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  • It's a tough day for the staff of Chicago med after losing a fellow doctor to suicide. The team contemplate it they could have done more to help.
    Season 2 Episode 17 "Monday Mourning"
    The staff at Gaffney Medical Center mourn the loss of one of their own after a suicide. Dr. Choi and Dr. Halstead butt heads while dealing with a young patient whose symptoms mimic a stroke and Dr. Manning deals with a boy who fell into a freezing river. Also, April makes a serious decision about her relationship following her miscarriage.
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  • @charlottemountfort9536
    @charlottemountfort9536 5 ปีที่แล้ว +4616

    The worst part about his death was how he was so happy and content when he walked off the edge.

    • @greysc4leey
      @greysc4leey 5 ปีที่แล้ว +114

      Greeted death with open arms

    • @DROGOC0P
      @DROGOC0P 5 ปีที่แล้ว +12

      I thought you were chubbyemu

    • @charlottemountfort9536
      @charlottemountfort9536 5 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      oh jamal jamal yeah ?

    • @LinusTechTip
      @LinusTechTip 5 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      Charlotte Mountfort where is this shown, or is it said?

    • @lemonplays3610
      @lemonplays3610 5 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      angie thanks

  • @sonialouiseteh6725
    @sonialouiseteh6725 5 ปีที่แล้ว +2076

    The toughest people, break the most 💔💔 I just can't.. Dr. Choi always looks tough but inside... 😭😭😭

    • @nicolen.9642
      @nicolen.9642 5 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Sonia Louise Teh True 😩

    • @pancakeguy699
      @pancakeguy699 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Everyone broke bro

    • @JoJoGranum
      @JoJoGranum 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      PTSD sucks . Bad .

    • @AllyBubblesSpriggs
      @AllyBubblesSpriggs ปีที่แล้ว +1

      His break hurts the most!!!!

    • @ClaudioProductionsX
      @ClaudioProductionsX 9 หลายเดือนก่อน

      A tough man crying doesn't do so for being weak, but rather for being strong for too long.

  • @saadaalsameen709
    @saadaalsameen709 4 ปีที่แล้ว +984

    I feel like dr. Rhodes (I think ) had a good way of comforting dr.Reese

    • @lunamooncat7926
      @lunamooncat7926 4 ปีที่แล้ว +31

      Yeah, his advice was really good.

    • @samaeldeul572
      @samaeldeul572 3 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      Agreed!!

    • @danieldrew677
      @danieldrew677 3 ปีที่แล้ว +23

      Incredibly good and if this was real life, I’m sure she would remember that for the rest of her life

  • @preetibalgovind4986
    @preetibalgovind4986 6 ปีที่แล้ว +2771

    Have lost a good friend to suicide. She was a good doctor, colleague and a good good friend. This hits me hard.

    • @dawneberle3762
      @dawneberle3762 6 ปีที่แล้ว +27

      I'm soo sorry that your friend killed her self

    • @alysiadhalla993
      @alysiadhalla993 5 ปีที่แล้ว +9

      ♥️

    • @moedeki
      @moedeki 5 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      Preeti Balgovind it’s he isn’t it?!

    • @supersupersadgesuperultrai3639
      @supersupersadgesuperultrai3639 5 ปีที่แล้ว +8

      Dawn Eberle u sound sarcastic

    • @jezza7022
      @jezza7022 5 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      Preeti Balgovind I am so generally sorry for you loss....It must be terribly painful to go through somthing like that.

  • @sanithmapathirana48
    @sanithmapathirana48 4 ปีที่แล้ว +527

    Everyone is blaming themselves for his death ..... I see how they’re really good people .... honestly I feel really bad for them

    • @Liam-bq1qp
      @Liam-bq1qp 4 ปีที่แล้ว +18

      That's basically the contradiction of people who have thoughts of suicide.
      If they commit, they're free from pain... But the pain is then passed down to other people, leaving them to blame themselves.
      In simple terms, if you live, you'll continue to feel pain. If you commit, you'll pass down the pain into other people. It's like choosing life and death, and you're in between them. Life is precious, and we don't know what really happens when we die- whether we're gone for good or we continue living in another life or in Heaven. Either way, life on its own is too precious to let go. Pain and sorrow exist to give joy and happiness a meaning, just as joy and happiness exist to return the favor. Time and change are fundamental nature of the world, and we hold on to these in hopes of finally getting a better future.
      As someone who once had harm OCD and suicidal tendencies before, I overcame them through therapy and the help of family and friends. When I realize life is too precious to give up, I became more fearful and more loving of the simple things around me.

  • @kevinmclaughlin225
    @kevinmclaughlin225 2 ปีที่แล้ว +188

    When she says "I wish I could protect them." You can really hear the mother in her coming out. She views anyone under her as her own family/her children.

  • @AngelikusDeo
    @AngelikusDeo 5 ปีที่แล้ว +776

    This is a lot to take in. I lost my brother to suicide. He was a triathlete. And nobody knew he was suffering inside.

