This was so heartbreaking to watch because I can relate 100% to not feeling good enough as a young child growing up - feeling ugly and worthless and shy and having zero confidence and just hating myself and feeling anxious at absolutely everything. But like you, I have been surrounded by the most loving and caring family as I grew up which makes having an eating disorder so much more horrendous as you can see what it is doing to the people you love. I completely understand. I am about two and a half months into anorexia recovery and I am hating every minute of it. I am literally scouring TH-cam for videos with people talking about their experiences of anorexia and depression and anxiety for something to feel a little less alone, because I feel SO alone right now. I feel so crap at the moment and sixth form starts again on monday with mock exams (I am in Y13) and I am so desperate to give up with recovery and just go back to restricting and exercising because I feel so much more in control and happier when I do so. I just hate my life and myself and my body basically, but thank you so much for making these videos because it makes me feel less alone ❤️
+Jess Doyle :( The most painful part of the whole thing, is waking up everyday knowing that you're hurting the people around you, but also knowing that you can't stop and feeling helpless to the eating disorder. I've been in recovery since 2011 and although I've gained weight and stabilised it's still so strong in my head. When I was in sixth form I was at my lowest weight and I honestly don't know how I passed my exams. Stick with recovery because you'll have that bit more energy to concentrate on revision and your exams.. you don't want anorexia to take away your education. Keep fighting it, I know it's so so hard and everyday is a struggle but you will get there. I'm living with your mindset though and it is horrible.. :( Thank you for watching! You aren't alone with it, but if you continue to restrict you'll feel more alone because you'll end up isolating yourself. Keep going and try to take care of yourself xxxx
+star13920 you don't need to say sorry!! I don't want to make it sound like I'm feeling sorry for myself or that I had a bad childhood or teenage life because that's not the case. I'm sure I'll get through it x
You should read 'The Time In Between a memoir of hunger and hope' by Nancy Tucker, it is the most beautifully written and incredible account of anorexia i've ever read. And it's not triggering, she doesnt mention numbers. But it really is insanely good.
This was so heartbreaking to watch because I can relate 100% to not feeling good enough as a young child growing up - feeling ugly and worthless and shy and having zero confidence and just hating myself and feeling anxious at absolutely everything. But like you, I have been surrounded by the most loving and caring family as I grew up which makes having an eating disorder so much more horrendous as you can see what it is doing to the people you love. I completely understand. I am about two and a half months into anorexia recovery and I am hating every minute of it. I am literally scouring TH-cam for videos with people talking about their experiences of anorexia and depression and anxiety for something to feel a little less alone, because I feel SO alone right now. I feel so crap at the moment and sixth form starts again on monday with mock exams (I am in Y13) and I am so desperate to give up with recovery and just go back to restricting and exercising because I feel so much more in control and happier when I do so. I just hate my life and myself and my body basically, but thank you so much for making these videos because it makes me feel less alone ❤️
+Jess Doyle :( The most painful part of the whole thing, is waking up everyday knowing that you're hurting the people around you, but also knowing that you can't stop and feeling helpless to the eating disorder. I've been in recovery since 2011 and although I've gained weight and stabilised it's still so strong in my head. When I was in sixth form I was at my lowest weight and I honestly don't know how I passed my exams. Stick with recovery because you'll have that bit more energy to concentrate on revision and your exams.. you don't want anorexia to take away your education. Keep fighting it, I know it's so so hard and everyday is a struggle but you will get there. I'm living with your mindset though and it is horrible.. :( Thank you for watching! You aren't alone with it, but if you continue to restrict you'll feel more alone because you'll end up isolating yourself. Keep going and try to take care of yourself xxxx
Also, im so sorry you have suffered so much. Its such a cruel illness.
+star13920 you don't need to say sorry!! I don't want to make it sound like I'm feeling sorry for myself or that I had a bad childhood or teenage life because that's not the case. I'm sure I'll get through it x
You are a beautiful human being. respect
xxxxx Thank you
You should read 'The Time In Between a memoir of hunger and hope' by Nancy Tucker, it is the most beautifully written and incredible account of anorexia i've ever read. And it's not triggering, she doesnt mention numbers. But it really is insanely good.
+star13920 Thank you for the recommendation lovely. I've read other memoirs like Unbearable Lightness but I did find that quite triggering to read
you're so lovely really :)
+Lara Menegatti :( you're so kind, thank you for being lovely xx
I don't like the term either because it's so repetitive and cliche