We often hide ourselves from others because we don't want to get hurt or hurt others. So we just sit and watch and listen to videos or do nothing, trying to let our dreams overtake reality. We feel better talking to others as long as they're not right next to us physically. So hello, lonely people. Is it that we're lonely, or do we just have lonely thoughts? Perhaps we hide ourselves too much. Maybe we're not as lonely as we thought. Maybe the world isn't perfect, but are concept of it is. If lonely loves us so much, then a lot of different parts of people in the universe must really love us, too. Hello, lonely. *It's very nice to meet you again*
PensolDoodles i can relate so much to that! my boy also looks kinda like him he tells me that alot of people comment about that and its so funny because he kinda does they both have so many of the same features like red hair blue eyes and freckles lol. but to me i love him no matter what and besides he is mine anyway lol.
this title describes so perfectly how i feel about this girl i met just a couple months ago on IG. i took a chance to DM her and it turned out to be the best decision of my life. we speak almost every single night. she's so kind, wise, caring, dorky, sensitive and downright beautiful. I wanna marry her. i honestly do. the problem is she lives on the other side of the planet and over the course of us getting closer to one another she admitted she felt guilty for making me fall for her and said she didn't want me to wait and i totally understood. fast forward a few weeks later and i just couldn't stop imagining my life with her and i told her "fuck it, I don't care anymore, I will wait for you, i wanna marry you one day mi amor". she got emotional and i seriously fell harder in love with this dorky princess. every now and again i catch myself smiling like an idiot at how much she's impacted my life. on the flip side i'm afraid that i might never see her and that we'll never walk side-by-side. god i love this girl......well thats my sappy story. thanks for reading this far. P.S if ever i do meet up with her... i'll be back to comment what went down. and if the worst should happen then i'll comment on that too....maybe. peace everyone. *First edit: (Saturday 26 May 2019)* to everyone who has been patiently waiting for an update I'm so sorry to inform you that Valerie and I broke up. It happened back in March or so. Out of respect for us I will not mention why it happened but it's truly ok. We're just friends now and that's all that matters. We shared 10 glorious and happy/tough months together so I'll still always care about her. Though we're not in love anymore... I'll always love her. Always. I'm so sorry for my late ass replies... Life is so hectic especially work wise. So to everyone who supported us over the course of this comments rise on this video .... Y'all are so sweet and honestly I'm so proud to be part of this community. Thank you all... All of your stories really did stay with me. Love you all and be safe. P.S All my love from Kenya. And since we're so close my real name is Eddie. Bye guys and thanks for everything. ...I'll miss you, till we meet again in another comment section... *Second edit: (Thursday 10 October 2019)* So a feels trip brought me back to this video and damn did nostalgia pimp slap me 😂😅.... guhdamn was I so sappy! To all you beautiful mofos who still come to this specific comment of mine and feel some typpa way.... Y'all are too cute and so heartwarming. Thank you.... For those wondering... Val and I are still friends... Love is still there (occasional goofy call and text) uhhh oh yeah! I fell in love with this girl called Abby back in June and then got my heart broken recently by her lmao.... Professional lo-fi veteran I am haha... I saw some of y'all were asking for my IG it's *(eddie_ngatia)* and to some of my YT bros like *@Kashiwaszaki Sena* & *@Sassuke* + many more whom I've Interacted on here.... Hope y'all are ok and doing good and much more happier on the love front than I 😅😅.... So yeah it's currently 03:12AM here In Kenya....ya sad boi gotta hit the sack for work tomorrow....😒😒😒.... Idk when I'll be here again but yeah hit me up on IG if y'all wanna shoot the shit or whatever. Bye for now and thank you all for everything. :) *Third edit: (Thursday 12 March 2020)* Uhhh hey again guys🤗, alot has gone down since my last update and boy oh boy has stuff happened😅😅.... Ok so I met this girl through Tinder (yeah Tinder😂😂 of all things huh jeez)... anywhooo... Little back story is that I've been on the tinder scene on and off over the years even back in SA but in all my life i was never EVER the one who got DM'd first so you can imagine my perplexed mug when she slid into my inbox *(oh yeah btw the girls name is Patricia)* haha almost forgot to mention that. Moving along...we vibed and got to know each other then low and behold she asks for my number... bamboozled i was guys🤣🤣🤣 *insert surpised Pikachu face* lmao not kidding like guys I'm an average dude. [Skinny, dark AF, talk too much and weird AF] so at this point I'm thinking I'm getting punked but I kept my shit together and gave her my tens. Duh😂 Over the course of us getting to know each other over WhatsApp and the occasional calls... I fell for her... really fast...she understood where I was coming from with personal shenanigans and I did the same with her....we took our time to learn each other. God it felt so good falling for her but so scary. I told her all my secrets and heartache....from losing mom to other shit and she listened and didn't judge me she just was so....down to earth you know...idk she feels like sunshine.😅 On December 28th 2019 after another night of being sappy and the excitement of seeing each other IRL in two days time...she asked me to be her BF...(I KNOW RIGHT!!!??? WTF???) lmao is this some isekai anime plot?!?🤣😂💀 guys I was so floored but you know what's funny... I already knew I loved her...fast as that seemed...it felt right. My ass agreed right quick 😂 I ain't that dense haha... So on 30th December 2019 we finally met in her city of Nanyuki here in Kenya...it was a nerve wracking taxi ride to her from my city. Eventually upon meeting her ...she giggled and tugged on my shirt and I turned to see her....she looked better than her pics and still managed to make me smile and snort all in one blow. We talked/goofed off & walked the rest of the day...got lunch...got ice cream....walked some more...she was so cute Jesus.... I eventually grew a pair and asked her for permission to kiss her....she said no cuz too many peeps were around so we walked to a secluded place of town...she was still so nervous and damn it made me love her more....we finally kissed and I fell into heaven. The journey back was sad cuz I missed her the moment we hugged goodbye but we knew this was so right.... Over the course of 2020 we've met more and I (god I can't believe Imma say this on the internet much less YT but oh well) I lost my V-card to her 🙈🙈 haha yeah. I know I'm slow ok...stop your laughing😂😅 So it's been 3ish months of us dating and we know this is still the honeymoon phase so it's a fun aspect to make fun of😂.... she's a brilliant woman, turning 20 on the 26th of April and I'm so excited to spoil her. She's my little firecracker and I love teasing her forehead cuz it's a common thing with Kenyan girls 😂 she's beautiful and always manages to level me with her gaze...she has a lisp too....fuck i could go on and on about her to which she would kill me. Guys I do sometimes get scared she'll switch on me but I manage to remind myself that to just treat her with respect, honour, loyalty and most of all take a leap of faith. So Patricia....on the day you turn 20 this upcoming April... Imma show you this comment and hopefully you like it & don't get weirded out.... you're probably reading this smiling like an idiot... so thank you for loving me, cherishing me and appreciating me. Baby nakupenda mingi mingi saaaaaannnnnnnnaaaaaaa ❤️. I'll always love you ok... I'm glad I met you and wouldn't trade it for the world. I truly know that you're my one and only. I can't wait to spend the next couple of days, weeks, months, years and decades with you. My little firecracker. ☕❤️🔥😈 *_Kisses your forehead_* Goodnight guys.... Till we meet again. Gotta go sleep cuz tomorrow be work🤦🏾♂️😂 till the next update. Bye bye from mine to yours. ❤️ ....love Eddie. *Fourth Edit: ( Thursday February 4th 2021)* Hey all of you beautiful people, happy new year!! On yet again another Thursday hahahaha....hmmmmmmm 🤣🤣🤣 I've missed this online diary of mine.... I'll get right down to brass tax. Things with Patricia didn't work out. We broke up last week and it still hurts....so so so much. She called me last week Monday and told me she was feeling overwhelmed with everything (mind you she has felt this way before but I always managed to win her back) so I let her vent and say everything on her mind I then got everything off my chest and told her that she has to take a step back and look at the painting we've painted so far, with the blank canvas still left for us to complete....could she still walk side by side with me?.... and through her crying I could tell what her answer was....I let her go and it broke me. I didn't sleep that night. I just can't stop crying knowing that it's over but I had to let her go... It was one of the toughest decisions I've ever had to make... There's no hate between us but we're not talking anymore cuz we both need to process what happened. So yeah that's where I'm at rn guys... I'm still learning to grieve the loss of someone who's still alive and it sucks. It just sucks. I miss her so much but I feel I made the right decision. I wish her all the best the multiverse has to offer. She's an amazing idiot. The best idiot ❤️. Patricia I'll always love you....how you called my name, your smile, the way your brow scruffed up when you'd be deep in thought and how you slept so sweetly with your mouth kinda open....oh my firecracker I'll miss you dearly.....To my soulmate who wasn't meant to be.....I miss you, I love you, I appreciate you and I thank you. Unforgettable you'll remain. Thank you for loving all of me...and for accepting parts of me I didn't even know I had. I'll move on knowing our love didn't end but it became complete, just not with the two of us together in the end And to you reading this....thank you for being so kind for following my story...till next time sweet stranger ❤️🤗
honestly in the same situation, though he only lives a few states away, it feels like he is so, so far away and i'll never be able to reach him. i love him with all my heart. i hope to hear what happens with you two
I’ve been dating this girl across the continent for over a year now, and I know exactly how you feel, I met her about 3-4 months ago when I took a plane to fly over there for a couple days and I really truly hope you get the same opportunity. It was the happiest 2 days of my life and I know that you and this girl will do well. Good luck
my mind matured too fast for my heart to comprehend. now i find myself crying for her, yet i can't point my finger as to why. crying useless tears is no fun in an adult world, but welcomed in a teenage soul.
its been nearly 3 years since I've made this comment, and I still find myself coming back to this playlist sometimes. Life went on, and everything is so different. This video perfectly captures my nostalgia, and I like to look back at my old memories while listening to this. Thanks Feardog, cheers mate!
The first time we met was in the halls of our lame high school. She didn't stand out at all, mumbling out a meek 'sorry' before hurrying off after we bumped into each other. I didn't think that I'd see her again, nor did I care. The second time we met was at the library, as cliché as it sounds. I didn't wanna go home right away and figured I could kill time at the library, maybe even do a project if I was that bored. I was browsing the adults' section, searching for an erotica to make fun of when out of the corner of my eye, I see a petite girl trying to reach a book. Glancing around, I sighed at the realization that I was the only one who could help the girl. I grabbed the book off the shelf, reading the cover. American Sign Language. Looming over the girl, I noticed how plain she looked. Plain but cute. I handed her the book before walking off, trying to suppress the small blush covering my face. I stopped as she thanked me and looked back at her. "No problem... See ya." The third time was surprising, and kinda tiring. We were both in a concert, a band I learned to love through my older sister. She seemed so out of place, a small quiet thing in an overcrowded and loud place. But she was grinning, yelling out the lyrics to my favourite songs. I carefully made my way to her, feigning surprise when our eyes locked. The fourth time we met was during school. I had seen her walking with her friends and approached her, asking to be her friend. Blinking up at me, the girl smiled. "Sure." We hung out a lot after that. My friends would be annoyed every time I ditched them for the girl, but left me be. Her friends would giggle and give her knowing looks every time I approached. Did they know? I mean, I don't like her; she's just chill and tolerable unlike other people. She'd roll her eyes at them and lead me away, starting the conversation about how her day has been so far. I'd stare at her, taking in her sparkling eyes and pretty smile. Her flushed cheeks and soothing voice. She used to be so reserved, letting me start our talks before she broke out of her shell. She soon began teasing me, flirting back with me, and I'd always feel my face heat up every time no matter how many times I tell myself that I should get used to it by now.
Well here comes my sappy story Here I am 3 in the morning crying, hating myself and feeling depressed feeling like cutting, when my girlfriend is trying her hardest to calm me down telling me she loves me, telling me not to cut I never realized just how important I was too her until she sent me this and here I am crying like a little baby because i'm so happy with her if she sees this, Quit making me fall for you more and more you little dork~
You hugged me last night on the street in front of my house. My tears staining your shirt and my hair wet from the scalding shower I had just taken to try and release the sadness and betrayal I feel from my best friend, who defended someone who hurt my feelings greatly. I finally understand. All those times when you tell me “you’re all I have”. You are all I have right now. And to think our paths almost didn’t cross.
I met him online, not a dating website or anything. As a lonley kid, as someone who was generally outcast by her peers I turned to introverted ways of entertainment. Story writing. On a website that was once fairly popular once called Chatango I used to roleolay. It became a home, getting lost in walls of words, crafting a story and world purely from imagination; role-playing became more than a past time to me, it became a sanctuary. After years, it died down and it became harder to find roleplayers, and my real world life was at constant spiral of depression and my favorite outlet was burnt out. Another set of years past and I had given up hope, letting myself slip into a dark tangle of depression. I lost myself, my way, and I scrambled through the ruins of a burnt escape. Then came along a humble soul who didn't give off the vibe of someone who had been here for years, however in my desperation I enjoyed, and he was starting. Like breaking in pool. From the looks of his profile I was expecting maybe a page, but no. He built a palace of words, he slowly recreated my outlet. He was like an angle resurecting my fallen castle. And just like my inner world, my life began to improve. That shine of light allowed me to see the toxicity of the world I let build around me and the closer we got, he helped me beat those sticky monsters. He was my companion in a war, and 2 years later I live with him, I worked with him, I sit here play the game with him while listening to this track. I love him.
lonely* role-play* "After years, it died down" (double space)* "and my real world life was at constant spiral of depression" (a, not at)* "Another set of years past" (passed, not past)* "had been here for years, however" (double space)* "Like breaking in pool" (double space, also what does this even mean)* "He was like an angle resurecting my fallen castle." (angel, not angle; resurrecting, not resurecting)* "and 2 years later I live with him, I worked with him, I sit here play the game with him while listening to this track." (double space between 'I' and 'live'; 'worked' is in an incorrect past tense; add an 'and' between 'here' and 'play')* You're a writer, huh?
When I first met you the the halls of that school... I never thought you would listen to me mumbling my story out loud. But you did even though I didn't know or talk to you much you listened. You listened to a story that didn't make any sense. And then I listened to your story. Then I realized that I didn't love her... But I loved you. I could never build up the strength to tell you. Until the night that I couldn't hold it back. You asked me if it was true. I told you it was. Then you told me you felt the same. If you are reading this than thank you for listening to me tell my story. You had no reason to listen to me but you did. So thank you. And if you have someone you love then just tell them. You have nothing to lose. But now it's been awhile and things have changed. I told you so in the nicest way possible. But you didn't like it. You yelled at me saying, "Didn't you say you love me!" As if feelings don't chang And as the days go bye it only got worse. I'd make a joke and you would take it the worst way possible. The next year comes and I've changed. I didn't forget about you because you always would try to make people hate me. But the thing that's the most different about us is that I actually care about people and I don't try to start arguments with people To make them hate each other. And people know that. You always tried to get people on you're side. You're side that was just hate for me. Soon I found out that someone who I thought I could call a friend was with you. I left them. Rumors got around that I liked someone. Pretty soon those rumors got to you. As soon as you heard that you left who you where with and got with them. So if you do like someone tell them. You've got nothing to lose. But keep in mind that people change. Thanks again for reading my story. The best part about this is that the person that I liked broke up with her sooooo... Karma is a bitch.