  • @frogseatbutter1036
    @frogseatbutter1036 4 ปีที่แล้ว +740

    I have lost my sister to suicide. She isn't dead but I have lost HER. She jumped of a church but doctors were able to save her. She is alive but can't speak or walk. She just sits there and stares at the foot of the bed. I read to her often and sometimes sing to her but she doesn't notice. She was funny, kind, hard-working but now she just does nothing. I wish I could have my sister back. It breaks my heart everytime I go visit her.i used to call her Am(amber) but she doesn't respond to anything. I love my sister to bits but she doesn't seem to love anything/anyone back 💔

    • @kaylilesslar9656
      @kaylilesslar9656 3 ปีที่แล้ว +43

      I will pray for your sister. Reading your comment made me cry. I hope you are doing well. Love the profile pic btw

    • @janeruby1795
      @janeruby1795 2 ปีที่แล้ว +53

      Your sister is still their in her soul and spirit, just because she isn't the girl she once was. This comment broke my heart and I am so sorry for your suffering. I pray for your sister.
      I'm a suicide survivor myself, the stranger that found me with slashed wrists that night took me to hospital. Stayed by my bedside for an entire month until I woke up, gave me their spare room and personally drove me to every therapist even if that meant talking days of work.
      Today I call that person my husband, my soulmate, the father of my two children and the reason I am alive.
      Your sister is so lucky to have such an amazing sister ❤️ I hope your well, even if I am a year late to comment

    • @willowthestaffie545
      @willowthestaffie545 2 ปีที่แล้ว +9

      Your sister loves you very very much, and even though she isn’t able to show it doesn’t mean the love isn’t there ❤️

    • @JabamiLain
      @JabamiLain 2 ปีที่แล้ว +15

      I don't know if she has already shown signs of response, but if she has, can you hope for her to heal one day ? And if she hasn't, then, don't you think it's time to grant her last wish ? Which was to end it all ?

    • @IzzyKawaiichi
      @IzzyKawaiichi 2 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      @@JabamiLain Are you seriously suggesting she kill her sister? What is wrong with you?

  • @phloxy_fox96528
    @phloxy_fox96528 3 ปีที่แล้ว +208

    To the people who have lost people to suicide and feel horrible that they never saw the signs: It's not your fault. As someone who is a survivor, I can tell you that we are masters at hiding. We've mastered hiding every single last crack in us. We don't want you to see and while I know that doesn't make you feel better necessarily - it's because we don't want you to even suffer a fragment of what we do and letting you close? It might do just that. It's a mistake, but one we are willing to make because we are blinded by our own pain.
    Please be safe. You will be able to get through this. Don't make the same mistake your late loved ones did and reach out.

    • @khyatimishra6568
      @khyatimishra6568 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      i hope you find peace within

    • @dins5066
      @dins5066 ปีที่แล้ว

      Phloxy Fox, shut up and stop lying

    • @fionam7768
      @fionam7768 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      Sending love and admiration for your post - wherever you're at today - but don't forget one foot in front of the other goes for you too. I promise you, the world definitely needs more you in it: not people like you, actually you ❤❤❤

  • @IvanIsYda_
    @IvanIsYda_ 5 ปีที่แล้ว +256

    Miss Goodwin is such a good person.... she worries forthose who are under her...😢

    • @aswathypeterpaul6789
      @aswathypeterpaul6789 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      That's shows how much of a good leader she is to her team.

  • @rubenzikarsky5195
    @rubenzikarsky5195 4 ปีที่แล้ว +66

    Dr Charles is a smart man. "(The high suicide rate in doctors)...has something to do with taking people who want to help others, and putting them in an environment where the odds are stacked against them."

  • @yonakayser5634
    @yonakayser5634 4 ปีที่แล้ว +142

    When Dr. Manning said * Am I a monster? * I was like no way u aren’t how are you a monster when your the one who lost your husband and went through so much and is protection her beloved son

    • @Justice237
      @Justice237 2 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      One of the other plots in this episode involves Manning trying to save a child who fell through the ice to a frozen lake, they were trying to warm him up but they couldn't do it as fast as they wanted because they had to treat the guy who jumped in to save the boy. The mother said to Dr Manning "What kind of monster are you?!" which obviously got to her

  • @maymayavenido9812
    @maymayavenido9812 5 ปีที่แล้ว +192

    When everyone was questionning about themselves. That was hard. 😭😭😭

    • @GreyDoofus88
      @GreyDoofus88 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      When you're on that precipice in the darkest part of your own mind, you firmly believe that you're solving your problems and those of everyone around you. But the truth is that you're just creating more problems, more pain and more questions for the people who love you.

  • @TwoStepILY
    @TwoStepILY 3 ปีที่แล้ว +118

    I’m glad they did an episode on this, this is a huge issue with doctors and nurses. And just the public in general, it’s good for people to see some version of what may happen to their families and friends if they do go through with this.

  • @kiratheusagiisworkshop5266
    @kiratheusagiisworkshop5266 5 ปีที่แล้ว +609

    I'm sitting over here crying. ;3;
    Because it's so sad. Most I know who has depression suffer in silence. We don't let on how bad we actually feel. We bottle it up until we explode. And this show really shows it and it gives me who suffer from depression and anxiety a perspective too because I have been on the edge of wanting to take my life more than once.

    • @emmabeale9322
      @emmabeale9322 5 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      KiraTheUsagii's Workshop not trying to be rude but you said everyone suffers in silence yet you then post this on a TH-cam video where the whole world can see it

    • @arielh4058
      @arielh4058 5 ปีที่แล้ว +15

      Lucy Chappell writing on the internet is almost like shooting into a near empty void like there a possibility you’ll hit something ( and get a response) but there’s a huge possibility that it’s not going to be seen and I assume they’re speaking from life outside of the internet with real personable relations with people as opposed to sharing with someone in another part of the world that really can’t support you

    • @elizabethkurms7736
      @elizabethkurms7736 5 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      God bless you

    • @Czadzikable
      @Czadzikable 5 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      Don't do it! It just brings more pain and suffering to everyone else and so it makes the world a worse place. Try not to focus on yourself too much, but instead try to bring a little bit of happiness to others and make the world a better place even if just by a little.

