Your feelings can be mixed after loss. I have had the same type. Love your workout progress and lifestyle changes. Keep it up!! I am making big changes starting this week. ❤
You are absolutely right... everything happens in its right timing... God's plan is perfect. As much as we wanted those babies, today we absolutely refuse to be in thst situation again and put myself and my family to go over this pain again...
Thinking of a potential baby vs a baby who lived, however brief, and that you already imagined and loved is a world of difference. Whoever suggests that you can have another baby in place of the one you carried probably hasn't felt this kind of loss. This feeling makes complete sense and not weird at all.
Wow Megan I absolutely understand where you’re coming from with your decision. You’re amazing❤ and u can totally feel both ways. I also I love watching the farm life. I think it’s so cool and kudos to u for doing all that work while sick and on your period! 🤩 I got exhausted just watching you lol
lol I watched this video back over the weekend while I was wrapping Christmas gifts and got exhausted just remembering it! Is this mom life or is this just part of the aging process?? 😂😂 I’ve been thinking about you, hope you are well and no more spotting has occurred! ❤️❤️
I’m happy that you have come to this decision for you and your family. Glad you are happy. I totally get the loss and wanting them back. I was supposed to be due this month with my last baby that I miscarried in April. That baby was supposed to be here with us. As much as I would like to continue to have another, the thoughts of another miscarriage, difficult pregnancy scares me.
I am so terribly sorry for your loss. I dread the time when my due dates start to arrive, especially the one in May. My heart is with you, I’m thinking of you and I’ll say a prayer for you because I know the pain you are sitting in right now. You aren’t alone ❤
It’s such a bittersweet decision, isn’t it? All the pros and cons and emotions. My heart is with you, I’m so sorry for your loss but I’m hoping you also have found peace and hope in the decision ❤
@@Expat_FitLife I'm learning to find peace. I still cry each time I get my period even knowing that we avoided unprotected intercourse during ovulation. I have a small uterine fibroid that will make things worse, I also have Iron deficiency syndrome. With that being said, I really cherish what you said: our kids need their moms, they need us there healthy, happy, sane... this helped me a lot dear.
You put it so great! You have to make a decision that might be hard but is what you feel is right for you and your family. I think you are amazingly strong ❤. My husband saw Benny and said a lot more hair 😂. However, so glad we aren't the only ones who's toddler is in the phase of climbing everything lol. I hope Benny is enjoying Förskola!
We literally have to put the dining room chairs up on top of the table because not only will Ben climb the chairs and get on top of the table, but he pushes the chairs around all over the house to climb up literally EVERYWHERE. Especially the kitchen, where he can do a lot of damage with the appliances and cutlery and cabinet dishes within reach. He’s so sneaky!! 😂
It’s like in some ways this last baby you lost gave you the peace you needed to know that your ttc journey has ended. (Hope that didn’t come out wrong.)You won’t have to wonder on the what if now that you know you are done. I agree whole heartedly with what you are saying. I’d love to have my babies I lost. But I also can’t image not having the ones I have. I still struggle with the loss of these babies I wanted and loved. And I struggle with not having more but know it’s for the best for my mental health in the long run.
It did not come out wrong, and I completely agree with you ❤ in fact, I was just reflecting on this over the weekend. This is the first time I have ever felt definitively sure we are done, without any nostalgic longing to be able to go through it all one more time. Of course with the caveat that my heart still burns with loss of our last baby and I would give anything to go back and have a different outcome; but since that is impossible, the best gift she gave me was closure. No stone was left unturned. I’m so so sorry you have also experienced loss, but I’m also so happy for you that you got some rainbows and that someone else can relate to some of these weird mixtures of thoughts and emotions ❤
Let’s see, how can I answer this question. I guess my answer is both yes and no 😅 Yes, from a standpoint that I absolutely LOVE being pregnant and very badly wanted to be pregnant, so it came as an absolute shock to suddenly be struck by such intense panic attacks and scary depressive thoughts that I was on the cusp of admitting myself to a psychiatric hospital. It was absolutely intense and I’ve never experienced anything like that before in my whole life. So the severity was completely shocking. But the fact that I got it, also didnt shock me in a lot of ways. I experienced a much milder form of it in my first trimester with my second baby (who was conceived off of the heels of 2 consecutive miscarriages) so I thought maybe it could just be a hormonal thing? And also, in my second miscarriage of this year, I immediately developed severe anxiety /depression before I had even missed my period. It struck hard and immediately after I got a positive pregnancy test. So.. I guess I had a bit of a warning that it could happen again. Sorry if that was a long answer lol ❤
@ExpatFitLife actually a very well articulated and clear answer, and I really appreciate it, I understand what you're saying, and I appreciate you taking the time to shed light on the matter. It is quite terrifying how little control we actually have over how our mind and brain reacts at times. I recall how desperately I wanted my 2nd daughter, well of course the same went for my 1st, but the 2nd daughter took so long to conceive.. yet I had her and felt no connection for the longest time. I'm pregnant again now, after 11 years of a gap, and I can only hope that my brain cooperates with my heart this time. I wish you the most incredibly freeing happiness and joy now that you've found your clarity ✨️
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Your feelings can be mixed after loss. I have had the same type. Love your workout progress and lifestyle changes. Keep it up!! I am making big changes starting this week. ❤
You are absolutely right... everything happens in its right timing... God's plan is perfect. As much as we wanted those babies, today we absolutely refuse to be in thst situation again and put myself and my family to go over this pain again...
