แล้ว

    Jason, you doing such a great job!! You said so many wise words to remember! Thanks a lot!

  • @HenrikGamborg
    @HenrikGamborg ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Definitely suffer from Imposter-complex. I have intentionally not sought out possibilities at larger firms yet, thinking I need more experience. I think this video has inspired me to pull that stick out of the ground, and send that CV. Thank you.

  • @ohmedarick1
    @ohmedarick1 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    Great video made me laugh at times. Reminded me how I struggled and still struggle to learn new things. Thank you for sharing your experiences. LOL

    • @JasonGoodison
      @JasonGoodison  ปีที่แล้ว

      Really appreciate it! Thanks for commenting

  • @annareichelt5997
    @annareichelt5997 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    I am freaking out, your words actually helped me a lot.
    I applied at a tech company (I'm in my 3rd Semester as CS student in university) and the job in question is something I've never done before. The Job is a Study&Work Co-Op so they know, their getting a student who isnt fully qualified and has to still learn a lot, however, seeing all the other students, who know so much more than me and who would deserve and fill this position much better than me literally turns my stomache.
    Getting such an oppertunity at a major tech company, simply to learn, heck Id do it for free tbh, is positively amazing and yet absolutely terrifying.

  • @LilJollyJoker
    @LilJollyJoker 6 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Thank you for this video! One of the best software engineering videos out there!

  • @akebu6
    @akebu6 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    lol, oh gosh, this literally feels like me. I'm in my 3rd year and this is when I'm starting to feel confident with College and I've been a top student who didn't know anything or could code. But now, I can code and I love it and I'm exploring Open Source and contributing to awesome projects.
    Great video Jason, I'm a new subscriber :-)

    • @JasonGoodison
      @JasonGoodison  2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      So happy you found that relatable! Definitely takes a few years to get the hang of university!
      Glad to have you as a new subscriber:)

    • @stevenpeterson2587
      @stevenpeterson2587 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      Find internships bro. My biggest regret is not getting an internship.

  • @pro_myth_eus6897
    @pro_myth_eus6897 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Honestly after being rejected by a lot of companies this video brought back the confidence that I lost. Thank you for this.

  • @user-jz3ch4ik5q
    @user-jz3ch4ik5q 9 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Thank you so much. You've made me feel so much better. I could cry. I kindof am.

  • @rvndyr
    @rvndyr ปีที่แล้ว

    Dude, thank you for this video seriously. I needed this.

  • @JoJohns85
    @JoJohns85 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    Incredible video, thank you for sharing your journey. I work as a junior software dev right now and I definitely feel inadequate. Previously I was a business analyst who wrote a few Python programs to automate data collection and update locale Access databases, and VB for some excel form “programs”. Despite my lack of experience in actual software development my company decided that I could provide value as a dev, so they gave me the promotion. Now I am suffering greatly from imposter syndrome, any advice?

  • @mrlouc8518
    @mrlouc8518 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    Normally I don’t comment on videos. But this time I can’t not do it
    It is nice to see a change in the content of videos - that you actually focus on a lot of the negative aspects and try to explain that everything is not glamorous. Really like that!

    • @JasonGoodison
      @JasonGoodison  ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Really appreciate that :) thats what I was going for. Thanks for commenting!

    • @allensinho4
      @allensinho4 ปีที่แล้ว

      I recommend Joshua Fluke as well!.

  • @CarlosLopez-fg3fl
    @CarlosLopez-fg3fl ปีที่แล้ว

    Very inspiring! I thank you for this and the quote at the end really helped me realize that I don't always have to be perfect.

  • @josiahkruse6317
    @josiahkruse6317 ปีที่แล้ว

    Dude! This video was so encouraging for me. Thanks for sharing your story!