    • @omgdann7805
      @omgdann7805 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      Did u realise that this was just a show?

  • @patriziarosewhitaker282
    @patriziarosewhitaker282 5 ปีที่แล้ว +422

    Isnt he the guy that was drunk in one of the episodes

  • @tiredbylife.5589
    @tiredbylife.5589 5 ปีที่แล้ว +117

    The first I watched this scene, I honestly thought that they were just opening to show everyone in their natural habitat doing their job depending on their role. I did not see the jump coming. I had to pause and recollect myself.

  • @infinity-gn9xq
    @infinity-gn9xq 5 ปีที่แล้ว +409

    This is like kutner episode from house... They r amazing doctors nd yet they didn't see the signs...

    • @DeadmanWalking789
      @DeadmanWalking789 5 ปีที่แล้ว +34

      The thing a lot of people don't know about depressed people is that there often aren't any signs - at least, none that would be noticed unless you were looking for them. After all, depressed people read the same pamphlets and papers on depression and suicide as the rest of us. They know how to hide their impulses so no one will stop them.

    • @arielh4058
      @arielh4058 5 ปีที่แล้ว +17

      I’m sorry but this is nothing like House, house was a incredibly innovative show that delved into complex and intelligent personal and medical issues it’s one of the most scientifically accurate medical dramas I’ve seen and with Kutner they didn’t reveal enough about him to show any signs which may have been a sign in itself but on Chicago med wheeler literally threw up in the ER and they talked about him being an alcoholic which shows how he was using a substance to help him cope with the job and himself if that’s not a sign I don’t know what is almost every single person that abuses substances has also battled mental illness sorry if that came off as heated I’m just passionate one thing I hate about Chicago med is how unrealistic it is to the medical profession it’s one thing for nurses to become attached to patients but doctors literally have to separate their personal biases and feelings from the situation and I feel like Chicago med is a perfect example of artists trying to understand a scientific field like I think house represents art portraying a scientific field whereas Chicago med is showcases medical issues in artistic and emotional way

    • @Sunscorched
      @Sunscorched 5 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@arielh4058 Hathaway's suicide attempt in ER was brilliantly done.

  • @_godhatesme_4577
    @_godhatesme_4577 4 ปีที่แล้ว +27

    That's face of depression, youre not gonna see it in a second, it's deep inside a person...

  • @lifesadventurer9395
    @lifesadventurer9395 4 ปีที่แล้ว +29

    Does anyone else notice how everyone was affected by his death and were wondering how they could have done more, self blaming etc. yet none of them, kind of like Dr. Wheeler, didn't go directly to the person(s) designated to offer assistance? It's sad, but somehow i think i can relate to "trying" to work things out on my own.

  • @siennadelasota3210
    @siennadelasota3210 5 ปีที่แล้ว +101

    I have lost two people not due to suicide but still it’s always sad one his girlfriend was pregnant and my heart melted when this happened.

  • @graceelizabeth8435
    @graceelizabeth8435 5 ปีที่แล้ว +960

    God I hated watching this episode purely because when he jumped, I cracked up laughing because I didn’t see it coming and I didn’t know how to react

    • @florence4372
      @florence4372 5 ปีที่แล้ว +77

      I found it cringy how their way of coping was to make it about themselves

    • @tylerdewit8963
      @tylerdewit8963 5 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Grace Elizabeth same😅

    • @danielrichardson6905
      @danielrichardson6905 5 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Grace Elizabeth SAME!

    • @jashapp289
      @jashapp289 5 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      @@florence4372 in what way

    • @thanderlin4058
      @thanderlin4058 5 ปีที่แล้ว +95

      Laughter in the face of something unexpected or shocking is actually a very natural response.

  • @heyysimone
    @heyysimone 5 ปีที่แล้ว +182

    He jumped off the 10th floor onto concrete. He would not have looked that good after that.

  • @irawilliams343
    @irawilliams343 5 ปีที่แล้ว +55

    It's so heartbreaking seeing everyone try to act strong despite the pain 💔😢

  • @erikavdiaries
    @erikavdiaries 4 ปีที่แล้ว +567

    Dr Choi: Is it okay if I take Dr Reese for the day
    Ms Goodwin: Dr Charles?
    Dr Charles: (looks at Dr Reese)
    Dr Reese: sure.
    all that just to ask her straight out.

    • @sarailahi7945
      @sarailahi7945 4 ปีที่แล้ว +32

      Dr Charles is her head, and Ms Goodwin is Choi’s head

    • @Coen-Rex
      @Coen-Rex 4 ปีที่แล้ว +34

      Well Dr Charles is her head, and so Dr Choi has to ask him. Dr Charles just wants to give Dr Reese the option, and make a choice of her own. Teaching her about leadership and decision making.

  • @AbigailsUniverse
    @AbigailsUniverse 3 ปีที่แล้ว +29

    Choi Halstead and Rhodes are Reece older brothers... they care deeply about her and are probably the best friends to her

  • @dawneberle3762
    @dawneberle3762 6 ปีที่แล้ว +332

    this is soo sad and soo good I love Chicago med Chicago pd Chicago fire

  • @SuperArystoteles
    @SuperArystoteles ปีที่แล้ว +7

    Dr Choi: I'm so sorry.
    TH-cam subtitles: I'm so awesome right.