@@nashic1563 I hope that someone for you dose exist now. If they don't than I'm sorry for ya. Right now I'm just single and I feel like it's right for me. But if it's not for you than stop wasting time for someone to find you and go find them.
wow I'm late ok everyone seems to be sharing these adorable stories about relating to the title, so I thought maybe I should share one too :)) it was the beginning of summer vacation about a year ago; I had somehow managed to get out of an extremely abusive relationship that would give me nightmares for months to come. I was extremely depressed and emotionally exhausted after the breakup, and I honestly was just wondering what the hell I was supposed to do next, and if I would ever be happy again or get over the trauma that guy left me with. the three or so friends I had left after the drama surrounding my ex invited me to a discord server that summer. I felt very out of place there and didn't feel the need to tune in much. But thanks to that discord server, I met a boy. To be quite honest, I didn't think much of him at first. He was very kind, funny, good at video games, and had the most beautiful laugh I had ever heard. we spoke in public discord calls sometimes, but besides that, I didn't know all that much about him. my only real motive to get closer to him was to see if we could become more than friends so I could distract myself from the pain of my breakup. to be blunt, I just wanted to use him and nothing else. but as we quickly grew closer, I discovered something about him. he genuinely cared about me. never once in my life had I ever met someone who cared about me as much as he did; he wanted to help me overcome my trauma. he wanted to get to know me better so he would know how to make me happy again. he said he believed in my ability to overcome what happened to me, and helped me finally realize I was so much better than the way my ex had treated me. he was there for me. he comforted me through my ugly crying, supported me when life was weighing me down, and (virtually) stroked my back when my ex showed up in my nightmares. he told me "I've seen you when you forget your pain. I've seen you when you're happy, and honestly, you're beautiful. I want to help you be who you truly are again; a kind, compassionate, beautiful person." it got to the point where we were on discord calls for over 48 hours straight. we fell asleep on calls, pulled all-nighters for each other, and played video games and talked any chance we possibly got. it seemed every second of the day he was right there with me in my ear. and that's how I fell head over heels in love with him. every time we were together, my cheeks heated up and I got stomach butterflies. it wasn't just his compassion that made me so happy, it was him as a person. just being around him or even hearing his name made me smile. I wanted to be with him every second of the day. I loved hearing his laugh, I loved watching him be happy. I had never felt more in love, more loved by anyone else, or more happy in a very long time. it was a very happy summer being in unrequited love. but eventually, it all had to come to an end. it was the morning of his first day of the new school year. it was 3 am for me back home. I was very tired. he had just woken up to get ready for school, and we were both crying. we wouldn't be able to talk nearly half as much. we were going to miss each other very much and were considering not talking anymore in general. but he told me he was happy because he felt like he had done his part to help me overcome my trauma. he told me to get out there and make new friends, to fall in love at my new school and live a happy life. and to remember that I'll always be his dearest friend. and that's when I realized something else, too. I didn't want to stop being friends. I didn't want to forget the stomach butterflies and the rosy cheeks he gave me when he told me I was important to him. I didn't want to lose the self-confidence only he could give me at my lowest moments. I didn't want him to stop being my reason to keep going and move forward. I didn't want him to stop being my reason to keep living. and so, I told him I was in love with him. he said he was in love with me too. that day was nearly 9 months ago now. he and I have been the happiest couple alive ever since. he continues to support me through my anxiety and never for a second loses faith in me that I will continue growing as a person. the entire 9 months I've been his girlfriend, I never in my entire life have felt happier. (also he's asleep right now hehe) we met up for the first time in person last February, and I plan to visit him mid-June this summer. he and I plan to move in together when we're older and eventually get married. we want to have lots of kids and live the rest of our lives together until we die. and thanks to him, I've found the courage to file a report on my ex who abused me all those months ago. I appreciate it if you've made it this far. this story is very dear to me and has changed my life forever. I hope you have an amazing day reader-person!! I love you!!
I'm sorry that you had to go through that!! And I'm very happy for you and your boyfriend!! And I hope I get to meet someone who can help me get through the hard times! And is always their for me :)
i love these playlists 1) because the music is just so lovely and calming and 2) the comments are all just so beautiful and its like everyone is just bringing their heart and soul to this comment section and sharing things with people they haven't even met and connecting over this music and this same human search and experience of love and its just so beautiful
Really, the title relates to me. Found this one girl that meant a lot to me. We hung out a bit, had good conversations, and I developed feelings. But apparently, I'm not as important to her as she is to me, found out by asking. Sucks, but just gotta look forward to the person who thinks of me as important to them as I did to her.
Honestly I didn't know you would be the last thing I think of before i go to sleep. The first thing that occupies my mind when i wake up. I didn't know I would be so happy to see your face. I didn't know you would be a part of me. You were my quest. Until you left me.
Same story here, but I won't let it bring me down, if I was happy before, I can still be happy now, even though things are different than they were before
The first year of our meeting was 3 years ago. We went from strangers to classmate to close friend . I still remember how you always tease me about how my favorite boy band are on the urge of breaking up . And I still remember back then that two friend of mine have a crush on you . And in all honesty , I never see anything special about you so I never understand why they have a crush on you . And that's how our friendship just pass by that year . Then the second year , coincidentally , we are still classmates . Our friendship somehow rose to something different . Especially , when our friends start teasing us , shipping us together . And you never seems to be bothered by that . Your gesture towards me too , is somehow different . You always sit in front of me whenever i'm doing my work , poking my cheek with a rolled up paper out of nowhere , calling me cute , missing me whenever i'm gone even for an hour and just complimenting me when you are talking with your friend . I start to question my feelings for you . Do I like you ? -I guess I do- . Then our third year which is 2018 , we aren't classmates anymore . We barely talked . But your friends always told me about you missing to talk to me and all . I just smiled to myself knowing that you still cares for me . We start messaging each other around may . I don't really remember what we talked about , but I am sure that it makes me happy . Then at the end of June , my classmates whom is a close friends of yours and mine told me that you confess on liking me heck you even said that you love me . Oh boy , that's when I'm sure that my feelings for you are 100% real because I never felt happier before . But then I start to think that you might probably messing around with me cause that's what boys around your age do . So I decided to ignore that , acting as if you never said that . Since then whenever we met at the corridor , its either me or you will turn away from the path we are walking on because of the embarrassment we felt . Luckily , we still manage to message each other . And on 23rd of October , you confessed to me directly and even thought I never give you a proper answer to your confession , you still call me cute when whenever we chat together , wishing good night,good morning , good afternoon just to make sure that i'll always have the good in my life , not wanting to see me being sad , telling me that you love me out of nowhere , and just making me happy . I figured out that you had already like me since the first time we met . I was in awe and just mad at myself for realizing it way too late . _i am so happy that i met you_
Your presence brought me joy. Whether i was holding your hand, sitting across the room from you, or even just on a phone call, I was happy. Im so lost now. Im just existing. Im sitting on my phone listening to these sad mixes of lofi hip hop and thinking of you. When Im not crying about you Im sleeping. Its been over a year and Im still so distraught. I know it wouldn't turn out well if you came back, but that doesn't stop me from wishing you would.
Hey, you want to hear something cliche? You're not alone. She's also been through the same thing. And with that, she learned a lot of things. For her, it's still not over. If she got into a relationship now, even after a year, it wouldn't end well, honestly. She has a lot of regrets. But you know what? She needs to learn, someday, that a time machine will never bring her back to those moments and let her make the right choices. It's not like the games she has played to keep her mind off of him. She won't come across a supernatural force that will bring her back to those moments. She wishes with all of her might, but it's just not going to happen. Now, he's found a way to change. He found that... the best way to resolve problems is to take them, and find a lesson out of it. Yes, she likes to stay in bed all day, and distract herself, and yes, she loves to sleep away her problems, but that's not going to get her anywhere. He knows it. She knows it. She just can't find the energy to acknowledge it. Now, this might all seem like jabbering to you, and it really is, but I hope you can find the strength and motivation to really think on everything that happened, and find something that you learned about yourself from it. I don't know what happened in your relationship, and you can yell at me all you want about how I know nothing; if that helps you relieve some stress, by all means. But I just want you to know; there will be someone out there in the future that will care about you as much as they did, if not more! You still have a lot of life to live, and so do we. If you want to rant about anything, just send me a message on Twitter. Handle's CalistoMajor. Thank you for reading thus far, and I hope anything I said could help you.
I still remember that day, it was my first day at a new school, she got up and walked to my desk and said hello. Still to this day I thank her for doing that. Damn who would have known that she would be this important to me.
When I first met her, I didn’t think much of it. We were in second grade, she was just an athletic new student. Then we became friends, which was weird, because nobody would have thought we would. I hated sports, I thought they were just pointless exercise. I was reclusive, often spending lunches reading or inside. She reached out to me, inviting me to hang out with her friends. I didn’t take her up on the offer, I was too scared. She was in my class in the first year of middle school, and that was when we really grew close. We realized we had a lot of similar interests, and her smile grew to be the part of my day I looked forward to the most. I would hang out by her locker, talking with her about anything. People started to notice, making jokes about how we were practically dating. She would play along, not knowing how much I wished that were true. In our second year of middle school, we started to hang out a lot more. We went to conventions together, watched dramas together, ran a school club together, things like that. When my birthday came around that year, she organized a project without my knowing. She wrote me this long note, comparing us to characters in the drama we watched, ones that we both shipped together, and got everyone else in the grade to add to it. I didn’t know what to think, I laid awake at night, wondering if she liked me back. I thought she did, until in the next year, she started dating someone else. I resigned myself to the position of “best friend” for almost that whole year. I tried to hide the butterflies I would get when she smiled at me, rationalize when she called me “Love,” knowing that she said that to everyone. I learned later that she broke up with him, and hadn’t really liked him in the first place. She asked me to be the one to introduce her during graduation. I was, and still am, her best friend. That’s where we are now, going off to high school, and she still has no idea how much she means to me.
Awww you might need to tell her... If you wait to long she’ll probably think the same things your thinking, like she might think you don’t like her because you e never put yourself out there. I can tell she likes you by what you said, playing along, comparing y’all to a couple. Just go for it, even if it doesn’t work you’ll still be dope friends. Good luck 👍🏻❤️
I've been seeing this trend in the comments section and I am not entirely sure if we were suppose to do it but whatever, I guess I'll do it to. When I first met you, I honestly didn't know you were gonna be this important to me... It all started in 7th grade, only a year ago. I never had to go to summer school for my good grades but at that moment I found my myself being forced to go for enrichment, how fun. I just had graduated from elementary ( it was one of those schools that went up to 6th grade) and was now heading to the big world of Middle School and none of my friends were going to my school. The first few days were depressing and lonely but I managed. After a while I made one friend but she really wasn't like a friend friend, whatever. Throughout summer school there was this one guy that caught my attention, he was one of the smartest in the class but wasn't the best good looking fellow and he was kind of stuck up. I hated myself for falling for him. Fast Forward to the first day of 7th grade. The girl I hanged out with left me for some other group but I didn't really mind, she was not the type of person I would actually hang out with. So the day went by and each class I went into the guy from SS was there, by the end of the day I figured out that we had the exact same schedule but I didn't talk to him at all. By the third day I was still going solo but I noticed that he too was lonely. Long story short I became great friends with him and we were inseparable, he was my first friend and I was his. Two months later I found out he made another friend while I made four other, so we decided to become this big group of awkward tweens (at the moment). His new friend was nice and he seemed like a cool guy. Further into the year around March-April we drifted apart and became distant. I made friends with his boy friend to the point where I was hanging out with guy #2 more than guy #1. Something happened between their bromance and it was totally broken. But if it weren't for summer school guy I never would have met my best boy friend. He's amazing and sweet, caring and pretty smart too. I have like a crush on him and he's cool with it, although doesn't feel like something should happen (which I'm fine with). We constantly text and buy each other gifts. We're now in 8th grade and I am still great friends with the new guy. So yeah that's my story, it's not the happiest one but the first guy allowed me to find the second guy which I am grateful for. Thank you to whoever took the time to read my comment.
We often hide ourselves from others because we don't want to get hurt or hurt others. So we just sit and watch and listen to videos or do nothing, trying to let our dreams overtake reality. We feel better talking to others as long as they're not right next to us physically. So hello, lonely people. Is it that we're lonely, or do we just have lonely thoughts? Perhaps we hide ourselves too much. Maybe we're not as lonely as we thought. Maybe the world isn't perfect, but our concept of it is. If lonely loves us so much, then a lot of different parts of people in the universe must really love us, too. Hello, lonely. *It's very nice to meet you again.*
since this comment section seems like a massive love-life confessional, I to, have the sweetest girl once this weird break thing is over ... how we started was in the weirdest way, our first real convo was at a party at my place, where a baking tray fell on her head while she was dancing, cute af before that she had visited but I had just passed through the living room. before that I went to the office to hand in an assignment, she was the one to come to the desk, the only thing to do to kill the office boredom. before that, I had sent the same office some emails from my exchange uni, she was the one replying to my questions, before that, on a date with another girl there was a band playing, all the musicians sucked, except for one girl singing with an accordion. I told my then gf they should drop the whole band and just leave her on stage. with everything going on, even before we had the first conversation, makes me believe there is more to this girl, and over nine months after the incident with the baking tray, I know for sure. She, unfortunately, is not so sure. We both have issues, which we didn't realize until we met. She seems to think she needs to sort those out on her own, I wanna tell her that I am her partner no matter what. We have shit, but we do this together. Perhaps the coming few months are simply going to be 'complicated', but for me, it is really straightforward. I love her.
I could never imagine that someone on the internet would become someone very special to me, she was in the dark, now I'm making her a better person, because she is someone I love and appreciated a lot and because I want to see her happy
OMG I totally fall in love with this playlist! Just really reminds me of how much I love and adore my bf... We met when I first moved to the US, and he lives right across from me. I instantly fell in love with him haha, but we were so young back then. We went to the same school, rode the same bus, and I would sometimes come over to see how he's doing. I always think of him and imagine us together even though I knew I don't have a chance. By the end of that year we stopped talking.. Simply because I confessed to him, but by paper ;-; We never see each other again. I went to a different school at that time. We forgot about each other as well when I move 10 minutes away. I saw him again on my last year of high school, 3 years later. I was surprised, but my feelings are gone at the time. Still, I would often peek at him at lunch whenever I see him. Then we never see each other again. One day, my mom asked me who was messaging her (she doesn't know English) and she saw my name on the texts. I read and it was him! I was so shocked. I gave him my real number and he asked me to hang out, then after a couple dates, my feelings just grow and grow. Now I just can't even get him off my mind. It's so weird how we met as neighbor and as close friends, forgot about each other for 4 years, then back together as lovers. I just can't believe it! But I'm so happy, he's my first love, and wish that we will be together for a long time! :)
@@analdestroyer8000 sadly we parted ways because of some disagreement and he straight up ignored me for 2 weeks :( it's been more than 6 months now since we broke up haha
the moment I realized how much she was starting to mean, I wrote a poem with the words "I didn't know you'd become this important". haha this reminds me of it :)))
Niklas Peaceman yes. thank you. its only have been a month but im totally fine now. i realize that he wasnt even for me and its still too early for those things. time will pass together with the nice and bad things so we must go on as well.
