Does anybody else feel like they messed up literally everything in their life and it can’t get any worse but it does? 😭 Edit: we’ll I’m relatable asf. It did get worse. Lost all my friends, bff is replacing me, no one cares about me, parent issues, self issues, school issues, and more.. f u c k
reading that statement made me sad. trust me, ik what it feels like bc ive been there, but i promise, u are wanted here. i want you here, ik that may be hard to believe bc you dont know me and i dont know you but there are soo many people that want you here and that love you, bc i love you. try your best and keep your head up bc it may be hard but it will all be worth it and one day you will look back and be glad that you didnt go away. so please try try try to stay bc i want you here. -with much love 🙂🫶🏽
I promise you, it is worth sticking around. I know it's hard. I know it feels hopeless. But I swear, it is so worth staying. Things will get better. They will.
Hey. I think I might understand to some degree how you feel. Life's shit. It's really, really shit. I'm not going to lie to you and tell you it's not, because you already know that is. You probably feel hopeless right now. Like everything is a waste of time, like nothing you do will ever matter, like it's not worth it. Like the chances of anything getting better is impossible. I won't tell you that everything is going to get better. Instead, I'd like to think of it as more of an improbability rather than an impossibility. That ways, there's always a chance. It might not be much, but it's something. I'd prefer it you don't decide it's an impossibility. I hope you don't decided that It's not worth it. But know that I won't hold it against you if you want to let go. I love you, ok? I know we don't know eachother but I genuinely love you, and I'm proud of you. So, so unimaginably proud. You're doing great, love. And I will remind you every single day if it means anything ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
To everyone who’s doing homework, leave the chat, breathe slowly, take a sip of water, and focus. To everyone who’s trying to sleep, leave the chat, grab a blanket, and get the rest you deserve. To everyone who is feeling sad, grab a snack, get some water, get a blanket, and write down your thoughts. When you’re done, lay down, and get some rest, no matter the time. To everyone who’s creating, you got this. Your art is amazing. Remain in your flow and get stuff done! -not mine but pass it around, luv y’all!
I think it’s funny how soo many people think they know us soo good but in reality they know the part of us that is trying not to break down they know the pretend happiness side but still don’t know about it
Today just feels heavy. It's like I can't get out of my head. And because of all the thoughts and feelings I cried all day. It reminds me of the time I was depressed. And now it scares saddens me the thought that it might come back... But Im a bit better now and believe it will just get better
To the people who need to hear it, You are loved You are perfectly imperfect You are needed You can cry when you want You are a human You are a beautiful person You deserve everything You need so many hugs (giving them to you right now) You be who you want You be you -a stranger on the internet you will never meet
This goes out to everyone who is going through a lot and aren't doing too well. You are so much more than enough, you are nowhere near a failure nor a mistake, you are none of those bad things people say about you, you are doing so well, you are perfect. You are always going to be perfect because you were born to be the person no one else can be, you are your own person, and you were made perfect for you, you will always be perfect no matter what has happened in your life, how many scars you have, you are perfect. And I am so proud of you all for how far you have come, with all of life's ups and downs you're still fighting, and I am so proud of everyone for that. I believe in you all, you all can do this just keep being the fighters that you are. Lots of love always ❤❤
For those people who have a hard time right now: try to believe in yourself. It might be not that easy. It’s okay to have downs while it’s starts with getting better. I don’t know you but I believe in you. You can do it. There is always a light at the end of the tunnel. After one year with thoughts about leaving and stuff like this I’m now finally felling great and happy the most time of the week. I made it and I know you can do it too. Just try to stay strong. Even if you finally at that point that you can feel happy and with none of your problems it’s totally fine to have downs from time to time. Just try to don’t give up. Hope I could help someone to feel at least 1% better ❤
Thank you! It helped a bit, atleast I started smiling beacuse of this, even tho I was just crying. You have no idea, how much people have you helped, even a bit! Have a wonderful day!
@@bellaawxxthank you so much for your response. I feel very happy that I could made you smile a bit. Hope you won’t cry too much next days and even if you are, it’s okay :) I wish you a wonderful day too!
@@didumdida5750 Aww thank you! I was tired the whole day, and I still gotta study, till 8pm. But I'm thankful for your response too, you made my day a bit better :)
STOP THIS HABIT OF BLAMING YOURSELF OVER AND OVER AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *NO, IT'S NOT YOUR FAULT* *STOP* DWELLING IN NEGATIVITY AND SELF-DEPRECATION!!!!! THIS IS *NOT* THE WAY TO GO!!!! *FORGIVE YOURSELF*, *BELIEVE IN YOURSELF*, AND *REBUILD YOURSELF* !!!
the best thing is just not to trust anyone or confide anything. you always get hurt no matter what the reason. most of the time it's your own fault, which makes things worse. sometimes you're the strongest alone
Because being anonymous gives a sense of security. With people you know you have a hard time opening up. One gets scared of disappointing, hurting, or making them angry... Also we are afraid of not being understood and left behind, not to mention being ignored or told that is "not a big deal". In here, you know someone will at least read you, and if someone says mean stuff, you can just answer them with the same attitude without feeling that bad for them... We can't do that with closer people that are a direct part of our lives.
He repaired my broken heart and then left me... My heart is broken again. I believe in love but maybe love doesn't believe in me. Gosh I love him sooo much. I just want to go, see him and hug him. Just listen to his voice that was telling me those words that helped me to get out of sadness. He was the one of the most important persons of my life. He was my everything. Now, in every song,every place etc.. I can find an association with him. He is always in my head and will be always in my heart. I love you...a lot..or too much 💔
it feels like they know exactly when it's getting bad again so they can just make it worse for me, that fuckin sucks. They had so many chances just to leave me alone but yet he just can't understand that I AM DONE. Why? I will never understand myself, you ignore me in public but while we are so close and having the best of times in private, he was so friendly at first then he started becoming cruel to me, falsely accusing me of dating other men, giving them my body, so then he begins to call me names with no care in the world on how I would feel, how it would affect me and my feelings apparently. Then I forgave him for everything that he did to me, and its the best decision that I've ever made it feels like, until he only wants me for my body, he starts asking for pictures of me starting with my face then he started asking for more, and then when I told him not right now he would tell me "I love you, don't you love me?" and of course I loved him, I loved him with all of my heart so I showed him more... then more... and then it just kept continuing to get worse, it started to happen more often and so I realized that I meant nothing to him, I was nothing to him at all, I was good for nothing except my body, so I began to ignore him, all his phone calls, his texts, even when I would see him at school, I'd just walk past him no matter how hard it was for me... But avoiding him couldn't last forever and eventually, he was able to get me to talk to him, and then there I was again stuck in the arms of someone who didn't even love me for me, crying in his arms as I try hitting him away not wanting his filthy hands to touch me anymore. And so I ended it with him right there and so it was over only for long then I realized that I missed him to absolute death, and I was still gonna love him no matter how much pain he put me through. I missed the late-night calls laughing and smiling as I stared at him through the screen, all the late nights he took me out just walking around for hours on the weekends, holding his hand tightly as I wore his hoodie that he gave to me, holding him close as he cried on my chest when he felt like shit, and then I just realized, I miss what he used to be, not what he became. -"I don't know what we are, but I miss what we used to be." Cloie Elizabeth Blakeney
He don't deserve you but i knw it's hard to move on but u gotta try coz 10 yrs frm now u will realised u did the best choice n not regret it lifetime seriously he failed as a men
hope everyone here is doing ok and had something to eat or drink i don't care what as long as it is something, and know that you are loved, may that be by some stranger or someone you know. love yall
You see, hurt doesn’t recognize hurt, it recognizes pain, and when you find that difference between the two, that, is when you really start to understand humans. That’s when you really start to understand people, their reactions, the things that make them tic. The difference, well it’s meaning is a very fine line between the two hurt- ‘ I’m hurting, but I can still laugh, love, live, be happy’ pain- ‘please let me go, just being alive is torture, but I’ll never show it’ See hurt varies, pain does not, pain is a universal thing, while being hurt is different for each and every single thing in this universe. Being hurt does not mean your broken, being in pain means you were never fixed 😁, so when someone asks you do you know how they feel, think to yourself, are they hurting, or are they in pain, because more often then not they don’t know themselves as it takes a lot to find out on your own😊. I’ve been hurt, and I’ve been in pain, but the one thing that never changed was, the world will carry on without me, no matter how excruciating it is, to be here. So fuck the world, I’ll move in my own time, my own way, or I’ll just shatter, like the thin veil between us and each other, forever present, yet hidden and never shown, felt but always fleeting, that is what in the truest sense can be called “existence”🙂, so carry on, as even God won’t stop the planet for your which he said he will, the only reason to keep moving, is to not feel that pain or hurt 😄. I love you, even if neither of us believes that statement, we can’t be right as not knowing means we can’t prove it wrong ☺️, so keep running and pushing, because as much as it hurts, as painful as it is, you are the only thing that can possibly change it. Maybe you meet that one person, you know how you met them? YOU, went out into the world, YOU were trudging along in life, wallowing in your own despair because, life, was meant for us to feel pain, and hurt. That’s what it means to be human, to feel pain. Be safe, and maybe, just maybe, I’ll see you sometime later 🙃
I have problems with tears and showing my feelings and emotions but after listening to this playlist a few tears flowed down my cheeks. I like to listen to sad calm music because it is a mirror reflection of my inner world. More precisely, music understands what I feel. Music speaks more than I and my actions. Sometimes it seems to me that music is the only one who understands me in this world 😮💨
The most filled comment section with young broken hearts. Wish I wasn't of them. I dont even want to listen to this, I don't like the static, but I like the wind..
