Absolutely do a video on dealing with guilt, my family can’t seem to understand that my SH is a symptom of an illness and not the illness itself, they only react with anger which only makes my guilt worse. Thanks for the video gorgeous girl 💖❤️
I'm in the middle right now. I just wrote the following in my journal: "I'm doing better. My scars are fading, but i can still see them." This applys to both physical and mental, my scars are fading, but they're still here. And i really hope i'm not going back to the place where i was a few weeks ago.
I miss my lowest time, and wish i was there again. I thought I was weird for even thinking it and never said anything about it to anyone. Thankyou so much for talking about it and 'normalising' it Big hugs about you're cpn 💖💖💖
whenever folks ask about mine i try to remind them that there are so many ways to self harm and reasons why people need that sensation. often times those same ppl who asked are those who have also engaged in destructive behaviours that are socially permissible in party culture (esp around reckless spending/drinking/drugs/sex with ppl u know will hurt u etc) but didn't realize they were doing it for the same reasons some of us mutilate our skin. some of these coping tactics leave scars on the outside, some on the inside. i'm gonna be 25 in like 3 days and i finally had this convo with my mum last week, it's never not gonna be awkward when you're talking about hating and hurting yourself with people that love you unconditionally, but every step towards cultivating the understanding of others is a step towards my own acceptance. SO MUCH LOVE AND GRATITUDE FOR U BEAUTIFUL PRINCESS I HOPE U KNOW HOW MUCH YOU AND YOUR TRUTH MEANS TO US xoxoxoxoxoxo
I know this video came out a year ago, however I just wanted to say, thank you so much. Tonight I came out to my mum about my scars, you made me believe that my feelings are valid and I shouldn’t be ashamed of my scars. I am forever grateful for you x7
Definitely a video with shame and guilt- I am against telling my parents because of these feelings yet I know I should do help with these would be great.
the attachment and splitting thing really hits home for me!! when I was poorly I would attach myself to people so intense to the point where I could not stop thinking about them and their every move, action, literal breath I would evaluate and it would completely impact my mood I remember not getting a reply to someone I was attached to and becoming suicidal then next minute hating him and not wanting to know them! it's truly horrible! I became so attached to my nurse when I was inpatient, Its taken me 2 years to detach from that relationship! also, about romanticising the past and your lowest points. I hate how the brain does that!! xx
i have a question no pressure to answer but when you get attachments to certain people is it in a platonic friendship sort of way or more of a in love and infatuation of love sort of way?? xx
eves4263 for me I didn’t have a good relationship with my family and got attached to anyone that showed me any form of love and care. It was always in a kind of parent way for me, like attaching myself to anyone that showed any form of motherly attention. But then over analysing every single thing they did xx
Becky Devine thankyou for sharing! my boyfriends sister has borderline so just trying to understand as much as i can so i can show my support xx hope you’re doing well!
I'm about to tell my parents next week about my cutting which I'm doing for over 3 years so all I can say is thank u for this perfectly timed video and I'm sure it will help me to tell them. Love u 🖤
when you were talking about splitting, you literally summed up how i feel. I have only been recently diagnosed with BPD, but i've been splitting for a long time. I tend to show signs to people that I hate or love them, such as body language or talking behind people's back, but i feel so much guilt, and its really hard to handle.
I was very surprised to hear that the romanticising of the low points and the 'missing' feeling poorly isn't just me! It's comforting to hear that others feel the same way. Thank you for another encouraging video ❤️
I find that I have to teach people how to best communicate with me- like parents, siblings, co-workers, etc. in order for me to be able to listen to them without getting hurt, defensive, ashamed, etc. Always better to bring things up ahead of time and not in an emotional state if possible. I have a colleague who had a terrible death in her family she was struggling to cope with. And so she made a sign for her door that had a red circle on one side and a green circle on the other she hung on the doorknob. Red were for the tough days- giving her a way to tell us she wasn’t feeling great without having to “talk” about it.