Everytime i get feelings for somone,i pretend i dont have feelings for them and i often avoid them. But it makes me really happy to see all of you people being happy. And to those that are struggling,i hope you know that its only temporary and that your happiness is on its way. I hope you all find and keep your peace
The first time we spoke, it all seemed like such a normal friendship. After spending the entire night talking, I felt butterflies in my stomach, my heart was racing; he was the only one on my mind at any time of the day. I would wake up earlier to make sure I could surprise him with a good morning text. My entire soul and being were devoted to this man - and then he started growing distant. Slowly, he lost interest. Now, he avoids me and makes me feel like I am worthless. These sounds channel the same emotions as I was experiencing during the first times of said relationship. I don't know how Lo-Fi artists do that, but you have some special talent with channeling emotions in music and melodies. Thank you for this emotional yet beautiful mix. ❣
I don't have a boyfriend. Romantic right? iM A SINGLE LADY- Where are the other single people,I feel left out because of these comments talking about their girlfriend/boyfriend sINGLE SQUAD WHERE ARE YOU-
THANK. YOU. SO. MUCH!!!!!!!!!! This mix makes me happy. And plus, the title fits perfectly. I met a boy this year and he makes me the happiest person ever because he's the only person at my age who talks to me on the bus. He may not look the best on the outside but on the inside he is so sweet and he is sooooo nice to me. We relate to a lot of things. We both like to draw, we are awkward, and we both have weird clothing styles. I just hope he likes me back. (I think he does because he acts different around me than he does other girls, but in a good way) Love is my favorite thing :)
here comes a sappy story, so yeah enjoy . . . . from the first day of 5th grade i’ve liked him. I barely remember it, but I remember seeing him and just going “wow. He’s reaaaaaaallly cute.” But not in a typical way. Like, he was the only one ever for me type of way. I remember getting flustered and extremely nervous every time I would bump into him, and barely talking to him that first year. When 6th grade started, I was not as shy as I was the year before, so I was ready to try and talk to him. Only then I realized my brain can somehow comprehend multiple crushes at the same time, so for about 3/4 of that year I liked this other boy, but then he left. I still talked to the orig guy more than 5th, because we had an elective class, spanish, and english together but not much. Fast forward to the beginning weeks of 7th grade. I was ready to start anew with him, because there was no one to get in my way now. I started talking to him a bit more, we shared perf arts and PE and a whole art block together, where we just sit and talk. Then came the class trip week. We went to Yosemite National Park for our 7th grade trip. I sat in the same couple of rows as him on the bus there. He was also in my trail group, and I spent 75% of my day with him every day. He soon actually considered me to be his friend, and every time he said that my heart would just throb. We soon came back, and as more time has passed we’ve hung out more together. We are now actual pretty good-ish friends, and hang out a lot when we have class together and before/after school/lunch. I hope one day I can tell him how I feel, but not yet. Anyway, that was it. I will update this later. bye *Update* Hey! so uhhh anyway hi bye
feel in love with my bestfriend she felt the same way yet i still ran i still ran from the pain that may or may not have been...i fear my own happiness
He is the kindest, sweetest, most gentle human being I've ever met. A mix of rainy nights in his truck listening the the doors, the smell of cinnamon, weed, and menthol cigarettes looming over him like a comforting blanket, laughing as we make sarcastic inside jokes together, hot cocoa at midnight in summer, because we don't want to go home. He's my safety net and my fiercest protector, but he's also my teddy bear and warmest cuddler. And sometimes it feels like he's all I have in this world, which makes me jealous because I know he has so many other people he can talk to and rely on... sometimes it's almost like I'm just lucky that he's wasting so much time on me
Sigh, as always, you always know how to write the kind of title that'll make the feels explode, since it compliments the music and beginning dialogue. Always great listening to them! They always make me feel happy and sad. 😊
Dimsum33 me too honestly. Same situation and it's like I don't want to try and even tell them how I feel because I fear I might lose that friendship with them
I think that maybe it's a good idea to always share your feelings. However, never expect anything more from them. They don't owe you a relationship, and you're completely right. That's more than okay. They're still your best friend. With that said, they're your best friend. You can't possibly ruin it. If they are your friend, they'll accept it. Hell, they probably already suspect it. Now they just know you really love them and will support them
I cant wait to find the person that makes me feel this way, someone who i cant get my mind off of every second- every hour of the day. Dont worry, ill wait for you
It was during a hot summers day, back home in Yashio, Japan. Our school got out later than usual that day. I saw her while waiting for a train to pass, so I could run home and play with my best friend. She’s a cute, petite girl, introverted and shy. The moment I laid my eyes on her, she shuffled away. I laughed at her quietly in the back of my head. I had considered myself somewhat shy, but she was on a whole new level. I didn’t really care about her, not back then, anyway. We have our last subject in the same class, and she sits halfway across the cafeteria during lunch. We started nodding to one another while passing through the halls, nothing but just a simple nod, I was happy someone was giving me actual attention, instead of using me as a coping for boredom, as my friends sometimes did. Once during our last hour, History, I was studying a book about coordinates, because it simply fascinated me for no clear reason. She ran up to me hastily and stuck a sticky note on the back of my hand, and it simply read; “I wish you succeed” “Wish you succeed” “You succeed” “You succ” I didnt quite get it at first, but after staring at it like my math book was speaking Greek, I gave a slight chuckle, and pocketed the sticky note. We kept nodding, and passing jokes on sticky notes, until I found out I was madly in love. I’ve never felt a burning love for anyone, but this girl sparked that emotion in me. After a couple more notes, a friend of mine told her that I liked her, even though I’ve never brought up the girl to them. She confronted me the next day, while we were waiting for the train, and said in her shy voice. “A friend of yours told me that you like me.” I chuckled, I was out of words. I was so embarrassed with myself, but I gave a slight, “Yeah..” And she followed up with “And I said: He know’s I’m gay, right?” A girl I’ve been madly in love with for a couple months was gay. I wished a future for us, boyfriend and girlfriend for a week, best friends, or maybe even husband and wife. But my fantasy crumbled to the ground at her sharp words. I haven’t turned in her direction since, For I am disappointed in myself. I’ll move on, eventually.
The title reminds me of my girlfriend. We saw each other a few times- just a friend of an acquaintance of mine. She then started to move into the main "group." But, was just another wacky, energetic girl that I would talk to from time to time. I found out she lived in the neighborhood when we started to get closer. I'd walk her home from time to time, we hardly knew each other, despite the times we would goof off. And those walks home, after almost a year of her just being a face in the crowd, I fell in love. I'd never done so before. I brushed it off. I keep pushing it down, saying that I was just confused. I didn't love her. I couldn't. Right? Shes a female. Just like me. I knew she was gay, but I thought it was just silly wishing to think she would fall for me too. Even when I thought it was ridiculous. Even when every night, I would stay up, staring at the ceiling and spending hours thinking of her- debating if I loved her or not. We were just close friends. Just close friends, I keep repeating when my heart fluttered at the sight of her. When I would dash through the hall just so I could see her in between classes. When I would hug her, and want to be near her, no matter where we were, or what we were doing. And when I was down, she was the one I went to. My friends would tease us, saying we liked one another. I always denied it. I only truly knew when I was so worried about who her crush was. When she said she liked this girl- but wouldn't say. Wouldn't tell me. I hoped, and hoped and hoped it was me, and still I told myself I didn't love her. Not like that. And when she said it was another girl, It broke my heart. Shattered it. She deserved to be happy- deserved it, and for some reason, the fact that she had found she loved someone else split my heart in two. A week later, we were on a phone call after she had a hard day. She was in another state at the time when she said she had lied about who she loved. When she said she had loved me this whole time- for almost a year, and had thought over and over about telling me. But she thought I was straight. I thought I was straight. She tried to deny it too- like I had. She told me when she lied, she was terrified of me finding out. Was surprised when I took her aside and asked her. Practically begged her to tell me who it was. A week after that- a week after I felt happiness I hadn't ever felt. Not this strong. Not this colorful, and bright and exciting. A week after that, I asked her to be my girlfriend. We've been dating for a few months now, and I've never been happier. Have never wanted to spend time with someone so much, have never felt so empty when someone leaves. She makes me so, so happy. My firelight during a cold winter storm. And its so strange to think, hardly two years ago, I hardly knew her. Barely thought about her. She was just another face in the crowd. And now, she seems to be the only person I see- lighting up the room with her smile, her laugh. Honestly, when I am older- I hope we are still together. With all of my heart. I want to live with her, to wake up every morning to find her by my side. I want to build a life together. I want to be there when she gets home from a bad day, and be there while we go on our many adventures together in the future. I want to be there to purpose, to cry and laugh with her. To call her my wife. To grow old and die with her. Its strange to think I want all of this, as a girl just barely turning into an adult, but this is what I wish. And it does not scare me to think that. Overwhelm me to look to the future and see her by my side. For the rest of my life. My, darling, my firelight. I love you. So very much.
ohmygod i relate so much except im pretty sure shes straight and im too scared to confess ;-; i can just hope it'll turn out like your story, so cute :)
reading everyone's stories, it makes me happy to think that everyone has been living such cute relationships and are now listening to this song. i also feel kind of upset and envious with yall seeing as to how yall have found such important people in your lives, while i'm here, and i'm yet to find such a beautiful relationship much like yall's. sure, i do have friends, but more often than not, they make me feel outcast. no one cares about my qualms and no one bothers to listen. they only do if its a juicy secret, otherwise you're practically on your own. they just don't care enough to listen. I've tried deepening our relationships, but somehow they always manage to make the conversation about them. they also tend to just leave, after you've helped them go through their own hardships, so I'm kind of left in the dust. throughout being with said "friends" I've seen myself grow more conscious, over what i say, what i wear, everything. and now i also tend to just catch myself apologising for everything; a joke, a statement, a comment, an opinion, etc. it's upsetting, really. i just hope that someday, I'll be able to find that special person whom I can share everything with, and be there for me when i need them, as much as i would be there for them when they need me. i'm sorry for being so whiney. i know this playlist is supposed to bring positivity and all i've been is negative, but i just really needed to vent. now im just vicariously living through everyone's great friendships in the comment section, as a way to cope or cheer myself up i guess. thank you everyone, for sharing.
so its quarantine and i didn't study, just lazed around playing games and my best friend introduced me to his junior. (my best friend is 19, this guy is 18 and I'm 16) so we played and talked a lot. we got along really well and i didn't realise that i began to fall for him. i hated that because he's totally out of my league: sporty, smart, older and going to apply for uni but the worst part was that we're in different countries. i migrated last year so my best friends are all in my home country. i can't stop thinking about him and he always makes me smile and when i'm talking to him i can breathe and be myself without being judged. it has been three months since i met him and i never thought he would mean this much to me honestly.
I really fell for him when he calmed me down from a panic and made it seem like the world had just melted away. To be honest, I've never felt this way before for anyone, but his gentle smile, this silly glasses and the way he always squinted at the whiteboard because he can't see, his strange obsession with turtlenecks, and those thoroughly impressive pen tricks; with that he grabbed hold of me and I haven't ever wanted him to let go.
I've found this person who is super special to me and I know I'm special to him. We've barely known each other for a year and I feel like if he ever leaves me I'll break down, he's like family to me. I know it's clichè but, I'll go anywhere with him. When I met him I was an absolute weirdo, I was wearing two hats stacked on top of each other because I didn't know which hat to pick, and I was blasting 90's music from the speaker in my back pocket. (What an interesting first impression.) I walked into his house cause it was a family gathering. When I was done hugging everyone I turned off my music and that's when he came out of his room all awkward, his mom introduced us. I awkwardly waved at him and he smiled slightly. He invited me into his room so I looked around and noticed a game at the time had only been out for almost a year, I asked: "You play bo4 too?" That's when it clicked for both of us. It's pretty funny actually because he told me that he thought I was going to be one of "those" people because of past experiences. But as soon as he saw my two hat-wearing ass he knew that I was incapable of being that.
I know I'm late but this is my story: This was about 3 years ago, he was 13, I was 12. I had made a Twitter account earlier that year, and I can't remember when, but he followed me and I said "hi", he said hello back, and we kept talking. After around 6 months he said "goodnight ily xxxxxxxxxx" and I said "I love you too" and that's sorta how we started saying I love you regularly with purple hearts. At some point we moved to Instagram, last year I got to hear his voice, it's so beautiful. Then even better I got to see what he looks like, he has low self confidence and says that he looks ugly. But I think the opposite, i think he looks absolutely beautiful, I will love his no matter what happens. We've been there for each through the happy times and sad times. The only thing that can stop us now is death itself. Too bad we can't hug, kiss, hold hands, and most especially cuddle. Time zones suck a lot, but even though it's a six hour difference, is still think we will make. I will tell you guys more in a year, and maybe even at 18. 💜💜💜
I met him in 6th grade. I made some fanart and gave it to a teacher who decided to hang it up, and a girl recognized it and asked who made it. Coincidentally I was the only other person in that room and waved, and I made my first friend in three years. But what mattered was when she introduced me to her other friends. At the time, he was a girl, but I still liked the vibe from him. We discovered that even though we were almost polar opposites, we actually had a lot in common. We were both artists, were living through hard times, and had similar morals. Eventually we became inseparable and for the first time in a long time, I felt loved. I actually had a friend group that made me feel like I belonged. And it was amazing. Even when I moved away I kept in contact with him, as he started his transition and I continued with my unending support. High school was tough on him and I tried to do what I could despite covid issues. Then I got my first crush and funnily enough it was him, and he was the first person I ever "kissed" (on the cheek) I know we will never be together, since the feelings are not reciprocated. But we will be friends for a long time. He makes me feel heard, loved, and happy. I do my best to do the same to him. To anyone that needs a friend? Sometimes all it takes is just reaching out to one person. Had that girl never gotten to know me, I never would have met this amazing guy.
•I fell in love with my best friend •A year later she likes me back •We go out •Two days later it's over and we're not friends. Phoenix if you're reading this I'm sorry, I still don't understand why you broke my heart like that but I'm sorry for nothing. :)
Stoniest Dust Mmmhhh. . If the guy I love would ask me that, I wouldn't hesitate for å second. I would say "YES!!!" right away... My best dream ever! 💕💖💕💗💕
Life has been so hard for me recently with horrible family problems and debilitating health issues and extreme loneliness caused by being stuck at home with all that and I was just really feeling like I needed lo-fi. I'd never really listened to it before. But I came to find some videos I liked and I found your stuff and I really feel like it's been helpful for me to feel peaceful and relax. Thank you so much for sharing! 🙏💗
Love is such a weird thing. You can hate it or fear it. But, i just can't be happier with it right now. Got a new friend who is just shinning in beauty with her looks. Her personaility as well is quite different. I don't know though, i clicked with her. Kinda And she did as well we talk every so often and it just feels amazing. I've even wrote a whole song about her and my doubts. I feel as if I'm just gonna get friendzoned... so I'll be taking it very slow for now💙
Without lofi I dont know where I would be today. It has changed me for the better and I'm just so happy that I found the music genre when I did. I have cried while lightening to lofi, smiled while listening to lofi, created stories in my head while listening to lofi. It just taught me to care... care about people and care about myself. Thank you for this amazing mix of songs 💕
I never thought I was capable of a feeling as strong and pure as the one I have everytime I think of you. I kept to myself all throughout my life, enjoying the comfort of my loneliness rather than making shallow attempts at meaningless interaction. Now I understand the emotion behind the seemingly random grins people get when staring at a person they admire. Love. Adoration. Maybe even a little infatuation. I thought I was stronger without relying on someone like that, but in truth I was weaker without someone by my side. I have learned that a little weakness is okay sometimes. A crack in my shell turned into an explosion of my emotional barriers, and I was oblivious while it happened. Too distracted by the way you smile at a joke, how your brows furrow when you focus, the way fiddle with your bottom lip after losing yourself in your thoughts. It's been almost two years officially, but I can now honestly say I fell when you first gained the confidence to introduce yourself; and I didn't fall, I plummeted down a journey of learning what the word love means. I'm still falling, and every now and then I feel myself falling a little faster when you tell me you feel the same. I love you
"When you left us, I couldn't stop crying. I had never met you, but I felt like I have known you forever. I never realized what I had, until it left me. A place in me, now, feels empty without you here. I wish I could have met you. In a different time, In a different place. And for those around you, I hope they feel better too. I hope you rest in peace." ~Rest in Peace~ Lizzy_Winkle - Oct 17, 2004 - Nov 29, 2019
you don't know how much u loved someone until they are gone... in 8th grd I met his boy and it was love at first sight, he really cared for me, my parents didn't like that we instantly started to be a "couple" so they tried to sperate us but we still talked. he really made me feel lovley but then he left for the summer to his mothers house and a few days before he came back he said we need to go separate paths..i was young and super down with my anxietyand he just coudlnt take it. he was so afraid id be the one to leave him but hes the one who left me...but now im over him but he just turned out to be a lair and just loved for entertainment. the feeling of heartbreak is horrible, but music like this realy helps the pain..thank u. everyone just know u r a beautiful masterpiece! u r life and deserve all the love in the world! be happy. smile and go eat something. food is good
I had been dating her friend and she slowly became my best female friend. She was awkward and quiet and only ever listened to me rant about my crushes and ex’s. But one day, I realized this was who I wanted to be with a year later. Now me and her are so much more, but we’re still best friends. Thanks Hazzard for being there❤️
I met him, went out with him, but didn't realise how much he made me feel me until we parted ways. We're still friends but he changed so much that it's hard to tell whether the person i dated was him or not.
holy crap i'm in love with the second song, especially the beginning of it. where the guy confesses. but when you hear that you know that you are important to that person. the girl's half-stutter shows exactly how you feel when you realize. even if you say no, you two are still important to each other. if she said no, that doesn't mean he's not important. she just doesn't have feelings that way.