Lifes getting harder for me... Just listening to these songs keep me calm from my panic attacks. But i don't think they will help me much longer.. with how my life is going i cant do it anymore...
burn your energy into home-workouts and relax yourself listening to this❤️ have a good sleep babe! we deserves some rest from this world & our own thoughts💪🏻🌹
I hate when people say it gets better. When will it ever get better whenever I think it can't get worse it gets worse. There is no such thing is better.
I’m so tired I’m so tired of waiting for it to get even worse I *know* it will it always does I’m just scared how it’ll affect me I was actually happy I was doing good I was getting to the point where I didn’t need help. Now my world is cracking and shattering and I can’t do anything
I'm really tired about my mom. She made me ill, i feel depressed and stressed all the time. Everything she said all day in the house makes me angry about her being my mother. I'm trying to study more than enough and go to university to escape from this hell. And the bad thing, she's my mother so she'll never go. Always will in my life except i go and start a new life for myself. My note for future me, i hope your hard work makes you come to where you want to be in. You are strong, i believe you.💗
“Lazy”. Every day I wake up at 5AM to get to school. Leave at 530. Walk a mile to my bus stop. Go to school. Do assignments. Study. Go to practice after school. Study. Do assignments. But you know, my room isn’t clean or I didn’t do the dishes so I’m “lazy”
it hurts sm. it feels like everything has changed. it feels like i just hurt anf ruined my whole life and self esteem. it's all my fault. now i can't stop overthinking. i can't open up about my feelings anymore to like anyone in real person. feels like i just wanna lay in bed and sleep all day. I just wanna be happy. I feel my heart, self esteem just propping. Doesn't look like it's gonna come back up anytime soon. i feel very bad. i just wanna be happy and not disappoint everyone i see or become/became friends with but it's impossible
I miss her miss myself miss every single part of her she is always be so strong always be happy and alive! My dear self i miss u uare so tired ur silence talks higher than ur words They will never understand shame blame sadness bad things happening to u U so cold and lost The anxiety and tiredness and the mental illness with depression get the best part of u...u still laughing and seems happier than ever but u are so empty and cold shame of u My dear self i promise im gonna make u feel better as possible as i can Love u sweetbrokenheart! I Wich me be more alive in next days!💔
i brought three lifetimes of suffering upon myself and yet i still feel unfulfilled partially, when i got "sick," i expected my family to worry. i don't know if i do a good job of hiding my condition, or if they're more conscious than i am of my own choices. i feel great sometimes, truly. but it gets so fucking hard sometimes and it'd be so easy to just let everything fall apart. i'm more tempted to let myself go than i am to keep going and i really don't know why. like i'm working hard for my future and everything but i just keep thinking. why stress myself out about this? why study this in school; i'll never use it in my career anyways. if i reach a low point in my life because of these decisions, that'll be where my life ends, it's fine. and those thoughts should _really_ be scarier than they are
TRIGGER WARNING I’m done. I’m just done. I’m tired of it all. All the pain, the panic attacks, the flinching, the worrying over my weight or my outward mood. Everyone keeps telling me that they are proud of me and of how strong I am for not giving up. But I want to. I want to give up so bad it hurts. And not the hurt you get from a breakup or the pain from losing a loved one. It hurts so much. It’s like someone is stabbing me and drowning at the same time. It’s like someone took my bright soul and smothered it until the light dies. And that light is struggling to stay alit. And sure, there are people I would miss. And those who would miss me. But I would be at peace. I could do it. I want to give up and give in to the peace. And I question what’s stopping me. And I just want the pain to stop. The fear that I can never explain to others because I made myself forget the cause. And there are causes I have tried so hard to forget that make me sick. But I can’t. And I won’t. Because I made a promise to someone. Someone who was hurting so much that screaming wouldn’t even scratch the itch. Someone who gave into peace. And that promise was to live. So that’s why I’m still here. Because I promised him I would stay. Even though I feel as though every breath is piercing. Even though I haven’t been sleeping. Even though I don’t eat as much as I used to and I’m overworking myself. Even though each day is a struggle of fight or flight. I stay because of the promise. I won’t go. I won’t. But I don’t want this pain anymore.
I’m sorry for what you are going through, even tho I’m just a stranger I wish nothing but love for you, you are so strong and I really hope some day you stay because u want to stay, because you want to see the light every day again and again, not because of a promise. I hope one day you can be at peace here on this beautiful earth.
Hey I'm just checking in I know this comment was made a year ago but want to check in on you I hope your doing good I hope your happy and safe I just want you to know that you are loved by every single person you know and more I love you so much I know that might not be much coming from some random girl on the internet but I do and I hope you have gotten through the hard stuff and are happy God bless you so much ❤
I can't get all these intrusive thoughts out of my head, and this is killing me. I can't really focus anymore on the things I used to love. I work, study, workout, play piano, have gone to psychologist, talked to my parents and friends about my feelings but nothing is working out. I can't bear with these feelings anymore. I just want to feel alive again. I'm sorry bae. I didn't mean to hurt you and destroy you with all my insecurities and lack of self-love. I just wanted to love you like you did, but it didn't turn out well. I really wanted to spend the rest of my life with you. :( It's been 3 years now, and I haven't been able to move on like you said I had to do. I don't want to be selfish anymore. I don't want to hurt anyone else. I want to be a better person. I want you back. I miss you. I never meant to hurt you. I was just scared to lose you. I already went to the psychologist, talked to my parents, made friends, finished my degree, learned your native language, started to learn how to play piano like you used to do just to have a piece of you in me and even managed to get the finals in the national competition you motivated me to join (I couldn't win though) but I always had you on my mind and all these achievements are ours. I just wish I could get the time back to that day you were leaving me and having had the resilience to let you go and respect your boundaries without being selfish. I love you, Angela Baccolini. I love you really much. I hope you had been able to find some peace within the darkness and God had heard all my prayers. I haven't stopped praying for a single night for you, for your family, for your goals and for us. I hope some day God allows me to see you one more time and see you happy again. I miss your laugh, your smile, your eyes, your voice, your sweetness, your nicknames, your presence, your love. I miss the bond we used to have. I hope I can keep myself alive. Sei la mia casa, tesoro. Ti amo vita mia. Grazie per essere stata al mio fianco quando avevo più bisogno di te. Grazie per essere stata la mia forza e la mia speranza quando il mondo sembrava un inferno. Grazie per avermi amato quando non riuscivo nemmeno a guardarmi allo specchio. Grazie per essere stato il motivo di ogni mia gioia. Ti amo tesoro e non smetterò mai di amarti.
This is heartbreaking. I can relate to some of the things you wrote, I'm sorry you had to go through all that. I'm sending you a little bit of hope and power to hold on. You deserve to be happy one day. Remind yourself that in case you ever find yourself standing in your own way to finding happiness again. 🤗
I know this is the lowest I've been cuz I've stopped reaching for help. I don't write these big paragraphs of how I feel anymore, I'm not trying to help myself, I've gone emotionally numb again which hasn't happened in a good like half a year. Haven't been eating due to being called fat. I don't even have the energy to go out with friends anymore. I really do hope 2023 treats me better, I still have hope but i dont think i should keep going. The amount of attempts i had this year and still nobody cares, the only reason I'm going is because of one of my teachers, he's absolutely awesome:) so much happened I cant even talk about. If you've read this far down thank you. I'm praying everything gets better for everybody, I dont know what any of you are going through but.. don't listen to them, do what you like. They dont like it? F them. Their opinion doesnt matter if it's bad. Treat yourself you deserve it. Everybody reading this deserves the world and more, please don't do anything to yourselves and take care, love you♡
I'm getting so tired with life, i'm always getting blamed for everything. I try so hard in school i keep all good grades, I come home and I try to satisfy everybody. That doesn't matter to them though. yes i have days when i can be the worst but still i TRY.! I wish they could see that and everything else that happens behind closed doors. Maybe they would understand me better,And Love me for who i am and what i do.
I am overwhelmed by everything. I just want it to stop. But it seems that it is possible for me. I have way too much to do and not the time to break down. So I keep on hurting myself by not stopping and I am so fucking exhausted at this point. Legit I just want to pause life for a minute. Everything just hurts, and well everyone leaves. I can't imagine asking for help. Because then I will become a burden once again.
