When the darkness comes over me the very last thing i feel like doing is talking to or seeing anyone. I am there right now. I have in the last few months cut ties with all my friends as I just can't take the pressure of socialising and the guilt from letting people down all the time. I am not close to my family. My phone remains on silent, most people have stopped contacting me now anyway. There is this big black hole in me and my head feels fuzzy. I feel as though I am simply waiting to die
me also. just closed out my social media accounts today when I realized none of my friends or family like my presence there. I'm just waiting to die now, and trying to get the courage to finally do it. I know the 'how' but not the 'where' or 'when' yet. hopefully soon. I can't do this anymore.
I had this same dis- ease for years and it changed in an instant when a guru told me I was in reverse ego mode ... everything I said about " my " sadness or pain was me, me, me. In an Instant , the light came back. I was thinking about myself too much . Painful as it was , I realized she was right . 🖤🙏
Shit I was about to comment until I saw yours That is exactly how my life is as I write this How are you doing now ? I HOPE you reply because I think your my friend
sometimes i worry that all the decisions i make are because of my depression, so i try to understand myself and see what i truely would decide. which makes me a bit more lost because i feel like ive lost a hold on who i am inside. like i dont even know what i like, or what id truely decide because for so long i ran with whatever my depression let me run with...whatever i felt okay with. i get when the guy said "i keep in mind its temporary" i understand that im trapped inside this, i just dont know how to help others accept me and i dont know how to fully accept it myself..
Absolutely one of the best documentaries about depression I've ever viewed. I could relate in some way to what each of the individuals had to say about depression.
It seems all I do is sleep my life away. ...... and sometimes when I almost feel happy for a brief while, it's like in the back of my head, I know there is no real happiness for me here. When I have the energy, I unconsciously "chase" things I think will make me happy for a while, but still, in the back of my mind, I feel there is no real happiness on this planet for me. I am not suicidal, I have learned to cope with my illness through the years. I am extremely Thankful for all that I have. I know life is a gift from God. I don't question why I got sick anymore. I have learned to adapt to a life that most people couldn't even begin to imagine. It is and will always be the elephant in the room of my life, I wouldn't wish mental illness on my worst enemy, but yet, I have been forced to make friends with this elephant, so we can coexist together, sad but true.
Thank you for making this documentary, and of course for making it freely available online. I can empathise with different elements of what each of the people here have said, and although in my case depression has made me emotionally repressed I almost felt a few tears welling up inside me watching this. It's so saddening to see so many people rich with potential having their lives ruined in the worst cases by this misunderstood and stigmatised condition. I mean, life is bloody hard at the best of times, if your own mind can become your enemy within it makes the challenges a million times worse. If I could add anything to what people have said on this documentary it would be this; keep a journal, try and log down your thoughts and feelings in as much lucid detail as you can manage. I do this now in the hope that it will at least offer some glimmers of light on the underlying reasons behind some of the terrible moods and feelings I have been through. Thanks again, beautiful film, and the title shot of the water reflections was a lovely simple artistic effect, well suited to the topic too.
I've been depressed for about 4 yrs now.I'm 53 and the depression hit me fast.It was like overnight. I stayed in bed,stopped going out of the house. Recently, I had stopped combing my hair, (I always had nice hair lol),It finally got so tangled,I had to cut the tangles out with scissors.Right now my hair is all different lengths, and now I have to muster up the energy to go get it cut short.I hate looking in the mirror.Meds haven't worked . I've taken every different kind you can think of.My doctor doesn't care . he's just there to write out RX's.The therapists that I've gone to,don't give me advice on what I should do.They just sit there and listen.I need help,not just someone to listen.
I don't blame you for not leaving your house. There's not much out there. I'm 51. One gets to the point where we feel like we just don't want to play anymore. I think you're just having a normal reaction to what seems like a hopeless world. It's not you. You're probably saner than most people out there.
Thank you for this beautiful documentary. I believe in self-help as one approach of dealing with depression by means of reading into this topic, or learning about any philosophy that helps you deal with it, and above all making it a human, a personal thing, not just a medical condition. And I think you did that wonderfully in this film.
Chris Dibke Thank you for taking the time to watch it! I got frustrated with it being misrepresented as something that was always totally crushing, and so I decided to try and change that. I'm glad that you liked it, and thanks again for your support.
Really well made Documentary i must say it is one of the few that are on point on what it is to be depressed and sadly the truth is that it will never go away but you learn to live with it.
