holy hell the mental hunger thing is REAL. Felt like I was the only one who got that. You can't be bothered to eat, and you don't feel physically hungry but your brain is hungry.
I AN SO PROUD OF YOU!!! This is what a role model is. Someone who know what their needs are and going all the way no matter what your past choices were. You got this!!!!! Love you so much! :)💛💛
I am soooo proud of you! My Ed is also all about numbing emotions, but I realized that with everything on 50% not only the negative emotions, but the positive too were gone. And while at the beginning mainly the fear, the anger and the guilt hit hard, as I’m getting further into recovery there is more joy in my life and I feel alive again. It’s that feeling of singing along to Mama Mia with your best friend, of riding your bike through the snow, of feeling in love again, of knowing you have a future, ... It will really be worth it, I can promise you that as Someone not even close to considering myself “healed”. Stay strong, you can do it, reward yourself for that great decision, stay optimistic, you are lovely and inspiring ♥️
Oh my gosh I’m so proud of you. You’ll look back on this video in the future and be so glad you did it. Remember when it gets tough that you’ve got to keep going no matter what because a life being controlled by that Ed voice in your head is no life at all. Sending you so much love and I know you can do this! ❤️xxx
This will be difficult. I applaud you... and I can relate to the numbness the shutdown of emotion that Ed’s provide. I can also relate the the extreme anxiety and heightened emotion that occur when we start eating again... it like when you flip the light switch on at night... it is incredibly uncomfortable at first and almost hurts... but after a little while you adjust to the brightness... so give your body a little bit of time to adjust... also, be aware that you may have some negative feedback... do your best to ignore it... this is your life and your journey... you deserve to be happy... once again... I applaud you!!!
Today, I didn't eat as much as I would've liked to, I don't eat more than that but today I am working a lot, so I am feeling more hungry, and I realized that I have been unconsciously restricting even (I have started eating more than before) and this video motivates me eat more tomorrow.
When I had an eating disorder, I decided to go 'all in' too and it was the best decision I ever made ! Yes, I gained a lot of weight and yes it was terrifying, but I got my period back, I had tons of energy, my metabolism fixed itself and my mood improved so much ! That was 3 years ago and ever since I've had such a great relationship with food and eat intuitively. I know it's scary but you can do this and we'll support you through your journey xx
@@lenaxx4364 I honestly have no idea as I don’t count calories and how much I eat varies every day. How many your calories your body requires is different for everyone so just focus on listening to your own hunger cues :) xx
Try watching Megsy Recovery, Tabitha Farrar, Follow the intuition, Recovered Bakes, What Mia did next. Most of these are recovered or recovering, so inspirational and better than people still in recovery 'trying' as these can set you back. Concentrate on those who are certain that this will work ❤️
i'm so proud of youuuu, it's so comforting to see someone who doesn't look 'ill' accept that all in is the right way to be!!! i look so ill and i'm so scared to go all in but if u can do it, so can i!!!! LET'S DO THIS TOGETHER
When you first tried all in you inspire me to do it and now I am not cold, I have loads of energy, I got my period yesterday, and I did gain weight but that's what I needed to do to get healthy but let me tell you it's hard I won't try to cover it up but it is 100% worth it. Everyone is different but for me I have found food freedom but the thing that I am still working on is my body image. It is better though compared when I was small and I thought I would be happy with my body but I learned you won't fine true love for yourself or your body if you think you will only be ok if it looks a certain way. Also you feeling hot at night is totally normal that happened to me to during the process. You got this🤗😁❤
Good luck Jess! I’m sure you got this , you started right accepting the fact that you were not being honest with your recovery, that is the hardest thing. Wishing you the best , keep us all updated. Btw I totally understand your feeling , we started recovery in a similar period of time and I share a lot of feelings that you talked about
I’m so proud of you! It takes a lot of courage to put control completely back onto your own body and allow yourself to fully recover after not listening to it for so long. I haven’t commented before, but I’ve watched your journey since the beginning. I’m in a very similar situation to you at the moment, I especially relate to restricting to deal with stress by numbing emotions as I’m in yr12 doing Alevels too. I’m wishing you lots of happiness and confidence away for your ed as I see that you really deserve it! 💕☺️
I am so similar to you its insane. I feel identical to what you have described and I am still holding back on gaining the last chunk of weight I need to be healthy. I want to do this with you and I just hope you know how much easier your videos make it for me even though you are struggling yourself. I hope you video your own journey as I would love to see how it goes for you. We can do this Jess I have so much faith in you! x