Thinking of a potential baby vs a baby who lived, however brief, and that you already imagined and loved is a world of difference. Whoever suggests that you can have another baby in place of the one you carried probably hasn't felt this kind of loss. This feeling makes complete sense and not weird at all.
Wow Megan I absolutely understand where you’re coming from with your decision. You’re amazing❤ and u can totally feel both ways. I also I love watching the farm life. I think it’s so cool and kudos to u for doing all that work while sick and on your period! 🤩 I got exhausted just watching you lol
lol I watched this video back over the weekend while I was wrapping Christmas gifts and got exhausted just remembering it! Is this mom life or is this just part of the aging process?? 😂😂 I’ve been thinking about you, hope you are well and no more spotting has occurred! ❤️❤️
@@Expat_FitLife I think it’s both 🤣
I’m happy that you have come to this decision for you and your family. Glad you are happy. I totally get the loss and wanting them back. I was supposed to be due this month with my last baby that I miscarried in April. That baby was supposed to be here with us. As much as I would like to continue to have another, the thoughts of another miscarriage, difficult pregnancy scares me.
I am so terribly sorry for your loss. I dread the time when my due dates start to arrive, especially the one in May. My heart is with you, I’m thinking of you and I’ll say a prayer for you because I know the pain you are sitting in right now. You aren’t alone ❤
Happy to see you again. Me and my partner also choose to not try again after our loss..... I know how you feel.
It’s such a bittersweet decision, isn’t it? All the pros and cons and emotions. My heart is with you, I’m so sorry for your loss but I’m hoping you also have found peace and hope in the decision ❤
@@Expat_FitLife I'm learning to find peace. I still cry each time I get my period even knowing that we avoided unprotected intercourse during ovulation. I have a small uterine fibroid that will make things worse, I also have Iron deficiency syndrome. With that being said, I really cherish what you said: our kids need their moms, they need us there healthy, happy, sane... this helped me a lot dear.
You put it so great! You have to make a decision that might be hard but is what you feel is right for you and your family. I think you are amazingly strong ❤. My husband saw Benny and said a lot more hair 😂. However, so glad we aren't the only ones who's toddler is in the phase of climbing everything lol. I hope Benny is enjoying Förskola!
We literally have to put the dining room chairs up on top of the table because not only will Ben climb the chairs and get on top of the table, but he pushes the chairs around all over the house to climb up literally EVERYWHERE. Especially the kitchen, where he can do a lot of damage with the appliances and cutlery and cabinet dishes within reach. He’s so sneaky!! 😂
It’s like in some ways this last baby you lost gave you the peace you needed to know that your ttc journey has ended. (Hope that didn’t come out wrong.)You won’t have to wonder on the what if now that you know you are done. I agree whole heartedly with what you are saying. I’d love to have my babies I lost. But I also can’t image not having the ones I have. I still struggle with the loss of these babies I wanted and loved. And I struggle with not having more but know it’s for the best for my mental health in the long run.
It did not come out wrong, and I completely agree with you ❤ in fact, I was just reflecting on this over the weekend. This is the first time I have ever felt definitively sure we are done, without any nostalgic longing to be able to go through it all one more time. Of course with the caveat that my heart still burns with loss of our last baby and I would give anything to go back and have a different outcome; but since that is impossible, the best gift she gave me was closure. No stone was left unturned. I’m so so sorry you have also experienced loss, but I’m also so happy for you that you got some rainbows and that someone else can relate to some of these weird mixtures of thoughts and emotions ❤
May i ask you, the perinatal depression, was that surprising for you to encounter? I'm happy for you that you have clarity & peace of mind now ❤
Let’s see, how can I answer this question. I guess my answer is both yes and no 😅 Yes, from a standpoint that I absolutely LOVE being pregnant and very badly wanted to be pregnant, so it came as an absolute shock to suddenly be struck by such intense panic attacks and scary depressive thoughts that I was on the cusp of admitting myself to a psychiatric hospital. It was absolutely intense and I’ve never experienced anything like that before in my whole life. So the severity was completely shocking. But the fact that I got it, also didnt shock me in a lot of ways. I experienced a much milder form of it in my first trimester with my second baby (who was conceived off of the heels of 2 consecutive miscarriages) so I thought maybe it could just be a hormonal thing? And also, in my second miscarriage of this year, I immediately developed severe anxiety /depression before I had even missed my period. It struck hard and immediately after I got a positive pregnancy test. So.. I guess I had a bit of a warning that it could happen again. Sorry if that was a long answer lol ❤
@ExpatFitLife actually a very well articulated and clear answer, and I really appreciate it, I understand what you're saying, and I appreciate you taking the time to shed light on the matter. It is quite terrifying how little control we actually have over how our mind and brain reacts at times. I recall how desperately I wanted my 2nd daughter, well of course the same went for my 1st, but the 2nd daughter took so long to conceive.. yet I had her and felt no connection for the longest time. I'm pregnant again now, after 11 years of a gap, and I can only hope that my brain cooperates with my heart this time. I wish you the most incredibly freeing happiness and joy now that you've found your clarity ✨️
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