I had no idea I would still think of you 6 years later... I can't forget you and I don't want to forget you... You probably do not even remember me but you gave me a reason to keep living so thank you
so i met this one girl through random online friends. i didn't talk much to the random ones, i'm generally really bad at social interaction. i can't remember the exact moments when we met but it only makes sense that we probably played few matches together. back then i was an absolute tryhard when it came to that game, i loved every bit of it and wanted to get to professional levels in it. after few ranked matches, we agreed to play troll games in a larger gamemode and honestly i still remember some of them. i couldn't stay alive for long so when i died, she went on a search to find my toolbox and bring it to the spot i died in. it was wholesome. some time passes by, we end up playing ranked more frequently and talking on discord. i had found a genuine teammate to play and talk to. we later on had to leave behind two of our random teammates and play duo to get to higher ranks. at that time i was promising to her to get her to high ranks and support her even after it. time goes by, we find more friends to play ranked with and used my old solo clan to get extra exp. thus asterism grew and i loved it. sadly, my mind couldn't handle the amount of time i spent on the game and i lost motivation to play it. i kept talking to my friends but played only the necessary matches. my potato phone didn't help the motivation either. i did come back for few seasons to help the others but my mental health didn't help the situation. fun games and a talking, i can't remember much about those months but i got into an argument with one of the teammates. i had been clingy because of my earlier promise and snapped because i felt left behind. it was my motivation that made me be left behind, not the teammate. not sure if that was when i told that i wanted to leave the team. i felt like i had fucked up and considering my past experiences, i knew this could lead to me being banned from the group server real soon. i had made my original duo teammate cry and couldn't forgive myself. we got over the argument soon enough and i became better friends with the one that i argued with. i think around this time i confessed that i really cared about my duo teammate. i get the feeling that my earlier duo teammate didn't take that experience well, i think it stuck with her or affected her. fast forward to early 2020 and my duo teammate seemingly becoming biased. i got too mad about the fact that she was favoring the newer teammates over our second semi-original teammate. i talked to her about it and my feelings had taken control over me. of course i ended up getting silence treatment over my huge amount of texts. this continued on for days and i was already giving up and suggesting that we just talk it over and make up. some might guess what happened after those days. i ended the friendship with my duo teammate, requested to have asterism deleted or given back to me as a solo group because it meant a lot to me. fairly idiotic but the name was erased from the group and these days it sits as an unoccupied clan on my abandoned account. i lost my dream of playing in one of the game's tournaments, the motivation to start over and quite frankly, the person that i supposedly loved. it's been at least 2-3+ months, i haven't gotten a grip on my mental health and i'm hopping from a game to another. i've already considered giving up on social life and just becoming really quiet. my words only hurt others, i can't keep friends for long because of it. i can't get friends that easily because of it. but you, the one reading this.. please, stay safe during these times and after all of this. you will get happiness, we both will. it might not come today or tomorrow but one day it will. i adore you no matter who you are and what you do, you deserve all good in this world.
*ピーチ_ミルク* The game was Identity V. It's kind of like DBD but quite a bit more colorful and the character have a doll-ish bodies. It's been a long time since I last played it so I'm not sure if the gameplay has gotten any better yet
she was one of the most special people in my life and has even lead me away from suicide and i thank her for that she has got to be the person i can talk to and chill with the most she and i known each other since 3rd grade and then i thought she was just a normal girl intill i started to talk to her and hang out with her she is amazing :) just love this title it fits my life perfectly
we met at a summer camp, I didnt have any friends at the time, and she was the first person to ever accept me as the summer camp went on, we started to get progresively close. then the summer camp ended. summer went on, and near the end od summer i decided to text her. we started talking and agreed to meet each other, shortly after meeting, we started dating. unfortunatelly we broke up after like two months. we became best friends again. and ever since that moment i havent stopped loving her and i love her to this day. i love you Natalia
This couldn't have popped up in my recommended at a better time. I met this girl a few weeks ago and it seems like we've really started to hit it off. She's funny, a joy to talk to, and laughs at my stupid poop jokes, so obviously ideal women material right there. I've been more of an introvert but after meeting her I've managed to gain new found confidence. I've felt that I've wasted majority of my high school years but now I'm gonna be a Senior and I want to make my last year as a "kid" count. I like this girl a lot. Like A LOT a lot. Sure, in many cases we're polar opposite's but I feel like we understand each other and I hope everything turns out well between us. Wish us the best of luck!
Last March... ah.. I was still in 8th grade, and I had two classes with *him*. Math and orchestra. The seating chart in math had me sitting next to him. I had just thought of him as another person. He was quiet- so was I. During class, I would hide my face with my hands or hair so he wouldn't be able to see me watching him doodle. Watching him draw out all these amazing scenes and seeing the quiet boy's imagination and thoughts being put on paper.. I started to take an interest in him. One day, I decided to pull out one of my doodles I was proud of and just leave it on my desk, completely- and purposely- in his field of view. I hoped he would notice me. "Hey, that looks really good!" I had never heard him speak before, and suddenly, there he was.. complimenting my art. I couldn't help but turn a little red and mumble a "Oh, it's not /that/ good.." Fast forward a month-ish, we had a required assembly thing for orchestra. As we were going into our school's auditorium, I quickly realized that I was about to be forced into sitting next to a boy that hated my guts. Luckily for me, as soon as that boy realized who he was sitting next to, he threw a fit and stood to find a new seat. Quiet-math-boy was watching the whole thing... he kindly took the seat next to me that the other boy refused to sit in. I was able to enjoy the rest of that assembly, laughing, talking, and joking with this no-longer-so-quiet math boy. I fell for him a bit. Fast forward another month... there was an orchestra field trip coming up. This field trip was not required, and it costed nearly a hundred dollars. And it wasn't really an ordinary field trip either. Part of it was a performance with the orchestra, but the rest of it was spending the day at an amusement park. I wondered if math boy would be going... and slowly gained the courage to ask. When we got to make our own new seating chart in math, I chose to sat as near to his as possible, and eventually did ask him. "Hey.. are you going on the field trip..?" "Yeah. Are you?" "Mhmm." I mumbled and blushed because I wasn't expecting him to ask me the same question.. After that brief conversation, I spent many weeks just imaging spending the day at the amusement park with him. Going on roller coasters with him. Laughing and talking with him. I wanted so badly to ask if he'd hang out with me on that day, but I just couldn't. I felt we weren't close enough, and I realized it was just a silly thing I imagined. One day, I decided to message him on an online platform I knew we both used, and we had some short conversations here and there. I never was able to ask him to hang out. But, guess what. A month later, the day before the field trip, we had an awkward conversation online. I told him I had no one to hang out with and was scared I would get lost if I was going to be by myself. He offered to hang out with me for the day. That day honestly, was the most fun day I had in my life. On the long bus ride to the amusement park, the first little while was quiet. We sat next to each other, and we could both tell that the other person was nervous- yet somehow, we ended up starting a conversation. The time flew by like it was nothing, and before we knew it.. we were already at the park! It started out a bit... awkward- "Where do you want to go first?" "Uh, I don't know.. where do YOU want to go??" "I asked first, you choose. Also, I don't care where we go." "Uhhh..." We actually just stood there for 5 minutes trying to think of what to do. Throughout the day, we went on only 5 rides total. We spent most of our 7 hours there just talking. It was honestly soooooo much fun. It was crazy how that morning, we had started out not even being able to wave at each other, but by the end of the day... we were comfortable enough that when I complained about my feet hurting and being tired, he said "You can rest your head on my shoulder if ya want." I took off my shoes and fell asleep- not on his shoulder.. I was too nervous. I chose to lean my head on the seat in front of us. However,,,,,,,,, when I woke up..! I was leaned on his shoulder!! Ahh!! When the bus ride back inevitably ended, he said multiple times that he had had "SO much fun" with me and "REALLY" wished the day wouldn't be over. The next week was the last week of school. On the third to last day of school, he tried confessing to me in person that he liked me.. but ended up doing it online later- and I of course, admitted that I liked him as well. I was so worried that the first guy that every confessed to me was about to go to waste because summer was right around the corner and we wouldn't be seeing each other for 3 months! But we ended up talking online every night for HOURS until about 3am sometimes. I was a 14 year old who was feeling like she was crazy in love. This "quiet-math-boy" and I are now both in 9th grade (which is still in Jr. High in my school district) and we hang out as much as possible during school. I still cannot comprehend how such an amazing thing like this happened to me and how I deserve someone as wonderful as him.. but I'm honestly so glad I have him. Next year, we'll both be 16.. we'll get to be an official couple..! Anyways... I could literally go on forever about him and all the amazing memories we share, but this comment is already WAY too long. Also, I know we may not last. But I do know that if we ever part ways, I'll be able to appreciate and look back happily on the lessons I learned and the experiences I had with him. P.S. I hope you find a special someone someday or find whatever it is that you're looking for in life.
If anyone's curious, here's a small update: We're both 16 now and that's sorta significant because our parents did not allow us to officially "date" until this age. So I guess we're actually a couple now, haha... except we haven't seen or talked to each other much since schools in our area closed due to COVID-19. Since writing the above comment, we went to that amusement park 2 more times with our friends, on field trips, once again. We had loads of fun. We also attended two formal dances at our high school (homecoming and preference). And we've hung out a few other times besides that, but still haven't had a real/planned date. We sadly had one planned- to go see a movie and get boba.. but movie theaters and basically everything else closed down a couple weeks before that plan ever began. During the school year, we would hang out in our free time at school and help each other with homework and assignments. We'd be there for emotional support and for good laughs. Apparently most of our grade either already knew we were a couple or found out quite easily when they'd see us holding hands in the hallways and hugging each other before going to separate classes. Everyone says they would always find it very adorable when they saw us holding hands in the halls and would say they were glad we've been together for so long and that they wish us the best. Or there are people who take more of a 'teasing' than a 'sincere' take on that and ask, "Will you invite me to your wedding??" Haha. At this point in time, after not seeing him since March 18, and barely exchanging words over online platforms the past couple months, I'm not sure how things will be with us when the world returns to 'normal'.... if that happens. I do feel as though I have grown and changed quite a lot in these past few months- not in a bad way.. but I'm just quite unsure of how that will affect things. :) Regardless, I will keep living my life, and he his.. even if things don't work out. I know that I will cherish the memories we had and the lessons I learned forever. :) And I thank for reading this if you got this far, and I hope you have a good day. :))
When reading this it reminded me of Dork diaries! And I hope that something as cute as this happens to me either in the school I am now or when I start college!
The title used to make me smile, now it just makes me think, "Finally, I'm free from the toxicity." She didn't mean to hurt me, but hurt me so much, tore me mentally to shreds. I didn't know how bad I needed to leave after leaving her, and hearing someone say that I'm a good person. She made me think I was a mean, horrible person, just because I was blunt. After hearing those words while in co-op in Genshin (which she luckily didn't ruin for me), I almost had a mental breakdown of how bad I needed to hear that. So, hey, you're a good person, just because your blunt or dont like dumb people, doesn't mean your a bad person or mean. You just have preferences and like to be understood. You did good today.
I never imagined that that new girl at school would be the first thing I think when I wake up, the reason of my hapiness, the one that can make my day just with a simple smile. Idk, sometimes I think I'm the luckiest guy alive. She's just perfect, in all her details. Someone I didn't know 3 months ago, now is the most important person to me. Thank you, I love you so much you can't imagine.
I met you in the classroom, you were my best friend and soon after my lover, my first and only love! Or at least I thought so, we lived the best moments together, I dared to do things that I would never do for anyone else, we were so happy, now you are just a beautiful memory. -The day I lost my love and my best friend-
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Can't seem to find some of the artists in description could you please check it out?
@Feardog Bro thx for such a gift of playlist, love you
you're a angel sz
Who is the artist
if there are so many lonely people in the internet, why haven't i found anyone in real life
better not find anyone, than the wrong ones..trust me, dude
too busy listening to lo-fi hiphop
maybe they hide their lonely side(????but i think everyone iz lonely tho((deep inside maybe owo who knows hhh ˋ( ° ▽、° ) just thinkin
We often hide ourselves from others because we don't want to get hurt or hurt others. So we just sit and watch and listen to videos or do nothing, trying to let our dreams overtake reality. We feel better talking to others as long as they're not right next to us physically. So hello, lonely people. Is it that we're lonely, or do we just have lonely thoughts? Perhaps we hide ourselves too much. Maybe we're not as lonely as we thought. Maybe the world isn't perfect, but are concept of it is. If lonely loves us so much, then a lot of different parts of people in the universe must really love us, too. Hello, lonely. *It's very nice to meet you again*
cause they are being lonely at home on the internet probably
She punched me in the 4th grade,
She's now one of the best people I've ever met,
So thank you, Mandy, for punching my gutm
Fricken best love story ever
Make keep remember about 'The Grim Adventures'
***Silent Voice***
***Koe no katachi***
lol this is a anime, watch it and you will understand, its film.
OH MY GOD I LOVE THIS COMMENT IT MADE ME LAUGH SO HARD AHAH IM SORRY YOU GOT PUNCHED
Wish the guys I headbutted in middle school and high school said that to me.
This👏Title👏
I remember when I first met my boyfriend I thought "lmao he looks like Ron Weasley" and walked away. Super romantic.
Lmao
oml xD
woah a comment about the title that isn't a love poem. and its funny, too.
PensolDoodles i can relate so much to that! my boy also looks kinda like him he tells me that alot of people comment about that and its so funny because he kinda does they both have so many of the same features like red hair blue eyes and freckles lol. but to me i love him no matter what and besides he is mine anyway lol.
I don't have a boyfriend,it's soo romantic
𝑇𝘩𝑒𝑛 𝑌𝑜𝑢 𝐿𝑒𝑓𝑡...𝐴𝑛𝑑 𝑇𝘩𝑎𝑡'𝑠 𝑊𝘩𝑒𝑛 𝐼 𝐹𝑖𝑛𝑎𝑙𝑙𝑦 𝑅𝑒𝑎𝑙𝑖𝑧𝑒𝑑 𝑖𝑡.
Jesus, that was deep
Story of my life
Kinda cheesy, but also true.
500 likes for yaa
“Sometimes everything isn’t everything to everything else. To you, it’s a person.”
Peanut Lizard “to the world, you are just someone - but to someone, you are the world”
@@sagessolace3622 "you might think you're useless but there always someone who finds you useful"
this title describes so perfectly how i feel about this girl i met just a couple months ago on IG.
i took a chance to DM her and it turned out to be the best decision of my life. we speak almost every single night. she's so kind, wise, caring, dorky, sensitive and downright beautiful. I wanna marry her. i honestly do. the problem is she lives on the other side of the planet and over the course of us getting closer to one another she admitted she felt guilty for making me fall for her and said she didn't want me to wait and i totally understood. fast forward a few weeks later and i just couldn't stop imagining my life with her and i told her "fuck it, I don't care anymore, I will wait for you, i wanna marry you one day mi amor". she got emotional and i seriously fell harder in love with this dorky princess. every now and again i catch myself smiling like an idiot at how much she's impacted my life. on the flip side i'm afraid that i might never see her and that we'll never walk side-by-side. god i love this girl......well thats my sappy story. thanks for reading this far.
P.S if ever i do meet up with her... i'll be back to comment what went down. and if the worst should happen then i'll comment on that too....maybe. peace everyone.
*First edit: (Saturday 26 May 2019)*
to everyone who has been patiently waiting for an update I'm so sorry to inform you that Valerie and I broke up. It happened back in March or so. Out of respect for us I will not mention why it happened but it's truly ok. We're just friends now and that's all that matters. We shared 10 glorious and happy/tough months together so I'll still always care about her. Though we're not in love anymore... I'll always love her. Always. I'm so sorry for my late ass replies... Life is so hectic especially work wise. So to everyone who supported us over the course of this comments rise on this video .... Y'all are so sweet and honestly I'm so proud to be part of this community. Thank you all... All of your stories really did stay with me. Love you all and be safe.
P.S All my love from Kenya. And since we're so close my real name is Eddie. Bye guys and thanks for everything.
