"The final awakening is the embracing of the darkness into the light. That means embracing our humanity as well as our divinity. What we go from is being born into our humanity, sleep walking for a long time, until we awaken and start to taste our divinity. And then want to finally get free. Finally you come to a point where you almost know it all. You are very wise. You are very pure... except for the fact that you may well have gotten caught in the last trap... the desire to know it all and still be you, "the knower." This is an impossibility. For all of the finite knowledge does not add up to the infinite. In order to take the final step, the knower must go. That is, you can only BE it all, but you can't know it all. The goal is non-dualistic - as long as there is a "knower" and "known" you are in dualism. This society is not 'user-friendly' for older people. Wisdom is one of the few things in human life that does not diminish with age. Old age spiritualizes people naturally. Aging has its own beauty. It is a beautiful stage for doing inner work. You have a chance to not be so dependent on social approval. You can be a little more eccentric. You can be more alone. And you can examine loneliness and boredom instead of being afraid of them. There is such an art and a possibility of aging." Ram Dass
"Knowing it, you know the very heartbeat of existence. Knowing it, you have known all that is worth knowing, and you have achieved all that is worth achieving. It opens doors to all the mysteries of existence, to all the treasures of existence which belong to you. Outside you are simply a beggar. Even your greatest intellectuals are just playing with words." -Osho
Yes, today, on Christmas, I am being fully awkward, shy, and reclusive around family. It just is, just patterns that are still arising. In past years I might have done everything I could to hide this or cover it up under fake smiles and forcing myself to hold uncomfortable conversation just to appear like all is okay. Cannot do that this year. 🤷♀️. Oh well, either way. A pattern that is coming through strong is feeling so uncomfortable in my body. Negative beliefs and thoughts about my body and the way it appears. It's nice to hear you reminding all that there's just momentum behind this...and things do fall away in time. So much love to you, thank you! 💖
Right here with you, its a pattern I always wish I can break through different ways of thinking or whatever. This is just my lot in life for now, although often I feel like how can I ever achieve my dreams if I am stuck in my own head around the people that I should be comfortable around. I almost feel like it would be easier to get on with strangers since they don't know you, one would feel like they have no expectation for you and you can kind of be whoever you wish. Anyways just wanted to let you know you are not alone, and happy holidays to you.
I can relate to those patterns you mentioned, but it was more feeling drained and needing alone time with a book in my case. Its funny no one even noticed I had left the room except for my mum. The rest of the family were too busy and self absorbed in conversation.
Give up? Give in? Surrender? Total acceptance of what is? My heart feels the truth in these things, but my mind with all of its' darkness and light, with all of its' hindrances and creativity...it just seems that suffering and sadness are as much a part of life as joy and laughter. I love your channel because it challenges modern day perceptions that we are born into. In this way, your channel is very courageous.
I can "understand" what you're talking about in your videos. I used to study this non-duality thing years ago. Meditating whole days while getting rid of any joy of my life and reading/watching about this topic. I then got that crazy sense of freedom for like 2 weeks. I felt like I were that space besides me watching that 'me'. I started speaking like crazy with my friends while smiling a lot. Not 'artificialy' happy and not unhappy. Got that kind of neutral happiness. The golden mean. But eventually I decided to go back to school, change work, meet some new people. I stopped meditating, started drinking alcohol and here I am, 7-8 years later, having attained more than I wanted in my life, but depressed af. The ego came back with its 100% power. I can grasp the videos, the books, the theory but can't anymore put it into practice. How strange, isn't it? Does anyone feel like this, too? Maybe I'm clinging too much to that refreshing feeling that occured to me while finally understanding what I tried to understand years ago. I'm anxious about spending 20-30 minutes in meditation instead of staying more time at work. I'm tired and depressed and feel so helpless. Started thinking of the process of dying like everyday. Became so anxious and I need that 'self-realization' more than ever before now... I think I learned some lesson and it's - ego needs some work for the lifetime. You can't just stop meditating, immerse yourself in that world of consumerism and hope to stay happy. We're like chameleons BTW I found your channel yesterday and I think listening to you already helps a lot. I need more channels like yours in my life. Thank you.
Yeah this is deep deep work, for context nobody’s systems want this, they want to keep safe. But safety is the same as suffering because ultimately it’s inauthentic. There’s a whole world of tools out there now, see what resonates and go for it, if you grow tired of the suffering.
We are eternally alone within ourselves. This is something I noticed when I was depressed. I was having horrible thoughts and was dying inside, and people around me didn't realize it unless I said it, which put me in an even more hopeless position. because all my life I have believed that we have a connection with others. The concept called the other is just a puppet that we created with an unconscious effort. it's a technology. sweet dream. Just don't let it get out of control. Don't give existence to everyone! neither eternal solitude, nor endless crowds. There is no need to be on the extremes, everything is beautiful in balance.
Lovely open true message ❤️ Thank you. It's not easy to speak with so much openness, but necessary for truth and letting go. So many of us have suffered because we cared what others thought.