I hope you’ll feel relief in any way possible, be it through a song, food, or anything that could take of your mind from such heavy thoughts. A beautiful soul such as yours deserve happiness and contentment. I get how everything seems exhausting and pointless and honestly I don’t know if it would get better or we would just learn to endure. Still let’s try to stay for tomorrow and for more to come. Sending virtual hugs 😊
found out im pregnant and im only 16, i know its my fault no need to remind me. the dad doesnt want it, and i dont think im ready but it’s honestly sad.. we both let this happened and somehow im the only one upset.. i love my baby and it hurts that im getting rid of it and whenever i see my child again i want to give it a big hug and a huge apology.
As a 16 year old girl I understand what u might be feeling. I have huge respect for you as u are so brave to take this step for ur and the child's safety. You are a very mature woman!!! 🖤🖤🖤🖤 Take care of yourself!
In school i put on this face pretending that i dont care when people insult me or when my friends saying that they dont like me and just being mean for no reason and when i go when i listen to calm music and cry thinking if i did something wrong
@@Wolfsta It's not really what I meant, it's quite the opposite. I wanted to say that I'm not doing good and nobody's here for me, 'cause they won't understand me.
Once birdy came on “deep end” I cried and couldn’t breathe that song reminded me of my best freind rip what an amazing freind and I miss you so so so sooo much 🥺
I am in so much pain. My heart and soul is completely shattered. I just want the pain to end. I just want to stop missing the person i loved once. He was the best part if my life. But, i had to let him go because my family was against us being together. It's been months but i still cant get over my love for him
Been in serious mental pain lately enough to say that I believe it’s life threatening now and I’m not sure how to pull myself out, I’m trying hard just to make it to the new year but if I’m honest I don’t have much faith in myself right now and I’m losing hope really think if I do make it past the new year it will more than likely be the last time I do
@Danny Dolan it was a tough new years but I made it through and I’m staying strong for as long as I can for the people who still care about me and that need me but I’m honestly nervous I won’t be strong enough as this year goes on but I’m hoping for the best, I hope you had a good new years as well
He hurt me so bad. He broke me. Over and over again. So I finally pulled the line, I finally said to myself Not this again. And I know He doesn‘t mean it badly, I know He is Just a sick in his mind as nearly all of us are. But it was never My task to Save him, to take all the bad from him. I gave him My all But He just took and never gave. He pulled me apart and left me. And at My lowest Point. When My mind broke, and My body finally failed. Then I finally had the courage to say no to him. Some Months past, Summer went by. And I Met someone. Someone who pieced My Heart back together. Someone who Lights up My world. Someone who was alone as well, someone who loves Just as much as I do. So why when I have finally Met someone who makes me feel Alive again, why is He coming back? Healed from his „scars“, there to „stay“. There? To destroy me again. To push me into chaos which I call My life . I Just want peace. Please let me have My peace. I Want to feel enough. Let me love. Let me free of my past demons. I went through so much…Not only him But the past as well…I finally Want to feel lucky myself. I Want to love, without Breaking. I Want to love. Now. The present.
Last year it was my brother and grandmother. Now today marks only a month for putting my mom to rest. I’m trying to be ok but it’s so hard because she was the one who would let me not be ok. I miss her she was my person who pulled me back. Now I break at every thought of her. Cancer stole her from me, how is it ok? Just let me not ok and you need to be ok with it. Just hold me and help me, this pain is killing me.
I don’t even know what’s wrong with me. I was in a wonderful mood a few hours ago. But now, as I am winding down to sleep, I’m in so much pain that I’m mentally screaming. But I can’t think of anything that could have caused it. It just hurts. It hurts so much and I don’t think I have any tears left to cry…I’ve cried them all. And one side of me is at peace from it. That side is thinking about ways to keep my mind on the positive tomorrow. But this side of me is screaming about how I have lost someone. But every time I try to think of who it is, my mind blanks it. Anyways, I have to be awake in six hours. I might as well attempt sleep. But I might just sketch. Tomorrow is my last off day before I go back to work. I want to be able to relax. And maybe I am just overstimulated or overreacting. I can delete this entire comment if needed. I just needed to vent for a second. By the way, I hope everyone has had a good holiday season. No matter what holiday that may be for you🦋
school ends but life continues... you fail an exam, the sun keeps rising... you lose a job/get cheated on... the world keeps turning... your mental health is declining, it will get easier.... nothing is permanent, no matter how much it feels like it. In the words of Winston Churchill: "If you're going through hell, keep going" and to the religious amongst us; the most commonly used phrase in the bible: 'do not be afraid'. Keep. Going.
I can’t even go to school without having a panic attack or crying and once I get home I get called lazy, messy and unhealthy bc I eat a lot bc of stress
I've been there. I understand what you're going through and I'm here! They don't understand, so you can't let them get you down. Our top priority should always be ourselves and our mental health! You are loved
I feel like a part of them will always be stuck to me bc of the reminder of him always hits home I learned why I was so attached to him and why the pain was so familiar but so different at the same time idk what to do when I think I am getting over him the memories of him and the moments that I got that I wanted to have with him for so long I finally got but he left again and again and again and replaced me in a short time I always think of what could’ve been if we actually dated and get to understand each other hangout and actually talked heart to heart worked out the issues all that corny shit but I guess that is never ever gonna happen and he was just a lesson that I had to learn the painful confort reminder he had. The time I saw him with her I couldn’t breathe her hands on him and the things he did for her that I wanted him to do with me
Idk how ua feeling but i guess i somehow feel u but take it as a lesson n move on n most ppl usually get in situation like this but u also have to choose wisely the men u wanna be with or once u truly have feelings for him n he changes it's very hard to recover but do ur best " all the best for the future yet to come "
@@AvelRaccoon I know 😭 I’m slowly starting to understand what happened and get why I feel this way but like a tiny part of me still likes him I think I still need time to recover
Idk n I'm sry if i sound awkward or weird but tbh ryt now im kinda drunk i mean i usually drink when i can't fall asleep for 2days or 3 so i get drunk enough to sleep since sleeping pills aren't sold in pharmacy without doctor's advice so i had to get drunk but like to me i think u are doing great i mean there are thousands of people who gave up at that point but u are here still fighting i love you abt that n yeah it takes times so don't worry too much abt it they would become a memory someday trust me keep fighting be strong always i love u be strong always
Anyone just give everything to your family but they just treat you like dirt all the time and there is that one person who treats you like something but you can't see them
Sometimes, i just get sad. There’s no reasons sometimes. But i just feel sad in the moment, cry it out, and sleep it off. But today I have a reason. Right now, I’m in a long distance relationship, with a 5 hour difference. I know he may be busy, but he usually texts me good morning, or something throughout the day just to let me know he’s busy or something. But today I saw he took off his location for me on snap. I don’t know if I should be concerned or… i don’t know. I overthought it tonight, and currently crying about it. I get too attached easily and i wish I didn’t.
0:01 It's Ok - Tom Rosenthal 3:42 Somewhere Only We Know - Keane 7:17 Someone To Stay - Vancouver Sleep Clinic 12:08 Another Love - Tom Odell 16:54 Half A Man - Dean Lewis 20:30 Hold On - Chord Overstreet 24:17 Falling - Harry Styles 28:36 Everything I Wanted - Billie Eilish 33:20 Driver's License - Olivia Rodrigo 38:04 Forever - Lewis Capaldi 42:02 Atlantis - Seafret 47:09 Deep End - Birdy 51:37 Brother - Kodaline 55:18 Moral Of The Story - Ashe 58:47 Repeat Some parts are almost drowned out by the static, like most of Atlantis :/
I’m going through hell rn bc my family and myself I feel like I’m not skinny enough, or even worth it. I have the same dream almost everyday that my family leaves me when I go to bed, I saw them leave and I cried so hard and woke up crying. I had this dream like over 1-10 times and it gets worse each time. The last time I dreamt of it was a month or 2 months ago and I still remember the first time I had that dream was when I was 9years old. I hope if god is real he will lighten my years of suffering and punish my father and mother and myself and people who wronged me. The suffering started 2016-2021 now going on 7years amen
I'm in so much pain, and yet I know I can't go anywhere because I have so much impact on little girls who see me as role models. I'm also raised in a Slavic family so they don't belive in mental health so I can't get help...I'm just stuck and alone
I hate that its always my fault. I have been given 3 days holidays with 2 records to complete, 2 assignments, and 3 big exams coming and its the night of the 3rd day and I havent done anything. Its overwhelming to whenever i think of it i cant take it anymore.