I resonated with this so much. I'm in it with you both as well. I gained back the weight I should be at to have a period, but still don't have it... I can feel that my body is almost there, that there's a chunk of weight that I need to gain yet, like you said. We're doing this all together... xoxo
Though Steffani did the All In approach, I think she's another example of "the ED doesn't truly go away" based on her recent videos (personal opinion). It's a mental transformation as well as a physical one. I wish you much success! 😁🙏
@@ZuzannaStella Asking isn't rude at all. Also sorry if this is too long of an answer. Personally I think it's because her physique, health,& fitness has been the center focus of her life & career on TH-cam for so long that addressing it by going All In may have fixed some issues physically but not mentally. She (to me) was still looking for a level of validation in her videos & posts towards the end of her journey. I understand trying to get comfortable in one's own skin takes time. I think the additional stress of social media kind of made her journey more challenging. To me, social media can give some EDs an upper hand in the sense that if you're constantly making content about your eating, body, health, etc, trying to get to a balanced place becomes hard. Not only do you have your expectations but (unintentionally) the expectations of others... Even of strangers you haven't even met. I don't follow her videos as closely, so this is my perception from the beginning of her All In journey to the end with her addressing questions about it and what not. I hope it has changed for the better.
I'm so proud of you going "All In"! Recovery isn't linear: it has ups and downs, but fighting the bad days is the most important thing! I'm here supporting you and really proud that you were able to recognise you weren't "All In" and made the decision to start it properly💕💕
You can do this Jess, this it will get easier and you will absolutely shine. Thankyou for being so honest with finding it hard. I’m currently trying to fight giving up on recovery. One day at a time and every time I don’t give into the temptation of going back to my ed I feel a sense of achievement. One step closer to freedom
Jess it will get easier everyone believes in you all of us don’t even know you but we are so proud of you never give up you got this!! I have anorexia to and I’m going all in soon me and my dietitian are going through it on Monday so hopefully on Tuesday it will start it will be so hard but we got this!❤️✨
Jessica, you are hugely brave, honest and inspiring!! I no longer binge (I was bulimic) but, there are definitely certain foods that I still won't or can't bring myself to have. I wish that one day, I will be ready and able to do it. The world needs more people like you! Take care xx
so proud of you brave girl. You are already inspiring so many, and it will only increase the more you dive in fully. Through your healing you are empowering so many others to do the same. Much love
So proud of you. I reached out yesterday and called the gp again. I can’t cope anymore. My e.d is back to where I was before and depression and anxiety 😥
Your so brave for doing this, Ik how hard it is but I’m so proud of you. Please could you do a what I eat in a week in “all in recovery”because I’m really struggling atm xxxx
That’s the Ed voice... the mental part of the Ed... what she eats in a week should have no bearing on what you eat... it’s not easy to be ok with that... but truly you are worth it... whatever your body wants is ok... no matter what it is or how much... ❤️
Good for you! Going all in will help you re set your metabolism and maintain a higher metab after recovery. After eating unrestricted for 7 years now, after 3 decades of An/Bn I now can eat whatever I want and maintain a healthy stable weight without struggle - and I am 51 and in menopause!
I can't thank you enough for being so honest with us - you're so brave!!! Going all in really does seem scary at first but it's the only way to beat an eating disorder. I'm so excited to see more of your journey and I hope you know we'll always support you!
For everyone who is suffering, don't you worry, I know is hard, but like she said, your body doesn't want 24/7 junk food. If you feel tired of stay thinking food all day, go ALL IN it's worth it I PROMISE.
Yes, Jess! So relieved to hear this. You need this, keep fighting. I completely relate to you in this video. I crave the numbing of my anxiety and depression, I crave control. We need to let go. Harder than it sounds though.
You look so good here! So fresh and vibrant. Your hair really suits you too. I'm happy that you are making progress in your recovery, it's amazing to see but all in is a difficult process, it lead me down a bad path with purging so I would hope you are seeking treatment throughout. Good luck and hope you find happiness and freedom in your life!
im so happy for you! i relate to a lot of the things you said, slow metabolism, thinking about food all the time, cold and tired.. i could never do what you´re doing. sounds super scary, you are super strong to even want to embark on this. power and good luck to you!
