The Caretaker - Advanced Plaque Entanglements [K1] - Clear Moment 1 - "Was It A Dream?" Extended
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- Some may call it a "bliss state" despite not really fitting the definition of such.
Technically not directly from its use in EATEOT, but I feel like I recreated it well.
Credit, of course goes to The Caretaker (Leyland Kirby) - เพลง
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As someone who suffers from early-onset dementia I’ve stopped asking myself “is this a dream” 99% of the time, but those rare (becoming much more rare as time has gone on) occasions where I do have some form of lucidity, I ask myself every time then, “was it a dream? Am I okay now?” before falling back into the void.
@@Zawmbbeh It’s more of a very slow burn. I suffered a head injury 9 years ago that kind of ruined me. As time has gone on I’ve remained mostly the same but what is lost is lost slowly, almost unnoticeably by me, or even others, but eventually realized after the fact. I struggle to recall the faces and voices of loved ones like my grandparents and old friends. That’s the hardest part.
@@Zawmbbeh Even before my head injuries that caused this I wasn’t too good at creating things. I mostly use music and constantly try to keep myself busy as to not allow myself to grow even more lethargic and slow. EATEOT has struck a chord with me though with how real it is, and in a sense I haven’t been able to get it out of my head since August.
@@ganondorfthegrey5325 well i'm glad EATEOT has managed to show an understanding, at the least. im inexperienced though, so im not too sure what else could work, maybe other than playing strategic games like tetris, chess, card games, etc.
sorry if i come off as distant, i have a very different thought process (adhd, etc) and i struggle to 100% empathize, though i do honestly wish the best.
@@Zawmbbeh It’s quite alright friend, I struggle to find the right words to describe it sometimes. I thank you for finding empathy in it. I do play games and other things to try to cope with it and sort of “slow” any degeneration of my thoughts, some are better than others.
@@ganondorfthegrey5325 I wish the best for you, I really have faith you'll be alright and keep a firm grip on your memories. Hang in there.
It's like the eye of a horrible hurricane the patient is in
yea
@@ortherner i said yea outloud and saw this and laughed
When I first heard this, I broke down crying because It was like a small but very brief calm moment to reflect on my emotions before my depression engulfed me again
the name from the original is haunting, like, your suffering so much, and you can start to recall some thing,. "was it all a really bad nightmare?" you ask yourself, but no. it was the calm before another,much worse storm. its really terrifying.
you're*
... Amanda, You... You're here!! ... Amand... Who're you?
I'm just A Man.
Sorry.
@@normanclatcher I'm looking for Amanda Huggenkiss?
@@mbsb1376 uhhh....dad... mom dies 3 years ago... i am your daughter
@@srmagician1430 oh, wait who is- wait who are you?
@@normanclatcher Who is aman?
This part made me tear up because my great grandmother would sing this to me to help me sleep. And she sadly passed away. I miss her alot
i think most people get broken by this album, but to add on top of that previously knowing alot/a of these song(s) must add a extra pain along with it
my condolences by the way
Aw, i feel bad at least she’s in your heart cheering you on
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the exact same song? i cant imagine how surreal that must feels
@@mrjopka44 бывает...
Was it all a fading dream?
Have my thoughts reclaimed their seams?
Is the storm now over? May I live in peace?
Is my mind a fading thought?
Slowly untying all its knots...
I can feel this entropy
It stirs and stirs within me
I see life's a fading stream
We ride a raft of fading dreams
I've hit the falls of rot and decay
Now, don't look at me... I'm not th...e... Sa... Mmme?
Excellently written.
Mmme. Tasty. 🙂
If I could heart comments here, I would.
...Sadly, I cannot. But I wish you the best anyway, fellow poet. 🥀
_From now, unto The End of Time.~_
-Norman Clatcher
is this the lyrics to the sample?
@@user-qe8go6ur8w No, I'd think it's poetry based on the name
WOW
This part was so fucking sad
Everyone is visiting you, but you don't know them but they seem to greet you with love
I loved this part of stage 5 so much and I always wished it was longer. This is perfect. It’s exactly what I needed and more.
Well that’s the thing. That’s why it’s so short. Was the pain all just a dream? Then reality hits you again.