Less focus on having. More focus on being. Once you learn to see with your mind you start to feel more and more disconnected to humanity. More disconnected to the human in you. It can get scary but i promise you it is worth the struggle. There is light at the end of the tunnel. I was always pretty much alone. The person that mattered the most to me died this year and all my „friends“ left me alone. Again. I healed myself in solitude. What i can tell you is that once you see how peaceful it is not wanting to do this, wanting this wanting that.. it is beyond wonderful. The only thing that there is and it truely is, the brighter your light shines the more shadows you cast. Stick to your light. Believe in being. Stop obeying false gods.
I also feel like putting on a mask for the convenience of others around you is a form of care and empathy for those around you. While you may be falling away, you're still aware of your place as a piece in the system that requires your part to function effectively. Most people can't function at the same level as you are on, and, with that emotional intelligence, you put on a mask as a form of empathy; some people may say control. It just depends on the intent behind it. Kind of like dealing with a child and knowing how to interact with them without being too heavy on them about things they can't understand.
I sit on a hill overlooking a lake Waiting for the sky to turn blue Only to feel the moment at stake Wasting time on an imaginary hue Through the static I see glimpses of yesterday Comparing outlooks as if there has been dissolution from the past, Pining for the sun I once knew Change is always imminent Nothing on the horizon skies Nothing left to excite the eye Thrown into a sea of lies To the confinity of biological demise Here's something I wrote a couple of years ago that in my mind seemed to capture the feeling of wanting to hold on older ways of perceiving things. I have started to notice myself wanting to be just be okay with just existing and falling away from expectations.
I have a strong sense of what you are saying (will use "you" and "I" for communication purposes). I've reached a close state of what you are describing two times in my life through different methods, but it's always the same. It's like trying to matchup to the momentum of a river then becoming that river. Everything is effortless, every movement, every thought, every emotion. I understand that I am supposed to reach this state and let go. I wasnt ready to let go, the ego definetly does not want this, it uses everything at hand to oppose to that state. So you have to disarm the ego, like a bomb, so that state can manifest itself freely. Every little nuance of ego will manifest itself to pull you back in duality. It's the hardest thing one can do for sure. To feel your fears and dissolve them in uncondiotional love, to let go of your sense of gender, to let go of possession and so on to all ego like characteristics. Very few people are truly willing to do that. They may get in this path to get rid of pain (myself included) not realizing it's the scariest journey ever for your ego, it means it's death. Maybe I'm completely off, but I feel that this is the closest I can describe what this state would be in my limited sense. Thanks for sharing your journey, it's good and scary to hear your words.
"Pay no attention to that man behind the curtain." How many of you looked in spite of the warning? I did and I found nothing and it shattered me to my core because the first guest that knowledge brought with it was the total futility of everything including me. This is the experience of the wisdom that realizes emptiness and it's not a pleasant place to be. It's like being told you are going to die because it evokes the same conditions by setting you off on the reinforcement of your self to prove you are real. It's actually a good thing that nothing in the universe is real, that way, in the end nobody gets hurt. And we all get to come back and try again. Try again for what? The chance to wake up and realize that none of this is real so you can stop coming back here.
I remember as a child growing up my dad would Always be in a bad mood because he was trying to understand how to resolve his inner struggles in order to "find his salvation" before he died in This lifetime or something like that in order to make sure he didn't have to reincarnate HERE again to go through his lessons on earth again.. it was quite the mind bender to try and understand that as I got older and now I do.
I believe Suzanne is beginning to become fully awakened. It begins with a lot of mind chatter, which is good and a jumping point to the greater differentiation between reality and illusion. Some ppl never reach this level. At the same time, some ppl don't go beyond this mental mind chatter. Remember, the mind is the greatest trickster and tries to remain in control whilst giving you the illusion of control. Whatever can be perceived is an object. All objects are illusory and transient. The contents of the mind are perceived by Consciousness, ergo the mind is an object & illusory. The mind is impermanent. Consciousness is eternal.
Thank you, Suzanne. Deeply contemplating and feeling the “edges” of this freedom. Your talks, in this moment, are both ballast and companionship as this all goes deeper and deeper… 🙏💜🫥
Your vibration is a sponge, when you are happy and loving this is what you get more of, when you are sad that's what you'll get, you are the receiver of how you are feeling, there isn't a "sad me" or a" happy me" there isn't every me, hope that helps 💕 you have to align with Better feeling thoughts
For my concern for you. Don't spend too much time at the graveyard. Your soul and life is too precious. Have faith that God loves you. Your beautiful and the apple of God's eye
Very nice to hear a Chinese women talking such profound spiritual and timely topics. Not even my Chinese wife or my Chinese friends can talk like this. I feel completely at home with your teachings. Many thanks and all my love to you 🥰
One feeling or thought 😅I had when I was a child how can there be nothing. That was the key to perception of my existence…..what is nothing and everything one is both. God dam 🥳
I’m grateful to you for talking about your experience. Perhaps I’m wrong, but what you seem to be describing is what Tibetan practitioners would see as negating too much and veering into nihilism. In all the Mahayana traditions, the realization of non-self is complemented and eventually blended with the realization that all things arise dependently. As Dogen put it, “To forget the self is to be actualized by the myriad things.” It’s an experience of being connected to all things, even as we realize that they and I only exist in a relative way, not inherently. Emptiness is not nothingness. Nihilism, the belief that actions don’t have consequences and that nothing matters is a bleak and potentially a very dark place to be. Most Mahayana traditions would say that when we explore ideas of non-self and non-duality, it's very important to understand the potential for nihilism, because landing in that place can involve real suffering. I created a short video to try to express this very complicated topic: th-cam.com/video/Ik7wWmKHm0U/w-d-xo.html Thanks again for the courage and the care you put into your videos!
