I saw Hole live around this time in Seattle. It was an intense show, very raw. Drew Barrymore came out on stage and waved hello, she was dating Eric Erlandson at that time. At one point, the crowd lit up their lighters and Courtney started to cry saying “this is the first time I’ve had lighters at a show” it was a great time, i was 21.
Here I am back again... About 6 months ago, my bf passed away in an accident, this live performance brought me sm comfort, I remember listening to this everytime I felt like I missed him and his touch, and rn its somehow bittersweet to think about it. I still love you Carl ❤
In my opinion, "God, i hate you" is the most hurtful line in this whole performance. You can hear the love-hate mixed emotions come out so strongly in this, along with her facial expressions. She does not hate him, she hates what he did to himself and her. Courtney, i hope that you've found the peace you deserve after all of these years.
@@ember5914 'God' didn't take Kurt away; Kurt took himself away. It's awful, but that's the truth of it. As we se her here, Courtney is a raw, walking wound. That "FUCK...YOU!" is about as primal as it gets.
Calm down we are entitled to our own opinion,I think she suspected something might happen to Kurt but she was left out on the details,she talks to much,
@@kaskaperi9665 Exactly. They only think this way because Courtney was as mentally distressed and abusive as one was to the other, they went back and forth all of the time. But one thing for sure is, most of the fighting happened due to them both being heavily hooked on various drugs, heroin being their favorite to do together but it was creating a problem for both their relationship and careers. She does not deserve to be labelled as a murderer, or anything at all for that matter. Just a girl who was struggling with living life and the tragic moments that came with it.
@@hiraimomo3681but she was also a factor, their relationship was toxic and abusive. not to mention towards the end of his life he thought courtney was cheating (which she said she wasn’t) and kurt was attached to her and it broke him
And yet people thought that she killed him, she never wanted anything more than to have Kurt Cobain back. Her family was never complete without him, she loved him.
I was watching this in class, and when she said "I want him, he's all gone", my jaw literally dropped and I teared up, and my classmate asked what's wrong. Damn this hit me hard. She was prolly at her lowest at the time, it just hurts to watch her like that. I hope she's doing better.
Привет, русский комментатор! Песни и выступления Кортни очень эмоциональные и искренние. Здесь, от её слов: "I want him! He's all gone!" мне тоже стало не по себе, по-человечески её жаль. Я поверить не могу, что люди замешивают её в смерти Курта, якобы она убила его или хитро подстроила убийство.
This is actually hard to watch....You feel EVERYTHING going on with her...whoever thinks Courtney "killed" Kurt-1-is an idiot, and 2-after watching this-should think different.
the most heartbreaking perfomance, definitely you js can see easily the pain and sadness on her eyes and voice, after kurt left us. and the way she changed the lyrics. i actually feel so bad for courtney
I don't give a flying fu*k, I've always ❤. Courtney, and i still think it's total BS that way too many think she had him killed. I mean, Kurt was never shy about being suicidal, since his teens. And that, coupled with the whole fame that was too much for him, and his heroin addiction, how is it even questionable? Anyone who actually listened to Hole before and after the Live Through This album, (which is a fu*king AMAZING ALBUM), would know that Courtney penned those lyrics. And her behavior the following year after his suicide is very telling of her real pain and grief she was experiencing. She's one of my main female idols. I'm 💯 gen X, and the first time I heard Smells like teen spirit catapulted me into the grunge sound. And Nirvana and Hole were part of the main bands that I have and still do love!!
Kurt is in Heaven watching over his family. I wish Courtney would help drug addicts get into Rehabs. Dont let them out too soon. Kurt climbed over the fence of the Rehab Centre to leave. Fffkkkkkit 😢
Addicts in rehab can leave anytime they'd like unless court-ordered. Kurt could have walked out the front door, if he'd chose to. Addiction is an awful thing that digs it's claws into and destroys everything you care about, but if a person hits that wall and really wants to get better, they will. Or at least really fight and try. It typically takes multiple trips to rehab and it's beyond miserable but is definitely possible. I've been off of drugs for 18 years now and I tried many times before succeeding. After the novelty of quitting wears off is when it really gets hard. Most people don't communicate that enough, in my opinion.
The pain in her eyes carves like daggers. I've never seen somebody turn raw grief into an assault weapon like that before. It's harrowing. It takes an unbelievable amount of strength to be that naked.