I can personally tell you that it can, And does. It's hard to look to the actual future, around what your brain tells you.. Nobody can know for sure what will happen. But there's always an opportunity to turn it around. Even if it seems miniscule, and takes way too much effort - like it'll never matter. But it all adds up. And then something, or someone comes along.. And slowly your perspective changes. You ask me 6 years ago if I ever thought I'd be making films, I would have asked you why you were wasting your breath talking to me. Now it is different.
Great, great documentary. Thanks for making the effort to make this, and available for us to see it for free. I can relate to every character being interviewed on the documentary, it is crazy, but fascinating how personal reasons we have for depression, but also, how it affects our lives are basically the same, and the feelings we have about it. At least from my point of view, because I could relate to every single description of the depression. This documentary gave me a punch forward, and new ideas working for my book about depression, and it is clear that people really do need help for their depression. There are hundreds of thousands of sufferers. I am also a sufferer of it, I've been really deep down in the hole, but now, gladly and thankfully, I'm on the surface, and I've found and researched for quite a time for a healing for depression. That work really, really good. And I've decided to share it in the form of a book. At least at first.. From a psychological, logical, common sense, philosophical and experience based point of view. If anyone out here is looking for some help, here's what I highly recommend from my own personal experience, check this serious help, that is very easily available. Just click and listen. (I'm not advertising, just sharing ^^) th-cam.com/video/y3F32JF4ycA/w-d-xo.html th-cam.com/video/4N_jjY7W_fs/w-d-xo.html th-cam.com/video/RF23NhPjMd8/w-d-xo.html
The irony is we used to work together until i went on medical leave. now suffering from severe clinical depression I'm looking at a long recovery process. thank you for sharing .
This video hits the nail on the head. It disclosed the symptoms I suffer. Getting the proper help is the first challenge to recovery. Unfortunately I haven't faced the challenge.
As someone who is also dealing with depression and anxiety, It's really motivating to see those people talk about their depression. A very well done documentary! I can relate to many things that the people in this said in so many ways. I only wish that in the future society will be more accepting and understanding to us, I'm not saying that society didn't change in the years but there is still a room for improvement on the understanding and acceptance of people who suffer from depression and many other mental illnesses. Thank you for this video :)
Wonderful wonderful documentary- just really really depressing the music and can barely hear the voices.... can you please make a version where the sound / music is moved to a lower decibel.... I can’t seem to find the subtitles to turn off the sad music As I mentioned the likely viewers perhaps such as myself or family/ friends whom want to watch this INCREDIBLE film and helpful discussion from “living experiences” can’t hear them; nor emotionally handle this music; I personally got more sad from the music. I am happy to help download this or send to a production consultant and have them change the tuning.... Thank you so much for your great help with sharing this incredible film and lived experiences 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼
I am inclined to assume that most people who stumble onto this documentary are suffering from depression, myself included.. I think some of the issue is that "normal" people aren't as informed about depression, because they don't purposely seek the information.. Thank you for a nice documentary, but please turn down the volume of the music! The music sometimes put me off, it seemed to glorify some of the scenes or something.. Depression is not beautiful and sad as the music. It is pain.
Well said ! I feel the same in 2019 as you did two years ago but better late than never to ask the question. How are you doing now ? IF you're doing better I would really appreciate your advice
People who care do not feel annoying, i just don’t believe them. Anyway those people are few and far between and i do not have any friends. I am alone and there is no one to talk to.
At 22:42 the guy has a question about who wouldn't choose happy. I can only speak for myself but I almost always choose against happy. Happy is strange, happy is unfamiliar, happy is alien. Depression on the other hand is familiar. I know depression, it's comfortable. I know, sounds strange but sadly it's true.
dats fact..wat im feeling ryt now..started in 2014..i flt empty inside n nothing realy mattered.i just wana be happy..but i feel so insecure..daaaaammmmm..
As someone who has dealt with depression my whole life, I really love the concept here, but the music is way too loud. The volume of it repeatedly yanked me out of the stories. Other than that, it's a beautiful film.