If your tears are tears of joy then I salute you for making a profound shift at a young age. If they are tears of sadness then I respectfully suggest that you check in with some professional support to make sure that you are safe and cared for. Disorientation can be tricky. It may well be that you are releasing outmoded patterns. It may also be that you are reacting to crisis and stress and what you are feeling are symptoms that should be addressed carefully. Obviously I don’t know you. I just ask you to consider that self care and the care of others are healthy supports for large shifts. Best Wishes.
Once I accepted this...it was unimaginably painful. I would argue it made my depression at an all-time low. Then I realized...of course it would be painful. The character that I've been playing was dying and I was being reborn. 33 years of playing this character.Of course it's going to be painful to let it die. That should be expected. I wasn't thinking that way though when I was suffering at first. It's hard to think straight when you're suffering. But it was in my suffering that I found that answer. I know there is no I and me. I know there is no time. I now know there really is no right or wrong emotions. There is no positive or negative emotions. There just is and it is. It has now changed my mindset to be more accepting of what I would perceive as negative emotions. That's when I learn the most.
at first i didn't resonate with this until you said to be free as it is that really does resonate with me well for me i love to be weird, awkward, silly, shy, too nice even having a good day or bad day express how we truly feel sad, happy and mad and being difference i know we get this advice that it's ok to be difference there's nothing wrong with that at all yes i do agree that we are unique that there is no normal i never want it to be normal, perfect and popular at all i do agree resonate that there is no good and no bad and there is no right or wrong that it just is that it's not anything that there is just labels there is no me to be found it's all of love i know that doesn't mean to go out make a fool of ourselves that's why i thumps up this video i also agree resonate you said that is wholeness alright i also want to wish you merry christmas and happy holidays on my favorite holiday i know everyone else don't believe in santa cluse think he is not real that he's fake made up, some believe santa cluse is real, some believe santa cluse is good, and some believe santa cluse is bad evil that's totally fine everyone has the right to believe whatever they want have there own difference point of view take on things well for i do think everyone has difference experience what is real and what is not real to them i want to say that i never ever experience seeing stana cluse i may not have no proof at all but i think believe that he is never good or bad and i believe santa cluse is real
"Bound to this flesh This guise, this mask This dream Wake up remember We are born of one breath, one word We are all one spark, sun becoming" Song: Pneuma / Artist: Tool. th-cam.com/video/O9SfljZLQLs/w-d-xo.html When we are awakening, we have so many questions, but not enough answers. When we are enlightened, we have no questions & all the answers. The essence of reality is not emptiness, it is full & complete; you cannot add nor subtract anything. It is everything & eternal. Music cannot exist without brief moments of silence in between the sound. Sound & silence are both equally important in the creation of music. We borrow existence from Consciousness.
Before enlightenment; chop wood, carry water. After enlightenment; chop wood, carry water. Ultimately, we are stuck in these vulnerable degrading meat bags that have daily needs. None of these words take away from the fact that we are also forced to participate in neoliberal capitalism or starve and be homeless. In other words, the reality is grim. Probably more so the further "aware" you are. Anyhow, hope you are making some coin for these videos so you too can pay rent and eat. Peace.
Some things we go through could be but not always is because of Epi-Genetic memory. From your parents and there parents.... Its processes within processes. Healing trauma. Rewriting your coding. So that as you are within consciousness you exceed Darkness and all its bag of tricks. Journeying into the light. And transcending into Love and Oneness.
Those (as you say) all take effort however being is effortless. Maybe this was only a world we were suppose to experience in total suffering for a very brief period of time (like most animals experience)? Bliss comes through and by total detachment by way of an insane intensity of pain.
Nameste, when you stay in the place of awareness with no thought, that is the purest form of you. That which observes the comings and goings of the mind, that is your true self. That which is observed, is not You.
Can you please tell me how I can join a zoom call when you have one and also if it’s possible to connect with any of the people that are participating in the zoom calls. I live alone and have almost no social contact with anyone other than some phone calls with friends who live in other countries. Would like to connect with people who are going through the things that Suzanne describes as I am experiencing many of the same effects that people discuss in these calls. It would help me in not feeling so isolated even though I do understand that the ‘me’ doesn’t exist !