  • @Liam-bq1qp
    @Liam-bq1qp 4 ปีที่แล้ว +100

    It's so sad rewatching this...
    Dr. Reese blames herself for not seeing the signs, despite her being one of the first people that Dr. Wheeler came to get help from.
    Dr. Manning blames herself for not noticing his pain earlier even after working with him for 8 Months.
    Ms. Goodwin blames herself for not being able to protect him, being someone who was in the hospital for so long and wanted to make a place for doctors to have each other's back.
    Dr. Choi blames himself for not being able to reach out to him enough to save him, being one of the last people that Dr. Wheeler talked to.

    • @scarletbloom1179
      @scarletbloom1179 3 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      ironic because he was the only one who visited him at the mortuary

    • @MsJubjubbird
      @MsJubjubbird 3 ปีที่แล้ว +11

      As Dr Charles said, there's no one to blame and the reasons behind mental health issues are very complex and multifaceted. In the end it was his decision and none of them pushed him off the ledge. The father probably blames himself as well. Everyone has their own lives and difficulties, especially in such a high pressure environment, so it's so hard to notice someone else who is in trouble if they don't come and tell you. ANd the double edge sword of that is it is not easy to directly ask for help, especially in an environment where everyone is very talented, the pressure is high, the disappointments many and there is expected excellence.

    • @See-if_I_care
      @See-if_I_care 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      Sounds so selfish of them, making it about them.

    • @vanetiawellington1302
      @vanetiawellington1302 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@See-if_I_care They are not making it about them. They feel guilt for not helping. It is normal to want to help someone in distress. It is empathetic. If you fail to do that, a real empath will feel the burden. You want to know you can be there for someone when they need you. Don't judge.

    • @vanetiawellington1302
      @vanetiawellington1302 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@See-if_I_care It's not selfishness. It is taking responsibility for your actions - a mature thing to do.

  • @allaboutalana9381
    @allaboutalana9381 5 ปีที่แล้ว +97

    I am in tears because this episode hits close to home for me but my mate killed herself at the age of 14 😭💔

    • @thewalkingdeadfan7612
      @thewalkingdeadfan7612 5 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      All about Alana my brother killed him self when I was 5

    • @allaboutalana9381
      @allaboutalana9381 5 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      @@thewalkingdeadfan7612 i am so sorry, i am here if you need anything or anyone to talk to x

    • @thewalkingdeadfan7612
      @thewalkingdeadfan7612 5 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      All about Alana thanks but the thing is ppl over the internet care more than ppl I know in person

    • @renniegay8017
      @renniegay8017 5 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@thewalkingdeadfan7612 true it's the world today

    • @thewalkingdeadfan7612
      @thewalkingdeadfan7612 5 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      I'm dead inside yeah unfortunately but that can’t be help 🤷🏼‍♀️

  • @rxgz_1184
    @rxgz_1184 4 ปีที่แล้ว +26

    Depression is honestly a better killer than any murderer. They become the victim instead of luring them or capturing them. It can hide in anyone, and can sometimes almost be impossible to detect. Even to the happiest person you know, just ask if they are ok. You might save a life.

    • @BabyfaceJaiyeBear
      @BabyfaceJaiyeBear 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      That question breaks me down so I avoid it. Not too happy to avoid suspicion, just the right amount of dark humor to keep it moving

  • @liontiger6164
    @liontiger6164 4 ปีที่แล้ว +47

    Video: someone commits suicide
    TH-cam Video Category:
    *Entertainment*

  • @siobhangibbens4068
    @siobhangibbens4068 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    That, 'I am so sorry' in the morgue was heartbreaking.

  • @rayaya6580
    @rayaya6580 4 ปีที่แล้ว +18

    Ngl i never even noticed the doctor that committed suicide throughout the entire series. They did a great job.

  • @beetheuniverse
    @beetheuniverse 5 ปีที่แล้ว +43

    Sending all love and happiness to the departed ones who are now gone because of suicide. We miss you dearly!

  • @hatijaakhtar5435
    @hatijaakhtar5435 5 ปีที่แล้ว +16

    I was just sitting here and hoping it wasn't Dr choi, he is my favourite and the show wouldn't be the same without him

  • @nikitadyers7367
    @nikitadyers7367 6 ปีที่แล้ว +122

    This is heartbreaking 💔😭

  • @Ihavenohandle665
    @Ihavenohandle665 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    I’ve watched branches from this episode, each issue each doctor was dealing with separately and they were all so sad, now that I found this video I put them all together and noticed they all happened at the same time, i can’t imagine how much everyone had to take in that day, really shows u how strong these people can be for others.

  • @jkartemis5448
    @jkartemis5448 4 ปีที่แล้ว +143

    How did they not know he was not okay? I watched 10 minutes of him and could tell the guy needed serious help

    • @tarua3076
      @tarua3076 3 ปีที่แล้ว +37

      People are really good at hiding pain.

    • @errorsinconduct
      @errorsinconduct 2 ปีที่แล้ว +27

      They knew, he was caught having an alcohol problem before this and the people who knew about it didn't do anything

    • @warh1story563
      @warh1story563 2 ปีที่แล้ว +28

      I’m kinda confused how Halstead and Jeff didn’t realize what was happening to Wheeler, I mean apart from being drunk on night shift they didn’t like even recommend him to see dr Charles. I can’t even see how Ethan didn’t realize his pain until wheeler took his own life. Idk if y’all are up to date but s7 of med is coming very soon and Archer still hasn’t paid a visit to Dr. Charles

    • @benrussell-gough1201
      @benrussell-gough1201 2 ปีที่แล้ว +13

      @@warh1story563 It's the problem of choosing the wrong form of kindness. They didn't want him kicked out so they covered up the drunkenness and the breakdowns to protect him from maybe losing his job. They never imagined that they were just leaving him unsupported with the deeper problems.