...I'll miss you, till we meet again in another comment section...
*Second edit: (Thursday 10 October 2019)*
So a feels trip brought me back to this video and damn did nostalgia pimp slap me 😂😅.... guhdamn was I so sappy! To all you beautiful mofos who still come to this specific comment of mine and feel some typpa way.... Y'all are too cute and so heartwarming. Thank you.... For those wondering... Val and I are still friends... Love is still there (occasional goofy call and text) uhhh oh yeah! I fell in love with this girl called Abby back in June and then got my heart broken recently by her lmao.... Professional lo-fi veteran I am haha... I saw some of y'all were asking for my IG it's *(eddie_ngatia)* and to some of my YT bros like *@Kashiwaszaki Sena* & *@Sassuke* + many more whom I've Interacted on here.... Hope y'all are ok and doing good and much more happier on the love front than I 😅😅.... So yeah it's currently 03:12AM here In Kenya....ya sad boi gotta hit the sack for work tomorrow....😒😒😒.... Idk when I'll be here again but yeah hit me up on IG if y'all wanna shoot the shit or whatever.
Bye for now and thank you all for everything. :)
*Third edit: (Thursday 12 March 2020)*
Uhhh hey again guys🤗, alot has gone down since my last update and boy oh boy has stuff happened😅😅.... Ok so I met this girl through Tinder (yeah Tinder😂😂 of all things huh jeez)... anywhooo... Little back story is that I've been on the tinder scene on and off over the years even back in SA but in all my life i was never EVER the one who got DM'd first so you can imagine my perplexed mug when she slid into my inbox *(oh yeah btw the girls name is Patricia)* haha almost forgot to mention that.
Moving along...we vibed and got to know each other then low and behold she asks for my number... bamboozled i was guys🤣🤣🤣 *insert surpised Pikachu face* lmao not kidding like guys I'm an average dude. [Skinny, dark AF, talk too much and weird AF] so at this point I'm thinking I'm getting punked but I kept my shit together and gave her my tens. Duh😂
Over the course of us getting to know each other over WhatsApp and the occasional calls... I fell for her... really fast...she understood where I was coming from with personal shenanigans and I did the same with her....we took our time to learn each other. God it felt so good falling for her but so scary. I told her all my secrets and heartache....from losing mom to other shit and she listened and didn't judge me she just was so....down to earth you know...idk she feels like sunshine.😅
On December 28th 2019 after another night of being sappy and the excitement of seeing each other IRL in two days time...she asked me to be her BF...(I KNOW RIGHT!!!??? WTF???) lmao is this some isekai anime plot?!?🤣😂💀 guys I was so floored but you know what's funny... I already knew I loved her...fast as that seemed...it felt right. My ass agreed right quick 😂 I ain't that dense haha...
So on 30th December 2019 we finally met in her city of Nanyuki here in Kenya...it was a nerve wracking taxi ride to her from my city. Eventually upon meeting her ...she giggled and tugged on my shirt and I turned to see her....she looked better than her pics and still managed to make me smile and snort all in one blow. We talked/goofed off & walked the rest of the day...got lunch...got ice cream....walked some more...she was so cute Jesus.... I eventually grew a pair and asked her for permission to kiss her....she said no cuz too many peeps were around so we walked to a secluded place of town...she was still so nervous and damn it made me love her more....we finally kissed and I fell into heaven.
The journey back was sad cuz I missed her the moment we hugged goodbye but we knew this was so right....
Over the course of 2020 we've met more and I (god I can't believe Imma say this on the internet much less YT but oh well) I lost my V-card to her 🙈🙈 haha yeah. I know I'm slow ok...stop your laughing😂😅
So it's been 3ish months of us dating and we know this is still the honeymoon phase so it's a fun aspect to make fun of😂.... she's a brilliant woman, turning 20 on the 26th of April and I'm so excited to spoil her. She's my little firecracker and I love teasing her forehead cuz it's a common thing with Kenyan girls 😂 she's beautiful and always manages to level me with her gaze...she has a lisp too....fuck i could go on and on about her to which she would kill me.
Guys I do sometimes get scared she'll switch on me but I manage to remind myself that to just treat her with respect, honour, loyalty and most of all take a leap of faith. So Patricia....on the day you turn 20 this upcoming April... Imma show you this comment and hopefully you like it & don't get weirded out.... you're probably reading this smiling like an idiot... so thank you for loving me, cherishing me and appreciating me. Baby nakupenda mingi mingi saaaaaannnnnnnnaaaaaaa ❤️. I'll always love you ok... I'm glad I met you and wouldn't trade it for the world. I truly know that you're my one and only. I can't wait to spend the next couple of days, weeks, months, years and decades with you. My little firecracker. ☕❤️🔥😈 *_Kisses your forehead_*
Goodnight guys.... Till we meet again. Gotta go sleep cuz tomorrow be work🤦🏾♂️😂 till the next update.
Bye bye from mine to yours. ❤️
....love Eddie.
*Fourth Edit: ( Thursday February 4th 2021)*
Hey all of you beautiful people, happy new year!! On yet again another Thursday hahahaha....hmmmmmmm 🤣🤣🤣
I've missed this online diary of mine.... I'll get right down to brass tax. Things with Patricia didn't work out. We broke up last week and it still hurts....so so so much. She called me last week Monday and told me she was feeling overwhelmed with everything (mind you she has felt this way before but I always managed to win her back) so I let her vent and say everything on her mind I then got everything off my chest and told her that she has to take a step back and look at the painting we've painted so far, with the blank canvas still left for us to complete....could she still walk side by side with me?.... and through her crying I could tell what her answer was....I let her go and it broke me. I didn't sleep that night.
I just can't stop crying knowing that it's over but I had to let her go... It was one of the toughest decisions I've ever had to make... There's no hate between us but we're not talking anymore cuz we both need to process what happened. So yeah that's where I'm at rn guys... I'm still learning to grieve the loss of someone who's still alive and it sucks. It just sucks. I miss her so much but I feel I made the right decision. I wish her all the best the multiverse has to offer. She's an amazing idiot. The best idiot ❤️.
Patricia I'll always love you....how you called my name, your smile, the way your brow scruffed up when you'd be deep in thought and how you slept so sweetly with your mouth kinda open....oh my firecracker I'll miss you dearly.....To my soulmate who wasn't meant to be.....I miss you, I love you, I appreciate you and I thank you. Unforgettable you'll remain. Thank you for loving all of me...and for accepting parts of me I didn't even know I had. I'll move on knowing our love didn't end but it became complete, just not with the two of us together in the end
And to you reading this....thank you for being so kind for following my story...till next time sweet stranger ❤️🤗
honestly in the same situation, though he only lives a few states away, it feels like he is so, so far away and i'll never be able to reach him. i love him with all my heart. i hope to hear what happens with you two
big phat loser i hope everything works out for you too!!
Shiiiit boy, you better let us know how that goes
I’ve been dating this girl across the continent for over a year now, and I know exactly how you feel, I met her about 3-4 months ago when I took a plane to fly over there for a couple days and I really truly hope you get the same opportunity. It was the happiest 2 days of my life and I know that you and this girl will do well. Good luck
Trainer Mike damn that really gives me hope dude!! i'm happy you got your opportunity to meet her. thank you!
my mind matured too fast for my heart to comprehend. now i find myself crying for her, yet i can't point my finger as to why.
crying useless tears is no fun in an adult world, but welcomed in a teenage soul.
Where's the "Love" button?
The like button cannot describe how much I love this mix
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Brezz [ it is in your heart. ]
its been nearly 3 years since I've made this comment, and I still find myself coming back to this playlist sometimes. Life went on, and everything is so different. This video perfectly captures my nostalgia, and I like to look back at my old memories while listening to this. Thanks Feardog, cheers mate!
The first time we met was in the halls of our lame high school. She didn't stand out at all, mumbling out a meek 'sorry' before hurrying off after we bumped into each other. I didn't think that I'd see her again, nor did I care.
The second time we met was at the library, as cliché as it sounds. I didn't wanna go home right away and figured I could kill time at the library, maybe even do a project if I was that bored. I was browsing the adults' section, searching for an erotica to make fun of when out of the corner of my eye, I see a petite girl trying to reach a book. Glancing around, I sighed at the realization that I was the only one who could help the girl. I grabbed the book off the shelf, reading the cover. American Sign Language. Looming over the girl, I noticed how plain she looked. Plain but cute. I handed her the book before walking off, trying to suppress the small blush covering my face. I stopped as she thanked me and looked back at her. "No problem... See ya."
The third time was surprising, and kinda tiring. We were both in a concert, a band I learned to love through my older sister. She seemed so out of place, a small quiet thing in an overcrowded and loud place. But she was grinning, yelling out the lyrics to my favourite songs. I carefully made my way to her, feigning surprise when our eyes locked.
The fourth time we met was during school. I had seen her walking with her friends and approached her, asking to be her friend. Blinking up at me, the girl smiled. "Sure."
We hung out a lot after that. My friends would be annoyed every time I ditched them for the girl, but left me be. Her friends would giggle and give her knowing looks every time I approached. Did they know? I mean, I don't like her; she's just chill and tolerable unlike other people. She'd roll her eyes at them and lead me away, starting the conversation about how her day has been so far. I'd stare at her, taking in her sparkling eyes and pretty smile. Her flushed cheeks and soothing voice. She used to be so reserved, letting me start our talks before she broke out of her shell. She soon began teasing me, flirting back with me, and I'd always feel my face heat up every time no matter how many times I tell myself that I should get used to it by now.
that was so beautiful bro glad u r happy my guy
aaa that was so cute!! You have really awesome writing skills! I hope you both are well and happy!
this was really nice to read i love this
ASK HER OUT
*thíѕ ѕhσuld вє α ɑղíʍҽ*
Still waiting for ~that~ person
Edit: I found him, we've been together for 1 year now.
Big hug to everyone reading this ❤️
same.. got crushed pretty often by now, but i got back up everytime and i might feel better than i ever did! maybe this one wont let me down
bruh everyone is waiting for that person, but no one wants to be that person
@@jacemike9 You're freaking right
Me too...
I found that person but they dont feel the same way
Well here comes my sappy story
Here I am 3 in the morning crying, hating myself and feeling depressed feeling like cutting, when my girlfriend is trying her hardest to calm me down telling me she loves me, telling me not to cut I never realized just how important I was too her until she sent me this and here I am crying like a little baby because i'm so happy with her
if she sees this, Quit making me fall for you more and more you little dork~
I'm happy that you have someone to stop you and help you get through that!
Yall still doing good?
You hugged me last night on the street in front of my house. My tears staining your shirt and my hair wet from the scalding shower I had just taken to try and release the sadness and betrayal I feel from my best friend, who defended someone who hurt my feelings greatly. I finally understand. All those times when you tell me “you’re all I have”. You are all I have right now. And to think our paths almost didn’t cross.
I met him online, not a dating website or anything.
As a lonley kid, as someone who was generally outcast by her peers I turned to introverted ways of entertainment. Story writing. On a website that was once fairly popular once called Chatango I used to roleolay. It became a home, getting lost in walls of words, crafting a story and world purely from imagination; role-playing became more than a past time to me, it became a sanctuary.
After years, it died down and it became harder to find roleplayers, and my real world life was at constant spiral of depression and my favorite outlet was burnt out.
Another set of years past and I had given up hope, letting myself slip into a dark tangle of depression. I lost myself, my way, and I scrambled through the ruins of a burnt escape.
Then came along a humble soul who didn't give off the vibe of someone who had been here for years, however in my desperation I enjoyed, and he was starting. Like breaking in pool.
From the looks of his profile I was expecting maybe a page, but no. He built a palace of words, he slowly recreated my outlet. He was like an angle resurecting my fallen castle. And just like my inner world, my life began to improve. That shine of light allowed me to see the toxicity of the world I let build around me and the closer we got, he helped me beat those sticky monsters. He was my companion in a war, and 2 years later I live with him, I worked with him, I sit here play the game with him while listening to this track. I love him.
Is this one of your roleolays or real life because either way it's beautiful
this is beautiful
💟😊Very lovely 😊💟
This is so sweet :(
lonely* role-play* "After years, it died down" (double space)* "and my real world life was at constant spiral of depression" (a, not at)* "Another set of years past" (passed, not past)* "had been here for years, however" (double space)* "Like breaking in pool" (double space, also what does this even mean)* "He was like an angle resurecting my fallen castle." (angel, not angle; resurrecting, not resurecting)* "and 2 years later I live with him, I worked with him, I sit here play the game with him while listening to this track." (double space between 'I' and 'live'; 'worked' is in an incorrect past tense; add an 'and' between 'here' and 'play')*
You're a writer, huh?
When I first met you the the halls of that school...
I never thought you would listen to me mumbling my story out loud.
But you did even though I didn't know or talk to you much you listened.
You listened to a story that didn't make any sense.
And then I listened to your story.
Then I realized that I didn't love her...
But I loved you.
I could never build up the strength to tell you.
Until the night that I couldn't hold it back.
You asked me if it was true.
I told you it was.
Then you told me you felt the same.
If you are reading this than thank you for listening to me tell my story.
You had no reason to listen to me but you did.
So thank you.
And if you have someone you love then just tell them.
You have nothing to lose.
But now it's been awhile and things have changed.
I told you so in the nicest way possible.
But you didn't like it.
You yelled at me saying,
"Didn't you say you love me!"
As if feelings don't chang
And as the days go bye it only got worse.
I'd make a joke and you would take it the
worst way possible.
The next year comes and I've changed.
I didn't forget about you because you
always would try to make people hate me.
But the thing that's the most different about
us is that I actually care about people and
I don't try to start arguments with people
To make them hate each other.
And people know that.
You always tried to get people on you're
side.
You're side that was just hate for me.
Soon I found out that someone who I
thought I could call a friend was with you.
I left them.
Rumors got around that I liked someone.
Pretty soon those rumors got to you.
As soon as you heard that you left who
you where with and got with them.
So if you do like someone
tell them.
You've got nothing to lose.
But keep in mind that people change.
Thanks again for reading my story.
The best part about this is that the person that
I liked broke up with her sooooo...
Karma is a bitch.
This made me feel courage to confess to someone who doesn't exist for me yet
@@nashic1563 I hope that someone for you dose exist now. If they don't than I'm sorry for ya.
Right now I'm just single and I feel like it's right for me. But if it's not for you than stop wasting time for someone to find you and go find them.
wow I'm late ok
everyone seems to be sharing these adorable stories about relating to the title, so I thought maybe I should share one too :))
it was the beginning of summer vacation about a year ago; I had somehow managed to get out of an extremely abusive relationship that would give me nightmares for months to come. I was extremely depressed and emotionally exhausted after the breakup, and I honestly was just wondering what the hell I was supposed to do next, and if I would ever be happy again or get over the trauma that guy left me with.
the three or so friends I had left after the drama surrounding my ex invited me to a discord server that summer. I felt very out of place there and didn't feel the need to tune in much.
But thanks to that discord server, I met a boy.
To be quite honest, I didn't think much of him at first. He was very kind, funny, good at video games, and had the most beautiful laugh I had ever heard. we spoke in public discord calls sometimes, but besides that, I didn't know all that much about him. my only real motive to get closer to him was to see if we could become more than friends so I could distract myself from the pain of my breakup. to be blunt, I just wanted to use him and nothing else.
but as we quickly grew closer, I discovered something about him.
he genuinely cared about me.
never once in my life had I ever met someone who cared about me as much as he did; he wanted to help me overcome my trauma. he wanted to get to know me better so he would know how to make me happy again. he said he believed in my ability to overcome what happened to me, and helped me finally realize I was so much better than the way my ex had treated me. he was there for me. he comforted me through my ugly crying, supported me when life was weighing me down, and (virtually) stroked my back when my ex showed up in my nightmares.
he told me "I've seen you when you forget your pain. I've seen you when you're happy, and honestly, you're beautiful. I want to help you be who you truly are again; a kind, compassionate, beautiful person."
it got to the point where we were on discord calls for over 48 hours straight. we fell asleep on calls, pulled all-nighters for each other, and played video games and talked any chance we possibly got. it seemed every second of the day he was right there with me in my ear.
and that's how I fell head over heels in love with him.
every time we were together, my cheeks heated up and I got stomach butterflies. it wasn't just his compassion that made me so happy, it was him as a person. just being around him or even hearing his name made me smile. I wanted to be with him every second of the day. I loved hearing his laugh, I loved watching him be happy. I had never felt more in love, more loved by anyone else, or more happy in a very long time.
it was a very happy summer being in unrequited love.
but eventually, it all had to come to an end.
it was the morning of his first day of the new school year. it was 3 am for me back home. I was very tired. he had just woken up to get ready for school, and we were both crying. we wouldn't be able to talk nearly half as much. we were going to miss each other very much and were considering not talking anymore in general.
but he told me he was happy because he felt like he had done his part to help me overcome my trauma. he told me to get out there and make new friends, to fall in love at my new school and live a happy life. and to remember that I'll always be his dearest friend.
and that's when I realized something else, too.