Omg 100 likes
@@S14M07 yeah that’s what makes it so heart wrenching. Definitely among the saddest parts in the entire album
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it's so weird hearing this without the music going KLLBNAUVBFR
@SEBASTIAN HARDIN I loved the part where it went SDFGJHKMLHGFDKGXHDKHGFCBBMVNF 😍😩
I love the part when it had the terrifying white noise in sudden time regression
Nah man the part where it went ASsdfjdhdjhdhg was better
@@cloudnite_vr The OOOOOOOOOOOOOO
Or the
[Excited crowd]
He awakes, startled, shaken. Quivering, he remembers: his wife! His wife laid perfectly still to his side. He loved his wife. She was his only placid reminder of how things used to be, of the life he lived. Tears welled in his eyes as he recalled her shape, her voice, her undeniable presence. But her face, how was her face? He reared sharply in a dim haze to the other side of the bed. It was left empty. He was suddenly overcome with the dreaded feeling that she was gone. That she had been gone for quite some time.
Until the pitch darkness of sleep engulfed him again, he mourned the loss of his wife, for her face now eluded him.
Holy Shit man almost cried reading this.
the pauses in the music make it feel like the caretaker is slowly remembering everything episodically
Before falling back into emptiness
I don't like how abruptly it cuts off, it reminds you that this is just a short moment in time that our "character" is able to perceive anything again, able to realize they're forgetting everything before forgetting that on top of it and being thrusted back into the white noise of their mindspace. Makes me wonder what I would think of last if I knew I wasn't going to be able to again.
i feel like it shouldve been like a minute long or so give you more time to recollect and then the transition would be less predictable
This isn’t just a dementia thing, it can go for any mental illness. Schizophrenia, depression, anorexia, trauma, or even anxiety.
You know that feeling where your legs falls asleep? Like when you sit down on the toilet for too long and getting up is near impossible because you can't balance? The numbness of your legs makes them momentarily forget how to balance and walk, that's like....leg dementia......
My drawing skills are like that, except always stuck on stage 5 with no bliss states
Thats the feeling when your leg weighs like a million tons right? It also feels like its electrically shocked
i can't tell if this is a meme or not. on one hand people usually talk about using the toilet in a humorous way. on the other, using your legs not being able to work and making an analogy between that and a permanent real word mental illness is unnerving to think about...
@@graceanderson8731 It's not a meme, it's just a random thought that I had.
lmao i have leg dementia rn, its called guillain barre syndrome, 7 months in and still going strong LOLZZZ i wanna remember how to walk again
That day I woke up. I called the name of my dear wife, who peacefully slept to my side. I saw her face. I cried, and as my wife comforted me I gazed at the morning sun, shining through the curtains.
I asked her, tears running down my face, was it a dream?
"what dream, honey?"
"My Dementia!"
this is like alot emotional than the last 6 minutes
@Ngố Bi As a chad,i do agree.
@@JustAMelon1899 same
*"I never knew, I never thought, such bliss as this could fill me with a love divine. I'm afraid I'll wake and find it was only in my mind. Was it a dream, or are you really mine?"*
I'm in a trance, a beautiful trance
Since I fell in love with you
I can't believe I happened at all
It seemed too good to be true
Was it a dream, was it a dream we were alone
And you were in my arms last night
Was it a dream, was it a dream we made a vow
Beneath the pale moonlight
I never knew, I never thought such bliss as this
Could fill me with a love divine
I'm afraid I'll wake and find it was only in my mind
Was it a dream or are you really mine
40 year old Discord mods singin to their body pillows like
@@grandmasteryoda2605 BAHAHAHDHJSFS
A A A A A A A A A A
@@grandmasteryoda2605 lol
😭🫡
I don’t have dementia, nor do any of my family members, but this whole album resonated with me during late 2020. I was feeling utterly hopeless, like my life was just an endless cycle of going to google meets and getting homework done, and I even made a few attempts on my own life, but I kept fighting the darkness even though my mind was just clouded with a fog of anxiety. I started to notice feeling worse in late June of 2020 and I didn’t get better until mid March 2021
Glad you're getting better. I was in a very dark place through isolation myself, I had a bit of a breakdown during the later half of NATMOS's production. I ended up going to therapy and I've pulled my life out of the hole. I wish the best for you, and thanks for the comment.