I really hope that it will be like before your ED. You deserve to live a happy life! I'm sure that you can do this, you are really strong Jessica! I just hope that it will be better, and you don't have to worry about food anymore!
Hello, I think you're doing a very good job!! I have an eating disorder to and I've also already wachted those videos about going all in. I wish you a very good luck and if you gain weight, it's normal. No one will judge you because you're just human and we need enough food to live a healthy and normal life.
JUST DO GIVE UP .. after a few months (like Stephanie B) you might feel overwhelmed and there come a crossroad where you’ll have to commit or turn back.. KEEP GOING!!! Biggest gift in life and zero regrets xoxo thanks for your best video to date!
Hello, Stephanie Buttermore is such an inspiration, who were the other ladies you mentioned who also I inspire you along this journey. You are being incredibly brave.💕
wow! this is amazing! you are such an inspiration for everyone, i’m so proud of you calling and challenging your ED despite all the negative thoughts and negative comments. Love you and your going to do amazing ❤️❤️x
I'm sosososo excited for this and happy for you girl. This is really going to change your life for the best, I promise, even if it seems impossible right now. You're doing this to be happy, to be the best version of yourself, you're beautiful, and this doesn't depend on your weight, but on the person you are, never forget that. Trust the process, we got your back 💕
My weight is now almost 20 lbs above my 'recovery' weight set in treatment. I'm not going to say I love it, but I do feel more grounded and I don't struggle to maintain it at all. And the absolute best part of going all in for me, is getting my brain back and being able to read and concentrate.
I also suffer from anxiety and a herb that has helped me massively is ashwaganda. It could be nice to have a little extra support as you move through such deep healing :) Big hugs
It will be great , you will find yourself thinking of other things to do as your brain will start to switch off from thinking about food as you eat more and be nice just to have some so called “bad cereal “without having to justify it , enjoy the process👍
Wow you're really an inspiration to me bc I'm also suffering from anorexia... I'm almost at my lowest point and am doubting about going inpatient but I don't know if I wanna get better or wanna die 😔 Could you do a video about what you eat in a all in week? It would help me a lot xxxx keep going and know no matter what size you are, you are beautiful the way you are!
GOOD FOR YOU!!!!! 🙌🙌🙌 Glad you have worked this out for yourself now.... You can do this girlie 💪❤️ throw your scales away!!!!! You definitely WILL reach your set point, maybe a bit of overshoot but not necessarily but ALL the evidence is that it will come back to it's set point. Your body knows where it wants to naturally be at. You're bound to be scared but you will most certainly be happier, less cold and have loads more energy to enjoy life. It's scarier to be fearful of food forever or be feeling ill forever.... Emotions are so hard to deal with..... Restriction or bingeing and purging does numb emotions and when they come back it is horrendous at first but sit through the difficult emotions and they will regulate themselves again and you will begin to experience the good emotions as well as the bad ❤️ keep going Jessica, we're all here with you xxxxx
I have a question. Isn't it verry hard to see your sister being skinny and verry ill while you are trying all in? I can imagine. My sister is verry skinny, and i always compare and it holds me back. How do you cope ?
My emotions were crazy in recovery. Also hot flahes, nightsweats, sexual desire- it was like going through puberty all over again. It will calm down though, as long as you keep eating.
you can do it! believe in your self. try to work yourself up to 3 meals a day, and then 3 meals and 3 snacks. Yes it will be scary, yes you wont be hungry, yes your mind will make you think “this worked for her but i don’t need as much” but trust me. although the hardest part lasts long it does get easier I promise!!!
@@craigtrigg4288 sorry this is kinda ranty lol, idk if this will help much. Anyways, to get into the pattern of 3 meals again I started out w baby steps. Having an egg white and spinach omelette for brekkie (only around 30 cals), starting to have proper food at lunch and lowish cal snacks like popcorn and fruit/ veg. I then continued building up, adding stuff like having an actual omelette for brekkie, yolk and all, desserts, decent snacks and having stuff like hot chocolates and coffee alongside food instead of just one or the other. Food guilt is a bitch but the more I do the easier it gets. The less malnourished I am the better my mind works and the more weight I gain (as hard as it can be to deal with) I gain feeling more like me again. Rn my main struggle is still obsessing over food and planning everything, but the more time passes the easier things get.
holy hell the mental hunger thing is REAL. Felt like I was the only one who got that. You can't be bothered to eat, and you don't feel physically hungry but your brain is hungry.