I didn't want to stop being friends.
I didn't want to forget the stomach butterflies and the rosy cheeks he gave me when he told me I was important to him. I didn't want to lose the self-confidence only he could give me at my lowest moments. I didn't want him to stop being my reason to keep going and move forward. I didn't want him to stop being my reason to keep living.
and so,
I told him I was in love with him.
he said he was in love with me too.
that day was nearly 9 months ago now. he and I have been the happiest couple alive ever since. he continues to support me through my anxiety and never for a second loses faith in me that I will continue growing as a person. the entire 9 months I've been his girlfriend, I never in my entire life have felt happier. (also he's asleep right now hehe)
we met up for the first time in person last February, and I plan to visit him mid-June this summer. he and I plan to move in together when we're older and eventually get married. we want to have lots of kids and live the rest of our lives together until we die.
and thanks to him, I've found the courage to file a report on my ex who abused me all those months ago.
I appreciate it if you've made it this far. this story is very dear to me and has changed my life forever. I hope you have an amazing day reader-person!! I love you!!
This warms my heart
I'm sorry that you had to go through that!! And I'm very happy for you and your boyfriend!! And I hope I get to meet someone who can help me get through the hard times! And is always their for me :)
I'm literally crying after reading that. It's such a beautiful story and now I realize how single I am ;-;
hope both of you are still together
You were just a familiar face in a chemistry classroom and my random choice to sit next to you lead us here. You make me incredibly happy.
this is my story too ĺ_ĺ T-T
❤ same here
same heree
i love these playlists 1) because the music is just so lovely and calming and 2) the comments are all just so beautiful and its like everyone is just bringing their heart and soul to this comment section and sharing things with people they haven't even met and connecting over this music and this same human search and experience of love and its just so beautiful
same dude, same
This is what I can define as true beauty in the interwebs of this society.
I agree
Really, the title relates to me. Found this one girl that meant a lot to me. We hung out a bit, had good conversations, and I developed feelings. But apparently, I'm not as important to her as she is to me, found out by asking. Sucks, but just gotta look forward to the person who thinks of me as important to them as I did to her.
Honestly I didn't know you would be the last thing I think of before i go to sleep. The first thing that occupies my mind when i wake up.
I didn't know I would be so happy to see your face. I didn't know you would be a part of me. You were my quest. Until you left me.
That's my story too, friend, sorry to say.
kunchok same here kid. Though..... i guess my love is finally with me again.
I hope you got them back my everything was pulled away from me and I'll just sit here and do my best to be okay till he's back.
Same story here, but I won't let it bring me down, if I was happy before, I can still be happy now, even though things are different than they were before
epic lol
The first year of our meeting was 3 years ago. We went from strangers to classmate to close friend . I still remember how you always tease me about how my favorite boy band are on the urge of breaking up . And I still remember back then that two friend of mine have a crush on you . And in all honesty , I never see anything special about you so I never understand why they have a crush on you . And that's how our friendship just pass by that year .
Then the second year , coincidentally , we are still classmates . Our friendship somehow rose to something different . Especially , when our friends start teasing us , shipping us together . And you never seems to be bothered by that . Your gesture towards me too , is somehow different . You always sit in front of me whenever i'm doing my work , poking my cheek with a rolled up paper out of nowhere , calling me cute , missing me whenever i'm gone even for an hour and just complimenting me when you are talking with your friend . I start to question my feelings for you . Do I like you ? -I guess I do- .
Then our third year which is 2018 , we aren't classmates anymore . We barely talked . But your friends always told me about you missing to talk to me and all . I just smiled to myself knowing that you still cares for me . We start messaging each other around may . I don't really remember what we talked about , but I am sure that it makes me happy . Then at the end of June , my classmates whom is a close friends of yours and mine told me that you confess on liking me heck you even said that you love me . Oh boy , that's when I'm sure that my feelings for you are 100% real because I never felt happier before . But then I start to think that you might probably messing around with me cause that's what boys around your age do . So I decided to ignore that , acting as if you never said that . Since then whenever we met at the corridor , its either me or you will turn away from the path we are walking on because of the embarrassment we felt . Luckily , we still manage to message each other . And on 23rd of October , you confessed to me directly and even thought I never give you a proper answer to your confession , you still call me cute when whenever we chat together , wishing good night,good morning , good afternoon just to make sure that i'll always have the good in my life , not wanting to see me being sad , telling me that you love me out of nowhere , and just making me happy . I figured out that you had already like me since the first time we met . I was in awe and just mad at myself for realizing it way too late .
_i am so happy that i met you_
That is so sweet!!! I wish someone felt that way about me. If you love them back, you should tell them your feelings for them too💖
@@tessa1655 same here
I'm in the exact same situation except we just met this year and just started hanging out side of school
Almost the same story I have except for the confession part because I was the first one who tell him (and he confesses back:D).
Your presence brought me joy. Whether i was holding your hand, sitting across the room from you, or even just on a phone call, I was happy. Im so lost now. Im just existing. Im sitting on my phone listening to these sad mixes of lofi hip hop and thinking of you. When Im not crying about you Im sleeping. Its been over a year and Im still so distraught. I know it wouldn't turn out well if you came back, but that doesn't stop me from wishing you would.
Hey, you want to hear something cliche?
You're not alone. She's also been through the same thing. And with that, she learned a lot of things.
For her, it's still not over. If she got into a relationship now, even after a year, it wouldn't end well, honestly.
She has a lot of regrets. But you know what? She needs to learn, someday, that a time machine will never bring her back to those moments and let her make the right choices. It's not like the games she has played to keep her mind off of him. She won't come across a supernatural force that will bring her back to those moments.
She wishes with all of her might, but it's just not going to happen. Now, he's found a way to change.
He found that... the best way to resolve problems is to take them, and find a lesson out of it. Yes, she likes to stay in bed all day, and distract herself, and yes, she loves to sleep away her problems, but that's not going to get her anywhere. He knows it. She knows it. She just can't find the energy to acknowledge it.
Now, this might all seem like jabbering to you, and it really is, but I hope you can find the strength and motivation to really think on everything that happened, and find something that you learned about yourself from it. I don't know what happened in your relationship, and you can yell at me all you want about how I know nothing; if that helps you relieve some stress, by all means.
But I just want you to know; there will be someone out there in the future that will care about you as much as they did, if not more! You still have a lot of life to live, and so do we.
If you want to rant about anything, just send me a message on Twitter. Handle's CalistoMajor.
Thank you for reading thus far, and I hope anything I said could help you.
In just a bit of this world, I could find someone so special.
With a thousand lights, her eyes were bright, where she freed me from deep darkness.
Deep
She was the moon to my nights, the sun to my days, always there lighting up my wrld, the source of my happiness.. but nothing lasts 4 evr
我們的感受是一樣的
No Name.
The next night
I look in her eyes
And realise
Everything will be alright.
But everything ends, so did we
I guess we were not meant to be
Feardog? More like Feelsdog....
I still remember that day, it was my first day at a new school, she got up and walked to my desk and said hello. Still to this day I thank her for doing that. Damn who would have known that she would be this important to me.
When I first met her, I didn’t think much of it. We were in second grade, she was just an athletic new student. Then we became friends, which was weird, because nobody would have thought we would. I hated sports, I thought they were just pointless exercise. I was reclusive, often spending lunches reading or inside. She reached out to me, inviting me to hang out with her friends.
I didn’t take her up on the offer, I was too scared.
She was in my class in the first year of middle school, and that was when we really grew close. We realized we had a lot of similar interests, and her smile grew to be the part of my day I looked forward to the most. I would hang out by her locker, talking with her about anything. People started to notice, making jokes about how we were practically dating. She would play along, not knowing how much I wished that were true.
In our second year of middle school, we started to hang out a lot more. We went to conventions together, watched dramas together, ran a school club together, things like that. When my birthday came around that year, she organized a project without my knowing. She wrote me this long note, comparing us to characters in the drama we watched, ones that we both shipped together, and got everyone else in the grade to add to it. I didn’t know what to think, I laid awake at night, wondering if she liked me back. I thought she did, until in the next year, she started dating someone else.
I resigned myself to the position of “best friend” for almost that whole year. I tried to hide the butterflies I would get when she smiled at me, rationalize when she called me “Love,” knowing that she said that to everyone. I learned later that she broke up with him, and hadn’t really liked him in the first place. She asked me to be the one to introduce her during graduation. I was, and still am, her best friend. That’s where we are now, going off to high school, and she still has no idea how much she means to me.
Awww you might need to tell her...
If you wait to long she’ll probably think the same things your thinking, like she might think you don’t like her because you e never put yourself out there. I can tell she likes you by what you said, playing along, comparing y’all to a couple. Just go for it, even if it doesn’t work you’ll still be dope friends. Good luck 👍🏻❤️
just go for it man!
I've been seeing this trend in the comments section and I am not entirely sure if we were suppose to do it but whatever, I guess I'll do it to.
When I first met you, I honestly didn't know you were gonna be this important to me...
It all started in 7th grade, only a year ago. I never had to go to summer school for my good grades but at that moment I found my myself being forced to go for enrichment, how fun. I just had graduated from elementary ( it was one of those schools that went up to 6th grade) and was now heading to the big world of Middle School and none of my friends were going to my school. The first few days were depressing and lonely but I managed. After a while I made one friend but she really wasn't like a friend friend, whatever. Throughout summer school there was this one guy that caught my attention, he was one of the smartest in the class but wasn't the best good looking fellow and he was kind of stuck up. I hated myself for falling for him.
Fast Forward to the first day of 7th grade. The girl I hanged out with left me for some other group but I didn't really mind, she was not the type of person I would actually hang out with. So the day went by and each class I went into the guy from SS was there, by the end of the day I figured out that we had the exact same schedule but I didn't talk to him at all. By the third day I was still going solo but I noticed that he too was lonely. Long story short I became great friends with him and we were inseparable, he was my first friend and I was his. Two months later I found out he made another friend while I made four other, so we decided to become this big group of awkward tweens (at the moment). His new friend was nice and he seemed like a cool guy.
Further into the year around March-April we drifted apart and became distant. I made friends with his boy friend to the point where I was hanging out with guy #2 more than guy #1. Something happened between their bromance and it was totally broken. But if it weren't for summer school guy I never would have met my best boy friend. He's amazing and sweet, caring and pretty smart too. I have like a crush on him and he's cool with it, although doesn't feel like something should happen (which I'm fine with). We constantly text and buy each other gifts. We're now in 8th grade and I am still great friends with the new guy.
So yeah that's my story, it's not the happiest one but the first guy allowed me to find the second guy which I am grateful for. Thank you to whoever took the time to read my comment.
your really mean by judging the first guy by his looks i bet you're uglier than him.
We often hide ourselves from others because we don't want to get hurt or hurt others. So we just sit and watch and listen to videos or do nothing, trying to let our dreams overtake reality. We feel better talking to others as long as they're not right next to us physically. So hello, lonely people. Is it that we're lonely, or do we just have lonely thoughts? Perhaps we hide ourselves too much. Maybe we're not as lonely as we thought. Maybe the world isn't perfect, but our concept of it is. If lonely loves us so much, then a lot of different parts of people in the universe must really love us, too. Hello, lonely. *It's very nice to meet you again.*
since this comment section seems like a massive love-life confessional, I to, have the sweetest girl once this weird break thing is over ... how we started was in the weirdest way,
our first real convo was at a party at my place, where a baking tray fell on her head while she was dancing, cute af
before that she had visited but I had just passed through the living room.
before that I went to the office to hand in an assignment, she was the one to come to the desk, the only thing to do to kill the office boredom.
before that, I had sent the same office some emails from my exchange uni, she was the one replying to my questions,
before that, on a date with another girl there was a band playing, all the musicians sucked, except for one girl singing with an accordion. I told my then gf they should drop the whole band and just leave her on stage.
with everything going on, even before we had the first conversation, makes me believe there is more to this girl,
and over nine months after the incident with the baking tray, I know for sure. She, unfortunately, is not so sure.
We both have issues, which we didn't realize until we met. She seems to think she needs to sort those out on her own,
I wanna tell her that I am her partner no matter what. We have shit, but we do this together.
Perhaps the coming few months are simply going to be 'complicated', but for me, it is really straightforward.
I love her.
i can only hope i am as important to you, as you are to me.
I could never imagine that someone on the internet would become someone very special to me, she was in the dark, now I'm making her a better person, because she is someone I love and appreciated a lot and because I want to see her happy
OMG I totally fall in love with this playlist!
Just really reminds me of how much I love and adore my bf... We met when I first moved to the US, and he lives right across from me. I instantly fell in love with him haha, but we were so young back then. We went to the same school, rode the same bus, and I would sometimes come over to see how he's doing. I always think of him and imagine us together even though I knew I don't have a chance.
By the end of that year we stopped talking.. Simply because I confessed to him, but by paper ;-; We never see each other again. I went to a different school at that time. We forgot about each other as well when I move 10 minutes away.
I saw him again on my last year of high school, 3 years later. I was surprised, but my feelings are gone at the time. Still, I would often peek at him at lunch whenever I see him.
Then we never see each other again.
One day, my mom asked me who was messaging her (she doesn't know English) and she saw my name on the texts. I read and it was him! I was so shocked. I gave him my real number and he asked me to hang out, then after a couple dates, my feelings just grow and grow. Now I just can't even get him off my mind. It's so weird how we met as neighbor and as close friends, forgot about each other for 4 years, then back together as lovers. I just can't believe it! But I'm so happy, he's my first love, and wish that we will be together for a long time! :)
How are you guys doing nowadays?
@@analdestroyer8000 sadly we parted ways because of some disagreement and he straight up ignored me for 2 weeks :( it's been more than 6 months now since we broke up haha
@@Nami-ig1rs awww that's sad. What an asshole lmao
the moment I realized how much she was starting to mean, I wrote a poem with the words "I didn't know you'd become this important". haha this reminds me of it :)))
he was so important to me, he kept me sane, but damn. he left me, and here i am, left with this constant feeling of sadness.
i know its hard but let go slowly.. theres always clear blue sky behind all the clouds. seek out for it and youll be happy by urself again, i promise
Niklas Peaceman yes. thank you. its only have been a month but im totally fine now. i realize that he wasnt even for me and its still too early for those things. time will pass together with the nice and bad things so we must go on as well.
Lo-fi music comments are honestly the best community I have ever seen, there are next to no toxic people and we are all here for beautiful music.
When I first saw you sitting there
all those years ago,
I never thought I would see you again.
Now...
I hope to wake up next to you
everyday.
Everytime i get feelings for somone,i pretend i dont have feelings for them and i often avoid them. But it makes me really happy to see all of you people being happy. And to those that are struggling,i hope you know that its only temporary and that your happiness is on its way. I hope you all find and keep your peace
The first time we spoke, it all seemed like such a normal friendship. After spending the entire night talking, I felt butterflies in my stomach, my heart was racing; he was the only one on my mind at any time of the day. I would wake up earlier to make sure I could surprise him with a good morning text. My entire soul and being were devoted to this man - and then he started growing distant. Slowly, he lost interest. Now, he avoids me and makes me feel like I am worthless.