I admitted my faults to an old friend... and also brought up one of my @busers, who is still her friend. I feel like I fucked up. My whole body hurts, and I feel like death. Also wrote a poem about my ex in class today; here it is: ♥ ♥ My First Love ♥ ♥ I can still recall his smiling face The way he'd hold me and all the pain would fade His strong and warm embrace His light blue eyes and how they glazed To my disdain, the day it ended Crying in bed, wondering why My heart will forever be bended Sitting in the rain or sun, I will always cry Golden hair, Ocean eyes, I'll always hear your voice in the breezy air I'm sure you still hear my sighs. Our assignment was to write at least 8 lines of rhyming poetry with the rhyming pattern ABABCDCD... I think I'm the only one who takes poetry seriously... probably because of all the shit I can write about.
I hurt her, she told me to forget about her, weeks went by i tried my best and almost did it. Then she texted me saying she still care about me. I told her to stop as im afraid ill hurt her again. After thinking for a week i texted her apologizing for everything, and then she think i was blaming her. And then it turn into argument all over again. I knew i had to stop and i did. Now we are stranger again.. but with memory.
I hurt hurt her, I texted her everyday after we broke up but she never read it, i ask her friends to help me but she always being mad everytime her friends try to talk about me with her, she said she moved on and she moved on cuz i hurt her so much
imma be honest, dk why Im even writing in a yt comment section but its better than to go out without telling anyone. I dont see any way ill move past tonight, I wish everyone of you a better life than mine tho
I'm tired really. Its hard to breath and I feel suffocated, Ik leaving the world isn't an option but it's so hard to survive. For what are we even alive? What is even our purpose?
hey i know how hard this can be but you deserve the world and im so sorry you feel this way but you are amazing please have a lovely day and if you ever need to talk just respond and ill give you my snap or discord
I lost 2 of my close friends and apparently it’s my fault. It was better for me to never get friends. I should have js stayed lonely. Now I’m just crying here
I need to be loved so desperately - I feel like I can't do anything because of that unmet need, which messes up my life and makes me need to be loved even more. Not even loved. Wanted? Chosen? Just wanted and chosen by someone I'd want as well. Someone I can actually have and hold and talk to and call mine.
It's always my fault. I try to help make it worse. My mother is overwhelmed with me does not say it but I realize it, I have disappointed my friends. I can't stop hurting myself and make everything worse I can't do it anymore I don't want to be the problem anymore I give up soon
I ended up hurting the one person who always check on me wanted to make sure i was alright and just loved me i didn't realize what i was doing til she was gone i hate myself for how i treated her i dont know what tge future but most likely wont be around long enough to find out. Everyone is so happy with me in there life i can just tell so i should just leave her and all of there lives and allow them to be happy without me
I’m think I have borderline or bipolar 2 and I think I’m starting to lose my battle with keeping my grasp on reality. My mind and spirit afloat. Losing control. God help me.
My brain and heart divorced a decade ago over who was to blame about how big of a mess I have become eventually, they couldn’t be in the same room with each other now my head and heart share custody of me stay with my brain during the week and my heart gets me on weekends they never speak to one another - instead, they give me the same note to pass to each other every week and their notes they send to one another always says the same thing: “This is all your fault’ on Sundays my heart complains about how my head has let me down in the past and on Wednesday my head lists all of the times my heart has screwed things up for me in the future they blame each other for the state of my life there’s been a lot of yelling - and crying SO, lately, I’ve been spending a lot of time with my gut who serves as my unofficial therapist most nights, sneak out of the window in my ribcage and slide down my spine and collapse on my gut’s plush leather chair that’s always open for me ~ and just sit sit sit sit until the sun comes up last evening, my gut asked me if I was having a hard time being caught between my heart and my head I nodded I said I didn’t know if I could live with either of them anymore “my heart is always sad about something that happened yesterday while my head is always worried about something that may happen tomorrow, I lamented my gut squeezed my hand ‘just can’t live with my mistakes of the past or my anxiety about the future,’ I sighed my gut smiled and said: ‘in that case, you should go stay with your lungs for a while,’ I was confused - the look on my face gave it away “if you are exhausted about your heart’s obsession with the fixed past and your mind’s focus on the uncertain future your lungs are the perfect place for you there is no yesterday in your lungs there is no tomorrow there either there is only now there is only inhale there is only exhale there is only this moment there is only breath and in that breath you can rest while your heart and head work their relationship out.’ this morning, while my brain was busy reading tea leaves and while my heart was staring at old photographs I packed a little bag and walked to the door of my lungs before I could even knock she opened the door with a smile and as a gust of air embraced me she said “what took you so long?’ by John Roedel •2021•
Eu queria poder voltar atrás, queria poder dizer que vocês não tomaram o lado errado. Sinto profundamente a falta das partes felizes do que a gente viveu, mas vocês escolheram o lado do abusador e e eu nunca me senti tão sozinha quanto me sinto agora. Ainda tem um pedaço meu que me faz sentir culpada por afastar vocês, acho que é o mesmo pedaço que vocês magoaram.
I lost the person I loved, she was so nice and I screwed up. We weren't dating yet, but we'd been friends for 4 years, and I don't think I've ever liked anyone so much in my entire life. I have no more inspiration to do anything, I have no desire to do anything. I wish I could tell her that I love her very much.
Life is hard..one day I got yelled by my friend and now I got yelled by my parents I couldn't handle the pressure..idk how I'm typing this...I hope I'm not dead when I post.. Imok has two lives...oh no...
Hi! I don't want to bother you or something, but I saw your comment and I wanted you to know that you're not alone in this. If you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here for you, okay?
-Already Gone- You know it's actually really sad, and depressing to think that we all try to make an impression on this earth. and yet we all die and turn to ash in the end, it's like all we did meant nothing...nothing at all. Everyday we wake up feeling the same, like nothing...like nothing mattered anymore. But we knew we had to keep pushing, not for ourselves, but for others, others that we love, that we don't know, that we might know in the future. Because if we lost hope in that one thing that mattered in our life. The people who care about us. We'd just end it, We'd jump off that cliff, put the light out. So we didn't have to feel anything anymore. By: Delaney (Me)
I promise you that life is beautiful...you just have to ACTUALLY believe it. And i know that is REALLY hard this sh*t..... Keep going you got this.... Don't rush it one step at a time. My heart hurts too.... You are not alone....
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Love how we all are strangers but still try to help each other out cause we all know the pain. Love you guys for that
Thats what let me wake up every morning i also appreciate it from bottom of my heart ❤️ i l💚ve u all
I was told by someone to just not be depressed. Like really it’s that easy?
@@Valarie834 it’s really not
but i acc have no1 anymore :(
Does anybody else feel like they messed up literally everything in their life and it can’t get any worse but it does? 😭
Edit: we’ll I’m relatable asf. It did get worse. Lost all my friends, bff is replacing me, no one cares about me, parent issues, self issues, school issues, and more.. f u c k
literally me-
Yes
yes
Literally facts
Oh hell yea
It feels like I won't be here for much longer and it's not a tragedy, it's a relief
reading that statement made me sad. trust me, ik what it feels like bc ive been there, but i promise, u are wanted here. i want you here, ik that may be hard to believe bc you dont know me and i dont know you but there are soo many people that want you here and that love you, bc i love you. try your best and keep your head up bc it may be hard but it will all be worth it and one day you will look back and be glad that you didnt go away. so please try try try to stay bc i want you here. -with much love 🙂🫶🏽
I promise you, it is worth sticking around. I know it's hard. I know it feels hopeless. But I swear, it is so worth staying. Things will get better. They will.
Hey. I think I might understand to some degree how you feel. Life's shit. It's really, really shit. I'm not going to lie to you and tell you it's not, because you already know that is. You probably feel hopeless right now. Like everything is a waste of time, like nothing you do will ever matter, like it's not worth it. Like the chances of anything getting better is impossible. I won't tell you that everything is going to get better. Instead, I'd like to think of it as more of an improbability rather than an impossibility. That ways, there's always a chance. It might not be much, but it's something. I'd prefer it you don't decide it's an impossibility. I hope you don't decided that It's not worth it. But know that I won't hold it against you if you want to let go. I love you, ok? I know we don't know eachother but I genuinely love you, and I'm proud of you. So, so unimaginably proud. You're doing great, love. And I will remind you every single day if it means anything ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
I felt that deeply.
I want you to know that you’re not alone! But trust me, it’s going to get way better.
To everyone who’s doing homework, leave the chat, breathe slowly, take a sip of water, and focus.
To everyone who’s trying to sleep, leave the chat, grab a blanket, and get the rest you deserve.
To everyone who is feeling sad, grab a snack, get some water, get a blanket, and write down your thoughts. When you’re done, lay down, and get some rest, no matter the time.
To everyone who’s creating, you got this. Your art is amazing. Remain in your flow and get stuff done!
-not mine but pass it around, luv y’all!
if your reading this, I love you and promise things will get better. ❤️
i love you too
Therapy: expensive
Imok community: free
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whats imok?
@@annapurneshwarikuri1724 name of the channel. Which also says "I'm ok"
I think it’s funny how soo many people think they know us soo good but in reality they know the part of us that is trying not to break down they know the pretend happiness side but still don’t know about it
i’m glad that u guys found a healthy outlet for expressing ur emotions but man i’m just tryna find timestamps
Same
Thanks for making me laugh, and reminding me why I entered the comment section in first place.