I imagine a lot if the anxiety comes from the all in - so hopefully as you get "used to it" then you'll feel less anxious! ❤️
I AN SO PROUD OF YOU!!! This is what a role model is. Someone who know what their needs are and going all the way no matter what your past choices were. You got this!!!!! Love you so much! :)💛💛
I am soooo proud of you! My Ed is also all about numbing emotions, but I realized that with everything on 50% not only the negative emotions, but the positive too were gone. And while at the beginning mainly the fear, the anger and the guilt hit hard, as I’m getting further into recovery there is more joy in my life and I feel alive again. It’s that feeling of singing along to Mama Mia with your best friend, of riding your bike through the snow, of feeling in love again, of knowing you have a future, ... It will really be worth it, I can promise you that as Someone not even close to considering myself “healed”. Stay strong, you can do it, reward yourself for that great decision, stay optimistic, you are lovely and inspiring ♥️
Oh my gosh I’m so proud of you. You’ll look back on this video in the future and be so glad you did it. Remember when it gets tough that you’ve got to keep going no matter what because a life being controlled by that Ed voice in your head is no life at all. Sending you so much love and I know you can do this! ❤️xxx
This will be difficult. I applaud you... and I can relate to the numbness the shutdown of emotion that Ed’s provide. I can also relate the the extreme anxiety and heightened emotion that occur when we start eating again... it like when you flip the light switch on at night... it is incredibly uncomfortable at first and almost hurts... but after a little while you adjust to the brightness... so give your body a little bit of time to adjust... also, be aware that you may have some negative feedback... do your best to ignore it... this is your life and your journey... you deserve to be happy... once again... I applaud you!!!
Don't give up!! If you stop now your set point wait will only get higher if you relapse!
Today, I didn't eat as much as I would've liked to, I don't eat more than that but today I am working a lot, so I am feeling more hungry, and I realized that I have been unconsciously restricting even (I have started eating more than before) and this video motivates me eat more tomorrow.
Today is not over... start now! Don’t wait for tomorrow... you are worth it!
I'm going ALL IN with you💪💪💪.... We can and we will get better ❤️❤️
When I had an eating disorder, I decided to go 'all in' too and it was the best decision I ever made ! Yes, I gained a lot of weight and yes it was terrifying, but I got my period back, I had tons of energy, my metabolism fixed itself and my mood improved so much ! That was 3 years ago and ever since I've had such a great relationship with food and eat intuitively. I know it's scary but you can do this and we'll support you through your journey xx
How many calories do you eat now if you had to estimate? I'm just curious🙈
How long did your extreme hunger last?
@@ZuzannaStella From when I started going all in and listening to my hunger cues, it lasted for 6 months :)
@@lenaxx4364 I honestly have no idea as I don’t count calories and how much I eat varies every day. How many your calories your body requires is different for everyone so just focus on listening to your own hunger cues :) xx
@@abi_maria57 thank you for answering
Try watching Megsy Recovery, Tabitha Farrar, Follow the intuition, Recovered Bakes, What Mia did next. Most of these are recovered or recovering, so inspirational and better than people still in recovery 'trying' as these can set you back. Concentrate on those who are certain that this will work ❤️
Agree
@@box_diviel ❤️❤️❤️
i'm so proud of youuuu, it's so comforting to see someone who doesn't look 'ill' accept that all in is the right way to be!!! i look so ill and i'm so scared to go all in but if u can do it, so can i!!!! LET'S DO THIS TOGETHER
When you first tried all in you inspire me to do it and now I am not cold, I have loads of energy, I got my period yesterday, and I did gain weight but that's what I needed to do to get healthy but let me tell you it's hard I won't try to cover it up but it is 100% worth it. Everyone is different but for me I have found food freedom but the thing that I am still working on is my body image. It is better though compared when I was small and I thought I would be happy with my body but I learned you won't fine true love for yourself or your body if you think you will only be ok if it looks a certain way. Also you feeling hot at night is totally normal that happened to me to during the process. You got this🤗😁❤
Good for you ❤️🙏. You should blog your experiences .:)
Good luck Jess! I’m sure you got this , you started right accepting the fact that you were not being honest with your recovery, that is the hardest thing. Wishing you the best , keep us all updated. Btw I totally understand your feeling , we started recovery in a similar period of time and I share a lot of feelings that you talked about
I’m so proud of you! It takes a lot of courage to put control completely back onto your own body and allow yourself to fully recover after not listening to it for so long. I haven’t commented before, but I’ve watched your journey since the beginning. I’m in a very similar situation to you at the moment, I especially relate to restricting to deal with stress by numbing emotions as I’m in yr12 doing Alevels too. I’m wishing you lots of happiness and confidence away for your ed as I see that you really deserve it! 💕☺️
I am so similar to you its insane. I feel identical to what you have described and I am still holding back on gaining the last chunk of weight I need to be healthy. I want to do this with you and I just hope you know how much easier your videos make it for me even though you are struggling yourself. I hope you video your own journey as I would love to see how it goes for you. We can do this Jess I have so much faith in you! x
I resonated with this so much. I'm in it with you both as well. I gained back the weight I should be at to have a period, but still don't have it... I can feel that my body is almost there, that there's a chunk of weight that I need to gain yet, like you said. We're doing this all together... xoxo
Though Steffani did the All In approach, I think she's another example of "the ED doesn't truly go away" based on her recent videos (personal opinion).