These sounds channel the same emotions as I was experiencing during the first times of said relationship. I don't know how Lo-Fi artists do that, but you have some special talent with channeling emotions in music and melodies. Thank you for this emotional yet beautiful mix. ❣
😐
You're not worthless
I didn't know you were gonna be the light in my life. Thank you for finding me in the darkness, J.
I don't have a boyfriend. Romantic right? iM A SINGLE LADY-
Where are the other single people,I feel left out because of these comments talking about their girlfriend/boyfriend
sINGLE SQUAD WHERE ARE YOU-
Present
i have arrived to join this cult
No, i dont want to lose my virginity yet, so present
@kaim4790 kaim4790 Don't pringles come in packs? (Not so single, eh)
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THANK. YOU. SO. MUCH!!!!!!!!!! This mix makes me happy. And plus, the title fits perfectly. I met a boy this year and he makes me the happiest person ever because he's the only person at my age who talks to me on the bus. He may not look the best on the outside but on the inside he is so sweet and he is sooooo nice to me. We relate to a lot of things. We both like to draw, we are awkward, and we both have weird clothing styles. I just hope he likes me back. (I think he does because he acts different around me than he does other girls, but in a good way) Love is my favorite thing :)
You got it dude!
gluck
Awww ify T-T In my situation, i do hope so too....
here comes a sappy story, so yeah enjoy
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from the first day of 5th grade i’ve liked him.
I barely remember it, but I remember seeing him and just going “wow. He’s reaaaaaaallly cute.” But not in a typical way. Like, he was the only one ever for me type of way. I remember getting flustered and extremely nervous every time I would bump into him, and barely talking to him that first year.
When 6th grade started, I was not as shy as I was the year before, so I was ready to try and talk to him. Only then I realized my brain can somehow comprehend multiple crushes at the same time, so for about 3/4 of that year I liked this other boy, but then he left. I still talked to the orig guy more than 5th, because we had an elective class, spanish, and english together but not much.
Fast forward to the beginning weeks of 7th grade. I was ready to start anew with him, because there was no one to get in my way now. I started talking to him a bit more, we shared perf arts and PE and a whole art block together, where we just sit and talk. Then came the class trip week.
We went to Yosemite National Park for our 7th grade trip. I sat in the same couple of rows as him on the bus there. He was also in my trail group, and I spent 75% of my day with him every day. He soon actually considered me to be his friend, and every time he said that my heart would just throb.
We soon came back, and as more time has passed we’ve hung out more together. We are now actual pretty good-ish friends, and hang out a lot when we have class together and before/after school/lunch. I hope one day I can tell him how I feel, but not yet.
Anyway, that was it. I will update this later. bye
*Update*
Hey! so uhhh
anyway hi
bye
I know this was posted 2 months ago, but I wish you good luck on tellin' that person how you feel. And I hope you have an amazing year.
Love for including my track again man
2 years later and im still loving this
nerd spotted
feel in love with my bestfriend she felt the same way yet i still ran i still ran from the pain that may or may not have been...i fear my own happiness
This is probably my favorite mix ever. Everything from the title to the artwork to the music just makes me feel like this was made for me.
He is the kindest, sweetest, most gentle human being I've ever met. A mix of rainy nights in his truck listening the the doors, the smell of cinnamon, weed, and menthol cigarettes looming over him like a comforting blanket, laughing as we make sarcastic inside jokes together, hot cocoa at midnight in summer, because we don't want to go home. He's my safety net and my fiercest protector, but he's also my teddy bear and warmest cuddler. And sometimes it feels like he's all I have in this world, which makes me jealous because I know he has so many other people he can talk to and rely on... sometimes it's almost like I'm just lucky that he's wasting so much time on me
Sigh, as always, you always know how to write the kind of title that'll make the feels explode, since it compliments the music and beginning dialogue. Always great listening to them! They always make me feel happy and sad. 😊
it doesnt even make sence, it's just sentimental garbage
sam k sense*
+sam k we are garbage
I feel the same way about this girl I like,but I know we're just going to stay friend,and I'm fine with that,shes the best friend i have
dimsum33 let her know how you feel! Times limited!
Dimsum33 me too honestly. Same situation and it's like I don't want to try and even tell them how I feel because I fear I might lose that friendship with them
I think that maybe it's a good idea to always share your feelings. However, never expect anything more from them. They don't owe you a relationship, and you're completely right. That's more than okay. They're still your best friend. With that said, they're your best friend. You can't possibly ruin it. If they are your friend, they'll accept it. Hell, they probably already suspect it. Now they just know you really love them and will support them
I cant wait to find the person that makes me feel this way, someone who i cant get my mind off of every second- every hour of the day. Dont worry, ill wait for you
It was during a hot summers day, back home in Yashio, Japan. Our school got out later than usual that day. I saw her while waiting for a train to pass, so I could run home and play with my best friend. She’s a cute, petite girl, introverted and shy. The moment I laid my eyes on her, she shuffled away. I laughed at her quietly in the back of my head. I had considered myself somewhat shy, but she was on a whole new level. I didn’t really care about her, not back then, anyway. We have our last subject in the same class, and she sits halfway across the cafeteria during lunch. We started nodding to one another while passing through the halls, nothing but just a simple nod, I was happy someone was giving me actual attention, instead of using me as a coping for boredom, as my friends sometimes did. Once during our last hour, History, I was studying a book about coordinates, because it simply fascinated me for no clear reason. She ran up to me hastily and stuck a sticky note on the back of my hand, and it simply read;
“I wish you succeed”
“Wish you succeed”
“You succeed”
“You succ”
I didnt quite get it at first, but after staring at it like my math book was speaking Greek, I gave a slight chuckle, and pocketed the sticky note.
We kept nodding, and passing jokes on sticky notes, until I found out I was madly in love. I’ve never felt a burning love for anyone, but this girl sparked that emotion in me. After a couple more notes, a friend of mine told her that I liked her, even though I’ve never brought up the girl to them. She confronted me the next day, while we were waiting for the train, and said in her shy voice.
“A friend of yours told me that you like me.”
I chuckled, I was out of words. I was so embarrassed with myself, but I gave a slight, “Yeah..”
And she followed up with
“And I said: He know’s I’m gay, right?”
A girl I’ve been madly in love with for a couple months was gay. I wished a future for us, boyfriend and girlfriend for a week, best friends, or maybe even husband and wife. But my fantasy crumbled to the ground at her sharp words.
I haven’t turned in her direction since, For I am disappointed in myself.
I’ll move on, eventually.
bad decision, she’s a good friend, just because you can’t date her doesn’t mean you should give up on your friendship
The title reminds me of my girlfriend. We saw each other a few times- just a friend of an acquaintance of mine. She then started to move into the main "group." But, was just another wacky, energetic girl that I would talk to from time to time. I found out she lived in the neighborhood when we started to get closer.
I'd walk her home from time to time, we hardly knew each other, despite the times we would goof off. And those walks home, after almost a year of her just being a face in the crowd, I fell in love. I'd never done so before. I brushed it off. I keep pushing it down, saying that I was just confused. I didn't love her. I couldn't. Right? Shes a female. Just like me. I knew she was gay, but I thought it was just silly wishing to think she would fall for me too. Even when I thought it was ridiculous. Even when every night, I would stay up, staring at the ceiling and spending hours thinking of her- debating if I loved her or not. We were just close friends. Just close friends, I keep repeating when my heart fluttered at the sight of her. When I would dash through the hall just so I could see her in between classes. When I would hug her, and want to be near her, no matter where we were, or what we were doing. And when I was down, she was the one I went to. My friends would tease us, saying we liked one another. I always denied it.
I only truly knew when I was so worried about who her crush was. When she said she liked this girl- but wouldn't say. Wouldn't tell me. I hoped, and hoped and hoped it was me, and still I told myself I didn't love her. Not like that. And when she said it was another girl, It broke my heart. Shattered it. She deserved to be happy- deserved it, and for some reason, the fact that she had found she loved someone else split my heart in two.
A week later, we were on a phone call after she had a hard day. She was in another state at the time when she said she had lied about who she loved. When she said she had loved me this whole time- for almost a year, and had thought over and over about telling me. But she thought I was straight. I thought I was straight. She tried to deny it too- like I had. She told me when she lied, she was terrified of me finding out. Was surprised when I took her aside and asked her. Practically begged her to tell me who it was. A week after that- a week after I felt happiness I hadn't ever felt. Not this strong. Not this colorful, and bright and exciting.
A week after that, I asked her to be my girlfriend. We've been dating for a few months now, and I've never been happier. Have never wanted to spend time with someone so much, have never felt so empty when someone leaves. She makes me so, so happy. My firelight during a cold winter storm. And its so strange to think, hardly two years ago, I hardly knew her. Barely thought about her. She was just another face in the crowd. And now, she seems to be the only person I see- lighting up the room with her smile, her laugh.
Honestly, when I am older- I hope we are still together. With all of my heart. I want to live with her, to wake up every morning to find her by my side. I want to build a life together. I want to be there when she gets home from a bad day, and be there while we go on our many adventures together in the future. I want to be there to purpose, to cry and laugh with her. To call her my wife. To grow old and die with her. Its strange to think I want all of this, as a girl just barely turning into an adult, but this is what I wish. And it does not scare me to think that. Overwhelm me to look to the future and see her by my side. For the rest of my life. My, darling, my firelight. I love you. So very much.
ohmygod i relate so much except im pretty sure shes straight and im too scared to confess ;-; i can just hope it'll turn out like your story, so cute :)
reading everyone's stories, it makes me happy to think that everyone has been living such cute relationships and are now listening to this song. i also feel kind of upset and envious with yall seeing as to how yall have found such important people in your lives, while i'm here, and i'm yet to find such a beautiful relationship much like yall's. sure, i do have friends, but more often than not, they make me feel outcast. no one cares about my qualms and no one bothers to listen. they only do if its a juicy secret, otherwise you're practically on your own. they just don't care enough to listen. I've tried deepening our relationships, but somehow they always manage to make the conversation about them. they also tend to just leave, after you've helped them go through their own hardships, so I'm kind of left in the dust. throughout being with said "friends" I've seen myself grow more conscious, over what i say, what i wear, everything. and now i also tend to just catch myself apologising for everything; a joke, a statement, a comment, an opinion, etc. it's upsetting, really.
i just hope that someday, I'll be able to find that special person whom I can share everything with, and be there for me when i need them, as much as i would be there for them when they need me.
i'm sorry for being so whiney. i know this playlist is supposed to bring positivity and all i've been is negative, but i just really needed to vent.
now im just vicariously living through everyone's great friendships in the comment section, as a way to cope or cheer myself up i guess. thank you everyone, for sharing.
It's so nice that we can all relate to this amazing title
Man that intro.
"Is it okay if I confess"
"No"
"Wha?!"
"Let me. I've loved you. Always"
so its quarantine and i didn't study, just lazed around playing games and my best friend introduced me to his junior. (my best friend is 19, this guy is 18 and I'm 16) so we played and talked a lot. we got along really well and i didn't realise that i began to fall for him. i hated that because he's totally out of my league: sporty, smart, older and going to apply for uni but the worst part was that we're in different countries. i migrated last year so my best friends are all in my home country.
i can't stop thinking about him and he always makes me smile and when i'm talking to him i can breathe and be myself without being judged. it has been three months since i met him and i never thought he would mean this much to me honestly.
I really fell for him when he calmed me down from a panic and made it seem like the world had just melted away. To be honest, I've never felt this way before for anyone, but his gentle smile, this silly glasses and the way he always squinted at the whiteboard because he can't see, his strange obsession with turtlenecks, and those thoroughly impressive pen tricks; with that he grabbed hold of me and I haven't ever wanted him to let go.
I can hear samples of Location by Khalid in the song at 12:53 😊
Wow beautiful background image...obviously also the music is beautiful👌🏼
thank you so much for making this
Glad you liked it
I've found this person who is super special to me and I know I'm special to him. We've barely known each other for a year and I feel like if he ever leaves me I'll break down, he's like family to me. I know it's clichè but, I'll go anywhere with him.
When I met him I was an absolute weirdo, I was wearing two hats stacked on top of each other because I didn't know which hat to pick, and I was blasting 90's music from the speaker in my back pocket. (What an interesting first impression.) I walked into his house cause it was a family gathering. When I was done hugging everyone I turned off my music and that's when he came out of his room all awkward, his mom introduced us. I awkwardly waved at him and he smiled slightly. He invited me into his room so I looked around and noticed a game at the time had only been out for almost a year, I asked: "You play bo4 too?" That's when it clicked for both of us.
It's pretty funny actually because he told me that he thought I was going to be one of "those" people because of past experiences. But as soon as he saw my two hat-wearing ass he knew that I was incapable of being that.
I know I'm late but this is my story:
This was about 3 years ago, he was 13, I was 12. I had made a Twitter account earlier that year, and I can't remember when, but he followed me and I said "hi", he said hello back, and we kept talking. After around 6 months he said "goodnight ily xxxxxxxxxx" and I said "I love you too" and that's sorta how we started saying I love you regularly with purple hearts. At some point we moved to Instagram, last year I got to hear his voice, it's so beautiful. Then even better I got to see what he looks like, he has low self confidence and says that he looks ugly. But I think the opposite, i think he looks absolutely beautiful, I will love his no matter what happens. We've been there for each through the happy times and sad times. The only thing that can stop us now is death itself. Too bad we can't hug, kiss, hold hands, and most especially cuddle. Time zones suck a lot, but even though it's a six hour difference, is still think we will make. I will tell you guys more in a year, and maybe even at 18. 💜💜💜
I met him in 6th grade. I made some fanart and gave it to a teacher who decided to hang it up, and a girl recognized it and asked who made it. Coincidentally I was the only other person in that room and waved, and I made my first friend in three years. But what mattered was when she introduced me to her other friends. At the time, he was a girl, but I still liked the vibe from him. We discovered that even though we were almost polar opposites, we actually had a lot in common. We were both artists, were living through hard times, and had similar morals. Eventually we became inseparable and for the first time in a long time, I felt loved. I actually had a friend group that made me feel like I belonged. And it was amazing.
Even when I moved away I kept in contact with him, as he started his transition and I continued with my unending support. High school was tough on him and I tried to do what I could despite covid issues. Then I got my first crush and funnily enough it was him, and he was the first person I ever "kissed" (on the cheek) I know we will never be together, since the feelings are not reciprocated. But we will be friends for a long time.
He makes me feel heard, loved, and happy. I do my best to do the same to him.
To anyone that needs a friend? Sometimes all it takes is just reaching out to one person. Had that girl never gotten to know me, I never would have met this amazing guy.
I didn't know I needed this so bad. Thank you.
•I fell in love with my best friend
•A year later she likes me back
•We go out
•Two days later it's over and we're not friends.
Phoenix if you're reading this I'm sorry, I still don't understand why you broke my heart like that but I'm sorry for nothing. :)
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Hi. I love this music.......
❤
❤💖💖❤, do you wanna marry me?
Stoniest Dust Mmmhhh. . If the guy I love would ask me that, I wouldn't hesitate for å second. I would say "YES!!!" right away... My best dream ever! 💕💖💕💗💕
Life has been so hard for me recently with horrible family problems and debilitating health issues and extreme loneliness caused by being stuck at home with all that and I was just really feeling like I needed lo-fi. I'd never really listened to it before. But I came to find some videos I liked and I found your stuff and I really feel like it's been helpful for me to feel peaceful and relax. Thank you so much for sharing! 🙏💗
How are you doing today?
@@NameNik223 Today was a little rough but not too bad overall. Thanks for asking :)
How are you? :)
@@peachysparkles Thanks for sharing! I'm pretty fine
@@NameNik223 Sure ^^
I'm glad to hear that 😁
Love is such a weird thing. You can hate it or fear it. But, i just can't be happier with it right now. Got a new friend who is just shinning in beauty with her looks. Her personaility as well is quite different. I don't know though, i clicked with her. Kinda And she did as well we talk every so often and it just feels amazing. I've even wrote a whole song about her and my doubts. I feel as if I'm just gonna get friendzoned... so I'll be taking it very slow for now💙
Without lofi I dont know where I would be today. It has changed me for the better and I'm just so happy that I found the music genre when I did. I have cried while lightening to lofi, smiled while listening to lofi, created stories in my head while listening to lofi. It just taught me to care... care about people and care about myself. Thank you for this amazing mix of songs 💕
This is so soft and makes me feel fuzzy when I really needed to. so good for my unconcentrated brain as well. Thanks!!