to play and to dance for this seeker I pray no reason is needed in order to sway to journey and roam is a prayer for myself it starts with a doo-see - or is that what they say? shake it up dear woman and let's take a chance you take to roaming and I'll take to dance it's hardly a theory to be put to the test but when no thinking's needed, no reason is best
Suzanne, could it be that the difference between a 'personal awakening' and 'the full on awakening' is the fact that the 'personal awakening' is an aspect of the realm of image, in other words the past, and 'the full on awakening' in the body, be an aspect of the unfoldment of the Now, in the Now, as the Now? Could it also be that when the past is seen as the past, there is a release of energy in the Now? Could the Now be an infinite energy field in which essence is free to unfold into pattern and the forms thus created are free to enfold into essence? Could the synthesis of this unbounded ebb and flow be found in Choiceless Awareness? Could it also be the Now has a perfect understanding of itself and what is not of itself? Could this perfect understanding of the Now, for the Now, in the Now, as the Now, be recognised as caring, as love by the Now? Could this perfect relationship be seen to be absolutely, unconditionally free from time? Could the essence of the human condition be rooted in this perfect relationship? Could it be that human beings are innocent of the physical reality of caring? Could openness to this perfect relationship be the unfoldment of true love, true caring, true fulfilment? Could falling in love be, in fact, falling out of time? Could true love be free from identification? Could it be that love has no opposite? Could it be that suffering comes to an end when time falls away? Let's find out, together, as two friends! Will you excuse me? I need to make breakfast! Have a good day and I'll catch you later. All the best for now.
Have you read The Stranger by Camus? It sounds like a lot of your recent discoveries and experiences can be simmered down to good old-fashioned nihilism.
Yes ! Everything one experiences is in the world of DUALITY , as opposed to the the idea of NON DUALITY ! Where everything is really one with out the separation ! None of this is real , of course it’s just a simple program which takes place in the mind , where obviously the interpretation of information from the outside into the inside sort of speak. ! Then creates the images where our bodies experiences , compleat with created emotions that our bodies , responds to , it is not real just an illusion of creation , it’s incomprehensible , but at the same time understandable , nothing to get hung about , as the Beatles put it !!!
I’m new here. I like listening to your voice. But I see lonesome, sad people gathering here. Every stone behind you represents a life from the past. Some of them must have had similar thoughts and emotions and I wonder how they dealt with them? I mean without internet, cellphones etc. I also wonder how a guy like Nietzsche (whom I studied) for instance, who was lonesome and sad himself, would have expressed himself in this age? Absolutely sure, he would run a TH-cam channel. It would have benefited him a lot. Perhaps his avatar is doing it already! Greetings from Germany ॐ
You are the creator of your own reality. It's all you. Watch Dolores Cannon on youtube. Marina Jacobi - the Harmonic Reactor can help you change your reality.
Enlightenment is not a mannerism we adopt. It’s an ontological realisation that precedes intellectual acknowledgement that we are in avidja or ignorance.
Stop looking for unconditional love, if you're still searching for anything that means you're still attached to something. This love you speak often of it's inherent of the one god religions. The father who gave birth to everything but never there and the sons and daughters felt abandoned and will do anything to get the love. The muslims bang their head 5 times a day trying to get back to heaven, the christians try to appease Jesus to get to the father. Stop this nonsense if you're to be freed from bondage and walk the "I'm abandoning everything" path. I like the cemetery setting, it's the only place where the modern society will leave you alone. The quiet place where no one bothers to peer into, the place where ego dies. Learn to die before you die.
"The final awakening is the embracing of the darkness into the light. That means embracing our humanity as well as our divinity. What we go from is being born into our humanity, sleep walking for a long time, until we awaken and start to taste our divinity. And then want to finally get free.
Finally you come to a point where you almost know it all. You are very wise. You are very pure... except for the fact that you may well have gotten caught in the last trap... the desire to know it all and still be you, "the knower." This is an impossibility. For all of the finite knowledge does not add up to the infinite. In order to take the final step, the knower must go. That is, you can only BE it all, but you can't know it all. The goal is non-dualistic - as long as there is a "knower" and "known" you are in dualism.
This society is not 'user-friendly' for older people. Wisdom is one of the few things in human life that does not diminish with age.
Old age spiritualizes people naturally. Aging has its own beauty. It is a beautiful stage for doing inner work. You have a chance to not be so dependent on social approval. You can be a little more eccentric. You can be more alone. And you can examine loneliness and boredom instead of being afraid of them. There is such an art and a possibility of aging."
Ram Dass
"Knowing it, you know the very heartbeat of existence. Knowing it, you have known all that is worth knowing, and you have achieved all that is worth achieving. It opens doors to all the mysteries of existence, to all the treasures of existence which belong to you. Outside you are simply a beggar. Even your greatest intellectuals are just playing with words."
-Osho
Yes, today, on Christmas, I am being fully awkward, shy, and reclusive around family. It just is, just patterns that are still arising. In past years I might have done everything I could to hide this or cover it up under fake smiles and forcing myself to hold uncomfortable conversation just to appear like all is okay. Cannot do that this year. 🤷♀️. Oh well, either way. A pattern that is coming through strong is feeling so uncomfortable in my body. Negative beliefs and thoughts about my body and the way it appears. It's nice to hear you reminding all that there's just momentum behind this...and things do fall away in time. So much love to you, thank you! 💖
Right here with you, its a pattern I always wish I can break through different ways of thinking or whatever. This is just my lot in life for now, although often I feel like how can I ever achieve my dreams if I am stuck in my own head around the people that I should be comfortable around. I almost feel like it would be easier to get on with strangers since they don't know you, one would feel like they have no expectation for you and you can kind of be whoever you wish. Anyways just wanted to let you know you are not alone, and happy holidays to you.