Hi Marie, I have a question too... How do you know when it's time to get help? I mean how 'low' do you need to get before you're 'bad enough' to deserve help? I struggle with this a lot, thinking i need to physically hurt myself before i can ask for help :(
I admire your bravery and courage to talk about this type of stuff because its hard i know its hard i get questions a lot about my self harm and i dont know how to answer them sometimes. And a lot of people take one glance at me and walk away because im only a 13 year old and i self harm. This video really really helped i love you soo much your soo strong 💕
I have so much love for you Marie❤️ I’ve been trying to become more comfortable with all of my scars especially as summer grows near so your videos are always super encouraging. Love you xxx
i think listening to people is a really good point! if someone notices a change in you, you really need to take time to reflect and think about it objectively, it could rly be beneficial :)x
thank you marie, I never understood why I feel like I want to go back to a bad space. good to know I'm not the only one! also can you pls do a video on anger? I've been struggling with that a lot lately, like I lash out often and I've never been good with dealing with that emotion due to ppl in my past and experiences with them. I kinda scare myself sometimes. but lately the only emotion I've been feeling is anger and it doesn't take much for me to lose it and go off on someone/thing. love you marie xx
I just want to say thank you for making this! This kind of video always helps me out! I often learn that things that I do and feel aren't exclusive to me, and that they're just part of living with mental illness rather than me being a freak/bad person. For example, this video taught me that I'm not the only one that kind of romanticises the times where I was at my lowest, and sometimes miss the feelings (or lack of) that I experienced then. That always made me feel like I was one of those people that 'wants' to be mentally ill, and thus led to more guilt and self loathing for being such a 'shitty' person. There's also the splitting thing, I used to split so hard on one of my old friends, but I wasn't very good at hiding it then, so the friendship ended up getting toxic on my part, and we eventually went our separate ways. While I absolutely adored her (she was one of the people I was VERY attached to), I think severing the relationship was the best thing for both of us. But now I'm stuck with the intense guilt from causing someone so lovely so much hurt, and I wish with every fibre of my being that I could go back and change it all, but obviously I can't :(
You are stunningly beautiful, Marie. Sending love and best wishes from Sheffield. Your videos are so helpful and informative. Thank you, from someone who's been through and still going through serious mental health issues. I have no help, due to funding cuts, despite being diagnosed with serious mental health diagnoses. You have such a brilliant attitude and outlook. You're amazing. xx I watch Pip's channel too, and you both do a fantastic job educating people through TH-cam. ❤ I understand exactly how you feel about losing your CPN. It's SO difficult. I had a male CPN and can't let go of him in my head because he really made me feel calm and as if someone cared. Now I've just been dumped by services altogether. I hope you will still receive support from a new worker.
I know it’s only short but this is one of my favourite videos of yours that I have watched. I’ve never heard of anyone speak about the way your brain can romanticise the low points before and it’s so true. Thank you for speaking about your experiences in a way that helps others (myself included). Sending you love. Xx Also a video on guilt would be great 🙂
I’m scared when I meet people when I’m older etc and if I start building a relationship with them, I’ll have explain all this and I don’t know how they could react.. last week I skipped most of school days and avoided going especially the day I had PE (I’ve always never like that subject but what I’m dealing with now is making it a thousand times worse) because I had a fresh large cut.. which is extremely visible and I FREAKIN can’t deal with stupid people judging me anymore
I think this is one of my favourite videos you’ve done, you covered a lot that will help such a range of people just by making them feel less alone, rather than acting like a psychiatrist 😂❤️❤️
I write down every remember in the intros of the videos ive watch to keep reminding myself of what I need to be grateful for and what I need to consider especially on my bad days xx thank you marie
Thank you so so much for this video Marie. Absolutely brilliant and so helpful. You're so good at explaining thing's as a lot of stuff you said in this video I can relate too. I've been single for 3 year's because I'm terrified and so embarrassed and ashamed of being with a woman because, when for example I've got talking to someone and I mention my mental health it imedialty puts them off me. I really struggle getting passed that and then I've self harm scars. I'm totally stuck and have no idea what to do....I'm not in a rush though. I'm in recovery for depression, anxiety and PTSD. You're looking well and I hope you're ok. I dont know if you will ever see this but you're a real inspiration to me.