It's a mental transformation as well as a physical one. I wish you much success! 😁🙏
Why do you think it doesnt go away based on her videos? Not trying to be rude I'm genuinely curious
@@ZuzannaStella Asking isn't rude at all. Also sorry if this is too long of an answer.
Personally I think it's because her physique, health,& fitness has been the center focus of her life & career on TH-cam for so long that addressing it by going All In may have fixed some issues physically but not mentally.
She (to me) was still looking for a level of validation in her videos & posts towards the end of her journey. I understand trying to get comfortable in one's own skin takes time. I think the additional stress of social media kind of made her journey more challenging.
To me, social media can give some EDs an upper hand in the sense that if you're constantly making content about your eating, body, health, etc, trying to get to a balanced place becomes hard. Not only do you have your expectations but (unintentionally) the expectations of others... Even of strangers you haven't even met.
I don't follow her videos as closely, so this is my perception from the beginning of her All In journey to the end with her addressing questions about it and what not. I hope it has changed for the better.
I can't believe someone was actually able to put it into words, that last part really hit home, thank you so much for making this video, stay strong
I'm so proud of you going "All In"! Recovery isn't linear: it has ups and downs, but fighting the bad days is the most important thing! I'm here supporting you and really proud that you were able to recognise you weren't "All In" and made the decision to start it properly💕💕
You can do this Jess, this it will get easier and you will absolutely shine.
Thankyou for being so honest with finding it hard.
I’m currently trying to fight giving up on recovery. One day at a time and every time I don’t give into the temptation of going back to my ed I feel a sense of achievement. One step closer to freedom
Jess it will get easier everyone believes in you all of us don’t even know you but we are so proud of you never give up you got this!!
I have anorexia to and I’m going all in soon me and my dietitian are going through it on Monday so hopefully on Tuesday it will start it will be so hard but we got this!❤️✨
Jessica, you are hugely brave, honest and inspiring!! I no longer binge (I was bulimic) but, there are definitely certain foods that I still won't or can't bring myself to have. I wish that one day, I will be ready and able to do it. The world needs more people like you! Take care xx
Ah I feel so the same... I suffered similarly from EDs in the past. Stay strong XX
so proud of you brave girl. You are already inspiring so many, and it will only increase the more you dive in fully. Through your healing you are empowering so many others to do the same. Much love
So proud of you. I reached out yesterday and called the gp again. I can’t cope anymore. My e.d is back to where I was before and depression and anxiety 😥
ahh you can do this jess, the anxiety will gradually decrease once you get more comfortable with being all in xx I have so much faith in you.
So proud of you ❤️ I’ve been all in for a few months and it gets easier. Sending love and light ♥️♥️
wow i take back all negative comments - THIS IS AMAZING - its honestly so brave of you to do this Am right behind you xxxx
You can do this!! You are soo strong and I believe in you!💕 your hair looks amazing btw🤪🤍
Your so brave for doing this, Ik how hard it is but I’m so proud of you. Please could you do a what I eat in a week in “all in recovery”because I’m really struggling atm xxxx
Ps. You don’t have to it was also just a video idea to xx
That’s the Ed voice... the mental part of the Ed... what she eats in a week should have no bearing on what you eat... it’s not easy to be ok with that... but truly you are worth it... whatever your body wants is ok... no matter what it is or how much... ❤️
Yessss I sleep in shorts.... before I sometimes slept in a dressing gown xx well done and your honesty too keep going girl 💕
Good for you! Going all in will help you re set your metabolism and maintain a higher metab after recovery. After eating unrestricted for 7 years now, after 3 decades of An/Bn I now can eat whatever I want and maintain a healthy stable weight without struggle - and I am 51 and in menopause!