    • @hblake5213
      @hblake5213 ปีที่แล้ว +12

      becasue you are looking at it from a viewers perspective where the screenwriter drops hints for you, plus you're (i assume) not an incredibly busy medical professional

  • @jaylawson3991
    @jaylawson3991 5 ปีที่แล้ว +36

    This show feels like a movie

  • @ebonychadwick-cann5096
    @ebonychadwick-cann5096 5 ปีที่แล้ว +33

    The end got me in tears

  • @marli3132
    @marli3132 3 ปีที่แล้ว +10

    Dr. Choi: “I’m so sorry..”
    me subtitles: “I’m so awesome right”

  • @softmarshmello2821
    @softmarshmello2821 4 ปีที่แล้ว +12

    My mom lost her twin brother to suicide by drowning himself. I was suicidal myself for 1.5 years and this hits hard

  • @kellymaple4513
    @kellymaple4513 4 ปีที่แล้ว +36

    She asked about all the ones who *don't* jump off the ledge, and I... I knew the answer. I'm one of them. I've been experiencing major depressive episodes with suicidal ideation since I was in high school. With the most recent one, it's been thinking about what it would be like if I ate a whole bottle of iron supplements. A lethal dose. And it's not that I want to be dead, it's never been that. It's just wanting the pain to stop. The pain of loneliness, and crippling anxiety, and living in a world that isn't designed to help, with parents who think mental health is just a Big Pharma conspiracy. It's all the years of lost opportunities and empty dreams. I've taken to thinking of my suicidal thoughts as a toad crouching in the back of my brain, slimy and awful. I could shove him in a box and bury him deep down, but he'd just fester then. I'd rather have him in the light, where I can keep an eye on him. Tell him to shut up when he gets smug because another famous performer I love lost their battle, or because my mom is ranting about how SSRIs are the real danger. Tell him to fuck off when he starts taunting me because it's been another shitty day in a very long string of them, and I'm too exhausted not to hear him gloating. Right now that's the best I can do. So far it's working, but I have no idea how long it'll last. I've got no support system, no access to treatment or sympathetic relatives or friends. My only good friend is drowning just as bad in her own family drama. So yeah, that's what's going through our heads. And no, we don't confide in our work colleagues. For some of us, work is the one place where we can get away from all of the shit, and we don't want that toad tainting it. For others, it's fear of losing that job, and having even more shit piled on us when we no longer have that income. For others still, we're just so used to burying it that it never even crossed our mind to reach out. Some of us have tried reaching out before, many times, just to have our hand slapped away. We've given up on the idea of receiving help from others.

    • @Stellar_Paige
      @Stellar_Paige 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      I hope you are doing good and fine now.

    • @kellymaple4513
      @kellymaple4513 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      @@Stellar_Paige I'm not, but I'm still alive. So that's something. Thanks for the well-wishes. ♡

    • @ilanafrank8342
      @ilanafrank8342 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Kelly, emotionally speaking it's hard to read your story, but at the same time, you write clearly and beautifully about your situation. I think you would make an excellent blogger, and you could reach a lot of people, helping them (and maybe yourself) to feel less alone and misunderstood.

    • @kellymaple4513
      @kellymaple4513 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      @@ilanafrank8342 thank you, this was a lovely comment to receive on my birthday. When I was younger, I honestly didn't think I'd make it this long. I'm 32 today. My best friend that I mentioned died three months ago, with her father. I honestly don't know whether it was an accident or on purpose. They'd been having very serious money troubles for a long time. I'm still processing that. It hits me at odd moments. She was only 33. For the longest time, I survived my darkest moments by telling myself "I can't do that to her. I can't hurt her like that" and now she's gone. There wasn't even a funeral, or a memorial. There was no money for one. It still doesn't feel real. I've had my own one-person farewell ceremony, which helped. I light a candle for her on full moons. I've been on different meds for about a year now, and they've made a world of difference. I just feel really... adrift, most days. Aimless. I have ideas, but no means to realise any of them. I'm still financially trapped at the dubious mercy of my family. I read fanfiction the way I used to bury my head in novels from the school library, like a toddler cuddling their teddy, or an addict clinging desperately to their "medicine". It's free, and has no ill effects on my health, so it could be worse. But it's still not ideal. I've recently made new friends through work, younger than me, bright and brave and kind, and that's helping. It's a long road, but I'm still walking it. That's it's own victory.

    • @ilanafrank8342
      @ilanafrank8342 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      @@kellymaple4513 I hope you have a good birthday! Again, your writing is amazing. I could really feel your pain at losing your friend. Based on how you express yourself, I'm also not surprised that you are an avid reader. In any event, the deep-thinking, sensitive people of this world sometimes suffer more than others, but on the flip side, have a good deal to contribute. I really hope you'll find the right niche for your abilities, and the freedom to express yourself.

  • @sallyliciaglasgow3840
    @sallyliciaglasgow3840 5 ปีที่แล้ว +13

    In all the previous episodes with Dr. Wheeler he always showed signs I just wish Dr. Charles caught it before.