Yes I do agree that shame and all that should be in a video because I go through some of the same things that you’ve gone through self harm self hatred everything like that I’m likely relapse and luckily have not relapsed lately but it is a struggle every day and punishing yourself is the biggest thing that I do
I just want to thank you for making these videos. They’ve helped me a lot! I’m not better yet but you made me realize i can get through this. I wish you a happy future!😁
I’m inspired by you girl x your actually incredible ❤️ thank you for this video, it’s what I really needed. Love you so much and I’m so proud of you for how far you’ve come 😍x keep going 😊
Yes please Marie sweetie please do a vid about coping with guilt I feel for me at least that it really will help and Marie I 💜u u r the sweetest and funniest girl ever xxx
Yes please do a video on guilt/shame Marie. It's the one emotion I still struggle to deal with to this day and I've been in recovery for 10 years. Love you so much beautiful, wise young lady xxxxxxx
I'm supposed to be going to a hot tub party tomorrow but I'm really worried about showing my self harm as there's people going I don't know and they'll be drinking 😔
I’m going on holiday soon with my family and it’s going to be hot so I have no choice but to show my scars, I know my mum’s going to see them and she think’s I’ve been clean since 2014. I’m truly terrified.
Just be honest, explain to her and tell her that you’ve been struggling with your mental health and self harming, I don’t know your situation but I feel like that’s the best way to go about it, that way she’s not caught off guard and she has time to process and help you through it 💞 you can message me if you need xx
Godddddd my Brian is weird , I was watching lots of your videos and also I watched mama Mia yesterday, and today I had a dream about mama Mia that was in a chuky cheese and you were in the mama Mia group 😂😂 I love in the U.K. ! I don’t even know what a chuky cheese is !!!! 😂😂😂
"dont jump out of the comfort zone, expand it" *holy shit*
I think a video on dealing with guilt and shame would be really good!
Absolutely do a video on dealing with guilt, my family can’t seem to understand that my SH is a symptom of an illness and not the illness itself, they only react with anger which only makes my guilt worse. Thanks for the video gorgeous girl 💖❤️
Becky F !!!!!!!!
That is the exact same for me!
I'm in the middle right now.
I just wrote the following in my journal:
"I'm doing better. My scars are fading, but i can still see them."
This applys to both physical and mental, my scars are fading, but they're still here. And i really hope i'm not going back to the place where i was a few weeks ago.
Wow this
I miss my lowest time, and wish i was there again. I thought I was weird for even thinking it and never said anything about it to anyone. Thankyou so much for talking about it and 'normalising' it
Big hugs about you're cpn 💖💖💖
I love mental health Mondays ☺️💕
Amber King 💗 SO DO I
whenever folks ask about mine i try to remind them that there are so many ways to self harm and reasons why people need that sensation. often times those same ppl who asked are those who have also engaged in destructive behaviours that are socially permissible in party culture (esp around reckless spending/drinking/drugs/sex with ppl u know will hurt u etc) but didn't realize they were doing it for the same reasons some of us mutilate our skin. some of these coping tactics leave scars on the outside, some on the inside. i'm gonna be 25 in like 3 days and i finally had this convo with my mum last week, it's never not gonna be awkward when you're talking about hating and hurting yourself with people that love you unconditionally, but every step towards cultivating the understanding of others is a step towards my own acceptance. SO MUCH LOVE AND GRATITUDE FOR U BEAUTIFUL PRINCESS I HOPE U KNOW HOW MUCH YOU AND YOUR TRUTH MEANS TO US xoxoxoxoxoxo
I know this video came out a year ago, however I just wanted to say, thank you so much. Tonight I came out to my mum about my scars, you made me believe that my feelings are valid and I shouldn’t be ashamed of my scars. I am forever grateful for you x7
Definitely a video with shame and guilt- I am against telling my parents because of these feelings yet I know I should do help with these would be great.
the attachment and splitting thing really hits home for me!! when I was poorly I would attach myself to people so intense to the point where I could not stop thinking about them and their every move, action, literal breath I would evaluate and it would completely impact my mood I remember not getting a reply to someone I was attached to and becoming suicidal then next minute hating him and not wanting to know them! it's truly horrible! I became so attached to my nurse when I was inpatient, Its taken me 2 years to detach from that relationship!
also, about romanticising the past and your lowest points. I hate how the brain does that!! xx
i have a question no pressure to answer but when you get attachments to certain people is it in a platonic friendship sort of way or more of a in love and infatuation of love sort of way?? xx
eves4263 for me I didn’t have a good relationship with my family and got attached to anyone that showed me any form of love and care. It was always in a kind of parent way for me, like attaching myself to anyone that showed any form of motherly attention. But then over analysing every single thing they did xx
Becky Devine thankyou for sharing! my boyfriends sister has borderline so just trying to understand as much as i can so i can show my support xx hope you’re doing well!