I never thought I was capable of a feeling as strong and pure as the one I have everytime I think of you. I kept to myself all throughout my life, enjoying the comfort of my loneliness rather than making shallow attempts at meaningless interaction. Now I understand the emotion behind the seemingly random grins people get when staring at a person they admire. Love. Adoration. Maybe even a little infatuation. I thought I was stronger without relying on someone like that, but in truth I was weaker without someone by my side. I have learned that a little weakness is okay sometimes. A crack in my shell turned into an explosion of my emotional barriers, and I was oblivious while it happened. Too distracted by the way you smile at a joke, how your brows furrow when you focus, the way fiddle with your bottom lip after losing yourself in your thoughts. It's been almost two years officially, but I can now honestly say I fell when you first gained the confidence to introduce yourself; and I didn't fall, I plummeted down a journey of learning what the word love means. I'm still falling, and every now and then I feel myself falling a little faster when you tell me you feel the same. I love you
"When you left us, I couldn't stop crying. I had never met you, but I felt like I have known you forever. I never realized what I had, until it left me. A place in me, now, feels empty without you here. I wish I could have met you. In a different time, In a different place. And for those around you, I hope they feel better too. I hope you rest in peace."
~Rest in Peace~
Lizzy_Winkle - Oct 17, 2004 - Nov 29, 2019
you don't know how much u loved someone until they are gone...
in 8th grd I met his boy and it was love at first sight, he really cared for me, my parents didn't like that we instantly started to be a "couple" so they tried to sperate us but we still talked. he really made me feel lovley but then he left for the summer to his mothers house and a few days before he came back he said we need to go separate paths..i was young and super down with my anxietyand he just coudlnt take it. he was so afraid id be the one to leave him but hes the one who left me...but now im over him but he just turned out to be a lair and just loved for entertainment. the feeling of heartbreak is horrible, but music like this realy helps the pain..thank u. everyone just know u r a beautiful masterpiece! u r life and deserve all the love in the world! be happy. smile and go eat something. food is good
the title is how I feel but the person I love doesn't even like me back
many of the most precious people in our lives are but happy little accidents
This is beautiful Thank you for uploading Feardog
I had been dating her friend and she slowly became my best female friend. She was awkward and quiet and only ever listened to me rant about my crushes and ex’s. But one day, I realized this was who I wanted to be with a year later. Now me and her are so much more, but we’re still best friends. Thanks Hazzard for being there❤️
I met him, went out with him, but didn't realise how much he made me feel me until we parted ways. We're still friends but he changed so much that it's hard to tell whether the person i dated was him or not.
I’ve never been so thankful for meeting someone in my life.
listening to this on a valentine's day is such a mood
lol
yes
syros,love your tracks,keep up with the good work,same to fear dog
Lots of love
mOOD
holy crap i'm in love with the second song, especially the beginning of it.
where the guy confesses.
but when you hear that you know that you are important to that person.
the girl's half-stutter shows exactly how you feel when you realize.
even if you say no, you two are still important to each other.
if she said no, that doesn't mean he's not important. she just doesn't have feelings that way.
This explains how I feel about my girlfriend. ;-; I never thought she would mean as much as she does and I never want to let her go. >w
pure
I had no idea I would still think of you 6 years later... I can't forget you and I don't want to forget you... You probably do not even remember me but you gave me a reason to keep living so thank you
it hits different when you listen to this through headphones and only you can hear it.
so i met this one girl through random online friends. i didn't talk much to the random ones, i'm generally really bad at social interaction. i can't remember the exact moments when we met but it only makes sense that we probably played few matches together. back then i was an absolute tryhard when it came to that game, i loved every bit of it and wanted to get to professional levels in it.
after few ranked matches, we agreed to play troll games in a larger gamemode and honestly i still remember some of them. i couldn't stay alive for long so when i died, she went on a search to find my toolbox and bring it to the spot i died in. it was wholesome.
some time passes by, we end up playing ranked more frequently and talking on discord. i had found a genuine teammate to play and talk to. we later on had to leave behind two of our random teammates and play duo to get to higher ranks. at that time i was promising to her to get her to high ranks and support her even after it.
time goes by, we find more friends to play ranked with and used my old solo clan to get extra exp. thus asterism grew and i loved it. sadly, my mind couldn't handle the amount of time i spent on the game and i lost motivation to play it. i kept talking to my friends but played only the necessary matches. my potato phone didn't help the motivation either.
i did come back for few seasons to help the others but my mental health didn't help the situation.
fun games and a talking, i can't remember much about those months but i got into an argument with one of the teammates. i had been clingy because of my earlier promise and snapped because i felt left behind. it was my motivation that made me be left behind, not the teammate.
not sure if that was when i told that i wanted to leave the team. i felt like i had fucked up and considering my past experiences, i knew this could lead to me being banned from the group server real soon. i had made my original duo teammate cry and couldn't forgive myself. we got over the argument soon enough and i became better friends with the one that i argued with. i think around this time i confessed that i really cared about my duo teammate.
i get the feeling that my earlier duo teammate didn't take that experience well, i think it stuck with her or affected her.
fast forward to early 2020 and my duo teammate seemingly becoming biased. i got too mad about the fact that she was favoring the newer teammates over our second semi-original teammate. i talked to her about it and my feelings had taken control over me. of course i ended up getting silence treatment over my huge amount of texts. this continued on for days and i was already giving up and suggesting that we just talk it over and make up.
some might guess what happened after those days. i ended the friendship with my duo teammate, requested to have asterism deleted or given back to me as a solo group because it meant a lot to me. fairly idiotic but the name was erased from the group and these days it sits as an unoccupied clan on my abandoned account. i lost my dream of playing in one of the game's tournaments, the motivation to start over and quite frankly, the person that i supposedly loved.
it's been at least 2-3+ months, i haven't gotten a grip on my mental health and i'm hopping from a game to another. i've already considered giving up on social life and just becoming really quiet. my words only hurt others, i can't keep friends for long because of it. i can't get friends that easily because of it.
but you, the one reading this.. please, stay safe during these times and after all of this. you will get happiness, we both will. it might not come today or tomorrow but one day it will. i adore you no matter who you are and what you do, you deserve all good in this world.
What was the game called? It sounds interesting!And I'm sorry you had to go through that!! I hope things get better for you!
*ピーチ_ミルク* The game was Identity V. It's kind of like DBD but quite a bit more colorful and the character have a doll-ish bodies.
It's been a long time since I last played it so I'm not sure if the gameplay has gotten any better yet
*ピーチ_ミルク* It's a mobile game but there's also a pc version. The queue is most likely longer on pc.
@@nokivaris1753 Okay tysm!!
wow that New Girl bit just gave me so much nostalgia omg
thanks for the love
This comment section is so heartwarming. Seeing everyone able to find people so dear to them sparks motivation for me. 0w--
This mix makes me so, so sad
she was one of the most special people in my life and has even lead me away from suicide and i thank her for that she has got to be the person i can talk to and chill with the most she and i known each other since 3rd grade and then i thought she was just a normal girl intill i started to talk to her and hang out with her she is amazing :) just love this title it fits my life perfectly
we met at a summer camp, I didnt have any friends at the time, and she was the first person to ever accept me
as the summer camp went on, we started to get progresively close. then the summer camp ended. summer went on, and near the end od summer i decided to text her. we started talking and agreed to meet each other, shortly after meeting, we started dating. unfortunatelly we broke up after like two months. we became best friends again. and ever since that moment i havent stopped loving her and i love her to this day. i love you Natalia
This couldn't have popped up in my recommended at a better time. I met this girl a few weeks ago and it seems like we've really started to hit it off. She's funny, a joy to talk to, and laughs at my stupid poop jokes, so obviously ideal women material right there. I've been more of an introvert but after meeting her I've managed to gain new found confidence. I've felt that I've wasted majority of my high school years but now I'm gonna be a Senior and I want to make my last year as a "kid" count. I like this girl a lot. Like A LOT a lot. Sure, in many cases we're polar opposite's but I feel like we understand each other and I hope everything turns out well between us. Wish us the best of luck!
Last March... ah.. I was still in 8th grade, and I had two classes with *him*. Math and orchestra. The seating chart in math had me sitting next to him. I had just thought of him as another person. He was quiet- so was I. During class, I would hide my face with my hands or hair so he wouldn't be able to see me watching him doodle.
Watching him draw out all these amazing scenes and seeing the quiet boy's imagination and thoughts being put on paper.. I started to take an interest in him. One day, I decided to pull out one of my doodles I was proud of and just leave it on my desk, completely- and purposely- in his field of view. I hoped he would notice me.
"Hey, that looks really good!"
I had never heard him speak before, and suddenly, there he was.. complimenting my art. I couldn't help but turn a little red and mumble a "Oh, it's not /that/ good.."
Fast forward a month-ish, we had a required assembly thing for orchestra. As we were going into our school's auditorium, I quickly realized that I was about to be forced into sitting next to a boy that hated my guts. Luckily for me, as soon as that boy realized who he was sitting next to, he threw a fit and stood to find a new seat. Quiet-math-boy was watching the whole thing... he kindly took the seat next to me that the other boy refused to sit in.
I was able to enjoy the rest of that assembly, laughing, talking, and joking with this no-longer-so-quiet math boy. I fell for him a bit.
Fast forward another month... there was an orchestra field trip coming up. This field trip was not required, and it costed nearly a hundred dollars. And it wasn't really an ordinary field trip either. Part of it was a performance with the orchestra, but the rest of it was spending the day at an amusement park. I wondered if math boy would be going... and slowly gained the courage to ask. When we got to make our own new seating chart in math, I chose to sat as near to his as possible, and eventually did ask him.
"Hey.. are you going on the field trip..?"
"Yeah. Are you?"
"Mhmm." I mumbled and blushed because I wasn't expecting him to ask me the same question..
After that brief conversation, I spent many weeks just imaging spending the day at the amusement park with him. Going on roller coasters with him. Laughing and talking with him. I wanted so badly to ask if he'd hang out with me on that day, but I just couldn't. I felt we weren't close enough, and I realized it was just a silly thing I imagined.
One day, I decided to message him on an online platform I knew we both used, and we had some short conversations here and there. I never was able to ask him to hang out.
But, guess what. A month later, the day before the field trip, we had an awkward conversation online. I told him I had no one to hang out with and was scared I would get lost if I was going to be by myself. He offered to hang out with me for the day.
That day honestly, was the most fun day I had in my life. On the long bus ride to the amusement park, the first little while was quiet. We sat next to each other, and we could both tell that the other person was nervous- yet somehow, we ended up starting a conversation.
The time flew by like it was nothing, and before we knew it.. we were already at the park! It started out a bit... awkward- "Where do you want to go first?"
"Uh, I don't know.. where do YOU want to go??"
"I asked first, you choose. Also, I don't care where we go."
"Uhhh..."
We actually just stood there for 5 minutes trying to think of what to do.
Throughout the day, we went on only 5 rides total. We spent most of our 7 hours there just talking. It was honestly soooooo much fun.
It was crazy how that morning, we had started out not even being able to wave at each other, but by the end of the day... we were comfortable enough that when I complained about my feet hurting and being tired, he said "You can rest your head on my shoulder if ya want."
I took off my shoes and fell asleep- not on his shoulder.. I was too nervous. I chose to lean my head on the seat in front of us. However,,,,,,,,, when I woke up..! I was leaned on his shoulder!! Ahh!!
When the bus ride back inevitably ended, he said multiple times that he had had "SO much fun" with me and "REALLY" wished the day wouldn't be over.
The next week was the last week of school. On the third to last day of school, he tried confessing to me in person that he liked me.. but ended up doing it online later- and I of course, admitted that I liked him as well.
I was so worried that the first guy that every confessed to me was about to go to waste because summer was right around the corner and we wouldn't be seeing each other for 3 months! But we ended up talking online every night for HOURS until about 3am sometimes. I was a 14 year old who was feeling like she was crazy in love.
This "quiet-math-boy" and I are now both in 9th grade (which is still in Jr. High in my school district) and we hang out as much as possible during school.
I still cannot comprehend how such an amazing thing like this happened to me and how I deserve someone as wonderful as him.. but I'm honestly so glad I have him.
Next year, we'll both be 16.. we'll get to be an official couple..!
Anyways... I could literally go on forever about him and all the amazing memories we share, but this comment is already WAY too long.
Also, I know we may not last. But I do know that if we ever part ways, I'll be able to appreciate and look back happily on the lessons I learned and the experiences I had with him.
P.S. I hope you find a special someone someday or find whatever it is that you're looking for in life.
This comment was the most beautiful thing to see today. 😊 Thank you for sharing this story. Much love and many blessings to you. ❣️
@@musingsofmessa Awe, I'm so glad you enjoyed it! 😊 Much love and many blessings to you as well!
If anyone's curious, here's a small update:
We're both 16 now and that's sorta significant because our parents did not allow us to officially "date" until this age. So I guess we're actually a couple now, haha... except we haven't seen or talked to each other much since schools in our area closed due to COVID-19.
Since writing the above comment, we went to that amusement park 2 more times with our friends, on field trips, once again. We had loads of fun. We also attended two formal dances at our high school (homecoming and preference). And we've hung out a few other times besides that, but still haven't had a real/planned date.
We sadly had one planned- to go see a movie and get boba.. but movie theaters and basically everything else closed down a couple weeks before that plan ever began.
During the school year, we would hang out in our free time at school and help each other with homework and assignments. We'd be there for emotional support and for good laughs. Apparently most of our grade either already knew we were a couple or found out quite easily when they'd see us holding hands in the hallways and hugging each other before going to separate classes. Everyone says they would always find it very adorable when they saw us holding hands in the halls and would say they were glad we've been together for so long and that they wish us the best. Or there are people who take more of a 'teasing' than a 'sincere' take on that and ask, "Will you invite me to your wedding??" Haha.
At this point in time, after not seeing him since March 18, and barely exchanging words over online platforms the past couple months, I'm not sure how things will be with us when the world returns to 'normal'.... if that happens.
I do feel as though I have grown and changed quite a lot in these past few months- not in a bad way.. but I'm just quite unsure of how that will affect things. :)
Regardless, I will keep living my life, and he his.. even if things don't work out. I know that I will cherish the memories we had and the lessons I learned forever. :)
And I thank for reading this if you got this far, and I hope you have a good day. :))
When reading this it reminded me of Dork diaries! And I hope that something as cute as this happens to me either in the school I am now or when I start college!
Thank you Lofi hip hop for pushing me out of depression ❤️
I’m so happy for a new post 💖
The title used to make me smile, now it just makes me think, "Finally, I'm free from the toxicity." She didn't mean to hurt me, but hurt me so much, tore me mentally to shreds. I didn't know how bad I needed to leave after leaving her, and hearing someone say that I'm a good person.
She made me think I was a mean, horrible person, just because I was blunt. After hearing those words while in co-op in Genshin (which she luckily didn't ruin for me), I almost had a mental breakdown of how bad I needed to hear that.
So, hey, you're a good person, just because your blunt or dont like dumb people, doesn't mean your a bad person or mean. You just have preferences and like to be understood. You did good today.
Isn't the melody of the song starting at 12:53 from Khalid's "Location"?
I never imagined that that new girl at school would be the first thing I think when I wake up, the reason of my hapiness, the one that can make my day just with a simple smile. Idk, sometimes I think I'm the luckiest guy alive. She's just perfect, in all her details. Someone I didn't know 3 months ago, now is the most important person to me. Thank you, I love you so much you can't imagine.
I met you in the classroom, you were my best friend and soon after my lover, my first and only love! Or at least I thought so, we lived the best moments together, I dared to do things that I would never do for anyone else, we were so happy, now you are just a beautiful memory.
-The day I lost my love and my best friend-