Another great message, and more confirmation Suzanne! Thank you so much for sharing these pointings. Looking forward to talking with you again soon. ❤
This comment is so incredible it made me feel so heard. Merry Christmas.
I can relate to those patterns you mentioned, but it was more feeling drained and needing alone time with a book in my case. Its funny no one even noticed I had left the room except for my mum. The rest of the family were too busy and self absorbed in conversation.
@@initiallynasty9831 I completely hear you, 100%. Same thoughts were arising for me.
Thank you so much for the kind words. Happy holidays ❤️.
Your words echo the quote ... "Wisdom is knowing I am nothing. Love is knowing I am everything. Between the two my life moves."
Give up? Give in? Surrender? Total acceptance of what is? My heart feels the truth in these things, but my mind with all of its' darkness and light, with all of its' hindrances and creativity...it just seems that suffering and sadness are as much a part of life as joy and laughter. I love your channel because it challenges modern day perceptions that we are born into. In this way, your channel is very courageous.
methinks she not even needs to be courageous anymore but simply lets TRUTH speek through herself ... .
I LOVE THE LOCATION YOU USED.....YES; WE HAVE TO DIE BEFORE WE DIE
I can "understand" what you're talking about in your videos. I used to study this non-duality thing years ago. Meditating whole days while getting rid of any joy of my life and reading/watching about this topic. I then got that crazy sense of freedom for like 2 weeks. I felt like I were that space besides me watching that 'me'. I started speaking like crazy with my friends while smiling a lot. Not 'artificialy' happy and not unhappy. Got that kind of neutral happiness. The golden mean. But eventually I decided to go back to school, change work, meet some new people. I stopped meditating, started drinking alcohol and here I am, 7-8 years later, having attained more than I wanted in my life, but depressed af. The ego came back with its 100% power. I can grasp the videos, the books, the theory but can't anymore put it into practice. How strange, isn't it? Does anyone feel like this, too?
Maybe I'm clinging too much to that refreshing feeling that occured to me while finally understanding what I tried to understand years ago. I'm anxious about spending 20-30 minutes in meditation instead of staying more time at work. I'm tired and depressed and feel so helpless. Started thinking of the process of dying like everyday. Became so anxious and I need that 'self-realization' more than ever before now... I think I learned some lesson and it's - ego needs some work for the lifetime. You can't just stop meditating, immerse yourself in that world of consumerism and hope to stay happy. We're like chameleons
BTW I found your channel yesterday and I think listening to you already helps a lot. I need more channels like yours in my life. Thank you.
Totally with you. It’s ok ❤
Yeah this is deep deep work, for context nobody’s systems want this, they want to keep safe. But safety is the same as suffering because ultimately it’s inauthentic. There’s a whole world of tools out there now, see what resonates and go for it, if you grow tired of the suffering.
Thanks for sharing..a freedom to be no matter what!!
We are eternally alone within ourselves. This is something I noticed when I was depressed. I was having horrible thoughts and was dying inside, and people around me didn't realize it unless I said it, which put me in an even more hopeless position. because all my life I have believed that we have a connection with others. The concept called the other is just a puppet that we created with an unconscious effort. it's a technology. sweet dream. Just don't let it get out of control. Don't give existence to everyone! neither eternal solitude, nor endless crowds. There is no need to be on the extremes, everything is beautiful in balance.
I just got to say I love your name.gave me a good chuckle😂
Tbh I'm so tired of trying to be anything, so your message is really needed.
Lovely open true message ❤️ Thank you. It's not easy to speak with so much openness, but necessary for truth and letting go. So many of us have suffered because we cared what others thought.
Less focus on having. More focus on being.
Once you learn to see with your mind you start to feel more and more disconnected to humanity.
More disconnected to the human in you. It can get scary but i promise you it is worth the struggle. There is light at the end of the tunnel.
I was always pretty much alone.
The person that mattered the most to me died this year and all my „friends“ left me alone.
Again. I healed myself in solitude.
What i can tell you is that once you see how peaceful it is not wanting to do this, wanting this wanting that.. it is beyond wonderful.
The only thing that there is and it truely is, the brighter your light shines the more shadows you cast. Stick to your light.
Believe in being. Stop obeying false gods.
This made me cry because it is what is happening. I love you!
I also feel like putting on a mask for the convenience of others around you is a form of care and empathy for those around you. While you may be falling away, you're still aware of your place as a piece in the system that requires your part to function effectively. Most people can't function at the same level as you are on, and, with that emotional intelligence, you put on a mask as a form of empathy; some people may say control. It just depends on the intent behind it. Kind of like dealing with a child and knowing how to interact with them without being too heavy on them about things they can't understand.
There such a simplicity in your talks.. Thank you.
love this Suzzane. So pleased you mentioned healthy boundaries.
Thank you 😊, freedom to be rude, I try hard and just can't change it, so hard to accept it as it ruins my life.