  • @AshCim_Kpop
    @AshCim_Kpop 5 ปีที่แล้ว +56

    Has anybody noticed when the doctors are relaxed they all seem 2 cross their arms

  • @faithjacksondocherty8970
    @faithjacksondocherty8970 4 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    To those who have lost people to suicide, I am so sorry for that pain.

  • @connordickson5909
    @connordickson5909 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    This video is old but this is exactly how my sister and I felt when our dad took his life we never saw the signs blamed ourselves and for me shut everyone out it truly is the worst feeling when someone close to you takes their lives and you never even noticed.

  • @amyb3226
    @amyb3226 5 ปีที่แล้ว +37

    Anyone watching after dr Charles got shot?!😭💔

  • @evalema9333
    @evalema9333 5 ปีที่แล้ว +14

    Tearing episode, am glad there is someone worrying about the doctors and nurses

  • @AlinaTowers
    @AlinaTowers ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Wow, that line about the most compassionate people being in a setting where the odds are stacked up against them struck me… my husband and 2 friends just returned from eastern Turkey, where they worked day and night for 3 days trying to rescue some people from the rubble. They didn’t succeed. They came home to their warm beds, with scenes of broken bodies and grief stricken family. Heartbreaking….

  • @uritje
    @uritje 3 ปีที่แล้ว +21

    I was depressed (maybe I still am a little bit) but it surprised me how much everyone around him cared and said that he was in so much pain or a troubled man etc. I never thought about myself as someone who suffers but just as someone who couldn't pull themselves together. If someone takes their own life, I do feel sad but never surprised since I can understand them to a certain extent. Anyway, this hits back home that it isn't as normal as I think it is.

  • @4mebikes496
    @4mebikes496 5 ปีที่แล้ว +207

    y have a mac and use windows on it wtf

    • @Firefox1189
      @Firefox1189 4 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      It's called copyright. Also, idk if Apple is good at documentation.

    • @doohan2242
      @doohan2242 4 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      Istg moving from windows to mac OS is so annoying. Apple is just not for me. I'm using Windows on my mac too.

  • @blateal7975
    @blateal7975 5 ปีที่แล้ว +8

    that ending gets me tearing up everytime.

  • @bronaghcarroll1187
    @bronaghcarroll1187 3 ปีที่แล้ว +9

    There was this one boy that was in my brothers school thst committed he had been asking the school for help but they didnt help him

  • @nadianazari2679
    @nadianazari2679 4 ปีที่แล้ว +50

    R.I.P wheeler.
    1 like = 1 prayer

  • @hblake5213
    @hblake5213 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    the end of this clip just pulls me out slightly because doctor wheeler is remarkably intact at the end

  • @Mageroth
    @Mageroth 4 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Dr Choi *Crying while looking at Wheelers body* :
    "I'm so awesome right?" 😅
    *turn on subtitles

  • @cybernautadventurer
    @cybernautadventurer ปีที่แล้ว +3

    High five to those who have suffered from suicidal thoughts and are still alive.

  • @nerls22
    @nerls22 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    When you ask and blame yourself when you didn't notice or didn't even tried to notice that your colleague have depression. I think its really hard for them to digest the situation when they are all doctors that cure other people. Dr. Choi 😭

  • @abrahamblackmore3115
    @abrahamblackmore3115 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    This isn't how it happens in real life. Everyone you work with goes "Eek. Yikes. Time to never bring that up ever again"

  • @zairahnaz4126
    @zairahnaz4126 5 ปีที่แล้ว +31

    Out of everyone i wouldn’t think doctor wheeler would commit suicide he wasn’t happy most of the time but he was a good doctor sad to see him leave......😭😭🙂🙂

    • @ninepuchar1
      @ninepuchar1 5 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      From what you say about him and some clips I have seen, I really feel Dr Wheeler now even without watching him.

  • @jdavid2109
    @jdavid2109 5 ปีที่แล้ว +72

    Christ the captions in the morgue are just so wrong. He says I'm so sorry, the subtitles say I'm so awesome right. Just so wrong

    • @user-vo9xe4yw7i
      @user-vo9xe4yw7i 5 ปีที่แล้ว +11

      David Lynch theyre auto generated

    • @fatinmiss8637
      @fatinmiss8637 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      I was wondering if he saying something else because the situations isn't matching the subtitles

  • @Draculiov
    @Draculiov 4 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    I know this is a show but god knows that this happens in real life and how doctors and nurses try to keep it in is so sad and honestly deserve better

  • @cherielullet1955
    @cherielullet1955 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    The first Chicago clip I ever watched was his suicide. Hits me hard watching the rest of the series

  • @hollyleigh4081
    @hollyleigh4081 5 ปีที่แล้ว

    my best friend died by suicide in my first year of highschool almost 5 years ago and its really hard, i couldnt watch this episode without thinking about how hard it is to spot the signs and how sad it is when you blame yourself for not seeing the signs and it fucking sucks..😓

  • @ralfphelps8365
    @ralfphelps8365 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Yea, this made me cry the ugly tears.