@@JayG-v4l They're lyrics from Miss World, another great song by Hole! There's a live performance of it from this exact concert (from The Metro, Chicago) that the whole band sounds fantastic on!
I listened to this while at Uni in the states, something about her anger and aggression, it would drag me down, I would feel dark and moody, had not heard it now for some years... listening now , there is no enjoyment, perhaps more understanding! She is hurting and angry... someone take that pain away... just maybe someone out there will give her that answer to explain... many songs of this time , not just hers, consider Alice n Chains were self demeaning, a public demonstration if you will, of angst and raw emotion punctuated with pain and suffering!
man she could sing back then. it takes a hell of a voice to continue singing after screaming like that. she cant sing now...theres just no energy now, shes off key
They’re both grunge lol. Her and the lead singer for Nirvana were married, which may contribute to the musical similarities since they were together when this album (and in utero I believe) were being written. It’s not hard to believe they influenced eachother a lot:3 this performance is unfortunately a couple months after Kurt passed.
I saw Hole live around this time in Seattle. It was an intense show, very raw. Drew Barrymore came out on stage and waved hello, she was dating Eric Erlandson at that time. At one point, the crowd lit up their lighters and Courtney started to cry saying “this is the first time I’ve had lighters at a show” it was a great time, i was 21.
lucky
Wish I was alive during this time
Tell us more. Drew Barrymore took drugs when she was young. I hope she is well. She is a good Actress.
Que buena época para haberlo vivido, te envidio sanamente
I'm jealous
Here I am back again... About 6 months ago, my bf passed away in an accident, this live performance brought me sm comfort, I remember listening to this everytime I felt like I missed him and his touch, and rn its somehow bittersweet to think about it.
I still love you Carl ❤
Sorry for your loss dear. Hope u are doing okay.
Sending love and condolences ❤
I want him. He’s all gone.
I want my baby.
Where is my baby?
You took my baby.
nice pfp
@@landofthelividdead AHH TY LYNZ PFPS🤭🤭
@@7starcigslover YESSSS ❤️🖤❤️
In my opinion, "God, i hate you" is the most hurtful line in this whole performance. You can hear the love-hate mixed emotions come out so strongly in this, along with her facial expressions. She does not hate him, she hates what he did to himself and her. Courtney, i hope that you've found the peace you deserve after all of these years.
i always heard it as « god i hate you » simply hating god for taking away kurt
@@ember5914 'God' didn't take Kurt away; Kurt took himself away. It's awful, but that's the truth of it. As we se her here, Courtney is a raw, walking wound. That "FUCK...YOU!" is about as primal as it gets.
I understand her as i had a conflictive relationship but im grieving and i happen to say the same things
She sings this with some much pain
the pain in her voice 💔
So powerful. This was only six months after Kurt killed himself.
Wtf did you just say
@@factorybear5264 That this was six months after Kurt killed himself and that is was powerful💀
Courtney probably used all those raw emotions and put them into this live song ❤❤❤
Calm down we are entitled to our own opinion,I think she suspected something might happen to Kurt but she was left out on the details,she talks to much,
Rip kurt
“i want HIM. HE’S all gone.”
man.
can’t believe people think she killed kurt
Just shows how much people believe in stereotypes.
@@kaskaperi9665 Exactly. They only think this way because Courtney was as mentally distressed and abusive as one was to the other, they went back and forth all of the time. But one thing for sure is, most of the fighting happened due to them both being heavily hooked on various drugs, heroin being their favorite to do together but it was creating a problem for both their relationship and careers. She does not deserve to be labelled as a murderer, or anything at all for that matter. Just a girl who was struggling with living life and the tragic moments that came with it.
She Loved him so much still she was one of the reasons He k himself
@@Craigtucker607no she was not he had a bunch of other issues that contributed to his death
@@hiraimomo3681but she was also a factor, their relationship was toxic and abusive. not to mention towards the end of his life he thought courtney was cheating (which she said she wasn’t) and kurt was attached to her and it broke him
this performance never fails to make me cry
bro i would give Courtney, Frances Bean, and Kurt the world tbh.
The drugs fuked it up. I think they would have been a good family. She was the tough one. He was the soft one. Miss you Kurt 😢
And yet people thought that she killed him, she never wanted anything more than to have Kurt Cobain back. Her family was never complete without him, she loved him.