I'm about to tell my parents next week about my cutting which I'm doing for over 3 years so all I can say is thank u for this perfectly timed video and I'm sure it will help me to tell them. Love u 🖤
Moira Bostic hope it goes well x
im sending SO MUCH love and strength. Please let me know how it goes, love you xx
@@rosiekeen3473 thank u :)
@@marieroseeee Thank you so much ily :))
How’d it go (if you told them)?
Please do a video on coping with relapse
when you were talking about splitting, you literally summed up how i feel. I have only been recently diagnosed with BPD, but i've been splitting for a long time. I tend to show signs to people that I hate or love them, such as body language or talking behind people's back, but i feel so much guilt, and its really hard to handle.
I was very surprised to hear that the romanticising of the low points and the 'missing' feeling poorly isn't just me! It's comforting to hear that others feel the same way. Thank you for another encouraging video ❤️
Really looking forward to the video with your boyfriend about mental health in relationships.. I really need advice on it! ❤️ love uuuuuu xxx
Same hereeee
I find that I have to teach people how to best communicate with me- like parents, siblings, co-workers, etc. in order for me to be able to listen to them without getting hurt, defensive, ashamed, etc. Always better to bring things up ahead of time and not in an emotional state if possible. I have a colleague who had a terrible death in her family she was struggling to cope with. And so she made a sign for her door that had a red circle on one side and a green circle on the other she hung on the doorknob. Red were for the tough days- giving her a way to tell us she wasn’t feeling great without having to “talk” about it.
You have such a lovely way with words. Honestly I wish more people who are struggling could see your videos 💓
Hi Marie, I have a question too... How do you know when it's time to get help? I mean how 'low' do you need to get before you're 'bad enough' to deserve help? I struggle with this a lot, thinking i need to physically hurt myself before i can ask for help :(
I admire your bravery and courage to talk about this type of stuff because its hard i know its hard i get questions a lot about my self harm and i dont know how to answer them sometimes. And a lot of people take one glance at me and walk away because im only a 13 year old and i self harm. This video really really helped i love you soo much your soo strong 💕
I have so much love for you Marie❤️ I’ve been trying to become more comfortable with all of my scars especially as summer grows near so your videos are always super encouraging. Love you xxx
Joelle Weiss oh I’m so bloody happy about this. I love you - sending all my strength - you got this bubba xxxxx
I would love a video on splitting how to deal with guilt!! I really struggle with these so it would be so helpful xx
lowkey hella confused on how you look so fresh in the morning xx
Hahahah being up since 5 means I had a lot of time ;)
i think listening to people is a really good point! if someone notices a change in you, you really need to take time to reflect and think about it objectively, it could rly be beneficial :)x
TH-cam referred me to this channel randomly and I must say all your content is amazing
Omg I struggle with splitting as well but I didn't even know it was a thing until this video!
thank you marie, I never understood why I feel like I want to go back to a bad space. good to know I'm not the only one! also can you pls do a video on anger? I've been struggling with that a lot lately, like I lash out often and I've never been good with dealing with that emotion due to ppl in my past and experiences with them. I kinda scare myself sometimes. but lately the only emotion I've been feeling is anger and it doesn't take much for me to lose it and go off on someone/thing. love you marie xx
marie you are honestly the best. your so strong and i love you so much. 😍 xx
omg i love you
I just want to say thank you for making this! This kind of video always helps me out! I often learn that things that I do and feel aren't exclusive to me, and that they're just part of living with mental illness rather than me being a freak/bad person.
For example, this video taught me that I'm not the only one that kind of romanticises the times where I was at my lowest, and sometimes miss the feelings (or lack of) that I experienced then. That always made me feel like I was one of those people that 'wants' to be mentally ill, and thus led to more guilt and self loathing for being such a 'shitty' person.