Lmaoo same
Today just feels heavy. It's like I can't get out of my head. And because of all the thoughts and feelings I cried all day. It reminds me of the time I was depressed. And now it scares saddens me the thought that it might come back... But Im a bit better now and believe it will just get better
To the people who need to hear it,
You are loved
You are perfectly imperfect
You are needed
You can cry when you want
You are a human
You are a beautiful person
You deserve everything
You need so many hugs (giving them to you right now)
You be who you want
You be you
-a stranger on the internet you will never meet
this made me ugly cry-
Thank you.
This goes out to everyone who is going through a lot and aren't doing too well. You are so much more than enough, you are nowhere near a failure nor a mistake, you are none of those bad things people say about you, you are doing so well, you are perfect. You are always going to be perfect because you were born to be the person no one else can be, you are your own person, and you were made perfect for you, you will always be perfect no matter what has happened in your life, how many scars you have, you are perfect. And I am so proud of you all for how far you have come, with all of life's ups and downs you're still fighting, and I am so proud of everyone for that. I believe in you all, you all can do this just keep being the fighters that you are. Lots of love always ❤❤
Thank u for this 🙏🙏
For those people who have a hard time right now: try to believe in yourself. It might be not that easy. It’s okay to have downs while it’s starts with getting better. I don’t know you but I believe in you. You can do it. There is always a light at the end of the tunnel. After one year with thoughts about leaving and stuff like this I’m now finally felling great and happy the most time of the week. I made it and I know you can do it too. Just try to stay strong.
Even if you finally at that point that you can feel happy and with none of your problems it’s totally fine to have downs from time to time. Just try to don’t give up.
Hope I could help someone to feel at least 1% better ❤
Thank you! It helped a bit, atleast I started smiling beacuse of this, even tho I was just crying. You have no idea, how much people have you helped, even a bit! Have a wonderful day!
@@bellaawxxthank you so much for your response. I feel very happy that I could made you smile a bit. Hope you won’t cry too much next days and even if you are, it’s okay :) I wish you a wonderful day too!
@@didumdida5750 Aww thank you! I was tired the whole day, and I still gotta study, till 8pm. But I'm thankful for your response too, you made my day a bit better :)
STOP THIS HABIT OF BLAMING YOURSELF OVER AND OVER AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*NO, IT'S NOT YOUR FAULT*
*STOP* DWELLING IN NEGATIVITY AND SELF-DEPRECATION!!!!!
THIS IS *NOT* THE WAY TO GO!!!!
*FORGIVE YOURSELF*, *BELIEVE IN YOURSELF*, AND *REBUILD YOURSELF* !!!
I needed that, thank u 🙏🙏
@@Wolfsta You're most welcome!!
the best thing is just not to trust anyone or confide anything. you always get hurt no matter what the reason. most of the time it's your own fault, which makes things worse. sometimes you're the strongest alone
im so tired of this pain. i just need something that'll bring me happiness again
Music is my escape. Music helps me when nobody else does.
When things feel like they are going good, life knocks me down and kicks me. Honestly tired.
Yep happens to all of us 😅
"Somebody asked me if I knew you. A million memories flashed through my mind but I just smiled and said I used to."
same i feel the same way you still listening?
Why is TH-cam the only place where I can talk abt my feelings
Because being anonymous gives a sense of security.
With people you know you have a hard time opening up. One gets scared of disappointing, hurting, or making them angry... Also we are afraid of not being understood and left behind, not to mention being ignored or told that is "not a big deal".
In here, you know someone will at least read you, and if someone says mean stuff, you can just answer them with the same attitude without feeling that bad for them... We can't do that with closer people that are a direct part of our lives.
He repaired my broken heart and then left me... My heart is broken again. I believe in love but maybe love doesn't believe in me. Gosh I love him sooo much. I just want to go, see him and hug him. Just listen to his voice that was telling me those words that helped me to get out of sadness. He was the one of the most important persons of my life. He was my everything. Now, in every song,every place etc.. I can find an association with him. He is always in my head and will be always in my heart. I love you...a lot..or too much 💔
It took one sentence to mess it all up.
One sentence that may have not even been that long, but it cut that deep.
And now, there's no going back.
it feels like they know exactly when it's getting bad again so they can just make it worse for me, that fuckin sucks. They had so many chances just to leave me alone but yet he just can't understand that I AM DONE. Why? I will never understand myself, you ignore me in public but while we are so close and having the best of times in private, he was so friendly at first then he started becoming cruel to me, falsely accusing me of dating other men, giving them my body, so then he begins to call me names with no care in the world on how I would feel, how it would affect me and my feelings apparently. Then I forgave him for everything that he did to me, and its the best decision that I've ever made it feels like, until he only wants me for my body, he starts asking for pictures of me starting with my face then he started asking for more, and then when I told him not right now he would tell me "I love you, don't you love me?" and of course I loved him, I loved him with all of my heart so I showed him more... then more... and then it just kept continuing to get worse, it started to happen more often and so I realized that I meant nothing to him, I was nothing to him at all, I was good for nothing except my body, so I began to ignore him, all his phone calls, his texts, even when I would see him at school, I'd just walk past him no matter how hard it was for me...
But avoiding him couldn't last forever and eventually, he was able to get me to talk to him, and then there I was again stuck in the arms of someone who didn't even love me for me, crying in his arms as I try hitting him away not wanting his filthy hands to touch me anymore. And so I ended it with him right there and so it was over only for long then I realized that I missed him to absolute death, and I was still gonna love him no matter how much pain he put me through.
I missed the late-night calls laughing and smiling as I stared at him through the screen, all the late nights he took me out just walking around for hours on the weekends, holding his hand tightly as I wore his hoodie that he gave to me, holding him close as he cried on my chest when he felt like shit, and then I just realized,
I miss what he used to be, not what he became.
-"I don't know what we are, but I miss what we used to be."
Cloie Elizabeth Blakeney
He don't deserve you but i knw it's hard to move on but u gotta try coz 10 yrs frm now u will realised u did the best choice n not regret it lifetime seriously he failed as a men
@@AvelRaccoon you are right and I thank you for that, I'm moving on everyday one step at a time.
hope everyone here is doing ok and had something to eat or drink i don't care what as long as it is something, and know that you are loved, may that be by some stranger or someone you know. love yall
You see, hurt doesn’t recognize hurt, it recognizes pain, and when you find that difference between the two, that, is when you really start to understand humans. That’s when you really start to understand people, their reactions, the things that make them tic. The difference, well it’s meaning is a very fine line between the two
hurt- ‘ I’m hurting, but I can still laugh, love, live, be happy’
pain- ‘please let me go, just being alive is torture, but I’ll never show it’
See hurt varies, pain does not, pain is a universal thing, while being hurt is different for each and every single thing in this universe. Being hurt does not mean your broken, being in pain means you were never fixed 😁, so when someone asks you do you know how they feel, think to yourself, are they hurting, or are they in pain, because more often then not they don’t know themselves as it takes a lot to find out on your own😊. I’ve been hurt, and I’ve been in pain, but the one thing that never changed was, the world will carry on without me, no matter how excruciating it is, to be here. So fuck the world, I’ll move in my own time, my own way, or I’ll just shatter, like the thin veil between us and each other, forever present, yet hidden and never shown, felt but always fleeting, that is what in the truest sense can be called “existence”🙂, so carry on, as even God won’t stop the planet for your which he said he will, the only reason to keep moving, is to not feel that pain or hurt 😄.
I love you, even if neither of us believes that statement, we can’t be right as not knowing means we can’t prove it wrong ☺️, so keep running and pushing, because as much as it hurts, as painful as it is, you are the only thing that can possibly change it. Maybe you meet that one person, you know how you met them? YOU, went out into the world, YOU were trudging along in life, wallowing in your own despair because, life, was meant for us to feel pain, and hurt. That’s what it means to be human, to feel pain.
Be safe, and maybe, just maybe, I’ll see you sometime later 🙃
I have problems with tears and showing my feelings and emotions but after listening to this playlist a few tears flowed down my cheeks. I like to listen to sad calm music because it is a mirror reflection of my inner world. More precisely, music understands what I feel. Music speaks more than I and my actions. Sometimes it seems to me that music is the only one who understands me in this world 😮💨
The most filled comment section with young broken hearts. Wish I wasn't of them. I dont even want to listen to this, I don't like the static, but I like the wind..
Lifes getting harder for me... Just listening to these songs keep me calm from my panic attacks. But i don't think they will help me much longer.. with how my life is going i cant do it anymore...
burn your energy into home-workouts and relax yourself listening to this❤️ have a good sleep babe! we deserves some rest from this world & our own thoughts💪🏻🌹
The worst thing about people is that they will brake everything until they are broken. Then they start to care about love.
I hate when people say it gets better. When will it ever get better whenever I think it can't get worse it gets worse. There is no such thing is better.