Yes and she keeps Kurt clothes 20 years after he's gone
the pain in her face and voice.😕 1:00 “I want HIM.HES ALL GONE.” Explains everything.☹️
Literally everything
I was watching this in class, and when she said "I want him, he's all gone", my jaw literally dropped and I teared up, and my classmate asked what's wrong. Damn this hit me hard. She was prolly at her lowest at the time, it just hurts to watch her like that. I hope she's doing better.
pay attention in class. learn something.
@@gallowspole I do pay attention when it's needed. My overall average is 99 so yeah. But thanks for your concern ig
@@gallowspoleshut up
@@akkiia I don't shut up, I grow up, and when I see you, I throw up.
@@gallowspole did not eat
Lost a friend nearly 2 months ago to suicide. I dedicate this song to her!
Miss you, Audree. Hope you’re doing better in Heaven 💗
TH-cam showed me a contact to a nearby psych ward after I typed the song's name in the searchbar
same
Same
Valid
TH-cam is a dick!
Right 🥲
My idol...my twin.... Such a sad yet beautiful performance.
this version gives me goosebumps every time
that song HURTS
the raw emotion and pain in her voice omg
Pure angst
courtney they could never make me hate you after hole live at the metro in chicago on october 21st 1994
She’s been through so much. I was 15 at this time and this song still gives me goosebumps..
been pouring my feelings out to this song recently... i hate the world that surrounds me i'm so tired
❤
i always get that warning when i search for this vid lolol
Real
same lol
same
I can't stop watching this even if it hurts so much
You can almost feel a bit of her void and grief
i want my baby💔
every time I hear this song I cry
мне плохо от этого выступления. это единственная песня, которая заставляет меня плакать независимо от настроения и ситуации. мне жаль кортни
Why do you feel bad ?
Привет, русский комментатор! Песни и выступления Кортни очень эмоциональные и искренние. Здесь, от её слов: "I want him! He's all gone!" мне тоже стало не по себе, по-человечески её жаль. Я поверить не могу, что люди замешивают её в смерти Курта, якобы она убила его или хитро подстроила убийство.
this specific performance of this song comforts me so much its unexplainable
this song hits hard as a 14 year old imagine how harder itll hit me in 20 years
Dw I'll remind you
We'll remind you boss
I don't think she realizes how many lives she's literally saved. Mine included. Love you Clove, and the entire band.
Nunca me harán odiarte Courtney
Y la gente minimiza su sufrimiento y aparte de eso dicen que ella mató a Kurt, su esposo, su vida entera. :(
I feel Courtney's pain, I feel her power, I feel her Strength and weakness. I love this woman.
This is actually hard to watch....You feel EVERYTHING going on with her...whoever thinks Courtney "killed" Kurt-1-is an idiot, and 2-after watching this-should think different.
Pure grunge powered angst
the most heartbreaking perfomance, definitely
you js can see easily the pain and sadness on her eyes and voice, after kurt left us. and the way she changed the lyrics. i actually feel so bad for courtney
Anyone who thinks she killed him should watch this performance
bloody love Courtney
I want him, hes all gone. A powerful line.
she's my queen. 💘
“I want HIM. He’s all gone”
Wow. I'm so confused and so blown away and the most wonderful way possible
still can't see why people think she killed kurt... the pain in this performance is chilling
Those in pain we are here
you can literally hear the pain in her voice
this video kills me inside everytime, upsetting but i relate unfortunately
i love her so much
trying to find the song but there was “u are not alone”😹
Me too! And suicide prevention advice!
The live performance ever
Hole's Only Wilder Years 🥺💜
I want him he's all gone we all felt that
stop calling her she's killed kurt, she didn't and never killed anyone..
Queen ❤😢
Ouvindo o álbum em 2024!❤
I don't give a flying fu*k, I've always ❤. Courtney, and i still think it's total BS that way too many think she had him killed. I mean, Kurt was never shy about being suicidal, since his teens. And that, coupled with the whole fame that was too much for him, and his heroin addiction, how is it even questionable? Anyone who actually listened to Hole before and after the Live Through This album, (which is a fu*king AMAZING ALBUM), would know that Courtney penned those lyrics. And her behavior the following year after his suicide is very telling of her real pain and grief she was experiencing. She's one of my main female idols. I'm 💯 gen X, and the first time I heard Smells like teen spirit catapulted me into the grunge sound. And Nirvana and Hole were part of the main bands that I have and still do love!!