The sad piano music really didn't help! I watched this cos the title sums up my life at the mo: treading water. But as well as enabling me to contact a trusted friend, which is good, I came away feeling sadder just because of the music! No music at all would have better, IMHO! Other opinions are available! However, it does help to know that one is not alone, so thank you for making this documentary. K :-)
1 year 2 months with one therapist until he died, 11/83 to 1/85......therapy with his son (from 1985 to 2010---25 years!!!)......7-10 medications via 5-6 psychiatrists since 1997, and 4-5 other therapists from 2011 to now (2017.) And today---9/19/17.....my last of 35 sessions of TMS Treatments, didn't do a fucking thing. I feel SO CLOSE to the end, of giving up. So much more to say, but NOTHING IS WORKING NOW. I am SO done....
I so understand! My whole life has been like a full time job of holding back the shore. Now it's like, wait! Why am I doing this? So if I have to be here so do you, lol. Hope at least for today you're doing better.
The only thing one can count on is depression. Loved ones will die, people will screw you and let you down and injure you. Depression will always be there ....it will never abandon you. It's your wife .....It's your life. Till death do you part.
honestly I am watching this to save my life. I want to self harm right now, and I have not been this way in awhile. I just love bipolar 1 cycling (sarcasm)
He's wearing a satanic necklace in the beginning. Brings negatively upon you without even realizing it. You've painted your room black, you only listen to metal music and you have anger and hatred toward basically everything. When it reaches inside, that's depression.
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43 seconds in and I can tell this will help me. 100% with every word so far. Been suffering depression for over 30 years. I hate it.
When the darkness comes over me the very last thing i feel like doing is talking to or seeing anyone.
I am there right now. I have in the last few months cut ties with all my friends as I just can't take the pressure of socialising and the guilt from letting people down all the time. I am not close to my family. My phone remains on silent, most people have stopped contacting me now anyway. There is this big black hole in me and my head feels fuzzy. I feel as though I am simply waiting to die
you just said everything that im going through also ... that's creepy - hope we get through this...
me also. just closed out my social media accounts today when I realized none of my friends or family like my presence there.
I'm just waiting to die now, and trying to get the courage to finally do it. I know the 'how' but not the 'where' or 'when' yet. hopefully soon. I can't do this anymore.
I had this same dis- ease for years and it changed in an instant when a guru told me I was in reverse ego mode ... everything I said about " my " sadness or pain was me, me, me. In an Instant , the light came back. I was thinking about myself too much . Painful as it was , I realized she was right . 🖤🙏
Shit I was about to comment until I saw yours That is exactly how my life is as I write this How are you doing now ? I HOPE you reply because I think your my friend
I'm there too
sometimes i worry that all the decisions i make are because of my depression, so i try to understand myself and see what i truely would decide. which makes me a bit more lost because i feel like ive lost a hold on who i am inside. like i dont even know what i like, or what id truely decide because for so long i ran with whatever my depression let me run with...whatever i felt okay with. i get when the guy said "i keep in mind its temporary" i understand that im trapped inside this, i just dont know how to help others accept me and i dont know how to fully accept it myself..
This is one of the best films I’ve seen on this subject. 🙏🏻♥️
Absolutely one of the best documentaries about depression I've ever viewed. I could relate in some way to what each of the individuals had to say about depression.
It seems all I do is sleep my life away. ...... and sometimes when I almost feel happy for a brief while, it's like in the back of my head, I know there is no real happiness for me here. When I have the energy, I unconsciously "chase" things I think will make me happy for a while, but still, in the back of my mind, I feel there is no real happiness on this planet for me. I am not suicidal, I have learned to cope with my illness through the years. I am extremely Thankful for all that I have. I know life is a gift from God. I don't question why I got sick anymore. I have learned to adapt to a life that most people couldn't even begin to imagine. It is and will always be the elephant in the room of my life, I wouldn't wish mental illness on my worst enemy, but yet, I have been forced to make friends with this elephant, so we can coexist together, sad but true.
Thank you for making this documentary, and of course for making it freely available online. I can empathise with different elements of what each of the people here have said, and although in my case depression has made me emotionally repressed I almost felt a few tears welling up inside me watching this. It's so saddening to see so many people rich with potential having their lives ruined in the worst cases by this misunderstood and stigmatised condition. I mean, life is bloody hard at the best of times, if your own mind can become your enemy within it makes the challenges a million times worse.
If I could add anything to what people have said on this documentary it would be this; keep a journal, try and log down your thoughts and feelings in as much lucid detail as you can manage. I do this now in the hope that it will at least offer some glimmers of light on the underlying reasons behind some of the terrible moods and feelings I have been through.
Thanks again, beautiful film, and the title shot of the water reflections was a lovely simple artistic effect, well suited to the topic too.