Perhaps not rude-ness. Maybe just not taking the monkey of others' judgement
@@marksmedley8967 thanks
I sit on a hill overlooking a lake
Waiting for the sky to turn blue
Only to feel the moment at stake
Wasting time on an imaginary hue
Through the static I see glimpses of yesterday
Comparing outlooks as if there has been dissolution from the past,
Pining for the sun I once knew
Change is always imminent
Nothing on the horizon skies
Nothing left to excite the eye
Thrown into a sea of lies
To the confinity of biological demise
Here's something I wrote a couple of years ago that in my mind seemed to capture the feeling of wanting to hold on older ways of perceiving things. I have started to notice myself wanting to be just be okay with just existing and falling away from expectations.
"A falling away from ways to be.. into what is... A return to simplicity" Grateful for these videos and observations.
I have a strong sense of what you are saying (will use "you" and "I" for communication purposes). I've reached a close state of what you are describing two times in my life through different methods, but it's always the same. It's like trying to matchup to the momentum of a river then becoming that river. Everything is effortless, every movement, every thought, every emotion. I understand that I am supposed to reach this state and let go. I wasnt ready to let go, the ego definetly does not want this, it uses everything at hand to oppose to that state. So you have to disarm the ego, like a bomb, so that state can manifest itself freely. Every little nuance of ego will manifest itself to pull you back in duality. It's the hardest thing one can do for sure. To feel your fears and dissolve them in uncondiotional love, to let go of your sense of gender, to let go of possession and so on to all ego like characteristics. Very few people are truly willing to do that. They may get in this path to get rid of pain (myself included) not realizing it's the scariest journey ever for your ego, it means it's death. Maybe I'm completely off, but I feel that this is the closest I can describe what this state would be in my limited sense. Thanks for sharing your journey, it's good and scary to hear your words.
Wonderfully put.
I've been enjoying your talks lately. Very authentic and liberating. No pretence.
"Pay no attention to that man behind the curtain." How many of you looked in spite of the warning? I did and I found nothing and it shattered me to my core because the first guest that knowledge brought with it was the total futility of everything including me. This is the experience of the wisdom that realizes emptiness and it's not a pleasant place to be. It's like being told you are going to die because it evokes the same conditions by setting you off on the reinforcement of your self to prove you are real. It's actually a good thing that nothing in the universe is real, that way, in the end nobody gets hurt. And we all get to come back and try again. Try again for what? The chance to wake up and realize that none of this is real so you can stop coming back here.
I remember as a child growing up my dad would Always be in a bad mood because he was trying to understand how to resolve his inner struggles in order to "find his salvation" before he died in This lifetime or something like that in order to make sure he didn't have to reincarnate HERE again to go through his lessons on earth again.. it was quite the mind bender to try and understand that as I got older and now I do.
why would the universe depend on your conciousness to decide it is real or not?
Thanks this is a beautiful message and I needed to hear. I will share with some like-minded souls.
Always appreciate your videos. I'm in the midst of practicing ego death. You are very helpful and inspirational.
"Falling back into simplicity" 😊
Thank you Suzanne always on point and so timely... Beautiful message ❤️
Let it come, let it be, let it go 🌠🌞🌈
The trinity of this world - born, be, bygone.
I believe Suzanne is beginning to become fully awakened. It begins with a lot of mind chatter, which is good and a jumping point to the greater differentiation between reality and illusion. Some ppl never reach this level. At the same time, some ppl don't go beyond this mental mind chatter. Remember, the mind is the greatest trickster and tries to remain in control whilst giving you the illusion of control. Whatever can be perceived is an object. All objects are illusory and transient. The contents of the mind are perceived by Consciousness, ergo the mind is an object & illusory. The mind is impermanent. Consciousness is eternal.
Thanks for sharing Suzanne, love you, take care 🤗😉.
I’m so glad I found your channel. This is so helpful and beautiful. Thank you! 💜
This is one way of seeing and dealing with the world but there are many so please stay open. Love, 💕
Thank you, Suzanne.
Deeply contemplating and feeling the “edges” of this freedom.
Your talks, in this moment, are both ballast and companionship as this all goes deeper and deeper…
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Practicing keeping the body loose and relaxed. True nature still rises
Very good points I'm loving your words of insight! I'm subbed!
Happy Holidays Suzanne!! Many thanks for all your vids this year. Your words are like music to my ears. A big virtual hug ❤
You dress and speak nicely 😇
Your vibration is a sponge, when you are happy and loving this is what you get more of, when you are sad that's what you'll get, you are the receiver of how you are feeling, there isn't a "sad me" or a" happy me" there isn't every me, hope that helps 💕 you have to align with Better feeling thoughts
Thank you 🙏
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Thank you so so much Patrick!! Merry Christmas and Happy New Year :D
For my concern for you. Don't spend too much time at the graveyard. Your soul and life is too precious.
Have faith that God loves you.
Your beautiful and the apple of God's eye
Very nice to hear a Chinese women talking such profound spiritual and timely topics. Not even my Chinese wife or my Chinese friends can talk like this. I feel completely at home with your teachings. Many thanks and all my love to you 🥰
Beautiful message. ♥
I can sens your awakening it is fresh ❤️😄
Well expressed
Thank you
So good , thanks Suzanne , ❤
Hi I just saw your videos I like how calme you are that make me feel better thanks
One feeling or thought 😅I had when I was a child how can there be nothing. That was the key to perception of my existence…..what is nothing and everything one is both. God dam 🥳
All of these things we speak are also a distortion in the true self.