  • @Dumbnefertiti
    @Dumbnefertiti 4 ปีที่แล้ว +26

    Okay I know this is sad and all but why does dr.Choi walk like a GTA character

  • @andrelandry548
    @andrelandry548 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I love how this show talk bout mental illness

  • @eveyk.1204
    @eveyk.1204 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    I wish to share my story so that future doctors and nurses who read this change this behaviour.
    I am a student nurse at university. I suffer from depression and anxiety especially after doing my stage in hospital. I have feared needles and deseases my whole life but i decided to go into this career regardles because it offers a lot of job opportunities and my family is poor. It was my mistake to do it but i don't regret it. I learned so many things and every thing we learn is something useful in life.
    Anyway, i started feeling depressed during practicals. I shared my concerns with my classmates and with the nurses who were employed at the hospital. NOT ONE of them helped me or even wanted to listen to me. Some would just stay silent waiting for me to finish talking, some would tell me how i was stupid to even think to give up this degree because "there are no other certain jobs as nursing jobs", some would just change the subject. The indifference these people showed was painful. And what is worse those same people were were kind to patients but there i was struggling trying to reach for help and no one would give f*ck. One other thing thag bothered me is that i could tell some of them were feeling similar emotions but instead of connecting with me and helping each other those were the worst. They would shame me for thinking of quitting.
    So some months later i told everyone i won't be pursuing this degree. I would rather be unemployed than in a job that makes me miserable no matter how much i like helping people.
    I would love people to understand that this behaviour is wrong. Nursing and medicine are hard fields per sé and you should help each other not just patients and then when it's too late be like ooh i didn't notice he/she was suffering. But how many times people try to reach for help only to be dismissed by everyone or worse shamed? When i told my classmates i wasn't going to pursue this degree any more they were all like: we will miss you so much bla bla bla all that fake concern. It is horrible let me tell you. Please, be kind to your colleagues, friends, classmates. Don't be indifferent.

    • @Maerahn
      @Maerahn ปีที่แล้ว +1

      You're right. sometimes the most caring and compassionate people are the wrong people for the medical profession because they're just TOO caring and compassionate. If you don't have an inner core of detachment and toughness inside you as well, a job in the medical profession will mentally and emotionally destroy you in the long term. There's absolutely no shame in 'not being tough enough' for that kind of career; you did not 'fail' in any way, and I'm sorry you didn't get the support you needed at that time.

    • @eveyk.1204
      @eveyk.1204 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@Maerahn thank you. It took me a long time to realize i didn't fail because i quit nursing school. Now i am in a much better place mentally. I agree with everything you said. I am too compassionate and that is not okay. It is a perfect recipe for burnout, depression etc. The best nurses are thise who are compassionate enough to be good nurses to patients and show humanity not treat them like objects but who can detach themselves from being overewhelmed by the suffering they see daily. It is a tough equilibrium to reach but that's the way it is.

  • @jeanurquhart2026
    @jeanurquhart2026 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    From Taylor I loved Dr Wheeler for what he did on his job at Gaffeny Chicago Medical Center he worked so hard for eight months alongside Dr Manning, Dr Halstead and Dr Clarke loved watching you on Chicago med Dr Wheeler sleep tight💓💓💔💔💔

  • @francessweeney2308
    @francessweeney2308 4 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    I think that Dr Choi went to the morgue to say goodbye to Wheeler. Some people need to see the deceased to help them in the long term to accept their loss.
    Sadly, service personnel, medical personnel and veterinary workers take their lives all too often every year. These people are under constant scrutiny;the smallest mistake can lead to death or serious injury. High stress, trauma, seeing humanity at it's very worse on a daily basis takes it's toll on their health and wellbeing.
    The NHS,RCVS, MOD are only now starting to realise that their personnel are human too an d have limits.

  • @dollybear2809
    @dollybear2809 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    This made me cry

  • @giebbieserah4440
    @giebbieserah4440 5 ปีที่แล้ว +18

    The greatest thing you could give someone is time!!! JUST STOP, FOR A SPLIT SECOND STOP AND LISTEN... THAT SECOND COULD BE THE GAME CHANGER

  • @stumpr5896
    @stumpr5896 3 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    This is a strong cast very strong cast

  • @sarahwoods8463
    @sarahwoods8463 5 ปีที่แล้ว +10

    I’m sorry Dr’s
    I know it’s hard losing someone you’ve worked with for years, stay strong for him, okay? Be happy, don’t let him stop you. He is watching over you all the time

    • @lulahgloglo7788
      @lulahgloglo7788 5 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      Ponies4Life u know there acting... right?

    • @jemimamartin4183
      @jemimamartin4183 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      u know its a show dont u?

    • @sophialuna0615
      @sophialuna0615 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@jemimamartin4183 Im guesing she's talking about all doctor's

  • @emilydebridge7145
    @emilydebridge7145 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Dr Wheeler died many years ago. But today, his death is getting harder to move on from.

  • @leolabustro8531
    @leolabustro8531 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    What heavy drama... Man this show's off the hook!

  • @johannahyde-parker8422
    @johannahyde-parker8422 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I lost a fellow classmate to suicide when I was in primary school it was so hard on everyone I blamed myself for her taking her own life when I knew it wasn't my fault I did try to make sure that she was okay I missed the signs of her needing help .

  • @silverspector9718
    @silverspector9718 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Dr reese's and goodwill's statements hurt the most
    Resse knew he was trying to ask for help and being a psychiatrist hits hard she couldn't know and diagnose that.
    And goodwill's because, she is supposed to be the head and a good leader and she knows she should keep everyone together and be there for everyone, yet after this she was hurt because the person who died, no one knew him and for her it meant she couldn't keep her people together.

  • @stuartholden2772
    @stuartholden2772 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Depression is "The Joker in Disguise" no one can see it until its to late. Unless you can see the cracks forming, even small ones, it's to late.

  • @krysimp.
    @krysimp. 5 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Why do I watch these? I'm just gonna end up with nightmares.