Thats the problem- u don't really believe that it get better
@@Wolfsta so if I believe it then it will get better?
@@Sara_M32 yess, but u also gotta work towards that happiness
I feel like everyone on earth is doomed to have this void who consumes the soul bit by bit, but some people force themselves to forget it exists
I’m so tired I’m so tired of waiting for it to get even worse I *know* it will it always does I’m just scared how it’ll affect me I was actually happy I was doing good I was getting to the point where I didn’t need help. Now my world is cracking and shattering and I can’t do anything
I'm really tired about my mom. She made me ill, i feel depressed and stressed all the time. Everything she said all day in the house makes me angry about her being my mother. I'm trying to study more than enough and go to university to escape from this hell. And the bad thing, she's my mother so she'll never go. Always will in my life except i go and start a new life for myself. My note for future me, i hope your hard work makes you come to where you want to be in. You are strong, i believe you.💗
“Lazy”. Every day I wake up at 5AM to get to school. Leave at 530. Walk a mile to my bus stop. Go to school. Do assignments. Study. Go to practice after school. Study. Do assignments. But you know, my room isn’t clean or I didn’t do the dishes so I’m “lazy”
it hurts sm. it feels like everything has changed. it feels like i just hurt anf ruined my whole life and self esteem. it's all my fault. now i can't stop overthinking. i can't open up about my feelings anymore to like anyone in real person. feels like i just wanna lay in bed and sleep all day. I just wanna be happy. I feel my heart, self esteem just propping. Doesn't look like it's gonna come back up anytime soon. i feel very bad. i just wanna be happy and not disappoint everyone i see or become/became friends with but it's impossible
i dont think im going to be here much longer. im too young to be feeling/thinking like this..
I miss her miss myself miss every single part of her she is always be so strong always be happy and alive!
My dear self i miss u uare so tired ur silence talks higher than ur words
They will never understand shame blame sadness bad things happening to u
U so cold and lost
The anxiety and tiredness and the mental illness with depression get the best part of u...u still laughing and seems happier than ever but u are so empty and cold shame of u
My dear self i promise im gonna make u feel better as possible as i can
Love u sweetbrokenheart!
I Wich me be more alive in next days!💔
People always say things get better. But when it’s been 14 years for me. How much longer
However much it takes ✊✊ u have to start making the RIGHT steps to change ur life, nothing in this life is given for free
i brought three lifetimes of suffering upon myself and yet i still feel unfulfilled
partially, when i got "sick," i expected my family to worry. i don't know if i do a good job of hiding my condition, or if they're more conscious than i am of my own choices. i feel great sometimes, truly. but it gets so fucking hard sometimes and it'd be so easy to just let everything fall apart. i'm more tempted to let myself go than i am to keep going and i really don't know why.
like i'm working hard for my future and everything but i just keep thinking. why stress myself out about this? why study this in school; i'll never use it in my career anyways. if i reach a low point in my life because of these decisions, that'll be where my life ends, it's fine.
and those thoughts should _really_ be scarier than they are
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I’m done. I’m just done. I’m tired of it all. All the pain, the panic attacks, the flinching, the worrying over my weight or my outward mood. Everyone keeps telling me that they are proud of me and of how strong I am for not giving up. But I want to. I want to give up so bad it hurts. And not the hurt you get from a breakup or the pain from losing a loved one. It hurts so much. It’s like someone is stabbing me and drowning at the same time. It’s like someone took my bright soul and smothered it until the light dies. And that light is struggling to stay alit. And sure, there are people I would miss. And those who would miss me. But I would be at peace. I could do it. I want to give up and give in to the peace. And I question what’s stopping me. And I just want the pain to stop. The fear that I can never explain to others because I made myself forget the cause. And there are causes I have tried so hard to forget that make me sick. But I can’t. And I won’t. Because I made a promise to someone. Someone who was hurting so much that screaming wouldn’t even scratch the itch. Someone who gave into peace. And that promise was to live. So that’s why I’m still here. Because I promised him I would stay. Even though I feel as though every breath is piercing. Even though I haven’t been sleeping. Even though I don’t eat as much as I used to and I’m overworking myself. Even though each day is a struggle of fight or flight. I stay because of the promise. I won’t go. I won’t. But I don’t want this pain anymore.
I’m sorry for what you are going through, even tho I’m just a stranger I wish nothing but love for you, you are so strong and I really hope some day you stay because u want to stay, because you want to see the light every day again and again, not because of a promise. I hope one day you can be at peace here on this beautiful earth.
Hey I'm just checking in I know this comment was made a year ago but want to check in on you I hope your doing good I hope your happy and safe I just want you to know that you are loved by every single person you know and more I love you so much I know that might not be much coming from some random girl on the internet but I do and I hope you have gotten through the hard stuff and are happy God bless you so much ❤
It doesn't get better period.
I can't get all these intrusive thoughts out of my head, and this is killing me. I can't really focus anymore on the things I used to love. I work, study, workout, play piano, have gone to psychologist, talked to my parents and friends about my feelings but nothing is working out. I can't bear with these feelings anymore. I just want to feel alive again. I'm sorry bae. I didn't mean to hurt you and destroy you with all my insecurities and lack of self-love. I just wanted to love you like you did, but it didn't turn out well. I really wanted to spend the rest of my life with you. :( It's been 3 years now, and I haven't been able to move on like you said I had to do. I don't want to be selfish anymore. I don't want to hurt anyone else. I want to be a better person. I want you back. I miss you.
I never meant to hurt you. I was just scared to lose you. I already went to the psychologist, talked to my parents, made friends, finished my degree, learned your native language, started to learn how to play piano like you used to do just to have a piece of you in me and even managed to get the finals in the national competition you motivated me to join (I couldn't win though) but I always had you on my mind and all these achievements are ours.
I just wish I could get the time back to that day you were leaving me and having had the resilience to let you go and respect your boundaries without being selfish. I love you, Angela Baccolini. I love you really much.
I hope you had been able to find some peace within the darkness and God had heard all my prayers. I haven't stopped praying for a single night for you, for your family, for your goals and for us.
I hope some day God allows me to see you one more time and see you happy again. I miss your laugh, your smile, your eyes, your voice, your sweetness, your nicknames, your presence, your love. I miss the bond we used to have.
I hope I can keep myself alive.
Sei la mia casa, tesoro. Ti amo vita mia. Grazie per essere stata al mio fianco quando avevo più bisogno di te. Grazie per essere stata la mia forza e la mia speranza quando il mondo sembrava un inferno. Grazie per avermi amato quando non riuscivo nemmeno a guardarmi allo specchio. Grazie per essere stato il motivo di ogni mia gioia. Ti amo tesoro e non smetterò mai di amarti.
This is heartbreaking. I can relate to some of the things you wrote, I'm sorry you had to go through all that. I'm sending you a little bit of hope and power to hold on. You deserve to be happy one day. Remind yourself that in case you ever find yourself standing in your own way to finding happiness again. 🤗
I know this is the lowest I've been cuz I've stopped reaching for help. I don't write these big paragraphs of how I feel anymore, I'm not trying to help myself, I've gone emotionally numb again which hasn't happened in a good like half a year. Haven't been eating due to being called fat. I don't even have the energy to go out with friends anymore. I really do hope 2023 treats me better, I still have hope but i dont think i should keep going. The amount of attempts i had this year and still nobody cares, the only reason I'm going is because of one of my teachers, he's absolutely awesome:) so much happened I cant even talk about.
If you've read this far down thank you.
I'm praying everything gets better for everybody, I dont know what any of you are going through but.. don't listen to them, do what you like. They dont like it? F them. Their opinion doesnt matter if it's bad. Treat yourself you deserve it. Everybody reading this deserves the world and more, please don't do anything to yourselves and take care, love you♡
Same. Still I wish you would be kinder to yourself also. You deserve happiness as much as everyone does.
Real. I’m gonna be gone by 2025. Whether I’m happy or not, I’m not doing this anymore. I hope you feel better though. 🫶
I'm getting so tired with life, i'm always getting blamed for everything. I try so hard in school i keep all good grades, I come home and I try to satisfy everybody. That doesn't matter to them though. yes i have days when i can be the worst but still i TRY.! I wish they could see that and everything else that happens behind closed doors. Maybe they would understand me better,And Love me for who i am and what i do.
Change your friends circle
You guys got this keep your head up, for me
i ruin everything for myself, i’ve never hated anyone so much.
Damn I know bro exactly what u mean but u gotta appreciate urself
I am overwhelmed by everything. I just want it to stop. But it seems that it is possible for me. I have way too much to do and not the time to break down. So I keep on hurting myself by not stopping and I am so fucking exhausted at this point. Legit I just want to pause life for a minute. Everything just hurts, and well everyone leaves. I can't imagine asking for help. Because then I will become a burden once again.