That's so inspirational!!! you are amazing!!!
@@Jessicakaity Here is a humorous but motivational song for your all in journey: th-cam.com/video/xa6JHHModyc/w-d-xo.html
I can't thank you enough for being so honest with us - you're so brave!!! Going all in really does seem scary at first but it's the only way to beat an eating disorder. I'm so excited to see more of your journey and I hope you know we'll always support you!
Just do it!! 💪🏻I believe in you
You are real inspiration ❤️❤️❤️
For everyone who is suffering, don't you worry, I know is hard, but like she said, your body doesn't want 24/7 junk food.
If you feel tired of stay thinking food all day, go ALL IN it's worth it I PROMISE.
Yes, Jess! So relieved to hear this. You need this, keep fighting. I completely relate to you in this video. I crave the numbing of my anxiety and depression, I crave control. We need to let go. Harder than it sounds though.
You’re soo strong!you can do this!!! Sending much love from Germany 😘
You look so good here! So fresh and vibrant. Your hair really suits you too. I'm happy that you are making progress in your recovery, it's amazing to see but all in is a difficult process, it lead me down a bad path with purging so I would hope you are seeking treatment throughout. Good luck and hope you find happiness and freedom in your life!
im so happy for you! i relate to a lot of the things you said, slow metabolism, thinking about food all the time, cold and tired.. i could never do what you´re doing. sounds super scary, you are super strong to even want to embark on this. power and good luck to you!
I really hope that it will be like before your ED. You deserve to live a happy life! I'm sure that you can do this, you are really strong Jessica! I just hope that it will be better, and you don't have to worry about food anymore!
Hello, I think you're doing a very good job!! I have an eating disorder to and I've also already wachted those videos about going all in. I wish you a very good luck and if you gain weight, it's normal. No one will judge you because you're just human and we need enough food to live a healthy and normal life.
JUST DO GIVE UP .. after a few months (like Stephanie B) you might feel overwhelmed and there come a crossroad where you’ll have to commit or turn back.. KEEP GOING!!! Biggest gift in life and zero regrets xoxo thanks for your best video to date!
Hey Luv, so proud of you 👏 ❤ and Goodluck in your recovery!!!
You’re absolutely amazing!! I am beyond proud of you🤩💕
I'm so proud of you! You are so strong! ❤️ You can do it!
i’m so proud of you jess!!
Congratulation to your decision! I wish you that you can be honest in your recovery journey and also much fun!❤😘🙏
good job jessica!!! you can do it, you've come so far already and good for you to reflecting and looking to move forward!
Hello, Stephanie Buttermore is such an inspiration, who were the other ladies you mentioned who also I inspire you along this journey. You are being incredibly brave.💕
wow! this is amazing! you are such an inspiration for everyone, i’m so proud of you calling and challenging your ED despite all the negative thoughts and negative comments. Love you and your going to do amazing ❤️❤️x
I'm sosososo excited for this and happy for you girl. This is really going to change your life for the best, I promise, even if it seems impossible right now. You're doing this to be happy, to be the best version of yourself, you're beautiful, and this doesn't depend on your weight, but on the person you are, never forget that.
Trust the process, we got your back 💕
I want the old me back to
I miss being able to enjoy life
Your awareness is incredible! I know this journey is hard but you will succeed one day😍
You are so strong!! You can do it!❤️❤️
Good luck! I just recommitted to All In Recovery myself this week. Such a good decision
My weight is now almost 20 lbs above my 'recovery' weight set in treatment. I'm not going to say I love it, but I do feel more grounded and I don't struggle to maintain it at all. And the absolute best part of going all in for me, is getting my brain back and being able to read and concentrate.
That's so inspirational, in reality 99.9999% of people don't have the minimum recovered weight
@@Jessicakaity That;s very true, even in my own recovery journey there were many times I was kicked out of treatment at 85% or less...
i am so proud of you.. you can do it i wish you all the best from the core of my heart. we are here with you and you are never alone..