I was there too, I can't recall leaving the house much at all- and I had just left Middle school when quarantine hit (still in highschool as of right now). It was hell, and I haven't been the same since then.
@@JordanKeuring how?
"Art should comfort the disturbed and disturb the comfortable." -Cesar A. Cruz
@@JordanKeuring i had a mental breakdown too :(
I had a family member who had dementia and I watched my great grandmother go from a sweet innocent woman, to a person who can’t remember anything, on some occasions, my great grandfather would say she would remember him and us at times before she went back to her dementia. This represents my great grandmother perfectly
:(
God this sample made me so emotional man
this song is haunting me like a curse, i can't get it out of my head and i associate it with bad things but i always hear it in my head, i want to get it out of my head.
i feel like i just woke up from falling off my bed and you are just lying on the floor in confusion
same thing when youre on the chair and your body just says "im gonna stop you right there" then parylizes you for a moment and does the fake fall thing
i have adhd and its not garuanteed but for me that happens quite often which makes it less panicky and panicky until i just get annoyed by it
That happened to me once and I thought the entire bed tipped over
Post awareness floor confusions
Stage 5 - Advanced Plaque Entanglements (B-Sides)
I wish there were more interesting parts like this and the hell sirens in eateot
There are!
Stage 4's bells
Stage 5's organ lucidity
Stage 5's mandolin solo
Stage 5's piano solo
Stage 6's singing
Stage 6's jazz
Stage 6's chord
And Friends Past Reunited
AEBBTW has some interesting background choices, particularly coughing and soft sobbing (?) in some pieces i think.
@@Zawmbbeh sobbing?
How aboht the voices
@@HanzCastroyearsago Idk I forgor 💀
This is actually beautiful
Its more devastating really.
@@QuidProQuo999 true
The original sample is even better
@@finden3362 what is the original music of this video? I mean before it got distorted
@@juliantotriwijaya9208 "Was It A Dream?" (1928) by Dick Powell
The patient's last truly clear memory is sitting and fading over 3 and 3 quarters of a minute. A horrifying bliss ensues before descending into the void again. "G2ud4u3, Be1jdm`\," the patient says to his/her caregiver. "I'll see you hopefully in the next life," says the caregiver, helping during the final moments of true life. The patient is already dead, and the caregiver knows already.
bro what is benjamin doing back there
The way the melody repeats over and over... it's like the band is trying so hard to remember how to song continues, but they just can't. And they become frustrated and desperate.
Woah! Your recreation is pretty good!
I'm afraid I'll wake and find it was only in my mind. Was it a dream or are you really mine?
When you listen to the 5th stage and come to this moment, it is really bliss, like a balm for the soul...
I come back to this song a lot. Especially after a stressful day for whatever reason, i lay in bed and put this on. Helps me reflect. Helps me realize things about myself and my life and the people around me. Its very therapeutic for me, really a beautiful track
So i'm not alone...
Many people believe that the end of the entire album is the point of Terminal Lucidity. I think this is That point, with still a few hours to go, The persons sense of time is completely gone. The last bit of peace and recollection before their last moments of "living".
ok
@@ortherner bruh wtf was the point of ur response
@@Luka2000_ i’d say that’s hypocritical coming from you
@@ortherner took you long enough
Wtf do these replies even mean
This could easily go in Stage 2
stage 1 really
Something about violins are so sad. It’s like the instrument of the heart
Just realized the heart isn’t damaged while in the head it’s a freaking war against the neurons and the plaque inside the brain
that pause between phrases gets me every time
I think, if this song was a person they'd be the type of guy/gal that would have more then likely had some bad things happen in life, but despite this, stays calm, chill, collected, and nice in general. They would be the type of person to comfort you in a harsh time, even if they have no knowledge about you or who you are.
fun fact: this video is perfectly looped
This reminds me of my maternal grandmother, and her way of loving me, may she rest in peace, and may her memory in my mind never disappear.
I remember the last time we saw each other, days later, I found out about her death, I was stunned when I heard the news, and I just kept quiet, but I was and am devastated inside.