🍑💨🎶👃🏽💕 umm Suzanne keep your non duality coming, i need warmth this winter.
A complete letting go of the tiller...no longer struggling with anything that appears...because it just is as it is...(whatever this is)...♾
I just stumbled upon your video. I think you are lovely and very cute. I just want to give you a big hug 🥰
The comments resonate with me..
I’m grateful to you for talking about your experience. Perhaps I’m wrong, but what you seem to be describing is what Tibetan practitioners would see as negating too much and veering into nihilism. In all the Mahayana traditions, the realization of non-self is complemented and eventually blended with the realization that all things arise dependently. As Dogen put it, “To forget the self is to be actualized by the myriad things.” It’s an experience of being connected to all things, even as we realize that they and I only exist in a relative way, not inherently. Emptiness is not nothingness. Nihilism, the belief that actions don’t have consequences and that nothing matters is a bleak and potentially a very dark place to be. Most Mahayana traditions would say that when we explore ideas of non-self and non-duality, it's very important to understand the potential for nihilism, because landing in that place can involve real suffering. I created a short video to try to express this very complicated topic: th-cam.com/video/Ik7wWmKHm0U/w-d-xo.html Thanks again for the courage and the care you put into your videos!
tha k you for this.
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If your tears are tears of joy then I salute you for making a profound shift at a young age. If they are tears of sadness then I respectfully suggest that you check in with some professional support to make sure that you are safe and cared for. Disorientation can be tricky. It may well be that you are releasing outmoded patterns. It may also be that you are reacting to crisis and stress and what you are feeling are symptoms that should be addressed carefully. Obviously I don’t know you. I just ask you to consider that self care and the care of others are healthy supports for large shifts. Best Wishes.
I find myself bringing out my true self by saying f--k off frequently. 🙏😂
awakeness waking up to itself .
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Once I accepted this...it was unimaginably painful. I would argue it made my depression at an all-time low. Then I realized...of course it would be painful. The character that I've been playing was dying and I was being reborn. 33 years of playing this character.Of course it's going to be painful to let it die. That should be expected. I wasn't thinking that way though when I was suffering at first. It's hard to think straight when you're suffering. But it was in my suffering that I found that answer. I know there is no I and me. I know there is no time. I now know there really is no right or wrong emotions. There is no positive or negative emotions. There just is and it is. It has now changed my mindset to be more accepting of what I would perceive as negative emotions. That's when I learn the most.
at first i didn't resonate with this until you said to be free as it is that really does resonate with me well for me i love to be weird, awkward, silly, shy, too nice even having a good day or bad day express how we truly feel sad, happy and mad and being difference i know we get this advice that it's ok to be difference there's nothing wrong with that at all yes i do agree that we are unique that there is no normal i never want it to be normal, perfect and popular at all i do agree resonate that there is no good and no bad and there is no right or wrong that it just is that it's not anything that there is just labels there is no me to be found it's all of love i know that doesn't mean to go out make a fool of ourselves that's why i thumps up this video i also agree resonate you said that is wholeness alright i also want to wish you merry christmas and happy holidays on my favorite holiday i know everyone else don't believe in santa cluse think he is not real that he's fake made up, some believe santa cluse is real, some believe santa cluse is good, and some believe santa cluse is bad evil that's totally fine everyone has the right to believe whatever they want have there own difference point of view take on things well for i do think everyone has difference experience what is real and what is not real to them i want to say that i never ever experience seeing stana cluse i may not have no proof at all but i think believe that he is never good or bad and i believe santa cluse is real
I wish to attend your level of awareness ❤❤❤
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When I look at the herd, better to be an outcast. Be thankful for what you are.
"Bound to this flesh
This guise, this mask
This dream
Wake up remember
We are born of one breath, one word
We are all one spark, sun becoming" Song: Pneuma / Artist: Tool.
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When we are awakening, we have so many questions, but not enough answers. When we are enlightened, we have no questions & all the answers. The essence of reality is not emptiness, it is full & complete; you cannot add nor subtract anything. It is everything & eternal. Music cannot exist without brief moments of silence in between the sound. Sound & silence are both equally important in the creation of music. We borrow existence from Consciousness.
Hugs, all.
Amor fati
I love how these videos are shot in cemetery.
Happy Holidays
Before enlightenment; chop wood, carry water. After enlightenment; chop wood, carry water. Ultimately, we are stuck in these vulnerable degrading meat bags that have daily needs. None of these words take away from the fact that we are also forced to participate in neoliberal capitalism or starve and be homeless. In other words, the reality is grim. Probably more so the further "aware" you are. Anyhow, hope you are making some coin for these videos so you too can pay rent and eat. Peace.
Why do you hate the body so much?
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Thankyou for that, ah how simple it is to be 😂
merry christmas
I think I'm personally awakening. I don't have a desire for ego death. I'm too attached to materialistic desires.
Some things we go through could be but not always is because of Epi-Genetic memory. From your parents and there parents.... Its processes within processes. Healing trauma. Rewriting your coding. So that as you are within consciousness you exceed Darkness and all its bag of tricks. Journeying into the light. And transcending into Love and Oneness.