I hope you’ll feel relief in any way possible, be it through a song, food, or anything that could take of your mind from such heavy thoughts. A beautiful soul such as yours deserve happiness and contentment. I get how everything seems exhausting and pointless and honestly I don’t know if it would get better or we would just learn to endure. Still let’s try to stay for tomorrow and for more to come. Sending virtual hugs 😊
found out im pregnant and im only 16, i know its my fault no need to remind me. the dad doesnt want it, and i dont think im ready but it’s honestly sad.. we both let this happened and somehow im the only one upset.. i love my baby and it hurts that im getting rid of it and whenever i see my child again i want to give it a big hug and a huge apology.
As a 16 year old girl I understand what u might be feeling. I have huge respect for you as u are so brave to take this step for ur and the child's safety. You are a very mature woman!!! 🖤🖤🖤🖤 Take care of yourself!
In school i put on this face pretending that i dont care when people insult me or when my friends saying that they dont like me and just being mean for no reason and when i go when i listen to calm music and cry thinking if i did something wrong
I never felt that alone and on my own. Nobody seems to care about me, even though they are my friends.
Thats so good that u are doin good on your own 🙏
@@Wolfsta It's not really what I meant, it's quite the opposite. I wanted to say that I'm not doing good and nobody's here for me, 'cause they won't understand me.
@@nuriaravier8405 oh well then id suggest moving to a new city and reinventing yourself. Then u will be able to find the right people
Once birdy came on “deep end” I cried and couldn’t breathe that song reminded me of my best freind rip what an amazing freind and I miss you so so so sooo much 🥺
So sorry to hear that😢
@@Wolfstait’s fine
I love him so much and it hurts to see him move on. I still think about him but I know he's forgotten me.
Thank you to this account for keeping me company all these endless nights, I will finally be free ❤️ so thank you
I know all about running and dodging, that's all I ever known. I don't know how to feel everything I am feeling, not without breaking.
Sigh. How's it going? Doing any better?
Sometime i feel like to disappear from this world like i've never really exist and i don't even wanna exist 🙂 it's too much now it's too hard everyday
I am in so much pain. My heart and soul is completely shattered. I just want the pain to end. I just want to stop missing the person i loved once. He was the best part if my life. But, i had to let him go because my family was against us being together. It's been months but i still cant get over my love for him
Been in serious mental pain lately enough to say that I believe it’s life threatening now and I’m not sure how to pull myself out, I’m trying hard just to make it to the new year but if I’m honest I don’t have much faith in myself right now and I’m losing hope really think if I do make it past the new year it will more than likely be the last time I do
@Danny Dolan it was a tough new years but I made it through and I’m staying strong for as long as I can for the people who still care about me and that need me but I’m honestly nervous I won’t be strong enough as this year goes on but I’m hoping for the best, I hope you had a good new years as well
He hurt me so bad. He broke me.
Over and over again.
So I finally pulled the line, I finally said to myself Not this again.
And I know He doesn‘t mean it badly, I know He is Just a sick in his mind as nearly all of us are.
But it was never My task to Save him, to take all the bad from him. I gave him My all But He just took and never gave. He pulled me apart and left me.
And at My lowest Point. When My mind broke, and My body finally failed. Then I finally had the courage to say no to him.
Some Months past, Summer went by.
And I Met someone. Someone who pieced My Heart back together. Someone who Lights up My world.
Someone who was alone as well, someone who loves Just as much as I do.
So why when I have finally Met someone who makes me feel Alive again, why is He coming back?
Healed from his „scars“, there to „stay“.
There? To destroy me again.
To push me into chaos which I call My life .
I Just want peace. Please let me have My peace. I Want to feel enough. Let me love. Let me free of my past demons.
I went through so much…Not only him But the past as well…I finally Want to feel lucky myself.
I Want to love, without Breaking.
I Want to love. Now. The present.
Omg i’m crying
That poem is beautiful. I am sorry you feel that way; I have felt it too.
Last year it was my brother and grandmother. Now today marks only a month for putting my mom to rest. I’m trying to be ok but it’s so hard because she was the one who would let me not be ok. I miss her she was my person who pulled me back. Now I break at every thought of her. Cancer stole her from me, how is it ok? Just let me not ok and you need to be ok with it. Just hold me and help me, this pain is killing me.
I don’t even know what’s wrong with me. I was in a wonderful mood a few hours ago. But now, as I am winding down to sleep, I’m in so much pain that I’m mentally screaming. But I can’t think of anything that could have caused it. It just hurts. It hurts so much and I don’t think I have any tears left to cry…I’ve cried them all. And one side of me is at peace from it. That side is thinking about ways to keep my mind on the positive tomorrow. But this side of me is screaming about how I have lost someone. But every time I try to think of who it is, my mind blanks it. Anyways, I have to be awake in six hours. I might as well attempt sleep. But I might just sketch. Tomorrow is my last off day before I go back to work. I want to be able to relax. And maybe I am just overstimulated or overreacting. I can delete this entire comment if needed. I just needed to vent for a second. By the way, I hope everyone has had a good holiday season. No matter what holiday that may be for you🦋
Four months. I lasted four months
school ends but life continues... you fail an exam, the sun keeps rising... you lose a job/get cheated on... the world keeps turning... your mental health is declining, it will get easier.... nothing is permanent, no matter how much it feels like it. In the words of Winston Churchill: "If you're going through hell, keep going" and to the religious amongst us; the most commonly used phrase in the bible: 'do not be afraid'.
Keep. Going.
I can’t even go to school without having a panic attack or crying and once I get home I get called lazy, messy and unhealthy bc I eat a lot bc of stress
I've been there. I understand what you're going through and I'm here! They don't understand, so you can't let them get you down. Our top priority should always be ourselves and our mental health! You are loved
I feel like a part of them will always be stuck to me bc of the reminder of him always hits home I learned why I was so attached to him and why the pain was so familiar but so different at the same time idk what to do when I think I am getting over him the memories of him and the moments that I got that I wanted to have with him for so long I finally got but he left again and again and again and replaced me in a short time I always think of what could’ve been if we actually dated and get to understand each other hangout and actually talked heart to heart worked out the issues all that corny shit but I guess that is never ever gonna happen and he was just a lesson that I had to learn the painful confort reminder he had. The time I saw him with her I couldn’t breathe her hands on him and the things he did for her that I wanted him to do with me
Idk how ua feeling but i guess i somehow feel u but take it as a lesson n move on n most ppl usually get in situation like this but u also have to choose wisely the men u wanna be with or once u truly have feelings for him n he changes it's very hard to recover but do ur best " all the best for the future yet to come "
@@AvelRaccoon I know 😭 I’m slowly starting to understand what happened and get why I feel this way but like a tiny part of me still likes him I think I still need time to recover
Idk n I'm sry if i sound awkward or weird but tbh ryt now im kinda drunk i mean i usually drink when i can't fall asleep for 2days or 3 so i get drunk enough to sleep since sleeping pills aren't sold in pharmacy without doctor's advice so i had to get drunk but like to me i think u are doing great i mean there are thousands of people who gave up at that point but u are here still fighting i love you abt that n yeah it takes times so don't worry too much abt it they would become a memory someday trust me keep fighting be strong always i love u be strong always
@@AvelRaccoon ik I’m a little late but thank you I really appreciate you saying that 🙌
Anyone just give everything to your family but they just treat you like dirt all the time and there is that one person who treats you like something but you can't see them
Sometimes, i just get sad. There’s no reasons sometimes. But i just feel sad in the moment, cry it out, and sleep it off. But today I have a reason.
Right now, I’m in a long distance relationship, with a 5 hour difference. I know he may be busy, but he usually texts me good morning, or something throughout the day just to let me know he’s busy or something. But today I saw he took off his location for me on snap. I don’t know if I should be concerned or… i don’t know. I overthought it tonight, and currently crying about it. I get too attached easily and i wish I didn’t.
0:01 It's Ok - Tom Rosenthal
3:42 Somewhere Only We Know - Keane
7:17 Someone To Stay - Vancouver Sleep Clinic
12:08 Another Love - Tom Odell
16:54 Half A Man - Dean Lewis
20:30 Hold On - Chord Overstreet
24:17 Falling - Harry Styles
28:36 Everything I Wanted - Billie Eilish
33:20 Driver's License - Olivia Rodrigo
38:04 Forever - Lewis Capaldi
42:02 Atlantis - Seafret
47:09 Deep End - Birdy
51:37 Brother - Kodaline
55:18 Moral Of The Story - Ashe
58:47 Repeat
Some parts are almost drowned out by the static, like most of Atlantis :/
At 47:09 the song is deep end -birdy
Why was I born when I would just get tossed to the side but one good person comes I mess it up because I’m damaged
Thank you guys, i finally feel like home rn
I know I'm a failure but I down know why I messed up this bad and my family keeps saying its all my fault. I don't understand what I did wrong.