I can't stop crying, her memory gives me strength, but it saddens me at the same time, and I just want to see her again to hug her, and fall asleep in her arms.
Not knowing anything about this moment made the spine-chilling sensation when it happened that more damning. I didn’t even notice it *gradually fades* back into chaos on my first listen.
thank you so much for doing this, is beautiful...
Amazing, you really made it just like Kirby himself would have. I love it.
Sounds beatiful.
My mind when they let me off work 3 hours early.
Man I got chills, beautiful work
As of two days ago, the comment by GanondorfTheGrey has reached the 500 comment cap. We may never know what happened to him. Wherever he is, and however he's doing, I send my condolences. I fear that we can assume the worst.
this segment of stage 5 is almost as sad as the last 6 minutes of stage 6
The Good Ending: Dementia forgot itself and you continue your life as normal.
When someone or something you love passes away unexpectedly too soon you try to pretend it isn't real , that your just having a bad dream , everything stops , you snap back into reality , praying does nothing , wishing does nothing , your mind just refuses to believe it. the next day you think to yourself "was it a dream ? " and you go to see if they are still alive but nothing , it wasn't a dream , it was the irreversible cruelty of reality " was it a dream ? "
I see you’re a man of culture
I don't remember watching this...
Amazing recreation Jordan. One of my favorite and most heartbreaking moments of the album.
I love this sample
This made by the same person who made the twisted and sickening NATMOS, while this song is beautiful and pleasant NATMOS is horrifying and nightmare-fuel
It feels like reaching something unexpected, feeling a calm after a great storm that makes you feel nostalgic, like knowing there's nothing more beyond this, hearing this and watching the cover as something crawling till the end (with the stairs-like thing in the bottom) at first made me feel more desolated in the end, despite the calm that it gave at first.
sadder than the last song of this album...
was it a dream but it relaly was a dream
this makes me want to talk to my grandparents again...
this is beautiful.
This is wonderful, thank you.
Great job, Jordan!
great work!
this really brings me a very noticeable sense of nostalgia. 2 years ago was the first time I heard this part of the song and I liked it a lot, so much so that it was even my favorite song. I stopped listening to it for 1 year and when TH-cam recommended this video to me and I saw it, it was simply an indescribable feeling. listening to something nostalgic and also like a lost memory that came back, is very rare to describe. because I don't know what I'm feeling exactly but I can say that it makes me happy, nostalgic and sad.
Simply beautiful
almost all the comments are the replies of one comment
Lovely and bittersweet
this song genuinely makes me so sad, and thats coming from someone whos desensitized
so damn beautiful
Well, Kirefyx did it a week earlier...
The artwork remix is good though
True, but I made this track specifically to simulate and sound like the bliss state instead of rolling off into its own place. But yeah, you got me there.
@@JordanKeuring i like both your versions
@@JordanKeuring i actually like yours better, the longer gaps in the song are really good
Honestly, I am too afraid to listen to stage 5 because the beginning just creeps me out.. more than that. But the feeling is hard to describe..
Well guess I'm missing things.
Those missing things probably came from stage 4, and a short track with the hell siren is in there. Other than that, it’s voices, vinyl cracking, static, and white noise
this made me cry hearing it for the first time while listening to the whole thing at once
I am truly afraid. I’m still young and still a minor, however I have a mother who was diagnosed with Multiple sclerosis and might develop dementia. She’s had this even before I was born and we both make the most unwise decisions. Makes me worried whether in the future I’ll have memory issues. I guess that’s why this scares me so bad.
Dementia doesn't necessarily work like that-at least according to science. It's probably something that sparks randomly at an old age. It is also believed not to be really genetic. If you want to prevent the disease, you should eat healthily, exercise, and refrain from drinking, smoking, or using tobacco.
Sorry to reply late.
Esto me hace acordar a aquellas memorias mias cuendo miraba star vs las fuerzas del mal en la televisión que tenia... lastimosamente la serie murio asi como esos grandes dias aveces me pregunto si todo lo bueno fue solo un sueño...
I love this part so much
This song makes me feel a very special kind of nostalgia. It reminds me of things I barely remember like kindergarten and that one tv i had that barely even worked. It makes me so sad and so happy. (It also reminds me of snow white for some reason???)