Those (as you say) all take effort however being is effortless. Maybe this was only a world we were suppose to experience in total suffering for a very brief period of time (like most animals experience)? Bliss comes through and by total detachment by way of an insane intensity of pain.
i love you
Nameste, when you stay in the place of awareness with no thought, that is the purest form of you. That which observes the comings and goings of the mind, that is your true self. That which is observed, is not You.
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Can you please tell me how I can join a zoom call when you have one and also if it’s possible to connect with any of the people that are participating in the zoom calls. I live alone and have almost no social contact with anyone other than some phone calls with friends who live in other countries. Would like to connect with people who are going through the things that Suzanne describes as I am experiencing many of the same effects that people discuss in these calls. It would help me in not feeling so isolated even though I do understand that the ‘me’ doesn’t exist !
to play and to dance for this seeker I pray
no reason is needed in order to sway
to journey and roam is a prayer for myself
it starts with a doo-see - or is that what they say?
shake it up dear woman and let's take a chance
you take to roaming and I'll take to dance
it's hardly a theory to be put to the test
but when no thinking's needed, no reason is best
1-all=freedom
Suzanne, could it be that the difference between a 'personal awakening' and 'the full on awakening' is the fact that the 'personal awakening' is an aspect of the realm of image, in other words the past, and 'the full on awakening' in the body, be an aspect of the unfoldment of the Now, in the Now, as the Now?
Could it also be that when the past is seen as the past, there is a release of energy in the Now?
Could the Now be an infinite energy field in which essence is free to unfold into pattern and the forms thus created are free to enfold into essence?
Could the synthesis of this unbounded ebb and flow be found in Choiceless Awareness?
Could it also be the Now has a perfect understanding of itself and what is not of itself?
Could this perfect understanding of the Now, for the Now, in the Now, as the Now, be recognised as caring, as love by the Now?
Could this perfect relationship be seen to be absolutely, unconditionally free from time?
Could the essence of the human condition be rooted in this perfect relationship?
Could it be that human beings are innocent of the physical reality of caring?
Could openness to this perfect relationship be the unfoldment of true love, true caring, true fulfilment?
Could falling in love be, in fact, falling out of time?
Could true love be free from identification?
Could it be that love has no opposite?
Could it be that suffering comes to an end when time falls away?
Let's find out, together, as two friends!
Will you excuse me? I need to make breakfast!
Have a good day and I'll catch you later.
All the best for now.
this girl is crazy lmao
Have you read The Stranger by Camus? It sounds like a lot of your recent discoveries and experiences can be simmered down to good old-fashioned nihilism.
I kinda want to have a conversation with you!! I feel like we could have some good conversations!!
Yes ! Everything one experiences is in the world of DUALITY , as opposed to the the idea of NON DUALITY ! Where everything is really one with out the separation ! None of this is real , of course it’s just a simple program which takes place in the mind , where obviously the interpretation of information from the outside into the inside sort of speak. ! Then creates the images where our bodies experiences , compleat with created emotions that our bodies , responds to , it is not real just an illusion of creation , it’s incomprehensible , but at the same time understandable , nothing to get hung about , as the Beatles put it !!!
What you mean by 'falling away of self' is 'no resistance to what is'. Right ? cause I am always confused by that words.
So are the cemetery settings intentional? just curious...
Thank you😃. I'm fascinated to see what you will be like in 10 years. Will you be Jesus or Buddha?!
If she were, would you be able to recognise her as such?
i think it was mike tyson who said it's all fun and games until you get punched in the face.
Why must we stick to the way of being ? I don’t get the title of this video ? If there is no one, who would be able to do that ?
Why it almost always feels, that You are sad?
OMG 😲 😱 you are recording this on graveyard 😳
I’m new here. I like listening to your voice. But I see lonesome, sad people gathering here. Every stone behind you represents a life from the past. Some of them must have had similar thoughts and emotions and I wonder how they dealt with them? I mean without internet, cellphones etc. I also wonder how a guy like Nietzsche (whom I studied) for instance, who was lonesome and sad himself, would have expressed himself in this age? Absolutely sure, he would run a TH-cam channel. It would have benefited him a lot. Perhaps his avatar is doing it already! Greetings from Germany ॐ
You are the creator of your own reality. It's all you. Watch Dolores Cannon on youtube. Marina Jacobi - the Harmonic Reactor can help you change your reality.
Do you still believe in astrology after you woke up?
this is beautiful 🤍
Enlightenment is not a mannerism we adopt. It’s an ontological realisation that precedes intellectual acknowledgement that we are in avidja or ignorance.
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Stop looking for unconditional love, if you're still searching for anything that means you're still attached to something. This love you speak often of it's inherent of the one god religions. The father who gave birth to everything but never there and the sons and daughters felt abandoned and will do anything to get the love. The muslims bang their head 5 times a day trying to get back to heaven, the christians try to appease Jesus to get to the father. Stop this nonsense if you're to be freed from bondage and walk the "I'm abandoning everything" path.
I like the cemetery setting, it's the only place where the modern society will leave you alone. The quiet place where no one bothers to peer into, the place where ego dies. Learn to die before you die.
Why did you record this at a cemetery?