I’m going through hell rn bc my family and myself I feel like I’m not skinny enough, or even worth it. I have the same dream almost everyday that my family leaves me when I go to bed, I saw them leave and I cried so hard and woke up crying. I had this dream like over 1-10 times and it gets worse each time. The last time I dreamt of it was a month or 2 months ago and I still remember the first time I had that dream was when I was 9years old. I hope if god is real he will lighten my years of suffering and punish my father and mother and myself and people who wronged me. The suffering started 2016-2021 now going on 7years amen
its so worse when you have parent issues and then you lose hope in yourself and then you just want to leave the house
😓😓😓😢
I wish I could forget everything but keep the lessons...
life is like a roller coaster you spend alot of time going up and at a high and then you suddenly go down then up the down
I'm in so much pain, and yet I know I can't go anywhere because I have so much impact on little girls who see me as role models. I'm also raised in a Slavic family so they don't belive in mental health so I can't get help...I'm just stuck and alone
Im from Bulgaria bro , u have to stay strong for your family ✊✊
I hate that its always my fault. I have been given 3 days holidays with 2 records to complete, 2 assignments, and 3 big exams coming and its the night of the 3rd day and I havent done anything. Its overwhelming to whenever i think of it i cant take it anymore.
I admitted my faults to an old friend... and also brought up one of my @busers, who is still her friend. I feel like I fucked up. My whole body hurts, and I feel like death. Also wrote a poem about my ex in class today; here it is:
♥ ♥ My First Love ♥ ♥
I can still recall his smiling face
The way he'd hold me and all the pain would fade
His strong and warm embrace
His light blue eyes and how they glazed
To my disdain, the day it ended
Crying in bed, wondering why
My heart will forever be bended
Sitting in the rain or sun, I will always cry
Golden hair,
Ocean eyes,
I'll always hear your voice in the breezy air
I'm sure you still hear my sighs.
Our assignment was to write at least 8 lines of rhyming poetry with the rhyming pattern ABABCDCD...
I think I'm the only one who takes poetry seriously... probably because of all the shit I can write about.
I hurt her, she told me to forget about her, weeks went by i tried my best and almost did it. Then she texted me saying she still care about me. I told her to stop as im afraid ill hurt her again.
After thinking for a week i texted her apologizing for everything, and then she think i was blaming her. And then it turn into argument all over again. I knew i had to stop and i did.
Now we are stranger again.. but with memory.
I hurt hurt her, I texted her everyday after we broke up but she never read it, i ask her friends to help me but she always being mad everytime her friends try to talk about me with her, she said she moved on and she moved on cuz i hurt her so much
imma be honest, dk why Im even writing in a yt comment section but its better than to go out without telling anyone. I dont see any way ill move past tonight, I wish everyone of you a better life than mine tho
O-tr==rt-O
Hey. You still around?
I'm tired really. Its hard to breath and I feel suffocated, Ik leaving the world isn't an option but it's so hard to survive. For what are we even alive? What is even our purpose?
i don’t want to be here anymore
hey i know how hard this can be but you deserve the world and im so sorry you feel this way but you are amazing please have a lovely day and if you ever need to talk just respond and ill give you my snap or discord
I lost 2 of my close friends and apparently it’s my fault. It was better for me to never get friends. I should have js stayed lonely. Now I’m just crying here
I need to be loved so desperately - I feel like I can't do anything because of that unmet need, which messes up my life and makes me need to be loved even more. Not even loved. Wanted? Chosen? Just wanted and chosen by someone I'd want as well. Someone I can actually have and hold and talk to and call mine.
Happy holidays 💕 positive thoughts 🙏🏿🙏🏻💙🖤🖤🖤🖤💛💛🧡🧡💜💜💚❤️🖤🌈💞😶 Better Days 😔
It's always my fault. I try to help make it worse. My mother is overwhelmed with me does not say it but I realize it, I have disappointed my friends. I can't stop hurting myself and make everything worse I can't do it anymore I don't want to be the problem anymore I give up soon
I ended up hurting the one person who always check on me wanted to make sure i was alright and just loved me i didn't realize what i was doing til she was gone i hate myself for how i treated her i dont know what tge future but most likely wont be around long enough to find out. Everyone is so happy with me in there life i can just tell so i should just leave her and all of there lives and allow them to be happy without me
I’m think I have borderline or bipolar 2 and I think I’m starting to lose my battle with keeping my grasp on reality. My mind and spirit afloat. Losing control. God help me.
I have no one to blame but myself for how bad its gotten
i wish i was somebody’s first choice
My brain and
heart divorced
a decade ago
over who was
to blame about
how big of a mess
I have become
eventually,
they couldn’t be
in the same room
with each other
now my head and heart
share custody of me
stay with my brain
during the week
and my heart
gets me on weekends
they never speak to one another
- instead, they give me
the same note to pass
to each other every week
and their notes they
send to one another always
says the same thing:
“This is all your fault’
on Sundays
my heart complains
about how my
head has let me down
in the past
and on Wednesday
my head lists all
of the times my
heart has screwed
things up for me
in the future
they blame each
other for the
state of my life
there’s been a lot
of yelling - and crying
SO,
lately, I’ve been
spending a lot of
time with my gut
who serves as my
unofficial therapist
most nights, sneak out of the
window in my ribcage
and slide down my spine
and collapse on my
gut’s plush leather chair
that’s always open for me
~ and just sit sit sit sit
until the sun comes up
last evening,
my gut asked me
if I was having a hard
time being caught
between my heart
and my head
I nodded
I said I didn’t know
if I could live with
either of them anymore
“my heart is always sad about
something that happened yesterday
while my head is always worried
about something that may happen tomorrow,
I lamented
my gut squeezed my hand
‘just can’t live with
my mistakes of the past
or my anxiety about the future,’
I sighed
my gut smiled and said:
‘in that case,
you should
go stay with your
lungs for a while,’
I was confused
- the look on my face gave it away
“if you are exhausted about
your heart’s obsession with
the fixed past and your mind’s focus
on the uncertain future
your lungs are the perfect place for you
there is no yesterday in your lungs
there is no tomorrow there either
there is only now
there is only inhale
there is only exhale
there is only this moment
there is only breath
and in that breath
you can rest while your
heart and head work
their relationship out.’
this morning,
while my brain
was busy reading
tea leaves
and while my
heart was staring
at old photographs
I packed a little
bag and walked
to the door of
my lungs
before I could even knock
she opened the door
with a smile and as
a gust of air embraced me
she said
“what took you so long?’
by John Roedel •2021•
This is the best thing I have read in a long time, it really helped me out. Thank you
Eu queria poder voltar atrás, queria poder dizer que vocês não tomaram o lado errado. Sinto profundamente a falta das partes felizes do que a gente viveu, mas vocês escolheram o lado do abusador e e eu nunca me senti tão sozinha quanto me sinto agora. Ainda tem um pedaço meu que me faz sentir culpada por afastar vocês, acho que é o mesmo pedaço que vocês magoaram.
I lost the person I loved, she was so nice and I screwed up. We weren't dating yet, but we'd been friends for 4 years, and I don't think I've ever liked anyone so much in my entire life. I have no more inspiration to do anything, I have no desire to do anything. I wish I could tell her that I love her very much.
Just tell her so she can cut u off and u can move on with your life
anyone have time stamps?
Life is hard..one day I got yelled by my friend and now I got yelled by my parents I couldn't handle the pressure..idk how I'm typing this...I hope I'm not dead when I post..
Imok has two lives...oh no...
hey stranger, i’m so sorry about that…. But stay with us, the world has so much to offer you and you have so much to offer to the world. love you
@@lilyyyyyyyyyyy18 ❤
Hi! I don't want to bother you or something, but I saw your comment and I wanted you to know that you're not alone in this. If you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here for you, okay?
Hey…..stick with it sweet soul …❤
Sending hugsss 😊
Anyone else who is here from 11pm-4am. 👍
-Already Gone-
You know it's actually really sad, and depressing to think that we all try to make an impression on this earth. and yet we all die and turn to ash in the end, it's like all we did meant nothing...nothing at all. Everyday we wake up feeling the same, like nothing...like nothing mattered anymore. But we knew we had to keep pushing, not for ourselves, but for others, others that we love, that we don't know, that we might know in the future. Because if we lost hope in that one thing that mattered in our life. The people who care about us. We'd just end it, We'd jump off that cliff, put the light out. So we didn't have to feel anything anymore.
By: Delaney (Me)
i hurt my best friend.
and i didn't even intend it.. i was just dumb..
now i deserve to feel this scared and alone. i hurt them.. i deserve this..
i have screwed up my entire life, and my life is still getting worse, and i am messing up other peoples life just by existing, im sorry...
"Love your self" I write evry day on my scared wrist whith sharpie.
I can’t do this anymore bro.
I promise you that life is beautiful...you just have to ACTUALLY believe it. And i know that is REALLY hard this sh*t..... Keep going you got this.... Don't rush it one step at a time. My heart hurts too.... You are not alone....
no one understands my pain 💔 am trying but an drowning I don't wanna die young my mum will cry no one listens to my songs