There's also the splitting thing, I used to split so hard on one of my old friends, but I wasn't very good at hiding it then, so the friendship ended up getting toxic on my part, and we eventually went our separate ways. While I absolutely adored her (she was one of the people I was VERY attached to), I think severing the relationship was the best thing for both of us. But now I'm stuck with the intense guilt from causing someone so lovely so much hurt, and I wish with every fibre of my being that I could go back and change it all, but obviously I can't :(
Døbby!The PhanElf u should try talk to her again bc she probs misses u too x
Yes how to cope with guilt or feeling like a bother to the ppl around you
You are stunningly beautiful, Marie. Sending love and best wishes from Sheffield. Your videos are so helpful and informative. Thank you, from someone who's been through and still going through serious mental health issues. I have no help, due to funding cuts, despite being diagnosed with serious mental health diagnoses.
You have such a brilliant attitude and outlook. You're amazing. xx
I watch Pip's channel too, and you both do a fantastic job educating people through TH-cam. ❤
I understand exactly how you feel about losing your CPN. It's SO difficult. I had a male CPN and can't let go of him in my head because he really made me feel calm and as if someone cared. Now I've just been dumped by services altogether. I hope you will still receive support from a new worker.
I know it’s only short but this is one of my favourite videos of yours that I have watched. I’ve never heard of anyone speak about the way your brain can romanticise the low points before and it’s so true. Thank you for speaking about your experiences in a way that helps others (myself included). Sending you love. Xx
Also a video on guilt would be great 🙂
I’m scared when I meet people when I’m older etc and if I start building a relationship with them, I’ll have explain all this and I don’t know how they could react.. last week I skipped most of school days and avoided going especially the day I had PE (I’ve always never like that subject but what I’m dealing with now is making it a thousand times worse) because I had a fresh large cut.. which is extremely visible and I FREAKIN can’t deal with stupid people judging me anymore
100000% a video on guilt and shame... would help alot
I feel you on romanticising the bad times x
You look so gorgeous in this omg
I think this is one of my favourite videos you’ve done, you covered a lot that will help such a range of people just by making them feel less alone, rather than acting like a psychiatrist 😂❤️❤️
A video on anger please!!
Can you please do a detailed video on DBT? I guess that also includes the guilt/shame video
yes! i will put it on my list xxx
Great as always, Marie. Thanks❤️
Also looking forward to the video with Dylan, it should be really interesting
I write down every remember in the intros of the videos ive watch to keep reminding myself of what I need to be grateful for and what I need to consider especially on my bad days xx thank you marie
love you loads and so proud of how far you have come Xxx
Thank you so so much for this video Marie. Absolutely brilliant and so helpful. You're so good at explaining thing's as a lot of stuff you said in this video I can relate too. I've been single for 3 year's because I'm terrified and so embarrassed and ashamed of being with a woman because, when for example I've got talking to someone and I mention my mental health it imedialty puts them off me. I really struggle getting passed that and then I've self harm scars. I'm totally stuck and have no idea what to do....I'm not in a rush though. I'm in recovery for depression, anxiety and PTSD. You're looking well and I hope you're ok. I dont know if you will ever see this but you're a real inspiration to me.
I relate so much to you and understand you very good.
your videos always make me learn so much about myself and it’s a massive relief, thank you for your videos!💛
Go girl!! You got it on Monday!!