I've been depressed for about 4 yrs now.I'm 53 and the depression hit me fast.It was like overnight. I stayed in bed,stopped going out of the house. Recently, I had stopped combing my hair, (I always had nice hair lol),It finally got so tangled,I had to cut the tangles out with scissors.Right now my hair is all different lengths, and now I have to muster up the energy to go get it cut short.I hate looking in the mirror.Meds haven't worked . I've taken every different kind you can think of.My doctor doesn't care . he's just there to write out RX's.The therapists that I've gone to,don't give me advice on what I should do.They just sit there and listen.I need help,not just someone to listen.
QueenBee Bargains demons working around you...go to church
Any better?
Not any better,thx for asking.I haven't been out of the house for 2 months now Feeling hopeless right now.
I don't blame you for not leaving your house. There's not much out there. I'm 51. One gets to the point where we feel like we just don't want to play anymore. I think you're just having a normal reaction to what seems like a hopeless world. It's not you. You're probably saner than most people out there.
Can we talk on my email? I don't want everyone on the internet knowing my business.tmayes63@yahoo.com
Don't you dare not make this your trade dear sir. Thank you for this piece of art..
Thank you for this beautiful documentary. I believe in self-help as one approach of dealing with depression by means of reading into this topic, or learning about any philosophy that helps you deal with it, and above all making it a human, a personal thing, not just a medical condition. And I think you did that wonderfully in this film.
Chris Dibke Thank you for taking the time to watch it! I got frustrated with it being misrepresented as something that was always totally crushing, and so I decided to try and change that. I'm glad that you liked it, and thanks again for your support.
Really well made Documentary i must say it is one of the few that are on point on what it is to be depressed and sadly the truth is that it will never go away but you learn to live with it.
That's it. Thank you for watching!
+From Here To There Films it NEVER gets better :'(
I can personally tell you that it can, And does. It's hard to look to the actual future, around what your brain tells you.. Nobody can know for sure what will happen. But there's always an opportunity to turn it around. Even if it seems miniscule, and takes way too much effort - like it'll never matter. But it all adds up. And then something, or someone comes along.. And slowly your perspective changes. You ask me 6 years ago if I ever thought I'd be making films, I would have asked you why you were wasting your breath talking to me. Now it is different.
+From Here To There Films im too far gone for that :'(
now all I can think of is dignitas and suicide
Great, great documentary. Thanks for making the effort to make this, and available for us to see it for free.
I can relate to every character being interviewed on the documentary, it is crazy, but fascinating how personal reasons we have for depression, but also, how it affects our lives are basically the same, and the feelings we have about it. At least from my point of view, because I could relate to every single description of the depression.
This documentary gave me a punch forward, and new ideas working for my book about depression, and it is clear that people really do need help for their depression. There are hundreds of thousands of sufferers.
I am also a sufferer of it, I've been really deep down in the hole, but now, gladly and thankfully, I'm on the surface, and I've found and researched for quite a time for a healing for depression. That work really, really good. And I've decided to share it in the form of a book. At least at first.. From a psychological, logical, common sense, philosophical and experience based point of view.
If anyone out here is looking for some help, here's what I highly recommend from my own personal experience, check this serious help, that is very easily available. Just click and listen. (I'm not advertising, just sharing ^^)
th-cam.com/video/y3F32JF4ycA/w-d-xo.html
th-cam.com/video/4N_jjY7W_fs/w-d-xo.html
th-cam.com/video/RF23NhPjMd8/w-d-xo.html
WOW! This is intense and so great. Beautifully shot! Great title. Love it.
I'm glad you like it, thank you for watching!
The irony is we used to work together until i went on medical leave. now suffering from severe clinical depression I'm looking at a long recovery process. thank you for sharing .
This video hits the nail on the head. It disclosed the symptoms I suffer. Getting the proper help is the first challenge to recovery. Unfortunately I haven't faced the challenge.
using this as a distraction, great video
I could relate to so much of this...thank you, it has brought tears to my eyes...but its good to know that I'm not alone
I love this, and it comes from deep within my soul and heart...thanks again.
It made me more depressed to know that others might be experiencing same horror. We are peculiar creatures are we not?