Kurt is in Heaven watching over his family. I wish Courtney would help drug addicts get into Rehabs. Dont let them out too soon. Kurt climbed over the fence of the Rehab Centre to leave. Fffkkkkkit 😢
Addicts in rehab can leave anytime they'd like unless court-ordered. Kurt could have walked out the front door, if he'd chose to. Addiction is an awful thing that digs it's claws into and destroys everything you care about, but if a person hits that wall and really wants to get better, they will. Or at least really fight and try. It typically takes multiple trips to rehab and it's beyond miserable but is definitely possible. I've been off of drugs for 18 years now and I tried many times before succeeding. After the novelty of quitting wears off is when it really gets hard. Most people don't communicate that enough, in my opinion.
"courtney killed kurt" explain this.
Ever met a master manipulator before? Someone who always plays the victim? I like hole though
@@Daniel_Martin98or maybe he killed himself because his life was terrible and he had mental health issues for decades
@@NEZXWE that’s a possibility. I’m just saying Courtney does look completely innocent
@@Daniel_Martin98 yah i think she’s innocent
@@NEZXWE everyone’s entitled to their own opinion
This is so cathartic
Amazing
I want HIM… HES ALL GONE!
The pain in her eyes carves like daggers. I've never seen somebody turn raw grief into an assault weapon like that before. It's harrowing. It takes an unbelievable amount of strength to be that naked.
the best hole song
i want HIM. he’s all GONE.
anyone who thinks she didn't love kurt hasn't seen this performance
they could never make me hate you courtney
fr im not a defender of her but she deserved to be treated like a complicated human being like so many other male rockstars who did so much worse
This is good eerie
❤❤❤hole
“Courtney killed Kurt!!” And then this is courtney
I need some kill me pilllllss
Are you ok
Oh were they lyrics from the song ?
@@JayG-v4l They're lyrics from Miss World, another great song by Hole! There's a live performance of it from this exact concert (from The Metro, Chicago) that the whole band sounds fantastic on!
Love Courtney ❤❤❤
More videos please!❤
te amo courtney
where is my baby....
I listened to this while at Uni in the states, something about her anger and aggression, it would drag me down, I would feel dark and moody, had not heard it now for some years... listening now , there is no enjoyment, perhaps more understanding! She is hurting and angry... someone take that pain away... just maybe someone out there will give her that answer to explain... many songs of this time , not just hers, consider Alice n Chains were self demeaning, a public demonstration if you will, of angst and raw emotion punctuated with pain and suffering!
I love you Courtney love.
He's all gone :(
even though courtney is a horrible person she didn’t deserve to go through this at all. the same thing applies to kurt and frances ofc
poor courtney 💔
THERE IS NO MILK!!!!!!
Guess we’d have to milk it.
my roman empire
thsi is so sad but also disturbing because she was probably off her head, in the documentary cobain they were constantly on dr#gs it’s so sad
❤
There’s still people that think she killed him
nunca vao me fazer odiar a courtney
i want HIM.he's all GONE.
nós garotas meio Courtney Love
💔
"courtney killed kurt" expain this then.
2:24 literally me
who are you
Edit: okay for context i dont remember subscribing to this channel
who are YOU
Are you serious?
😂😂🤦🏻♀️🤦🏻♀️🤡🤡
Something I ask myself from time to time
Hole is more famous than you ever will be stfu 😭
man she could sing back then. it takes a hell of a voice to continue singing after screaming like that. she cant sing now...theres just no energy now, shes off key
🔥🔥🔥=P=🔥🔥🔥
nirvana - i hate myself and i want to die
Drove him and still sang about it damn
Here yall go
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She was always in control,she just does what she wants
…
i dont get it, there was a 2,5 year old daughter left alone by her father and she had nothing better to do than this? i like hole but i dont get it...
bro she’s a musician it was her job 😭😭
This sounds like nirvana
the girl singing it is actually Kurt cobains (lead singer of Nirvana) ex!
@@az-cl3nf Technically not ex, she's his widow
This was kurts wife 6 months after he died
They’re both grunge lol. Her and the lead singer for Nirvana were married, which may contribute to the musical similarities since they were together when this album (and in utero I believe) were being written. It’s not hard to believe they influenced eachother a lot:3 this performance is unfortunately a couple months after Kurt passed.
She is a train wreck,she needed time off,still angry
How else is she supposed to express her grief? Through music is the healthiest way
@kittypixie99 the music is fine but the drugs she kept taking wasn't helping at all
@@BoSpringsteen addiction is a disease
Don’t think I’d be sober after tragedy of Kurt’s death