Yes I do agree that shame and all that should be in a video because I go through some of the same things that you’ve gone through self harm self hatred everything like that I’m likely relapse and luckily have not relapsed lately but it is a struggle every day and punishing yourself is the biggest thing that I do
For me grief & guilt are the hardest emotions. And would love a video on guilt x
You did it, you got it up on Monday 😂😁
youve been looking quite thin lately. hope your ok love xx
I just want to thank you for making these videos. They’ve helped me a lot! I’m not better yet but you made me realize i can get through this. I wish you a happy future!😁
I LOVE YOU, YOU QUEEN👑👑
Your so sweet and honest 😍xxx
Awh Thankyou !!! Xxx
@@marieroseeee more than welcome I hope you have had a good day sweetie xx
Ur so brave
I’m inspired by you girl x your actually incredible ❤️ thank you for this video, it’s what I really needed. Love you so much and I’m so proud of you for how far you’ve come 😍x keep going 😊
Great vid this will help me so much when I tell my parents. ❤️❤️❤️ luv Ya so much
Hope your doing well with your recovery Marie and sending Best Wishes
Hi Marie I love to so much you helped me through love you keep bieng amazing
sending all my love darling xxxx
Watching this instead of revising 😂😂❤️❤️
Hi Marie, I love the quotes that you have at the start of your videos and I was wondering where you find them. Love you xx
Pinterest or just random ones from Instagram xxxxx
marieroseeee thankyou xxx
Yes please Marie sweetie please do a vid about coping with guilt I feel for me at least that it really will help and Marie I 💜u u r the sweetest and funniest girl ever xxx
Coming up bubs ;) xxx
@@marieroseeee thanks I look forward to the vid just listening to your experiences helps and motivates me xx
I want to see guilt and shame covered x I get feelings of guilt so often xxx
Looking beautiful and glowing❤️
Yes please do a video on guilt/shame Marie. It's the one emotion I still struggle to deal with to this day and I've been in recovery for 10 years. Love you so much beautiful, wise young lady xxxxxxx
Also splitting is something I really struggle with too xxxxxxxx
I absolutely love you, I’m so so proud of you x
Love u xxx
Forever proud of you my love xx
Love you Marie, thank you for all your help xxx
❤️❤️❤️ thank you so much for this video Marie!!! Hope you are having a good holiday :) ❤️
love you so much marie 💞 thank you for being you x
our song keeps playing from my happy playlist❤️
Please do a vid on guilt and shame
adore you, sending all my love from western australia 🥰
im from wa too! xx
This is just what I needed, thank you love❤️
Thank you so much for doing this video. You’re so strong. I love you so much xx
really needed this vid❤️❤️❤️❤️
I'm supposed to be going to a hot tub party tomorrow but I'm really worried about showing my self harm as there's people going I don't know and they'll be drinking 😔
Kerry Robinson its ok ur gonna have an amazing time dont worry bout what they think xx
Kerry Robinson fake it till you make it!! You can do this - people care about you and not your body. don’t let it take over you ❤️
Thank you so much ❤
It helped me so much. Love u🌸
Loving u ❤️
please do a video on guilt, it'd be so helpful!!
This video is so helpful! Thank you for making great content❤
great video as always!
Thank you, this really helped me❤️
Marie, you should defiantly read the magic and do the gratitude practices. You will feel so much better 💜
Your amazing ❤️❤️
How did you get comfortable e posting scars on your social media before for people that didn’t know?
I’m sat here watching this with my love hearts✌🏼🥰
I’m going on holiday soon with my family and it’s going to be hot so I have no choice but to show my scars, I know my mum’s going to see them and she think’s I’ve been clean since 2014. I’m truly terrified.
Just be honest, explain to her and tell her that you’ve been struggling with your mental health and self harming, I don’t know your situation but I feel like that’s the best way to go about it, that way she’s not caught off guard and she has time to process and help you through it 💞 you can message me if you need xx
Lys Rose Thank you, I’ve got a few more days to think about what I’m going to say and get the courage to do it. 💕
You look xtra gorgeous in this vid ♡
Please do one on guilt
Thank you for a video chick!
A video on how your school helped with mental health? And if they were supportive? ✨
Godddddd my Brian is weird , I was watching lots of your videos and also I watched mama Mia yesterday, and today I had a dream about mama Mia that was in a chuky cheese and you were in the mama Mia group 😂😂 I love in the U.K. ! I don’t even know what a chuky cheese is !!!! 😂😂😂
Hello🌼 what self tan do you use?
Love from meee
I honestly don’t know how you look so good in the morning. At 7am I look like I’ve been hit by a car 😂
You said that you can turn around if you want to if you relaps but I don’t know what is making me relaps I don’t even know what I’m doing 😞
i love uuuuu
I have told my parents but they look at me like they know
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That's understandable being attached to your CPN because you've told her everything and now she's leaving so you have to start over with someone new.
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I just finished telling my dad for some reason I regret it.