As someone who is also dealing with depression and anxiety, It's really motivating to see those people talk about their depression. A very well done documentary! I can relate to many things that the people in this said in so many ways. I only wish that in the future society will be more accepting and understanding to us, I'm not saying that society didn't change in the years but there is still a room for improvement on the understanding and acceptance of people who suffer from depression and many other mental illnesses. Thank you for this video :)
This is an excellent video...Well Done!!
Wonderful wonderful documentary- just really really depressing the music and can barely hear the voices.... can you please make a version where the sound / music is moved to a lower decibel.... I can’t seem to find the subtitles to turn off the sad music
As I mentioned the likely viewers perhaps such as myself or family/ friends whom want to watch this INCREDIBLE film and helpful discussion from “living experiences” can’t hear them; nor emotionally handle this music; I personally got more sad from the music.
I am happy to help download this or send to a production consultant and have them change the tuning....
Thank you so much for your great help with sharing this incredible film and lived experiences 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼
What if you finally get the courage to reach out to others but they still don't give you support?
find the right people that will help you and make you your better self
Then you dont need them-- you will be your own strength and savoir 🖤🙏
Then they are not support or worth having around as friends.
Like me
I am inclined to assume that most people who stumble onto this documentary are suffering from depression, myself included.. I think some of the issue is that "normal" people aren't as informed about depression, because they don't purposely seek the information.. Thank you for a nice documentary, but please turn down the volume of the music! The music sometimes put me off, it seemed to glorify some of the scenes or something.. Depression is not beautiful and sad as the music. It is pain.
Well said ! I feel the same in 2019 as you did two years ago but better late than never to ask the question. How are you doing now ? IF you're doing better I would really appreciate your advice
People who care do not feel annoying, i just don’t believe them. Anyway those people are few and far between and i do not have any friends. I am alone and there is no one to talk to.
I knew this documentary would be awesome just from the title
thank you for this
thank you for this video
thanks. i appreciate you making and sharing this. i hate it though,....my depression
Comforting documentary.
7:43 This statement is gold. So so true
At 22:42 the guy has a question about who wouldn't choose happy. I can only speak for myself but I almost always choose against happy. Happy is strange, happy is unfamiliar, happy is alien. Depression on the other hand is familiar. I know depression, it's comfortable. I know, sounds strange but sadly it's true.
Good job. Going to show it to my Social Emotional Intervention class.
dats fact..wat im feeling ryt now..started in 2014..i flt empty inside n nothing realy mattered.i just wana be happy..but i feel so insecure..daaaaammmmm..
The walls need to be painted a different color.
As someone who has dealt with depression my whole life, I really love the concept here, but the music is way too loud. The volume of it repeatedly yanked me out of the stories. Other than that, it's a beautiful film.
i feel they are lucky. i dont have friends
sonia challenor Same
The sad piano music really didn't help! I watched this cos the title sums up my life at the mo: treading water. But as well as enabling me to contact a trusted friend, which is good, I came away feeling sadder just because of the music! No music at all would have better, IMHO! Other opinions are available! However, it does help to know that one is not alone, so thank you for making this documentary. K :-)
1 year 2 months with one therapist until he died, 11/83 to 1/85......therapy with his son (from 1985 to 2010---25 years!!!)......7-10 medications via 5-6 psychiatrists since 1997, and 4-5 other therapists from 2011 to now (2017.) And today---9/19/17.....my last of 35 sessions of TMS Treatments, didn't do a fucking thing. I feel SO CLOSE to the end, of giving up. So much more to say, but NOTHING IS WORKING NOW. I am SO done....
I so understand! My whole life has been like a full time job of holding back the shore. Now it's like, wait! Why am I doing this? So if I have to be here so do you, lol. Hope at least for today you're doing better.
Thank you, Rice. I had a suicide attempt (cutting) on 9/20. Obviously, I'm still here. But life still sucks.
How are you now friend?
@@cliffkonkle3467 Doing A LOT better. Thanks for asking!
I hope you held on
❤
The only thing one can count on is depression. Loved ones will die, people will screw you and let you down and injure you. Depression will always be there ....it will never abandon you. It's your wife .....It's your life. Till death do you part.
honestly I am watching this to save my life. I want to self harm right now, and I have not been this way in awhile. I just love bipolar 1 cycling (sarcasm)
❤️🩹
He's wearing a satanic necklace in the beginning. Brings negatively upon you without even realizing it. You've painted your room black, you only listen to metal music and you have anger and hatred toward basically everything. When it reaches inside, that's depression.
You're incorrect, but I'll leave it. Thank you for watching!