Who are you... Anakin? My old friend? Hey! You aged very well... We had a lot of adventur-... Who are you? I can't remember... What are you doing here?... What I'm doing...here...
This actually makes me wonder how a force sensitive would deal with Dementia if they were in the real world
luckily Anakin killed Obi-Wan before that could happen.
@@ortherner I saw you in most replies in this video
words cant describe this
This sounds just like the one from Stage 5, Bravo! Bravo!
This was one of the songs my granddad liked, but I barely knew him. He didn't die of dementia, however. I rarely would visit him in New York when I was a kid. Love you, Granddad.
Yes
0:40 very strange because i always expect it to cut back into chaos but it doesn't
same
What's the sample for this I love it
Dick Powell - Was It A Dream
@@JordanKeuring Link?
@@argonize th-cam.com/video/_ctsaMFAnOk/w-d-xo.html
@@JordanKeuring Thank you mate
nice
... This is kind of like... The patient is hit with a sudden shock of, either Lucidity or Bliss. Either way the patient smiles. Only for it to be taken away, going to the rest of K1. (I have not listened to the entire Stage 5)
Alright so ADD has it’s own type of memory loss, which is just memory loss. so uh yeah i got that, it’s annoying (sorry if it looks like im seeking for attention, im just saying memory loss is annoying)
I forgot what add is.
Seriously.
Adhd but remove the h
@@viagaming7486 I have adhd.
"Oh I like the animation of the video"
*pauses the video, the image is still moving
I call these "Bliss states" Moments of Lucidity. Its a much more fitting term
this is sad asf man
“I’m afraid I’ll wake and find, it was only in my mind”
“Was it a dream, or are you really mine?”
sad lyrics tbh
I never knew, I never thought
k1 Section A-D A-E does not judge you
k1 Section A-D A-E doesn't hate you
k1 Section A-D A-E doesn't want to scare you
k1 Section A-D A-E is love
Stage 1: Oh, There’s no milk in the fridge. No biggie, i’ll just buy some more. Stage 2 : Uh oh, i don’t have enough money to buy milk. This is a problem! I need money fast. Stage 3 : I’M NOT MAKING MONEY FAST ENOUGH! I DON’T ENOUGH MONEY TO BUY MILK!! Stage 4 : I GOT FIRED FROM ALL MY JOBS AND MY FAMILY KICKED ME OUT OF THE HOUSE BECAUSE OF IT! WHAT AM I GONNA DO WHAT AM I GONNA DO.. Stage 5: OH SHIT OH SHIT MY DOG GOT TAKEN AWAY FROM ME AND EVERYBODY AVOIDS ME AND DOESN’T TALK TO ME WHAT IS THIS HELL!?!? Stage 5 Clarity: Your family felt bad, and invited you to go back to the house. You got your dog back, and your family helped you get a perfect job. And in the meantime, They got you some milk. After the clarity: THE JOB DIDN’T GET ACCEPTED BECAUSE THEY KNEW WHO YOU WERE AND NOW YOUR BACK ON THE STREETS AND ITS EVEN WORSE THEN BEFORE.. YOU HAVE NO MILK!? Stage 6 : I give up.. I’ll just.. Cry here while i rot away.. Goodbye world.. Put me out of this hell.. Terminal Lucidity: Your in heaven.. It’s all over. You can do what you want! Most importantly, you don’t need to buy milk, you already have enough in heaven! You do feel kind of sad that it ended this way, but now your in a better place. CONCLUSION: I just wanted a glass of milk ;-;
This is how I feel when life treats me badly
The only way to describe this.
A false sense of hope.
Still don’t know wtf the picture is
This song is truly beautiful: especially if the full version was after about 2 hours of incoherent noise
I wish someone could put this music with a unus annus clips video.
So long ganondorfthegrey.
So Long...
You know I never have really said this before but the was it a dream segment should've went on for longer I mean its a great part of K1 I am not denying that but it kinda goes back to the chaos at a predictable time and you don't get enough time to realize what's happening for real which I get that's the point you are supposed to feel like the patient but I feel like if it went on for a minute or two it would have been even more emotional
Hell the way dante did it in the with voices product is how it should've been executed