So happy and proud of you!
I am so incredibly proud of you. Fight this disorder girl!
thank you for this! i decided to join in and go all in to try and recover too. good luck
I also suffer from anxiety and a herb that has helped me massively is ashwaganda. It could be nice to have a little extra support as you move through such deep healing :) Big hugs
It will be great , you will find yourself thinking of other things to do as your brain will start to switch off from thinking about food as you eat more and be nice just to have some so called “bad cereal “without having to justify it , enjoy the process👍
Thank you. This video encouraged me to eat dinner today! I want to go all in but I’m scared of other peoples comments
Wow you're really an inspiration to me bc I'm also suffering from anorexia... I'm almost at my lowest point and am doubting about going inpatient but I don't know if I wanna get better or wanna die 😔
Could you do a video about what you eat in a all in week? It would help me a lot xxxx keep going and know no matter what size you are, you are beautiful the way you are!
you’re such an inspiration, i love you so much🥰
GOOD FOR YOU!!!!! 🙌🙌🙌 Glad you have worked this out for yourself now.... You can do this girlie 💪❤️ throw your scales away!!!!! You definitely WILL reach your set point, maybe a bit of overshoot but not necessarily but ALL the evidence is that it will come back to it's set point. Your body knows where it wants to naturally be at.
You're bound to be scared but you will most certainly be happier, less cold and have loads more energy to enjoy life.
It's scarier to be fearful of food forever or be feeling ill forever....
Emotions are so hard to deal with..... Restriction or bingeing and purging does numb emotions and when they come back it is horrendous at first but sit through the difficult emotions and they will regulate themselves again and you will begin to experience the good emotions as well as the bad ❤️ keep going Jessica, we're all here with you xxxxx
This will be a difficult journey for you, but I know you have the strength to get through it and get better! :)
You're a warrior
I BELIEVE IN YOU
Yees, love this❤️ Im going «all in» in my fitness journey🥺
Vlog your experience ❤️🙏
we miss u
You are amazing!!♥
I am so proud of you 💗
Yassssss Queen!!!! 🤍🤗
You got this ❤
so proud of you :)
How long will you do this all in thing ? Good luck ❤️🙏. I’ll support you through this. I subscribed.
I have a question.
Isn't it verry hard to see your sister being skinny and verry ill while you are trying all in? I can imagine.
My sister is verry skinny, and i always compare and it holds me back. How do you cope ?
If I‘d do this I‘d just think I‘m so indisciplined, unhealthy and lazy and that‘s so sad cuz I don‘t want to feel that way..
You're a pretty one
My emotions were crazy in recovery. Also hot flahes, nightsweats, sexual desire- it was like going through puberty all over again. It will calm down though, as long as you keep eating.
Thank you!!!! cant wait for it to relax a little aha
@@Jessicakaity It will, just keep doing what you are doing!
Hey! I’m first!!
You're cute Jessica
What was your heart rate whenever you went into hospital? It's just so I can keep track of mine at the early stages of recovery :)
How old are u❤❤
dont worry i back you what ever you do . i only eat 1 meal aday im always working maybe need your help xx
you can do it! believe in your self. try to work yourself up to 3 meals a day, and then 3 meals and 3 snacks. Yes it will be scary, yes you wont be hungry, yes your mind will make you think “this worked for her but i don’t need as much” but trust me. although the hardest part lasts long it does get easier I promise!!!
@@addisonpenner3932 thank you for your help your no 1
@@craigtrigg4288 sorry this is kinda ranty lol, idk if this will help much. Anyways, to get into the pattern of 3 meals again I started out w baby steps. Having an egg white and spinach omelette for brekkie (only around 30 cals), starting to have proper food at lunch and lowish cal snacks like popcorn and fruit/ veg. I then continued building up, adding stuff like having an actual omelette for brekkie, yolk and all, desserts, decent snacks and having stuff like hot chocolates and coffee alongside food instead of just one or the other. Food guilt is a bitch but the more I do the easier it gets. The less malnourished I am the better my mind works and the more weight I gain (as hard as it can be to deal with) I gain feeling more like me again. Rn my main struggle is still obsessing over food and planning everything, but the more time passes the easier things get.
I predict you will prefer how you look after gaining weight 🙂