  • @gexrgxanax7835
    @gexrgxanax7835 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    I love Chicago Med

  • @electricrainbowskull
    @electricrainbowskull 5 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    1:28
    I was in a LPN course and had a huge panic attack at my hospital placement when I realized just how real and serious everything was. One of the nurses asked me to take blood pressure and the woman had iv port on her right arm and a butterfly on her left side, I just panicked because I remembered my instructors mentioning to go for the right arm if there was a iv in the left. I was absolutely terrified of hurting her or making things worse, that I ended up crying in the bathroom for a good 10-15 minutes.
    I had good long talk with the nurse I was job shadowing and then another talk with my aunt who's a nurse and came to the conclusion that even though I could things very well in lab, I just did not have what it takes to be a nurse in the field. I was so scared to tell parents because who wants to hear their kid say they're dropping out of Nursing when they've been doing great and had good feedback, but they understood and were there for me, I'm glad they were because if they weren't I don't know if I would be here today.
    Even though it's been 9 years I still think about it, and feel like a failure sometimes for dropping out since my province is in need of more heath care workers, but I try to remind myself I'd be no good to a patient if I was constantly doubting myself or ever began to resent working as a nurse. It's hard to remember that even though you seem suited for a important job like and can well in practice labs, doesn't mean it'll be a good match in the long run. I'm just very glad I had a good support system and people I could talk to, never underestimate how relieving it can be to just talk to someone and have them listen to you.

  • @zairahnaz4126
    @zairahnaz4126 5 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    This was so upsetting when dr wheeler died

  • @therossbodyguide6594
    @therossbodyguide6594 ปีที่แล้ว

    When Shanon said, “ I worry about these people” I lost it

  • @priscilladejong69
    @priscilladejong69 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    someone please remind me that this is acting, remind me its acting please

    • @JabamiLain
      @JabamiLain 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      Do you want to commit suicide, or did you witness it ?

  • @lunarreclipse7694
    @lunarreclipse7694 5 ปีที่แล้ว +135

    Is Apple sponsored?
    - 1:03.

    • @deity4310
      @deity4310 5 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Rhayven The UNICORN really not the right time. in addition, no, they’re not.

    • @lunarreclipse7694
      @lunarreclipse7694 5 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      LMAO, alright. ;^)

    • @JakeSoner
      @JakeSoner 5 ปีที่แล้ว +13

      What do you mean not the right time? It's a TV show, it's not real.

    • @namexox4584
      @namexox4584 5 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Jake sOner
      most people watching are literally sad about it aswell because you grow attached to these people on tv shows like this. So if one of them dies then they will be sad. So most people watching this are gonna be sad. Imagine one of your family members died. And you recorded a documentary about it and someone said
      “is _____ sponsored?”

    • @lunarreclipse7694
      @lunarreclipse7694 5 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@namexox4584, sorry if I said that but everyone has their own opinions on videos. Well, I myself is of course sad that Doctor Wheeler died! ;^((

  • @nicolen.9642
    @nicolen.9642 4 ปีที่แล้ว +9

    When Dr. Wheeler jumped off the building, the staff, including Sharon Goodwin, said nobody noticed Dr. Wheeler's problems, that's weird...Dr. Halstead knew when Wheeler's handling patients issues led to drinking...

  • @aswathypeterpaul6789
    @aswathypeterpaul6789 ปีที่แล้ว

    5:21 - A great advise to the junior

  • @Loz-Youtube
    @Loz-Youtube 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    The sad thing is he had no hesitation while walk8ng off

  • @iiRock95
    @iiRock95 6 ปีที่แล้ว +37

    When is season 4 coming?

  • @sgtruru
    @sgtruru 5 ปีที่แล้ว +31

    4:28
    You guys need some help? It looks like your trying to paint the sidewalk red, you’re just spreading the blood not actually cleaning it.

    • @celestepepper1053
      @celestepepper1053 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      You have to disperse the blood further to dilute it, theirs no other way of cleaning such a large amount of blood up but just spread it across such an area that it's no longer visible.

    • @sgtruru
      @sgtruru 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@celestepepper1053 ahh, okay that makes sense. i don’t even remember making that comment aha

  • @tomwotton9
    @tomwotton9 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Me 1 53 “that’s an excellent speech but we want the next hour to be exciting so we’re going to ignore you.”
    Me 2:21 “told you!”

  • @vivivthree3738
    @vivivthree3738 5 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Dr. Choi still drift king to me ........where his nissan 350z???

  • @lozbrook5731
    @lozbrook5731 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    When Ethan apologised to doctor wheeler the subs said I'm awesome right. Like WHYYY

  • @francescasolis9321
    @francescasolis9321 5 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    shuch good acting

  • @applebalderas2469
    @applebalderas2469 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    It's so hard! You're going to asked yourself repetitively if what went wrong. He had given me a signs but I missed it, I neglected it. I didn't knew back then because I was really young, we we're really young. He was my ex and he had a gf already when he committed suicide but he asked me if we could still be friends and ask for forgiveness that's why I am still talking to him. He was really young when he did that.
    If I knew back then that he had given me a sign, I would've save him. I didn't know.
    Tan 1994-2015
    May you be with God now.

  • @SilverRose45
    @SilverRose45 ปีที่แล้ว

    2:07 that person didn't even login to that desktop in the background, just tapped a key on the keyboard

  • @nolansword9820
    @nolansword9820 ปีที่แล้ว

    A month ago. A friend of mine committed suicide, he was a guy good, he was a few months away from graduation, had dozens of colleges to choose to go to, loving friends and family.
    I just…..don’t know why he would would do it.